\"Ihavebutoneaunt——and——andIhaveanotheruseforthemoney，mylord，\"saysmylady，turningveryred。
\"Anotheruse，mydear;andwhatdoyouknowaboutmoney？\"criesmylord。\"AndwhatthedevilistherethatIdon\'tgiveyouwhichyouwant！\"
\"Iintendtogivethismoney——can\'tyoufancyhow，mylord？\"
Mylordsworeoneofhislargeoathsthathedidnotknowintheleastwhatshemeant。
\"IintenditforHarryEsmondtogotocollege。CousinHarry，\"
saysmylady，\"youmustn\'tstaylongerinthisdullplace，butmakeanametoyourself，andforustoo，Harry。\"
\"D——nit，Harry\'swellenoughhere，\"saysmylord，foramomentlookingrathersulky。
\"IsHarrygoingaway？Youdon\'tmeantosayyouwillgoaway？\"cryoutFrankandBeatrixatonebreath。
\"Buthewillcomeback:andthiswillalwaysbehishome，\"criesmylady，withblueeyeslookingacelestialkindness:\"andhisscholarswillalwayslovehim;won\'tthey？\"
\"ByG—d，Rachel，you\'reagoodwoman！\"saysmylord，seizingmylady\'shand，atwhichsheblushedverymuch，andshrankback，puttingherchildrenbeforeher。\"Iwishyoujoy，mykinsman，\"hecontinued，givingHarryEsmondaheartyslapontheshoulder。\"I
won\'tbalkyourluck。GotoCambridge，boy，andwhenTusherdiesyoushallhavethelivinghere，ifyouarenotbetterprovidedbythattime。We\'llfurnishthedining—roomandbuythehorsesanotheryear。I\'llgivetheeanagoutofthestable:takeanyoneexceptmyhackandthebaygeldingandthecoach—horses;andGodspeedthee，myboy！\"
\"Havethesorrel，Harry;\'tisagoodone。Fathersays\'tisthebestinthestable，\"sayslittleFrank，clappinghishands，andjumpingup。\"Let\'scomeandseehiminthestable。\"Andtheother，inhisdelightandeagerness，wasforleavingtheroomthatinstanttoarrangeabouthisjourney。
TheLadyCastlewoodlookedafterhimwithsadpenetratingglances。
\"Hewishestobegonealready，mylord，\"saidshetoherhusband。
Theyoungmanhungbackabashed。\"Indeed，Iwouldstayforever，ifyourladyshipbademe，\"hesaid。
\"Andthouwouldstbeafoolforthypains，kinsman，\"saidmylord。
\"Tut，tut，man。Goandseetheworld。Sowthywildoats;andtakethebestluckthatFatesendsthee。IwishIwereaboyagain，thatImightgotocollege，andtastetheTrumpingtonale。\"
\"Ours，indeed，isbutadullhome，\"criesmylady，withalittleofsadnessand，maybe，ofsatire，inhervoice:\"anoldglumhouse，halfruined，andtherestonlyhalffurnished;awomanandtwochildrenarebutpoorcompanyformenthatareaccustomedtobetter。Weareonlyfittobeyourworship\'shandmaids，andyourpleasuresmustofnecessitylieelsewherethanathome。\"
\"Curseme，Rachel，ifIknownowwhetherthouartinearnestornot，\"saidmylord。
\"Inearnest，mylord！\"saysshe，stillclingingbyoneofherchildren。\"Istheremuchsubjecthereforjoke？\"Andshemadehimagrandcurtsy，and，givingastatelylooktoHarryEsmond，whichseemedtosay，\"Remember;youunderstandme，thoughhedoesnot，\"
shelefttheroomwithherchildren。
\"SinceshefoundoutthatconfoundedHextonbusiness，\"mylordsaid——\"andbehangedtothemthattoldher！——shehasnotbeenthesamewoman。She，whousedtobeashumbleasamilkmaid，isasproudasaprincess，\"saysmylord。\"Takemycounsel，HarryEsmond，andkeepclearofwomen。SinceIhavehadanythingtodowiththejades，theyhavegivenmenothingbutdisgust。IhadawifeatTangier，withwhom，asshecouldn\'tspeakawordofmylanguage，you\'dhavethoughtImightleadaquietlife。Butshetriedtopoisonme，becauseshewasjealousofaJewgirl。Therewasyouraunt，forauntsheis——auntJezebel，aprettylifeyourfatherledwithHER！andhere\'smylady。WhenIsawheronapillion，ridingbehindtheDeanherfather，shelookedandwassuchababy，thatasixpennydollmighthavepleasedher。Andnowyouseewhatsheis——handsoff，highty—tighty，highandmighty，anempresscouldn\'tbegrander。Passusthetankard，Harrymyboy。A
mugofbeerandatoastatmorn，saysmyhost。Atoastandamugofbeeratnoon，saysmydear。D——nit，Pollylovesamugofale，too，andlacedwithbrandy，byJove！\"Indeed，Isupposetheydrankittogether;formylordwasoftenthickinhisspeechatmid—daydinner;andatnightatsupper，speechlessaltogether。
HarryEsmond\'sdepartureresolvedupon，itseemedasiftheLadyCastlewood，too，rejoicedtolosehim;formorethanonce，whenthelad，ashamedperhapsathisownsecreteagernesstogoaway（atanyratestrickenwithsadnessattheideaofleavingthosefromwhomhehadreceivedsomanyproofsofloveandkindnessinestimable），triedtoexpresstohismistresshissenseofgratitudetoher，andhissorrowatquittingthosewhohadsoshelteredandtendedanamelessandhouselessorphan，LadyCastlewoodcutshorthisprotestsofloveandhislamentations，andwouldhearofnogrief，butonlylookforwardtoHarry\'sfameandprospectsinlife。\"Ourlittlelegacywillkeepyouforfouryearslikeagentleman。
Heaven\'sProvidence，yourowngenius，industry，honor，mustdotherestforyou。Castlewoodwillalwaysbeahomeforyou;andthesechildren，whomyouhavetaughtandloved，willnotforgettoloveyou。And，Harry，\"saidshe（andthiswastheonlytimewhenshespokewithatearinhereye，oratremorinhervoice），\"itmayhappeninthecourseofnaturethatIshallbecalledawayfromthem:andtheirfather——and——andtheywillneedtruefriendsandprotectors。Promisemethatyouwillbetruetothem——as——asI
thinkIhavebeentoyou——andamother\'sfondprayerandblessinggowithyou。\"
\"SohelpmeGod，madam，Iwill，\"saidHarryEsmond，fallingonhisknees，andkissingthehandofhisdearestmistress。\"Ifyouwillhavemestaynow，Iwill。WhatmatterswhetherornoImakemywayinlife，orwhetherapoorbastarddiesasunknownasheisnow？
\'TisenoughthatIhaveyourloveandkindnesssurely;andtomakeyouhappyisdutyenoughforme。\"
\"Happy！\"saysshe;\"butindeedIoughttobe，withmychildren，and——\"
\"Nothappy！\"criedEsmond（forheknewwhatherlifewas，thoughheandhismistressneverspokeawordconcerningit）。\"Ifnothappiness，itmaybeease。Letmestayandworkforyou——letmestayandbeyourservant。\"
\"Indeed，youarebestaway，\"saidmylady，laughing，assheputherhandontheboy\'sheadforamoment。\"Youshallstayinnosuchdullplace。Youshallgotocollegeanddistinguishyourselfasbecomesyourname。Thatishowyoushallpleasemebest;and——andifmychildrenwantyou，orIwantyou，youshallcometous;andI
knowwemaycountonyou。\"
\"Mayheavenforsakemeifyoumaynot！\"Harrysaid，gettingupfromhisknee。
\"Andmyknightlongsforadragonthisinstantthathemayfight，\"
saidmylady，laughing;whichspeechmadeHarryEsmondstart，andturnred;forindeedtheverythoughtwasinhismind，thathewouldlikethatsomechanceshouldimmediatelyhappenwherebyhemightshowhisdevotion。Anditpleasedhimtothinkthathisladyhadcalledhim\"herknight，\"andoftenandoftenherecalledthistohismind，andprayedthathemightbehertrueknight，too。
Mylady\'sbed—chamberwindowlookedoutoverthecountry，andyoucouldseefromitthepurplehillsbeyondCastlewoodvillage，thegreencommonbetwixtthatandtheHall，andtheoldbridgewhichcrossedovertheriver。WhenHarryEsmondwentawayforCambridge，littleFrankranalongsidehishorseasfarasthebridge，andthereHarrystoppedforamoment，andlookedbackatthehousewherethebestpartofhislifehadbeenpassed。Itlaybeforehimwithitsgrayfamiliartowers，apinnacleortwoshininginthesun，thebuttressesandterracewallscastinggreatblueshadesonthegrass。AndHarryremembered，allhislifeafter，howhesawhismistressatthewindowlookingoutonhiminawhiterobe，thelittleBeatrix\'schestnutcurlsrestingathermother\'sside。Bothwavedafarewelltohim，andlittleFranksobbedtoleavehim。
Yes，heWOULDbehislady\'strueknight，hevowedinhisheart;hewavedheranadieuwithhishat。ThevillagepeoplehadGood—bytosaytohimtoo。AllknewthatMasterHarrywasgoingtocollege，andmostofthemhadakindwordandalookoffarewell。Idonotstoptosaywhatadventureshebegantoimagine，orwhatcareertodeviseforhimselfbeforehehadriddenthreemilesfromhome。HehadnotreadMonsieurGalland\'singeniousArabiantalesasyet;butbesurethatthereareotherfolkswhobuildcastlesintheair，andhavefinehopes，andkickthemdowntoo，besideshonestAlnaschar。
CHAPTERX。
IGOTOCAMBRIDGE，ANDDOBUTLITTLEGOODTHERE。
Mrlord，whosaidheshouldliketorevisittheoldhauntsofhisyouth，kindlyaccompaniedHarryEsmondinhisfirstjourneytoCambridge。TheirroadlaythroughLondon，wheremyLordViscountwouldalsohaveHarrystayafewdaystoshowhimthepleasuresofthetownbeforeheentereduponhisuniversitystudies，andwhilsthereHarry\'spatronconductedtheyoungmantomyLadyDowager\'shouseatChelseynearLondon:thekindladyatCastlewoodhavingspeciallyorderedthattheyounggentlemanandtheoldshouldpayarespectfulvisitinthatquarter。
HerladyshiptheViscountessDowageroccupiedahandsomenewhouseinChelsey，withagardenbehindit，andfacingtheriver，alwaysabrightandanimatedsightwithitsswarmsofsailors，barges，andwherries。Harrylaughedatrecognizingintheparlorthewell—
rememberedoldpieceofSirPeterLely，whereinhisfather\'swidowwasrepresentedasavirginhuntress，armedwithagiltbow—and—
arrow，andencumberedonlywiththatsmallquantityofdraperywhichitwouldseemthevirginsinKingCharles\'sdaywereaccustomedtowear。
MyLadyDowagerhadleftoffthispeculiarhabitofhuntresswhenshemarried。Butthoughshewasnowconsiderablypastsixtyyearsofage，IbelieveshethoughtthatairynymphofthepicturecouldstillbeeasilyrecognizedinthevenerablepersonagewhogaveanaudiencetoHarryandhispatron。
Shereceivedtheyoungmanwithevenmorefavorthansheshowedtotheelder，forshechosetocarryontheconversationinFrench，inwhichmyLordCastlewoodwasnogreatproficient，andexpressedhersatisfactionatfindingthatMr。Esmondcouldspeakfluentlyinthatlanguage。\"\'Twastheonlyonefitforpoliteconversation，\"
shecondescendedtosay，\"andsuitabletopersonsofhighbreeding。\"
Mylordlaughedafterwards，asthegentlemenwentaway，athiskinswoman\'sbehavior。HesaidherememberedthetimewhenshecouldspeakEnglishfastenough，andjokedinhisjollywayatthelosshehadhadofsuchalovelywifeasthat。
MyLadyViscountessdeignedtoaskhislordshipnewsofhiswifeandchildren;shehadheardthatLadyCastlewoodhadhadthesmall—
pox;shehopedshewasnotsoVERYmuchdisfiguredaspeoplesaid。
Atthisremarkabouthiswife\'smalady，myLordViscountwincedandturnedred;buttheDowager，inspeakingofthedisfigurementoftheyounglady，turnedtoherlooking—glassandexaminedheroldwrinkledcountenanceinitwithsuchagrinofsatisfaction，thatitwasallherguestscoulddotorefrainfromlaughinginherancientface。
SheaskedHarrywhathisprofessionwastobe;andmylord，sayingthattheladwastotakeorders，andhavethelivingofCastlewoodwhenoldDr。Tushervacatedit，shedidnotseemtoshowanyparticularangeratthenotionofHarry\'sbecomingaChurchofEnglandclergyman，nay，wasrathergladthanotherwise，thattheyouthshouldbesoprovidedfor。ShebadeMr。EsmondnottoforgettopayheravisitwheneverhepassedthroughLondon，andcarriedhergraciousnesssofarastosendapursewithtwentyguineasforhim，tothetavernatwhichmylordputup（the\"Greyhound，\"inCharingCross）;and，alongwiththiswelcomegiftforherkinsman，shesentalittledollforapresenttomylord\'slittledaughterBeatrix，whowasgrowingbeyondtheageofdollsbythistime，andwasastallalmostashervenerablerelative。
Afterseeingthetown，andgoingtotheplays，myLordCastlewoodandEsmondrodetogethertoCambridge，spendingtwopleasantdaysuponthejourney。Thoserapidnewcoacheswerenotestablished，asyet，thatperformedthewholejourneybetweenLondonandtheUniversityinasingleday;however，theroadwaspleasantandshortenoughtoHarryEsmond，andhealwaysgratefullyrememberedthathappyholidaywhichhiskindpatrongavehim。
Mr。EsmondwasenteredapensionerofTrinityCollegeinCambridge，towhichfamouscollegemylordhadalsoinhisyouthbelonged。
Dr。Montaguewasmasteratthistime，andreceivedmyLordViscountwithgreatpoliteness:sodidMr。Bridge，whowasappointedtobeHarry\'stutor。TomTusher，whowasofEmanuelCollege，andwasbythistimeajuniorsoph，cametowaituponmylord，andtotakeHarryunderhisprotection;andcomfortableroomsbeingprovidedforhiminthegreatcourtclosebythegate，andneartothefamousMr。Newton\'slodgings，Harry\'spatrontookleaveofhimwithmanykindwordsandblessings，andanadmonitiontohimtobehavebetterattheUniversitythanmylordhimselfhadeverdone。
\'TisneedlessinthesememoirstogoatanylengthintotheparticularsofHarryEsmond\'scollegecareer。Itwaslikethatofahundredyounggentlemenofthatday。Buthehadtheillfortunetobeolderbyacoupleofyearsthanmostofhisfellow—students;
andbyhisprevioussolitarymodeofbringingup，thecircumstancesofhislife，andthepeculiarthoughtfulnessandmelancholythathadnaturallyengendered，hewas，inagreatmeasure，cutofffromthesocietyofcomradeswhoweremuchyoungerandhigher—spiritedthanhe。Histutor，whohadboweddowntotheground，ashewalkedmylordoverthecollegegrass—plats，changedhisbehaviorassoonasthenobleman\'sbackwasturned，andwas——atleastHarrythoughtso——harshandoverbearing。Whentheladsusedtoassembleintheirgregesinhall，Harryfoundhimselfaloneinthemidstofthatlittleflockofboys;theyraisedagreatlaughathimwhenhewassetontoreadLatin，whichhedidwiththeforeignpronunciationtaughttohimbyhisoldmaster，theJesuit，thanwhichheknewnoother。Mr。Bridge，thetutor，madehimtheobjectofclumsyjokes，inwhichhewasfondofindulging。Theyoungman\'sspiritwaschafed，andhisvanitymortified;andhefoundhimself，forsometime，aslonelyinthisplaceaseverhehadbeenatCastlewood，whitherhelongedtoreturn。Hisbirthwasasourceofshametohim，andhefanciedahundredslightsandsneersfromyoungandold，who，nodoubt，hadtreatedhimbetterhadhemetthemhimselfmorefrankly。Andashelooksback，incalmerdays，uponthisperiodofhislife，whichhethoughtsounhappy，hecanseethathisownprideandvanitycausednosmallpartofthemortificationswhichheattributedtoother\'sillwill。Theworlddealsgood—
naturedlywithgood—naturedpeople，andIneverknewasulkymisanthropistwhoquarrelledwithit，butitwashe，andnotit，thatwasinthewrong。TomTushergaveHarryplentyofgoodadviceonthissubject，forTomhadbothgoodsenseandgoodhumor;butMr。Harrychosetotreathisseniorwithagreatdealofsuperfluousdisdainandabsurdscorn，andwouldbynomeanspartfromhisdarlinginjuries，inwhich，verylikely，nomanbelievedbuthimself。AsforhonestDoctorBridge，thetutorfound，afterafewtrialsofwitwiththepupil，thattheyoungmanwasanuglysubjectforwit，andthatthelaughwasoftenturnedagainsthim。
Thisdidnotmaketutorandpupilanybetterfriends;buthad，sofar，anadvantageforEsmond，thatMr。Bridgewasinducedtoleavehimalone;andsolongashekepthischapels，anddidthecollegeexercisesrequiredofhim，BridgewascontentnottoseeHarry\'sglumfaceinhisclass，andtoleavehimtoreadandsulkforhimselfinhisownchamber。
ApoemortwoinLatinandEnglish，whichwerepronouncedtohavesomemerit，andaLatinoration，（forMr。Esmondcouldwritethatlanguagebetterthanpronounceit，）gothimalittlereputationbothwiththeauthoritiesoftheUniversityandamongsttheyoungmen，withwhomhebegantopassformorethanhewasworth。Afewvictoriesovertheircommonenemy，Mr。Bridge，madetheminclinetowardshim，andlookuponhimasthechampionoftheirorderagainsttheseniors。Suchoftheladsashetookintohisconfidencefoundhimnotsogloomyandhaughtyashisappearanceledthemtobelieve;andDonDismallo，ashewascalled，becamepresentlyapersonofsomelittleimportanceinhiscollege，andwas，ashebelieves，setdownbytheseniorsthereasratheradangerouscharacter。
DonDismallowasastaunchyoungJacobite，liketherestofhisfamily;gavehimselfmanyabsurdairsofloyalty;usedtoinviteyoungfriendstoBurgundy，andgivetheKing\'shealthonKingJames\'sbirthday;woreblackonthedayofhisabdication;fastedontheanniversaryofKingWilliam\'scoronation;andperformedathousandabsurdantics，ofwhichhesmilesnowtothink。
ThesefolliescausedmanyremonstrancesonTomTusher\'spart，whowasalwaysafriendtothepowersthatbe，asEsmondwasalwaysinoppositiontothem。TomwasaWhig，whileEsmondwasaTory。Tomnevermissedalecture，andcappedtheproctorwiththeprofoundestofbows。NowonderhesighedoverHarry\'sinsubordinatecourses，andwasangrywhentheotherslaughedathim。ButthatHarrywasknowntohavemyLordViscount\'sprotection，Tomnodoubtwouldhavebrokenwithhimaltogether。ButhonestTomnevergaveupacomradeaslongashewasthefriendofagreatman。ThiswasnotoutofschemingonTom\'spart，butanaturalinclinationtowardsthegreat。\'Twasnohypocrisyinhimtoflatter，butthebentofhismind，whichwasalwaysperfectlygood—humored，obliging，andservile。
Harryhadveryliberalallowances，forhisdearmistressofCastlewoodnotonlyregularlysuppliedhim，buttheDowagerofChelseymadeherdonationannual，andreceivedEsmondatherhousenearLondoneveryChristmas;but，inspiteofthesebenefactions，Esmondwasconstantlypoor;whilst\'twasawonderwithhowsmallastipendfromhisfatherTomTushercontrivedtomakeagoodfigure。
\'TistruethatHarrybothspent，gave，andlenthismoneyveryfreely，whichThomasneverdid。IthinkhewaslikethefamousDukeofMarlboroughinthisinstance，who，gettingapresentoffiftypieces，whenayoungman，fromsomefoolishwomanwhofellinlovewithhisgoodlooks，showedthemoneytoCadoganinadrawerscoresofyearsafter，whereithadlaineversincehehadsoldhisbeardlesshonortoprocureit。IdonotmeantosaythatTomeverletouthisgoodlookssoprofitably，fornaturehadnotendowedhimwithanyparticularcharmsofperson，andheeverwasapatternofmoralbehavior，losingnoopportunityofgivingtheverybestadvicetohisyoungercomrade;withwhicharticle，todohimjustice，hepartedveryfreely。Notbutthathewasamerryfellow，too，inhisway;helovedajoke，ifbygoodfortuneheunderstoodit，andtookhissharegenerouslyofabottleifanotherpaidforit，andespeciallyiftherewasayounglordincompanytodrinkit。InthesecasestherewasnotaharderdrinkerintheUniversitythanMr。Tushercouldbe;anditwasedifyingtobeholdhim，freshshavedandwithsmugface，singingout\"Amen！\"atearlychapelinthemorning。Inhisreading，poorHarrypermittedhimselftogoa—gaddingafteralltheNineMuses，andsoverylikelyhadbutlittlefavorfromanyoneofthem;whereasTomTusher，whohadnomoreturnforpoetrythanaploughboy，nevertheless，byadoggedperseveranceandobsequiousnessincourtingthedivineCalliope，gothimselfaprize，andsomecreditintheUniversity，andafellowshipathiscollege，asarewardforhisscholarship。InthistimeofMr。Esmond\'slife，hegotthelittlereadingwhichheevercouldboastof，andpassedagoodpartofhisdaysgreedilydevouringallthebooksonwhichhecouldlayhand。InthisdesultorywaytheworksofmostoftheEnglish，French，andItalianpoetscameunderhiseyes，andhehadasmatteringoftheSpanishtonguelikewise，besidestheancientlanguages，ofwhich，atleastofLatin，hewasatolerablemaster。
Then，aboutmidwayinhisUniversitycareer，hefelltoreadingfortheprofessiontowhichworldlyprudenceratherthaninclinationcalledhim，andwasperfectlybewilderedintheologicalcontroversy。Inthecourseofhisreading（whichwasneitherpursuedwiththatseriousnessorthatdevoutmindwhichsuchastudyrequires）theyouthfoundhimselfattheendofonemonthaPapist，andwasabouttoproclaimhisfaith;thenextmonthaProtestant，withChillingworth;andthethirdasceptic，withHobbesandBayle。WhereashonestTomTusherneverpermittedhismindtostrayoutoftheprescribedUniversitypath，acceptedtheThirty—nineArticleswithallhisheart，andwouldhavesignedandsworntoothernine—and—thirtywithentireobedience。Harry\'swilfulnessinthismatter，anddisorderlythoughtsandconversation，soshockedandafflictedhissenior，thattheregrewupacoldnessandestrangementbetweenthem，sothattheybecamescarcemorethanmereacquaintances，fromhavingbeenintimatefriendswhentheycametocollegefirst。Politicsranhigh，too，attheUniversity;andhere，also，theyoungmenwereatvariance。
Tomprofessedhimself，albeitahigh—churchman，astrongKingWilliam\'s—man;whereasHarrybroughthisfamilyTorypoliticstocollegewithhim，towhichhemustaddadangerousadmirationforOliverCromwell，whoseside，orKingJames\'sbyturns，heoftenchosetotakeinthedisputeswhichtheyounggentlemenusedtoholdineachother\'srooms，wheretheydebatedonthestateofthenation，crownedanddeposedkings，andtoastedpastandpresentheroesandbeautiesinflagonsofcollegeale。
Thus，eitherfromthecircumstancesofhisbirth，orthenaturalmelancholyofhisdisposition，EsmondcametoliveverymuchbyhimselfduringhisstayattheUniversity，havingneitherambitionenoughtodistinguishhimselfinthecollegecareer，norcaringtominglewiththemerepleasuresandboyishfrolicsofthestudents，whowere，forthemostpart，twoorthreeyearsyoungerthanhe。
Hefanciedthatthegentlemenofthecommon—roomofhiscollegeslightedhimonaccountofhisbirth，andhencekeptalooffromtheirsociety。Itmaybethathemadetheillwill，whichheimaginedcamefromthem，byhisownbehavior，which，ashelooksbackonitinafterlife，henowseeswasmoroseandhaughty。Atanyrate，hewasastenderlygratefulforkindnessashewassusceptibleofslightandwrong;and，lonelyashewasgenerally，yethadoneortwoverywarmfriendshipsforhiscompanionsofthosedays。
OneofthesewasaqueergentlemanthatresidedintheUniversity，thoughhewasnomemberofit，andwastheprofessorofasciencescarcerecognizedinthecommoncourseofcollegeeducation。ThiswasaFrenchrefugee—officer，whohadbeendrivenoutofhisnativecountryatthetimeoftheProtestantpersecutionsthere，andwhocametoCambridge，wherehetaughtthescienceofthesmall—sword，andsetupasaloon—of—arms。ThoughhedeclaredhimselfaProtestant，\'twassaidMr。MoreauwasaJesuitindisguise;indeed，hebroughtverystrongrecommendationstotheToryparty，whichwasprettystronginthatUniversity，andverylikelywasoneofthemanyagentswhomKingJameshadinthiscountry。Esmondfoundthisgentleman\'sconversationverymuchmoreagreeableandtohistastethanthetalkofthecollegedivinesinthecommon—room;heneverweariedofMoreau\'sstoriesofthewarsofTurenneandConde，inwhichhehadborneapart;andbeingfamiliarwiththeFrenchtonguefromhisyouth，andinaplacewherebutfewspokeit，hiscompanybecameveryagreeabletothebraveoldprofessorofarms，whosefavoritepupilhewas，andwhomadeMr。Esmondaverytolerableproficientinthenoblescienceofescrime。
AtthenexttermEsmondwastotakehisdegreeofBachelorofArts，andafterwards，inproperseason，toassumethecassockandbandswhichhisfondmistresswouldhavehimwear。TomTusherhimselfwasaparsonandafellowofhiscollegebythistime;andHarryfeltthathewouldverygladlycedehisrighttothelivingofCastlewoodtoTom，andthathisowncallingwasinnowaytothepulpit。Butashewasbound，beforeallthingsintheworld，tohisdearmistressathome，andknewthatarefusalonhispartwouldgrieveher，hedeterminedtogivehernohintofhisunwillingnesstotheclericaloffice:anditwasinthisunsatisfactorymoodofmindthathewenttospendthelastvacationheshouldhaveatCastlewoodbeforehetookorders。
CHAPTERXI。
ICOMEHOMEFORAHOLIDAYTOCASTLEWOOD，ANDFINDASKELETONINTHE
HOUSE。
Athisthirdlongvacation，EsmondcameasusualtoCastlewood，alwaysfeelinganeagerthrillofpleasurewhenhefoundhimselfoncemoreinthehousewherehehadpassedsomanyyears，andbeheldthekindfamiliareyesofhismistresslookinguponhim。
Sheandherchildren（outofwhosecompanyshescarceeversawhim）
cametogreethim。MissBeatrixwasgrownsotallthatHarrydidnotquiteknowwhetherhemightkissherorno;andsheblushedandheldbackwhenheofferedthatsalutation，thoughshetookit，andevencourtedit，whentheywerealone。Theyounglordwasshootinguptobelikehisgallantfatherinlook，thoughwithhismother\'skindeyes:theladyofCastlewoodherselfseemedgrown，too，sinceHarrysawher——inherlookmorestately，inherpersonfuller，inherfacestillasevermosttenderandfriendly，agreaterairofcommandanddecisionthanhadappearedinthatguilelesssweetcountenancewhichHarryrememberedsogratefully。Thetoneofhervoicewassomuchdeeperandsadderwhenshespokeandwelcomedhim，thatitquitestartledEsmond，wholookedupathersurprisedasshespoke，whenshewithdrewhereyesfromhim;nordidsheeverlookathimafterwardswhenhisowneyesweregazinguponher。A
somethinghintingatgriefandsecret，andfillinghismindwithalarmundefinable，seemedtospeakwiththatlowthrillingvoiceofhers，andlookoutofthoseclearsadeyes。HergreetingtoEsmondwassocoldthatitalmostpainedthelad，（whowouldhavelikedtofallonhisknees，andkisstheskirtofherrobe，sofondandardentwashisrespectandregardforher，）andhefalteredinansweringthequestionswhichshe，hesitatingonherside，begantoputtohim。WashehappyatCambridge？Didhestudytoohard？
Shehopednot。Hehadgrownverytall，andlookedverywell。
\"Hehasgotamoustache！\"criesoutMasterEsmond。
\"WhydoeshenotwearaperukelikemyLordMohun？\"askedMissBeatrix。\"Mylordsaysthatnobodywearstheirownhair。\"
\"Ibelieveyouwillhavetooccupyyouroldchamber，\"saysmylady。
\"Ihopethehousekeeperhasgotitready。\"
\"Why，mamma，youhavebeentheretentimesthesethreedaysyourself！\"exclaimsFrank。
\"Andshecutsomeflowerswhichyouplantedinmygarden——doyouremember，eversomanyyearsago？whenIwasquitealittlegirl，\"
criesoutMissBeatrix，ontiptoe。\"Andmammaputtheminyourwindow。\"
\"Irememberwhenyougrewwellafteryouwereillthatyouusedtolikeroses，\"saidthelady，blushinglikeoneofthem。TheyallconductedHarryEsmondtohischamber;thechildrenrunningbefore，Harrywalkingbyhismistresshand—in—hand。
Theoldroomhadbeenornamentedandbeautifiednotalittletoreceivehim。Theflowerswereinthewindowinachinavase;andtherewasafinenewcounterpaneonthebed，whichchatterboxBeatrixsaidmammahadmadetoo。Afirewascracklingonthehearth，althoughitwasJune。Myladythoughttheroomwantedwarming;everythingwasdonetomakehimhappyandwelcome:\"Andyouarenottobeapageanylonger，butagentlemanandkinsman，andtowalkwithpapaandmamma，\"saidthechildren。Andassoonashisdearmistressandchildrenhadlefthimtohimself，itwaswithaheartoverflowingwithloveandgratefulnessthatheflunghimselfdownonhiskneesbythesideofthelittlebed，andaskedablessinguponthosewhoweresokindtohim。
Thechildren，whoarealwayshousetell—tales，soonmadehimacquaintedwiththelittlehistoryofthehouseandfamily。PapahadbeentoLondontwice。Papaoftenwentawaynow。PapahadtakenBeatrixtoWestlands，whereshewastallerthanSirGeorgeHarper\'sseconddaughter，thoughshewastwoyearsolder。PapahadtakenBeatrixandFrankbothtoBellminster，whereFrankhadgotthebetterofLordBellminster\'ssoninaboxing—match——mylord，laughing，toldHarryafterwards。Manygentlemencametostopwithpapa，andpapahadgottenanewgamefromLondon，aFrenchgame，calledabilliard——thattheFrenchkingplayeditverywell:andtheDowagerLadyCastlewoodhadsentMissBeatrixapresent;andpapahadgottenanewchaise，withtwolittlehorses，whichhedrovehimself，besidethecoach，whichmammawentin;andDr。
Tusherwasacrossoldplague，andtheydidnotliketolearnfromhimatall;andpapadidnotcareaboutthemlearning，andlaughedwhentheywereattheirbooks，butmammalikedthemtolearn，andtaughtthem;and\"Idon\'tthinkpapaisfondofmamma，\"saidMissBeatrix，withhergreateyes。ShehadcomequitecloseuptoHarryEsmondbythetimethisprattletookplace，andwasonhisknee，andhadexaminedallthepointsofhisdress，andallthegoodorbadfeaturesofhishomelyface。
\"Youshouldn\'tsaythatpapaisnotfondofmamma，\"saidtheboy，atthisconfession。\"Mammaneversaidso;andmammaforbadeyoutosayit，MissBeatrix。\"
\'Twasthis，nodoubt，thataccountedforthesadnessinLadyCastlewood\'seyes，andtheplaintivevibrationsofhervoice。Whodoesnotknowofeyes，lightedbyloveonce，wheretheflameshinesnomore？——oflampsextinguished，onceproperlytrimmedandtended？
Everymanhassuchinhishouse。Suchmementoesmakeoursplendidestchamberslookblankandsad;suchfacesseeninadaycastagloomuponoursunshine。Sooathsmutuallysworn，andinvocationsofheaven，andpriestlyceremonies，andfondbelief，andlove，sofondandfaithfulthatitneverdoubtedbutthatitshouldliveforever，areallofnoavailtowardsmakingloveeternal:itdies，inspiteofthebannsandthepriest;andIhaveoftenthoughtthereshouldbeavisitationofthesickforit，andafuneralservice，andanextremeunction，andanabiinpace。Ithasitscourse，likeallmortalthings——itsbeginning，progress，anddecay。Itbudsanditbloomsoutintosunshine，anditwithersandends。StrephonandChloelanguishapart;joininarapture:
andpresentlyyouhearthatChloeiscrying，andStrephonhasbrokenhiscrookacrossherback。Canyoumenditsoastoshownomarksofrupture？NotallthepriestsofHymen，notalltheincantationstothegods，canmakeitwhole！