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  Itwasafrostynight,andthestarswerebrilliant。Helookedupandsaid,“OhSaviourofmen,thyhouseisvaultedwithlight;thysecretplacesaresecretfromexcessoflight;intheeisnodarknessatall;thouhastnoterriblecryptsandbuilt-upplaces;thylightistheterrorofthosewholovethedarkness!Fillmyheartwiththylight;letmeneverhungerorthirstafteranythingbutthywill——thatImaywalkinthelight,andlightnotdarknessmaygoforthfromme。“

  Asheturnedtogoin,cameafaintchordfromtheaeolianharp。

  “Itsings,broodingovertheverynestofevildeeds!”hethought。

  “Thelighteternal,withkeenarrowsofradiantvictory,willyetatlastroutfromthesoulsofhiscreaturesthedemonsthathauntthem!

  “ButiftherebecreaturesofGodthathaveturnedtodemons,maynothumansoulsthemselvesturntodemons?WouldtheythenbevictoriousoverGod,toostrongforhimtoovercome——beyondthereachofrepentance?

  “Howwouldtheylive?Bytheirownpower?ThenweretheyGods!——Buttheydidnotmakethemselves,andcouldnotliveofthemselves。Ifnot,thentheymustlivebyGod\'spower。Howthenshouldtheybebeyondhisreach?

  “Ifthedemonscanneverbebroughtback,thenthelifeofGod,theall-pure,goesouttokeepalive,inandforevil,thatwhichisessentiallybad;forthatwhichisirredeemableisessentiallybad。“

  ThusreasonedDonalwithhimself,andhisreasoning,insteadoftroublinghisfaith,causedhimtoclingthemoretotheonlyOne,thesolehopeandsaviouroftheheartsofhismenandwomen,withoutwhomthewholeuniversewerebutacharnelhouseinwhichtheghostsofthedeadwentaboutcrying,notoverthelifethatwasgonefromthem,butitssorrows。

  Hestoodandgazedoutoverthecoldsea。Andashegazed,ashiveringsurgeofdoubt,achillwaveofnegation,camerollingoverhim。Heknewthatinamomenthewouldstrikeoutwiththeenergyofastrongswimmer,andrisetothetopofit;butnowitwastumblinghimaboutatitsevilwill。Hestoodandgazed——withadullsensethathewaswaitingforhiswill。Suddenlycametheconsciousnessthatheandhiswillwereone;thathehadnottowaitforhiswill,buthadtowake——towill,thatis,anddo,andsobe。

  Andtherewithhesaidtohimself:——

  “Itisneithertime,noreternity,norhumanconsolation,noreverlastingsleep,northesatisfiedjudgment,norattainedambition,eveninloveitself,thatisthecureforthings;itistheheart,thewill,thebeingoftheFather。Whilethatremains,theirremediable,theirredeemablecannotbe。Iftherearoseagriefintheheartofoneofhiscreaturesnototherwisetobedestroyed,hewouldtakeitintohimself,thereconsumeitinhisowncreativefire——himselfbearingthegrief,carryingthesorrow。Christdied——andwoulddieagainratherthanleaveoneheart-acheintherealmsofhislove——thatis,ofhiscreation。\'Blessedaretheywhohavenotseenandyethavebelieved!\'“

  Overhisheadtheskywasfullofshiningworlds——mansionsintheFather\'shouse,builtorbuilding。

  “Wearenotattheendofthings,“hethought,“butinthebeginningsandonthethresholdofcreation!TheFatherisasyoungaswhenfirstthestarsofthemorningsang——theAncientofDayswhocannevergrowold!Hewhohaseverfilledthedullunbelievingnationswithfoodandgladness,hasasplendourofdelightforthesoulsthatbelieve,everasbytheirobediencetheybecomecapableofreceivingit。“

  CHAPTERLXII。

  THECRYPT。

  “Whenareyougoingdownagaintothechapel,Mr。Grant?”saidladyArctura:shewasbetternow,andabletowork。

  “Iwasdownlastnight,andwanttogoagainthiseveningbymyself——ifyoudon\'tmind,mylady,“heanswered。“Iamsureitwillbebetterforyounottogodowntillyouarereadytogiveyourorderstohaveeverythingclearedawayforthelightandairtoenter。Thedampandclosenessoftheplacearetoomuchforyou。“

  “Ithinkitwasratherthewantofsleepthatmademeill,“sheanswered;“butyoucandojustasyouplease。“

  “Ithankyouforyourconfidence,mylady,“returnedDonal。“Idonotthinkyouwillrepentit。“

  “IknowIshallnot。“

  Havingsomethingstodofirst,itwaslatebeforeDonalwentdown——intentonlearningtheformermainentrance,andverifyingthepositionofthechapelinthecastle。

  Hebetookhimselftotheendofthepassageunderthelittlegallery,andthereexaminedthesignshehadobserved:thosemustbetheouterendsoftwoofthestepsofthegreatstaircase!theycamethrough,restingonthewall。Thatendofthechapel,then,adjoinedthemainstair。Evidently,too,adoorhadbeenbuiltupintheprocessofconstructingthestair。Thechapelthenhadnotbeenenteredfromthatlevelsincethebuildingofthestair。Originallytherehad,mostlikely,beenanoutsidestairtothisdoor,inanopencourt。

  Afteralittlemoreexamination,partialofnecessity,fromlackoflight,hewasonhiswayout,andalreadynearthetopofthemuralstair,thinkingofthefreshobservationshewouldtakeoutsideinthemorning,whenbehind,overtakinghimfromtheregionshehadleft,cameablastofair,andblewouthiscandle。Heshivered——notwiththecoldofit,thoughitdidbreatheofundergrounddampsanddoubtfulgrowths,butfromafeelingofitshavingbeensentafterhimtomakehimgodownagain——fordiditnotindicatesomeopeningtotheouterair?Herelightedhiscandleanddescended,carefullyguardingitwithonehand。Thecoldsighseemedtolingerabouthimashewent——gruesomeasfromacloseddepth,thesecretbosomofthecastle,intowhichthelightneverentered。But,whereveritcamefromlast,howeverearthyandfearful,itcamefirstfromtheopenregionsoflife,andhadbutpassedthroughagloomthatlifeitselfmustpass!Couldithavebeenadraughtdownthepipeofthemusic-chords?No,fortheywouldhaveloosedsomelight-wingedmessengerwithit!Hemustsearchtillhefounditsentrancebelow!

  Hecrossedthelittlegallery,descended,andwentagainintothechapel:itlayasstillasthetombwhichitwasnomore。Heseemedtomissthepresenceofthedead,andfeeltheplacedeserted。Allrounditswalls,asfarashecouldreachorsee,hesearchedcarefully,butcouldperceivenosignofpossibleentranceforthemessengerblast。Itcameagain!——plainlythroughtheopendoorunderthewindows。Hewentagainintothepassageoutsidethewall,andthemomentheturnedintoit,thedraughtseemedtocomefrombeneath,blowingupwards。Hestoopedtoexamine;hiscandlewasagainextinguished。Oncemoreherelightedit。Searchingthenalongthefloorandthefootofthewalls,hepresentlyfound,inthewallofthechapelitself,closetotheground,anarrowhorizontalopening:itmustpassunderthefloorofthechapel!Allhesawwasamereslit,buttheopeningmightbelarger,andpartiallycoveredbytheflooring-slab,whichwentallthelengthoftheslit!Hewouldtrytoraiseit!Thatwouldwantacrowbar!buthavinggotsofar,hewouldnotresttillheknewmore!Itmustbeverylateandthedomesticsallinbed;butwhathouritwashecouldnottell,forhehadlefthiswatchinhisroom。Itmightbemidnightandheburrowinglikeamoleabouttherootsoftheoldhouse,orlikeanevilthingintheheartofaman!Nomatter!hewouldfollowuphissearch——afterwhat,hedidnotknow。

  Hecreptup,andoutofthecastlebyhisownstair,sotothetool-house。Itwaslocked。Butlyingnearwasahalf-wornshovel:

  thatmightdo!hewouldhaveatrywithit!Likeoneinadreamofancientruins,creepingthroughmouldyandlow-browedplaces,hewentdownoncemoreintotheentrailsofthehouse。

  Insertingthesharpedgeofthewornshovelinthegapbetweenthestoneandthatnextit,heraiseditmorereadilythanhehadhoped,andsawbelowitasmallwindow,whosesillslopedsteeplyinward。

  Howdeeptheplacemightbe,andwhetheritwouldbepossibletogetoutofitagain,hemustdiscoverbeforeentering。Hetookaletterfromhispocket,lightedit,andthrewitin。Itrevealedadescentofaboutsevenfeet,intowhatlookedlikeacellar。Heblewhiscandleout,putitinhispocket,gotintothewindow,sliddowntheslope,andreachedhisnewlevelwithease。Hethenlightedhiscandle,andlookedabouthim。

  Hiseyefirstfellonalargeflatstoneinthefloor,likeagravestone,butwithoutanyornamentorinscription。Itwasaroughlyvaultedplace,unpaved,itsfloorofdamphard-beatenearth。

  Inthewalltotherightofthatthroughwhichhehadentered,wasanotheropening,lowdown,likethecrownofanarchtherestofwhichwasbeneaththefloor。Asnearashecouldjudge,itwasrightunderthebuilt-updoorinthepassageabove。Hecreptthroughit,andfoundhimselfunderthespiralofthegreatstair,inthesmallspaceatthebottomofitswell。Onthefloorlayadust-panandahouse-maid\'s-brush——andtherewasthetinydooratwhichtheywereshovedin,aftertheirmorning\'suseuponthestair!Itwasopen——inwards;hecreptthroughit:hewasinthegreathallofthehouse——andtherewasoneofitswindowswideopen!Afraidofbeingbyanychancediscovered,heputouthislight,andproceededupthestairinthedark。

  Hehadgonebutafewstepswhenheheardthesoundofdescendingfeet。Hestoppedandlistened:theyturnedintothehalf-wayroom。

  Whenhereachedit,heheardsoundswhichshowedthattheearlwasintheclosetbehindit。Thingsrushedtogetherinhismind。HehurrieduptoladyArctura\'sroom,thencedescended,forthethirdtimethatnight——butnofartherthantheoakdoor,passedthroughit,enteredthelittlechamber,andhasteningtothefartherendofit,laidhisearagainstthewall。Plainlyenoughheheardthesoundshehadexpected——thoseofthedream-walkingratherthansleep-walkingearl,moaning,andcallinginalowvoiceofentreatyaftersomeonewhosenamedidnotgrowaudibletothelistener。

  “Ah!”thoughtDonal,“whowouldfindithardtobelieveinroamingandhauntingghosts,thathadonceseenthispoormanroaminghisownhouse,andhauntingthatchamber!HoweasilyIcouldpunishhimnow,withalightningblastofterror!”

  Itwasbutathought;itdidnotamounttoatemptation;Donalknewhehadnoright。VengeancebelongstotheLord,forhealoneknowshowtouseit。

  Idonotbelievethatmerepunishmentexistsanywhereintheeconomyofthehighest;Ithinkmerepunishmentahumanidea,notadivineone。Buttheconsumingfireismoreterriblethananypunishmentinventedbyriotousandcruelimagination。Punishmentindeeditis——notmerepunishment;apowerofGodforhiscreature。LoveisGod\'sbeing;loveishiscreativeenergy;theyareone:God\'spunishmentsareforthecastingoutofthesinthatuncreates,fortherecreatingofthethingshislovemadeandsinhasunmade。

  Heheardtheleanhandsoftheearlgoslowlysweeping,attheendsofhislongarms,overthewall:hehadseenthething,elsehecouldhardlyhaveinterpretedthesounds;andheheardhimmutteringonandon,thoughmuchtoolowforhiswordstobedistinguishable。

  Hadtheybeen,Donalbythistimewassoconvincedthathehadtodowithanevilanddangerousman,thathewouldhavehadlittlescrupleinlistening。Itisonlyrighteousnessthathasarighttosecrecy,anddoesnotwantit;evilhasnorighttosecrecy,aloneintenselydesiresit,andragesatbeingfoiledofit;forwhenitsdeedscometothelight,evenevilhasrighteousnessenoughlefttobeashamedofthem。Buthecouldremainnolonger;hisverysoulfeltsickwithinhim。Heturnedhastilyawaytoleavetheplace。Butcarryinghislighttoomuchinfront,andforgettingthestool,hecameagainstitandknockeditover,notwithoutnoise。Aloudcryfromtheothersideofthewallrevealedthedismayhehadcaused。

  Itwasfollowedbyastillness,andthenamoaning。

  HemadehastetofindSimmons,andsendhimtohismaster。Heheardnothingafterwardsoftheaffair。

  CHAPTERLXIII。

  THECLOSET。

  TenderoverladyArctura,Donalwouldaskaquestionortwoofthehousekeeperbeforedisclosingwhatfurtherhehadfound。Hesoughtherroom,therefore,whileArcturaandDavie,muchtogethernow,werereadinginthelibrary。

  “Didyoueverhearanythingaboutthatlittleroomonthestair,mistressBrookes?”heasked。

  “Icannasay,“sheanswered——butthoughtfully,“——Bideawee:auldauntiedidmentionsomethinganceaboot——bideawee——Ihaeawullin\'

  memory——maybeI\'llmin\'upo\'\'ti\'thenoo!——Itwassomethingabootbiggin\'upan\'takin\'doon——somethinghewastodo,an\'somethingheneverdid!——I\'msureIcannatell!Butgiemetime,an\'I\'llmin\'

  upo\'\'t!Anceisayewi\'me——onlyImaunhaetime!”

  Donalwaited,andsaidnotaword。

  “Imin\'thismuch,“shesaidatlength,“——thattheyusedtobethegitheri\'thatroom。Imin\'toothattherewassomethingabootbuildin\'upaewa\',an\'pu\'in\'doonanither——It\'scomin\'——it\'scomin\'backtome!”

  Shepausedagainawhile,andthensaid:

  “AllIcanrecollec\',Mr。Grant,isthis:thatefterherdeath,hebiggitupsomethingnofarfraethatroom!——whatwas\'tnoo?——an\'

  therewassomethingabootmakin\'o\'theroombigger!Hoothatcouldbebybuildin\'up,Icannathink!YetIfeelsurethatwaswhathedid!”

  “Wouldyoumindcomingtotheplace?”saidDonal。“Toseeitmighthelpyoutoremember。“

  “Iwull,sir。Comeyehereaboothalfefterten,an\'wes\'gangthegither。“

  Assoonasthehousewasquiet,theywent。ButMistressBrookescouldrecallnothing,andDonalgazedabouthimtonopurpose。

  “What\'sthat?”hesaidatlast,pointingtothewallontheothersideofwhichwasthelittlechamber。

  Twoarches,inchalk,asitseemed,hadattractedhisgaze。Lightsurelywasabouttodrawnighthroughthedarkness!Chaossurelywassettlingalittletowardsorder!

  Theonearchwasdrawnoppositethehiddenchamber;theotheragainsttheearl\'scloset,asithadcometobecalledinthehouse——mostofthedomesticsthinkinghetheresaidhisprayers。Itlookedasiftherehadbeenanintentionofpiercingthewallwithsucharches,tothrowthetwosmallroomsontheothersideasrecessesintothelarger。Butifthathadbeentheintent,whatcouldthebuildingofawall,vaguelyrecollectedbymistressBrookes,havebeenfor?Thatawallhadbeenbuilthedidnotdoubt,forhebelievedheknewthewall,butwhy?

  “What\'sthat?”saidDonal。

  “What?”returnedMrs。Brookes。

  “Thosetwoarches。“

  Thehousekeeperlookedatthemthoughtfullyforafewmoments。

  “Icannahelpfancyin\',“shesaidslowly,“——yes,I\'msurethat\'sthevarrathingmyaunttoldmeaboot!That\'sthetwaplaceswhaurhewasgoin\'totakthewalldoon,tomaktheroomlairger。ButI\'msureshesaidsomethingabootbuildin\'awallasweel!”

  “Lookhere,“saidDonal;“Iwillmeasurethedistancefromthedoortotheothersideofthisfirstarch——Nowcomeintotheclosetbehind。Lookhere!Thissamemeasurementtakesusrightuptotheendoftheplace!Soyouseeifweweretoopentheotherarch,itwouldbeintosomethingbehindthiswall。“

  “Thenthismaybethevarrawa\'hebiggit?”

  “Idon\'tdoubtit;butwhatcouldhehavehaditbuiltfor,ifhewasgoingtoopentheotherwall?Imustthinkitallover!——Itwasafterhiswife\'sdeath,yousay?”

  “Yes,Ibelieveso。“

  “Onemighthavethoughthewouldnotcareaboutenlargingtheroomaftershewasgone!”

  “But,sir,hewasnajistsicapattreno\'aguidman;“saidthehousekeeper。“An\'whatformakthisroomless?”

  “Mayitnothavebeenforthesakeofshuttingout,orhidingsomething?”suggestedDonal。

  “Idorememberacertainthing!——Curious!——Butwhatthenastotheopenin\'o\'\'tefter?”

  “Hehasneverdoneit!”saidDonalsignificantly。“Thethingtakesshapetomeinthisway:——thathewantedtobuildsomethingoutofsight——toannihilateit;butinordertopreventspeculation,heprofessedtheintentionofcastingtheoneroomintotheother;thenbuiltthewallacross,onthepretencethatitwasnecessaryforsupportwhentheotherwasbrokenthrough——orperhapsthattworecesseswitharcheswouldlookbetter;butwhenhehadgotthewallbuilt,heputoffopeningthearchesononepretextoranother,tillthethingshouldbeforgottenaltogether——asyouseeitisalready,almostentirely!——Ihavebeenatthebackofthatwall,andheardtheearlmoaningandcryingonthissideofit!”

  “Godblessme!”criedthegoodwoman。“I\'mnoeasyscaret,butthat\'sfearfu\'tothinko\'!”

  “Youwouldnotcaretocometherewithme?”

  “Nothenicht,sir。Cometomyroomagain,an\'Is\'makyeacupo\'

  coffee,an\'tellyethestory——it\'sa\'comebacktomenoo——thething\'atmademyaunttellmeabootthebuildin\'o\'thiswa\'。

  \'Deed,sir,Ihaehardlyadoobtthethingwasjistasyesay!”

  Theywenttoherroom:therewasladyArcturasittingbythefire!

  “Mylady!”criedthehousekeeper。“IthouchtIleftyesoon\'

  asleep!”

  “SoIwas,Idaresay,“answeredArctura;“butIwokeagain,andfindingyouhadnotcomeup,IthoughtIwouldgodowntoyou。IwascertainyouandMr。Grantwouldbesomewheretogether!Haveyoubeendiscoveringanythingmore?”

  Mrs。BrookesgaveDonalalook:helefthertotellasmuchoraslittleasshepleased。

  “Wehaebeenprowlin\'abootthehoose,butnodoonyon\'er,mylady。

  Ithinkyouan\'mewaddoweeltolea\'thattoMr。Grant!”

  “Whenyourladyshipisquitereadytohaveeverythingsettorights,“saidDonal,“andtohavearesurrectionofthechapel,thenIshallbegladtogowithyouagain。ButIwouldrathernoteventalkmoreaboutitjustatpresent。“

  “Asyouplease,Mr。Grant,“repliedladyArctura。“WewillsaynothingmoretillIhavemadeupmymind。Idon\'twanttovexmyuncle,andIfindthequestionratheradifficultone——andthemoredifficultthatheisworsethanusual——Willyounotcometobednow,mistressBrookes?”

  CHAPTERLXIV。

  THEGARLAND-ROOM。

  Allthroughtheterribletime,thesenseofhelpandcomfortandprotectioninthepresenceoftheyoungtutor,wentongrowinginthemindofArctura。Itwasnothingtoher——whatcoulditbe?——thathewasthesonofaveryhumblepair;thathehadbeenashepherd,andacow-herd,andafarmlabourer——lessthannothing。Sheneverthoughtofthefactsofhislifeexceptsympathetically,seekingtoenterintothefeelingsofhismemorialchildhoodandyouth;shewouldneverhaveknownanythingofthosefactsbutfortheirlovelyintimaciesofallsortswithNature——naturedivine,human,animal,cosmical。Bysharingwithherhisemotionalhistory,Donalhadmadeitsfactsprecioustoher;throughthemhehadgatheredhisbest——byhomeandbyprayer,bymotherandfather,bysheepandmountainsandwindandsky。Andnowhewastoheratowerofstrength,arefuge,astrongcity,theshadowofagreatrockinawearyland。Shetrustedhimthemorethatheneverinvitedhertrust——neverputhimselfbeforeher;foralwaysbeforeherhesetLife,theperfectheart-originofherandhisyetunperfectedhumanity,teachinghertohungerandthirstafterbeingrighteouslikeGod,withtheassuranceofbeingfilled。ShehadoncetrustedinMissCarmichael,notwithherhigherbeing,onlywithherjudgment,andbothherjudgmentandherfriendhadmisledher。Donalhadtaughtherthatobedience,nottomanbuttoGod,wastheonlyguidetoholyliberty,andsohadhelpedhertobreakthebondsofthosetraditionswhich,intheshapeofauthoritativeutterancesofthisorthatchurch,layburdensgrievoustobeborneuponthesoulsofmen。ForChrist,againstallthechurches,seemedtohertoexpressDonal\'smission。Anairofpeace,anatmosphereofsummertwilightafterthegoingdownofthesun,seemedtohertoprecedehimandannouncehisapproachwitharadiationfeltasrest。Shequestionedherselfnowiseabouthim。Fallinginlovewasathingunsuggestedtoher;ifshewasinwhatiscalleddanger,itwasofabetterthing。

  Thenextdayshedidnotappear:mistressBrookeshadpersuadedhertokeepherbedagainforadayortwo。Therewasnothingreallythematterwithher,shesaidherself,butshewassotiredshedidnotcaretoliftherheadfromthepillow。Shehadsleptwell,andwastroubledaboutnothing。ShesenttobegMr。GranttoletDaviegoandreadtoher,andtogivehimsomethingtoread,goodforhimaswellasforher。

  DonaldidnotseeDavieagaintillthenextmorning。

  “Oh,Mr。Grant!”hesaid,“youneversawanythingsoprettyasArkieisinbed!Sheissowhite,andsosweet!andshespeakswithavoicesogentleandlow!Shewassokindtomeforgoingtoreadtoher!Ineversawanybodylikeher!Shelooksasifshehadjustsaidherprayers,andGodhadtoldhersheshouldhaveeverythingshewanted。“

  Donalwonderedalittle,buthopedmore。SurelyshemustbefindingrestintheconsciousnessofGod!Butwhywasshesowhite?Wasshegoingtodie?Apangshottohisheart:ifsheweretogofromthecastle,itwouldbehardtostayinit,evenforthesakeofDavie!

  Donal,nomorethanArctura,imaginedhimselffalleninlove:hehadlovedonce,andhishearthadnotyetdoneaching——thoughmorewiththememorythanthepresenceofpain!HewasutterlysatisfiedwithwhattheFatherofthechildrenhaddecreed,andwouldneverloveagain!ButhedidnotseektohidefromhimselfthatthefriendshipofladyArctura,andthehelpshesoughtandhegave,hadaddedafreshandstronginteresttohislife。Atthefirstdawnofpowerinhisheart,whenhebegantomakesongsinthefieldsandonthehills,hehadfeltthattobrightenwithtruelightthecloudedlivesofdespondentbrothersandsisterswastheonethingworthestlivingfor:itwaswhattheLordcameintotheworldfor;neitherhadhistroublemadehimforgetit——formorethanoneweekorso:

  whilethepainwasyetgnawinggrievously,hewoketoitagainwithself-accusation——almostself-contempt。Tohavehelpedthislovelycreature,whoselifehadseemedlaptinanevercloser-claspingshroudofperplexity,wasathingtobegladof——nottothedayofhisdeath,buttothenever-endingendofhislife!wasanhonourconferreduponhimbytheFather,tolastforevermore!ForhehadhelpedtoopenahumandoorfortheLordtoenter!shewithinheardhimknock,but,trying,wasunabletoopen!TobeGod\'shelperwithourfellowsistheonehighcalling;thepresenceofGodinthehousetheonehighcondition。

  AttheendofaweekArcturawasbetter,andabletoseeDonal。ShehadhadmistressBrookes\'sbedmovedintothesameroomwithherown,andhadmadethedressing-roomintoasitting-room。Itwassunnyandpleasant——theveryplace,Donalthought,hewouldhavechosenforher。Thebedroomtoo,whichthehousekeeperhadpersuadedhertotakewhensheleftherown,wasoneofthelargestinthecastle——theGarland-room——old-fashioned,ofcourse,butascheerfulasstatelinesswouldpermit,withgorgeoushangingsandgreatpictures——farfromhomely,butwithsuninithalftheday。Donalcongratulatedheronthechange。Shehadbeenpreventedfrommakingonesooner,shesaid,bythedreadofowinganycomforttocircumstance:itmightdeceiveherastoherrealcondition!

  “ItcouldnotdeceiveGod,though,“answeredDonal,“whofillswithrighteousnessthosewhohungerafterit。Itispridetorefuseanythingthatmighthelpustoknowhim;andofallthingshissun-litworldspeaksofthefatheroflights!Ifthatmakesushappier,itmakesusfittertounderstandhim,andhecaneasilysendwhatcloudmaybeneedfultotemperit。Wemustnotmakeourownworld,inflictourownpunishments,ororderourowninstruction;wemustsimplyobeythevoiceinourhearts,andtakelovinglywhathesends。“

  Thenextdayshetoldhimshehadhadabeautifulnight,fulloftheloveliestdreams。Oneofthemwas,thatachildcameoutofagrassyhillockbythewayside,calledhermamma,andsaidshewasmuchobligedtoherfortakingheroffthecoldstone,andmakingherabutterfly;andwiththatthechildspreadoutgorgeousandgreatwingsandsoareduptoawhitecloud,andtheresatlaughingmerrilytoher。

  EveryafternoonDaviereadtoher,andthenceDonalgainedaduty——thatoffindingsuitablepabulumforthetwo。Hewasnotwidelyreadinlightliterature,anditmadenecessarynotalittleexplorationintheregionofit。

  CHAPTERLXV。

  THEWALL。

  Onthedayafterthelasttriadinthehousekeeper\'sparlour,asDonalsatintheschoolroomwithDavie——aboutnoonitwas——hebecameawarethatforsometimehehadbeenhearinglaboriousblowsapparentlyatagreatdistance:nowthatheattended,theyseemedtobeinthecastleitself,deadenedbymass,notdistance。Withafeargraduallybecomingmoredefinite,hesatlisteningforafewmoments。

  “Davie,“hesaid,“runandseewhatisgoingon。“

  Theboycamerushingbackingreatexcitement。

  “Oh,Mr。Grant,whatdoyouthink!”hecried。“Idobelievemyfatherisafterthelostroom!Theyarebreakingdownawall!”

  “Where?”askedDonal,halfstartingfromhisseat。

  “Inthelittleroombehindthehalf-wayroom——onthestair,youknow!”

  Donalwassilent:whatmightnotbetheconsequences!

  “Youmaygoandseethematwork,Davie,“hesaid。“Weshallhavenomorelessonsthismorning——Wasyourpapawiththem?”

  “No,sir——atleast,Ididnotseehim。Simmonstoldmehesentforthemasonsthismorning,andsetthemtotakethewalldown。Oh,thankyou,Mr。Grant!Itissuchfun!Idowonderwhatisbehindit!

  Itmaybeaplaceyouknowquitewell,oraplaceyouneversawbefore!”

  Davieranoff,andDonalinstantlyspedtoacornerwherehehadhiddensometools,thencetoladyArctura\'sdesertedroom,andsototheoakdoor。Herememberedseeinganotherstapleinthesamepost,alittlelowerdown:ifhecouldgetthatout,hewoulddriveitinbesidetheremainsoftheother,soastoholdtheboltofthelock:

  iftheearlknewthewayin,asdoubtlesshedid,hemustnotlearnthatanotherhadfoundit——notyetatleast!Ashewentdown,everyblowofthemasonspoundingatthewall,seemedinhisveryears。

  Hepeepedthroughthepress-door:theyhadnotyetgotthroughthewall:nolightwasvisible!Hemadehastetorestorethings——onlyastoolandafewpapers——totheirexactpositionswhenfirstheentered。Closetohimontheothersideofthepartition,shakingtheplace,thehugeblowswerefallinglikethoseofaramonthewallofabesiegedcity,ofwhichhewasthewholegarrison。Hesteppedintothepressanddrewthedoorafterhim:withhislastglancebehindhimhesaw,inthefaintgleamoflightthatcamewithit,astonefall:hemustmakehaste:thedemolitionwouldgoonmuchfasternow;butbeforetheyhadtheopeninglargeenoughtopass,hewouldhavedonewhathewanted!Withastrongpieceofironforalever,hedrewthestaplefromthepost,thendroveitinastrideofthebolt,carefultotimehisblowstothoseofthemasons。Thatdone,herandowntothechapel,gatheredwhatdusthecouldsweepupfrombehindthealtarandlaiditonitstop,restoredonthebed,withitsowndust,alittleoftheoutlineofwhathadlainthere,droppedtheslabtoitsplaceinthefloorofthepassage,closedthedoorofthechapelwithsomedifficultybecauseofitsbrokenhinge,andascended。

  Thesoundsofbatteringhadceased,andashepassedtheoakdoorhelaidhiseartoit:someonewasintheplace!thelidofthebureaushutwithaloudbang,andheheardalockturned。Thewallcouldnotbehalfdownyet:theearlmusthaveenteredthemomenthecouldgetthrough!

  Donalhastenedup,andoutofthedreadfulplace,puttheslabintheopening,secureditwithastrutagainsttheoppositesideoftherecess,andclosedtheshuttersanddrewthecurtainsoftheroom;iftheearlcameupthestairinthewall,foundthestoneimmovable,andsawnolightthroughanychinkaboutitsedges,hewouldnotsuspectithadbeendisplaced!

  HewentthentoladyArctura。

  “Ihaveagreatdealtotellyou,“hesaid,“butatthismomentI

  cannot:Iamafraidoftheearlfindingmewithyou!”

  “Whyshouldyoumindthat?”saidArctura。

  “BecauseIthinkheissuspiciousaboutthelostroom。Hehashadawalltakendownthismorning。Pleasedonotlethimseeyouknowanythingaboutit。Daviethinksheissetonfindingthelostroom:

  Ithinkheknewallaboutitlongago。Youcanaskhimwhathehasbeendoing:youmusthaveheardthemasons!”

  “IhopeIshallnotstumbleintoanythinglikeastory,forifIdoImustoutwitheverything!”

  Intheafternoon,Daviewasfullofthecuriouslittleplacehisfatherhaddiscoveredbehindthewall;but,ifthatwasthelostroom,hesaid,itwasnotatallworthmakingsuchafussabout:itwasnothingbutabigcloset,withanolddesk-kindofthinginit!

  Intheafternoonalso,theearlwenttoseehisniece。Itwasthefirsttimetheymetafterhisrudebehaviouronherproposaltosearchforthelostroom。

  “Whatwereyoudoingthismorning,uncle?”shesaid。“Therewassuchathumpingandbangingsomewhereinthecastle!Daviesaidyouweredetermined,hethought,tofindthelostroom。“

  “Nothingofthekind,mylove,“answeredtheearl。“——Idohopetheywillnotspoilthestaircarryingthestonesandmortardown!”

  “Whatwasitthen,uncle?”

  “Simplythis,mydear:mylatewife,youraunt,andI,hadaplanfortakingthatclosetbehindmyroomonthestairintotheroomitself。Inpreparation,Ihadawallbuiltacrossthemiddleofthecloset,soastodivideitandmaketworecessesofit,andactalsoasabuttresstotheweakenedwall。Thenyourauntdied,andI

  hadn\'tthehearttoopentherecessesordoanythingmoreinthematter。Soonehalfoftheclosetwascutoff,andremainedinaccessible。Buttherehadbeenleftinitanoldbureau,containingpapersofsomeconsequence,foritwasheavy,andintendedtooccupythesamepositionafterthearcheswereopened。

  Now,asithappens,Iwantoneofthosepapers,sothewallhashadtocomedownagain。“

  “But,uncle,whatapity!”saidArctura。“Whydidyounotopenthearches?Therecesseswouldhavebeensoprettyinthatroom!”

  “IamsorryIdidnotthinkofaskingyouwhatyouwouldlikedoneaboutit,mychild!ThefactisIneverthoughtofyourtakinganyinterestinthematter;Ihadnaturallylostallmine。Youwillpleasetoobserve,however,IhaveonlyrestoredwhatIhadmyselfdisarranged——notmeddledwithanythingbelongingtothecastle!”

  “Butnowyouhavethemasonshere,whynotgoon,andmakealittlesearchforthelostroom?”saidArctura,venturingoncemore。

  “Wemightpulldownthecastleandbenonethewiser!Bah!thebuildingupofhalftheclosetmayhavegivenrisetothewholestory!”

  “Surely,uncle,thelegendisolderthanthat!”

  “Itmaybe;youcannotbesure。Onceagoing,itwouldimmediatelycrybacktoaremoteage。Provethatanyoneeverspokeofitbeforethebuildingofthatfoolishwall。“

  “Surelysomerememberhearingitlongbeforethat!”

  “Nothingismoretreacherousthanamemoryconfrontedwithageneralbelief,“saidtheearl,andtookhisleave。

  ThenextmorningArcturawenttoseethealteration。Sheopenedthedoorofthelittleroom:itwastwiceitsformersize,andtwobureauswerestandingagainstthewall!Shepeepedintothecupboardattheendofit,butsawnothingthere。

  Thatsamemorningshemadeuphermindthatshewouldgonofartheratpresentinregardtothechapel:itwouldbetobreakwithheruncle!

  Intheevening,sheacquaintedDonalwithherresolve,andhecouldnotsayshewaswrong。Therewasnonecessityforopposingheruncle——theremightsooncomeone!Hetoldherhowhehadenteredtheclosetfrombehind,andofthenoisehehadmadethenightbefore,whichhadperhapsledtotheopeningoftheplace;buthedidnottellherofwhathehadfoundonthebureau。Thetimemightcomewhenhemustdoso,butnowhedarednotrenderherrelationswithheruncleyetmoreuncomfortable;neitherwasitlikelysuchawomanwouldconsenttomarrysuchamanashercousinhadshownhimself;

  whenthatdangerappeared,itwouldbetimetointerpose;forthemeresuccessiontoanemptytitle,hewasnotsurethathewasboundtospeak。Thebranchwhichcouldproducesuchscions,mightwellbeitselfafalsegraftonthetruestemofthefamily!——ifnot,whatwasthefamilyworth?Hemustatalleventsbesureitwashisbusinessbeforehemovedinthematter!

  CHAPTERLXVI。

  PROGRESSANDCHANGE。

  Thingswentonveryquietlyforatime。Arcturagrewbetter,resumedherstudies,andmadeexcellentprogress。Shewouldhaveworkedharder,butDonalwouldnotlether。Hehatedforcing——evenwiththegoodwilloftheplantitself。Hebelievedinaholy,unhastinggrowth。God\'swayswantGod\'stime。

  Longafter,peoplewouldsometimessaytohim——

  “Thatisverywellintheabstract;butinthesedaysofhurryayoungfellowwouldthatwaybeleftagesbehind!”

  “WithGod,“wouldDonalsay。

  “Tut,tut!thethingwouldneverwork!”

  “Foryourends,“Donalwouldanswer,“itcertainlywouldneverwork;

  butyourendsarenotthoseoftheuniverse!”

  “Idonotpretendtheyare;buttheyarethesuccessoftheboy。“

  “Thatisoneoftheendsoftheuniverse;andyourrewardwillbetothwartitforaseason。Ideclinetomakeoneinaconspiracyagainstthedesignofourcreator:Iwouldfaindieloyal!”

  Hewasofcourselaughedat,andnotalittledespised,asanextravagantenthusiast。Butthosewholaughedfoundithardtosayforwhathewasenthusiastic。Itseemedhardlyforeducation,whenhewouldevendowhathecouldsometimestokeepapupilback!Hedidnotcaretomakethebestofanyone!Thetruthwas,Donal\'sbestwassomanymilesa-headoftheirs,thatitwasbelowtheirhorizonaltogether。Iftherebeanyrelationbetweentimeandthehumanmind,everyforcingofhumanprocess,whetherinspiritorintellect,ishurtful,aretardingofGod\'splan。

  LadyArctura\'soldtroublesweregraduallyfadingintothelimboofvanities。Attimes,however,mostlywhenunwell,theywouldcomeinuponherlikeaflood:whatif,afterall,Godweretheself-lovingbeingtheologypresented——abeingfromwhomnolovinghumanheartcouldbutrecoilwithaholydislike!whatifitwasbecauseofanaturespeciallyevilthatshecouldnotaccepttheGodinwhomthepriestsandeldersofherpeoplebelieved!Butagainandagain,inthemidstofprofoundestwretchednessfromsuchdoubt,hadasuddenflushoftheworld\'sbeauty——thatbeautywhichJesushastoldustoconsiderandthemodernphariseetoavoid,brokenlikegentlestmightiestsunrisethroughthehellishfog,andshehadfeltapoweruponherasfromtheheartofaveryGod——aGodsuchasshewouldgiveherlifetobelievein——onebeforewhomshewouldcastherselfinspeechlessadoration——notofhisgreatness——ofthatshefeltlittle,butofhislovingkindness,thegentlenessthatwasmakinghergreat。ThenwouldshecareutterlyforGodandhisChrist,nothingforwhatmensaidaboutthem:theLordnevermeanthislambstobeunderthetyrannyofany,leastofallthetyrannyofhisownmostimperfectchurch!itsworkistoteach;whereitcannotteach,itmustnotrule!ThenwouldGodappeartohernotonlytrue,butreal——theheartofthehuman,towhichshecouldcling,andsorest。

  Thecorruptionofallreligioncomesofleavingthehuman,andGodasthecausingHuman,forsomethingimaginedholier。MenwhodonotseethelovelinessoftheTruth,searchtilltheyfindalietheycancalllovely。Whatbutahumanrealitycouldtheheartofmaneverlove!whatelseareweofferedinJesusbuttheabsolutelyhuman?ThatJesushastwonaturesisofthemostmischievousfictionsoftheology。Thedivineandthehumanarenottwo。

  Suddenly,afteranabsenceofmonths,reappearedlordForgue——cheerful,manly,onthebesttermswithhisfather,andplainlywillingtobeonstillbettertermswithhiscousin!Hehadlefttheplaceamooningyouth;hecamebackamanoftheworld——easyincarriage,courteousinmanners,sereneintemper,aboundinginwhatseemedtheresultsofobservation,attentivebutnottooattentive,jollywithDavie,distantwithDonal,politetoall。Donalcouldhardlyreceivetheevidenceofhissenses:hewouldhavewonderedmorehadheknowneveryfactorinthechange。Allabouthimseemedtosayitshouldnotbehisfaultifthefolliesofhisyouthremainedunforgotten;andhisairycarriagesatwelluponhim。NonethelessDonalfelttherewasnorestorationofthecharmwhichhadatfirstattractedhim;thatwasutterlyvanished。Hefeltcertainhehadbeengoingdownhill,andwasnow,insteadofnegatively,consciouslyandpositivelyuntrue。

  Withgradationsundefined,butnotunmarkedofDonal,asifthemanfoundhimselfunderinfluencesofwhichtheyouthhadbeenunaware,hebegantoshowhimselfnotindifferenttotheattractionsofhiscousin。Heexpressedconcernthatherhealthwasnotwhatithadbeen;soughtherinherroomwhenshedidnotappear;professedaninterestinknowingwhatbooksshewasreading,andwhatwereherstudieswithDonal;behavedlikeagoodbrother-cousin,whowouldnotbesorrytobesomethingmore。

  Andnowtheearl,totheastonishmentofthehousehold,begantoappearattable;and,apparentlyasaconsequenceofthis,Donalwasrequestedratherthaninvitedtotakehismealswiththefamily——notaltogethertohissatisfaction,seeinghecouldnotonlyreadwhileheatealone,butcouldgetthroughmorequickly,andhavethetimethussaved,forthingsofgreaterconsequence。HispresencemadeiteasierforlordForguetoacthispart,andthemannershebroughttothefrontleftlittletobedesired。HebowedtothejudgmentofArctura,andseemedtowelcomethatofhisfather,towhomhewasnowasrespectfulasmoralistcoulddesire。Yethesometimesfacedacardhedidnotmeantoshow:whothatisnotabsolutelytruecanescapethemishap!——therewascondescensioninhispolitenesstoDonal!andthis,hadtherebeennothingelse,wouldhavebeenenoughtorevoltArctura。Butintruthheimpressedheraltogetherasamanofoutsides;shefeltthatshedidnotseethemanhewas,butthenearestapproachhecouldmaketothemanhewouldbetakenfor。Hewasgracious,dignified,responsive,kind,amusing,accurate,ready——everythingbuttrue。Hewouldmakeofhisoutermanallbutwhatitwasmeantfor——arevelationoftheinner。Itwasthatnotwithstanding。Hewasamandressedinaman,andhisdresswasarevelationofmuchthathewas,whileheintendeditonlytoshowmuchthathewasnot。Nomancanhelpunveilinghimself,howeverlonghemayescapeevenhisowndetection。Thereisnothingcoveredthatshallnotberevealed。Thingsweremeanttocomeout,andberead,andunderstood,inthefaceoftheuniverse。Thesoulofeverymanisasasecretbook,whosecontentisyetwrittenonitscoverforthereadingofthewise。Howdifferentlyisitreadbythefool,whoseveryunderstandingisamisunderstanding!HetakesamanforaGodwhenonthepointofbeingeatenupofworms!hebuysforthirtypiecesofsilverhimwhomthesepulchrecannothold!Wellforthoseintheworldofrevelation,whogivetheirsinsnoquarterinthis!

  ForguehadbeeninEdinburghapartofthetime,inEnglandanotherpart。Hehadmanythingstotellofthepeoplehehadseen,andthesportshehadsharedin。Hehaddevelopedandenlargedaveinofgentlemanlysatire,whichhekeptsuppliedbytheobservationandanalysisofthepeculiarities,generallyweaknesses,ofothers。

  These,asamatterofcourse,hejudgedmerelybythepoorstandardofsociety:questionedconcerninganyuponthelargerhumanscale,hecouldgivenoaccountofthem。ToDonal\'seyes,themanwasashallowpoolwhosesurfacebrightnessconcealedthemuddybottom。

  CHAPTERLXVII。

  THEBREAKFAST-ROOM。

  Twoyearsbefore,ladyArcturahadbeeninthehabitofridingagooddeal,butafteranaccidenttoafavouritehorseforwhichsheblamedherself,shehadscarcelyriddenatall。Itwasquiteasmuch,however,fromtheinfluenceofMissCarmichaeluponherspirits,thatshehadforsakentheexercise。Partlybecauseherunclewasneithermuchrespectednormuchliked,shehadvisitedverylittle;andaftermentaltroubleassailedher,growingunderthefalseprescriptionsofthesoul-doctorshehadcalledin,shewithdrewmoreandmore,avoidingevencompanyshewouldhaveenjoyed,andwhichwouldbeforenowhaveledhertoresumeit。

  ForatimeshepersistedinrefusingtoridewithForgue。Invainheofferedhishorse,assuringherthatDavie\'sponywasquiteabletocarryhim;shehadnoinclinationtoride,shesaid。Butatlastoneday,lestsheshouldbeguiltyofunkindness,sheconsented,andsoenjoyedtheride——felt,indeed,somuchthebetterforit,thatshedidnotthereaftersopositivelyasbeforedeclinetoallowhercousintolookoutforahorsefittocarryher;andForgue,takingherconsentforgranted,succeeded,withthehelpofthefactor,infindingforherabeautifulcreature,justofthesorttopleaseher。Almostatsightofhimsheagreedtohispurchase。

  ThisputForgueingreatspirits,andmuchcontentmentwithhimself。

  Hedidnotdoubtthat,gainingthusopportunitysoexcellent,hewouldquicklysucceedinwithdrawingherfromtheabsurdinfluencewhich,tohisdismay,hediscoveredhisenemyhadinhisabsencegainedoverher。Heoughtnottohavebeensuchafool,hesaidtohimself,astoleavethepoorchildtothetemptationsnaturallyarisinginsuchadrearysolitude!Henotedwithsatisfaction,however,thattheparson\'sdaughterseemedtohaveforsakenthehouse。Andnowatlast,havinggotridofthefollythatawhilepossessedhim,hewaspreparedtodohisdutybythefamily,and,tothatend,wouldmakeunfalteringuseofthefascinationsexperiencehadtaughthimhewas,inamostexceptionaldegree,giftedwith!HewouldatoncetakeArctura\'seducationinhisownhands,andgivehisfullenergytoit!Sheshouldspeedilylearnthedifferencebetweentheassistanceofagentlemanandthatofaclotpoll!

  HehadinEnglandimprovedinhisridingaswellashismanners,andknewatleasthowagentleman,ifnothowaman,oughttobehavetothebeastthatcarriedhim。Also,havingriddenagooddealwithladies,hewasnowabletogiveArcturanotafewhintstotheimprovementofherseat,herhand,hercourage;norwasthereanynearerroad,hejudgedfromwhatheknewofhiscousin,toherconfidenceandgratitude,thanshowingherabetterwayinathing。

  Butthinkingthatinteachinghertoridehecouldmakeherforgetthemanwhohadbeenteachinghertolive,hewasnotalittlemistakeninthewomanhedesiredtocaptivate。

  Hedidnotyetlovehereveninthewayhecalledloving,elsehemighthavebeenlessconfident;buthefoundherverypleasing。

  Invigoratedbythebrightfrostyair,thelifeoftheanimalunderher,andtheexultationofrapidmotion,sheseemedbetterinhealth,moremerryandfulloflife,thanhehadeverseenher:heputalldowntohissuccesswithher。Hewasincapableofsuspectinghowlittleofitwasowingtohim;incapableofbelievinghowmuchtothefactthatshenowturnedtothefatherofspiritswithoutfear,almostwithoutdoubt;thoughtofhimastherootofeverydelightoftheworld——attheheartofthehorsesherode,inthewindthatblewjoyintohersasshesweptthroughitsyieldingbosom;knewhimasaltogetherlovingandtrue,thefatherofJesusChrist,aslikehimaslikecouldbelike——morelikehimthananyoneelseintheuniversecouldbelikeanother——likehimasonlyeternalsoncanbelikeeternalfather。

  Itwasnowonderthatwithsuchawelloflivingwaterinherheartsheshouldbeglad——merryeven,andreadyforanythingherhorsecoulddo!Flyingacrossafieldintheverywildnessofpleasure,herhairstreamingbehindher,andherpalefaceglowing,shewouldnowandthentakeajumpForguedeclaredhecouldnotfaceincoldblood:hedidnotknowhowfarfromcoldherbloodwas!Hebegantowonderhehadbeensuchafoolasneglectherfor——well,nevermind!——andtofeelsomethingthatwaslikelove,andwasindeedadmiration。Butforthesearingbrandofhispast,hemighthavelovedhertruly——asamanmay,withoutbeingthemostexaltedofmortals;forinlovewearebeyondourordinaryselves;thedeepthinginuspeersupintothehumanair,andisofGod——thereforecannotlivelonginthemephiticairofaselfishandlownature,butsinksagainoutofsight。

  HewasnotathiseasewithArctura;hewasafraidofher。Whenamanisconsciousofwrong,knowsinhishistorywhatwoulddrawahideoussmudgeovertheportraithewouldpresenttotheeyesofherhewouldplease,hemaywellbeafraidofher。Hemakesliberalallowanceforhimself,butisnotsureshewill!AndbeforeForguelayasocialgulfwhichhecouldpassonlyonthenarrowplankofherfavour!Themorehewaswithher,themoreheadmiredher,themorehedesiredtomarryher;themoresatisfiedhegrewwithhisownimprovement,themoredeterminedhebecamethatfornopoor,unjustscrupleswouldheforgohishappiness。Therewasbutonetrifletobekeptfromtheworld;itmightknoweverythingelseabouthim!andonceinpossessionoftheproperty,whowoulddisputethetitle?Thenagainhewasnotcertainthathisfatherhadnotmerelyinventedathreat!Surelyifthefactweresuch,hewould,eveninragediabolic,havekeptittohimself!

  Impetuous,andaccustomedtowhathecountedsuccess,hesoonbegantomakeplaineradvancetowardtheendonwhichhisself-loveandcupidityatleastwereset。But,knowinginavaguemannerhowhehadcarriedhimselfbeforehewent,Arctura,uninfluencedbythewaysoftheworld,herjudgmentunwarped,herperceptionundimmed,herinstinctsnice,herpersonaldelicacyexacting,hadneverimaginedhecouldapproachheronanygroundbutthatofcousinshipandachildhoodofsharedsports。ShehadseenthatDonalwasfarfrompleasedwithhim,andbelievedForgueknewthatsheknewhehadbeenbehavingbadly。Herbehaviourtohimwasindeedlargelybasedonthefactthathewasindisgrace:shewassorryforhim。

  Byandby,however,sheperceivedthatshehadbeenallowingtoomuchfreedomwhereshewasnotpreparedtoallowmore,andsoonedaydeclinedtogowithhim。Theyhadnothadarideforafortnight,theweatherhavingbeenunfavourable;andnowwhenamorningbrokeintotheseasonlikeasmilefromanestrangedfriend,shewouldnotgo!Hewasannoyed——thenalarmed,fearingadverseinfluence。Theywerealoneinthebreakfast-room。

  “Whywillyounot,Arctura?”heaskedreproachfully:“doyounotfeelwell?”

  “Iamquitewell,“sheanswered。

  “Itissuchalovelyday!”hepleaded。

  “Iamnotinthemood。Thereareotherthingsintheworldbesidesriding,andIhavebeenwastingmytime——ridingtoomuch。IhavelearntnexttonothingsinceLarkiecame。“

  “Oh,bother!whathaveyoutodowithlearning!Healthisthefirstthing。“

  “Idon\'tthinkso——andlearningisgoodforthehealth。Besides,I

  wouldnotbeamereanimalforperfecthealth!”

  “Letmehelpyouthenwithyourstudies。“

  “Thankyou,“sheanswered,laughingalittle,“butIhaveagoodmasteralready!We,thatisDavieandI,arereadingGreekandmathematicswithMr。Grant。“

  Forgue\'sfaceflushed。

  “Ioughttoknowasmuchofbothashedoes!”hesaid。

  “Oughtperhaps!Butyouknowyoudonot。“

  “Iknowenoughtobeyourtutor。“

  “Yes,butIknowenoughnottobeyourpupil!”

  “Whatdoyoumean?”

  “Thatyoucan\'tteach。“

  “Howdoyouknowthat?”

  “BecauseyoudonotloveeitherGreekormathematics,andnoonewhodoesnotlovecanteach。“

  “Thatisnonsense!IfIdon\'tloveGreekenoughtoteachit,Iloveyouenoughtoteachyou,“saidForgue。

  “Youaremyriding-master,“saidArctura;“Mr。GrantismymasterinGreek。“

  ForguestrangledanimprecationonMr。Grant,andtriedtolaugh,buttherewasnotalaughinsidehim。

  “Thenyouwon\'trideto-day?”hesaid。

  “Ithinknot,“repliedArctura。

  Sheoughttohavesaidshewouldnot。Itisapitytoletdoubtalightondecision。Herreplyre-openedthewholequestion。

  “Icannotseewhatshouldinduceyoutoallowthatfellowthehonourofreadingwithyou!”saidForgue。“He\'salong-winded,pedantic,ill-bredlout!”

  “Mr。Grantismyfriend!”saidArctura,andraisingherheadlookedhimintheeyes。

  “Takemywordforit,youaremistakeninhim,“hesaid。

  “Ineithervaluenoraskyouropinionofhim,“returnedArctura。“I

  merelyacquaintyouwiththefactthatheismyfriend。“

  “Here\'sthedevilandalltopay!”thoughtForgue。

  “Ibegyourpardon,“hesaid:“youdonotknowhimasIdo!”

  “Not?——andwithsomuchbetteropportunityofjudging!”

  “Hehasneverplayedthedominiewithyou!”saidForguefoolishly。

  “Indeedhehas!”

  “Hehas!Confoundhisinsolence!How?”

  “Hewon\'tletmestudyasIwant——Howhasheinterferedwithyou?”

  “Wewon\'tquarrelabouthim,“rejoinedForgue,attemptingatoneofgaiety,butinstantlygrowingserious。“Wewhooughttobesomuchtoeachother——“

  Somethingtoldhimhehadalreadygonetoofar。

  “Idonotknowwhatyoumean——orrather,IamnotwillingtothinkI

  knowwhatyoumean,“saidArctura。“Afterwhattookplace——“

  Inherturnsheceased:hehadsaidnothing!

  “Jealous!”concludedForgue;“——agoodsign!”

  “Iseehehasbeentalkingagainstme!”hesaid。

  “IfyoumeanMr。Grant,youmistake。Henever,sofarasIremember,oncementionedyoutome。“

  “Iknowbetter!”

  “Youarerude。Heneverspokeofit;butIhaveseenenoughwithmyowneyes——“

  “Ifyoumeanthatsillyfancy——why,Arctura!——youknowitwasbutaboyishfolly!”

  “Andsincethenyouhavegrownaman!——Howmanymonthshasittaken?”

  “Iassureyou,onthewordofagentleman,thereisnothinginitnow。Itisallover,andIamheartilyashamedofit。“

  Apauseofafewsecondsfollowed:itseemedasmanyminutes,andunbearable。

  “Youwillcomeoutwithme?”saidForgue:shemightberelenting,thoughshedidnotlooklikeit!

  “No,“shesaid;“Iwillnot。“

  “Well,“hereturned,withsimulatedcoolness,“thisisrathercavaliertreatment,Imustsay!——Tothrowamanoverwhohaslovedyousolong——andforthesakeofalessoninGreek!”

  “Howlong,pray,haveyoulovedme?”saidArctura,growingangry。“I

  waswillingtobefriendlywithyou,somuchsothatIamsorryitisnolongerpossible!”

  “Youpunishmeprettysharply,mylady,foratrifleofwhichItoldyouIwasashamed!”saidForgue,bitinghislip。“Itwasthemerest——“

  “Idonotwishtohearanythingaboutit!”saidArcturasternly。

  Then,afraidshehadbeenunkind,sheaddedinalteredtone:“Youhadbettergoandhaveagallop。YoumayhaveLarkieifyoulike。“

  Heturnedandlefttheroom。Sheonlymeanttopiquehim,hesaidtohimself。Shehadbeencherishingherdispleasure,andnowshehadhadherrevengewouldfeelbetterandbesorrynext!Itwasaverygoodmorning\'sworkafterall!ItwasabsurdtothinkshepreferredaGreeklessonfromaclowntoaridewithlordForgue!WasnotshetooaGraeme!

  Partlytomakereconciliationtheeasier,partlybecausethehorsewassuperiortohisown,hewouldrideLarkie!

  Buthisreasoningwasnotsosatisfactorytohimastoputhiminagoodtemper,andpoorLarkiehadtosufferforhisill-humour。Hisleastmovementthatdispleasedhimputhiminarage,andherodehimsofoolishlyaswellastyrannicallythathebroughthimhomequitelame,thusputtinganendforatimetoallhopeofridingagainwithArctura。

  Insteadofgoingandtellingherwhathehaddone,hesentforthefarrier,andgaveordersthatthemishapshouldnotbementioned。

  Aweekpassed,andthenanother;andashecouldsaynothingaboutriding,hewasinameasureself-banishedfromArctura\'scompany。A

  furiousjealousybegantomasterhim。Hescornedtogiveplacetoitbecauseoftheinsulttohimselfifheallowedatruegroundforit。

  Butitgraduallygainedpower。Thiscountrybumpkin,thiscow-herd,thismanofspelling-booksandgrammars,tocomebetweenhiscousinandhim!Ofcoursehewasnotsosillyasimagineforamomentshecaredforhim!——thatshewoulddisgraceherselfbyfallinginlovewithafellowjustloosedfromtheplough-tail!ShewasaGraeme,andcouldneverbeatraitortoherblood!Ifonlyhehadnotbeensuchaninfernalfool!Avulgarlittlethingwithoutanideainherhead!Sounpleasant——sodisgustingatlastwithherlove-making!

  Nothingpleasedherbuthuggingandkissing!——Thatwashowhespoketohimselfofthegirlhehadbeeninlovewith!

  Damnthatschoolmaster!Shewouldneverfallinlovewithhim,buthemightpreventherfromfallinginlovewithanother!Noattractionscouldmakewayagainstcertainprepossessions!Thegirlhadafancyforbeingasaint,andtheloutburnedincensetoher!

  SomuchhegatheredfromDavie。Hisfathermustgetridofthefellow!IfhethoughthewasdoingsowellwithDavie,whynotsendthetwoawaytogethertillthingsweresettled?

  ButtheearlthoughtitwouldbebettertowinDonal。HecounselledhimthateveryGrantwaslordSeafield\'scousin,andeveryhighlanderanimplacableenemywherehispridewashurt。Hislordshipdidnotreflectthat,ifwhathesaidweretrueofDonal,hemusthaveleftthecastlelongago。TherewasbutonethingwouldhavemadeitimpossibleforDonaltoremain——interference,namely,betweenhimandhispupil。

  Forguedidnotarguewithhisfather。Hehadgiventhatup。Atthesametime,ifhehadtoldallthathadpassedbetweenhimandDonal,theearlwouldhaveconfessedhehadadvisedanimpossibility。

  Forguetookastepinaverydifferentdirection:hebegantodrawtohimselfthegoodgracesofMissCarmichael:hedidnotknowhowlittleshecouldservehim。Withoutbeingconsciouslyinsincere,sheflatteredhim,andspeedilygainedhisconfidence。Welldescendedonthemother-side,shehadgrownupfit,herfathersaid,toadornanysociety:withakeenappreciationoftheclaimsanddignitiesofthearistocracy,shewaswellabletoflattertheprejudicesshehonouredandsharedin。Carefulnottosayawordagainsthiscousin,shemadehimfeelmoreandmorethathischiefdangerlayintheinfluenceofDonal。Shefannedthushishatredofthemanwhofirstcamebetweenhimandhiswrath;next,betweenhimandhis“love;“andlast,betweenhimandhisfortunes。

  IfonlyDaviewouldfallill,andrequirechangeofair!ButDaviewasalwaysinsplendidhealth!

  Nowthathesawhimselfinsuchdangeroffailing,hefanciedhimselffarmoreinlovewithArcturathanhewas。Andashegotfamiliarizedwiththeideaofhisillegitimacy,althoughhewouldnotassenttoit,hemadelessandlessofit——whichwouldhavebeenaprooftoanyotherthanhimselfthathebelievedit。Infurthersignofthesame,hemadenoinquiryintothematter——didnotonceevenquestionhisfatheraboutit。Ifitwastrue,hedidnotwanttoknowit:hewouldtreathislackofproofasignorance,andactaswiththeinnocenceofignorance!Afellowmusttakeforgrantedwhatwascommonlybelieved!Atlast,andthelastwasnotlonginarriving,healmostceasedtotroublehimselfaboutit。

  HisfatherlaughedathisfearoffailurewithArctura,butattimescontemplatedthethingasanawfulpossibility——notthathelovedForguemuch。Theonlywayfathersinsightofthegravecanfancythemselvesholdingontothethingstheymustleave,isintheirchildren;butlordMorvenhadastrongerandbetterreasonforhisunrighteousness:inatroubled,self-reproachfulway,helovedthememoryoftheirmother,andthroughhercaredevenforForguemorethanheknew。Theywerealsohisownasmuchasifhehadbeenlegallymarriedtoher!Fortherelationinwhichtheystoodtosociety,hecaredlittlesolongasitcontinuedundiscovered。Heenjoyedtheideaofstealingamarchonsociety,andseeingthesonshehadleftatsuchadisadvantagebehindhim,rufflingit,inspiteofabsurdlaw,withthefoolishbest。FromthegravehewouldsohavehisfootontheneckofhisenemyLaw!——hewasoneofthemanywhocanrejoiceinevenastolenvictory。Norwouldheeverhavebeenthefooltoletthetruthfly,exceptunderthereactionofevildrugs,andtherushoffiercewrathatthethreatenedruinofhischerishedscheme。

  Arcturathenceforthavoidedhercousinasmuchasshecould——onlyrememberingthatthehousewashers,andshemustnotmakehimfeelhewasnotwelcometouseit。Theymetatmeals,andshetriedtobehaveasifnothingunpleasanthadhappenedandthingswereasbeforehewentaway。

  “Youareverycruel,Arctura,“hesaidonemorninghemetherintheterraceavenue。

  “Cruel?”returnedArcturacoldly;“Iamnotcruel。Iwouldnotwillinglyhurtanyone。“

  “Youhurtmemuch;yougivemenotamorsel,notacrumbofyoursociety!”

  “Percy,“saidArctura,“ifyouwillbecontenttobemycousin,weshallgetonwellenough;butifyouaresetonwhatcannotbe——onceforall,believeme,itisofnouse。YoucarefornoneofthethingsIlivefor!Ifeelasifwebelongedtodifferentworlds,solittlehaveweincommon。Youmaythinkmehard,butitisbetterweshouldunderstandeachother。Ifyouimaginethat,becauseIhavetheproperty,youhaveaclaimonme,besureIwillneveracknowledgeit。IwouldathousandtimesratheryouhadthepropertyandIwereinmygrave!”

  “Iwillbeanything,doanything,learnanythingyouplease!”criedForgue,hisheartachingwithdisappointment。

  “Iknowwhatsuchsubmissionisworth!”saidArctura。“Ishouldbeeverythingtillweweremarried,andthennothing!Youdissemble,youhideevenfromyourself,butyouarenothardtoread。“

  Perhapsshewouldnothavespokenjustsoseverely,hadshenotbeenthatmorningunusuallyannoyedwithhisbehaviourtoDonal,andatthesametimespeciallypleasedwiththecalm,unconsciouslydignifiedwayinwhichDonaltookit,castingitfromhimastherockthrowsasidethesea-wave:itdidnotconcernhim!Thedullworldhasgotthewrongphrase:itishewhoresentsanaffrontwhopocketsit!hewhotakesnonotice,letsitlieinthedirt。

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