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  Martha,shehadbeenfussingaroundsomeflowerbusheswithapairofshearsandgloveson。ShelooksupwhenIsaysthat,andshesizesusallupstandingbythegate,andhereyespopsopen,andsodoeshermouth,andsheissosurprisedtoseemeshedropshershears。

  Andshelooksscared,too。

  “IsMissBucknerathome?”astsColonelTom,liftinghishatverypolite。

  “MissB-B-Buckner?”Marthastutters,veryscared-like,andnottakinghereyesoffofmetoanswerhim。

  “MissHampton,Martha,“Isays。

  “Y-y-y-es,s-sh-sheis,“saysMartha。Iwonderedwhatwasthematterwithher。

  Itisalwaysmylucktogetleftallalonewithmytroubles。Thedoctorandthecolonel,theywalkedrightpastuswhenshesaidyes,anduptowardthehouse,andleftherandmestandingthere。I

  couldofwentalongandbuttedin,mebby。ButI

  saystomyselfIwillhavethedernedthingouthereandnow,andknowtheworst。AndIwassointerestedinmytroubleandMarthathatIdidn\'tevennoticeifMissLucymet\'ematthedoor,andifso,howsheacted。WhenInextlookeduptheywasallinthehouse。

  “Martha——“Ibegins。Butshebreaksin。

  “Danny,“shesays,lookinglikesheisgoingtocry,“don\'tl-l-lookatmel-l-likethat。IfyouknewALLyouwouldn\'tblameme。You——“

  “Wouldn\'tblameyoufurwhat?”Iastsher。

  “Iknowit\'swrongofme,“shesays,begging-like。

  “Mebbyitisandmebbyitain\'t,“Isays。“Butwhatisit?”

  “Butyouneverwrotetome,“shesays。

  “Youneverwrotetome,“Isays,notwantinghertogetthebestofme,whateveritwasshemightbetalkingabout。

  “AndthenHEcametotown!——“

  “Who?”Iastsher。

  “Don\'tyouknow?”shesays。“ThemanIamgoingtomarry。“

  WhenshesaidthatIfelt,allofasudden,likewhenyouarebrokeandhungryandrunacrostahalfdollaryouhadforgotaboutinyourotherpants。

  IwassogladIjumped。

  “Greatguns!”Isays。

  Ihadneverreallyknowedwhatbeinggladwasbefore。

  “Oh,Danny,Danny,“shesays,puttingherhandsinfrontofherface,“andhereyouhavecometoclaimmeforyourbride!”

  Whichshowedmewhyshehadlookedsoscared。

  Thattheregirlhadwentandgotengagedtoanotherfeller。AndhadbeenlayingawakenightssufferingfurfearIwouldturnupagin。AndnowIhad。

  Looey,healwayssaidnevertotrustawoman!

  “Martha,“Isays,“youain\'tactedrightwithme。“

  “Oh,Danny,Danny,“shesays,“Iknowit!I

  knowit!”

  “Somefellersinmyplace,“Isays,“wouldraiseadickensofarow。“

  “IDIDloveyouonce,“shesays,lookingatmefrombetweenherfingers。

  “Yes,“saysI,actingrealmelancholy,“youdid。

  Andnowyou\'vequitit,theydon\'tseemtometobenothinglefttolivefur。“Martha,shewasanawfulromancefulgirl。Igotthenotionthatmebbyshewasenjoyingherownremorsefulnessalittlebit。

  IfetchedadeepsighandIsays:

  “Somefellerswouldkilltheirselvesonthespot!”

  “Oh!——Oh!——Oh!——“saysMartha。

  “But,Martha,“saysI,“Iain\'tthatmean。I

  ain\'tgoingtodothat。“

  Thatderngirlackshellaygivemeadisappointedlook!Ifanything,shewasjestabitTOOromanceful,Marthawas。

  “No,“saysI,cheeringupalittle,“Iamgoingtodosomethingtheyain\'tmanyfellerswoulddo,Martha。I\'mgoingtoforgiveyou。Freeandfairandopen。Andgiveyoubackmyhalfofthatring,and——“

  Dernit!IhadforgotIhadlostthathalfofthattherering!Irememberedsoquickitstoppedme。

  “Youalwayskeptit,Danny?”sheastsme,verysoft-spoken,soasnottogivepaintoonesofaithfulandsonobleaswhatIwas。“Letmeseeit,Danny。“

  ImadelikeIwasfeelingthroughallmypocketsfurit。Butthatcouldn\'tlastforever。Irunoutofpocketspurtysoon。Andherfacebeguntoshowshewassmellingarat。FinallyIsays:

  “Theseain\'tmyotherclothes——itmustbeinthem。“

  “Danny,“shesays,“IbelieveyouLOSTit。“

  “Martha,“Isays,takingachancet,“youknowyoulostYOURhalf!”

  Sheownsupshehaslostitalongwhileago。

  Andwhenshelostit,shesays,sheknowedthatwasfateandthatourlovewasomenedinunderanevilstar。Andwhowasshe,shesays,tostruggleaginfate?

  “Martha,“Isays,“I\'llbehonestwithyou。

  FategotawaywithmyhalftooonedaywhenI

  didn\'tknowtheywascrookslikeherstickingaround。“

  Well,Iseenthatgirlseenthroughmethen。

  Marthawasawfulsmartsometimes。Andeachonewassodernedtickledtheotheronewasn\'tgo-

  ingtodoanypiningawayweliketooffellintolovealloveragin。Butnotquite。Furneitheronewouldevertrusttheotheroneagin。Sowefeltmorecomfortablewitheachother。Youain\'tnevercomfortablewithapersonyouknowismorehonestthanyoube。

  “But,“saysMartha,afteraminute,“ifyoudidn\'tcomebacktomakememarryyou,whatdoesDoctorKirbywanttoseeMissHamptonabout?

  Andwhowasthatwithhim?”

  Ihadbeennightoforgettingthemainthingwehadallcomeherefur,inmygladnessatgettingridofanydangerofmarryingMartha。ButitcometomealltooncetIhadbeenmissingalotthatmustbetakingplaceinsidethathouse。Ihadevenmissedthewaytheyfirstlookedwhenshemet\'ematthedoor,andIwouldn\'tofmissedthatfuralot。AndIseenalltooncetwhatabigpieceofnewsitwillbetoMartha。

  “Martha,“Isays,“theyain\'tnoDr。HartleyL。

  Kirby。ThemanknownassuchisDavidArm-

  strong!”

  IneverseenanyonesopeetrifiedasMarthawasfuraminute。

  “Yes,“saysI,“andtheotheroneisMissLucy\'sbrother。Andtheyareallthreeintherestraighten-

  ingthemselvesoutandfindingwhereeverybodygetsoffat,andwhy。Oneofthesehereserioustimesyoureadabout。Andyouandmearemissingitall,likeacoupleofgumps。Howcanwehear?”

  Marthasaysshedon\'tknow。

  “YouTHINK,“Itoldher。“We\'vewastedfivegoodminutesalready。I\'veGOTtoheartherestofit。Wherewouldtheybe?”

  Marthaguessestheywillallbeinthesittingroom,whichhasgotthebestchairsinit。

  “Whatisnexttoit?Abackparlour,orabed-

  room,orwhat?”IwasthinkingofhowIhappenedtooverhearPerfessorBoothandhisfamblythat-a-way。

  Marthasaystheyisnothinglikethattobetried。

  “Martha,“Isays,“thisisserious。Thisherestorytheyarethrashingoutinthereistheonlydernedsure-enoughromancefulstoryeitheryouormeiseverlibletorunupagainstpersonalinallourlives。Itwouldofbeenagooddealniceriftheyhadastusintoseethewind-upofit。Fur,ifithadn\'tofbeenfurme,theyneverwouldofbeenreunitedandrejuvenatedthewaytheybe。Butsomepeoplegetstingystreakswiththeirconcerns。

  Youthink!”

  Martha,shesays:“Danny,itwouldn\'tbehonourabletolisten。“

  “Martha,“Itellsher,“afterthewayyouandmewentandjiltedeachother,whatkindofsensesofhonourhaveWEgottobragabout?”

  Sheremembersthatthesparebedroomisrightoverthesittingroom。Thehouseisheatedwithstovesinthewintertime。Thereisaregisterrightthroughthefloorofthesparebedroomandtheceilingofthesittingroom。Notthekindofaregisterthatcomesfromatwisted-aroundshaftinahousethatusesfurnaceheat。Butjestreallyaholeinthefloor,withacast-irongrating,tolettheheatfromtheroombelowintotheoneabove。

  Shesayssheguessestwopeoplethatwasn\'tsoveryhonourablemightsneakintothehousethebackway,andupthebackstairs,andintothesparebedroom,andlaydownontheirstummicksonthefloor,beingcarefultomakenonoise,andbothseeandhearthroughthatregister。Whichwedoneit。

  CHAPTERXXIV

  Icouldhearwellenough,butatfirstIcouldn\'tseeanyofthem。ButIgatheredthatMissLucywasstandingupwhilstshewastalking,andmovingaroundabitnowandthen。Iseenoneofhersleeves,andthenawispofherhair。Whichwasaggervating,furIwantedtoknowwhatshewaslike。Buthervoicewassosoftandquietthatyoukindofknowedbeforeyouseenherhowsheorterlook。

  “PrentissMcMakincametomethatday,“shewassaying,“withanappeal——Ihardlyknowhowtotellyou。“Shebrokeoff。

  “Goahead,Lucy,“saysColonelTom\'svoice。

  “Hewasinsulting,“shesaid。“Hehadbeendrink-

  ing。Hewantedmeto——to——heappealedtometorunoffwithhim。

  “Iwasfurious——NATURALLY。“HervoicechangedasshesaiditenoughsoyoucouldfeelhowfuriousMissLucycouldget。ShewaslikeherbrotherTominsomeways。

  “Iorderedhimoutofthehouse。Hisanswertothatwasanoffertomarryme。YoucanimaginethatIwassurprisedaswellasangry——Iwasperplexed。

  “\'ButIAMmarried!\'Icried。Theideathatanyofmyownpeople,oranyonewhomIhadknownathome,wouldthinkIwasn\'tmarriedwastoomuchformetotakeinallatonce。

  “\'YouTHINKyouare,\'saidPrentissMcMakin,withasmile。

  “Inspiteofmyselfmybreathstopped。Itwasasifachillyhandhadtakenholdofmyheart。

  Imean,physically,Ifeltlikethat。

  “\'IAMmarried,\'Irepeated,simply。

  “IsupposethatMcMakinhadgotthestoryofourweddingfromYOU。“Shestoppedaminute。

  Thedoctor\'svoiceanswered:

  “Isupposeso,“likehewasaverytiredman。

  “Anyhow,“shewenton,“heknewthatwewentfirsttoClarksville。Hesaid:

  “\'Youthinkyouaremarried,Lucy,butyouarenot。\'

  “IwishyoutounderstandthatPrentissMcMakindiditallvery,verywell。Thatismyexcuse。Heactedwell。Therewassomethingabouthim——I

  scarcelyknowhowtoputit。Itsoundsodd,butthetruthisthatPrentissMcMakinwasalwaysamoreconvincingsortofapersonwhenhehadbeendrinkingalittlethanwhenhewassober。Helackedwarmth——helackedtemperament。Isupposejusttherightamountputitintohim。Itputthedevilintohim,too,Ireckon。

  “Hetoldmethatyouandhe,Tom,hadbeentoClarksville,andhadmadeinvestigations,andthattheweddingwasafraud。Andhetolditwithawealthofconvincingdetail。Inthemidstofithebrokeofftoasktoseemyweddingcertificate。Ashetalked,helaughedatit,andtoreitup,sayingthatthethingwasnotworththepaperitwason,andhethrewthepiecesofpaperintothegrate。I

  listened,andIlethimdoit——notthatthepaperitselfmatteredparticularly。ButtheveryfactthatIlethimtearitshowedme,myself,thatIwasbelievinghim。

  “Heendedwithanimpassionedappealtometogowithhim。

  “Ishowedhimthedoor。IpretendedtothelastthatIthoughthewaslyingtome。ButIdidnotthinkso。Ibelievedhim。Hehaddoneitallverycleverly。YoucanunderstandhowImight——

  inviewofwhathadhappened?”

  IwantedtoseeMissLucy——howshelookedwhenshesaiddifferentthings,soIcouldmakeupmymindwhethershewasforgivingthedoctorornot。NotthatIhadmuchdoubtbutwhattheywouldgettheirpersonaltroublesfixedupintheend。Theirongratinginthefloorwashelddownbyfourgood-sizedscrews,oneateachcorner。Theywasn\'tnofillingatallbetwixtitandtheirongratingthatwasintheceilingoftheroombelow。Thespacewashollow。Igotanideaandtookoutmyjack-knife。

  “Whatareyougoingtodo?”whispersMartha。

  “S-sh-sh,“Isays,“shutup,andyou\'llsee。“

  Oneofthescrewswasloose,andIpickedherouteasyenough。ThesecondoneIbrokethepointoffofmyknifebladeon。Likeyounearlyalwaysdoonascrew。WhenitsnappedColonelTomhesays:

  “What\'sthat?”Hewaspowerfulquickofhear-

  ing,ColonelTomwas。Ilaidlowtilltheywentontalkingagin。ThenMarthaslidesoutontiptoeandcomesbackinthreesecondswithoneoftheseherelittlescrew-driverstheyusearoundsewing-machinesandthelittleoilcanthatgoeswithit。Ioilsthemscrewsandhasthemoutinaholyminute,andliftsthegratingfromthefloorcarefulandlaysitcarefulontherug。

  BydoingallofwhichIcouldgetmyheadandshouldersdownintothattherehole。Andbytwist-

  ingmyneckagooddeal,seealittlewaystoeachsideintotheroom,insteadofjestunderneaththegrating。ThedoctorIcouldn\'tseeyet,andonlyalittleofColonelTom,butMissLucyquiteplain。

  “Youmeanthing,“Marthawhispers,“youareblockingitupsoIcan\'thear。“

  “Keepstill,“Iwhispers,pullingmyheadoutoftheholesothesoundwouldn\'tfloatdownwardintotheroombelow。“Youarejestlikeallotherwomen——yougottoomuchcuriosity。“

  “Howaboutyourself?”saysshe。

  “Whowasitthoughtoftakingthegratingoff?”

  Iwhispersbacktoher。Whichsettleshertem-

  porary,butshesaysifIdon\'tgiveherachancetatitpurtysoonshewillticklemyribs。

  WhenIlistensagintheyareburyingthattherePrentMcMakin。Butwithoutanyflowers。

  MissLucy,shewashalfsettingon,halfleaningagainst,thearmofachair。WhichherheadwasjestabitboweddownsothatIcouldn\'tseehereyes。Buttheywasthebeginningsofasmileontoherface。Itwasbothsoftandsad。

  “Well,“saysColonelTom,“youtwohavewastedalmosttwentyyearsoflife。“

  “Thereisonegoodthing,“saysthedoctor。“Itisagoodthingthattherewasnochildtosufferbyourmistakes。“

  Sheraisedherfacewhenhesaidthat,MissLucydid,andlookedinhisdirection。

  “Youcallthatagoodthing?”shesays,inakindofwonder。Andafteraminuteshesighs。“Per-

  haps,“shesays,“youareright。Heavenonlyknows。PerhapsitWASbetterthathedied。“

  “DIED!”singsoutthedoctor。

  AndIhearnhischairscrapeback,likehehadriztohisfeetsudden。Inearlybustedmynecktryingfurtoseehim,butIcouldn\'t。Iwasalltwistedup,headdown,andthebloodgettingintomyheadfromitsoIhadtopullitouteverylittlewhile。

  “Yes,“shesays,withhereyeswide,“didn\'tyouknowhedied?”AndthensheturnsquicktowardColonelTom。“Didn\'tyoutellhim——“shebegins。Butthedoctorcutsin。

  “Lucy,“hesays,hisvoiceshakingandcroakinginhisthroat,“Ineverknewtherewasachild!”

  IhearsColonelTomhawkinHISthroatlikeamanwhoiseithergoingtospitorelsesaysomething。

  Buthedon\'tdoeitherone。Noonesaysanythingfuraminute。AndthenMissLucysaysagin:

  “Yes——hedied。“

  Andthenshefellintoakindofamuse。Ihavebeenmyselfinthefixshelookedtobeinthen——soyouforgetfurawhilewhereyouare,orwhoisthere,whilstyouthinkaboutsomethingthathasbeeninthebackpartofyourmindfuralong,longtime。

  Whatshewasmusingaboutwasthatchildthathadn\'tlived。Icouldtellthatbyherface。I

  couldtellhowshemusthavethoughtofit,oftenandoften,furyearsandyears,andlongedfurit,sothatitseemedtoherattimesshecouldalmosttouchit。Andhowgoodamothershewouldofbeentoit。SomewomenhasjestnatcherallyGOTtomothersomethingorother。MissLucywasoneofthatkind。Iknowedallinaflash,whilstI

  lookedatherthere,whyshehadadoptedMarthafurherchild。

  Itwasawonderfullookthatwasontoherface。

  Anditwasawonderfulfacethatlookwasonto。I

  feltlikeIhadknowedherforeverwhenIseenherthere。Likethethoughtsofherthedoctorhadbeencarryingaroundwithhimfuryearsandyears,andthatIhadcaughthimthinkingoncetortwicet,hadbeenmythoughtstoo,allmylife。

  MissLucy,shewasoneofthekindthere\'snousetryingtodescribe。Thefellerthatcouldseeherthat-a-wayandnotfeelmadegoodbyitorterhaveawhaling。Notthekindofsticky,goodfeelingthatmakesyouuncomfortable,likebeingpesteredbyyourconsciencetojineachurchorquitcussing。

  Butthekindofgoodthatmakesyouforgettheyisanythingonearthbutjestbravenessofheartandbeingwillingtobearthingsyoucan\'thelp。Youknowedtheworldhadhurtheralotwhenyouseenherstandingthere;butyoudidn\'thavethenervetopityhernone,either。Furyoucouldseeshehadgotoverpityingherself。Evenwhenshewasinthatmuse,longingwithallhersoulfurthatchildshehadneverknowed,youdidn\'thavethenervetopityhernone。

  “Hedied,“shesaysagin,purtysoon,withthatgentlekindofsmile。

  ColonelTom,heclearshisthroatagin。Likewhenyouareawfuldry。

  “Thetruthis——“hebegins。

  Andthenhebreaksoffagin。MissLucyturnstowardhimwhenhespeaks。Bythestrangelookthatcomeontoherfacetheremustofbeensome-

  thingrightcuriousinHISmannertoo。Iwasjestsimplylayingontomyforeheadmashingoneofmyderneyeballsthroughalittleholeinthegrating。

  ButIcouldn\'t,eventhatway,seefurenoughtoonesidetoseehowHElooked。

  “Thetruthis,“saysColonelTom,tryingitagin,“thatI——well,Lucy,thechildmaybedead,buthedidn\'tdiewhenyouthoughthedid。“

  TherewasaflashofhopeflaredintoherfacethatIhatedtoseecomethere。Becausewhenitdiedoutinaminute,asIexpecteditwouldhaveto,itlookedtomelikeitmighttakeallherlifeoutwithit。Herlipspartedlikeshewasgoingtosaysomethingwiththem。Butshedidn\'t。Shejestlookedit。

  “Whydidyounevertellmethis——thattherewasachild?”saysthedoctor,veryeager。

  “Wait,“saysColonelTom,“letmetellthestoryinmyownway。“

  Whichhedoneit。ItseemswhenhehadwenttoGalesburgthisherechildhadonlybeenbornafewdays。AndMissLucywasstillsick。Andthekiditselfwassick,andliabletodieanyminute,bythelooksofthings。

  WhichColonelTomwishesthatitwoulddie,inhisheart。Hethinksthatitisanillegitimatechild,andhehatestheideaofitandhehatesthesightofit。Thesecondnightheisthereheissettinginhissister\'sroom,andthewomanthathasbeennursingthekidandMissLucytooisinthenextroomwiththekid。

  Shecomestothedoorandbeckonstohim,thenursedoes。Hetiptoestowardher,andshesaystohim,verylow-voiced,that“itisallover。“

  Meaningthekidhasquitstrugglingfurtolive,andjestnatcherallyfloatedaway。ThenursehadthoughtMissLucyasleep,butasbothherandColonelTomturnquicktowardherbedtheyseethatshehasheardandseen,andsheturnsherfacetowardthewall。Whichhetriesfurtocomforther,ColonelTomdoes,tellingherashowitisanillegitimatechild,andfuritsownsakeitwasbetteritwasdeadbeforeiteverlivedany。Whichshedon\'tanswerofhimback,butonlystaresinawild-

  eyedwayathim,andlaysthereandlooksdesperate,andsaysnothing。

  InhisheartColonelTomisawfulgladthatitisdead。Hecan\'thelpfeelingthatway。Andhequitstryingtotalktohissister,furhesuspicionsthatshewillketchontothefactthatheisgladthatitisdead。Hegoesonintothenextroom。

  Hefindsthenurselookingawfulfunny,andbendingoverthedeadkid。Sheisputtingalook-

  ing-glasstoitslips。Heastsherwhy。

  Shesaysshethoughtshemightbemistakenafterall。Shecouldn\'tsayjestWHENitdied。Itwasaliveandfeeble,andthenpurtysoonitshowednosignsoflife。Itwaslikeithadn\'thadenoughstrengthtostayandhadjestwent。Ididn\'tshowanypulse,anditdidn\'tappeartobebreathing。

  Andshehadwatcheditanddoneeverythingbe-

  foreshebeckonedtoColonelTomandtoldhimthatitwasdead。Butasshecomebackintotheroomwhereitwasshethoughtshenoticedsomethingthatwastoolighttobecalledarealfluttermoveitseyelids,whichshehadcloseddownoveritseyes。

  Itwastheghostofamove,likeithadtriedtoraisethelids,ortheyhadtriedtoraisetheirselves,andhadbeentooweak。Soshehasgotbusyandwrappedahotclotharoundit,andgotadropofbrandyortwobetweenitslips,andwasfightingtobringitbacktolife。Andthoughtshewasdoingit。Thoughtshehadfeltalittleflutterinitschest,andwastryingifithadbreathatall。

  ColonelTomthinksofwhatbigfolkstheBucknerfamblyhasalwaysbeenathome。Andhowhightheyhadalwaysheldtheirheads。Andhownoneofthewomenhaseverbeenlikethisbefore。Nornodisgraceofanykind。Andthattherekid,ifitisalive,isasignofdisgrace。AndhehopedtoGod,hesaid,itwasn\'talive。

  Buthedon\'tsayso。Hestandsthereandwatchesthatnursefightfurtoholdontothelittlemistoflifeshethinksnowisstillintoit。Sheun-

  buttonsherdressandlaysthekidagainsttheheatofherownbreast。Andwillsfurittolive,andfightsfuritto,anddeterminesthatitmust,andjestnatcherallytriesfurtobullyragdeathintogoingaway。AndColonelTomwatching,andwishingthatitwouldn\'t。Buthegetsinterestedinthattherefight,andsopurtysoonheishopingbothwaysbyspells。Andthefightallgoingonwithoutawordspoken。

  Butfinallythenursebeginsfurtocry。Notbe-

  causesheissureitisdead。Butbecausesheissureitiscomingback。Whichitdoes,slow。

  “\'ButIhavetoldHERthatitisdead,\'“saysColonelTom,jerkinghisheadtowardtheotherroomwhereMissLucyislying。Hespeaksinalowvoiceandclosesthedoorwhenhespeaks。Furitlooksnowlikeitwasgettingstrongenoughsoitmightevensquallalittle。

  “Idon\'tknowwhatkindofalooktherewasonmyface,“saysColonelTom,tellingofthestorytohissisterandthedoctor,“butshemusthaveseenthatIwas——andheavenhelpme,butIWAS!——sorrythatthebabywasalive。Itwouldhavebeensuchaneasywayoutofithaditbeenreallydead!

  “\'Shemustn\'tknowthatitisliving,\'Isaidtothenurse,finally,“saysColonelTom,goingonwithhisstory。IhadbeenwatchingMissLucy\'sfaceasColonelTomtalkedandshewassoworkedupbythatfightfurthekid\'slifeshewasbreath-

  less。Buthereyeswascastdown,Iguesssoherbrothercouldn\'tseethem。ColonelTomgoesonwithhisstory:

  “\'Youdon\'tmean——\'saidthenurse,startled。

  “\'No!No!\'Isaid,\'ofcourse——notthat!But——

  whyshouldsheeverknowthatitdidn\'tdie?\'“

  “\'Itisillegitimate?\'askedthenurse。

  “\'Yes,\'Isaid。“Thelongandshortofitwas,ColonelTomwentontotell,thatthenursewentoutandgothermother。Whichthetwoofthemlivedalone,onlyaroundthecorner。Andgivethechildintothekeepingofhermother,whotookitawaythenandthere。

  ColonelTomhadmadeuphismindtherewasn\'tgoingtobenobastardsintheBucknerfambly。

  AndnowthatMissLucythoughtitwasdeadhewouldletherkeeponthinkingso。Andthatwouldbesettledforgoodandall。Hefiggeredthatitwouldn\'teverhurthernoneifsheneverknowedit。

  Thenurse\'smotherkeptitallthatweek,anditthrove。ColonelTomwascoaxingofhissistertogobacktoTennessee。Butshewouldn\'tgo。SohehadmadeuphismindtogobackandgethisAuntLucyDavistocomeandhelphimcoax。Hewasonlywaitingfurhissistertogetwellenoughsohecouldleaveher。Shegotbetter,andsheneverastfurthekid,norsaidnothingaboutit。Whichwasprobablebecausesheseenhehateditso。Hehadmadeuphismind,beforehewentbackaftertheirAuntLucyDavis,totakethebabyhimselfandputitintosomekindofaninstitution。

  “Ithought,“hesaystoMissLucy,tellingofthestory,“thatyouyourselfwerealmostreconciledtothethoughtthatithadn\'tlived。“

  MissLucyinterruptedhimwithalittlesound。

  Shewasbreathinghard,andshakingfromheadtofoot。Noonewouldhavethoughttolookatherthenshewasreconciledtotheideathatithadn\'tlived。Itwascruelhardonhertotearhertopieceswiththenewsthatitreallyhadlived,buthadlivedawayfromheralltheseyearsshehadbeenlongingfurit。Andnochancetfurherevertomotherit。

  Andnowaytotellwhathadeverbecomeofit。I

  feltawfulsorryfurMissLucythen。

  “ButwhenIgotreadytoleaveGalesburg,“

  ColonelTomgoeson,“itsuddenlyoccurredtomethattherewouldbedifficultiesinthewayofputtingitinahomeofanysort。Ididn\'tknowwhattodowithit——“

  “WhatDIDyou?WhatDIDyou?WHATDIDYOU?”

  criesoutMissLucy,pressingherhandtoherchest,likeshewassmothering。

  “ThefirstthingIdid,“saysColonelTom,“wastogetyoutoanotherhouse——youremember,Lucy?”

  “Yes,yes!”shesays,excited,“andwhatthen?”

  “PerhapsIdidaveryfoolishthing,“saysColonelTom。

  “AfterIhadseenyouinstalledinthenewplaceandhadbiddenyougood-bye,Igotacarriageanddrovebytheplacewherethenurseandhermotherlived。ItoldthewomanthatIhadchangedmymind——thatyouweregoingtoraisethebaby——

  thatIwasgoingtopermitit。Idon\'tthinkshequitebelievedme,butshegavemethebaby。Whatelsecouldshedo?Besides,Ihadpaidherwell,whenIdischargedher,tosaynothingtoyou,andtokeepthebabyuntilIshouldcomeforit。Theyneededmoney;theywerepoor。

  “Iwasdeterminedthatitshouldneverbeheardofagain。ItwasaboutnoonwhenIleftGalesburg。

  Idroveallthatafternoon,withthebabyinabasketontheseatofthecarriagebesideme。Everybodyhasreadinbooks,sincebookswerefirstwritten——

  andseeninnewspapers,too——aboutchildrenbeingleftondoorsteps。Givenaninfanttodisposeof,thatisperhapsthefirstthingthatoccurstoaper-

  son。Therewasathickplaidshawlwrappedaboutthechild。Inthebasket,besidethebaby,wasanursingbottle。AboutduskIhaditrefilledwithwarmmilkatafarmhousenear——“

  Myheadwasbeginningfurtoswim。Ipulledmyheadoutofthattherehole,andrammedmyfootintoit。Itbangedagainstthatgratingandloosenedit。Itbustedloosesomeplaster,whichshowereddownintotheroomunderneath。MissLucy,shescreamed。AndthedoctorandColonelTombothyelledouttooncet:

  “Who\'sthat?”

  “It\'sme,“Iyells,bangingthatgratingagin。

  “Watchoutbelowthere!”AndthethirdlickI

  givehershebrokelooseandclattereddownrightontoacentretableandspilledoversomepho-

  tographsandavasefullofflowers,andbouncedoffontothefloor。

  “Lookoutbelow,“Iyells,“I\'mcomingdown!”

  Iletmylegsthroughfirst,andswungthemsoI

  wouldlandtoonesideofthetable,andheldbymyhands,anddropped。Butstruckthetableaside-

  waysswipeandturneditover,andfellontothefloor。Thedoctor,hegrabbedmebythecollarandstraightenedmeup,andgivemeashakeandstoodmeontomyfeet。

  “Whatdoyoumean——“hebegins。ButI

  breaksin。

  “Nowthen,“IsaystoColonelTom,“didyouleavethattherechildsuckingthattherebottleonthedoorstepofablacksmith\'shousenexttohisshopattheedgeofalittlecountrytownabouttwentymilesnortheastofGalesburgwrappedupinthatthereplaidshawl?”

  “Idid,“saysColonelTom。

  “Then,“saysI,turningtoMissLucy,“IcanunderstandwhyIhavebeenfeelingdrawedtoYOU

  furquiteaspell。I\'mhim。“

  End

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