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  humour。

  \"Ah,then,yousawthatwonderfullady?\"

  \"Wonderfulshewasindeed。Isawherafterwards,too,sittingontheterraceinthestarlight。Iimagineshewasnotalone。\"

  \"No,indeed,Iwaswithher——fornearlyanhour。ThenIwalkedhomewithher。\"

  \"Ah!Anddidyougoin?\"

  \"No,shesaiditwastoolatetoaskme;thoughsheremarkedthatinageneralwayshedidnotstanduponceremony。\"

  \"Shedidherselfinjustice。Whenitcametolosingyourmoneyforyou,shemadeyouinsist。\"

  \"Ah,younoticedthattoo?\"criedPickering,stillquiteunconfused。

  \"Ifeltasifthewholetablewerestaringatme;buthermannerwassograciousandreassuringthatIsupposedshewasdoingnothingunusual。Sheconfessed,however,afterwards,thatsheisveryeccentric。Theworldbegantocallherso,shesaid,beforesheeverdreamedofit,andatlastfindingthatshehadthereputation,inspiteofherself,sheresolvedtoenjoyitsprivileges。Now,shedoeswhatshechooses。\"

  \"Inotherwords,sheisaladywithnoreputationtolose!\"

  Pickeringseemedpuzzled;hesmiledalittle。\"Isnotthatwhatyousayofbadwomen?\"

  \"Ofsome——ofthosewhoarefoundout。\"

  \"Well,\"hesaid,stillsmiling,\"IhavenotyetfoundoutMadameBlumenthal。\"

  \"Ifthat’shername,Isupposeshe’sGerman。\"

  \"Yes;butshespeaksEnglishsowellthatyouwouldn’tknowit。Sheisveryclever。Herhusbandisdead。\"

  Ilaughedinvoluntarilyattheconjunctionofthesefacts,andPickering’sclearglanceseemedtoquestionmymirth。\"Youhavebeensobluntlyfrankwithme,\"Isaid,\"thatItoomustbefrank。Tellme,ifyoucan,whetherthiscleverMadameBlumenthal,whosehusbandisdead,hasgivenapointtoyourdesireforasuspensionofcommunicationwithSmyrna。\"

  Heseemedtopondermyquestion,unshrinkingly。\"Ithinknot,\"hesaid,atlast。\"Ihavehadthedesireforthreemonths;IhaveknownMadameBlumenthalforlessthantwenty—fourhours。\"

  \"Verytrue。Butwhenyoufoundthisletterofyoursonyourplaceatbreakfast,didyouseemforamomenttoseeMadameBlumenthalsittingopposite?\"

  \"Opposite?\"

  \"Opposite,mydearfellow,oranywhereintheneighbourhood。Inaword,doessheinterestyou?\"

  \"Verymuch!\"hecried,joyously。

  \"Amen!\"Ianswered,jumpingupwithalaugh。\"Andnow,ifwearetoseetheworldinamonth,thereisnotimetolose。LetusbeginwiththeHardtwald。\"

  Pickeringrose,andwestrolledawayintotheforest,talkingoflighterthings。Atlastwereachedtheedgeofthewood,satdownonafallenlog,andlookedoutacrossanintervalofmeadowatthelongwoodedwavesoftheTaunus。WhatmyfriendwasthinkingofIcan’tsay;Iwasmeditatingonhisqueerbiography,andlettingmywondermentwanderawaytoSmyrna。SuddenlyIrememberedthathepossessedaportraitoftheyounggirlwhowaswaitingforhimthereinawhite—walledgarden。Iaskedhimifhehaditwithhim。Hesaidnothing,butgravelytookouthispocket—bookanddrewforthasmallphotograph。Itrepresented,asthepoetsays,asimplemaideninherflower——aslightyounggirl,withacertainchildishroundnessofcontour。Therewasnoeaseinherposture;shewasstanding,stifflyandshyly,forherlikeness;sheworeashort—waistedwhitedress;herarmshungathersidesandherhandswereclaspedinfront;herheadwasbentdownwardalittle,andherdarkeyesfixed。

  Butherawkwardnesswasasprettyasthatofsomeangularseraphinamediaevalcarving,andinhertimidgazethereseemedtolurkthequestioninggleamofchildhood。\"Whatisthisfor?\"hercharmingeyesappearedtoask;\"whyhaveIbeendressedupforthisceremonyinawhitefrockandamberbeads?\"

  \"Graciouspowers!\"Isaidtomyself;\"whatanenchantingthingisinnocence!\"

  \"Thatportraitwastakenayearandahalfago,\"saidPickering,asifwithanefforttobeperfectlyjust。\"Bythistime,Isuppose,shelooksalittlewiser。\"

  \"Notmuch,Ihope,\"Isaid,asIgaveitback。\"Sheisverysweet!\"

  \"Yes,poorgirl,sheisverysweet——nodoubt!\"Andheputthethingawaywithoutlookingatit。

  Weweresilentforsomemoments。Atlast,abruptly——\"Mydearfellow,\"Isaid,\"IshouldtakesomesatisfactioninseeingyouimmediatelyleaveHomburg。\"

  \"Immediately?\"

  \"To—day——assoonasyoucangetready。\"

  Helookedatme,surprised,andlittlebylittleheblushed。\"ThereissomethingIhavenottoldyou,\"hesaid;\"somethingthatyoursayingthatMadameBlumenthalhasnoreputationtolosehasmademehalfafraidtotellyou。\"

  \"IthinkIcanguessit。MadameBlumenthalhasaskedyoutocomeandplayhergameforheragain。\"

  \"Notatall!\"criedPickering,withasmileoftriumph。\"Shesaysthatshemeanstoplaynomoreforthepresent。Shehasaskedmetocomeandtaketeawithherthisevening。\"

  \"Ah,then,\"Isaid,verygravely,\"ofcourseyoucan’tleaveHomburg。\"

  Heanswerednothing,butlookedaskanceatme,asifhewereexpectingmetolaugh。\"Urgeitstrongly,\"hesaidinamoment。

  \"Sayit’smyduty——thatIMUST。\"

  Ididn’tquiteunderstandhim,but,featheringtheshaftwithaharmlessexpletive,ItoldhimthatunlesshefollowedmyadviceI

  wouldneverspeaktohimagain。

  Hegotup,stoodbeforeme,andstruckthegroundwithhisstick。

  \"Good!\"hecried;\"Iwantedanoccasiontobreakarule——toleapabarrier。Hereitis。Istay!\"

  Imadehimamockbowforhisenergy。\"That’sveryfine,\"Isaid;

  \"butnow,toputyouinapropermoodforMadameBlumenthal’stea,wewillgoandlistentothebandplaySchubertunderthelindens。\"Andwewalkedbackthroughthewoods。

  IwenttoseePickeringthenextday,athisinn,andonknocking,asdirected,athisdoor,wassurprisedtohearthesoundofaloudvoicewithin。Myknockremainedunnoticed,soIpresentlyintroducedmyself。Ifoundnocompany,butIdiscoveredmyfriendwalkingupanddowntheroomandapparentlydeclaimingtohimselffromalittlevolumeboundinwhitevellum。Hegreetedmeheartily,threwhisbookonthetable,andsaidthathewastakingaGermanlesson。

  \"Andwhoisyourteacher?\"Iasked,glancingatthebook。

  Heratheravoidedmeetingmyeye,asheanswered,afteraninstant’sdelay,\"MadameBlumenthal。\"

  \"Indeed!Hasshewrittenagrammar?\"

  \"It’snotagrammar;it’satragedy。\"Andhehandedmethebook。

  Iopenedit,andbeheld,indelicatetype,withaverylargemargin,anHistorischesTrauerspielinfiveacts,entitled\"Cleopatra。\"

  Therewereagreatmanymarginalcorrectionsandannotations,apparentlyfromtheauthor’shand;thespeecheswereverylong,andtherewasaninordinatenumberofsoliloquiesbytheheroine。Oneofthem,Iremember,towardstheendoftheplay,beganinthisfashion—

  \"What,afterall,islifebutsensation,andsensationbutdeception?——realitythatpalesbeforethelightofone’sdreamsasOctavia’sdullbeautyfadesbesidemine?Butletmebelieveinsomeintenserbliss,andseekitinthearmsofdeath!\"

  \"Itseemsdecidedlypassionate,\"Isaid。\"Hasthetragedyeverbeenacted?\"

  \"Neverinpublic;butMadameBlumenthaltellsmethatshehaditplayedatherownhouseinBerlin,andthatsheherselfundertookthepartoftheheroine。\"

  Pickering’sunworldlylifehadnotbeenofasorttosharpenhisperceptionoftheridiculous,butitseemedtomeanunmistakablesignofhisbeingunderthecharm,thatthisinformationwasverysoberlyoffered。Hewaspreoccupied,hewasirresponsivetomyexperimentalobservationsonvulgartopics——thehotweather,theinn,theadventofAdelinaPatti。Atlast,utteringhisthoughts,heannouncedthatMadameBlumenthalhadprovedtobeanextraordinarilyinterestingwoman。HeseemedtohavequiteforgottenourlongtalkintheHartwaldt,andbetrayednosenseofthisbeingaconfessionthathehadtakenhisplungeandwasfloatingwiththecurrent。HeonlyrememberedthatIhadspokenslightinglyofthelady,andhenowhintedthatitbehovedmetoamendmyopinion。Ihadreceivedthedaybeforesostronganimpressionofasortofspiritualfastidiousnessinmyfriend’snature,thatonhearingnowthestrikingofanewhour,asitwere,inhisconsciousness,andobservinghowtheechoesofthepastwereimmediatelyquenchedinitsmusic,Isaidtomyselfthatithadcertainlytakenadelicatehandtowindupthatfinemachine。NodoubtMadameBlumenthalwasacleverwoman。ItisagoodGermancustomatHomburgtospendthehourprecedingdinnerinlisteningtotheorchestraintheKurgarten;

  MozartandBeethoven,fororganismsinwhichtheinterfusionofsoulandsenseispeculiarlymysterious,areavigorousstimulustotheappetite。PickeringandIconformed,aswehaddonethedaybefore,tothefashion,andwhenwewereseatedunderthetrees,hebegantoexpatiateonhisfriend’smerits。

  \"Idon’tknowwhethersheiseccentricornot,\"hesaid;\"tomeeveryoneseemseccentric,andit’snotforme,yetawhile,tomeasurepeoplebymynarrowprecedents。Ineversawagamingtableinmylifebefore,andsupposedthatagamblerwasofnecessitysomeduskyvillainwithanevileye。InGermany,saysMadameBlumenthal,peopleplayatrouletteastheyplayatbilliards,andherownvenerablemotheroriginallytaughthertherulesofthegame。Itisarecognisedsourceofsubsistencefordecentpeoplewithsmallmeans。

  ButIconfessMadameBlumenthalmightdoworsethingsthanplayatroulette,andyetmakethemharmoniousandbeautiful。Ihaveneverbeeninthehabitofthinkingpositivebeautythemostexcellentthinginawoman。Ihavealwayssaidtomyselfthatifmyheartwereevertobecaptureditwouldbebyasortofgeneralgrace——asweetnessofmotionandtone——onwhichonecouldcountforsoothingimpressions,asonecountsonamusicalinstrumentthatisperfectlyintune。MadameBlumenthalhasit——thisgracethatsoothesandsatisfies;anditseemsthemoreperfectthatitkeepsorderandharmonyinacharacterreallypassionatelyardentandactive。Withhereagernatureandherinnumerableaccomplishmentsnothingwouldbeeasierthanthatsheshouldseemrestlessandaggressive。Youwillknowher,andIleaveyoutojudgewhethershedoesseemso!Shehaseverygift,andculturehasdoneeverythingforeach。WhatgoesoninhermindIofcoursecan’tsay;whatreachestheobserver——theadmirer——issimplyasortoffragrantemanationofintelligenceandsympathy。\"

  \"MadameBlumenthal,\"Isaid,smiling,\"mightbetheloveliestwomanintheworld,andyoutheobjectofherchoicestfavours,andyetwhatIshouldmostenvyyouwouldbe,notyourpeerlessfriend,butyourbeautifulimagination。\"

  \"That’sapolitewayofcallingmeafool,\"saidPickering。\"Youareasceptic,acynic,asatirist!IhopeIshallbealongtimecomingtothat。\"

  \"Youwillmakethejourneyfastifyoutravelbyexpresstrains。Butpraytellme,haveyouventuredtointimatetoMadameBlumenthalyourhighopinionofher?\"

  \"Idon’tknowwhatImayhavesaid。Shelistensevenbetterthanshetalks,andIthinkitpossibleImayhavemadeherlistentoagreatdealofnonsense。ForafterthefirstfewwordsIexchangedwithherIwasconsciousofanextraordinaryevaporationofallmyolddiffidence。Ihave,intruth,Isuppose,\"headdedinamoment,\"owingtomypeculiarcircumstances,agreataccumulatedfundofunutteredthingsofallsortstogetridof。Lastevening,sittingtherebeforethatcharmingwoman,theycameswarmingtomylips。

  VerylikelyIpouredthemallout。Ihaveasenseofhavingenshroudedmyselfinasortofmistoftalk,andofseeingherlovelyeyesshiningthroughitoppositetome,likefog—lampsatsea。\"Andhere,ifIrememberrightly,Pickeringbrokeoffintoanardentparenthesis,anddeclaredthatMadameBlumenthal’seyeshadsomethinginthemthathehadneverseeninanyothers。\"Itwasajumbleofcruditiesandinanities,\"hewenton;\"theymusthaveseemedtohergreatrubbish;butIfeltthewiserandthestronger,somehow,forhavingfiredoffallmyguns——theycouldhurtnobodynowiftheyhit—

  —andIimagineImighthavegonefarwithoutfindinganotherwomaninwhomsuchanexhibitionwouldhaveprovokedsolittleofmerecoldamusement。\"

  \"MadameBlumenthal,onthecontrary,\"Isurmised,\"enteredintoyoursituationwithwarmth。\"

  \"Exactlyso——thegreatest!Shehasfeltandsuffered,andnowsheunderstands!\"

  \"Shetoldyou,Iimagine,thatsheunderstoodyouasifshehadmadeyou,andsheofferedtobeyourguide,philosopher,andfriend。\"

  \"Shespoketome,\"Pickeringanswered,afterapause,\"asIhadneverbeenspokentobefore,andsheofferedme,formally,alltheofficesofawoman’sfriendship。\"

  \"Whichyouasformallyaccepted?\"

  \"Toyouthescenesoundsabsurd,Isuppose,butallowmetosayI

  don’tcare!\"Pickeringspokewithanairofgenialdefiancewhichwasthemostinoffensivethingintheworld。\"Iwasverymuchmoved;

  Iwas,infact,verymuchexcited。Itriedtosaysomething,butI

  couldn’t;Ihadhadplentytosaybefore,butnowIstammeredandbungled,andatlastIboltedoutoftheroom。\"

  \"Meanwhileshehaddroppedhertragedyintoyourpocket!\"

  \"Notatall。Ihadseenitonthetablebeforeshecamein。

  AfterwardsshekindlyofferedtoreadGermanaloudwithme,fortheaccent,twoorthreetimesaweek。’Whatshallwebeginwith?’sheasked。’Withthis!’Isaid,andheldupthebook。Andsheletmetakeittolookitover。\"

  Iwasneitheracynicnorasatirist,butevenifIhadbeen,ImighthavebeendisarmedbyPickering’sassurance,beforeweparted,thatMadameBlumenthalwishedtoknowmeandexpectedhimtointroduceme。

  Amongthefoolishthingswhich,accordingtohisownaccount,hehaduttered,weresomegenerouswordsinmypraise,towhichshehadcivillyreplied。IconfessIwascurioustoseeher,butIbeggedthattheintroductionshouldnotbeimmediate,forIwishedtoletPickeringworkouthisdestinyalone。ForsomedaysIsawlittleofhim,thoughwemetattheKursaalandstrolledoccasionallyinthepark。Iwatched,inspiteofmydesiretolethimalone,forthesignsandportentsoftheworld’sactionuponhim——ofthatportionoftheworld,inespecial,ofwhichMadameBlumenthalhadconstitutedherselftheagent。Heseemedveryhappy,andgavemeinadozenwaysanimpressionofincreasedself—confidenceandmaturity。Hismindwasadmirablyactive,andalways,afteraquarterofanhour’stalkwithhim,Iaskedmyselfwhatexperiencecouldreallydo,thatinnocencehadnotdone,tomakeitbrightandfine。Iwasstruckwithhisdeepenjoymentofthewholespectacleofforeignlife——itsnovelty,itspicturesqueness,itslightandshade——andwiththeinfinitefreedomwithwhichhefelthecouldgoandcomeandroveandlingerandobserveitall。Itwasanexpansion,anawakening,acomingtomoralmanhood。EachtimeImethimhespokealittlelessofMadameBlumenthal;butheletmeknowgenerallythathesawheroften,andcontinuedtoadmireher。Iwasforcedtoadmittomyself,inspiteofpreconceptions,thatifshewerereallytherulingstarofthishappyseason,shemustbeaverysuperiorwoman。Pickeringhadtheairofaningenuousyoungphilosophersittingatthefeetofanausteremuse,andnotofasentimentalspendthriftdanglingaboutsomesupremeincarnationoflevity。

  CHAPTERII。

  MadameBlumenthalseemed,forthetime,tohaveabjuredtheKursaal,andInevercaughtaglimpseofher。Heryoungfriend,apparently,wasaninterestingstudy,andthestudiousmindprefersseclusion。

  Shereappeared,however,atlast,oneeveningattheopera,wherefrommychairIperceivedherinabox,lookingextremelypretty。

  AdelinaPattiwassinging,andaftertherisingofthecurtainIwasoccupiedwiththestage;butonlookingroundwhenitfellfortheentr’acte,Isawthattheauthoressof\"Cleopatra\"hadbeenjoinedbyheryoungadmirer。Hewassittingalittlebehindher,leaningforward,lookingoverhershoulderandlistening,whileshe,slowlymovingherfantoandfroandlettinghereyewanderoverthehouse,wasapparentlytalkingofthispersonandthat。Nodoubtshewassayingsharpthings;butPickeringwasnotlaughing;hiseyeswerefollowinghercovertindications;hismouthwashalfopen,asitalwayswaswhenhewasinterested;helookedintenselyserious。I

  wasgladthat,havingherbacktohim,shewasunabletoseehowhelooked。Itseemedthepropermomenttopresentmyselfandmakehermybow;butjustasIwasabouttoleavemyplaceagentleman,whominamomentIperceivedtobeanoldacquaintance,cametooccupythenextchair。Recognitionandmutualgreetingsfollowed,andIwasforcedtopostponemyvisittoMadameBlumenthal。Iwasnotsorry,foritverysoonoccurredtomethatNiedermeyerwouldbejustthemantogivemeafairproseversionofPickering’slyrictributestohisfriend。HewasanAustrianbybirth,andhadformerlylivedaboutEuropeagreatdealinaseriesofsmalldiplomaticposts。

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