IsuspectedthatDonnaIgnaziaexpectedmetomakesomeattemptonherhonour,andfeelingsurethatshewouldresistforthesakeofappearance,Ideterminedtoleaveherinpeace。NextmorningIgotupandwentintotheirroominthehopeofplayingsometrickonthem。
However,thebirdswereflown,andIhadnodoubtthattheyhadgonetohearmass。
DonnaIgnaziacamehomebyherselfatteno’clock。Shefoundmealone,dressed,andwriting。Shetoldmeshehadbeeninthechurchforthreehours。
\"Youhavebeentoconfession,Isuppose?\"
\"No;IwentlastSunday,andIshallwaittillnextSunday。\"
\"IamverygladthatyourconfessionwillnotbelengthenedbyanysinsI
havehelpedyoutocommit。\"
\"Youarewrong。\"
\"Wrong?Iunderstand;butyoumustknowthatIamnotgoingtobedamnedformeredesires。Idonotwishtotormentyouortobecomeamartyrmyself。Whatyougrantedmehasmademefalldeeplyinlovewithyou,anditmakesmeshudderwhenIimaginethatourlovehasbecomeasubjectofrepentancewithyou。Ihavehadabadnight;anditistimeformetothinkofmyhealth。Imustforgetyou,buttobringaboutthateffectI
willseeyounolonger。Iwillkeeponthehouse,butIwillnotliveinit。Ifyourreligionisanintelligentone,youwillapproveofmyidea。
TellyourconfessorofitnextSunday,andyouwillseethathewillapproveit。\"
\"Youareright,butIcannotagreetoit。Youcangoawayifyoulike,andIshallsaynothing,butIshallbethemostunhappygirlinallMadrid。\"
Asshespokethesewords,twobigtearsrolleddownhercheeks,andherfacedropped;Iwasprofoundlymoved。
\"Iloveyou,dearestIgnazia,andIhopenottobedamnedformylove。I
cannotseeyouwithoutlovingyouandtothislovesomepositiveproofisessential;otherwise,Iamunhappy。IfIgoyousayyouwillbeunhappy,andifIstayitisIthatwillbeunhappy,myhealthwillberuined。
ButtellmewhichIshalldostayorgo?Say。\"
\"Stay。\"
\"Thenyoumustbeaslovingandtenderasyouwerebefore。\"
\"Alas!Ipromisedtocommitthatsinnomore。Itellyoutostay,becauseIamsurethatineightortendaysweshallhavebecomesoaccustomedtooneanotherthatIshallbeabletoloveyoulikeafather,andyouwillbeabletotakemeinyourarmswithoutanyamoroussentiments。\"
\"Areyousureofthis?\"
\"Yes,dearest,quitesure。\"
\"Youmakeamistake。\"
\"Letmebemistaken,andbelievemeIshallbegladtobemistaken。\"
\"Unhappydevotee!\"
\"Whyunhappy?\"
\"Nothing,nothing。Imaybetoolong,Ishallendanger……letussaynomoreaboutit。Iwillstay。\"
Iwentoutmorepainedwithherstatethanmyown,andIfeltthatthebestthingIcoulddowouldbetoforgether,\"for,\"saidItomyself,\"evenifIdoenjoyheronce,Sundaywillcomeagain;shewillconfess,repent,andIshallhavetobeginalloveragain。Sheconfessedherlove,andflattersherselfthatshewillbeabletosubdueit——afoolishhope,whichcouldonlyexistinamindunderthedominionofprejudice。\"
Icamehomeatnoon,andDonDiegodinedwithme;hisdaughterdidnotappeartillthedessert。Ibeggedhertositdown,politely,butcoldly。
HerfatheraskedherjestinglyifIhadpaidheravisitinthenight。
\"IneversuspectedDonJaimeofsuchathing,\"shereplied,\"andIonlyobjectedoutofshyness。\"
Iinterruptedherbypraisinghermodesty,andtellingherthatshewouldhavedonequiterighttobewareofme,ifmysenseofdutyhadnotbeenstrongerthananyvoluptuousdesiresinspiredbyhercharms。
DonDiegopronouncedthisdeclarationofloveasgoodasanythingtobefoundinthe\"Morted’Arthur。\"
HisdaughtersaidIwaslaughingather,butDonDiegosaidhewascertainthatIwasinearnest,andthatIhadknownherbeforetakinghertotheball。
\"Youareutterlymistaken,\"saidDonnaIgnazia,withsomedegreeoffire。
\"Yourfatheriswiserthanyou,senora,\"Ireplied。
\"What!Howandwhendidyouseeme?\"
\"AtthechurchwhereIheardmass,andyoucommunicated,whenyouwentoutwithyourcousin。Ifollowedyouatsomedistance;youcanguesstherest。\"
Shewasspeechless,andherfatherenjoyedtheconsciousnessofhissuperiorintellect。
\"Iamgoingtoseethebullfight,\"saidhe;\"it’safineday,andallMadridwillbethere,soonemustgoearlytogetagoodplace。Iadviseyoutogo,asyouhaveneverseenabullfight;askDonJaimetotakeyouwithhim,Ignazia。\"
\"Wouldyouliketohavemycompanionship?\"saidshe,tenderly。
\"CertainlyIwould,butyoumustbringyourcousin,asIaminlovewithher。\"
DonDiegoburstoutlaughing,butIgnaziasaid,slyly,\"Itisnotsoimpossibleafterall。\"
WewenttoseethesplendidbutbarbarousspectacleinwhichSpaniardstakesomuchdelight。Thetwogirlsplacedthemselvesinfrontoftheonlyvacantbox,andIsatbehindonthesecondbench,whichwasafootandahalfhigherthanthefirst。Therewerealreadytwoladiesthere,andmuchtomyamusementoneofthemwasthefamousDuchessofVilladorias。Shewasinfrontofme,andsatinsuchapositionthatherheadwasalmostbetweenmylegs。Sherecognizedme,andsaidwewerefortunateinmeetingoneanother;andthennoticingDonnaIgnazia,whowasclosetoher,shecongratulatedmeinFrenchonhercharms,andaskedmewhethershewasmymistressormywife。IrepliedthatshewasabeautybeforewhomIsighedinvain。Shereplied,withasmile,thatshewasratherascepticalperson;andturningtoDonnaIgnaziabeganapleasantandamorousdiscourse,thinkingthegirltobeaslearnedinthelawsofloveasherself。ShewhisperedsomethinginherearwhichmadeIgnaziablush,andtheduchess,becomingenthusiastic,toldmeIhadchosenthehandsomestgirlinMadrid,andthatshewouldbedelightedtoseeusbothathercountryhouse。
Ipromisedtocome,asIwasobligedtodo,butIbeggedtobeexcusednamingtheday。Nevertheless,shemademepromisetocallonheratfouro’clockthenextday,tellingme,muchtomyterror,thatshewouldbealone。Shewasprettyenough,buttoonotoriousacharacter;andsuchavisitwouldhavegivenrisetotalk。
Happilythefightbegan,andsilencebecamegeneral,fortheSpaniardsarepassionatelydevotedofbullfighting。
Somuchhasbeenwrittenonthesubjectthatmyreaderswillpardonmygivingadetailedaccountofthefight。Imaysaythatthesportis,inmyopinion,amostbarbarousone,andlikelytooperateunfavourablyonthenationalmorals;thearenaissometimesdrenchedinthebloodofbulls,horses,andevenoftheunfortunatepicadoresandmatadores,whosesoledefenceistheredragwithwhichtheyirritatethebull。
WhenitwasoverIescortedthegirls——whohadenjoyedthemselvesimmensely——backtothehouse,andmadetheuglycousinstaytosupper,asIforesawthattheywouldagainsleeptogether。
Wesuppedtogether,butitwasamelancholyaffair,forDonDiegowasaway,andIdidnotfeelinthehumourtoamusemycompany。
DonnaIgnaziabecamepensivewhen,inreplytoaquestionofhers,Isaidthatitwouldbeabsolutelyrudeofmenottogototheduchess’s。
\"Youwillcomewithmesomeday,\"Iadded,\"todineathercountryhouse。\"
\"Youneednotlookforthat。\"
\"Whynot?\"
\"Becausesheisamadwoman。ShetalkedtomeinawaythatwouldhaveoffendedmeifIdidnotknowthatshefanciedshewashonouringmebylayingasideherrank。\"
Werosefromtable,andafterIhaddismissedmymanwesatonthebalconytowaitforDonDiegoandtoenjoythedeliciouseveningbreezes。
Aswesatneartoeachotherinthetwilight,sofavourabletolovers’
vows,IlookedintoDonnaIgnazia’seyes,andsawtherethatmyhourhadcome。Iclaspedhertomewithonearm,Iclungwithmylipstohers,andbythewayshetrembledIguessedtheflamewhichconsumedher。
\"Willyougoandseetheduchess?\"
\"No,ifyouwillpromisemenottogotoconfessionnextSunday。\"
\"ButwhatwillhesayifIdonotgo?\"
\"Nothingatall,ifheunderstandshisbusiness。Butletustalkitoveralittle。\"
Weweresotightlyclaspedtogetherthatthecousin,likeagoodgirl,leftus,andwenttotheotherendofthebalcony,takingcaretolookawayfromus。
Withoutchangingmyposition,inspiteofthetemptationtodoso,I
askedherifshefeltinthehumourtorepentofthesinshewasreadytocommit。
\"Iwasnotthinkingofrepentancejustthen,butasyouremindmeofit,ImusttellyouthatIshallcertainlygotoconfession。\"
\"Andafteryouhavebeentoconfessionwillyoulovemeasyoulovemenow?\"
\"IhopeGodwillgivemestrengthtooffendHimnomore。\"
\"IassureyouthatifyoucontinuelovingmeGodwillnotgiveyougrace,yetIfeelsurethatonSundayeveningyouwillrefusemethatwhichyouarenowreadytogrant。\"
\"IndeedIwill,sweetheart;butwhyshouldwetalkofthatnow?\"
\"BecauseifIabandonmyselftopleasurenowIshallbemoreinlovewithyouthanever,andconsequentlymoreunhappythanever,whenthedayofyourrepentancecomes。SopromisemethatyouwillnotgotoconfessionwhilstIremainatMadrid,orgivethefatalordernow,andbidmeleaveyou。Icannotabandonmyselftoloveto—dayknowingthatitwillberefusedmeonSunday。\"
AsIremonstratedthus,Iclaspedheraffectionatelyinmyarms,caressinghermostardently;butbeforecomingtothedecisiveactionI
askedheragainwhethershewouldpromisenottogotoconfessionnextSunday。
\"Youarecruel,\"saidshe,\"Icannotmakeyouthatpromiseformyconsciencesake。\"
Atthisreply,whichIhadquiteexpected,Iremainedmotionless,feelingsurethatshemustbeinastateofdesperateirritationattheworkhalfbegunandnotconcluded。I,too,suffered,forIwasatthedoorofthesanctuary,andaslightmovementwouldhavesentmeintotheinmostshrine;butIknewthathertormentsmustbegreaterthanmine,andthatshecouldnotresistlong。
DonnaIgnaziawasindeedinaterriblestate;Ihadnotrepulsedher,butIwasperfectlyinactive。Modestypreventedheraskingmeopenlytocontinue,butsheredoubledhercaresses,andplacedherselfinaneasierposition,reproachingmewithmycruelty。IdonotknowwhetherIcouldhaveheldoutmuchlonger,butjustthenthecousinturnedroundandtoldusthatDonDiegowascomingin。
Wehastenedtoarrangeourtoilette,andtositinadecentposition。
Thecousincameuptous,andDonDiego,aftermakingafewremarks,leftusonthebalcony,wishingusagoodnight。Imighthavebegunoveragain,butIclungtomysystemofrepression,andafterwishingthegirlsgoodnightwithamelancholyair,Iwenttobed。
IhopedDonnaIgnaziawouldrepentandcomeandkeepmecompany,butI
wasdisappointed。Theylefttheirroomearlyinthemorning,andatnoonDonDiegocametodinewithme,sayinghisdaughterhadsuchabadheadachethatshehadnotevengonetomass。
\"Wemustgethertoeatsomething。\"
\"No,Ithinkabstinencewilldohergood,andintheeveningIdaresayshewillbeabletosupwithyou。\"
IwenttokeephercompanybyherbedsideafterIhadtakenmysiesta。
Ididmybestforthreehourstoconvinceherofherfolly;butshekepthereyesclosed,andsaidnothing,onlysighingwhenIsaidsomethingverytouching。
IlefthertowalkinSt。Jerome’sPark,andtoldherthatifshedidnotsupwithmeIshouldunderstandthatshedidnotwishtoseemeagain。
Thisthreathaditseffect。Shecametotableatsupper—time,butshelookedpaleandexhausted。Sheatelittle,andsaidnothing,forsheknewnotwhattosay。Isawthatshewassuffering,andIpitiedherfrommyheart。
BeforegoingtobedsheaskedmeifIhadbeentoseetheduchess。SheseemedsomewhatcheeredwhenIansweredinthenegative。ItoldherthatshemightsatisfyherselfofthetruthofmyreplybyaskingPhilippe,whohadtakenmynotebegginghergracetoexcusemeforthatday。
\"Butwillyougoanotherday?\"
\"No,dearest,becauseIseeitwouldgrieveyou。\"
Shegaveasighofcontent,andIembracedhergently,andsheleftmeassadasIwas。
IcouldseethatwhatIaskedofherwasagreatdeal;butIhadgoodgroundsforhope,asIknewherardentdisposition。ItwasnotGodandI
thatweredisputingforher,butherconfessorandI。IfshehadnotbeenaCatholicIshouldhavewonherthefirstday。
Shehadtoldmethatshewouldgetintotroublewithherconfessorifshedidnotgotohimasusual;shehadtoomuchoffineSpanishhonourinhertotellhimwhatwasnottrue,ortoendeavourtocombineherlovewithherreligion。
TheFridayandtheSaturdaypassedwithoutanyeventsofconsequence。
Herfather,whocouldnotblindhimselftoourloveanylonger,trusted,Isuppose,tohisdaughter’svirtue,andmadeherdineandsupwithmeeveryday。OnSaturdayeveningDonnaIgnazialeftmesadderthanever,andturnedherheadawaywhenIwouldhavekissedherasusual。
Isawwhatwasthematter;shewasgoingtocommunicatethenextday。
Iadmiredherconsistency,inspiteofmyself,andpitiedherheartily;
forIcouldguessthestormthatmustberaginginherbreast。Ibegantorepenthavingdemandedall,andwishedIhadbeencontentedwithalittle。
Iwishedtobesatisfiedwithmyowneyes,andgotupearlyonSundaymorningandfollowedher。Iknewthatshewouldcallforhercousin,soIwentontothechurch。Iplacedmyselfbythesacristy—door,whereI
couldseewithoutbeingseen。
Iwaitedaquarterofanhour,thentheycamein,andafterkneelingdownforafewmoments,separated,eachgoingtoherownconfessor。
IonlynoticedDonnaIgnazia;Isawhergoingtotheconfessional,andtheconfessorturningtowardsher。
Iwaitedpatiently。Ithoughttheconfessionwouldnevercometoanend。
\"Whatishesaying?\"IrepeatedtomyselfasIsawtheconfessorspeakingtohernowandagain。
Icouldbearitnolonger,andIwasonthepointofgoingawaywhenI
sawherrisefromherknees。
DonnaIgnazia,lookinglikeasaint,cametokneelinthechurch,butoutofmysight。IthoughtshewouldcomeforwardtoreceivetheHolyCommunionattheendoftheMassthatwasbeingsaid,butinsteadofthatshewenttowardsthedoor,rejoinedhercousinandtheyleftthechurch。
Iwasastonished。Myheartwasseizedwithapangofremorse。
\"It’sallover,\"Isaidtomyself。\"Thepoorgirlhasmadeasincereandfullconfession,shehasavowedherlove,andthepriest’scrueldutyhasmadehimrefuseherabsolution。
\"Allislost。Whatwillcomeofit?\"
\"Mypeaceofmindandhersrequiremetoleaveher。
\"WretchthatIam,tohavelostallforall!IshouldhavemadeallowanceforthepeculiarSpanishcharacter。
\"Imighthaveenjoyedherbysurprisenowandagain;thedifficultywouldhaveaddedpiquancytotheintrigue。IhavebehavedasifIwereoncemoretwenty,andIhavelostall。
\"Atdinnershewillbeallsadandtearful。Imustfindsomewayoutofthisterriblesituation。\"
Thussoliloquising,IcamehomeillpleasedwiththelineofconductI
hadadopted。
Myhairdresserwaswaitingforme,butIsenthimaway,andtoldmycooknottoservemydinnertillIorderedit;then,feelingtheneedofrest,Iflungmyselfonmybedandsleptprofoundlytilloneo’clock。
Igotupandordereddinnertobebroughtin,andsentamessagetothefatheranddaughterthatIwasexpectingthem。
MysurprisemaybeimaginedwhenDonnaIgnaziaappearedinacostumeofblackvelvet,adornedwithribbonsandlace。InmyopinionthereisnomoreseductivecostumeinEuropewhenthewearerispretty。
Ialsonoticedthateveryfeatureofherfacebreathedpeaceandcalm;I
hadneverseenherlookingsowell,andIcouldnothelpcongratulatingher。Sherepliedwithasmile,andIgaveherakiss,whichshetookasmeeklyasalamb。
Philippearrived,andwesatdowntotable。IsawthatmyfairsweethearthadcrossedtheRubicon;thedaywaswon。
\"Iamgoingtobehappy,\"saidshe,\"butletussaynothing,anditwillcomeofitself。\"
However,Ididnotconcealmybliss,andmadelovetoherwhenevertheservantwasoutoftheroom。Shewasnotonlysubmissive,butevenardent。
BeforeweleftthetablesheaskedmeifIstilllovedher。
\"Morethanever,darling;Iadoreyou。\"
\"Thentakemetothebullfight。\"
\"Quick!Fetchthehairdresser。\"
WhenmyhairwasdoneImadeanelaboratetoilette,andburningwithimpatiencewesetoutonfoot,asIwasafraidweshouldnotsecureagoodplaceifwewaitedtillthecarriagewasready。Wefoundafineboxwithonlytwopersonsinit,andIgnazia,afterglancinground,saidshewasgladthatthedetestableduchesswasnotanywherenearus。
AftersomefinesportmymistressbeggedmetotakehertothePrado,whereallthebestpeopleinMadridaretobeseen。
DonnaIgnazialeantonmyarm,seemedproudtobethoughtmine,andfilledmewithdelight。
AllatoncewemettheVenetianambassadorandhisfavourite,Manucci。
TheyhadjustarrivedfromAranjuez。WegreetedeachotherwithdueSpanishpoliteness,andtheambassadorpaidmeahighcomplimentonthebeautyofmycompanion。DonnaIgnaziapretendednottounderstand,butshepressedmyarmwithSpanishdelicacy。
AfterwalkingashortdistancewithusM。deMocenigosaidhehopedI
woulddinewithhimonthefollowingday,andafterIhadnoddedacquiescenceintheFrenchstyleweparted。
Towardstheeveningwetooksomeicesandreturnedhome,andthegentlepressureofmyarmonthewaypreparedmefortheblissIwastoenjoy。
WefoundDonDiegoonthebalconywaitingforus。Hecongratulatedhisdaughteronherpleasantappearanceandthepleasureshemusthavetakeninmysociety。
Charmedwithpapa’sgoodhumour,Iaskedhimtosupwithus,andheaccepted,andamuseduswithhiswittyconversationandamultitudeoflittletalesthatpleasedmeexceedingly。Hemadethefollowingspeechonleavingus,whichIgivewordforword,butIcannotgivethereaderanyideaoftheinimitableSpanishgravitywithwhichitwasdelivered。
\"AmigoSeniorDonJaime,Ileaveyouheretoenjoythecoolairwithmydaughter。Iamdelightedatyourlovingher,andyoumaybeassuredthatIshallplacenoobstacleinthewayofyourbecomingmyson—in—lawassoonasyoucanshewyourtitlesofnobility。\"
Whenhewasgone,Isaidtohisdaughter,——
\"Ishouldbeonlytoohappy,ifitcouldbemanaged;butyoumustknowthatinmycountrytheyonlyarecallednobleswhohaveanhereditaryrighttorulethestate。IfIhadbeenborninSpainIshouldbenoble,butasitisIadoreyou,andIhopeyouwillmakemehappy。\"
\"Yes,dearest,butwemustbehappytogether;Icannotsufferanyinfidelity。\"
\"IgiveyoumywordofhonourthatIwillbewhollyfaithfultoyou。\"
\"Comethen,’corazonmio’,letusgoin。\"
\"No,letusputoutthelights,andstayhereaquarterofanhour。Tellme,myangel,whencecomesthisunexpectedhappiness?\"
\"Youoweittoapieceoftyrannywhichdrovemetodesperation。Godisgood,andIamsureHewouldnothavemebecomemyownexecutioner。WhenItoldmyconfessorthatIcouldnothelplovingyou,butthatIcouldrestrainmyselffromallexcessoflove,herepliedthatthisself—
confidencewasmisplaced,asIhadalreadyfallen。Hewantedmetopromisenevertobealonewithyouagain,andonmyrefusingtodosohewouldnotgivemeabsolution。
Ihaveneverhadsuchapieceofshamecastonme,butIlaiditallinthehandsofGod,andsaid,’Thywillbedone。’
\"WhilstIheardmassmymindwasmadeup,andaslongasyoulovemeI
shallbeyours,andyoursonly。WhenyouleaveSpainandabandonmetodespair,Ishallfindanotherconfessor。Myconscienceholdsmeguiltless;thisismycomfort。Mycousin,whomIhavetoldall,isastonished,butthensheisnotveryclever。\"
Afterthisdeclaration,whichputmequiteatmyease,andwouldhaverelievedmeofanyscruplesifIhadhadthem,Itookhertomybed。Inthemorning,sheleftmetiredout,butmoreinlovewithherthanever。
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CHAPTERVII
IMakeaMistakeandManucciBecomesMyMortalFoe——HisVengeance——
ILeaveMadrid——Saragossa——Valentia——Nina——IArriveatBarcelonaIftheseMemoirs,onlywrittentoconsolemeinthedreadfulwearinesswhichisslowlykillingmeinBohemia——andwhich,perhaps,wouldkillmeanywhere,since,thoughmybodyisold,myspiritandmydesiresareasyoungasever——iftheseMemoirsareeverread,Irepeat,theywillonlybereadwhenIamgone,andallcensurewillbelostonme。
Nevertheless,seeingthatmenaredividedintotwosections,theoneandbyfarthegreatercomposedoftheignorantandsuperficial,andtheotherofthelearnedandreflective,IbegtostatethatitistothelatterIwouldappeal。Theirjudgment,Ibelieve,willbeinfavourofmyveracity,and,indeed,whyshouldInotbeveracious?Amancanhavenoobjectindeceivinghimself,anditisformyselfthatIchieflywrite。
HithertoIhavespokennothingbutthetruth,withoutconsideringwhetherthetruthisinmyfavourorno。Mybookisnotaworkofdogmatictheology,butIdonotthinkitwilldoharmtoanyone;whileIfancythatthosewhoknowhowtoimitatethebeeandtogethoneyfromeveryflowerwillbeabletoextractsomegoodfromthecatalogueofmyvicesandvirtues。
Afterthisdigression(itmaybetoolong,butthatismybusinessandnoneother’s),ImustconfessthatneverhaveIhadsounpleasantatruthtosetdownasthatwhichIamgoingtorelate。Icommittedafatalactofindiscretion——anactwhichafteralltheseyearsstillgivesmyheartapangasIthinkofit。
ThedayaftermyconquestIdinedwiththeVenetianambassador,andIhadthepleasureofhearingthatalltheministersandgrandeeswithwhomI
hadassociatedhadthehighestpossibleopinionofme。Inthreeorfourdaystheking,theroyalfamily,andtheministerswouldreturntotown,andIexpectedtohavedailyconferenceswiththelatterrespectingthecolonyintheSierraMorena,whereIshouldmostprobablybegoing。
Manucci,whocontinuedtotreatmeasavaluedfriend,proposedtoaccompanymeonmyjourney,andwouldbringwithhimanadventuress,whocalledherselfPorto—Carrero,pretendingtobethedaughterornieceofthelatecardinalofthatname,andthusobtainedagooddealofconsideration;thoughinrealityshewasonlythemistressoftheFrenchconsulatMadrid,theAbbeBigliardi。
SuchwasthepromisingstateofmyprospectswhenmyevilgeniusbroughttoMadridanativeofLiege,BarondeFraiture,chiefhuntsmanoftheprincipality,andaprofligate,agamester,andacheat,likeallthosewhoproclaimtheirbeliefinhishonestynowadays。
IhadunfortunatelymethimatSpa,andtoldhimIwaswasgoingtoPortugal。Hehadcomeafterme,hopingtousemeasameansofgettingintogoodsociety,andoffillinghispocketwiththemoneyofthedupesheaspiredtomake。
Gamestershaveneverhadanyproofofmybelongingtotheirinfernalclique,buttheyhavealwayspersistedinbelievingthatItooama\"Greek。\"
AssoonasthisbaronheardthatIwasinMadridhecalledonme,andbydintofpolitenessobligedmetoreceivehim。IthoughtanysmallcivilitiesImightsheworintroductionsImightgivecoulddomenoharm。Hehadatravellingcompaniontowhomheintroducedme。Hewasafat,ignorantfellow,butaFrenchman,andthereforeagreeable。A
Frenchmanwhoknowshowtopresenthimself,whoiswelldressed,andhasthesocietyair,isusuallyacceptedwithoutdemurorscrutiny。Hehadbeenacavalrycaptain,buthadbeenfortunateenoughtoobtainaneverlastingfurlough。
Fourorfivedaysafterhisappearancethebaronaskedmequietlyenoughtolendhimascoreoflouis,ashewashardup。Irepliedasquietly,thankinghimfortreatingmeasafriend,butinforminghimthatIreallycouldnotlendhimthemoney,asIwantedwhatlittleIhadformyownnecessities。
\"Butwecandogoodbusinesstogether,andyoucannotpossiblybemoneyless。\"
\"Idonotknowanythingaboutgoodbusiness,butIdoknowthatIwantmymoneyandcannotpartwithit。\"
\"Weareatourwits’endtoquietourlandlord;comeandspeaktohim。\"
\"IfIweretodosoIshoulddoyoumoreharmthangood。HewouldaskmeifIwouldanswerforyou,andIshouldreplythatyouareoneofthosenoblemenwhostandinneedofnosurety。Allthesame,thelandlordwouldthinkthatifIdidnotstandyoursurety,itmustbefrommyentertainingdoubtsastoyoursolvency。\"
IhadintroducedFraituretoCountManucci,onthePando,andherequestedmetotakehimtoseethecount,towhichrequestIwasfoolishenoughtoaccede。
AfewdayslaterthebaronopenedhissoultoManucci。
HefoundtheVenetiandisposedtobeobliging,butwary。Herefusedtolendmoneyhimself,butintroducedthebarontosomeonewholenthimmoneyonpledgeswithoutinterest。
Thebaronandhisfrienddidalittlegamingandwonalittlemoney,butIheldalooffromthemtothebestofmyability。
IhadmycolonyandDonnaIgnazia,andwantedtolivepeacefully;andifIhadspentasinglenightawayfromhome,theinnocentgirlwouldhavebeenfilledwithalarm。
AboutthattimeM。deMocenigowentasambassadortoFrance,andwasreplacedbyM。Querini。Queriniwasamanofletters,whileMocenigoonlylikedmusicandhisownpeculiarkindoflove。
Thenewambassadorwasdistinctlyfavourabletome,andinafewdaysI
hadreasontobelievethathewoulddomoreformethaneverMocenigowouldhavedone。
Inthemeanwhile,thebaronandhisfriendbegantothinkofbeatingaretreattoFrance。Therewasnogamingattheambassador’sandnogamingattheCourt;theymustreturntoFrance,buttheyowedmoneytotheirlandlord,andtheywantedmoneyforthejourney。Icouldgivethemnothing,Manucciwouldgivethemnothing;webothpitiedthem,butourdutytoourselvesmadeuscrueltoeveryoneelse。However,hebroughttroubleonus。
OnemorningManuccicametoseemeinevidentperturbation。
\"Whatisthematter?\"saidI。
\"Idonotknowexactly。ForthelastweekIhaverefusedtoseetheBaronFraiture,asnotbeingabletogivehimmoney,hispresenceonlyweariedme。Hehaswrittenmealetter,inwhichhethreatenstoblowouthisbrainsto—dayifIwillnotlendhimahundredpistoles。\"
\"Hesaidthesamethingtomethreedaysago;butIrepliedthatIwouldbettwohundredpistolesthathewoulddonothingofthekind。Thismadehimangry,andheproposedtofightaduelwithme;butIdeclinedonthepleathatashewasadesperatemaneitherhewouldhaveanadvantageovermeorI,overhim。Givehimthesameanswer,or,betterstill,noansweratall。\"
\"Icannotfollowyouradvice。Herearethehundredpistoles。Takethemtohimandgetareceipt。\"
Iadmiredhisgenerosityandagreedtocarryouthiscommission。I
calledonthebaron,whoseemedratheruncomfortablewhenIwalkedin;
butconsideringhispositionIwasnotatallsurprised。
IinformedhimthatIwasthebearerofathousandfrancsfromCountManucci,whotherebyplacedhiminapositiontoarrangehisaffairsandtoleaveMadrid。Hereceivedthemoneywithoutanysignsofpleasure,surprise,orgratitude,andwroteoutthereceipt。HeassuredmethatheandhisfriendwouldstartforBarcelonaandFranceonthefollowingday。
IthentookthedocumenttoManucci,whowasevidentlysufferingfromsomementaltrouble;andIremainedtodinnerwiththeambassador。Itwasforthelasttime。
ThreedaysafterIwenttodinewiththeambassadors(fortheyalldinedtogether),buttomyastonishmenttheportertoldmethathehadreceivedordersnottoadmitme。
Theeffectofthissentenceonmewaslikethatofathunderbolt;I
returnedhomelikeamaninadream。IimmediatelysatdownandwrotetoManucci,askinghimwhyIhadbeensubjectedtosuchaninsult;butPhilippe,myman,broughtmebacktheletterunopened。
Thiswasanothersurprise;Ididnotknowwhattoexpectnext。
\"Whatcanbethematter?\"Isaidtomyself。\"Icannotimagine,butI
willhaveanexplanation,orperish。\"
IdinedsadlywithDonnaIgnazia,withouttellingherthecauseofmytrouble,andjustasIwasgoingtotakemysiestaaservantofManucci’sbroughtmealetterfromhismasterandfledbeforeIcouldreadit。
ThelettercontainedanenclosurewhichIreadfirst。ItwasfromBarondeFraiture。HeaskedManuccitolendhimahundredpistoles,promisingtoshewhimthemanwhomheheldforhisdearestfriendtobehisworstenemy。
Manucci(honouringme,bytheway,withthetitleofungratefultraitor)
saidthatthebaron’sletterhadexcitedhiscuriosityandhehehadmethiminSt。Jerome’sPark,wherethebaronhadclearlyprovedthisenemytobemyself,sinceIhadinformedthebaronthatthoughthenameofManucciwasgenuinethetitleofcountwasquiteapocryphal。
AfterrecapitulatingtheinformationwhichFraiturehadgivenhim,andwhichcouldonlyhaveproceededfrommyself,headvisedmetoleaveMadridassoonaspossible,inaweekatlatest。
Icangivethereadernoideaoftheshockthislettergaveme。ForthefirsttimeinmylifeIhadtoconfessmyselfguiltyoffolly,ingratitude,andcrime。Ifeltthatmyfaultwasbeyondforgiveness,anddidnotthinkofaskingManuccitopardonme;Icoulddonothingbutdespair。
Nevertheless,inspiteofManucci’sjustindignation,Icouldnothelpseeingthathehadmadeagreatmistakeinadvisingme,insoinsultingamanner,toleaveMadridinaweek。Theyoungmanmighthaveknownthatmyself—respectwouldforbidmyfollowingsuchapieceofadvice。Hecouldnotcompelmetoobeyhiscounselorcommand;andtoleaveMadridwouldhavebeentocommitasecondbasenessworsethanthefirst。
ApreytogriefIspentthedaywithouttakinganystepsonewayortheother,andIwenttobedwithoutsuppingandwithoutthecompanyofDonnaIgnazia。
AfterasoundsleepIgotupandwrotetothefriendwhomIhadoffendedasincereandhumbleconfessionofmyfault。IconcludedmyletterbysayingthatIhopedthatthisevidenceofmysincereandheartfeltrepentancewouldsuffice,butifnotthatIwasreadytogivehimanyhonourablesatisfactioninmypower。
\"Youmay,\"Isaid,\"havemeassassinatedifyoulike,butIshallnotleaveMadridtillitssuitsmetodoso。\"
Iputacommonplacesealonmyletter,andhadtheaddresswrittenbyPhilippe,whosehandwasunknowntoManucci,andthenIsentittoPandowherethekinghadgone。
Ikeptmyroomthewholeday;andDonnaIgnazia,seeingthatIhadrecoveredmyspiritstosomedegree,madenomoreenquiriesaboutthecauseofmydistress。Iwaitedinthewholeofthenextday,expectingareply,butinvain。
Thethirdday,beingSunday,IwentouttocallonthePrincedellaCatolica。Mycarriagestoppedathisdoor,buttheportercameoutandtoldmeinapolitewhisperthathishighnesshadhisreasonsfornotreceivingmeanylonger。
Thiswasanunexpectedblow,butafteritIwaspreparedforanything。
IdrovetotheAbbeBigliardi,butthelackey,aftertakinginmyname,informedmethathismasterwasout。
IgotintomycarriageandwenttoVarnier,whosaidhewantedtospeaktome。
\"Comeintomycarriage,\"saidI,\"wewillgoandhearmasstogether。\"
OnourwayhetoldmethattheVenetianambassador,Mocenigo,hadwarnedtheDukeofMedinaSidoniathatIwasadangerouscharacter。
\"Theduke,\"headded,\"repliedthathewouldceasetoknowyouassoonashefoundoutthebadnessofyourcharacterhimself。\"
Thesethreeshocks,followinginsuchquicksuccession,castmeintoastateofconfusion。Isaidnothingtillweheardmasstogether,butI
believethatifIhadnotthentoldhimthewholestoryIshouldhavehadanapoplecticfit。
Varnierpitiedme,andsaid,——
\"Sucharethewaysofthegreatwhentheyhaveabjuredallvirtueandhonesty。Nevertheless,Iadviseyoutokeepsilenceaboutit,unlessyouwouldirritateManuccistillfarther。\"
WhenIgothomeIwrotetoManuccibegginghimtosuspendhisvengeance,orelseIshouldbeobligedtotellthestorytoallthosewhoinsultedmefortheambassador’ssake。IsentthelettertoM。Soderini,thesecretaryoftheembassy,feelingsurethathewouldforwardittoManucci。
Idinedwithmymistress,andtookhertothebullfight,whereIchancedtofindmyselfinaboxadjoiningthatinwhichManucciandthetwoambassadorswereseated。Imadethemabowwhichtheywereobligedtoreturn,anddidnotvouchsafethemanotherglancefortherestofthespectacle。
ThenextdaytheMarquisGrimaldirefusedtoreceiveme,andIsawthatI
shouldhavetoabandonallhope。TheDukeofLossadaremainedmyfriendonaccountofhisdisliketotheambassadorandhisunnaturaltastes;buthetoldmethathehadbeenrequestednottoreceiveme,andthathedidnotthinkIhadtheslightestchanceofobtaininganyemploymentatCourt。
Icouldscarcelybelieveinsuchanextremityofvengeance:Manucciwasmakingaparadeoftheinfluencehepossessedoverhiswifetheambassador。Inhisinsanedesireforrevengehehadlaidallshameaside。
IwascurioustoknowwhetherhehadforgottenDonEmmanueldeRodaandtheMarquisdelaMoras;Ifoundbothofthemhadbeenforewarnedagainstme。TherewasstilltheCountofAranda,andIwasjustgoingtoseehimwhenaservantofhishighness’scameandtoldmethathismasterwishedtoseeme。
Ishuddered,forinmythenstateofmindIdrewthemostsinisterconclusionsfromthemessage。
Ifoundthegreatmanalone,lookingperfectlycalm。Thismademepluckupaheart。Heaskedmetositdown——afavourhehadnothithertodoneme,andthisfurthercontributedtocheerme。
\"Whathaveyoubeendoingtooffendyourambassador?\"hebegan。
\"Mylord,Ihavedonenothingtohimdirectly,butbyaninexcusableactofstupidityIhavewoundedhisdearfriendManucciinhistenderestpart。WiththemostinnocentintentionsIreposedmyconfidenceinacowardlyfellow,whosoldittoManucciforahundredpistoles。Inhisirritation,Manuccihasstirredupthegreatmanagainstme:’hincillaelacrimae’。\"
\"Youhavebeenunwise,butwhatisdoneisdone。Iamsorryforyou,becausethereisanendtoallyourhopesofadvancement。Thefirstthingthekingwoulddowouldbetomakeenquiriesaboutyouoftheambassador。\"
\"Ifeelittomysorrow,mylord,butmustIleaveMadrid?\"
\"No。Theambassadordidhisbesttomakemesendyouway,butItoldhimthatIhadnopoweroveryousolongasyoudidnotinfringethelaws。\"
\"’HehascalumniatedaVenetiansubjectwhomIamboundtoprotect,’saidhe。
\"’Inthatcase,’Ireplied,’youcanresorttotheordinarylaw,andpunishhimtothebestofyourability。’\"
\"TheambassadorfinallybeggedmetoorderyounottomentionthemattertoanyVenetiansubjectsatMadrid,andIthinkyoucansafelypromisemethis。\"
\"Mylord,Ihavemuchpleasureingivingyourexcellencymywordofhonournottodoso。\"
\"Verygood。ThenyoucanstayatMadridaslongasyouplease;and,indeed,Mocenigowillbeleavinginthecourseofaweek。\"
>FromthatmomentImadeupmymindtoamusemyselfwithoutanythoughtofobtainingapositioninSpain。However,thetiesoffriendshipmademekeepupmyacquaintancewithVarnier,theDukeofMedinaSidonia,andthearchitect,Sabatini,whoalwaysgavemeawarmwelcome,asdidhiswife。
DonnaIgnaziahadmoreofmycompanythanever,andcongratulatedmeonmyfreedomfromthecaresofbusiness。
AfterthedepartureofMocenigoIthoughtIwouldgoandseeifQuerini,hisnephew,wasequallyprejudicedagainstme。Theportertoldmethathehadreceivedordersnottoadmitme,andIlaughedintheman’sface。
SixorsevenweeksafterManucci’sdepartureI,too,leftMadrid。Ididsooncompulsion,inspiteofmyloveforIgnazia,forIhadnolongerhopesofdoinganythinginPortugal,andmypursewasnearlyexhausted。
Ithoughtofsellingahandsomerepeaterandagoldsnuff—boxsoastoenablemetogotoMarseilles,whenceIthoughtofgoingtoConstantinopleandtryingmyfortunetherewithoutturningrenegade。
Doubtless,Ishouldhavefoundtheplanunsuccessful,forIwasattaininganagewhenFortuneflies。Ihadnoreason,however,tocomplainofFortune,forshehadbeenlavishinhergiftstome,andIinmyturnhadalwaysabusedthem。
InmystateofdistressthelearnedAbbePinziintroducedmetoaGenoesebookseller,namedCarrado,athoroughlyhonestman,whoseemedtohavebeencreatedthattheknaveryofmostoftheGenoesemightbepardoned。
TohimIbroughtmywatchandsnuff—box,buttheworthyCarradonotonlyrefusedtobuythem,butwouldnottaketheminpledge。HegavemeseventeenhundredfrancswithnoothersecuritythanmywordthatIwouldrepayhimifIwereeverabletodoso。UnhappilyIhaveneverbeenabletorepaythisdebt,unlessmygratitudebeaccountedrepayment。
Asnothingissweeterthanthecompanionshipbetweenamanandthewomanheadores,sonothingisbittererthantheseparation;thepleasurehasvanishedaway,andonlythepainremains。
IspentmylastdaysatMadriddrinkingthecupofpleasurewhichwasembitteredbythethoughtofthepainthatwastofollow。TheworthyDiegowassadatthethoughtoflosingme,andcouldwithdifficultyrefrainfromtears。
ForsometimemymanPhilippecontinuedtogivemenewsofDonnaIgnazia。
Shebecamethebrideofarichshoemaker,thoughherfatherwasextremelymortifiedbyhermakingamarriagesomuchbeneathherstation。
IhadpromisedtheMarquisdelasMorasandColonelRoyasthatIwouldcomeandseethematSaragossa,thecapitalofAragon,andIarrivedthereatthebeginningofSeptember。Mystaylastedforafortnight,duringwhichtimeIwasabletoexaminethemannersandcustomsoftheAragonese,whowerenotsubjecttotheordinancesoftheMarquisofAranda,aslongcloaksandlowhatsweretobeseenateverycorner。
Theylookedlikedarkphantomsmorethanmen,forthecloakcoveredupatleasthalftheface。UnderneaththecloakwascarriedelSpadino,aswordofenormouslength。Personswhoworethiscostumeweretreatedwithgreatrespect,thoughtheyweremostlyarrantrogues;stilltheymightpossiblybepowerfulnoblemenindisguise。
ThevisitortoSaragossashouldseethedevotionwhichispaidtoourLadydelPilar。Ihaveseenprocessionsgoingalongthestreetsinwhichwoodenstatuesofgiganticproportionswerecarried。Iwastakentothebestassemblies,wherethemonksswarmed。Iwasintroducedtoaladyofmonstroussize,who,Iwasinformed,wascousintothefamousPalafox,andIdidnotfeelmybosomswellwithprideaswasevidentlyexpected。
IalsomadetheacquaintanceofCanonPignatelli,amanofItalianorigin。HewasPresidentoftheInquisition,andeverymorningheimprisonedtheprocuresswhohadfurnishedhimwiththegirlwithwhomhehadsuppedandslept。Hewouldwakeupinthemorningtiredoutwiththepleasuresofthenight;thegirlwouldbedrivenawayandtheprocuressimprisoned。Hethendressed,confessed,saidmass,andafteranexcellentbreakfastwithplentyofgoodwinehewouldsendoutforanothergirl,andthiswouldgoondayafterday。Nevertheless,hewasheldingreatrespectatSaragossa,forhewasamonk,acanon,andanInquisitor。
ThebullfightswerefineratSaragossathanatMadrid——thatistosay,theyweredeadlier;andthechiefinterestofthisbarbarousspectacleliesinthesheddingofblood。TheMarquisdelasMorasandColonelRoyasgavemesomeexcellentdinners。ThemarquiswasoneofthepleasantestmenImetinSpain;hediedveryyoungtwoyearsafter。
TheChurchofNuestraSenoradelPilarissituatedontherampartsofthetown,andtheAragonesefondlybelievethisportionofthetowndefencestobeimpregnable。
IhadpromisedDonnaPellicciatogoandseeheratValentia,andonmywayIsawtheancienttownofSaguntumonahillatsomelittledistance。
TherewasapriesttravellingwithmeandItoldhimandthedriver(whopreferredhismulestoalltheantiquitiesintheworld)thatIshouldliketogoandseethetown。Howthemuleteerandthepriestobjectedtothisproposal!
\"Thereareonlyruinsthere,senor。\"
\"That’sjustwhatIwanttosee。\"
\"WeshallnevergettoValentiato—night。\"
\"Here’sacrown;weshallgetthereto—morrow。\"
Thecrownsettledeverything,andthemanexclaimed,\"ValgameDios,esunhombredebuen!\"(SohelpmeGod,thisisanhonestman!)AsubjectofhisCatholicmajestyknowsnoheartierpraisethanthis。
Isawthemassivewallsstillstandingandingoodcondition,andyettheywerebuiltduringthesecondPunicWar。Isawontwoofthegatewaysinscriptionswhichtomeweremeaningless,butwhichSeguier,theoldfriendoftheMarquisMaffei,couldnodoubthavedeciphered。
Thesightofthismonumenttothecourageofanancientrace,whopreferredtoperishintheflamesratherthansurrender,excitedmyaweandadmiration。Thepriestlaughedatme,andIamsurehewouldnothavepurchasedthisvenerablecityofthedeadifhecouldhavedonesobysayingamass。Theverynamehasperished;insteadofSaguntumitiscalledMurviedrofromtheLatin’muriveteres’(oldwalls);butTimethatdestroysmarbleandbrassdestroysalsotheverymemoryofwhathasbeen。
\"Thisplace,\"saidthepriest,\"isalwayscalledMurviedro。\"
\"Itisridiculoustodoso,\"Ireplied;\"commonsenseforbidsuscallingathingoldwhichwasonceyoungenough。That’sasifyouwouldtellmethatNewCastilleisreallynew。\"
\"Well,OldCastilleismoreancientthanNewCastille。\"
\"Noso。NewCastillewasonlycalledsobecauseitwasthelatestconquest;butasamatteroffactitistheolderofthetwo。\"
Thepoorpriesttookrefugeinsilence;shakinghishead,andevidentlytakingmeforamadman。
ItriedvainlytofindHannibal’shead,andtheinscriptioninhonourofCaesarClaudius,butIfoundouttheremainsoftheamphitheatre。
ThenextdayIremarkedthemosaicpavement,whichhadbeendiscoveredtwentyyearsbefore。
IreachedValentiaatnineo’clockinthemorning,andfoundthatI
shouldhavetocontentmyselfwithabadlodging,asMarescalchi,theoperamanager,hadtakenallthebestroomsforthemembersofhiscompany。Marescalchiwasaccompaniedbyhisbrother,apriest,whomI
founddecidedlylearnedforhisage。Wetookawalktogether,andhelaughedwhenIproposedgoingintoacafe,fortherewasnotsuchathinginthetown。Therewereonlytavernsofthelowestclasswherethewineisnotfittodrink。Icouldscarcelybelieveit,butSpainisapeculiarcountry。WhenIwasatValentia,agoodbottleofwinewasscarcelyobtainable,thoughMalagaandAlicantewerebothcloseathand。
InthefirstthreedaysofmystayatValentia(thebirthplaceofAlexanderVI。),Isawalltheobjectsofinterestinthetown,andwasconfirmedinmyideathatwhatseemssoadmirableinthedescriptionsofwritersandthepicturesofartistslosesmuchofitscharmonactualinspection。
ThoughValentiaisblessedwithanexcellentclimate,thoughitiswellwatered,situatedinthemidstofabeautifulcountry,fertileinallthechoicestproductsofnature,thoughitistheresidenceofmanyofthemostdistinguishedoftheSpanishnobility,thoughitswomenarethemosthandsomeinSpain,thoughithastheadvantageofbeingtheseatofanarchbishop;inspiteofallthesecommodities,itisamostdisagreeabletowntolivein。Oneisilllodgedandillfed,thereisnogoodwineandnogoodcompany,thereisnotevenanyintellectualprovision,forthoughthereisauniversity,letteredmenareabsolutelyunknown。
Asforthebridges,churches,thearsenal,theexchange,thetownhall,thetwelvetowngates,andtherest,Icouldnottakepleasureinatownwherethestreetsarenotpaved,andwhereapublicpromenadeisconspicuousbyitsabsence。Outsidethetownthecountryisdelightful,especiallyonthesidetowardsthesea;buttheoutsideisnottheinside。
Thefeaturewhichpleasedmemostwasthenumberofsmallone—horsevehicleswhichtransportthetravellerrapidlyfromonepointtoanother,ataveryslightexpense,andwillevenundertakeatwoorthreedays’
journey。
Ifmyframeofmindhadbeenamorepleasantone,IshouldhavetravelledthroughthekingdomsofMurciaandGrenada,whichsurpassItalyinbeautyandfertility。
PoorSpaniards!Thisbeautyandfertilityofyourlandarethecauseofyourignorance,astheminesofPeruandPotosihavebroughtaboutthatfoolishprideandalltheprejudiceswhichdegradeyou。
Spaniards,whenwilltheimpulsecome?whenwillyoushakeoffthatfatallethargy?Nowyouaretrulyuselesstoyourselves,andtherestoftheworld;whatisityouneed?
Afuriousrevolution,aterribleshock,aconquestofregeneration;yourcaseispastgentlemethods,itneedsthecauteryandthefire。
ThefirstcallIpaidwasonDonnaPelliccia。Thefirstperformancewastobegivenintwodays。Thiswasnotamatterofanydifficulty,asthesameoperasweretobepresentedashadbeenalreadyplayedatAranjuez,theEscurial,andtheGranja,fortheCountofArandawouldneverhavedaredtosanctiontheperformanceofanItaliancomicoperaatMadrid。
Thenoveltywouldhavebeentoogreat,andtheInquisitionwouldhaveinterfered。
Theballswereaconsiderableshock,andtwoyearsaftertheyweresuppressed。Spainwillnevermakeanyrealadvance,untiltheInquisitionissuppressedalso。
AssoonasDonnaPellicciaarrived,shesentintheletterofintroductionshehadreceivedfromtheDukeofArcos,threemonthsbefore。ShehadnotseenthedukesincetheirmeetingatAranjuez。
Madam,\"saidDonDiego,thepersontowhomshewascommended,\"Ihavecometoofferyoumyservices,andtotellyouoftheordershisgracehaslaidonme,ofwhichyoumaypossiblybeignorant。\"
\"Ihope,sir,\"shereplied,\"thatIamnotputtingyoutoanyinconvenience,butIamextremelygratefultothedukeandtoyourself;
andIshallhavethehonourofcallingonyoutogiveyoumythanks。\"
\"Notatall;IhaveonlytosaythatIhaveorderstofurnishyouwithanysumsyoumayrequire,totheamountoftwenty—fivethousanddoubloons。\"
\"Twenty—fivethousanddoubloons?\"
\"Exactly,madam,twohundredandfiftythousandfrancsinFrenchmoney,andnomore。Kindlyreadhisgrace’sletter;youdonotseemtobeawareofitscontents。\"
Theletterwasabriefone:
\"DonDiego,——YouwillfurnishDonnaPellicciawithwhateversumsshemayrequire,notexceedingtwenty—fivethousanddoubloons,atmyaccount。
\"THEDUKEDOSARCOS\"
Weremainedinastateofperfectstupefaction。DonnaPellicciareturnedtheepistletothebanker,whobowedandtookhisleave。
Thissoundsalmostincrediblegenerosity,butinSpainsuchthingsarenotuncommon。IhavealreadymentionedthemunificentgiftofMedina—
CelitoMadamePichona。
ThosewhoareunacquaintedwiththepeculiarSpanishcharacterandthevastrichesofsomeofthenobility,maypronouncesuchactsofgenerositytoberidiculousandpositivelyinjurious,buttheymakeamistake。Thespendthriftgivesandsquandersbyakindofinstinct,andsohewillcontinuetodoaslongashismeansremain。ButthesesplendidgiftsIhavedescribeddonotcomeunderthecategoryofsenselessprodigality。TheSpaniardischieflyambitiousofpraise,forpraisehewilldoanything;butthisverydesireforadmirationservestorestrainhimfromactionsbywhichhewouldincurblame。Hewantstobethoughtsuperiortohisfellows,astheSpanishnationissuperiortoallothernations;hewantstobethoughtworthyofathrone,andtobeconsideredasthepossessorofallthevirtues。
ImayalsonotethatwhilesomeoftheSpanishnobilityareasrichastheEnglishlords,theformerhavenotsomanywaysofspendingtheirmoneyasthelatter,andthusareenabledtobeheroicallygenerousonoccasion。
AssoonasDonDiegohadgone,webegantodiscusstheduke’snoblebehaviour。
DonnaPellicciamaintainedthatthedukehadwishedtoshewhisconfidenceinherbydoingherthehonourofsupposingherincapableofabusinghisgenerosity;\"atallevents,\"sheconcluded,\"IwouldratherdieofhungerthantakeasingledoubloonofDonDiego。\"
\"Thedukewouldbeoffended,\"saidaviolinist;\"Ithinkyououghttotakesomething。\"
\"Youmusttakeitall,\"saidthehusband。
Iwasofthelady’sopinion,andtoldherthatIwassurethedukewouldrewardherdelicacybymakingherfortune。
Shefollowedmyadviceandherownimpulse,thoughthebankerremonstratedwithher。
SuchistheperversityofthehumanmindthatnoonebelievedinDonnaPelliccia’sdelicacy。WhenthekingheardwhathadhappenedheorderedtheworthyactresstoleaveMadrid,topreventthedukeruininghimself。
Suchisoftentherewardofvirtueherebelow,butthemaliciouspersonswhohadtriedtoinjureDonnaPellicciabycalumniatinghertothekingwerethemeansofmakingherfortune。
Thedukewhohadonlyspokenonceortwicetotheactressinpublic,andhadneverspentapennyonher,tooktheking’scommandasaninsult,andonenottobeborne。Hewastooproudtosolicitthekingtorevoketheorderhehadgiven,andintheendbehavedinawaybefittingsonoble—
mindedaman。ForthefirsttimehevisitedDonnaPellicciaatherownhouse,andbegginghertoforgivehimforhavingbeentheinnocentcauseofherdisgrace,askedhertoacceptarouleauandaletterwhichhelaidonthetable。
Therouleaucontainedahundredgoldounceswiththewords\"fortravellingexpenses,\"andtheletterwasaddressedtoaRomanbank,andprovedtobeanorderfortwenty—fourthousandRomancrowns。
Fortwenty—nineyearsthisworthywomankeptanestablishmentatRome,anddidsoinamannerwhichprovedherworthyofhergoodfortune。
ThedayafterDonnaPelliccia’sdeparturethekingsawtheDukeofArcos,andtoldhimnottobesad,buttoforgetthewoman,whohadbeensentawayforhisowngood。
\"Bysendingheraway,yourmajestyobligedmetoturnfictionintofact,forIonlyknewherbyspeakingtoherinvariouspublicplaces,andI
hadnevermadeherthesmallestpresent。\"
\"Thenyounevergavehertwenty—fivethousanddoubloons?\"
\"Sire,Igaveherdoublethatsum,butonlyonthedaybeforeyesterday。
Yourmajestyhasabsolutepower,butifshehadnotreceivedherdismissalIshouldneverhavegonetoherhouse,norshouldIhavegivenherthesmallestpresent。\"
Thekingwasstupefiedandsilent;hewasprobablymeditatingontheamountofcreditamonarchshouldgivetothegossipthathiscourtiersbringhim。
IheardaboutthisfromM。Monnino,whowasafterwardsknownunderthetitleofCastilledeFloridaBlanca,andisnowlivinginexileinMurcia,hisnativecountry。
AfterMarescalchihadgone,andIwasmakingmypreparationsformyjourneytoBarcelona,Isawoneday,atthebullfight,awomanwhoseappearancehadastrangekindoffascinationaboutit。
TherewasaknightofAlcantaraatmyside,andIaskedhimwhotheladywas。
\"SheisthefamousNina。\"
\"Howfamous?\"
\"Ifyoudonotknowherstory,itistoolongtobetoldhere。\"
Icouldnothelpgazingather,andtwominuteslateranill—lookingfellowbesidehercameuptomycompanionandwhisperedsomethinginhisear。
TheknightturnedtowardsmeandinformedmeinthemostpolitemannerthattheladywhosenameIhadaskeddesiredtoknowmine。
Iwassillyenoughtobeflatteredbyhercuriosity,andtoldthemessengerthatiftheladywouldallowmeIwouldcometoherboxandtellhermynameinpersonaftertheperformance。
\"FromyouraccentIshouldsupposeyouwereanItalian。\"
\"IamaVenetian。\"
\"Soisshe。\"
Whenhehadgoneawaymyneighbourseemedinclinedtobemorecommunicative,andinformedmethatNinawasadancerwhomtheCountdeRicla,theViceroyofBarcelona,waskeepingforsomeweeksatValentia,tillhecouldgetherbacktoBarcelona,whencethebishopofthediocesehadexpelledheronaccountofthescandalstowhichshegaverise。\"Thecount,\"headded,\"ismadlyinlovewithher,andallowsherfiftydoubloonsaday。\"
\"Ishouldhopeshedoesnotspendthem。\"
\"Shecan’tdothat,butshedoesnotletadaypasswithoutcommittingsomeexpensiveactoffolly。\"
Ifeltcurioustoknowawomanofsuchapeculiarcharacter,andlongedfortheendofthebullfight,littlethinkinginwhattroublethisnewacquaintancewouldinvolveme。
Shereceivedmewithgreatpoliteness,andasshegotintohercarriagedrawnbysixmules,shesaidshewouldbedelightedifIwouldbreakfastwithheratnineo’clockonthefollowingday。
Ipromisedtocome,andIkeptmyword。
Herhousewasjustoutsidethetownwalls,andwasaverylargebuilding。
Itwasrichlyandtastefullyfurnished,andwassurroundedbyanenormousgarden。
Thefirstthingthatstruckmewasthenumberofthelackeysandtherichnessoftheirliveries,andthemaidsinelegantattire,whoseemedtobegoingandcominginalldirections。
AsIadvancedIheardanimperiousvoicescoldingsomeone。
ThescoldwasNina,whowasabusinganastonished—lookingman,whowasstandingbyalargetablecoveredwithstuffsandlaces。
\"Excuseme,\"saidshe,\"butthisfoolofaSpaniardwantstopersuademethatthislaceisreallyhandsome。\"
SheaskedmewhatIthoughtofthelace,andthoughIprivatelythoughtitlaceofthefinestquality,Ididnotcaretocontradicther,andsorepliedthatIwasnojudge。
\"Madam,\"saidthetradesman,\"ifyoudonotlikethelace,leaveit;willyoukeepthestuffs?\"
\"Yes,\"shereplied;\"andasforthelace,Iwillshewyouthatitisnotthemoneythatdetersme。\"
Sosayingthemadgirltookupapairofscissorsandcutthelaceintofragments。
\"Whatapity!\"saidthemanwhohadspokentomeatthebullfight。
\"Peoplewillsaythatyouhavegoneoffyourhead。\"
\"Besilent,youpimpingrogue!\"saidshe,enforcingherwordswithasturdyboxontheear。
Thefellowwentoff,callingherstrumpet,whichonlymadeherscreamwithlaughter;then,turningtotheSpaniard,shetoldhimtomakeouthisaccountdirectly。
Themandidnotwanttellingtwice,andavengedhimselffortheabusehehadreceivedbytheinordinatelengthofhisbill。
Shetookuptheaccountandplacedherinitialsatthebottomwithoutdeigningtolookattheitems,andsaid,——
\"GotoDonDiegoValencia;hewillpayyouimmediately。\"
Assoonaswewerealonethechocolatewasserved,andshesentamessagetothefellowwhoseearsshehadboxedtocometobreakfastdirectly。
\"Youneedn’tbesurprisedatmywayoftreatinghim,\"shesaid。\"He’sarascalwhomRiclahasplacedinmyhousetospyoutmyactions,andI
treathimasyouhaveseen,sothathemayhaveplentyofnewstowritetohismaster。\"
IthoughtImustbedreaming;suchawomanseemedtomebeyondthelimitsofthepossible。
Thepoorwretch,whocamefromBolognaandwasamusicianbyprofession,cameandsatdownwithuswithoutaword。HisnamewasMolinari。
Assoonashehadfinishedhisbreakfasthelefttheroom,andNinaspentanhourwithmetalkingaboutSpain,Italy,andPortugal,whereshehadmarriedadancernamedBergonzi。
\"Myfather,\"shesaid,\"wasthefamouscharlatanPelandi;youmayhaveknownhimatVenice。\"
Afterthispieceofconfidence(andshedidnotseematallashamedofherparentage)sheaskedmetosupwithher,supperbeingherfavouritemeal。Ipromisedtocome,andIlefthertoreflectontheextraordinarycharacterofthewoman,andonthegoodfortunewhichshesoabused。
Ninawaswonderfullybeautiful;butasithasalwaysbeenmyopinionthatmerebeautydoesnotgoformuch,Icouldnotunderstandhowaviceroycouldhavefalleninlovewithhertosuchanextent。AsforMolinari,afterwhichIhadseen,Icouldonlysethimdownasaninfamouswretch。
Iwenttosupperwithherforamusement’ssake,for,withallherbeauty,shehadnottouchedmyheartintheslightestdegree。ItwasatthebeginningofOctober,butatValentiathethermometermarkedtwentydegreesReaumurintheshade。
Ninawaswalkinginthegardenwithhercompanion,bothofthembeingverylightlyclad;indeed,Ninahadonlyherchemiseandalightpetticoat。
Assoonasshesawmeshecameupandbeggedmetofollowtheirexampleinthewayofattire,butIbeggedtobeexcused。Thepresenceofthathatefulfellowrevoltedmeinthehighestdegree。
IntheintervalbeforesupperNinaentertainedmewithanumberoflasciviousanecdotesofherexperiencesfromthetimeshebeganherpresentmodeoflivinguptotheageoftwenty—two,whichwasheragethen。
IfithadnotbeenforthepresenceofthedisgustingArgus,nodoubtallthesestorieswouldhaveproducedtheirnaturaleffectonme;butasitwastheyhadnonewhatever。
Wehadadelicatesupperandatewithappetite,andafteritwasoverI
wouldhavegladlyleftthem;butNinawouldnotletmego。Thewinehadtakeneffect,andshewishedtohavealittleamusement。
Afteralltheservantshadbeendismissed,thisMessalinaorderedMolinaritostripnaked,andshethenbegantotreathiminamannerwhichIcannotdescribewithoutdisgust。
Therascalwasyoungandstrong,and,thoughhewasdrunk,Nina’streatmentsoonplacedhiminaheartycondition。Icouldseethatshewishedmetoplaymypartintherevels,butmydisgusthadutterlydeprivedmeofallmyamorousfaculties。
Nina,too,hadundressed,andseeingthatIviewedtheorgycoldlysheproceededtosatiateherdesiresbymeansofMolinari。
Ihadtobearwiththesightofthisbeautifulwomancouplingherselfwithananimal,whoseonlymeritlayinhisvirilemonstrosity,whichshenodoubtregardedaeabeauty。