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  Shetreatedhertherefore,withalltheindulgentfondnessofaparenttowardsafavouritechildonthelastdayofitsholidays。Mariannewastohavethebestplacebythefire,wastobetemptedtoeatbyeverydelicacyinthehouse,andtobeamusedbytherelationofallthenewsoftheday。

  HadnotElinor,inthesadcountenanceofhersister,seenachecktoallmirth,shecouldhavebeenentertainedbyMrs。Jennings’sendeavourstocureadisappointmentinlove,byavarietyofsweetmeatsandolives,andagoodfire。

  Assoon,however,astheconsciousnessofallthiswasforcedbycontinualrepetitiononMarianne,shecouldstaynolonger。WithahastyexclamationofMisery,andasigntohersisternottofollowher,shedirectlygotupandhurriedoutoftheroom。

  “Poorsoul!”criedMrs。Jennings,assoonasshewasgone,“howitgrievesmetoseeher!,AndIdeclareifsheisnotgoneawaywithoutfinishingherwine!,Andthedriedcherriestoo!,Lord!nothingseemstodoheranygood。

  IamsureifIknewofanythingshewouldlike,Iwouldsendalloverthetownforit。Well,itistheoddestthingtome,thatamanshouldusesuchaprettygirlsoill!,Butwhenthereisplentyofmoneyononeside,andnexttononeontheother,Lordblessyou!theycarenomoreaboutsuchthings!——“

  “Theladythen——MissGreyIthinkyoucalledher——

  isveryrich?”

  “Fiftythousandpounds,mydear。Didyoueverseeher?asmart,stylishgirltheysay,butnothandsome。

  Irememberherauntverywell,BiddyHenshawe;shemarriedaverywealthyman。Butthefamilyareallrichtogether。

  Fiftythousandpounds!andbyallaccounts,itwon’tcomebeforeit’swanted;fortheysayheisalltopieces。

  Nowonder!dashingaboutwithhiscurricleandhunters!

  Well,itdon’tsignifytalking;butwhenayoungman,bewhohewill,comesandmakeslovetoaprettygirl,andpromisesmarriage,hehasnobusinesstoflyofffromhiswordonlybecausehegrowspoor,andarichergirlisreadytohavehim。Whydon’the,insuchacase,sellhishorses,lethishouse,turnoffhisservants,andmakeathoroughreformatonce?Iwarrantyou,MissMariannewouldhavebeenreadytowaittillmatterscameround。Butthatwon’tdonow-a-days;nothinginthewayofpleasurecaneverbegivenupbytheyoungmenofthisage。”

  “DoyouknowwhatkindofagirlMissGreyis?

  Isshesaidtobeamiable?”

  “Ineverheardanyharmofher;indeedIhardlyeverheardhermentioned;exceptthatMrs。Taylordidsaythismorning,thatonedayMissWalkerhintedtoher,thatshebelievedMr。andMrs。EllisonwouldnotbesorrytohaveMissGreymarried,forsheandMrs。Ellisoncouldneveragree。”——

  “AndwhoaretheEllisons?”

  “Herguardians,mydear。Butnowsheisofageandmaychooseforherself;andaprettychoiceshehasmade!——Whatnow,“afterpausingamoment——“yourpoorsisterisgonetoherownroom,Isuppose,tomoanbyherself。

  Istherenothingonecangettocomforther?,Poordear,itseemsquitecrueltoletherbealone。Well,by-and-byweshallhaveafewfriends,andthatwillamuseheralittle。

  Whatshallweplayat?,ShehateswhistIknow;butistherenoroundgameshecaresfor?”

  “Dearma’am,thiskindnessisquiteunnecessary。

  Marianne,Idaresay,willnotleaveherroomagainthisevening。IshallpersuadeherifIcantogoearlytobed,forIamsureshewantsrest。”

  “Aye,Ibelievethatwillbebestforher。

  Lethernameherownsupper,andgotobed。Lord!nowondershehasbeenlookingsobadandsocastdownthislastweekortwo,forthismatterIsupposehasbeenhangingoverherheadaslongasthat。Andsotheletterthatcametodayfinishedit!

  Poorsoul!,IamsureifIhadhadanotionofit,Iwouldnothavejokedheraboutitforallmymoney。

  Butthenyouknow,howshouldIguesssuchathing?,Imadesureofitsbeingnothingbutacommonloveletter,andyouknowyoungpeopleliketobelaughedataboutthem。Lord!

  howconcernedSirJohnandmydaughterswillbewhentheyhearit!,IfIhadmysensesaboutmeImighthavecalledinConduitStreetinmywayhome,andtoldthemofit。

  ButIshallseethemtomorrow。”

  “ItwouldbeunnecessaryIamsure,foryoutocautionMrs。PalmerandSirJohnagainstevernamingMr。Willoughby,ormakingtheslightestallusiontowhathaspassed,beforemysister。Theirowngood-naturemustpointouttothemtherealcrueltyofappearingtoknowanythingaboutitwhensheispresent;andthelessthatmayeverbesaidtomyselfonthesubject,themoremyfeelingswillbespared,asyoumydearmadamwilleasilybelieve。”

  “Oh!Lord!yes,thatIdoindeed。Itmustbeterribleforyoutohearittalkedof;andasforyoursister,IamsureIwouldnotmentionawordaboutittoherfortheworld。YousawIdidnotalldinnertime。

  NomorewouldSirJohn,normydaughters,fortheyareallverythoughtfulandconsiderate;especiallyifI

  givethemahint,asIcertainlywill。Formypart,Ithinkthelessthatissaidaboutsuchthings,thebetter,thesooner’tisblownoverandforgot。Andwhatdoestalkingeverdoyouknow?”

  “Inthisaffairitcanonlydoharm;moresoperhapsthaninmanycasesofasimilarkind,forithasbeenattendedbycircumstanceswhich,forthesakeofeveryoneconcernedinit,makeitunfittobecomethepublicconversation。ImustdoTHISjusticetoMr。Willoughby——hehasbrokennopositiveengagementwithmysister。”

  “Law,mydear!,Don’tpretendtodefendhim。

  Nopositiveengagementindeed!aftertakingheralloverAllenhamHouse,andfixingontheveryroomstheyweretoliveinhereafter!”

  Elinor,forhersister’ssake,couldnotpressthesubjectfarther,andshehopeditwasnotrequiredofherforWilloughby’s;since,thoughMariannemightlosemuch,hecouldgainverylittlebytheenforcementoftherealtruth。

  Afterashortsilenceonbothsides,Mrs。Jennings,withallhernaturalhilarity,burstforthagain。

  “Well,mydear,’tisatruesayingaboutanill-wind,foritwillbeallthebetterforColonelBrandon。

  Hewillhaveheratlast;aye,thathewill。Mindme,now,iftheyan’tmarriedbyMid-summer。Lord!howhe’llchuckleoverthisnews!,Ihopehewillcometonight。

  Itwillbealltooneabettermatchforyoursister。

  Twothousandayearwithoutdebtordrawback——exceptthelittlelove-child,indeed;aye,Ihadforgother;

  butshemaybe’prenticedoutatasmallcost,andthenwhatdoesitsignify?,Delafordisaniceplace,Icantellyou;exactlywhatIcallaniceoldfashionedplace,fullofcomfortsandconveniences;quiteshutinwithgreatgardenwallsthatarecoveredwiththebestfruit-treesinthecountry;andsuchamulberrytreeinonecorner!

  Lord!howCharlotteandIdidstufftheonlytimewewerethere!,Then,thereisadove-cote,somedelightfulstew-ponds,andaveryprettycanal;andeverything,inshort,thatonecouldwishfor;and,moreover,itisclosetothechurch,andonlyaquarterofamilefromtheturnpike-road,so’tisneverdull,forifyouonlygoandsitupinanoldyewarbourbehindthehouse,youmayseeallthecarriagesthatpassalong。

  Oh!’tisaniceplace!,Abutcherhardbyinthevillage,andtheparsonage-housewithinastone’sthrow。

  Tomyfancy,athousandtimesprettierthanBartonPark,wheretheyareforcedtosendthreemilesfortheirmeat,andhavenotaneighbournearerthanyourmother。

  Well,IshallspirituptheColonelassoonasIcan。

  Oneshoulderofmutton,youknow,drivesanotherdown。

  IfweCANbutputWilloughbyoutofherhead!”

  “Ay,ifwecandoTHAT,Ma’am,“saidElinor,“weshalldoverywellwithorwithoutColonelBrandon。”

  Andthenrising,shewentawaytojoinMarianne,whomshefound,assheexpected,inherownroom,leaning,insilentmisery,overthesmallremainsofafire,which,tillElinor’sentrance,hadbeenheronlylight。

  “Youhadbetterleaveme,“wasallthenoticethathersisterreceivedfromher。

  “Iwillleaveyou,“saidElinor,“ifyouwillgotobed。”Butthis,fromthemomentaryperversenessofimpatientsuffering,sheatfirstrefusedtodo。

  Hersister’searnest,thoughgentlepersuasion,however,soonsoftenedhertocompliance,andElinorsawherlayherachingheadonthepillow,andasshehoped,inawaytogetsomequietrestbeforeshelefther。

  Inthedrawing-room,whithershethenrepaired,shewassoonjoinedbyMrs。Jennings,withawine-glass,fullofsomething,inherhand。

  “Mydear,“saidshe,entering,“IhavejustrecollectedthatIhavesomeofthefinestoldConstantiawineinthehousethateverwastasted,soIhavebroughtaglassofitforyoursister。Mypoorhusband!howfondhewasofit!

  Wheneverhehadatouchofhisoldcolickygout,hesaiditdidhimmoregoodthananythingelseintheworld。

  Dotakeittoyoursister。”

  “DearMa’am,“repliedElinor,smilingatthedifferenceofthecomplaintsforwhichitwasrecommended,“howgoodyouare!,ButIhavejustleftMarianneinbed,and,Ihope,almostasleep;andasIthinknothingwillbeofsomuchservicetoherasrest,ifyouwillgivemeleave,Iwilldrinkthewinemyself。”

  Mrs。Jennings,thoughregrettingthatshehadnotbeenfiveminutesearlier,wassatisfiedwiththecompromise;

  andElinor,assheswallowedthechiefofit,reflected,thatthoughitseffectsonacolickygoutwere,atpresent,oflittleimportancetoher,itshealingpowers,onadisappointedheartmightbeasreasonablytriedonherselfasonhersister。

  ColonelBrandoncameinwhilethepartywereattea,andbyhismanneroflookingroundtheroomforMarianne,Elinorimmediatelyfanciedthatheneitherexpectednorwishedtoseeherthere,and,inshort,thathewasalreadyawareofwhatoccasionedherabsence。

  Mrs。Jenningswasnotstruckbythesamethought;

  forsoonafterhisentrance,shewalkedacrosstheroomtothetea-tablewhereElinorpresided,andwhispered——

  “TheColonellooksasgraveaseveryousee。Heknowsnothingofit;dotellhim,mydear。”

  Heshortlyafterwardsdrewachairclosetoher’s,and,withalookwhichperfectlyassuredherofhisgoodinformation,inquiredafterhersister。

  “Marianneisnotwell,“saidshe。”Shehasbeenindisposedallday,andwehavepersuadedhertogotobed。”

  “Perhaps,then,“hehesitatinglyreplied,“whatI

  heardthismorningmaybe——theremaybemoretruthinitthanIcouldbelievepossibleatfirst。”

  “Whatdidyouhear?”

  “Thatagentleman,whomIhadreasontothink——inshort,thataman,whomIKNEWtobeengaged——buthowshallI

  tellyou?,Ifyouknowitalready,assurelyyoumust,Imaybespared。”

  “Youmean,“answeredElinor,withforcedcalmness,“Mr。Willoughby’smarriagewithMissGrey。Yes,weDO

  knowitall。Thisseemstohavebeenadayofgeneralelucidation,forthisverymorningfirstunfoldedittous。

  Mr。Willoughbyisunfathomable!,Wheredidyouhearit?”

  “Inastationer’sshopinPallMall,whereI

  hadbusiness。Twoladieswerewaitingfortheircarriage,andoneofthemwasgivingtheotheranaccountoftheintendedmatch,inavoicesolittleattemptingconcealment,thatitwasimpossibleformenottohearall。ThenameofWilloughby,JohnWilloughby,frequentlyrepeated,firstcaughtmyattention;andwhatfollowedwasapositiveassertionthateverythingwasnowfinallysettledrespectinghismarriagewithMissGrey——itwasnolongertobeasecret——itwouldtakeplaceevenwithinafewweeks,withmanyparticularsofpreparationsandothermatters。

  Onething,especially,Iremember,becauseitservedtoidentifythemanstillmore:——assoonastheceremonywasover,theyweretogotoCombeMagna,hisseatinSomersetshire。Myastonishment!——butitwouldbeimpossibletodescribewhatIfelt。ThecommunicativeladyIlearnt,oninquiry,forIstayedintheshoptilltheyweregone,wasaMrs。Ellison,andthat,asI

  havebeensinceinformed,isthenameofMissGrey’sguardian。”

  “Itis。ButhaveyoulikewiseheardthatMissGreyhasfiftythousandpounds?,Inthat,ifinanything,wemayfindanexplanation。”

  “Itmaybeso;butWilloughbyiscapable——atleastIthink“——hestoppedamoment;thenaddedinavoicewhichseemedtodistrustitself,“Andyoursister——

  howdidshe——“

  “Hersufferingshavebeenverysevere。

  Ihaveonlytohopethattheymaybeproportionatelyshort。

  Ithasbeen,itisamostcruelaffliction。Tillyesterday,Ibelieve,sheneverdoubtedhisregard;andevennow,perhaps——butIamalmostconvincedthatheneverwasreallyattachedtoher。Hehasbeenverydeceitful!and,insomepoints,thereseemsahardnessofheartabouthim。”

  “Ah!”saidColonelBrandon,“thereis,indeed!

  Butyoursisterdoesnot——Ithinkyousaidso——shedoesnotconsiderquiteasyoudo?”

  “Youknowherdisposition,andmaybelievehoweagerlyshewouldstilljustifyhimifshecould。”

  Hemadenoanswer;andsoonafterwards,bytheremovalofthetea-things,andthearrangementofthecardparties,thesubjectwasnecessarilydropped。Mrs。Jennings,whohadwatchedthemwithpleasurewhiletheyweretalking,andwhoexpectedtoseetheeffectofMissDashwood’scommunication,insuchaninstantaneousgaietyonColonelBrandon’sside,asmighthavebecomeamaninthebloomofyouth,ofhopeandhappiness,sawhim,withamazement,remainthewholeeveningmoreseriousandthoughtfulthanusual。

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  Fromanightofmoresleepthanshehadexpected,Marianneawokethenextmorningtothesameconsciousnessofmiseryinwhichshehadclosedhereyes。

  Elinorencouragedherasmuchaspossibletotalkofwhatshefelt;andbeforebreakfastwasready,theyhadgonethroughthesubjectagainandagain;andwiththesamesteadyconvictionandaffectionatecounselonElinor’sside,thesameimpetuousfeelingsandvaryingopinionsonMarianne’s,asbefore。SometimesshecouldbelieveWilloughbytobeasunfortunateandasinnocentasherself,andatothers,losteveryconsolationintheimpossibilityofacquittinghim。Atonemomentshewasabsolutelyindifferenttotheobservationofalltheworld,atanothershewouldsecludeherselffromitforever,andatathirdcouldresistitwithenergy。Inonething,however,shewasuniform,whenitcametothepoint,inavoiding,whereitwaspossible,thepresenceofMrs。Jennings,andinadeterminedsilencewhenobligedtoendureit。

  HerheartwashardenedagainstthebeliefofMrs。Jennings’senteringintohersorrowswithanycompassion。

  “No,no,no,itcannotbe,“shecried;

  “shecannotfeel。Herkindnessisnotsympathy;

  hergood-natureisnottenderness。Allthatshewantsisgossip,andsheonlylikesmenowbecauseIsupplyit。”

  Elinorhadnotneededthistobeassuredoftheinjusticetowhichhersisterwasoftenledinheropinionofothers,bytheirritablerefinementofherownmind,andthetoogreatimportanceplacedbyheronthedelicaciesofastrongsensibility,andthegracesofapolishedmanner。

  Likehalftherestoftheworld,ifmorethanhalftherebethatarecleverandgood,Marianne,withexcellentabilitiesandanexcellentdisposition,wasneitherreasonablenorcandid。Sheexpectedfromotherpeoplethesameopinionsandfeelingsasherown,andshejudgedoftheirmotivesbytheimmediateeffectoftheiractionsonherself。Thusacircumstanceoccurred,whilethesistersweretogetherintheirownroomafterbreakfast,whichsunktheheartofMrs。Jenningsstilllowerinherestimation;because,throughherownweakness,itchancedtoproveasourceoffreshpaintoherself,thoughMrs。Jenningswasgovernedinitbyanimpulseoftheutmostgoodwill。

  Withaletterinheroutstretchedhand,andcountenancegailysmiling,fromthepersuasionofbringingcomfort,sheenteredtheirroom,saying,“Now,mydear,IbringyousomethingthatI

  amsurewilldoyougood。”

  Marianneheardenough。InonemomentherimaginationplacedbeforeheraletterfromWilloughby,fulloftendernessandcontrition,explanatoryofallthathadpassed,satisfactory,convincing;andinstantlyfollowedbyWilloughbyhimself,rushingeagerlyintotheroomtoinforce,atherfeet,bytheeloquenceofhiseyes,theassurancesofhisletter。

  Theworkofonemomentwasdestroyedbythenext。

  Thehandwritingofhermother,nevertillthenunwelcome,wasbeforeher;and,intheacutenessofthedisappointmentwhichfollowedsuchanecstasyofmorethanhope,shefeltasif,tillthatinstant,shehadneversuffered。

  ThecrueltyofMrs。Jenningsnolanguage,withinherreachinhermomentsofhappiesteloquence,couldhaveexpressed;andnowshecouldreproachheronlybythetearswhichstreamedfromhereyeswithpassionateviolence——areproach,however,soentirelylostonitsobject,thataftermanyexpressionsofpity,shewithdrew,stillreferringhertotheletterofcomfort。

  Buttheletter,whenshewascalmenoughtoreadit,broughtlittlecomfort。Willoughbyfilledeverypage。

  Hermother,stillconfidentoftheirengagement,andrelyingaswarmlyaseveronhisconstancy,hadonlybeenrousedbyElinor’sapplication,tointreatfromMariannegreateropennesstowardsthemboth;andthis,withsuchtendernesstowardsher,suchaffectionforWilloughby,andsuchaconvictionoftheirfuturehappinessineachother,thatsheweptwithagonythroughthewholeofit。

  Allherimpatiencetobeathomeagainnowreturned;

  hermotherwasdearertoherthanever;dearerthroughtheveryexcessofhermistakenconfidenceinWilloughby,andshewaswildlyurgenttobegone。Elinor,unableherselftodeterminewhetheritwerebetterforMariannetobeinLondonoratBarton,offerednocounselofherownexceptofpatiencetilltheirmother’swishescouldbeknown;

  andatlengthsheobtainedhersister’sconsenttowaitforthatknowledge。

  Mrs。Jenningsleftthemearlierthanusual;

  forshecouldnotbeeasytilltheMiddletonsandPalmerswereabletogrieveasmuchasherself;andpositivelyrefusingElinor’sofferedattendance,wentoutalonefortherestofthemorning。Elinor,withaveryheavyheart,awareofthepainshewasgoingtocommunicate,andperceiving,byMarianne’sletter,howillshehadsucceededinlayinganyfoundationforit,thensatdowntowritehermotheranaccountofwhathadpassed,andentreatherdirectionsforthefuture;whileMarianne,whocameintothedrawing-roomonMrs。Jennings’sgoingaway,remainedfixedatthetablewhereElinorwrote,watchingtheadvancementofherpen,grievingoverherforthehardshipofsuchatask,andgrievingstillmorefondlyoveritseffectonhermother。

  Inthismannertheyhadcontinuedaboutaquarterofanhour,whenMarianne,whosenervescouldnotthenbearanysuddennoise,wasstartledbyarapatthedoor。

  “Whocanthisbe?”criedElinor。”Soearlytoo!I

  thoughtweHADbeensafe。”

  Mariannemovedtothewindow——

  “ItisColonelBrandon!”saidshe,withvexation。

  “WeareneversafefromHIM。”

  “Hewillnotcomein,asMrs。Jenningsisfromhome。”

  “IwillnottrusttoTHAT,“retreatingtoherownroom。

  “Amanwhohasnothingtodowithhisowntimehasnoconscienceinhisintrusiononthatofothers。”

  Theeventprovedherconjectureright,thoughitwasfoundedoninjusticeanderror;forColonelBrandonDIDcomein;andElinor,whowasconvincedthatsolicitudeforMariannebroughthimthither,andwhosawTHATsolicitudeinhisdisturbedandmelancholylook,andinhisanxiousthoughbriefinquiryafterher,couldnotforgivehersisterforesteeminghimsolightly。

  “ImetMrs。JenningsinBondStreet,“saidhe,afterthefirstsalutation,“andsheencouragedmetocomeon;andIwasthemoreeasilyencouraged,becauseIthoughtitprobablethatImightfindyoualone,whichIwasverydesirousofdoing。Myobject——mywish——mysolewishindesiringit——Ihope,Ibelieveitis——istobeameansofgivingcomfort;——no,Imustnotsaycomfort——notpresentcomfort——butconviction,lastingconvictiontoyoursister’smind。Myregardforher,foryourself,foryourmother——willyouallowmetoproveit,byrelatingsomecircumstanceswhichnothingbutaVERY

  sincereregard——nothingbutanearnestdesireofbeinguseful——IthinkIamjustified——thoughwheresomanyhourshavebeenspentinconvincingmyselfthatIamright,istherenotsomereasontofearImaybewrong?”

  Hestopped。

  “Iunderstandyou,“saidElinor。”YouhavesomethingtotellmeofMr。Willoughby,thatwillopenhischaracterfarther。YourtellingitwillbethegreatestactoffriendshipthatcanbeshewnMarianne。MYgratitudewillbeinsuredimmediatelybyanyinformationtendingtothatend,andHERS

  mustbegainedbyitintime。Pray,prayletmehearit。”

  “Youshall;and,tobebrief,whenIquittedBartonlastOctober,——butthiswillgiveyounoidea——Imustgofartherback。Youwillfindmeaveryawkwardnarrator,MissDashwood;Ihardlyknowwheretobegin。Ashortaccountofmyself,Ibelieve,willbenecessary,anditSHALLbeashortone。Onsuchasubject,“sighingheavily,“canIhavelittletemptationtobediffuse。”

  Hestoptamomentforrecollection,andthen,withanothersigh,wenton。

  “Youhaveprobablyentirelyforgottenaconversation——

  itisnottobesupposedthatitcouldmakeanyimpressiononyou——aconversationbetweenusoneeveningatBartonPark——itwastheeveningofadance——inwhichIalludedtoaladyIhadonceknown,asresembling,insomemeasure,yoursisterMarianne。”

  “Indeed,“answeredElinor,“IhaveNOTforgottenit。”

  Helookedpleasedbythisremembrance,andadded,“IfIamnotdeceivedbytheuncertainty,thepartialityoftenderrecollection,thereisaverystrongresemblancebetweenthem,aswellinmindasperson。Thesamewarmthofheart,thesameeagernessoffancyandspirits。

  Thisladywasoneofmynearestrelations,anorphanfromherinfancy,andundertheguardianshipofmyfather。

  Ourageswerenearlythesame,andfromourearliestyearswewereplayfellowsandfriends。IcannotrememberthetimewhenIdidnotloveEliza;andmyaffectionforher,aswegrewup,wassuch,asperhaps,judgingfrommypresentforlornandcheerlessgravity,youmightthinkmeincapableofhavingeverfelt。Her’s,forme,was,Ibelieve,ferventastheattachmentofyoursistertoMr。Willoughbyanditwas,thoughfromadifferentcause,nolessunfortunate。

  Atseventeenshewaslosttomeforever。Shewasmarried——marriedagainstherinclinationtomybrother。

  Herfortunewaslarge,andourfamilyestatemuchencumbered。

  Andthis,Ifear,isallthatcanbesaidfortheconductofone,whowasatonceheruncleandguardian。

  Mybrotherdidnotdeserveher;hedidnotevenloveher。

  Ihadhopedthatherregardformewouldsupportherunderanydifficulty,andforsometimeitdid;butatlastthemiseryofhersituation,forsheexperiencedgreatunkindness,overcameallherresolution,andthoughshehadpromisedmethatnothing——buthowblindlyI

  relate!,Ihavenevertoldyouhowthiswasbroughton。

  WewerewithinafewhoursofelopingtogetherforScotland。

  Thetreachery,orthefolly,ofmycousin’smaidbetrayedus。

  Iwasbanishedtothehouseofarelationfardistant,andshewasallowednoliberty,nosociety,noamusement,tillmyfather’spointwasgained。Ihaddependedonherfortitudetoofar,andtheblowwasasevereone——

  buthadhermarriagebeenhappy,soyoungasIthenwas,afewmonthsmusthavereconciledmetoit,oratleastIshouldnothavenowtolamentit。Thishoweverwasnotthecase。Mybrotherhadnoregardforher;

  hispleasureswerenotwhattheyoughttohavebeen,andfromthefirsthetreatedherunkindly。Theconsequenceofthis,uponamindsoyoung,solively,soinexperiencedasMrs。Brandon’s,wasbuttoonatural。Sheresignedherselfatfirsttoallthemiseryofhersituation;

  andhappyhaditbeenifshehadnotlivedtoovercomethoseregretswhichtheremembranceofmeoccasioned。Butcanwewonderthat,withsuchahusbandtoprovokeinconstancy,andwithoutafriendtoadviseorrestrainherformyfatherlivedonlyafewmonthsaftertheirmarriage,andIwaswithmyregimentintheEastIndiessheshouldfall?,HadIremainedinEngland,perhaps——butI

  meanttopromotethehappinessofbothbyremovingfromherforyears,andforthatpurposehadprocuredmyexchange。Theshockwhichhermarriagehadgivenme,“

  hecontinued,inavoiceofgreatagitation,“wasoftriflingweight——wasnothingtowhatIfeltwhenIheard,abouttwoyearsafterwards,ofherdivorce。ItwasTHATwhichthrewthisgloom,——evennowtherecollectionofwhatIsuffered——“

  Hecouldsaynomore,andrisinghastilywalkedforafewminutesabouttheroom。Elinor,affectedbyhisrelation,andstillmorebyhisdistress,couldnotspeak。Hesawherconcern,andcomingtoher,tookherhand,pressedit,andkisseditwithgratefulrespect。Afewminutesmoreofsilentexertionenabledhimtoproceedwithcomposure。

  “ItwasnearlythreeyearsafterthisunhappyperiodbeforeIreturnedtoEngland。Myfirstcare,whenIDIDarrive,wasofcoursetoseekforher;

  butthesearchwasasfruitlessasitwasmelancholy。

  Icouldnottraceherbeyondherfirstseducer,andtherewaseveryreasontofearthatshehadremovedfromhimonlytosinkdeeperinalifeofsin。Herlegalallowancewasnotadequatetoherfortune,norsufficientforhercomfortablemaintenance,andIlearntfrommybrotherthatthepowerofreceivingithadbeenmadeoversomemonthsbeforetoanotherperson。Heimagined,andcalmlycouldheimagineit,thatherextravagance,andconsequentdistress,hadobligedhertodisposeofitforsomeimmediaterelief。

  Atlast,however,andafterIhadbeensixmonthsinEngland,IDIDfindher。Regardforaformerservantofmyown,whohadsincefallenintomisfortune,carriedmetovisithiminaspunging-house,wherehewasconfinedfordebt;

  andthere,thesamehouse,underasimilarconfinement,wasmyunfortunatesister。Soaltered——sofaded——worndownbyacutesufferingofeverykind!hardlycouldI

  believethemelancholyandsicklyfigurebeforeme,tobetheremainsofthelovely,blooming,healthfulgirl,onwhomIhadoncedoted。WhatIenduredinsobeholdingher——butIhavenorighttowoundyourfeelingsbyattemptingtodescribeit——Ihavepainedyoutoomuchalready。

  Thatshewas,toallappearance,inthelaststageofaconsumption,was——yes,insuchasituationitwasmygreatestcomfort。Lifecoulddonothingforher,beyondgivingtimeforabetterpreparationfordeath;

  andthatwasgiven。Isawherplacedincomfortablelodgings,andunderproperattendants;Ivisitedhereverydayduringtherestofhershortlife:Iwaswithherinherlastmoments。”

  Againhestoppedtorecoverhimself;andElinorspokeherfeelingsinanexclamationoftenderconcern,atthefateofhisunfortunatefriend。

  “Yoursister,Ihope,cannotbeoffended,“

  saidhe,“bytheresemblanceIhavefanciedbetweenherandmypoordisgracedrelation。Theirfates,theirfortunes,cannotbethesame;andhadthenaturalsweetdispositionoftheonebeenguardedbyafirmermind,orahappiermarriage,shemighthavebeenallthatyouwilllivetoseetheotherbe。Buttowhatdoesallthislead?,Iseemtohavebeendistressingyoufornothing。

  Ah!MissDashwood——asubjectsuchasthis——untouchedforfourteenyears——itisdangeroustohandleitatall!

  IWILLbemorecollected——moreconcise。Shelefttomycareheronlychild,alittlegirl,theoffspringofherfirstguiltyconnection,whowasthenaboutthreeyearsold。

  Shelovedthechild,andhadalwayskeptitwithher。

  Itwasavalued,aprecioustrusttome;andgladlywouldIhavedischargeditinthestrictestsense,bywatchingoverhereducationmyself,hadthenatureofoursituationsallowedit;butIhadnofamily,nohome;

  andmylittleElizawasthereforeplacedatschool。

  IsawhertherewheneverIcould,andafterthedeathofmybrother,whichhappenedaboutfiveyearsago,andwhichlefttomethepossessionofthefamilyproperty,shevisitedmeatDelaford。Icalledheradistantrelation;

  butIamwellawarethatIhaveingeneralbeensuspectedofamuchnearerconnectionwithher。Itisnowthreeyearsagoshehadjustreachedherfourteenthyear,

  thatIremovedherfromschool,toplaceherunderthecareofaveryrespectablewoman,residinginDorsetshire,whohadthechargeoffourorfiveothergirlsofaboutthesametimeoflife;andfortwoyearsIhadeveryreasontobepleasedwithhersituation。ButlastFebruary,almostatwelvemonthback,shesuddenlydisappeared。

  Ihadallowedher,imprudently,asithassinceturnedout,atherearnestdesire,togotoBathwithoneofheryoungfriends,whowasattendingherfatherthereforhishealth。Iknewhimtobeaverygoodsortofman,andIthoughtwellofhisdaughter——betterthanshedeserved,for,withamostobstinateandill-judgedsecrecy,shewouldtellnothing,wouldgivenoclue,thoughshecertainlyknewall。He,herfather,awell-meaning,butnotaquick-sightedman,couldreally,Ibelieve,givenoinformation;forhehadbeengenerallyconfinedtothehouse,whilethegirlswererangingoverthetownandmakingwhatacquaintancetheychose;andhetriedtoconvinceme,asthoroughlyashewasconvincedhimself,ofhisdaughter’sbeingentirelyunconcernedinthebusiness。

  Inshort,Icouldlearnnothingbutthatshewasgone;

  alltherest,foreightlongmonths,waslefttoconjecture。

  WhatIthought,whatIfeared,maybeimagined;andwhatI

  sufferedtoo。”

  “Goodheavens!”criedElinor,“coulditbe——couldWilloughby!”——

  “Thefirstnewsthatreachedmeofher,“hecontinued,“cameinaletterfromherself,lastOctober。

  ItwasforwardedtomefromDelaford,andIreceiveditontheverymorningofourintendedpartytoWhitwell;

  andthiswasthereasonofmyleavingBartonsosuddenly,whichIamsuremustatthetimehaveappearedstrangetoeverybody,andwhichIbelievegaveoffencetosome。

  LittledidMr。Willoughbyimagine,Isuppose,whenhislookscensuredmeforincivilityinbreakinguptheparty,thatIwascalledawaytothereliefofonewhomhehadmadepoorandmiserable;butHADheknownit,whatwouldithaveavailed?,Wouldhehavebeenlessgayorlesshappyinthesmilesofyoursister?,No,hehadalreadydonethat,whichnomanwhoCANfeelforanotherwoulddo。Hehadleftthegirlwhoseyouthandinnocencehehadseduced,inasituationoftheutmostdistress,withnocreditablehome,nohelp,nofriends,ignorantofhisaddress!,Hehadlefther,promisingtoreturn;heneitherreturned,norwrote,norrelievedher。”

  “Thisisbeyondeverything!”exclaimedElinor。

  “Hischaracterisnowbeforeyou;expensive,dissipated,andworsethanboth。Knowingallthis,asIhavenowknownitmanyweeks,guesswhatImusthavefeltonseeingyoursisterasfondofhimasever,andonbeingassuredthatshewastomarryhim:guesswhatImusthavefeltforallyoursakes。WhenIcametoyoulastweekandfoundyoualone,Icamedeterminedtoknowthetruth;

  thoughirresolutewhattodowhenitWASknown。

  Mybehaviourmusthaveseemedstrangetoyouthen;

  butnowyouwillcomprehendit。Tosufferyoualltobesodeceived;toseeyoursister——butwhatcouldIdo?

  Ihadnohopeofinterferingwithsuccess;andsometimesIthoughtyoursister’sinfluencemightyetreclaimhim。

  Butnow,aftersuchdishonorableusage,whocantellwhatwerehisdesignsonher。Whatevertheymayhavebeen,however,shemaynow,andhereafterdoubtlessWILL

  turnwithgratitudetowardsherowncondition,whenshecomparesitwiththatofmypoorEliza,whensheconsidersthewretchedandhopelesssituationofthispoorgirl,andpictureshertoherself,withanaffectionforhimsostrong,stillasstrongasherown,andwithamindtormentedbyself-reproach,whichmustattendherthroughlife。

  Surelythiscomparisonmusthaveitsusewithher。

  Shewillfeelherownsufferingstobenothing。Theyproceedfromnomisconduct,andcanbringnodisgrace。

  Onthecontrary,everyfriendmustbemadestillmoreherfriendbythem。Concernforherunhappiness,andrespectforherfortitudeunderit,muststrengtheneveryattachment。Useyourowndiscretion,however,incommunicatingtoherwhatIhavetoldyou。Youmustknowbestwhatwillbeitseffect;buthadInotseriously,andfrommyheartbelieveditmightbeofservice,mightlessenherregrets,Iwouldnothavesufferedmyselftotroubleyouwiththisaccountofmyfamilyafflictions,witharecitalwhichmayseemtohavebeenintendedtoraisemyselfattheexpenseofothers。”

  Elinor’sthanksfollowedthisspeechwithgratefulearnestness;attendedtoowiththeassuranceofherexpectingmaterialadvantagetoMarianne,fromthecommunicationofwhathadpassed。

  “Ihavebeenmorepained,“saidshe,“byherendeavorstoacquithimthanbyalltherest;foritirritateshermindmorethanthemostperfectconvictionofhisunworthinesscando。Now,thoughatfirstshewillsuffermuch,Iamsureshewillsoonbecomeeasier。

  Haveyou,“shecontinued,afterashortsilence,“everseenMr。WilloughbysinceyoulefthimatBarton?”

  “Yes,“herepliedgravely,“onceIhave。

  Onemeetingwasunavoidable。”

  Elinor,startledbyhismanner,lookedathimanxiously,saying,“What?haveyoumethimto——“

  “Icouldmeethimnootherway。Elizahadconfessedtome,thoughmostreluctantly,thenameofherlover;

  andwhenhereturnedtotown,whichwaswithinafortnightaftermyself,wemetbyappointment,hetodefend,Itopunishhisconduct。Wereturnedunwounded,andthemeeting,therefore,nevergotabroad。”

  Elinorsighedoverthefanciednecessityofthis;

  buttoamanandasoldiershepresumednottocensureit。

  “Such,“saidColonelBrandon,afterapause,“hasbeentheunhappyresemblancebetweenthefateofmotheranddaughter!andsoimperfectlyhaveIdischargedmytrust!”

  “Isshestillintown?”

  “No;assoonassherecoveredfromherlying-in,forIfoundhernearherdelivery,Iremovedherandherchildintothecountry,andtheresheremains。”

  Recollecting,soonafterwards,thathewasprobablydividingElinorfromhersister,heputanendtohisvisit,receivingfromheragainthesamegratefulacknowledgments,andleavingherfullofcompassionandesteemforhim。

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  WhentheparticularsofthisconversationwererepeatedbyMissDashwoodtohersister,astheyverysoonwere,theeffectonherwasnotentirelysuchastheformerhadhopedtosee。NotthatMarianneappearedtodistrustthetruthofanypartofit,forshelistenedtoitallwiththemoststeadyandsubmissiveattention,madeneitherobjectionnorremark,attemptednovindicationofWilloughby,andseemedtoshewbyhertearsthatshefeltittobeimpossible。ButthoughthisbehaviourassuredElinorthattheconvictionofthisguiltWAScarriedhometohermind,thoughshesawwithsatisfactiontheeffectofit,inhernolongeravoidingColonelBrandonwhenhecalled,inherspeakingtohim,evenvoluntarilyspeaking,withakindofcompassionaterespect,andthoughshesawherspiritslessviolentlyirritatedthanbefore,shedidnotseeherlesswretched。Herminddidbecomesettled,butitwassettledinagloomydejection。

  ShefeltthelossofWilloughby’scharacteryetmoreheavilythanshehadfeltthelossofhisheart;hisseductionanddesertionofMissWilliams,themiseryofthatpoorgirl,andthedoubtofwhathisdesignsmightONCEhavebeenonherself,preyedaltogethersomuchonherspirits,thatshecouldnotbringherselftospeakofwhatshefelteventoElinor;and,broodingoverhersorrowsinsilence,gavemorepaintohersisterthancouldhavebeencommunicatedbythemostopenandmostfrequentconfessionofthem。

  TogivethefeelingsorthelanguageofMrs。

  DashwoodonreceivingandansweringElinor’sletterwouldbeonlytogivearepetitionofwhatherdaughtershadalreadyfeltandsaid;ofadisappointmenthardlylesspainfulthanMarianne’s,andanindignationevengreaterthanElinor’s。

  Longlettersfromher,quicklysucceedingeachother,arrivedtotellallthatshesufferedandthought;

  toexpressheranxioussolicitudeforMarianne,andentreatshewouldbearupwithfortitudeunderthismisfortune。

  BadindeedmustthenatureofMarianne’safflictionbe,whenhermothercouldtalkoffortitude!mortifyingandhumiliatingmustbetheoriginofthoseregrets,whichSHEcouldwishhernottoindulge!

  Againsttheinterestofherownindividualcomfort,Mrs。DashwoodhaddeterminedthatitwouldbebetterforMariannetobeanywhere,atthattime,thanatBarton,whereeverythingwithinherviewwouldbebringingbackthepastinthestrongestandmostafflictingmanner,byconstantlyplacingWilloughbybeforeher,suchasshehadalwaysseenhimthere。Sherecommendedittoherdaughters,therefore,byallmeansnottoshortentheirvisittoMrs。Jennings;thelengthofwhich,thoughneverexactlyfixed,hadbeenexpectedbyalltocompriseatleastfiveorsixweeks。Avarietyofoccupations,ofobjects,andofcompany,whichcouldnotbeprocuredatBarton,wouldbeinevitablethere,andmightyet,shehoped,cheatMarianne,attimes,intosomeinterestbeyondherself,andevenintosomeamusement,muchastheideasofbothmightnowbespurnedbyher。

  FromalldangerofseeingWilloughbyagain,hermotherconsideredhertobeatleastequallysafeintownasinthecountry,sincehisacquaintancemustnowbedroppedbyallwhocalledthemselvesherfriends。

  Designcouldneverbringthemineachother’sway:

  negligencecouldneverleavethemexposedtoasurprise;

  andchancehadlessinitsfavourinthecrowdofLondonthanevenintheretirementofBarton,whereitmightforcehimbeforeherwhilepayingthatvisitatAllenhamonhismarriage,whichMrs。Dashwood,fromforeseeingatfirstasaprobableevent,hadbroughtherselftoexpectasacertainone。

  Shehadyetanotherreasonforwishingherchildrentoremainwheretheywere;aletterfromherson-in-lawhadtoldherthatheandhiswifeweretobeintownbeforethemiddleofFebruary,andshejudgeditrightthattheyshouldsometimesseetheirbrother。

  Mariannehadpromisedtobeguidedbyhermother’sopinion,andshesubmittedtoitthereforewithoutopposition,thoughitprovedperfectlydifferentfromwhatshewishedandexpected,thoughshefeltittobeentirelywrong,formedonmistakengrounds,andthatbyrequiringherlongercontinuanceinLondonitdeprivedheroftheonlypossiblealleviationofherwretchedness,thepersonalsympathyofhermother,anddoomedhertosuchsocietyandsuchscenesasmustpreventhereverknowingamoment’srest。

  Butitwasamatterofgreatconsolationtoher,thatwhatbroughteviltoherselfwouldbringgoodtohersister;andElinor,ontheotherhand,suspectingthatitwouldnotbeinherpowertoavoidEdwardentirely,comfortedherselfbythinking,thatthoughtheirlongerstaywouldthereforemilitateagainstherownhappiness,itwouldbebetterforMariannethananimmediatereturnintoDevonshire。

  HercarefulnessinguardinghersisterfromeverhearingWilloughby’snamementioned,wasnotthrownaway。

  Marianne,thoughwithoutknowingitherself,reapedallitsadvantage;forneitherMrs。Jennings,norSirJohn,norevenMrs。Palmerherself,everspokeofhimbeforeher。

  Elinorwishedthatthesameforbearancecouldhaveextendedtowardsherself,butthatwasimpossible,andshewasobligedtolistendayafterdaytotheindignationofthemall。

  SirJohn,couldnothavethoughtitpossible。

  “Amanofwhomhehadalwayshadsuchreasontothinkwell!

  Suchagood-naturedfellow!,HedidnotbelievetherewasabolderriderinEngland!,Itwasanunaccountablebusiness。

  Hewishedhimatthedevilwithallhisheart。Hewouldnotspeakanotherwordtohim,meethimwherehemight,foralltheworld!,No,notifitweretobebythesideofBartoncovert,andtheywerekeptwatchingfortwohourstogether。Suchascoundrelofafellow!suchadeceitfuldog!,ItwasonlythelasttimetheymetthathehadofferedhimoneofFolly’spuppies!andthiswastheendofit!”

  Mrs。Palmer,inherway,wasequallyangry。

  “Shewasdeterminedtodrophisacquaintanceimmediately,andshewasverythankfulthatshehadneverbeenacquaintedwithhimatall。ShewishedwithallherheartCombeMagnawasnotsonearCleveland;butitdidnotsignify,foritwasagreatdealtoofarofftovisit;shehatedhimsomuchthatshewasresolvednevertomentionhisnameagain,andsheshouldtelleverybodyshesaw,howgood-for-nothinghewas。”

  TherestofMrs。Palmer’ssympathywasshewninprocuringalltheparticularsinherpoweroftheapproachingmarriage,andcommunicatingthemtoElinor。Shecouldsoontellatwhatcoachmaker’sthenewcarriagewasbuilding,bywhatpainterMr。Willoughby’sportraitwasdrawn,andatwhatwarehouseMissGrey’sclothesmightbeseen。

  ThecalmandpoliteunconcernofLadyMiddletonontheoccasionwasahappyrelieftoElinor’sspirits,oppressedastheyoftenwerebytheclamorouskindnessoftheothers。ItwasagreatcomforttohertobesureofexcitingnointerestinONEpersonatleastamongtheircircleoffriends:agreatcomforttoknowthattherewasONEwhowouldmeetherwithoutfeelinganycuriosityafterparticulars,oranyanxietyforhersister’shealth。

  Everyqualificationisraisedattimes,bythecircumstancesofthemoment,tomorethanitsrealvalue;

  andshewassometimesworrieddownbyofficiouscondolencetorategood-breedingasmoreindispensabletocomfortthangood-nature。

  LadyMiddletonexpressedhersenseoftheaffairaboutonceeveryday,ortwice,ifthesubjectoccurredveryoften,bysaying,“Itisveryshocking,indeed!”

  andbythemeansofthiscontinualthoughgentlevent,wasablenotonlytoseetheMissDashwoodsfromthefirstwithoutthesmallestemotion,butverysoontoseethemwithoutrecollectingawordofthematter;

  andhavingthussupportedthedignityofherownsex,andspokenherdecidedcensureofwhatwaswrongintheother,shethoughtherselfatlibertytoattendtotheinterestofherownassemblies,andthereforedeterminedthoughratheragainsttheopinionofSirJohn

  thatasMrs。Willoughbywouldatoncebeawomanofeleganceandfortune,toleavehercardwithherassoonasshemarried。

  ColonelBrandon’sdelicate,unobtrusiveenquirieswereneverunwelcometoMissDashwood。Hehadabundantlyearnedtheprivilegeofintimatediscussionofhersister’sdisappointment,bythefriendlyzealwithwhichhehadendeavouredtosoftenit,andtheyalwaysconversedwithconfidence。Hischiefrewardforthepainfulexertionofdisclosingpastsorrowsandpresenthumiliations,wasgiveninthepityingeyewithwhichMariannesometimesobservedhim,andthegentlenessofhervoicewheneverthoughitdidnotoftenhappen

  shewasobliged,orcouldobligeherselftospeaktohim。

  THESEassuredhimthathisexertionhadproducedanincreaseofgood-willtowardshimself,andTHESEgaveElinorhopesofitsbeingfartheraugmentedhereafter;

  butMrs。Jennings,whoknewnothingofallthis,whoknewonlythattheColonelcontinuedasgraveasever,andthatshecouldneitherprevailonhimtomaketheofferhimself,norcommissionhertomakeitforhim,began,attheendoftwodays,tothinkthat,insteadofMidsummer,theywouldnotbemarriedtillMichaelmas,andbytheendofaweekthatitwouldnotbeamatchatall。

  ThegoodunderstandingbetweentheColonelandMissDashwoodseemedrathertodeclarethatthehonoursofthemulberry-tree,thecanal,andtheyewarbour,wouldallbemadeovertoHER;andMrs。Jenningshad,forsometimeceasedtothinkatallofMrs。Ferrars。

  EarlyinFebruary,withinafortnightfromthereceiptofWilloughby’sletter,Elinorhadthepainfulofficeofinforminghersisterthathewasmarried。

  Shehadtakencaretohavetheintelligenceconveyedtoherself,assoonasitwasknownthattheceremonywasover,asshewasdesirousthatMarianneshouldnotreceivethefirstnoticeofitfromthepublicpapers,whichshesawhereagerlyexaminingeverymorning。

  Shereceivedthenewswithresolutecomposure;

  madenoobservationonit,andatfirstshednotears;

  butafterashorttimetheywouldburstout,andfortherestoftheday,shewasinastatehardlylesspitiablethanwhenshefirstlearnttoexpecttheevent。

  TheWilloughbyslefttownassoonastheyweremarried;

  andElinornowhoped,astherecouldbenodangerofherseeingeitherofthem,toprevailonhersister,whohadneveryetleftthehousesincetheblowfirstfell,togooutagainbydegreesasshehaddonebefore。

  AboutthistimethetwoMissSteeles,latelyarrivedattheircousin’shouseinBartlett’sBuildings,Holburn,presentedthemselvesagainbeforetheirmoregrandrelationsinConduitandBerkeleyStreets;

  andwerewelcomedbythemallwithgreatcordiality。

  Elinoronlywassorrytoseethem。Theirpresencealwaysgaveherpain,andshehardlyknewhowtomakeaverygraciousreturntotheoverpoweringdelightofLucyinfindingherSTILLintown。

  “IshouldhavebeenquitedisappointedifI

  hadnotfoundyouhereSTILL,“saidsherepeatedly,withastrongemphasisontheword。”ButIalwaysthoughtISHOULD。

  IwasalmostsureyouwouldnotleaveLondonyetawhile;

  thoughyouTOLDme,youknow,atBarton,thatyoushouldnotstayaboveaMONTH。ButIthought,atthetime,thatyouwouldmostlikelychangeyourmindwhenitcametothepoint。Itwouldhavebeensuchagreatpitytohavewentawaybeforeyourbrotherandsistercame。

  Andnowtobesureyouwillbeinnohurrytobegone。

  IamamazinglygladyoudidnotkeeptoYOURWORD。”

  Elinorperfectlyunderstoodher,andwasforcedtouseallherself-commandtomakeitappearthatshedidNOT。

  “Well,mydear,“saidMrs。Jennings,“andhowdidyoutravel?”

  “Notinthestage,Iassureyou,“repliedMissSteele,withquickexultation;“wecamepostalltheway,andhadaverysmartbeautoattendus。Dr。Davieswascomingtotown,andsowethoughtwe’djoinhiminapost-chaise;

  andhebehavedverygenteelly,andpaidtenortwelveshillingsmorethanwedid。”

  “Oh,oh!”criedMrs。Jennings;“verypretty,indeed!andtheDoctorisasingleman,Iwarrantyou。”

  “Therenow,“saidMissSteele,affectedlysimpering,“everybodylaughsatmesoabouttheDoctor,andI

  cannotthinkwhy。MycousinssaytheyaresureIhavemadeaconquest;butformypartIdeclareIneverthinkabouthimfromonehour’sendtoanother。’Lord!herecomesyourbeau,Nancy,’mycousinsaidt’otherday,whenshesawhimcrossingthestreettothehouse。

  Mybeau,indeed!saidI——Icannotthinkwhoyoumean。

  TheDoctorisnobeauofmine。”

  “Aye,aye,thatisveryprettytalking——butitwon’tdo——

  theDoctoristheman,Isee。”

  “No,indeed!”repliedhercousin,withaffectedearnestness,“andIbegyouwillcontradictit,ifyoueverhearittalkedof。”

  Mrs。JenningsdirectlygaveherthegratifyingassurancethatshecertainlywouldNOT,andMissSteelewasmadecompletelyhappy。

  “Isupposeyouwillgoandstaywithyourbrotherandsister,MissDashwood,whentheycometotown,“

  saidLucy,returning,afteracessationofhostilehints,tothecharge。

  “No,Idonotthinkweshall。”

  “Oh,yes,Idaresayyouwill。”

  Elinorwouldnothumourherbyfartheropposition。

  “WhatacharmingthingitisthatMrs。Dashwoodcanspareyoubothforsolongatimetogether!”

  “Longatime,indeed!”interposedMrs。Jennings。

  “Why,theirvisitisbutjustbegun!”

  Lucywassilenced。

  “Iamsorrywecannotseeyoursister,MissDashwood,“

  saidMissSteele。”Iamsorrysheisnotwell——“

  forMariannehadlefttheroomontheirarrival。

  “Youareverygood。Mysisterwillbeequallysorrytomissthepleasureofseeingyou;butshehasbeenverymuchplaguedlatelywithnervoushead-aches,whichmakeherunfitforcompanyorconversation。”

  “Oh,dear,thatisagreatpity!butsucholdfriendsasLucyandme!——IthinkshemightseeUS;

  andIamsurewewouldnotspeakaword。”

  Elinor,withgreatcivility,declinedtheproposal。

  Hersisterwasperhapslaiddownuponthebed,orinherdressinggown,andthereforenotabletocometothem。

  “Oh,ifthat’sall,“criedMissSteele,“wecanjustaswellgoandseeHER。”

  Elinorbegantofindthisimpertinencetoomuchforhertemper;butshewassavedthetroubleofcheckingit,byLucy’ssharpreprimand,whichnow,asonmanyoccasions,thoughitdidnotgivemuchsweetnesstothemannersofonesister,wasofadvantageingoverningthoseoftheother。

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  Aftersomeopposition,Marianneyieldedtohersister’sentreaties,andconsentedtogooutwithherandMrs。Jenningsonemorningforhalfanhour。Sheexpresslyconditioned,however,forpayingnovisits,andwoulddonomorethanaccompanythemtoGray’sinSackvilleStreet,whereElinorwascarryingonanegotiationfortheexchangeofafewold-fashionedjewelsofhermother。

  Whentheystoppedatthedoor,Mrs。Jenningsrecollectedthattherewasaladyattheotherendofthestreetonwhomsheoughttocall;andasshehadnobusinessatGray’s,itwasresolved,thatwhileheryoungfriendstransactedtheir’s,sheshouldpayhervisitandreturnforthem。

  Onascendingthestairs,theMissDashwoodsfoundsomanypeoplebeforethemintheroom,thattherewasnotapersonatlibertytotendtotheirorders;andtheywereobligedtowait。Allthatcouldbedonewas,tositdownatthatendofthecounterwhichseemedtopromisethequickestsuccession;onegentlemanonlywasstandingthere,anditisprobablethatElinorwasnotwithouthopeofexcitinghispolitenesstoaquickerdespatch。

  Butthecorrectnessofhiseye,andthedelicacyofhistaste,provedtobebeyondhispoliteness。

  Hewasgivingordersforatoothpick-caseforhimself,andtillitssize,shape,andornamentsweredetermined,allofwhich,afterexamininganddebatingforaquarterofanhourovereverytoothpick-caseintheshop,werefinallyarrangedbyhisowninventivefancy,hehadnoleisuretobestowanyotherattentiononthetwoladies,thanwhatwascomprisedinthreeorfourverybroadstares;

  akindofnoticewhichservedtoimprintonElinortheremembranceofapersonandface,ofstrong,natural,sterlinginsignificance,thoughadornedinthefirststyleoffashion。

  Mariannewassparedfromthetroublesomefeelingsofcontemptandresentment,onthisimpertinentexaminationoftheirfeatures,andonthepuppyismofhismannerindecidingonallthedifferenthorrorsofthedifferenttoothpick-casespresentedtohisinspection,byremainingunconsciousofitall;forshewasaswellabletocollectherthoughtswithinherself,andbeasignorantofwhatwaspassingaroundher,inMr。Gray’sshop,asinherownbedroom。

  Atlasttheaffairwasdecided。Theivory,thegold,andthepearls,allreceivedtheirappointment,andthegentlemanhavingnamedthelastdayonwhichhisexistencecouldbecontinuedwithoutthepossessionofthetoothpick-case,drewonhisgloveswithleisurelycare,andbestowinganotherglanceontheMissDashwoods,butsuchaoneasseemedrathertodemandthanexpressadmiration,walkedoffwithahappyairofrealconceitandaffectedindifference。

  Elinorlostnotimeinbringingherbusinessforward,wasonthepointofconcludingit,whenanothergentlemanpresentedhimselfatherside。Sheturnedhereyestowardshisface,andfoundhimwithsomesurprisetobeherbrother。

  TheiraffectionandpleasureinmeetingwasjustenoughtomakeaverycreditableappearanceinMr。Gray’sshop。

  JohnDashwoodwasreallyfarfrombeingsorrytoseehissistersagain;itrathergavethemsatisfaction;

  andhisinquiriesaftertheirmotherwererespectfulandattentive。

  ElinorfoundthatheandFannyhadbeenintowntwodays。

  “Iwishedverymuchtocalluponyouyesterday,“

  saidhe,“butitwasimpossible,forwewereobligedtotakeHarrytoseethewildbeastsatExeterExchange;

  andwespenttherestofthedaywithMrs。Ferrars。

  Harrywasvastlypleased。THISmorningIhadfullyintendedtocallonyou,ifIcouldpossiblyfindasparehalfhour,butonehasalwayssomuchtodoonfirstcomingtotown。

  IamcomeheretobespeakFannyaseal。ButtomorrowI

  thinkIshallcertainlybeabletocallinBerkeleyStreet,andbeintroducedtoyourfriendMrs。Jennings。

  Iunderstandsheisawomanofverygoodfortune。

  AndtheMiddletonstoo,youmustintroducemetoTHEM。

  Asmymother-in-law’srelations,Ishallbehappytoshowthemeveryrespect。Theyareexcellentneighbourstoyouinthecountry,Iunderstand。”

  “Excellentindeed。Theirattentiontoourcomfort,theirfriendlinessineveryparticular,ismorethanI

  canexpress。”

  “Iamextremelygladtohearit,uponmyword;

  extremelygladindeed。Butsoitoughttobe;theyarepeopleoflargefortune,theyarerelatedtoyou,andeverycivilityandaccommodationthatcanservetomakeyoursituationpleasantmightbereasonablyexpected。

  Andsoyouaremostcomfortablysettledinyourlittlecottageandwantfornothing!,Edwardbroughtusamostcharmingaccountoftheplace:themostcompletethingofitskind,hesaid,thateverwas,andyouallseemedtoenjoyitbeyondanything。Itwasagreatsatisfactiontoustohearit,Iassureyou。”

  Elinordidfeelalittleashamedofherbrother;

  andwasnotsorrytobesparedthenecessityofansweringhim,bythearrivalofMrs。Jennings’sservant,whocametotellherthathismistresswaitedforthematthedoor。

  Mr。Dashwoodattendedthemdownstairs,wasintroducedtoMrs。Jenningsatthedoorofhercarriage,andrepeatinghishopeofbeingabletocallonthemthenextday,tookleave。

  Hisvisitwasdulypaid。Hecamewithapretenceatanapologyfromtheirsister-in-law,fornotcomingtoo;

  “butshewassomuchengagedwithhermother,thatreallyshehadnoleisureforgoinganywhere。”,Mrs。Jennings,however,assuredhimdirectly,thatsheshouldnotstanduponceremony,fortheywereallcousins,orsomethinglikeit,andsheshouldcertainlywaitonMrs。JohnDashwoodverysoon,andbringhersisterstoseeher。

  HismannerstoTHEM,thoughcalm,wereperfectlykind;

  toMrs。Jennings,mostattentivelycivil;andonColonelBrandon’scominginsoonafterhimself,heeyedhimwithacuriositywhichseemedtosay,thatheonlywantedtoknowhimtoberich,tobeequallyciviltoHIM。

  Afterstayingwiththemhalfanhour,heaskedElinortowalkwithhimtoConduitStreet,andintroducehimtoSirJohnandLadyMiddleton。Theweatherwasremarkablyfine,andshereadilyconsented。Assoonastheywereoutofthehouse,hisenquiriesbegan。

  “WhoisColonelBrandon?,Isheamanoffortune?”

  “Yes;hehasverygoodpropertyinDorsetshire。”

  “Iamgladofit。Heseemsamostgentlemanlikeman;

  andIthink,Elinor,Imaycongratulateyouontheprospectofaveryrespectableestablishmentinlife。”

  “Me,brother!whatdoyoumean?”

  “Helikesyou。Iobservedhimnarrowly,andamconvincedofit。Whatistheamountofhisfortune?”

  “Ibelieveabouttwothousandayear。”

  “Twothousanda-year;“andthenworkinghimselfuptoapitchofenthusiasticgenerosity,headded,“Elinor,IwishwithallmyheartitwereTWICEasmuch,foryoursake。”

  “IndeedIbelieveyou,“repliedElinor;“butIamverysurethatColonelBrandonhasnotthesmallestwishofmarryingME。”

  “Youaremistaken,Elinor;youareverymuchmistaken。

  Averylittletroubleonyoursidesecureshim。

  Perhapsjustatpresenthemaybeundecided;thesmallnessofyourfortunemaymakehimhangback;hisfriendsmayalladvisehimagainstit。Butsomeofthoselittleattentionsandencouragementswhichladiescansoeasilygivewillfixhim,inspiteofhimself。Andtherecanbenoreasonwhyyoushouldnottryforhim。Itisnottobesupposedthatanypriorattachmentonyourside——inshort,youknowastoanattachmentofthatkind,itisquiteoutofthequestion,theobjectionsareinsurmountable——

  youhavetoomuchsensenottoseeallthat。ColonelBrandonmustbetheman;andnocivilityshallbewantingonmyparttomakehimpleasedwithyouandyourfamily。

  Itisamatchthatmustgiveuniversalsatisfaction。

  Inshort,itisakindofthingthat“——loweringhisvoicetoanimportantwhisper——“willbeexceedinglywelcometoALLPARTIES。”Recollectinghimself,however,headded,“Thatis,Imeantosay——yourfriendsarealltrulyanxioustoseeyouwellsettled;Fannyparticularly,forshehasyourinterestverymuchatheart,Iassureyou。

  Andhermothertoo,Mrs。Ferrars,averygood-naturedwoman,Iamsureitwouldgivehergreatpleasure;shesaidasmuchtheotherday。”

  Elinorwouldnotvouchsafeanyanswer。

  “Itwouldbesomethingremarkable,now,“hecontinued,“somethingdroll,ifFannyshouldhaveabrotherandI

  asistersettlingatthesametime。Andyetitisnotveryunlikely。”

  “IsMr。EdwardFerrars,“saidElinor,withresolution,“goingtobemarried?”

  “Itisnotactuallysettled,butthereissuchathinginagitation。Hehasamostexcellentmother。

  Mrs。Ferrars,withtheutmostliberality,willcomeforward,andsettleonhimathousandayear,ifthematchtakesplace。TheladyistheHon。MissMorton,onlydaughterofthelateLordMorton,withthirtythousandpounds。

  Averydesirableconnectiononbothsides,andIhavenotadoubtofitstakingplaceintime。Athousanda-yearisagreatdealforamothertogiveaway,tomakeoverforever;butMrs。Ferrarshasanoblespirit。Togiveyouanotherinstanceofherliberality:——Theotherday,assoonaswecametotown,awarethatmoneycouldnotbeveryplentywithusjustnow,sheputbank-notesintoFanny’shandstotheamountoftwohundredpounds。

  Andextremelyacceptableitis,forwemustliveatagreatexpensewhilewearehere。”

  Hepausedforherassentandcompassion;andsheforcedherselftosay,“Yourexpensesbothintownandcountrymustcertainlybeconsiderable;butyourincomeisalargeone。”

  “Notsolarge,Idaresay,asmanypeoplesuppose。

  Idonotmeantocomplain,however;itisundoubtedlyacomfortableone,andIhopewillintimebebetter。

  TheenclosureofNorlandCommon,nowcarryingon,isamostseriousdrain。AndthenIhavemadealittlepurchasewithinthishalfyear;EastKinghamFarm,youmustremembertheplace,whereoldGibsonusedtolive。

  Thelandwassoverydesirableformeineveryrespect,soimmediatelyadjoiningmyownproperty,thatIfeltitmydutytobuyit。Icouldnothaveansweredittomyconsciencetoletitfallintoanyotherhands。Amanmustpayforhisconvenience;anditHAScostmeavastdealofmoney。”

  “Morethanyouthinkitreallyandintrinsicallyworth。”

  “Why,Ihopenotthat。Imighthavesolditagain,thenextday,formorethanIgave:but,withregardtothepurchase-money,Imighthavebeenveryunfortunateindeed;

  forthestockswereatthattimesolow,thatifIhadnothappenedtohavethenecessarysuminmybanker’shands,Imusthavesoldouttoverygreatloss。”

  Elinorcouldonlysmile。

  “OthergreatandinevitableexpensestoowehavehadonfirstcomingtoNorland。Ourrespectedfather,asyouwellknow,bequeathedalltheStanhilleffectsthatremainedatNorlandandveryvaluabletheywere

  toyourmother。Farbeitfrommetorepineathisdoingso;hehadanundoubtedrighttodisposeofhisownpropertyashechose,but,inconsequenceofit,wehavebeenobligedtomakelargepurchasesoflinen,china,&c。tosupplytheplaceofwhatwastakenaway。

  Youmayguess,afteralltheseexpenses,howveryfarwemustbefrombeingrich,andhowacceptableMrs。Ferrars’skindnessis。”

  “Certainly,“saidElinor;“andassistedbyherliberality,Ihopeyoumayyetlivetobeineasycircumstances。”

  “Anotheryearortwomaydomuchtowardsit,“

  hegravelyreplied;“buthoweverthereisstillagreatdealtobedone。ThereisnotastonelaidofFanny’sgreen-house,andnothingbuttheplanoftheflower-gardenmarkedout。”

  “Whereisthegreen-housetobe?”

  “Upontheknollbehindthehouse。Theoldwalnuttreesareallcomedowntomakeroomforit。

  Itwillbeaveryfineobjectfrommanypartsofthepark,andtheflower-gardenwillslopedownjustbeforeit,andbeexceedinglypretty。Wehaveclearedawayalltheoldthornsthatgrewinpatchesoverthebrow。”

  Elinorkeptherconcernandhercensuretoherself;

  andwasverythankfulthatMariannewasnotpresent,tosharetheprovocation。

  Havingnowsaidenoughtomakehispovertyclear,andtodoawaythenecessityofbuyingapairofear-ringsforeachofhissisters,inhisnextvisitatGray’shisthoughtstookacheerfullerturn,andhebegantocongratulateElinoronhavingsuchafriendasMrs。Jennings。

  “Sheseemsamostvaluablewomanindeed——Herhouse,herstyleofliving,allbespeakanexceedinggoodincome;

  anditisanacquaintancethathasnotonlybeenofgreatusetoyouhitherto,butintheendmayprovemateriallyadvantageous——Herinvitingyoutotowniscertainlyavastthinginyourfavour;andindeed,itspeaksaltogethersogreataregardforyou,thatinallprobabilitywhenshediesyouwillnotbeforgotten——

  Shemusthaveagreatdealtoleave。”

  “Nothingatall,Ishouldrathersuppose;forshehasonlyherjointure,whichwilldescendtoherchildren。”

  “Butitisnottobeimaginedthatshelivesuptoherincome。FewpeopleofcommonprudencewilldoTHAT;

  andwhatevershesaves,shewillbeabletodisposeof。”

  “Anddoyounotthinkitmorelikelythatsheshouldleaveittoherdaughters,thantous?”

  “Herdaughtersarebothexceedinglywellmarried,andthereforeIcannotperceivethenecessityofherrememberingthemfarther。Whereas,inmyopinion,byhertakingsomuchnoticeofyou,andtreatingyouinthiskindofway,shehasgivenyouasortofclaimonherfutureconsideration,whichaconscientiouswomanwouldnotdisregard。Nothingcanbekinderthanherbehaviour;

  andshecanhardlydoallthis,withoutbeingawareoftheexpectationitraises。”

  “Butsheraisesnoneinthosemostconcerned。

  Indeed,brother,youranxietyforourwelfareandprosperitycarriesyoutoofar。”

  “Why,tobesure,“saidhe,seemingtorecollecthimself,“peoplehavelittle,haveverylittleintheirpower。

  But,mydearElinor,whatisthematterwithMarianne?——

  shelooksveryunwell,haslosthercolour,andisgrownquitethin。Issheill?”

  “Sheisnotwell,shehashadanervouscomplaintonherforseveralweeks。”

  “Iamsorryforthat。Athertimeoflife,anythingofanillnessdestroysthebloomforever!

  Her’shasbeenaveryshortone!,ShewasashandsomeagirllastSeptember,asIeversaw;andaslikelytoattracttheman。Therewassomethinginherstyleofbeauty,topleasethemparticularly。IrememberFannyusedtosaythatshewouldmarrysoonerandbetterthanyoudid;

  notbutwhatsheisexceedinglyfondofYOU,butsoithappenedtostrikeher。Shewillbemistaken,however。

  IquestionwhetherMarianneNOW,willmarryamanworthmorethanfiveorsixhundreda-year,attheutmost,andIamverymuchdeceivedifYOUdonotdobetter。

  Dorsetshire!,IknowverylittleofDorsetshire;but,mydearElinor,Ishallbeexceedinglygladtoknowmoreofit;

  andIthinkIcananswerforyourhavingFannyandmyselfamongtheearliestandbestpleasedofyourvisitors。”

  ElinortriedveryseriouslytoconvincehimthattherewasnolikelihoodofhermarryingColonelBrandon;

  butitwasanexpectationoftoomuchpleasuretohimselftoberelinquished,andhewasreallyresolvedonseekinganintimacywiththatgentleman,andpromotingthemarriagebyeverypossibleattention。Hehadjustcompunctionenoughforhavingdonenothingforhissistershimself,tobeexceedinglyanxiousthateverybodyelseshoulddoagreatdeal;andanofferfromColonelBrandon,oralegacyfromMrs。Jennings,wastheeasiestmeansofatoningforhisownneglect。

  TheywereluckyenoughtofindLadyMiddletonathome,andSirJohncameinbeforetheirvisitended。

  Abundanceofcivilitiespassedonallsides。SirJohnwasreadytolikeanybody,andthoughMr。Dashwooddidnotseemtoknowmuchabouthorses,hesoonsethimdownasaverygood-naturedfellow:whileLadyMiddletonsawenoughoffashioninhisappearancetothinkhisacquaintanceworthhaving;andMr。Dashwoodwentawaydelightedwithboth。

  “IshallhaveacharmingaccounttocarrytoFanny,“saidhe,ashewalkedbackwithhissister。

  “LadyMiddletonisreallyamostelegantwoman!,SuchawomanasIamsureFannywillbegladtoknow。

  AndMrs。Jenningstoo,anexceedinglywell-behavedwoman,thoughnotsoelegantasherdaughter。YoursisterneednothaveanyscrupleevenofvisitingHER,which,tosaythetruth,hasbeenalittlethecase,andverynaturally;

  forweonlyknewthatMrs。Jenningswasthewidowofamanwhohadgotallhismoneyinalowway;andFannyandMrs。Ferrarswerebothstronglyprepossessed,thatneithershenorherdaughtersweresuchkindofwomenasFannywouldliketoassociatewith。ButnowIcancarryheramostsatisfactoryaccountofboth。”

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