Therewassomethingofold-worldbreedingabouttheladthatcommendedhimtotheearl。SuchbreedingisnotrareamongCelt-bornpeasants。
“Mysonstoldmethattheyhadmetayoungmaninthegrounds——“
“ForwhichIbegyourlordship\'spardon,“saidDonal。“Ididnotknowtheplacewasforbidden。“
“Ihopeyouwillsoonbefamiliarwithit。Iamgladofyourmistake。Fromwhattheysaid,Isupposedyoumightbeastudentinwantofasituation,andIhadbeenlookingoutforayoungmantotakechargeoftheboy:itseemedpossibleyoumightservemypurpose。Idonotquestionyoucanshowyourselffitforsuchanoffice:Ipresumeitwouldsuityou。Doyoubelieveyourselfonetobesotrusted?”
Donalhadnotaglimmeroffalsemodesty;heansweredimmediately,“Ido,mylord。“
“Tellmesomethingofyourhistory:wherewereyouborn?whatwereyourparents?”
Donaltoldhimallhethoughtitofanyconsequenceheshouldknow。
Hislordshipdidnotonceinterrupthimwithquestionorremark。
Whenhehadended——
“Well,“hesaid,“Ilikeallyoutellme。Youhavetestimonials?”
“Ihavefromtheprofessors,mylord,andonefromtheministeroftheparish,whoknewmebeforeIwenttocollege。IcouldgetonefromMr。Sclatertoo,whosechurchIattendedwhilethere。“
“Showmewhatyouhave,“saidhislordship。
Donaltookthepapersfromthepocket-bookhismotherhadmadehim,andhandedthemtohim。Theearlreadthemwithsomeattention,returningeachtohimwithoutremarkashefinishedit,onlysayingwiththelast,“Quitesatisfactory。“
“But,“saidDonal,“thereisonethingIshouldbemoreateaseifI
toldyourlordship:Mr。Carmichael,theministerofthisparish,wouldtellyouIwasanatheist,orsomethingverylikeit——thereforeanaltogetherunsafeperson。Butheknowsnothingofme。“
“Onwhatgroundsthenwouldhesayso?”askedtheearl——showingnottheleastdiscomposure。“Ithoughtyouwereastrangertothisplace!”
Donaltoldhimhowtheyhadmet,whathadpassedbetweenthem,andhowtheministerhadbehavedinconsequence。Hislordshipheardhimgravely,wassilentforamoment,andthensaid,“ShouldMr。Carmichaeladdressmeonthesubject,whichIdonotthinklikely,hewillfindmealreadytoomuchprejudicedinyourfavour。ButIcanimaginehismistakingyourfreedomofspeech:youarescarcelyprudentenough。Whysayallyouthink?”
“Ifearnothing,mylord。“
Theearlwassilent;hisgrayfaceseemedtogrowgrayer,butitmightbethatjustthenthesunwentunderacloud,andhewassuddenlyfoldedinshadow。Afteramomenthespokeagain。
“Iamquitesatisfiedwithyousofar,Mr。Grant;andasIshouldnotliketoemployyouindirectoppositiontoMr。Carmichel——notthatIbelongtohischurch——wewillarrangemattersbeforehecanhearoftheaffair。Whatsalarydoyouwant?”
Donalrepliedhewouldpreferleavingthesalarytohislordship\'sjudgmentupontrial。
“Iamnotawealthyman,“returnedhislordship,“andwouldpreferanunderstanding。“
“Trymethenforthreemonths,mylord;givememyboardandlodging,theuseofyourlibrary,andattheendofthequarteraten-pound-note:bythattimeyouwillbeabletotellwhetherIsuityou。“
Theearlnoddedagreement,andDonalroseatonce。Withaheartfullofthankfulnessandhopehewalkedbacktohisfriends。Hehadbeforehimpleasantwork;plentyoftimeandbook-help;anabodefullofinterest;andsomethingforhislabour!
“\'Surelythewrathofmanshallpraisethee!\'“saidthecobbler,rejoicingagainsttheminister;“\'theremainderofwrathshaltthourestrain。\'“
IntheafternoonDonalwentintothetowntogetsometrifleshewantedbeforegoingtothecastle。Asheturnedtothedoorofadraper\'sshop,hesawatthecountertheministertalkingtohim。
Hewouldratherhavegoneelsewherebutforunwillingnesstoturnhisbackonanything:hewentin。Besidetheministerstoodayounglady,who,havingcompletedherpurchases,waslisteningtotheirconversation。Thedraperlookedupasheentered。Aglancepassedbetweenhimandtheminister。HecametoDonal,andhavingheardwhathewanted,lefthim,wentbacktotheminister,andtooknomorenoticeofhim。Donalfounditawkward,andlefttheshop。
“Highan\'michty!”saidthedraper,annoyedatlosingthecustomertowhosedispraisehehadbeenlistening。
“Farbeyonddissent,John!”saidtheminister,pursuingaremark。
“Doobtless,sir,itisthat!”answeredthedraper。“I\'mthankfu\'tosayIneverharbouredadoobtmysel\',butayetookwhatIwastauld,ohnargle-barglet。Whathaewesicasyersel\'setower\'sfor,gienitbinnatohaud\'si\'thestraichtpatho\'whatwe\'retobelievean\'
notobelieve?It\'safinethingnotobeaccoontable!”
Theministerwasanhonestmansofarasheknewhimselfandhonesty,anddidnotrelishthisformofsubmission。Buthedidnotaskhimselfwherewasthedifferencebetweenacceptingthewordofmanandacceptingman\'sexplanationofthewordofGod!Hetookahugepinchfromhisblacksnuffboxandheldhispeace。
IntheeveningDonalwouldsettlehisaccountwithmistressComin:
hefoundherdemandsomuchlessthanhehadexpected,thatheexpostulated。Shewasfirm,however,andassuredhimshehadgained,notlost。Ashewasputtinguphisthings,“Lea\'abuikortwa,sir,“shesaid,“\'atwhanyeluikin,theplacemayluikhame-like。Wes\'ca\'theroomyours。Comeasaftenasyecan。ItdoesmyAnerew\'shertguidtohaeacrackwi\'ane\'atkenssomethingo\'whattheMaisterwadbeat。Monyane\'llca\'himLord,butfeow\'illtakthetribletokenwhathewadhaeo\'them。Butthere\'smyAnerew——he\'llsityon\'erathiswark,thinkin\'bythehoorthegitherowersomethingtheMaistersaid\'athecannawinattherichtso\'。\'Depen\'upo\'\'t,\'hesayswhiles,\'depen\'upo\'\'t,lass,whauronythinghesaysdisnaluikrichttohiz,itmaunbe\'atwehaenawonatit!\'“
Assheended,herhusbandcamein,andtookupwhathefanciedthethreadofthedialogue。
“An\'whatarewetothinko\'theman,“hesaid,“at\'scontentnotoun\'erstan\'whathewasatthetribletosay?Wadhesaythings\'athedidnameanfowktoun\'erstan\'whanhesaidthem?”“Weel,Anerew,“
saidhiswife,“there\'smonyathinghesaid\'atIcannotun\'erstan\';naitheramImucklethebetterforyourexplainin\'o\'
thesame;Imaunjistlatitsit。“
Andrewlaughedhisquietpleasedlaugh。
“Weel,lass,“hesaid,“theduin\'o\'aething\'sbetternortheun\'erstan\'in\'o\'twenty。Norwullyebelangohnun\'erstan\'tmuckle\'at\'sdarktoyenoo;forthemaisterlikesnanebuttheduero\'theword,an\'herhelikesweel。Beblythe,lass;yes\'haeyerfillo\'
un\'erstan\'in\'yet!”
“I\'mfaintobelieveyespeykthetrowth,Anerew!”
“It\'sgreattrowth,“saidDonal。
CHAPTERXII。
THECASTLE。
Thenextmorningcameacartfromthecastletofetchhisbox;andafterbreakfasthesetoutforhisnewabode。
Hetookthepathbytheriver-side。Themorningwasglorious。Thesunandtheriverandthebirdswerejubilant,andthewindgavelifetoeverything。Itrippledthestream,andflutteredthelongwebsbleachinginthesun:theyroseandfelllikewhitewavesonthebrightgreenlake;andwomen,homelyNereidsofthegrassysea,werebesprinklingthemwithspray。Thereweredullsoundsofwoodenmachinerynear,buttheymadenodiscordwiththesweetnessofthehour,speakingonlyofactivity,notlabour。Fromthelongbleachingmeadowsbytheriver-siderosethewoodedbaseofthecastle。Donal\'sbosomswelledwithdelight;thencameasting:washealreadyforgettinghisinextinguishablegrief?“But,“heansweredhimself,“Godismoretomethananywoman!Whenheputsjoyinmyheart,shallInotbeglad?WhenhecallsmynameshallInotanswer?”
Hesteppedoutjoyfully,andwassoonclimbingthehill。Hewasagainadmittedbytheoldbutler。
“Iwillshowyouatonce,“hesaid,“howtogoandcomeatyourownwill。“
Heledhimthroughdoorsandalongpassagestoaposternopeningonalittlewalledgardenattheeastendofthecastle。
“Thisdoor,“hesaid,“is,youobserve,atthefootofBaliol\'stower,andinthattowerisyourroom;Iwillshowityou。“
Heledthewayupaspiralstairthatmightalmosthavegoneinsidethenewelofthegreatstaircase。Upanduptheywent,untilDonalbegantowonder,andstilltheywentup。
“You\'reyoung,sir,“saidthebutler,“andsoundofwindandlimb;
soyou\'llsoonthinknothingofit。“
“Ineverwasupsohighbefore,exceptonahill-side,“returnedDonal。“Thecollege-towerisnothingtothis!”
“Inadayortwoyou\'llbeshootingupanddownitlikeabird。I
usedtodosomyself。Igotintothewayofkeepingashoulderforemost,andscrewingupasifIwasablobofair!Oldagedoesmakefoolsofus!”
“Youdon\'tlikeitthen?”
“No,Idonot:whodoes?”
“It\'sonlythatyougetspentasyougoup。Thefreshairatthetopofthestairwillsoonreviveyou,“saidDonal。
Buthisconductordidnotunderstandhim。
“That\'sallverywellsolongasyou\'reyoung;butwhenithasgotyou,you\'llpantandgrumbleliketherestofus。“
InthedistanceDonalsawAgecomingslowlyafterhim,toclawhiminhisclutch,astheoldsongsays。“PleaseGod,“hethought,“bythetimehecomesup,I\'llbereadytotryafallwithhim!OThoueternallyyoung,theyearshavenoholdonthee;letthemhavenoneonthychild。Itooshallhavelifeeternal。“
Eretheyreachedthetopofthestair,themanhaltedandopenedadoor。Donalenteringsawasmallroom,nearlyround,aportionofthecircletakenoffbythestair。Ontheoppositesidewasawindowprojectingfromthewall,whencehecouldlookinthreedifferentdirections。Thewidecountrylayathisfeet。Hesawthewindingroadbywhichhehadascended,thegatebywhichhehadentered,themeadowwithitswhitestripesthroughwhichhehadcome,andtheriverflowingdown。Hefolloweditwithhiseyes:——lo,therewasthesea,shininginthesunlikeadiamondshield!ItwasbutthelittleGermanOcean,yetonewiththegreatworld-ocean。Heturnedtohisconductor。
“Yes,“saidtheoldman,answeringhislook,“it\'saglorioussight!
WhenfirstIlookedoutthereIthoughtIwasineternity。“
Thewallswerebareevenofplaster;hecouldhavecountedthestonesinthem;buttheyweredryasabone。
“Youarewondering,“saidtheoldman,“howyouaretokeepwarminthewinter!Lookhere:youshutthisdooroverthewindow!Seehowthickandstrongitis!Thereisyourfireplace;andforfuel,there\'splentybelow!Itisalabourtocarryitup,Igrant;butifIwasyou,Iwouldsettoo\'nightswhennobodywasabout,andcarrytillIhadastocklaidin!”
“But,“saidDonal,“Ishouldfillupmyroom。Iliketobeabletomoveaboutalittle!”
“Ah,“repliedtheoldman,“youdon\'tknowwhataspaceyouhaveupherealltoyourself!Comethisway。“
Twoturnsmoreupthestair,andtheycametoanotherdoor。Itopenedintowidespace:fromitDonalsteppedonaledgeorbartizan,withoutanyparapet,thatranroundthetower,passingabovethewindowofhisroom。Itwaswellhehadasteadybrain,forhefoundtheheightaffecthimmorethanthatofaprecipiceonGlashgar:doubtlesshewouldgetusedtoit,fortheoldmanhadsteppedoutwithoutthesmallesthesitation!Roundthetowerhefollowedhim。
Ontheothersideafewstepsrosetoawatch-tower——asortofornatesentry-boxinstone,whereonemightsitandregardwithwidevisionthewholecountry。Avoidingthis,anothersteportwoledthemtotheroofofthecastle——ofgreatstoneslabs。Abroadpassageranbetweentheriseoftheroofandabattlementedparapet。
Bythistimetheycametoaflatroof,ontowhichtheydescendedbyafewsteps。Herestoodtworoughsheds,withnothinginthem。
“There\'sstowage!”saidtheoldman。
“Yes,indeed!”answeredDonal,towhomtheideaofhisaeriewasgrowingmoreandmoreagreeable。“Butwouldtherebenoobjectiontomyusingtheplaceforsuchapurpose?”
“Whatobjection?”returnedhisguide。“Idoubtifasinglepersonbutmyselfknowsit。“
“AndshallIbeallowedtocarryupasmuchasIplease?”
“Iallowyou,“saidthebutler,withimportance。“Ofcourseyouwillnotwaste——Iamdeadagainstwaste!Butastowhatisneedful,useyourfreedom——Dinnerwillbereadyforyouintheschoolroomatseven。“
Atthedoorofhisroomtheoldmanlefthim,andafterlisteningforamomenttohisdescendingsteps,Donalre-enteredhischamber。
Whytheyputhimsoapart,Donalneveraskedhimself;thatheshouldhavesuchcommandofhisleisureasthisisolationpromisedhimwasaconsequenceverysatisfactory。Heproceededatoncetosettlehimselfinhisnewquarters。Findingsomeshelvesinarecessofthewall,hearrangedhisbooksuponthem,andlaidhisfewclothesinthechestofdrawersbeneath。Hethengotouthiswritingmaterial,andsatdown。
Thoughhiswindowwassohigh,thewarmpureaircameinfullofthearomaticodoursrisinginthehotsunshinefromtheyoungpinetreesfarbelow,andfromalarkfarabovedescendednewsofheaven-gate。
Thescentcameupandthesongcamedownallthetimehewaswritingtohismother——alongletter。Whenhehadclosedandaddressedit,hefellintoareverie。Apparentlyhewastohavehismealsbyhimself:hewasgladofit:hewouldbeabletoreadallthetime!Buthowwashetofindtheschoolroom!Someonewouldsurelyfetchhim!Theywouldrememberhedidnotknowhiswayabouttheplace!Itwantedyetanhourtodinner-timewhen,findinghimselfdrowsy,hethrewhimselfonhisbed,wherepresentlyhefellfastasleep。
Thenightdescended,andwhenhecametohimself,itssilencesweredeeparoundhim。Itwasnotdark:therewasnomoon,butthetwilightwasclear。Hecouldreadthefaceofhiswatch:itwastwelveo\'clock!Noonehadmissedhim!Hewasveryhungry!Buthehadbeenhungrierbeforeandsurvivedit!Inhiswalletwerestillsomeremnantsofoat-cake!Hetookitinhishand,andsteppingoutonthebartizan,creptwithcarefulstepsroundtothewatch-tower。
Thereheseatedhimselfinthestonechair,andatehisdrymorselsinthestarrypresences。Sleephadrefreshedhim,andhewaswideawake,yettherewasonhimthesenseofastrangeexistence。Neverbeforehadhesoknownhimself!Oftenhadhepassedthenightintheopenair,butneverbeforehadhisnight-consciousnessbeensuch!Neverhadhefeltthesamewayalone。Hewaspartedfromthewholeearth,liketheship-boyonthegiddymast!Nothingwasbelowbutadimness;theearthandallthatwasinitwasmassedintoavagueshadow。Itwasasifhehaddiedandgonewhereexistencewasindependentofsolidityandsense。Abovehimwasdomedthevastofthestarryheavens;hecouldneitherfleefromitnorascendtoit!
Foramomenthefeltitthesymboloflife,yetanunattainablehopelessthing。Hehungsuspendedbetweenheavenandearth,anoutcastofboth,adenizenofneither!Thetruelifeseemedevertoretreat,nevertoawaithisgrasp。NothingbutthebeholdingofthefaceoftheSonofMancouldsethimatrestastoitsreality;
nothinglessthantheassurancefromhisownmouthcouldsatisfyhimthatallwastrue,allwell:lifewasathingsoessentiallydivine,thathecouldnotknowitinitselftillhisownessencewaspure!
Butalas,howdream-likewastheoldstory!WasGodindeedtobereachedbytheprayers,affectedbytheneedsofmen?Howwashetofeelsureofit?Oncemore,asoftenheretofore,hefoundhimselfcryingintothegreatworldtoknowwhethertherewasaneartohear。Whatifthereshouldcometohimnoanswer?Howfrightfulthenwouldbehisloneliness!Buttoseemnottobeheardmightbepartofthedisciplineofhisdarkness!ItmightbefortheperfectingofhisfaiththathemustnotyetknowhownearGodwastohim!
“Lord,“hecried,“eternallifeistoknowtheeandthyFather;IdonotknowtheeandthyFather;Ihavenoteternallife;Ihavebutlifeenoughtohungerformore:showmeplainlyoftheFatherwhomthoualoneknowest。“
Andasheprayed,somethinglikeatouchofGodseemedtobeginandgrowinhimtillitwasmorethanhisheartcouldhold,andtheuniverseabouthimwasnotlargeenoughtoholdinitshollowtheheartthatswelledwithit。
“Godisenough,“hesaid,andsatinpeace。
CHAPTERXIII。
ASOUND。
Allatoncecametohisearthroughthenightastrangesomething。
Whenceorwhatitwashecouldnotevenconjecture。Wasitamoanoftheriverfrombelow?Wasitalostmusic-tonethathadwanderedfromafarandgrownfaint?Wasitoneofthosemysterioussoundshehadreadofasbornintheairitself,andnotyetexplainedofscience?Wasittheflutteredskirtofsomeangelicsongoflamentation?——foriftheangelsrejoice,theysurelymustlament!
Orwasitastilledhumanmoaning?Wasanywrongbeingdonefardowninthewhite-gleamingmeadowsbelow,bythebanksoftheriverwhoseplatinum-glimmerhecoulddescrythroughthemoltenamethystinedarknessofthestarrynight?
Presentlycamealong-drawnmusicalmoan:itmustbethesoundofsomemuffledinstrument!Verilynightwasthetimeforstrangethings!Couldsoundsbebegotteninthefirtreesbytheraysofthehotsun,andborninthestillnessofthefollowingdark,asthelightwhichthediamondreceivesinthedayglowsoutinthegloom?
Thereareparentsandtheirprogenythatneverexisttogether!
Againthesound——hardlytobecalledsound!Itresembledavibrationoforgan-pipetooslowanddeeptoaffectthehearing;
onlythisratherseemedtoohigh,asifonlyhissoulheardit。Hewouldstealsoftlydownthedumbstone-stair!Somecreaturemightbeintroubleandneedinghelp!
Hecreptbackalongthebartizan。Thestairwasdarkastheveryheartofthenight。Hegropedhiswaydown。Thespiralstairisthesafestofall:youcannottumblefarerebroughtupbytheinclosingcylinder。Arrivedatthebottom,andfeelingabout,hecouldnotfindthedoortotheouterairwhichthebutlerhadshownhim;itwaswallwhereverhishandsfell。Hecouldnotfindagainthestairhehadleft;hecouldnottellinwhatdirectionitlay。
Hehadgotintoalongwindowlesspassageconnectingtwowingsofthehouse,andinthishewasfeelinghisway,fearfuloffallingdownsomestairortrap。Hecameatlasttoadoor——low-browedlikealmostallinthehouse。Openingit——wasitathinnerdarknessorthefaintestgleamoflighthesaw?Andwasthatagainthesoundhehadfollowed,fainterandfartheroffthanbefore——adownywind-waftedplumefromtheskirtofsomestrayharmony?Atsuchatimeofthenightsurelyitwasstrange!Itmustcomefromonewhocouldnotsleep,andwassolacinghimselfwithsweetsounds,breathingasoulintotheuncompanionablesilence!Ifsoitwas,hehadnorighttosearchfarther!Buthowwashetoreturn?Hedaredhardlymove,lestheshouldbefoundwanderingoverthehouseinthedeadofnightlikeathief,oronesearchingafteritssecrets。Hemustsitdownandwaitforthemorning:itsearliestlightwouldperhapsenablehimtofindhiswaytohisquarters!
Feelingabouthimalittle,hisfootstruckagainstthestepofastair。Examiningitwithhishands,hebelieveditthesamehehadascendedinthemorning:eveninagreatcastle,couldtherebetwosuchroyalstairs?Hesatdownuponit,andleaninghisheadonhishands,composedhimselftoapatientwaitingforthelight。
Waitingpureisperhapsthehardestthingforfleshandbloodtodowell。Therelationsoftimetomindareverystrange。Someoftheirphenomenaseemtoprovethattimeisonlyofthemind——belongingtotheintellectasgoodandevilbelongtothespirit。Anyhow,ifitwerenotfortheclocksoftheuniverse,onemanwouldliveayear,acentury,whereanotherwouldlivebutaday。Butthemeremotionoftime,nottosaytheconsciousnessofemptytime,isfearful。Itisthisemptytimethatthefoolisalwaystryingtokill:hiseffortshouldbetofillit。YetnothingbutthelivingGodcanfillit——thoughitbebuttheshapeourexistencetakestous。Onlywhereheis,emptinessisnot。
EternitywillbebutanintensepresenttothechildwithwhomistheFather。
Suchthoughtsalighted,flitted,andpassed,forthefirstfewmoments,throughthemindofDonal,ashesathalfconsciouslywaitingforthedawn。Itwasthousandsofmilesaway,overthegreatroundofthesunward-turningearth!Hisimaginationwoke,andbegantopicturethegreathuntoftheshadows,fleeingbeforethearrowsofthesun,overthebroadfaceofthemightyworld——itsmountains,seas,andplainsinturnconfessingthelight,andsubmittingtohimwhoslaysforthemthehauntingdemonsoftheirdark。Thenagainthemomentswerethesmallcogsonthewheelsoftime,wherebythedarkcastleinwhichhesatwasrushingevertowardsthelight:thecogswerecaughtandthewheelsturnedswiftly,andthetimeandthedarknesssped。Heforgotthelabourofwaiting。Ifnowandthenhefanciedatonethroughthedarkness,itwastohismindthemusic-marchofthemorningtohisrescuefromthedungeonofthenight。
Butthatwasnomusicaltonewhichmadethedarknessshudderaroundhim!Hesprangtohisfeet。Itwasahumangroan——agroanasofoneindirepain,thepainofasoul\'sagony。Itseemedtohavedescendedthestairtohim。ThenextinstantDonalwasfeelinghiswayup——cautiously,asifoneachsucceedingstephemightcomeagainstthemanwhohadgroaned。Talesofhauntedhousesrushedintohismemory。Whatifhewerebutpursuingthegroanofanactorinthepast——acreaturetheslaveofhisownconsciousmemory——amerehaunterofthepresentwhichhecouldnotinfluence——onewithoutphysicalrelationtotheembodied,saveinthegroanshecouldyetutter!Butitwasmoreinawethaninfearthathewent。
Upanduphefelthisway,allabouthimasstillasdarknessandthenightcouldmakeit。Aghostlycoldcreptthroughhisskin;itwasdrawntogetherasbyagentlyfreezingprocess;andtherewasapullingatthemusclesofhischest,asifhismouthwerebeingdraggedopenbyamartingale。
Ashefelthiswayalongthewall,sweepingitsgreatendlesscircleroundandroundinspiralascent,allatoncehishandseemedtogothroughit;hestartedandstopped。Itwasthedooroftheroomintowhichhehadbeenshowntomeettheearl!Itstoodwideopen。
Afaintglimmercamethroughthewindowfromthestar-filledsky。
Hesteppedjustwithinthedoorway。Wasnotthatanotherglimmeronthefloor——fromthebackoftheroom——throughadoorhedidnotrememberhavingseenyesterday?Thereagainwasthegroan,andnighathand!Someonemustbeinsoreneed!Heapproachedthedoorandlookedthrough。Alamp,nearlyspent,hungfromtheceilingofasmallroomwhichmightbeanofficeorstudy,oraplacewherepaperswerekept。Ithadthelookofanantechamber,butthatitcouldnotbe,fortherewasbuttheonedoor!——Inthedimlighthedescriedavagueformleaningupagainstoneofthewalls,asiflisteningtosomethingthroughit!Ashegazeditgrewplainertohim,andhesawaface,itseyesstaringwide,whichyetseemednottoseehim。Itwasthefaceoftheearl。Donalfeltasifinthepresenceofthedisembodied;hestoodfascinated,normadeattempttoretireorconcealhimself。Thefigureturneditsfacetothewall,putthepalmsofitshandsagainstit,andmovedthemupanddown,andthiswayandthat;thenlookedatthem,andbegantorubthemagainsteachother。
Donalcametohimself。Heconcludeditwasacaseofsleepwalking。
Hehadreadthatitwasdangeroustowakethesleeper,butthatheseldomcametomischiefwhenleftalone,andwasabouttoslipawayashehadcome,whenthefaintsoundofafar-offchordcreptthroughthesilence。Theearlagainlaidhiseartothewall。Buttherewasonlysilence。Hewentthroughthesamedumbshowasbefore,thenturnedasiftoleavetheplace。Donalturnedalso,andhurriedlyfelthiswaytothestair。Thenfirsthewasindangerofterror;forinstealingthroughthedarknessfromonewhocouldfindhiswaywithouthiseyes,heseemedpursuedbyacreaturenotofthisworld。Onthestairhewentdownasteportwo,thenlingered,andheardtheearlcomeonitalso。Hecreptclosetothenewel,leavingthegreatwidthofthestairfree,butthestepsoftheearlwentupward。Donaldescended,satdownagainatthebottomofthestair,andbeganagaintowait。Nosoundcametohimthroughtherestofthenight。Theslowhoursrolledaway,andtheslowlightdrewnearer。Nowandthenhewasonthepointoffallingintoadoze,butwouldsuddenlystartwideawake,listeningthroughasilencethatseemedtofillthewholeuniverseanddeepenaroundthecastle。
Atlengthhewasawarethatthedarknesshad,unobservedofhim,grownweaker——thattheapproachofthelightwassickeningit:thedayspringwasabouttotakeholdoftheendsoftheearththatthewickedmightbeshakenoutofitslap。Hesoughtthelongpassagebywhichhehadcome,andfelthiswaytotheotherend:itwouldbesafertowaitthereifhecouldgetnofarther。Butsomehowhecametothefootofhisownstair,andspedupasifitweretheladderofheaven。Hethrewhimselfonhisbed,fellfastasleep,anddidnotwaketillthesunwashigh。
CHAPTERXIV。
THESCHOOLROOM。
OldSimmons,thebutler,wokehim。
“Iwasafraidsomethingwasthematter,sir。Theytellmeyoudidnotcomedownlastnight;andbreakfasthasbeenwaitingyoutwohours。“
“Ishouldnothaveknownwheretofindit,“saidDonal。“Theknowledgeofanoldcastleisnotintuitive。“
“Howlongwillyoutaketodress?”askedSimmons。
“Tenminutes,ifthereisanyhurry,“answeredDonal。
“Iwillcomeagainintwenty;or,ifyouarewillingtosaveanoldman\'sbones,Iwillbeatthebottomofthestairatthattimetotakechargeofyou。Iwouldhavelookedafteryouyesterday,buthislordshipwaspoorly,andIhadtobeinattendanceonhimtillaftermidnight。“
Donalthoughtitimpossibleheshouldofhimselfhavefoundhiswaytotheschoolroom。Withallhecoulddotoremembertheturnings,hefoundtheendeavourhopeless,andgaveitupwithanotunpleasingdespair。Throughstrangepassages,throughdoorsinalldirections,upstairsanddowntheywent,andatlastcametoalong,lowroom,barelyfurnished,withapleasantoutlook,andimmediateaccesstotheopenair。Thewindowswereuponasmallgrassycourt,withasundialinthecentre;adooropenedonapavedcourt。Atoneendoftheroomatablewaslaidwithtentimesasmanythingsashecoulddesiretoeat,thoughhecametoitwithagoodappetite。Thebutlerhimselfwaiteduponhim。Hewasagood-naturedoldfellow,withanosesomewhattooredfortheordinarywearofoneinhisresponsibleposition。
“Ihopetheearlisbetterthismorning,“saidDonal。
“Well,Ican\'tsay。He\'sbutadelicatemanistheearl,andhasbeen,solongasIhaveknownhim。HewaswiththearmyinIndia,andthesun,theysay,givehimastroke,andeversincehehaveheadachesthatbad!Butinbetweenheseemsprettywell,andnothingdispleaseshimmorethanaskafterhishealth,orhowheslepthenight。Buthe\'sagoodmaster,andIhopetoendmydayswithhim。I\'mnotoneaslikesnewfacesandnewplaces!Onegoodplaceisenoughforme,saysI——solongasitisagoodone——Takesomeofthisgamepie,sir。“
Donalmadehastewithhisbreakfast,andtoSimmons\'sastonishmenthadendedwhenhethoughthimjustwellbegun。
“HowshallIfindmasterDavie?”heasked。
“Heiswildtoseeyou,sir。WhenI\'veclearedaway,justhavethegoodnesstoringthisbelloutofthatwindow,andhe\'llbewithyouasfastashecanlayhisfeettotheground。“
Donalrangthehandbell。Ashoutmingledwiththeclangofit。
Thencametherunningofswiftfeetoverthestonesofthecourt,andDavieburstintotheroom。
“Oh,sir,“hecried,“Iamglad!Itisgoodofyoutocome!”
“Well,yousee,Davie,“returnedDonal,“everybodyhasgottodosomethingtocarrytheworldonabit:myworkistohelpmakeamanofyou。OnlyIcan\'tdomuchexceptyouhelpme;andifIfindIamnotmakingagoodjobofyou,Ishan\'tstopmanyhoursafterthediscovery。Ifyouwanttokeepme,youmustmindwhatIsay,andsohelpmetomakeamanofyou。“
“ItwillbelongbeforeIamaman!”saidDavieratherdisconsolately。
“Itdependsonyourself。Theboythatislongestinbecomingaman,istheboythatthinkshimselfamanbeforeheisabitlikeone。“
“Comethen,letusdosomething!”saidDavie。
“Comeaway,“rejoinedDonal。“Whatshallwedofirst?”
“Idon\'tknow:youmusttellme,sir。“
“Whatwouldyoulikebesttodo——Imeanifyoumightdowhatyoupleased?”
Daviethoughtalittle,thensaid:
“Ishouldliketowriteabook。“
“Whatkindofabook?”
“Abeautifulstory。“
“Isn\'titjustaswelltoreadsuchabook?Whyshouldyouwanttowriteone?”
“BecausethenIshouldhaveitgojustasIwantedit!Iamalways——almostalways——disappointedwiththethingthatcomesnext。
ButifIwroteitmyself,thenIshouldn\'tgettiredofit;itwouldbewhatpleasedme,andnotwhatpleasedsomebodyelse。“
“Well,“saidDonal,afterthinkingforamoment,“supposeyoubegintowriteabook!”
“Oh,thatwillbefun!——muchbetterthanlearningverbsandnouns!”
“Buttheverbsandnounsarejustthethingsthatgotomakeastory——withnotafewadjectivesandadverbs,andahostofconjunctions;and,ifitbeaverymovingstory,agoodmanyinterjections!Theseallyouhavegottoputtogetherwithgoodchoice,orthestorywillnotbeoneyouwouldcaretoread——PerhapsyouhadbetternotbegintillIseewhetheryouknowenoughaboutthoseverbsandnounstodothethingdecently。Showmeyourschool-books。“
“Theretheyallare——onthatshelf!Ihaven\'topenedoneofthemsincePercycamehome。Helaughedatthemall,andsoArkie——that\'sladyArctura,toldhimhemightteachmehimself。Andhewouldn\'t;
andshewouldn\'t——withhimtolaughather。AndI\'vehadsuchajollytimeeversince——readingbooksoutofthelibrary!Haveyouseenthelibrary,Mr。Grant?”
“No;I\'veseennothingyet。Supposewebeginwithaholiday,andyoubeginbyteachingme!”
“Teachingyou,sir!I\'mnotabletoteachyou!”
“Why,didn\'tyouasmuchasoffertoteachmethelibrary?Can\'tyouteachmethisgreatoldcastle?Andaren\'tyougoingtoteachyourselftome?”
“Thatwouldbeafunnylesson,sir!”
“Theleastfunny,themostseriouslessonyoucouldteachme!YouareabookGodhasbegun,andhehassentmetohelphimgoonwithit;soImustlearnwhathehaswrittenalreadybeforeItrytodoanything。“
“Butyouknowwhataboyis,sir!Whyshouldyouwanttolearnme?”
“Youmightaswellsaythat,becauseIhavereadoneortwobooks,I
mustknoweverybook。Tounderstandoneboyhelpstounderstandanother,buteveryboyisanewboy,differentfromeveryotherboy,andeveryonehastobeunderstood。“
“Yes——forsometimesArkiewon\'thearmeout,andIfeelsocrosswithherIshouldliketogiveheragoodboxontheear。Whatkingwasit,sir,thatmadethelawthatnolady,howeverdisagreeable,wastohaveherearsboxed?Doyouthinkitagoodlaw,sir?”
“Itisgoodforyouandmeanyhow。“
“AndwhenPercysays,\'Oh,goaway!don\'tbother,\'IfeelasifI
couldhithimhard!Yet,ifIhappentohurthim,Iamsosorry!
andwhythenshouldIwanttohurthim?”
“There\'ssomethinginthislittlefellow!”saidDonaltohimself。
“Ah,whyindeed?”heanswered。“Youseeyoudon\'tunderstandyourselfyet!”
“Noindeed!”
“ThenhowcouldyouthinkIshouldunderstandyouallatonce?——andaboymustbeunderstood,elsewhat\'stobecomeofhim!Fancyapoorboylivingallday,andsleepingallnight,andnobodyunderstandinghim!”
“Thatwouldbedreadful!Butyouwillunderstandme?”
“Onlyalittle:I\'mnotwiseenoughtounderstandanyboy。“
“Then——butisn\'tthatwhatyousaidyoucamefor?——Ithought——“
“Yes,“answeredDonal,“thatiswhatIcamefor;butifIfanciedI
quiteunderstoodanyboy,thatwouldbeasuresignIdidnotunderstandhim——Thereisonewhounderstandseveryboyaswellasiftherewerenootherboyinthewholeworld。“
“Thenwhydoesn\'teveryboygotohimwhenhecan\'tgetfairplay?”
“Ah,why?ThatisjustwhatIwantyoutodo。Hecandobetterthangiveyoufairplayeven:hecanmakeyougiveotherpeoplefairplay,anddelightinit。“
“Tellmewhereheis。“
“ThatiswhatIhavetoteachyou:meretellingisnotmuchuse。
Tellingiswhatmakespeoplethinktheyknowwhentheydonot,andmakesthemfoolish。“
“Whatishisname?”
“Iwillnottellyouthatjustyet;forthenyouwouldthinkyouknewhim,whenyouknewnexttonothingabouthim。Lookhere;lookatthisbook,“hewenton,pullingacopyofBoethiusfromhispocket;“lookatthenameonthebackofit:itisthenameofthemanthatwrotethebook。“
Daviespelleditout。
“Nowyouknowallaboutthebook,don\'tyou?”
“No,sir;Idon\'tknowanythingaboutit。“
“Wellthen,myfather\'snameisRobertGrant:youknownowwhatagoodmanheis!”
“No,Idon\'t。Ishouldliketoseehimthough!”
“Youwouldlovehimifyoudid!Butyouseenowthatknowingthenameofapersondoesnotmakeyouknowtheperson。“
“Butyousaid,sir,thatifyoutoldmethenameofthatperson,I
shouldfancyIknewallabouthim:Idon\'tfancyIknowallaboutyourfathernowyouhavetoldmehisname!”
“Youhavemethere!”answeredDonal。“IdidnotsayquitewhatI
oughttohavesaid。Ishouldhavesaidthatwhenweknowalittleaboutaperson,andareusedtohearinghisname,thenwearereadytothinkweknowallabouthim。Iheardamantheotherday——amanwhohadneverspokentoyourfather——talkasifheknewallabouthim。“
“IthinkIunderstand,“saidDavie。
Toconfessignoranceistoloserespectwiththeignorantwhowouldappeartoknow。Butthereisaworsethingthantolosetherespectevenofthewise——todeservetoloseit;andthathedoeswhowouldgainarespectthatdoesnotbelongtohim。Butaconfessionofignoranceisagroundofrespectwithawell-bredchild,andevenwithmanyordinaryboyswillraiseaman\'sinfluence:theyrecognizehisloyaltytothetruth。Act-truthisinfinitelymorethanfact-truth;theloveofthetruthinfinitelybeyondtheknowledgeofit。
Theywentouttogether,andwhentheyhadgonetheroundoftheplaceoutside,Daviewouldhavetakenhimoverthehouse;butDonalsaidtheywouldleavesomethingforanothertime,andmadehimliedownfortenminutes。Thistheboythoughtagreathardship,butDonalsawthatheneededtobetaughttorest。Tentimesinthosetenminuteshewasonthepointofjumpingup,butDonalfoundawordsufficienttorestrainhim。Whenthetenminuteswereover,hesethimanadditionsum。Theboyprotestedheknewalltherulesofarithmetic。
“But,“saidDonal,“Imustknowthatyouknowthem;thatismybusiness。Dothisone,howevereasyitis。“
Theboyobeyed,andbroughthimthesum——incorrect。
“Now,Davie,“saidDonal,“yousaidyouknewallaboutaddition,butyouhavenotdonethissumcorrectly。“
“Ihaveonlymadeablunder,sir。“
“Butaruleisnoruleifitisnotcarriedout。Everythinggoesonthesuppositionofitsbeingitself,andnotsomethingelse。Peoplethattalkaboutgoodthingswithoutdoingthemareleftout。Youarenotmasterofadditionuntilyouradditionistobedependedupon。“
Theboyfoundithardtofixhisattention:tofixitonsomethinghedidnotyetunderstand,wouldbetoohard!hemustlearntodosointhepursuitofaccuracywherehealreadyunderstood!thenhewouldnothavetofighttwodifficultiesatonce——thatofunderstanding,andthatoffixinghisattention。Butforalongtimeheneverkepthimmorethanaquarterofanhouratworkonthesamething。
Whenhehaddonethesumcorrectly,andasecondwithoutneedofcorrection,hetoldhimtolayhisslateaside,andhewouldtellhimafairy-story。Thereinhesucceededtolerably——intheopinionofDavie,wonderfully:whatatutorwasthis,wholetfairiesintotheschool-room!
Thetalewasofnoveryoriginalconstruction——theyoungestbrothergaininginthepathofrighteousnesswhattheelderbrotherslosethroughmasterfulselfishness。Amanmustdoathingbecauseitisright,evenifhedieforit;buttruthwerepoorindeedifitdidnotbringatlastallthingssubjecttoit!Asbeautyandtruthareone,soaretruthandstrengthone。MustGodbeeveronthecross,thatwepoorworshippersmaypayhimourhighesthonour?Isitnotenoughtoknowthatifthedevilwerethegreater,yetwouldnotGoddohimhomage,butwouldhangforeveronhiscross?Truthisjoyandvictory。Thetrueheroisadjudgedtobliss,norcaninthenatureofthings,thatis,ofGod,escapeit。Hewhoholdsbylifeandresistsdeath,mustbevictorious;hisverylifeisaslayingofdeath。Amanmaydieforhisopinion,andmayonlybelivingtohimself:amanwhodiesforthetruth,diestohimselfandtoallthatisnottrue。
“Whatabeautifulstory!”criedDaviewhenitceased。“Wheredidyougetit,Mr。Grant?”
“Whereallstoriescomefrom。“
“Whereisthat?”
“TheThink-book。“
“Whatafunnyname!Ineverheardit!Willitbeinthelibrary?”
“No;itisinnolibrary。ItisthebookGodisalwayswritingatoneend,andblottingoutattheother。Itismadeofthoughts,notwords。ItistheThink-book。“
“NowIunderstand!Yougotthestoryoutofyourownhead!”
“Yes,perhaps。Buthowdiditgetintomyhead?”
“Ican\'ttellthat。Nobodycantellthat!”
“Nobodycanthatnevergoesupabovehisownhead——thatnevershutstheThink-book,andstandsuponit。Whenonedoes,thentheThink-bookswellstoagreatmountainandliftshimupabovealltheworld:thenheseeswherethestoriescomefrom,andhowtheygetintohishead——Areyoutohavearideto-day?”
“IrideornotjustasIlike。“
“Well,wewillnowdojustaswebothlike,Ihope,anditwillbetwolikesinsteadofone——thatis,ifwearetruefriends。“
“Weshallhetruefriends——thatweshall!”
“Howcanthatbe——betweenalittleboylikeyou,andagrownmanlikeme?”
“Bymebeinggood。“
“Bybothofusbeinggood——nootherway。Ifoneofusonlywasgood,wecouldneverbetruefriends。Imustbegoodaswellasyou,elseweshallneverunderstandeachother!”
“Howkindyouare,Mr。Grant!Youtreatmejustlikeanotherone!”
saidDavie。
“ButwemustnotforgetthatIamthebigoneandyouthelittleone,andthatwecan\'tbetheotheronetoeachotherexceptthelittleonedoeswhatthebigonetellshim!That\'sthewaytofitintoeachother。“
“Oh,ofcourse!”answeredDavie,asiftherecouldnotbetwomindsaboutthat。
CHAPTERXV。
HORSEANDMAN。
Duringthefirstdayandthenext,Donaldidnotevencomeinsightofanyotherofthefamily;butonthethirdday,aftertheirshortearlyschool——forheseldomletDavieworktillhewastired,andneverafter——goingwithhimthroughthestable-yard,theycameuponlordForgueashemountedhishorse——anervous,fiery,thin-skinnedthoroughbred。Themomenthismasterwasonhim,hebegantobackandrear。Forguegavehimacutwithhiswhip。Hewentwild,plunginganddancingandkicking。Theyounglordwasahorsemaninthesenseofhavingagoodseat;butheknewlittleabouthorses;
theyweretohimcreaturestobecompelled,notfriendswithwhomtoholdsweetconcert。Hehadnotlearnedthattoruleillisworsethantoobeyill。Kingsmaybeworsethanitisinthepowerofanysubjecttobe。Ashewasraisinghisarmforaseconduseless,cruel,anddangerousblow,Donaldartedtothehorse\'shead。
“Youmustn\'tdothat,mylord!”hesaid。“You\'lldrivehimmad。“
ButtheworstpartofForgue\'snaturewasuppermost,inhisrageallthevicesofhisfamilyrushedtothetop。HelookeddownonDonalwithafurycheckedonlybycontempt。
“Keepoff,“hesaid,“oritwillbetheworseforyou。Whatdoyouknowabouthorses?”
“Enoughtoknowthatyouarenotfairtohim。Iwillnotletyoustrikethepooranimal。Justlookatthiswater-chain!”
“Holdyourtongue,andstandaway,or,by——“
“Yewinnafrichtme,sir,“saidDonal,whoseEnglishwould,foryears,uponanyexcitement,turncowardlyandrunaway,leavinghismother-tonguetobearthebrunt,“——I\'mnotimorsome。“
ForguebroughtdownhiswhipwithagreatstingingblowuponDonal\'sshoulderandback。ThefiercebloodofthehighlandCeltrushedtohisbrain,andhadnotthemaninhimheldbyGodandtrampledonthedevil,theremightthenhavebeenmiserablework。Butthoughheclenchedhisteeth,hefetteredhishands,andruledhistongue,andtheMasterofmenwasmasterstill。
“Mylord,“hesaid,afteroneinstant\'sthunderoussilence,“there\'sthati\'mewadthinkaslittleo\'throttlin\'yeasyeduo\'
ill-usin\'yerpuirbeast。ButI\'mnogaein\'todrophisquarrel,an\'takupmyain:thatwadbecooardly。“Herehepattedthecreature\'sneck,andrecoveringhiscomposureandhisEnglish,wenton。“Itellyou,mylord,thecurb-chainistootight!Theanimalissufferingasyoucanhavenoconceptionof,oryouwouldpityhim。“
“Lethimgo,“criedForgue,“orIwillmakeyou。“
Heraisedhiswhipagain,themoreenragedthatthegroomstoodlookingonwithhismouthopen。
“Itellyourlordship,“saidDonal,“itismyturntostrike;andifyouhittheanimalagainbeforethatchainisslackened,Iwillpitchyououtofthesaddle。“
ForanswerForguestruckthehorseoverthehead。Thesamemomenthewasontheground;Donalhadtakenhimbythelegandthrownhimoff。Hewasnothorsemanenoughtokeephisholdofthereins,andDonalledthehorsealittlewayoff,andlefthimtogetupinsafety。Thepooranimalwaspouringwithsweat,shiveringandtrembling,yetthrowinghisheadbackeverymoment。Donalcouldscarcelyundothechain;itwastwisted——hislordshiphadfastenedithimself——andsharpedgespressedhisjawattheleasttouchoftherein。Hehadnotyetrehookedit,whenForguewasuponhimwithasecondblowofhiswhip。Thehorsewasscaredafreshatthesound,anditwasallhecoulddotoholdhim,buthesucceededatlengthincalminghim。Whenhelookedabouthim,Forguewasgone。
Heledthehorseintothestable,puthiminhisstall,andproceededtounsaddlehim。Thenfirsthewasre-awareofthepresenceofDavie。Theboywasstamping——withfierceeyesandwhiteface——chokingwithsilentrage。
“Davie,mychild!”saidDonal,andDavierecoveredhispowerofspeech。
“I\'llgoandtellmyfather!”hesaid,andmadeforthestabledoor。
“Whichofusareyougoingtotellupon?”askedDonalwithasmile。
“Percy,ofcourse!”hereplied,almostwithascream。“Youareagoodman,Mr。Grant,andheisabadfellow。Myfatherwillgiveithimwell。Hedoesn\'toften——butoh,can\'thejust!Todaretostrikeyou!I\'llgotohimatonce,whetherhe\'sinbedornot!”
“No,youwon\'t,myboy!Listentome。Somepeoplethinkit\'sadisgracetobestruck:Ithinkitadisgracetostrike。Ihavearightoveryourbrotherbythatblow,andImeantokeepit——forhisgood。Youdidn\'tthinkIwasafraidofhim?”
“No,no;anybodycouldseeyouweren\'tabitafraidofhim。Iwouldhavestruckhimagainifhehadkilledmeforit!”
“Idon\'tdoubtyouwould。Butwhenyouunderstand,youwillnotbesoreadytostrike。Icouldhavekilledyourbrothermoreeasilythanheldhishorse。Youdon\'tknowhowstrongIam,orwhatablowofmyfistwouldbetoadelicatefellowlikethat。Ihopehisfallhasnothurthim。“
“Ihopeithas——alittle,Imean,onlyalittle,“saidtheboy,lookinginthefaceofhistutor。“Buttellmewhyyoudidnotstrikehim。Itwouldbegoodforhimtobewellbeaten。“
“Itwill,Ihope,bebetterforhimtobewellforgiven:hewillbeashamedofhimselfthesooner,Ithink。ButwhyIdidnotstrikehimwas,thatIamnotmyownmaster。“
“Butmyfather,Iamsure,wouldnothavebeenangrywithyou。Hewouldhavesaidyouhadarighttodoit。“
“Perhaps;buttheearlisnotthemasterImean。“
“Whois,then?”
“JesusChrist。“
“O——oh!”
“HesaysImustnotreturnevilforevil,ablowforablow。I
don\'tmindwhatpeoplesayaboutit:hewouldnothavemedisgracemyself!Henevereventhreatenedthosethatstruckhim。“
“Buthewasn\'taman,youknow!”
“Notaman!Whatwashethen?”
“HewasGod,youknow。“
“Andisn\'tGodaman——andeversomuchmorethanaman?”
Theboymadenoanswer,andDonalwenton。
“DoyouthinkGodwouldhavehischilddoanythingdisgraceful?
Why,Davie,youdon\'tknowyourownFather!WhatGodwantsofusistobedown-righthonest,anddowhathetellsuswithoutfear。“
Daviewassilent。Hisconsciencereprovedhim,astheconscienceofatrue-heartedboywillreprovehimattheverymentionofthenameofGod,untilhesetshimselfconsciouslytodohiswill。Donalsaidnomore,andtheywentfortheirwalk。
CHAPTERXVI。
COLLOQUIES。
IntheeveningDonalwenttoseeAndrewComin。
“Weel,hooareyegettin\'onwi\'theyerl?”askedthecobbler。
“Yousetmeagoodexampleofsayingnothingabouthim,“answeredDonal;“andIwillfollowit——atleasttillIknowmore:Ihavescarceseenhimyet。“
“That\'sright!”returnedthecobblerwithsatisfaction。“I\'mthinkin\'ye\'llbeaneo\'thefeow\'atcanruletheiranehoose——thatis,haudtheiraintonguestillthehoorforspeechbecome。Stickyetothat,mydearsir,an\'mairi\'llbeweelnoringeneralisweel。“
“I\'mcometoyeforabito\'helpthough;Iwantlichtuponaqueston\'at\'slangtribletme——Whatthinkye?——hoofardoesthecomman\'laidupo\'\'s,astowarfare\'atweenmanan\'man,reach?Arewenevertaraisethehan\'tohumanbein\',thinkye?”
“Weel,Ihaethouchtaheapabootit,an\'Idaurnasay\'atI\'mjistabsoluteclearupo\'themaitter。Buttheremaybepairtclearwhaura\'\'snoclear;an\'bywhatweun\'erstan\'wecomethenearertowhatwedinnaun\'erstan\'。There\'saethinguncoplain——\'atwe\'reonnoaccoonttoreturnevilforevil:onybody\'atca\'shimsel\'aChristianmaunun\'erstan\'thatmuckle。We\'retogienoplacetorevenge,insideoroot。Thereforewe\'renotogieblowforblow。
Gienamanhitye,ye\'retotakeiti\'God\'sname。Butwhetherthingsmaynacometoap\'intwhauratye\'rebu\'n\',stilli\'God\'sname,todefen\'thelifeGodhasgienye,Icannasay——Ihaenathelichttojustifeemeindenyin\'\'t。Theremaunsurely,Ihaesaidtomysel\',beatimewhanamanmayhaetoduwhatGoddissaeaften——makuseo\'thestronghan\'!Butit\'sclearhemaunnado\'tinrage——that\'sowernearhate——an\'hate\'sthedeevil\'sain。Amanmay,gienhelivevarraneartheLord,bewhilesangryohnsinned:
butthewratho\'manworkethnottherichteousnesso\'God;an\'thewraththatrisesi\'themidso\'encoonter,isnoliketobeo\'thenaturo\'divinewrath。Towinatit,gien\'tbepossible,lat\'sconsidertheLord——hoohedid。There\'snowordo\'himeverliftin\'
han\'toprotec\'himsel\'。Theonlythinglikeitwasforithers。Togarthemlathisdisciplesalane——maybetilltheywarlikeeneuchtilhimsel\'notorin,hepatootmairnorhishan\'upo\'them\'atcamtotakhim:hestrakthemsairwi\'thepooeritsel\'\'atmuvsa\'
airms。Butnovarrasairnaither——hebutknockitthemdoon!——jisttolatthemkentheywartoduashebadethem,an\'lathisfowkbe;——an\'maybetolatthemken\'atgienhelootthemtakhim,itwasno\'athecouldnahin\'erthemgienhelikit。Icannahelpthinkin\'
wemaystan\'upforitherfowk。An\'I\'mnosayin\'\'atwearenatodefen\'oorselsfraeasetattackwi\'design——Butthere\'ssomethingo\'mairimportanceyetnorkennin\'therichto\'onyqueston。“
“Whatcanthatbe?Whatcanbeo\'mairimportancenordoin\'richti\'thesichto\'God?”saidDonal。
“Bein\'richtwi\'thevarrathouchto\'God,sae\'atwecannamistak,butmaunkenjistwhathewadhaedune。That\'sthebigRicht,themothero\'a\'thelaveo\'therichts。That\'stobeasthemaisterwas。Onygait,whateverwedu,itmaunbesicastobedune,an\'itmaunbedunei\'thenameo\'God;whanwedunaethingwemaunduthatnaethingi\'thenameo\'God。Abodymayweelsay,\'OLord,thoohasnalattenmeseewhatIouchttodu,saeI\'lldunaething!\'Gienamanoughttodefen\'himsel\',butdisnadu\'t,\'causehethinksGodwadnahaehimdu\'t,wullGodlea\'himoondefentforthat?Orgienabodystan\'supi\'thenameo\'God,an\'frontsanairmyo\'enemies,divyethinkGod\'illforsakehim\'causehe\'smadeamistak?
Whatever\'sdunewantin\'faithmaunbesin——itcannahelpit;
whatever\'sduneinfaithcannabesin,thoughitmaybeamistak。
Onlylatnaamantakpresumptionforfaith!that\'safearsomemistak,forit\'sjisttheopposite。“
“Ithankye,“saidDonal。“I\'llconsiderwi\'mybestendeevourwhatyehaesaid。“
“Buto\'a\'things,“resumedthecobbler,“luik\'atyelo\'efairplay。
Fairplay\'sawon\'erfu\'word——agran\'thingconstantlylostsichto\'。Man,Ihaebeentryin\'towinattheduin\'o\'therichtthismonyayear,butIdaurnayetlatmysel\'ac\'upo\'thespuro\'themomentwhaurmyainenterest\'sconcernt:myainsidemichtyetblin\'metotheitherman\'ssideo\'thebusiness。Onybodycanun\'erstan\'hisainricht,butittakstriblean\'thouchttoun\'erstan\'whatanithercoontshisricht。Twarichtscannaweelclash。It\'sawrangan\'aricht,orpairtwrangan\'apairtricht\'atclashes。“
“Giena\'bodydidthat,Idoobttherewadbefeowfortinsmade!”saidDonal。
“AbootthatIcannasay,nokennin\';IdaurnadiscoveralawwhaurI
haenaknowledge!Butthissamefairplaylies,alangwi\'love,atthevarraruteandf\'undationo\'theuniverse。Thetheologianshadaglimmero\'thefac\'whantheymadesaemuckleo\'justice,onlytheirjusticeissicameeserablesma\'bitplaistereemageo\'
justice,\'atitmaistgarsanhonestbodylauch。Theyseemtomelikeshepherds\'atrivedoonthedoor-posts,an\'syneblockupthedoorwi\'them。“
DonaltoldhimofthequarrelhehadhadwithlordForgue,andaskedhimwhetherhethoughthehaddoneright。
“Weel,“answeredthecobbler,“I\'masfarfraeblamin\'youasIamfraejustifeein\'theyoonglord。“
“Heseemstomeafinekin\'o\'alad,“saidDonal,“thoughsomeowerbeirin\'。“
“Thelikeso\'himaremairtobeexcusedforthatnoritherfowk,fortheyhaegreatdisadvantagesi\'thepositionan\'theupbringin\'。
It\'snoeasyforhim\'at\'sbrouchtupalordtobelievehe\'sjistanewi\'thelave。“
Donalwentforastrollthroughthetown,andmettheminister,buthetooknonoticeofhim。Hewasgreatlyannoyedatthemarchwhichhesaidthefellowhadstolenuponhim,andregardedhimasonewhohadtakenanunfairadvantageofhim。Buthehadlittleinfluenceatthecastle。Theearlneverbyanychancewenttochurch。Hisniece,ladyArctura,did,however,andheldtheministerforanauthorityatthingsspiritual——oneofwhomlivingwaterwastobehadwithoutmoneyandwithoutprice。Butwhatshecountedspiritualthingswereverycommonearthlystuff,andforthewater,itwasbutstagnantwaterfromtheditchesofashamtheology。Onlywhatwasapoorgirltodowhodidnotknowhowtofeedherself,butapplytoonewhopretendedtobeabletofeedothers?Howwasshetoknowthathecouldnotevenfeedhimself?Outofmanyadifficultyshethoughthehelpedher——onlythedifficultywouldpresentlyclaspheragain,andshemustdealwithitasshebestcould,untilanewonemadeherforgetit,andgototheminister,orrathertohisdaughter,again。Shewasoneofthosewhofeeltheneedofsomehelptolive——someupholdingthatisnotofthemselves,butwho,throughthestupidityofteachersunconsciouslyfalse,——mensounfitthattheydonotknowtheyareunfit,directtheirefforts,firsttowardshavingcorrectnotions,thentoworkupthefeelingsthatbelongtothosenotions。Shewasanhonestgirlsofarasshehadbeentaught——perhapsnotsofarasshemighthavebeenwithouthavingbeentaught。HowwasshetothinkarightwithscarceaglimmerofGod\'struth?HowwasshetopleaseGod,asshecalledit,whothoughtofhiminawayrepulsivetoeverylovingsoul?HowwasshetobeacceptedofGod,whodidnotacceptherownneighbour,butlookeddown,withoutknowingit,uponsomanyofherfellow-creatures?Howshouldsuchaoneeitherenjoyorrecommendherreligion?Itwouldhavebeentheworseforherifshehadenjoyedit——theworseforothersifshehadrecommendedit!
ReligionissimplythewayhometotheFather。Therewaslittleofthepathinherreligionexceptthedifficultyofit。Thetruewayisdifficultenoughbecauseofourunchildlikeness——uphill,steep,anddifficult,butthereisfreshlifeoneverysurmountedheight,apurerairgained,evermorelifeformoreclimbing。Butthepaththatisnotthetrueoneisnotthereforeeasy。Uphillishardwalking,butthroughabogisworse。ThosewhoseekGodwiththeirfacesnoteventurnedtowardshim,who,insteadofbeholdingtheFatherintheSon,takethestupidestopinionsconcerninghimandhiswaysfromothermen——whatshouldtheydobutgowanderingondarkmountains,spendingtheirstrengthinavoidingprecipicesandgettingoutofbogs,mourningandsighingovertheirsinsinsteadofleavingthembehindandfleeingtotheFather,whomtoknowiseternallife。DidtheybutsetthemselvestofindoutwhatChristknewandmeantandcommanded,andthentodoit,theywouldsoonforgettheirfalseteachers。Butalas!theygoonbowingbeforelong-faced,big-wordedauthority——themorefatallywhenitisembodiedinagoodmanwho,himselfavictimtofaithinmen,seestheSonofGodonlythroughthetheoriesofothers,andnotwiththesightofhisownspiritualeyes。
Donalhadnotyetseenthelady。Heneitherate,sat,norheldintercoursewiththefamily。AwayfromDavie,hespenthistimeinhistowerchamber,oroutofdoors。Allthegroundswereopentohimexceptawalledgardenonthesouth-easternslope,lookingtowardsthesea,whichtheearlkeptforhimself,thoughherarelywalkedinit。Onthesideofthehillawayfromthetown,wasalargeparkreachingdowntotheriver,andstretchingalongwayupitsbank——withfinetrees,andgloriousoutlookstotheseainonedirection,andtothemountainsintheother。HereDonalwouldoftenwander,nowwithabook,nowwithDavie。Theboy\'spresencewasrarelyaninterruptiontohisthoughtswhenhewantedtothink。