Thesesymptomsdidnotabate,andhecontinued:——
“Clara,Imustnotleavetheeindoubt。IknownotwhatbroughtaboutthyinterviewwiththebeingwhomthoucallestCarwin。ForatimeIwasguiltyofthyerror,anddeducedfromhisincoherentconfessionsthatIhadbeenmadethevictimofhumanmalice。Heleftusatmybidding,andIputupaprayerthatmydoubtsshouldberemoved。Thyeyeswereshutandthyearssealedtothevisionthatansweredmyprayer。
“Iwasindeeddeceived。Theformthouhastseenwastheincarnationofademon。Thevisageandvoicewhichurgedmetothesacrificeofmyfamilywerehis。Nowhepersonatesahumanform;
thenhewasenvironedwiththelusterofheaven。
“Clara,“hecontinued,advancingclosertome,“thydeathmustcome。Thisministerisevil,buthefromwhomhiscommissionwasreceivedisGod。Submitthenwithallthywontedresignationtoadecreethatcannotbereversedorresisted。Marktheclock。Threeminutesareallowedtothee,inwhichtocallupthyfortitudeandpreparetheeforthydoom。”Therehestopped。
Evennow,whenthissceneexistsonlyinmemory,whenlifeandallitsfunctionshavesunkintotorpor,mypulsethrobs,andmyhairsuprise;mybrowsareknit,asthen,andIgazearoundmeindistraction。Iwasunconquerablyaversetodeath;butdeath,imminentandfullofagonyasthatwhichwasthreatened,wasnothing。Thiswasnottheonlyorchiefinspirerofmyfears。
Forhim,notformyself,wasmysoultormented。Imightdie,andnocrime,surpassingthereachofmercy,wouldpursuemetothepresenceofmyJudge;butmyassassinwouldsurvivetocontemplatehisdeed,andthatassassinwasWieland!
WingstobearmebeyondhisreachIhadnot。Icouldnotvanishwithathought。Thedoorwasopen,butmymurdererwasinterposedbetweenthatandme。Ofself-defenseIwasincapable。Thefrenzythatlatelypromptedmetobloodwasgone:mystatewasdesperate;
myrescuewasimpossible。
Theweightoftheseaccumulatedthoughtscouldnotbeborne。Mysightbecameconfused;mylimbswereseizedwithconvulsion;I
spoke,butmywordswerehalfformed:——
“Spareme,mybrother!Lookdown,righteousJudge!snatchmefromthisfate!takeawaythisfuryfromhim,orturnitelsewhere!“
SuchwastheagonyofmythoughtsthatInoticednotstepsenteringmyapartment。Supplicatingeyeswerecastupward;butwhenmyprayerwasbreathedIoncemorewildlygazedatthedoor。Aformmetmysight;IshudderedasiftheGodwhomIinvokedwerepresent。ItwasCarwinthatagainintruded,andwhostoodbeforeme,erectinattitudeandsteadfastinlook!
Thesightofhimawakenednewandrapidthoughts。Hisrecenttalewasremembered;hismagicaltransitionsandmysteriousenergyofvoice。Whetherhewereinfernalormiraculousorhuman,therewasnopowerandnoneedtodecide。Whetherthecontriverornotofthisspell,hewasabletounbindit,andtocheckthefuryofmybrother。Hehadascribedtohimselfintentionsnotmalignant。
Herenowwasaffordedatestofhistruth。Lethiminterpose,asfromabove;revokethesavagedecreewhichthemadnessofWielandhasassignedtoheaven,andextinguishforeverthispassionforblood!
Myminddetectedataglancethisavenuetosafety。Therecommendationsitpossessedthrongedasitweretogether,andmadebutoneimpressiononmyintellect。RemotereffectsandcollateraldangersIsawnot。Perhapsthepauseofaninstanthadsufficedtocallthemup。TheimprobabilitythattheinfluencewhichgovernedWielandwasexternalorhuman;thetendencyofthisstratagemtosanctionsofatalanerrororsubstituteamoredestructiverageinplaceofthis;theinsufficiencyofCarwin”smeremuscularforcestocounteracttheeffortsandrestrainthefuryofWieland,might,atasecondglance,havebeendiscovered;butnosecondglancewasallowed。Myfirstthoughthurriedmetoaction,and,fixingmyeyesuponCarwin,Iexclaimed,——
“Owretch!oncemorehastthoucome?Letitbetoabjurethymalice;tocounterworkthishellishstratagem;toturnfrommeandfrommybrotherthisdesolatingrage!
“Testifythyinnocenceorthyremorse;exertthepowerswhichpertaintothee,whatevertheybe,toturnasidethisruin。Thouarttheauthorofthesehorrors!WhathaveIdonetodeservethustodie?HowhaveImeritedthisunrelentingpersecution?Iadjurethee,bythatGodwhosevoicethouhastdaredtocounterfeit,tosavemylife!
“Wiltthouthengo?——leaveme!Succorless!“
Carwinlistenedtomyentreatiesunmoved,andturnedfromme。Heseemedtohesitateamoment,——thenglidedthroughthedoor。Rageanddespairstifledmyutterance。Theintervalofrespitewaspast;thepangsreservedformebyWielandwerenottobeendured;
mythoughtsrushedagainintoanarchy。Havingreceivedtheknifefromhishand,Ihelditlooselyandwithoutregard;butnowitseizedagainmyattention,andIgraspeditwithforce。
HeseemedtonoticenottheentranceorexitofCarwin。Mygestureandthemurderousweaponappearedtohaveescapedhisnotice。Hissilencewasunbroken;hiseye,fixedupontheclockforatime,wasnowwithdrawn;furykindledineveryfeature;allthatwashumaninhisfacegavewaytoanexpressionsupernaturalandtremendous。I
feltmyleftarmwithinhisgrasp。
EvennowIhesitatedtostrike。Ishrunkfromhisassault,butinvain。
Hereletmedesist。WhyshouldIrescuethiseventfromoblivion?
WhyshouldIpaintthisdetestableconflict?Whynotterminateatoncethisseriesofhorrors?——Hurrytothevergeoftheprecipice,andcastmyselfforeverbeyondremembranceandbeyondhope?
StillIlive;withthisloaduponmybreast;withthisphantomtopursuemysteps;withadderslodgedinmybosom,andstingingmetomadness;stillIconsenttolive!
Yes!Iwillriseabovethesphereofmortalpassions;Iwillspurnatthecowardlyremorsethatbidsmeseekimpunityinsilence,orcomfortinforgetfulness。Mynervesshallbenew-strungtothetask。HaveInotresolved?Iwilldie。Thegulfbeforemeisinevitableandnear。Iwilldie,butthenonlywhenmytaleisatanend。
III
Myrighthand,graspingtheunseenknife,wasstilldisengaged。Itwasliftedtostrike。Allmystrengthwasexhaustedbutwhatwassufficienttotheperformanceofthisdeed。Alreadywastheenergyawakenedandtheimpulsegiventhatshouldbearthefatalsteeltohisheart,when——Wielandshrunkback;hishandwaswithdrawn。
Breathlesswithaffrightanddesperation,Istood,freedfromhisgrasp;unassailed;untouched。
Thuslonghadthepowerwhichcontrolledthesceneforbornetointerfere:butnowhismightwasirresistible;andWielandinamomentwasdisarmedofallhispurposes。Avoice,louderthanhumanorganscouldproduce,shrillerthanlanguagecandepict,burstfromtheceilingandcommandedhim——TOHOLD!
TroubleanddismaysucceededtothesteadfastnessthathadlatelybeendisplayedinthelooksofWieland。Hiseyesrovedfromonequartertoanother,withanexpressionofdoubt。Heseemedtowaitforafurtherintimation。
Carwin”sagencywashereeasilyrecognized。Ihadbesoughthimtointerposeinmydefense。Hehadflown。Ihadimaginedhimdeaftomyprayer,andresolutetoseemeperish;yethedisappearedmerelytodeviseandexecutethemeansofmyrelief。
Whydidhenotforbearwhenthisendwasaccomplished?Whydidhismisjudgingzealandaccursedprecipitationoverpassthatlimit?Ormeanthethustocrownthescene,andconducthisinscrutableplotstothisconsummation?
Suchideaswerethefruitofsubsequentcontemplation。Thismomentwaspregnantwithfate。Ihadnopowertoreason。Inthecareerofmytempestuousthoughts,rentintopiecesasmymindwasbyaccumulatinghorrors,Carwinwasunseenandunsuspected。IpartookofWieland”scredulity,shookwithhisamazement,andpantedwithhisawe。
Silencetookplaceforamoment:somuchasallowedtheattentiontorecoveritspost。Thennewsoundswereutteredfromabove:——
“Manoferrors!ceasetocherishthydelusion;notheavenorhell,butthysenses,havemisledtheetocommittheseacts。Shakeoffthyfrenzy,andascendintorationalandhuman。Belunaticnolonger。”
Mybrotheropenedhislipstospeak。Histonewasterrificandfaint。Hemutteredanappealtoheaven。Itwasdifficulttocomprehendthethemeofhisinquiries。Theyimplieddoubtastothenatureoftheimpulsethathithertohadguidedhim,andquestionedwhetherhehadactedinconsequenceofinsaneperceptions。
Totheseinterrogatoriesthevoice,whichnowseemedtohoverathisshoulder,loudlyansweredintheaffirmative。Thenuninterruptedsilenceensued。
Fallenfromhisloftyandheroicstation;nowfinallyrestoredtotheperceptionoftruth;weighedtoearthbytherecollectionofhisowndeeds;consolednolongerbyaconsciousnessofrectitudeforthelossofoffspringandwife,——alossforwhichhewasindebtedtohisownmisguidedhand,——WielandwastransformedatonceintotheMANOFSORROWS!
Hereflectednotthatcreditshouldbeasreasonablydeniedtothelastastoanyformerintimation;thatonemightasjustlybeascribedtoerringordiseasedsensesastheother。Hesawnotthatthisdiscoveryinnodegreeaffectedtheintegrityofhisconduct;thathismotiveshadlostnoneoftheirclaimstothehomageofmankind;thatthepreferenceofsupremegood,andtheboundlessenergyofduty,wereundiminishedinhisbosom。
Itisnotformetopursuehimthroughtheghastlychangesofhiscountenance。Wordshehadnone。Nowhesatuponthefloor,motionlessinallhislimbs,withhiseyesglazedandfixed,amonumentofwoe。
Anonaspiritoftempestuousbutundesigningactivityseizedhim。
Herosefromhisplaceandstrodeacrossthefloor,totteringandatrandom。Hiseyeswerewithoutmoisture,andgleamedwiththefirethatconsumedhisvitals。Themusclesofhisfacewereagitatedbyconvulsions。Hislipsmoved,butnosoundescapedhim。
Thatnatureshouldlongsustainthisconflictwasnottobebelieved。Mystatewaslittledifferentfromthatofmybrother。
Ientered,asitwere,intohisthoughts。Myheartwasvisitedandrentbyhispangs。“Ohthatthyfrenzyhadneverbeencured!thatthymadness,withitsblissfulvisions,wouldreturn!or,ifthatmustnotbe,thatthyscenewouldhastentoaclose!——thatdeathwouldcovertheewithhisoblivion!
“WhatcanIwishforthee?ThouwhohastviedwiththegreatPreacherofthyfaithinsanctityofmotives,andinelevationabovesensualandselfish!Thouwhomthyfatehaschangedintoparricideandsavage!CanIwishforthecontinuanceofthybeing?
No。”
Foratimehismovementsseemeddestituteofpurpose。Ifhewalked;ifheturned;ifhisfingerswereentwinedwitheachother;
ifhishandswerepressedagainstoppositesidesofhisheadwithaforcesufficienttocrushitintopieces;itwastotearhismindfromself-contemplation;towastehisthoughtsonexternalobjects。
Speedilythistrainwasbroken。Abeamappearedtobedartedintohismindwhichgaveapurposetohisefforts。Anavenuetoescapepresenteditself;andnowheeagerlygazedabouthim。Whenmythoughtsbecameengagedbyhisdemeanor,myfingerswerestretchedasbyamechanicalforce,andtheknife,nolongerheededorofuse,escapedfrommygraspandfellunperceivedonthefloor。Hiseyenowlighteduponit;heseizeditwiththequicknessofthought。
Ishriekedaloud,butitwastoolate。Heplungedittothehiltinhisneck;andhislifeinstantlyescapedwiththestreamthatgushedfromthewound。Hewasstretchedatmyfeet;andmyhandsweresprinkledwithhisbloodashefell。
Suchwasthylastdeed,mybrother!Foraspectaclelikethiswasitmyfatetobereserved!Thyeyeswereclosed——thyfaceghastlywithdeath——thyarms,andthespotwherethoulyedst,floatedinthylife”sblood!Theseimageshavenotforamomentforsakenme。
TillIambreathlessandcold,theymustcontinuetohoverinmysight。
Carwin,asIsaid,hadlefttheroom;buthestilllingeredinthehouse。Myvoicesummonedhimtomyaid;butIscarcelynoticedhisreentrance,andnowfaintlyrecollecthisterrifiedlooks,hisbrokenexclamations,hisvehementavowalsofinnocence,theeffusionsofhispityforme,andhisoffersofassistance。
Ididnotlisten——Iansweredhimnot——Iceasedtoupbraidoraccuse。HisguiltwasapointtowhichIwasindifferent。Ruffianordevil,blackashellorbrightasangels,thenceforthhewasnothingtome。Iwasincapableofsparingalookorathoughtfromtheruinthatwasspreadatmyfeet。
Whenheleftme,Iwasscarcelyconsciousofanyvariationinthescene。Heinformedtheinhabitantsofthehutofwhathadpassed,andtheyflewtothespot。Carelessofhisownsafety,hehastedtothecitytoinformmyfriendsofmycondition。
Myunclespeedilyarrivedatthehouse。ThebodyofWielandwasremovedfrommypresence,andtheysupposedthatIwouldfollowit;
butno,myhomeisascertained;hereIhavetakenupmyrest,andneverwillIgohence,till,likeWieland,Iambornetomygrave。
Importunitywastriedinvain。Theythreatenedtoremovemebyviolence,——nay,violencewasused;butmysoulprizestoodearlythislittlerooftoenduretobebereavedofit。Forceshouldnotprevailwhenthehoarylocksandsupplicatingtearsofmyunclewereineffectual。Myrepugnancetomovegavebirthtoferociousnessandfrenzywhenforcewasemployed,andtheywereobligedtoconsenttomyreturn。
Theybesoughtme——theyremonstrated——theyappealedtoeverydutythatconnectedmewithHimthatmademeandwithmyfellow-men——invain。WhileIliveIwillnotgohence。HaveInotfulfilledmydestiny?
Whywillyetormentmewithyourreasoningsandreproofs?Canyerestoretomethehopeofmybetterdays?CanyegivemebackCatharineandherbabes?Canyerecalltolifehimwhodiedatmyfeet?
Iwilleat——Iwilldrink——Iwillliedownandriseup——atyourbidding;allIaskisthechoiceofmyabode。Whatisthereunreasonableinthisdemand?ShortlywillIbeatpeace。ThisisthespotwhichIhavechoseninwhichtobreathemylastsigh。
Denymenot,Ibeseechyou,soslightaboon。
Talknottome,Omyreverendfriend!ofCarwin。Hehastoldtheehistale,andthouexculpatesthimfromalldirectconcerninthefateofWieland。Thissceneofhavocwasproducedbyanillusionofthesenses。Beitso;Icarenotfromwhatsourcethesedisastershaveflowed;itsufficesthattheyhaveswallowedupourhopesandourexistence。
Whathisagencybegan,hisagencyconductedtoaclose。Heintended,bythefinaleffortofhispower,torescuemeandtobanishhisillusionsfrommybrother。Suchishistale,concerningthetruthofwhichIcarenot。HenceforthIfosterbutonewish:I
askonlyquickdeliverancefromlifeandalltheillsthatattendit。
Go,wretch!tormentmenotwiththypresenceandthyprayers——
Forgivethee?Willthatavailtheewhenthyfatefulhourshallarrive?Bethouacquittedatthyowntribunal,andthouneedestnotfeartheverdictofothers。Ifthyguiltbecapableofblackerhues,ifhithertothyconsciencebewithoutstain,thycrimewillbemademoreflagrantbythusviolatingmyretreat。Takethyselfawayfrommysightifthouwouldstnotbeholdmydeath!
Thouartgone!murmuringandreluctant!Andnowmyreposeiscoming——myworkisdone!
FitzjamesO”BrienTheGoldenIngotIhadjustretiredtorest,withmyeyesalmostblindwiththestudyofanewworkonphysiologybyM。Brown-Sequard,whenthenightbellwaspulledviolently。
Itwaswinter,andIconfessIgrumbledasIroseandwentdownstairstoopenthedoor。TwicethatweekIhadbeenarousedlongaftermidnightforthemosttrivialcauses。Once,toattenduponthesonandheirofawealthyfamily,whohadcuthisthumbwithapenknife,which,itseems,heinsistedontakingtobedwithhim;andonce,torestoreayounggentlemantoconsciousness,whohadbeenfoundbyhishorrifiedparentstretchedinsensibleonthestaircase。Diachylonintheonecaseandammoniaintheotherwereallthatmypatientsrequired;andIhadafaintsuspicionthatthepresentsummonswasperhapsoccasionedbynocasemorenecessitousthanthoseIhavequoted。Iwastooyounginmyprofession,however,toneglectopportunities。Itisonlywhenaphysicianrisestoaverylargepracticethathecanaffordtobeinconsiderate。Iwasonthefirststepoftheladder,soIhumblyopenedmydoor。
Awomanwasstandingankledeepinthesnowthatlayuponthestoop。Icaughtbutadimglimpseofherform,forthenightwascloudy;butIcouldhearherteethrattlinglikecastanets,and,asthesharpwindblewherclothesclosetoherform,Icoulddiscernfromthesharpnessoftheoutlinesthatshewasveryscantilysuppliedwithraiment。
“Comein,comein,mygoodwoman,“Isaidhastily,forthewindseemedtocatcheagerlyattheopportunityofmakingitselfathomeinmyhall,andwasrapidlyforcinganentrancethroughthehalf-
opendoor。“Comein,youcantellmeallyouhavetocommunicateinside。”
Sheslippedinlikeaghost,andIclosedthedoor。WhileIwasstrikingalightinmyoffice,Icouldhearherteethstillclickingoutinthedarkhall,tillitseemedasifsomeskeletonwaschattering。AssoonasIobtainedalightIbeggedhertoentertheroom,and,withoutoccupyingmyselfparticularlyaboutherappearance,askedherabruptlywhatherbusinesswas。
“Myfatherhasmetwithasevereaccident,“shesaid,“andrequiresinstantsurgicalaid。Ientreatyoutocometohimimmediately。”
Thefreshnessandthemelodyofhervoicestartledme。Suchvoicesrarely,ifever,issuefromanybutbeautifulforms。Ilookedatherattentively,but,owingtoanondescriptspeciesofshawlinwhichherheadwaswrapped,Icoulddiscernnothingbeyondwhatseemedtobeapale,thinfaceandlargeeyes。Herdresswaslamentable。Anoldsilk,ofacolornowunrecognizable,clungtoherfigureinthoselimpfoldswhicharesoeloquentofmisery。
Thecreaseswhereithadbeenfoldedwerewornnearlythrough,andtheedgesoftheskirthaddecayedintoaspeciesofirregularfringe,whichwasclottedanddiscoloredwithmud。Hershoes——
whichwerebuthalfconcealedbythisscantygarment——wereshapelessandsoftwithmoisture。Herhandswerehiddenundertheendsoftheshawlwhichcoveredherheadandhungdownoverabust,theoutlinesofwhich,althoughangular,seemedtopossessgrace。
Poverty,whenpartiallyshrouded,seldomfailstointerest:witnessthestatueoftheVeiledBeggar,byMonti。
“Inwhatmannerwasyourfatherhurt?“Iasked,inatoneconsiderablysoftenedfromtheoneinwhichIputmyfirstquestion。
“Heblewhimselfup,sir,andisterriblywounded。”
“Ah!Heisinsomefactory,then?“
“No,sir,heisachemist。”
“Achemist?Why,heisabrotherprofessional。Waitaninstant,andIwillsliponmycoatandgowithyou。Doyoulivefarfromhere?“
“IntheSeventhAvenue,notmorethantwoblocksfromtheendofthisstreet。”
“Somuchthebetter。Wewillbewithhiminafewminutes。Didyouleaveanyoneinattendanceonhim?“
“No,sir。Hewillallownoonebutmyselftoenterhislaboratory。
And,injuredasheis,Icouldnotinducehimtoquitit。”
“Indeed!Heisengagedinsomegreatresearch,perhaps?Ihaveknownsuchcases。”
Wewerepassingunderalamp-post,andthewomansuddenlyturnedandglaredatmewithalookofsuchwildterrorthatforaninstantIinvoluntarilyglancedroundmeundertheimpressionthatsometerribleperil,unseenbyme,wasmenacingusboth。
“Don”t——don”taskmeanyquestions,“shesaidbreathlessly。“Hewilltellyouall。Butdo,oh,dohasten!GoodGod!hemaybedeadbythistime!“
Imadenoreply,butallowedhertograspmyhand,whichshedidwithabony,nervousclutch,andendeavoredwithsomedifficultytokeeppacewiththelongstrides——Imightwellcallthembounds,fortheyseemedthespringsofawildanimalratherthanthepacesofayounggirl——withwhichshecoveredtheground。Notawordmorewasuttereduntilwestoppedbeforeashabby,old-fashionedtenementhouseintheSeventhAvenue,notfaraboveTwenty-thirdStreet。
Shepushedthedooropenwithaconvulsivepressure,and,stillretainingholdofmyhand,literallydraggedmeupstairstowhatseemedtobeabackoffshootfromthemainbuilding,ashigh,perhaps,asthefourthstory。InamomentmoreIfoundmyselfinamoderate-sizedchamber,litbyasinglelamp。Inonecorner,stretchedmotionlessonawretchedpalletbed,IbeheldwhatI
supposedtobethefigureofmypatient。
“Heisthere,“saidthegirl;“gotohim。Seeifheisdead——I
darenotlook。”
ImademywayaswellasIcouldthroughthenumberlessdilapidatedchemicalinstrumentswithwhichtheroomwaslittered。AFrenchchafingdishsupportedonanirontripodhadbeenoverturned,andwaslyingacrossthefloor,whilethecharcoal,stillwarm,wasscatteredaroundinvariousdirections。Crucibles,alembics,andretortswereconfusedlypiledinvariouscorners,andonasmalltableIsawdistributedinseparatebottlesanumberofmineralandmetallicsubstances,whichIrecognizedasantimony,mercury,plumbago,arsenic,borax,etc。Itwasveritablytheapartmentofapoorchemist。Alltheapparatushadtheairofbeingsecond-hand。
Therewasnolusterofexquisitelyannealedglassandhighlypolishedmetals,suchasdazzlesoneinthelaboratoryoftheprosperousanalyst。Themakeshiftsofpovertywereeverywherevisible。Thecrucibleswerebroken,orgallipotswereusedinsteadofcrucibles。Thecoloredtestswerenotintheusualtransparentvials,butwereplacedinordinaryblackbottles。Thereisnothingmoremelancholythantobeholdscienceorartindistress。A
threadbarescholar,atatteredbook,orabatteredviolinisamuteappealtooursympathy。
Iapproachedthewretchedpalletbedonwhichthevictimofchemistrywaslying。Hebreathedheavily,andhadhisheadturnedtowardthewall。Iliftedhisarmgentlytoarousehisattention。
“Howgoesit,mypoorfriend?“Iaskedhim。“Whereareyouhurt?“
Inamoment,asifstartledbythesoundofmyvoice,hesprangupinhisbed,andcoweredagainstthewalllikeawildanimaldriventobay。“Whoareyou?Idon”tknowyou。Whobroughtyouhere?
Youareastranger。Howdareyoucomeintomyprivateroomstospyuponme?“
Andasheutteredthisrapidlywithafrightfulnervousenergy,I
beheldapaledistortedface,drapedwithlonggrayhair,glaringatmewithamingledexpressionoffuryandterror。
“Iamnospy,“Iansweredmildly。“Iheardthatyouhadmetwithanaccident,andhavecometocureyou。IamDr。Luxor,andhereismycard。”
Theoldmantookthecard,andscannediteagerly。“Youareaphysician?“heinquireddistrustfully。
“Andsurgeonalso。”
“Youareboundbyoathnottorevealthesecretsofyourpatients。”
“Undoubtedly。”
“IamafraidthatIamhurt,“hecontinuedfaintly,halfsinkingbackinthebed。
Iseizedtheopportunitytomakeabriefexaminationofhisbody。
Ifoundthatthearms,apartofthechest,andapartofthefacewereterriblyscorched;butitseemedtomethattherewasnothingtobeapprehendedbutpain。
“Youwillnotrevealanythingthatyoumaylearnhere?“saidtheoldman,feeblyfixinghiseyesonmyfacewhileIwasapplyingasoothingointmenttotheburns。“Youwillpromiseme。”
Inoddedassent。
“ThenIwilltrustyou。Cureme——Iwillpayyouwell。”
Icouldscarcehelpsmiling。IfLorenzode”Medici,consciousofmillionsofducatsinhiscoffers,hadbeenaddressingsomeleechoftheperiod,hecouldnothavespokenwithaloftierairthanthisinhabitantofthefourthstoryofatenementhouseintheSeventhAvenue。
“Youmustkeepquiet,“Ianswered。“Letnothingirritateyou。I
willleaveacomposingdraughtwithyourdaughter,whichshewillgiveyouimmediately。Iwillseeyouinthemorning。Youwillbewellinaweek。”
“ThankGod!“cameinamurmurfromaduskcornernearthedoor。I
turned,andbeheldthedimoutlineofthegirl,standingwithclaspedhandsinthegloomofthedimchamber。
“Mydaughter!“screamedtheoldman,oncemoreleapingupinthebedwithrenewedvitality。“Youhaveseenher,then?When?
Where?Oh,mayathousandcur”
“Father!father!Anything——anythingbutthat。Don”t,don”tcurseme!“Andthepoorgirl,rushingin,flungherselfsobbingonherkneesbesidehispallet。
“Ah,brigand!Youarethere,areyou?Sir,“saidhe,turningtome,“Iamthemostunhappymanintheworld。TalkofSisyphusrollingtheever-recoilingstone——ofPrometheusgnawedbythevulturesincethebirthoftime。Thefablesyetlive。Thereismyrock,forevercrushingmeback!thereismyeternalvulture,feedinguponmyheart!There!there!there!“And,withanawfulgestureofmaledictionandhatred,hepointedwithhiswoundedhand,swathedandshapelesswithbandages,atthecowering,sobbing,wordlesswomanbyhisside。
Iwastoomuchhorror-strickentoattempteventosoothehim。Theangerofbloodagainstbloodhasanelectricpowerwhichparalyzesbystanders。
“Listentome,sir,“hecontinued,“whileIskinthispaintedviper。Ihaveyouroath;youwillnotreveal。Iamanalchemist,sir。SinceIwastwenty-twoyearsold,Ihavepursuedthewonderfulandsubtlesecret。Yes,tounfoldthemysteriousRoseguardedwithsuchterriblethorns;todecipherthewondrousTableofEmerald;toaccomplishthemysticnuptialsoftheRedKingandtheWhiteQueen;tomarrythemsoultosoulandbodytobody,foreverandever,intheexactproportionsoflandandwater——suchhasbeenmysublimeaim,suchhasbeenthesplendidfeatthatI
haveaccomplished。”
Irecognizedataglance,inthisincomprehensiblefarrago,theargotofthetruealchemist。Ripley,Flamel,andothershavesuppliedtheworld,intheirworks,withthemelancholyspectacleofascientificbedlam。
“Twoyearssince,“continuedthepoorman,growingmoreandmoreexcitedwitheverywordthatheuttered”twoyearssince,I
succeededinsolvingthegreatproblem——intransmutingthebasermetalsintogold。Nonebutmyself,thatgirl,andGodknowstheprivationsIhadsuffereduptothattime。Food,clothing,air,exercise,everythingbutshelter,wassacrificedtowardtheonegreatend。Successatlastcrownedmylabors。ThatwhichNicholasFlameldidin1382,thatwhichGeorgeRipleydidatRhodesin1460,thatwhichAlexanderSethonandMichaelScudivogiusdidintheseventeenthcentury,Ididin1856。Imadegold!Isaidtomyself,”IwillastonishNewYorkmorethanFlameldidParis。”Hewasapoorcopyist,andsuddenlylaunchedintomagnificence。Ihadscarcearagtomyback:IwouldrivaltheMedicis。Imadegoldeveryday。Itoilednightandmorning;forImusttellyouthatI
neverwasabletomakemorethanacertainquantityatatime,andthatbyaprocessalmostentirelydissimilartothosehintedatinthosebooksofalchemyIhadhithertoconsulted。ButIhadnodoubtthatfacilitywouldcomewithexperience,andthaterelongI
shouldbeabletoeclipseinwealththerichestsovereignsoftheearth。
“SoItoiledon。DayafterdayIgavetothisgirlherewhatgoldIsucceededinfabricating,tellinghertostoreitawayaftersupplyingournecessities。Iwasastonishedtoperceivethatwelivedaspoorlyasever。Ireflected,however,thatitwasperhapsacommendablepieceofprudenceonthepartofmydaughter。
Doubtless,Isaid,shearguesthatthelesswespendthesoonerweshallaccumulateacapitalwherewithtoliveatease;so,thinkinghercourseawiseone,Ididnotreproachherwithherniggardliness,buttoiledon,amidwant,withclosedlips。
“ThegoldwhichIfabricatedwas,asIsaidbefore,ofaninvariablesize,namely,alittleingotworthperhapsthirtyorforty-fivedollars。IntwoyearsIcalculatedthatIhadmadefivehundredoftheseingots,which,ratedatanaverageofthirtydollarsapiece,wouldamounttothegrosssumoffifteenthousanddollars。Afterdeductingourslightexpensesfortwoyears,weoughttohavehadnearlyfourteenthousanddollarsleft。Itwastime,Ithought,toindemnifymyselfformyyearsofsuffering,andsurroundmychildandmyselfwithsuchmoderatecomfortsasourmeansallowed。IwenttomydaughterandexplainedtoherthatI
desiredtomakeanencroachmentuponourlittlehoard。Tomyutteramazement,sheburstintotears,andtoldmethatshehadnotgotadollar——thatallofourwealthhadbeenstolenfromher。Almostoverwhelmedbythisnewmisfortune,Iinvainendeavoredtodiscoverfromherinwhatmanneroursavingshadbeenplundered。
ShecouldaffordmenoexplanationbeyondwhatImightgatherfromanabundanceofsobsandacopiousflowoftears。
“Itwasabitterblow,doctor,butnildesperandumwasmymotto,soIwenttoworkatmycrucibleagain,withredoubledenergy,andmadeaningotnearlyeverysecondday。Ideterminedthistimetoputtheminsomesecureplacemyself;buttheveryfirstdayIsetmyapparatusinorderfortheprojection,thegirlMarion——thatismydaughter”sname——cameweepingtomeandimploredmetoallowhertotakecareofourtreasure。Irefuseddecisively,sayingthat,havingfoundheralreadyincapableoffillingthetrust,Icouldplacenofaithinheragain。Butshepersisted,clungtomyneck,threatenedtoabandonme;inshort,usedsomanyofthebadbutirresistibleargumentsknowntowomenthatIhadnotthehearttorefuseher。Shehassincethattimecontinuedtotaketheingots。
“Yetyoubehold,“continuedtheoldalchemist,castinganinexpressiblymournfulglancearoundthewretchedapartment,“thewaywelive。Ourfoodisinsufficientandofbadquality;weneverbuyclothes;therentofthisholeisamerenothing。WhatamItothinkofthewretchedgirlwhoplungesmeintothismisery?Issheamiser,thinkyou?——orafemalegamester?——or——or——doesshesquanderitriotouslyinplacesIknownotof?ODoctor,Doctor!
donotblamemeifIheapimprecationsonherhead,forIhavesufferedbitterly!“Thepoormanhereclosedhiseyesandsankbackgroaningonhisbed。
Thissingularnarrativeexcitedinmethestrangestemotions。I
glancedatthegirlMarion,whohadbeenapatientlistenertothesehorribleaccusationsofcupidity,andneverdidIbeholdamoreangelicairofresignationthanbeamedoverhercountenance。
Itwasimpossiblethatanyonewiththosepure,limpideyes;thatcalm,broadforehead;thatchildlikemouth,couldbesuchamonsterofavariceordeceitastheoldmanrepresented。Thetruthwasplainenough:thealchemistwasmad——whatalchemistwasthereeverwhowasnot?——andhisinsanityhadtakenthisterribleshape。I
feltaninexpressiblepitymovemyheartforthispoorgirl,whoseyouthwasburdenedwithsuchanawfulsorrow。
“Whatisyourname?“Iaskedtheoldman,takinghistremulous,feveredhandinmine。
“WilliamBlakelock,“heanswered。“IcomeofanoldSaxonstock,sir,thatbredtruemenandwomeninformerdays。God!howdiditevercometopassthatsuchaoneasthatgirleversprungfromourline?“Theglanceofloathingandcontemptthathecastathermademeshudder。
“Mayyounotbemistakeninyourdaughter?“Isaid,verymildly。
“Delusionswithregardtoalchemyare,orhavebeen,verycommon”
“What,sir?“criedtheoldman,boundinginhisbed。“What?Doyoudoubtthatgoldcanbemade?Doyouknow,sir,thatM。C。
TheodoreTiffereaumadegoldatParisintheyear1854inthepresenceofM。Levol,theassayeroftheImperialMint,andtheresultoftheexperimentswasreadbeforetheAcademyofSciencesonthesixteenthofOctoberofthesameyear?Butstay;youshallhavebetterproofyet。Iwillpayyouwithoneofmyingots,andyoushallattendmeuntilIamwell。Getmeaningot!“
ThislastcommandwasaddressedtoMarion,whowasstillkneelingclosetoherfather”sbedside。Iobservedherwithsomecuriosityasthismandatewasissued。Shebecameverypale,claspedherhandsconvulsively,butneithermovednormadeanyreply。
“Getmeaningot,Isay!“reiteratedthealchemistpassionately。
Shefixedherlargeeyesimploringlyuponhim。Herlipsquivered,andtwohugetearsrolledslowlydownherwhitecheeks。
“Obeyme,wretchedgirl,“criedtheoldmaninanagitatedvoice,“orIswear,byallthatIreverenceinheavenandearth,thatI
willlaymycurseuponyouforever!“
IfeltforaninstantthatIoughtperhapstointerfere,andsparethegirltheanguishthatshewassoevidentlysuffering;butapowerfulcuriositytoseehowthisstrangescenewouldterminatewithheldme。
Thelastthreatofherfather,utteredasitwaswithaterriblevehemence,seemedtoappallMarion。Sherosewithasuddenleap,asifaserpenthadstungher,and,rushingintoaninnerapartment,returnedwithasmallobjectwhichsheplacedinmyhand,andthenflungherselfinachairinadistantcorneroftheroom,weepingbitterly。
“Yousee——yousee,“saidtheoldmansarcastically,“howreluctantlyshepartswithit。Takeit,sir;itisyours。”
Itwasasmallbarofmetal。Iexamineditcarefully,poiseditinmyhand——thecolor,weight,everything,announcedthatitreallywasgold。
“Youdoubtitsgenuineness,perhaps,“continuedthealchemist。
“Thereareacidsonyondertable——testit。”
IconfessthatIDIDdoubtitsgenuineness;butafterIhadactedupontheoldman”ssuggestion,allfurthersuspicionwasrenderedimpossible。Itwasgoldofthehighestpurity。Iwasastounded。
Wasthen,afterall,thisman”staleatruth?Washisdaughter,thatfair,angelic-lookingcreature,ademonofavarice,oraslavetoworsepassions?Ifeltbewildered。Ihadnevermetwithanythingsoincomprehensible。Ilookedfromfathertodaughterintheblankestamazement。Isupposethatmycountenancebetrayedmyastonishment,fortheoldmansaid:“Iperceivethatyouaresurprised。Well,thatisnatural。YouhadarighttothinkmemaduntilIprovedmyselfsane。”
“But,Mr。Blakelock,“Isaid,“Ireallycannottakethisgold。I
havenorighttoit。Icannotinjusticechargesolargeafee。”
“Takeit——takeit,“heansweredimpatiently;“yourfeewillamounttothatbeforeIamwell。Besides,“headdedmysteriously,“Iwishtosecureyourfriendship。Iwishthatyoushouldprotectmefromher,“andhepointedhispoor,bandagedhandatMarion。
Myeyesfollowedhisgesture,andIcaughttheglancethatreplied——
aglanceofhorror,distrust,despair。Thebeautifulfacewasdistortedintopositiveugliness。
“It”salltrue,“Ithought;“sheisthedemonthatherfatherrepresentsher。”
Inowrosetogo。Thisdomestictragedysickenedme。Thistreacheryofbloodagainstbloodwastoohorribletowitness。I
wroteaprescriptionfortheoldman,leftdirectionsastotherenewalofthedressingsuponhisburns,and,biddinghimgoodnight,hastenedtowardthedoor。
WhileIwasfumblingonthedark,crazylandingforthestaircase,Ifeltahandlaidonmyarm。
“Doctor,“whisperedavoicethatIrecognizedasMarionBlakelock”s,“Doctor,haveyouanycompassioninyourheart?“
“Ihopeso,“Iansweredshortly,shakingoffherhand;hertouchfilledmewithloathing。
“Hush!don”ttalksoloud。Ifyouhaveanypityinyournature,givemeback,Ientreatofyou,thatgoldingotwhichmyfathergaveyouthisevening。”
“Greatheaven!“saidI,“canitbepossiblethatsofairawomancanbesuchamercenary,shamelesswretch?“
“Ah!youknownot——Icannottellyou!Donotjudgemeharshly。I
callGodtowitnessthatIamnotwhatyoudeemme。Somedayorotheryouwillknow。But,“sheadded,interruptingherself,“theingot——whereisit?Imusthaveit。Mylifedependsonyourgivingittome。”
“Takeit,impostor!“Icried,placingitinherhand,thatclosedonitwithahorribleeagerness。“Ineverintendedtokeepit。
Goldmadeunderthesameroofthatcoverssuchasyoumustbeaccursed。”
Sosaying,heedlessofthenervouseffortshemadetodetainme,I
stumbleddownthestairsandwalkedhastilyhome。
Thenextmorning,whileIwasinmyoffice,smokingmymatutinalcigar,andspeculatingoverthesingularcharacterofmyacquaintancesoflastnight,thedooropened,andMarionBlakelockentered。ShehadthesamelookofterrorthatIhadobservedtheeveningbefore,andshepantedasifshehadbeenrunningfast。
“Fatherhasgotoutofbed,“shegaspedout,“andinsistsongoingonwithhisalchemy。Willitkillhim?“
“Notexactly,“Iansweredcoldly。“Itwerebetterthathekeptquiet,soastoavoidthechanceofinflammation。However,youneednotbealarmed;hisburnsarenotatalldangerous,althoughpainful。”
“ThankGod!thankGod!“shecried,inthemostimpassionedaccents;
and,beforeIwasawareofwhatshewasdoing,sheseizedmyhandandkissedit。
“There,thatwilldo,“Isaid,withdrawingmyhand;“youareundernoobligationstome。Youhadbettergobacktoyourfather。”
“Ican”tgo,“sheanswered。“Youdespiseme——isitnotso?“
Imadenoreply。
“Youthinkmeamonster——acriminal。Whenyouwenthomelastnight,youwerewonderstruckthatsovileacreatureasIshouldhavesofairaface。”
“Youembarrassme,madam,“Isaid,inamostchillingtone。“Prayrelievemefromthisunpleasantposition。”
“Wait。Icannotbearthatyoushouldthinkillofme。Youaregoodandkind,andIdesiretopossessyouresteem。YoulittleknowhowIlovemyfather。”
Icouldnotrestrainabittersmile。
“Youdonotbelievethat?Well,Iwillconvinceyou。Ihavehadahardstrugglealllastnightwithmyself,butamnowresolved。
Thislifeofdeceitmustcontinuenolonger。Willyouhearmyvindication?“
Iassented。Thewonderfulmelodyofhervoiceandthepurityofherfeatureswerecharmingmeoncemore。Ihalfbelievedinherinnocencealready。
“Myfatherhastoldyouaportionofhishistory。Buthedidnottellyouthathiscontinuedfailuresinhissearchafterthesecretofmetallictransmutationnearlykilledhim。Twoyearsagohewasonthevergeofthegrave,workingeverydayathismadpursuit,andeverydaygrowingweakerandmoreemaciated。Isawthatifhismindwasnotrelievedinsomewayhewoulddie。Thethoughtwasmadnesstome,forIlovedhim——Ilovehimstill,asadaughterneverlovedafatherbefore。DuringalltheseyearsofpovertyI
hadsupportedthehousewithmyneedle;itwashardwork,butIdidit——Idoitstill!“
“What?“Icried,startled,“doesnot”
“Patience。Hearmeout。Myfatherwasdyingofdisappointment。I
mustsavehim。Byincredibleexertions,workingnightandday,I
savedaboutthirty-fivedollarsinnotes。TheseIexchangedforgold,andoneday,whenmyfatherwasnotlooking,Icastthemintothecrucibleinwhichhewasmakingoneofhisvainattemptsattransmutation。God,Iamsure,willpardonthedeception。Ineveranticipatedthemiseryitwouldleadto。
“Ineverbeheldanythinglikethejoyofmypoorfather,when,afteremptyinghiscrucible,hefoundadepositofpuregoldatthebottom。Hewept,anddanced,andsang,andbuiltsuchcastlesintheair,thatmybrainwasdizzytohearhim。Hegavemetheingottokeep,andwenttoworkathisalchemywithrenewedvigor。Thesamethingoccurred。Healwaysfoundthesamequantityofgoldinhiscrucible。Ialoneknewthesecret。Hewashappy,poorman,fornearlytwoyears,inthebeliefthathewasamassingafortune。
Iallthewhilepliedmyneedleforourdailybread。Whenheaskedmeforthesavings,thefirststrokefelluponme。ThenitwasthatIrecognizedthefollyofmyconduct。Icouldgivehimnomoney。Ineverhadany——whilehebelievedthatIhadfourteenthousanddollars。MyheartwasnearlybrokenwhenIfoundthathehadconceivedthemostinjurioussuspicionsagainstme。YetI
couldnotblamehim。IcouldgivenoaccountofthetreasureIhadpermittedhimtobelievewasinmypossession。Imustsufferthepenaltyofmyfault,fortoundeceivehimwouldbe,Ifelt,tokillhim。Iremainedsilentthen,andsuffered。
“Youknowtherest。YounowknowwhyitwasthatIwasreluctanttogiveyouthatingot——whyitwasthatIdegradedmyselfsofarastoaskitback。ItwastheonlymeansIhadofcontinuingadeceptiononwhichIbelievedmyfather”slifedepended。Butthatdelusionhasbeendispelled。Icanlivethislifeofhypocrisynolonger。Icannotexistandhearmyfather,whomIloveso,withermedailywithhiscurses。Iwillundeceivehimthisveryday。
Willyoucomewithme,forIfeartheeffectonhisenfeebledframe?“
“Willingly,“Ianswered,takingherbythehand;“andIthinkthatnoabsolutedangerneedbeapprehended。Now,Marion,“Iadded,“letmeaskforgivenessforhavingevenforamomentwoundedsonobleaheart。YouaretrulyasgreatamartyrasanyofthosewhosesufferingstheChurchperpetuatesinaltar-pieces。”
“Iknewyouwoulddomejusticewhenyouknewall,“shesobbed,pressingmyhand;“butcome。Iamonfire。Letushastentomyfather,andbreakthisterrortohim。”
Whenwereachedtheoldalchemist”sroom,wefoundhimbusilyengagedoveracruciblewhichwasplacedonasmallfurnace,andinwhichsomeindescribablemixturewasboiling。Helookedupasweentered。
“Nofearofme,doctor,“hesaid,withaghastlysmile,“nofear;I
mustnotallowalittlephysicalpaintointerruptmygreatwork,youknow。Bytheway,youarejustintime。InafewmomentsthemarriageoftheRedKingandWhiteQueenwillbeaccomplished,asGeorgeRipleycallsthegreatact,inhisbookentitled”TheTwelveGates。”Yes,doctor,inlessthantenminutesyouwillseememakepure,red,shininggold!“Andthepooroldmansmiledtriumphantly,andstirredhisfoolishmixturewithalongrod,whichheheldwithdifficultyinhisbandagedhands。Itwasagrievoussightforamanofanyfeelingtowitness。
“Father,“saidMarion,inalow,brokenvoice,advancingalittletowardthepoorolddupe,“Iwantyourforgiveness。”
“Ah,hypocrite!forwhat?Areyougoingtogivemebackmygold?“
“No,father,butforthedeceptionthatIhavebeenpracticingonyoufortwoyears”
“Iknewit!Iknewit!“shoutedtheoldman,witharadiantcountenance。“Shehasconcealedmyfourteenthousanddollarsallthistime,andnowcomestorestorethem。Iwillforgiveher。
Wherearethey,Marion?“
“Father——itmustcomeout。Younevermadeanygold。ItwasIwhosavedupthirty-fivedollars,andIusedtoslipthemintoyourcruciblewhenyourbackwasturned——andIdiditonlybecauseIsawthatyouweredyingofdisappointment。Itwaswrong,Iknow——but,father,Imeantwell。You”llforgiveme,won”tyou?“Andthepoorgirladvancedasteptowardthealchemist。
Hegrewdeathlypale,andstaggeredasifabouttofall。Thenextinstant,though,herecoveredhimself,andburstintoahorriblesardoniclaugh。Thenhesaid,intonesfullofthebitterestirony:“Aconspiracy,isit?Welldone,doctor!YouthinktoreconcilemewiththiswretchedgirlbytrumpingupthisstorythatIhavebeenfortwoyearsadupeofherfilialpiety。It”sclumsy,doctor,andisatotalfailure。Tryagain。”
“ButIassureyou,Mr。Blakelock,“IsaidasearnestlyasIcould,“Ibelieveyourdaughter”sstatementtobeperfectlytrue。Youwillfindittobeso,asshehasgottheingotinherpossessionwhichsooftendeceivedyouintothebeliefthatyoumadegold,andyouwillcertainlyfindthatnotransmutationhastakenplaceinyourcrucible。”
“Doctor,“saidtheoldman,intonesofthemostsettledconviction,“youareafool。Thegirlhaswheedledyou。InlessthanaminuteIwillturnyououtapieceofgoldpurerthananytheearthproduces。Willthatconvinceyou?“
“Thatwillconvinceme,“Ianswered。ByagestureIimposedsilenceonMarion,whowasabouttospeak。Ithoughtitbettertoallowtheoldmantobehisownundeceiver——andweawaitedthecomingcrisis。
Theoldman,stillsmilingwithanticipatedtriumph,keptbendingeagerlyoverhiscrucible,stirringthemixturewithhisrod,andmutteringtohimselfallthetime。“Now,“Iheardhimsay,“itchanges。There——there”sthescum。Andnowthegreenandbronzeshadesflitacrossit。Oh,thebeautifulgreen!theprecursorofthegolden-redhuethattellsoftheendattained!Ah!nowthegolden-rediscoming——slowly——slowly!Itdeepens,itshines,itisdazzling!Ah,Ihaveit!“Sosaying,hecaughtuphiscrucibleinachemist”stongs,andboreitslowlytowardthetableonwhichstoodabrassvessel。
“Now,incredulousdoctor!“hecried,“comeandbeconvinced,“andimmediatelybegancarefullypouringthecontentsofthecrucibleintothebrassvessel。Whenthecruciblewasquiteemptyheturneditupandcalledmeagain。“Come,doctor,comeandbeconvinced。
Seeforyourself。”
“Seefirstifthereisanygoldinyourcrucible,“Ianswered,withoutmoving。
Helaughed,shookhisheadderisively,andlookedintothecrucible。Inamomenthegrewpaleasdeath。
“Nothing!“hecried。“Oh,ajest,ajest!Theremustbegoldsomewhere。Marion!“
“Thegoldishere,father,“saidMarion,drawingtheingotfromherpocket;“itisallweeverhad。”
“Ah!“shriekedthepooroldman,ashelettheemptycruciblefall,andstaggeredtowardtheingotwhichMarionheldouttohim。Hemadethreesteps,andthenfellonhisface。Marionrushedtowardhim,andtriedtolifthim,butcouldnot。Iputherasidegently,andplacedmyhandonhisheart。
“Marion,“saidI,“itisperhapsbetterasitis。Heisdead!“
FitzjamesO”BrienMyWife”sTempterI
APREDESTINEDMARRIAGE
ElsieandIweretobemarriedinlessthanaweek。Itwasratherastrangematch,andIknewthatsomeofourneighborsshooktheirheadsoveritandsaidthatnogoodwouldcome。Thewayitcametopasswasthus。
IlovedElsieBurnsfortwoyears,duringwhichtimesherefusedmethreetimes。Icouldnomorehelpaskinghertohaveme,whenthechanceoffered,thanIcouldhelpbreathingorliving。Toloveherseemednaturaltomeasexistence。Ifeltnoshame,onlysorrow,whensherejectedme;IfeltnoshameeitherwhenIrenewedmysuit。Theneighborscalledmemean-spiritedtotakeupwithanygirlthathadrefusedmeasoftenasElsieBurnshaddone;butwhatcaredIabouttheneighbors?Ifitisblackweather,andthesunisunderacloudeverydayforamonth,isthatanyreasonwhythepoorfarmershouldnothopefortheblueskyandtheplentifulburstofwarmlightwhenthedarkmonthisover?Ineverentirelylostheart。Donot,however,mistakeme。Ididnotmope,andmoan,andgrowpale,afterthemannerofpoeticallovers。Nosuchthing。Iwentbravelyaboutmybusiness,ateanddrankasusual,laughedwhenthelaughwentround,andsleptsoundly,andwokerefreshed。YetallthistimeIloved——desperatelyloved——ElsieBurns。IwentwhereverIhopedtomeether,butdidnothauntherwithmyattentions。Ibehavedtoherasanyfriendlyyoungmanwouldhavebehaved:Imetherandpartedfromhercheerfully。Shewasagoodgirl,too,andbehavedwell。Shehadmeinherpower——
howawomaninElsie”ssituationcouldhavemortifiedamaninmine!——butshenevertooktheslightestadvantageofit。ShedancedwithmewhenIaskedher,andhadnofoolishfearsofallowingmetoseeherhomeofnights,afteraballwasover,orofwanderingwithmethroughthepleasantNewEnglandfieldswhenthewildflowersmadethepathslikeroadsinfairyland。
OntheseveraldisastrousoccasionswhenIpresentedmysuitIdiditsimplyandmanfully,tellingherthatIlovedherverymuch,andwoulddoeverythingtomakeherhappyifshewouldbemywife。I
madenofulsomeprotestations,anddidnotoncealludetosuicide。
She,ontheotherhand,calmlyandgravelythankedmeformygoodopinion,butwiththesamecalmgravityrejectedme。IusedtotellherthatIwasgrieved;thatIwouldnotpressher;thatI
wouldwaitandhopeforsomechangeinherfeelings。Shehadanesteemforme,shewouldsay,butcouldnotmarryme。Ineveraskedherforanyreasons。Iholdittobeaninsulttoawomanofsensetodemandherreasonsonsuchanoccasion。Enoughformethatshedidnotthenwishtobemywife;sothattheoldintercoursewenton——shecordialandpoliteasever,Ineverforonemomentdoubtingthatthedaywouldcomewhenmyrooftreewouldshelterher,andweshouldsmiletogetheroverourfiresideatmylongandindefatigablewooing。
IwillconfessthatattimesIfeltalittlejealous——jealousofamannamedHammondBrake,wholivedinourvillage。Hewasaweird,saturninefellow,whomadenofriendsamongtheyoungmenoftheneighborhood,butwholovedtogoalone,withhisbooksandhisownthoughtsforcompany。Hewasastudiousand,Ibelieve,alearnedyoungman,andtherewasnoavoidingthefactthathepossessedconsiderableinfluenceoverElsie。Shelikedtotalkwithhimincorners,orinsecludednooksoftheforest,whenweallwentoutblackberrygatheringorpicnicking。Shereadbooksthathegaveher,andwheneveradiscussionaroserelativetoanytopichigherthanthoseordinaryonesweusuallycanvassed,ElsieappealedtoBrakeforhisopinion,asadiscipleconsultingabelovedmaster。
IconfessthatforatimeIfearedthismanasarival。Alittlecloserobservation,however,convincedmethatmysuspicionswereunfounded。TherelationsbetweenElsieandHammondBrakewerepurelyintellectual。Shereverencedhistalentsandacquirements,butshedidnotlovehim。Hisinfluenceoverher,nevertheless,wasnonethelessdecided。
Intime——asIthoughtallalong——Elsieyielded。Iwaswhatwasconsideredamosteligiblematch,beingtolerablyrich,andElsie”sparentsweremostanxioustohavemeforason-in-law。Iwasgood-
lookingandwelleducatedenough,andtheoldpeople,Ibelieve,pertinaciouslydinnedallmyadvantagesintomylittlegirl”sears。
Shebattledagainstthemarriageforalongtimewithastrangepersistence——allthemorestrangebecausesheneverallegedtheslightestpersonaldisliketome;butafteravigorouscannonadingfromherowngarrisoninwhich,Iamproudtosay,Ididnotinanywayjoin,shehoistedthewhiteflagandsurrendered。
Iwasveryhappy。IhadnofearaboutbeingabletogainElsie”sheart。Ithink——indeedIknow——thatshehadlikedmeallalong,andthatherrefusalsweredictatedbyotherfeelingsthanthoseofapersonalnature。Ionlyguessedasmuchthen。ItwassometimebeforeIknewall。
AsthedayapproachedforourweddingElsiedidnotappearatallstrickenwithwoe。Thevillagegossipshadnotthesmallestopportunityforestablishingaromance,withacompulsorybridefortheheroine。Yettomeitseemedasiftherewassomethingstrangeabouther。Avagueterrorappearedtobesether。Eveninhermostlovingmoments,whenrestinginmyarms,shewouldshrinkawayfromme,andshudderasifsomecoldwindhadsuddenlystruckuponher。
Thatitwascausedbynoaversiontomewasevident,forshewouldthemomentafter,asiftomakeamends,givemeoneofthosevoluntarykissesthataresweeterthanallothers。
Onceonlydidsheshowanyemotion。Whenthesolemnquestionwasputtoher,theanswertowhichwastodecideherdestiny,Ifeltherhand——whichwasinmine——tremble。Asshegaspedoutaconvulsive“Yes,“shegaveonebrief,imploringglanceatthegalleryontheright。Iplacedtheringuponherfinger,andlookedinthedirectioninwhichshegazed。HammondBrake”sdarkcountenancewasvisiblelookingovertherailings,andhiseyeswerebentsternlyonElsie。Iturnedquicklyroundtomybride,butherbriefemotion,ofwhatevernature,hadvanished。Shewaslookingatmeanxiously,andsmiling——somewhatsadly——throughhermaiden”stears。
Themonthswentbyquickly,andwewereveryhappy。IlearnedthatElsiereallylovedme,andofmyloveforhershehadprooflongago。Iwillnotsaythattherewasnoclouduponourlittlehorizon。Therewasone,butitwassosmall,andappearedsoseldom,thatIscarcelyfearedit。Theoldvagueterrorseemedstilltoattackmywife。IfIdidnotknowhertobepureasheaven”ssnow,IwouldhavesaiditwasaREMORSE。AttimesshescarcelyappearedtohearwhatIsaid,sodeepwouldbeherreverie。Nordidthosemoodsseempleasantones。Whenraptinsuch,hersweetfeatureswouldcontract,asifinahopelessefforttosolvesomemysteriousproblem。Asadpain,asitwere,quiveredinherwhite,droopedeyelids。OnethingIparticularlyremarked:
SHESPENTHOURSATATIMEGAZINGATTHEWEST。Therewasasmallroominourhousewhosewindows,everyevening,flamedwiththeredlightofthesettingsun。HereElsiewouldsitandgazewestward,somotionlessandentrancedthatitseemedasifhersoulwasgoingdownwiththeday。Herconducttomewascuriouslyvaried。Sheapparentlylovedmeverymuch,yetthereweretimeswhensheabsolutelyavoidedme。Ihaveseenherstrollingthroughthefields,andleftthehousewiththeintentionofjoiningher,butthemomentshecaughtsightofmeapproachingshehasfledintotheneighboringcopse,withsoevidentawishtoavoidmethatitwouldhavebeenabsolutelycrueltofollow。
OnceortwicetheoldjealousyofHammondBrakecrossedmymind,butIwasobligedtodismissitasafrivoloussuspicion。Nothinginmywife”sconductjustifiedanysuchtheory。Brakevisitedusonceortwiceaweek——infact,whenIreturnedfrommybusinessinthevillage,IusedtofindhimseatedintheparlorwithElsie,readingsomefavoriteauthor,orconversingonsomenovelliterarytopic;buttherewasnodispositiontoavoidmyscrutiny。Brakeseemedtocomeasamatterofright;andtheperfectunconsciousnessoffurnishinganygroundsforsuspicionwithwhichheactedwasasufficientanswertomymindforanywilddoubtsthatmyheartmayhavesuggested。
StillIcouldnotbutremarkthatBrake”svisitswereinsomemannerconnectedwithElsie”smelancholy。Onthedayswhenhehadappearedanddeparted,thegloomseemedtohangmorethicklythaneveroverherhead。Shesat,onsuchoccasions,alltheeveningatthewesternwindow,silentlygazingatthecleftinthehillsthroughwhichthesunpassedtohisrepose。
AtlastImadeupmymindtospeaktoher。Itseemedtometobemyduty,ifshehadasorrow,topartakeofit。IapproachedheronthematterwiththemostperfectconfidencethatIhadnothingtolearnbeyondtheexistenceofsomegirlishgrief,whichaconfessionandafewlovingkisseswouldexorciseforever。
“Elsie,“Isaidtoheronenight,asshesat,accordingtohercustom,gazingwestward,likethosemaidensoftheoldballadsofchivalrywatchingfortheknightsthatnevercame”Elsie,whatisthematterwithyou,darling?Ihavenoticedastrangemelancholyinyouforsometimepast。Tellmeallaboutit。”
Sheturnedquicklyroundandgazedatmewitheyeswideopenandfacefilledwithasuddenfear。“Whydoyouaskmethat,Mark?“
sheanswered。“Ihavenothingtotell。”
Fromthestrange,startledmannerinwhichthisreplywasgiven,I
feltconvincedthatshehadsomethingtotell,andinstantlyformedadeterminationtodiscoverwhatitwas。ApangshotthroughmyheartasIthoughtthatthewomanwhomIhelddearerthananythingonearthhesitatedtotrustmewithapettysecret。
IbelievedIunderstood。Iwastolerablyrich。Iknewitcouldnotbeanysecretovermilliners”billsorwomen”susualmoneytroubles。Godhelpme!Ifeltsadenoughatthemoment,thoughI
kissedherbackandceasedtoquestionher。Ifeltsad,becausemyinstincttoldmethatshedeceivedme;anditisveryhardtobedeceived,evenintrifles,bythosewelove。Ilefthersittingatherfavoritewindow,andwalkedoutintothefields。Iwantedtothink。
IremainedoutuntilIsawlightsintheparlorshiningthroughtheduskyevening;thenIreturnedslowly。AsIpassedthewindows——
whichwereneartheground,ourhousebeingcottage-built——Ilookedin。HammondBrakewassittingwithmywife。Shewassittinginarockingchairoppositetohim,holdingasmallvolumeopenonherlap。Brakewastalkingtoherveryearnestly,andshewaslisteningtohimwithanexpressionIhadneverbeforeseenonhercountenance。Awe,fear,andadmirationwereallblenttogetherinthosedilatingeyes。Sheseemedabsorbed,bodyandsoul,inwhatthismansaid。Ishudderedatthesight。Avagueterrorseizeduponme;Ihastenedintothehouse。AsIenteredtheroomrathersuddenly,mywifestartedandhastilyconcealedthelittlevolumethatlayonherlapinoneofherwidepockets。Asshedidso,alooseleafescapedfromthevolumeandslowlyflutteredtothefloorunobservedbyeitherherorhercompanion。ButIhadmyeyeuponit。Ifeltthatitwasaclew。
“Whatnewnovelorphilosophicalwonderhaveyoubothbeenporingover?“Iaskedquitegayly,stealthilywatchingatthesametimethetelltaleembarrassmentunderwhichElsiewaslaboring。
Brake,whowasnotintheleastdiscomposed,replied。“That,“saidhe,“isasecretwhichmustbekeptfromyou。Itisanadvancecopy,andisnottobeshowntoanyoneexceptyourwife。”
“Ha!“criedI,“Iknowwhatitis。ItisyourvolumeofpoemsthatTicknorispublishing。Well,Icanwaituntilitisregularlyforsale。”
IknewthatBrakehadavolumeinthehandsofthepublishinghouseImentioned,withavaguepromiseofpublicationsometimeinthepresentcentury。Hammondsmiledsignificantly,butdidnotreply。
Heevidentlywishedtocultivatethissupposedimpressionofmine。
Elsielookedrelieved,andheavedadeepsigh。Ifeltmorethaneverconvincedthatasecretwasbeneathallthis。SoIdrewmychairoverthefallenleafthatlayunnoticedonthecarpet,andtalkedandlaughedwithHammondBrakegayly,asifnothingwasonmymind,whileallthetimeagreatloadofsuspicionlayheavilyatmyheart。
AtlengthHammondBrakerosetogo。Iwishedhimgoodnight,butdidnotoffertoaccompanyhimtothedoor。Mywifesuppliedthisomittedcourtesy,asIhadexpected。ThemomentIwasaloneI
pickedupthebookleaffromthefloor。ItwasNOTtheleafofavolumeofpoems。Beyondthat,however,Ilearnednothing。Itcontainedastringofparagraphsprintedinthebiblicalfashion,andthelanguagewasbiblicalinstyle。Itseemedtobeaportionofsomereligiousbook。WasitpossiblethatmywifewasbeingconvertedtotheRomishfaith?Yes,thatwasit。BrakewasaJesuitindisguise——Ihadheardofsuchthings——andhadstolenintothebosomofmyfamilytoplanttherehisdestructiveerrors。
Therecouldbenolongeranydoubtofit。ThiswassomeportionofaRomishbook——someinfamousPopishpublication。FoolthatIwasnottoseeitallbefore!Buttherewasyettime。Iwouldforbidhimthehouse。
Ihadjustformedthisresolutionwhenmywifeentered。Iputthestrangeleafinmypocketandtookmyhat。
“Why,youarenotgoingout,surely?“criedElsie,surprised。
“Ihaveaheadache,“Ianswered。“Iwilltakeashortwalk。”
Elsielookedatmewithapeculiarairofdistrust。Herwoman”sinstincttoldherthattherewassomethingwrong。Beforeshecouldquestionme,however,IhadlefttheroomandwaswalkingrapidlyonHammondBrake”strack。
Heheardthefootsteps,andIsawhisfigure,blackagainstthesky,stopandpeerbackthroughthedusktoseewhowasfollowinghim。
“ItisI,Brake,“Icalledout。“Stop;Iwishtospeakwithyou。”
Hestopped,andinaminuteorsowewerewalkingsidebysidealongtheroad。Myfingersitchedatthatmomenttobeonhisthroat。Icommencedtheconversation。
“Brake,“Isaid,“I”maveryplainsortofman,andIneversayanythingwithoutgoodreason。WhatIcameafteryoutotellyouis,thatIdon”twishyoutocometomyhouseanymore,ortospeakwithElsieanyfartherthantheordinarysalutationsgo。It”snojoke。I”mquiteinearnest。”
Brakestarted,and,stoppingshort,facedmesuddenlyintheroad。
“WhathaveIdone?“heasked。“Yousurelyaretoosensibleamantobejealous,Dayton。”
“Oh,“Iansweredscornfully,“notjealousintheordinarysenseoftheword,abit。ButIdon”tthinkyourcompanygoodcompanyformywife,Brake。IfyouWILLhaveitoutofme,IsuspectyouofbeingaRomanCatholic,andoftryingtoconvertmywife。”
Asmileshotacrosshisface,andIsawhissharpwhiteteethgleamforaninstantinthedusk。
“Well,whatifIamaPapist?“hesaid,withastrangetoneoftriumphinhisvoice。“Thefaithisnotcriminal。Besides,whatproofhaveyouthatIwasattemptingtoproselyteyourwife?“
“This,“saidI,pullingtheleaffrommypocket”thisleaffromoneofthosedevilishPapistbooksyouandshewerereadingthisevening。Ipickeditupfromthefloor。Proofenough,Ithink!“
InaninstantBrakehadsnatchedtheleaffrommyhandandtornitintoatoms。
“Youshallbeobeyed,“hesaid。“IwillnotspeakwithElsieaslongassheisyourwife。Goodnight。YouthinkI”maPapist,then,Dayton?You”reacleverfellow!“
Andwithratherasneeringchucklehemarchedonalongtheroadandvanishedintothedarkness。
II
THESECRETDISCOVERED
Brakecamenomore。IsaidnothingtoElsieabouthisprohibition,andhisnamewasnevermentioned。Itseemedstrangetomethatsheshouldnotspeakofhisabsence,andIwasverymuchpuzzledbyhersilence。Hermoodinessseemedtohaveincreased,and,whatwasmostremarkable,inproportionasshegrewmoreandmorereserved,theintenserweretheburstsofaffectionwhichsheexhibitedforme。Shewouldstrainmetoherbosomandkissme,asifsheandI
wereabouttobepartedforever。Thenforhoursshewouldremainsittingatherwindow,silentlygazing,withthatterrible,wistfulgazeofhers,atthewest。
Iwillconfesstohavingwatchedmywifeatthistime。Icouldnothelpit。ThatsomemysteryhungaboutherIfeltconvinced。I
mustfathomitordie。HerhonorIneverforamomentdoubted;yetthereseemedtoweighcontinuallyuponmetheprophecyofsomeawfuldomesticcalamity。Thistimetheprophecywasnotinvain。
AboutthreeweeksafterIhadforbiddenBrakemyhouse,Iwasstrollingovermyfarmintheeveningapparentlyinspectingmyagriculture,butinrealityspeculatingonthattopicwhichlatterlywaseverpresenttome。
Therewasalittleknollcoveredwithevergreenoaksattheendofthelawn。Itwasapicturesquespot,forononesidethebankwentoffintoasheerprecipiceofabouteightyfeetindepth,atthebottomofwhichaprettypoollay,thatinthesummertimewasfringedwithwhitewater-lilies。Ihadthoughtofbuildingasummer-houseinthisspot,andnowmystepsmechanicallydirectedthemselvestowardtheplace。AsIapproachedIheardvoices。I
stoppedandlistenedeagerly。AfewsecondsenabledmetoascertainthatHammondBrakeandmywifewereinthecopsetalkingtogether。Shestillfollowedhim,then;andhe,scoundrelthathewas,hadbrokenhispromise。AfuryseemedtofillmyveinsasI
madethisdiscovery。Ifelttheimpulsestronguponmetorushintothegrove,andthenandtherestranglethevillainwhowaspoisoningmypeace。ButwithapowerfuleffortIrestrainedmyself。ItwasnecessarythatIshouldoverhearwhatwassaid。I
threwmyselfflatonthegrass,andsoglidedsilentlyintothecopseuntilIwascompletelywithinearshot。ThiswaswhatI
heard。
Mywifewassobbing。“Sosoon——sosoon?I——Hammond,givemealittletime!“
“Icannot,Elsie。Mychiefordersmetojoinhim。Youmustpreparetoaccompanyme。”
“No,no!“murmuredElsie。“Helovesmeso!AndIlovehim。Ourchild,too——howcanIrobhimofourunbornbabe?“
“Anothersheepforourflock,“answeredBrakesolemnly。“Elsie,doyouforgetyouroath?Areyouoneofus,orareyouacommonhypocrite,whowillbeofusuntilthehourofself-sacrifice,andthenflylikeacoward?Elsie,youmustleaveto-night。”
“Ah!myhusband,myhusband!“sobbedtheunhappywoman。
“Youhavenohusband,woman,“criedBrakeharshly。“IpromisedDaytonnottospeaktoyouaslongasyouwerehiswife,butthevowwasannulledbeforeitwasmade。YourhusbandinGodyetawaitsyou。Youwillyetbeblessedwiththetruespouse。”
“IfeelasifIweregoingtodie,“criedElsie。“HowcanIeverforsakehim——hewhowassogoodtome?“
“Nonsense!noweakness。Heisnotworthyofyou。Gohomeandprepareforyourjourney。Youknowwheretomeetme。Iwillhaveeverythingready,andbydaybreakthereshallbenotraceofusleft。Bewareofpermittingyourhusbandtosuspectanything。Heisnotveryshrewdatsuchthings——hethoughtIwasaJesuitindisguise——butwehadbetterbecareful。Nowgo。Youhavebeentoolongherealready。Blessyou,sister。”
Afewfaintsobs,arustlingofleaves,andIknewthatBrakewasalone。Irose,andsteppedsilentlyintotheopenspaceinwhichhestood。Hisbackwastowardme。Hisarmswereliftedhighoverhisheadwithanexultantgesture,andIcouldseehisprofile,asitslightlyturnedtowardme,illuminatedwithasmileofscornfultriumph。Iputmyhandsuddenlyonhisthroatfrombehind,andflunghimonthegroundbeforehecouldutteracry。
“Notaword,“Isaid,unclaspingashort-bladedknifewhichI
carried;“answermyquestions,or,byheaven,Iwillcutyourthroatfromeartoear!“
Helookedupintomyfacewithanunflinchingeye,andsethislipsasifresolvedtosufferall。
“Whatareyou?Whoareyou?Whatobjecthaveyouintheseductionofmywife?“
Hesmiled,butwassilent。