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  Myinterferencewasquiteaslikelytodoharmasgood。Itwasverynaturalforyoutosay,whatrighthashetolectureme?——

  andIamafraidverynaturalforyoutofeelthatitwasdoneinadisagreeablemanner。IdonotbelieveIdidyouanygood。

  Thegoodwasalltomyself,bymakingyouanobjectofthetenderestaffectiontome。Icouldnotthinkaboutyousomuchwithoutdoatingonyou,faultsandall;andbydintoffancyingsomanyerrors,havebeeninlovewithyoueversinceyouwerethirteenatleast。”

  “Iamsureyouwereofusetome。”criedEmma。“Iwasveryofteninfluencedrightlybyyou——oftenerthanIwouldownatthetime。

  Iamverysureyoudidmegood。AndifpoorlittleAnnaWestonistobespoiled,itwillbethegreatesthumanityinyoutodoasmuchforherasyouhavedoneforme,exceptfallinginlovewithherwhensheisthirteen。”

  “Howoften,whenyouwereagirl,haveyousaidtome,withoneofyoursaucylooks——`Mr。Knightley,Iamgoingtodoso-and-so;

  papasaysImay,orIhaveMissTaylor’sleave’——somethingwhich,youknew,Ididnotapprove。Insuchcasesmyinterferencewasgivingyoutwobadfeelingsinsteadofone。”

  “WhatanamiablecreatureIwas!——Nowonderyoushouldholdmyspeechesinsuchaffectionateremembrance。”

  “`Mr。Knightley。’——Youalwayscalledme,`Mr。Knightley;’and,fromhabit,ithasnotsoveryformalasound——Andyetitisformal。

  Iwantyoutocallmesomethingelse,butIdonotknowwhat。”

  “Irememberoncecallingyou`George,’inoneofmyamiablefits,abouttenyearsago。IdiditbecauseIthoughtitwouldoffendyou;

  but,asyoumadenoobjection,Ineverdiditagain。”

  “Andcannotyoucallme`George’now?“

  “Impossible!——Inevercancallyouanythingbut`Mr。Knightley。’

  IwillnotpromiseeventoequaltheeleganttersenessofMrs。Elton,bycallingyouMr。K——ButIwillpromise。”sheaddedpresently,laughingandblushing——“IwillpromisetocallyouoncebyyourChristianname。Idonotsaywhen,butperhapsyoumayguesswhere;——inthebuildinginwhichN。takesM。forbetter,forworse。”

  Emmagrievedthatshecouldnotbemoreopenlyjusttooneimportantservicewhichhisbettersensewouldhaverenderedher,totheadvicewhichwouldhavesavedherfromtheworstofallherwomanlyfollies——herwilfulintimacywithHarrietSmith;

  butitwastootenderasubject——Shecouldnotenteronit——

  Harrietwasveryseldommentionedbetweenthem。This,onhisside,mightmerelyproceedfromhernotbeingthoughtof;butEmmawasratherinclinedtoattributeittodelicacy,andasuspicion,fromsomeappearances,thattheirfriendshipweredeclining。

  Shewasawareherself,that,partingunderanyothercircumstances,theycertainlyshouldhavecorrespondedmore,andthatherintelligencewouldnothaverested,asitnowalmostwhollydid,onIsabella’sletters。Hemightobservethatitwasso。

  Thepainofbeingobligedtopractiseconcealmenttowardshim,wasverylittleinferiortothepainofhavingmadeHarrietunhappy。

  Isabellasentquiteasgoodanaccountofhervisitorascouldbeexpected;onherfirstarrivalshehadthoughtheroutofspirits,whichappearedperfectlynatural,astherewasadentisttobeconsulted;but,sincethatbusinesshadbeenover,shedidnotappeartofindHarrietdifferentfromwhatshehadknownherbefore——

  Isabella,tobesure,wasnoveryquickobserver;yetifHarriethadnotbeenequaltoplayingwiththechildren,itwouldnothaveescapedher。Emma’scomfortsandhopesweremostagreeablycarriedon,byHarriet’sbeingtostaylonger;herfortnightwaslikelytobeamonthatleast。Mr。andMrs。JohnKnightleyweretocomedowninAugust,andshewasinvitedtoremaintilltheycouldbringherback。

  “Johndoesnotevenmentionyourfriend。”saidMr。Knightley。

  “Hereishisanswer,ifyouliketoseeit。”

  Itwastheanswertothecommunicationofhisintendedmarriage。

  Emmaaccepteditwithaveryeagerhand,withanimpatienceallalivetoknowwhathewouldsayaboutit,andnotatallcheckedbyhearingthatherfriendwasunmentioned。

  “Johnenterslikeabrotherintomyhappiness。”continuedMr。Knightley,“butheisnocomplimenter;andthoughIwellknowhimtohave,likewise,amostbrotherlyaffectionforyou,heissofarfrommakingflourishes,thatanyotheryoungwomanmightthinkhimrathercoolinherpraise。ButIamnotafraidofyourseeingwhathewrites。”

  “Hewriteslikeasensibleman。”repliedEmma,whenshehadreadtheletter。“Ihonourhissincerity。Itisveryplainthatheconsidersthegoodfortuneoftheengagementasallonmyside,butthatheisnotwithouthopeofmygrowing,intime,asworthyofyouraffection,asyouthinkmealready。Hadhesaidanythingtobearadifferentconstruction,Ishouldnothavebelievedhim。”

  “MyEmma,hemeansnosuchthing。Heonlymeans——“

  “HeandIshoulddifferverylittleinourestimationofthetwo。”

  interruptedshe,withasortofserioussmile——“muchless,perhaps,thanheisawareof,ifwecouldenterwithoutceremonyorreserveonthesubject。”

  “Emma,mydearEmma——“

  “Oh!“shecriedwithmorethoroughgaiety,“ifyoufancyyourbrotherdoesnotdomejustice,onlywaittillmydearfatherisinthesecret,andhearhisopinion。Dependuponit,hewillbemuchfartherfromdoingyoujustice。Hewillthinkallthehappiness,alltheadvantage,onyoursideofthequestion;allthemeritonmine。IwishImaynotsinkinto`poorEmma’withhimatonce——

  Histendercompassiontowardsoppressedworthcangonofarther。”

  “Ah!“hecried,“IwishyourfathermightbehalfaseasilyconvincedasJohnwillbe,ofourhavingeveryrightthatequalworthcangive,tobehappytogether。IamamusedbyonepartofJohn’sletter——

  didyounoticeit?——wherehesays,thatmyinformationdidnottakehimwhollybysurprize,thathewasratherinexpectationofhearingsomethingofthekind。”

  “IfIunderstandyourbrother,heonlymeanssofarasyourhavingsomethoughtsofmarrying。Hehadnoideaofme。Heseemsperfectlyunpreparedforthat。”

  “Yes,yes——butIamamusedthatheshouldhaveseensofarintomyfeelings。Whathashebeenjudgingby?——Iamnotconsciousofanydifferenceinmyspiritsorconversationthatcouldpreparehimatthistimeformymarryinganymorethanatanother——

  Butitwasso,Isuppose。IdaresaytherewasadifferencewhenI

  wasstayingwiththemtheotherday。IbelieveIdidnotplaywiththechildrenquitesomuchasusual。Irememberoneeveningthepoorboyssaying,`Uncleseemsalwaystirednow。’“

  Thetimewascomingwhenthenewsmustspreadfarther,andotherpersons’

  receptionofittried。AssoonasMrs。WestonwassufficientlyrecoveredtoadmitMr。Woodhouse’svisits,Emmahavingitinviewthathergentlereasoningsshouldbeemployedinthecause,resolvedfirsttoannounceitathome,andthenatRandalls——

  Buthowtobreakittoherfatheratlast!——Shehadboundherselftodoit,insuchanhourofMr。Knightley’sabsence,orwhenitcametothepointherheartwouldhavefailedher,andshemusthaveputitoff;butMr。Knightleywastocomeatsuchatime,andfollowupthebeginningshewastomake——Shewasforcedtospeak,andtospeakcheerfullytoo。Shemustnotmakeitamoredecidedsubjectofmiserytohim,byamelancholytoneherself。

  Shemustnotappeartothinkitamisfortune——Withallthespiritsshecouldcommand,shepreparedhimfirstforsomethingstrange,andthen,inafewwords,said,thatifhisconsentandapprobationcouldbeobtained——which,shetrusted,wouldbeattendedwithnodifficulty,sinceitwasaplantopromotethehappinessofall——

  sheandMr。Knightleymeanttomarry;bywhichmeansHartfieldwouldreceivetheconstantadditionofthatperson’scompanywhomsheknewheloved,nexttohisdaughtersandMrs。Weston,bestintheworld。

  Poorman!——itwasatfirstaconsiderableshocktohim,andhetriedearnestlytodissuadeherfromit。Shewasreminded,morethanonce,ofhavingalwayssaidshewouldnevermarry,andassuredthatitwouldbeagreatdealbetterforhertoremainsingle;andtoldofpoorIsabella,andpoorMissTaylor——Butitwouldnotdo。Emmahungabouthimaffectionately,andsmiled,andsaiditmustbeso;andthathemustnotclassherwithIsabellaandMrs。Weston,whosemarriagestakingthemfromHartfield,had,indeed,madeamelancholychange:

  butshewasnotgoingfromHartfield;sheshouldbealwaysthere;

  shewasintroducingnochangeintheirnumbersortheircomfortsbutforthebetter;andshewasverysurethathewouldbeagreatdealthehappierforhavingMr。Knightleyalwaysathand,whenhewereoncegotusedtotheidea——DidhenotloveMr。Knightleyverymuch?——

  Hewouldnotdenythathedid,shewassure——WhomdidheeverwanttoconsultonbusinessbutMr。Knightley?——Whowassousefultohim,whosoreadytowritehisletters,whosogladtoassisthim?——

  Whosocheerful,soattentive,soattachedtohim?——Wouldnotheliketohavehimalwaysonthespot?——Yes。Thatwasallverytrue。

  Mr。Knightleycouldnotbetheretoooften;heshouldbegladtoseehimeveryday;——buttheydidseehimeverydayasitwas——Whycouldnottheygoonastheyhaddone?

  Mr。Woodhousecouldnotbesoonreconciled;buttheworstwasovercome,theideawasgiven;timeandcontinualrepetitionmustdotherest——

  ToEmma’sentreatiesandassurancessucceededMr。Knightley’s,whosefondpraiseofhergavethesubjectevenakindofwelcome;

  andhewassoonusedtobetalkedtobyeach,oneveryfairoccasion——

  TheyhadalltheassistancewhichIsabellacouldgive,bylettersofthestrongestapprobation;andMrs。Westonwasready,onthefirstmeeting,toconsiderthesubjectinthemostserviceablelight——first,asasettled,and,secondly,asagoodone——

  wellawareofthenearlyequalimportanceofthetworecommendationstoMr。Woodhouse’smind——Itwasagreedupon,aswhatwastobe;

  andeverybodybywhomhewasusedtobeguidedassuringhimthatitwouldbeforhishappiness;andhavingsomefeelingshimselfwhichalmostadmittedit,hebegantothinkthatsometimeorother——

  inanotheryearortwo,perhaps——itmightnotbesoverybadifthemarriagedidtakeplace。

  Mrs。Westonwasactingnopart,feigningnofeelingsinallthatshesaidtohiminfavouroftheevent——Shehadbeenextremelysurprized,nevermoreso,thanwhenEmmafirstopenedtheaffairtoher;

  butshesawinitonlyincreaseofhappinesstoall,andhadnoscrupleinurginghimtotheutmost——ShehadsucharegardforMr。Knightley,astothinkhedeservedevenherdearestEmma;

  anditwasineveryrespectsoproper,suitable,andunexceptionableaconnexion,andinonerespect,onepointofthehighestimportance,sopeculiarlyeligible,sosingularlyfortunate,thatnowitseemedasifEmmacouldnotsafelyhaveattachedherselftoanyothercreature,andthatshehadherselfbeenthestupidestofbeingsinnothavingthoughtofit,andwisheditlongago——HowveryfewofthosemeninarankoflifetoaddressEmmawouldhaverenouncedtheirownhomeforHartfield!AndwhobutMr。KnightleycouldknowandbearwithMr。Woodhouse,soastomakesuchanarrangementdesirable!——

  ThedifficultyofdisposingofpoorMr。Woodhousehadbeenalwaysfeltinherhusband’splansandherown,foramarriagebetweenFrankandEmma。HowtosettletheclaimsofEnscombeandHartfieldhadbeenacontinualimpediment——lessacknowledgedbyMr。Westonthanbyherself——butevenhehadneverbeenabletofinishthesubjectbetterthanbysaying——“Thosematterswilltakecareofthemselves;

  theyoungpeoplewillfindaway。”Butheretherewasnothingtobeshiftedoffinawildspeculationonthefuture。Itwasallright,allopen,allequal。Nosacrificeonanysideworththename。

  Itwasaunionofthehighestpromiseoffelicityinitself,andwithoutonereal,rationaldifficultytoopposeordelayit。

  Mrs。Weston,withherbabyonherknee,indulginginsuchreflectionsasthese,wasoneofthehappiestwomenintheworld。Ifanythingcouldincreaseherdelight,itwasperceivingthatthebabywouldsoonhaveoutgrownitsfirstsetofcaps。

  Thenewswasuniversallyasurprizewhereveritspread;

  andMr。Westonhadhisfiveminutesshareofit;butfiveminuteswereenoughtofamiliarisetheideatohisquicknessofmind——

  Hesawtheadvantagesofthematch,andrejoicedinthemwithalltheconstancyofhiswife;butthewonderofitwasverysoonnothing;

  andbytheendofanhourhewasnotfarfrombelievingthathehadalwaysforeseenit。

  “Itistobeasecret,Iconclude。”saidhe。“Thesemattersarealwaysasecret,tillitisfoundoutthateverybodyknowsthem。

  OnlyletmebetoldwhenImayspeakout——IwonderwhetherJanehasanysuspicion。”

  HewenttoHighburythenextmorning,andsatisfiedhimselfonthatpoint。Hetoldherthenews。Wasnotshelikeadaughter,hiseldestdaughter?——hemusttellher;andMissBatesbeingpresent,itpassed,ofcourse,toMrs。Cole,Mrs。Perry,andMrs。Elton,immediatelyafterwards。Itwasnomorethantheprincipalswerepreparedfor;theyhadcalculatedfromthetimeofitsbeingknownatRandalls,howsoonitwouldbeoverHighbury;andwerethinkingofthemselves,astheeveningwonderinmanyafamilycircle,withgreatsagacity。

  Ingeneral,itwasaverywellapprovedmatch。Somemightthinkhim,andothersmightthinkher,themostinluck。OnesetmightrecommendtheirallremovingtoDonwell,andleavingHartfieldfortheJohnKnightleys;andanothermightpredictdisagreementsamongtheirservants;butyet,uponthewhole,therewasnoseriousobjectionraised,exceptinonehabitation,theVicarage——There,thesurprizewasnotsoftenedbyanysatisfaction。Mr。Eltoncaredlittleaboutit,comparedwithhiswife;heonlyhoped“theyounglady’spridewouldnowbecontented;“andsupposed“shehadalwaysmeanttocatchKnightleyifshecould;“and,onthepointoflivingatHartfield,coulddaringlyexclaim,“RatherhethanI!“——

  ButMrs。Eltonwasverymuchdiscomposedindeed——“PoorKnightley!

  poorfellow!——sadbusinessforhim——Shewasextremelyconcerned;

  for,thoughveryeccentric,hehadathousandgoodqualities——

  Howcouldhebesotakenin?——Didnotthinkhimatallinlove——

  notintheleast——PoorKnightley!——Therewouldbeanendofallpleasantintercoursewithhim——Howhappyhehadbeentocomeanddinewiththemwhenevertheyaskedhim!Butthatwouldbeallovernow——

  Poorfellow!——NomoreexploringpartiestoDonwellmadeforher。

  Oh!no;therewouldbeaMrs。Knightleytothrowcoldwateroneverything——Extremelydisagreeable!Butshewasnotatallsorrythatshehadabusedthehousekeepertheotherday——Shockingplan,livingtogether。Itwouldneverdo。SheknewafamilynearMapleGrovewhohadtriedit,andbeenobligedtoseparatebeforetheendofthefirstquarter。

  Chapter18CHAPTERXVIII

  Timepassedon。Afewmoreto-morrows,andthepartyfromLondonwouldbearriving。Itwasanalarmingchange;andEmmawasthinkingofitonemorning,aswhatmustbringagreatdealtoagitateandgrieveher,whenMr。Knightleycamein,anddistressingthoughtswereputby。Afterthefirstchatofpleasurehewassilent;

  andthen,inagravertone,beganwith,“Ihavesomethingtotellyou,Emma;somenews。”

  “Goodorbad?“saidshe,quickly,lookingupinhisface。

  “Idonotknowwhichitoughttobecalled。”

  “Oh!goodIamsure——Iseeitinyourcountenance。Youaretryingnottosmile。”

  “Iamafraid。”saidhe,composinghisfeatures,“Iamverymuchafraid,mydearEmma,thatyouwillnotsmilewhenyouhearit。”

  “Indeed!butwhyso?——Icanhardlyimaginethatanythingwhichpleasesoramusesyou,shouldnotpleaseandamusemetoo。”

  “Thereisonesubject。”hereplied,“Ihopebutone,onwhichwedonotthinkalike。”Hepausedamoment,againsmiling,withhiseyesfixedonherface。“Doesnothingoccurtoyou?——

  Donotyourecollect?——HarrietSmith。”

  Hercheeksflushedatthename,andshefeltafraidofsomething,thoughsheknewnotwhat。

  “Haveyouheardfromheryourselfthismorning?“criedhe。

  “Youhave,Ibelieve,andknowthewhole。”

  “No,Ihavenot;Iknownothing;praytellme。”

  “Youarepreparedfortheworst,Isee——andverybaditis。

  HarrietSmithmarriesRobertMartin。”

  Emmagaveastart,whichdidnotseemlikebeingprepared——

  andhereyes,ineagergaze,said,“No,thisisimpossible!“

  butherlipswereclosed。

  “Itisso,indeed。”continuedMr。Knightley;“IhaveitfromRobertMartinhimself。Heleftmenothalfanhourago。”

  Shewasstilllookingathimwiththemostspeakingamazement。

  “Youlikeit,myEmma,aslittleasIfeared——Iwishouropinionswerethesame。Butintimetheywill。Time,youmaybesure,willmakeoneortheotherofusthinkdifferently;and,inthemeanwhile,weneednottalkmuchonthesubject。”

  “Youmistakeme,youquitemistakeme。”shereplied,exertingherself。

  “Itisnotthatsuchacircumstancewouldnowmakemeunhappy,butIcannotbelieveit。Itseemsanimpossibility!——Youcannotmeantosay,thatHarrietSmithhasacceptedRobertMartin。Youcannotmeanthathehasevenproposedtoheragain——yet。Youonlymean,thatheintendsit。”

  “Imeanthathehasdoneit。”answeredMr。Knightley,withsmilingbutdetermineddecision,“andbeenaccepted。”

  “GoodGod!“shecried——“Well!“——Thenhavingrecoursetoherworkbasket,inexcuseforleaningdownherface,andconcealingalltheexquisitefeelingsofdelightandentertainmentwhichsheknewshemustbeexpressing,sheadded,“Well,nowtellmeeverything;

  makethisintelligibletome。How,where,when?——Letmeknowitall。

  Ineverwasmoresurprized——butitdoesnotmakemeunhappy,Iassureyou——How——howhasitbeenpossible?“

  “Itisaverysimplestory。Hewenttotownonbusinessthreedaysago,andIgothimtotakechargeofsomepaperswhichIwaswantingtosendtoJohn——HedeliveredthesepaperstoJohn,athischambers,andwasaskedbyhimtojointheirpartythesameeveningtoAstley’s。

  TheyweregoingtotakethetwoeldestboystoAstley’s。Thepartywastobeourbrotherandsister,Henry,John——andMissSmith。

  MyfriendRobertcouldnotresist。Theycalledforhimintheirway;

  wereallextremelyamused;andmybrotheraskedhimtodinewiththemthenextday——whichhedid——andinthecourseofthatvisitasIunderstandhefoundanopportunityofspeakingtoHarriet;

  andcertainlydidnotspeakinvain——Shemadehim,byheracceptance,ashappyevenasheisdeserving。Hecamedownbyyesterday’scoach,andwaswithmethismorningimmediatelyafterbreakfast,toreporthisproceedings,firstonmyaffairs,andthenonhisown。

  ThisisallthatIcanrelateofthehow,where,andwhen。

  YourfriendHarrietwillmakeamuchlongerhistorywhenyouseeher——

  Shewillgiveyoualltheminuteparticulars,whichonlywoman’slanguagecanmakeinteresting——Inourcommunicationswedealonlyinthegreat——However,Imustsay,thatRobertMartin’sheartseemedforhim,andtome,veryoverflowing;andthathedidmention,withoutitsbeingmuchtothepurpose,thatonquittingtheirboxatAstley’s,mybrothertookchargeofMrs。JohnKnightleyandlittleJohn,andhefollowedwithMissSmithandHenry;

  andthatatonetimetheywereinsuchacrowd,astomakeMissSmithratheruneasy。”

  Hestopped——Emmadarednotattemptanyimmediatereply。Tospeak,shewassurewouldbetobetrayamostunreasonabledegreeofhappiness。Shemustwaitamoment,orhewouldthinkhermad。

  Hersilencedisturbedhim;andafterobservingheralittlewhile,headded,“Emma,mylove,yousaidthatthiscircumstancewouldnotnowmakeyouunhappy;butIamafraiditgivesyoumorepainthanyouexpected。

  Hissituationisanevil——butyoumustconsideritaswhatsatisfiesyourfriend;andIwillanswerforyourthinkingbetterandbetterofhimasyouknowhimmore。Hisgoodsenseandgoodprincipleswoulddelightyou——Asfarasthemanisconcerned,youcouldnotwishyourfriendinbetterhands。HisrankinsocietyIwouldalterifI

  could,whichissayingagreatdealIassureyou,Emma——YoulaughatmeaboutWilliamLarkins;butIcouldquiteasillspareRobertMartin。”

  Hewantedhertolookupandsmile;andhavingnowbroughtherselfnottosmiletoobroadly——shedid——cheerfullyanswering,“Youneednotbeatanypainstoreconcilemetothematch。I

  thinkHarrietisdoingextremelywell。Herconnexionsmaybeworsethanhis。

  Inrespectabilityofcharacter,therecanbenodoubtthattheyare。

  Ihavebeensilentfromsurprizemerely,excessivesurprize。

  Youcannotimaginehowsuddenlyithascomeonme!howpeculiarlyunpreparedIwas!——forIhadreasontobelieveherverylatelymoredeterminedagainsthim,muchmore,thanshewasbefore。”

  “Yououghttoknowyourfriendbest。”repliedMr。Knightley;

  “butIshouldsayshewasagood-tempered,soft-heartedgirl,notlikelytobevery,verydeterminedagainstanyyoungmanwhotoldherhelovedher。”

  Emmacouldnothelplaughingassheanswered,“Uponmyword,IbelieveyouknowherquiteaswellasIdo——But,Mr。Knightley,areyouperfectlysurethatshehasabsolutelyanddownrightacceptedhim。Icouldsupposeshemightintime——butcanshealready?——

  Didnotyoumisunderstandhim?——Youwerebothtalkingofotherthings;

  ofbusiness,showsofcattle,ornewdrills——andmightnotyou,intheconfusionofsomanysubjects,mistakehim?——ItwasnotHarriet’shandthathewascertainof——itwasthedimensionsofsomefamousox。”

  ThecontrastbetweenthecountenanceandairofMr。KnightleyandRobertMartinwas,atthismoment,sostrongtoEmma’sfeelings,andsostrongwastherecollectionofallthathadsorecentlypassedonHarriet’sside,sofreshthesoundofthosewords,spokenwithsuchemphasis,“No,IhopeIknowbetterthantothinkofRobertMartin。”thatshewasreallyexpectingtheintelligencetoprove,insomemeasure,premature。Itcouldnotbeotherwise。

  “Doyoudaresaythis?“criedMr。Knightley。“Doyoudaretosupposemesogreatablockhead,asnottoknowwhatamanistalkingof?——

  Whatdoyoudeserve?“

  “Oh!Ialwaysdeservethebesttreatment,becauseIneverputupwithanyother;and,therefore,youmustgivemeaplain,directanswer。AreyouquitesurethatyouunderstandthetermsonwhichMr。MartinandHarrietnoware?“

  “Iamquitesure。”hereplied,speakingverydistinctly,“thathetoldmeshehadacceptedhim;andthattherewasnoobscurity,nothingdoubtful,inthewordsheused;andIthinkIcangiveyouaproofthatitmustbeso。Heaskedmyopinionastowhathewasnowtodo。HeknewofnoonebutMrs。Goddardtowhomhecouldapplyforinformationofherrelationsorfriends。CouldI

  mentionanythingmorefittobedone,thantogotoMrs。Goddard?

  IassuredhimthatIcouldnot。Then,hesaid,hewouldendeavourtoseeherinthecourseofthisday。”

  “Iamperfectlysatisfied。”repliedEmma,withthebrightestsmiles,“andmostsincerelywishthemhappy。”

  “Youaremateriallychangedsincewetalkedonthissubjectbefore。”

  “Ihopeso——foratthattimeIwasafool。”

  “AndIamchangedalso;forIamnowverywillingtograntyouallHarriet’sgoodqualities。Ihavetakensomepainsforyoursake,andforRobertMartin’ssake,whomIhavealwayshadreasontobelieveasmuchinlovewithherasever,togetacquaintedwithher。

  Ihaveoftentalkedtoheragooddeal。YoumusthaveseenthatIdid。Sometimes,indeed,IhavethoughtyouwerehalfsuspectingmeofpleadingpoorMartin’scause,whichwasneverthecase;but,fromallmyobservations,Iamconvincedofherbeinganartless,amiablegirl,withverygoodnotions,veryseriouslygoodprinciples,andplacingherhappinessintheaffectionsandutilityofdomesticlife——

  Muchofthis,Ihavenodoubt,shemaythankyoufor。”

  “Me!“criedEmma,shakingherhead——“Ah!poorHarriet!“

  Shecheckedherself,however,andsubmittedquietlytoalittlemorepraisethanshedeserved。

  Theirconversationwassoonafterwardsclosedbytheentranceofherfather。Shewasnotsorry。Shewantedtobealone。

  Hermindwasinastateofflutterandwonder,whichmadeitimpossibleforhertobecollected。Shewasindancing,singing,exclaimingspirits;

  andtillshehadmovedabout,andtalkedtoherself,andlaughedandreflected,shecouldbefitfornothingrational。

  Herfather’sbusinesswastoannounceJames’sbeinggoneouttoputthehorsesto,preparatorytotheirnowdailydrivetoRandalls;

  andshehad,therefore,animmediateexcusefordisappearing。

  Thejoy,thegratitude,theexquisitedelightofhersensationsmaybeimagined。ThesolegrievanceandalloythusremovedintheprospectofHarriet’swelfare,shewasreallyindangerofbecomingtoohappyforsecurity——Whathadshetowishfor?Nothing,buttogrowmoreworthyofhim,whoseintentionsandjudgmenthadbeeneversosuperiortoherown。Nothing,butthatthelessonsofherpastfollymightteachherhumilityandcircumspectioninfuture。

  Seriousshewas,veryseriousinherthankfulness,andinherresolutions;

  andyettherewasnopreventingalaugh,sometimesintheverymidstofthem。Shemustlaughatsuchaclose!Suchanendofthedolefuldisappointmentoffiveweeksback!Suchaheart——suchaHarriet!

  Nowtherewouldbepleasureinherreturning——Everythingwouldbeapleasure。ItwouldbeagreatpleasuretoknowRobertMartin。

  Highintherankofhermostseriousandheartfeltfelicities,wasthereflectionthatallnecessityofconcealmentfromMr。Knightleywouldsoonbeover。Thedisguise,equivocation,mystery,sohatefultohertopractise,mightsoonbeover。

  Shecouldnowlookforwardtogivinghimthatfullandperfectconfidencewhichherdispositionwasmostreadytowelcomeasaduty。

  Inthegayestandhappiestspiritsshesetforwardwithherfather;

  notalwayslistening,butalwaysagreeingtowhathesaid;

  and,whetherinspeechorsilence,connivingatthecomfortablepersuasionofhisbeingobligedtogotoRandallseveryday,orpoorMrs。Westonwouldbedisappointed。

  Theyarrived——Mrs。Westonwasaloneinthedrawing-room:——

  buthardlyhadtheybeentoldofthebaby,andMr。Woodhousereceivedthethanksforcoming,whichheaskedfor,whenaglimpsewascaughtthroughtheblind,oftwofigurespassingnearthewindow。

  “ItisFrankandMissFairfax。”saidMrs。Weston。“Iwasjustgoingtotellyouofouragreeablesurprizeinseeinghimarrivethismorning。Hestaystillto-morrow,andMissFairfaxhasbeenpersuadedtospendthedaywithus——Theyarecomingin,Ihope。”

  Inhalfaminutetheywereintheroom。Emmawasextremelygladtoseehim——buttherewasadegreeofconfusion——anumberofembarrassingrecollectionsoneachside。Theymetreadilyandsmiling,butwithaconsciousnesswhichatfirstallowedlittletobesaid;

  andhavingallsatdownagain,therewasforsometimesuchablankinthecircle,thatEmmabegantodoubtwhetherthewishnowindulged,whichshehadlongfelt,ofseeingFrankChurchilloncemore,andofseeinghimwithJane,wouldyielditsproportionofpleasure。

  WhenMr。Westonjoinedtheparty,however,andwhenthebabywasfetched,therewasnolongerawantofsubjectoranimation——

  orofcourageandopportunityforFrankChurchilltodrawnearherandsay,“Ihavetothankyou,MissWoodhouse,foraverykindforgivingmessageinoneofMrs。Weston’sletters。Ihopetimehasnotmadeyoulesswillingtopardon。Ihopeyoudonotretractwhatyouthensaid。”

  “No,indeed。”criedEmma,mosthappytobegin,“notintheleast。

  Iamparticularlygladtoseeandshakehandswithyou——andtogiveyoujoyinperson。”

  Hethankedherwithallhisheart,andcontinuedsometimetospeakwithseriousfeelingofhisgratitudeandhappiness。

  “Isnotshelookingwell?“saidhe,turninghiseyestowardsJane。

  “Betterthansheeverusedtodo?——YouseehowmyfatherandMrs。Westondoatuponher。”

  Buthisspiritsweresoonrisingagain,andwithlaughingeyes,aftermentioningtheexpectedreturnoftheCampbells,henamedthenameofDixon——Emmablushed,andforbadeitsbeingpronouncedinherhearing。

  “Icanneverthinkofit。”shecried,“withoutextremeshame。”

  “Theshame。”heanswered,“isallmine,oroughttobe。Butisitpossiblethatyouhadnosuspicion?——Imeanoflate。Early,I

  know,youhadnone。”

  “Ineverhadthesmallest,Iassureyou。”

  “Thatappearsquitewonderful。Iwasonceverynear——andIwishIhad——

  itwouldhavebeenbetter。ButthoughIwasalwaysdoingwrongthings,theywereverybadwrongthings,andsuchasdidmenoservice——

  ItwouldhavebeenamuchbettertransgressionhadIbrokenthebondofsecrecyandtoldyoueverything。”

  “Itisnotnowwortharegret。”saidEmma。

  “Ihavesomehope。”resumedhe,“ofmyuncle’sbeingpersuadedtopayavisitatRandalls;hewantstobeintroducedtoher。

  WhentheCampbellsarereturned,weshallmeettheminLondon,andcontinuethere,Itrust,tillwemaycarryhernorthward——Butnow,Iamatsuchadistancefromher——isnotithard,MissWoodhouse?——

  Tillthismorning,wehavenotoncemetsincethedayofreconciliation。

  Donotyoupityme?“

  Emmaspokeherpitysoverykindly,thatwithasuddenaccessionofgaythought,hecried,“Ah!bythebye。”thensinkinghisvoice,andlookingdemureforthemoment——“IhopeMr。Knightleyiswell?“Hepaused——Shecolouredandlaughed——“Iknowyousawmyletter,andthinkyoumayremembermywishinyourfavour。Letmereturnyourcongratulations——

  IassureyouthatIhaveheardthenewswiththewarmestinterestandsatisfaction——HeisamanwhomIcannotpresumetopraise。”

  Emmawasdelighted,andonlywantedhimtogooninthesamestyle;

  buthismindwasthenextmomentinhisownconcernsandwithhisownJane,andhisnextwordswere,“Didyoueverseesuchaskin?——suchsmoothness!suchdelicacy!——

  andyetwithoutbeingactuallyfair——Onecannotcallherfair。

  Itisamostuncommoncomplexion,withherdarkeye-lashesandhair——

  amostdistinguishingcomplexion!Sopeculiarlytheladyinit——

  Justcolourenoughforbeauty。”

  “Ihavealwaysadmiredhercomplexion。”repliedEmma,archly;“butdonotIrememberthetimewhenyoufoundfaultwithherforbeingsopale?——

  Whenwefirstbegantotalkofher——Haveyouquiteforgotten?“

  “Oh!no——whatanimpudentdogIwas!——HowcouldIdare——“

  Buthelaughedsoheartilyattherecollection,thatEmmacouldnothelpsaying,“Idosuspectthatinthemidstofyourperplexitiesatthattime,youhadverygreatamusementintrickingusall——Iamsureyouhad——

  Iamsureitwasaconsolationtoyou。”

  “Oh!no,no,no——howcanyoususpectmeofsuchathing?

  Iwasthemostmiserablewretch!“

  “Notquitesomiserableastobeinsensibletomirth。Iamsureitwasasourceofhighentertainmenttoyou,tofeelthatyouweretakingusallin——PerhapsIamthereadiertosuspect,because,totellyouthetruth,Ithinkitmighthavebeensomeamusementtomyselfinthesamesituation。Ithinkthereisalittlelikenessbetweenus。”

  Hebowed。

  “Ifnotinourdispositions。”shepresentlyadded,withalookoftruesensibility,“thereisalikenessinourdestiny;thedestinywhichbidsfairtoconnectuswithtwocharacterssomuchsuperiortoourown。”

  “True,true。”heanswered,warmly。“No,nottrueonyourside。

  Youcanhavenosuperior,butmosttrueonmine——Sheisacompleteangel。

  Lookather。Isnotsheanangelineverygesture?Observetheturnofherthroat。Observehereyes,assheislookingupatmyfather——

  Youwillbegladtohearinclininghishead,andwhisperingseriously

  thatmyunclemeanstogiveherallmyaunt’sjewels。Theyaretobenewset。Iamresolvedtohavesomeinanornamentforthehead。

  Willnotitbebeautifulinherdarkhair?“

  “Verybeautiful,indeed。”repliedEmma;andshespokesokindly,thathegratefullyburstout,“HowdelightedIamtoseeyouagain!andtoseeyouinsuchexcellentlooks!——Iwouldnothavemissedthismeetingfortheworld。

  IshouldcertainlyhavecalledatHartfield,hadyoufailedtocome。”

  Theothershadbeentalkingofthechild,Mrs。Westongivinganaccountofalittlealarmshehadbeenunder,theeveningbefore,fromtheinfant’sappearingnotquitewell。Shebelievedshehadbeenfoolish,butithadalarmedher,andshehadbeenwithinhalfaminuteofsendingforMr。Perry。Perhapssheoughttobeashamed,butMr。Westonhadbeenalmostasuneasyasherself——Intenminutes,however,thechildhadbeenperfectlywellagain。Thiswasherhistory;andparticularlyinterestingitwastoMr。Woodhouse,whocommendedherverymuchforthinkingofsendingforPerry,andonlyregrettedthatshehadnotdoneit。“SheshouldalwayssendforPerry,ifthechildappearedintheslightestdegreedisordered,wereitonlyforamoment。Shecouldnotbetoosoonalarmed,norsendforPerrytoooften。Itwasapity,perhaps,thathehadnotcomelastnight;for,thoughthechildseemedwellnow,verywellconsidering,itwouldprobablyhavebeenbetterifPerryhadseenit。”

  FrankChurchillcaughtthename。

  “Perry!“saidhetoEmma,andtrying,ashespoke,tocatchMissFairfax’seye。“MyfriendMr。Perry!WhataretheysayingaboutMr。Perry?——Hashebeenherethismorning?——Andhowdoeshetravelnow?——Hashesetuphiscarriage?“

  Emmasoonrecollected,andunderstoodhim;andwhileshejoinedinthelaugh,itwasevidentfromJane’scountenancethatshetoowasreallyhearinghim,thoughtryingtoseemdeaf。

  “Suchanextraordinarydreamofmine!“hecried。“Icanneverthinkofitwithoutlaughing——Shehearsus,shehearsus,MissWoodhouse。

  Iseeitinhercheek,hersmile,hervainattempttofrown。

  Lookather。Donotyouseethat,atthisinstant,theverypassageofherownletter,whichsentmethereport,ispassingunderhereye——

  thatthewholeblunderisspreadbeforeher——thatshecanattendtonothingelse,thoughpretendingtolistentotheothers?“

  Janewasforcedtosmilecompletely,foramoment;andthesmilepartlyremainedassheturnedtowardshim,andsaidinaconscious,low,yetsteadyvoice,“Howyoucanbearsuchrecollections,isastonishingtome!——

  Theywillsometimesobtrude——buthowyoucancourtthem!“

  Hehadagreatdealtosayinreturn,andveryentertainingly;

  butEmma’sfeelingswerechieflywithJane,intheargument;andonleavingRandalls,andfallingnaturallyintoacomparisonofthetwomen,shefelt,thatpleasedasshehadbeentoseeFrankChurchill,andreallyregardinghimasshedidwithfriendship,shehadneverbeenmoresensibleofMr。Knightley’shighsuperiorityofcharacter。

  Thehappinessofthismosthappyday,receiveditscompletion,intheanimatedcontemplationofhisworthwhichthiscomparisonproduced。

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  IfEmmahadstill,atintervals,ananxiousfeelingforHarriet,amomentarydoubtofitsbeingpossibleforhertobereallycuredofherattachmenttoMr。Knightley,andreallyabletoacceptanothermanfromunbiasedinclination,itwasnotlongthatshehadtosufferfromtherecurrenceofanysuchuncertainty。

  AveryfewdaysbroughtthepartyfromLondon,andshehadnosooneranopportunityofbeingonehouralonewithHarriet,thanshebecameperfectlysatisfied——unaccountableasitwas!——

  thatRobertMartinhadthoroughlysupplantedMr。Knightley,andwasnowformingallherviewsofhappiness。

  Harrietwasalittledistressed——didlookalittlefoolishatfirst:

  buthavingonceownedthatshehadbeenpresumptuousandsilly,andself-deceived,before,herpainandconfusionseemedtodieawaywiththewords,andleaveherwithoutacareforthepast,andwiththefullestexultationinthepresentandfuture;for,astoherfriend’sapprobation,Emmahadinstantlyremovedeveryfearofthatnature,bymeetingherwiththemostunqualifiedcongratulations——

  HarrietwasmosthappytogiveeveryparticularoftheeveningatAstley’s,andthedinnerthenextday;shecoulddwellonitallwiththeutmostdelight。Butwhatdidsuchparticularsexplain?——

  Thefactwas,asEmmacouldnowacknowledge,thatHarriethadalwayslikedRobertMartin;andthathiscontinuingtoloveherhadbeenirresistible——Beyondthis,itmusteverbeunintelligibletoEmma。

  Theevent,however,wasmostjoyful;andeverydaywasgivingherfreshreasonforthinkingso——Harriet’sparentagebecameknown。

  Sheprovedtobethedaughterofatradesman,richenoughtoaffordherthecomfortablemaintenancewhichhadeverbeenhers,anddecentenoughtohavealwayswishedforconcealment——SuchwasthebloodofgentilitywhichEmmahadformerlybeensoreadytovouchfor!——

  Itwaslikelytobeasuntainted,perhaps,asthebloodofmanyagentleman:butwhataconnexionhadshebeenpreparingforMr。Knightley——orfortheChurchills——orevenforMr。Elton!——

  Thestainofillegitimacy,unbleachedbynobilityorwealth,wouldhavebeenastainindeed。

  Noobjectionwasraisedonthefather’sside;theyoungmanwastreatedliberally;itwasallasitshouldbe:andasEmmabecameacquaintedwithRobertMartin,whowasnowintroducedatHartfield,shefullyacknowledgedinhimalltheappearanceofsenseandworthwhichcouldbidfairestforherlittlefriend。ShehadnodoubtofHarriet’shappinesswithanygood-temperedman;butwithhim,andinthehomeheoffered,therewouldbethehopeofmore,ofsecurity,stability,andimprovement。Shewouldbeplacedinthemidstofthosewholovedher,andwhohadbettersensethanherself;

  retiredenoughforsafety,andoccupiedenoughforcheerfulness。

  Shewouldbeneverledintotemptation,norleftforittofindherout。

  Shewouldberespectableandhappy;andEmmaadmittedhertobetheluckiestcreatureintheworld,tohavecreatedsosteadyandperseveringanaffectioninsuchaman;——or,ifnotquitetheluckiest,toyieldonlytoherself。

  Harriet,necessarilydrawnawaybyherengagementswiththeMartins,waslessandlessatHartfield;whichwasnottoberegretted——

  TheintimacybetweenherandEmmamustsink;theirfriendshipmustchangeintoacalmersortofgoodwill;and,fortunately,whatoughttobe,andmustbe,seemedalreadybeginning,andinthemostgradual,naturalmanner。

  BeforetheendofSeptember,EmmaattendedHarriettochurch,andsawherhandbestowedonRobertMartinwithsocompleteasatisfaction,asnoremembrances,evenconnectedwithMr。Eltonashestoodbeforethem,couldimpair——Perhaps,indeed,atthattimeshescarcelysawMr。Elton,butastheclergymanwhoseblessingatthealtarmightnextfallonherself——RobertMartinandHarrietSmith,thelatestcoupleengagedofthethree,werethefirsttobemarried。

  JaneFairfaxhadalreadyquittedHighbury,andwasrestoredtothecomfortsofherbelovedhomewiththeCampbells——TheMr。Churchillswerealsointown;andtheywereonlywaitingforNovember。

  Theintermediatemonthwastheonefixedon,asfarastheydared,byEmmaandMr。Knightley——TheyhaddeterminedthattheirmarriageoughttobeconcludedwhileJohnandIsabellawerestillatHartfield,toallowthemthefortnight’sabsenceinatourtotheseaside,whichwastheplan——JohnandIsabella,andeveryotherfriend,wereagreedinapprovingit。ButMr。Woodhouse——howwasMr。Woodhousetobeinducedtoconsent?——he,whohadneveryetalludedtotheirmarriagebutasadistantevent。

  Whenfirstsoundedonthesubject,hewassomiserable,thattheywerealmosthopeless——Asecondallusion,indeed,gavelesspain——

  Hebegantothinkitwastobe,andthathecouldnotpreventit——

  averypromisingstepofthemindonitswaytoresignation。

  Still,however,hewasnothappy。Nay,heappearedsomuchotherwise,thathisdaughter’scouragefailed。Shecouldnotbeartoseehimsuffering,toknowhimfancyinghimselfneglected;andthoughherunderstandingalmostacquiescedintheassuranceofboththeMr。Knightleys,thatwhenoncetheeventwereover,hisdistresswouldbesoonovertoo,shehesitated——shecouldnotproceed。

  Inthisstateofsuspensetheywerebefriended,notbyanysuddenilluminationofMr。Woodhouse’smind,oranywonderfulchangeofhisnervoussystem,butbytheoperationofthesamesysteminanotherway——

  Mrs。Weston’spoultry-housewasrobbedonenightofallherturkeys——

  evidentlybytheingenuityofman。Otherpoultry-yardsintheneighbourhoodalsosuffered——PilferingwashousebreakingtoMr。Woodhouse’sfears——Hewasveryuneasy;andbutforthesenseofhisson-in-law’sprotection,wouldhavebeenunderwretchedalarmeverynightofhislife。Thestrength,resolution,andpresenceofmindoftheMr。Knightleys,commandedhisfullestdependence。

  Whileeitherofthemprotectedhimandhis,Hartfieldwassafe——

  ButMr。JohnKnightleymustbeinLondonagainbytheendofthefirstweekinNovember。

  Theresultofthisdistresswas,that,withamuchmorevoluntary,cheerfulconsentthanhisdaughterhadeverpresumedtohopeforatthemoment,shewasabletofixherwedding-day——andMr。Eltonwascalledon,withinamonthfromthemarriageofMr。andMrs。RobertMartin,tojointhehandsofMr。KnightleyandMissWoodhouse。

  Theweddingwasverymuchlikeotherweddings,wherethepartieshavenotasteforfineryorparade;andMrs。Elton,fromtheparticularsdetailedbyherhusband,thoughtitallextremelyshabby,andveryinferiortoherown——“Verylittlewhitesatin,veryfewlaceveils;amostpitifulbusiness!——Selinawouldstarewhensheheardofit。”——But,inspiteofthesedeficiencies,thewishes,thehopes,theconfidence,thepredictionsofthesmallbandoftruefriendswhowitnessedtheceremony,werefullyansweredintheperfecthappinessoftheunion。

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