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  Wewerenotcynics,andwedreamedAManwhomadenotruceWithliesnorancientprivilegeNorold,entrenchedabuse。

  Wedreamed……wedreamed……Youthdreamedadream!

  AndevenyouforgotYourself,onemoment,anddreamed,too——

  Struck,whileyourmoodwashot!

  Struckthreeorfourgoodblows……andthenTurnedbacktoeasierthings:

  Thecheapapplause,theblatantmob,Thepraiseofunderlings!

  Praise……praise……wasevermansofilled,Soavidstill,ofpraise?

  Sohungryforthecrowd’sacclaim,Thesycophanticphrase?

  OyouwhomGreatnessbeckonedto……

  OswollenLittlenessWhoturnedfromImmortalityTofawnuponSuccess!

  Oblindwithloveofself,wholedYouth’svisiontodefeat,Bawlingandbrawlingforrewards,Loud,inthecommonstreet!

  Oyouwhoweresoquicktojudge——

  Leader,andloved,ofyore——

  Hearnowthejudgmentofouryouth:

  LeaderandChiefnomore!

  THEBAYONET

  (1914)

  THEgreatgunsslayfromaleagueaway,thedeath—

  boltsflyunseen,Andbellowinghillrepliestohill,machinetobrutemachine,ButstillintheendwhenthelonglinesbendandthebattlehangsindoubtTheytaketothesteelinthesameoldwaythattheirfathersfoughtitout——

  ItismantomanandbreasttobreastandeyetobloodshoteyeAndthereachandtwistofthethrustingwrist,asitwasinthedaysgoneby!

  Alongtheshakenhillsthegunstheirdrummingthunderroll——

  Butthekeenbladesthrillwiththelusttokillthatleapsfromtheslayer’ssoul!

  Forhandandheartandlivingsteel,onepulseofhatetheyfeel。

  Isyourclanafraidofthenakedblade?Doesitflinchfromthebittersteel?

  Perishyourdreamsofconquestthen,yourswollenhopesandbold,Forempiredwellswiththestabbingblade,asitdidinthedaysofold!

  THEBUTCHERSATPRAYER

  (1914)

  EACHnationasitdrawstheswordAndflingsitsstandardtotheairPetitionspiouslytheLord——

  Vexingthevoidabysswithprayer。

  Oironytoodeepformirth!

  Oposturingapesthatrant,anddareThisanticattitude!OEarth,Withyourwildjestofwickedprayer!

  Idarenotlaugh……arisingswellOflaughterbreaksinshriekssomewhere——

  NodoubttheyrelishitinHell,ThiscosmicjestofEarthatprayer!

  SHADOWS

  HAUNTED

  (THEGHOSTSPEAKS)

  AGHOSTisthefreakofasickman’sbrain?

  Thenwhydoyestartandshiverso?

  That’sthesobanddripofaleakydrain?

  Butitsoundslikeanothernoiseweknow!

  Theheavydropsdrummedredandslow,Thedropsrandownasslowasfate——

  Doyehearthemstill?——itwaslongago!——

  ButhereintheshadowsIwait,Iwait!

  Spiritstherebethatpassinpeace;

  Minepassedinawhorlofwrathanddole;

  AndthehourthatyourchokingbreathshallceaseIwillgetmygriponyournakedsoul——

  Norpitymaystaynorprayercajole——

  IwoulddragyewhiningfromHell’sowngate:

  Tome,tome,yemustpaythetoll!

  AndhereintheshadowsIwait,Iwait!

  Thedeadtheyaredead,theyareoutoftheway?

  Andaghostisthewhimofanailingmind?

  Thenwhydidyewhitenwithfearto—dayWhenyeheardavoiceinthecallingwind?

  WhydidyefalterandlookbehindAtthecreepingmistswhenthehourgrewlate?

  Yewouldseemyfacewereyestrickenblind!

  AndhereintheshadowsIwait,Iwait!

  Drinkandforget,makemerryandboast,Buttheboastringsfalseandthejestisthin——

  InthehourthatImeetyeghosttoghost,Strippedofthefleshthatyeskulkwithin,Strippedtothecowardsoul’wareofitssin,Yeshalllearn,yeshalllearn,whetherdeadmenhate!

  Ah,awearytimehasthewaitingbeen,ButhereintheshadowsIwait,Iwait!

  ANIGHTMARE

  LEAGUESbeforeme,leaguesbehind,Clamorwarringwastesofflood,AllthestreamsofalltheworldsFlungtogether,madofmood;

  Throughthecanonbeatsasound,Regularofinterval,Distant,drumming,muffled,dull,Thunderouslyrhythmical;

  Craftsslipbymystartledsoul——

  Soulthatcowers,athingapart——

  Theyarecorpusclesofblood!

  That’sthethrobbingofaheart!

  Godofterrors!——amImad?——

  Throughmybody,mineownsoul,Shrunkentoanatom’ssize,Voyagestowardanunguessedgoal!

  THEMOTHER

  THEmotherbythegallows—tree,Thegallows—tree,thegallows—tree,(Whilethetwitchingbodymockedthesun)

  LiftedtoHeavenherbrokenheartAndcalledforsympathy。

  ThenMotherMarybenttoher,BentfromherplacebyGod’sleftside,Andwhispered:\"Peace——doInotknow?——

  Mysonwascrucified!\"

  \"OMotherMary,\"answeredshe,\"Youcannot,cannotenterinTomysoul’swoe——youcannotknow——

  Foryoursonwroughtnosin!\"

  (Andmenwhoseworkcompelledthemthere,Theirheartswerestrickendead;

  Theyheardtheropecreakonthebeam;

  IthoughtIheardthefrightenedghostWhimperingoverhead。)

  Themotherbythegallows—tree,Thegallows—tree,thegallows—tree,LiftedtoChristherbrokenheartAndcalledinagony。

  ThenLordChristbenttoherandsaid:

  \"Becomforted,becomforted;

  Iknowyourgrief;thewholeworld’swoeIboreuponmyhead。\"

  \"ButOLordChrist,youcannotknow,Noonecanknow,\"shesaid,\"noone\"——

  (Whilethequiveringcorpseswayedinthewind)——

  \"LordChrist,noonecanunderstandWhoneverhadason!\"

  INTHEBAYOU

  LAZYandslow,throughthesnagsandtreesMovethesluggishcurrents,halfasleep;

  Aroundandbetweenthecypressknees,Likeblack,slowsnakesthedarktidescreep——

  Howdeepisthebayoubeneaththetrees?

  \"Knee—deep,Knee—deep,Knee—deep,Knee—deep!\"

  CroaksthebigbullfrogofReelfootLakeFromhishiding—placeinthedraggledbrake。

  WhatisthesecrettheslimreedsknowThatmakesthemtoshakeandtoshiverso,Andthescaredflagsquiverfromplumetofoot?——

  Thefrogspipesolemnly,deepandslow:

  \"Lookundertheroot!

  Lookundertheroot!\"

  ThehoarsefrogcroaksandthestarkowlhootsOfamysterymooredinthecypressroots。

  Wasitloveturnedhate?Wasitfriendturnedfoe?

  Onlythefrogsandthegrayowlknow,ForthewhitemoonshroudedherfaceinamistAtthespurtofapistol,redandbright——

  Atthesoundofashriekthatstabbedthenight——

  Andthelittlereedswerefrightenedandwhist;

  Butalwaystheeddieswhimperandchoke,Andthefrogswouldtelliftheycould,fortheycroak:

  \"Deep,deep!

  Death—deep!

  Deep,deep!

  Death—deep!\"

  AndthedarktideslidesandglistersandglidesSnakelikeoverthesecretithides。

  THESAILOR’SWIFESPEAKS

  YEaredead,theysay,butyeswore,yeswore,Yewouldcometomebackfromthesea!

  Fromoutoftheseaandthenight,yecried,NorthecrawlingweednorthedraggingtideCouldholdyefastfromme:——

  Come,ah,cometome!

  ThreespellsIhavelaidontherisingsunAndthreeonthewaningmoon——

  AreyeheldinthebondsofthenightorthedayYemustloosenyourbondsandaway,away!

  YemustcomewhereIwaitye,soon——

  Ah,soon!soon!soon!

  ThreetimesIhavecastmywordstothewind,Andthricetotheclimbingsea;

  IfyedriftordreamwiththecloudsorfoamYemustdriftagainhome,yemustdriftagainhome——

  Wraith,yearefree,yearefree;

  Ghost,yearefree,yearefree!

  Arethecoastsofdeathsofair,sofair?

  ButIwaityehereontheshore!

  ItisIthatyehearinthecallingwind——

  Ihavestaredthroughthedarktillmysoulisblind!

  Oloverofmine,yeswore,Loverofmine,yeswore!

  HUNTED

  Oh,whydotheyhuntsohard,sohard,whohavenoneedoffood?

  Dotheyhuntforsport,dotheyhuntforhate,dotheyhuntforthelustofblood?……

  IfIwereagodIwouldgetmeaspear,Iwouldgetmehorseanddog,Andmerrily,merrilyIwouldridethroughcovertandbrakeandbog,Withhoundandhornandlaughterloud,overthehillsandaway——

  Forthereisnosportlikethatofagodwithamanthatstandsatbay!

  Ho!butthemorningisfreshandfair,andoh!

  butthesunisbright,Andyonderthequarrybreaksfromthebrushandheadsforthehillsinflight;

  Aminute’slawfortheharriedthing——thenfollowhim,followhimfast,Withthebellowofdogsandthebeatofhoofsandthemellowbugle’sblast……

  Hillo!Halloo!theyhavemarkedaman!thereissportintheworldto—day——

  Andaclamorswellsfromtheheartofthewoodthattellsofasoulatbay!

  ADREAMCHILD

  WHEREtidesoftossedwistariabloomFoamupinpurpleturbulence,WheretwiningboughshavebuiltaroomAndwing’dwindspausetogarnerscentsAndscatteredsunlightflecksthegloom,Shebroodsinpensiveindolence。

  Whatisthethoughtthatholdsherthrall,Thatdimshersightwithunshedtears?

  WhatsongsofsorrowdroopandfallInbrokenmusicforherears?

  WhatvoicesthrillherandrecallThepoignantjoyofhappieryears?

  Shedreams’tisnotthewindswhichpassThatwhisperthroughtheshakenvine;

  WhosefootstepstirstherustlinggrassNoneelsethatlistenedmightdivine;

  SheseesherchildthatneverwasLookupwithlonginginhiseyne。

  Unkissed,hisliftedforeheadgainsAgracenotearthly,butmorerare——

  Forsinceherheartbutonlyfeigns,Whereforeshouldlovenotfeignhimfair?

  Putbloodofrosesinhisveins,Weaveyellowsunshinesforhishair?

  AllghostsoflittlechildrendeadThatwanderwistful,uncaressed,Theirseekinglipsbyloveunfed,ShefainwouldcradleonherbreastForhissweetsakewhoselonelyheadHasneverknownthattenderrest。

  Andthusshesits,andthusshebroods,Wheredriftedblossomsfreakthegrass;

  ThewindsthatmoveacrosshermoodsPulsewithlowwhispersastheypass,AndintheireerierinterludesShehearsavoicethatneverwas。

  ACROSSTHENIGHT

  MUCHlisteningthroughthesilences,Muchstaringthroughthenight,Andlo!thedumbblinddistancesArebridgedwithspeechandsight!

  MagicianThought,informedofLove,Hathfixedherontheair——

  Oh,LoveandIlaugheddownthefatesAndclaspedher,hereasthere!

  AcrosstheeeriesilencesShecameinheadlongflight,Shestormedtheserrieddistances,Shetrampledspaceandnight!

  Oh,foolishscientistsmightgiveThismiracleaname——

  ButLoveandIcarebuttoknowThatwhenwecalledshecame。

  AndsinceIfindthedistancesSubservienttomythought,AndofthesentientsilencesMorevitalspeechhavewrought,ThensheandIwillmockDeath’sself,Forallhisvauntedmight——

  Therearenogulfswedarenotleap,Assheleaptthroughthenight!

  SEACHANGES

  I

  MORNING

  WEstoodamongtheboatsandnets;

  Wesawtheswiftcloudsfall,WewatchedtheschoonersscamperinBeforethesuddensquall;——

  ThejollysquallstrovelustilyTowhelmtheshelteredstreet——

  ThemerrysquallthatpiledtheseasAboutthepatientheadland’skneesAndchasedthefishingfleet。

  Shelaughed;asifwithwingshermirthAroseandleftthewinglessearthAndalltamethingsbehind;

  Roselikeabird,wildwithdelightWhosebrinypinionsflashinflightThroughstormandsunandwind。

  HerlaughtersoughtthoseskiesbecauseTheirmoodandherswereone,ForsheandIweredrunkwithloveAndlifeandstormandsun!

  Andwhileshelaughed,theSunhimselfLeaptlaughingthroughtherainAndstruckhisharperhandalongTheringingcoast;andthatwind—songWhosejoyismixedwithpainForgottheundertoneofgriefAndjoinedthejocundstrain,AndovereveryhiddenreefWhereonthewavesbrokemerrilyRosejetsandspraysofmelodyAndleaptandlaughedagain。

  II

  MOONLIGHT

  Westoodamongtheboatsandnets……

  WemarkedtherisenmoonWalkswayingo’erthetremblingseasAsoneswaysinaswoon;

  Thelittlestars,thelonelystars,Stolethroughthehollowsky,AndeverysuckingeddywhereThewaveslappedwharforrottenstairMoanedlikesomestrickenthinghidthereAndstrangledwithitsowndespairAstheshudderingtidecreptby。

  Ilovedher,andIhatedher——

  OrdidIhatemyselfbecause,Boundbyobscure,strong,silkenlaws,IfeltmyselftheworshiperOfbeautyneverwhollymine?

  Withluresmostapttosnare,entwine,Withbondstoosubtletodefine,Herlighternaturemasteredmine;

  Herselfhalfgiven,halfwithheld,HerlesserspiritstillcompelledItstributefrommyfrankersoul:

  So——rebel,slave,andworshiper!——

  IlovedherandIhatedher。

  Igazeduponher,I,herthrall,Andmusing,murmured,Whatifdeath

  Werejusttheanswertoitall?——

  SupposesomedaintydaggerquaffedHerlifeinonedeepeagerdraught?——

  SupposesomeamorousknifecaressedThelovelyhollowofherbreast?\"——

  Sheturnedamockinglooktomine:

  Shereadthethoughtwithinmyeyne,Sheheldmewithherlook——andlaughed!

  Nowwhomaytellwhatstirs,controls,Andshapesmadfanciesintofacts?

  WhattrivialthingsmayquickensoulsToirrevocable,swiftacts?

  Nowwhohasknown,whounderstood,WhereforesomeidlethingMaystabwithdeadlierstingThanwell—consideredinsultcould?——

  MayspurthelanguorofamoodAndrouseatigerintheblood?——

  Ah,Christ!——hadshenotlaughedjustwhenThatfancycame!……forthen……andthen……

  Asuddenmistdroppedfromthesky,Amistsweptinacrossthesea……

  Amistthathidherfacefromme……

  Aweepingmistalltingedwithred,Adrippingmistthatsmeltlikeblood……

  Itchokedmythroat,itburntmybrain……

  Andthroughitpeeredonesallowstar,Andthroughitrangoneshriekofpain……

  Andwhenitpassedmyhandswerered,Mysoulwasdabbledwithherblood;

  AndwhenitpassedmylovewasdeadAndtosseduponthetroubledflood。

  III

  MOONSET

  Butsee!……thebodydoesnotsink;

  Itridesuponthetide(Astarbeamonthedagger’shaft),Withstaringeyesandwide……

  Andnow,upfromthedarklingsea,Downfromthefailingmoon,Arecomestrangeshapestomockatme……

  Allpallidfromthestar—palesea,Whitefromthepalingmoon……

  OrwhirlingfastorwheelingslowAround,aroundthecorpsetheygo,Allbloodlesso’erthesickenedseaBeneaththeailingmoon!

  AndaretheyonlywispsoffogThatdancealongthewaves?

  OnlyshapesofmistthewindDrivesalongthewaves?

  OraretheyspiritsthattheseaHascheatedoftheirgraves?

  Theghostsofthemthatdiedatsea,Ofmurderedmenflunginthesea,Whosebodieshadnograves?——

  LostsoulsthathauntforevermoreThesobbingreefandhollowedshoreAndalways—murmuringcaves?

  Ah,surelysomethingmorethanfog,Morethanstarlitmist!

  ForstarlightnevermakesasoundAndfogsareeverwhist——

  Buthearken,hearken,hearken,now,Forthesesingastheydance!

  Asairily,aseerily,Theywheelaboutandwhirl,Theyjeeratme,theyfleeratme,Theyfloutmeastheyswirl!

  Aswhirlingfastorswayingslow,Reeling,wheeling,toandfro,Around,aroundthecorpsetheygo,Theychillmewiththeirchants!

  Thesebeneithermennormists——

  Hearkentotheirchants:

  Ever,ever,ever,DriftinglikeablossomSeaward,withthestarlightWanuponherbosom——

  EverwhenthequickenedHeartofnightisthrobbing,EverwhenthetremblingTidesetsseaward,sobbing,ShallyouseethisburdenBorneuponitsebbing:

  SeeherdriftingseawardLikeabrokenblossom,

  EverseethestarlightKissherbruisedbosom。

  Flightavailethnothing……

  StillthesubtlebeachesDrawyoubackwhereHorrorWalkstheirshingledreaches……

  EvershallyourspiritHearthesurfresounding,EvermoretheoceanThwartingyouandbounding;

  Vainlystruggleinland!

  Lashingyouandhounding,StillthevisionhalesyouFromtheuplandreaches,Goadingyouandgripping,Bindsyoutothebeaches!

  Ever,ever,ever,Evershallherlaughter,Huntingyouandhaunting,Mockandfollowafter;

  Risingwherethebuoy—bellClangsacrosstheshallows,

  LeapingwherethespindriftHurtleso’erthehollows,RingingwherethemoonlightGleamsalongthebillows,Ever,ever,ever,Evershallherlaughter,Houndingyouandhaunting,Whipandfollowafter!

  IV

  SUNSET

  IstoodamongtheboatsThesinkingsun,theangrysun,AcrossthesullenwaveLaidthesuddenstrengthofhisredwrathLiketoashakenglaive:——

  OrdidthesunpauseinthewestToliftaswordatme,Orwasitshe,orwasitshe,RoseforaninstantonsomecrestAndpluckedtheredbladefromherbreastAndbrandisheditatme?

  THETAVERNOFDESPAIR

  THEwraithsofmurderedhopesandlovesComewhisperingatthedoor,ComecreepingthroughtheweepingmistThatdrapesthebarrenmoor;

  Butwewithinhaveturnedthekey’GainstHopeandLoveandCare,WhereWitkeepstrystwithFolly,atTheTavernofDespair。

  AndwehavecomebydiverswaysTokeepthismerrytryst,ButfewofushavekeptwithinTheNarrowWay,Iwist;

  ForwearethosewhoseamplerwitsAndheartshaveprovedourcurse——

  ForedoomedtokenthebetterthingsAndayetodotheworse!

  Longsincewelearnedtomockourselves;

  Andfromself—mockeryfellToheedlesslaughterinthefaceOfHeaven,Earth,andHell。

  Wequiver’neath,andmock,God’srod;

  Wefeel,andmock,Hiswrath;

  WemockourownbloodonthethornsThatrimthe\"PrimrosePath。\"

  WemocktheeerieglimmeringshapesThatrangetheouterwold,WemockourowncoldheartsbecauseTheyaresodeadandcold;

  WefloutthethingswemighthavebeenHadselftoselfprovedtrue,Wemocktherosesflungaway,Wemockthegarneredrue;

  Thefatesthatgibehavelessonedus;

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