\"Youhavebeenlosing,then?\"
\"Yes,butmybrotherhaswonsomething,\"saidtheamiableQ————。
\"Ihopeluckwilldeclareitselfonyoursidealso。\"
\"No,wearenotlucky。\"
Whentheirauntlefttheroom,theyaskedmeifthelieutenanthadtoldmethataladyfriendoftheirswascomingtotheballwiththem。
\"Iknowall,\"Ianswered,\"andIhopeyouwillenjoyyourselves,butyouwillnotdosomorethanI。Iwanttospeaktothegallantlieutenantto—morrowmorning。\"
\"Tellusaboutourdisguises。\"
\"Youwillbedisguisedinsuchamannerthatnobodywillrecognizeyou。\"
\"Buthowshallwebedressed?\"
\"Veryhandsomely。\"
\"Butwhatcostumehaveyougivenus?\"
\"Thatismysecret,ladies。HowevermuchIshouldliketopleaseyou,Ishallsaynothingtillthetimeforyoutodresscomesround。Don’taskmeanythingmore,asIhavepromisedmyselftheenjoymentofyoursurprise。Iamveryfondofdramaticsituations。Youshallknowallaftersupper。\"
\"Arewetohavesupper,then?\"
\"Certainly,ifyouwouldlikeit。IamagreateatermyselfandI
hopeyouwillnotletmeeatalone。\"
\"Thenwewillhavesomesuppertopleaseyou。Wewilltakecarenottoeatmuchdinner,soastobeabletoviewithyouintheevening。TheonlythingIamsorryabout,\"addedMdlle。Q————,\"isthatyoushouldbeputtosuchexpense。\"
\"Itisapleasure;andwhenIleaveMilanIshallconsolemyselfwiththethoughtthatIhavesuppedwiththetwohandsomestladiesinthetown。\"
\"Howisfortunetreatingyou?\"
\"Cananowinstwohundredsequinsfrommeeveryday。\"
\"Butyouwontwothousandfromhiminonenight。\"
\"YouwillbreakhisbankonSunday。Wewillbringyouluck。\"
\"Wouldyouliketolookon?\"
\"Weshouldbedelighted,butmybrothersaysyoudon’twanttogowithus。\"
\"Quiteso,thereasonisthatIshouldberecognized。ButI
believethegentlemanwhowillaccompanyyouisofthesamefigureasmyself。\"
\"Exactlythesame,\"saidthecousin;\"exceptthatheisfair。\"
\"Allthebetter,\"saidI,\"thefairalwaysconquerthedarkwithease。\"
\"Notalways,\"saidtheother。\"Buttellus,atanyrate,whetherwearetowearmen’sdresses。\"
\"Fie!fie!IshouldbeangrywithmyselfifIhadentertainedsuchathought。\"
\"That’scurious;whyso?\"
\"I’lltellyou。IfthedisguiseiscompleteIamdisgusted,fortheshapeofawomanismuchmoremarkedthanthatofaman,andconsequentlyawomaninman’sdress,wholookslikeaman,cannothaveagoodfigure。\"
\"Butwhenawomanskewshershapewell?\"
\"ThenIamangrywithherforskewingtoomuch,forIliketoseethefaceandthegeneraloutlinesoftheformandtoguesstherest。\"
\"Buttheimaginationisoftendeceptive!\"
\"Yes,butitiswiththefacethatIalwaysfallinlove,andthatneverdeceivesmeasfarasitisconcerned。ThenifIhavethegoodfortunetoseeanythingmoreIamalwaysinalenientmoodanddisposedtopassoversmallfaults。Youarelaughing?\"
\"Iamsmilingatyourimpassionedarguments。\"
\"Wouldyouliketobedressedlikeaman?\"
\"Iwasexpectingsomethingofthekind,butafteryouhavesaidwecanmakenomoreobjections。\"
\"Icanimaginewhatyouwouldsay;Ishouldcertainlynottakeyouformen,butIwillsaynomore。\"
Theylookedateachother,andblushedandsmiledastheysawmygazefixedontwopre—eminenceswhichonewouldneverexpecttoseeinanyman。Webegantotalkofotherthings,andfortwohoursIenjoyedtheirlivelyandculturedconversation。
WhenIleftthemIwentofftomyapartments,thentotheopera,whereIlosttwohundredsequins,andfinallysuppedwiththecountess,whohadbecomequiteamiable。However,shesoonfellbackintoheroldwayswhenshefoundthatmypolitenesswasmerelyexternal,andthatIhadnointentionswhateveroftroublingherinherbedroomagain。
OntheSaturdaymorningtheyoungofficercametoseeme,andI
toldhimthattherewasonlyonethingthatIwantedhimtodo,butthatitmustbedoneexactlyaccordingtomyinstructions。Hepromisedtofollowthemtotheletter,andIproceeded,——
\"Youmustgetacarriageandfour,andassoonasthefiveofyouareinittellthecoachmantodriveasfastashishorsescangallopoutofMilan,andtobringyoubackagainbyanotherroadtothehouse。Thereyoumustgetdown,sendthecarriageaway,afterenjoiningsilenceonthecoachman,andcomein。Aftertheballyouwillundressinthesamehouse,andthengohomeinsedan—chairs。Thusweshallbeabletobaffletheinquisitive,whowillbeprettynumerous,Iwarnyou。\"
\"Myfriendthemarquiswillseetoallthat,\"saidhe,\"andI
promiseyouhewilldoitwell,forheislongingtomakeyouracquaintance。\"
\"Ishallexpectyou,then,atseveno’clockto—morrow。
Warnyourfriendthatitisimportantthecoachmanshouldnotbeknown,anddonotletanybodybringaservant。\"
Allthesearrangementsbeingmade,IdeterminedtodisguisemyselfasPierrot。There’snodisguisemoreperfect;for,besidesconcealingthefeaturesandtheshapeofthebody,itdoesnotevenletthecolouroftheskinremainrecognizable。Myreadersmayrememberwhathappenedtomeinthisdisguisetenyearsbefore。ImadethetailorgetmeanewPierrotcostume,whichI
placedwiththeothers,andwithtwonewpurses,ineachofwhichIplacedfivehundredsequins,Irepairedtothepastrycook’sbeforeseveno’clock。Ifoundthetablespread,andthesupperready。IshutupZenobiaintheroomwheretheladiesweretomaketheirtoilette,andatfiveminutespastseventhejoyouscompanyarrived。
Themarquiswasdelightedtomakemyacquaintance,andIwelcomedhimashedeserved。Hewasaperfectgentlemanineveryrespect,handsome,rich,andyoung,verymuchinlovewiththeprettycousinwhomhetreatedwithgreatrespect。Thelieutenant’smistresswasadelightfullittleladyandmadlyfondofherlover。
AstheywereallawarethatIdidnotwantthemtoknowtheircostumestillaftersupper,nothingwassaidaboutit,andwesatdowntotable。Thesupperwasexcellent;Ihadordereditinaccordancewithmyowntastes;thatistosay,everythingwasofthebest,andtherewasplentyofeverything。Whenwehadeatenanddrunkwell,Isaid,——
\"AsIamnotgoingtoappearwithyou,Imayaswelltellyouthepartsyouaretoplay。Youaretobefivebeggars,twomenandthreewomen,allragsandtatters。\"
Thelongfacestheypulledatthisannouncementwereapleasantsighttosee。
\"Youwilleachcarryaplateinyourhandstosolicitalms,andyoumustwalktogetherabouttheball—roomasabandofmendicants。Butnowfollowmeandtakepossessionofyourraggedrobes。\"
AlthoughIhadmuchadotorefrainfromlaughingatthevexationanddisappointmentwhichappearedonalltheirfaces,Isucceededinpreservingmyseriousair。Theydidnotseeminanykindofhurrytogettheirclothes,andIwasobligedtotellthemthattheywerekeepingmewaiting。TheyrosefromthetableandI
threwthedooropen,andallwerestruckwithZenobia’sbeautyasshestoodupbythetableonwhichtherichthoughtatteredrobesweredisplayed,bowingtothecompanywithmuchgrace。
\"Here,ladies,\"saidItothecousins,\"areyourdresses,andhereisyours,mademoiselle——alittlesmaller。Hereareyourshifts,yourhandkerchiefsandyourstockings,andIthinkyouwillfindeverythingyourequireonthistable。Herearemasks,thefacesofwhichshewsopoorlybesideyourown,andherearethreeplatestocravealms。Ifanybodylooksashighasyourgarters,theywillseehowwretchedyouare,andtheholesinthestockingswillletpeopleknowthatyouhavenotthewherewithaltobuysilktomendthem。Thispackthreadmustserveyouforbuckles,andwemusttakecarethatthereareholesinyourshoesandalsoinyourgloves,andaseverythingmustmatch,assoonasyouhaveputonyourchemisesyoumusttearthelaceroundtheneck。\"
WhileIwasgoingthroughthisexplanationIsawsurpriseanddelighteffacethedisappointmentandvexationwhichhadbeenthereamomentbefore。TheysawwhatarichdisguiseIhadprovidedforthem,andtheycouldnotfinditintheirheartstosay,\"Whatapity!\"
\"Here,gentlemen,areyourbeggar—clothes。Iforgottolacerateyourbeaverhats,butthatissoondone。Well,whatdoyouthinkofthecostume?\"
\"Now,ladies,wemustleaveyou;shutthedoorfast,foritisacaseofchangingyourshifts。Now,gentlemen,leavetheroom。\"
Themarquiswasenthusiastic。
\"Whatasensationweshallcreate!\"saidhe,\"nothingcouldbebetter。\"
Inhalfanhourwewereready。Thestockingsinholes,theworn—
outshoes,thelaceinrags,thestragglinghair,thesadmasks,thenotchedplates——allmadeapictureofsumptuousmiseryhardtobedescribed。
Theladiestookmoretimeonaccountoftheirhair,whichfloatedontheirshouldersinfinedisorder。Mdlle。Q————’shairwasespeciallyfine,itextendedalmosttoherknees。
Whentheywerereadythedoorwasopened,andwesaweverythingwhichcouldexcitedesirewithoutwoundingdecency。IadmiredZenobia’sadroitness。Therentsindressesandchemisesdisclosedpartsoftheirshoulders,theirbreasts,andtheirarms,andtheirwhitelegsshonethroughtheholesinthestockings。
Ishewedthemhowtowalk,andtoswaytheirheadstoandfro,toexcitecompassion,andyetbegraceful,andhowtousetheirhandkerchiefstoshewpeoplethetearsinthemandthefinenessofthelace。Theyweredelighted,andlongedtobeattheball,butIwantedtobetherefirsttohavethepleasureofseeingthemcomein。Iputonmymask,toldZenobiatogotobed,aswewouldnotbebacktilldaybreak,andsetoutonmyway。
Ienteredtheball—room,andastherewereascoreofPierrotsnobodynoticedme。Fiveminutesaftertherewasarushtoseesomemaskerswhowerecomingin,andIstoodsoastohaveagoodview。Themarquiscameinfirstbetweenthetwocousins。Theirslow,pitifulstepmatchedthepartwonderfully。Mdlle。Q————
withherflame—coloureddress,hersplendidhair,andherfineshape,drewalleyestowardsher。Theastonishedandinquisitivecrowdkeptsilenceforaquarterofanhouraftertheyhadcomein,andthenIheardoneveryside,\"Whatadisguise!\"\"It’swonderful!\"\"Whoarethey?\"\"Whocantheybe?\"\"Idon’tknow。\"
\"I’llfindout。\"
Ienjoyedtheresultsofmyinventiveness。
Themusicstruckup,andthreefinedominoswentuptothethreebeggar—girlstoaskthemtodanceaminuet,buttheyexcusedthemselvesbypointingtotheirdilapidatedshoes。Iwasdelighted;itshewedthattheyhadenteredintothespiritofthepart。
Ifollowedthemaboutforaquarterofanhour,andthecuriosityaboutthemonlyincreased,andthenIpaidavisittoCanano’stable,whereplaywasrunninghigh。AmasquerdressedintheVenetianstylewaspuntingonasinglecard,goingfiftysequinsparoliandpaixdeparoli,inmyfashion。Helostthreehundredsequins,andashewasamanofaboutthesamesizeasmyselfpeoplesaiditwasCasanova,butCananowouldnotagree。InorderthatImightbeabletostayatthetable,Itookupthecardsandpuntedthreeorfourducatslikeabeginner。ThenextdealtheVenetianmasquerhadarunofluck,andgoingparoli,paixdeparoliandtheva,wonbackallthemoneyhehadlost。
Thenextdealwasalsoinhisfavour,andhecollectedhiswinningsandleftthetable。
Isatdowninthechairhehadoccupied,andaladysaid,——
\"That’stheChevalierdeSeingalt。\"
\"No,\"saidanother。\"Isawhimalittlewhileagointheball—
roomdisguisedasabeggar,withfourothermasquerswhomnobodyknows。\"
\"Howdoyoumean,dressedasabeggar?\"saidCanano。
\"Why,inrags,andthefourothers,too;butinspiteofthatthedressesaresplendidandtheeffectisverygood。Theyareaskingforalms。\"
\"Theyoughttobeturnedout,\"saidanother。
Iwasdelightedtohaveattainedmyobject,fortherecognitionofmewasamereguess。Ibeganputtingsequinsononecard,andI
lostfiveorsixtimesrunning。Cananostudiedme,butIsawhecouldnotmakemeout。Iheardwhispersrunningroundthetable。
\"Itisn’tSeingalt;hedoesn’tplaylikethat;besides,heisattheball。\"
Theluckturned;threedealswereinmyfavour,andbroughtmebackmorethanIhadlost。Icontinuedplayingwithaheapofgoldbeforeme,andonmyputtingafistfullofsequinsonacarditcameout,andIwentparoliandpairdeparoli。Iwonagain,andseeingthatthebankwasatalowebbIstoppedplaying。
Cananopaidme,andtoldhiscashiertogetathousandsequins,andashewasshufflingthecardsIheardacryof,\"Herecomethebeggars。\"
Thebeggarscameinandstoodbythetable,andCanano,catchingthemarquis’seye,askedhimforapinchofsnuff。MydelightmaybeimaginedwhenIsawhimmodestlypresentingacommonhornsnuffboxtothebanker。Ihadnotthoughtofthisdetail,whichmadeeverybodylaughimmensely。Mdlle。Q————stretchedoutherplatetoaskanalmsofCanano,whosaid,——
\"Idon’tpityyouwiththatfinehairofyours,andifyouliketoputitonacardIwillallowyouathousandsequinsforit。\"
Shegavenoanswertothispolitespeech,andheldoutherplatetome,andIputahandfulofsequinsonit,treatingtheotherbeggarsinthesameway。
\"Pierrotseemstolikebeggars,\"saidCanano,withasmile。
Thethreemendicantsbowedgratefullytomeandlefttheroom。
TheMarquisTriulziwhosatnearCanano,said,——
\"Thebeggarinthestraw—coloureddressiscertainlyCasanova。\"
\"Irecognizedhimdirectly,\"repliedthebanker,\"butwhoaretheothers?\"
\"Weshallfindoutinduetime。\"
\"Adearercostumecouldnotbeimagined;allthedressesarequitenew。\"
Thethousandsequinscamein,andIcarriedthemalloffintwodeals。
\"Wouldyouliketogoonplaying?\"saidCanano。
Ishookmyhead,andindicatingwithasignofmyhandthatI
wouldtakeacheque,heweighedmywinningsandgavemeachequefortwenty—ninepoundsofgold,amountingtotwothousand,fivehundredsequins。Iputawaythecheque,andaftershakinghimbythehand,IgotupandrolledawayintruePierrotfashion,andaftermakingthetouroftheball—roomIwenttoaboxonthethirdtierofwhichIhadgiventhekeytotheyoungofficer,andthereIfoundmybeggars。
Wetookoffourmasksandcongratulatedeachotheronoursuccess,andtoldouradventures。Wehadnothingtofearfrominquisitiveeyes,fortheboxesoneachsideofuswereempty。Ihadtakenthemmyself,andthekeyswereinmypocket。
ThefairbeggarstalkedofreturningmethealmsIhadgiventhem,butIrepliedinsuchawaythattheysaidnomoreaboutit。
\"Iamtakenforyou,sir,\"saidthemarquis,\"anditmaycausesomeannoyancetoourfairfriendshere。\"
\"Ihaveforeseenthat,\"Ireplied,\"andIshallunmaskbeforetheendoftheball。Thiswillfalsifyallsuppositions,andnobodywillsucceedinidentifyingyou。\"
\"Ourpocketsarefullofsweetmeats,\"saidMdlle。Q————。
\"Everybodywantedtofillourplates。\"
\"Yes,\"saidthecousin,\"everybodyadmiredus;theladiescamedownfromtheirboxestohaveacloserviewofus,andeveryonesaidthatnoricherdisguisecouldbeimagined。\"
\"Youhaveenjoyedyourselves,then?\"
\"Yes,indeed。\"
\"AndItoo。Ifeelquiteboastfulathavinginventedacostumewhichhasdrawnalleyesuponyou,andyethasconcealedyouridentity。\"
\"Youhavemadeusallhappy,\"saidthelieutenant’slittlemistress。\"IneverthoughtIshouldhavesuchapleasantevening。\"
\"Finiscoronatopus,\"Ireplied,\"andIhopetheendwillbeevenbetterthanthebeginning。\"
SosayingIgavemysweetheart’shandagentlepressure,andwhethersheunderstoodmeornotIfeltherhandtrembleinmine。
\"Wewillgodownnow,\"saidshe。
\"SowillI,forIwanttodance,andIamsureIshallmakeyoulaughasPierrot。\"
\"Doyouknowhowmuchmoneyyougaveeachofus?\"
\"Icannotsayprecisely,butIbelieveIgaveeachanequalshare。\"
\"Thatisso。Ithinkitiswonderfulhowyoucoulddoit。\"
\"Ihavedoneitathousandtimes。WhenIloseaparolioftensequinsIputthreefingersintomypurse,andamcertaintobringupthirtysequins。IwouldbetIgaveyoueachfromthirty—eighttofortysequins。\"
\"Fortyexactly。It’swonderful。Weshallrememberthismasquedball。\"
\"Idon’tthinkanybodywillimitateus,\"saidthemarquis。
\"No,\"saidthecousin,\"andwewouldnotdaretowearthesamedressesagain。\"
Weputonourmasks,andIwasthefirsttogoout。Afternumerouslittlejocularitieswiththeharlequins,especiallythefemaleones,IrecognizedThereseinadomino,andwalkinguptoherasawkwardlyasIcouldIaskedhertodancewithme。
\"YouarethePierrotwhobrokethebank?\"shesaid。
Iansweredthequestionintheaffirmativebyanod。
Idancedlikeamadman,alwaysonthepointoffallingtothegroundandneveractuallydoingso。
Whenthedancewasover,Iofferedhermyarmandtookherbacktoherbox,whereGreppiwassittingbyhimself。Sheletmecomein,andtheirsurprisewasgreatwhenItookoffmymask。TheyhadthoughtIwasoneofthebeggars。IgaveM。GreppiCanano’scheque,andassoonashehadhandedmeanacknowledgmentIwentdowntotheball—roomagainwithmymaskoff,muchtotheastonishmentoftheinquisitive,whohadmadesurethatthemarquiswasI。
TowardstheendoftheballIwentawayinasedan—chair,whichI
stoppednearthedoorofanhotel,andalittlefurtheronItookanotherwhichbroughtmetothedoorofthepastry—cook’s。I
foundZenobiainbed。ShesaidshewassureIwouldcomebackbymyself。IundressedasquicklyasIcould,andgotintobedwiththisVenusofawoman。Shewasabsoluteperfection。IamsurethatifPraxiteleshadhadherforamodel,hewouldnothaverequiredseveralGreekbeautiesfromwhichtocomposehisVenus。
Whatapitythatsuchanexquisitefigureshouldbethepropertyofasorrytailor。
Istrippedhernaked,andafterduecontemplationImadeherfeelhowmuchIlovedher。Shewaspleasedwithmyadmiration,andgavemebackasmuchasshegot。Ihadherentirelytomyselfforthefirsttime。Whenweheardthetrotoffourhorsesweroseandputonourclothesinatwinkling。
Whenthecharmingbeggarscamein,ItoldthemthatIshouldbeabletohelpintheirtoiletteastheyhadnottochangetheirchemises,andtheydidnotmakemanyobjections。
MygazewasfixedallthewhileonMdlle。Q————。Iadmiredhercharms,andIwasdelightedtoseethatshewasnotmiserlyintheirdisplay。AfterZenobiahaddoneherhairshelefthertome,andwenttoattendontheothers。Sheallowedmetoputonherdress,anddidnotforbidmyeyeswanderingtowardsalargerentinherchemise,whichletmeseealmostthewholeofoneofherbeautifulbreasts。
\"Whatareyougoingtodowiththischemise?\"
\"Youwilllaughatoursilliness。Wehavedeterminedtokeepeverythingasamemorialofthesplendideveningwehavehad。Mybrotherwillbringitalltothehouse。Areyoucomingtoseeusthisevening?\"
\"IfIwerewiseIshouldavoidyou。\"
\"AndifIwerewiseIshouldn’taskyoutocome。\"
\"Thatisfairlyanswered!OfcourseIwillcome;butbeforewepartmayIaskonekiss?\"
\"Saytwo。\"
Herbrotherandthemarquislefttheroom,andtwosedan—chairsI
hadsummonedtookoffthecousins。
Assoonasthemarquiswasalonewithmeheaskedmeverypolitelytolethimshareintheexpenses。
\"Iguessedyouweregoingtohumiliateme。\"
\"Suchwasnotmyintention,andIdonotinsist;butthenyouknowIshallbehumiliated。\"
\"Notatall;Ireckononyourgoodsense。Itreallycostsmenothing。Besides,Igiveyoumywordtoletyoupayforallthepartiesofpleasureweenjoytogetherduringthecarnival。Wewillsupherewhenyoulike;youshallinvitethecompany,andI
willleaveyoutopaythebill。\"
\"Thatarrangementwillsuitmeadmirably。Wemustbefriends。I
leaveyouwiththischarmingattendant。IdidnotthinkthatsuchabeautycouldexistinMilanunknowntoallbutyou。\"
\"Sheisatownswoman,whoknowshowtokeepasecret。Doyounot?\"
\"IwouldratherdiethantellanyonethatthisgentlemanistheMarquisofF————。\"
\"That’sright;alwayskeepyourword,andtakethistrifleasasouvenirofme。\"
Itwasaprettyring,whichZenobiareceivedwithmuchgrace;itmightbeworthaboutfiftysequins。
Whenthemarquiswasgone,Zenobiaundressedmeanddidmyhairforthenight,andasIgotintobedIgavehertwenty—foursequins,andtoldhershemightgoandcomfortherhusband。
\"Hewon’tbeuneasy,\"saidshe,\"heisaphilosopher。\"
\"Heneedbewithsuchaprettywife。Kissmeagain,Zenobia,andthenwemustpart。\"
Shethrewherselfuponme,coveringmewithkisses,andcallingmeherhappinessandherprovidence。Herfierykissesproducedtheirnaturaleffect,andafterIhadgivenherafreshproofofthepowerofhercharms,sheleftmeandIwenttosleep。
Itwastwoo’clockwhenIawokeravenouslyhungry。Ihadanexcellentdinner,andthenIdressedtocallonthecharmingMdlle。Q————,whomIdidnotexpecttofindtoohardonme,afterwhatshehadsaid。Everybodywasplayingcardswiththeexceptionofherself。Shewasstandingbyawindowreadingsoattentivelythatshedidnothearmecomeintotheroom,butwhenshesawmenearher,sheblushed,shutupthebook,andputitinherpocket。
\"Iwillnotbetrayyou,\"saidI,\"ortellanyonethatIsurprisedyoureadingaprayer—book。\"
\"No,don’t;formyreputationwouldbegoneifIwerethoughttobeadevotee。\"
\"Hastherebeenanytalkofthemasquedballorofthemysteriousmasquers?\"
\"Peopletalkofnothingelse,andcondolewithusfornothavingbeentotheball,butnoonecanguesswhothebeggarswere。Itseemsthatanunknowncarriageandfourthatspedlikethewindtookthemasfarasthefirststage,andwheretheywentnextGodaloneknows!Itissaidthatmyhairwasfalse,andIhavelongedtoletitdownandthusgivethemthelie。Itisalsosaidthatyoumustknowwhothebeggarswere,asyouloadedthemwithducats。\"
\"Onemustletpeoplesayandbelievewhattheylikeandnotbetrayourselves。\"
\"Youareright;andafterallwehadadelightfulevening。Ifyouacquityourselfofallcommissionsinthesameway,youmustbeawonderfulman。\"
\"Butitisonlyyouwhocouldgivemesuchacommission。\"
\"Ito—day,andanotherto—morrow。\"
\"IseeyouthinkIaminconstant,butbelievemeifIfindfavourinyoureyesyourfacewilleverdwellinmymemory。\"
\"Iamcertainyouhavetoldathousandgirlsthesamestory,andaftertheyhaveadmittedyoutotheirfavouryouhavedespisedthem。\"
\"Praydonotusetheword’despise,’orIshallsupposeyouthinkmeamonster。Beautyseducesme。Iaspiretoitspossession,anditisonlywhenitisgivenmefromothermotivesthanlovethatI
despiseit。HowshouldIdespiseonewholovedme?Ishouldfirstbecompelledtodespisemyself。YouarebeautifulandI
worshipyou,butyouaremistakenifyouthinkthatIshouldbecontentforyoutosurrenderyourselftomeoutofmerekindness。\"
\"Ah!Iseeitismyheartyouwant。\"
\"Exactly。\"
\"Tomakemewretchedattheendofafortnight。\"
\"Toloveyoutilldeath,andtoobeyyourslightestwishes。\"
\"Myslightestwishes?\"
\"Yes,fortometheywouldbeinviolablelaws。\"
\"WouldyousettleinMilan?\"
\"Certainly,ifyoumadethataconditionofmyhappiness。\"
\"Whatamusesmeinallthisisthatyouaredeceivingmewithoutknowingit,ifindeedyoureallyloveme。\"
\"Deceivingyouwithoutknowingit!Thatissomethingnew。IfI
amnotawareofit,Iaminnocentofdeceit。\"
\"Iamwillingtoadmityourinnocency,butyouaredeceivingmenonetheless,forafteryouhadceasedtolovemenopowerofyourscouldbringlovebackagain。\"
\"That,ofcourse,mighthappen,butIdon’tchoosetoentertainsuchunpleasantthoughts;Iprefertothinkofmyselfaslovingyoutoalleternity。ItiscertainatalleventsthatnootherwomaninMilanhasattractedme。\"
\"Nottheprettygirlwhowaitedonus,andwhosearmsyouhavepossiblyleftanhouror,twoago?\"
\"Whatareyousaying?Sheisthewifeofthetailorwhomadeyourclothes。Sheleftdirectlyafteryou,andherhusbandwouldnothaveallowedhertocomeatallifhewasnotawarethatshewouldbewantedtowaitontheladieswhosedresseshehadmade。\"
\"Sheiswonderfullypretty。Isitpossiblethatyouarenotinlovewithher?\"
\"Howcouldoneloveawomanwhoisatthedisposalofalow,uglyfellow?Theonlypleasureshegavemewasbytalkingofyouthismorning。\"
\"Ofme?\"
\"Yes。YouwillexcusemeifIconfesstohavingaskedherwhichoftheladiesshewaitedonlookedhandsomestwithoutherchemise。\"
\"Thatwasalibertine’squestion。Well,whatdidshesay?\"
\"Thattheladywiththebeautifulhairwasperfectineveryrespect。\"
\"Idon’tbelieveawordofit。Ihavelearnthowtochangemychemisewithdecency,andsoasnottoshewanythingImightnotshewaman。Sheonlywishedtoflatteryourimpertinentcuriosity。IfIhadamaidlikethat,sheshouldsoongoaboutherbusiness。\"
\"Youareangrywithme。\"
\"No。\"
\"It’snogoodsayingno,yoursoulflashedforthinyourdenunciation。Iamsorrytohavespoken。\"
\"Oh!it’sofnoconsequence。Iknowmenaskchambermaidsquestionsofthatkind,andtheyallgiveanswerslikeyoursweetheart,whoperhapswantedtomakeyoucuriousaboutherself。\"
\"Buthowcouldshehopetodothatbyextollingyourcharmsabovethoseoftheotherladies?And,howcouldsheknowthatI
preferredyou?\"
\"Ifshedidnotknowit,Ihavemadeamistake;butforallthat,sheliedtoyou。\"
\"Shemayhaveinventedthetale,butIdonotthinkshelied。Youaresmilingagain!Iamdelighted。\"
\"Iliketoletyoubelievewhatpleasesyou。\"
\"Thenyouwillallowmetobelievethatyoudonothateme。\"
\"Hateyou?Whatanuglyword!IfIhatedyou,shouldIseeyouatall?Butlet’stalkofsomethingelse。Iwantyoutodomeafavour。Herearetwosequins;Iwantyoutoputthemonan’ambe’
inthelottery。Youcanbringmetheticketwhenyoucallagain,orstillbetter,youcansenditme,butdon’ttellanybody。\"
\"Youshallhavetheticketwithoutfail,butwhyshouldInotbringit?\"
\"Because,perhaps,youaretiredofcomingtoseeme。\"
\"DoIlooklikethat?IfsoIamveryunfortunate。Butwhatnumberswillyouhave?\"
\"Threeandforty;yougavethemmeyourself。\"
\"HowdidIgivethemyou?\"
\"Youputyourhandthreetimesontheboard,andtookupfortysequinseachtime。Iamsuperstitious,andyouwilllaughatme,Idaresay,butitseemstomethatyoumusthavecometoMilantomakemehappy。\"
\"Nowyoumakemehappyindeed。Yousayyouaresuperstitious,butifthesenumbersdon’twinyoumustn’tdrawtheconclusionthatI
don’tloveyou;thatwouldbeadreadfulfallacy。\"
\"Iamnotsuperstitiousasallthat,norsovilealogician。\"
\"DoyoubelieveIloveyou?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"MayItellyousoahundredtimes?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Andproveitineveryway?\"
\"ImustenquireintoyourmethodsbeforeIconsenttothat,foritispossiblethatwhatyouwouldcallaveryefficaciousmethodmightstrikemeasquiteuseless。\"
\"Iseeyouaregoingtomakemesighafteryouforalongtime。\"
\"AslongasIcan。\"
\"Andwhenyouhavenostrengthleft?\"
\"Iwillsurrender。Doesthatsatisfyyou?\"
\"Certainly,butIshallexertallmystrengthtoabateyours。\"
\"Doso;Ishalllikeit。\"
\"Andwillyouhelpmetosucceed?\"
\"Perhaps。\"
\"Ah,dearmarchioness;youneedonlyspeaktomakeamanhappy。
Youhavemademereallyso,andIamleavingyoufullofardour。\"
OnleavingthischarmingconversationalistIwenttothetheatreandthentothefaro—table,whereIsawthemasquerwhohadwonthreehundredsequinstheeveningbefore。Thisnighthewasveryunlucky。Hehadlosttwothousandsequins,andinthecourseofthenexthourhislosseshaddoubled。Cananothrewdownhiscardsandrose,saying,\"Thatwilldo。\"Themasquerleftthetable。HewasaGenoesenamedSpinola。
\"Thebankisprosperous,\"IremarkedtoCanano。
\"Yes,\"hereplied,\"butitisnotalwaysso。Pierrotwasveryluckytheothernight。\"
\"Youdidnotrecognizemeintheleast?\"
\"No,Iwassofirmlypersuadedthatthebeggarwasyou。Youknowwhoheis?\"
\"Ihaven’tanidea。Ineversawhimbeforethatday。\"InthislastparticularIdidnotlie。
\"ItissaidthattheyareVenetians,andthattheywenttoBergamo。\"
\"Itmaybeso,butIknownothingaboutthem。Ilefttheballbeforetheydid。\"
IntheeveningIsuppedwiththecountess,herhusband,andTriulzi。TheywereofthesameopinionasCanano。TriulzisaidthatIhadletthecatoutofthebagbygivingthebeggarshandfulsofsequins。
\"Thatisamistake,\"Ianswered。\"WhentheluckisinmyfavourI
neverrefuseanyonewhoasksmeformoney,forIhaveasuperstitionthatIshouldloseifIdid。Ihadwonthirtypoundsweightofgold,andIcouldaffordtoletfoolstalk。\"
ThenextdayIgotthelotteryticketandtookittothemarchioness。IfeltmadlyinlovewithherbecauseIknewshewasinlovewithme。Neitherofthemwereplaying,andIspenttwohoursintheircompany,talkingofloveallthewhileandenjoyingtheirconversationimmensely,fortheywereexceedinglyintelligent。Ileftthemwiththeconvictionthatifthecousin,andnotMdlle。Q————,hadbeenthrowninmyway,Ishouldhavefalleninlovewithherinjustthesamemanner。
AlthoughthecarnivalisfourdayslongeratMilanthanatanyothertown,itwasnowdrawingtoaclose。Therewerethreemoreballs。Iplayedeveryday,andeverydayIlosttwoorthreehundredsequins。Myprudencecausedevenmoresurprisethanmybadfortune。Iwenteverydaytothefaircousinsandmadelove,butIwasstillatthesamepoint;Ihoped,butcouldgetnothingtangible。Thefairmarchionesssometimesgavemeakiss,butthiswasnotenoughforme。ItistruethatsofarIhadnotdaredtoaskhertomeetmealone。AsitwasIfeltmylovemightdieforwantoffood,andthreedaysbeforetheballIaskedherifshe,hertwofriends,themarquis,andthelieutenant,wouldcomeandsupwithme。
\"Mybrother,\"shesaid,\"willcallonyouto—morrowtoseewhatcanbearranged。\"
Thiswasagoodomen。Thenextdaythelieutenantcame。Ihadjustreceivedthedrawingsatthelottery,andwhatwasmysurpriseanddelighttoseethetwonumbersthreeandforty。I
saidnothingtotheyoungmarquis,ashissisterhadforbiddenme,butIforesawthatthiseventwouldbefavourabletomysuit。
\"TheMarquisofF————,\"saidtheworthyambassador,\"asksyoutosupperinyourownroomswithallthebandofbeggars。Hewishestogiveusasurprise,andwouldbeobligedifyouwouldlendhimtheroomtohaveasetofdisguisesmade,andtoensuresecrecyhewantsyoutolethavethesamewaiting—maid。\"
\"Withpleasure;tellthemarquisthatallshallbeaccordingtohispleasure。\"
\"Getthegirltocomethereatthreeo’clockto—day,andletthepastry—cookknowthatthemarquishasfullpowerstodowhathelikesintheplace。\"
\"Everythingshallbedoneasyousuggest。\"
IguessedatoncethatthemarquiswantedtohaveatasteofZenobia;butthisseemedtomesonaturalthat,farfrombeingangry,Ifeltdisposedtodoallinmypowertofavourhisplans。
Liveandletlivehasalwaysbeenmymaxim,anditwillbesotomydyingday,thoughnowIdobutlivealifeofmemories。
AssoonasIwasdressedIwentout,andhavingtoldthepastrycooktoconsiderthegentlemanwhowascomingasmyself,I
calledonthetailor,whowasdelightedatmygettinghiswifework。Heknewbyexperiencethatshewasnonetheworsefortheselittleabsences。
\"Idon’twantyou,\"saidItothetailor,\"asitisonlywomen’sdressesthathavetobedone。Mygoodgossipherewillbesufficient。\"
\"Atthreeo’clockshemaygo,andIshallnotexpecttoseeheragainforthreedays。\"
AfterIhaddinedIcalledasusualonthefairmarchioness,andfoundherinatransportofdelight。Herlotterytickethadgotherfivehundredsequins。
\"Andthatmakesyouhappy,doesit?\"saidI。
\"Itdoes,notbecauseofthegaininmoney,thoughIambynomeansrich,butforthebeautyoftheideaandforthethoughtthatIoweitalltoyou。Thesetwothingsspeakvolumesinyourfavour。\"
\"Whatdotheysay?\"
\"Thatyoudeservetobeloved。\"
\"Andalsothatyouloveme?\"
\"No,butmyhearttellsmeasmuch。\"
\"Youmakemehappy,butdoesnotyourheartalsotellyouthatyoushouldproveyourlove?\"
\"Dearest,canyoudoubtit?\"
Withthesewordsshegavemeherhandtokissforthefirsttime。
\"Myfirstidea,\"sheadded,\"wastoputthewholefortysequinsonthe’ambe’。\"
\"Youhadn’tsufficientcourage?\"
\"Itwasn’tthat,Ifeltashamedtodoit。Iwasafraidthatyoumighthaveathoughtyouwouldnottellmeof——namely,thatifI
gaveyouthefortysequinstoriskonthelottery,youwouldthinkIdespisedyourpresent。Thiswouldhavebeenwrong,andifyouhadencouragedmeIshouldhaveriskedallthemoney。\"
\"Iamsosorrynottohavethoughtofit。Youwouldhavehadtenthousandsequins,andIshouldbeahappyman。\"
\"Wewillsaynomoreaboutit。\"
\"Yourbrothertellsmethatwearegoingtothemasquedballunderthedirectionofthemarquis,andIleaveyoutoimaginehowgladIfeelatthethoughtofspendingawholenightwithyou。Butonethoughttroublesme。\"
\"Whatisthat?\"
\"Iamafraiditwillnotgooffsowellasbefore。\"
\"Don’tbeafraid,themarquisisamanofmuchingenuity,andlovesmycousin’shonourasherself。Heissuretogetusdisguisesinwhichweshallnotberecognized。\"
\"Ihopeso。Hewantstopayforeverything,includingthesupper。\"
\"Hecannotdobetterthanimitateyourexampleinthatrespect。\"
OntheeveningoftheballIwentatanearlyhourtothepastry—
cook’s,whereIfoundthemarquiswellpleasedwiththeprogressthathadbeenmade。Thedressingroomwasshut。IaskedhiminasuggestivemannerifhewassatisfiedwithZenobia。
\"Yes,withherwork,\"heanswered;\"Ididnotaskhertodoanythingelseforme。\"
\"Oh!ofcourseIbelieveit,butIamafraidyoursweetheartwillberathersceptical。\"
\"SheknowsthatIcannotloveanyonebesidesherself。\"
\"Well,well,wewillsaynomoreaboutit。\"
Whentheguestscamethemarquissaidthatasthecostumeswouldamuseuswehadbetterputthemonbeforesupper。
Wefollowedhimintothenextroom,andhepointedouttwothickbundles。
\"Here,ladies,areyourdisguises,\"saidhe;\"andhereisyourmaidwhowillhelpyouwhilewedressinanotherroom。\"
Hetookthelargerofthetwobundles,andwhenwewereshutupinourroomheundidthestring,andgaveusourdresses,saying,——
\"Letusbeasquickaswecan。\"
Weburstoutlaughingtoseeasetofwomen’sclothes。Nothingwaswanting,chemises,embroideredshoeswithhighheels,superbgarters,and,torelieveusofthetroubleofhavingourhairdone,exquisitecapswithrichlacecomingovertheforehead。I
wassurprisedtofindthatmyshoesfittedmeperfectly,butI
heardafterwardsthatheemployedthesamebootmakerasIdid。
Corsets,petticoats,gowns,kerchief,fans,work—bags,rouge—
boxes,masks,gloves—allwerethere。Weonlyhelpedeachotherwithourhair,butwhenitwasdonewelookedintenselystupid,withtheexceptionoftheyoungofficer,whoreallymighthavebeentakenforaprettywoman;hehadconcealedhisdeficiencyinfemininecharacteristicsbyfalsebreastsandabustleWetookoffourbreechesoneaftertheother。
\"Yourfinegarters,\"saidI,tothemarquis,\"makemewanttowearsometoo。\"
\"Exactly,\"saidthemarquis;\"buttheworstofitisnobodywilltakethetroubletofindoutwhetherwehavegartersornot,fortwoyoungladiesfivefeetteninheightwillnotinspireveryardentdesires。\"
Ihadguessedthatthegirlswouldbedressedlikemen,andIwasnotmistaken。Theywerereadybeforeus,andwhenweopenedthedoorwesawthemstandingwiththeirbackstothefireplace。
Theylookedthreeyoungpagesminustheirimpudence,forthoughtheyendeavouredtoseemquiteattheireasetheywereratherconfused。
Weadvancedwiththemodestyofthefairsex,andimitatingtheairofshyreservewhichthepartdemanded。Thegirlsofcoursethoughtthemselvesobligedtomimictheairsofmen,andtheydidnotaccostuslikeyoungmenaccustomedtobehaverespectfullytoladies。Theyweredressedasrunningfootmen,withtightbreeches,well—fittingwaistcoats,openthroats,garterswithasilverfringe,lacedwaistbands,andprettycapstrimmedwithsilverlace,andacoatofarmsemblazonedingold。TheirlaceshirtswereornamentedwithanimmensefrillofAlenconpoint。Inthisdress,whichdisplayedtheirbeautifulshapesunderaveilwhichwasalmosttransparent,theywouldhavestirredthesenseofaparalytic,andwehadnosymptomsofthatdisease。However,welovedthemtoowelltofrightenthem。
Afterthesillyremarksusualonsuchoccasionshadbeenpassed,webegantotalknaturallywhilewewerewaitingforsupper。Theladiessaidthatasthiswasthefirsttimetheyhaddressedasmentheywereafraidofbeingrecognized。
\"Supposingsomebodyknewus,\"criedthecousin,\"weshouldbeundone!\"
Theywereright;butourpartwastoreassurethem,thoughIatanyratewouldhavepreferredtostaywherewewere。
Wesatdowntosupper,eachnexttohissweetheart,andtomysurprisethelieutenant’smistresswasthefirsttobeginthefun。
Thinkingthatshecouldnotpretendtobeamanwithoutbeingimpudent,shebegantotoywiththelady—lieutenant,whodefendedhimselflikeaprudishmiss。Thetwocousins,nottobeoutdone,begantocaressusinamannerthatwasratherfree。Zenobia,whowaswaitingonusattablecouldnothelplaughingwhenMdlle。Q——
——reproachedherforhavingmademydresstootightintheneck。
Shestretchedoutherhandasiftotoywithme,whereuponIgaveheraslightboxontheear,andimitatingthemannerofarepentantcavaliershekissedmyhandandbeggedmypardon。
Themarquissaidhefeltcold,andhismistressaskedhimifhehadhisbreecheson,andputherhandunderhisdresstosee,butshespeedilydrewitbackwithablush。Weallburstoutlaughing,andshejoinedin,andproceededwithherpartofhardylover。
Thesupperwasadmirable;everythingwaschoiceandabundant。
Warmwithloveandwine,werosefromthetableatwhichwehadbeenfortwohours,butaswegotupsadnessdisfiguredthefacesofthetwoprettycousins。Theydidnotdaretogototheballinacostumethatwouldputthematthemercyofallthelibertinesthere。ThemarquisandIfeltthattheywereright。
\"Wemustmakeupourminds,\"saidthelieutenant,\"shallwegototheballorgohome?\"
\"Neither,\"saidthemarquis,\"wewilldancehere。\"
\"Wherearetheviolins\"askedhismistress,\"youcouldnotgetthemto—nightfortheirweightingold。\"
\"Well,\"saidI,\"wewilldowithoutthem。Wewillhavesomepunch,laugh,andbemerry,andweshallenjoyourselvesbetterthanattheball,andwhenwearetiredwecangotosleep。Wehavethreebedshere。\"
\"Twowouldbeenough,\"saidthecousin。
\"True,butwecan’thavetoomuchofagoodthing。\"
Zenobiahadgonetosupwiththepastrycook’swife,butshewasreadytocomeupagainwhensheshouldbesummoned。
Aftertwohoursspentinamoroustrifling,thelieutenant’smistress,feelingalittledizzy,wentintoanadjoiningroomandlaydownonthebed。Herloverwassoonbesideher。
Mdlle。Q————,whowasinthesamecase,toldmethatshewouldliketorest,soItookherintoaroomwhereshecouldsleepthenight,andadvisedhertodoso。
\"Idon’tthinkIneedfearitsgoinganyfarther,\"Isaid,\"wewillleavethemarquiswithyourcousinthen,andIwillwatchoveryouwhileyousleep。\"
\"No,no,youshallsleeptoo。\"Sosaying,shewentintothedressing—room,andaskedmetogethercloak。Ibroughtittoher,andwhenshecameinshesaid,——
\"Ibreatheagain。Thosedreadfultrousersweretootight;theyhurtme。\"Shethrewherselfonthebed,withnothingonbesideshercloak。
\"Wheredidthebreecheshurtyou?\"saidI。
\"Ican’ttellyou,butIshouldthinkyoumustfindthemdreadfullyuncomfortable。\"
\"But,dearest,ouranatomyisdifferent,andbreechesdonottroubleusatallwheretheyhurtyou。\"
AsIspokeIheldhertomybreastandletmyselffallgentlybesideheronthebed。Weremainedthusaquarterofanhourwithoutspeaking,ourlipsgluedtogetherinonelongkiss。I
leftheramomentbyherself,andwhenIreturnedshewasbetweenthesheets。Shesaidshehadundressedtobeabletosleepbetter,and,shuttinghereyes,turnedaway。Iknewthatthehappyhourhadcome,andtakingoffmywoman’sclothesinatwinkling,Igentlyglidedintothebedbesideher,forthelaststrugglesofmodestymustbetenderlyrespected。Iclaspedherinmyarmsandagentlepressuresoonarousedherpassions,andturningtowardsmeshesurrenderedtomeallhercharms。
AfterthefirstsacrificeIproposedawash,forthoughIcouldnotexactlyflattermyselfthatIhadbeenthefirsttobreakopenthelock,thevictimhadleftsometracesonthebed,whichlookedasifitwereso。Theofferwasreceivedwithdelight,andwhentheoperationwasoversheallowedmetogazeonallhercharms,whichIcoveredwithkisses。Growingbolder,shemademegrantherthesameprivilege。
\"Whatadifferencethereis,\"saidshe,\"betweennatureandart!\"
\"Butofcourseyouthinkthatartisthebetter?\"
\"No,certainlynot。\"
\"Buttheremaybeimperfectionsinnature,whereasartisperfect。\"
\"IdonotknowwhethertherebeanyimperfectioninwhatIbehold,butIdoknowthatIhaveneverseenanythingsobeautiful。\"
Infactshehadtheinstrumentoflovebeforehereyesinallitsmajesty,andIsoonmadeherfeelitspower。Shedidnotremainstillamoment,andIhaveknownfewwomensoardentandflexibleintheirmovements。
\"Ifwewerewise,\"saidshe,\"insteadofgoingtotheballagainwewouldcomehereandenjoyourselves。\"
IkissedthemouthwhichtoldmesoplainlythatIwastobehappy,andIconvincedherbymytransportsthatnomancouldloveherasardentlyasIdid。Ihadnoneedtokeepherawake,sheshewednoinclinationforsleep。Wewereeitherinactionorcontemplation,orengagedinamorousdiscourse,thewholetime。I
cheatedhernowandthen,buttoherownadvantage,forayoungwomanisalwaysmorevigorousthanaman,andwedidnotstoptillthedaybegantobreak。Therewasnoneedforconcealment,foreachhadenjoyedhissweetheartinpeaceandhappiness,anditwasonlymodestywhichsilencedourcongratulations。Bythissilencewedidnotproclaimourhappiness,butneitherdidwedenyit。
WhenwewerereadyIthankedthemarquis,andaskedhimtosupperforthenextballnightwithoutanypretenceofourgoingtothemasquerade,iftheladieshadnoobjection。Thelieutenantansweredforthemintheaffirmative,andhismistressthrewherarmsroundhisneck,reproachinghimforhavingsleptallnight。
Themarquisconfessedtothesamefault,andIrepeatedthewordslikeanarticleoffaith,whiletheladieskissedus,andthankedusforourkindnesstothem。Wepartedinthesamewayasbefore,exceptthatthistimethemarquisremainedwithZenobia。
IwenttobedassoonasIgothome,andslepttillthreeo’clock。
WhenIgotupIfoundthehousewasempty,soIwenttodineatthepastry—cook’s,whereIfoundZenobiaandherhusband,whohadcometoenjoytheleavingsofoursupper。HetoldmethatIhadmadehisfortune,asthemarquishadgivenhiswifetwenty—foursequinsandthewoman’sdresshehadworn。Igavehermineaswell。ItoldmygossipthatIshouldlikesomedinner,andthetailorwentawayinagratefulmood。
AssoonasIwasalonewithZenobiaIaskedherifsheweresatisfiedwiththemarquis。
\"Hepaidmewell,\"sheanswered,aslightblushmountingonhercheeks。
\"Thatisenough,\"saidI,\"noonecanseeyouwithoutlovingyou,orloveyouwithoutdesiringtopossessyourcharms。\"
\"Themarquisdidnotgosofarasthat。\"
\"Itmaybeso,butIamsurprisedtohearit。\"
WhenIhaddined,Ihastenedtocallonthefairmarchioness,whomIlovedmorethaneverafterthedeliciousnightshehadgivenme。
Iwantedtoseewhateffectshewouldhaveonme,aftermakingmesohappy。Shelookedprettierthanever。Shereceivedmeinawaybecominginamistresswhoisgladtohaveacquiredsomerightsoverherlover。
\"Iwassure,\"saidshe,\"thatyouwouldcomeandseeme;\"andthoughhercousinwasthereshekissedmesooftenandsoardentlythattherewasnoroomfordoubtastothemannerinwhichwehadspentournighttogether。Ipassedfivehourswithher,whichwentbyalltooquickly,forwetalkedoflove,andloveisaninexhaustiblesubject。Thisfivehours’visitonthedayafterourbridalshewedmethatIwasmadlyinlovewithmynewconquest,whileitmusthaveconvincedherthatIwasworthyofheraffection。
CountessA————B————hadsentmeanoteaskingmetosupwithher,herhusband,andtheMarquisTriulzi,andotherfriends。ThisengagementpreventedmypayingavisittoCanano,whohadwonathousandsequinsofmesincemygreatvictoryasPierrot。Iknewthatheboastedthathewassureofme,butinmyownmindIhaddeterminedtogainthemastery。Atsupperthecountesswagedwaronme。Isleptoutatnight。Iwasrarelyvisible。Shetriedhardtostealmysecretfromme,andtogetsomeinformationastomyamorousadventures。ItwasknownthatIsometimessuppedatTherese’swithGreppi,whowaslaughedatbecausehehadbeensillyenoughtosaythathehadnothingtodreadfrommypower。
Thebettertoconcealmygame,Isaidhewasquiteright。
ThenextdayBarbaro,whowasashonestasmostprofessionalsharpersare,broughtmethetwohundredsequinsIhadlenthim,withaprofitoftwohundredmore。Hetoldmethathehadhadaslightdifferencewiththelieutenant,andwasnotgoingtoplayanymore。Ithankedhimforhavingpresentedmetothefairmarchioness,tellinghimthatIwasquiteinlovewithherandinhopesofovercomingherscruples。Hesmiled,andpraisedmydiscretion,lettingmeunderstandthatIdidnottakehimin;butitwasenoughformenottoconfesstoanything。
Aboutthreeo’clockIcalledonmysweetheart,andspentfivehourswithherasbefore。AsBarbarowasnotplaying,theservantshadbeenorderedtosaythatnoonewasathome。AsI
wasthedeclaredloverofthemarchioness,hercousintreatedmeasanintimatefriend。ShebeggedmetostayatMilanaslongaspossible,notonlytomakehercousinhappy,butforhersakeaswell,sincewithoutmeshecouldnotenjoythemarquis’ssocietyinprivate,andwhileherfatherwasalivehewouldneverdaretocomeopenlytothehouse。Shethoughtshewouldcertainlybecomehiswifeassoonasheroldfatherwasdead,butshehopedvainly,forsoonafterthemarquisfellintoevilwaysandwasruined。
Nexteveningweallassembledatsupper,andinsteadofgoingtotheballgaveourselvesuptopleasure。Wespentadeliciousnight,butitwassaddenedbythereflectionthatthecarnivalwasdrawingtoaclose,andwithitourmutualpleasureswouldbeover。
OntheeveofShroveTuesdayastherewasnoballIsatdowntoplay,andnotbeingableoncetohitonthreewinningcards,I
lostallthegoldIhadaboutme。Ishouldhaveleftthetableasusualifawomandisguisedasamanhadnotgivenmeacard,andurgedmebysignstoplayit。Iriskedahundredsequinsonit,givingmywordforthepayment。Ilost,andinmyendeavourstogetbackmymoneyIlostathousandsequins,whichIpaidthenextday。
Iwasjustgoingouttoconsolemyselfwiththecompanyofmydearmarchioness,whenIsawtheevil—omenedmasquerapproaching,accompaniedbyaman,alsoindisguise,whoshookmebythehandandbeggedmetocomeatteno’clocktothe\"ThreeKings\"atsuchanumber,ifthehonourofanoldfriendwasdeartome。
\"Whatfriendisthat?\"
\"Myself。\"
\"Whatisyourname?\"
\"Icannottellyou。\"
\"Thenyouneednottellmetocome,forifyouwereatruefriendofmineyouwouldtellmeyourname。\"
Iwentoutandhefollowedme,beggingmetocomewithhimtotheendofthearcades。Whenwegottherehetookoffhismask,andI
recognizedCroce,whommyreadersmayremember。
IknewhewasbanishedfromMilan,andunderstoodwhyhedidnotcaretogivehisnameinpublic,butIwasexceedinglygladIhadrefusedtogotohisinn。
\"Iamsurprisedtoseeyouhere,\"saidI。
\"Idaresayyourare。Ihavecomehereinthiscarnivalseason,whenonecanwearamask,tocompelmyrelationstogivemewhattheyoweme;buttheyputmeofffromonedaytoanother,astheyaresureIshallbeobligedtogowhenLentbegins。\"
\"Andwillyoudoso?\"
\"Ishallbeobligedto,butasyouwillnotcomeandseeme,givemetwentysequins,whichwillenablemetoleaveMilan。Mycousinowesmetenthousandlivres,andwillnotpaymeatentheven。I
willkillhimbeforeIgo。\"
\"Ihaven’tafarthing,andthatmaskofyourshasmademeloseathousandsequins,whichIdonotknowhowtopay。
\"Iknow。Iamanunluckyman,andbringbadlucktoallmyfriends。ItwasIwhotoldhertogiveyouacard,inthehopethatitwouldchangetherunagainstyou。\"
\"IssheaMilanesegirl?\"
\"No,shecomesfromMarseilles,andisthedaughterofarichagent。Ifellinlovewithher,seducedher,andcarriedherofftoherunhappiness。Ihadplentyofmoneythen,but,wretchthatIam,IlostitallatGenoa,whereIhadtosellallmypossessionstoenablemetocomehere。IhavebeenaweekinMilan。Praygivemethewherewithaltoescape。\"
Iwastouchedwithcompassion,andIborrowedtwentysequinsfromCanano,andgavethemtothepoorwretch,tellinghimtowritetome。
Thisalms—givingdidmegood;itmademeforgetmylosses,andI
spentadelightfuleveningwiththemarchioness。
Thenextdaywesuppedtogetheratmyrooms,andspenttherestofthenightinamorouspleasures。ItwastheSaturday,thelastdayofthecarnivalatMilan,andIspentthewholeoftheSundayinbed,forthemarchionesshadexhaustedme,andIknewthatalongsleepwouldrestoremystrength。
EarlyonMondaymorningClairmontbroughtmealetterwhichhadbeenleftbyaservant。Ithadnosignature,andranasfollows:
\"Havecompassion,sir,onthemostwretchedcreaturebreathing。
M。delaCroixhasgoneawayindespair。Hehasleftmehereintheinn,wherehehaspaidfornothing。GoodGod!whatwillbecomeofme?Iconjureyoutocomeandseeme,beitonlytogivemeyouradvice。\"
Ididnothesitateforamoment,anditwasnotfromanyimpulsesofloveorprofligacythatIwent,butfrompurecompassion。I
putonmygreatcoat,andinthesameroominwhichIhadseenIreneIsawayoungandprettygirl,aboutwhosefacetherewassomethingpeculiarlynobleandattractive。Isawinherinnocenceandmodestyoppressedandpersecuted。AssoonasIcameinshehumblyapologizedforhavingdaredtotroubleme,andsheaskedmetotellawomanwhowasintheroomtoleaveit,asshedidnotspeakItalian。
\"Shehasbeentiringmeformorethananhour。Icannotunderstandwhatshesays,butIcanmakeoutthatshewantstodomeaservice。However,Idonotfeelinclinedtoacceptherassistance。\"
\"Whotoldyoutocomeandseethisyounglady?\"saidI,tothewoman。
\"Oneoftheservantsoftheinntoldmethatayoungladyfromforeignpartshadbeenleftalonehere,andthatshewasmuchtobepitied。MyfeelingsofhumanitymademecomeandseeifI
couldbeusefultoher;butIseesheisingoodhands,andIamverygladofitforhersake,poordear!\"
Isawthatthewomanwasaprocuress,andIonlyrepliedwithasmileofcontempt。
ThepoorgirlthentoldmebrieflywhatIhadalreadyheard,andaddedthatCroce,whocalledhimselfDeSt。Croix,hadgonetothegaming—tableassoonashehadgotmytwentysequins,andthathehadthentakenherbacktotheinn,wherehehadspentthenextdayinastateofdespair,ashedidnotdaretoshewhimselfabroadinthedaytime。Intheeveningheputonhismaskandwentout,notreturningtillthenextmorning。
\"Soonafterheputonhisgreatcoatandgotreadytogoout,tellingmethatifhedidnotreturnhewouldcommunicatewithmebyyou,atthesametimegivingmeyouraddress,ofwhichIhavemadeuseasyouknow。Hehasnotcomeback,andifyouhavenotseenhimIamsurehehasgoneoffonfootwithoutapennyinhispocket。Thelandlordwantstobepaid,andbysellingallIhaveIcouldsatisfyhisclaims;but,goodGod!whatistobecomeofme,then?\"
\"Dareyoureturntoyourfather?\"
\"Yes,sir,Idarereturntohim。HewillforgivemewhenonmykneesandwithtearsinmyeyesItellhimthatIamreadytoburymyselfinanunnery。\"
\"Verygood!thenIwilltakeyoutoMarseillesmyself,andinthemeanwhileIwillfindyoualodgingwithsomehonestpeople。Tillthen,shutyourselfupinyourroom,donotadmitanyonetoseeyou,andbesureIwillhaveacareforyou。\"
Isummonedthelandlordandpaidthebill,whichwasaverysmallone,andItoldhimtotakecareoftheladytillmyreturn。Thepoorgirlwasdumbwithsurpriseandgratitude。Isaidgood—byekindlyandleftherwithouteventakingherhand。Itwasnotaltogetheracaseofthedevilturningmonk;Ialwayshadarespectfordistress。
IhadalreadythoughtofZenobiainconnectionwiththepoorgirl’slodging,andIwenttoseeheronthespot。Inherhusband’spresenceItoldherwhatIwanted,andaskedifshecouldfindacornerformynewfriend。
\"Sheshallhavemyplace,\"criedtheworthytailor,\"ifshewon’tmindsleepingwithmywife。Iwillhireasmallroomhardbye,andwillsleepthereaslongastheyoungladystays。\"
\"That’sagoodidea,gossip,butyourwifewilllosebytheexchange。\"
\"Notmuch,\"saidZenobia;andthetailorburstoutlaughing。
\"Asforhermeals,\"headded,\"shemustarrangethatherself。\"
\"That’saverysimplematter,\"saidI,\"ZenobiawillgetthemandIwillpayforthem。\"
Iwrotethegirlashortnote,tellingherofthearrangementsI
hadmade,andchargedZenobiatotakehertheletter。ThenextdayIfoundherinthepoorlodgingwiththeseworthyfolks,lookingpleasedandravishinglypretty。IfeltthatIcouldbehavewellforthepresent,butIsighedatthethoughtofthejourney。Ishouldhavetoputastrongrestraintonmyself。
IhadnothingmoretodoatMilan,butthecounthadmademepromisetospendafortnightatSt。Angelo。Thiswasanestatebelongingtohim,fifteenmilesfromMilan,andthecountspokemostenthusiasticallyofit。IfIhadgoneawaywithoutseeingSt。Angelo,hewouldhavebeenexceedinglymortified。Amarriedbrotherofhislivedthere,andthecountoftensaidthathisbrotherwaslongingtoknowme。Whenwereturnedhewouldnodoubtletmedepartinpeace。
Ihadmadeupmymindtoshewmygratitudetotheworthymanforhishospitality,soonthefourthdayofLentItookleaveofTherese,Greppi,andtheaffectionatemarchioness,fortwoweeks,andwesetoutonourway。
Tomygreatdelightthecountessdidnotcaretocome。ShemuchpreferredstayinginMilanwithTriulzi,whodidnotletherlackforanything。
WegottoSt。Angeloatthreeo’clock,andfoundthatwewereexpectedtodinner。