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  Icamehereonewinter’sdaywhenthemiddaysunshonehotonthebricksoftheRomanroad。Iwasweary,andthewayseemedsteep。Iwalkedintothechapeltothebrokenwindow,andlookedoutacrossthebay。Faroff,acrosstheblue,bluewater,weretownsandvillages,hangingwhiteandreddots,uponthemountain—sides,andthebluemountainsroseupintothesky,andnowstoodoutfromitandnowmeltedbackagain。

  Themountainsseemedcallingtome,butIknewtherewouldneverbeabridgebuiltfromthemtome;never,never,never!Ishadedmyeyeswithmyhandandturnedaway。Icouldnotbeartolookatthem。

  IwalkedthroughtheruinedChapel,andlookedattheChristinredcarryinghiscross,andtheBlessedrubbed—outBambino,andtheRomansoldiers,andthefoldedhands,andthereed;andIwentandsatdownintheopenporchuponastone。Atmyfeetwasthesmallbay,withitswhiterowofhousesburiedamongtheolivetrees;thewaterbrokeinalong,thin,whitelineoffoamalongtheshore;andIleanedmyelbowsonmyknees。Iwastired,verytired;tiredwithatirednessthatseemedolderthantheheatofthedayandtheshiningofthesunonthebricksoftheRomanroad;andIlaymyheaduponmyknees;Iheardthebreakingofthewaterontherocksthreehundredfeetbelow,andtherustlingofthewindamongtheolivetreesandtheruinedarches,andthenIfellasleepthere。

  Ihadadream。

  AmancrieduptoGod,andGodsentdownanangeltohelphim;andtheangelcamebackandsaid,\"Icannothelpthatman。\"

  Godsaid,\"Howisitwithhim?\"

  Andtheangelsaid,\"Hecriesoutcontinuallythatonehasinjuredhim;andhewouldforgivehimandhecannot。\"

  Godsaid,\"Whathaveyoudoneforhim?\"

  Theangelsaid,\"All——。Itookhimbythehand,andIsaid,’See,whenothermenspeakillofthatmandoyouspeakwellofhim;secretly,inwaysheshallnotknow,servehim;ifyouhaveanythingyouvalueshareitwithhim,so,servinghim,youwillatlastcometofeelpossessioninhim,andyouwillforgive。’Andhesaid,’Iwilldoit。’Afterwards,asIpassedbyinthedarkofnight,Iheardonecryingout,’Ihavedoneall。Ithelpsnothing!Myspeakingwellofhimhelpsmenothing!IfIsharemyheart’sbloodwithhim,istheburningwithinmeless?Icannotforgive;I

  cannotforgive!Oh,God,Icannotforgive!’

  \"Isaidtohim,’Seehere,lookbackonallyourpast。Seefromyourchildhoodallsmallness,allindirectnessthathasbeenyours;lookwellatit,andinitslightdoyounotseeeverymanyourbrother?Areyousosinlessyouhaverighttohate?’

  \"Helooked,andsaid,’Yes,youareright;Itoohavefailed,andIforgivemyfellow。Go,Iamsatisfied;Ihaveforgiven;’andhelaidhimdownpeacefullyandfoldedhishandsonhisbreast,andIthoughtitwaswellwithhim。ButscarcelyhadmywingsrustledandIturnedtocomeuphere,whenIheardonecryingoutonearthagain,’Icannotforgive!Icannotforgive!Oh,God,God,Icannotforgive!Itisbettertodiethantohate!Icannotforgive!Icannotforgive!’AndIwentandstoodoutsidehisdoorinthedark,andIheardhimcry,’Ihavenotsinnedso,notso!

  IfIhavetornmyfellows’flesheversolittle,Ihavekneeleddownandkissedthewoundwithmymouthtillitwashealed。Ihavenotwilledthatanysoulshallbelostthroughhateofme。IftheyhavebutfanciedthatI

  wrongedthemIhavelaindownonthegroundbeforethemthattheymighttreadonme,andso,seeingmyhumiliation,forgiveandnotbelostthroughhatingme;theyhavenotcaredthatmysoulshouldbelost;theyhavenotwilledtosaveme;theyhavenottriedthatIshouldforgivethem!’

  \"Isaidtohim,’Seehere,bethoucontent;donotforgive:forgetthissoulanditsinjury;goonyourway。Inthenextworldperhaps——’

  \"Hecried,’Gofromme,youunderstandnothing!Whatisthenextworldtome!Iamlostnow,today。Icannotseethesunlightshine,thedustisinmythroat,thesandisinmyeyes!Gofromme,youknownothing!Oh,onceagainbeforeIdietoseethattheworldisbeautiful!Oh,God,God,I

  cannotliveandnotlove。Icannotliveandhate。Oh,God,God,God!’SoIlefthimcryingoutandcamebackhere。\"

  Godsaid,\"Thisman’ssoulmustbesaved。\"

  Andtheangelsaid\"How?\"

  Godsaid,\"Godownyou,andsaveit。\"

  Theangelsaid,\"WhatmoreshallIdo?\"

  ThenGodbentdownandwhisperedintheangel’sear,andtheangelspreadoutitswingsandwentdowntoearth。

  AndpartlyIwoke,sittingthereuponthebrokenstonewithmyheadonmyknee;butIwastoowearytorise。Iheardthewindroamthroughtheolivetreesandamongtheruinedarches,andthenIsleptagain。

  Theangelwentdownandfoundthemanwiththebitterheartandtookhimbythehand,andledhimtoacertainspot。

  Nowthemanwistnotwhereitwastheangelwouldtakehimnorwhathewouldshowhimthere。Andwhentheycametheangelshadedtheman’seyeswithhiswing,andwhenhemoveditthemansawsomewhatontheearthbeforethem。ForGodhadgivenittothatangeltounclotheahumansoul;

  totakefromitallthoseoutwardattributesofform,andcolour,andage,andsex,wherebyonemanisknownfromamonghisfellowsandismarkedofffromtherest,andthesoullaybeforethem,bare,asamanturninghiseyeinwardsbeholdshimself。

  Theysawitspast,itschildhood,thetinylifewiththedewuponit;theysawitsyouthwhenthedewwasmelting,andthecreatureraiseditsLilliputianmouthtodrinkfromacuptoolargeforit,andtheysawhowthewaterspilt;theysawitshopesthatwereneverrealized;theysawitshoursofintellectualblindness,mencallsin;theysawitshoursofall—

  radiatinginsight,whichmencallrighteousness;theysawitshourofstrength,whenitleapedtoitsfeetcrying,\"Iamomnipotent;\"itshourofweakness,whenitfelltotheearthandgraspeddustonly;theysawwhatitmighthavebeen,butneverwouldbe。

  Themanbentforward。

  Andtheangelsaid,\"Whatisit?\"

  Heanswered,\"ItisI!itismyself!\"Andhewentforwardasifhewouldhavelainhisheartagainstit;buttheangelheldhimbackandcoveredhiseyes。

  NowGodhadgivenpowertotheangelfurthertounclothethatsoul,totakefromitallthoseoutwardattributesoftimeandplaceandcircumstancewherebytheindividuallifeismarkedofffromthelifeofthewhole。

  Againtheangeluncoveredtheman’seyes,andhelooked。Hesawbeforehimthatwhichinitstinydropreflectsthewholeuniverse;hesawthatwhichmarkswithinitselfthestepofthefurtheststar,andtellshowthecrystalgrowsundergroundwherenoeyehasseenit;thatwhichiswherethegermintheeggstirs;whichmovestheoutstretchedfingersofthelittlenewbornbabe,andkeepstheleavesofthetreespointingupward;

  whichmoveswherethejelly—fishsailaloneonthesunnyseas,andiswherethelichensformonthemountains’rocks。

  Andthemanlooked。

  Andtheangeltouchedhim。

  Butthemanbowedhisheadandshuddered。Hewhispered——\"ItisGod!\"

  Andtheangelre—coveredtheman’seyes。Andwhenheuncoveredthemtherewasonewalkingfromthemalittlewayoff;——fortheangelhadre—clothedthesoulinitsoutwardformandvesture——andthemanknewwhoitwas。

  Andtheangelsaid,\"Doyouknowhim?\"

  Andthemansaid,\"Iknowhim,\"andhelookedafterthefigure。

  Andtheangelsaid,\"Haveyouforgivenhim?\"

  Butthemansaid,\"Howbeautifulmybrotheris!\"

  Andtheangellookedintotheman’seyes,andheshadedhisownfacewithhiswingfromthelight。HelaughedsoftlyandwentuptoGod。

  Butthemenweretogetheronearth。

  Iawoke。

  Theblue,blueskywasovermyhead,andthewaveswerebreakingbelowontheshore。Iwalkedthroughthelittlechapel,andIsawtheMadonnainblueandred,andtheChristcarryinghiscross,andtheRomansoldierswiththerod,andtheBlessedBambinowithitsbrokenface;andthenI

  walkeddowntheslopingrocktothebrickpathway。Theolivetreesstooduponeithersideoftheroad,theirblackberriesandpale—greenleavesstoodoutagainstthesky;andthelittleice—plantshungfromthecrevicesinthestonewall。ItseemedtomeasifitmusthaverainedwhileIwasasleep。IthoughtIhadneverseentheheavensandtheearthlooksobeautifulbefore。Iwalkeddowntheroad。Theold,old,oldtirednesswasgone。

  Presentlytherecameapeasantboydownthepathleadinghisass;shehadtwolargepanniersfastenedtohersides;andtheywentdowntheroadbeforeme。

  Ihadneverseenhimbefore;butIshouldhavelikedtowalkbyhimandtohaveheldhishand——only,hewouldnothaveknownwhy。

  Alassio,Italy。

  VIII。LIFE’SGIFTS。

  Isawawomansleeping。InhersleepshedreamtLifestoodbeforeher,andheldineachhandagift——intheoneLove,intheotherFreedom。Andshesaidtothewoman,\"Choose!\"

  Andthewomanwaitedlong:andshesaid,\"Freedom!\"

  AndLifesaid,\"Thouhastwellchosen。Ifthouhadstsaid,’Love,’Iwouldhavegiventheethatthoudidstaskfor;andIwouldhavegonefromthee,andreturnedtotheenomore。Now,thedaywillcomewhenIshallreturn。

  InthatdayIshallbearbothgiftsinonehand。\"

  Iheardthewomanlaughinhersleep。

  London。

  IX。THEARTIST’SSECRET。

  Therewasanartistonce,andhepaintedapicture。Otherartistshadcoloursricherandrarer,andpaintedmorenotablepictures。Hepaintedhiswithonecolour,therewasawonderfulredglowonit;andthepeoplewentupanddown,saying,\"Welikethepicture,weliketheglow。\"

  Theotherartistscameandsaid,\"Wheredoeshegethiscolourfrom?\"Theyaskedhim;andhesmiledandsaid,\"Icannottellyou\";andworkedonwithhisheadbentlow。

  AndonewenttothefarEastandboughtcostlypigments,andmadeararecolourandpainted,butafteratimethepicturefaded。Anotherreadintheoldbooks,andmadeacolourrichandrare,butwhenhehadputitonthepictureitwasdead。

  Buttheartistpaintedon。Alwaystheworkgotredderandredder,andtheartistgrewwhiterandwhiter。Atlastonedaytheyfoundhimdeadbeforehispicture,andtheytookhimuptoburyhim。Theothermenlookedaboutinallthepotsandcrucibles,buttheyfoundnothingtheyhadnot。

  Andwhentheyundressedhimtoputhisgrave—clothesonhim,theyfoundabovehisleftbreastthemarkofawound——itwasanold,oldwound,thatmusthavebeenthereallhislife,fortheedgeswereoldandhardened;butDeath,whosealsallthings,haddrawntheedgestogether,andcloseditup。

  Andtheyburiedhim。Andstillthepeoplewentaboutsaying,\"Wheredidhefindhiscolourfrom?\"

  Anditcametopassthatafterawhiletheartistwasforgotten——buttheworklived。

  St。Leonards—on—Sea。

  X。\"ITHOUGHTISTOOD。\"

  IthoughtIstoodinHeavenbeforeGod’sthrone,andGodaskedmewhatI

  hadcomefor。IsaidIhadcometoarraignmybrother,Man。

  Godsaid,\"Whathashedone?\"

  Isaid,\"Hehastakenmysister,Woman,andhasstrickenher,andwoundedher,andthrustheroutintothestreets;sheliesthereprostrate。Hishandsareredwithblood。Iamheretoarraignhim;thatthekingdombetakenfromhim,becauseheisnotworthy,andgivenuntome。Myhandsarepure。\"

  Ishowedthem。

  Godsaid,\"Thyhandsarepure。——Liftupthyrobe。\"

  Iraisedit;myfeetwerered,blood—red,asifIhadtroddeninwine。

  Godsaid,\"Howisthis?\"

  Isaid,\"DearLord,thestreetsoneartharefullofmire。IfIshouldwalkstraightoninthemmyouterrobemightbebespotted,youseehowwhiteitis!ThereforeIpickmyway。\"

  Godsaid,\"Onwhat?\"

  Iwassilent,andIletmyrobefall。Iwrappedmymantleaboutmyhead。

  Iwentoutsoftly。Iwasafraidthattheangelswouldseeme。

  II。

  OncemoreIstoodatthegateofHeaven,Iandanother。Weheldfastbyoneanother;wewereverytired。Welookedupatthegreatgates;theangelsopenedthem,andwewentin。Themudwasonourgarments。Wewalkedacrossthemarblefloor,anduptothegreatthrone。Thentheangelsdividedus。Her,theysetuponthetopstep,butme,uponthebottom;for,theysaid,\"Lasttimethiswomancameheresheleftredfoot—

  marksonthefloor;wehadtowashthemoutwithourtears。Lethernotgoup。\"

  Thenshe,withwhomIcame,lookedback,andstretchedoutherhandtome;

  andIwentandstoodbesideher。Andtheangels,they,theshiningoneswhoneversinnedandneversuffered,walkedbyustoandfroandupanddown;Ithinkweshouldhavefeltalittlelonelythereifithadnotbeenforoneanother,theangelsweresobright。

  GodaskedmewhatIhadcomefor;andIdrewmysisterforwardalittlethathemightseeher。

  Godsaid,\"Howisityouareheretogethertoday?\"

  Isaid,\"Shewasuponthegroundinthestreet,andtheypassedoverher;I

  laydownbyher,andsheputherarmsaroundmyneck,andsoIliftedher,andwetworosetogether。\"

  Godsaid,\"Whomareyounowcometoaccusebeforeme?\"

  Isaid,\"Wearecometoaccusenoman。\"

  AndGodbent,andsaid,\"Mychildren——whatisitthatyeseek?\"

  AndshebesidemedrewmyhandthatIshouldspeakforboth。

  Isaid,\"WehavecometoaskthatthoushouldstspeaktoMan,ourbrother,andgiveusamessageforhimthathemightunderstand,andthathemight——\"

  Godsaid,\"Go,takethemessagedowntohim!\"

  Isaid,\"Butwhatisthemessage?\"

  Godsaid,\"Uponyourheartsitiswritten;takeitdowntohim。\"

  Andweturnedtogo;theangelswentwithustothedoor。Theylookedatus。

  Andonesaid——\"Ai!buttheirdressesarebeautiful!\"

  Andtheothersaid,\"Ithoughtitwasmirewhentheycamein,butsee,itisallgolden!\"

  Butanothersaid,\"Hush,itisthelightfromtheirfaces!\"

  Andwewentdowntohim。

  Alassio,Italy。

  XI。THESUNLIGHTLAYACROSSMYBED。

  InthedarkonenightIlayuponmybed。Iheardthepoliceman’sfeetbeatonthepavement;Iheardthewheelsofcarriagesrollhomefromhousesofentertainment;Iheardawoman’slaughbelowmywindow——andthenIfellasleep。AndinthedarkIdreamtadream。IdreamtGodtookmysoultoHell。

  Hellwasafairplace;thewaterofthelakewasblue。

  IsaidtoGod,\"Ilikethisplace。\"

  Godsaid,\"Ay,dostthou!\"

  Birdssang,turfcametothewater—edge,andtreesgrewfromit。AwayoffamongthetreesIsawbeautifulwomenwalking。Theirclotheswereofmanydelicatecoloursandclungtothem,andtheyweretallandgracefulandhadyellowhair。Theirrobestrailedoverthegrass。Theyglidedinandoutamongthetrees,andovertheirheadshungyellowfruitlikelargepearsofmeltedgold。

  Isaid,\"Itisveryfair;Iwouldgoupandtastethe——\"

  Godsaid,\"Wait。\"

  AndafterawhileInoticedaveryfairwomanpass:shelookedthiswayandthat,anddrewdownabranch,anditseemedshekissedthefruituponitsoftly,andwentonherway,andherdressmadenorustleasshepassedoverthegrass。AndwhenIsawhernomore,fromamongthestemscameanotherwomanfairasshehadbeen,inadelicatetintedrobe;shelookedthiswayandthat。Whenshesawnoonethereshedrewdownthefruit,andwhenshehadlookedoverittofindaplace,sheputhermouthtoitsoftly,andwentaway。AndIsawotherandotherwomencome,makingnonoise,andtheyglidedawayalsooverthegrass。

  AndIsaidtoGod,\"Whataretheydoing?\"

  Godsaid,\"Theyarepoisoning。\"

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