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  Thegeneralsmiledgenially。``IthinkImaysaywithoutconceitthatyouwilllikemeasyouknowmebetter。Ihavenobadhabits——I’vetoomuchregardformyhealthtoover-indulgeorrunloose。InmyboyhooddaysImayhaveputinratheraheavysowingofwildoats’’——thegenerallaughed。Mildredconjuredupthewintriestandfaintestofechoingsmiles——``butthat’sallpast,’’hewenton,``andthere’snothingthatcouldriseuptointerferewithourhappiness。Youarefondofchildren?’’

  Apause,thenMildredsaidquiteevenly,``Yes。’’

  ``Excellent,’’saidthegeneral。``I’llexpectyouandyourmotherandfathertodinnerSundaynight。Isthatsatisfactory?’’

  ``Yes,’’saidMildred。

  Alongishpause。Thenthegeneral:``Youseemtobealittle——afraidofme。Idon’tknowwhyitisthatpeoplearealwaysthatwaywithme。’’Ahalt,togivehertheopportunitytosaytheobviousflatteringthing。

  Mildredsaidnothing,gavenosign。Hewenton:``Itwillwearawayasweknoweachotherbetter。Iamasimple,plainman——kindandgenerousinmyinstincts。

  OfcourseIamdignified,andIdonotlikefamiliarity。

  ButIdonotmeantoinspirefearandawe。’’

  Astilllongerpause。``Well,everythingissettled,’’

  saidthegeneral。``Weunderstandeachotherclearly?——

  notanengagement,nothingbindingoneitherside——simplya——a——anoptionwithoutforfeit。’’Andhelaughed——hislaughwasaghoulishsound,notloudbutexplosiveandaninstantcheckupondemonstrationofmirthfromanyoneelse。

  ``Iunderstand,’’saidMildredwithaglancetowardthedoorthroughwhichPresburyandhiswifehaddisappeared。

  ``Now,we’lljointheothers,andI’llshowyouthehouse’’——againthelaugh——``whatmaybeyourfuturehome——oneofthem。’’

  Thefourweresoonstarteduponwhatwasforthreeofthemawearifuljourneydespitetheelevatorthatsparedthemtheascentsofthestairways。Thehousewasanexaggeratedreproductionofalltheestablishmentsoftherichwhoconfuseexpenditurewithluxuryandcomfort。BillSiddallhadbought``thebestofeverything’’。thatis,thethingsintowhichthepurveyorsofcostlyfurnishingshaveputthemostexcusesforcharging。Oftaste,ofcomfort,ofdiscrimination,therewerefewtracesandtheseobviouslyaccidental。

  ``Ipickedoutthemenacknowledgedtobethebestintheirdifferentlines,’’saidthegeneral,``andIgavethemcarteblanche。’’

  ``Iseethatataglance,’’saidPresbury。``You’vedonethegrandthingonthegrandestpossiblescale。’’

  ``I’velookedintothefinestofthefamousplacesontheotherside,’’saidthegeneral。``AllIcansayis,I’vehadnoregrets。’’

  ``Ishouldsaynot,’’criedMrs。Presbury。

  Withanaffectationofmodesthesitation——toshowthathewasagentlemanwithagentleman’sfineappreciationofthedueofmaidenmodesty——Siddallpausedattheouterdoorofhisownapartments。ButatonesentenceofurgingfromMrs。Presburyheopenedthedoorandusheredthemin。Andsoonhewasshowingthemeverything——hisCarraramarblebathroomandbathing-pool,hisbedthathadbeenusedbyseveralFrenchkings,hisdressing-roomwithitsappliancesofgoldandplatinumandpreciousstones,hisclothing。

  Theyhadtoinspectaroomfullofsuits,hugechiffonierscrowdedwithshirtsandtiesandunderclothes。

  Heexhibitedsilkdressing-robesandpajamas,pointedoutthemarksofthefashionableLondonandParismakers,themonograms,theliningsofermineandsable。

  ``I’mveryparticularabouteverythingthattouchesme,’’explainedhe。``Itseemstomeagentlemancan’tbetooparticular。’’WithameaningglanceatMildred,``AndI’dfeelthesamewayaboutmywife。’’

  ``Youhearthat,Mildred?’’saidPresbury,withanastylittlelaugh。Hehadbeenrelievingthetediumofthissight-seeingtourbyobserving——andfromtimetotimeaggravating——Mildred’ssufferings。

  Thegeneralreleasedhismirth-stranglinggoatlaugh。

  Mrs。Presburyechoeditwithagaleofratherwildhysterics。SowellpleasedwasthegeneralwiththeexcursionandsofardidhefeeladvancedtowardintimacythatonthewaydownthemajesticmarblestairwayheventuredtogiveMildred’sarmagentle,playfulsqueeze。Andatthepartinghekissedherhand。Presburyhadchangedhismindaboutreturningtothecountry。OnthewaytothehotelhegirdedatMildred,reviewingallthatthelittlegeneralhadsaidanddone,andsneering,jeeringatit。Mildredmadenotasingleretortuntiltheywereupstairsinthehotel。AtthedoortoherroomshesaidtoPresbury——saiditinaquiet,cold,terribleway:

  ``Ifyoureallywantmetogothroughwiththisthing,youwillstopinsultinghimandme。Ifyoudoitagain,I’llgiveup——andgoonthestreetsbeforeI’llmarryhim。’’

  Presburyshruggedhisshouldersandwentontotheotherroom。Buthedidnotbeginagainthenextday,andfromthattimeforthavoidedreferencetothegeneral。Infact,therewasanastonishingchangeinhiswholedemeanor。Heceasedtobaithiswife,becamepolite,evenaffable。Ifhehadconductedhimselfthusfromtheoutset,hewouldhavegotfarlesscredit,wouldhavemadefarlessprogresstowardwinningthelikingofhiswife,andofherdaughter,thanhedidinabrieftwoweeksofchangefrompettyandmalignanttyranttogood-natured,interestinglytalkativeoldgentleman。

  Afterthemannerofhumannature,Mildredandhermother,intheirrelief,intheirpleasurethroughthisamazingsuddenandwhollyunexpectedgeniality,notmerelyforgavebutforgotalltheyhadsufferedathishands。Mildredwasnotwithoutasuspicionofthetruththatthischange,inauguratedinhisowngoodtime,wasfreshevidenceofhiscontemptforbothofthem——ofhisfeelingthathecouldeasilymakereparationwithalittlekindnessanddecencyandputhimselfinthewayofgettinganypossiblebenefitsfromtherichalliance。Butthoughshepracticallyknewwhatwasgoingoninhismind,shecouldnotpreventherselffromsofteningtowardhim。

  Nowfollowedasuccessionofdinners,oftheater-andopera-goings,ofweek-endsatthegeneral’snewcountrypalaceinthefashionableregionofLongIsland。

  Allthesefestivitieswereofthesameformalandtediouscharacter。Atallthegeneralwasthecentralsunwiththeothersdimanddraggledsatellites,hardlymoreimportantthantheouterrimofsatelliteservants。Hedidmostofthetalking。hewasthesoletopicofconversation。forwhenhewasnottalkingabouthimselfhewishedtobehearingabouthimself。IfMildredhadnotbeenseeingmoreandmoreplainlythatotherandrealpersonalityofhis,hercontemptforhimandforherselfwouldhavegrownbeyondcontrol。But,withhimorawayfromhim,ateveryinstanttherewasthesenseofthatotherrealWilliamSiddall——ashadowymenacefullofterror。Shedreamedofit——wasstartledfromsleepbyvisionsofamonstrousandmightydistortionofthelittlegeneral’sgrotesqueexterior。``IshallmarryhimifIcan,’’shesaidtoherself。``But——canI?’’Andshefearedandhopedthatshecouldnot,thatcouragewouldfailher,orwouldcometoherrescue,whicheveritwas,andthatshewouldrefusehim。Asidefromthesenseofherbodythatcannotbutbewithanywomanwhoisbeautiful,shehadnevertheretoforebeenespeciallyphysicalinthought。Thatsideoflifehadremainedvague,asshehadneverindulgedinorevenbeenstronglytemptedwiththethingsthatrouseitfromitsvirginalsleep。

  Butnowshethoughtonlyofherbody,becausethatitwas,andthatalone,thathaddrawnthisprospectivepurchaser,andhiseyesneverletherforgetit。Shefellintothehabitoflookingatherselfintheglass——

  atherface,athershoulders,atherwholeperson,notinvanitybutinakindofwonderoraversion。Andinthevisions,boththewakingandthesleeping,shereachedtheclimaxofhorrorwhenthemonstertouchedher——withclammy,creepyfingers,withmunchinglips,withthesharpendsofthemustacheorimperial。

  SaidMrs。Presburytoherhusband,``I’mafraidthegeneralwillbeirritatedbyMildred’sunresponsiveness。’’

  ``Don’tworry,’’repliedPresbury。``He’ssocrazyabouthimselfthatheimaginesthewholeworldisinthesamestate。’’

  ``Isn’titstrangethathedoesn’tgiveherpresents?

  Neveranythingbutcandyandflowers。’’

  ``Andheneverwill,’’saidPresbury。

  ``Notuntilthey’remarried,Isuppose。’’

  Presburywassilent。

  ``Ican’thelpthinkingthatifMillyweretorouseherselfandshowsome——someliking——oratleastinterest,it’dbewiser。’’

  ``She’stakingthebestpossiblecourse,’’saidPresbury。``Unconsciouslytobothofthem,she’sleadinghimon。Hethinksthat’sthewayaladyshouldact——

  restrained,refined。’’

  Mildred’sattitudewassimpleinertia。Themostpositiveeffortshemadewasavoidingsayingordoinganythingtodispleasehim——nodifficultmatter,asshewassilentandalmostlifelesswhenhewasnear。Withoutanyencouragementfromherhegraduallygotadeeprespectforher——whichmeantthathebecameconvincedofhercoldnessandexclusiveness,ofherabsolutetrustworthiness。Presburywasmoreprofoundlyrightthanheknew。Thegirlpursuedtheonlycoursethatmadepossiblethesuccessshelongedfor,yetdreadedandloathed。ForattheoutsetSiddallhadnotbeennearlysostronglyinearnestinhismatrimonialprojectashehadprofessedandhadbelievedhimself。Hewishedtomarry,wishedtoaddtohispossessionstheadmirableshow-pieceandexhibitionopportunityaffordedbytherightsortofwife。butinthebottomofhishearthefeltthatsuchawomanashedreamedofdidnotexistinallthefoolish,fickle,andshallowfemalesex。Thisgirl——socold,soproud,beautifulyetnoteagertodisplayhercharmsortohavethempraised——shewastherarebirdhesought。

  Inamonthheaskedhertomarryhim。thatis,hesaid:``Mydear,IfindthatIamreadytogothelimit——ifyouare。’’Andsheassented。Heputhisarmaroundherandkissedhercheek——andwasdelightedtodiscoverthatthealluringembracemadenoimpressionupontheiceofher``purityandladylikedignity。’’Uptotheverylastmomentoftheformalcourtshipheheldhimselfreadytowithdrawshouldsherevealtohiswatchfulnesstheslightestsignofhavingany``unladylike’’tendenciesorfeelings。Sherevealednosuchsign,butremained``ladylike’’。andcertainly,sothegeneralreasoned,awomanwhocouldthusresisthim,eveninthelicenseoftheformalengagement,wouldresistanybody。

  Assoonastheengagementwasformallyconcluded,thegeneralhurriedonthepreparationsforthewedding。

  HeopenedaccountsathalfadozenshopsinNewYork——dressmakers,milliners,dealersinfineandfashionableclothingofeverykind——andgavethemorderstoexecutewhatevercommandsMissGowerorhermother——forHER——mightgivethem。Whenhetoldherofthismunificenceandmagnificenceandpausedfortheoutburstofgratitude,helistenedinvain。

  Mildredcoloredtotherootsofherhairandwassilent,wasseekingthecouragetorefuse。

  ``Iknowthatyouandyourpeoplecan’taffordtodothethingasthingsrelatedtomemustbedone,’’hewentontosay。``SoIdecidedtojuststartinalittleearlyatwhatI’vegottodoanyhow。NotthatIblameyouforyournothavingmoney,mydear。Onthecontrary,that’soneofyourmeritswithme。Iwouldn’tmarryawomanwithmoney。Itputsthefamilylifeonawrongbasis。’’

  ``Ihadplannedaquietwedding,’’saidMildred。

  ``I’dmuchpreferit。’’

  ``Nowyoucanbefrankwithme,mydear,’’saidthegeneral。``Iknowyouladies——howcheatedyoufeelifyouaren’tmarriedwithallthefrillsandfixings。

  Sothat’sthewayitshallbedone。’’

  ``Really,’’protestedMildred,``I’mabsolutelyfrank。

  Iwishittobequitequiet——inourdrawing-room,withnoguests。’’

  Siddallsmiled,genialandtolerant。``Don’targuewithme,mydear。Iknowwhatyouwant,andI’llseethatyougetit。Goaheadwiththeseshop-peopleI’veputatyourdisposal——andgoasfarasyoulike。

  Thereisn’tanything——ANYTHING——inthewayofclothesthatyoucan’thave——thatyoumustn’thave。

  Mrs。GeneralSiddallisgoingtobethebest-dressedwomanintheworld——assheistheprettiest。Ihaven’topenedanaccountforyouwithTiffany’soranyofthosepeople。I’lllookoutforthatpartofthebusiness,myself。’’

  ``Idon’tcareforjewelry,’’saidMildred。

  ``Naturallynotforthekindthat’sbeenwithinyourmeansheretofore,’’repliedhe。``butyou’llopenyoureyeswhenyouseeMYjewelryforMYwife。Allingoodtime,mydear。Youandyourmothermuststartrightinwiththeshopping。and,aweekorsobeforethewedding,I’llsendmypeopledowntotransformthehouse。Imaybewrong,butIratherthinkthattheSiddallweddingwillcausesometalk。’’

  Hewasnotwrong。Throughhisconfidentialsecretary,Hardingthethorough,thenewspaperpresswasinducedtotakeaninterestintheincredibleextravaganceSiddallwasperpetratinginarrangingforafittingweddingforGeneralWilliamSiddall。FormanydaysbeforetheceremonythereweredailycolumnsabouthimandhisromanticcareerandhisromanticwooingoftheNewJerseygirlofexcellentfamilyandsocialpositionbutofcomparativelymodestmeans。

  Theshopkeepersgaveinterviewsonthetrousseau。Thedecoratorsandcaterersdetailedthesplendorsandthecostlinessofthepreparationsofwhichtheyhadcharge。

  FrommorninguntildarkacrowdhungroundthehouseatHangingRock,andontheweddingdaythestreetsleadingtoitwereblocked——chieflywithpeoplecomefromadistance,manyofthemfromNewYork。

  AttheoutsetallthisnoisewasdeeplydistastefultoMildred,butafterafewdayssherecoveredhernormalpointofview,forgotthekindofmanshewasmarry-

  ingintheexcitementandexultationoverhersuddensplendorandfame。Sostronglydidthedelusionpresentlybecome,thatshewaslookingatthelittlegeneralwithanythingbutunfavorableeyes。Heseemedtoheraquaint,fascinating,benevolentnecromancer,havingmiraculouspowerswhichhewasexercisinginherbehalf。

  Sheevenreproachedherselfwithingratitudeinnotbeingwildlyinlovewithhim。Wouldnotanyothergirl,inherplace,havefallenoverearsinlovewiththismarvelousman?

  However,whileshecouldnotquiteconvinceherselfthatsheloved,shebecameconvincedwithouteffortthatshewashappy,thatshewasgoingtobestillhappier。

  Theexcitementwroughtherintoastateofexaltationandsweptherthroughtheweddingceremonyandthegoingawayasradiantabrideasamanwouldcaretohave。

  Thereismuchtobesaidagainstthenoisy,showywedding。Certainlylovehasrarelybeenknowntodegradehimselftothepointofattendinganysuch。Butthereissomethingtobesaidforthatsortofmarriedstart——forinstance,whereloveisneitherinvitednordesired,aneffortmustbemadetocoverthepainfulvacancyhisabsencealwayscauses。

  Thelittlegeneral’sinsistenceona``realwedding’’

  wasmosthappyforhim。Itprobablygothimhisbride。

  III

  THEintoxicationofthatweddingheldonlongenoughandstronglyenoughtosoftenandbluntthedisillusionmentsofthefirstfewdaysofthehoneymoon。Intheprospectthatperiodhadseemed,eventoMildred’sratherunsophisticatedimagination,appallingbeyondherpowertoendure。Inthefact——thanksinlargeparttothatintoxication——itwascertainlynotunendurable。Ahumanbeing,evenaninnocentyounggirl,canusuallybearupunderanyexperiencetowhichahumanbeingcanbesubjected。Thegeneralinpajamas——

  ofthefinestsilkandofpigeon’s-eggbluewithavastgorgeousmonogramonthepocket——wasmoregrotesque,ratherthanmorerepellent,thanthegeneralinmorningoreveningattire。Alsohe——thatis,hisexpertstaffofprovidersofluxury——hadarrangedforthebrideaseriesofthemostravishingsensationsinwhiskingher,liketheheroineofanArabianNight’stale,fromstraitenedcircumstancestotheveryparadiseofluxury。

  Thegeneral’sideasonthesubjectofwomanwereoldfashioned,ofthehard-shellvariety。Womanwasmadeforluxury,andluxurywasmadeforwoman。Hiswomanmustbethemostdivinelyeasefuloftheluxurious。

  Atalltimesshemustbefitandreadyforanyandeverysybariticideathatmightenterherhusband’shead——andotherpurposeshehadnone。Whenshewasnotdirectlyengagedinministeringtohisjoyshemustbebusypreparingherselfforhisnextcalluponher。Awomanwasaluxury,wastheluxuryofluxuries,musthaveandmustusetotheiruttermostallcapacitiesforgratifyinghissensesandhisvanity。

  Alonewithhim,shemustmakehimconstantlyfeelhowrichandrareandexpensiveaprizehehadcaptured。

  Whenotherswereabout,shemustbeconstantlymakingthemenvyandadmirehimforhavingexclusiverightsinsuchwonderfulpreserves。Allthiswithaninflexibledevotiontotheloftiestidealsofchastity。

  Butthefirstrealizationsofherhusband’snotionsastowomenwerealtogetherpleasant。AssheenteredtheautomobileinwhichtheywenttotheprivatecarinthespecialtrainthattookthemtoNewYorkandthesteamer——assheenteredthatnewandprodigallyluxuriousautomobile,shehadafirst,keensenseofherchangedposition。Thentherewasthesuperbprivatecar——hercar,sinceshewashiswife——andtherewasthebeautifulsuiteinthemagnificentsteamer。Andateveryinstantmenialsthrustingattentionsuponher,addressingherasifshewereaqueen,revealingintheirnervoustonesandanxiouseyestheireagernesstoplease,theirfearofdispleasing。Andonthesteamer,fromNewYorktoCherbourg,shewasneverpermittedtolosesightofthematerialsplendorsthatwerenowhers。

  Alltheservants,allthepassengers,remindedherbytheirlooks,theirtones。AtParis,inthehotel,intherestaurants,intheshops——especiallyintheshops——

  thosesnobbishinstinctsthatarelatentinthesanestandthewisestofuswerefedandfattenedandpampereduntilherheadwasquiteturned。Andthegeneralbegantobuyjewelsforher。Suchjewels——

  ropesofdiamondsandpearlsandemeralds,ringssuchasshehadneverdreamedexisted!ThoseshoppingexcursionsoftheirsintheRuedelaPaixwouldmakesuchataleasyourordinarysimplecitizen,ignorantoftheworld’sresourcesinluxuryandthereforeincredulousaboutthem,wouldreadwithalaughattheextravaganceoftheteller。

  Beforetheintoxicationoftheweddinghadwornawayitwasre-enforcedbytheintoxicationofthehoney-

  moon——notanintoxicationoflove’sproviding,butoneexceedingpotentinitsinfluenceuponourweakhumanbrainsandhearts,onefromwhichthestrongestofus,insteadofsneeringatpoorMildred,wouldbetterbeprayingtobedelivered。

  Athermarriageshehadafewhundreddollarsleftofherpatrimony——threehundredandfiftyandodd,tobemoreexact。Shespentalittlemoneyofherownhereandthere——intips,inbuyingpresentsforhermother,inpickinguptriflesforherowntoilet。Thedaycamewhenshelookedinherpurseandfoundtwoone-francpieces,afifty-francnote,andafewcoppers。

  Andsuddenlyshesatbackandstared,hermouthopenlikeheralmostemptygoldbag,whichthegeneralhadboughtherontheirfirstdayintheRuedelaPaix。

  Abouttendollarsinalltheworld,andthegeneralhadforgottentospeak——ortomakeanyarrangement,atleastanyarrangementofwhichshewasaware——aboutafurthersupplyofmoney。

  Theyhadbeenmarriednearlyamonth。Heknewthatshewaspoor。Whyhadn’thesaidsomethingor,betterstill,DONEsomething?Doubtlesshehadsimplyforgotten。Butsincehehadforgottenforamonth,mighthenotcontinuetoforget?True,hehadhimselfbeenpooratonetimeinhislife,verypoor,andthatforalongtime。Butithadbeensomanyyearsagothathehadprobablylostallsenseofthemeaningofpoverty。Shefrownedatthisevidenceofhislackofthefinersensibilities——bynomeansthefirsttimethatlackhadbeendisagreeablythrustuponher。Soonshewouldbewithoutmoney——andshemusthavemoney——notmuch,asalltheseriousexpenseswerelookedafterbythegeneral,butstillalittlemoney。Howcouldshegetit?Howcouldsheremindhimofhisneglectwithoutseemingtobeindelicate?Itwasadifficultproblem。Sheworkedatitmoreandmorecontinuously,andirritably,andnervously,asthedayswentbyandherfifty-twofrancsdwindledtofive。

  Shelayawake,planninglongandelaborateconversationsthatwouldimperceptiblyleadhimuptowherehemustseewhatsheneededwithoutseeingthathehadbeenled。Shecarriedouttheseingeniousconversations。

  Sheledhimalong,hedocilelyandunsuspectinglyfollowing。Shebroughthimuptowhereitseemedtoherimpossibleforanyhumanbeingendowedwiththeordinaryfacultiestofailtoseewhatwassoplainlyinview。Allinvain。GeneralWilliamSiddallgazedplacidly——andsawnothing。

  Severaldaysofthesefailures,andwithherfundsreducedtoafifty-centimepieceandatwo-souscoppershemadeafrontalattack。Whentheywentforthfortheday’sshoppingshelefthergoldbagbehind。Afteranhourorsoshesaid:

  ``I’vegottogototheGalleriesLafayetteforsomelittlethings。Ishan’taskyoutosacrificeyourself。I

  knowyouhatethosestuffy,smellybigshops。’’

  ``Verywell,’’saidhe。``I’llusethetimeinacallonmybankers。’’

  Astheywereabouttoseparate,shetakingthemotorandhewalking,shemadeafaceofcharmingdismayandsaid:``Howprovoking!I’veleftmybagatthehotel。’’

  Insteadoftheexpectedpromptofferofmoneyhesaid,``It’llonlytakeyouaminuteorsotodrivethere。’’

  ``Butit’soutoftheway,’’shereplied。``I’llneedonlyahundredfrancsorso。’’

  Saidhe:``I’veanaccountattheBonMarche。Gothereandhavethethingscharged。It’smuchthebestbigshopinParis。’’

  ``Verywell,’’wasallshecouldtrustherselftosay。

  Sheconcealedherangerbeneathacarelesssmileanddroveaway。Howdensehewas!Couldanythingbemoreexasperating——ormoredisagreeable?WhatSHOULDshedo?Thesituationwasintolerable。yethowcoulditbeended,exceptbyahumiliatingdirectrequestformoney?Shewonderedhowyoungwiveshabituallydealtwiththisproblem,whentheyhappenedtomarryhusbandssonegligent,nottosayunderbred,astocausethemtheawkwardnessandtheshame。Therefollowedseveraldaysduringwhichthemoneyideawasanobsession,naggingandgrinningathereveryin-

  stant。Thesightofmoneygaveherapeculiaritchingsensation。Whenthelittlegeneralpaidforanything——alwaysdrawingoutagreatsheafofbanknotesindoingit——sheflushedhotandcold,herglancefellguiltilyandsoughtthemoneyfurtively。Atlastherdesperationgavebirthtoaninspiration。

  Aboutherandthegeneral,or,rather,aboutthegeneral,revolvedtheusualrichman’ssmallarmyofsatellitesofvariousdegrees——secretaries,butlers,footmen,valets,otherservantsmaleandfemale,someofthemsupposedtobedevotedentirelytoherservice,butallinfactlookingevertothelittlegeneral。Themembersofthiscompany,regardlessofdifferencesofrankandpay,werebandedtogetherinasortofdemocraticfellowship,talkingfreelywithoneanother,ontermsofperfectequality。Sheherselfhad,curiously,gottenonexcellenttermswiththismotleyfraternityandfoundnosmallrelieffromthestrainofthegeneral’sformaldignityintalkingwiththemwithafreedomandeaseshehadneverbeforefeltinthesocietyofunderlings。

  ThemostconspicuousandmostagreeablefigureinthiscompanywasHarding,thegeneral’sfactotum。WhynotlaythecasebeforeHarding?Hewasnotablysensible,andsympathetic——anddiscreet。

  Thefollowingdayshedidso。Saidshe,blushingfuriously:``Mr。Harding,Ifindmyselfinaveryembarrassingposition。Iwonderifyoucanhelpme?’’

  Harding,ayoungmanandofoneofthebestblondtypes,said:``NodoubtIcan——andI’llbegladto。’’

  ``Thefactis’’——Hervoicewastremblingwithnervousness。Sheopenedthegoldbag,tookoutthelittlesilverpiecesandthebigcopperpiece,extendedherpinkpalmwiththemuponit——``there’sallI’vegotleftofthemoneyIbroughtwithme。’’

  Hardinggazedattheexhibittranquilly。Hewaschieflyremarkableforhisperfectself-possession。Saidhe:``Doyouwishmetocashacheckforyou?’’

  Thestupidityofmen!Tearsofvexationgatheredinhereyes。Whenshecouldspeakshefaltered:

  ``No。’’

  Hewaslookingathernow——agrave,kindglance。

  Shesomehowfeltencouragedandheartened。Shewenton:``Iwashoping——that——thatthegen——

  thatmyhusbandhadsaidsomethingtoyouandthatyouperhapshadnotthoughttosayanythingtome。’’

  Theirglancesmet,hismovinglysympatheticandunderstanding,herspiteouslyforlorn——thelookofalovelygirl,strandedandfriendlessinafarstrangeland。Presentlyhesaidgently:

  ``Yes,hetoldmetosaysomethingtoyou——ifyoushouldspeaktomeaboutthismatter。’’Histonecausedinherheartahorriblestillnessofsuspense。Hewenton:``Hesaid——Igiveyouhisexactwords:

  `Ifmywifeshouldaskyouformoney,tellhermyideasonthesubject。’’’

  Apause。Shestartedup,crimson,herglancedartingnervouslythiswayandthattoavoidhis。``Nevermind。Really,it’sofnoimportance。Thankyou——

  I’llgetonverywell——I’msorrytohavetroubledyou——’’

  ``Pardonme,Mrs。Siddall,’’heinterposed,``butI

  thinkyou’dbestletmefinish。’’

  Shestartedtoprotest,shetriedtomovetowardthedoor。Herstrengthfailedher,shesatdown,waited,nervouslyclaspingandunclaspingthecostly,jewel-

  embroideredbag。

  ``Hehasexplainedtome,manytimes,’’continuedHarding,``thathebelieveswomendonotunderstandthevalueofmoneyandoughtnottobetrustedwithit。

  Heproposestoprovideeverythingforyou,everycomfortandluxury——Iamusinghisownlanguage,Mrs。

  Siddall——andhehasopenaccountsattheprincipalshopsineverycitywhereyouwillgo——NewYork,Washington,Chicago,Denver,Paris,London,Rome。

  Hesaysyouareatlibertytogetpracticallyanythingyoupleaseattheseshops,andhewillpaythebills。

  Hethusentirelysparesyouthenecessityofeverspendinganymoney。Shouldyouseeanythingyouwishatsomeshopwherehehasnoaccount,youcanhaveitsentcollect,andIormyassistant,Mr。Drawl,willsettleforit。Allheasksisthatyouusediscretioninthisfreedom。Hesaysitwouldbeextremelypainfultohimtohavetowithdrawit。’’

  Hardinghadpronouncedthislongspeechinadrymonotonousvoice,likeonereadingmechanicallyfromadullbook。AsMildredlistened,herthoughtsbegantowhirlaboutthecentralideauntilshefellintoakindofstupor。Whenhefinishedshewasstaringvacantlyatthebaginherlap——thebagshewasholdingopenwide。

  Hardingcontinued:``Healsoinstructedmetosaysomethingabouthisformer——hisexperiences。ThefirstMrs。Siddallhemarriedwhenhewasveryyoungandpoor。Ashegrewrich,shebecamemadlyextravagant。

  Andastheyhadstartedonabasisonwhichshehadfreeaccesstohismoneyhecouldnotcheckher。

  Theresult,finally,wasasuccessionofbitterquarrels,andtheywereabouttodivorcewhenshedied。HemadethesecondMrs。Siddallanallowance,aliberalallowance。Herfolliescompelledhimtowithdrawit。

  Sheresortedtounderhandedmeanstogetmoneyfromhimwithouthisknowingit。Hedetectedthefraud。

  Afteraseriesofdisagreeableincidentsshecommittedtheindiscretionwhichcausedhimtodivorceher。Hesaysthattheseexperienceshaveconvincedhimthat——’’

  ``ThesecondMrs。Siddall,’’interruptedMildred,``isshestillalive?’’

  Hardinghesitated。``Yes,’’hesaidreluctantly。

  ``Isshe——poor?’’askedMildred。

  ``Ishouldprefernotto——’’

  ``Didthegeneralforbidyoutotellme?’’

  ``Onthecontrary,heinstructedme——ButI’drathernottalkaboutit,Mrs。Siddall。’’

  ``Isshepoor?’’repeatedMildred。

  ``Yes。’’

  ``Whatbecameofher?’’

  Alongpause。ThenHardingsaid:``Shewasapoorgirlwhenthegeneralmarriedher。Afterthedivorceshelivedforawhilewiththeman。Buthehadnothing。Theyseparated。Shetriedvariouskindsofwork——andotherthings。Sinceshelostherlooks——

  Shewritesfromtimetotime,askingformoney。’’

  ``Whichshenevergets?’’saidMildred。

  ``Whichshenevergets,’’saidHarding。``LatelyshewascashierorheadwaitressinacheaprestaurantinSt。Louis。’’

  AfteralongsilenceMildredsaid:``Iunderstand。

  Iunderstand。’’Shedrewalongbreath。``Ishallunderstandbetterastimegoeson,butIunderstandfairlywellnow。’’

  ``Ineednottellyou,Mrs。Siddall,’’saidHardinginhisgentle,tranquilway,``thatthegeneralisthekindestandmostgenerousofmen,buthehashisownmethods——

  aswhohasnot?’’

  Mildredhadforgottenthathewasthere——notadifficultmatter,whenhehadinitsperfectionthesecretarialmannerofcompleteself-effacement。Saidshereflectively,likeonepuzzlingoutadifficultproblem:

  ``Hebuysawoman,ashebuysadogorahorse。

  Hedoesnotgivehisdog,hishorse,pocket-money。

  Whyshouldhegivehiswomanpocket-money?’’

  ``Willithelpmatters,Mrs。Siddall,togototheotherextremeanddohimagraveinjustice?’’

  Shedidnothear。Atthepicturepresentedtohermindbyherownthoughtsshegaveashortsatiricallaugh。``Howstupidofmenottohaveunderstoodfromtheoutset,’’saidshe。``Why,I’veoftenheardofthisverything。’’

  ``Itismoreandmorethecustomamongmenoflargeproperty,Ibelieve,’’saidHarding。``Perhaps,Mrs。

  Siddall,youwouldnotblamethemifyouwereintheirposition。Therichmenwhoarecareless——theyruineverybodyaboutthem,Iassureyou。I’veseenitagainandagain。’’

  Buttheyoungwifewasabsorbedinherownthoughts。Harding,feelinghermood,didnotinterrupt。

  Afterawhileshesaid:

  ``Imustaskyousomequestions。Thesejewelsthegeneralhasbeenbuying——’’

  Hardingmadeamovementofembarrassmentandprotest。Shesmiledironicallyandwenton:

  ``Onemoment,please。EverytimeIwishtowearanyofthemIhavetogotohimtogetthem。HeasksmetoreturnthemwhenIamundressing。Hesaysitissafertokeepeverythinginhisstrongbox。Ihavebeenassumingthatthatwastheonlyreason。Ibegintosuspect——AmIright,Mr。Harding?’’

  ``ReallyIcan’tsay,Mrs。Siddall,’’saidHarding。

  ``Thesearenotmatterstodiscusswithme,ifyouwillpermitmetosayso。’’

  ``Oh,yes,theyare,’’repliedshelaughingly。

  ``Aren’tweallinthesameboat?——allemployesofthegeneral?’’

  Hardingmadenoreply。

  Mildredwasbesideherselfwithakindofragethat,becauseoutletwasnecessaryandbecauseravingagainstthelittlegeneralwouldbeabsolutelyfutile,foundoutletinself-mockeryandrecklesssarcasm。

  ``Iunderstandaboutthejewels,too,’’shewenton。

  ``Theyarenotmine。Nothingismine。Everything,includingmyself,belongstohim。IfIgivesatisfactioninthepositionforwhichI’vebeenhiredformyboardandclothes,Imaycontinuetoeatthegeneral’sfoodandsleepinthegeneral’shouseandwearthegeneral’sjewelsanddressesandrideinthegeneral’strapsandbewaitedonbythegeneral’sservants。IfIdon’tlikemyplaceorhedoesn’tlikemywayoffillingit’’——shelaughedmerrily,mockingly——``outIgo——intothestreets——afterthesecondMrs。Siddall。Andthegeneralwillhireanew——’’Shepaused,castaboutforawordinvain,appealedtothesecretary,``Whatwouldyoucallit,Mr。Harding?’’

  Hardingrose,lookingatherwithaverysoothingtranquillity。``IfIwereyou,Mrs。Siddall,’’saidhe,``Ishouldgetintotheautoandgoforalongdrive——

  outtotheBois——outtoVersailles——along,longdrive。Ishouldbegonefourorfivehoursatleast,andIshouldlookatthethingfromallsides。Especially,I’dlookatitfromHISstandpoint。’’

  Mildred,somewhatquieter,butstillmocking,said:

  ``IfIshoulddecidetoquit,wouldmyexpensesbepaidbacktowhereIwasengaged?Ifancynot。’’

  Hardinglookedgrave。``Ifyouhadhadmoneyenoughtopayyourownexpensesabout,wouldyouhavemarriedhim?’’saidhe。``Isn’thepaying——payingliberally,Mrs。Siddall——forALLhegets?’’

  Mildred,stung,drewherselfuphaughtily,gavehimalookthatremindedhimwhoshewasandwhohewas。

  ButHardingwasnotimpressed。

  ``Yousaidamomentago——truly——thatweareallinthesameboat,’’observedhe。``IputthosequestionstoyoubecauseIhonestlywishtohelpyou——becauseIwishyounottoactfoolishly,hastily。’’

  ``Thankyou,Mr。Harding,’’saidMildredcoldly。

  Andwithaslightnodshewent,angryandashamedthatshehadsounaccountablyopeneduphersecretsoul,bareditsuglywounds,beforeamansheknewsoslightly,amaninapositionbutoneremovefrommenial。However,shetookhisadvice——notastotryingtoviewthematterfromallsides,forshewasconvincedthattherewasonlytheoneside,butastocalmingherselfbyalongdrivealoneinthewoodsandalongquietroads。Whenshereturnedshewasundercontroloncemore。

  Shefoundthegeneralimpatientlyawaitingher。

  Manypackageshadcome——fromthejewelers,fromthefurriers,fromashopwhosespecialtywasthethinnestandmostdelicateofhand-madeunderwear。Thegenerallovedtoopenandinspectfineryforher——

  loveditmorethanhelovedinspectingfineryforhimself,becausefemininefinerywasfarmoreattractivethanmasculine。Towhethispleasuretothekeenestshemustbetheretoadmirewithhim,totryon,toexhibit。Assheenteredthesalonwherethelittlemanwasfussingaboutamongthepackages,theirglancesmet。ShesawthatHardinghadtoldhim——atleastindiscreetoutline——oftheirconversation。Shealsosawthatifshereopenedthesubjectshewouldfindherselfstraightwaywhirledoutuponastormyseaofdangerthatmighteasilyoverwhelmherflimsyboat。Shesilentlyandsullenlydroppedintoherplace。sheministeredtothegeneral’spleasureinpackagesoffinery。

  Butshedidnotexclaim,oradmire,orrespondinanyway。Thehoneymoonwasover。Herdreamofwifehoodwasdissipated。

  Sheunderstoodnowthelookshesooftenhadseenonthefacesofrichmen’spoorwivesdrivinginstateinFifthAvenue。Thatnight,assheinspectedherselfintheglasswhilethegeneral’smaidforherbrushedherlongthickhair,shesawthebeginningsofthatlookinherownface。``Idon’tknowjustwhatIam,’’shesaidtoherself。``ButIdoknowwhatIamnot。Iamnotawife。’’

  Shesentawaythemaid,andsatthereinthedressing-

  roombeforethemirror,waiting,herglancetravelingaboutandnotingtheprofuseandprodigalluxury。Inthecornerstoodacircularrackloadedwithdressing-

  gowns——morethanascoreofexquisitecombinationsofsilkandlaceorsilkandchiffon。Itsohappenedthattherewasnowhereinsightasinglearticleofherapparelorforhertoiletthatwasnotboughtwiththegeneral’smoney。No,thereweresomehairpinsthatshehadpaidforherself,andacombwithwidelyseparatedteeththatshehadchancedtoseeinawindowwhenshewasaloneoneday。Anythingelse?

  Yes,atwo-francboxofpins。Andthatwasall。

  Everythingelsebelongedtothegeneral。Intheclosets,inthetrunks——allthegeneral’s,partofthetrousseauhehadpaidfor。Notanundergarment。notanoutergarment。notahatorapairofshoes,notawrap,notapairofgloves。All,thegeneral’s。

  Hewasinthedoorofthedressing-room——thesmallwiryfigureinrose-silkpajamas。Themustacheandimperialwerecarefullywaxedasalways,dayandnight。

  Onthelittlefeetwerehigh-heeledslippers。Ontheheadwasarose-silkNeapolitannightcapwithgaytassel。

  Thenightcaphidthebaldspotfromwhichtheloftytoupeehadbeenremoved。Agrotesquelittlefigure,butnotgrotesquetoher。Throughthemaskofthevain,boastfullittlefaceshesawthegeneralwatchingher,asshehadseenhimthatafternoonwhenshecamein——themysteriousandterriblepersonalitythathadmadethevastfortune,thathadriddenruthlesslyoverfriendandfoe,overmanandwomanandchild——tothegoalofitsdesires。

  ``It’slate,mydear?’’saidthelittleman。``Cometobed。’’

  Sherosetoobey——sheinthegeneral’spurchasesoffilmynightgownunderapale-pinksilkdressing-gown。

  Hesmiledwiththatcuriousnoiselessmumblingandsmackingofthethinlips。Shesatdownagain。

  ``Don’tkeepmewaiting。It’schilly,’’hesaid,advancingtowardher。

  ``Ishallsleepinhereto-night——onthecouch,’’saidshe。Shewastremblingwithfrightatherownaudacity。

  Shecouldseeafifty-centimepieceandacopperdancingbeforehereyes。Shefelthorriblyaloneandweak,butshehadnodesiretoretractthewordswithwhichshehadthrowndownthegauntlet。

  Thelittlegeneralhalted。Themaskdropped。theman,themonster,lookedather。``What’sthematter?’’

  saidheinanominouslyquietvoice。

  ``Mr。Hardingdeliveredyourmessageto-day,’’saidshe,andhersteadyvoiceastonishedher。``SoIamgoingbackhome。’’

  Hewaited,lookingsteadilyather。

  ``AfterhetoldmeandIthoughtaboutit,Idecidedtosubmit,butjustnowIsawthatIcouldn’t。Idon’tknowwhatpossessesme。Idon’tknowwhatI’mgoingtodo,orhowI’mgoingtodoit。Butit’salloverbetweenus。’’Shesaidthisrapidly,fluently,inadecisiveway,quiteforeigntohercharacterasshehadthoughtit。

  ``Youarecomingtobed,whereyoubelong,’’saidhequietly。

  ``No,’’repliedshe,pressingherselfagainstherchairasifforcewerebeingusedtodragherfromit。Shecastaboutforsomethingthatwouldmakeyieldingimpossible。``Youare——repulsivetome。’’

  Helookedatherwithoutchangeofcountenance。

  Saidhe:``Cometobed。Iaskyouforthelasttime。’’

  Therewasnoangerinhisvoice,nomenaceeitheropenorcovert。simplyfinality——thelastwordofthemanwhohadmadehimselffearedandsecureinthemining-campswheretheequationofpersonalcourageisstraightwayappliedtoeverysituation。Mildredshivered。Shelongedtoyield,tostammeroutsomeexcuseandobeyhim。Butshecouldnot。norwassheabletorisefromherchair。Shesawinhishardeyesalookofastonishment,ofcuriosityastothisunaccountabledefianceinonewhohadseemeddocile,whohadapparentlynoalternativebutobedience。Hewasnotsoastonishedatherasshewasatherself。``Whatistobecomeofme?’’herterror-strickensoulwascrying。

  ``Imustdoashesays——Imust——yetIcannot!’’

  Andshelookedathimandsatmotionless。

  Heturnedaway,movedslowlytowardthedoor,haltedatthethresholdtogivehertime,wasgone。A

  fitoftremblingseizedher。sheleanedforwardandrestedherarmsuponthedressing-tableorshewouldhavefallenfromthechairtothefloor。Yet,evenasherfearmadehersickandweak,sheknewthatshewouldnotyield。

  Thecolddrovehertothecouch,tolieunderhalfadozenofthedressing-gownsandpresentlytofallintoasleepofexhaustion。Whensheawokeafterwhatshethoughtwasafewminutesofunconsciousness,theclamoroftrafficintheRuedeRivolistartledher。Shestartedup,glancedattheclockonthechimneypiece。

  Itwastenminutespastnine!When,byalltherulesgoverningtheactionofthenerves,sheoughttohavepassedawakefulnightshehadoversleptmorethananhour。Indeed,shehadhadthefirstsoundandprolongedsleepthathadcometohersincethehoneymoonbegan。foruntilthenshehadsleptaloneallherlifeandtheneworderhadalmostgivenherchronicinsomnia。

  Sherangforhermaidandbegantodress。Themaiddidnotcome。Sherangagainandagain。

  apparentlythebellwasbroken。Shefinisheddressingandwentoutintothehuge,grandlyandgaudilyfurnishedsalon。Hardingwasatacarvedold-goldandlacquerdesk,writing。Assheenteredheroseandbowed。

  ``Won’tyoupleasecalloneoftheservants?’’saidshe。``Iwantmycoffee。Iguessthebellinmyroomisbroken。Mymaiddoesn’tanswer。’’

  ``No,thebellisnotbroken,’’saidHarding。

  Shelookedathimquestioningly。

  ``Thegeneralhasissuedanorderthatnothingistobedoneinthisapartment,andnothingserved,unlesshepersonallyauthorizesit。’’

  Mildredpaled,drewherselfupinwhatseemedagestureofhaughtinessbutwasanefforttomusterherstrength。Tosaveherselffromthehumiliationofabreakdownbeforehim,shehastilyretreatedbythewayshehadcome。Afterperhapsaquarterofanhourshereappearedinthesalon。shewasnowdressedforthestreet。Hardinglookedupfromhiswriting,roseandbowedgravely。Saidshe:

  ``Iamgoingoutforawalk。I’llbebackinanhourorso。’’

  ``Onemoment,’’saidHarding,haltingherasshewasopeningthedoorintothepublichall。``Thegeneralhasissuedanorderthatifyougoout,youarenottobeallowedtoreturn。’’

  Herhandfellfromtheknob。Withflashingeyesshecried,``Butthatisimpossible!’’

  ``Itishisorders,’’saidHarding,inhisusualquietmanner。``Andashepaysthebillshewillbeobeyed。’’

  Shedebated。Againstherwill,hertremblinghandsoughttheknobagain。Againstherwill,herweakarmbegantodrawthedooropen。Hardingcametowardher,stoodbeforeherandlookeddirectlyintohereyes。

  Hiseyeshaddreadandentreatyinthem,buthisvoicewasasalwayswhenhesaid:

  ``Youknowhim,Mrs。Siddall。’’

  ``Yes,’’shesaid。

  ``ThereasonhehasgotALLhewanted——whateverhewanted——isthathewillgotoanylength。Everyotherhumanbeing,almost,hasalimit,beyondwhichtheywillnotgo——aphysicalfearoramoralfearorafearofpublicopinion。Butthegeneral——hehasnolimit。’’

  ``Yes,’’shesaid。Anddeathlypaleandalmoststag-

  geringshedrewopenthedoorandwentoutintothepublichall。

  ``ForGod’ssake,Mrs。Siddall!’’criedHarding,ingreatagitation。``Comeinquickly。Theyarewatching——

  theywilltellhim!Areyoumad?’’

  ``IthinkImustbe,’’saidshe。``Iamsickwithfear。

  Icanhardlykeepfromdroppingdownhereinafaint。

  Yet——’’astrangelook,aminglingofabjectterrorandpassionatedefiance,gaveheranaspectquiteinsane——``Iamgoing。PerhapsI,too,havenolimit。’’

  Andshewentalongthecorridor,pastagroupofgapingandfrightenedservants,downthestairwayandoutbytheprivateentranceforthegrandapartmentsofthehotelintheRueRaymonddel’Isle。ShecrossedtheRuedeRivoliandenteredtheTuileriesGardens。

  Itwasonlybracinglycoolinthesunshineofthatwinterday。Sheseatedherselfonachairontheterracetoregainherebbedstrength。Hardlyhadshesatdownwhenthewomancollectorcameandstoodwaitingforthetwosousforthechair。Mildredopenedherbag,foundtwocoins。Shegavethecopperstothewoman。Theother——allthemoneyshehad——wasthefifty-centimepiece。

  ``Butthebag——Icangetagooddealforthat,’’shesaidaloud。

  ``Ibegyourpardon——Ididn’tcatchthat。’’

  Shecamebacktoasenseofhersurroundings。StanleyBairdwasstandingafewfeetaway,smilingdownather。Hewas,ifpossible,evenmoreattractivelydressedthaninthedayswhenhehoveredabouther,hopingvaguethingsofwhichhewasashamedandtry-

  ingtogetthecouragetoputdownhissnobbishnessandmarryherbecauseshesoexactlysuitedhim。Hewaswearinganewkindofcollarandtie,strikingyetinexcellentquiettaste。Also,hisfaceandfigurehadfilledoutjustenough——hehadbeentoothinintheformerdays。Buthewasnowentereduponthatperiodofthefearsomefortieswhen,unlessamanamountstosomething,hebeginstolookinsignificant。Hedidnotamounttoanything。hewasthereforepalingandwaningasapersonality。

  ``WasIthinkingaloud?’’saidMildred,asshegavehimherhand。

  ``Yousaidsomethingabout`gettingagooddeal。’’’

  Heinspectedherwiththefreedomofanoldfriendandwiththethoroughnessofaconnoisseur。WomenwhotookpainswiththemselvesandweresatisfiedwiththeresultslikedStanleyBaird’sknowingandappreciativewayofnotingthebestpointsintheirtoilets。``You’relookingfine,’’declaredhe。``ItmustbeapleasuretothemupintheRuedelaPaixtodressyou。That’smorethancanbesaidfornineoutoftenofthewomenwhogothere。Yes,you’relookingfine——andingrandhealth,too。Why,youlookyoungerthanIeversawyou。Nothinglikemarriagetofreshenagirlup。

  Well,Isupposewaitingroundforahusbandwhomayormaynotturnupdoeswearawomandown。’’

  ``Italmostkilledme,’’laughedMildred。``Andyouwerelargelyresponsible。’’

  ``I?’’saidBaird。``Youdidn’twantme。Iwastoooldforyou。’’

  ``No,Ididn’twantyou,’’saidMildred。``Butyouspoiledme。Icouldn’tenduretheboysofmyownage。’’

  StanleywasrememberingthatMildredhadmarriedamanmucholderthanhe。Withsomenotionofacarelesssortoftactinmindhesaid,``Iwasbetwixtandbetween——neitheryoungenoughnoroldenough。’’

  ``You’vemarried,too,sincewemet。Bytheway,thankyouagainforthatcharmingremembrance。

  Youalwaysdidhavesuchgoodtaste。Butwhydidn’tyoucometothewedding——youandyourwife?’’

  Helaughed。``Wewerebusybustingup,’’saidhe。

  ``Youhadn’theard?It’sbeeninthepapers。She’sgonebacktoherpeople。Oh,nothingdisgracefuloneitherside。Simplythatweboredeachothertodeath。

  Shewascrazyabouthorsesanddogs,andthatset。I

  thinkthestable’stheplaceforhorses——don’tcaretohave’emparadingthroughthehouseallthetime,everyroom,everymeal,sleepingandwaking。Anddogs——

  theinfernalbrutesalwayshavefleas。Fleasonlytickledher,buttheybiteme——raiseweltsandhills。There’syourhusbandnow,isn’tit?’’

  BairdwaslookingupatthewindowsoftheContinental,acrossthestreet。Mildred’sglanceslowlyandcarelesslyfollowedhis。Atonewindowstoodthelittlegeneral,gazingabstractedlyoutoverthegardens。AtanotherwindowMildredsawHarding。atathird,hermaid。atafourth,Harding’sassistant,Drawl。atafifth,threeservantsoftheretinue。Exceptthegeneral,allwerelookingather。

  ``You’vemarriedaveryextraordinaryman,’’saidBaird,inacorrecttoneofadmiration。``Oneoftheablestandmostinterestingmenwe’vegot,_I_think。’’

  ``Soyouarefreeagain?’’saidMildred,lookingathimwithaqueer,coldsmile。

  ``Yes,andno,’’repliedStanley。``Ihopetobeentirelyfree。It’shermovenext。I’mexpectingiteveryday。ButI’mthoroughlyrespectable。Won’tyouandthegeneraldinewithme?’’

  ``Thanks,butI’msailingforhometo-morrowornextday。’’

  ``That’sinteresting,’’saidBaird,withenthusiasm。

  ``SoamI。Whatshipdoyougoon?’’

  ``Idon’tknowyet。I’mtodecidethisafternoon,afterlunch。’’Shelaughed。``I’msittingherewaitingforsomeonetoaskmetolunch。I’venothadevencoffeeyet。’’

  ``Lunchwithme!’’criedBaird。``I’llgogetthegeneral——Iknowhimslightly。’’

  ``Ididn’tsayanythingaboutthegeneral,’’saidMildred。

  Stanleysmiledapologetically。``Itwouldn’tdoforyoutogoaboutwithme——notwhenmymissusislookingforgroundsfordivorce。’’

  ``Whynot?’’saidMildred。``So’smyhusband。’’

  ``Youbustedup,too?Now,that’swhat_I_calljolly。’’Andhecastapuzzledglanceupattheabstractedgeneral。``Isay,Mildred,thisisnoplaceforeitherofus,isit?’’

  ``I’dratherbewherethere’sfood,’’confessedshe。

  ``Youthinkit’sajoke,butIassureyou——Oh,youWEREjoking——aboutYOURbust-up?’’

  ``No,indeed,’’sheassuredhim。``Iwalkedoutawhileago,andIcouldn’tgobackifIwould——andI

  don’tthinkIwouldifIcould。’’

  ``That’sfoolish。Bettergoback,’’advisedhe。Hewaspreparinghastilytodecampfromsoperilousaneighborhood。``Onemarriageisaboutlikeanother,onceyougetthroughthesurface。I’msureyou’llbebetteroffthan——backwithyourstepfather。’’

  ``I’venointentionofgoingtohishouse,’’shedeclared。

  ``Oh,there’syourbrother。Iforgot。’’

  ``SohadIforgottenhim。I’llnotgothere,either。

  Infact,I’venotthoughtwhereI’llgo。’’

  ``Youseemtohavedonemightylittlethinkingbeforeyoutookaveryseriousstepforawoman。’’Hewasuneasilyeyingtherigid,abstractedlittlefigureastoryupacrosstheway。

  ``Thosethingsaren’taquestionofthinking,’’saidsheabsently。``Ineverthoughtinmylife——don’tthinkIcouldifItried。ButwhenthetimecameI——

  Iwalkedout。’’Shecamebacktoherself,laughed。

  ``Idon’tunderstandwhyI’mtellingyouallthis,especiallyasyou’remadwithfrightandwildtogetaway。

  Well,good-by,Stanley。’’

  Heliftedhishat。``Good-by。We’llmeetwhenwecandosowithoutmygettingascandalonyou。’’Hewalkedafewpaces,turned,andcameback。``Bytheway,I’msailingontheDeutschland。Ithoughtyou’dliketoknow——sothatyouandIwouldn’tbyanychancecrossonthesameboat。’’

  ``Thanks,’’saidshedryly。

  ``What’sthematter?’’askedhe,arrested,despitehisanxietytobegone,bythesad,scornfullookinhereyes。

  ``Nothing。Why?’’

  ``Youhadsucha——suchaqueerlook。’’

  ``Really?Good-by。’’

  Infact,shehadthought——hadhopedforthesakeofherlikingforhim——thathehadcomebacktomaketheglaringlyomittedofferofhelpthatshouldhavecomefromanyhumanbeinglearningthatafellowbeingwasintheprecariouspositioninwhichshehadtoldhimshewas。Notthatshewouldhaveacceptedanysuchoffer。Still,shewouldhavelikedtohaveheardthekindlywords。Shesatwatchinghishandsome,gracefulfigure,drapedinthemostartisticallycutoflongdarkovercoats,untilhedisappearedinthecrowdintheRuedeCastiglione。Then,withoutaglanceupattheinterested,nottosayexcitedwindowsofthegeneral’ssplendidandspreadingapartments,shestrolleddownthegardenstowardthePlaceConcorde。

  InParisthebeautiful,onabrightandbriskdayitisallbutimpossibletodespairwhenonestillhasleftyouthandhealth。Mildredwasnothappy——farfromit。Thefuture,theimmediatefuture,presseditsterrorsuponher。Butinmitigationtherewas,perhapsbornofyouthandinexperience,agiddysenseofrelief。

  Shehadnotrealizedhowabhorrentthegeneralwas——

  marriedlifewiththegeneral。Shehadbeenresigningherselftoit,acceptingitastheonlythingpossible,keepingitheavilydrapedwithhervanitiesofwealthandluxury——untilshediscoveredthatthewealthandtheluxurywereinrealitynomorehersthantheywerehermaid’s。Andnowshewasfree!

  Thatwordfreedidnothaveitsfullmeaningforher。

  Shehadneverknownwhatrealfreedomwas。womenofthecomfortableclass——andmen,too,forthatmatter——

  usuallyarebornintothepettyslaveryofconventionsatleast,andknownothingelsetheirwholelivesthrough——neverknowthejoyofthethoughtandtheactofafreemindandafreeheart。Still,shewasreleasedfromabondagethatseemedslavisheventoher,andthereleasegaveherasensationakintothejoyoffreedom。Aheavyhandthatwascrushingherverysoulhadbeenliftedoff——no,FLUNGoff,andbyherself。

  Thatthought,terrifyingthoughitwas,alsogaveheracertainnewandexaltingself-respect。Afterall,shewasnotaworm。Shemusthavesomewhereinherthegermsofsomethinglesscontemptiblethantheessentialcharacterofsomanyoftheeminentlyrespectablewomensheknew。Shecouldpicturetheminthesituationinwhichshehadfoundherself。Whatwouldtheyhavedone?Why,whateveryinstinctofhereducationimpelledhertodo。whatsomelatentloveoffreedom,someunsuspectedcourageofself-respecthadforbiddenhertodo,hadwithheldherfromdoing。

  Herthoughtsandthegorgeoussunshineandheryouthandhealthputherinasteadilylesscheerlessmoodasbyaroundaboutwayshesoughttheshopofthejewelerwhosoldthegeneralthegoldbagshehadselected。Theproprietorhimselfwasinthefrontpartoftheshopandreceived``MadamelaGenerale’’withallthehonorsofherhusband’swealth。Shebroughtnoexperienceandnonaturaltradingtalenttotheenterpriseshewasabouttoundertake。soshewentdirectlytothemainpoint。

  ``Thisbag,’’saidshe,layingitupontheglassbetweenthem,``Iboughtithereashorttimeago。’’

  ``Irememberperfectly,madame。Itisthehandsomest,themostartistic,wehavesoldthisyear。’’

  ``Iwishtosellitbacktoyou,’’saidshe。

  ``Youwishtogetsomethingelseandincludeitaspartpayment,madame?’’

  ``No,Iwishtogetthemoneyforit。’’

  ``Ah,butthatisdifficult。Wedonotoftenmakethosearrangements。Second-handarticles——’’

  ``Butthebagisquitenew。Anyhow,itmusthavesomevalue。OfcourseI’dnotexpectthefullprice。’’

  Thejewelersmiled。``Thefullprice?Ah,madame,weshouldnotthinkofofferingitagainasitis。

  Weshould——’’

  ``Nomatter,’’interruptedMildred。Theman’sexpression——thenormallypleasantandagreeablecountenanceturnedtorepulsivebycraftandlying——madehereagertobegone。``Whatisthemostyouwillgiveme?’’

  ``Ishallhavetoconsider——’’

  ``I’veonlyafewminutes。Pleasedonotirritateme。’’

  Themanwasstudyinghercountenancewithadesperatelook。Whywasshe,thebrideofthemonstrouslyrichAmerican,whywasshetryingtosellthebag?Diditmeantheendofherresources?Or,weretherestillhugeorderstobegotfromher?Hisshrewd-

  ness,trainedbythirtyyearsofdealingwithallkindsofluxurioushumanbeings,wentexploringinvain。Hewasalarmedbyherfrown。Hebeganhesitatingly:

  ``Thejewelsandthegoldareonlyasmallpartofthevalue。Thechiefvalueistheuniquedesign,soelegantyetsosimple。Forthejewelsandthegold,perhapstwothousandfrancs——’’

  ``Thepursewastwelvethousandfrancs,’’interruptedshe。

  ``Perfectly,madame。But——’’

  ``Iamingreathaste。Howmuchwillyougiveme?’’

  ``Themostwouldbefourthousand,Ifear。Ishallcountupmorecarefully,ifmadamewill——’’

  ``No,fourthousandwilldo。’’

  ``Iwillsendthemoneytomadameatherhotel。TheContinental,isitnot?’’

  ``No,Imusthaveitatonce。’’

  Thejewelerhesitated。Mildred,flushingscarletwithshame——butheluckilythoughtitanger——tookupthebagandmovedtowardthedoor。

  ``Pardon,madame,butcertainly。Doyouwishsomegoldorallnotes?’’

  ``Notes,’’answeredshe。``Fiftyandhundred-francnotes。’’

  Amomentlatershewasinthestreetwiththenotesinasmallbundleinthebosomofherwrap。Shewenthurriedlyupthestreet。Asshewasabouttoturnthecornerintotheboulevardsheonimpulseglancedback。

  Anautomobilehadjustdrawnupatthejeweler’sdoorandGeneralSiddall——top-hat,sable-linedovercoat,waxedmustacheandimperial,high-heeledboots,gold-

  mountedcane——wasdescending。Andsheknewthathehadawakenedtohisoneoversight,andwasonhiswaytorepairit。Butshedidnotknowthatthejeweler——oldandwiseinhumanways——wouldhastilyvanishwiththebagandthatanassistantwouldcomeforwardwithassurancesthatmadamehadnotbeenintheshopandthat,ifsheshouldcomein,nobusinesswouldbenegotiatedwithoutthegeneral’sexpressconsent。Sheallbutfaintedatthenarrownessofherescapeandfledroundintotheboulevard。SheenteredataxiandtoldthemantodrivetoFoyot’srestaurantontheleftbank——wherethegeneralwouldneverthinkoflookingforher。

  WhenshehadbreakfastedshestrolledintheLuxembourgGardens,inevenbetterhumorwithherselfandwiththeworld。Therewasstillthathorrid-facedfuture,butitwasnotleeringintoherveryface。Itwasnearlyfourthousandfrancsaway——``andifI

  hadn’tbeensostupid,I’dhavegoteightthousand,I’msure,’’shesaid。Butshewasratherproudofastupidityaboutmoneymatters。Andfourthousandfrancs,eighthundreddollars——thatwasquiteagoodsum。

  ShehadaninstinctthatthegeneralwoulddosomethingdisagreeableabouttheFrenchandEnglishportsofdepartureforAmerica。ButperhapshewouldnotthinkoftheItalianports。ThatnightshesetoutforGenoa,andthreedayslater,inadifferentdressandwithherhairdoneassheneverworeit,sailedasMissMaryStevensforAmericaonaGermanMediterraneanboat。

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