第33章
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  `WouldyouliketogototheReunionsaaltobeintroducedtotheotherladiesandgentlemen?\'heasked,bendingforwardandsmiling,showinghislarge,strongteeth。Hisblueeyeswentquicklyfromonetotheother——

  hewasnotquitesureofhisgroundwiththeseEnglishpeople。HewasunhappytoobecausehespokenoEnglishandhewasnotsurewhethertotryhisFrench。

  `ShallwegototheReunionsaal,andbeintroducedtotheotherpeople?\'

  repeatedGerald,laughing。

  Therewasamoment\'shesitation。

  `Isupposewe\'dbetter——betterbreaktheice,\'saidBirkin。

  Thewomenrose,ratherflushed。AndtheWirt\'sblack,beetle—like,broad—shoulderedfigurewentonignominiouslyinfront,towardsthenoise。Heopenedthedoorandusheredthefourstrangersintotheplay—room。

  Instantlyasilencefell,aslightembarrassmentcameoverthecompany。

  Thenewcomershadasenseofmanyblondfaceslookingtheirway。Then,thehostwasbowingtoashort,energetic—lookingmanwithlargemoustaches,andsayinginalowvoice:

  `HerrProfessor,darfichvorstellen——\'

  TheHerrProfessorwaspromptandenergetic。HebowedlowtotheEnglishpeople,smiling,andbegantobeacomradeatonce。

  `NehmendieHerrschaftenteilanunsererUnterhaltung?\'hesaid,withavigoroussuavity,hisvoicecurlingupinthequestion。

  ThefourEnglishpeoplesmiled,loungingwithanattentiveuneasinessinthemiddleoftheroom。Gerald,whowasspokesman,saidthattheywouldwillinglytakepartintheentertainment。GudrunandUrsula,laughing,excited,felttheeyesofallthemenuponthem,andtheyliftedtheirheadsandlookednowhere,andfeltroyal。

  TheProfessorannouncedthenamesofthosepresent,sansceremonie。Therewasabowingtothewrongpeopleandtotherightpeople。Everybodywasthere,exceptthemanandwife。Thetwotall,clear—skinned,athleticdaughtersoftheprofessor,withtheirplain—cut,darkblueblousesandlodenskirts,theirratherlong,strongnecks,theirclearblueeyesandcarefullybandedhair,andtheirblushes,bowedandstoodback;thethreestudentsbowedverylow,inthehumblehopeofmakinganimpressionofextremegood—breeding;thentherewasathin,dark—skinnedmanwithfulleyes,anoddcreature,likeachild,andlikeatroll,quick,detached;

  hebowedslightly;hiscompanion,alargefairyoungman,stylishlydressed,blushedtotheeyesandbowedverylow。

  Itwasover。

  `HerrLoerkewasgivingusarecitationintheColognedialect,\'saidtheProfessor。

  `Hemustforgiveusforinterruptinghim,\'saidGerald,`weshouldlikeverymuchtohearit。\'

  Therewasinstantlyabowingandanofferingofseats。GudrunandUrsula,GeraldandBirkinsatinthedeepsofasagainstthewall。Theroomwasofnakedoiledpanelling,liketherestofthehouse。Ithadapiano,sofasandchairs,andacoupleoftableswithbooksandmagazines。Initscompleteabsenceofdecoration,saveforthebig,bluestove,itwascosyandpleasant。

  HerrLoerkewasthelittlemanwiththeboyishfigure,andtheround,full,sensitive—lookinghead,andthequick,fulleyes,likeamouse\'s。

  Heglancedswiftlyfromonetotheotherofthestrangers,andheldhimselfaloof。

  `Pleasegoonwiththerecitation,\'saidtheProfessor,suavely,withhisslightauthority。Loerke,whowassittinghunchedonthepianostool,blinkedanddidnotanswer。

  `Itwouldbeagreatpleasure,\'saidUrsula,whohadbeengettingthesentenceready,inGerman,forsomeminutes。

  Then,suddenly,thesmall,unrespondingmanswungaside,towardshispreviousaudienceandbrokeforth,exactlyashehadbrokenoff;inacontrolled,mockingvoice,givinganimitationofaquarrelbetweenanoldColognewomanandarailwayguard。

  Hisbodywasslightandunformed,likeaboy\'s,buthisvoicewasmature,sardonic,itsmovementhadtheflexibilityofessentialenergy,andofamockingpenetratingunderstanding。Gudruncouldnotunderstandawordofhismonologue,butshewasspell—bound,watchinghim。Hemustbeanartist,nobodyelsecouldhavesuchfineadjustmentandsingleness。TheGermansweredoubledupwithlaughter,hearinghisstrangedrollwords,hisdrollphrasesofdialect。Andinthemidstoftheirparoxysms,theyglancedwithdeferenceatthefourEnglishstrangers,theelect。GudrunandUrsulawereforcedtolaugh。Theroomrangwithshoutsoflaughter。

  TheblueeyesoftheProfessor\'sdaughterswereswimmingoverwithlaughter—tears,theirclearcheekswereflushedcrimsonwithmirth,theirfatherbrokeoutinthemostastonishingpealsofhilarity,thestudentsbowedtheirheadsontheirkneesinexcessofjoy。Ursulalookedroundamazed,thelaughterwasbubblingoutofherinvoluntarily。ShelookedatGudrun。Gudrunlookedather,andthetwosistersburstoutlaughing,carriedaway。Loerkeglancedatthemswiftly,withhisfulleyes。Birkinwassniggeringinvoluntarily。

  GeraldCrichsaterect,withaglisteninglookofamusementonhisface。

  Andthelaughtercrashedoutagain,inwildparoxysms,theProfessor\'sdaughterswerereducedtoshakinghelplessness,theveinsoftheProfessor\'sneckwereswollen,hisfacewaspurple,hewasstrangledinultimate,silentspasmsoflaughter。Thestudentswereshoutinghalf—articulatedwordsthattailedoffinhelplessexplosions。Thensuddenlytherapidpatteroftheartistceased,therewerelittlewhoopsofsubsidingmirth,UrsulaandGudrunwerewipingtheireyes,andtheProfessorwascryingloudly。

  `Daswarausgezeichnet,daswarfamos——\'

  `Wirklichfamos,\'echoedhisexhausteddaughters,faintly。

  `Andwecouldn\'tunderstandit,\'criedUrsula。

  `Ohleider,leider!\'criedtheProfessor。

  `Youcouldn\'tunderstandit?\'criedtheStudents,letlooseatlastinspeechwiththenewcomers。`Ja,dasistwirklichschade,dasistschade,gnadigeFrau。WissenSie——\'

  Themixturewasmade,thenewcomerswerestirredintotheparty,likenewingredients,thewholeroomwasalive。Geraldwasinhiselement,hetalkedfreelyandexcitedly,hisfaceglistenedwithastrangeamusement。

  PerhapsevenBirkin,intheend,wouldbreakforth。Hewasshyandwithheld,thoughfullofattention。

  Ursulawasprevailedupontosing`AnnieLowrie,\'astheProfessorcalledit。Therewasahushofextremedeference。Shehadneverbeensoflatteredinherlife。Gudrunaccompaniedheronthepiano,playingfrommemory。

  Ursulahadabeautifulringingvoice,butusuallynoconfidence,shespoiledeverything。Thiseveningshefeltconceitedanduntrammelled。Birkinwaswellinthebackground,sheshonealmostinreaction,theGermansmadeherfeelfineandinfallible,shewasliberatedintooverweeningself—confidence。

  Shefeltlikeabirdflyingintheair,ashervoicesoaredout,enjoyingherselfextremelyinthebalanceandflightofthesong,likethemotionofabird\'swingsthatisupinthewind,slidingandplayingontheair,sheplayedwithsentimentality,supportedbyrapturousattention。Shewasveryhappy,singingthatsongbyherself,fullofaconceitofemotionandpower,workinguponallthosepeople,anduponherself,exertingherselfwithgratification,givingimmeasurablegratificationtotheGermans。

  Attheend,theGermanswerealltouchedwithadmiring,deliciousmelancholy,theypraisedherinsoft,reverentvoices,theycouldnotsaytoomuch。

  `Wieschon,wieruhrend!Ach,dieSchottischenLieder,siehabensovielStimmung!AberdiegnadigeFrauhateinewunderbareStimme;

  diegnadigeFrauistwirklicheineKunstlerin,aberwirklich!\'

  Shewasdilatedandbrilliant,likeaflowerinthemorningsun。ShefeltBirkinlookingather,asifhewerejealousofher,andherbreaststhrilled,herveinswereallgolden。Shewasashappyasthesunthathasjustopenedaboveclouds。Andeverybodyseemedsoadmiringandradiant,itwasperfect。

  Afterdinnershewantedtogooutforaminute,tolookattheworld。

  Thecompanytriedtodissuadeher——itwassoterriblycold。Butjusttolook,shesaid。

  Theyallfourwrappedupwarmly,andfoundthemselvesinavague,unsubstantialoutdoorsofdimsnowandghostsofanupper—world,thatmadestrangeshadowsbeforethestars。Itwasindeedcold,bruisingly,frighteningly,unnaturallycold。Ursulacouldnotbelievetheairinhernostrils。Itseemedconscious,malevolent,purposiveinitsintensemurderouscoldness。

  Yetitwaswonderful,anintoxication,asilenceofdim,unrealisedsnow,oftheinvisibleinterveningbetweenherandthevisible,betweenherandtheflashingstars。ShecouldseeOrionslopingup。Howwonderfulhewas,wonderfulenoughtomakeonecryaloud。

  Andallaroundwasthiscradleofsnow,andtherewasfirmsnowunderfoot,thatstruckwithheavycoldthroughherboot—soles。Itwasnight,andsilence。

  Sheimaginedshecouldhearthestars。Sheimagineddistinctlyshecouldhearthecelestial,musicalmotionofthestars,quitenearathand。Sheseemedlikeabirdflyingamongsttheirharmoniousmotion。

  AndsheclungclosetoBirkin。Suddenlysherealisedshedidnotknowwhathewasthinking。Shedidnotknowwherehewasranging。

  `Mylove!\'shesaid,stoppingtolookathim。

  Hisfacewaspale,hiseyesdark,therewasafaintsparkofstarlightonthem。Andhesawherfacesoftandupturnedtohim,verynear。Hekissedhersoftly。

  `Whatthen?\'heasked。

  `Doyouloveme?\'sheasked。

  `Toomuch,\'heansweredquietly。

  Sheclungalittlecloser。

  `Nottoomuch,\'shepleaded。

  `Fartoomuch,\'hesaid,almostsadly。

  `Anddoesitmakeyousad,thatIameverythingtoyou?\'sheasked,wistful。Heheldherclosetohim,kissingher,andsaying,scarcelyaudible:

  `No,butIfeellikeabeggar——Ifeelpoor。\'

  Shewassilent,lookingatthestarsnow。Thenshekissedhim。

  `Don\'tbeabeggar,\'shepleaded,wistfully。`Itisn\'tignominiousthatyouloveme。\'

  `Itisignominioustofeelpoor,isn\'tit?\'hereplied。

  `Why?Whyshoulditbe?\'sheasked。Heonlystoodstill,intheterriblycoldairthatmovedinvisiblyoverthemountaintops,foldingherroundwithhisarms。

  `Icouldn\'tbearthiscold,eternalplacewithoutyou,\'hesaid。`I

  couldn\'tbearit,itwouldkillthequickofmylife。\'

  Shekissedhimagain,suddenly。

  `Doyouhateit?\'sheasked,puzzled,wondering。

  `IfIcouldn\'tcomeneartoyou,ifyouweren\'there,Ishouldhateit。Icouldn\'tbearit,\'heanswered。

  `Butthepeoplearenice,\'shesaid。

  `Imeanthestillness,thecold,thefrozeneternality,\'hesaid。

  Shewondered。Thenherspiritcamehometohim,nestlingunconsciousinhim。

  `Yes,itisgoodwearewarmandtogether,\'shesaid。

  Andtheyturnedhomeagain。Theysawthegoldenlightsofthehotelglowingoutinthenightofsnow—silence,smallinthehollow,likeaclusterofyellowberries。Itseemedlikeabunchofsun—sparks,tinyandorangeinthemidstofthesnow—darkness。Behind,wasahighshadowofapeak,blottingoutthestars,likeaghost。

  Theydrewneartotheirhome。Theysawamancomefromthedarkbuilding,withalightedlanternwhichswunggolden,andmadethathisdarkfeetwalkedinahaloofsnow。Hewasasmall,darkfigureinthedarkenedsnow。

  Heunlatchedthedoorofanouthouse。Asmellofcows,hot,animal,almostlikebeef,cameoutontheheavilycoldair。Therewasaglimpseoftwocattleintheirdarkstalls,thenthedoorwasshutagain,andnotachinkoflightshowed。IthadremindedUrsulaagainofhome,oftheMarsh,ofherchildhood,andofthejourneytoBrussels,and,strangely,ofAntonSkrebensky。

  Oh,God,couldonebearit,thispastwhichwasgonedowntheabyss?

  Couldshebear,thatiteverhadbeen!Shelookedroundthissilent,upperworldofsnowandstarsandpowerfulcold。Therewasanotherworld,likeviewsonamagiclantern;TheMarsh,Cossethay,Ilkeston,litupwithacommon,unreallight。TherewasashadowyunrealUrsula,awholeshadow—playofanunreallife。Itwasasunreal,andcircumscribed,asamagic—lanternshow。Shewishedtheslidescouldallbebroken。Shewisheditcouldbegoneforever,likealantern—slidewhichwasbroken。Shewantedtohavenopast。Shewantedtohavecomedownfromtheslopesofheaventothisplace,withBirkin,nottohavetoiledoutofthemurkofherchildhoodandherupbringing,slowly,allsoiled。Shefeltthatmemorywasadirtytrickplayeduponher。Whatwasthisdecree,thatsheshould`remember\'!

  Whynotabathofpureoblivion,anewbirth,withoutanyrecollectionsorblemishofapastlife。ShewaswithBirkin,shehadjustcomeintolife,hereinthehighsnow,againstthestars。Whathadshetodowithparentsandantecedents?Sheknewherselfnewandunbegotten,shehadnofather,nomother,noanteriorconnections,shewasherself,pureandsilvery,shebelongedonlytotheonenesswithBirkin,aonenessthatstruckdeepernotes,soundingintotheheartoftheuniverse,theheartofreality,whereshehadneverexistedbefore。

  EvenGudrunwasaseparateunit,separate,separate,havingnothingtodowiththisself,thisUrsula,inhernewworldofreality。Thatoldshadow—world,theactualityofthepast——ah,letitgo!Sherosefreeonthewingsofhernewcondition。

  GudrunandGeraldhadnotcomein。Theyhadwalkedupthevalleystraightinfrontofthehouse,notlikeUrsulaandBirkin,ontothelittlehillattheright。Gudrunwasdrivenbyastrangedesire。Shewantedtoplungeonandon,tillshecametotheendofthevalleyofsnow。Thenshewantedtoclimbthewallofwhitefinality,climbover,intothepeaksthatspranguplikesharppetalsintheheartofthefrozen,mysteriousnaveloftheworld。Shefeltthatthere,overthestrangeblind,terriblewallofrockysnow,thereinthenavelofthemysticworld,amongthefinalclusterofpeaks,there,intheinfoldednavelofitall,washerconsummation。Ifshecouldbutcomethere,alone,andpassintotheinfoldednavelofeternalsnowandofuprising,immortalpeaksofsnowandrock,shewouldbeaonenesswithall,shewouldbeherselftheeternal,infinitesilence,thesleeping,timeless,frozencentreoftheAll。

  Theywentbacktothehouse,totheReunionsaal。Shewascurioustoseewhatwasgoingon。Thementheremadeheralert,rousedhercuriosity。

  Itwasanewtasteoflifeforher,theyweresoprostratebeforeher,yetsofulloflife。

  Thepartywasboisterous;theyweredancingalltogether,dancingtheSchuhplatteln,theTyrolesedanceoftheclappinghandsandtossingthepartnerintheairatthecrisis。TheGermanswereallproficient——theywerefromMunichchiefly。Geraldalsowasquitepassable。Therewerethreezitherstwangingawayinacorner。Itwasasceneofgreatanimationandconfusion。TheProfessorwasinitiatingUrsulaintothedance,stamping,clapping,andswingingherhigh,withamazingforceandzest。WhenthecrisiscameevenBirkinwasbehavingmanfullywithoneoftheProfessor\'sfresh,strongdaughters,whowasexceedinglyhappy。Everybodywasdancing,therewasthemostboisterousturmoil。

  Gudrunlookedonwithdelight。Thesolidwoodenfloorresoundedtotheknockingheelsofthemen,theairquiveredwiththeclappinghandsandthezithermusic,therewasagoldendustaboutthehanginglamps。

  Suddenlythedancefinished,Loerkeandthestudentsrushedouttobringindrinks。Therewasanexcitedclamourofvoices,aclinkingofmug—lids,agreatcryingof`Prosit——Prosit!\'Loerkewaseverywhereatonce,likeagnome,suggestingdrinksforthewomen,makinganobscure,slightlyriskyjokewiththemen,confusingandmystifyingthewaiter。

  HewantedverymuchtodancewithGudrun。Fromthefirstmomenthehadseenher,hewantedtomakeaconnectionwithher。Instinctivelyshefeltthis,andshewaitedforhimtocomeup。Butakindofsulkinesskepthimawayfromher,soshethoughthedislikedher。

  `Willyouschuhplatteln,gnadigeFrau?\'saidthelarge,fairyouth,Loerke\'scompanion。Hewastoosoft,toohumbleforGudrun\'staste。Butshewantedtodance,andthefairyouth,whowascalledLeitner,washandsomeenoughinhisuneasy,slightlyabjectfashion,ahumilitythatcoveredacertainfear。Sheacceptedhimasapartner。

  Thezitherssoundedoutagain,thedancebegan。Geraldledthem,laughing,withoneoftheProfessor\'sdaughters。Ursuladancedwithoneofthestudents,BirkinwiththeotherdaughteroftheProfessor,theProfessorwithFrauKramer,andtherestofthemendancedtogether,withquiteasmuchzestasiftheyhadhadwomenpartners。

  BecauseGudrunhaddancedwiththewell—built,softyouth,hiscompanion,Loerke,wasmorepettishandexasperatedthanever,andwouldnotevennoticeherexistenceintheroom。Thispiquedher,butshemadeuptoherselfbydancingwiththeProfessor,whowasstrongasamature,well—seasonedbull,andasfullofcoarseenergy。Shecouldnotbearhim,critically,andyetsheenjoyedbeingrushedthroughthedance,andtossedupintotheair,onhiscoarse,powerfulimpetus。TheProfessorenjoyedittoo,heeyedherwithstrange,largeblueeyes,fullofgalvanicfire。Shehatedhimfortheseasoned,semi—paternalanimalismwithwhichheregardedher,butsheadmiredhisweightofstrength。

  Theroomwaschargedwithexcitementandstrong,animalemotion。LoerkewaskeptawayfromGudrun,towhomhewantedtospeak,asbyahedgeofthorns,andhefeltasardonicruthlesshatredforthisyounglove—companion,Leitner,whowashispennilessdependent。Hemockedtheyouth,withanacidridicule,thatmadeLeitnerredinthefaceandimpotentwithresentment。

  Gerald,whohadnowgotthedanceperfectly,wasdancingagainwiththeyoungeroftheProfessor\'sdaughters,whowasalmostdyingofvirginexcitement,becauseshethoughtGeraldsohandsome,sosuperb。Hehadherinhispower,asifshewereapalpitatingbird,afluttering,flushing,bewilderedcreature。Anditmadehimsmile,assheshrankconvulsivelybetweenhishands,violently,whenhemustthrowherintotheair。Attheend,shewassoovercomewithprostrateloveforhim,thatshecouldscarcelyspeaksensiblyatall。

  BirkinwasdancingwithUrsula。Therewereoddlittlefiresplayinginhiseyes,heseemedtohaveturnedintosomethingwickedandflickering,mocking,suggestive,quiteimpossible。Ursulawasfrightenedofhim,andfascinated。Clear,beforehereyes,asinavision,shecouldseethesardonic,licentiousmockeryofhiseyes,hemovedtowardsherwithsubtle,animal,indifferentapproach。Thestrangenessofhishands,whichcamequickandcunning,inevitablytothevitalplacebeneathherbreasts,and,liftingwithmocking,suggestiveimpulse,carriedherthroughtheairasifwithoutstrength,throughblackmagic,madeherswoonwithfear。Foramomentsherevolted,itwashorrible。Shewouldbreakthespell。Butbeforetheresolutionhadformedshehadsubmittedagain,yieldedtoherfear。Heknewallthetimewhathewasdoing,shecouldseeitinhissmiling,concentratedeyes。

  Itwashisresponsibility,shewouldleaveittohim。

  Whentheywerealoneinthedarkness,shefeltthestrange,licentiousnessofhimhoveringuponher。Shewastroubledandrepelled。Whyshouldheturnlikethis?

  `Whatisit?\'sheaskedindread。

  Buthisfaceonlyglistenedonher,unknown,horrible。Andyetshewasfascinated。Herimpulsewastorepelhimviolently,breakfromthisspellofmockingbrutishness。Butshewastoofascinated,shewantedtosubmit,shewantedtoknow。Whatwouldhedotoher?

  Hewassoattractive,andsorepulsiveatone。Thesardonicsuggestivitythatflickeredoverhisfaceandlookedfromhisnarrowedeyes,madeherwanttohide,tohideherselfawayfromhimandwatchhimfromsomewhereunseen。

  `Whyareyoulikethis?\'shedemandedagain,rousingagainsthimwithsuddenforceandanimosity。

  Theflickeringfiresinhiseyesconcentratedashelookedintohereyes。Thenthelidsdroopedwithafaintmotionofsatiriccontempt。Thentheyroseagaintothesameremorselesssuggestivity。Andshegaveway,hemightdoashewould。Hislicentiousnesswasrepulsivelyattractive。

  Buthewasself—responsible,shewouldseewhatitwas。

  Theymightdoastheyliked——thissherealisedasshewenttosleep。

  Howcouldanythingthatgaveonesatisfactionbeexcluded?Whatwasdegrading?

  Whocared?Degradingthingswerereal,withadifferentreality。Andhewassounabashedandunrestrained。Wasn\'titratherhorrible,amanwhocouldbesosoulfulandspiritual,nowtobeso——shebalkedatherownthoughtsandmemories:thensheadded——sobestial?Sobestial,theytwo!

  ——sodegraded!Shewinced。Butafterall,whynot?Sheexultedaswell。

  Whynotbebestial,andgothewholeroundofexperience?Sheexultedinit。Shewasbestial。Howgooditwastobereallyshameful!Therewouldbenoshamefulthingshehadnotexperienced。Yetshewasunabashed,shewasherself。Whynot?Shewasfree,whenshekneweverything,andnodarkshamefulthingsweredeniedher。

  Gudrun,whohadbeenwatchingGeraldintheReunionsaal,suddenlythought:

  `Heshouldhaveallthewomenhecan——itishisnature。Itisabsurdtocallhimmonogamous——heisnaturallypromiscuous。Thatishisnature。\'

  Thethoughtcametoherinvoluntarily。Itshockedhersomewhat。ItwasasifshehadseensomenewMene!Mene!uponthewall。Yetitwasmerelytrue。Avoiceseemedtohavespokenittohersoclearly,thatforthemomentshebelievedininspiration。

  `Itisreallytrue,\'shesaidtoherselfagain。

  Sheknewquitewellshehadbelieveditallalong。Sheknewitimplicitly。

  Butshemustkeepitdark——almostfromherself。Shemustkeepitcompletelysecret。Itwasknowledgeforheralone,andscarcelyeventobeadmittedtoherself。

  Thedeepresolveformedinher,tocombathim。Oneofthemmusttriumphovertheother。Whichshoulditbe?Hersoulsteeleditselfwithstrength。

  Almostshelaughedwithinherself,atherconfidence。Itwokeacertainkeen,halfcontemptuouspity,tendernessforhim:shewassoruthless。

  Everybodyretiredearly。TheProfessorandLoerkewentintoasmallloungetodrink。TheybothwatchedGudrungoalongthelandingbytherailingupstairs。

  `EinschonesFrauenzimmer,\'saidtheProfessor。

  `Ja!\'assertedLoerke,shortly。

  Geraldwalkedwithhisqueer,longwolf—stepsacrossthebedroomtothewindow,stoopedandlookedout,thenroseagain,andturnedtoGudrun,hiseyessharpwithanabstractsmile。Heseemedverytalltoher,shesawtheglistenofhiswhitisheyebrows,thatmetbetweenhisbrows。

  `Howdoyoulikeit?\'hesaid。

  Heseemedtobelaughinginsidehimself,quiteunconsciously。Shelookedathim。Hewasaphenomenontoher,notahumanbeing:asortofcreature,greedy。

  `Ilikeitverymuch,\'shereplied。

  `Whodoyoulikebestdownstairs?\'heasked,standingtallandglisteningaboveher,withhisglisteningstiffhairerect。

  `WhodoIlikebest?\'sherepeated,wantingtoanswerhisquestion,andfindingitdifficulttocollectherself。`WhyIdon\'tknow,Idon\'tknowenoughaboutthemyet,tobeabletosay。Whodoyoulikebest?\'

  `Oh,Idon\'tcare——Idon\'tlikeordislikeanyofthem。Itdoesn\'tmatteraboutme。Iwantedtoknowaboutyou。\'

  `Butwhy?\'sheasked,goingratherpale。Theabstract,unconscioussmileinhiseyeswasintensified。

  `Iwantedtoknow,\'hesaid。

  Sheturnedaside,breakingthespell。Insomestrangeway,shefelthewasgettingpoweroverher。

  `Well,Ican\'ttellyoualready,\'shesaid。

  Shewenttothemirrortotakeoutthehairpinsfromherhair。Shestoodbeforethemirroreverynightforsomeminutes,brushingherfinedarkhair。Itwaspartoftheinevitableritualofherlife。

  Hefollowedher,andstoodbehindher。Shewasbusywithbenthead,takingoutthepinsandshakingherwarmhairloose。Whenshelookedup,shesawhimintheglassstandingbehindher,watchingunconsciously,notconsciouslyseeingher,andyetwatching,withfinepupilledeyesthatseemedtosmile,andwhichwerenotreallysmiling。

  Shestarted。Ittookallhercourageforhertocontinuebrushingherhair,asusual,forhertopretendshewasatherease。Shewasfar,farfrombeingathereasewithhim。Shebeatherbrainswildlyforsomethingtosaytohim。

  `Whatareyourplansfortomorrow?\'sheaskednonchalantly,whilstherheartwasbeatingsofuriously,hereyesweresobrightwithstrangenervousness,shefelthecouldnotbutobserve。Butsheknewalsothathewascompletelyblind,blindasawolflookingather。Itwasastrangebattlebetweenherordinaryconsciousnessandhisuncanny,black—artconsciousness。

  `Idon\'tknow,\'hereplied,`whatwouldyouliketodo?\'

  Hespokeemptily,hismindwassunkaway。

  `Oh,\'shesaid,witheasyprotestation,`I\'mreadyforanything——anythingwillbefineforme,I\'msure。\'

  Andtoherselfshewassaying:`God,whyamIsonervous——whyareyousonervous,youfool。IfheseesitI\'mdoneforforever——youknowyou\'redoneforforever,ifheseestheabsurdstateyou\'rein。\'

  Andshesmiledtoherselfasifitwereallchild\'splay。Meanwhileherheartwasplunging,shewasalmostfainting。Shecouldseehim,inthemirror,ashestoodtherebehindher,tallandover—arching——blondandterriblyfrightening。Sheglancedathisreflectionwithfurtiveeyes,willingtogiveanythingtosavehimfromknowingshecouldseehim。Hedidnotknowshecouldseehisreflection。Hewaslookingunconsciously,glisteninglydownatherhead,fromwhichthehairfellloose,asshebrusheditwithwild,nervoushand。Sheheldherheadasideandbrushedandbrushedherhairmadly。Forherlife,shecouldnotturnroundandfacehim。Forherlife,shecouldnot。Andtheknowledgemadeheralmostsinktothegroundinafaint,helpless,spent。Shewasawareofhisfrightening,impendingfigurestandingclosebehindher,shewasawareofhishard,strong,unyieldingchest,closeuponherback。Andshefeltshecouldnotbearitanymore,inafewminutesshewouldfalldownathisfeet,grovellingathisfeet,andlettinghimdestroyher。

  Thethoughtprickedupallhersharpintelligenceandpresenceofmind。

  Shedarednotturnroundtohim——andtherehestoodmotionless,unbroken。

  Summoningallherstrength,shesaid,inafull,resonant,nonchalantvoice,thatwasforcedoutwithallherremainingself—control:

  `Oh,wouldyoumindlookinginthatbagbehindthereandgivingmemy——\'

  Hereherpowerfellinert。`Mywhat——mywhat——?\'shescreamedinsilencetoherself。

  Buthehadstartedround,surprisedandstartledthatsheshouldaskhimtolookinherbag,whichshealwayskeptsoveryprivatetoherself。

  Sheturnednow,herfacewhite,herdarkeyesblazingwithuncanny,overwroughtexcitement。Shesawhimstoopingtothebag,undoingthelooselybuckledstrap,unattentive。

  `Yourwhat?\'heasked。

  `Oh,alittleenamelbox——yellow——withadesignofacormorantpluckingherbreast——\'

  Shewenttowardshim,stoopingherbeautiful,barearm,anddeftlyturnedsomeofherthings,disclosingthebox,whichwasexquisitelypainted。

  `Thatisit,see,\'shesaid,takingitfromunderhiseyes。

  Andhewasbafflednow。Hewaslefttofastenupthebag,whilstsheswiftlydidupherhairforthenight,andsatdowntounfastenhershoes。

  Shewouldnotturnherbacktohimanymore。

  Hewasbaffled,frustrated,butunconscious。Shehadthewhiphandoverhimnow。Sheknewhehadnotrealisedherterriblepanic。Herheartwasbeatingheavilystill。Fool,foolthatshewas,togetintosuchastate!

  HowshethankedGodforGerald\'sobtuseblindness。ThankGodhecouldseenothing。

  Shesatslowlyunlacinghershoes,andhetoocommencedtoundress。

  ThankGodthatcrisiswasover。Shefeltalmostfondofhimnow,almostinlovewithhim。

  `Ah,Gerald,\'shelaughed,caressively,teasingly,`Ah,whatafinegameyouplayedwiththeProfessor\'sdaughter——didn\'tyounow?\'

  `Whatgame?\'heasked,lookinground。

  `Isn\'tsheinlovewithyou——ohdear,isn\'tsheinlovewithyou!\'saidGudrun,inhergayest,mostattractivemood。

  `Ishouldn\'tthinkso,\'hesaid。

  `Shouldn\'tthinkso!\'sheteased。`Whythepoorgirlislyingatthismomentoverwhelmed,dyingwithloveforyou。Shethinksyou\'rewonderful——ohmarvellous,beyondwhatmanhaseverbeen。Really,isn\'titfunny?\'

  `Whyfunny,whatisfunny?\'heasked。

  `Whytoseeyouworkingitonher,\'shesaid,withahalfreproachthatconfusedthemaleconceitinhim。`ReallyGerald,thepoorgirl——!\'

  `Ididnothingtoher,\'hesaid。

  `Oh,itwastooshameful,thewayyousimplysweptheroffherfeet。\'

  `ThatwasSchuhplatteln,\'hereplied,withabrightgrin。

  `Ha——ha——ha!\'laughedGudrun。

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