MadanaAlas,thoudaughterofmortals!IstolefromthedivineStorehousethefragrantwineofheaven,filledwithitoneearthlynighttothebrim,andplaceditinthyhandtodrink——
yetstillIhearthiscryofanguish!
Chitra[bitterly]
Whodrankit?Therarestcompletionoflife’sdesire,thefirstunionoflovewasprofferedtome,butwaswrestedfrommygrasp?
Thisborrowedbeauty,thisfalsehoodthatenwrapsme,willslipfrommetakingwithittheonlymonumentofthatsweetunion,asthepetalsfallfromanoverblownflower;andthewomanashamedofhernakedpovertywillsitweepingdayandnight。LordLove,thiscursedappearancecompanionsmelikeademonrobbingmeofalltheprizesoflove——allthekissesforwhichmyheartisathirst。
MadanaAlas,howvainthysinglenighthadbeen!Thebarqueofjoycameinsight,butthewaveswouldnotletittouchtheshore。
ChitraHeavencamesoclosetomyhandthatIforgotforamomentthatithadnotreachedme。ButwhenIwokeinthemorningfrommydreamIfoundthatmybodyhadbecomemyownrival。Itismyhatefultasktodeckhereveryday,tosendhertomybelovedandseehercaressedbyhim。Ogod,takebackthyboon!
MadanaButifItakeitfromyouhowcanyoustandbeforeyourlover?
Tosnatchawaythecupfromhislipswhenhehasscarcelydrainedhisfirstdraughtofpleasure,wouldnotthatbecruel?Withwhatresentfulangerhemustregardtheethen?
ChitraThatwouldbebetterfarthanthis。Iwillrevealmytrueselftohim,anoblerthingthanthisdisguise。Ifherejectsit,ifhespurnsmeandbreaksmyheart,Iwillbeareventhatinsilence。
VasantaListentomyadvice。Whenwiththeadventofautumnthefloweringseasonisoverthencomesthetriumphoffruitage。A
timewillcomeofitselfwhentheheat—cloyedbloomofthebodywilldroopandArjunawillgladlyaccepttheabidingfruitfultruthinthee。Ochild,gobacktothymadfestival。
SCENEIV
ChitraWHYdoyouwatchmelikethat,mywarrior?
ArjunaIwatchhowyouweavethatgarland。Skillandgrace,thetwinbrotherandsister,aredancingplayfullyonyourfingertips。I
amwatchingandthinking。
ChitraWhatareyouthinking,sir?
ArjunaIamthinkingthatyou,withthissamelightnessoftouchandsweetness,areweavingmydaysofexileintoanimmortalwreath,tocrownmewhenIreturnhome。
ChitraHome!Butthisloveisnotforahome!
ArjunaNotforahome?
ChitraNo。Nevertalkofthat。Taketoyourhomewhatisabidingandstrong。Leavethelittlewildflowerwhereitwasborn;leaveitbeautifullytodieattheday’sendamongallfadingblossomsanddecayingleaves。Donottakeittoyourpalacehalltoflingitonthestonyfloorwhichknowsnopityforthingsthatfadeandareforgotten。
ArjunaIsoursthatkindoflove?
ChitraYes,noother!Whyregretit?Thatwhichwasmeantforidledaysshouldneveroutlivethem。Joyturnsintopainwhenthedoorbywhichitshoulddepartisshutagainstit。Takeitandkeepitaslongasitlasts。Letnotthesatietyofyoureveningclaimmorethanthedesireofyourmorningcouldearn……Thedayisdone。Putthisgarlandon。Iamtired。Takemeinyourarms,mylove。Letallvainbickeringsofdiscontentdieawayatthesweetmeetingofourlips。
ArjunaHush!Listen,mybeloved,thesoundofprayerbellsfromthedistantvillagetemplestealsupontheeveningairacrossthesilenttrees!
SCENEV
VasantaICANNOTkeeppacewiththee,myfriend!Iamtired。Itisahardtasktokeepalivethefirethouhastkindled。Sleepovertakesme,thefandropsfrommyhand,andcoldashescovertheglowofthefire。Istartupagainfrommyslumberandwithallmymightrescuethewearyflame。Butthiscangoonnolonger。
MadanaIknow,thouartasfickleasachild。Everrestlessisthyplayinheavenandonearth。Thingsthatthoufordaysbuildestupwithendlessdetailthoudostshatterinamomentwithoutregret。
Butthisworkofoursisnearlyfinished。Pleasure—wingeddaysflyfast,andtheyear,almostatitsend,swoonsinrapturousbliss。
SCENEVI
ArjunaIWOKEinthemorningandfoundthatmydreamshaddistilledagem。Ihavenocaskettoincloseit,noking’scrownwhereontofixit,nochainfromwhichtohangit,andyethavenotthehearttothrowitaway。MyKshatriya’srightarm,idlyoccupiedinholdingit,forgetsitsduties。
EnterCHITRA。
ChitraTellmeyourthoughts,sir!
ArjunaMymindisbusywiththoughtsofhuntingtoday。See,howtherainpoursintorrentsandfiercelybeatsuponthehillside。Thedarkshadowofthecloudshangsheavilyovertheforest,andtheswollenstream,likerecklessyouth,overleapsallbarrierswithmockinglaughter。OnsuchrainydayswefivebrotherswouldgototheChitrakaforesttochasewildbeasts。Thoseweregladtimes。Ourheartsdancedtothedrumbeatofrumblingclouds。Thewoodsresoundedwiththescreamsofpeacocks。Timiddeercouldnothearourapproachingstepsforthepatterofrainandthenoiseofwaterfalls;theleopardswouldleavetheirtracksonthewetearth,betrayingtheirlairs。Oursportover,wedaredeachothertoswimacrossturbulentstreamsonourwaybackhome。Therestlessspiritisonme。Ilongtogohunting。
ChitraFirstrundownthequarryyouarenowfollowing。Areyouquitecertainthattheenchanteddeeryoupursuemustneedsbecaught?
No,notyet。Likeadreamthewildcreatureeludesyouwhenitseemsmostnearlyyours。Lookhowthewindischasedbythemadrainthatdischargesathousandarrowsafterit。Yetitgoesfreeandunconquered。Oursportislikethat,mylove!Yougivechasetothefleet—footedspiritofbeauty,aimingathereverydartyouhaveinyourhands。Yetthismagicdeerrunseverfreeanduntouched。
ArjunaMylove,haveyounohomewherekindheartsarewaitingforyourreturn?Ahomewhichyouoncemadesweetwithyourgentleserviceandwhoselightwentoutwhenyouleftitforthiswilderness?
ChitraWhythesequestions?Arethehoursofunthinkingpleasureover?
DoyounotknowthatIamnomorethanwhatyouseebeforeyou?
Formethereisnovistabeyond。ThedewthathangsonthetipofaKinsukapetalhasneithernamenordestination。Itoffersnoanswertoanyquestion。Shewhomyouloveislikethatperfectbeadofdew。
ArjunaHasshenotiewiththeworld?Canshebemerelylikeafragmentofheavendroppedontheearththroughthecarelessnessofawantongod?
ChitraYes。
ArjunaAh,thatiswhyIalwaysseemabouttoloseyou。Myheartisunsatisfied,mymindknowsnopeace。Comeclosertome,unattainableone!Surrenderyourselftothebondsofnameandhomeandparentage。Letmyheartfeelyouonallsidesandlivewithyouinthepeacefulsecurityoflove。
ChitraWhythisvainefforttocatchandkeepthetintsoftheclouds,thedanceofthewaves,thesmelloftheflowers?
ArjunaMistressmine,donothopetopacifylovewithairynothings。
Givemesomethingtoclasp,somethingthatcanlastlongerthanpleasure,thatcanendureeventhroughsuffering。
ChitraHeromine,theyearisnotyetfull,andyouaretiredalready!
NowIknowthatitisHeaven’sblessingthathasmadetheflower’stermoflifeshort。Couldthisbodyofminehavedroopedanddiedwiththeflowersoflastspringitsurelywouldhavediedwithhonour。Yet,itsdaysarenumbered,mylove。
Spareitnot,pressitdryofhoney,forfearyourbeggar’sheartcomebacktoitagainandagainwithunsateddesire,likeathirstybeewhensummerblossomsliedeadinthedust。
SCENEVII
MadanaTONIGHTisthylastnight。
VasantaThelovelinessofyourbodywillreturntomorrowtotheinexhaustiblestoresofthespring。TheruddytintofthylipsfreedfromthememoryofArjuna’skisses,willbudanewasapairoffreshasokaleaves,andthesoft,whiteglowofthyskinwillbebornagaininahundredfragrantjasmineflowers。
ChitraOgods,grantmethismyprayer!Tonight,initslasthourletmybeautyflashitsbrightest,likethefinalflickerofadyingflame。
MadanaThoushalthavethywish。
SCENEVIII
VillagersWHOwillprotectusnow?
ArjunaWhy,bywhatdangerareyouthreatened?
VillagersTherobbersarepouringfromthenorthernhillslikeamountainfloodtodevastateourvillage。
ArjunaHaveyouinthiskingdomnowarden?
VillagersPrincessChitrawastheterrorofallevildoers。Whileshewasinthishappylandwefearednaturaldeaths,buthadnootherfears。Nowshehasgoneonapilgrimage,andnoneknowswheretofindher。
ArjunaIsthewardenofthiscountryawoman?
VillagersYes,sheisourfatherandmotherinone。
[Exeunt。
EnterCHITRA。
ChitraWhyareyousittingallalone?
ArjunaIamtryingtoimaginewhatkindofwomanPrincessChitramaybe。
Ihearsomanystoriesofherfromallsortsofmen。
ChitraAh,butsheisnotbeautiful。Shehasnosuchlovelyeyesasmine,darkasdeath。Shecanpierceanytargetshewill,butnotourhero’sheart。
ArjunaTheysaythatinvaloursheisaman,andawomanintenderness。
ChitraThat,indeed,ishergreatestmisfortune。Whenawomanismerelyawoman;whenshewindsherselfroundandroundmen’sheartswithhersmilesandsobsandservicesandcaressingendearments;thensheishappy。Ofwhatusetoherarelearningandgreatachievements?CouldyouhaveseenheronlyyesterdayinthecourtoftheLordShiva’stemplebytheforestpath,youwouldhavepassedbywithoutdeigningtolookather。Buthaveyougrownsowearyofwoman’sbeautythatyouseekinherforaman’sstrength?
Withgreenleaveswetfromthesprayofthefoamingwaterfall,I
havemadeournoondaybedinacaverndarkasnight。Therethecoolofthesoftgreenmossesthickontheblackanddrippingstone,kissesyoureyestosleep。Letmeguideyouthither。
ArjunaNottoday,beloved。
ChitraWhynottoday?
ArjunaIhaveheardthatahordeofrobbershasnearedtheplains。
NeedsmustIgoandpreparemyweaponstoprotectthefrightenedvillagers。
ChitraYouneedhavenofearforthem。Beforeshestartedonherpilgrimage,PrincessChitrahadsetstrongguardsatallthefrontierpasses。
ArjunaYetpermitmeforashortwhiletosetaboutaKshatriya’swork。
WithnewglorywillIennoblethisidlearm,andmakeofitapillowmoreworthyofyourhead。
ChitraWhatifIrefusetoletyougo,ifIkeepyouentwinedinmyarms?Wouldyourudelysnatchyourselffreeandleaveme?Gothen!Butyoumustknowthattheliana,oncebrokenintwo,neverjoinsagain。Go,ifyourthirstisquenched。But,ifnot,thenrememberthatthegoddessofpleasureisfickle,andwaitsfornoman。Sitforawhile,mylord!Tellmewhatuneasythoughtsteaseyou。Whooccupiedyourmindtoday?IsitChitra?
ArjunaYes,itisChitra。Iwonderinfulfilmentofwhatvowshehasgoneonherpilgrimage。Ofwhatcouldshestandinneed?
ChitraHerneeds?Why,whathassheeverhad,theunfortunatecreature?
Herveryqualitiesareasprisonwalls,shuttingherwoman’sheartinabarecell。Sheisobscured,sheisunfulfilled。Herwomanlylovemustcontentitselfdressedinrags;beautyisdeniedher。Sheislikethespiritofacheerlessmorning,sittinguponthestonymountainpeak,allherlightblottedoutbydarkclouds。Donotaskmeofherlife。Itwillneversoundsweettoman’sear。
ArjunaIameagertolearnallabouther。Iamlikeatravellercometoastrangecityatmidnight。Domesandtowersandgarden—treeslookvagueandshadowy,andthedullmoanoftheseacomesfitfullythroughthesilenceofsleep。Wistfullyhewaitsforthemorningtorevealtohimallthestrangewonders。Oh,tellmeherstory。
ChitraWhatmoreistheretotell?
ArjunaIseemtoseeher,inmymind’seye,ridingonawhitehorse,proudlyholdingthereinsinherlefthand,andinherrightabow,andliketheGoddessofVictorydispensinggladhopeallroundher。Likeawatchfullionesssheprotectsthelitteratherdugswithafiercelove。Woman’sarms,thoughadornedwithnaughtbutunfetteredstrength,arebeautiful!Myheartisrestless,fairone,likeaserpentrevivingfromhislongwinter’ssleep。Come,letusbothraceonswifthorsessidebyside,liketwinorbsoflightsweepingthroughspace。Outfromthisslumbrousprisonofgreengloom,thisdank,densecoverofperfumedintoxication,chokingbreath。
ChitraArjuna,tellmetrue,if,nowatonce,bysomemagicIcouldshakemyselffreefromthisvoluptuoussoftness,thistimidbloomofbeautyshrinkingfromtherudeandhealthytouchoftheworld,andflingitfrommybodylikeborrowedclothes,wouldyoubeabletobearit?IfIstandupstraightandstrongwiththestrengthofadaringheartspurningthewilesandartsoftwiningweakness,ifIholdmyheadhighlikeatallyoungmountainfir,nolongertrailinginthedustlikealiana,shallIthenappealtoman’seye?No,no,youcouldnotendureit。ItisbetterthatIshouldkeepspreadaboutmeallthedaintyplaythingsoffugitiveyouth,andwaitforyouinpatience。Whenitpleasesyoutoreturn,Iwillsmilinglypouroutforyouthewineofpleasureinthecupofthisbeauteousbody。Whenyouaretiredandsatiatedwiththiswine,youcangotoworkorplay;andwhenIgrowoldIwillaccepthumblyandgratefullywhatevercornerisleftforme。Woulditpleaseyourheroicsouliftheplaymateofthenightaspiredtobethehelpmeetoftheday,iftheleftarmlearnttosharetheburdenoftheproudrightarm?
ArjunaIneverseemtoknowyouaright。Youseemtomelikeagoddesshiddenwithinagoldenimage。Icannottouchyou,Icannotpayyoumyduesinreturnforyourpricelessgifts。Thusmyloveisincomplete。Sometimesintheenigmaticdepthofyoursadlook,inyourplayfulwordsmockingattheirownmeaning,Igainglimpsesofabeingtryingtorendasunderthelanguorousgraceofherbody,toemergeinachastefireofpainthroughavaporousveilofsmiles。IllusionisthefirstappearanceofTruth。Sheadvancestowardsherloverindisguise。Butatimecomeswhenshethrowsoffherornamentsandveilsandstandsclothedinnakeddignity。Igropeforthatultimateyou,thatbaresimplicityoftruth。
Whythesetears,mylove?Whycoveryourfacewithyourhands?
HaveIpainedyou,mydarling?ForgetwhatIsaid。Iwillbecontentwiththepresent。Leteachseparatemomentofbeautycometomelikeabirdofmysteryfromitsunseennestinthedarkbearingamessageofmusic。Letmeforeversitwithmyhopeonthebrinkofitsrealization,andthusendmydays。
SCENEIX
CHITRAandARJUNA
Chitra[cloaked]
Mylord,hasthecupbeendrainedtothelastdrop?Isthis,indeed,theend?No,whenallisdonesomethingstillremains,andthatismylastsacrificeatyourfeet。
Ibroughtfromthegardenofheavenflowersofincomparablebeautywithwhichtoworshipyou,godofmyheart。Iftheritesareover,iftheflowershavefaded,letmethrowthemoutofthetemple[unveilinginheroriginalmaleattire]。Now,lookatyourworshipperwithgraciouseyes。
IamnotbeautifullyperfectastheflowerswithwhichI
worshipped。Ihavemanyflawsandblemishes。Iamatravellerinthegreatworld—path,mygarmentsaredirty,andmyfeetarebleedingwiththorns。WhereshouldIachieveflower—beauty,theunsulliedlovelinessofamoment’slife?ThegiftthatIproudlybringyouistheheartofawoman。Herehaveallpainsandjoysgathered,thehopesandfearsandshamesofadaughterofthedust;herelovespringsupstrugglingtowardimmortallife。Hereinliesanimperfectionwhichyetisnobleandgrand。Iftheflower—serviceisfinished,mymaster,acceptthisasyourservantforthedaystocome!
IamChitra,theking’sdaughter。PerhapsyouwillrememberthedaywhenawomancametoyouinthetempleofShiva,herbodyloadedwithornamentsandfinery。Thatshamelesswomancametocourtyouasthoughshewereaman。Yourejectedher;youdidwell。Mylord,Iamthatwoman。Shewasmydisguise。ThenbytheboonofgodsIobtainedforayearthemostradiantformthatamortaleverwore,andweariedmyhero’sheartwiththeburdenofthatdeceit。MostsurelyIamnotthatwoman。
IamChitra。Nogoddesstobeworshipped,noryettheobjectofcommonpitytobebrushedasidelikeamothwithindifference。Ifyoudeigntokeepmebyyoursideinthepathofdangeranddaring,ifyouallowmetosharethegreatdutiesofyourlife,thenyouwillknowmytrueself。Ifyourbabe,whomIamnourishinginmywombbebornason,IshallmyselfteachhimtobeasecondArjuna,andsendhimtoyouwhenthetimecomes,andthenatlastyouwilltrulyknowme。TodayIcanonlyofferyouChitra,thedaughterofaking。
ArjunaBeloved,mylifeisfull。