butyo\'rbutaladaftera\'。\'Thiswasnotconciliatoryspeech,andjustputthelaststroketoPhilip\'sfitofill—temper。\'I\'mnotformyteato—night,\'saidhe,toHester,whenallwasready。
\'Sylvie\'snothere,andnothingisnice,orasitshouldbe。I\'llgoandsettoont\'stock—taking。Don\'tyo\'hurry,Hester;stopandchatabitwithth\'oldlady。\'\'Nay,Philip,\'saidHester,\'thou\'ssadlytired;justtakethiscupo\'
tea;Sylvia\'llbegrievedifyo\'haven\'tsomething。\'\'Sylviadoesn\'tcarewhetherI\'mfullorfasting,\'repliedhe,impatientlyputtingasidethecup。\'Ifshedidshe\'dha\'takencaretobein,andha\'
seentothingsbeingasIlikethem。\'NowingeneralPhilipwastheleastparticularofmenaboutmeals;andtodoSylviajustice,shewasscrupulouslyattentivetoeveryhouseholddutyinwhicholdPhoebewouldallowhertomeddle,andalwayscarefultoseeafterherhusband\'scomforts。ButPhilipwastoovexedatherabsencetoperceivetheinjusticeofwhathewassaying,norwasheawarehowBellRobsonhadbeenattendingtowhathesaid。Butshewassadlydiscomfitedbyit,understandingjustenoughofthegrievanceinhandtothinkthatherdaughterwasneglectfulofthosedutieswhichsheherselfhadalwaysregardedasparamounttoallothers;norcouldHesterconvinceherthatPhiliphadnotmeantwhathesaid;neithercouldsheturnthepooroldwoman\'sthoughtsfromthewordswhichhadcausedherdistress。PresentlySylviacamein,brightandcheerful,althoughbreathlesswithhurry。\'Oh,\'saidshe,takingoffherwetshawl,\'we\'vehadtoshelterfromsuchastormofrain,babyandme——butsee!she\'snonetheworseforit,asbonnyasiver,blessher。\'HesterbegansomespeechofadmirationforthechildinordertopreventBellfromdeliveringthelectureshefeltsurewascomingdownontheunsuspectingSylvia;butallinvain。\'Philip\'sbeencomplainingonthee,Sylvie,\'saidBell,inthewayinwhichshehadspokentoherdaughterwhenshewasalittlechild;graveandsevereintoneandlook,morethaninwords。\'Iforgetjustlywhatabout,buthespokeonthyneglectinghimcontinual。It\'snotright,mylass,it\'snotright;awomanshould——butmyhead\'sverytired,andallIcanthinkontosayis,it\'snotright。\'\'Philipbeencomplainingofme,andtomother!\'saidSylvia,readytoburstintotears,sogrievedandangrywasshe。\'No!\'saidHester,\'thymotherhastakenitalittletoostrong;hewerevexedlikeathisteanotbeingready。\'Sylviasaidnomore,butthebrightcolourfadedfromhercheek,andthecontractionofcarereturnedtoherbrow。Sheoccupiedherselfwithtakingoffherbaby\'swalkingthings。Hesterlingered,anxioustosootheandmakepeace;shewaslookingsorrowfullyatSylvia,whenshesawtearsdroppingonthebaby\'scloak,andthenitseemedasifshemustspeakawordofcomfortbeforegoingtotheshop—work,wheresheknewshewasexpectedbybothPhilipandCoulson。Shepouredoutacupoftea,andcomingcloseuptoSylvia,andkneelingdownbyher,shewhispered,——\'Justtakehimthisintot\'ware—room;it\'llputalltorightsifthou\'lltakeittohimwi\'thyownhands。\'Sylvialookedup,andHesterthenmorefullysawhowshehadbeencrying。
Shewhisperedinreply,forfearofdisturbinghermother,——\'Idon\'tmindanythingbuthisspeakingillonmetomother。IknowI\'mforivertryingandtryingtobeagoodwifetohim,an\'it\'sverydullwork;harderthanyo\'thinkon,Hester,——an\'Iwouldha\'beenhomeforteato—nightonlyIwasafearedofbabygettingwetwi\'t\'stormo\'hailaswehaddownont\'shore;andweshelteredunderarock。It\'sawearycominghometothisdarkplace,andtofindmyownmothersetagainstme。\'Takehimhistea,likeagoodlassie。I\'llanswerforithe\'llbeallright。Amantakesithardlywhenhecomesintired,a—thinkinghiswife\'11betheretocheerhimupabit,tofindheroff,andniverknownoughtoft\'reasonwhy。\'\'I\'mgladenoughI\'vegettenababy,\'saidSylvia,\'butforaughtelseIwishI\'dniverbeenmarried,Ido!\'\'Hushthee,lass!\'saidHester,risingupindignant;\'nowthatisasin。
Eh!ifthouonlyknewtheloto\'somefolk。Butlet\'stalknomoreonthat,thatcannotbehelped;go,takehimhistea,forit\'sasadthingtothinkonhimfastingallthistime。\'Hester\'svoicewasraisedbythesimplefactofherchangeofposition;
andthewordfastingcaughtMrsRobson\'sear,asshesateatherknittingbythechimney—corner。\'Fasting?hesaidthoudidn\'tcareifhewerefullorfasting。Lassie!
it\'snotrightinthee,Isay;go,takehimhisteaatonce。\'Sylviarose,andgaveupthebaby,whichshehadbeensuckling,toNancy,whohavingdoneherwashing,hadcomeforhercharge,toputittobed。
Sylviakisseditfondly,makingalittlemoanofsad,passionatetendernessasshedidso。Thenshetookthecupoftea;butshesaid,ratherdefiantly,toHester,——\'I\'llgotohimwithit,becausemotherbidsme,andit\'lleasehermind。\'Thenloudertohermother,sheadded,——\'Mother,I\'lltakehimhistea,thoughIcouldn\'thelpthebeingout。\'Iftheactitselfwasconciliatory,thespiritinwhichshewasgoingtodoitwasthereverse。Hesterfollowedherslowlyintotheware—room,withintentionaldelay,thinkingthatherpresencemightbeanobstacletotheirmutuallyunderstandingoneanother。SylviaheldthecupandplateofbreadandbutterouttoPhilip,butavoidedmeetinghiseye,andsaidnotawordofexplanation,orregret,orself—justification。Ifshehadspoken,thougheversocrossly,Philipwouldhavebeenrelieved,andwouldhavepreferredittohersilence。Hewantedtoprovokehertospeech,butdidnotknowhowtobegin。\'Thou\'sbeenoutagainwanderingonthatsea—shore!\'saidhe。Shedidnotanswerhim。\'Icannotthinkwhat\'salwaystakingtheethere,whenonewouldha\'thoughtawalkuptoEsdalewouldbefarmoresheltered,bothfortheeandbabyinsuchweatherasthis。Thou\'llbehavingthatbabyillsomeofthesedays。\'Atthis,shelookedupathim,andherlipsmovedasthoughsheweregoingtosaysomething。Oh,howhewishedshewould,thattheymightcometoawholesomequarrel,andamakingfriendsagain,andatenderkissing,inwhichhemightwhisperpenitenceforallhishastywords,orunreasonablevexation。Butshehadcomeresolvednottospeak,forfearofshowingtoomuchpassion,toomuchemotion。Onlyasshewasgoingawaysheturnedandsaid,——\'Philip,motherhasn\'tmanymoreyearstolive;dunnotgrieveher,andsetheragain\'mebyfindingfaultwi\'meaforeher。Ourbeingwedwereagreatmistake;butbeforet\'pooroldwidow—womanletusmakeasifwewerehappy。\'\'Sylvie!Sylvie!\'hecalledafterher。Shemusthaveheard,butshedidnotturn。Hewentafterher,andseizedherbythearmratherroughly;
shehadstunghimtotheheartwithhercalmwords,whichseemedtorevealalong—formedconviction。\'Sylvie!\'saidhe,almostfiercely,\'whatdoyo\'meanbywhatyou\'vesaid?
Speak!Iwillhaveananswer。\'Healmostshookher:shewashalffrightenedbyhisvehemenceofbehaviour,whichshetookforpureanger,whileitwastheoutburstofagonizedandunrequitedlove。\'Letmego!Oh,Philip,yo\'hurtme!\'JustatthismomentHestercameup;Philipwasashamedofhispassionatewaysinherserenepresence,andloosenedhisgraspofhiswife,andsheranaway;ranintohermother\'semptyroom,astoasolitaryplace,andthereburstintothatsobbing,miserablecryingwhichweinstinctivelyknowistoosurelylesseningthelengthofourdaysonearthtobeindulgedinoften。Whenshehadexhaustedthatfirstburstandlayweakandquietforatime,shelistenedindreadingexpectationofthesoundofhisfootstepcominginsearchofhertomakefriends。Buthewasdetainedbelowonbusiness,andnevercame。Instead,hermothercameclamberingupthestairs;shewasnowinthehabitofgoingtobedbetweensevenandeight,andto—nightshewasretiringatevenanearlierhour。Sylviasprangupanddrewdownthewindow—blind,andmadeherfaceandmannerascomposedaspossible,inordertosootheandcomforthermother\'slastwakinghours。Shehelpedhertobedwithgentlepatience;therestraintimposeduponherbyhertenderfiliallovewasgoodforher,thoughallthetimeshewaslongingtobealonetohaveanotherwildoutburst。Whenhermotherwasgoingofftosleep,Sylviawenttolookatherbaby,alsoinasoftsleep。Thenshegazedoutattheeveningsky,highabovethetiledroofsoftheoppositehouses,andthelongingtobeoutunderthepeacefulheavenstookpossessionofheroncemore。\'It\'smyonlycomfort,\'saidshetoherself;\'andthere\'snoearthlyharminit。Iwouldha\'beenathometohistea,ifIcould;butwhenhedoesn\'twantme,andmotherdoesn\'twantme,andbabyiseitherinmyarmsorasleep;
why,I\'llgoanycrymyfilloutunderyongreatquietsky。Icannotstayint\'housetobechokedupwi\'mytears,noryettohavehimcomingaboutmeeitherforscoldingorpeace—making。\'Sosheputonherthingsandwentoutagain;thistimealongtheHighStreet,andupthelongflightsofstepstowardstheparishchurch,andthereshestoodandthoughtthathereshehadfirstmetKinraid,atDarley\'sburying,andshetriedtorecalltheverylookofallthesad,earnestfacesroundtheopengrave——thewholescene,infact;andletherselfgivewaytothemiserableregretsshehadsooftentriedtocontrol。Thenshewalkedon,cryingbitterly,almostunawarestoherself;onthroughthehigh,bleakfieldsatthesummitofthecliffs;fieldsboundedbyloosestonefences,andfarfromallsightofthehabitationofman。But,below,thesearoseandraged;itwashighwateratthehighesttide,andthewindblewgustilyfromtheland,vainlycombatingthegreatwavesthatcameinvinciblyupwitharoarandanimpotentfuriousdashagainstthebaseofthecliffsbelow。Sylviaheardthesoundofthepassionaterushandreboundofmanywaters,liketheshockofmightyguns,whenevertheothersoundoftheblusteringgustywindwaslulledforaninstant。Shewasmorequietedbythistempestoftheelementsthanshewouldhavebeenhadallnatureseemedasstillasshehadimaginedittobewhileshewasyetin—doorsandonlysawapartoftheserenesky。Shefixedonacertainpoint,inherownmind,whichshewouldreach,andthenturnbackagain。Itwaswheretheoutlineofthelandcurvedinwards,dippingintoalittlebay。Herethefield—pathshehadhithertofolloweddescendedsomewhatabruptlytoaclusteroffishermen\'scottages,hardlylargeenoughtobecalledavillage;andthenthenarrowroadwaywounduptherisinggroundtillitagainreachedthesummitofthecliffsthatstretchedalongthecoastformanyandmanyamile。Sylviasaidtoherselfthatshewouldturnhomewardswhenshecamewithinsightofthiscove,——HeadlingtonCove,theycalledit。Allthewayalongshehadmetnoonesinceshehadleftthetown,butjustasshehadgotoverthelaststile,orladderofstepping—stones,intothefieldfromwhichthepathdescended,shecameuponanumberofpeople——quiteacrowd,infact;menmovingforwardinasteadyline,haulingatarope,achain,orsomethingofthatkind;boyschildren,andwomenholdingbabiesintheirarms,asifallwerefaintocomeoutandpartakeinsomegeneralinterest。Theykeptwithinacertaindistancefromtheedgeofthecliff,andSylvia,advancingalittle,nowsawthereasonwhy。Thegreatcablethemenheldwasattachedtosomepartofasmack,whichcouldnowbeseenbyherinthewatersbelow,halfdismantled,andallbutawreck,yetwithherdeckcoveredwithlivingmen,asfarasthewaninglightwouldallowhertosee。Thevesselstrainedtogetfreeofthestrongguidingcable;thetidewasturning,thewindwasblowingoffshore,andSylviaknewwithoutbeingtold,thatalmostparalleltothiswasalineofsunkenrocksthathadbeenfataltomanyashipbeforenow,ifshehadtriedtotaketheinnerchannelinsteadofkeepingouttoseaformiles,andthensteeringinstraightforMonkshavenport。Andtheshipsthathadbeenthuslosthadbeeningoodplightandordercomparedtothisvessel,whichseemednothingbutahullwithoutmastorsail。Bythistime,thecrowd——thefishermenfromthehamletdownbelow,withtheirwivesandchildren——allhadcomebutthebedridden——hadreachedtheplacewhereSylviastood。Thewomen,inastateofwildexcitement,rushedon,encouragingtheirhusbandsandsonsbywords,evenwhiletheyhinderedthembyactions;and,fromtimetotime,oneofthemwouldruntotheedgeofthecliffandshoutoutsomebravewordsofhopeinhershrillvoicetothecrewonthedeckbelow。Whethertheselatterhearditornot,noonecouldtell;butitseemedasifallhumanvoicemustbelostinthetempestuousstunandtumultofwindandwave。Itwasgenerallyawomanwithachildinherarmswhosoemployedherself。Asthestrainuponthecablebecamegreater,andthegroundonwhichtheystrovemoreuneven,everyhandwasneededtoholdandpush,andallthosewomenwhowereunencumberedheldbythe。dearropeonwhichsomanylivesweredepending。Ontheycame,alonglineofhumanbeings,blackagainsttheruddysunsetsky。AstheycamenearSylvia,awomancriedout,——\'Dunnotstandidle,lass,buthoudonwi\'us;there\'smanyabonnylifeatstake,andmanyamother\'shearta—hangin\'onthisbito\'hemp。Tak\'
houd,lass,andgiveafirmgrip,andGodremembertheei\'thyneed。\'Sylvianeedednosecondword;aplacewasmadeforher,andinaninstantmoretheropewaspullingagainstherhandstillitseemedasthoughshewasholdingfireinherbarepalms。Neveraoneofthemthoughtoflettinggoforaninstant,thoughwhenallwasovermanyoftheirhandswererawandbleeding。Somestrong,experiencedfishermenpassedawordalongthelinefromtimetotime,givingdirectionsastohowitshouldbeheldaccordingtovaryingoccasions;butfewamongtheresthadbreathorstrengthenoughtospeak。Thewomenandchildrenthataccompaniedthemranonbefore,breakingdowntheloosestonefences,soastoobviatedelayorhindrance;theytalkedcontinually,exhorting,encouraging,explaining。Fromtheirmanywordsandfragmentarysentences,SylvialearntthatthevesselwassupposedtobeaNewcastlesmacksailingfromLondon,thathadtakenthedangerousinnerchanneltosavetime,andhadbeencaughtinthestorm,whichshewastoocrazytowithstand;andthatifbysomedaringcontrivanceofthefisher—menwhohadfirstseenherthecablehadnotbeengotashore,shewouldhavebeencastupontherocksbeforethis,and\'allonboardperished。\'\'Itweredayleetthen,\'quothonewoman;\'acouldseetheirfaces,theyweresonear。Theywereaspaleasdeadmen,an\'onewasprayin\'downonhisknees。TherewasaKing\'sofficeraboard,forIsawt\'gowdabouthim。\'\'He\'dmaybecomefromthesehom\'ardparts,andbecomin\'toseehisownfolk;elseit\'snocommonforking\'sofficerstosailinaughtbutKing\'sships。\'\'Eh!butit\'sgettin\'dark!Seethere\'st\'leeghtsint\'housesint\'NewTown!T\'grassiscrispin\'wi\'t\'whitefrostunderoutfeet。It\'llbeahardtugroundt\'point,andthenshe\'llbegettin\'intostillwaters。\'Onemoregreatpushandmightystrain,andthedangerwaspast;thevessel——orwhatremainedofher——wasintheharbour,amongthelightsandcheerfulsoundsofsafety。Thefishermensprangdowntheclifftothequay—side,anxioustoseethemenwhoselivestheyhadsaved;thewomen,wearyandover—excited,begantocry。NotSylvia,however;herfountoftearshadbeenexhaustedearlierintheday:herprincipalfeelingwasofgladnessandhighrejoicingthattheyweresavedwhohadbeensoneartodeathnothalfanhourbefore。Shewouldhavelikedtohaveseenthemen,andshakenhandswiththemallround。Butinsteadshemustgohome,andwellwoulditbewithherifshewasintimeforherhusband\'ssupper,andescapedanynoticeofherabsence。
Sosheseparatedherselffromthegroupsofwomenwhosateonthegrassinthechurchyard,awaitingthereturnofsuchoftheirhusbandsascouldresistthefascinationsoftheMonkshavenpublichouses。AsSylviawentdownthechurchsteps,shecameupononeofthefishermenwhohadhelpedtotowthevesselintoport。\'Therewasseventeenmenandboysaboardher,andanavy—lieutenantashadcomedaspassenger。Itwereagoodjobaswecouldmanageher。Good—neettothee,thou\'llsleepallt\'sounderforhavin\'lentahand。\'Thestreetairfelthotandcloseafterthesharpkeenatmosphereoftheheightsabove;thedecentshopsandhouseshadalltheirshuttersputup,andwerepreparingfortheirearlybed—time。Alreadylightsshonehereandthereintheupperchambers,andSylviascarcelymetanyone。Shewentroundupthepassagefromthequay—side,andinbytheprivatedoor。Allwasstill;thebasinsofbreadandmilkthatsheandherhusbandwereinthehabitofhavingforsupperstoodinthefenderbeforethefire,eachwithaplateuponthem。Nancyhadgonetobed,Phoebedozedinthekitchen;Philipwasstillintheware—room,arranginggoodsandtakingstockalongwithCoulson,forHesterhadgonehometohermother。SylviawasnotwillingtogoandseekoutPhilip,afterthemannerinwhichtheyhadparted。Allthedespondencyofherlifebecamepresenttoheragainasshesatedownwithinherhome。Shehadforgottenitinherinterestandexcitement,butnowitcamebackagain。Stillshewashungry,andyouthful,andtired。Shetookherbasinup,andwaseatinghersupperwhensheheardacryofherbabyupstairs,andranawaytoattendtoit。Whenithadbeenfedandhushedawaytosleep,shewentintoseehermother,attractedbysomeunusualnoiseinherroom。ShefoundMrsRobsonawake,andrestless,andailing;dwellingmuchonwhatPhiliphadsaidinhisangeragainstSylvia。Itwasreallynecessaryforherdaughtertoremainwithher;soSylviastoleout,andwentquicklydownstairstoPhilip——nowsittingtiredandwornout,andeatinghissupperwithlittleornoappetite——andtoldhimshemeanttopassthenightwithhermother。Hisanswerofacquiescencewassoshortandcareless,orsoitseemedtoher,thatshedidnottellhimanymoreofwhatshehaddoneorseenthatevening,orevendwelluponanydetailsofhermother\'sindisposition。Assoonasshehadlefttheroom,Philipsetdownhishalf—finishedbasinofbreadandmilk,andsatelong,hisfacehiddeninhisfoldedarms。Thewickofthecandlegrewlongandblack,andfell,andsputtered,andputtered;
hesateon,unheedingeitheritorthepalegrayfirethatwasdyingout——deadatlast。EndofPartThreechapter33CHAPTERXXXIIIANAPPARITIONMrsRobsonwasverypoorlyallnightlong。Uneasythoughtsseemedtohauntandperplexherbrain,andsheneithersleptnorwoke,butwasrestlessanduneasyinhertalkandmovements。
Sylvialaydownbyher,butgotsolittlesleep,thatatlengthshepreferredsittingintheeasy—chairbythebedside。Hereshedroppedofftoslumberinspiteofherself;thesceneoftheeveningbeforeseemedtoberepeated;thecriesofthemanypeople,theheavyroaranddashofthethreateningwaves,wererepeatedinherears;andsomethingwassaidtoherthroughalltheconflictingnoises,——whatitwasshecouldnotcatch,thoughshestrainedtohearthehoarsemurmurthat,inherdream,shebelievedtoconveyameaningoftheutmostimportancetoher。
Thisdream,thatmysterious,onlyhalf—intelligiblesound,recurredwhenevershedozed,andherinabilitytohearthewordsuttereddistressedhersomuch,thatatlengthshesateboltupright,resolvedtosleepnomore。Hermotherwastalkinginahalf—consciousway;Philip\'sspeechoftheeveningbeforewasevidentlyrunninginhermind。
\'Sylvie,ifthou\'renotagoodwifetohim,it\'lljustbreakmyheartoutright。Awomanshouldobeyherhusband,andnotgoherowngait。Ineverleavethehousewi\'outtellingfather,andgettinghisleave。\'
Andthenshebegantocrypitifully,andtosayunconnectedthings,tillSylvia,tosootheher,tookherhand,andpromisednevertoleavethehousewithoutaskingherhusband\'spermission,thoughinmakingthispromise,shefeltasifsheweresacrificingherlastpleasuretohermother\'swish;forsheknewwellenoughthatPhilipwouldalwaysraiseobjectionstotherambleswhichremindedherofheroldfreeopen—airlife。
Buttocomfortandcherishhermothershewouldhavedoneanything;
yetthisverymorningthatwasdawning,shemustgoandaskhispermissionforasimpleerrand,orbreakherword。
Sheknewfromexperiencethatnothingquietedhermothersowellasbalm—tea;itmightbethattheherbreallypossessedsomesedativepower;
itmightbeonlyearlyfaith,andoftenrepeatedexperience,butithadalwayshadatranquillizingeffect;andmorethanonce,duringtherestlesshoursofthenight,MrsRobsonhadaskedforit;butSylvia\'sstockoflastyear\'sdeadleaveswasexhausted。StillsheknewwhereaplantofbalmgrewintheshelteredcornerofHaytersbankFarmgarden;sheknewthatthetenantswhohadsucceededthemintheoccupationofthefarmhadhadtoleaveitinconsequenceofadeath,andthattheplacewasunoccupied;
andinthedarknessshehadplannedthatifshecouldleavehermotherafterthedawncame,andshehadattendedtoherbaby,shewouldwalkquicklytotheoldgarden,andgatherthetendersprigswhichshewassuretofindthere。
NowshemustgoandaskPhilip;andtillsheheldherbabytoherbreast,shebitterlywishedthatshewerefreefromthedutiesandchainsofmatrimony。
Butthetouchofitswaxenfingers,theholdofitslittlemouth,madeherrelaxintodocilityandgentleness。ShegaveitbacktoNancytobedressed,andsoftlyopenedthedoorofPhilip\'sbed—room。
\'Philip!\'saidshe,gently。\'Philip!\'
Hestartedupfromdreamsofher;ofher,angry。Hesawherthere,ratherpalewithhernight\'swatchandanxiety,butlookingmeek,andalittlebeseeching。
\'Motherhashadsuchabadnight!shefanciedonceassomebalm—teawoulddohergood——itallaysusedto:butmydriedbalmisallgone,andIthoughtthere\'dbesuretobesomeint\'oldgardenatHaytersbank。Feytherplantedabushjustformother,wheereitallayscameupearly,night\'
oldelder—tree;andifyo\'dnotmind,Icouldruntheerewhileshesleeps,andbebackagaininanhour,andit\'snotsevennow。\'
\'Thou\'snotwearthyselfoutwithrunning,Sylvie,\'saidPhilip,eagerly;
\'I\'llgetupandgomyself,or,perhaps,\'continuedhe,catchingtheshadowthatwascomingoverherface,\'thou\'drathergothyself:it\'sonlythatI\'msoafraidofthytiringthyself。\'
\'It\'llnottireme,\'saidSylvia。\'MoreIwasmarried,Iwasoutoftenfarfartherthanthat,afieldtofetchupt\'kine,beforemybreakfast。\'
\'Well,goifthouwill,\'saidPhilip。\'Butgetsomewhattoeatfirst,anddon\'thurry;there\'snoneedforthat。\'
Shehadgotherhatandshawl,andwasoffbeforehehadfinishedhislastwords。
ThelongHighStreetwasalmostemptyofpeopleatthatearlyhour;
onesidewasentirelycoveredbythecoolmorningshadowwhichlayonthepavement,andcreptuptheoppositehousestillonlythetopmoststorycaughttherosysunlight。Upthehill—road,throughthegapinthestonewall,acrossthedewyfields,Sylviawentbytheveryshortestpathsheknew。
ShehadonlyoncebeenatHaytersbanksinceherwedding—day。Onthatoccasiontheplacehadseemedstrangelyanddissonantlychangedbythenumerouschildrenwhoweredivertingthemselvesbeforetheopendoor,andwhoseplay—thingsandclothesstrewedthehouse—place,andmadeitonebusysceneofconfusionanduntidiness,moreliketheCorneys\'kitcheninformertimes,thanhermother\'sorderlyandquietabode。Thoselittlechildrenwerefatherlessnow;andthehousewasshutup,awaitingtheentryofsomenewtenant。Therewerenoshutterstoshut;thelonglowwindowwasblinkingintheraysofthemorningsun;thehouseandcow—housedoorswereclosed,andnopoultrywanderedaboutthefieldinsearchofstraygrainsofcorn,orearlyworms。Itwasastrangeandunfamiliarsilence,andstrucksolemnlyonSylvia\'smind。Onlyathrushintheoldorcharddowninthehollow,outofsight,whistledandgurgledwithcontinualshrillmelody。
Sylviawentslowlypastthehouseanddownthepathleadingtothewild,desertedbitofgarden。Shesawthatthelasttenantshadhadapumpsunkforthem,andresentedtheinnovation,asthoughthewellshewaspassingcouldfeeltheinsult。Overitgrewtwohawthorntrees;onthebenttrunkofoneofthemsheusedtosit,longago:thecharmofthepositionbeingenhancedbythepossibledangeroffallingintothewellandbeingdrowned。
Therustyunusedchainwaswoundroundthewindlass;thebucketwasfallingtopiecesfromdryness。Aleancatcamefromsomeouthouse,andmewedpitifullywithhunger;accompanyingSylviatothegarden,asifgladofsomehumancompanionship,yetrefusingtoallowitselftobetouched。Primrosesgrewintheshelteredplaces,justastheyformerlydid;andmadetheuncultivatedgroundseemlessdesertedthanthegarden,wherethelastyear\'sweedswererottingaway,andcumberingtheground。
Sylviaforcedherwaythroughtheberrybushestotheherb—plot,andpluckedthetenderleavesshehadcometoseek;sighingalittleallthetime。Thensheretracedhersteps;pausedsoftlybeforethehouse—door,andenteredtheporchandkissedthesenselesswood。
Shetriedtotemptthepoorgauntcatintoherarms,meaningtocarryithomeandbefriendit;butitwasscaredbyherendeavourandranbacktoitshomeintheouthouse,makingagreenpathacrossthewhitedewofthemeadow。ThenSylviabegantohastenhome,thinking,andremembering——atthestilethatledintotheroadshewasbroughtshortup。
Someonestoodinthelanejustontheothersideofthegap;hisbackwastothemorningsun;allshesawatfirstwastheuniformofanavalofficer,sowellknowninMonkshaveninthosedays。
Sylviawenthurryingpasthim,notlookingagain,althoughherclothesalmostbrushedhis,ashestoodtherestill。Shehadnotgoneayard——no,nothalfayard——whenherheartleapedupandfellagaindeadwithinher,asifshehadbeenshot。
\'Sylvia!\'hesaid,inavoicetremulouswithjoyandpassionatelove。
\'Sylvia!\'
Shelookedround;hehadturnedalittle,sothatthelightfellstraightonhisface。Itwasbronzed,andthelineswerestrengthened;butitwasthesamefaceshehadlastseeninHaytersbankgullythreelongyearsago,andhadneverthoughttoseeinlifeagain。
Hewasclosetoherandheldouthisfondarms;shewentflutteringtowardstheirembrace,asifdrawnbytheoldfascination;butwhenshefeltthemcloseroundher,shestartedaway,andcriedoutwithagreatpitifulshriek,andputherhandsuptoherforeheadasiftryingtoclearawaysomebewilderingmist。
Thenshelookedathimoncemore,aterriblestoryinhereyes,ifhecouldbuthavereadit。
Twicesheopenedherstifflipstospeak,andtwicethewordswereoverwhelmedbythesurgesofhermisery,whichborethembackintothedepthsofherheart。
Hethoughtthathehadcomeuponhertoosuddenly,andheattemptedtosootheherwithsoftmurmursoflove,andtowoohertohisoutstretchedhungryarmsoncemore。Butwhenshesawthismotionofhis,shemadeagestureasthoughpushinghimaway;andwithaninarticulatemoanofagonysheputherhandstoherheadoncemore,andturningawaybegantorunblindlytowardsthetownforprotection。
Foraminuteorsohewasstunnedwithsurpriseatherbehaviour;andthenhethoughtitaccountedforbytheshockofhisaccost,andthatsheneededtimetounderstandtheunexpectedjoy。Sohefollowedherswiftly,everkeepingherinview,butnottryingtoovertakehertoospeedily。
\'Ihavefrightenedmypoorlove,\'hekeptthinking。Andbythisthoughthetriedtorepresshisimpatienceandcheckthespeedhelongedtouse;
yethewasalwayssonearbehindthatherquickenedsenseheardhiswell—knownfootstepsfollowing,andamadnotionflashedacrossherbrainthatshewouldgotothewidefullriver,andendthehopelessmiseryshefeltenshroudingher。Therewasasurehiding—placefromallhumanreproachandheavymortalwoebeneaththerushingwatersbornelandwardsbythemorningtide。
Noonecantellwhatchangedhercourse;perhapsthethoughtofhersuckingchild;perhapshermother;perhapsanangelofGod;nooneonearthknows,butassheranalongthequay—sidesheallatonceturnedupanentry,andthroughanopendoor。
He,followingallthetime,cameintoaquietdarkparlour,withaclothandtea—thingsonthetablereadyforbreakfast;thechangefromthebrightsunnyairoutofdoorstothedeepshadowofthisroommadehimthinkforthefirstmomentthatshehadpassedon,andthatnoonewasthere,andhestoodforaninstantbaffled,andhearingnosoundbutthebeatingofhisownheart;butanirrepressiblesobbinggaspmadehimlookround,andtherehesawhercoweredbehindthedoor,herfacecoveredtightup,andsharpshuddersgoingthroughherwholeframe。
\'Mylove,mydarling!\'saidhe,goinguptoher,andtryingtoraiseher,andtoloosenherhandsawayfromherface。\'I\'vebeentoosuddenfortheeitwasthoughtlessinme;butIhavesolookedforwardtothistime,andseeingtheecomealongthefield,andgopastme,butIshouldha\'beenmoretenderandcarefulofthee。Nay!letmehaveanotherlookofthysweetface。\'
Allthishewhisperedintheoldtonesofmanoeuvringlove,inthatvoiceshehadyearnedandhungeredtohearinlife,andhadnotheard,forallherlonging,saveinherdreams。
Shetriedtocrouchmoreandmoreintothecorner,intothehiddenshadow——tosinkintothegroundoutofsight。
Oncemorehespoke,beseechinghertoliftupherface,tolethimhearherspeak。
Butsheonlymoaned。
\'Sylvia!\'saidhe,thinkinghecouldchangehistactics,andpiqueherintospeaking,thathewouldmakeapretenceofsuspicionandoffence。
\'Sylvia!onewouldthinkyouweren\'tgladtoseemebackagainatlength。
Ionlycameinlatelastnight,andmyfirstthoughtonwakeningwasofyou;ithasbeeneversinceIleftyou。\'
Sylviatookherhandsawayfromherface;itwasgrayasthefaceofdeath;herawfuleyeswerepassionlessinherdespair。
\'Wherehaveyo\'been?\'sheasked,inslow,hoarsetones,asifhervoicewerehalfstrangledwithinher。
\'Been!\'saidhe,aredlightcomingintohiseyes,ashebenthislooksuponher;now,indeed,atrueandnotanassumedsuspicionenteringhismind。
\'Been!\'herepeated;then,comingastepnearertoher,andtakingherhand,nottenderlythistime,butwitharesolutiontobesatisfied。
\'Didnotyourcousin——Hepburn,Imean——didnothetellyou?——hesawthepress—gangseizeme,——Igavehimamessagetoyou——IbadeyoukeeptruetomeasIwouldbetoyou。\'
Betweeneveryclauseofthisspeechhepausedandgaspedforheranswer;
butnonecame。Hereyesdilatedandheldhissteadygazeprisoneraswithamagicalcharm——neithercouldlookawayfromtheother\'swild,searchinggaze。Whenhehadended,shewassilentforamoment,thenshecriedout,shrillandfierce,——
\'Philip!\'Noanswer。
Wilderandshrillerstill,\'Philip!\'shecried。
Hewasinthedistantware—roomcompletingthelastnight\'sworkbeforetheregularshophoursbegan;beforebreakfast,also,thathiswifemightnotfindhimwaitingandimpatient。
Heheardhercry;itcutthroughdoors,andstillair,andgreatbalesofwoollenstuff;hethoughtthatshehadhurtherself,thathermotherwasworse,thatherbabywasill,andhehastenedtothespotwhencethecryproceeded。
Onopeningthedoorthatseparatedtheshopfromthesitting—room,hesawthebackofanavalofficer,andhiswifeontheground,huddledupinaheap;whensheperceivedhimcomein,shedraggedherselfupbymeansofachair,gropinglikeablindperson,andcameandstoodfacinghim。
Theofficerturnedfiercelyround,andwouldhavecometowardsPhilip,whowassobewilderedbythescenethatevenyethedidnotunderstandwhothestrangerwas,didnotperceiveforaninstantthathesawtherealizationofhisgreatestdread。
ButSylvialaidherhandonKinraid\'sarm,andassumedtoherselftherightofspeech。Philipdidnotknowhervoice,itwassochanged。
\'Philip,\'shesaid,\'thisisKinraidcomebackagaintowedme。Heisalive;hehasniverbeendead,onlytakenbyt\'press—gang。Andhesaysyo\'sawit,andknewitallt\'time。Speak,wasitso?\'
Philipknewnotwhattosay,whithertoturn,underwhatrefugeofwordsoractstoshelter。
Sylvia\'sinfluencewaskeepingKinraidsilent,buthewasrapidlypassingbeyondit。
\'Speak!\'hecried,looseninghimselffromSylvia\'slightgrasp,andcomingtowardsPhilip;withathreateninggesture。\'DidInotbidyoutellherhowitwas?DidInotbidyousayhowIwouldbefaithfultoher,andshewastobefaithfultome?Oh!youdamnedscoundrel!haveyoukeptitfromherallthattime,andletherthinkmedead,orfalse?Takethat!\'
Hisclosedfistwasuptostriketheman,whohunghisheadwithbitterestshameandmiserableself—reproach;butSylviacameswiftbetweentheblowanditsvictim。
\'Charley,thoushan\'tstrikehim,\'shesaid。\'Heisadamnedscoundrel\'
(thiswassaidinthehardest,quietesttone)\'butheismyhusband。\'
\'Oh!thoufalseheart!\'exclaimedKinraid,turningsharponher。\'IfeverItrustedwoman,Itrustedyou,SylviaRobson。\'
Hemadeasthoughthrowingherfromhim,withagestureofcontemptthatstunghertolife。