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  Half—consciously,hethought:’There’ssomethinginthisdamnedclimatewhichmakesonegoroundinaring。Allthesame,ImusthaveastrainofMayflyblood。’

  InthismoodhereachedtheMeccaofhishopes。Itwasoneofthosequietmeetingsfavourabletosuchaswishtolookintohorses,ratherthanintothemouthsofbookmakers;andValclungtothepaddock。

  HistwentyyearsofColoniallife,divestinghimofthedandyisminwhichhehadbeenbred,hadlefthimtheessentialneatnessofthehorseman,andgivenhimaqueerandratherblightingeyeoverwhathecalled\"thesillyhaw—haw\"ofsomeEnglishmen,the\"flappingcockatoory\"ofsomeEnglish—women——HollyhadnoneofthatandHollywashismodel。Observant,quick,resourceful,Valwentstraighttotheheartofatransaction,ahorse,adrink;andhewasonhiswaytotheheartofaMayflyfilly,whenaslowvoicesaidathiselbow:

  \"Mr。ValDartie?How’sMrs。ValDartie?She’swell,Ihope。\"AndhesawbesidehimtheBelgianhehadmetathissisterImogen’s。

  \"ProsperProfond——Imetyouatlunch,\"saidthevoice。

  \"Howareyou?\"murmuredVal。

  \"I’mverywell,\"repliedMonsieurProfond,smilingwithacertaininimitableslowness。\"Agooddevil,\"Hollyhadcalledhim。Well!

  Helookedalittlelikeadevil,withhisdark,clipped,pointedbeard;asleepyonethough,andgood—humoured,withfineeyes,unexpectedlyintelligent。

  \"Here’sagentlemanwantstoknowyou——cousinofyours——Mr。GeorgeForsyde。\"

  Valsawalargeform,andafaceclean—shaven,bull—like,alittlelowering,withsardonichumourbubblingbehindafullgreyeye;heremembereditdimlyfromolddayswhenhewoulddinewithhisfatherattheIseeumClub。

  \"Iusedtogoracingwithyourfather,\"Georgewassaying:\"How’sthestud?Liketobuyoneofmyscrews?\"

  Valgrinned,tohidethesuddenfeelingthatthebottomhadfallenoutofbreeding。Theybelievedinnothingoverhere,noteveninhorses。GeorgeForsyte,ProsperProfond!Thedevilhimselfwasnotmoredisillusionedthanthosetwo。

  \"Didn’tknowyouwerearacingman,\"hesaidtoMonsieurProfond。

  \"I’mnot。Idon’tcareforit。I’mayachtin’man。Idon’tcareforyachtin’either,butIliketoseemyfriends。I’vegotsomelunch,Mr。ValDartie,justasmalllunch,ifyou’dliketo’avesome;notmuch——justasmallone——inmycar。\"

  \"Thanks,\"saidVal;\"verygoodofyou。I’llcomealonginaboutquarterofanhour。\"

  \"Overthere。Mr。Forsyde’scomin’,\"andMonsieurProfond\"poinded\"

  withayellow—glovedfinger;\"smallcar,withasmalllunch\";hemovedon,groomed,sleepy,andremote,GeorgeForsytefollowing,neat,huge,andwithhisjestingair。

  ValremainedgazingattheMayflyfilly。GeorgeForsyte,ofcourse,wasanoldchap,butthisProfondmightbeabouthisownage;Valfeltextremelyyoung,asiftheMayflyfillywereatoyatwhichthosetwohadlaughed。Theanimalhadlostreality。

  \"That’small’mare\"——heseemedtohearthevoiceofMonsieurProfond—

  —\"whatdoyouseeinher?——wemustalldie!\"

  AndGeorgeForsyte,cronyofhisfather,racingstill!TheMayflystrain——wasitanybetterthananyother?Hemightjustaswellhaveaflutterwithhismoneyinstead。

  \"No,bygum!\"hemutteredsuddenly,\"ifit’snogoodbreedinghorses,it’snogooddoinganything。WhatdidIcomefor?I’llbuyher。\"

  Hestoodbackandwatchedtheebbofthepaddockvisitorstowardthestand。Nattyoldchips,shrewdportlyfellows,Jews,trainerslookingasiftheyhadneverbeenguiltyofseeingahorseintheirlives;tall,flapping,languidwomen,orbrisk,loud—voicedwomen;

  youngmenwithanairasiftryingtotakeitseriously——twoorthreeofthemwithonlyonearm。

  ’Lifeoverhere’sagame!’thoughtVal。’Muffinbellrings,horsesrun,moneychangeshands;ringagain,runagain,moneychangesback。’

  But,alarmedathisownphilosophy,hewenttothepaddockgatetowatchtheMayflyfillycanterdown。Shemovedwell;andhemadehiswayovertothe\"small\"car。The\"small\"lunchwasthesortamandreamsofbutseldomgets;andwhenitwasconcludedMonsieurProfondwalkedbackwithhimtothepaddock。

  \"Yourwife’sanicewoman,\"washissurprisingremark。

  \"NicestwomanIknow,\"returnedValdryly。

  \"Yes,\"saidMonsieurProfond;\"shehasaniceface。Iadmirenicewomen。\"

  Vallookedathimsuspiciously,butsomethingkindlyanddirectintheheavydiabolismofhiscompaniondisarmedhimforthemoment。

  \"Anytimeyouliketocomeonmyyacht,I’llgiveherasmallcruise。\"

  \"Thanks,\"saidVal,inarmsagain,\"shehatesthesea。\"

  \"SodoI,\"saidMonsieurProfond。

  \"Thenwhydoyouyacht?\"

  TheBelgian’seyessmiled。\"Oh!Idon’tknow。I’vedoneeverything;

  it’sthelastthingI’mdoin’。\"

  \"Itmustbed—dexpensive。Ishouldwantmorereasonthanthat。\"

  MonsieurProsperProfondraisedhiseyebrows,andpuffedoutaheavylowerlip。

  \"I’maneasy—goin’man,\"hesaid。

  \"WereyouintheWar?\"askedVal。

  \"Ye—es。I’vedonethattoo。Iwasgassed;itwasasmallbitunpleasant。\"Hesmiledwithadeepandsleepyairofprosperity,asifhehadcaughtitfromhisname。

  Whetherhissaying\"small\"whenheoughttohavesaid\"little\"wasgenuinemistakeoraffectationValcouldnotdecide;thefellowwasevidentlycapableofanything。

  AmongtheringofbuyersroundtheMayflyfillywhohadwonherrace,MonsieurProfondsaid:

  \"Yougoin’tobid?\"

  Valnodded。WiththissleepySatanathiselbow,hefeltinneedoffaith。ThoughplacedabovetheultimateblowsofProvidencebytheforethoughtofagrand—fatherwhohadtiedhimupathousandayeartowhichwasaddedthethousandayeartiedupforHollybyhergrand—father,Valwasnotflushofcapitalthathecouldtouch,havingspentmostofwhathehadrealisedfromhisSouthAfricanfarmonhisestablishmentinSussex。Andverysoonhewasthinking:’Dashit!she’sgoingbeyondme!’Hislimit—sixhundred—wasexceeded;hedroppedoutofthebidding。TheMayflyfillypassedunderthehammeratsevenhundredandfiftyguineas。HewasturningawayvexedwhentheslowvoiceofMonsieurProfondsaidinhisear:

  \"Well,I’veboughtthatsmallfilly,butIdon’twanther;youtakeherandgivehertoyourwife。\"

  Vallookedatthefellowwithrenewedsuspicion,butthegoodhumourinhiseyeswassuchthathereallycouldnottakeoffence。

  \"ImadeasmalllotofmoneyintheWar,\"beganMonsieurProfondinanswertothatlook。\"I’adarmamentshares。Iliketogiveitaway。I’malwaysmakin’money。Iwantverysmalllotmyself。I

  likemyfriendsto’aveit。\"

  \"I’llbuyherofyouatthepriceyougave,\"saidValwithsuddenresolution。

  \"No,\"saidMonsieurProfond。\"Youtakeher。Idon’wanther。\"

  \"Hangit!onedoesn’t——\"

  \"Whynot?\"smiledMonsieurProfond。\"I’mafriendofyourfamily。\"

  \"Sevenhundredandfiftyguineasisnotaboxofcigars,\"saidValimpatiently。

  \"Allright;youkeepherformetillIwanther,anddowhatyoulikewithher。\"

  \"Solongasshe’syours,\"saidVal。\"Idon’tmindthat。\"

  \"That’sallright,\"murmuredMonsieurProfond,andmovedaway。

  Valwatched;hemightbe\"agooddevil,\"butthenagainhemightnot。

  HesawhimrejoinGeorgeForsyte,andthereaftersawhimnomore。

  Hespentthosenightsafterracingathismother’shouseinGreenStreet。

  WinifredDartieatsixty—twowasmarvellouslypreserved,consideringthethree—and—thirtyyearsduringwhichshehadputupwithMontagueDartie,tillalmosthappilyreleasedbyaFrenchstaircase。ItwastoheravehementsatisfactiontohaveherfavouritesonbackfromSouthAfricaafterallthistime,tofeelhimsolittlechanged,andtohavetakenafancytohiswife。Winifred,whointhelateseventies,beforehermarriage,hadbeeninthevanguardoffreedom,pleasure,andfashion,confessedheryouthoutclassedbythedonzellasoftheday。Theyseemed,forinstance,toregardmarriageasanincident,andWinifredsometimesregrettedthatshehadnotdonethesame;asecond,third,fourthincidentmighthavesecuredherapartneroflessdazzlinginebriety;though,afterall,hehadleftherVal,Imogen,Maud,Benedict(almostacolonelandunharmedbytheWar——noneofwhomhadbeendivorcedasyet。Thesteadinessofherchildrenoftenamazedonewhorememberedtheirfather;but,asshewasfondofbelieving,theywerereallyallForsytes,favouringherself,withtheexception,perhaps,ofImogen。Herbrother’s\"littlegirl\"FleurfranklypuzzledWinifred。Thechildwasasrestlessasanyofthesemodernyoungwomen0——\"She’sasmallflameinadraught,\"ProsperProfondhadsaidonedayafterdinner——butshedidnotflop,ortalkatthetopofhervoice。ThesteadyForsyteisminWinifred’sowncharacterinstinctivelyresentedthefeelingintheair,themoderngirl’shabitsandhermotto:\"All’smuchofamuchness!Spend,to—morrowweshallbepoor!\"ShefounditasavinggraceinFleurthat,havingsetherheartonathing,shehadnochangeofheartuntilshegotit——though——whathappenedafter,Fleurwas,ofcourse,tooyoungtohavemadeevident。Thechildwasa\"veryprettylittlething,\"too,andquiteacredittotakeabout,withhermother’sFrenchtasteandgiftforwearingclothes;

  everybodyturnedtolookatFleur——greatconsiderationtoWinifred,aloverofthestyleanddistinctionwhichhadsocruellydeceivedherinthecaseofMontagueDartie。

  IndiscussingherwithVal,atbreakfastonSaturdaymorning,Winifreddweltonthefamilyskeleton。

  \"Thatlittleaffairofyourfather—in—lawandyourAuntIrene,Val——

  it’soldasthehills,ofcourse,Fleurneedknownothingaboutit——

  makingafuss。YourUncleSoamesisveryparticularaboutthat。Soyou’llbecareful。\"

  \"Yes!Butit’sdashedawkward——Holly’syounghalf—brotheriscomingtolivewithuswhilehelearnsfarming。He’stherealready。\"

  \"Oh!\"saidWinifred。\"Thatisagaff!Whatishelike?\"

  \"Onlysawhimonce——atRobinHill,whenwewerehomein1909;hewasnakedandpaintedblueandyellowinstripes——ajollylittlechap。\"

  Winifredthoughtthat\"rathernice,\"andaddedcomfortably:\"Well,Holly’ssensible;she’llknowhowtodealwithit。Ishan’ttellyouruncle。It’llonlybotherhim。It’sagreatcomforttohaveyouback,mydearboy,nowthatI’mgettingon。\"

  \"Gettingon!Why!you’reasyoungasever。ThatchapProfond,Mother,isheallright?\"

  \"ProsperProfond!Oh!themostamusingmanIknow。\"

  Valgrunted,andrecountedthestoryoftheMayflyfilly。

  \"That’ssolikehim,\"murmuredWinifred。\"Hedoesallsortsofthings。\"

  \"Well,\"saidValshrewdly,\"ourfamilyhaven’tbeentooluckywiththatkindofcattle;they’retoolight—heartedforus。\"

  Itwastrue,andWinifred’sbluestudylastedafullminutebeforesheanswered:

  \"Oh!well!He’saforeigner,Val;onemustmakeallowances。\"

  \"Allright,I’llusehisfillyandmakeituptohim,somehow。\"

  Andsoonafterhegaveherhisblessing,receivedakiss,andleftherforhisbookmaker’s,theIseeumClub,andVictoriastation。

  VI

  JON

  Mrs。ValDartie,aftertwentyyearsofSouthAfrica,hadfallendeeplyinlove,fortunatelywithsomethingofherown,fortheobjectofherpassionwastheprospectinfrontofherwindows,thecoolclearlightonthegreenDowns。ItwasEnglandagain,atlast!

  Englandmorebeautifulthanshehaddreamed。Chancehad,infact,guidedtheValDartiestoaspotwheretheSouthDownshadrealcharmwhenthesunshone。Hollyhadenoughofherfather’seyetoapprehendtherarequalityoftheiroutlinesandchalkyradiance;togouptherebytheravine—likelaneandwanderalongtowardChanctonburyorAmberley,wasstilladelightwhichshehardlyattemptedtosharewithVal,whoseadmirationofNaturewasconfusedbyaForsyte’sinstinctforgettingsomethingoutofit,suchastheconditionoftheturfforhishorses’exercise。

  DrivingtheFordhomewithacertainhumouring,smoothness,shepromisedherselfthatthefirstuseshewouldmakeofJonwouldbetotakehimupthere,andshowhim\"theview\"underthisMay—daysky。

  Shewaslookingforwardtoheryounghalf—brotherwithamotherlinessnotexhaustedbyVal。Athree—dayvisittoRobinHill,soonaftertheirarrivalhome,hadyieldednosightofhim——hewasstillatschool;sothatherrecollection,likeVal’s,wasofalittlesunny—

  hairedboy,stripedblueandyellow,downbythepond。

  ThosethreedaysatRobinHillhadbeenexciting,sad,embarrassing。

  Memoriesofherdeadbrother,memoriesofVal’scourtship;theageingofherfather,notseenfortwentyyears,somethingfunerealinhisironicgentlenesswhichdidnotescapeonewhohadmuchsubtleinstinct;aboveall,thepresenceofherstepmother,whomshecouldstillvaguelyrememberasthe\"ladyingrey\"ofdayswhenshewaslittleandgrandfatheraliveandMademoiselleBeaucesocrossbecausethatintrudergavehermusiclessons——alltheseconfusedandtantalisedaspiritwhichhadlongedtofindRobinHilluntroubled。

  ButHollywasadeptatkeepingthingstoherself,andallhadseemedtogoquitewell。

  Herfatherhadkissedherwhenshelefthim,withlipswhichshewassurehadtrembled。

  \"Well,mydear,\"hesaid,\"theWarhasn’tchangedRobinHill,hasit?

  IfonlyyoucouldhavebroughtJollybackwithyou!Isay,canyoustandthisspiritualisticracket?Whentheoak—treedies,itdies,I’mafraid。\"

  >Fromthewarmthofherembraceheprobablydivinedthathehadletthecatoutofthebag,forherodeoffatonceonirony。

  \"Spiritualism——queerword,whenthemoretheymanifestthemoretheyprovethatthey’vegotholdofmatter。\"

  \"How?\"saidHolly。

  \"Why!Lookattheirphotographsofauricpresences。Youmusthavesomethingmaterialforlightandshadetofallonbeforeyoucantakeaphotograph。No,it’llendinourcallingallmatterspirit,orallspiritmatter——Idon’tknowwhich。\"

  \"Butdon’tyoubelieveinsurvival,Dad?\"

  Jolyonhadlookedather,andthesadwhimsicalityofhisfaceimpressedherdeeply。

  \"Well,mydear,Ishouldliketogetsomethingoutofdeath。I’vebeenlookingintoitabit。ButforthelifeofmeIcan’tfindanythingthattelepathy,sub—consciousness,andemanationfromthestorehouseofthisworldcan’taccountforjustaswell。WishI

  could!Wishesfatherthoughtbuttheydon’tbreedevidence。\"

  Hollyhadpressedherlipsagaintohisforeheadwiththefeelingthatitconfirmedhistheorythatallmatterwasbecomingspirit——hisbrowfelt,somehow,soinsubstantial。

  Butthemostpoignantmemoryofthatlittlevisithadbeenwatching,unobserved,herstepmotherreadingtoherselfaletterfromJon。Itwas——shedecided——theprettiestsightshehadeverseen。Irene,lostasitwereintheletterofherboy,stoodatawindowwherethelightfellonherfaceandherfinegreyhair;herlipsweremoving,smiling,herdarkeyeslaughing,dancing,andthehandwhichdidnotholdtheletterwaspressedagainstherbreast。Hollywithdrewasfromavisionofperfectlove,convincedthatJonmustbenice。

  Whenshesawhimcomingoutofthestationwithakit—bagineitherhand,shewasconfirmedinherpredisposition。HewasalittlelikeJolly,thatlong—lostidolofherchildhood,buteager—lookingandlessformal,withdeepereyesandbrighter—colouredhair,forheworenohat;altogetheraveryinteresting\"little\"brother!

  Histentativepolitenesscharmedonewhowasaccustomedtoassuranceintheyouthfulmanner;hewasdisturbedbecauseshewastodrivehimhome,insteadofhisdrivingher。Shouldn’thehaveashot?Theyhadn’tacaratRobinHillsincetheWar,ofcourse,andhehadonlydrivenonce,andlandedupabank,sosheoughtn’ttomindhistrying。Hislaugh,softandinfectious,wasveryattractive,thoughthatword,shehadheard,wasnowquiteold—fashioned。Whentheyreachedthehousehepulledoutacrumpledletterwhichshereadwhilehewaswashing——aquiteshortletter,whichmusthavecostherfathermanyapangtowrite。

  \"MYDEAR,\"YouandValwillnotforget,Itrust,thatJonknowsnothingoffamilyhistory。HismotherandIthinkheistooyoungatpresent。

  Theboyisverydear,andtheappleofhereye。Verbumsapientibus。

  yourlovingfather,\"J。F。\"

  Thatwasall;butitrenewedinHollyanuneasyregretthatFleurwascoming。

  AfterteashefulfilledthatpromisetoherselfandtookJonupthehill。Theyhadalongtalk,sittingaboveanoldchalk—pitgrownoverwithbramblesandgoosepenny。Milkwortandliverwortstarredthegreenslope,thelarkssang,andthrushesinthebrake,andnowandthenagullflightinginlandwouldwheelverywhiteagainstthepalingsky,wherethevaguemoonwascomingup。Deliciousfragrancecametothem,asiflittleinvisiblecreatureswererunningandtreadingscentoutofthebladesofgrass。

  Jon,whohadfallensilent,saidrathersuddenly:

  \"Isay,thisiswonderful!There’snofatonitatall。Gull’sflightandsheep—bells\"

  \"’Gull’sflightandsheep—bells’!You’reapoet,mydear!\"

  Jonsighed。

  \"Oh,Golly!Nogo!\"

  \"Try!Iusedtoatyourage。\"

  \"Didyou?Mothersays’try’too;butI’msorotten。Haveyouanyofyoursformetosee?\"

  \"Mydear,\"Hollymurmured,\"I’vebeenmarriednineteenyears。IonlywroteverseswhenIwantedtobe。\"

  \"Oh!\"saidJon,andturnedoveronhisface:theonecheekshecouldseewasacharmingcolour。WasJon\"touchedinthewind,\"then,asValwouldhavecalledit?Already?But,ifso,allthebetter,hewouldtakenonoticeofyoungFleur。Besides,onMondayhewouldbeginhisfarming。Andshesmiled。WasitBurnswhofollowedtheplough,oronlyPiersPlowman?Nearlyeveryyoungmanandmostyoungwomenseemedtobepoetsnow,judgingfromthenumberoftheirbooksshehadreadoutinSouthAfrica,importingthemfromHatchusandBumphards;andquitegood——oh!quite;muchbetterthanshehadbeenherself!Butthenpoetryhadonlyreallycomeinsinceherday——withmotor—cars。Anotherlongtalkafterdinneroverawoodfireinthelowhall,andthereseemedlittlelefttoknowaboutJonexceptanythingofrealimportance。Hollypartedfromhimathisbedroomdoor,havingseentwiceoverthathehadeverything,withtheconvictionthatshewouldlovehim,andValwouldlikehim。Hewaseager,butdidnotgush;hewasasplendidlistener,sympathetic,reticentabouthimself。Heevidentlylovedtheirfather,andadoredhismother。Helikedriding,rowing,andfencingbetterthangames。

  Hesavedmothsfromcandles,andcouldn’tbearspiders,butputthemoutofdoorsinscrewsofpapersoonerthankillthem。Inaword,hewasamiable。Shewenttosleep,thinkingthathewouldsufferhorriblyifanybodyhurthim;butwhowouldhurthim?

  Jon,ontheotherhand,satawakeathiswindowwithabitofpaperandapencil,writinghisfirst\"realpoem\"bythelightofacandlebecausetherewasnotenoughmoontoseeby,onlyenoughtomakethenightseemflutteryandasifengravedonsilver。JustthenightforFleurtowalk,andturnhereyes,andleadon—overthehillsandfaraway。AndJon,deeplyfurrowedinhisingenuousbrow,mademarksonthepaperandrubbedthemoutandwrotetheminagain,anddidallthatwasnecessaryforthecompletionofaworkofart;andhehadafeelingsuchasthewindsofSpringmusthave,tryingtheirfirstsongsamongthecomingblossom。Jonwasoneofthoseboys(notmany)

  inwhomahome—trainedloveofbeautyhadsurvivedschoollife。Hehadhadtokeepittohimself,ofcourse,sothatnoteventhedrawing—masterknewofit;butitwasthere,fastidiousandclearwithinhim。Andhispoemseemedtohimaslameandstiltedasthenightwaswinged。Buthekeptit,allthesame。Itwasa\"beast,\"

  butbetterthannothingasanexpressionoftheinexpressible。Andhethoughtwithasortofdiscomfiture:’Ishan’tbeabletoshowittoMother。’Hesleptterriblywell,whenhedidsleep,overwhelmedbynovelty。

  VII

  FLEUR

  Toavoidtheawkwardnessofquestionswhichcouldnotbeanswered,allthathadbeentoldJonwas:

  \"There’sagirlcomingdownwithValfortheweek—end。\"

  Forthesamereason,allthathadbeentoldFleurwas:\"We’vegotayoungsterstayingwithus。\"

  Thetwoyearlings,asValcalledtheminhisthoughts,metthereforeinamannerwhichforunpreparednessleftnothingtobedesired。

  TheywerethusintroducedbyHolly:

  \"ThisisJon,mylittlebrother;Fleur’sacousinofours,Jon。\"

  Jon,whowascominginthroughaFrenchwindowoutofstrongsunlight,wassoconfoundedbytheprovidentialnatureofthismiracle,thathehadtimetohearFleursaycalmly:\"Oh,howdoyoudo?\"asifhehadneverseenher,andtounderstanddimlyfromthequickestimaginablelittlemovementofherheadthatheneverhadseenher。Hebowedthereforeoverherhandinanintoxicatedmanner,andbecamemoresilentthanthegrave。Heknewbetterthantospeak。

  Onceinhisearlylife,surprisedreadingbyanightlight,hehadsaidfatuously\"Iwasjustturningovertheleaves,Mum,\"andhismotherhadreplied:\"Jon,nevertellstories,becauseofyourfacenobodywilleverbelievethem。\"

  Thesayinghadpermanentlyunderminedtheconfidencenecessarytothesuccessofspokenuntruth。HelistenedthereforetoFleur’sswiftandraptallusionstothejollinessofeverything,pliedherwithsconesandjam,andgotawayassoonasmightbe。Theysaythatindeliriumtremensyouseeafixedobject,preferablydark,whichsuddenlychangesshapeandposition。Jonsawthefixedobject;ithaddarkeyesandpassablydarkhair,andchangeditsposition,butneveritsshape。Theknowledgethatbetweenhimandthatobjecttherewasalreadyasecretunderstanding(howeverimpossibletounderstand)thrilledhimsothathewaitedfeverishly,andbegantocopyouthispoem——whichofcoursehewouldneverdareto——showher——

  tillthesoundofhorses’hoofsrousedhim,and,leaningfromhiswindow,hesawherridingforthwithVal。Itwasclearthatshewastednotime,butthesightfilledhimwithgrief。Hewastedhis。

  Ifhehadnotbolted,inhisfearfulecstasy,hemighthavebeenaskedtogotoo。Andfromhiswindowhesatandwatchedthemdisappear,appearagaininthechineoftheroad,vanish,andemergeoncemoreforaminuteclearontheoutlineoftheDown。’Sillybrute!’hethought;’Ialwaysmissmychances。’

  Whycouldn’thebeself—confidentandready?And,leaninghischinonhishands,heimaginedtheridehemighthavehadwithher。A

  week—endwasbutaweek—end,andhehadmissedthreehoursofit。

  Didheknowanyoneexcepthimselfwhowouldhavebeensuchaflat?

  Hedidnot。

  Hedressedfordinnerearly,andwasfirstdown。Hewouldmissnomore。ButhemissedFleur,whocamedownlast。Hesatoppositeheratdinner,anditwasterrible——impossibletosayanythingforfearofsayingthewrongthing,impossibletokeephiseyesfixedonherintheonlynaturalway;insum,impossibletotreatnormallyonewithwhominfancyhehadalreadybeenoverthehillsandfaraway;

  conscious,too,allthetime,thathemustseemtoher,toallofthem,adumbgawk。Yes,itwasterrible!Andshewastalkingsowell——swoopingwithswiftwingthiswayandthat。Wonderfulhowshehadlearnedanartwhichhefoundsodisgustinglydifficult。Shemustthinkhimhopelessindeed!

  Hissister’seyes,fixedonhimwithacertainastonishment,obligedhimatlasttolookatFleur;butinstantlyhereyes,verywideandeager,seemingtosay,\"Oh!forgoodness’sake!\"obligedhimtolookatVal,whereagrinobligedhimtolookathiscutlet——that,atleast,hadnoeyes,andnogrin,andheateithastily。

  \"Jonisgoingtobeafarmer,\"heheardHollysay;\"afarmerandapoet。\"

  Heglancedupreproachfully,caughtthecomicliftofhereyebrowjustliketheirfather’s,laughed,andfeltbetter。

  ValrecountedtheincidentofMonsieurProsperProfond;nothingcouldhavebeenmorefavourable,for,inrelatingit,heregardedHolly,whointurnregardedhim,whileFleurseemedtoberegardingwithaslightfrownsomethoughtofherown,andJonwasreallyfreetolookatheratlast。Shehadonawhitefrock,verysimpleandwellmade;

  herarmswerebare,andherhairhadawhiteroseinit。Injustthatswiftmomentoffreevision,aftersuchintensediscomfort,Jonsawhersublimated,asoneseesinthedarkaslenderwhitefruit—

  tree;caughtherlikeaverseofpoetryflashedbeforetheeyesofthemind,oratunewhichfloatsoutinthedistanceanddies。

  Hewonderedgiddilyhowoldshewas——sheseemedsomuchmoreself—

  possessedandexperiencedthanhimself。Whymustn’thesaytheyhadmet?Herememberedsuddenlyhismother’sface;puzzled,hurt—

  looking,whensheanswered:\"Yes,they’rerelations,butwedon’tknowthem。\"Impossiblethathismother,wholovedbeauty,shouldnotadmireFleurifshedidknowher。

  AlonewithValafterdinner,hesippedportdeferentiallyandansweredtheadvancesofthisnew—foundbrother—in—law。Astoriding(alwaysthefirstconsiderationwithVal)hecouldhavetheyoungchestnut,saddleandunsaddleithimself,andgenerallylookafteritwhenhebroughtitin。Jonsaidhewasaccustomedtoallthatathome,andsawthathehadgoneuponeinhishost’sestimation。

  \"Fleur,\"saidVal,\"can’tridemuchyet,butshe’skeen。Ofcourse,herfatherdoesn’tknowahorsefromacart—wheel。DoesyourDadride?\"

  \"Heusedto;butnowhe’s——youknow,he’s——\"Hestopped,sohatingtheword\"old。\"Hisfatherwasold,andyetnotold;no——never!

  \"Quite,\"mutteredVal。\"IusedtoknowyourbrotherupatOxford,agesago,theonewhodiedintheBoerWar。WehadafightinNewCollegeGardens。Thatwasaqueerbusiness,\"headded,musing;\"agooddealcameoutofit。\"

  Jon’seyesopenedwide;allwaspushinghimtowardhistoricalresearch,whenhissister’svoicesaidgentlyfromthedoorway:

  \"Comealong,youtwo,\"andherose,hisheartpushinghimtowardsomethingfarmoremodern。

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