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  Therewassomethingofold-worldbreedingabouttheladthatcommendedhimtotheearl。SuchbreedingisnotrareamongCelt-bornpeasants。

  “Mysonstoldmethattheyhadmetayoungmaninthegrounds——“

  “ForwhichIbegyourlordship\'spardon,“saidDonal。“Ididnotknowtheplacewasforbidden。“

  “Ihopeyouwillsoonbefamiliarwithit。Iamgladofyourmistake。Fromwhattheysaid,Isupposedyoumightbeastudentinwantofasituation,andIhadbeenlookingoutforayoungmantotakechargeoftheboy:itseemedpossibleyoumightservemypurpose。Idonotquestionyoucanshowyourselffitforsuchanoffice:Ipresumeitwouldsuityou。Doyoubelieveyourselfonetobesotrusted?”

  Donalhadnotaglimmeroffalsemodesty;heansweredimmediately,“Ido,mylord。“

  “Tellmesomethingofyourhistory:wherewereyouborn?whatwereyourparents?”

  Donaltoldhimallhethoughtitofanyconsequenceheshouldknow。

  Hislordshipdidnotonceinterrupthimwithquestionorremark。

  Whenhehadended——

  “Well,“hesaid,“Ilikeallyoutellme。Youhavetestimonials?”

  “Ihavefromtheprofessors,mylord,andonefromtheministeroftheparish,whoknewmebeforeIwenttocollege。IcouldgetonefromMr。Sclatertoo,whosechurchIattendedwhilethere。“

  “Showmewhatyouhave,“saidhislordship。

  Donaltookthepapersfromthepocket-bookhismotherhadmadehim,andhandedthemtohim。Theearlreadthemwithsomeattention,returningeachtohimwithoutremarkashefinishedit,onlysayingwiththelast,“Quitesatisfactory。“

  “But,“saidDonal,“thereisonethingIshouldbemoreateaseifI

  toldyourlordship:Mr。Carmichael,theministerofthisparish,wouldtellyouIwasanatheist,orsomethingverylikeit——thereforeanaltogetherunsafeperson。Butheknowsnothingofme。“

  “Onwhatgroundsthenwouldhesayso?”askedtheearl——showingnottheleastdiscomposure。“Ithoughtyouwereastrangertothisplace!”

  Donaltoldhimhowtheyhadmet,whathadpassedbetweenthem,andhowtheministerhadbehavedinconsequence。Hislordshipheardhimgravely,wassilentforamoment,andthensaid,“ShouldMr。Carmichaeladdressmeonthesubject,whichIdonotthinklikely,hewillfindmealreadytoomuchprejudicedinyourfavour。ButIcanimaginehismistakingyourfreedomofspeech:youarescarcelyprudentenough。Whysayallyouthink?”

  “Ifearnothing,mylord。“

  Theearlwassilent;hisgrayfaceseemedtogrowgrayer,butitmightbethatjustthenthesunwentunderacloud,andhewassuddenlyfoldedinshadow。Afteramomenthespokeagain。

  “Iamquitesatisfiedwithyousofar,Mr。Grant;andasIshouldnotliketoemployyouindirectoppositiontoMr。Carmichel——notthatIbelongtohischurch——wewillarrangemattersbeforehecanhearoftheaffair。Whatsalarydoyouwant?”

  Donalrepliedhewouldpreferleavingthesalarytohislordship\'sjudgmentupontrial。

  “Iamnotawealthyman,“returnedhislordship,“andwouldpreferanunderstanding。“

  “Trymethenforthreemonths,mylord;givememyboardandlodging,theuseofyourlibrary,andattheendofthequarteraten-pound-note:bythattimeyouwillbeabletotellwhetherIsuityou。“

  Theearlnoddedagreement,andDonalroseatonce。Withaheartfullofthankfulnessandhopehewalkedbacktohisfriends。Hehadbeforehimpleasantwork;plentyoftimeandbook-help;anabodefullofinterest;andsomethingforhislabour!

  “\'Surelythewrathofmanshallpraisethee!\'“saidthecobbler,rejoicingagainsttheminister;“\'theremainderofwrathshaltthourestrain。\'“

  IntheafternoonDonalwentintothetowntogetsometrifleshewantedbeforegoingtothecastle。Asheturnedtothedoorofadraper\'sshop,hesawatthecountertheministertalkingtohim。

  Hewouldratherhavegoneelsewherebutforunwillingnesstoturnhisbackonanything:hewentin。Besidetheministerstoodayounglady,who,havingcompletedherpurchases,waslisteningtotheirconversation。Thedraperlookedupasheentered。Aglancepassedbetweenhimandtheminister。HecametoDonal,andhavingheardwhathewanted,lefthim,wentbacktotheminister,andtooknomorenoticeofhim。Donalfounditawkward,andlefttheshop。

  “Highan\'michty!”saidthedraper,annoyedatlosingthecustomertowhosedispraisehehadbeenlistening。

  “Farbeyonddissent,John!”saidtheminister,pursuingaremark。

  “Doobtless,sir,itisthat!”answeredthedraper。“I\'mthankfu\'tosayIneverharbouredadoobtmysel\',butayetookwhatIwastauld,ohnargle-barglet。Whathaewesicasyersel\'setower\'sfor,gienitbinnatohaud\'si\'thestraichtpatho\'whatwe\'retobelievean\'

  notobelieve?It\'safinethingnotobeaccoontable!”

  Theministerwasanhonestmansofarasheknewhimselfandhonesty,anddidnotrelishthisformofsubmission。Buthedidnotaskhimselfwherewasthedifferencebetweenacceptingthewordofmanandacceptingman\'sexplanationofthewordofGod!Hetookahugepinchfromhisblacksnuffboxandheldhispeace。

  IntheeveningDonalwouldsettlehisaccountwithmistressComin:

  hefoundherdemandsomuchlessthanhehadexpected,thatheexpostulated。Shewasfirm,however,andassuredhimshehadgained,notlost。Ashewasputtinguphisthings,“Lea\'abuikortwa,sir,“shesaid,“\'atwhanyeluikin,theplacemayluikhame-like。Wes\'ca\'theroomyours。Comeasaftenasyecan。ItdoesmyAnerew\'shertguidtohaeacrackwi\'ane\'atkenssomethingo\'whattheMaisterwadbeat。Monyane\'llca\'himLord,butfeow\'illtakthetribletokenwhathewadhaeo\'them。Butthere\'smyAnerew——he\'llsityon\'erathiswark,thinkin\'bythehoorthegitherowersomethingtheMaistersaid\'athecannawinattherichtso\'。\'Depen\'upo\'\'t,\'hesayswhiles,\'depen\'upo\'\'t,lass,whauronythinghesaysdisnaluikrichttohiz,itmaunbe\'atwehaenawonatit!\'“

  Assheended,herhusbandcamein,andtookupwhathefanciedthethreadofthedialogue。

  “An\'whatarewetothinko\'theman,“hesaid,“at\'scontentnotoun\'erstan\'whathewasatthetribletosay?Wadhesaythings\'athedidnameanfowktoun\'erstan\'whanhesaidthem?”“Weel,Anerew,“

  saidhiswife,“there\'smonyathinghesaid\'atIcannotun\'erstan\';naitheramImucklethebetterforyourexplainin\'o\'

  thesame;Imaunjistlatitsit。“

  Andrewlaughedhisquietpleasedlaugh。

  “Weel,lass,“hesaid,“theduin\'o\'aething\'sbetternortheun\'erstan\'in\'o\'twenty。Norwullyebelangohnun\'erstan\'tmuckle\'at\'sdarktoyenoo;forthemaisterlikesnanebuttheduero\'theword,an\'herhelikesweel。Beblythe,lass;yes\'haeyerfillo\'

  un\'erstan\'in\'yet!”

  “I\'mfaintobelieveyespeykthetrowth,Anerew!”

  “It\'sgreattrowth,“saidDonal。

  CHAPTERXII。

  THECASTLE。

  Thenextmorningcameacartfromthecastletofetchhisbox;andafterbreakfasthesetoutforhisnewabode。

  Hetookthepathbytheriver-side。Themorningwasglorious。Thesunandtheriverandthebirdswerejubilant,andthewindgavelifetoeverything。Itrippledthestream,andflutteredthelongwebsbleachinginthesun:theyroseandfelllikewhitewavesonthebrightgreenlake;andwomen,homelyNereidsofthegrassysea,werebesprinklingthemwithspray。Thereweredullsoundsofwoodenmachinerynear,buttheymadenodiscordwiththesweetnessofthehour,speakingonlyofactivity,notlabour。Fromthelongbleachingmeadowsbytheriver-siderosethewoodedbaseofthecastle。Donal\'sbosomswelledwithdelight;thencameasting:washealreadyforgettinghisinextinguishablegrief?“But,“heansweredhimself,“Godismoretomethananywoman!Whenheputsjoyinmyheart,shallInotbeglad?WhenhecallsmynameshallInotanswer?”

  Hesteppedoutjoyfully,andwassoonclimbingthehill。Hewasagainadmittedbytheoldbutler。

  “Iwillshowyouatonce,“hesaid,“howtogoandcomeatyourownwill。“

  Heledhimthroughdoorsandalongpassagestoaposternopeningonalittlewalledgardenattheeastendofthecastle。

  “Thisdoor,“hesaid,“is,youobserve,atthefootofBaliol\'stower,andinthattowerisyourroom;Iwillshowityou。“

  Heledthewayupaspiralstairthatmightalmosthavegoneinsidethenewelofthegreatstaircase。Upanduptheywent,untilDonalbegantowonder,andstilltheywentup。

  “You\'reyoung,sir,“saidthebutler,“andsoundofwindandlimb;

  soyou\'llsoonthinknothingofit。“

  “Ineverwasupsohighbefore,exceptonahill-side,“returnedDonal。“Thecollege-towerisnothingtothis!”

  “Inadayortwoyou\'llbeshootingupanddownitlikeabird。I

  usedtodosomyself。Igotintothewayofkeepingashoulderforemost,andscrewingupasifIwasablobofair!Oldagedoesmakefoolsofus!”

  “Youdon\'tlikeitthen?”

  “No,Idonot:whodoes?”

  “It\'sonlythatyougetspentasyougoup。Thefreshairatthetopofthestairwillsoonreviveyou,“saidDonal。

  Buthisconductordidnotunderstandhim。

  “That\'sallverywellsolongasyou\'reyoung;butwhenithasgotyou,you\'llpantandgrumbleliketherestofus。“

  InthedistanceDonalsawAgecomingslowlyafterhim,toclawhiminhisclutch,astheoldsongsays。“PleaseGod,“hethought,“bythetimehecomesup,I\'llbereadytotryafallwithhim!OThoueternallyyoung,theyearshavenoholdonthee;letthemhavenoneonthychild。Itooshallhavelifeeternal。“

  Eretheyreachedthetopofthestair,themanhaltedandopenedadoor。Donalenteringsawasmallroom,nearlyround,aportionofthecircletakenoffbythestair。Ontheoppositesidewasawindowprojectingfromthewall,whencehecouldlookinthreedifferentdirections。Thewidecountrylayathisfeet。Hesawthewindingroadbywhichhehadascended,thegatebywhichhehadentered,themeadowwithitswhitestripesthroughwhichhehadcome,andtheriverflowingdown。Hefolloweditwithhiseyes:——lo,therewasthesea,shininginthesunlikeadiamondshield!ItwasbutthelittleGermanOcean,yetonewiththegreatworld-ocean。Heturnedtohisconductor。

  “Yes,“saidtheoldman,answeringhislook,“it\'saglorioussight!

  WhenfirstIlookedoutthereIthoughtIwasineternity。“

  Thewallswerebareevenofplaster;hecouldhavecountedthestonesinthem;buttheyweredryasabone。

  “Youarewondering,“saidtheoldman,“howyouaretokeepwarminthewinter!Lookhere:youshutthisdooroverthewindow!Seehowthickandstrongitis!Thereisyourfireplace;andforfuel,there\'splentybelow!Itisalabourtocarryitup,Igrant;butifIwasyou,Iwouldsettoo\'nightswhennobodywasabout,andcarrytillIhadastocklaidin!”

  “But,“saidDonal,“Ishouldfillupmyroom。Iliketobeabletomoveaboutalittle!”

  “Ah,“repliedtheoldman,“youdon\'tknowwhataspaceyouhaveupherealltoyourself!Comethisway。“

  Twoturnsmoreupthestair,andtheycametoanotherdoor。Itopenedintowidespace:fromitDonalsteppedonaledgeorbartizan,withoutanyparapet,thatranroundthetower,passingabovethewindowofhisroom。Itwaswellhehadasteadybrain,forhefoundtheheightaffecthimmorethanthatofaprecipiceonGlashgar:doubtlesshewouldgetusedtoit,fortheoldmanhadsteppedoutwithoutthesmallesthesitation!Roundthetowerhefollowedhim。

  Ontheothersideafewstepsrosetoawatch-tower——asortofornatesentry-boxinstone,whereonemightsitandregardwithwidevisionthewholecountry。Avoidingthis,anothersteportwoledthemtotheroofofthecastle——ofgreatstoneslabs。Abroadpassageranbetweentheriseoftheroofandabattlementedparapet。

  Bythistimetheycametoaflatroof,ontowhichtheydescendedbyafewsteps。Herestoodtworoughsheds,withnothinginthem。

  “There\'sstowage!”saidtheoldman。

  “Yes,indeed!”answeredDonal,towhomtheideaofhisaeriewasgrowingmoreandmoreagreeable。“Butwouldtherebenoobjectiontomyusingtheplaceforsuchapurpose?”

  “Whatobjection?”returnedhisguide。“Idoubtifasinglepersonbutmyselfknowsit。“

  “AndshallIbeallowedtocarryupasmuchasIplease?”

  “Iallowyou,“saidthebutler,withimportance。“Ofcourseyouwillnotwaste——Iamdeadagainstwaste!Butastowhatisneedful,useyourfreedom——Dinnerwillbereadyforyouintheschoolroomatseven。“

  Atthedoorofhisroomtheoldmanlefthim,andafterlisteningforamomenttohisdescendingsteps,Donalre-enteredhischamber。

  Whytheyputhimsoapart,Donalneveraskedhimself;thatheshouldhavesuchcommandofhisleisureasthisisolationpromisedhimwasaconsequenceverysatisfactory。Heproceededatoncetosettlehimselfinhisnewquarters。Findingsomeshelvesinarecessofthewall,hearrangedhisbooksuponthem,andlaidhisfewclothesinthechestofdrawersbeneath。Hethengotouthiswritingmaterial,andsatdown。

  Thoughhiswindowwassohigh,thewarmpureaircameinfullofthearomaticodoursrisinginthehotsunshinefromtheyoungpinetreesfarbelow,andfromalarkfarabovedescendednewsofheaven-gate。

  Thescentcameupandthesongcamedownallthetimehewaswritingtohismother——alongletter。Whenhehadclosedandaddressedit,hefellintoareverie。Apparentlyhewastohavehismealsbyhimself:hewasgladofit:hewouldbeabletoreadallthetime!Buthowwashetofindtheschoolroom!Someonewouldsurelyfetchhim!Theywouldrememberhedidnotknowhiswayabouttheplace!Itwantedyetanhourtodinner-timewhen,findinghimselfdrowsy,hethrewhimselfonhisbed,wherepresentlyhefellfastasleep。

  Thenightdescended,andwhenhecametohimself,itssilencesweredeeparoundhim。Itwasnotdark:therewasnomoon,butthetwilightwasclear。Hecouldreadthefaceofhiswatch:itwastwelveo\'clock!Noonehadmissedhim!Hewasveryhungry!Buthehadbeenhungrierbeforeandsurvivedit!Inhiswalletwerestillsomeremnantsofoat-cake!Hetookitinhishand,andsteppingoutonthebartizan,creptwithcarefulstepsroundtothewatch-tower。

  Thereheseatedhimselfinthestonechair,andatehisdrymorselsinthestarrypresences。Sleephadrefreshedhim,andhewaswideawake,yettherewasonhimthesenseofastrangeexistence。Neverbeforehadhesoknownhimself!Oftenhadhepassedthenightintheopenair,butneverbeforehadhisnight-consciousnessbeensuch!Neverhadhefeltthesamewayalone。Hewaspartedfromthewholeearth,liketheship-boyonthegiddymast!Nothingwasbelowbutadimness;theearthandallthatwasinitwasmassedintoavagueshadow。Itwasasifhehaddiedandgonewhereexistencewasindependentofsolidityandsense。Abovehimwasdomedthevastofthestarryheavens;hecouldneitherfleefromitnorascendtoit!

  Foramomenthefeltitthesymboloflife,yetanunattainablehopelessthing。Hehungsuspendedbetweenheavenandearth,anoutcastofboth,adenizenofneither!Thetruelifeseemedevertoretreat,nevertoawaithisgrasp。NothingbutthebeholdingofthefaceoftheSonofMancouldsethimatrestastoitsreality;

  nothinglessthantheassurancefromhisownmouthcouldsatisfyhimthatallwastrue,allwell:lifewasathingsoessentiallydivine,thathecouldnotknowitinitselftillhisownessencewaspure!

  Butalas,howdream-likewastheoldstory!WasGodindeedtobereachedbytheprayers,affectedbytheneedsofmen?Howwashetofeelsureofit?Oncemore,asoftenheretofore,hefoundhimselfcryingintothegreatworldtoknowwhethertherewasaneartohear。Whatifthereshouldcometohimnoanswer?Howfrightfulthenwouldbehisloneliness!Buttoseemnottobeheardmightbepartofthedisciplineofhisdarkness!ItmightbefortheperfectingofhisfaiththathemustnotyetknowhownearGodwastohim!

  “Lord,“hecried,“eternallifeistoknowtheeandthyFather;IdonotknowtheeandthyFather;Ihavenoteternallife;Ihavebutlifeenoughtohungerformore:showmeplainlyoftheFatherwhomthoualoneknowest。“

  Andasheprayed,somethinglikeatouchofGodseemedtobeginandgrowinhimtillitwasmorethanhisheartcouldhold,andtheuniverseabouthimwasnotlargeenoughtoholdinitshollowtheheartthatswelledwithit。

  “Godisenough,“hesaid,andsatinpeace。

  CHAPTERXIII。

  ASOUND。

  Allatoncecametohisearthroughthenightastrangesomething。

  Whenceorwhatitwashecouldnotevenconjecture。Wasitamoanoftheriverfrombelow?Wasitalostmusic-tonethathadwanderedfromafarandgrownfaint?Wasitoneofthosemysterioussoundshehadreadofasbornintheairitself,andnotyetexplainedofscience?Wasittheflutteredskirtofsomeangelicsongoflamentation?——foriftheangelsrejoice,theysurelymustlament!

  Orwasitastilledhumanmoaning?Wasanywrongbeingdonefardowninthewhite-gleamingmeadowsbelow,bythebanksoftheriverwhoseplatinum-glimmerhecoulddescrythroughthemoltenamethystinedarknessofthestarrynight?

  Presentlycamealong-drawnmusicalmoan:itmustbethesoundofsomemuffledinstrument!Verilynightwasthetimeforstrangethings!Couldsoundsbebegotteninthefirtreesbytheraysofthehotsun,andborninthestillnessofthefollowingdark,asthelightwhichthediamondreceivesinthedayglowsoutinthegloom?

  Thereareparentsandtheirprogenythatneverexisttogether!

  Againthesound——hardlytobecalledsound!Itresembledavibrationoforgan-pipetooslowanddeeptoaffectthehearing;

  onlythisratherseemedtoohigh,asifonlyhissoulheardit。Hewouldstealsoftlydownthedumbstone-stair!Somecreaturemightbeintroubleandneedinghelp!

  Hecreptbackalongthebartizan。Thestairwasdarkastheveryheartofthenight。Hegropedhiswaydown。Thespiralstairisthesafestofall:youcannottumblefarerebroughtupbytheinclosingcylinder。Arrivedatthebottom,andfeelingabout,hecouldnotfindthedoortotheouterairwhichthebutlerhadshownhim;itwaswallwhereverhishandsfell。Hecouldnotfindagainthestairhehadleft;hecouldnottellinwhatdirectionitlay。

  Hehadgotintoalongwindowlesspassageconnectingtwowingsofthehouse,andinthishewasfeelinghisway,fearfuloffallingdownsomestairortrap。Hecameatlasttoadoor——low-browedlikealmostallinthehouse。Openingit——wasitathinnerdarknessorthefaintestgleamoflighthesaw?Andwasthatagainthesoundhehadfollowed,fainterandfartheroffthanbefore——adownywind-waftedplumefromtheskirtofsomestrayharmony?Atsuchatimeofthenightsurelyitwasstrange!Itmustcomefromonewhocouldnotsleep,andwassolacinghimselfwithsweetsounds,breathingasoulintotheuncompanionablesilence!Ifsoitwas,hehadnorighttosearchfarther!Buthowwashetoreturn?Hedaredhardlymove,lestheshouldbefoundwanderingoverthehouseinthedeadofnightlikeathief,oronesearchingafteritssecrets。Hemustsitdownandwaitforthemorning:itsearliestlightwouldperhapsenablehimtofindhiswaytohisquarters!

  Feelingabouthimalittle,hisfootstruckagainstthestepofastair。Examiningitwithhishands,hebelieveditthesamehehadascendedinthemorning:eveninagreatcastle,couldtherebetwosuchroyalstairs?Hesatdownuponit,andleaninghisheadonhishands,composedhimselftoapatientwaitingforthelight。

  Waitingpureisperhapsthehardestthingforfleshandbloodtodowell。Therelationsoftimetomindareverystrange。Someoftheirphenomenaseemtoprovethattimeisonlyofthemind——belongingtotheintellectasgoodandevilbelongtothespirit。Anyhow,ifitwerenotfortheclocksoftheuniverse,onemanwouldliveayear,acentury,whereanotherwouldlivebutaday。Butthemeremotionoftime,nottosaytheconsciousnessofemptytime,isfearful。Itisthisemptytimethatthefoolisalwaystryingtokill:hiseffortshouldbetofillit。YetnothingbutthelivingGodcanfillit——thoughitbebuttheshapeourexistencetakestous。Onlywhereheis,emptinessisnot。

  EternitywillbebutanintensepresenttothechildwithwhomistheFather。

  Suchthoughtsalighted,flitted,andpassed,forthefirstfewmoments,throughthemindofDonal,ashesathalfconsciouslywaitingforthedawn。Itwasthousandsofmilesaway,overthegreatroundofthesunward-turningearth!Hisimaginationwoke,andbegantopicturethegreathuntoftheshadows,fleeingbeforethearrowsofthesun,overthebroadfaceofthemightyworld——itsmountains,seas,andplainsinturnconfessingthelight,andsubmittingtohimwhoslaysforthemthehauntingdemonsoftheirdark。Thenagainthemomentswerethesmallcogsonthewheelsoftime,wherebythedarkcastleinwhichhesatwasrushingevertowardsthelight:thecogswerecaughtandthewheelsturnedswiftly,andthetimeandthedarknesssped。Heforgotthelabourofwaiting。Ifnowandthenhefanciedatonethroughthedarkness,itwastohismindthemusic-marchofthemorningtohisrescuefromthedungeonofthenight。

  Butthatwasnomusicaltonewhichmadethedarknessshudderaroundhim!Hesprangtohisfeet。Itwasahumangroan——agroanasofoneindirepain,thepainofasoul\'sagony。Itseemedtohavedescendedthestairtohim。ThenextinstantDonalwasfeelinghiswayup——cautiously,asifoneachsucceedingstephemightcomeagainstthemanwhohadgroaned。Talesofhauntedhousesrushedintohismemory。Whatifhewerebutpursuingthegroanofanactorinthepast——acreaturetheslaveofhisownconsciousmemory——amerehaunterofthepresentwhichhecouldnotinfluence——onewithoutphysicalrelationtotheembodied,saveinthegroanshecouldyetutter!Butitwasmoreinawethaninfearthathewent。

  Upanduphefelthisway,allabouthimasstillasdarknessandthenightcouldmakeit。Aghostlycoldcreptthroughhisskin;itwasdrawntogetherasbyagentlyfreezingprocess;andtherewasapullingatthemusclesofhischest,asifhismouthwerebeingdraggedopenbyamartingale。

  Ashefelthiswayalongthewall,sweepingitsgreatendlesscircleroundandroundinspiralascent,allatoncehishandseemedtogothroughit;hestartedandstopped。Itwasthedooroftheroomintowhichhehadbeenshowntomeettheearl!Itstoodwideopen。

  Afaintglimmercamethroughthewindowfromthestar-filledsky。

  Hesteppedjustwithinthedoorway。Wasnotthatanotherglimmeronthefloor——fromthebackoftheroom——throughadoorhedidnotrememberhavingseenyesterday?Thereagainwasthegroan,andnighathand!Someonemustbeinsoreneed!Heapproachedthedoorandlookedthrough。Alamp,nearlyspent,hungfromtheceilingofasmallroomwhichmightbeanofficeorstudy,oraplacewherepaperswerekept。Ithadthelookofanantechamber,butthatitcouldnotbe,fortherewasbuttheonedoor!——Inthedimlighthedescriedavagueformleaningupagainstoneofthewalls,asiflisteningtosomethingthroughit!Ashegazeditgrewplainertohim,andhesawaface,itseyesstaringwide,whichyetseemednottoseehim。Itwasthefaceoftheearl。Donalfeltasifinthepresenceofthedisembodied;hestoodfascinated,normadeattempttoretireorconcealhimself。Thefigureturneditsfacetothewall,putthepalmsofitshandsagainstit,andmovedthemupanddown,andthiswayandthat;thenlookedatthem,andbegantorubthemagainsteachother。

  Donalcametohimself。Heconcludeditwasacaseofsleepwalking。

  Hehadreadthatitwasdangeroustowakethesleeper,butthatheseldomcametomischiefwhenleftalone,andwasabouttoslipawayashehadcome,whenthefaintsoundofafar-offchordcreptthroughthesilence。Theearlagainlaidhiseartothewall。Buttherewasonlysilence。Hewentthroughthesamedumbshowasbefore,thenturnedasiftoleavetheplace。Donalturnedalso,andhurriedlyfelthiswaytothestair。Thenfirsthewasindangerofterror;forinstealingthroughthedarknessfromonewhocouldfindhiswaywithouthiseyes,heseemedpursuedbyacreaturenotofthisworld。Onthestairhewentdownasteportwo,thenlingered,andheardtheearlcomeonitalso。Hecreptclosetothenewel,leavingthegreatwidthofthestairfree,butthestepsoftheearlwentupward。Donaldescended,satdownagainatthebottomofthestair,andbeganagaintowait。Nosoundcametohimthroughtherestofthenight。Theslowhoursrolledaway,andtheslowlightdrewnearer。Nowandthenhewasonthepointoffallingintoadoze,butwouldsuddenlystartwideawake,listeningthroughasilencethatseemedtofillthewholeuniverseanddeepenaroundthecastle。

  Atlengthhewasawarethatthedarknesshad,unobservedofhim,grownweaker——thattheapproachofthelightwassickeningit:thedayspringwasabouttotakeholdoftheendsoftheearththatthewickedmightbeshakenoutofitslap。Hesoughtthelongpassagebywhichhehadcome,andfelthiswaytotheotherend:itwouldbesafertowaitthereifhecouldgetnofarther。Butsomehowhecametothefootofhisownstair,andspedupasifitweretheladderofheaven。Hethrewhimselfonhisbed,fellfastasleep,anddidnotwaketillthesunwashigh。

  CHAPTERXIV。

  THESCHOOLROOM。

  OldSimmons,thebutler,wokehim。

  “Iwasafraidsomethingwasthematter,sir。Theytellmeyoudidnotcomedownlastnight;andbreakfasthasbeenwaitingyoutwohours。“

  “Ishouldnothaveknownwheretofindit,“saidDonal。“Theknowledgeofanoldcastleisnotintuitive。“

  “Howlongwillyoutaketodress?”askedSimmons。

  “Tenminutes,ifthereisanyhurry,“answeredDonal。

  “Iwillcomeagainintwenty;or,ifyouarewillingtosaveanoldman\'sbones,Iwillbeatthebottomofthestairatthattimetotakechargeofyou。Iwouldhavelookedafteryouyesterday,buthislordshipwaspoorly,andIhadtobeinattendanceonhimtillaftermidnight。“

  Donalthoughtitimpossibleheshouldofhimselfhavefoundhiswaytotheschoolroom。Withallhecoulddotoremembertheturnings,hefoundtheendeavourhopeless,andgaveitupwithanotunpleasingdespair。Throughstrangepassages,throughdoorsinalldirections,upstairsanddowntheywent,andatlastcametoalong,lowroom,barelyfurnished,withapleasantoutlook,andimmediateaccesstotheopenair。Thewindowswereuponasmallgrassycourt,withasundialinthecentre;adooropenedonapavedcourt。Atoneendoftheroomatablewaslaidwithtentimesasmanythingsashecoulddesiretoeat,thoughhecametoitwithagoodappetite。Thebutlerhimselfwaiteduponhim。Hewasagood-naturedoldfellow,withanosesomewhattooredfortheordinarywearofoneinhisresponsibleposition。

  “Ihopetheearlisbetterthismorning,“saidDonal。

  “Well,Ican\'tsay。He\'sbutadelicatemanistheearl,andhasbeen,solongasIhaveknownhim。HewaswiththearmyinIndia,andthesun,theysay,givehimastroke,andeversincehehaveheadachesthatbad!Butinbetweenheseemsprettywell,andnothingdispleaseshimmorethanaskafterhishealth,orhowheslepthenight。Buthe\'sagoodmaster,andIhopetoendmydayswithhim。I\'mnotoneaslikesnewfacesandnewplaces!Onegoodplaceisenoughforme,saysI——solongasitisagoodone——Takesomeofthisgamepie,sir。“

  Donalmadehastewithhisbreakfast,andtoSimmons\'sastonishmenthadendedwhenhethoughthimjustwellbegun。

  “HowshallIfindmasterDavie?”heasked。

  “Heiswildtoseeyou,sir。WhenI\'veclearedaway,justhavethegoodnesstoringthisbelloutofthatwindow,andhe\'llbewithyouasfastashecanlayhisfeettotheground。“

  Donalrangthehandbell。Ashoutmingledwiththeclangofit。

  Thencametherunningofswiftfeetoverthestonesofthecourt,andDavieburstintotheroom。

  “Oh,sir,“hecried,“Iamglad!Itisgoodofyoutocome!”

  “Well,yousee,Davie,“returnedDonal,“everybodyhasgottodosomethingtocarrytheworldonabit:myworkistohelpmakeamanofyou。OnlyIcan\'tdomuchexceptyouhelpme;andifIfindIamnotmakingagoodjobofyou,Ishan\'tstopmanyhoursafterthediscovery。Ifyouwanttokeepme,youmustmindwhatIsay,andsohelpmetomakeamanofyou。“

  “ItwillbelongbeforeIamaman!”saidDavieratherdisconsolately。

  “Itdependsonyourself。Theboythatislongestinbecomingaman,istheboythatthinkshimselfamanbeforeheisabitlikeone。“

  “Comethen,letusdosomething!”saidDavie。

  “Comeaway,“rejoinedDonal。“Whatshallwedofirst?”

  “Idon\'tknow:youmusttellme,sir。“

  “Whatwouldyoulikebesttodo——Imeanifyoumightdowhatyoupleased?”

  Daviethoughtalittle,thensaid:

  “Ishouldliketowriteabook。“

  “Whatkindofabook?”

  “Abeautifulstory。“

  “Isn\'titjustaswelltoreadsuchabook?Whyshouldyouwanttowriteone?”

  “BecausethenIshouldhaveitgojustasIwantedit!Iamalways——almostalways——disappointedwiththethingthatcomesnext。

  ButifIwroteitmyself,thenIshouldn\'tgettiredofit;itwouldbewhatpleasedme,andnotwhatpleasedsomebodyelse。“

  “Well,“saidDonal,afterthinkingforamoment,“supposeyoubegintowriteabook!”

  “Oh,thatwillbefun!——muchbetterthanlearningverbsandnouns!”

  “Buttheverbsandnounsarejustthethingsthatgotomakeastory——withnotafewadjectivesandadverbs,andahostofconjunctions;and,ifitbeaverymovingstory,agoodmanyinterjections!Theseallyouhavegottoputtogetherwithgoodchoice,orthestorywillnotbeoneyouwouldcaretoread——PerhapsyouhadbetternotbegintillIseewhetheryouknowenoughaboutthoseverbsandnounstodothethingdecently。Showmeyourschool-books。“

  “Theretheyallare——onthatshelf!Ihaven\'topenedoneofthemsincePercycamehome。Helaughedatthemall,andsoArkie——that\'sladyArctura,toldhimhemightteachmehimself。Andhewouldn\'t;

  andshewouldn\'t——withhimtolaughather。AndI\'vehadsuchajollytimeeversince——readingbooksoutofthelibrary!Haveyouseenthelibrary,Mr。Grant?”

  “No;I\'veseennothingyet。Supposewebeginwithaholiday,andyoubeginbyteachingme!”

  “Teachingyou,sir!I\'mnotabletoteachyou!”

  “Why,didn\'tyouasmuchasoffertoteachmethelibrary?Can\'tyouteachmethisgreatoldcastle?Andaren\'tyougoingtoteachyourselftome?”

  “Thatwouldbeafunnylesson,sir!”

  “Theleastfunny,themostseriouslessonyoucouldteachme!YouareabookGodhasbegun,andhehassentmetohelphimgoonwithit;soImustlearnwhathehaswrittenalreadybeforeItrytodoanything。“

  “Butyouknowwhataboyis,sir!Whyshouldyouwanttolearnme?”

  “Youmightaswellsaythat,becauseIhavereadoneortwobooks,I

  mustknoweverybook。Tounderstandoneboyhelpstounderstandanother,buteveryboyisanewboy,differentfromeveryotherboy,andeveryonehastobeunderstood。“

  “Yes——forsometimesArkiewon\'thearmeout,andIfeelsocrosswithherIshouldliketogiveheragoodboxontheear。Whatkingwasit,sir,thatmadethelawthatnolady,howeverdisagreeable,wastohaveherearsboxed?Doyouthinkitagoodlaw,sir?”

  “Itisgoodforyouandmeanyhow。“

  “AndwhenPercysays,\'Oh,goaway!don\'tbother,\'IfeelasifI

  couldhithimhard!Yet,ifIhappentohurthim,Iamsosorry!

  andwhythenshouldIwanttohurthim?”

  “There\'ssomethinginthislittlefellow!”saidDonaltohimself。

  “Ah,whyindeed?”heanswered。“Youseeyoudon\'tunderstandyourselfyet!”

  “Noindeed!”

  “ThenhowcouldyouthinkIshouldunderstandyouallatonce?——andaboymustbeunderstood,elsewhat\'stobecomeofhim!Fancyapoorboylivingallday,andsleepingallnight,andnobodyunderstandinghim!”

  “Thatwouldbedreadful!Butyouwillunderstandme?”

  “Onlyalittle:I\'mnotwiseenoughtounderstandanyboy。“

  “Then——butisn\'tthatwhatyousaidyoucamefor?——Ithought——“

  “Yes,“answeredDonal,“thatiswhatIcamefor;butifIfanciedI

  quiteunderstoodanyboy,thatwouldbeasuresignIdidnotunderstandhim——Thereisonewhounderstandseveryboyaswellasiftherewerenootherboyinthewholeworld。“

  “Thenwhydoesn\'teveryboygotohimwhenhecan\'tgetfairplay?”

  “Ah,why?ThatisjustwhatIwantyoutodo。Hecandobetterthangiveyoufairplayeven:hecanmakeyougiveotherpeoplefairplay,anddelightinit。“

  “Tellmewhereheis。“

  “ThatiswhatIhavetoteachyou:meretellingisnotmuchuse。

  Tellingiswhatmakespeoplethinktheyknowwhentheydonot,andmakesthemfoolish。“

  “Whatishisname?”

  “Iwillnottellyouthatjustyet;forthenyouwouldthinkyouknewhim,whenyouknewnexttonothingabouthim。Lookhere;lookatthisbook,“hewenton,pullingacopyofBoethiusfromhispocket;“lookatthenameonthebackofit:itisthenameofthemanthatwrotethebook。“

  Daviespelleditout。

  “Nowyouknowallaboutthebook,don\'tyou?”

  “No,sir;Idon\'tknowanythingaboutit。“

  “Wellthen,myfather\'snameisRobertGrant:youknownowwhatagoodmanheis!”

  “No,Idon\'t。Ishouldliketoseehimthough!”

  “Youwouldlovehimifyoudid!Butyouseenowthatknowingthenameofapersondoesnotmakeyouknowtheperson。“

  “Butyousaid,sir,thatifyoutoldmethenameofthatperson,I

  shouldfancyIknewallabouthim:Idon\'tfancyIknowallaboutyourfathernowyouhavetoldmehisname!”

  “Youhavemethere!”answeredDonal。“IdidnotsayquitewhatI

  oughttohavesaid。Ishouldhavesaidthatwhenweknowalittleaboutaperson,andareusedtohearinghisname,thenwearereadytothinkweknowallabouthim。Iheardamantheotherday——amanwhohadneverspokentoyourfather——talkasifheknewallabouthim。“

  “IthinkIunderstand,“saidDavie。

  Toconfessignoranceistoloserespectwiththeignorantwhowouldappeartoknow。Butthereisaworsethingthantolosetherespectevenofthewise——todeservetoloseit;andthathedoeswhowouldgainarespectthatdoesnotbelongtohim。Butaconfessionofignoranceisagroundofrespectwithawell-bredchild,andevenwithmanyordinaryboyswillraiseaman\'sinfluence:theyrecognizehisloyaltytothetruth。Act-truthisinfinitelymorethanfact-truth;theloveofthetruthinfinitelybeyondtheknowledgeofit。

  Theywentouttogether,andwhentheyhadgonetheroundoftheplaceoutside,Daviewouldhavetakenhimoverthehouse;butDonalsaidtheywouldleavesomethingforanothertime,andmadehimliedownfortenminutes。Thistheboythoughtagreathardship,butDonalsawthatheneededtobetaughttorest。Tentimesinthosetenminuteshewasonthepointofjumpingup,butDonalfoundawordsufficienttorestrainhim。Whenthetenminuteswereover,hesethimanadditionsum。Theboyprotestedheknewalltherulesofarithmetic。

  “But,“saidDonal,“Imustknowthatyouknowthem;thatismybusiness。Dothisone,howevereasyitis。“

  Theboyobeyed,andbroughthimthesum——incorrect。

  “Now,Davie,“saidDonal,“yousaidyouknewallaboutaddition,butyouhavenotdonethissumcorrectly。“

  “Ihaveonlymadeablunder,sir。“

  “Butaruleisnoruleifitisnotcarriedout。Everythinggoesonthesuppositionofitsbeingitself,andnotsomethingelse。Peoplethattalkaboutgoodthingswithoutdoingthemareleftout。Youarenotmasterofadditionuntilyouradditionistobedependedupon。“

  Theboyfoundithardtofixhisattention:tofixitonsomethinghedidnotyetunderstand,wouldbetoohard!hemustlearntodosointhepursuitofaccuracywherehealreadyunderstood!thenhewouldnothavetofighttwodifficultiesatonce——thatofunderstanding,andthatoffixinghisattention。Butforalongtimeheneverkepthimmorethanaquarterofanhouratworkonthesamething。

  Whenhehaddonethesumcorrectly,andasecondwithoutneedofcorrection,hetoldhimtolayhisslateaside,andhewouldtellhimafairy-story。Thereinhesucceededtolerably——intheopinionofDavie,wonderfully:whatatutorwasthis,wholetfairiesintotheschool-room!

  Thetalewasofnoveryoriginalconstruction——theyoungestbrothergaininginthepathofrighteousnesswhattheelderbrotherslosethroughmasterfulselfishness。Amanmustdoathingbecauseitisright,evenifhedieforit;buttruthwerepoorindeedifitdidnotbringatlastallthingssubjecttoit!Asbeautyandtruthareone,soaretruthandstrengthone。MustGodbeeveronthecross,thatwepoorworshippersmaypayhimourhighesthonour?Isitnotenoughtoknowthatifthedevilwerethegreater,yetwouldnotGoddohimhomage,butwouldhangforeveronhiscross?Truthisjoyandvictory。Thetrueheroisadjudgedtobliss,norcaninthenatureofthings,thatis,ofGod,escapeit。Hewhoholdsbylifeandresistsdeath,mustbevictorious;hisverylifeisaslayingofdeath。Amanmaydieforhisopinion,andmayonlybelivingtohimself:amanwhodiesforthetruth,diestohimselfandtoallthatisnottrue。

  “Whatabeautifulstory!”criedDaviewhenitceased。“Wheredidyougetit,Mr。Grant?”

  “Whereallstoriescomefrom。“

  “Whereisthat?”

  “TheThink-book。“

  “Whatafunnyname!Ineverheardit!Willitbeinthelibrary?”

  “No;itisinnolibrary。ItisthebookGodisalwayswritingatoneend,andblottingoutattheother。Itismadeofthoughts,notwords。ItistheThink-book。“

  “NowIunderstand!Yougotthestoryoutofyourownhead!”

  “Yes,perhaps。Buthowdiditgetintomyhead?”

  “Ican\'ttellthat。Nobodycantellthat!”

  “Nobodycanthatnevergoesupabovehisownhead——thatnevershutstheThink-book,andstandsuponit。Whenonedoes,thentheThink-bookswellstoagreatmountainandliftshimupabovealltheworld:thenheseeswherethestoriescomefrom,andhowtheygetintohishead——Areyoutohavearideto-day?”

  “IrideornotjustasIlike。“

  “Well,wewillnowdojustaswebothlike,Ihope,anditwillbetwolikesinsteadofone——thatis,ifwearetruefriends。“

  “Weshallhetruefriends——thatweshall!”

  “Howcanthatbe——betweenalittleboylikeyou,andagrownmanlikeme?”

  “Bymebeinggood。“

  “Bybothofusbeinggood——nootherway。Ifoneofusonlywasgood,wecouldneverbetruefriends。Imustbegoodaswellasyou,elseweshallneverunderstandeachother!”

  “Howkindyouare,Mr。Grant!Youtreatmejustlikeanotherone!”

  saidDavie。

  “ButwemustnotforgetthatIamthebigoneandyouthelittleone,andthatwecan\'tbetheotheronetoeachotherexceptthelittleonedoeswhatthebigonetellshim!That\'sthewaytofitintoeachother。“

  “Oh,ofcourse!”answeredDavie,asiftherecouldnotbetwomindsaboutthat。

  CHAPTERXV。

  HORSEANDMAN。

  Duringthefirstdayandthenext,Donaldidnotevencomeinsightofanyotherofthefamily;butonthethirdday,aftertheirshortearlyschool——forheseldomletDavieworktillhewastired,andneverafter——goingwithhimthroughthestable-yard,theycameuponlordForgueashemountedhishorse——anervous,fiery,thin-skinnedthoroughbred。Themomenthismasterwasonhim,hebegantobackandrear。Forguegavehimacutwithhiswhip。Hewentwild,plunginganddancingandkicking。Theyounglordwasahorsemaninthesenseofhavingagoodseat;butheknewlittleabouthorses;

  theyweretohimcreaturestobecompelled,notfriendswithwhomtoholdsweetconcert。Hehadnotlearnedthattoruleillisworsethantoobeyill。Kingsmaybeworsethanitisinthepowerofanysubjecttobe。Ashewasraisinghisarmforaseconduseless,cruel,anddangerousblow,Donaldartedtothehorse\'shead。

  “Youmustn\'tdothat,mylord!”hesaid。“You\'lldrivehimmad。“

  ButtheworstpartofForgue\'snaturewasuppermost,inhisrageallthevicesofhisfamilyrushedtothetop。HelookeddownonDonalwithafurycheckedonlybycontempt。

  “Keepoff,“hesaid,“oritwillbetheworseforyou。Whatdoyouknowabouthorses?”

  “Enoughtoknowthatyouarenotfairtohim。Iwillnotletyoustrikethepooranimal。Justlookatthiswater-chain!”

  “Holdyourtongue,andstandaway,or,by——“

  “Yewinnafrichtme,sir,“saidDonal,whoseEnglishwould,foryears,uponanyexcitement,turncowardlyandrunaway,leavinghismother-tonguetobearthebrunt,“——I\'mnotimorsome。“

  ForguebroughtdownhiswhipwithagreatstingingblowuponDonal\'sshoulderandback。ThefiercebloodofthehighlandCeltrushedtohisbrain,andhadnotthemaninhimheldbyGodandtrampledonthedevil,theremightthenhavebeenmiserablework。Butthoughheclenchedhisteeth,hefetteredhishands,andruledhistongue,andtheMasterofmenwasmasterstill。

  “Mylord,“hesaid,afteroneinstant\'sthunderoussilence,“there\'sthati\'mewadthinkaslittleo\'throttlin\'yeasyeduo\'

  ill-usin\'yerpuirbeast。ButI\'mnogaein\'todrophisquarrel,an\'takupmyain:thatwadbecooardly。“Herehepattedthecreature\'sneck,andrecoveringhiscomposureandhisEnglish,wenton。“Itellyou,mylord,thecurb-chainistootight!Theanimalissufferingasyoucanhavenoconceptionof,oryouwouldpityhim。“

  “Lethimgo,“criedForgue,“orIwillmakeyou。“

  Heraisedhiswhipagain,themoreenragedthatthegroomstoodlookingonwithhismouthopen。

  “Itellyourlordship,“saidDonal,“itismyturntostrike;andifyouhittheanimalagainbeforethatchainisslackened,Iwillpitchyououtofthesaddle。“

  ForanswerForguestruckthehorseoverthehead。Thesamemomenthewasontheground;Donalhadtakenhimbythelegandthrownhimoff。Hewasnothorsemanenoughtokeephisholdofthereins,andDonalledthehorsealittlewayoff,andlefthimtogetupinsafety。Thepooranimalwaspouringwithsweat,shiveringandtrembling,yetthrowinghisheadbackeverymoment。Donalcouldscarcelyundothechain;itwastwisted——hislordshiphadfastenedithimself——andsharpedgespressedhisjawattheleasttouchoftherein。Hehadnotyetrehookedit,whenForguewasuponhimwithasecondblowofhiswhip。Thehorsewasscaredafreshatthesound,anditwasallhecoulddotoholdhim,buthesucceededatlengthincalminghim。Whenhelookedabouthim,Forguewasgone。

  Heledthehorseintothestable,puthiminhisstall,andproceededtounsaddlehim。Thenfirsthewasre-awareofthepresenceofDavie。Theboywasstamping——withfierceeyesandwhiteface——chokingwithsilentrage。

  “Davie,mychild!”saidDonal,andDavierecoveredhispowerofspeech。

  “I\'llgoandtellmyfather!”hesaid,andmadeforthestabledoor。

  “Whichofusareyougoingtotellupon?”askedDonalwithasmile。

  “Percy,ofcourse!”hereplied,almostwithascream。“Youareagoodman,Mr。Grant,andheisabadfellow。Myfatherwillgiveithimwell。Hedoesn\'toften——butoh,can\'thejust!Todaretostrikeyou!I\'llgotohimatonce,whetherhe\'sinbedornot!”

  “No,youwon\'t,myboy!Listentome。Somepeoplethinkit\'sadisgracetobestruck:Ithinkitadisgracetostrike。Ihavearightoveryourbrotherbythatblow,andImeantokeepit——forhisgood。Youdidn\'tthinkIwasafraidofhim?”

  “No,no;anybodycouldseeyouweren\'tabitafraidofhim。Iwouldhavestruckhimagainifhehadkilledmeforit!”

  “Idon\'tdoubtyouwould。Butwhenyouunderstand,youwillnotbesoreadytostrike。Icouldhavekilledyourbrothermoreeasilythanheldhishorse。Youdon\'tknowhowstrongIam,orwhatablowofmyfistwouldbetoadelicatefellowlikethat。Ihopehisfallhasnothurthim。“

  “Ihopeithas——alittle,Imean,onlyalittle,“saidtheboy,lookinginthefaceofhistutor。“Buttellmewhyyoudidnotstrikehim。Itwouldbegoodforhimtobewellbeaten。“

  “Itwill,Ihope,bebetterforhimtobewellforgiven:hewillbeashamedofhimselfthesooner,Ithink。ButwhyIdidnotstrikehimwas,thatIamnotmyownmaster。“

  “Butmyfather,Iamsure,wouldnothavebeenangrywithyou。Hewouldhavesaidyouhadarighttodoit。“

  “Perhaps;buttheearlisnotthemasterImean。“

  “Whois,then?”

  “JesusChrist。“

  “O——oh!”

  “HesaysImustnotreturnevilforevil,ablowforablow。I

  don\'tmindwhatpeoplesayaboutit:hewouldnothavemedisgracemyself!Henevereventhreatenedthosethatstruckhim。“

  “Buthewasn\'taman,youknow!”

  “Notaman!Whatwashethen?”

  “HewasGod,youknow。“

  “Andisn\'tGodaman——andeversomuchmorethanaman?”

  Theboymadenoanswer,andDonalwenton。

  “DoyouthinkGodwouldhavehischilddoanythingdisgraceful?

  Why,Davie,youdon\'tknowyourownFather!WhatGodwantsofusistobedown-righthonest,anddowhathetellsuswithoutfear。“

  Daviewassilent。Hisconsciencereprovedhim,astheconscienceofatrue-heartedboywillreprovehimattheverymentionofthenameofGod,untilhesetshimselfconsciouslytodohiswill。Donalsaidnomore,andtheywentfortheirwalk。

  CHAPTERXVI。

  COLLOQUIES。

  IntheeveningDonalwenttoseeAndrewComin。

  “Weel,hooareyegettin\'onwi\'theyerl?”askedthecobbler。

  “Yousetmeagoodexampleofsayingnothingabouthim,“answeredDonal;“andIwillfollowit——atleasttillIknowmore:Ihavescarceseenhimyet。“

  “That\'sright!”returnedthecobblerwithsatisfaction。“I\'mthinkin\'ye\'llbeaneo\'thefeow\'atcanruletheiranehoose——thatis,haudtheiraintonguestillthehoorforspeechbecome。Stickyetothat,mydearsir,an\'mairi\'llbeweelnoringeneralisweel。“

  “I\'mcometoyeforabito\'helpthough;Iwantlichtuponaqueston\'at\'slangtribletme——Whatthinkye?——hoofardoesthecomman\'laidupo\'\'s,astowarfare\'atweenmanan\'man,reach?Arewenevertaraisethehan\'tohumanbein\',thinkye?”

  “Weel,Ihaethouchtaheapabootit,an\'Idaurnasay\'atI\'mjistabsoluteclearupo\'themaitter。Buttheremaybepairtclearwhaura\'\'snoclear;an\'bywhatweun\'erstan\'wecomethenearertowhatwedinnaun\'erstan\'。There\'saethinguncoplain——\'atwe\'reonnoaccoonttoreturnevilforevil:onybody\'atca\'shimsel\'aChristianmaunun\'erstan\'thatmuckle。We\'retogienoplacetorevenge,insideoroot。Thereforewe\'renotogieblowforblow。

  Gienamanhitye,ye\'retotakeiti\'God\'sname。Butwhetherthingsmaynacometoap\'intwhauratye\'rebu\'n\',stilli\'God\'sname,todefen\'thelifeGodhasgienye,Icannasay——Ihaenathelichttojustifeemeindenyin\'\'t。Theremaunsurely,Ihaesaidtomysel\',beatimewhanamanmayhaetoduwhatGoddissaeaften——makuseo\'thestronghan\'!Butit\'sclearhemaunnado\'tinrage——that\'sowernearhate——an\'hate\'sthedeevil\'sain。Amanmay,gienhelivevarraneartheLord,bewhilesangryohnsinned:

  butthewratho\'manworkethnottherichteousnesso\'God;an\'thewraththatrisesi\'themidso\'encoonter,isnoliketobeo\'thenaturo\'divinewrath。Towinatit,gien\'tbepossible,lat\'sconsidertheLord——hoohedid。There\'snowordo\'himeverliftin\'

  han\'toprotec\'himsel\'。Theonlythinglikeitwasforithers。Togarthemlathisdisciplesalane——maybetilltheywarlikeeneuchtilhimsel\'notorin,hepatootmairnorhishan\'upo\'them\'atcamtotakhim:hestrakthemsairwi\'thepooeritsel\'\'atmuvsa\'

  airms。Butnovarrasairnaither——hebutknockitthemdoon!——jisttolatthemkentheywartoduashebadethem,an\'lathisfowkbe;——an\'maybetolatthemken\'atgienhelootthemtakhim,itwasno\'athecouldnahin\'erthemgienhelikit。Icannahelpthinkin\'

  wemaystan\'upforitherfowk。An\'I\'mnosayin\'\'atwearenatodefen\'oorselsfraeasetattackwi\'design——Butthere\'ssomethingo\'mairimportanceyetnorkennin\'therichto\'onyqueston。“

  “Whatcanthatbe?Whatcanbeo\'mairimportancenordoin\'richti\'thesichto\'God?”saidDonal。

  “Bein\'richtwi\'thevarrathouchto\'God,sae\'atwecannamistak,butmaunkenjistwhathewadhaedune。That\'sthebigRicht,themothero\'a\'thelaveo\'therichts。That\'stobeasthemaisterwas。Onygait,whateverwedu,itmaunbesicastobedune,an\'itmaunbedunei\'thenameo\'God;whanwedunaethingwemaunduthatnaethingi\'thenameo\'God。Abodymayweelsay,\'OLord,thoohasnalattenmeseewhatIouchttodu,saeI\'lldunaething!\'Gienamanoughttodefen\'himsel\',butdisnadu\'t,\'causehethinksGodwadnahaehimdu\'t,wullGodlea\'himoondefentforthat?Orgienabodystan\'supi\'thenameo\'God,an\'frontsanairmyo\'enemies,divyethinkGod\'illforsakehim\'causehe\'smadeamistak?

  Whatever\'sdunewantin\'faithmaunbesin——itcannahelpit;

  whatever\'sduneinfaithcannabesin,thoughitmaybeamistak。

  Onlylatnaamantakpresumptionforfaith!that\'safearsomemistak,forit\'sjisttheopposite。“

  “Ithankye,“saidDonal。“I\'llconsiderwi\'mybestendeevourwhatyehaesaid。“

  “Buto\'a\'things,“resumedthecobbler,“luik\'atyelo\'efairplay。

  Fairplay\'sawon\'erfu\'word——agran\'thingconstantlylostsichto\'。Man,Ihaebeentryin\'towinattheduin\'o\'therichtthismonyayear,butIdaurnayetlatmysel\'ac\'upo\'thespuro\'themomentwhaurmyainenterest\'sconcernt:myainsidemichtyetblin\'metotheitherman\'ssideo\'thebusiness。Onybodycanun\'erstan\'hisainricht,butittakstriblean\'thouchttoun\'erstan\'whatanithercoontshisricht。Twarichtscannaweelclash。It\'sawrangan\'aricht,orpairtwrangan\'apairtricht\'atclashes。“

  “Giena\'bodydidthat,Idoobttherewadbefeowfortinsmade!”saidDonal。

  “AbootthatIcannasay,nokennin\';IdaurnadiscoveralawwhaurI

  haenaknowledge!Butthissamefairplaylies,alangwi\'love,atthevarraruteandf\'undationo\'theuniverse。Thetheologianshadaglimmero\'thefac\'whantheymadesaemuckleo\'justice,onlytheirjusticeissicameeserablesma\'bitplaistereemageo\'

  justice,\'atitmaistgarsanhonestbodylauch。Theyseemtomelikeshepherds\'atrivedoonthedoor-posts,an\'syneblockupthedoorwi\'them。“

  DonaltoldhimofthequarrelhehadhadwithlordForgue,andaskedhimwhetherhethoughthehaddoneright。

  “Weel,“answeredthecobbler,“I\'masfarfraeblamin\'youasIamfraejustifeein\'theyoonglord。“

  “Heseemstomeafinekin\'o\'alad,“saidDonal,“thoughsomeowerbeirin\'。“

  “Thelikeso\'himaremairtobeexcusedforthatnoritherfowk,fortheyhaegreatdisadvantagesi\'thepositionan\'theupbringin\'。

  It\'snoeasyforhim\'at\'sbrouchtupalordtobelievehe\'sjistanewi\'thelave。“

  Donalwentforastrollthroughthetown,andmettheminister,buthetooknonoticeofhim。Hewasgreatlyannoyedatthemarchwhichhesaidthefellowhadstolenuponhim,andregardedhimasonewhohadtakenanunfairadvantageofhim。Buthehadlittleinfluenceatthecastle。Theearlneverbyanychancewenttochurch。Hisniece,ladyArctura,did,however,andheldtheministerforanauthorityatthingsspiritual——oneofwhomlivingwaterwastobehadwithoutmoneyandwithoutprice。Butwhatshecountedspiritualthingswereverycommonearthlystuff,andforthewater,itwasbutstagnantwaterfromtheditchesofashamtheology。Onlywhatwasapoorgirltodowhodidnotknowhowtofeedherself,butapplytoonewhopretendedtobeabletofeedothers?Howwasshetoknowthathecouldnotevenfeedhimself?Outofmanyadifficultyshethoughthehelpedher——onlythedifficultywouldpresentlyclaspheragain,andshemustdealwithitasshebestcould,untilanewonemadeherforgetit,andgototheminister,orrathertohisdaughter,again。Shewasoneofthosewhofeeltheneedofsomehelptolive——someupholdingthatisnotofthemselves,butwho,throughthestupidityofteachersunconsciouslyfalse,——mensounfitthattheydonotknowtheyareunfit,directtheirefforts,firsttowardshavingcorrectnotions,thentoworkupthefeelingsthatbelongtothosenotions。Shewasanhonestgirlsofarasshehadbeentaught——perhapsnotsofarasshemighthavebeenwithouthavingbeentaught。HowwasshetothinkarightwithscarceaglimmerofGod\'struth?HowwasshetopleaseGod,asshecalledit,whothoughtofhiminawayrepulsivetoeverylovingsoul?HowwasshetobeacceptedofGod,whodidnotacceptherownneighbour,butlookeddown,withoutknowingit,uponsomanyofherfellow-creatures?Howshouldsuchaoneeitherenjoyorrecommendherreligion?Itwouldhavebeentheworseforherifshehadenjoyedit——theworseforothersifshehadrecommendedit!

  ReligionissimplythewayhometotheFather。Therewaslittleofthepathinherreligionexceptthedifficultyofit。Thetruewayisdifficultenoughbecauseofourunchildlikeness——uphill,steep,anddifficult,butthereisfreshlifeoneverysurmountedheight,apurerairgained,evermorelifeformoreclimbing。Butthepaththatisnotthetrueoneisnotthereforeeasy。Uphillishardwalking,butthroughabogisworse。ThosewhoseekGodwiththeirfacesnoteventurnedtowardshim,who,insteadofbeholdingtheFatherintheSon,takethestupidestopinionsconcerninghimandhiswaysfromothermen——whatshouldtheydobutgowanderingondarkmountains,spendingtheirstrengthinavoidingprecipicesandgettingoutofbogs,mourningandsighingovertheirsinsinsteadofleavingthembehindandfleeingtotheFather,whomtoknowiseternallife。DidtheybutsetthemselvestofindoutwhatChristknewandmeantandcommanded,andthentodoit,theywouldsoonforgettheirfalseteachers。Butalas!theygoonbowingbeforelong-faced,big-wordedauthority——themorefatallywhenitisembodiedinagoodmanwho,himselfavictimtofaithinmen,seestheSonofGodonlythroughthetheoriesofothers,andnotwiththesightofhisownspiritualeyes。

  Donalhadnotyetseenthelady。Heneitherate,sat,norheldintercoursewiththefamily。AwayfromDavie,hespenthistimeinhistowerchamber,oroutofdoors。Allthegroundswereopentohimexceptawalledgardenonthesouth-easternslope,lookingtowardsthesea,whichtheearlkeptforhimself,thoughherarelywalkedinit。Onthesideofthehillawayfromthetown,wasalargeparkreachingdowntotheriver,andstretchingalongwayupitsbank——withfinetrees,andgloriousoutlookstotheseainonedirection,andtothemountainsintheother。HereDonalwouldoftenwander,nowwithabook,nowwithDavie。Theboy\'spresencewasrarelyaninterruptiontohisthoughtswhenhewantedtothink。

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