Myinterferencewasquiteaslikelytodoharmasgood。Itwasverynaturalforyoutosay,whatrighthashetolectureme?——
andIamafraidverynaturalforyoutofeelthatitwasdoneinadisagreeablemanner。IdonotbelieveIdidyouanygood。
Thegoodwasalltomyself,bymakingyouanobjectofthetenderestaffectiontome。Icouldnotthinkaboutyousomuchwithoutdoatingonyou,faultsandall;andbydintoffancyingsomanyerrors,havebeeninlovewithyoueversinceyouwerethirteenatleast。”
“Iamsureyouwereofusetome。”criedEmma。“Iwasveryofteninfluencedrightlybyyou——oftenerthanIwouldownatthetime。
Iamverysureyoudidmegood。AndifpoorlittleAnnaWestonistobespoiled,itwillbethegreatesthumanityinyoutodoasmuchforherasyouhavedoneforme,exceptfallinginlovewithherwhensheisthirteen。”
“Howoften,whenyouwereagirl,haveyousaidtome,withoneofyoursaucylooks——`Mr。Knightley,Iamgoingtodoso-and-so;
papasaysImay,orIhaveMissTaylor’sleave’——somethingwhich,youknew,Ididnotapprove。Insuchcasesmyinterferencewasgivingyoutwobadfeelingsinsteadofone。”
“WhatanamiablecreatureIwas!——Nowonderyoushouldholdmyspeechesinsuchaffectionateremembrance。”
“`Mr。Knightley。’——Youalwayscalledme,`Mr。Knightley;’and,fromhabit,ithasnotsoveryformalasound——Andyetitisformal。
Iwantyoutocallmesomethingelse,butIdonotknowwhat。”
“Irememberoncecallingyou`George,’inoneofmyamiablefits,abouttenyearsago。IdiditbecauseIthoughtitwouldoffendyou;
but,asyoumadenoobjection,Ineverdiditagain。”
“Andcannotyoucallme`George’now?“
“Impossible!——Inevercancallyouanythingbut`Mr。Knightley。’
IwillnotpromiseeventoequaltheeleganttersenessofMrs。Elton,bycallingyouMr。K——ButIwillpromise。”sheaddedpresently,laughingandblushing——“IwillpromisetocallyouoncebyyourChristianname。Idonotsaywhen,butperhapsyoumayguesswhere;——inthebuildinginwhichN。takesM。forbetter,forworse。”
Emmagrievedthatshecouldnotbemoreopenlyjusttooneimportantservicewhichhisbettersensewouldhaverenderedher,totheadvicewhichwouldhavesavedherfromtheworstofallherwomanlyfollies——herwilfulintimacywithHarrietSmith;
butitwastootenderasubject——Shecouldnotenteronit——
Harrietwasveryseldommentionedbetweenthem。This,onhisside,mightmerelyproceedfromhernotbeingthoughtof;butEmmawasratherinclinedtoattributeittodelicacy,andasuspicion,fromsomeappearances,thattheirfriendshipweredeclining。
Shewasawareherself,that,partingunderanyothercircumstances,theycertainlyshouldhavecorrespondedmore,andthatherintelligencewouldnothaverested,asitnowalmostwhollydid,onIsabella’sletters。Hemightobservethatitwasso。
Thepainofbeingobligedtopractiseconcealmenttowardshim,wasverylittleinferiortothepainofhavingmadeHarrietunhappy。
Isabellasentquiteasgoodanaccountofhervisitorascouldbeexpected;onherfirstarrivalshehadthoughtheroutofspirits,whichappearedperfectlynatural,astherewasadentisttobeconsulted;but,sincethatbusinesshadbeenover,shedidnotappeartofindHarrietdifferentfromwhatshehadknownherbefore——
Isabella,tobesure,wasnoveryquickobserver;yetifHarriethadnotbeenequaltoplayingwiththechildren,itwouldnothaveescapedher。Emma’scomfortsandhopesweremostagreeablycarriedon,byHarriet’sbeingtostaylonger;herfortnightwaslikelytobeamonthatleast。Mr。andMrs。JohnKnightleyweretocomedowninAugust,andshewasinvitedtoremaintilltheycouldbringherback。
“Johndoesnotevenmentionyourfriend。”saidMr。Knightley。
“Hereishisanswer,ifyouliketoseeit。”
Itwastheanswertothecommunicationofhisintendedmarriage。
Emmaaccepteditwithaveryeagerhand,withanimpatienceallalivetoknowwhathewouldsayaboutit,andnotatallcheckedbyhearingthatherfriendwasunmentioned。
“Johnenterslikeabrotherintomyhappiness。”continuedMr。Knightley,“butheisnocomplimenter;andthoughIwellknowhimtohave,likewise,amostbrotherlyaffectionforyou,heissofarfrommakingflourishes,thatanyotheryoungwomanmightthinkhimrathercoolinherpraise。ButIamnotafraidofyourseeingwhathewrites。”
“Hewriteslikeasensibleman。”repliedEmma,whenshehadreadtheletter。“Ihonourhissincerity。Itisveryplainthatheconsidersthegoodfortuneoftheengagementasallonmyside,butthatheisnotwithouthopeofmygrowing,intime,asworthyofyouraffection,asyouthinkmealready。Hadhesaidanythingtobearadifferentconstruction,Ishouldnothavebelievedhim。”
“MyEmma,hemeansnosuchthing。Heonlymeans——“
“HeandIshoulddifferverylittleinourestimationofthetwo。”
interruptedshe,withasortofserioussmile——“muchless,perhaps,thanheisawareof,ifwecouldenterwithoutceremonyorreserveonthesubject。”
“Emma,mydearEmma——“
“Oh!“shecriedwithmorethoroughgaiety,“ifyoufancyyourbrotherdoesnotdomejustice,onlywaittillmydearfatherisinthesecret,andhearhisopinion。Dependuponit,hewillbemuchfartherfromdoingyoujustice。Hewillthinkallthehappiness,alltheadvantage,onyoursideofthequestion;allthemeritonmine。IwishImaynotsinkinto`poorEmma’withhimatonce——
Histendercompassiontowardsoppressedworthcangonofarther。”
“Ah!“hecried,“IwishyourfathermightbehalfaseasilyconvincedasJohnwillbe,ofourhavingeveryrightthatequalworthcangive,tobehappytogether。IamamusedbyonepartofJohn’sletter——
didyounoticeit?——wherehesays,thatmyinformationdidnottakehimwhollybysurprize,thathewasratherinexpectationofhearingsomethingofthekind。”
“IfIunderstandyourbrother,heonlymeanssofarasyourhavingsomethoughtsofmarrying。Hehadnoideaofme。Heseemsperfectlyunpreparedforthat。”
“Yes,yes——butIamamusedthatheshouldhaveseensofarintomyfeelings。Whathashebeenjudgingby?——Iamnotconsciousofanydifferenceinmyspiritsorconversationthatcouldpreparehimatthistimeformymarryinganymorethanatanother——
Butitwasso,Isuppose。IdaresaytherewasadifferencewhenI
wasstayingwiththemtheotherday。IbelieveIdidnotplaywiththechildrenquitesomuchasusual。Irememberoneeveningthepoorboyssaying,`Uncleseemsalwaystirednow。’“
Thetimewascomingwhenthenewsmustspreadfarther,andotherpersons’
receptionofittried。AssoonasMrs。WestonwassufficientlyrecoveredtoadmitMr。Woodhouse’svisits,Emmahavingitinviewthathergentlereasoningsshouldbeemployedinthecause,resolvedfirsttoannounceitathome,andthenatRandalls——
Buthowtobreakittoherfatheratlast!——Shehadboundherselftodoit,insuchanhourofMr。Knightley’sabsence,orwhenitcametothepointherheartwouldhavefailedher,andshemusthaveputitoff;butMr。Knightleywastocomeatsuchatime,andfollowupthebeginningshewastomake——Shewasforcedtospeak,andtospeakcheerfullytoo。Shemustnotmakeitamoredecidedsubjectofmiserytohim,byamelancholytoneherself。
Shemustnotappeartothinkitamisfortune——Withallthespiritsshecouldcommand,shepreparedhimfirstforsomethingstrange,andthen,inafewwords,said,thatifhisconsentandapprobationcouldbeobtained——which,shetrusted,wouldbeattendedwithnodifficulty,sinceitwasaplantopromotethehappinessofall——
sheandMr。Knightleymeanttomarry;bywhichmeansHartfieldwouldreceivetheconstantadditionofthatperson’scompanywhomsheknewheloved,nexttohisdaughtersandMrs。Weston,bestintheworld。
Poorman!——itwasatfirstaconsiderableshocktohim,andhetriedearnestlytodissuadeherfromit。Shewasreminded,morethanonce,ofhavingalwayssaidshewouldnevermarry,andassuredthatitwouldbeagreatdealbetterforhertoremainsingle;andtoldofpoorIsabella,andpoorMissTaylor——Butitwouldnotdo。Emmahungabouthimaffectionately,andsmiled,andsaiditmustbeso;andthathemustnotclassherwithIsabellaandMrs。Weston,whosemarriagestakingthemfromHartfield,had,indeed,madeamelancholychange:
butshewasnotgoingfromHartfield;sheshouldbealwaysthere;
shewasintroducingnochangeintheirnumbersortheircomfortsbutforthebetter;andshewasverysurethathewouldbeagreatdealthehappierforhavingMr。Knightleyalwaysathand,whenhewereoncegotusedtotheidea——DidhenotloveMr。Knightleyverymuch?——
Hewouldnotdenythathedid,shewassure——WhomdidheeverwanttoconsultonbusinessbutMr。Knightley?——Whowassousefultohim,whosoreadytowritehisletters,whosogladtoassisthim?——
Whosocheerful,soattentive,soattachedtohim?——Wouldnotheliketohavehimalwaysonthespot?——Yes。Thatwasallverytrue。
Mr。Knightleycouldnotbetheretoooften;heshouldbegladtoseehimeveryday;——buttheydidseehimeverydayasitwas——Whycouldnottheygoonastheyhaddone?
Mr。Woodhousecouldnotbesoonreconciled;buttheworstwasovercome,theideawasgiven;timeandcontinualrepetitionmustdotherest——
ToEmma’sentreatiesandassurancessucceededMr。Knightley’s,whosefondpraiseofhergavethesubjectevenakindofwelcome;
andhewassoonusedtobetalkedtobyeach,oneveryfairoccasion——
TheyhadalltheassistancewhichIsabellacouldgive,bylettersofthestrongestapprobation;andMrs。Westonwasready,onthefirstmeeting,toconsiderthesubjectinthemostserviceablelight——first,asasettled,and,secondly,asagoodone——
wellawareofthenearlyequalimportanceofthetworecommendationstoMr。Woodhouse’smind——Itwasagreedupon,aswhatwastobe;
andeverybodybywhomhewasusedtobeguidedassuringhimthatitwouldbeforhishappiness;andhavingsomefeelingshimselfwhichalmostadmittedit,hebegantothinkthatsometimeorother——
inanotheryearortwo,perhaps——itmightnotbesoverybadifthemarriagedidtakeplace。
Mrs。Westonwasactingnopart,feigningnofeelingsinallthatshesaidtohiminfavouroftheevent——Shehadbeenextremelysurprized,nevermoreso,thanwhenEmmafirstopenedtheaffairtoher;
butshesawinitonlyincreaseofhappinesstoall,andhadnoscrupleinurginghimtotheutmost——ShehadsucharegardforMr。Knightley,astothinkhedeservedevenherdearestEmma;
anditwasineveryrespectsoproper,suitable,andunexceptionableaconnexion,andinonerespect,onepointofthehighestimportance,sopeculiarlyeligible,sosingularlyfortunate,thatnowitseemedasifEmmacouldnotsafelyhaveattachedherselftoanyothercreature,andthatshehadherselfbeenthestupidestofbeingsinnothavingthoughtofit,andwisheditlongago——HowveryfewofthosemeninarankoflifetoaddressEmmawouldhaverenouncedtheirownhomeforHartfield!AndwhobutMr。KnightleycouldknowandbearwithMr。Woodhouse,soastomakesuchanarrangementdesirable!——
ThedifficultyofdisposingofpoorMr。Woodhousehadbeenalwaysfeltinherhusband’splansandherown,foramarriagebetweenFrankandEmma。HowtosettletheclaimsofEnscombeandHartfieldhadbeenacontinualimpediment——lessacknowledgedbyMr。Westonthanbyherself——butevenhehadneverbeenabletofinishthesubjectbetterthanbysaying——“Thosematterswilltakecareofthemselves;
theyoungpeoplewillfindaway。”Butheretherewasnothingtobeshiftedoffinawildspeculationonthefuture。Itwasallright,allopen,allequal。Nosacrificeonanysideworththename。
Itwasaunionofthehighestpromiseoffelicityinitself,andwithoutonereal,rationaldifficultytoopposeordelayit。
Mrs。Weston,withherbabyonherknee,indulginginsuchreflectionsasthese,wasoneofthehappiestwomenintheworld。Ifanythingcouldincreaseherdelight,itwasperceivingthatthebabywouldsoonhaveoutgrownitsfirstsetofcaps。
Thenewswasuniversallyasurprizewhereveritspread;
andMr。Westonhadhisfiveminutesshareofit;butfiveminuteswereenoughtofamiliarisetheideatohisquicknessofmind——
Hesawtheadvantagesofthematch,andrejoicedinthemwithalltheconstancyofhiswife;butthewonderofitwasverysoonnothing;
andbytheendofanhourhewasnotfarfrombelievingthathehadalwaysforeseenit。
“Itistobeasecret,Iconclude。”saidhe。“Thesemattersarealwaysasecret,tillitisfoundoutthateverybodyknowsthem。
OnlyletmebetoldwhenImayspeakout——IwonderwhetherJanehasanysuspicion。”
HewenttoHighburythenextmorning,andsatisfiedhimselfonthatpoint。Hetoldherthenews。Wasnotshelikeadaughter,hiseldestdaughter?——hemusttellher;andMissBatesbeingpresent,itpassed,ofcourse,toMrs。Cole,Mrs。Perry,andMrs。Elton,immediatelyafterwards。Itwasnomorethantheprincipalswerepreparedfor;theyhadcalculatedfromthetimeofitsbeingknownatRandalls,howsoonitwouldbeoverHighbury;andwerethinkingofthemselves,astheeveningwonderinmanyafamilycircle,withgreatsagacity。
Ingeneral,itwasaverywellapprovedmatch。Somemightthinkhim,andothersmightthinkher,themostinluck。OnesetmightrecommendtheirallremovingtoDonwell,andleavingHartfieldfortheJohnKnightleys;andanothermightpredictdisagreementsamongtheirservants;butyet,uponthewhole,therewasnoseriousobjectionraised,exceptinonehabitation,theVicarage——There,thesurprizewasnotsoftenedbyanysatisfaction。Mr。Eltoncaredlittleaboutit,comparedwithhiswife;heonlyhoped“theyounglady’spridewouldnowbecontented;“andsupposed“shehadalwaysmeanttocatchKnightleyifshecould;“and,onthepointoflivingatHartfield,coulddaringlyexclaim,“RatherhethanI!“——
ButMrs。Eltonwasverymuchdiscomposedindeed——“PoorKnightley!
poorfellow!——sadbusinessforhim——Shewasextremelyconcerned;
for,thoughveryeccentric,hehadathousandgoodqualities——
Howcouldhebesotakenin?——Didnotthinkhimatallinlove——
notintheleast——PoorKnightley!——Therewouldbeanendofallpleasantintercoursewithhim——Howhappyhehadbeentocomeanddinewiththemwhenevertheyaskedhim!Butthatwouldbeallovernow——
Poorfellow!——NomoreexploringpartiestoDonwellmadeforher。
Oh!no;therewouldbeaMrs。Knightleytothrowcoldwateroneverything——Extremelydisagreeable!Butshewasnotatallsorrythatshehadabusedthehousekeepertheotherday——Shockingplan,livingtogether。Itwouldneverdo。SheknewafamilynearMapleGrovewhohadtriedit,andbeenobligedtoseparatebeforetheendofthefirstquarter。
Chapter18CHAPTERXVIII
Timepassedon。Afewmoreto-morrows,andthepartyfromLondonwouldbearriving。Itwasanalarmingchange;andEmmawasthinkingofitonemorning,aswhatmustbringagreatdealtoagitateandgrieveher,whenMr。Knightleycamein,anddistressingthoughtswereputby。Afterthefirstchatofpleasurehewassilent;
andthen,inagravertone,beganwith,“Ihavesomethingtotellyou,Emma;somenews。”
“Goodorbad?“saidshe,quickly,lookingupinhisface。
“Idonotknowwhichitoughttobecalled。”
“Oh!goodIamsure——Iseeitinyourcountenance。Youaretryingnottosmile。”
“Iamafraid。”saidhe,composinghisfeatures,“Iamverymuchafraid,mydearEmma,thatyouwillnotsmilewhenyouhearit。”
“Indeed!butwhyso?——Icanhardlyimaginethatanythingwhichpleasesoramusesyou,shouldnotpleaseandamusemetoo。”
“Thereisonesubject。”hereplied,“Ihopebutone,onwhichwedonotthinkalike。”Hepausedamoment,againsmiling,withhiseyesfixedonherface。“Doesnothingoccurtoyou?——
Donotyourecollect?——HarrietSmith。”
Hercheeksflushedatthename,andshefeltafraidofsomething,thoughsheknewnotwhat。
“Haveyouheardfromheryourselfthismorning?“criedhe。
“Youhave,Ibelieve,andknowthewhole。”
“No,Ihavenot;Iknownothing;praytellme。”
“Youarepreparedfortheworst,Isee——andverybaditis。
HarrietSmithmarriesRobertMartin。”
Emmagaveastart,whichdidnotseemlikebeingprepared——
andhereyes,ineagergaze,said,“No,thisisimpossible!“
butherlipswereclosed。
“Itisso,indeed。”continuedMr。Knightley;“IhaveitfromRobertMartinhimself。Heleftmenothalfanhourago。”
Shewasstilllookingathimwiththemostspeakingamazement。
“Youlikeit,myEmma,aslittleasIfeared——Iwishouropinionswerethesame。Butintimetheywill。Time,youmaybesure,willmakeoneortheotherofusthinkdifferently;and,inthemeanwhile,weneednottalkmuchonthesubject。”
“Youmistakeme,youquitemistakeme。”shereplied,exertingherself。
“Itisnotthatsuchacircumstancewouldnowmakemeunhappy,butIcannotbelieveit。Itseemsanimpossibility!——Youcannotmeantosay,thatHarrietSmithhasacceptedRobertMartin。Youcannotmeanthathehasevenproposedtoheragain——yet。Youonlymean,thatheintendsit。”
“Imeanthathehasdoneit。”answeredMr。Knightley,withsmilingbutdetermineddecision,“andbeenaccepted。”
“GoodGod!“shecried——“Well!“——Thenhavingrecoursetoherworkbasket,inexcuseforleaningdownherface,andconcealingalltheexquisitefeelingsofdelightandentertainmentwhichsheknewshemustbeexpressing,sheadded,“Well,nowtellmeeverything;
makethisintelligibletome。How,where,when?——Letmeknowitall。
Ineverwasmoresurprized——butitdoesnotmakemeunhappy,Iassureyou——How——howhasitbeenpossible?“
“Itisaverysimplestory。Hewenttotownonbusinessthreedaysago,andIgothimtotakechargeofsomepaperswhichIwaswantingtosendtoJohn——HedeliveredthesepaperstoJohn,athischambers,andwasaskedbyhimtojointheirpartythesameeveningtoAstley’s。
TheyweregoingtotakethetwoeldestboystoAstley’s。Thepartywastobeourbrotherandsister,Henry,John——andMissSmith。
MyfriendRobertcouldnotresist。Theycalledforhimintheirway;
wereallextremelyamused;andmybrotheraskedhimtodinewiththemthenextday——whichhedid——andinthecourseofthatvisitasIunderstandhefoundanopportunityofspeakingtoHarriet;
andcertainlydidnotspeakinvain——Shemadehim,byheracceptance,ashappyevenasheisdeserving。Hecamedownbyyesterday’scoach,andwaswithmethismorningimmediatelyafterbreakfast,toreporthisproceedings,firstonmyaffairs,andthenonhisown。
ThisisallthatIcanrelateofthehow,where,andwhen。
YourfriendHarrietwillmakeamuchlongerhistorywhenyouseeher——
Shewillgiveyoualltheminuteparticulars,whichonlywoman’slanguagecanmakeinteresting——Inourcommunicationswedealonlyinthegreat——However,Imustsay,thatRobertMartin’sheartseemedforhim,andtome,veryoverflowing;andthathedidmention,withoutitsbeingmuchtothepurpose,thatonquittingtheirboxatAstley’s,mybrothertookchargeofMrs。JohnKnightleyandlittleJohn,andhefollowedwithMissSmithandHenry;
andthatatonetimetheywereinsuchacrowd,astomakeMissSmithratheruneasy。”
Hestopped——Emmadarednotattemptanyimmediatereply。Tospeak,shewassurewouldbetobetrayamostunreasonabledegreeofhappiness。Shemustwaitamoment,orhewouldthinkhermad。
Hersilencedisturbedhim;andafterobservingheralittlewhile,headded,“Emma,mylove,yousaidthatthiscircumstancewouldnotnowmakeyouunhappy;butIamafraiditgivesyoumorepainthanyouexpected。
Hissituationisanevil——butyoumustconsideritaswhatsatisfiesyourfriend;andIwillanswerforyourthinkingbetterandbetterofhimasyouknowhimmore。Hisgoodsenseandgoodprincipleswoulddelightyou——Asfarasthemanisconcerned,youcouldnotwishyourfriendinbetterhands。HisrankinsocietyIwouldalterifI
could,whichissayingagreatdealIassureyou,Emma——YoulaughatmeaboutWilliamLarkins;butIcouldquiteasillspareRobertMartin。”
Hewantedhertolookupandsmile;andhavingnowbroughtherselfnottosmiletoobroadly——shedid——cheerfullyanswering,“Youneednotbeatanypainstoreconcilemetothematch。I
thinkHarrietisdoingextremelywell。Herconnexionsmaybeworsethanhis。
Inrespectabilityofcharacter,therecanbenodoubtthattheyare。
Ihavebeensilentfromsurprizemerely,excessivesurprize。
Youcannotimaginehowsuddenlyithascomeonme!howpeculiarlyunpreparedIwas!——forIhadreasontobelieveherverylatelymoredeterminedagainsthim,muchmore,thanshewasbefore。”
“Yououghttoknowyourfriendbest。”repliedMr。Knightley;
“butIshouldsayshewasagood-tempered,soft-heartedgirl,notlikelytobevery,verydeterminedagainstanyyoungmanwhotoldherhelovedher。”
Emmacouldnothelplaughingassheanswered,“Uponmyword,IbelieveyouknowherquiteaswellasIdo——But,Mr。Knightley,areyouperfectlysurethatshehasabsolutelyanddownrightacceptedhim。Icouldsupposeshemightintime——butcanshealready?——
Didnotyoumisunderstandhim?——Youwerebothtalkingofotherthings;
ofbusiness,showsofcattle,ornewdrills——andmightnotyou,intheconfusionofsomanysubjects,mistakehim?——ItwasnotHarriet’shandthathewascertainof——itwasthedimensionsofsomefamousox。”
ThecontrastbetweenthecountenanceandairofMr。KnightleyandRobertMartinwas,atthismoment,sostrongtoEmma’sfeelings,andsostrongwastherecollectionofallthathadsorecentlypassedonHarriet’sside,sofreshthesoundofthosewords,spokenwithsuchemphasis,“No,IhopeIknowbetterthantothinkofRobertMartin。”thatshewasreallyexpectingtheintelligencetoprove,insomemeasure,premature。Itcouldnotbeotherwise。
“Doyoudaresaythis?“criedMr。Knightley。“Doyoudaretosupposemesogreatablockhead,asnottoknowwhatamanistalkingof?——
Whatdoyoudeserve?“
“Oh!Ialwaysdeservethebesttreatment,becauseIneverputupwithanyother;and,therefore,youmustgivemeaplain,directanswer。AreyouquitesurethatyouunderstandthetermsonwhichMr。MartinandHarrietnoware?“
“Iamquitesure。”hereplied,speakingverydistinctly,“thathetoldmeshehadacceptedhim;andthattherewasnoobscurity,nothingdoubtful,inthewordsheused;andIthinkIcangiveyouaproofthatitmustbeso。Heaskedmyopinionastowhathewasnowtodo。HeknewofnoonebutMrs。Goddardtowhomhecouldapplyforinformationofherrelationsorfriends。CouldI
mentionanythingmorefittobedone,thantogotoMrs。Goddard?
IassuredhimthatIcouldnot。Then,hesaid,hewouldendeavourtoseeherinthecourseofthisday。”
“Iamperfectlysatisfied。”repliedEmma,withthebrightestsmiles,“andmostsincerelywishthemhappy。”
“Youaremateriallychangedsincewetalkedonthissubjectbefore。”
“Ihopeso——foratthattimeIwasafool。”
“AndIamchangedalso;forIamnowverywillingtograntyouallHarriet’sgoodqualities。Ihavetakensomepainsforyoursake,andforRobertMartin’ssake,whomIhavealwayshadreasontobelieveasmuchinlovewithherasever,togetacquaintedwithher。
Ihaveoftentalkedtoheragooddeal。YoumusthaveseenthatIdid。Sometimes,indeed,IhavethoughtyouwerehalfsuspectingmeofpleadingpoorMartin’scause,whichwasneverthecase;but,fromallmyobservations,Iamconvincedofherbeinganartless,amiablegirl,withverygoodnotions,veryseriouslygoodprinciples,andplacingherhappinessintheaffectionsandutilityofdomesticlife——
Muchofthis,Ihavenodoubt,shemaythankyoufor。”
“Me!“criedEmma,shakingherhead——“Ah!poorHarriet!“
Shecheckedherself,however,andsubmittedquietlytoalittlemorepraisethanshedeserved。
Theirconversationwassoonafterwardsclosedbytheentranceofherfather。Shewasnotsorry。Shewantedtobealone。
Hermindwasinastateofflutterandwonder,whichmadeitimpossibleforhertobecollected。Shewasindancing,singing,exclaimingspirits;
andtillshehadmovedabout,andtalkedtoherself,andlaughedandreflected,shecouldbefitfornothingrational。
Herfather’sbusinesswastoannounceJames’sbeinggoneouttoputthehorsesto,preparatorytotheirnowdailydrivetoRandalls;
andshehad,therefore,animmediateexcusefordisappearing。
Thejoy,thegratitude,theexquisitedelightofhersensationsmaybeimagined。ThesolegrievanceandalloythusremovedintheprospectofHarriet’swelfare,shewasreallyindangerofbecomingtoohappyforsecurity——Whathadshetowishfor?Nothing,buttogrowmoreworthyofhim,whoseintentionsandjudgmenthadbeeneversosuperiortoherown。Nothing,butthatthelessonsofherpastfollymightteachherhumilityandcircumspectioninfuture。
Seriousshewas,veryseriousinherthankfulness,andinherresolutions;
andyettherewasnopreventingalaugh,sometimesintheverymidstofthem。Shemustlaughatsuchaclose!Suchanendofthedolefuldisappointmentoffiveweeksback!Suchaheart——suchaHarriet!
Nowtherewouldbepleasureinherreturning——Everythingwouldbeapleasure。ItwouldbeagreatpleasuretoknowRobertMartin。
Highintherankofhermostseriousandheartfeltfelicities,wasthereflectionthatallnecessityofconcealmentfromMr。Knightleywouldsoonbeover。Thedisguise,equivocation,mystery,sohatefultohertopractise,mightsoonbeover。
Shecouldnowlookforwardtogivinghimthatfullandperfectconfidencewhichherdispositionwasmostreadytowelcomeasaduty。
Inthegayestandhappiestspiritsshesetforwardwithherfather;
notalwayslistening,butalwaysagreeingtowhathesaid;
and,whetherinspeechorsilence,connivingatthecomfortablepersuasionofhisbeingobligedtogotoRandallseveryday,orpoorMrs。Westonwouldbedisappointed。
Theyarrived——Mrs。Westonwasaloneinthedrawing-room:——
buthardlyhadtheybeentoldofthebaby,andMr。Woodhousereceivedthethanksforcoming,whichheaskedfor,whenaglimpsewascaughtthroughtheblind,oftwofigurespassingnearthewindow。
“ItisFrankandMissFairfax。”saidMrs。Weston。“Iwasjustgoingtotellyouofouragreeablesurprizeinseeinghimarrivethismorning。Hestaystillto-morrow,andMissFairfaxhasbeenpersuadedtospendthedaywithus——Theyarecomingin,Ihope。”
Inhalfaminutetheywereintheroom。Emmawasextremelygladtoseehim——buttherewasadegreeofconfusion——anumberofembarrassingrecollectionsoneachside。Theymetreadilyandsmiling,butwithaconsciousnesswhichatfirstallowedlittletobesaid;
andhavingallsatdownagain,therewasforsometimesuchablankinthecircle,thatEmmabegantodoubtwhetherthewishnowindulged,whichshehadlongfelt,ofseeingFrankChurchilloncemore,andofseeinghimwithJane,wouldyielditsproportionofpleasure。
WhenMr。Westonjoinedtheparty,however,andwhenthebabywasfetched,therewasnolongerawantofsubjectoranimation——
orofcourageandopportunityforFrankChurchilltodrawnearherandsay,“Ihavetothankyou,MissWoodhouse,foraverykindforgivingmessageinoneofMrs。Weston’sletters。Ihopetimehasnotmadeyoulesswillingtopardon。Ihopeyoudonotretractwhatyouthensaid。”
“No,indeed。”criedEmma,mosthappytobegin,“notintheleast。
Iamparticularlygladtoseeandshakehandswithyou——andtogiveyoujoyinperson。”
Hethankedherwithallhisheart,andcontinuedsometimetospeakwithseriousfeelingofhisgratitudeandhappiness。
“Isnotshelookingwell?“saidhe,turninghiseyestowardsJane。
“Betterthansheeverusedtodo?——YouseehowmyfatherandMrs。Westondoatuponher。”
Buthisspiritsweresoonrisingagain,andwithlaughingeyes,aftermentioningtheexpectedreturnoftheCampbells,henamedthenameofDixon——Emmablushed,andforbadeitsbeingpronouncedinherhearing。
“Icanneverthinkofit。”shecried,“withoutextremeshame。”
“Theshame。”heanswered,“isallmine,oroughttobe。Butisitpossiblethatyouhadnosuspicion?——Imeanoflate。Early,I
know,youhadnone。”
“Ineverhadthesmallest,Iassureyou。”
“Thatappearsquitewonderful。Iwasonceverynear——andIwishIhad——
itwouldhavebeenbetter。ButthoughIwasalwaysdoingwrongthings,theywereverybadwrongthings,andsuchasdidmenoservice——
ItwouldhavebeenamuchbettertransgressionhadIbrokenthebondofsecrecyandtoldyoueverything。”
“Itisnotnowwortharegret。”saidEmma。
“Ihavesomehope。”resumedhe,“ofmyuncle’sbeingpersuadedtopayavisitatRandalls;hewantstobeintroducedtoher。
WhentheCampbellsarereturned,weshallmeettheminLondon,andcontinuethere,Itrust,tillwemaycarryhernorthward——Butnow,Iamatsuchadistancefromher——isnotithard,MissWoodhouse?——
Tillthismorning,wehavenotoncemetsincethedayofreconciliation。
Donotyoupityme?“
Emmaspokeherpitysoverykindly,thatwithasuddenaccessionofgaythought,hecried,“Ah!bythebye。”thensinkinghisvoice,andlookingdemureforthemoment——“IhopeMr。Knightleyiswell?“Hepaused——Shecolouredandlaughed——“Iknowyousawmyletter,andthinkyoumayremembermywishinyourfavour。Letmereturnyourcongratulations——
IassureyouthatIhaveheardthenewswiththewarmestinterestandsatisfaction——HeisamanwhomIcannotpresumetopraise。”
Emmawasdelighted,andonlywantedhimtogooninthesamestyle;
buthismindwasthenextmomentinhisownconcernsandwithhisownJane,andhisnextwordswere,“Didyoueverseesuchaskin?——suchsmoothness!suchdelicacy!——
andyetwithoutbeingactuallyfair——Onecannotcallherfair。
Itisamostuncommoncomplexion,withherdarkeye-lashesandhair——
amostdistinguishingcomplexion!Sopeculiarlytheladyinit——
Justcolourenoughforbeauty。”
“Ihavealwaysadmiredhercomplexion。”repliedEmma,archly;“butdonotIrememberthetimewhenyoufoundfaultwithherforbeingsopale?——
Whenwefirstbegantotalkofher——Haveyouquiteforgotten?“
“Oh!no——whatanimpudentdogIwas!——HowcouldIdare——“
Buthelaughedsoheartilyattherecollection,thatEmmacouldnothelpsaying,“Idosuspectthatinthemidstofyourperplexitiesatthattime,youhadverygreatamusementintrickingusall——Iamsureyouhad——
Iamsureitwasaconsolationtoyou。”
“Oh!no,no,no——howcanyoususpectmeofsuchathing?
Iwasthemostmiserablewretch!“
“Notquitesomiserableastobeinsensibletomirth。Iamsureitwasasourceofhighentertainmenttoyou,tofeelthatyouweretakingusallin——PerhapsIamthereadiertosuspect,because,totellyouthetruth,Ithinkitmighthavebeensomeamusementtomyselfinthesamesituation。Ithinkthereisalittlelikenessbetweenus。”
Hebowed。
“Ifnotinourdispositions。”shepresentlyadded,withalookoftruesensibility,“thereisalikenessinourdestiny;thedestinywhichbidsfairtoconnectuswithtwocharacterssomuchsuperiortoourown。”
“True,true。”heanswered,warmly。“No,nottrueonyourside。
Youcanhavenosuperior,butmosttrueonmine——Sheisacompleteangel。
Lookather。Isnotsheanangelineverygesture?Observetheturnofherthroat。Observehereyes,assheislookingupatmyfather——
Youwillbegladtohearinclininghishead,andwhisperingseriously
thatmyunclemeanstogiveherallmyaunt’sjewels。Theyaretobenewset。Iamresolvedtohavesomeinanornamentforthehead。
Willnotitbebeautifulinherdarkhair?“
“Verybeautiful,indeed。”repliedEmma;andshespokesokindly,thathegratefullyburstout,“HowdelightedIamtoseeyouagain!andtoseeyouinsuchexcellentlooks!——Iwouldnothavemissedthismeetingfortheworld。
IshouldcertainlyhavecalledatHartfield,hadyoufailedtocome。”
Theothershadbeentalkingofthechild,Mrs。Westongivinganaccountofalittlealarmshehadbeenunder,theeveningbefore,fromtheinfant’sappearingnotquitewell。Shebelievedshehadbeenfoolish,butithadalarmedher,andshehadbeenwithinhalfaminuteofsendingforMr。Perry。Perhapssheoughttobeashamed,butMr。Westonhadbeenalmostasuneasyasherself——Intenminutes,however,thechildhadbeenperfectlywellagain。Thiswasherhistory;andparticularlyinterestingitwastoMr。Woodhouse,whocommendedherverymuchforthinkingofsendingforPerry,andonlyregrettedthatshehadnotdoneit。“SheshouldalwayssendforPerry,ifthechildappearedintheslightestdegreedisordered,wereitonlyforamoment。Shecouldnotbetoosoonalarmed,norsendforPerrytoooften。Itwasapity,perhaps,thathehadnotcomelastnight;for,thoughthechildseemedwellnow,verywellconsidering,itwouldprobablyhavebeenbetterifPerryhadseenit。”
FrankChurchillcaughtthename。
“Perry!“saidhetoEmma,andtrying,ashespoke,tocatchMissFairfax’seye。“MyfriendMr。Perry!WhataretheysayingaboutMr。Perry?——Hashebeenherethismorning?——Andhowdoeshetravelnow?——Hashesetuphiscarriage?“
Emmasoonrecollected,andunderstoodhim;andwhileshejoinedinthelaugh,itwasevidentfromJane’scountenancethatshetoowasreallyhearinghim,thoughtryingtoseemdeaf。
“Suchanextraordinarydreamofmine!“hecried。“Icanneverthinkofitwithoutlaughing——Shehearsus,shehearsus,MissWoodhouse。
Iseeitinhercheek,hersmile,hervainattempttofrown。
Lookather。Donotyouseethat,atthisinstant,theverypassageofherownletter,whichsentmethereport,ispassingunderhereye——
thatthewholeblunderisspreadbeforeher——thatshecanattendtonothingelse,thoughpretendingtolistentotheothers?“
Janewasforcedtosmilecompletely,foramoment;andthesmilepartlyremainedassheturnedtowardshim,andsaidinaconscious,low,yetsteadyvoice,“Howyoucanbearsuchrecollections,isastonishingtome!——
Theywillsometimesobtrude——buthowyoucancourtthem!“
Hehadagreatdealtosayinreturn,andveryentertainingly;
butEmma’sfeelingswerechieflywithJane,intheargument;andonleavingRandalls,andfallingnaturallyintoacomparisonofthetwomen,shefelt,thatpleasedasshehadbeentoseeFrankChurchill,andreallyregardinghimasshedidwithfriendship,shehadneverbeenmoresensibleofMr。Knightley’shighsuperiorityofcharacter。
Thehappinessofthismosthappyday,receiveditscompletion,intheanimatedcontemplationofhisworthwhichthiscomparisonproduced。
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IfEmmahadstill,atintervals,ananxiousfeelingforHarriet,amomentarydoubtofitsbeingpossibleforhertobereallycuredofherattachmenttoMr。Knightley,andreallyabletoacceptanothermanfromunbiasedinclination,itwasnotlongthatshehadtosufferfromtherecurrenceofanysuchuncertainty。
AveryfewdaysbroughtthepartyfromLondon,andshehadnosooneranopportunityofbeingonehouralonewithHarriet,thanshebecameperfectlysatisfied——unaccountableasitwas!——
thatRobertMartinhadthoroughlysupplantedMr。Knightley,andwasnowformingallherviewsofhappiness。
Harrietwasalittledistressed——didlookalittlefoolishatfirst:
buthavingonceownedthatshehadbeenpresumptuousandsilly,andself-deceived,before,herpainandconfusionseemedtodieawaywiththewords,andleaveherwithoutacareforthepast,andwiththefullestexultationinthepresentandfuture;for,astoherfriend’sapprobation,Emmahadinstantlyremovedeveryfearofthatnature,bymeetingherwiththemostunqualifiedcongratulations——
HarrietwasmosthappytogiveeveryparticularoftheeveningatAstley’s,andthedinnerthenextday;shecoulddwellonitallwiththeutmostdelight。Butwhatdidsuchparticularsexplain?——
Thefactwas,asEmmacouldnowacknowledge,thatHarriethadalwayslikedRobertMartin;andthathiscontinuingtoloveherhadbeenirresistible——Beyondthis,itmusteverbeunintelligibletoEmma。
Theevent,however,wasmostjoyful;andeverydaywasgivingherfreshreasonforthinkingso——Harriet’sparentagebecameknown。
Sheprovedtobethedaughterofatradesman,richenoughtoaffordherthecomfortablemaintenancewhichhadeverbeenhers,anddecentenoughtohavealwayswishedforconcealment——SuchwasthebloodofgentilitywhichEmmahadformerlybeensoreadytovouchfor!——
Itwaslikelytobeasuntainted,perhaps,asthebloodofmanyagentleman:butwhataconnexionhadshebeenpreparingforMr。Knightley——orfortheChurchills——orevenforMr。Elton!——
Thestainofillegitimacy,unbleachedbynobilityorwealth,wouldhavebeenastainindeed。
Noobjectionwasraisedonthefather’sside;theyoungmanwastreatedliberally;itwasallasitshouldbe:andasEmmabecameacquaintedwithRobertMartin,whowasnowintroducedatHartfield,shefullyacknowledgedinhimalltheappearanceofsenseandworthwhichcouldbidfairestforherlittlefriend。ShehadnodoubtofHarriet’shappinesswithanygood-temperedman;butwithhim,andinthehomeheoffered,therewouldbethehopeofmore,ofsecurity,stability,andimprovement。Shewouldbeplacedinthemidstofthosewholovedher,andwhohadbettersensethanherself;
retiredenoughforsafety,andoccupiedenoughforcheerfulness。
Shewouldbeneverledintotemptation,norleftforittofindherout。
Shewouldberespectableandhappy;andEmmaadmittedhertobetheluckiestcreatureintheworld,tohavecreatedsosteadyandperseveringanaffectioninsuchaman;——or,ifnotquitetheluckiest,toyieldonlytoherself。
Harriet,necessarilydrawnawaybyherengagementswiththeMartins,waslessandlessatHartfield;whichwasnottoberegretted——
TheintimacybetweenherandEmmamustsink;theirfriendshipmustchangeintoacalmersortofgoodwill;and,fortunately,whatoughttobe,andmustbe,seemedalreadybeginning,andinthemostgradual,naturalmanner。
BeforetheendofSeptember,EmmaattendedHarriettochurch,andsawherhandbestowedonRobertMartinwithsocompleteasatisfaction,asnoremembrances,evenconnectedwithMr。Eltonashestoodbeforethem,couldimpair——Perhaps,indeed,atthattimeshescarcelysawMr。Elton,butastheclergymanwhoseblessingatthealtarmightnextfallonherself——RobertMartinandHarrietSmith,thelatestcoupleengagedofthethree,werethefirsttobemarried。
JaneFairfaxhadalreadyquittedHighbury,andwasrestoredtothecomfortsofherbelovedhomewiththeCampbells——TheMr。Churchillswerealsointown;andtheywereonlywaitingforNovember。
Theintermediatemonthwastheonefixedon,asfarastheydared,byEmmaandMr。Knightley——TheyhaddeterminedthattheirmarriageoughttobeconcludedwhileJohnandIsabellawerestillatHartfield,toallowthemthefortnight’sabsenceinatourtotheseaside,whichwastheplan——JohnandIsabella,andeveryotherfriend,wereagreedinapprovingit。ButMr。Woodhouse——howwasMr。Woodhousetobeinducedtoconsent?——he,whohadneveryetalludedtotheirmarriagebutasadistantevent。
Whenfirstsoundedonthesubject,hewassomiserable,thattheywerealmosthopeless——Asecondallusion,indeed,gavelesspain——
Hebegantothinkitwastobe,andthathecouldnotpreventit——
averypromisingstepofthemindonitswaytoresignation。
Still,however,hewasnothappy。Nay,heappearedsomuchotherwise,thathisdaughter’scouragefailed。Shecouldnotbeartoseehimsuffering,toknowhimfancyinghimselfneglected;andthoughherunderstandingalmostacquiescedintheassuranceofboththeMr。Knightleys,thatwhenoncetheeventwereover,hisdistresswouldbesoonovertoo,shehesitated——shecouldnotproceed。
Inthisstateofsuspensetheywerebefriended,notbyanysuddenilluminationofMr。Woodhouse’smind,oranywonderfulchangeofhisnervoussystem,butbytheoperationofthesamesysteminanotherway——
Mrs。Weston’spoultry-housewasrobbedonenightofallherturkeys——
evidentlybytheingenuityofman。Otherpoultry-yardsintheneighbourhoodalsosuffered——PilferingwashousebreakingtoMr。Woodhouse’sfears——Hewasveryuneasy;andbutforthesenseofhisson-in-law’sprotection,wouldhavebeenunderwretchedalarmeverynightofhislife。Thestrength,resolution,andpresenceofmindoftheMr。Knightleys,commandedhisfullestdependence。
Whileeitherofthemprotectedhimandhis,Hartfieldwassafe——
ButMr。JohnKnightleymustbeinLondonagainbytheendofthefirstweekinNovember。
Theresultofthisdistresswas,that,withamuchmorevoluntary,cheerfulconsentthanhisdaughterhadeverpresumedtohopeforatthemoment,shewasabletofixherwedding-day——andMr。Eltonwascalledon,withinamonthfromthemarriageofMr。andMrs。RobertMartin,tojointhehandsofMr。KnightleyandMissWoodhouse。
Theweddingwasverymuchlikeotherweddings,wherethepartieshavenotasteforfineryorparade;andMrs。Elton,fromtheparticularsdetailedbyherhusband,thoughtitallextremelyshabby,andveryinferiortoherown——“Verylittlewhitesatin,veryfewlaceveils;amostpitifulbusiness!——Selinawouldstarewhensheheardofit。”——But,inspiteofthesedeficiencies,thewishes,thehopes,theconfidence,thepredictionsofthesmallbandoftruefriendswhowitnessedtheceremony,werefullyansweredintheperfecthappinessoftheunion。
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