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  Shelaughed,clearlynotatmycomplimentasIamsuresheneednothavedone,sinceitwasaverycommonplacefact,butatsomethingwhichwasstirringinhermind;andshestilllookedatmekindly,butwiththeabove-saidkeenlookinhereyes,andthenshesaid:

  “Well,perhapsitisstrange,thoughIhaveagooddealtodoathome,whatwithlookingaftermyfather,anddealingwithtwoorthreeyoungmenwhohavetakenaspeciallikingtome,andallofwhomIcannotpleaseatonce。Butyou,dearneighbour;itseemstomestrangerthatyoushouldknowtheupperriver,thanthatIshouldnotknowit;for,asIunderstand,youhaveonlybeeninEnglandafewdays。Butperhapsyoumeanthatyouhavereadaboutitinbooks,andseenpicturesofit?——thoughthatdoesnotcometomucheither,“

  “Truly,“saidI。“Besides,IhavenotreadanybooksabouttheThames:

  itwasoneoftheminorstupiditiesofourtimethatnoonethoughtfittowriteadecentbookaboutwhatmayfairlybecalledouronlyEnglishriver。“

  ThewordswerenosooneroutofmymouththanIsawthatIhadmadeanothermistake;andIfeltreallyannoyedwithmyself,asIdidnotwanttogointoalongexplanationjustthen,orbeginanotherseriesofOdysseanlies。Somehow,Ellenseemedtoseethis,andshetooknoadvantageofmyslip;herpiercinglookchangedintooneofmerefrankkindness,andshesaid:

  “Well,anyhowIamgladthatIamtravellingthesewaterswithyou,sinceyouknowourriversowell,andIknowlittleofitpastPangbourne,foryoucantellmeallIwanttoknowaboutit。“Shepausedaminute,andthensaid:“YetyoumustunderstandthatthepartIdoknow,Iknowasthoroughlyasyoudo。IshouldbesorryforyoutothinkthatIamcarelessofathingsobeautifulandinterestingastheThames。“

  Shesaidthisquiteearnestly,andwithanairofaffectionateappealtomewhichpleasedmeverymuch;butIcouldseethatshewasonlykeepingherdoubtsaboutmeforanothertime。

  PresentlywecametoDay\'sLock,whereDickandhistwosittershadwaitedforus。Hewouldhavemegoashore,asiftoshowmesomethingwhichIhadneverseenbefore;andnothinglothIfollowedhim,Ellenbymyside,tothewell-rememberedDykes,andthelongchurchbeyondthem,whichwasstillusedforvariouspurposesbythegoodfolkofDorchester:where,bytheway,thevillageguest-housestillhadthesignoftheFleur-de-lucewhichitusedtobearinthedayswhenhospitalityhadtobeboughtandsold。Thistime,however,Imadenosignofallthisbeingfamiliartome:thoughaswesatforawhileonthemoundoftheDykeslookingupatSinodunanditsclear-cuttrench,anditssister_mamelon_ofWhittenham,IfeltsomewhatuncomfortableunderEllen\'sseriousattentivelook,whichalmostdrewfrommethecry,“Howlittleanythingischangedhere!“

  WestoppedagainatAbington,which,likeWallingford,wasinawaybotholdandnewtome,sinceithadbeenliftedoutofitsnineteenth-centurydegradation,andotherwisewasaslittlealteredasmightbe。

  SunsetwasintheskyasweskirtedOxfordbyOseney;westoppedaminuteortwohardbytheancientcastletoputHenryMorsomashore。

  Itwasamatterofcoursethatsofarastheycouldbeseenfromtheriver,Imissednoneofthetowersandspiresofthatoncedon-beriddencity;butthemeadowsallroundwhich,whenIhadlastpassedthroughthem,weregettingdailymoreandmoresqualid,moreandmoreimpressedwiththesealofthe“stirandintellectuallifeofthenineteenthcentury,“werenolongerintellectual,buthadonceagainbecomeasbeautifulastheyshouldbe,andthelittlehillofHinksey,withtwoorthreeveryprettystonehousesnew-grownonitI

  usethewordadvisedly;fortheyseemedtobelongtoitlookeddownhappilyonthefullstreamsandwavinggrass,greynow,butforthesunset,withitsfast-ripeningseeds。

  Therailwayhavingdisappeared,andtherewiththevariouslevelbridgesoverthestreamsofThames,weweresoonthroughMedleyLockandinthewidewaterthatwashesPortMeadow,withitsnumerouspopulationofgeesenowisediminished;andIthoughtwithinteresthowitsnameandusehadsurvivedfromtheolderimperfectcommunalperiod,throughthetimeoftheconfusedstruggleandtyrannyoftherightsofproperty,intothepresentrestandhappinessofcompleteCommunism。

  IwastakenashoreagainatGodstow,toseetheremainsoftheoldnunnery,prettynearlyinthesameconditionasIhadrememberedthem;

  andfromthehighbridgeoverthecutcloseby,Icouldsee,eveninthetwilight,howbeautifulthelittlevillagewithitsgreystonehouseshadbecome;forwehadnowcomeintothestone-country,inwhicheveryhousemustbeeitherbuilt,wallsandroof,ofgreystoneorbeablotonthelandscape。

  Westillrowedonafterthis,Ellentakingthescullsinmyboat;wepassedaweiralittlehigherup,andaboutthreemilesbeyonditcamebymoonlightagaintoalittletown,wherewesleptatahousethinlyinhabited,asitsfolkweremostlytentedinthehay-fields。

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  TheLittleRiverWestartedbeforesixo\'clockthenextmorning,aswewerestilltwenty-fivemilesfromourresting-place,andDickwantedtobetherebeforedusk。Thejourneywaspleasant,thoughtothosewhodonotknowtheupperThames,thereislittletosayaboutit。EllenandIwereoncemoretogetherinherboat,thoughDick,forfairness\'sake,wasforhavingmeinhis,andlettingthetwowomenscullthegreentoy。

  Ellen,however,wouldnotallowthis,butclaimedmeastheinterestingpersonofthecompany。“Afterhavingcomesofar,“saidshe,“Iwillnotbeputoffwithacompanionwhowillalwaysbethinkingofsomebodyelsethanme:theguestistheonlypersonwhocanamusemeproperly。Imeanthatreally,“saidshe,turningtome,“andhavenotsaiditmerelyasaprettysaying。“

  Clarablushedandlookedveryhappyatallthis;forIthinkuptothistimeshehadbeenratherfrightenedofEllen。AsformeIfeltyoungagain,andstrangehopesofmyyouthwereminglingwiththepleasureofthepresent;almostdestroyingit,andquickeningitintosomethinglikepain。

  Aswepassedthroughtheshortandwindingreachesofthenowquicklylesseningstream,Ellensaid:“Howpleasantthislittleriveristome,whoamusedtoagreatwidewashofwater;italmostseemsasifweshallhavetostopateveryreach-end。IexpectbeforeIgethomethiseveningIshallhaverealisedwhatalittlecountryEnglandis,sincewecansosoongettotheendofitsbiggestriver。“

  “Itisnotbig,“saidI,“butitispretty。“

  “Yes,“shesaid,“anddon\'tyoufinditdifficulttoimaginethetimeswhenthisprettycountrywastreatedbyitsfolkasifithadbeenanuglycharacterlesswaste,withnodelicatebeautytobeguarded,withnoheedtakenoftheeverfreshpleasureoftherecurringseasons,andchangefulweather,anddiversequalityofthesoil,andsoforth?Howcouldpeoplebesocrueltothemselves?“

  “Andtoeachother,“saidI。Thenasuddenresolutiontookholdofme,andIsaid:“Dearneighbour,ImayaswelltellyouatoncethatI

  finditeasiertoimagineallthatuglypastthanyoudo,becauseI

  myselfhavebeenpartofit。Iseeboththatyouhavedivinedsomethingofthisinme;andalsoIthinkyouwillbelievemewhenI

  tellyouofit,sothatIamgoingtohidenothingfromyouatall。“

  Shewassilentalittle,andthenshesaid:“Myfriend,youhaveguessedrightaboutme;andtotellyouthetruthIhavefollowedyouupfromRunnymedeinorderthatImightaskyoumanyquestions,andbecauseIsawthatyouwerenotoneofus;andthatinterestedandpleasedme,andIwantedtomakeyouashappyasyoucouldbe。Tosaythetruth,therewasariskinit,“saidshe,blushing——“ImeanastoDickandClara;forImusttellyou,sincewearegoingtobesuchclosefriends,thatevenamongstus,wheretherearesomanybeautifulwomen,Ihaveoftentroubledmen\'smindsdisastrously。ThatisonereasonwhyIwaslivingalonewithmyfatherinthecottageatRunnymede。Butitdidnotansweronthatscore;forofcoursepeoplecamethere,astheplaceisnotadesert,andtheyseemedtofindmeallthemoreinterestingforlivingalonelikethat,andfelltomakingstoriesofmetothemselves——likeIknowyoudid,myfriend。

  Well,letthatpass。Thisevening,orto-morrowmorning,Ishallmakeaproposaltoyoutodosomethingwhichwouldpleasemeverymuch,andIthinkwouldnothurtyou。“

  Ibrokeineagerly,sayingthatIwoulddoanythingintheworldforher;forindeed,inspiteofmyyearsandthetooobvioussignsofthemthoughthatfeelingofrenewedyouthwasnotamerepassingsensation,Ithink——inspiteofmyyears,Isay,Ifeltaltogethertoohappyinthecompanyofthisdelightfulgirl,andwaspreparedtotakeherconfidencesformorethantheymeantperhaps。

  Shelaughednow,butlookedverykindlyonme。“Well,“shesaid,“meantimeforthepresentwewillletitbe;forImustlookatthisnewcountrythatwearepassingthrough。Seehowtheriverhaschangedcharacteragain:itisbroadnow,andthereachesarelongandveryslow-running。Andlook,thereisaferry!“

  Itoldherthenameofit,asIslowedofftoputtheferry-chainoverourheads;andonwewentpassingbyabankcladwithoaktreesonourlefthand,tillthestreamnarrowedagainanddeepenedandwerowedonbetweenwallsoftallreeds,whosepopulationofreedsparrowsandwarblersweredelighfullyrestless,twitteringandchucklingasthewashoftheboatsstirredthereedsfromthewaterupwardinthestill,hotmorning。

  Shesmiledwithpleasure,andherlazyenjoymentofthenewsceneseemedtobringoutherbeautydoublyassheleanedbackamidstthecushions,thoughshewasfarfromlanguid;heridlenessbeingtheidlenessofaperson,strongandwell-knitbothinbodyandminddeliberatelyresting。

  “Look!“shesaid,springingupsuddenlyfromherplacewithoutanyobviouseffort,andbalancingherselfwithexquisitegraceandease;

  “lookatthebeautifuloldbridgeahead!“

  “Ineedscarcelylookatthat,“saidI,notturningmyheadawayfromherbeauty。“Iknowwhatitis;though“withasmile“weusedtocallittheOldBridgetimeagone。“

  Shelookedonmekindly,andsaid,“Howwellwegetonnowyouarenolongeronyourguardagainstme!“

  Andshestoodlookingthoughtfullyatmestill,tillshehadtositdownaswepassedunderthemiddleoneoftherowoflittlepointedarchesoftheoldestbridgeacrosstheThames。

  “Othebeautifulfields!“shesaid;“Ihadnoideaofthecharmofaverysmallriverlikethis。Thesmallnessofthescaleofeverything,theshortreaches,andthespeedychangeofthebanks,giveoneafeelingofgoingsomewhere,ofcomingtosomethingstrange,afeelingofadventurewhichIhavenotfeltinbiggerwaters。“

  Ilookedatherdelightedly;forhervoice,sayingtheverythingthatIwasthinking,waslikeacaresstome。Shecaughtmyeyeandhercheeksreddenedundertheirtan,andshesaidsimply:

  “Imusttellyou,myfriend,thatwhenmyfatherleavestheThamesthissummerhewilltakemeawaytoaplaceneartheRomanwallinCumberland;sothatthisvoyageofmineisfarewelltothesouth;ofcoursewithmygoodwillinaway;andyetIamsorryforit。Ihadn\'tthehearttotellDickyesterdaythatwewereasgoodasgonefromtheThames-side;butsomehowtoyouImustneedstellit。“

  Shestoppedandseemedverythoughtfulforawile,andthensaid,smiling:

  “ImustsaythatIdon\'tlikemovingaboutfromonehometoanother;

  onegetssopleasantlyusedtoallthedetailofthelifeaboutone;

  itfitssoharmoniouslyandhappilyintoone\'sownlife,thatbeginningagain,eveninasmallway,isakindofpain。ButIdaresayinthecountrywhichyoucomefrom,youwouldthinkthispettyandunadventurousandwouldthinktheworseofmeforit。“

  Shesmiledatmecaressinglyasshespoke,andImadehastetoanswer:

  “Ono,indeed;againyouechomyverythoughts。ButIhardlyexpectedtohearyouspeakso。IgatheredfromallIhaveheardthattherewasagreatdealofchangingofabodeamongstyouinthiscountry。“

  “Well,“shesaid,“ofcoursepeoplearefreetomoveabout;butexceptforpleasure-parties,especiallyinharvestandhay-time,likethisofours,Idon\'tthinktheydosomuch。IadmitthatIalsohaveothermoodsthanthatofstay-at-home,asIhintedjustnow,andIshouldliketogowithyouallthroughthewestcountry——thinkingofnothing,“concludedshe,smiling。

  “Ishouldhaveplentytothinkof,“saidI。

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  AResting-PlaceontheUpperThamesPresentlyataplacewheretheriverflowedroundaheadlandofthemeadows,westoppedawhileforrestandvictuals,andsettledourselvesonabeautifulbankwhichalmostreachedthedignityofahill-side:thewidemeadowsspreadbeforeus,andalreadythescythewasbusyamidstthehay。OnechangeInoticedamidstthequietbeautyofthefields——towit,thattheywereplantedwithtreeshereandthere,oftenfruit-trees,andthattherewasnoneoftheniggardlybegrudgingofspacetoahandsometreewhichIrememberedtoowell;

  andthoughthewillowswereoftenpolledorshrowded,astheycallitinthecountryside,thiswasdonewithsomeregardtobeauty:Imeanthattherewasnopollingofrowsonrowssoastodestroythepleasantnessofhalfamileofcountry,butathoughtfulsequenceinthecutting,thatpreventedasuddenbarenessanywhere。Tobeshort,thefieldswereeverywheretreatedasagardenmadeforthepleasureaswellasthelivelihoodofall,asoldHammondtoldmewsthecase。

  Onthisbankorbentofthehill,then,wehadourmiddaymeal;

  somewhatearlyfordinner,ifthatmattered,butwehadbeenstirringearly:theslenderstreamoftheThameswindingbelowusbetweenthegardenofacountryIhavebeentellingof;afurlongfromuswasabeautifullittleisletbegrownwithgracefultrees;ontheslopeswestwardofuswasawoodofvariedgrowthoverhangingthenarrowmeadowonthesouthsideoftheriver;whiletothenorthwasawidestretchofmeadrisingverygraduallyfromtheriver\'sedge。A

  delicatespireofanancientbuildingroseupfromoutofthetreesinthemiddledistance,withafewgreyhousesclusteredaboutit;whilenearertous,infactnothalfafurlongfromthewaterwasaquitemodernstonehouse——awidequadrangleofonestory,thebuildingsthatmadeitbeingquitelow。Therewasnogardenbetweenitandtheriver,nothingbutarowofpear-treesstillquiteyoungandslender;andthoughtheredidnotseemtobemuchornamentaboutit,ithadasortofnaturalelegance,likethatofthetreesthemselves。

  AswesatlookingdownonallthisinthesweetJuneday,ratherhappythanmerry,Ellen,whosatnextme,herhandclaspedaboutoneknee,leanedsidewaystome,andsaidinalowvoicewhichDickandClaramighthavenotediftheyhadnotbeenbusyinhappywordlesslove-making:“Friend,inyourcountrywerethehousesofyourfield-labourersanythinglikethat?“

  Isaid:“Well,atanyratethehousesofourrichmenwerenot;theyweremereblotsuponthefaceoftheland。“

  “Ifindthathardtounderstand,“shesaid。“Icanseewhytheworkmen,whoweresooppressed,shouldnothavebeenabletoliveinbeautifulhouses;forittakestimeandleisure,andmindsnotover-burdenedwithcare,tomakebeautifuldwellings;andIquiteunderstandthatthesepoorpeoplewerenotallowedtoliveinsuchawayastohavethesetousnecessarygoodthings。Butwhytherichmenwhohadthetimeandtheleisureandthematerialsforbuilding,asitwouldbeinthiscase,shouldnothavehousedthemselveswell,I

  donotunderstandasyet。Iknowwhatyouaresayingtome,“shesaid,lookingmefullintheeyesandblushing,“towitthattheirhousesandallbelongingtothemweregenerallyuglyandbase,unlesstheychancedtobeancientlikeyonderremnantofourforefathers\'work“

  pointingtothespire;“thattheywere——letmesee;whatistheword?“

  “Vulgar,“saidI。“Weusedtosay,“saidI,“thattheuglinessandvulgarityoftherichmen\'sdwellingswasanecessaryreflectionfromthesordidnessandbarenessoflifewhichtheyforceduponthepoorpeople。“

  Sheknitherbrowsasinthought;thenturnedabrightenedfaceonme,asifshehadcaughttheidea,andsaid:“Yes,friend,Iseewhatyoumean。Wehavesometimes——thoseofuswholookintothesethings——talkedthisverymatterover;because,tosaythetruth,wehaveplentyofrecordoftheso-calledartsofthetimebeforeEqualityofLife;andtherearenotwantingpeoplewhosaythatthestateofthatsocietywasnotthecauseofallthatugliness;thattheywereuglyintheirlifebecausetheylikedtobe,andcouldhavehadbeautifulthingsaboutthemiftheyhadchosen;justasamanorabodyofmennowmay,iftheyplease,makethingsmoreorlessbeautiful——Stop!Iknowwhatyouaregoingtosay。“

  “Doyou?“saidI,smiling,yetwithabeatingheart。

  “Yes,“shesaid;“youareansweringme,teachingme,insomewayoranother,althoughyouhavenotspokenthewordsaloud。Youaregoingtosaythatintimesofinequalityitwasanessentialconditionofthelifeoftheserichmenthattheyshouldnotthemselvesmakewhattheywantedfortheadornmentoftheirlives,butshouldforcethosetomakethemwhomtheyforcedtolivepinchedandsordidlives;andthatasanecessaryconsequencethesordidnessandpinching,theuglybarrennessofthoseruinedlives,wereworkedupintotheadornmentofthelivesoftherich,andartdiedoutamongstmen?Wasthatwhatyouwouldsay,myfriend?“

  “Yes,yes,“Isaid,lookingathereagerly;forshehadrisenandwasstandingontheedgeofthebent,thelightwindstirringherdaintyraiment,onehandlaidonherbosom,theotherarmstretcheddownwardandclenchedinherearnestness。

  “Itistrue,“shesaid,“itistrue!Wehaveproveditistrue!“

  Ithinkamidstmy——somethingmorethaninterestinher,andadmirationforher,Iwasbeginningtowonderhowitwouldallend。Ihadaglimmeringoffearofwhatmightfollow;ofanxietyastotheremedywhichthisnewagemightofferforthemissingofsomethingonemightsetone\'shearton。ButnowDickrosetohisfeetandcriedoutinhisheartymanner:“NeighbourEllen,areyouquarrelingwiththeguest,orareyouworryinghimtotellyouthingswhichhecannotproperlyexplaintoyourignorance?“

  “Neither,dearneighbour,“shesaid。“IwassofarfromquarrelingwithhimthatIthinkIhavebeenmakinghimgoodfriendsbothwithhimselfandme。Isthatso,dearguest?“shesaid,lookingdownatmewithadelightfulsmileofconfidenceinbeingunderstood。

  “Indeeditis,“saidI。

  “Well,moreover,“shesaid,“Imustsayforhimthathehasexplainedhimselftomeverywellindeed,sothatIquiteunderstandhim。“

  “Allright,“quothDick。“WhenIfirstseteyesonyouatRunnymedeI

  knewthattherewassomethingwonderfulinyourkeennessofwits。I

  don\'tsaythatasamereprettyspeechtopleaseyou,“saidhequickly,“butbecauseitistrue;anditmademewanttoseemoreofyou。But,come,weoughttobegoing;forwearenothalfway,andweoughttobeinwellbeforesunset。“

  AndtherewithhetookClara\'shand,andledherdownthebent。ButEllenstoodthoughtfullylookingdownforalittle,andasItookherhandtofollowDick,sheturnedroundtomeandsaid:

  “Youmighttellmeagreatdealandmakemanythingscleartome,ifyouwould。“

  “Yes,“saidI,“Iamprettywellfitforthat,——andfornothingelse——anoldmanlikeme。“

  Shedidnotnoticethebitternesswhich,whetherIlikeditornot,wasinmyvoiceasIspoke,butwenton:“Itisnotsomuchformyself;Ishouldbequitecontenttodreamaboutpasttimes,andifI

  couldnotidealisethem,yetatleastidealisesomeofthepeoplewholivedinthem。ButIthinksometimespeoplearetoocarelessofthehistoryofthepast——tooapttoleaveitinthehandsofoldlearnedmenlikeHammond。Whoknows?happyasweare,timesmayalter;wemaybebittenwithsomeimpulsetowardschange,andmanythingsmayseemtoowonderfulforustoresist,tooexcitingnottocatchat,ifwedonotknowthattheyarebutphasesofwhathasbeenbefore;andwithalruinousdeceitful,andsordid。“

  Aswewentslowlydowntowardtheboatsshesaidagain:“Notformyselfalone,dearfriend;Ishallhavechildren;perhapsbeforetheendagoodmany;——Ihopeso。AndthoughofcourseIcannotforceanyspecialkindofknowledgeuponthem,yet,myfriend,Icannothelpbutthinkingthatjustastheymightbelikemeinbody,soImightimpressuponthemsomepartofmywaysofthinking;thatis,indeed,someoftheessentialpartofmyself;thatpartwhichwasnotmeremoods,createdbymattersandeventsroundaboutme。Whatdoyouthink?“

  OfonethingIwassure,thatherbeautyandkindnessandeagernesscombined,forcedmetothinkasshedid,whenshewasnotearnestlylayingherselfopentoreceivemythoughts。Isaid,whatatthetimewastrue,thatIthoughtitmostimportant;andpresentlystoodentrancedbythewonderofhergraceasshesteppedintothelightboatandheldoutherhandtome。AndsoonwewentuptheThamesstill——orwhither?

  Chapter30

  TheJourney\'sEndOnwewent。Inspiteofmynew-bornexcitementaboutEllen,andmygatheringfearofwhereitwouldlandmeIcouldnothelptakingabundantinterestintheconditionoftheriveranditsbanks;allthemoreassheneverseemedwearyofthechangingpicture,butlookedateveryyardofflowerybankandgurglingeddywiththesameaffectionateinterestwhichImyselfoncehadsofully,asIusedtothink,andperhapshadnotaltogetherlosteveninthisstrangelychangedsocietywithallitswonders。Ellenseemeddelightedwithmypleasureatthis,that,ortheotherpieceofcarefulnessindealingwiththeriver:thenursingofprettycorners;theingenuityindealingwithdifficultiesofwater-engineeringsothatthemostobviouslyusefulworkslookedbeautifulandnaturalalso。Allthis,I

  say,pleasedmehugely,andshewaspleasedatmypleasure——butratherpuzzledtoo。

  “Youseemastonished,“shesaid,justafterwehadpassedamill*

  whichspannedallthestreamsavethewaterwayfortraffic,butwhichwasasbeautifulinitswayasaGothiccathedral——“youseemastonishedatthisbeingsopleasanttolookat。“

  *IshouldhavesaidthatallalongtheThamestherewereabundanceofmillsusedforvariouspurposes;noneofwhichwereinanydegreeunsightly,andmanystrikinglybeautiful;andthegardensaboutthemmarvelsofloveliness。

  “Yes,“Isaid,“inawayIam;thoughIdon\'tseewhyitshouldnotbe。“

  “Ah!“shesaid,lookingatmeadmiringly,yetwithalurkingsmileinherface,“youknowallaboutthehistoryofthepast。Weretheynotalwayscarefulaboutthislittlestreamwhichnowaddssomuchpleasantnesstothecountryside?Itwouldalwaysbeeasytomanagethislittleriver。Ah!Iforgot,though,“shesaid,ashereyecaughtmine,“inthedayswearethinkingofpleasurewaswhollyneglectedinsuchmatters。Buthowdidtheymanagetheriverinthedaysthatyou——“Livedinwaswhatshewasgoingtosay;butcorrectingherself,said:“inthedaysofwhichyouhaverecord?“

  “They_mis_managedit,“quothI。“Uptothefirsthalfofthenineteenthcentury,whenitwasstillmoreorlessofahighwayforthecountrypeople,somecarewastakenoftheriveranditsbanks;

  andthoughIdon\'tsupposeanyonetroubledhimselfaboutitsaspect,yetitwastrimandbeautiful。Butwhentherailways——ofwhichnodoubtyouhaveheard——cameintopower,theywouldnotallowthepeopleofthecountrytouseeitherthenaturalorartificialwaterways,ofwhichthelattertherewereagreatmany。Isupposewhenwegethigherupweshallseeoneofthese;averyimportantone,whichoneoftheserailwaysentirelyclosedtothepublic,sothattheymightforcepeopletosendtheirgoodsbytheirprivateroad,andsotaxthemasheavilyastheycould。“

  Ellenlaughedheartily。“Well,“,shesaid,“thatisnotstatedclearlyenoughinourhistory-books,anditisworthknowing。Butcertainlythepeopleofthosedaysmusthavebeenacuriouslylazyset。Wearenoteitherfidgetyorquarrelsomenow,butifanyonetriedsuchapieceoffollyonus,weshouldusethesaidwaterways,whoevergainsayedus:surelythatwouldbesimpleenough。However,Irememberothercasesofthisstupidity:whenIwasontheRhinetwoyearsago,Iremembertheyshowedusruinsofoldcastles,which,accordingtowhatweheard,musthavebeenmadeforprettymuchthesamepurposeastherailwayswere。ButIaminterruptingyourhistoryoftheriver:

  praygoon。“

  “Itisbothshortandstupidenough,“saidI。“Theriverhavinglostitspracticalorcommercialvalue——thatisbeingofnousetomakemoneyof——“

  Shenodded。“Iunderstandwhatthatqueerphrasemeans,“saidshe。“Goon!“

  “Well,itwasutterlyneglectedtillatlastitbecameanuisance——“

  “Yes,“quothEllen,“Iunderstand:liketherailwaysandtherobberbaronknights。Yes?“

  “Sothentheyturnedthemakeshiftbusinessontoit,andhandeditovertoabodyupinLondon,whofromtimetotime,inordertoshowthattheyhadsomethingtodo,didsomedamagehereandthere,——cutdowntrees,destroyingthebanksthereby;dredgedtheriverwhereitwasnotneededalways,andthrewthedredglingsonthefieldssoastospoilthem;andsoforth。Butforthemostparttheypractised`masterlyinactivity,\'asitwasthencalled——thatis,theydrewtheirsalaries,andletthingsalone。“

  “Drewtheirsalaries,“shesaid。“Iknowthatmeansthattheywereallowedtotakeanextralotofotherpeople\'sgoodsfordoingnothing。Andifthathadbeenall,itreallymighthavebeenworthwhiletoletthemdoso,ifyoucouldn\'tfindanyotherwayofkeepingthemquiet;butitseemstomethatbeingsopaid,theycouldnothelpdoingsomething,andthatsomethingwasboundtobemischief,——because,“saidshe,kindlingwithsuddenanger,“thewholebusinesswasfoundedonliesandfalsepretensions。Idon\'tmeanonlythoseriver-guardians,butallthosemaster-peopleIhavereadof。“

  “Yes,“saidI,“howhappyyouaretohavegotoutoftheparsimonyofoppression!“

  “Whydoyousigh?“shesaid,kindlyandsomewhatanxiously。“Youseemtothinkthatitwillnotlast?“

  “Itwilllastforyou,“quothI。

  “Butwhynotforyou?“saidshe。“Surelyitisforalltheworld;andifyourcountryissomewhatbackward,itwillcomeintolinebeforelong。Or,“shesaidquickly,“areyouthinkingthatyoumustsoongobackagain?IwillmakemyproposalwhichItoldyouofatonce,andsoperhapsputanendtoyouranxiety。Iwasgoingtoproposethatyoushouldlivewithuswherewearegoing。Ifeelquiteoldfriendswithyou,andshouldbesorrytoloseyou。“Thenshesmiledonme,andsaid:“Doyouknow,Ibegintosuspectyouofwantingtonurseashamsorrow,liketheridiculouscharactersinsomeofthosequeeroldnovelsthatIhavecomeacrossnowandthen。“

  Ireallyhadalmostbeguntosuspectitmyself,butIrefusedtoadmitsomuch;soIsighednomorebutfelltogivingmydelightfulcompanionwhatlittlepiecesofhistoryIknewabouttheriveranditsborderlands;andthetimepassedpleasantlyenough;andbetweenthetwoofusshewasabetterscullerthanIwas,andseemedquitetirelesswekeptupfairlywellwithDick,hotastheafternoonwas,andswallowedupthewayatagreatrate。Atlastwepassedunderanotherancientbridge;andthroughmeadowsborderedatfirstwithhugeelm-treesmingledwithsweetchestnutofyoungerbutveryelegantgrowth;andthemeadowswidenedoutsomuchthatitseemedasifthetreesmustnowbeonthebentsonly,oraboutthehousesexceptforthegrowthofwillowsontheimmediatebanks;sothatthewidestretchofgrasswaslittlebrokenhere。Dickgotverymuchexcitednow,andoftenstoodupintheboattocryouttousthatthiswassuchandsuchafieldandsoforth;andwecaughtfireathisenthusiasmforthehay-fieldanditsharvest,andpulledourbest。

  Atlastwewerepassingthroughareachoftheriverwhereonthesideofthetowing-pathwasahighishbankwithathickwhisperingbedofreedsbeforeit,andontheothersideahigherbank,clothedwithwillowsthatdippedintothestreamandcrownedbyancientelm-trees,wesawbrightfigurescomingalongclosetothebank,asiftheywerelookingforsomething;as,indeed,theywere,andwe——thatis,Dickandhiscompany——werewhattheywerelookingfor。Dicklayonhisoars,andwefollowedhisexample。Hegaveajoyousshouttothepeopleonthebank,whichwasechoedbackfromitinmanyvoices,deepandsweetlyshrill;fortherewereaboveadozenpersons,bothmen,women,andchildren。Atallhandsomewoman,withblackwavyhairanddeep-setgreyeyes,cameforwardonthebankandwavedherhandgracefullytous,andsaid:

  “Dick,myfriend,wehavealmosthadtowaitforyou?Whatexcusehaveyoutomakeforyourslavishpunctuality?Whydidn\'tyoutakeusbysurprise,andcomeyesterday?“

  “O,“saidDick,withanalmostimperceptiblejerkofhisheadtowardourboat,“wedidn;twanttocometooquicklyupthewater;thereissomuchtoseeforthosewhohavenotbeenupherebefore。“

  “True,true,“saidthestatelylady,forstatelyisthewordthatmustbeusedforher;“andwewantthemtogettoknowthewetwayfromtheeastthoroughlywell,sincetheymustoftenuseitnow。Butcomeashoreatonce,Dick,andyou,dearneighbours;thereisabreakinthereedsandagoodlanding-placejustroundthecorner。Wecancarryupyourthings,orsendsomeoftheladsafterthem。“

  “No,no,“saidDick;“itiseasiergoingbywater,thoughitisbutastep。Besides,Iwanttobringmyfriendheretotheproperplace。WewillgoontotheFord;andyoucantalktousfromthebankaswepaddlealong。“

  Hepulledhisscullsthroughthewater,andonwewent,turningasharpangleandgoingnorthalittle。Presentlywesawbeforeusabankofelm-trees,whichtoldusofahouseamidstthem,thoughlookedinvainforthegreywallsthatIexpectedtoseethere。Aswewent,thefolkonthebanktalkedindeed,minglingtheirkindvoiceswiththecuckoo\'ssong,thesweetstrongwhistleoftheblackbirdsandtheceaselessnoteofthecorn-crakeashecreptthroughthelonggrassofthemowing-field;whencecamethewavesoffragrancefromthefloweringcloveramidstoftheripegrass。

  Inafewminuteswehadpassedthroughadeepeddyingpoolintothesharpstreamthatranfromtheford,andbeachedourcraftonatinystrandoflimestone-gravel,andsteppedashoreintothearmsofourup-riverfriend,ourjourneydone。

  Idisentangledmyselffromthemerrythrong,andmountingonthecart-roadthatranalongtheriversomefeetabovethewater,Ilookedroundaboutme。Therivercamedownthroughawidemeadowonmyleft,whichwasgreynowwiththeripenedseedinggrasses;thegleamingwaterwaslostpresentlybyaturnofthebank,butoverthemeadowI

  couldseethemingledgablesofabuildingwhereIknewthelockmustbe,andwhichnowseemedtocombineamillwithit。Alowwoodedridgeboundedtheriver-plaintothesouthandsouth-east,whencewehadcome,andafewlowhouseslayaboutitsfeetandupitsslope。I

  turnedalittletomyright,andthroughthehawthornspraysandlongshootsofthewildrosescouldseetheflatcountryspreadingoutfarawayunderthesunofthecalmevening,tillsomethingthatmightbecalledhillswithalookofsheep-pasturesaboutthemboundeditwithasoftblueline。Beforeme,theelm-boughsstillhidmostofwhathousestheremightbeinthisriver-sidedwellingofmen;buttotherightofthecart-roadafewgreybuildingsofthesimplestkindshowedhereandthere。

  ThereIstoodinadreamymood,andrubbedmyeyesasifIwerenotwhollyawake,andhalfexpectedtoseethegay-cladcompanyofbeautifulmenandwomenchangetotwoorthreespindle-leggedback-bowedmenandhaggard,hollow-eyed,ill-favouredwomen,whoonceworedownthesoilofthislandwiththeirheavyhopelessfeet,fromdaytoday,andseasontoseason,andyeartoyear。Butnochangecameasyet,andmyheartswelledwithjoyasIthoughtofallthebeautifulgreyvillages,fromtherivertotheplaintotheuplands,whichIcouldpicturetomyselfsowell,allpeoplednowwiththishappyandlovelyfolk,whohadcastawayrichesandattainedtowealth。

  Chapter31

  AnOldHouseAmongstNewFolkAsIstoodthereEllendetachedherselffromourhappyfriendswhostillstoodonthelittlestrandandcameuptome。Shetookmebythehand,andsaidsoftly,“Takemeontothehouseatonce;weneednotwaitfortheothers:Ihadrathernot。“

  IhadamindtosaythatIdidnotknowthewaythither,andthattheriver-sidedwellersshouldlead;butalmostwithoutmywillmyfeetmovedonalongtheroadtheyknew。Theraisedwayledusintoalittlefieldboundedbyabackwateroftheriverononeside;ontherighthandwecouldseeaclusterofsmallhousesandbarns,newandold,andbeforeusagreystonebarnandawallpartlyovergrownwithivy,overwhichafewgreygablesshowed。Thevillageroadendedintheshallowoftheaforesaidbackwater。Wecrossedtheroad,andagainalmostwithoutmywillmyhandraisedthelatchofadoorinthewall,andwestoodpresentlyonastonepathwhichleduptotheoldhousetowhichfateintheshapeofDickhadsostrangelybroughtmeinthisnewworldofmen。Mycompaniongaveasighofpleasedsurpriseandenjoyment;nordidIwonder,forthegardenbetweenthewallandthehousewasredolentoftheJuneflowers,andtheroseswererollingoveroneanotherwiththatdelicioussuper-abundanceofsmallwell-tendedgardenswhichatfirstsighttakesawayallthoughtfromthebeholdersavethatofbeauty。Theblackbirdsweresingingtheirloudest,thedoveswerecooingontheroof-ridge,therooksinthehighelms-treesbeyondweregarrulousamongtheyoungleaves,andtheswiftswheeledwhiningaboutthegables。Andthehouseitselfwasafitguardianforallthebeautyofthisheartofsummer。

  OnceagainEllenechoedmythoughtsasshesaid:“Yes,friend,thisiswhatIcameoutfortosee;thismany-gabledoldhousebuiltbythesimplestofcountry-folkofthelong-pasttimes,regardlessofalltheturmoilthatwasgoingonincitiesandcourts,islovelystillamidstallthebeautywhichtheselatterdayshavecreated;andIdonotwonderatourfriendstendingitcarefullyandmakingmuchofit。Itseemstomeasifithadwaitedforthesehappydays,andheldinitthegatheredcrumbsofhappinessoftheconfusedandturbulentpast。“

  Sheledmeupclosetothehouse,andlaidhershapelysun-brownedhandandarmonthelichenedwallasiftoembraceitandcriedout,“Ome!Ome!HowIlovetheearth,andtheseasons,andweather,andallthingsthatdealwithit,andallthatgrowsoutofit,——asthishasdone!“

  Icouldnotanswerher,orsayaword。Herexultationandpleasureweresokeenandexquisite,andherbeauty,sodelicate,yetsointerfusedwithenergy,expresseditsofully,thatanyaddedwordwouldhavebeencommonplaceandfutile。Idreadedlesttheothersshouldcomeinsuddenlyandbreakthespellshehadcastaboutme;butwestoodthereawhilebythecornerofthebiggableofthehouse,andnoonecame。Iheardthemerryvoicessomewayoffpresently,andknewthattheyweregoingalongtherivertothegreatmeadowontheothersideofthehouseandgarden。

  Wedrewbackalittle,andlookedupatthehouse:thedoorandthewindowswereopentothefragrantsun-curedair;fromtheupperwindow-sillshungfestoonsofflowersinhonourofthefestival,asiftheotherssharedinthelovefortheoldhouse。

  “Comein,“saidEllen。“Ihopenothingwillspoilitinside;butI

  don\'tthinkitwill。Come!wemustgobackpresentlytotheothers。

  Theyhavegoneontothetentspitchedforthehaymakers——thehousewouldnotholdatitheofthefolk,Iamsure。“

  Sheledmetothedoor,murmuringlittleaboveherbreathasshedidso,“Theearthandthegrowthofitandthelifeofit!IfIcouldbutsayorshowhowIloveit!“

  Wewentin,andfoundnosoulinanyroomaswewanderedfromroomtoroom,——fromtherose-coveredporchtothestrangeandquaintgarretsamongstthegreattimbersoftheroof,whereofoldtimethetillersandherdsmenofthemanorslept,butwhicha-nightsseemednow,bythesmallsizeofthebeds,andthelitterofuselessanddisregardedmatters——bunchesofdryingflowers,feathersofbirds,shellsofstarlings\'eggs,caddiswormsinmugs,andthelike——seemedtobeinhabitedforthetimebychildren。

  Everywheretherewasbutlittlefurniture,andthatonlythemostnecessary,andofthesimplestforms。TheextravagantloveofornamentwhichIhadnotedinthispeopleelsewhereseemedheretohavegivenplacetothefeelingthatthehouseitselfanditsassociationswastheornamentofthecountrylifeamidstwhichithadbeenleftstrandedfromoldtimes,andthattore-ornamentitwouldbuttakeawayitsuseasapieceofnaturalbeauty。

  WesatdownatlastinaroomoverthewallwhichEllenhadcaressed,andwhichwasstillhungwitholdtapestry,originallyofnoartisticvalue,butnowfadedintopleasantgreytoneswhichharmonisedthoroughlywellwiththequietoftheplace,andwhichwouldhavebeenillsupplantedbybrighterandmorestrikingdecoration。

  IaskedafewrandomquestionsofEllenaswesatthere,butscarcelylistenedtoheranswersandpresentlybecamesilent,andthenscarceconsciousofanything,butthatIwasthereinthatoldroom,thedovescrooningfromtheroofsofthebarnanddovecotbeyondthewindowoppositetome。

  MythoughtreturnedtomeafterwhatIthinkwasbutaminuteortwo,butwhich,asinavividdream,seemedasifithadlastedalongtime,whenIsawEllensitting,lookingallthefulleroflifeandpleasureanddesirefromthecontrastwiththegreyfadedtapestrywithitsfutiledesign,whichwasnowonlybearablebecauseithadgrownsofaintandfeeble。

  Shelookedatmekindly,butasifshereadmethroughandthrough。

  Shesaid:“Youhavebegunagainyournever-endingcontrastbetweenthepastandthispresent。Isthatnotso?“

  “True,“saidI。“Iwasthinkingofwhatyou,withyourcapacityandintelligence,joinedtoyourloveofpleasure,andyourimpatienceofunreasonablerestraint——ofwhatyouwouldhavebeeninthatpast。Andevennow,whenalliswonandhasbeenforalongtime,myheartissickenedwiththinkingofallthewasteoflifethathasgoneonforsomanyyears!“

  “Somanycenturies,“shesaid,“somanyages!“

  “True,“Isaid;“tootrue,“andsatsilentagain。

  Sheroseupandsaid:“Come,Imustnotletyougooffintoadreamagainsosoon。Ifwemustloseyou,Iwantyoutoseeallthatyoucanseefirstbeforeyougobackagain。“

  “Loseme?“Isaid——“gobackagain?AmInottogouptotheNorthwithyou?Whatdoyoumean?“

  Shesmiledsomewhatsadly,andsaid:“Notyet;wewillnottalkofthatyet。Only,whatwereyouthinkingofjustnow?“

  Isaidfalteringly:“Iwassayingtomyself,Thepast,thepresent?

  Shouldshenothavesaidthecontrastofthepresentwiththefuture:

  ofblinddespairwithhope?“

  “Iknewit,“shesaid。Thenshecaughtmyhandandsaidexcitedly,“Comewhilethereisyettime!Come!“andsheledmeoutoftheroom;

  andasweweregoingdownstairsandoutofthehouseintothegardenbyalittlesidedoorwhichopenedoutofacuriouslobby,shesaidinacalmvoice,asifshewishedmetoforgethersuddennervousness:

  “Come!weoughttojointheothersbeforetheycomeinherelookingforus。Andletmetellyou,myfriend,thatIcanseeyouaretooapttofallintodreamymusing:nodoubtbecauseyouarenotyetusedtoourlifeofreposeamidstofenergy;ofworkwhichispleasureandpleasurewhichiswork。“

  Shepausedalittle,andaswecameoutintothelovelygardenagain,shesaid:“Myfriend,youweresayingthatyouwonderedwhatIshouldhavebeenifIhadlivedinthosepastdaysofturmoilandoppression。

  Well,IthinkIhavestudiedthehistoryofthemtoknowprettywell。

  Ishouldhavebeenoneofthepoor,formyfatherwhenhewasworkingwasameretillerofthesoil。Well,Icouldnothavebornethat;

  thereforemybeautyandclevernessandbrightness“shespokewithnoblushorsimperoffalseshame“wouldhavebeensoldtorichmen,andmylifewouldhavebeenwastedindeed;forIknowenoughofthattoknowthatIshouldhavehadnochoice,nopowerofwillovermylife;

  andthatIshouldneverhaveboughtpleasurefromtherichmen,orevenopportunityofaction,wherebyImighthavewonsometrueexcitement。Ishouldhavewreckedandwastedinonewayoranother,eitherbypenuryorbyluxury。Isitnotso?“

  “Indeeditis,“saidI。

  Shewasgoingtosaysomethingelse,whenalittlegateinthefence,whichledintoasmallelm-shadedfield,wasopened,andDickcamewithhastycheerfulnessupthegardenpath,andwaspresentlystandingbetweenus,ahandlaidontheshoulderofeach。Hesaid:“Well,neighbours,Ithoughtyoutwowouldliketoseetheoldhousequietlywithoutacrowdinit。Isn\'titajewelofahouseafteritskind?

  Well,comealong,foritisgettingtowardsdinner-time。Perhapsyou,guest,wouldlikeaswimbeforewesitdowntowhatIfancywillbeaprettylongfeast?“

  “Yes,“Isaid,“Ishouldlikethat。“

  “Well,good-byeforthepresent,neighbourEllen,“saidDick。“HerecomesClaratotakecareofyou,asIfancysheismoreathomeamongstourfriendshere。“

  Claracameoutofthefieldsashespoke;andwithonelookatEllenI

  turnedandwentwithDick,doubting,ifImustsaythetruthwhetherI

  shouldseeheragain。

  Chapter32

  TheFeast\'sBeginning——TheEndDickbroughtmeatonceintothelittlefieldwhich,asIhadseenfromthegarden,wascoveredwithgaily-colouredtentsarrangedinorderlylanes,aboutwhichweresittingandlyinginthegrasssomefiftyorsixtymen,women,andchildren,allofthemintheheightofgoodtemperandenjoyment——withtheirholidaymoodon,sotosay。

  “Youarethinkingthatwedon\'tmakeagreatshowastonumbers,“saidDick;“butyoumustrememberthatweshallhavemoreto-morrow;

  becauseinthishaymakingworkthereisroomforagreatmanypeoplewhoarenotover-skilledincountrymatters:andtherearemanywholeadsedentarylives,whomitwouldbeunkindtodepriveoftheirpleasureinthehay-field——scientificmenandclosestudentsgenerally:sothattheskilledworkmen,outsidethosewhoarewantedasmowers,andforemenofthehaymaking,standaside,andtakealittledownrightrest,whichyouknowisgoodforthem,whethertheylikeitornot:orelsetheygotoothercountrysides,asIamdoinghere。Yousee,thescientificmenandhistorians,andstudentsgenerally,willnotbewantedtillwearefairlyinthemidstoftedding,whichofcoursewillnotbetillthedayafterto-morrow。“

  Withthathebroughtmeoutofthelittlefieldontoakindofcausewayabovetheriversidemeadow,andthenceturningtotheleftontoapaththroughthemowinggrass,whichwasthickandverytall,ledontillwecametotheriverabovetheweiranditsmill。Therewehadadelightfulswiminthebroadpieceofwaterabovethelock,wheretheriverlookedmuchbiggerthanitsnaturalsizefromitsbeingdammedupbytheweir。

  “Nowweareinafitmoodfordinner,“saidDick,whenwehaddressedandweregoingthroughthegrassagain;“andcertainlyofallthecheerfulmealsintheyear,thisoneofhayselisthecheerfullest;

  notevenexceptingthecorn-harvestfeast;forthentheyearisbeginningtofail,andonecannothelphavingafeelingbehindallthegaiety,ofthecomingofthedarkdays,andtheshornfieldsandemptygardens;andthespringisalmosttoofarofftolookforwardto。Itis,then,intheautumn,whenonealmostbelievesindeath。“

  “Howstrangelyyoutalk,“saidI,“ofsuchaconstantlyrecurringandconsequentlycommonplacematterasthesequenceoftheseasons。“Andindeedthesepeoplewerelikechildrenaboutsuchthings,andhadwhatseemedtomeaquiteexaggeratedinterestintheweather,afineday,adarknight,orabrilliantone,andthelike。

  “Strangely?“saidhe。“Isitstrangetosympathisewiththeyearanditsgainsandlosses?“

  “Atanyrate,“saidI,“ifyoulookuponthecourseoftheyearasabeautifulandinterestingdrama,whichiswhatIthinkyoudo,youshouldbeasmuchpleasedandinterestedwiththewinteranditstroubleandpainaswiththiswonderfulsummerluxury。“

  “AndamInot?“saidDick,ratherwarmly;“onlyIcan\'tlookuponitasifIweresittinginatheatreseeingtheplaygoingonbeforeme,myselftakingnopartofit。Itisdifficult,“saidhe,smilinggood-humouredly,“foranon-literarymanlikemetoexplainmyselfproperly,likethatdeargirlEllenwould;butImeanthatIampartofitall,andfeelthepainwaswellasthepleasureinmyownperson。Itisnotdoneformebysomebodyelse,merelythatImayeatanddrinkandsleep;butImyselfdomyshareofit。“

  Inhiswayalso,asElleninhers,IcouldseethatDickhadthatpassionateloveoftheearthwhichwascommontobutfewpeopleatleast,inthedaysIknew;inwhichtheprevailingfeelingamongstintellectualpersonswasakindofsourdistasteforthechangingdramaoftheyear,forthelifeofearthanditsdealingswithmen。

  Indeed,inthosedaysitwasthoughtpoeticandimaginativetolookuponlifeasathingtobeborne,ratherthanenjoyed。

  SoImusedtillDick\'slaughbroughtmebackintotheOxfordshirehay-fields。“Onethingseemsstrangetome,“saidhe——“thatImustneedstroublemyselfaboutthewinteranditsscantiness,inthemidstofthesummerabundance。Ifithadn\'thappenedtomebefore,Ishouldhavethoughtitwasyourdoing,guest;thatyouhadthrownakindofevilcharmoverme。Now,youknow,“saidhe,suddenly,“that\'sonlyajoke,soyoumustn\'ttakeittoheart。“

  “Allright,“saidI;“Idon\'t。“YetIdidfeelsomewhatuneasyathiswords,afterall。

  Wecrossedthecausewaythistime,anddidnotturnbacktothehouse,butwentalongapathbesideafieldofwheatnowalmostreadytoblossom。Isaid:“Wedonotdineinthehouseorgarden,then?forI

  canseethatthehousesaremostlyverysmall。“

  “Yes,“saidDick,“youareright,theyaresmallinthiscountryside:

  therearesomanygoodoldhousesleft,thatpeopledwellagooddealinsuchsmalldetachedhouses。Astoourdinner,wearegoingtohaveourfeastinthechurch。Iwish,foryoursake,itwereasbigandhandsomeasthatoftheoldRomantowntothewest,ortheforesttowntothenorth;*but,however,itwillholdusall;andthoughitisalittlething,itisbeautifulinitsway。“

  *CirencesterandBurfordhemusthavemeant。

  Thiswassomewhatnewtome,thisdinnerinachurch,andIthoughtofthechurch-alesoftheMiddleAges;butIsaidnothing,andpresentlywecameoutintotheroadwhichranthroughthevillage。Dicklookedupanddownit,andseeingonlytwostragglinggroupsbeforeus,said:

  “Itseemsasifwemustbesomewhatlate;theyareallgoneon;andtheywillbesuretomakeapointofwaitingforyou,astheguestofguests,sinceyoucomefromsofar。“

  Hehastenedashespoke,andIkeptupwithhim,andpresentlywecametoalittleavenueoflime-treeswhichledusstraighttothechurchporch,fromwhoseopendoorcamethesoundofcheerfulvoicesandlaughter,andvariedmerriment。

  “Yes,“saidDick,“it\'sthecoolestplaceforonething,thishotevening。Comealong;theywillgegladtoseeyou。“

  Indeed,inspiteofmybath,Ifelttheweathermoresultryandoppressivethanonanydayofourjourneyyet。

  Wewentintothechurch,whichwasasimplelittlebuildingwithonelittleaisledividedfromthenavebythreeroundedarches,achancel,andaratherroomytranseptforsosmallabuilding,thewindowsmostlyofthegracefulOxfordshirefourteenth-centurytype。Therewasnomodernarchitecturaldecorationinit;itlooked,indeed,asifnonehadbeenattemptedsincethePuritanswhitewashedthemediaevalsaintsandhistoriesonthewall。Itwas,however,gailydressedupforthislatter-dayfestival,withfestoonsofflowersfromarchtoarchandgreatpitchersofflowersstandingaboutonthefloor;whileunderthewestwindoehungtwocrossscythes,theirbladespolishedwhite,andgleamingfromoutoftheflowersthatwreathedthem。Butitsbestornamentwasthecrowdofhandsome,happy-lookingmenandwomenthatweresetdowntotable,andwho,withtheirbrightfacesandrichhairovertheirgayholidayraiment,looked,asthePersianpoetputsit,likeabedoftulipsinthesun。Thoughthechurchwasasmallone,therewasplentyofroom;forasmallchurchmakesabiggishhouse;andonthiseveningtherewasnoneedtosetcrosstablesalongthetransepts;thoughdoubtlessthesewouldbewantednextday,whenthelearnedmenofwhomDickhasbeenspeakingshouldbecometotaketheirmorehumblepartinthehaymaking。

  Istoodonthethresholdwiththeexpectantsmileonmyfaceofamanwhoisgoingtotakepartinafestivitywhichheisreallypreparedtoenjoy。Dick,standingbyme,waslookingroundthecompanywithanairofproprietorshipinthem,Ithought。OppositemesatClaraandEllen,withDick\'splaceopenbetweenthem:theyweresmiling,buttheirbeautifulfaceswereeachturnedtowardstheneighboursoneitherside,whoweretalkingtothem,andtheydidnotseemtoseeme。IturnedtoDick,expectinghimtoleadmeforward,andheturnedhisfacetome;butstrangetosay,thoughitwasassmilingandcheerfulasever,itmadenoresponsetomyglance——nay,heseemedtotakenoheedatallofmypresence,andInoticedthatnoneofthecompanylookedatme。Apangshotthroughme,asofsomedisasterlongexpectedandsuddenlyrealised。Dickmovedonalittlewithoutawordtome。Iwasnotthreeyardsfromthetwowomenwho,thoughtheyhadbeenmycompanionsforsuchashorttime,hadreally,asIthought,becomemyfriends。Clara\'sfacewasturnedfulluponmenow,butshealsodidnotseemtoseeme,thoughIknowIwastryingtocatchhereyewithanappealinglook。IturnedtoEllen,andshe_did_seemtorecognisemeforaninstant;butherbrightfaceturnedsaddirectly,andsheshookherheadwithamournfullook,andthenextmomentallconsciousnessofmypresencehadfadedfromherface。

  Ifeltlonelyandsickatheartpastthepowerofwordstodescribe。I

  hungaboutaminutelonger,andthenturnedandwentoutoftheporchagainandthroughthelime-avenueintotheroadwhileblackbirdssangtheirstrongestfromthebushesaboutmeinthehotJuneevening。

  OncemorewithoutanyconsciouseffortofwillIsetmyfacetowardtheoldhousebytheford,butasIturnedroundthecornerwhichledtotheremainsofthevillagecross,Icameuponafigurestrangelycontrastingwiththejoyous,beautifulpeopleIhadleftbehindinthechurch。Itwasamanwholookedold,butwhomIknewfromhabit,nowhalf-forgotten,wasreallynotmuchmorethanfifty。Hisfacewasrugged,andgrimedratherthandirty;hiseyesdullandbleared;hisbodybent,hiscalvesthinandspindly,hisfeetdraggingandlimping。

  Hisclothingwasamixtureofdirtandragslongover-familiartome。

  AsIpassedhimhetouchedhishatwithsomerealgoodwillandcourtesy,andmuchservility。

  Inexpressiblyshocked,Ihurriedpasthimandhastenedalongtheroadthatledtotheriverandthelowerendofthevillage;butsuddenlyI

  sawasitwereablackcloudrollingalongtomeetme,likeanightmareofmychildishdays;andforawhileIwasconsciousofnothingelsethanbeinginthedark,andwhetherIwaswalking,orsitting,orlyingdown,Icouldnottell。

  IlayinmybedinmyhouseatdingyHammersmiththinkingaboutitall;andtryingtoconsiderifIwasoverwhelmedwithdespairatfindingIhadbeendreamingadream;andstrangetosay,IfoundthatIwasnotsodespairing。

  Orindeed_was_itadream?Ifso,whywasIsoconsciousallalongthatIwasreallyseeingallthatnewlifefromtheoutside,stillwrappedupintheprejudices,theanxietiesthedistrustofthistimeofdoubtandstruggle?

  Allalong,thoughthosefriendsweresorealtome,IhadbeenfeelingasifIhadnobusinessamongstthem:asthoughthetimewouldcomewhentheywouldrejectme,andsay,asEllen\'slastmournfullookseemedtosay,“No,itwillnotdo;youcannotbeofus;youbelongsoentirelytotheunhappinessofthepastthatourhappinessevenwouldwearyyou。Gobackagain,nowyouhaveseenus,andyouroutwardeyeshavelearnedthatinspiteofalltheinfalliblemaximsofyourdaythereisyetatimeofrestinstorefortheworld,whenmasteryhaschangedintofellowship——butnotbefore。Gobackagain,then,andwhileyouliveyouwillseeallroundyoupeopleengagedinmakingothersliveliveswhicharenottheirown,whiletheythemselvescarenothingfortheirownreallives——menwhohatelifethoughtheyfeardeath。Gobackandbethehappierforhavingseenus,forhavingaddedalittlehopetoyourstruggle。Goonlivingwhileyoumay,striving,withwhatsoeverpainandlabourneedsmustbe,tobuilduplittlebylittlethenewdayoffellowship,andrest,andhappiness。“

  Yes,surely!andifotherscanseeitasIhaveseenit,thenitmaybecalledavisionratherthanadream。

  THEEND

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