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  HENRYGOWERwasdeadatsixty-one——theendofalifelongfraudwhichneverhadbeensuspected,andneverwouldbe。Withtheworld,withhisacquaintancesandneighbors,withhiswifeandsonanddaughter,hepassedasagenerous,warm-hearted,good-naturedman,readyatalltimestodoanythingtohelpanybody,incapableofenvyorhatredormeanness。Infact,notonceinallhisdayshadheeverthoughtordoneasinglethingexceptforhisowncomfort。Likeallintenselyselfishpeoplewhoarewise,hewascheerfulandamiable,becausethatwasthewaytobehealthyandhappyandtohavethosearoundoneagreeableandinthemoodtodowhatonewishedthemtodo。Hetoldpeople,notthetruth,nottheunpleasantthingthatmighthelpthem,butwhattheywishedtohear。Hisfamilylivedinluxuriouscomfortonlybecausehehimselfwasfondofluxuriouscomfort。

  Hiswifeandhisdaughterdressedfashionablyandwentaboutandentertainedinthefashionable,expensivewayonlybecausethatwasthesortoflifethatgratifiedhisvanity。Helivedtogetwhathewanted。hegotiteverydayandeveryhourofalifeintowhichnoraineverfell。hedied,honored,respected,beloved,andlamented。

  Theclevertrickhehadplayeduponhisfellowbeingscameveryneartodiscoveryafewdaysafterhisdeath。Hiswidowandhersonanddaughter-in-lawanddaughterwereintheliving-roomofthecharminghouseatHangingRock,nearNewYork,alternatingbetweensorrowingsoverthedeadmanandplanningsforthefuture。Saidthewidow:

  ``IfHenryhadonlythoughtwhatwouldbecomeofusifheweretakenaway!’’

  ``Ifhehadsavedevenasmallpartofwhathemadeeveryyearfromthetimehewastwenty-six——forhealwaysmadeabigincome,’’saidhisson,Frank。

  ``Buthewassogenerous,sosoft-hearted!’’

  exclaimedthewidow。``Hecoulddenyusnothing。’’

  ``Hecouldn’tbearseeinguswiththeslightestwishungratified,’’saidFrank。

  ``Hewasthebestfatherthateverlived!’’criedthedaughter,Mildred。

  AndMrs。GowertheelderandMrs。Gowertheyoungerwept。andMildredturnedawaytohidetheemotiondistortingherface。andFrankstaredgloomilyatthecarpetandsighed。Thehideoussecretofthelifeofduplicitywassafe,safeforever。

  Infact,HenryGowerhadoftenthoughtofthefateofhisfamilyifheshoulddie。Inthefirstyearofhismarriedlife,atatimewhenpassionforabeautifulbridewasalmostsweepinghimintogenerousthought,hehadlistenedforupwardofanhourtotheeloquenceofalifeinsuranceagent。Thentheagent,misledbyGower’seffusivelygenerousandunselfishexpressions,hadtakenafalsetack。Hehaddescanteduponthesupremesatisfactionthatwouldbefeltbyadyingmanashereflectedhowhisyoungwidowwouldbeleftinaffluence。Hemadeavividpicture。Gowersaw——

  sawhisbridehappierafterhisdeaththanshehadbeenduringhislife,andattractingaswarmofadmirersbyherbeauty,wellsetoffinbecomingblack,andbyherindependentincome。Thegenerousimpulsethenandthereshriveledtoitsweakandshallowroots。Withtearsinhiskind,cleareyeshethankedtheagentandsaid:

  ``Youhaveconvincedme。Youneedsaynomore。

  I’llsendforyouinafewdays。’’

  Theagentnevergotintohispresenceagain。

  Gowerliveduptohisincome,secureintheknowledgethathisabilityasalawyermadehimcertainofplentyofmoneyaslongasheshouldlive。Butitwouldshowanutterlackofcomprehensionofhispeculiarspeciesofcharactertoimaginethathelethimselfintothesecretofhisownicy-heartednessbyceasingtothinkoftheproblemofhiswifeandtwochildrenwithouthimtotakecareofthem。Onthecontrary,hethoughtofiteveryday,andplannedwhathewoulddoaboutit——to-morrow。Andforhisdelayhehadexcellentconvincingexcuses。Didhenottakecareofhisnaturallyrobusthealth?Wouldhenotcertainlyout-

  livehiswife,whowasalwaysdoctoringmoreorless?

  Frankwouldbeabletotakecareofhimself。anyhow,itwasnotwelltobringaboyuptoexpectations,becauseeverymanshouldbeself-supportingandself-

  reliant。AsforMildred,why,withherbeautyandherclevernessshecouldnotbutmakeabrilliantmarriage。

  Really,therewasforhimnoproblemofanorphanedfamily’sfuture。therewasnoreasonwhyheshoulddenyhimselfanycomfortorluxury,orhisvanityanyofthetitillationsthatcomefromsocialdisplay。

  Thatoneofhiscalculationswhichwasthemostvitalandseemedthesurestprovedtobeworthless。Itisnottheweaklingswhodie,afterinfancyandyouth,butthestrong,healthymenandwomen。Theweaklingshavetolookoutforthemselves,receiveamplewarninginthedisastrousobviouseffectsoftheslightestimprudence。Therobust,eventhewariestofthem,eventheHenryGowers,overestimateandovertaxtheirstrength。Gower’sdownfallwaschampagne。Hecouldnotresistabottleofitfordinnereverynight。

  Assooftenhappens,thecollapseofthekidneyscamewithoutanywarningthatamanofpowerfulconstitutionwoulddeemworthyofnotice。Bythetimethedoctorbegantosuspectthegravityofhistroublehewastoofargone。

  Frank,candidlygreedyandselfish——``Suchacontrasttohisfather!’’everyonesaid——wasmarriedtotheprettiestgirlinHangingRockandhadasatisfactorylawpracticeinNewYork。Hisincomewasaboutfifteenthousandayear。Buthiswifehadtastesasextravagantashisown。andHangingRockisoneofthosesuburbsofNewYorkwheregatherwell-to-domiddle-classpeopletoliveluxuriouslyandtodeludeeachotherandthemselveswiththenotionthattheyarefashionable,richNewYorkerswhoprefertoliveinthecountry``liketheEnglish。’’Thus,HenryGower’swidowanddaughtercouldcountonlittlehelpfromFrank——andtheyknewit。

  ``YouandMillywillhavetomovetosomelessexpensiveplacethanHangingRock,’’saidFrank——itwastheliving-roomconferenceafewdaysafterthefuneral。

  Mildredflushedandhereyesflashed。Sheopenedherlipstospeak——closedthemagainwiththeangryretortunuttered。Afterall,Frankwashermother’sandhersoledependence。Theycouldhopeforlittlefromhim,butnothingmustbesaidthatwouldgivehimandhismean,selfishwifeachancetobreakwiththemandrefusetodoanythingwhatever。

  ``AndMildredmustgetmarried,’’saidNatalie。

  InHangingRockmostofthegirlsandmanyoftheboyshadgivennamestakenfromBurke’sPeerage,theAlmanacdeGotha,andfashionablenovels。

  AgainMildredflushed。buthereyesdidnotflash,neitherdidsheopenherlipstospeak。Thelittleremarkofhersister-in-law,apparentlysoharmlessandsensible,wasinfactapoisonedarrow。ForMildredwastwenty-three,hadbeen``out’’fiveyears,andwasnoteveninthewaytobecomeengaged。Sheandeveryonehadassumedfromherlovelybabyhoodthatshewouldmarrysplendidly,wouldmarrywealthandsocialposition。Howcoulditbeotherwise?Hadshenotbeauty?Hadshenotfamilyandposition?Hadshenotstyleandcleverness?Yet——fiveyearsoutandnota``serious’’proposal。Animpudentpoorfellowwithnoprospectshadaskedher。AnimpudentrichmanfromfashionableNewYorkhadhungafterher——andhadpresentlyabandonedwhateverdarkprojectshemayhavebeenconcealingandhadmarriedinhisownset,``astheyalwaysdo,themiserablesnobs,’’

  ravedMrs。Gower,whohadbeenbuildinghighuponthoselavishoutpouringsofcandy,flowers,andautomobilerides。Mildred,however,hadacceptedthedefectionmorephilosophically。ShehadhadenoughvanitytoliketheattentionsoftherichandfashionableNewYorker,enoughgoodsensetosuspect,perhapsnotdefinitely,whatthoseattentionsmeant,butcertainlywhattheydidnotmean。Also,inthebackofherheadhadbeenanintentiontorefuseStanleyBaird,ifbychanceheshouldaskher。Wasthereanysubstancetothisintention,sprungfromherdislikingtheconceited,self-assuredsnobasmuchasshelikedhiswealthandstation?Perhapsnot。Whocansay?Atanyrate,maywenotclaimcreditforourgoodintentions——solongas,eventhroughlackofopportunity,wehavenotstultifiedthem?

  Witheverynaturaladvantageapparently,Mildred’sfailuretocatchahusbandseemedtobesomehowherownfault。Othergirls,lessendowedthanshe,weremarrying,weremarryingfairlywell。Why,then,wasMildredlagginginthemarket?

  Theremayhavebeenotherreasons,reasonsofaccident——for,inthehigherclassmatrimonialmarket,fewarecalledandfewerchosen。Therewasonereasonnotaccidental。HangingRockwasnoplaceforagirlsosuperioraswasMildredGowertofindafittinghusband。Ashasbeenhinted,HangingRockwasoneofthoseupper-middle-classcolonieswheresplurgeandsocialambitiondominatethecommunitylife。Insuchcoloniestheyoungmenareoftwoclasses——thosebeneathsuchagirlasMildred,andthosewhohadthelooks,themanners,theintelligence,andtheprospectstojustifytheminlookinghighersocially——inlookingamongtheveryrichandreallyfashionable。IntheHangingRocksortofcommunity,havingallthesnobbishnessofFifthAvenue,BackBay,andRittenhouseSquare,withtheaddedtormentofthesnobbishnessbeingperpetuallyungratified——insuchcommunities,beneathasurfacereekingcultureandidealisticfolderol,thereisacoarseandbrutalmaterialism,apassionformoney,forluxury,fordisplay,thatequalsaristocraticsocietiesattheirworst。Noonecanliveforawinter,muchlessgrowup,insuchaplacewithoutbecomingsaturatedwithsycophantry。Thus,onlybysomeimpossiblecombinationofchancescouldtherehavebeenatHangingRockayoungmanwhowouldhaveappreciatedMildredandhavehadthecourageofhisappreciation。Thiscombinationdidnothappen。

  InMildred’sgenerationandsettherewereonlythetwoclassesofmennotedabove。Themenoftheoneofthemwhichcouldnothaveattractedheracceptedtheirfateofmatingwithsecond-choicefemalestowhomtheywerethemselvessecondchoice。ThemenoftheotherclassrarelyappearedatHangingRockfunctions,hungabouttherichpeopleinNewYork,Newport,andonLongIsland,andwouldassoonhavethoughtoftakingaHangingRocksocietygirltowifeasofexchanginghundred-dollarbillsfortwenty-five-centpieces。Havingattractionsacceptableinthebestmarkets,theytookthemthere。HangingRockdenouncedthemassnobs,forHangingRockwasvirtuouslyeloquentonthesubjectofsnobbishness——wehumancreaturesbeingneversoeffectiveaswhenassailinginotherstheviceorweaknessweknowfromlifelong,intimate,internalassociationwithit。Butsecretlythesuccessfullyambitiousspurnersofthatsuburbansocietywereapproved,wereenvied。AndHangingRockwasmostgracioustothemwheneveritgotthechance。

  InherfiveyearsofsociallifeMildredhadgoneonlywiththevariousclassesoffashionablepeople,hadthereforeknownonlythemenwhoarefullofthepoisonofsnobbishness。Shehadbeenbornandbredinanenvironmentasimpregnatedwiththatpoisonastheairofakitchen-gardenwithonions。Sheknewnothingelse。ThesecretintentiontorefuseStanleyBaird,shouldhepropose,wasthereforethemoreastonishing——andthemoresignificant。Fromtimetotimeinanygivenenvironmentyouwillfindsomeisolatedperson,somepersonality,withatraitwhollyforeignandoutofplacethere。Nowitisasoftvoiceandcourteousmannersinaslum。againitisalongingforalifeoffreedomandequalityinamemberofaroyalfamilythathasknownnothingbutsordidslaveryforcenturies。Or,inthepettyconventionalityofaprosperousmiddle-orupper-classcommunityyoucomeupononewhodreams——perhapsvaguelybutstilllongingly——ofanexistencewhereloveandideasshallelevateandglorifylife。Inspiteofhertraining,inspiteoftheteachingandexampleofallaboutherfromthemomentofheropeninghereyesupontheworld,MildredGowerattwenty-threestillretainedsomethingofthesedreamflowerssowninthesoilofhernaturallygoodmindbysomebookorplayorperhapsbysomecasuallyreadandsoonforgottenarticleinmagazineornewspaper。Wehavethehabitofthinkingonlyweedsproduceseedsthatpenetrateandprospereverywhereandanywhere。Thetruthisthatfineplantsofallkinds,vegetable,fruit,andflowerofrarestcolorandperfume,havethissamehardinessandfecundity。Pullawayattheweedsinyourgardenforawhile,andseeifthisisnotso。Thoughyoumayplantnothing,youwillbeamazedattheresultsifyoubutclearalittlespaceofitsweeds——whichyouhavebeenplantingandcultivating。

  Mildred——womanfashion——regardeditasareproachuponherthatshehadnotyetsucceededinmakingthemarriageeveryone,includingherself,predictedforherandexpectedofher。Onthecontrary,itwasthemostsavageindictmentpossibleofthemarriageableandmarryingmenwhohadmether——oftheirstupidity,oftheirshort-sightedandmean-souledcalculation,oftheirlackofcourage——thecouragetotakewhatthey,asmenoffleshandbloodwanted,insteadofwhattheirsnobbishnessordered。AndifStanleyBaird,thenearesttoaflesh-and-bloodmanofanywhohadknownher,hadnotbeensoprofoundlyafraidofhisfashionablemotherandofhissister,theCountessofWaring——Buthewasprofoundlyafraidofthem。so,itisidletospeculateabouthim。

  WhatdidmenseewhentheylookedatMildredGower?Usually,whenmenlookatawoman,theyhaveahazy,eitherpleasantorunpleasant,senseofsomethingfeminine。That,andnothingmore。Afterward,throughsomewhimorsomethrustfromchancetheymayseeinher,orfancytheyseeinher,thethingfemininethattheirsouls——itisalways``soul’’——mostyearnsafter。Butjustatfirstglance,socolorlessorconventionallycoloredistheusualhumanbeing,theaveragewoman——indeedeverywomanbutshewhoisexceptional——createsuponmanthemereimpressionofpleasantorunpleasantpetticoats。Intheexceptionalwomansomethingobtrudes。Shehasastonishinghair,orextraordinaryeyes,oramouththatseemstodrawamanlikeamagnet。oritistheallureofapeculiarsmileorofafigurewhosesinuositiesasshemovesseemtocauseacorrespondingwave-disturbanceinmasculinenerves。Further,thepossessionofoneofthesesignalcharmsusuallycausesallhercharmstohavemorethanordinarypotency。Thesightofthemanissobewitchedbytheonepotentcharmthatheseesthewholewomanunderaspell。

  MildredGower,ofthemediumheightandofaslenderandwell-formedfigure,hadafaceofthekindthatiscalledlovely。andhersmile,sweet,dreamy,revealingwhiteandeventeeth,gaveherlovelinessdelicateanimation。Shehadanabundanceofhair,neitherlightnordark。shehadafineclearskin。Hereyes,grayandratherseriousandwellsetunderlongstraightbrows,gaveheralookofhonestyandintelligence。

  Butthecharmthatwonmen,hercharmofcharms,washermouth——mobile,slightlypouted,nottoonarrow,ofawonderful,vividlyhealthyandvitalred。Shehadbeauty,shehadintelligence。Butitwasimpossibleforamantothinkofeither,oncehisglancehadbeencaughtbythoseexpressive,invitinglipsofhers,soyoung,sofresh,withtheirever-changing,ever-

  fascinatinglineexpressinginathousandwaysthepassionandpoetryofthekiss。

  Ofallthemenwhohadadmiredherandhadedgedawaybecausetheyfearedshewouldbewitchthemintoforgettingwhattheworldcalls``goodcommonsense’’——

  ofallthosemenonlyonehadsuspectedtherealreasonforherphysicalpowerovermen。AllbutStanleyBairdhadthoughtthemselvesattractedbecauseshewassoprettyorsostylishorsocleverandamusingtotalkwith。Bairdhadlivedintelligentlyenoughtolearnthatfemininecharmisnevergeneral,isalwaysspecific。HeknewitwasMildredGower’slipsthathaunted,thatfrightenedambitiousmenaway,thatsentmenwhoknewtheyhadn’taghostofachancewithherdiscontentedlybacktothesecond-choicewomenwhoalonewereavailableforthem。FortunatelyforMildred,StanleyBaird,toowisetoflatterawomandiscriminatingly,didnottellherthesecretofherfascination。Ifhehadtoldher,shewouldnodoubthavetriedtotrainandtouseit——andsowouldinevitablyhavelostit。

  Togoonwiththatimportantconferenceinthesitting-roominthehandsome,roomyhouseoftheGowersatHangingRock,FrankGowereagerlyseizeduponhiswife’ssubtlynastyremark。``Idon’tseewhyinthunderyouhaven’tmarried,Milly,’’saidhe。``You’vehadeverychance,theselastfourorfiveyears。’’

  ``Andit’llbehardernow,’’moanedhermother。

  ``Foritlooksasthoughweweregoingtobewretchedlypoor。Andpovertyissorepulsive。’’

  ``Doyouthink,’’saidMildred,``thatgivingmetheideathatImustmarryrightawaywillmakeiteasierformetomarry?Everyonewhoknowsusknowsourcircumstances。’’ShelookedsignificantlyatFrank’swife,whohadbeenwailingthroughHangingRockthewoefulplightofherdeadfather-in-law’sfamily。

  TheyoungMrs。Gowerblushedandglancedaway。

  ``And,’’Mildredwenton,``everyoneissayingthatI

  mustmarryatonce——thatthere’snothingelseformetodo。’’Shesmiledbitterly。``WhenIgointothestreetagainIshallseenothingbutflyingmen。Andnomanwouldcometocallunlesshebroughtachaperonandawitnesswithhim。’’

  ``Howcanyoubesofrivolous?’’reproachedhermother。

  Mildredwasusedtobeingmisunderstoodbyhermother,whohadlongsincebeenmadehopelesslydullbythesuffocatinglifesheledandbypainfromherfeet,whichneverleftherateaseforamomentexceptwhenshehadthemsoakingincoldwater。Mrs。Gowerhadbeenbornwithordinaryfeet,neitheruglynorprettyandentirelyfitfortheusesforwhichnatureintendedfeet。Shehadspoiledthembywearingshoestomakethemlooksmallerandslimmerthantheywere。

  Insteadyweathershewasplaintive。inchangeableweathershevariedbetweenirritableandviolent。

  SaidMildredtoherbrother:``Howmuch——JUSThowmuchisthere?’’

  ``Ican’tsayexactly,’’repliedherbrother,whohadnotyetsolvedtohissatisfactionthemoralproblemofhowmuchoftheestateheoughttoallowhismotherandsisterandhowmuchheoughttoclaimforhimself——insuchawaythattheclaimcouldnotbedisputed。

  Mildredlookedfixedlyathim。Heshowedhisuneasinessnotbyglancingaway,butbytheappearanceofacertainharddefianceinhiseyes。Saidshe:

  ``Whatistheverymostwecanhopefor?’’

  Asilence。Hermotherbrokeit。``Mildred,howCANyoutalkofthosethings——already?’’

  ``Idon’tknow,’’repliedMildred。``Perhapsbecauseit’sgottobedone。’’

  Thisseemedtothemall——andtoherself——alameexcuseforsuchapparenthardnessofheart。HerfatherhadalwaysbeenSENDER-HEARTED——HADNEVER

  SPOKENOFMONEY,ORENCOURAGEDHISFAMILYINSPEAKINGOFIT。

  ALONGANDPAINFULSILENCE。THEN,THEWIDOW

  ABRUPTLY:

  ``YOU’RESURE,Frank,there’sNOinsurance?’’

  ``Fatheralwayssaidthatyoudislikedtheidea,’’

  repliedherson。``thatyouthoughtinsurancelookedlikeyourcalculatingonhisdeath。’’

  Underherhusband’sadroitpromptingMrs。Gowerhaddiscoveredsuchaviewofinsuranceinherbrain。

  Shenowrecalledexpressingit——andregretted。Butshewassilenced。Shetriedtotakehermindofthesub-

  jectofmoney。But,likeMildred,shecouldnot。Thethoughtofimminentpovertywasnaggingatthemliketoothache。``There’llbeenoughforayearorso?’’

  shesaid,timidlyinterrogative。

  ``Ihopeso,’’saidFrank。

  Mildredwaseyinghimfixedlyagain。Saidshe:

  ``Haveyoufoundanythingatall?’’

  ``Hehadabouteightthousanddollarsinbank,’’

  saidFrank。``Butmostofitwillgoforthepressingdebts。’’

  ``ButhowdidHEexpecttolive?’’urgedMildred。

  ``Yes,theremusthavebeenSOMETHING,’’saidhermother。

  ``Ofcourse,there’shisshareoftheunsettledandunfinishedbusinessofthefirm,’’admittedFrank。

  ``Howmuchwillthatbe?’’persistedMildred。

  ``Ican’ttell,offhand,’’saidFrank,withvirtuousreproach。``Mymind’sbeenon——otherthings。’’

  HenryGower’swidowwasnotwithouthershareofinstinctiveshrewdness。Neitherhadshe,unobservantthoughshewas,beenwithinsightofherson’scharacterfortwenty-eightyearswithouthavingunconfessed,unformedmisgivingsconcerningit。

  ``Youmustn’tbotheraboutthesethingsnow,Frankdear,’’saidshe。``I’llgetmybrothertolookintoit。’’

  ``Thatwon’tbenecessary,’’hastilysaidFrank。``I

  don’twantanyrivallawyerpeepingintoourfirm’saffairs。’’

  ``MybrotherWhartonisthesoulofhonor,’’saidMrs。Gower,theelder,withdignity。``Youaretooyoungtotakealltheresponsibilityofsettlingtheestate。Yes,I’llsendforWhartonto-morrow。’’

  ``It’lllookasthoughyoudidn’ttrustme,’’saidFranksourly。

  ``Wemustn’tdoanythingtostartthegossipsinthistown,’’saidhiswife,assisting。

  ``Thensendforhimyourself,Frank,’’saidMildred,``andgivehimchargeofthewholematter。’’

  Frankeyedherfuriously。``Howashamedfatherwouldbe!’’exclaimedhe。

  Butthissolemninvokingofthedeadman’sspiritwasuneffectual。Thespecterofpovertywastooinsistent,tooterrible。Saidthewidow:

  ``I’msure,inthecircumstances,mydeardeadhusbandwouldwantmetogethelpfromsomeoneolderandmoreexperienced。’’

  AndFrank,guiltyofconscienceandanexpertinthewaysofconventionalandhighlymoralrascality,ceasedtoresist。Hiswife,scentingdangertotheirgettingthesharethat``rightfullybelongstotheson,especiallywhenhehasbeenthebrainsofthefirmforseveralyears,’’madeangryandindiscreetbattlefornooutsideinterference。Thelongershetalkedthefirmerthewidowandthedaughterbecame,notonlybecausesheclarifiedsuspicionsthathadbeentoohazytotakeform,butalsobecausetheydislikedherintensely。

  ThefollowingdayWhartonConoverbecameunofficialadministrator。HehadnodifficultyinbafflingFrankGower’shalf-heartedandclumsyeffortstohidetwolargefeesduethedeadman’sestate。Hediscoveredclearassetsamountinginalltosixty-

  threethousanddollars,mostofitavailablewithinafewmonths。

  ``Asyouhavethegood-willofthefirmandasyourmotherandsisterhaveonlywhatcanberealizedincash,’’saidhetoFrank,``nodoubtyouwon’tinsistonyourthird。’’

  ``I’vegottoconsidermywife,’’saidFrank。``I

  can’tdoasI’dlike。’’

  ``Youaregoingtoinsistonyourthird?’’saidConover,withanaccentthatmadeFrankquiver。

  ``Ican’tdootherwise,’’saidheinadogged,shamedway。

  ``Um,’’saidConover。``Then,onbehalfofmysisterandherdaughterI’llhavetoinsistonamoredetailedaccountingthanyouhavebeenwillingtogive——andontheproductionofthatsmallbookboundinredleatherwhichdisappearedfrommybrother-in-law’sdesktheafternoonofhisdeath。’’

  AwaveofrageandfearsurgedupwithinFrankGowerandcrashedagainsttheseatofhislife。Fordaysthereafterhewasfromtimetotimeseizedwithviolentspasmsoftrembling。yearsafterwardhewasattributingprematureweaknessesofoldagetotheeffectsofthatmomentofhorror。Hisuncle’swordscameasasudden,highshotclimaxtoweeksofexasperatingpeepingandpryingandquestioning,ofsneerandinsinuation。Conoverhadbeenonlymoderatelysuccessfulatthelaw,hadlostclientstoFrank’sfather,hadbeenbeatenwhentheywereonoppositesides。Hehatedthefatherwiththesecret,hypocriticalhatredofthehighlymoralandreligiousman。Hede-

  spisedtheson。ItisnotoftenthataChristiangentlemanhassuchanopportunitytocombinejusticeandrevenge,tofeedtoburstinganancientgrudge,thewhileconsciousthatheisbutdoinghisduty。

  SaidFrank,whenhewasabletospeak:``Youhavebeenlisteningtotheliesofsometreacherousclerkhere。’’

  ``Don’tdestroythatlittlebook,’’proceededConovertranquilly。``Wecanprovethatyoutookit。’’

  YoungGowerrose。``Imustdeclinetohaveanythingfurthertosaytoyou,sir,’’saidhe。``Youwillleavethisoffice,andyouwillnotbeadmittedhereagainunlessyoucomewithproperpapersasadministrator。’’

  Conoversmiledwithcoldsatisfactionanddeparted。

  Therefollowedaseriesofquarrels——betweenFrankandhissister,betweenFrankandhismother,betweenFrank’swifeandhismother,betweenMildredandhermother,betweenthemotherandConover。Mrs。Gowerwassuspiciousofherson。butsheknewherbrotherforapinchpenny,exactingthelastdropofwhatheregardedashisown。Andshediscoveredthat,ifsheauthorizedhimtoactasadministratorforher,hecould——andbeyondquestionwould——takealargeshareoftheestate。TheupshotwasthatFrankpaidovertohismotherandsisterforty-seventhousanddollars,andhismotherandherbrotherstoppedspeakingtoeachother。

  ``Iseethatyouhaveturnedoverallyourmoneytomother,’’saidFranktoMildredafewdaysafterthesettlement。

  ``Ofcourse,’’saidMildred。Shewasinamoodofhighscornforsordidness——amoodinducedbythespectacleoftheshamefulmannersofConover,Frank,andhiswife。

  ``Doyouthinkthat’swise?’’suggestedFrank。

  ``Ithinkit’sdecent,’’saidMildred。

  ``Well,Ihopeyou’llnotlivetoregretit,’’saidherbrother。

  NeitherMrs。Gowernorherdaughterhadeverhadanyexperienceinthecareofmoney。Tobothforty-

  seventhousanddollarsseemedafortune——forty-seventhousanddollarsincashinthebank,readytoissueforthanddotheirbiddingatthemerewritingofafewfiguresandasignatureonapieceofpaper。Inasensetheyknewthatformanyyearsthefamily’sannualexpenseshadrangedbetweenfortyandfiftythousand,butinthesenseofactualitytheyknewnothingaboutit——astateofaffairscommonenoughinfamilieswherethemanisinabsolutecontrolandspendsallhemakes。Moneyalwayshadbeenforthcomcoming。{sic}

  thereforemoneyalwayswouldbeforthcoming。

  Themourningandthelossofthepersonwhohadfilledandemployedtheirlivescausedthewidowandthedaughtertoliveveryquietlyduringthesucceedingyear。Theyspentonlyhalfoftheircapital。Forreasonsofselfishandfar-sightedprudencewhichneednodetailingFrankmovedawaytoNewYorkwithinsixmonthsofhisfather’sdeathandreducedcommunicationbetweenhimselfandwifeandhismotherandsistertoafrigidandrapidlycongealingminimum。

  Hecalculatedthatbythetimetheircapitalwascon-

  sumedtheywouldhaveleftnofeelingofclaimuponhimorhefeelingofdutytowardthem。

  Itwasnotuntileighteenmonthsafterherfather’sdeath,whenthetotalcapitalwassunktolessthanfifteenthousanddollars,thatMildredawakenedtothetruthoftheirplight。Afewmonthsatmost,andtheywouldhavetogiveupthatbeautifulhousewhichhadbeenherhomeallherlife。Shetriedtograspthemeaningofthefactsasherintelligencepresentedthemtoher,butshecouldnot。Shehadnopracticaltrainingwhatever。Shehadbeenbroughtupasarichman’schild,tobemarriedtoarichman,andnevertoknowanythingofthematerialdetailsoflifebeyondwhatwasnecessaryinmanagingservantsaftertheindifferentfashionoftheusualAmericanwomanofthecomfortableclasses。Shehadalwayshadamaid。shecouldnotevendressherselfproperlywithoutthemaid’sassistance。Lifewithoutamaidwasinconceivable。

  lifewithoutservantswasimpossible。

  Shewanderedthroughthehouse,throughthegrounds。Shesaidtoherselfagainandagain:``Wehavegottogiveupallthis,andbemiserablypoor——

  withnotaservant,withlessthanthetenementpeoplehave。’’Butthewordsconveyednomeaningtoher。

  Shesaidtoherselfagainandagain:``Imustrousemyself。Imustdosomething。Imust——must——

  must!’’Butshedidnotrouse,becausetherewasnothingtorouse。Sofaraspracticallifewasconcernedshewasasdevoidofideasasanew-bornbaby。

  Therewasbuttheonehope——marriage,arichmarriage。Itisthehabitofmenwhocantakecareofthemselvesandofwomenwhoaresecurelywelltakencareoftoscornthewomanorthehelpless-bredmanwhomarriesformoneyorevenentertainsthatidea。

  Howlittleimaginationthesescornershave!Tomarryforamereliving,hardlybetterthanonecouldmakeforoneself,assuredlydoesshowapitifullackofself-

  reliance,amelancholylackofself-respect。Butformenorwomenalltheirlivesusedtoluxuryandwithnoabilitywhateveratearningmoney——forsuchpersonstomarrymoneyinordertosavethemselvesfromthemiseryandshamethatpovertymeanstothemisthemostnatural,themosthumanactionconceivable。Themanorthewomanwhosaysheorshewouldnotdoit,eitherisahypocriteoristalkingwithoutthinking。

  Youmayinhonestycriticizeandcondemnasocialsystemthatsuffersmenandwomentobesocrudelyandcriminallymiseducatedbybeinggivenluxurytheydidnotearn。Buttocondemnthevictimsofthatsystemforactingasitslogiccompelsissheerfollyorsheerphariseeism。

  WouldMildredGowerhavemarriedformoney?Astheweeksfled,asthebankaccountdwindled,shewouldhavegraspedeagerlyatanyrichmanwhomighthaveofferedhimself——nomatterhowrepellenthemighthavebeen。Shedidnotwantabareliving。shedidnotwantwhatpasseswiththemassofmiddle-classpeopleforcomfort。Shewantedwhatshehad——thebeautifulandspacioushouse,thecostlyandfashionableclothing,theservants,thecarriagesandmotors,thethousandandonecomforts,luxuries,andvanitiestowhichshehadalwaysbeenused。InthebrainofayoungwomanofpoororonlycomfortablyofffamilythethoughtsthatseethedinMildredGower’sbrainwouldhavebeensomanyindicationsofdepravity。InMildredGower’sbraintheywerethenatural,theinevitable,thoughts。

  Theyindicatedeverythingastohertraining,nothingastohercharacter。So,whenshe,thinkingonlyofarichmarriagewithnomatterwhom,andcontrastingherselfwiththefinewomenportrayedinthenovelsandplays,condemnedherselfasshamelessanddegraded,shedidherselfgraveinjustice。

  Butnorichman,whetherattractiveorrepulsive,offered。Indeed,nomanofanykindoffered。Instead,itwashermotherwhomarried。

  AwidowernamedJamesPresbury,elderly,withanincomeoffivetosixthousandayearfrominheritedwealth,stumbledintoHangingRocktolive,wasimpressedbythestylethewidowGowermaintained,believedtherumorthatherhusbandhadleftherbetteroffthanwasgenerallythought,proposed,andwasaccepted。AndtwoyearsandamonthafterHenryGower’sdeathhiswidowbecameMrs。JamesPresbury——andceasedtoveilfromhernewhusbandthetruthastoheraffairs。

  Mildredhadthoughtthat,thanthefamilyquarrelsincidenttosettlingherfather’sestate,humannaturecouldnolowerdescend。Shewasnowtobedisillusioned。

  Whenayoungmanorayoungwomanblundersintoapoormarriageintryingtomakearichone,heorsheisusuallywithheldfromimmediateandfrankexpressionbythetimidityofyouth。Notsotheelderlymanorwoman。Aswegrowolder,nomat-

  terhowtimidlyconventionalwearebynature,webecome,throughselfishnessorthroughindifferencetotheopinionofothersorthroughimpatienceofpettyrestraint,moreandmoreoutspoken。OldPresburydiscoveredhowhehadtrickedhimselffourdaysafterthewedding。HeandhisbridewereattheWaldorfinNewYork,a-honeymooning。

  Thebridehadneverprofessedtoberich。Shehadsimplycontinuedinherlifelongway,hadsimplyactedrich。Shewellknewthegaudydelusionsheradmirerwasentertaining,andshesawtoitthatnothingwassaidordonetodisturbhim。Sheinquiredintohisaffairs,madesureofthesubstantialityofthecomparativelysmallincomehepossessed,decidedtoaccepthimasherbestavailablechancetoescapebecomingachargeuponheranythingbuteagerandgenerousrelatives。Sheawaitedtheexplosionwithserenity。

  ShecarednotaflipforPresbury,whowasasoftandsillyoldfool,fullofantiquatedcomplimentsandsodrearilytheinferiorofHenryGower,physicallyandmentally,thatevenshecouldappreciatethedifference,thedescent。Sheratherenjoyedtheprospectofacombatwithhim,oftheendofdissimulatinghercontempt。Shehadthoughtoutandhadputinarsenalreadyforuseavarietyofsneers,jeers,andinsultsthatsuggestedthemselvestoherasshelistenedandsimperedandrespondedwhilehewascourting。

  Hadtheopportunityofferedearlierthanthefourthdayshewouldhaveseizedit,butnotuntilthatfourthmorningwassheinjusttherightmood。Shehadeatentoomuchdinnerthenightbefore,andhadfolloweditaftertwohoursinastuffytheaterwithanindigestiblesupper。Helikedthebedroomwindowsopenatnight。shelikedthemclosed。Aftershefellintoaheavysleep,heslippedoutofbedandopenedthewindowswide——toteachherbythenight’shappyexperiencethatshewasentirelymistakenastotheharmfulnessoffreshwinterair。Theresultwasthatsheawakenedwithafrightfulcoldandasplittingheadache。Andastheweatherwasabouttochangeshehadshootingpainsliketoothachethroughhertoestheinstantshethrustthemintohershoes。

  Theelderlygroom,believinghehadarichbride,wasallsolicitudeandinfuriatingattention。Shewaiteduntilhehadwroughthertotheproperpitchoffury。Thenshesaid——inreplytosomeremarkofhis:

  ``Yes,Ishallrelyuponyouentirely。Iwantyoutotakeabsolutechargeofmyaffairs。’’

  Thetearssprangtohiseyes。Hisweakoldmouth,rapidlyfallingtopieces,twistedandtwitchedwithemotion。``I’lltrytodeserveyourconfidence,darling,’’saidhe。``I’vehadlargebusinessexperience——

  inthewayofinvestingcarefully,Imean。Idon’tthinkyouraffairswillsufferinmyhands。’’

  ``Oh,I’msurethey’llnottroubleyou,’’saidsheinasweet,suretoneasthepainsshotthroughherfeetandherhead。``You’llhardlynoticemylittlemiteinyourproperty。’’Shepretendedtoreflect。``Letmesee——there’sseventhousandleft,butofcoursehalfofthatisMillie’s。’’

  ``Itmustbeverywellinvested,’’saidhe。``Thoseseventhousandsharesmustbeoftheverybest。’’

  ``Shares?’’saidshe,withagentlelittlelaugh。``I

  meandollars。’’

  Presburywasabouttoliftacupofcafeaulaittohislips。Instead,heturneditoverintotheplatterofeggsandbacon。

  ``We——MildredandI,’’pursuedhisbride,``wereleftwithonlyforty-oddthousandbetweenus。Ofcourse,wehadtolive。So,naturally,there’sverylittleleft。’’

  Presburywasshakingsoviolentlythathisheadandarmswaggledlikeajumping-jack’s。Hewrappedhiselegantwhitefingersaboutthearmsofhischairtosteadyhimself。Inasuffocatedvoicehesaid:``Doyoumeantosaythatyouhaveonlyseventhousanddollarsintheworld?’’

  ``Onlyhalfthat,’’correctedshe。``Oh,dear,howmyheadaches!Lessthanhalfthat,fortherearesomedebts。’’

  Shewasimpatientfortheexplosion。theagonyofherfeetandheadneededoutletandrelief。Buthedisappointedher。Thatwasoneofthesituationsinwhichoneappealsinvaintotheresourcesoflanguage。Heshrankandsankbackinhischair,hisjawdropped,andheventedastrange,imbecilecacklinglaugh。Itwasnotanexpressionofphilosophicmirth,ofsenseofthegrotesquenessofananti-climax。Itwasnotanexpressionofanyemotionwhatever。Itwassimplyasignalfromamindtemporarilydethroned。

  ``Whatareyoulaughingat?’’shesaidsharply。

  Hisanswerwasarepetitionoftheidioticsound。

  ``What’sthematterwithyou?’’demandedshe。

  ``Pleasecloseyourmouth。’’

  Itwasatimelypieceofadvice。forhisupperandfalseteethhadbecomepartiallydislodgedandthreatenedtodropupontheshirt-bosomgaylyshowingbetweenthelapelsofhisdark-bluesilkhouse-coat。Heslowlyclosedhismouth,movinghisteethbackintoplacewithhistongue——agesturethatmadeherfacetwitchwithrageanddisgust。

  ``Seventhousanddollars,’’hemumbleddazedly。

  ``Isaidlessthanhalfthat,’’retortedshesharply。

  ``AndI——thoughtyouwere——rich。’’

  Apeculiarrollingoftheeyesandtwistingofthelipsgavehertheideathathewasabouttoventthatrepulsivesoundagain。``Don’tyoulaugh!’’shecried。

  ``Ican’tbearyourlaugh——evenatitsbest。’’

  Suddenlyhegalvanizedintofury。``Thisisanoutrage!’’hecried,wavinghisuseless-lookingwhitefists。

  ``Youhaveswindledme——SWINDLEDme!’’

  Herheadstoppedaching。Thepainsinherfeeteitherceasedorsheforgotthem。Inasuspiciouslycalmvoiceshesaid:``Whatdoyoumean?’’

  ``Imeanthatyouareaswindler!’’heshouted,bangingonefistonthetableandwavingtheother。

  Sheactedasthoughhismeaningwerejustdawninguponher。``Doyoumean,’’saidshetranquilly,``thatyoumarriedmeformoney?’’

  ``ImeanthatIthoughtyouasubstantialwoman,andthatIfindyouareanadventuress。’’

  ``Didyouthink,’’inquiredshe,``thatanywomanwhohadmoneywouldmarryYOU?’’Shelaughedveryquietly。``YouAREafool!’’

  Hesatbacktolookather。Thismodeofcombatinsuchcircumstancespuzzledhim。

  ``Iknewthatyouwererich,’’shewenton,``oryouwouldnothavedaredofferyourselftome。Allmyfriendswereamazedatmystoopingtoacceptyou。

  YourfatherwasanIrishTammanycontractor,wasn’the?——asortofcriminal?ButIsimplyhadtomarry。

  SoIgaveyoumyfamilyandpositionandnameinexchangeforyourwealth——agoodbargainforyou,butapooroneforme。’’

  ThesereferencestoHISwealthweremostdisconcerting,especiallyastheywereaccompaniedbyremarksabouthisorigin,ofwhichhewassoashamedthathehadchangedthespellingofhisnameintheefforttoclearhimselfofit。However,someretortwasimperative。

  Helookedatherandsaid:

  ``Swindlerandadventuress!’’

  ``Don’trepeatthatlie,’’saidshe。``Youaretheadventurer——despitethefactthatyouareveryrich。’’

  ``Don’tsaythatagain,’’criedhe。``IneversaidorpretendedIwasrich。Ihaveaboutfivethousandayear——andyou’llnotgetacentofit,madam!’’

  Sheknewhisincome,butnoonewouldhavesuspecteditfromherexpressionofhorror。``What!’’shegasped。``YoudaredtomarryMEwhenyouwerea——

  beggar!Me——thewidowofHenryGower!Youimpudentoldwreck!Why,youhaven’tenoughtopaymyservants。Whatarewetoliveon,pray?’’

  ``Idon’tknowwhatYOU’LLliveon,’’repliedhe。

  ``_I_shallliveasIalwayshave。’’

  ``Abeggar!’’sheexclaimed。``I——marriedtoabeggar。’’Sheburstintotears。``Howmentakeadvantageofawomanalone!Ifmysonhadbeennearme!Butthere’ssurelysomelawtoprotectme。Yes,I’msurethereis。Oh,I’llpunishyouforhavingdeceivedme。’’Hereyesdriedasshelookedathim。

  ``Howdareyousitthere?Howdareyoufaceme,youmiserablefraud!’’

  Earlyinheracquaintancewithhimshehaddiscoveredthatdeterminingfactorsinhischaracterweresensitivenessabouthisoriginandsensitivenessabouthissocialposition。Onthisknowledgeofhisweaknesseswassecurelybasedherconfidencethatshecouldactasshepleasedtowardhim。Toeaseherpainssheproceededtopouroutherprivateopinionofhim——allthedisagreeablethings,alltheinsultsshehadbeenstoringup。

  Shewatchedhimasonlyawomancanwatchaman。

  Shesawthathisragewasnotdangerous,thatshewasforcinghimintoapositionwherefearofherrevengingherselfbydisgracinghimwouldovercomeangeratthecollapseofhisfatuousdreamsofwealth。Shedidnotdespisehimthemoredeeplyforsittingthere,fornotflyingfromtheroomortryingtokillherorsomehowcompellinghertocheckthatflowofinsult。Shealreadydespisedhimutterly。also,sheattachedsmallimportancetoself-respect,havingnoknowledgeofwhatthatqualityreallyis。

  Whenshegrewtired,shebecamequiet。Theysattherealongtimeinsilence。Atlastheranupthewhiteflagofabjectsurrenderbysaying:

  ``What’llweliveon——that’swhatI’dliketoknow?’’

  Aneavesdropperupontheprecedingviolenceofupwardofanhourwouldhaveassumedthatatitsendthispairmustseparate,nevertoseeeachotheragainvoluntarily。Butthatidea,evenasapossibility,hadnotenteredthemindofeither。Theyhadlivedalongtime。

  theywerepracticalpeople。Theyknewfromtheoutsetthatsomehowtheymustarrangetogoontogether。

  Thealternativemeantamerepittanceofalimonyforher。meantforhimsocialostracismandthesmallincomecutinhalf。meantforbothscandalandconfusion。

  Saidshefretfully:``Oh,Isupposewe’llgetalong,somehow。Idon’tknowanythingaboutthosethings。

  I’vealwaysbeenlookedafter——keptfromcontactwiththesordidsideoflife。’’

  ``Thathouseyoulivein,’’hewenton,``doesitbelongtoyou?’’

  Shegavehimacontemptuousglance。``Ofcourse,’’

  saidshe。``Whatlowpeopleyoumusthavebeenusedto!’’

  ``Ithoughtperhapsyouhadrenteditforyourbuncogame,’’retortedhe。``Thefurniture,thehorses,themotor——allthosethings——dotheybelongtoyou?’’

  ``Ishallleavetheroomifyouinsultme,’’saidshe。

  ``Didyouincludethemintheseventhousanddollars?’’

  ``Themoneyisinthebank。Ithasnothingtodowithourhouseandourproperty。’’

  Hereflected,presentlysaid:``Thehorsesandcarriagesmustbesoldatonce——andallthoseservantsdismissedexceptperhapstwo。Wecanliveinthehouse。’’

  Shegrewpurplewithrage。``SellMYcarriages!

  DischargeMYservants!I’dliketoseeyoutry!’’

  ``Who’stopayforkeepingupthatestablishment?’’

  demandedhe。

  Shewassilent。Shesawwhathehadinmind。

  ``Ifyouwanttokeepthathouseandlivecomfortably,’’

  hewenton,``you’vegottocutexpensestothebone。Youseethat,don’tyou?’’

  ``Ican’tliveanywaybutthewayI’vebeenusedtoallmylife,’’wailedshe。

  Heeyedherdisgustedly。Wasthereanythingequaltoawomanforfolly?

  ``We’vegottomakethemostofwhatlittlewehave,’’saidhe。

  ``ItellyouIdon’tknowanythingaboutthosethings,’’repeatedshe。``You’llhavetolookafterthem。

  MildredandIaren’tlikethewomenyou’vebeenusedto。

  Weareladies。’’

  Presbury’srageboiledoveragainatthementionofMildred。``Thatdaughterofyours!’’hecried。

  ``What’stobedoneabouther?I’vegotnomoneytowasteonher。’’

  ``YoumiserableTammanyTHING!’’exclaimedshe。

  ``Don’tyoudareSPEAKofmydaughterexceptinthemostrespectfulway。’’

  Andoncemoresheopenedoutuponhim,wreakinguponhimallherwrathagainstfate,allthepent-upfuryoftwoyears——furywhichhadbeendeniedsuchfury’susualandnaturalexpressionindenunciationsofthedeadbread-winner。Thegenerousandever-kindHenryGowercouldnotbetoblameforherwretchedplight。and,ofcourse,sheherselfcouldnotbetoblameforit。So,untilnowtherehadbeennoscapegoat。

  Presburythereforereceivedthewholeburden。He,alarmedlestacreatureapparentlysoirrational,shouldinwildragedrivehimaway,ruinhimsocially,perhapsinduceasympatheticcourttoawardheralargepartofhisincomeasalimony,saidnotawordinreply。Hebadehiswrathwait。Lateron,whentheperilwasover,whenhehadafirmgripuponthesituation——thenhewouldtakehisrevenge。

  TheygaveuptheexpensivesuiteattheWaldorfthatverydayandreturnedtoHangingRock。Theyalternatedbetweensilenceandthecoarsest,crudestquarrelings,forneitherhadtheintelligencetoquarrelwittilyortherefinementtoquarrelartistically。AssoonastheyarrivedattheGowerhouse,Mildredwasdraggedintothewrangle。

  ``Imarriedthisterriblemanforyoursake,’’wastheburdenofhermother’swail。``Andheisabeggar——

  wantstoselloffeverythinganddismisstheservants。’’

  ``Youareapairofpaupers,’’criedtheoldman。

  ``Youareshamelesstricksters。Becarefulhowyougoadme!’’

  Mildredhadanticipatedanunhappyendingtohermother’smarriage,butshehadnotknowledgeenoughoflifeorofhumannaturetoanticipateanysuchhorrorsasnowbegan。Everyday,alldaylongthevulgarfightraged。Hermotherandherstepfatherwithdrewfromeachother’spresenceonlytothinkupfreshinsultstoflingateachother。Assoonastheywerearmedtheyhastenedtogivebattleagain。SheavoidedPresbury。Hermothershecouldnotavoid。andwhenhermotherwasnotincombatwithhim,shewasweepingorwailingorrailingtoMildred。

  ItwasatMildred’surgingthathermotheracquiescedinPresbury’splansforreducingexpenseswithinincome。Atfirstthegirl,evenmoreignorantthanhermotherofpracticalaffairs,didnotappreciatethewisdom,nottosaythenecessity,ofwhathewishedtodo,butsoonshesawthathewasright,thattheservantsmustgo,thatthehorsesandcarriagesandthemotorsmustbesold。Whenshewasconvincedandhadconvincedhermother,shestilldidnotrealizewhatthethingreallymeant。Notuntilshenolongerhadamaiddidshecomprehend。Toawomanwhohasneverhadamaid,orwhohastakenonamaidasaluxury,itwillseemanexaggerationtosaythatMildredfeltashelplessasababylyingaloneinacribbeforeithaslearnedtocrawl。Yetthatisratheranunderstatementofherplight。Themaidleftintheafternoon。

  Mildred,notwithoutinconveniencesthathadinthenoveltytheiramusingside,contrivedtodressthateveningfordinnerandtogettobed。butwhensheawakenedinthemorningandwasreadytodress,thelossofTheresebecameatragedy。Ittookthegirlnearlyfourhourstogetherselftogetherpresentably——andthen,neverhadshelookedsounkempt。Withherhair,thickandsoft,shecoulddonothing。

  ``WhatawonderfulpersonTheresewas!’’thoughtshe。``AndIalwaysregardedherasratherstupid。’’

  Hermother,whohadnothadamaiduntilshewasaboutthirtyandhadneverbecomecompletelydependent,faredsomewhatbetter,though,hearinghermoans,youwouldhavethoughtshewasfaringworse。

  Mildred’sunhappinessincreasedfromdaytoday,asherwardrobefellintoconfusionanddisrepair。Shefeltthatshemustrisetothesituation,mustteachherself,mustsaveherselffromimpendingdowdinessandslovenliness。Butherbrainseemedtobeparalyzed。

  Shedidnotknowhoworwheretobegintolearn。Sheofteninsecretgavewaytothefutilityoftears。

  Therewerenowonlyacookandonehousemaidandamanofallwork——allthreenewcomers,forPresburyinsisted——mostwisely——thatnoneoftheservantsoftheluxurious,wastefuldayswouldbeusefulinthenewcircumstances。Hewasoneofthosesmall,orderlymenwhohaveageniusforjustsuchsituationsastheonehenowproceededtograpplewithandsolve。Inhispleasureatmanagingeverythingaboutthathouse,indistributingtheworkamongthethreeservants,inmarketing,and,ininspectingpurchasesandnosingintothegarbage-barrel,inlookingfordustonpicture-

  framesandtable-topsandforneglectedweedsinthegardenwalks——inthismultitudeofengrossingdelightsheforgothisangeroverthetrickthathadbeenplayeduponhim。Hestillfoughtwithhiswifeanddenouncedherandmetinsultwithinsult。Butthat,too,wasoneofhispleasures。Also,hefeltthatonthewholehehaddonewellinmarrying。Hehadbeenlonelyasabachelor,hadhadnoonetotalkwith,ortoquarrelwith,nothingtodo。Themarriagewasnotsoexpensive,ashiswifehadbroughthimahouse——anditsuchaoneashehadalwaysregardedastheapogeeofelegance。LivingwasnotdearinHangingRock,ifoneunderstoodmanagingandgavetimetoit。Andsociallyhewasatlastestablished。

  Soonhiswifewasaboutascontentedasshehadeverbeeninherlife。Shehatedanddespisedherhusband,butquarrelingwithhimandrailingagainsthimgaveheroccupationandaim——twovaluableassetstowardhappinessthatshehadtheretoforelacked。Herliving——shelter,food,clothingenough——wasnowsecure。

  Butthemostimportantfactorofallinhercontentwastheoneapparentlytootrivialtobeworthyofrecord。

  Fromgirlhoodshecouldnotrecallasingledayinwhichshehadnotsufferedfromherfeet。Andshehadbeenashamedtosayanythingaboutit——hadneverletanyone,evenhermaid,seeherfeet,whichwereabouttheonlyunsightlypartofher。Nonehadguessedthecauseofherchronicill-temperuntilPresbury,thatgeniusforthelittle,saidwithinaweekoftheirmarriage:

  ``Youtalkandactlikeawomanwithchroniccorns。’’

  Hedidnotdreamoftheeffectthischancethrusthaduponhiswife。Forthefirsttimehehadreally``landed。’’Sheconcealedherfrightandhershameasbestshecouldandwentonquarrelingmoreviciouslythanever。Buthepresentlyreturnedtotheattack。

  Saidhe:

  ``Yourfeethurtyou。I’msuretheydo。NowthatIthinkofit,youwalkthatway。’’

  ``IsupposeIdeservemyfate,’’saidshe。``Whenawomanmarriesbeneathhershemustexpectinsultandlowconversation。’’

  ``Youmustcureyourfeet,’’saidhe。``I’llnotliveinthehousewithapersonwhoismadefiendishbycorns。

  Ithinkit’sonlycorns。Iseenosignsofbunions。’’

  ``Youbrute!’’criedhiswife,rushingfromtheroom。

  Butwhentheymetagain,heatonceresumedthesubject,tellingherjusthowshecouldcureherself——andhekeptontellingher,sheapparentlyignoringbutsecretlyactingonhisadvice。Heknewwhathewasabout,andherfeetgrewbetter,grewwell——andshewashappierthanshehadbeensincegirlhoodwhenshebeganruiningherfeetwithtightshoes。

  Sixmonthsafterthemarriage,Presburyandhiswifeweregettingonaboutascomfortablyasitisgiventoaveragehumanitytogetoninthisworldofincessantstrugglebetweenuncomfortablemanandhisuncomfortableenvironment。ButMildredhadbecomemoreandmoreunhappy。Hermother,sometimesangrily,againreproachfully——andthatwasfarhardertobear——blamedherfor``mymiserablemarriagetothislow,quarrelsomebrute。’’Presburyletnodaypasswithouttellingheropenlythatshewasabeggarlivingoffhim,thatshewouldbettermarrysoonorhewouldtakedrasticstepstoreleasehimselfoftheburden。Whenheattackedherbeforehermother,therewasaviolentquarrelfromwhichMildredfledtohideinherroomorintheremotestpartofthegarden。Whenhehuntedherouttoinsultheralone,shesatorstoodwitheyesdownandfaceghastlypale,mute,quivering。Shedidnotinter-

  rupt,didnottrytoescape。Shewaslikethechainedandspiritlessdogthatcrouchesandtakestheshowerofblowsfromitscruelmaster。

  Wherecouldshego?Nowhere。Whatcouldshedo?Nothing。Inthedaysofprosperityshehadregardedherselfasproudandhighspirited。Shenowwonderedatherself!Whathadbecomeofthepride?

  Whatofthespirit?Sheavoidedlookingatherimageintheglass——thatthin,pallidface,thosecircledeyes,thedrawn,sickexpressionaboutthemouthandnose。

  ``I’mstunned,’’shesaidtoherself。``I’vebeenstunnedeversincefather’sdeath。I’veneverrecovered——norhasmother。’’Andshegavewaytotears——forherfather,shefancied。infact,fromshameatherweaknessandhelplessness。Shethought——hoped——thatshewouldnotbethusfeebleandcowardly,ifshewerenotlivingathome,inthehousesheloved,thehousewhereshehadspentherwholelife。Andsuchahouse!Comfortandluxuryandtaste。everyroom,everycornerofthegrounds,fullofthetenderestandmostbeautifulassociations。Also,therewasherpositioninHangingRock。Everywhereelseshewouldbeastrangerandwouldhaveeithernopositionatalloroneworsethanthatoftheutteroutsider。There,shewasofthefewlookeduptobythewholecommunity。Nooneknew,orevensuspected,howshewasdegradedbyherstep-

  father。Beforetheworldhewascourteousandconsideratetowardherastowardeverybody。Indeed,Presbury’snaturalinstinctsweregentleandkindly。HishatredofMildredandhispassionforhumiliatingherweretheresultofhisconvictionthathehadbeentrickedintothemarriageandhisinabilitytogratifyhisresentmentuponhiswife。Hecouldnotmakethemothersuffer。buthecouldmakethedaughtersuffer——andhedid。Besides,shewasofnousetohimandwouldpresentlybeanexpense。

  ``Yourmoneywillsoonbegone,’’hesaidtoher。

  ``Ifyoupaidyourjustshareoftheexpensesitwouldbegonenow。Whenitisgone,whatwillyoudo?’’

  Shewassilent。

  ``Yourmotherhaswrittentoyourbrotheraboutyou。’’

  Mildredliftedherhead,agleamofherformerspiritinhereyes。Thensheremembered,andbenthergazeupontheground。

  ``Buthe,likethecurthatheis,answeredthroughasecretarythathewishedtohavenothingtodowitheitherofyou。’’

  MildredguessedthatFrankhadmadethemarriageanexcuse。

  ``Surelysomeofyourrelativeswilldosomethingforyou。Ihavemyhandsfull,supportingyourmother。

  Idon’tproposetohavetwostrapping,worthlesswomenhangingfrommyneck。’’

  Shebentherheadlower,andremainedsilent。

  ``Iwarnyoutobestiryourself,’’hewenton。``I

  giveyoufourmonths。Afterthefirstoftheyearyoucan’tstayhereunlessyoupayyourshare——yourthird。’’

  Noanswer。

  ``YouhearwhatIsay,miss?’’hedemanded。

  ``Yes,’’repliedshe。

  ``Ifyouhadanysenseyouwouldn’twaituntilyourlastcentwasgone。You’dgotoNewYorknowandgetsomethingtodo。’’

  ``What?’’sheasked——allshecouldtrustherselftospeak。

  ``Howshould_I_know?’’retortedhefuriously。

  ``youareastrangertome。You’vebeeneducated,I

  assume。Surelythere’ssomethingyoucando。You’vebeenoutsixyearsnow,andhavehadnosuccess,foryou’reneithermarriednorengaged。Youcan’tcallitsuccesstobeflatteredandsoughtbypeoplewhowantedinvitationstothishousewhenitwasasocialcenter。’’

  Hepausedforresponsefromher。Nonecame。

  ``Youadmityouareafailure?’’hesaidsharply。

  ``Yes,’’saidshe。

  ``Youmusthaverealizeditseveralyearsago,’’hewenton。``Insteadofallowingyourmothertokeeponwastingmoneyinentertaininglavishlyheretogiveyouachancetomarry,youshouldhavebeenpreparingyourselftoearnaliving。’’Apause。``Isn’tthattrue,miss?’’

  Hehadawayofpronouncingtheword``miss’’thatmadeitanepithet,asneeratherunmarriedandun-

  marriageablestate。Shecolored,paled,murmured:

  ``Yes。’’

  ``Then,betterlatethannever。You’lldowelltofollowmyadviceandgotoNewYorkandlookaboutyou。’’

  ``I’ll——I’llthinkofit,’’stammeredshe。

  Andshedidthinkofit。Butinallherlifeshehadneverconsideredtheideaofmoney-making。Thatwassomethingformen,andforthemiddleandlowerclasses——whileHangingRockwasregardedasmostnoisomelymiddleclassbyfashionablepeople,itdidnotsoregarditself。Money-makingwasnotforladies。Likeallherclass,shewasaconstantandaseverecriticofthewomenofthelowerorderswhoworkedforherasmilliners,dressmakers,shop-attendants,cooks,maids。But,asshenowrealized,itisonethingtopassupontheworkofothers。itisanotherthingtodoworkoneself。

  She——Therewasliterallynothingthatshecoulddo。

  Anyoccupation,eventhemostmenial,waseitherbeyondherskillorbeyondherstrength,orbeyondboth。

  Suddenlysherecalledthatshecouldsing。Herprostratespiritsuddenlyleapederect。Yes,shecouldsing!

  Hervoicehadbeenpraisedbyexperts。Hersinginghadbeenindemandatcharityentertainmentswhereamateurshadtocompetewithprofessionals。Thendownshedroppedagain。Shesangwellenoughtoknowhowbadlyshesang——thelongandtoilsomeandexpensivetrainingthatlaybetweenherandoperaticorconcertorevenmusic-hallstage。Hervoicewasfineattimes。Again——mostofthetime——itwasunreliable。

  No,shecouldnothopetogetpayingemploymentevenasachurchchoir-singer。MissDresserwhosanginthechoiroftheGoodShepherdfortendollarsaSunday,hadnotnearlysogoodavoiceasshe,butitwasreliable。

  ``ThereisnothingIcando——nothing!’’

  Allatonce,withnoapparentbridgeacrossthevastchasm,herheartwentout,notinpitybutinhumanunderstandingandsisterlysympathy,tothewomenofthepariahclassatwhom,duringherstopsinNewYork,shehadsometimesgazedinwonderandhorror。``Why,weandtheyareonlyastepapart,’’shesaidtoherselfinamazement。``Weandtheyaremuchnearerthanmymaidorthecookandthey!’’

  Andthenherheartskippedabeatandherskingrewcoldandafogswirledoverherbrain。Ifsheshouldbecastout——ifshecouldfindnoworkandnoonetosupporther——wouldshe——``OmyGod!’’shemoaned。

  ``Imustbecrazy,tothinksuchthoughts。Inevercould!I’ddiefirst——DIE!’’Butifanyonehadpicturedtoherthekindoflifeshewasnowleading——thehumiliationanddegradationshewasmeeklyenduringwithnothoughtofflight,withaneverstrongerdesiretostayon,regardlessofprideandself-respect——ifanyonehadpicturedthistoheraswhatshewouldendure,whatwouldshehavesaid?Shecouldseeherselfflashingscornfuldenial,sayingthatshewouldratherkillherself。Yetshewasliving——andwasnotevencontemplatingsuicideasawayout!

  AfewdaysafterPresburygaveherwarning,hermothertookadvantageofhisabsenceforhisreligiouslyobserveddailyconstitutionaltosaytoher:

  ``Ihopeyoudidn’tthinkIwasbehindhiminwhathesaidtoyouaboutgoingaway?’’

  Mildredhadnotthoughtso,butinhermother’sguiltytoneandguiltiereyesshenowreadthathermotherwishedhertogo。

  ``It’dbeawfulformetobeleftherealonewithhim,’’

  wailedhermotherinsincerely。``Ofcoursewe’vegotnomoney,andbeggarscan’tbechoosers。Butit’djustaboutkillmetohaveyougo。’’

  Mildredcouldnotspeak。

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