\"Farfromit。Itwasalwaysfortunateingoodhealth,andthemasterofmyownpassions;butallIsawinmyequalswasformeagoodschoolinwhichIhaveacquiredtheknowledgeofman,andlearnedtherealroadtohappiness。Thehappiestofmenisnotthemostvoluptuous,buttheonewhoknowshowtochoosethehigheststandardsofvoluptuousness,whichcanbefound,Isayagain,notinthepleasureswhichexciteoursenses,butinthosewhichgivegreaterreposetothesoul。\"
\"Thatisthevoluptuousnesswhichyouconsiderunalloyed。\"
\"Yes,andsuchisthesightofavastprairieallcoveredwithgrass。
Thegreencolour,sostronglyrecommendedbyourdivineprophet,strikesmyeyes,andatthesamemomentIfeelthatmysouliswrappedupinacalmsodelightfulthatIfancymyselfnearertheCreator。Ienjoythesamepeace,thesamerepose,whenIamseatedonthebanksofariver,whenIlookuponthewatersoquiet,yetalwaysmoving,whichflowsconstantly,yetneverdisappearsfrommysight,neverlosesanyofitsclearnessinspiteofitsconstantmotion。Itstrikesmeastheimageofmyownexistence,andofthecalmwhichIrequireformylifeinordertoreach,likethewaterI
amgazingupon,thegoalwhichIdonotsee,andwhichcanonlybefoundattheotherendofthejourney。\"
ThusdidtheTurkreason,andwepassedfourhoursinthissortofconversation。Hehadburiedtwowives,andhehadtwosonsandonedaughter。Theeldestson,havingreceivedhispatrimony,hadestablishedhimselfinthecityofSalonica,wherehewasawealthymerchant;theotherwasintheseraglio,intheserviceoftheGrandTurkandhisfortunewasinthehandsofatrustee。Hisdaughter,Zelmi,thenfifteenyearsofage,wastoinheritallhisremainingproperty。Hehadgivenheralltheaccomplishmentswhichcouldministertothehappinessofthemanwhomheavenhaddestinedforherhusband。Weshallhearmoreofthatdaughteranon。Themotherofthethreechildrenwasdead,andfiveyearsprevioustothetimeofmyvisit,Yusufhadtakenanotherwife,anativeofScio,youngandverybeautiful,buthetoldmehimselfthathewasnowtooold,andcouldnothopetohaveanychildbyher。Yethewasonlysixtyyearsofage。BeforeIleft,hemademepromisetospendatleastonedayeveryweekwithhim。
Atsupper,Itoldthebailihowpleasantlythedayhadpassed。
\"Weenvyyou,\"theysaid,\"theprospectyouhavebeforeyouofspendingagreeablythreeorfourmonthsinthiscountry,while,inourqualityofministers,wemustpineawaywithmelancholy。\"
Afewdaysafterwards,M。deBonnevaltookmewithhimtodineatIsmail’shouse,whereIsawAsiaticluxuryonagrandscale,buttherewereagreatmanyguests,andtheconversationwasheldalmostentirelyintheTurkishlanguage——acircumstancewhichannoyedmeandM。deBonnevalalso。Ismailsawit,andheinvitedmetobreakfastwheneverIfeltdisposed,assuringmethathewouldhavemuchpleasureinreceivingme。Iacceptedtheinvitation,andIwenttenortwelvedaysafterwards。Whenwereachthatperiodmyreadersmustkindlyaccompanymetothebreakfast。ForthepresentImustreturntoYusufwho,duringmysecondvisit,displayedacharacterwhichinspired,mewiththegreatestesteemandthewarmestaffection。
Wehaddinedaloneasbefore,and,conversationhappeningtoturnuponthefinearts,IgavemyopinionupononeofthepreceptsintheKoran,bywhichtheMahometansaredeprivedoftheinnocentenjoymentofpaintingsandstatues。HetoldmethatMahomet,averysagaciouslegislator,hadbeenrightinremovingallimagesfromthesightofthefollowersofIslam。
\"Recollect,myson,thatthenationstowhichtheprophetbroughttheknowledgeofthetrueGodwereallidolators。Menareweak;ifthedisciplesoftheprophethadcontinuedtoseethesameobjects,theymighthavefallenbackintotheirformererrors。\"
\"Nooneeverworshippedanimageasanimage;thedeityofwhichtheimageisarepresentationiswhatisworshipped。\"
\"Imaygrantthat,butGodcannotbematter,anditisrighttoremovefromthethoughtsofthevulgartheideaofamaterialdivinity。Youaretheonlymen,youChristians,whobelievethatyouseeGod。\"
\"Itistrue,wearesureofit,butobservethatfaithalonegivesusthatcertainty。\"
\"Iknowit;butyouareidolators,foryouseenothingbutamaterialrepresentation,andyetyouhaveacompletecertaintythatyouseeGod,unlessyoushouldtellmethatfaithdisaffirmsit。\"
\"GodforbidIshouldtellyousuchathing!Faith,onthecontrary,affirmsourcertainty。\"
\"WethankGodthatwehavenoneedofsuchself—delusion,andthereisnotonephilosopherintheworldwhocouldprovetomethatyourequireit。\"
\"Thatwouldnotbetheprovinceofphilosophy,dearfather,butoftheology——averysuperiorscience。\"
\"Youarenowspeakingthelanguageofourtheologians,whodifferfromyoursonlyinthis;theyusetheirsciencetomakeclearerthetruthsweoughttoknow,whilstyourtheologianstrytorenderthosetruthsmoreobscure。\"
\"Recollect,dearfather,thattheyaremysteries。\"
\"TheexistenceofGodisasufficientlyimportantmysterytopreventmenfromdaringtoaddanythingtoit。Godcanonlybesimple;anykindofcombinationwoulddestroyHisessence;suchistheGodannouncedbyourprophet,whomustbethesameforallmenandinalltimes。AgreewithmethatwecanaddnothingtothesimplicityofGod。WesaythatGodisone;thatistheimageofsimplicity。YousaythatHeisoneandthreeatthesametime,andsuchadefinitionstrikesusascontradictory,absurd,andimpious。\"
\"Itisamystery。\"
\"DoyoumeanGodorthedefinition?Iamspeakingonlyofthedefinition,whichoughtnottobeamysteryorabsurd。Commonsense,myson,mustconsiderasabsurdanassertionwhichsubstantiallvnonsensical。Provetomethatthreeisnotacompound,thatitcannotbeacompoundandIwillbecomeaChristianatonce。\"
\"Myreligiontellsmetobelievewithoutarguing,andIshudder,mydearYusuf,whenIthinkthat,throughsomespeciousreasoning,I
mightbeledtorenouncethecreedofmyfathers。Ifirstmustbeconvincedthattheylivedinerror。Tellmewhether,respectingmyfather’smemory,Ioughttohavesuchagoodopinionofmyselfastositinjudgementoverhim,withtheintentionofgivingmysentenceagainsthim?\"
MylivelyremonstrancemovedYusufdeeply,butafterafewinstantsofsilencehesaidtome,——
\"Withsuchfeelings,myson,youaresuretofindgraceintheeyesofGod,andyouare,therefore,oneoftheelect。Ifyouareinerror,Godalonecanconvinceyouofit,fornojustmanonearthcanrefutethesentimentyouhavejustgivenexpressionto。\"
Wespokeofmanyotherthingsinafriendlymanner,andintheeveningwepartedwiththeoftenrepeatedassuranceofthewarmestaffectionandofthemostperfectdevotion。
Butmymindwasfullofourconversation,andasIwentonponderingoverthematter,IthoughtthatYusufmightberightinhisopinionastotheessenceofGod,foritseemedevidentthattheCreatorofallbeingsoughttobeperfectlysimple;butIthoughtatthesametimehowimpossibleitwouldbeforme,becausetheChristianreligionhadmadeamistake,toaccepttheTurkishcreed,whichmightperhapshavejustaconceptionofGod,butwhichcausedmetosmilewhenIrecollectedthatthemanwhohadgivenbirthtoithadbeenanarrantimposter。Ihadnottheslightestidea,however,thatYusufwishedtomakeaconvertofme。
ThethirdtimeIdinedwithhimreligionwasagainthesubjectofconversation。
\"Doyoubelieve,dearfather,thatthereligionofMahometistheonlyoneinwhichsalvationcanbesecured?\"
\"No,mydearson,Iamnotcertainofit,andnomancanhavesuchacertainty;butIamsurethattheChristianreligionisnotthetrueone,becauseitcannotbeuniversal。\"
\"Whynot?\"
\"Becausethereisneitherbreadnorwinetobefoundinthree—fourthsoftheworld。ObservethatthepreceptsoftheKorancanbefollowedeverywhere。\"
Ididnotknowhowtoanswer,andIwouldnotequivocate。
\"IfGodcannotbematter,\"Isaid,\"thenHemustbeaspirit?\"
\"WeknowwhatHeisnotbutwedonotknowwhatHeis:mancannotaffirmthatGodisaspirit,becausehecanonlyrealizetheideainanabstractmanner。Godimmaterial;thatistheextentofourknowledgeanditcanneverbegreater。\"
IwasremindedofPlato,whohadsaidexactlythesameanmostcertainlyYusufneverreadPlato。
HeaddedthattheexistenceofGodcouldbeusefulonlytothosewhodidnotentertainadoubtofthatexistence,andthat,asanaturalconsequence,Atheistsmustbethemostmiserableofmen。GodhasmadeinmanHisownimageinorderthat,amongstalltheanimalscreatedbyHim,thereshouldbeonethatcanunderstandandconfesstheexistenceoftheCreator。Withoutman,GodwouldhavenowitnessofHisownglory,andmanmustthereforeunderstandthathisfirstandhighestdutyistoglorifyGodbypractisingjusticeandtrustingtoHisprovidence。
\"Observe,myson,thatGodneverabandonsthemanwho,inthemidstofmisfortunes,fallsdowninprayerbeforeHim,andthatHeoftenallowsthewretchwhohasnofaithinprayertodiemiserably。\"
\"YetwemeetwithAtheistswhoarefortunateandhappy。\"
\"True;but,inspiteoftheirtranquillity,Ipitythembecausetheyhavenohopebeyondthislife,andareonalevelwithanimals。
Besides,iftheyarephilosophers,theymustlingerindarkignorance,and,iftheyneverthink,theyhavenoconsolation,noresource,whenadversityreachesthem。GodhasmademaninsuchamannerthathecannotbehappyunlessheentertainsnodoubtoftheexistenceofhisDivineCreator;inallstationsoflifemanisnaturallypronetobelieveinthatexistence,otherwisemanwouldneverhaveadmittedoneGod,Creatorofallbeingsandofallthings。\"
\"IshouldliketoknowwhyAtheismhasonlyexistedinthesystemsofthelearned,andneverasanationalcreed。\"
\"Becausethepoorfeeltheirwantsmuchmorethantherich,ThereareamongstusagreatmanyimpiousmenwhoderidethetruebelieversbecausetheyhavefaithinthepilgrimagetoMecca。Wretchesthattheyare,theyoughttorespecttheancientcustomswhich,excitingthedevotionofferventsouls,feedreligiousprinciples,andimpartcourageunderallmisfortunes。Withoutsuchconsolation,peoplewouldgivewaytoalltheexcessofdespair。\"
MuchpleasedwiththeattentionIgavetoallhesaid,Yusufwouldthusyieldtotheinclinationhefelttoinstructme,and,onmyside,feelingmyselfdrawntowardshimbythecharmwhichamiablegoodnessexertsuponallhearts,Iwouldoftengoandspendthedaywithhim,evenwithoutanypreviousinvitation,andYusuf’sfriendshipsoonbecameoneofmymostprecioustreasures。
Onemorning,ItoldmyjanissarytotakemetothepalaceofIsmailEffendi,inordertofulfilmypromisetobreakfastwithhim。Hegavemethemostfriendlywelcome,andafteranexcellentbreakfastheinvitedmetotakeawalkinhisgarden。Wefoundthereaprettysummer—housewhichweentered,andIsmailattemptedsomelibertieswhichwerenotatalltomytaste,andwhichIresentedbyrisinginaveryabruptmanner。SeeingthatIwasangry,theTurkaffectedtoapprovemyreserve,andsaidthathehadonlybeenjoking。Ilefthimafterafewminutes,withtheintentionofnotvisitinghimagain,butIwascompelledtodoso,asIwillexplainby—and—by。
WhenIsawM。deBonnevalItoldhimwhathadhappenedandhesaidthat,accordingtoTurkishmanners,Ismailhadintendedtogivemeagreatproofofhisfriendship,butthatIneednotbeafraidoftheoffencebeingrepeated。HeaddedthatpolitenessrequiredthatI
shouldvisithimagain,andthatIsmailwas,inspiteofhisfailing,aperfectgentleman,whohadathisdisposalthemostbeautifulfemaleslavesinTurkey。
Fiveorsixweeksafterthecommencementofourintimacy,YusufaskedmeonedaywhetherIwasmarried。IansweredthatIwasnot;theconversationturneduponseveralmoralquestions,andatlastfelluponchastity,which,inhisopinion,couldbeaccountedavirtueonlyifconsideredfromonepointofview,namely,thatoftotalabstinence,butheaddedthatitcouldnotbeacceptabletoGod;
becauseittransgressedagainsttheveryfirstpreceptHehadgiventoman。
\"Iwouldliketoknow,forinstance,\"hesaid,\"whatnamecanbegiventothechastityofyourknightsofMalta。Theytakeavowofchastity,butitdoesnotmeanthattheywillrenouncewomenaltogether,theyrenouncemarriageonly。Theirchastity,andthereforechastityingeneral,isviolatedonlybymarriage;yetI
observethatmarriageisoneofyoursacraments。Therefore,thoseknightsofMaltapromisenottogivewaytolustfulincontinenceintheonlycaseinwhichGodmightforgiveit,buttheyreservethelicenseofbeinglustfulunlawfullyasoftenastheyplease,andwheneveranopportunitymayofferitself;andthatimmoral,illicitlicenseisgrantedtothemtosuchanextent,thattheyareallowedtoacknowledgelegallyachildwhichcanbeborntothemonlythroughadoublecrime!Themostrevoltingpartofitallisthatthesechildrenofcrime,whoareofcourseperfectlyinnocentthemselves,arecallednaturalchildren,asifchildrenborninwedlockcameintotheworldinanunnaturalmanner!Inoneword,mydearson,thevowofchastityissomuchopposedtoDivinepreceptsandtohumannaturethatitcanbeagreeableneithertoGodnortosociety,nortothosewhopledgethemselvestokeepit,andbeinginsuchoppositiontoeverydivineandhumanlaw,itmustbeacrime。\"
HeenquiredforthesecondtimewhetherIwasmarried;Irepliedinthenegative,andaddedthatIhadnoideaofevergettingmarried。
\"What!\"heexclaimed;\"Imustthenbelievethatyouarenotaperfectman,orthatyouintendtoworkoutyourowndamnation;unlessyoushouldtellmethatyouareaChristianonlyoutwardly。\"
\"Iamamanintheverystrongestsenseoftheword,andIamatrueChristian。ImustevenconfessthatIadorewomen,andthatIhavenottheslightestideaofdeprivingmyselfofthemostdelightfulofallpleasures。\"
\"Accordingtoyourreligion,damnationawaitsyou。\"
\"Ifeelcertainofthecontrary,because,whenweconfessoursins,ourpriestsarecompelledtogiveusabsolution。\"
\"Iknowit,butyoumustagreewithmethatitisabsurdtosupposethatGodwillforgiveacrimewhichyouwould,perhaps,notcommit,ifyoudidnotthinkthat,afterconfession,apriest,amanlikeyou,willgiveyouabsolution。Godforgivesonlytherepentingsinner。\"
\"Nodoubtofit,andconfessionsupposesrepentance;withoutit,absolutionhasnoeffect。\"
\"Isonanismacrimeamongstyou?\"
\"Yes,evengreaterthanlustfulandillegitimatecopulation。\"
\"Iwasawareofit,andithasalwayscausedmegreatsurprise,forthelegislatorwhoenactsalaw,theexecutionofwhichisimpossible,isafool。Amaningoodhealth,ifhecannothaveawoman,mustnecessarilyhaverecoursetoonanism,wheneverimperiousnaturedemandsit,andthemanwho,fromfearofpollutinghissoul,wouldabstainfromit,wouldonlydrawuponhimselfamortaldisease。\"
\"Webelieveexactlythereverse;wethinkthatyoungpeopledestroytheirconstitutions,andshortentheirlivesthroughself—abuse。Inseveralcommunitiestheyarecloselywatched,andareasmuchaspossibledeprivedofeveryopportunityofindulginginthatcrime。\"
\"Thosewhowatchthemareignorantfools,andthosewhopaythewatchersforsuchaserviceareevenmorestupid,becauseprohibitionmustexcitethewishtobreakthroughsuchatyrannicallaw,tosetatnoughtaninterdictionsocontrarytonature。\"
\"Yetitseemstomethatself—abuseinexcessmustbeinjurioustohealth,foritmustweakenandenervate。\"
\"Certainly,becauseexcessineverythingisprejudicialandpernicious;butallsuchexcessistheresultofoursevereprohibition。Ifgirlsarenotinterferedwithinthematterofself—
abuse,Idonotseewhyboysshouldbe。\"
\"Becausegirlsareveryfarfromrunningthesamerisk;theydonotloseagreatdealintheactionofself—abuse,andwhattheylosedoesnotcomefromthesamesourcewhenceflowsthegerminalliquidinmen。\"
\"Idonotknow,butwehavesomephysicianswhosaythatchlorosisingirlsistheresultofthatpleasureindulgedintoexcess。\"
Aftermanysuchconversations,inwhichheseemedtoconsidermeasendowedwithreasonandtalent,evenwhenIwasnotofhisopinion,YusufAlisurprisedmegreatlyonedaybythefollowingproposition:
\"Ihavetwosonsandadaughter。Inolongerthinkofmysons,becausetheyhavereceivedtheirshareofmyfortune。Asfarasmydaughterisconcernedshewill,aftermydeath,inheritallmypossessions,andIam,besides,inapositionwhileIamalivetopromotethefortuneofthemanwhomaymarryher。FiveyearsagoI
tookayoungwife,butshehasnotgivenmeanyprogeny,andIknowtoacertaintythatnooffspringwillblessourunion。Mydaughter,whosenameisZelmi,isnowfifteen;sheishandsome,hereyesareblackandlovelylikehermother’s,herhairisofthecolouroftheraven’swing,hercomplexionisanimatedalabaster;sheistall,wellmade,andofasweetdisposition;Ihavegivenheraneducationwhichwouldmakeherworthyofourmaster,theSultan。ShespeaksGreekandItalianfluently,shesingsdelightfully,andaccompaniesherselfontheharp;shecandrawandembroider,andisalwayscontentedandcheerful。Nolivingmancanboastofhavingseenherfeatures,andshelovesmesodearlythatmywillishers。Mydaughterisatreasure,andIofferhertoyouifyouwillconsenttogoforoneyeartoAdrianopletoresidewitharelativeofmine,whowillteachyouourreligion,ourlanguage,andourmanners。Youwillreturnattheendofoneyear,andassoonasyouhavebecomeaMussulmanmydaughtershallbeyourwife。Youwillfindahousereadyfurnished,slavesofyourown,andanincomewhichwillenableyoutoliveincomfort。Ihavenomoretosayatpresent。Idonotwishyoutoanswermeeitherto—day,orto—morrow,oronanyfixedday。Youwillgivemeyourdecisionwheneveryoufeelyourselfcalleduponbyyourgeniustogiveit,andyouneednotgivemeanyanswerunlessyouacceptmyoffer,for,shouldyourefuseit,itisnotnecessarythatthesubjectshouldbeagainmentioned。Idonotaskyoutogivefullconsiderationtomyproposal,fornowthatIhavethrowntheseedinyoursoulitmustfructify。Withouthurry,withoutdelay,withoutanxiety,youcanbutobeythedecreesofGodandfollowtheimmutabledecisionoffate。SuchasIknowyou,IbelievethatyouonlyrequirethepossessionofZelmitobecompetelyhappy,andthatyouwillbecomeoneofthepillarsoftheOttomanEmpire。\"
Sayingthosewords,Yusufpressedmeaffectionatelyinhisarms,andleftmebymyselftoavoidanyanswerImightbeinclinedtomake。I
wentawayinsuchwonderatallIhadjustheard,thatIfoundmyselfattheVenetianEmbassywithoutknowinghowIhadreachedit。Thebailithoughtmeverypensive,andaskedwhetheranythingwasthematterwithme,butIdidnotfeeldisposedtogratifytheircuriosity。IfoundthatYusufhadindeedspokentruly:hisproposalwasofsuchimportancethatitwasmyduty,notonlynottomentionittoanyone,buteventoabstainfromthinkingitover,untilmymindhadrecovereditscalmsufficientlytogivemetheassurancethatnoexternalconsiderationwouldweighinthebalanceandinfluencemydecision。Ihadtosilenceallmypassions;prejudices,principlesalreadyformed,love,andevenself—interestweretoremaininastateofcompleteinaction。
WhenIawokethenextmorningIbegantothinkthematterover,andI
soondiscoveredthat,ifIwantedtocometoadecision,Ioughtnottoponderoverit,asthemoreIconsideredthelesslikelyIshouldbetodecide。Thiswastrulyacaseforthe’sequereDeum’oftheStoics。
IdidnotvisitYusufforfourdays,andwhenIcalledonhimonthefifthday,wetalkedcheerfullywithoutoncementioninghisproposal,althoughitwasveryevidentthatwewereboththinkingofit。Weremainedthusforafortnight,withouteveralludingtothematterwhichengrossedallourthoughts,butoursilencewasnotcausedbydissimulation,orbyanyfeelingcontrarytoourmutualesteemandfriendship;andonedayYusufsuggestedthatverylikelyIhadcommunicatedhisproposaltosomewisefriend,inordertoobtaingoodadvice。Iimmediatelyassuredhimitwasnotso,andthatinamatterofsodelicateanatureIthoughtIoughtnottoaskanybody’sadvice。
\"IhaveabandonedmyselftoGod,dearYusuf,and,fullofconfidenceinHim,IfeelcertainthatIshalldecideforthebest,whetherI
makeupmymindtobecomeyourson,orbelievethatIoughttoremainwhatIamnow。Inthemeantime,mymindpondersoveritdayandnight,wheneverIamquietandfeelmyselfcomposedandcollected。
WhenIcometoadecision,Iwillimpartittoyoualone,andfromthatmomentyoushallhaveovermetheauthorityofafather。\"
AtthesewordstheworthyYusuf,hiseyeswetwithtears,placedhislefthandovermyhead,andthefirsttwofingersoftherighthandonmyforehead,saying:
\"Continuetoactinthatway,mydearson,andbecertainthatyoucanneveractwrongly。\"
\"But,\"Isaidtohim,\"onethingmighthappen,Zelmimightnotacceptme。\"
\"Havenoanxietyaboutthat。Mydaughterlovesyou;she,aswellasmywifeandhernurse,seesyoueverytimethatwedinetogether,andshelistenstoyouwithpleasure。\"
\"Doessheknowthatyouarethinkingofgivinghertomeasmywife?\"
\"SheknowsthatIardentlywishyoutobecomeatruebeliever,soastoenablemetolinkherdestinytoyours。\"
\"Iamgladthatyourhabitsdonotpermityoutoletmeseeher,becauseshemightdazzlemewithherbeauty,andthenpassionwouldsoonhavetoomuchweightinthescale;Icouldnolongerflattermyselfthatmydecisionhadbeentakeninalltheunbiased,purityofmysoul。\"
Yusufwashighlydelightedathearingmespeakinthatmanner,andI
spokeinperfectgoodfaith。ThemereideaofseeingZelmicausedmetoshudder。Ifeltthat,ifIhadfalleninlovewithher,IwouldhavebecomeaMussulmaninordertopossessher,andthatImightsoonhaverepentedsuchastep,forthereligionofMahometpresentedtomyeyesandtomymindnothingbutadisagreeablepicture,aswellforthislifeasforafutureone。Asforwealth,Ididnotthinkitdeservedtheimmensesacrificedemandedfromme。IcouldfindequalwealthinEurope,withoutstampingmyforeheadwiththeshamefulbrandofapostasy。Icareddeeplyfortheesteemofthepersonsofdistinctionwhoknewme,anddidnotwanttorendermyselfunworthyofit。Besides,Ifeltanimmensedesiretoobtainfameamongstcivilizedandpolitenations,eitherinthefineartsorinliterature,orinanyotherhonourableprofession,andIcouldnotreconcilemyselftotheideaofabandoningtomyequalsthetriumphwhichImightwinifIlivedamongstthem。Itseemedtome,andIamstillofthesameopinion,thatthedecisionofwearingtheturbanbefitsonlyaChristiandespairingofhimselfandattheendofhiswits,andfortunatelyIwaslostnotinthatpredicament。MygreatestobjectionwastospendayearinAdrianopletolearnalanguageforwhichIdidnotfeelanyliking,andwhichIshouldthereforehavelearnedbutimperfectly。HowcouldI,atmyage,renouncetheprerogative,sopleasanttomyvanity,ofbeingreputedafinetalker?andIhadsecuredthatreputationwhereverIwasknown。ThenIwouldoftenthinkthatZelmi,theeighthwonderofcreationintheeyesofherfathermightnotappearsuchinmyeyes,anditwouldhavebeenenoughtomakememiserable,forYusufwaslikelytolivetwentyyearslonger,andIfeltthatgratitude,aswellasrespect,wouldneverhavepermittedmetogivethatexcellentmananycauseforunhappinessbyceasingtoshewmyselfadevotedandfaithfulhusbandtohisdaughter。Suchweremythoughts,and,asYusufcouldnotguessthem,itwasuselesstomakeaconfidantofhim。
Afewdaysafterwards,IdinedwiththePachaOsmanandmetmyEffendiIsmail。Hewasveryfriendlytome,andIreciprocatedhisattentions,thoughIpaidnoattentiontothereproachesheaddressedtomefornothavingcometobreakfastwithhimforsuchalongtime。
IcouldnotrefusetodineathishousewithBonneval,andhetreatedmetoaverypleasingsight;Neapolitanslaves,menandwomen,performedapantomimeandsomeCalabriandances。M。deBonnevalhappenedtomentionthedancecalledforlana,andIsmailexpressingagreatwishtoknowit,ItoldhimthatIcouldgivehimthatpleasureifIhadaVenetianwomantodancewithandafiddlerwhoknewthetime。Itookaviolin,andplayedtheforlana,but,evenifthepartnerhadbeenfound,Icouldnotplayanddanceatthesametime。
Ismailwhisperedafewwordstooneofhiseunuchs,whowentoutoftheroomandreturnedsoonwithsomemessagethathedeliveredtohim。TheeffenditoldmethathehadfoundthepartnerIwanted,andIansweredthatthemusiciancouldbehadeasily,ifhewouldsendanotetotheVenetianEmbassy,whichwasdoneatonce。TheBailoDonasentoneofhismenwhoplayedtheviolinwellenoughfordancingpurposes。Assoonasthemusicianwasready,adoorwasthrownopen,andafinelookingwomancamein,herfacecoveredwithablackvelvetmask,suchaswecallmorettainVenice。Theappearanceofthatbeautifulmaskedwomansurprisedanddelightedeveryoneoftheguests,foritwasimpossibletoimagineamoreinterestingobject,notonlyonaccountofthebeautyofthatpartofthefacewhichthemaskleftexposed,butalsofortheeleganceofhershape,theperfectionofherfigure,andtheexquisitetastedisplayedinhercostume。Thenymphtookherplace,Ididthesame,andwedancedtheforlanasixtimeswithoutstopping。
Iwasinperspirationandoutofbreath,forthefoylanaisthemostviolentofournationaldances;butmybeautifulpartnerstoodnearmewithoutbetrayingtheslightestfatigue,andseemedtochallengemetoanewperformance。Attheroundofthedance,whichisthemostdifficultstep,sheseemedtohavewings。Iwasastounded,forIhadneverseenanyone,eveninVenice,dancetheforlanasosplendidly。Afterafewminutesrest,ratherashamedofmyfeelingtired,Iwentuptoher,andsaid,’Ancorasei,apoibasta,senonvoletevedermiamorire。’Shewouldhaveansweredmeifshehadbeenable,butsheworeoneofthosecruelmaskswhichforbidspeech。ButapressureofherhandwhichnobodycouldseemademeguessallI
wantedtoknow。Themomentwefinisheddancingtheeunuchopenedthedoor,andmylovelypartnerdisappeared。
Ismailcouldnotthankmeenough,butitwasIwhoowedhimmythanks,foritwastheonlyrealpleasurewhichIenjoyedinConstantinople。IaskedhimwhethertheladywasfromVenice,butheonlyansweredbyasignificantsmile。
\"TheworthyIsmail,\"saidM。deBonnevaltome,aswewereleavingthehouselateintheevening,\"hasbeento—daythedupeofhisvanity,andIhavenodoubtthatheissorryalreadyforwhathehasdone。Tobringouthisbeautifulslavetodancewithyou!Accordingtotheprejudicesofthiscountryitisinjurioustohisdignity,foryouaresuretohavekindledanamorousflameinthepoorgirl’sbreast。Iwouldadviseyoutobecarefulandtokeeponyourguard,becauseshewilltrytogetupsomeintriguewithyou;butbeprudent,forintriguesarealwaysdangerousinTurkey。\"
Ipromisedtobeprudent,butIdidnotkeepmypromise;for,threeorfourdaysafterwards,anoldslavewomanmetmeinthestreet,andofferedtosellmeforonepiasteratobacco—bagembroideredingold;
andassheputitinmyhandshecontrivedtomakemefeelthattherewasaletterinthebag。
Iobservedthatshetriedtoavoidtheeyesofthejanissarywhowaswalkingbehindme;Igaveheronepiaster,sheleftme,andI
proceededtowardYusuf’shouse。Hewasnotathome,andIwenttohisgardentoreadtheletterwithperfectfreedom。Itwassealedandwithoutanyaddress,andtheslavemighthavemadeamistake;butmycuriositywasexcitedtothehighestpitch;Ibroketheseal,andfoundthefollowingnotewritteningoodenoughItalian:
\"Shouldyouwishtoseethepersonwithwhomyoudancedtheforlana,takeawalktowardseveninginthegardenbeyondthefountain,andcontrivetobecomeacquaintedwiththeoldservantofthegardenerbyaskingherforsomelemonade。Youmayperchancemanagetoseeyourpartnerintheforlanawithoutrunninganyrisk,evenifyoushouldhappentomeetIsmail;sheisanativeofVenice。Becarefulnottomentionthisinvitationtoanyhumanbeing。\"
\"Iamnotsuchafool,mylovelycountrywoman,\"Iexclaimed,asifshehadbeenpresent,andputtheletterinmypocket。Butatthatverymoment,afine—lookingelderlywomancameoutofathicket,pronouncedmyname,andenquiredwhatIwantedandhowIhadseenher。IansweredthatIhadbeenspeakingtothewind,notsupposingthatanyonecouldhearme,andwithoutanymorepreparation,sheabruptlytoldmethatshewasverygladoftheopportunityofspeakingwithme,thatshewasfromRome,thatshehadbroughtupZelmi,andhadtaughthertosingandtoplaytheharp。Shethenpraisedhighlythebeautyandtheexcellentqualitiesofherpupil,sayingthat,ifIsawher,Iwouldcertainlyfallinlovewithher,andexpressinghowmuchsheregrettedthatthelawshouldnotallowit。
\"Sheseesusatthisverymoment,\"sheadded,\"frombehindthatgreenwindow—blind,andweloveyoueversinceYusufhasinformedusthatyoumay,perhaps,becomeZelmi’shusband。\"
\"MayImentionourconversationtoYusuf?\"Ienquired。
\"No。\"
Heransweringinthenegativemademeunderstandthat,ifIhadpressedheralittle,shewouldhaveallowedmetoseeherlovelypupil,andperhapsitwaswiththatintentionthatshehadcontrivedtospeaktome,butIfeltgreatreluctancetodoanythingtodispleasemyworthyhost。Ihadanotherreasonofevengreaterimportance:Iwasafraidofenteringanintricatemazeinwhichthesightofaturbanhoveringovermemademeshudder。
Yusufcamehome,andfarfrombeingangrywhenhesawmewiththewoman,heremarkedthatImusthavefoundmuchpleasureinconversingwithanativeofRome,andhecongratulatedmeuponthedelightI
musthavefeltindancingwithoneofthebeautiesfromtheharemofthevoluptuousIsmail。
\"Thenitmustbeapleasureseldomenjoyed,ifitissomuchtalkedof?\"
\"Veryseldomindeed,forthereisamongstusaninvincibleprejudiceagainstexposingourlovelywomentotheeyesofothermen;buteveryonemaydoashepleasesinhisownhouse:Ismailisaveryworthyandaveryintelligentman。\"
\"IstheladywithwhomIdancedknown?\"
\"Ibelievenot。Sheworeamask,andeverybodyknowsthatIsmailpossesseshalfadozenslavesofsurpassingbeauty。\"
IspentapleasantdaywithYusuf,andwhenIlefthim,IorderedmyjanissarytotakemetoIsmail’s。AsIwasknownbyhisservants,theyallowedmetogoin,andIproceededtothespotdescribedintheletter。Theeunuchcametome,informedmethathismasterwasout,butthathewouldbedelightedtohearofmyhavingtakenawalkinthegarden。ItoldhimthatIwouldlikeaglassoflemonade,andhetookmetothesummerhouse,whereIrecognizedtheoldwomanwhohadsoldmethetobacco—pouch。TheeunuchtoldhertogivemeaglassofsomeliquidwhichIfounddelicious,andwouldnotallowmetogiveheranymoney。Wethenwalkedtogethertowardsthefountain,buthetoldmeabruptlythatweweretogoback,ashesawthreeladiestowhomhepointed,addingthat,forthesakeofdecency,itwasnecessarytoavoidthem。Ithankedhimforhisattentions,leftmycomplimentsforIsmail,andwentawaynotdissatisfiedwithmyfirstattempt,andwiththehopeofbeingmorefortunateanothertime。
ThenextmorningIreceivedaletterfromIsmailinvitingmetogofishingwithhimonthefollowingday,andstatingthatheintendedtoenjoythesportbymoonlight。Iimmediatelygavewaytomysuppositions,andIwentsofarastofancythatIsmailmightbecapableofarranginganinterviewbetweenmeandthelovelyVenetian。
Ididnotmindhisbeingpresent。IbeggedpermissionofChevalierVeniertostopoutofthepalaceforonenight,buthegranteditwiththegreatestdifficulty,becausehewasafraidofsomeloveaffairandoftheresultsitmighthave。ItookcaretocalmhisanxietyasmuchasIcould,butwithoutacquaintinghimwithallthecircumstancesofthecase,forIthoughtIwaswiseinbeingdiscreet。
Iwasexacttotheappointedtime,andIsmailreceivedmewiththeutmostcordiality,butIwassurprisedwhenIfoundmyselfalonewithhimintheboat。Wehadtworowersandamantosteer;wetooksomefish,friedinoil,andateitinthesummer—house。Themoonshonebrightly,andthenightwasdelightful。AlonewithIsmail,andknowinghisunnaturaltastes,Ididnotfeelverycomfortablefor,inspiteofwhatM。deBonnevalhadtoldme,IwasafraidlesttheTurkshouldtakeafancytogivemetoogreataproofofhisfriendship,andIdidnotrelishourtete—a—tete。Butmyfearsweregroundless。
\"Letusleavethisplacequietly,\"saidIsmail,\"Ihavejustheardaslightnoisewhichheraldssomethingthatwillamuseus。\"
Hedismissedhisattendants,andtookmyhand,saying,\"Letusgotoasmallroom,thekeyofwhichIluckilyhavewithme,butletusbecarefulnottomakeanynoise。ThatroomhasawindowoverlookingthefountainwhereIthinkthattwoorthreeofmybeautieshavejustgonetobathe。Wewillseethemandenjoyaverypleasingsight,fortheydonotimaginethatanyoneislookingatthem。Theyknowthattheplaceisforbiddentoeverybodyexceptme。\"
Weenteredtheroom,wewenttothewindow,and,themoonshiningrightoverthebasinofthefountain,wesawthreenymphswho,nowswimming,nowstandingorsittingonthemarblesteps,offeredthemselvestooureyesineverypossibleposition,andinalltheattitudesofgracefulvoluptuousness。Dearreader,Imustnotpaintintoovividcoloursthedetailsofthatbeautifulpicture,butifnaturehasendowedyouwithanardentimaginationandwithequallyardentsenses,youwilleasilyimaginethefearfulhavocwhichthatunique,wonderful,andenchantingsightmusthavemadeuponmypoorbody。
Afewdaysafterthatdelightfulfishingandbathingpartybymoonlight,IcalleduponYusufearlyinthemorning;asitwasraining,Icouldnotgotothegarden,andIwentintothedining—
room,inwhichIhadneverseenanyone。ThemomentIenteredtheroom,acharmingfemaleformrose,coveringherfeatureswithathickveilwhichfelltothefeet。Aslavewassittingnearthewindow,doingsometambour—work,butshedidnotmove。Iapologized,andturnedtoleavetheroom,buttheladystoppedme,observing,withasweetvoice,thatYusufhadcommandedhertoentertainmebeforegoingout。Sheinvitedmetobeseated,pointingtoarichcushionplacedupontwolargerones,andIobeyed,while,crossingherlegs,shesatdownuponanothercushionoppositetome。IthoughtIwaslookinguponZelmi,andfanciedthatYusufhadmadeuphismindtoshewmethathewasnotlesscourageousthanIsmail。YetIwassurprised,for,bysuchaproceeding,hestronglycontradictedhismaxims,andrantheriskofimpairingtheunbiasedpurityofmyconsentbythrowingloveinthebalance。ButIhadnofearofthat,because,tobecomeenamoured,Ishouldhaverequiredtoseeherface。
\"Isuppose,\"saidtheveiledbeauty,\"thatyoudonotknowwhoIam?\"
\"Icouldnotguess,ifItried。\"
\"Ihavebeenforthelastfiveyearsthewifeofyourfriend,andI
amanativeofScio。IwasthirteenyearsofagewhenIbecamehiswife。\"
IwasgreatlyastonishedtofindthatmyMussulmanphilosopherhadgonesofarastoallowmetoconversewithhiswife,butIfeltmoreateaseafterIhadreceivedthatinformation,andfanciedthatI
mightcarrytheadventurefurther,butitwouldbenecessarytoseethelady’sface,forafinely—dressedbody,theheadofwhichisnotseen,excitesbutfeebledesires。Thefirelightedbyamorousdesiresislikeafireofstraw;themomentitburnsupitisnearitsend。Ihadbeforemeamagnificentappearance,butIcouldnotseethesouloftheimage,forathickgauzeconcealeditfrommyhungrygaze。Icouldseearmsaswhiteasalabaster,andhandslikethoseofAlcina,’dovenenodoappasiscenevenaaccede’,andmyactiveimaginationfanciedthatalltherestwasinharmonywiththosebeautifulspecimens,forthegracefulfoldsofthemuslin,leavingtheoutlineallitsperfection,hidfrommeonlythelivingsatinofthesurface;therewasnodoubtthateverythingwaslovely,butIwantedtosee,intheexpressionofhereyes,thatallthatmyimaginationcreatedhadlifeandwasendowedwithfeeling。TheOrientalcostumeisabeautifulvarnishplaceduponaporcelainvasetoprotectfromthetouchthecoloursoftheflowersandofthedesign,withoutlesseningthepleasureoftheeyes。Yusuf’swifewasnotdressedlikeasultana;sheworethecostumeofScio,withashortskirtwhichconcealedneithertheperfectionofthelegnortheroundformofthethigh,northevoluptuousplumpfallofthehips,northeslender,well—madewaistencompassedinasplendidbandembroideredinsilverandcoveredwitharabesques。Aboveallthosebeauties,IcouldseetheshapeoftwoglobeswhichApelleswouldhavetakenforthemodelofthoseofhislovelyVenus,andtherapid,inequalmovementofwhichprovedtomethatthoseravishinghillockswereanimated。Thesmallvalleyleftbetweenthem,andwhichmyeyesgreedilyfeastedupon,seemedtomealakeofnectar,inwhichmyburninglipslongedtoquenchtheirthirstwithmoreardourthantheywouldhavedrunkfromthecupofthegods。
Enraptured,unabletocontrolmyself,Ithrustmyarmforwardbyamovementalmostindependentofmywill,andmyhand,tooaudacious,wasonthepointofliftingthehatefulveil,butshepreventedmebyraisingherselfquicklyontiptoe,upbraidingmeatthesametimeformyperfidiousboldness,withavoiceascommandingasherattitude。
\"Dostthoudeserve,\"shesaid,\"Yusuf’sfriendship,whenthouabusestthesacredlawsofhospitalitybyinsultinghiswife?\"
\"Madam,youmustkindlyforgiveme,forIneverhadanyintentiontoinsultyou。Inmycountrythelowestofmenmayfixhiseyesuponthefaceofaqueen。\"
\"Yes,buthecannottearoffherveil,ifshechoosestowearit。
Yusufshallavengeme。\"
Thethreat,andthetoneinwhichitwaspronounced,frightenedme。
Ithrewmyselfatherfeet,andsucceededincalmingheranger。
\"Takeaseat,\"shesaid。
Andshesatdownherself,crossingherlegswithsomuchfreedomthatIcaughtaglimpseofcharmswhichwouldhavecausedmetoloseallcontrolovermyselfifthedelightfulsighthadremainedonemomentlongerexposedtomyeyes。IthensawthatIhadgonethewrongwaytowork,andIfeltvexedwithmyself;butitwastoolate。
\"Artthouexcited?\"shesaid。
\"HowcouldIbeotherwise,\"Ianswered,\"whenthouartscorchingmewithanardentfire?\"
Ihadbecomemoreprudent,andIseizedherhandwithoutthinkinganymoreofherface。
\"Hereismyhusband,\"shesaid,andYusufcameintotheroom。Werose,Yusufembracedme,Icomplimentedhim,theslavelefttheroom。
Yusufthankedhiswifeforhavingentertainedme,andofferedherhisarmtotakehertoherownapartment。Shetookit,butwhenshereachedthedoor,sheraisedherveil,andkissingherhusbandsheallowedmetoseeherlovelyfaceasifithadbeendoneunwittingly。
IfollowedherwithmyeyesaslongasIcould,andYusuf,comingbacktome,saidwithalaughthathiswifehadofferedtodinewithus。
\"Ithought,\"Isaidtohim,\"thatIhadZelmibeforeme。\"
\"Thatwouldhavebeentoomuchagainstourestablishedrules。WhatI
havedoneisnotmuch,butIdonotknowanhonestmanwhowouldbeboldenoughtobringhisdaughterintothepresenceofastranger。\"
\"Ithinkyourwifemustbehandsome;isshemorebeautifulthanZelmi?\"
\"Mydaughter’sbeautyischeerful,sweet,andgentle;thatofSophiaisproudandhaughty。Shewillbehappyaftermydeath。Themanwhowillmarryherwillfindheravirgin。\"
IgaveanaccountofmyadventuretoM。deBonneval,somewhatexaggeratingthedangerIhadrunintryingtoraisetheveilofthehandsomedaughterofScio。
\"Shewaslaughingatyou,\"saidthecount,\"andyourannodanger。
Shefeltverysorry,believeme,tohavetodealwithanovicelikeyou。YouhavebeenplayingthecomedyintheFrenchfashion,whenyououghttohavegonestraighttothepoint。Whatonearthdidyouwanttoseehernosefor?Sheknewverywellthatshewouldhavegainednothingbyallowingyoutoseeher。Yououghttohavesecuredtheessentialpoint。IfIwereyoungIwouldperhapsmanagetogiveherarevenge,andtopunishmyfriendYusuf。YouhavegiventhatlovelywomanapooropinionofItalianvalour。ThemostreservedofTurkishwomenhasnomodestyexceptonherface,and,withherveiloverit,sheknowstoacertaintythatshewillnotblushatanything。IamcertainthatyourbeautykeepsherfacecoveredwheneverourfriendYusufwishestojokewithher。\"
\"Sheisyetavirgin。\"
\"Ratheradifficultthingtoadmit,mygoodfriend;butIknowthedaughtersofScio;theyhaveatalentforcounterfeitingvirginity。\"
Yusufneverpaidmeasimilarcomplimentagain,andhewasquiteright。
Afewdaysafter,IhappenedtobeintheshopofanArmenianmerchant,lookingatsomebeautifulgoods,whenYusufenteredtheshopandpraisedmytaste;but,althoughIhadadmiredagreatmanythings,Ididnotbuy,becauseIthoughttheyweretoodear。IsaidsotoYusuf,butheremarkedthattheywere,onthecontrary,verycheap,andhepurchasedthemall。Wepartedcompanyatthedoor,andthenextmorningIreceivedallthebeautifulthingshehadbought;
itwasadelicateattentionofmyfriend,andtopreventmyrefusalofsuchasplendidpresent,hehadenclosedanotestatingthat,onmyarrivalinCorfu,hewouldletmeknowtowhomthegoodsweretobedelivered。HehadthussentmegoldandsilverfiligreesfromDamascus,portfolios,scarfs,belts,handkerchiefsandpipes,thewholeworthfourorfivehundredpiasters。WhenIcalledtothankhim,Icompelledhimtoconfessthatitwasapresentofferedbyhisfriendship。
ThedaybeforemydeparturefromConstantinople,theexcellentmanburstintotearsasIbadehimadieu,andmygriefwasasgreatashisown。Hetoldmethat,bynotacceptingtheofferofhisdaughter’shand,IhadsostronglycaptivatedhisesteemthathisfeelingsformecouldnothavebeenwarmerifIhadbecomehisson。
WhenIwentonboardshipwiththeBailoJeanDona,Ifoundanothercasegiventomebyhim,containingtwoquintalsofthebestMochacoffee,onehundredpoundsoftobaccoleaves,twolargeflagonsfilled,onewithZabanditobacco,theotherwithcamussa,andamagnificentpipetubeofjessaminewood,coveredwithgoldfiligrane,whichIsoldinCorfuforonehundredsequins。IhadnotitinmypowertogivemygenerousTurkanymarkofmygratitudeuntilI
reachedCorfu,butthereIdidnotfailtodoso。Isoldallhisbeautifulpresents,whichmademethepossessorofasmallfortune。
IsmailgavemealetterfortheChevalierdeLezze,butIcouldnotforwardittohimbecauseIunfortunatelylostit;hepresentedmewithabarrelofhydromel,whichIturnedlikewiseintomoney。
M。deBonnevalgavemealetterforCardinalAcquaviva,whichIsenttoRomewithanaccountofmyjourney,buthiseminencedidnotthinkfittoacknowledgethereceiptofeither。BonnevalmademeapresentoftwelvebottlesofmalmseyfromRagusa,andoftwelvebottlesofgenuinescopolo——agreatrarity,withwhichImadeapresentinCorfuwhichprovedveryusefultome,asthereaderwilldiscover。
TheonlyforeignministerIsawmuchinConstantinoplewasthelordmarshalofScotland,thecelebratedKeith,whorepresentedtheKingofPrussia,andwho,sixyearslaterwasofgreatservicetomeinParis。
WesailedfromConstantinopleinthebeginningofSeptemberinthesameman—of—warwhichhadbroughtus,andwereachedCorfuinfourteendays。TheBailoDonadidnotland。HehadwithhimeightsplendidTurkishhorses;IsawtwoofthemstillaliveinGoriziaintheyear1773。
AssoonasIhadlandedwithmyluggage,andhadengagedarathermeanlodging,IpresentedmyselftoM。AndreDolfin,theproveditore—generale,whopromisedmeagainthatIshouldsoonbepromotedtoalieutenancy。Aftermyvisittohim,IcalleduponM。
Camporese,mycaptain,andwaswellreceivedbyhim。Mythirdvisitwastothecommanderofgalleases,M。D————R—————,towhomM。AntonioDolfin,withwhomIhadtravelledfromVenicetoCorfu,hadkindlyrecommendedme。Afterashortconversation,heaskedmeifIwouldremainwithhimwiththetitleofadjutant。Ididnothesitateoneinstant,butaccepted,sayinghowdeeplyhonouredIfeltbyhisoffer,andassuringhimthathewouldalwaysfindmereadytocarryouthisorders。Heimmediatelyhadmetakentomyroom,and,thenextday,Ifoundmyselfestablishedinhishouse。IobtainedfrommycaptainaFrenchsoldiertoserveme,andIwaswellpleasedwhenIfoundthatthemanwasahairdresserbytrade,andagreattalkerbynature,forhecouldtakecareofmybeautifulheadofhair,andI
wantedtopractiseFrenchconversation。Hewasagood—for—nothingfellow,adrunkardandadebauchee,apeasantfromPicardy,andhecouldhardlyreadorwrite,butIdidnotmindallthat;allIwantedfromhimwastoserveme,andtotalktome,andhisFrenchwasprettygood。Hewasanamusingrogue,knowingbyheartaquantityoferoticsongsandofsmuttystorieswhichhecouldtellinthemostlaughablemanner。
WhenIhadsoldmystockofgoodsfromConstantinople(exceptthewines),Ifoundmyselftheownerofnearlyfivehundredsequins。
IredeemedallthearticleswhichIhadpledgedinthehandsofJews,andturnedintomoneyeverythingofwhichIhadnoneed。Iwasdeterminednottoplayanylongerasadupe,buttosecureingamblingalltheadvantageswhichaprudentyoungmancouldobtainwithoutsullyinghishonour。
ImustnowmakemyreadersacquaintedwiththesortoflifewewereatthattimeleadinginCorfu。Astothecityitself,Iwillnotdescribeit,becausetherearealreadymanydescriptionsbetterthantheoneIcouldofferinthesepages。
WehadtheninCorfuthe’proveditore—generale’whohadsovereignauthority,andlivedinastyleofgreatmagnificence。ThatpostwasthenfilledbyM。AndreDolfin,amansixtyyearsofage,strict,headstrong,andignorant。Henolongercaredforwomen,butlikedtobecourtedbythem。Hereceivedeveryevening,andthesupper—tablewasalwayslaidfortwenty—fourpersons。
Wehadthreefield—officersofthemarineswhodiddutyonthegalleys,andthreefield—officersforthetroopsofthelineonboardthemen—of—war。Eachgaleasshadacaptaincalled’sopracomito’,andwehadtenofthosecaptains;wehadlikewisetencommanders,oneforeachman—of—war,includingthree’capidimare’,oradmirals。TheyallbelongedtothenobilityofVenice。TenyoungVenetiannoblemen,fromtwentytotwenty—twoyearsofage,wereatCorfuasmidshipmeninthenavy。Wehad,besides,aboutadozencivilclerksinthepoliceoftheisland,orintheadministrationofjustice,entitled’grandioffcialiditerra’。Thosewhowereblessedwithhandsomewiveshadthepleasureofseeingtheirhousesverymuchfrequentedbyadmirerswhoaspiredtowinthefavoursoftheladies,buttherewasnotmuchheroiclove—making,perhapsforthereasonthatthereweretheninCorfumanyAspasiaswhosefavourscouldbehadformoney。
Gamblingwasallowedeverywhere,andthatallabsorbingpassionwasveryprejudicialtotheemotionsoftheheart。
TheladywhowasthenmosteminentforbeautyandgallantrywasMadameF————。Herhusband,captainofagalley,hadcometoCorfuwithhertheyearbefore,andmadamhadgreatlyastonishedallthenavalofficers。Thinkingthatshehadtheprivilegeofthechoice,shehadgiventhepreferencetoM。D————R—————,andhaddismissedallthesuitorswhopresentedthemselves。M。F————hadmarriedherontheverydayshehadlefttheconvent;shewasonlyseventeenyearsofagethen,andhehadbroughtheronboardhisgalleyimmediatelyafterthemarriageceremony。
Isawherforthefirsttimeatthedinner—tableontheverydayofmyinstallationatM。D————R—————’s,andshemadeagreatimpressionuponme。IthoughtIwasgazingatasupernaturalbeing,soinfinitelyaboveallthewomenIhadeverseen,thatitseemedimpossibletofallinlovewithherSheappearedtomeofanaturedifferentandsogreatlysuperiortominethatIdidnotseethepossibilityofrisinguptoher。IevenwentsofarastopersuademyselfthatnothingbutaPlatonicfriendshipcouldexistbetweenherandM。D————R—————,andthatM。F————wasquiterightnownottoshewanyjealousy。Yet,thatM。F————wasaperfectfool,andcertainlynotworthyofsuchawoman。TheimpressionmadeuponmebyMadameF————wastooridiculoustolastlong,andthenatureofitsoonchanged,butinanovelmanner,atleastasfarasIwasconcerned。
MypositionasadjutantprocuredmethehonourofdiningatM。D————
R—————’stable,butnothingmore。Theotheradjutant,likeme,anensigninthearmy,butthegreatestfoolIhadeverseen,sharedthathonourwithme。Wewerenot,however,consideredasguests,fornobodyeverspoketous,and,whatismore,nooneeverhonoureduswithalook。Itusedtoputmeinarage。Iknewverywellthatpeopleactedinthatmannerthroughnorealcontemptforus,butitwentveryhardwithme。Icouldverywellunderstandthatmycolleague,Sanzonio,shouldnotcomplainofsuchtreatment,becausehewasablockhead,butIdidnotfeeldisposedtoallowmyselftobeputonaparwithhim。Attheendofeightortendays,MadameF————,nothavingcondescendedtocastoneglanceuponmyperson,begantoappeardisagreeabletome。Ifeltpiqued,vexed,provoked,andthemoresobecauseIcouldnotsupposethattheladyactedinthatmannerwilfullyandpurposely;Iwouldhavebeenhighlypleasediftherehadbeenpremeditationonherpart。IfeltsatisfiedthatIwasanobodyinherestimation,andasIwasconsciousofbeingsomebody,Iwantedhertoknowit。Atlastacircumstanceoffereditselfinwhich,thinkingthatshecouldaddressme,shewascompelledtolookatme。
M。D————R—————havingobservedthatavery,veryfineturkeyhadbeenplacedbeforeme,toldmetocarveit,andIimmediatelywenttowork。Iwasnotaskilfulcarver,andMadameF————,laughingatmywantofdexterity,toldmethat,ifIhadnotbeencertainofperformingmytaskwithcredittomyself,Ioughtnottohaveundertakenit。Fullofconfusion,andunabletoanswerherasmyangerprompted,Isatdown,withmyheartoverflowingwithspiteandhatredagainsther。Tocrownmyrage,havingonedaytoaddressme,sheaskedmewhatwasmyname。Shehadseenmeeverydayforafortnight,eversinceIhadbeentheadjutantofM。D————R—————;
thereforesheoughttohaveknownmyname。Besides,Ihadbeenveryluckyatthegaming—table,andIhadbecomeratherfamousinCorfu。
MyangeragainstMadameFwasatitsheight。
IhadplacedmymoneyinthehandsofacertainMaroli,amajorinthearmyandagamesterbyprofession,whoheldthefarobankatthecoffee—house。Wewerepartners;Ihelpedhimwhenhedealt,andherenderedmethesameofficewhenIheldthecards,whichwasoftenthecase,becausehewasnotgenerallyliked。Heusedtoholdthecardsinawaywhichfrightenedthepunters;mymannerswereverydifferent,andIwasverylucky。BesidesIwaseasyandsmilingwhenmybankwaslosing,andIwonwithoutshewinganyavidity,andthatisamannerwhichalwayspleasesthepunters。
ThisMaroliwasthemanwhohadwonallmymoneyduringmyfirststayinCorfu,andfinding,whenIreturned,thatIwasresolvednottobedupedanymore,hejudgedmeworthyofsharingthewisemaximswithoutwhichgamblingmustnecessarilyruinallthosewhomeddlewithit。ButasMarolihadwonmyconfidenceonlytoaveryslightextent,Iwasverycareful。Wemadeupouraccountseverynight,assoonasplayingwasover;thecashierkeptthecapitalofthebank,thewinningsweredivided,andeachtookhisshareaway。
Luckyatplay,enjoyinggoodhealthandthefriendshipofmycomrades,who,whenevertheopportunityoffered,alwaysfoundmegenerousandreadytoservethem,IwouldhavebeenwellpleasedwithmypositionifIhadbeenalittlemoreconsideredatthetableofM。D————R—————,andtreatedwithlesshaughtinessbyhisladywho,withoutanyreason,seemeddisposedtohumiliateme。Myself—lovewasdeeplyhurt,Ihatedher,and,withsuchadispositionofmind,themoreIadmiredtheperfectionofhercharms,themoreIfoundherdeficientinwitandintelligence。Shemighthavemadetheconquestofmyheartwithoutbestowinghersuponme,forallIwantedwasnottobecompelledtohateher,andIcouldnotunderstandwhatpleasureitcouldbeforhertobedetested,whilewithonlyalittlekindnessshecouldhavebeenadored。Icouldnotascribehermannertoaspiritofcoquetry,forIhadnevergivenhertheslightestproofoftheopinionIentertainedofherbeauty,andIcouldnotthereforeattributeherbehaviourtoapassionwhichmighthaverenderedmedisagreeableinhereyes;M。D————R—————seemedtointerestheronlyinaveryslightmanner,andastoherhusband,shecarednothingforhim。Inshort,thatcharmingwomanmademeveryunhappy,andIwasangrywithmyselfbecauseIfeltthat,ifithadnotbeenforthemannerinwhichshetreatedme,Iwouldnothavethoughtofher,andmyvexationwasincreasedbythefeelingofhatredentertainedbymyheartagainsther,afeelingwhichuntilthenIhadneverknowntoexistinme,andthediscoveryofwhichoverwhelmedmewithconfusion。
Onedayagentlemanhandedme,aswewereleavingthedinner—table,arollofgoldthathehadlostupontrust;MadameF————sawit,andshesaidtomeveryabruptly,——
\"Whatdoyoudowithyourmoney?\"
\"Ikeepit,madam,asaprovisionagainstpossiblelosses。\"
\"Butasyoudonotindulgeinanyexpenseitwouldbebetterforyounottoplay;itistimewasted。\"
\"Timegiventopleasureisnevertimelost,madam;theonlytimewhichayoungmanwastesisthatwhichisconsumedinweariness,becausewhenheisapreytoennuiheislikelytofallapreytolove,andtobedespisedbytheobjectofhisaffection。\"
\"Verylikely;butyouamuseyourselfwithhoardingupyourmoney,andshewyourselftobeamiser,andamiserisnotlesscontemptiblethanamaninlove。Whydoyounotbuyyourselfapairofgloves?\"
Youmaybesurethatatthesewordsthelaughterwasallonherside,andmyvexationwasallthegreaterbecauseIcouldnotdenythatshewasquiteright。Itwastheadjutant’sbusinesstogivetheladiesanarmtotheircarriages,anditwasnotpropertofulfilthatdutywithoutgloves。Ifeltmortified,andthereproachofavaricehurtmedeeply。Iwouldathousandtimesratherthatshehadlaidmyerrortoawantofeducation;andyet,sofullofcontradictionsisthehumanheart,insteadofmakingamendsbyadoptinganappearanceofelegancewhichthestateofmyfinancesenabledmetokeepup,I
didnotpurchaseanygloves,andIresolvedtoavoidherandtoabandonhertotheinsipidanddullgallantryofSanzonio,whosportedgloves,butwhoseteethwererotten,whosebreathwasputrid,whoworeawig,andwhosefaceseemedtobecoveredwithshrivelledyellowparchment。
Ispentmydaysinacontinualstateofrageandspite,andthemostabsurdpartofitallwasthatIfeltunhappybecauseIcouldnotcontrolmyhatredforthatwomanwhom,ingoodconscience,Icouldnotfindguiltyofanything。Shehadformeneitherlovenordislike,whichwasquitenatural;butbeingyounganddisposedtoenjoymyselfIhadbecome,withoutanywilfulmaliceonherpart,aneye—soretoherandthebuttofherbanteringjokes,whichmysensitivenessexaggeratedgreatly。ForallthatIhadanardentwishtopunishherandtomakeherrepent。Ithoughtofnothingelse。AtonetimeIwouldthinkofdevotingallmyintelligenceandallmymoneytokindlinganamorouspassioninherheart,andthentorevengemyselfbytreatingherwithcontempt。ButIsoonrealizedtheimpracticabilityofsuchaplan,forevensupposingthatIshouldsucceedinfindingmywaytoherheart,wasIthemantoresistmyownsuccesswithsuchawoman?IcertainlycouldnotflattermyselfthatIwassostrong—minded。ButIwasthepetchildoffortune,andmypositionwassuddenlyaltered。
M。D————R————havingsentmewithdispatchestoM。deCondulmer,captainofa’galeazza’,Ihadtowaituntilmidnighttodeliverthem,andwhenIreturnedIfoundthatM。D————R————hadretiredtohisapartmentforthenight。AssoonashewasvisibleinthemorningIwenttohimtorenderanaccountofmymission。IhadbeenwithhimonlyafewminuteswhenhisvaletbroughtalettersayingthatMadameF————’sadjutantwaswaitingforananswer。M。D————
R—————readthenote,toreittopieces,andinhisexcitementstampedwithhisfootuponthefragments。Hewalkedupanddowntheroomforalittletime,thenwroteananswerandrangfortheadjutant,towhomhedeliveredit。Hethenrecoveredhisusualcomposure,concludedtheperusalofthedispatchsentbyM。deCondulmer,andtoldmetowritealetter。Hewaslookingitoverwhenthevaletcamein,tellingmethatMadameF————desiredtoseeme。M。D————R————toldmethathedidnotrequiremyservicesanymoreforthepresent,andthatImightgo。Ilefttheroom,butI
hadnotgonetenyardswhenhecalledmebacktoremindmethatmydutywastoknownothing;IbeggedtoassurehimthatIwaswellawareofthat。IrantoMadameF—————’shouse,veryeagertoknowwhatshewantedwithme。Iwasintroducedimmediately,andIwasgreatlysurprisedtofindhersittingupinbed,hercountenanceflushedandexcited,andhereyesredfromthetearsshehadevidentlyjustbeenshedding。Myheartwasbeatingquickly,yetI
didnotknowwhy。
\"Praybeseated,\"shesaid,\"Iwishtospeakwithyou。\"
\"Madam,\"Ianswered,\"Iamnotworthyofsogreatafavour,andI
havenotyetdoneanythingtodeserveit;allowmetoremainstanding。\"
Sheverylikelyrecollectedthatshehadneverbeensopolitebefore,anddarednotpressmeanyfurther。Shecollectedherthoughtsforaninstantortwo,andsaidtome:
\"Lasteveningmyhusbandlosttwohundredsequinsupontrustatyourfarobank;hebelievedthatamounttobeinmyhands,andImustthereforegiveittohimimmediately,asheisboundinhonourtopayhislossesto—day。UnfortunatelyIhavedisposedofthemoney,andI
amingreattrouble。IthoughtyoumighttellMarolithatIhavepaidyoutheamountlostbymyhusband。Hereisaringofsomevalue;keepituntilthe1stofJanuary,whenIwillreturnthetwohundredsequinsforwhichIamreadytogiveyoumynoteofhand。\"
\"Iacceptthenoteofhand,madam,butIcannotconsenttodepriveyouofyourring。ImustalsotellyouthatM。F————mustgohimselftothebank,orsendsomeonethere,toredeemhisdebt。Withintenminutesyoushallhavetheamountyourequire。\"
Ileftherwithoutwaitingforananswer,andIreturnedwithinafewminuteswiththetwohundredducats,whichIhandedtoher,andputtinginmypockethernoteofhandwhichshehadjustwritten,I
bowedtotakemyleave,butsheaddressedtomethesepreciouswords:
\"Ibelieve,sir,thatifIhadknownthatyouweresowelldisposedtoobligeme,Icouldnothavemadeupmymindtobegthatservicefromyou。\"
\"Well,madam,forthefuturebequitecertainthatthereisnotamanintheworldcapableofrefusingyousuchaninsignificantservicewheneveryouwillcondescendtoaskforitinperson。\"
\"Whatyousayisverycomplimentary,butItrustnevertofindmyselfagainunderthenecessityofmakingsuchacruelexperiment。\"
IleftMadameF—————,thinkingoftheshrewdnessofheranswer。ShehadnottoldmethatIwasmistaken,asIhadexpectedshewould,forthatwouldhavecausedhersomehumiliation:sheknewthatIwaswithM。D————R—————whentheadjutanthadbroughtherletter,andshecouldnotdoubtthatIwasawareoftherefusalshehadmetwith。
Thefactofhernotmentioningitprovedtomethatshewasjealousofherowndignity;itaffordedmegreatgratification,andIthoughtherworthyofadoration。IsawclearlythatshecouldhavenoloveforM。D————R—————,andthatshewasnotlovedbyhim,andthediscoverymademeleapforjoy。FromthatmomentIfeltIwasinlovewithher,andIconceivedthehopethatshemightreturnmyardentaffection。
ThefirstthingIdid,whenIreturnedtomyroom,wastocrossoutwithinkeverywordofhernoteofhand,excepthername,insuchamannerthatitwasimpossibletoguessatthecontents,andputtingitinanenvelopecarefullysealed,Idepositeditinthehandsofapublicnotarywhostated,inthereceipthegavemeoftheenvelope,thathewoulddeliveritonlytoMadameF—————,wheneversheshouldrequestitsdelivery。
ThesameeveningM。F—————cametothebank,paidme,playedwithcashinhand,andwonsomefiftyducats。WhatcausedmethegreatestsurprisewasthatM。D————R—————continuedtobeverygracioustoMadameF————,andthatsheremainedexactlythesametowardshimassheusedtobebefore。Hedidnotevenenquirewhatshewantedwhenshehadsentforme。Butifshedidnotseemtochangehermannertowardsmymaster,itwasaverydifferentcasewithme,forwhenevershewasoppositetomeatdinner,sheoftenaddressedherselftome,andshethusgavememanyopportunitiesofshewingmyeducationandmywitinamusingstoriesorinremarks,inwhichItookcaretoblendinstructionwithwittyjests。AtthattimeF————hadthegreattalentofmakingotherslaughwhileIkeptaseriouscountenancemyself。IhadlearntthataccomplishmentfromM。deMalipiero,myfirstmasterintheartofgoodbreeding,whousedtosaytome,——
\"Ifyouwishyouraudiencetocry,youmustshedtearsyourself,butifyouwishtomakethemlaughyoumustcontrivetolookasseriousasajudge。\"
IneverythingIdid,ineverywordIuttered,inthepresenceofMadameF————,theonlyaimIhadwastopleaseher,butIdidnotwishhertosupposeso,andIneverlookedatherunlessshespoketome。Iwantedtoforcehercuriosity,tocompelhertosuspectnay,toguessmysecret,butwithoutgivingheranyadvantageoverme:itwasnecessaryformetoproceedbyslowdegrees。Inthemeantime,anduntilIshouldhaveagreaterhappiness,Iwasgladtoseethatmymoney,thatmagictalisman,andmygoodconduct,obtainedmeaconsiderationmuchgreaterthanIcouldhavehopedtoobtaineitherthroughmyposition,orfrommyage,orinconsequenceofanytalentImighthaveshewnintheprofessionIhadadopted。
TowardsthemiddleofNovember,thesoldierwhoactedasmyservantwasattackedwithinflammationofthechest;Igavenoticeofittothecaptainofhiscompany,andhewascarriedtothehospital。OnthefourthdayIwastoldthathewouldnotrecover,andthathehadreceivedthelastsacraments;intheeveningIhappenedtobeathiscaptain’swhenthepriestwhohadattendedhimcametoannouncehisdeath,andtodeliverasmallparcelwhichthedyingmanhadentrustedtohimtobegivenuptohiscaptainonlyafterhisdeath。
Theparcelcontainedabrasssealengravedwithducalarms,acertificateofbaptism,andasheetofpapercoveredwithwritinginFrench。CaptainCamporese,whoonlyspokeItalian,beggedmetotranslatethepaper,thecontentsofwhichwereasfollows:
\"Mywillisthatthispaper,whichIhavewrittenandsignedwithmyownhand,shallbedeliveredtomycaptainonlyafterIhavebreathedmylast:untilthen,myconfessorshallnotmakeanyuseofit,forI
entrustittohishandsonlyunderthesealofconfession。Ientreatmycaptaintohavemeburiedinavaultfromwhichmybodycanbeexhumedincasetheduke,myfather,shouldrequestitsexhumation。
Ientreathimlikewisetoforwardmycertificateofbaptism,thesealwiththearmorialbearingsofmyfamily,andalegalcertificateofmybirthtotheFrenchambassadorinVenice,whowillsendthewholetotheduke,myfather,myrightsofprimogeniturebelonging,aftermydemise,totheprince,mybrother。InfaithofwhichIhavesignedandsealedthesepresents:FrancoisVI。CharlesPhilippeLouisFoucaud,PrincedelaRochefoucault。\"
Thecertificateofbaptism,deliveredatSt。Sulpicegavethesamenames,andthetitleofthefatherwasFrancoisV。ThenameofthemotherwasGabrielleduPlessis。
AsIwasconcludingmytranslationIcouldnothelpburstingintoloudlaughter;butthefoolishcaptain,whothoughtmymirthoutofplace,hurriedouttorenderanaccountoftheaffairtotheproveditore—generale,andIwenttothecoffee—house,notdoubtingforonemomentthathisexcellencywouldlaughatthecaptain,andthatthepost—mortembuffoonerywouldgreatlyamusethewholeofCorfu。