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  Hisconversionwasnottochangehisrelationtowardmen——atanyratenottowardBLACKmen——buttowardGod。Myfaith,Iconfess,wasnotgreat。Therewassomethinginhisappearancethat,inmymind,castadoubtoverhisconversion。StandingwhereIdid,I

  couldseehiseverymovement。Iwatchednarrowlywhileheremainedinthelittlepen;andalthoughIsawthathisfacewasextremelyred,andhishairdisheveled,andthoughIheardhimgroan,andsawastraytearhaltingonhischeek,asifinquiring“whichwayshallIgo?“——Icouldnotwhollyconfideinthegenuinenessofhisconversion。Thehesitatingbehaviorofthattear-dropanditsloneliness,distressedme,andcastadoubtuponthewholetransaction,ofwhichitwasapart。Butpeoplesaid,_“Capt。Auldhadcomethrough,“_anditwasformetohopeforthebest。Iwasboundtodothis,incharity,forI,too,wasreligious,andhadbeeninthechurchfullthreeyears,althoughnowIwasnotmorethansixteenyearsold。Slaveholdersmay,sometimes,haveconfidenceinthepietyofsomeoftheirslaves;buttheslavesseldomhaveconfidenceinthepietyoftheirmasters。_“Hecantgotoheavenwithourbloodinhisskirts_,“isasettledpointinthecreedofeveryslave;risingsuperiortoallteachingtothecontrary,andstandingforeverasafixedfact。ThehighestevidencetheslaveholdercangivetheslaveofhisacceptancewithGod,istheemancipationofhisslaves。ThisisproofthatheiswillingtogiveupalltoGod,andforthesakeofGod。Nottodothis,was,inmyestimation,andintheopinionofalltheslaves,anevidenceofhalf-

  heartedness,andwhollyinconsistentwiththeideaofgenuineconversion。Ihadread,also,somewhereintheMethodistDiscipline,thefollowingquestionandanswer:

  “_Question_。Whatshallbedonefortheextirpationofslavery?

  “_Answer_。Wedeclarethatwearemuchaseverconvincedofthegreatevilofslavery;therefore,noslaveholdershallbeeligibletoanyofficialstationinourchurch。“

  Thesewordssoundedinmyearsforalongtime,andencouragedmetohope。But,asIhavebeforesaid,Iwasdoomedtodisappointment。MasterThomasseemedtobeawareofmyhopesandexpectationsconcerninghim。Ihavethought,beforenow,thathelookedatmeinanswertomyglances,asmuchastosay,“Iwillteachyou,youngman,that,thoughIhavepartedwithmysins,Ihavenotpartedwithmysense。Ishallholdmyslaves,andgotoheaventoo。“

  Possibly,toconvinceusthatwemustnotpresume_toomuch_uponhisrecentconversion,hebecamerathermorerigidandstringentinhisexactions。Therealwayswasascarcityofgoodnatureabouttheman;butnowhiswholecountenancewas_soured_overwiththeseemingsofpiety。Hisreligion,therefore,neithermadehimemancipatehisslaves,norcausedhimtotreatthemwithgreaterhumanity。Ifreligionhadanyeffectonhischaracteratall,itmadehimmorecruelandhatefulinallhisways。Thenaturalwickednessofhishearthadnotbeenremoved,butonlyreinforced,bytheprofessionofreligion。DoIjudgehimharshly?Godforbid。Facts_are_facts。Capt。Auldmadethegreatestprofessionofpiety。Hishousewas,literally,ahouseofprayer。Inthemorning,andintheevening,loudprayersandhymnswereheardthere,inwhichbothhimselfandhiswifejoined;yet,_nomoremeal_wasbroughtfromthemill,_nomoreattention_waspaidtothemoralwelfareofthekitchen;andnothingwasdonetomakeusfeelthattheheartofMasterThomaswasonewhitbetterthanitwasbeforehewentintothelittlepen,oppositetothepreachers\'stand,onthecampground。

  Ourhopesfoundedonthedisciplinesoonvanished;fortheauthoritieslethimintothechurch_atonce_,andbeforehewasoutofhistermof_probation_,Iheardofhisleadingclass!Hedistinguishedhimselfgreatlyamongthebrethren,andwassoonanexhorter。HisprogresswasalmostasrapidasthegrowthofthefabledvineofJack\'sbean。Nomanwasmoreactivethanhe,inrevivals。Hewouldgomanymilestoassistincarryingthemon,andingettingoutsidersinterestedinreligion。Hishousebeingoneoftheholiest,ifnotthehappiestinSt。Michael\'s,becamethe“preachers\'home。“ThesepreachersevidentlylikedtoshareMasterThomas\'shospitality;forwhilehe_starvedus_,he_stuffed_them。Threeorfouroftheseambassadorsofthegospel——accordingtoslavery——havebeenthereatatime;alllivingonthefatoftheland,whilewe,inthekitchen,werenearlystarving。Notoftendidwegetasmileofrecognitionfromtheseholymen。Theyseemedalmostasunconcernedaboutourgettingtoheaven,astheywereaboutourgettingoutofslavery。

  Tothisgeneralchargetherewasoneexception——theRev。GEORGE

  COOKMAN。UnlikeRev。Messrs。Storks,Ewry,Hickey,HumphreyandCooperallwhomwereontheSt。Michael\'scircuithekindlytookaninterestinourtemporalandspiritualwelfare。Oursoulsandourbodieswereallalikesacredinhissight;andhereallyhadagooddealofgenuineanti-slaveryfeelingmingledwithhiscolonizationideas。Therewasnotaslaveinourneighborhoodthatdidnotlove,andalmostvenerate,Mr。Cookman。

  Itwasprettygenerallybelievedthathehadbeenchieflyinstrumentalinbringingoneofthelargestslaveholders——Mr。

  SamuelHarrison——inthatneighborhood,toemancipateallhisslaves,and,indeed,thegeneralimpressionwas,thatMr。Cookmanhadlaboredfaithfullywithslaveholders,wheneverhemetthem,toinducethemtoemancipatetheirbondmen,andthathedidthisasareligiousduty。Whenthisgoodmanwasatourhouse,wewereallsuretobecalledintoprayersinthemorning;andhewasnotslowinmakinginquiriesastothestateofourminds,noringivingusawordofexhortationandofencouragement。

  Greatwasthesorrowofalltheslaves,whenthisfaithfulpreacherofthegospelwasremovedfromtheTalbotcountycircuit。Hewasaneloquentpreacher,andpossessedwhatfewministers,southofMasonDixon\'sline,possess,or_dare_toshow,viz:awarmandphilanthropicheart。TheMr。Cookman,ofwhomIspeak,wasanEnglishmanbybirth,andperishedwhileonhiswaytoEngland,onboardtheill-fated“President“。CouldthethousandsofslavesinMarylandknowthefateofthegoodman,towhosewordsofcomforttheyweresolargelyindebted,theywouldthankmefordroppingatearonthispage,inmemoryoftheirfavoritepreacher,friendandbenefactor。

  But,letmereturntoMasterThomas,andtomyexperience,afterhisconversion。InBaltimore,Icould,occasionally,getintoaSabbathschool,amongthefreechildren,andreceivelessons,withtherest;but,havingalreadylearnedbothtoreadandtowrite,Iwasmoreofateacherthanapupil,eventhere。When,however,IwentbacktotheEasternShore,andwasatthehouseofMasterThomas,Iwasneitherallowedtoteach,nortobetaught。Thewholecommunity——withbutasingleexception,amongthewhites——frowneduponeverythinglikeimpartinginstructioneithertoslavesortofreecoloredpersons。Thatsingleexception,apiousyoungman,namedWilson,askedme,oneday,ifIwouldliketoassisthiminteachingalittleSabbathschool,atthehouseofafreecoloredmaninSt。Michael\'s,namedJamesMitchell。Theideawastomeadelightfulone,andItoldhimI

  wouldgladlydevoteasmuchofmySabbathasIcouldcommand,tothatmostlaudablework。Mr。Wilsonsoonmusteredupadozenoldspellingbooks,andafewtestaments;andwecommencedoperations,withsometwentyscholars,inourSundayschool。

  Here,thoughtI,issomethingworthlivingfor;hereisanexcellentchanceforusefulness;andIshallsoonhaveacompanyofyoungfriends,loversofknowledge,likesomeofmyBaltimorefriends,fromwhomInowfeltpartedforever。

  OurfirstSabbathpasseddelightfully,andIspenttheweekafterveryjoyously。IcouldnotgotoBaltimore,butIcouldmakealittleBaltimorehere。Atoursecondmeeting,IlearnedthattherewassomeobjectiontotheexistenceoftheSabbathschool;

  and,sureenough,wehadscarcelygotatwork——_goodwork_,simplyteachingafewcoloredchildrenhowtoreadthegospeloftheSonofGod——wheninrushedamob,headedbyMr。WrightFairbanksandMr。GarrisonWest——twoclass-leaders——andMasterThomas;who,armedwithsticksandothermissiles,droveusoff,andcommandedusnevertomeetforsuchapurposeagain。

  Oneofthispiouscrewtoldme,thatasformypart,IwantedtobeanotherNatTurner;andifIdidnotlookout,Ishouldgetasmanyballsintome,asNatdidintohim。ThusendedtheinfantSabbathschool,inthetownofSt。Michael\'s。ThereaderwillnotbesurprisedwhenIsay,thatthebreakingupofmySabbathschool,bytheseclass-leaders,andprofessedlyholymen,didnotservetostrengthenmyreligiousconvictions。ThecloudovermySt。Michael\'shomegrewheavierandblackerthanever。

  ItwasnotmerelytheagencyofMasterThomas,inbreakingupanddestroyingmySabbathschool,thatshookmyconfidenceinthepowerofsouthernreligiontomakemenwiserorbetter;butIsawinhimallthecrueltyandmeanness,_after_hisconversion,whichhehadexhibitedbeforehemadeaprofessionofreligion。

  Hiscrueltyandmeannesswereespeciallydisplayedinhistreatmentofmyunfortunatecousin,Henny,whoselamenessmadeheraburdentohim。Ihavenoextraordinarypersonalhardusagetowardmyselftocomplainof,againsthim,butIhaveseenhimtieupthelameandmaimedwoman,andwhipherinamannermostbrutal,andshocking;andthen,withblood-chillingblasphemy,hewouldquotethepassageofscripture,“Thatservantwhichknewhislord\'swill,andpreparednothimself,neitherdidaccordingtohiswill,shallbebeatenwithmanystripes。“Masterwouldkeepthislaceratedwomantiedupbyherwrists,toaboltinthejoist,three,fourandfivehoursatatime。Hewouldtieherupearlyinthemorning,whipherwithacowskinbeforebreakfast;

  leavehertiedup;gotohisstore,and,returningtohisdinner,repeatthecastigation;layingontheruggedlash,onfleshalreadymaderawbyrepeatedblows。Heseemeddesiroustogetthepoorgirloutofexistence,or,atanyrate,offhishands。

  Inproofofthis,heafterwardsgaveherawaytohissisterSarahMrs。Clinebut,asinthecaseofMasterHugh,Hennywassoonreturnedonhishands。

  Finally,uponapretensethathecoulddonothingwithherIusehisownwordshe“setheradrift,totakecareofherself。“

  Herewasarecentlyconvertedman,holding,withtightgrasp,thewell-framed,andablebodiedslaveslefthimbyoldmaster——thepersons,who,infreedom,couldhavetakencareofthemselves;

  yet,turningloosetheonlycrippleamongthem,virtuallytostarveanddie。

  Nodoubt,hadMasterThomasbeenasked,bysomepiousnorthernbrother,_why_hecontinuedtosustaintherelationofaslaveholder,tothosewhomheretained,hisanswerwouldhavebeenpreciselythesameasmanyotherreligiousslaveholdershavereturnedtothatinquiry,viz:“Iholdmyslavesfortheirowngood。“

  BadasmyconditionwaswhenIlivedwithMasterThomas,Iwassoontoexperiencealifefarmoregoadingandbitter。ThemanydifferencesspringingupbetweenmyselfandMasterThomas,owingtotheclearperceptionIhadofhischaracter,andtheboldnesswithwhichIdefendedmyselfagainsthiscapriciouscomplaints,ledhimtodeclarethatIwasunsuitedtohiswants;thatmycitylifehadaffectedmeperniciously;that,infact,ithadalmostruinedmeforeverygoodpurpose,andhadfittedmeforeverythingthatwasbad。Oneofmygreatestfaults,oroffenses,wasthatoflettinghishorsegetaway,andgodowntothefarmbelongingtohisfather-in-law。Theanimalhadalikingforthatfarm,withwhichIfullysympathized。WheneverIletitout,itwouldgodashingdowntheroadtoMr。Hamilton\'s,asifgoingonagrandfrolic。Myhorsegone,ofcourseImustgoafterit。

  Theexplanationofourmutualattachmenttotheplaceisthesame;thehorsefoundtheregoodpasturage,andIfoundthereplentyofbread。Mr。Hamiltonhadhisfaults,butstarvinghisslaveswasnotamongthem。Hegavefood,inabundance,andthat,too,ofanexcellentquality。InMr。Hamilton\'scook——AuntMary——Ifoundamostgenerousandconsideratefriend。Sheneverallowedmetogotherewithoutgivingmebreadenoughtomakegoodthedeficienciesofadayortwo。MasterThomasatlastresolvedtoenduremybehaviornolonger;hecouldneitherkeepme,norhishorse,welikedsowelltobeathisfather-in-

  law\'sfarm。Ihadnowlivedwithhimnearlyninemonths,andhehadgivenmeanumberofseverewhippings,withoutanyvisibleimprovementinmycharacter,ormyconduct;andnowhewasresolvedtoputmeout——ashesaid——“_tobebroken。“_

  Therewas,intheBaySide,verynearthecampground,wheremymastergothisreligiousimpressions,amannamedEdwardCovey,whoenjoyedtheexecratedreputation,ofbeingafirstratehandatbreakingyoungNegroes。ThisCoveywasapoorman,afarmrenter;andthisreputationhatefulasitwastotheslavesandtoallgoodmenwas,atthesametime,ofimmenseadvantagetohim。Itenabledhimtogethisfarmtilledwithverylittleexpense,comparedwithwhatitwouldhavecosthimwithoutthismostextraordinaryreputation。SomeslaveholdersthoughtitanadvantagetoletMr。Coveyhavethegovernmentoftheirslavesayearortwo,almostfreeofcharge,forthesakeoftheexcellenttrainingsuchslavesgotunderhishappymanagement!Likesomehorsebreakers,notedfortheirskill,whoridethebesthorsesinthecountrywithoutexpense,Mr。Coveycouldhaveunderhim,themostfierybloodsoftheneighborhood,forthesimplerewardofreturningthemtotheirowners,_wellbroken_。AddedtothenaturalfitnessofMr。Coveyforthedutiesofhisprofession,hewassaidto“enjoyreligion,“andwasasstrictinthecultivationofpiety,ashewasinthecultivationofhisfarm。

  Iwasmadeawareofhischaracterbysomewhohadbeenunderhishand;andwhileIcouldnotlookforwardtogoingtohimwithanypleasure,IwasgladtogetawayfromSt。Michael\'s。IwassureofgettingenoughtoeatatCovey\'s,evenifIsufferedinotherrespects。_This_,toahungryman,isnotaprospecttoberegardedwithindifference。

  CHAPTERXV

  Covey,theNegroBreakerJOURNEYTOMYNEWMASTER\'S——MEDITATIONSBYTHEWAY——VIEWOF

  COVEY\'SRESIDENCE——THEFAMILY——MYAWKWARDNESSASAFIELDHAND——A

  CRUELBEATING——WHYITWASGIVEN——DESCRIPTIONOFCOVEY——FIRST

  ADVENTUREATOXDRIVING——HAIRBREADTHESCAPES——OXANDMANALIKE

  PROPERTY——COVEY\'SMANNEROFPROCEEDINGTOWHIP——HARDLABORBETTER

  THANTHEWHIPFORBREAKINGDOWNTHESPIRIT——CUNNINGANDTRICKERY

  OFCOVEY——FAMILYWORSHIP——SHOCKINGCONTEMPTFORCHASTITY——IAM

  BROKENDOWN——GREATMENTALAGITATIONINCONTRASTINGTHEFREEDOMOF

  THESHIPSWITHHISOWNSLAVERY——ANGUISHBEYONDDESCRIPTION。

  ThemorningofthefirstofJanuary,1834,withitschillingwindandpinchingfrost,quiteinharmonywiththewinterinmyownmind,foundme,withmylittlebundleofclothingontheendofastick,swungacrossmyshoulder,onthemainroad,bendingmywaytowardCovey\'s,whitherIhadbeenimperiouslyorderedbyMasterThomas。Thelatterhadbeenasgoodashisword,andhadcommittedme,withoutreserve,tothemasteryofMr。EdwardCovey。EightortenyearshadnowpassedsinceIhadbeentakenfrommygrandmother\'scabin,inTuckahoe;andtheseyears,forthemostpart,IhadspentinBaltimore,where——asthereaderhasalreadyseen——Iwastreatedwithcomparativetenderness。Iwasnowabouttosoundprofounderdepthsinslavelife。Therigorsofafield,lesstolerablethanthefieldofbattle,awaitedme。

  Mynewmasterwasnotoriousforhisfierceandsavagedisposition,andmyonlyconsolationingoingtolivewithhimwas,thecertaintyoffindinghimpreciselyasrepresentedbycommonfame。Therewasneitherjoyinmyheart,norelasticityinmystep,asIstartedinsearchofthetyrant\'shome。

  StarvationmademegladtoleaveThomasAuld\'s,andthecruellashmademedreadtogotoCovey\'s。Escapewasimpossible;so,heavyandsad,Ipacedthesevenmiles,whichseparatedCovey\'shousefromSt。Michael\'s——thinkingmuchbythesolitaryway——

  aversetomycondition;but_thinking_wasallIcoulddo。Likeafishinanet,allowedtoplayforatime,Iwasnowdrawnrapidlytotheshore,securedatallpoints。“Iam,“thoughtI,“butthesportofapowerwhichmakesnoaccount,eitherofmywelfareorofmyhappiness。ByalawwhichIcanclearlycomprehend,butcannotevadenorresist,Iamruthlesslysnatchedfromthehearthofafondgrandmother,andhurriedawaytothehomeofamysterious`oldmaster;\'againIamremovedfromthere,toamasterinBaltimore;thenceamIsnatchedawaytotheEasternShore,tobevaluedwiththebeastsofthefield,and,withthem,dividedandsetapartforapossessor;thenIamsentbacktoBaltimore;andbythetimeIhaveformednewattachments,andhavebeguntohopethatnomorerudeshocksshalltouchme,adifferencearisesbetweenbrothers,andIamagainbrokenup,andsenttoSt。Michael\'s;andnow,fromthelatterplace,Iamfootingmywaytothehomeofanewmaster,where,Iamgiventounderstand,that,likeawildyoungworkinganimal,Iamtobebrokentotheyokeofabitterandlife-longbondage。“

  Withthoughtsandreflectionslikethese,Icameinsightofasmallwood-coloredbuilding,aboutamilefromthemainroad,which,fromthedescriptionIhadreceived,atstarting,Ieasilyrecognizedasmynewhome。TheChesapeakebay——uponthejuttingbanksofwhichthelittlewood-coloredhousewasstanding——whitewithfoam,raisedbytheheavynorth-westwind;PoplarIsland,coveredwithathick,blackpineforest,standingoutamidthishalfocean;andKentPoint,stretchingitssandy,desert-likeshoresoutintothefoam-cestedbay——wereallinfromafencecorner,inwhichhehadsecretedhimself,forthepurposeofsecuringme。Hewasamplyprovidedwithacowskinandarope;andheevidentlyintendedto_tiemeup_,andtowreakhisvengeanceonmetothefullestextent。Ishouldhavebeenaneasyprey,hadhesucceededingettinghishandsuponme,forIhadtakennorefreshmentsincenoononFriday;andthis,togetherwiththepelting,excitement,andthelossofblood,hadreducedmystrength。I,however,dartedbackintothewoods,beforetheferocioushoundcouldgetholdofme,andburiedmyselfinathicket,wherehelostsightofme。Thecorn-fieldaffordedmecover,ingettingtothewoods。Butforthetallcorn,Coveywouldhaveovertakenme,andmademehiscaptive。Heseemedverymuchchagrinedthathedidnotcatchme,andgaveupthechase,veryreluctantly;forI

  couldseehisangrymovements,towardthehousefromwhichhehadsallied,onhisforay。

  Well,nowIamclearofCovey,andofhiswrathfullash,forpresent。Iaminthewood,buriedinitssombergloom,andhushedinitssolemnsilence;hidfromallhumaneyes;shutinwithnatureandnature\'sGod,andabsentfromallhumancontrivances。Herewasagoodplacetopray;toprayforhelpfordeliverance——aprayerIhadoftenmadebefore。ButhowcouldIpray?Coveycouldpray——Capt。Auldcouldpray——Iwouldfainpray;butdoubtsarisingpartlyfrommyownneglectofthemeansofgrace,andpartlyfromtheshamreligionwhicheverywhereprevailed,castinmymindadoubtuponallreligion,andledmetotheconvictionthatprayerswereunavailinganddelusive

  preventedmyembracingtheopportunity,asareligiousone。

  Life,initself,hadalmostbecomeburdensometome。Allmyoutwardrelationswereagainstme;ImuststayhereandstarveI

  wasalreadyhungryorgohometoCovey\'s,andhavemyfleshtorntopieces,andmyspirithumbledunderthecruellashofCovey。

  Thiswasthepainfulalternativepresentedtome。Thedaywaslongandirksome。Myphysicalconditionwasdeplorable。Iwasweak,fromthetoilsofthepreviousday,andfromthewantoffoodandrest;andhadbeensolittleconcernedaboutmyappearance,thatIhadnotyetwashedthebloodfrommygarments。

  Iwasanobjectofhorror,eventomyself。Life,inBaltimore,whenmostoppressive,wasaparadisetothis。WhathadIdone,whathadmyparentsdone,thatsuchalifeasthisshouldbemine?Thatday,inthewoods,Iwouldhaveexchangedmymanhoodforthebrutehoodofanox。

  Nightcame。Iwasstillinthewoods,unresolvedwhattodo。

  Hungerhadnotyetpinchedmetothepointofgoinghome,andI

  laidmyselfdownintheleavestorest;forIhadbeenwatchingforhuntersallday,butnotbeingmolestedduringtheday,I

  expectednodisturbanceduringthenight。IhadcometotheconclusionthatCoveyrelieduponhungertodrivemehome;andinthisIwasquitecorrect——thefactsshowedthathehadmadenoefforttocatchme,sincemorning。

  Duringthenight,Iheardthestepofamaninthewoods。HewascomingtowardtheplacewhereIlay。Apersonlyingstillhastheadvantageoveronewalkinginthewoods,inthedaytime,andthisadvantageismuchgreateratnight。Iwasnotabletoengageinaphysicalstruggle,andIhadrecoursetothecommonresortoftheweak。Ihidmyselfintheleavestopreventdiscovery。But,asthenightramblerinthewoodsdrewnearer,I

  foundhimtobea_friend_,notanenemy;itwasaslaveofMr。

  WilliamGroomes,ofEaston,akindheartedfellow,named“Sandy。“

  SandylivedwithMr。Kempthatyear,aboutfourmilesfromSt。

  Michael\'s。He,likemyselfhadbeenhiredoutbytheyear;but,unlikemyself,hadnotbeenhiredouttobebroken。Sandywasthehusbandofafreewoman,wholivedinthelowerpartof_“PotpieNeck,“_andhewasnowonhiswaythroughthewoods,toseeher,andtospendtheSabbathwithher。

  AssoonasIhadascertainedthatthedisturberofmysolitudewasnotanenemy,butthegood-heartedSandy——amanasfamousamongtheslavesoftheneighborhoodforhisgoodnature,asforhisgoodsenseIcameoutfrommyhidingplace,andmademyselfknowntohim。Iexplainedthecircumstancesofthepasttwodays,whichhaddrivenmetothewoods,andhedeeplycompassionatedmydistress。Itwasaboldthingforhimtoshelterme,andIcouldnotaskhimtodoso;

  for,hadIbeenfoundinhishut,hewouldhavesufferedthepenaltyofthirty-ninelashesonhisbareback,ifnotsomethingworse。ButSandywastoogeneroustopermitthefearofpunishmenttopreventhisrelievingabrotherbondmanfromhungerandexposure;and,therefore,onhisownmotion,Iaccompaniedhimtohishome,orrathertothehomeofhiswife——forthehouseandlotwerehers。Hiswifewascalledup——foritwasnowaboutmidnight——afirewasmade,someIndianmealwassoonmixedwithsaltandwater,andanashcakewasbakedinahurrytorelievemyhunger。Sandy\'swifewasnotbehindhiminkindness——bothseemedtoesteemitaprivilegetosuccorme;for,althoughIwashatedbyCoveyandbymymaster,Iwaslovedbythecoloredpeople,because_they_thoughtIwashatedformyknowledge,andpersecutedbecauseIwasfeared。Iwasthe_only_slave_now_inthatregionwhocouldreadandwrite。Therehadbeenoneotherman,belongingtoMr。HughHamilton,whocouldreadhisnamewas“Jim“,buthe,poorfellow,had,shortlyaftermycomingintotheneighborhood,beensoldofftothefarsouth。IsawJimironed,inthecart,tobecarriedtoEastonforsale——pinionedlikeayearlingfortheslaughter。Myknowledgewasnowtheprideofmybrotherslaves;and,nodoubt,Sandyfeltsomethingofthegeneralinterestinmeonthataccount。Thesupperwassoonready,andthoughIhavefeastedsince,withhonorables,lordmayorsandaldermen,overthesea,mysupperonashcakeandcoldwater,withSandy,wasthemeal,ofallmylife,mostsweettomytaste,andnowmostvividinmymemory。

  Supperover,SandyandIwentintoadiscussionofwhatwas_possible_forme,undertheperilsandhardshipswhichnowovershadowedmypath。Thequestionwas,mustIgobacktoCovey,ormustInowtempttorunaway?Uponacarefulsurvey,thelatterwasfoundtobeimpossible;forIwasonanarrowneckofland,everyavenuefromwhichwouldbringmeinsightofpursuers。TherewastheChesapeakebaytotheright,and“Pot-

  pie“rivertotheleft,andSt。Michael\'sanditsneighborhoodoccupyingtheonlyspacethroughwhichtherewasanyretreat。

  IfoundSandyanoldadvisor。Hewasnotonlyareligiousman,butheprofessedtobelieveinasystemforwhichIhavenoname。

  HewasagenuineAfrican,andhadinheritedsomeoftheso-calledmagicalpowers,saidtobepossessedbyAfricanandeasternnations。Hetoldmethathecouldhelpme;that,inthoseverywoods,therewasanherb,whichinthemorningmightbefound,possessingallthepowersrequiredformyprotectionIputhisthoughtsinmyownlanguage;andthat,ifIwouldtakehisadvice,hewouldprocuremetherootoftheherbofwhichhespoke。Hetoldmefurther,thatifIwouldtakethatrootandwearitonmyrightside,itwouldbeimpossibleforCoveytostrikemeablow;thatwiththisrootaboutmyperson,nowhitemancouldwhipme。Hesaidhehadcarrieditforyears,andthathehadfullytesteditsvirtues。Hehadneverreceivedablowfromaslaveholdersincehecarriedit;andheneverexpectedtoreceiveone,forhealwaysmeanttocarrythatrootasaprotection。HeknewCoveywell,forMrs。CoveywasthedaughterofMr。Kemp;andheSandyhadheardofthebarbaroustreatmenttowhichIwassubjected,andhewantedtodosomethingforme。

  Nowallthistalkabouttheroot,wastome,veryabsurdandridiculous,ifnotpositivelysinful。Iatfirstrejectedtheideathatthesimplecarryingarootonmyrightsidearoot,bytheway,overwhichIwalkedeverytimeIwentintothewoods

  couldpossessanysuchmagicpowerasheascribedtoit,andI

  was,therefore,notdisposedtocumbermypocketwithit。Ihadapositiveaversiontoallpretendersto_“divination。“_Itwasbeneathoneofmyintelligencetocountenancesuchdealingswiththedevil,asthispowerimplied。But,withallmylearning——itwasreallypreciouslittle——Sandywasmorethanamatchforme。

  “Mybooklearning,“hesaid,“hadnotkeptCoveyoffme“apowerfulargumentjustthenandheentreatedme,withflashingeyes,totrythis。Ifitdidmenogood,itcoulddomenoharm,anditwouldcostmenothing,anyway。

  Sandywassoearnest,andsoconfidentofthegoodqualitiesofthisweed,that,topleasehim,ratherthanfromanyconvictionofitsexcellence,Iwasinducedtotakeit。HehadbeentomethegoodSamaritan,andhad,almostprovidentially,foundme,andhelpedmewhenIcouldnothelpmyself;howdidIknowbutthatthehandoftheLordwasinit?Withthoughtsofthissort,I

  tooktherootsfromSandy,andputtheminmyrighthandpocket。

  Thiswas,ofcourse,Sundaymorning。Sandynowurgedmetogohome,withallspeed,andtowalkupbravelytothehouse,asthoughnothinghadhappened。IsawinSandytoodeepaninsightintohumannature,withallhissuperstition,nottohavesomerespectforhisadvice;andperhaps,too,aslightgleamorshadowofhissuperstitionhadfallenuponme。Atanyrate,I

  startedofftowardCovey\'s,asdirectedbySandy。Having,thepreviousnight,pouredmygriefsintoSandy\'sears,andgothimenlistedinmybehalf,havingmadehiswifeasharerinmysorrows,andhaving,also,becomewellrefreshedbysleepandfood,Imovedoff,quitecourageously,towardthemuchdreadedCovey\'s。Singularlyenough,justasIenteredhisyardgate,I

  methimandhiswife,dressedintheirSundaybest——lookingassmilingasangels——ontheirwaytochurch。ThemannerofCoveyastonishedme。Therewassomethingreallybenignantinhiscountenance。Hespoketomeasneverbefore;toldmethatthepigshadgotintothelot,andhewishedmetodrivethemout;

  inquiredhowIwas,andseemedanalteredman。ThisextraordinaryconductofCovey,reallymademebegintothinkthatSandy\'sherbhadmorevirtueinitthanI,inmypride,hadbeenwillingtoallow;and,hadthedaybeenotherthanSunday,I

  shouldhaveattributedCovey\'salteredmannersolelytothemagicpoweroftheroot。Isuspected,however,thatthe_Sabbath_,andnotthe_root_,wastherealexplanationofCovey\'smanner。HisreligionhinderedhimfrombreakingtheSabbath,butnotfrombreakingmyskin。Hehadmorerespectforthe_day_thanforthe_man_,forwhomthedaywasmercifullygiven;forwhilehewouldcutandslashmybodyduringtheweek,hewouldnothesitate,onSunday,toteachmethevalueofmysoul,orthewayoflifeandsalvationbyJesusChrist。

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