IleftMoorHouseatthreeo\'clockP。M。,andsoonafterfourI
stoodatthefootofthesign—postofWhitcross,waitingthearrivalofthecoachwhichwastotakemetodistantThornfield。Amidstthesilenceofthosesolitaryroadsanddeserthills,Ihearditapproachfromagreatdistance。Itwasthesamevehiclewhence,ayearago,Ihadalightedonesummereveningonthisveryspot—howdesolate,andhopeless,andobjectless!ItstoppedasIbeckoned。I
entered—notnowobligedtopartwithmywholefortuneasthepriceofitsaccommodation。OncemoreontheroadtoThornfield,Ifeltlikethemessenger—pigeonflyinghome。
Itwasajourneyofsix—and—thirtyhours。IhadsetoutfromWhitcrossonaTuesdayafternoon,andearlyonthesucceedingThursdaymorningthecoachstoppedtowaterthehorsesatawaysideinn,situatedinthemidstofscenerywhosegreenhedgesandlargefieldsandlowpastoralhills(howmildoffeatureandverdantofhuecomparedwiththesternNorth—MidlandmoorsofMorton!)metmyeyelikethelineamentsofaoncefamiliarface。Yes,Iknewthecharacterofthislandscape:Iwassurewewerenearmybourne。
\'HowfarisThornfieldHallfromhere?\'Iaskedoftheostler。
\'Justtwomiles,ma\'am,acrossthefields。\'
\'Myjourneyisclosed,\'Ithoughttomyself。Igotoutofthecoach,gaveaboxIhadintotheostler\'scharge,tobekepttillI
calledforit;paidmyfare;satisfiedthecoachman,andwasgoing:
thebrighteningdaygleamedonthesignoftheinn,andIreadingiltletters,\'TheRochesterArms。\'Myheartleaptup:Iwasalreadyonmymaster\'sverylands。Itfellagain:thethoughtstruckit:—
\'YourmasterhimselfmaybebeyondtheBritishChannel,foraughtyouknow:andthen,ifheisatThornfieldHall,towardswhichyouhasten,whobesideshimisthere?Hislunaticwife:andyouhavenothingtodowithhim:youdarenotspeaktohimorseekhispresence。Youhavelostyourlabour—youhadbettergonofarther,\'
urgedthemonitor。\'Askinformationofthepeopleattheinn;theycangiveyouallyouseek:theycansolveyourdoubtsatonce。Gouptothatman,andinquireifMr。Rochesterbeathome。\'
Thesuggestionwassensible,andyetIcouldnotforceselftoactonit。Isodreadedareplythatwouldcrushmewithdespair。Toprolongdoubtwastoprolonghope。ImightyetoncemoreseetheHallundertherayofherstar。Therewasthestilebeforeme—theveryfieldsthroughwhichIhadhurried,blind,deaf,distractedwitharevengefulfurytrackingandscourgingme,onthemorningI
fledfromThornfield:ereIwellknewwhatcourseIhadresolvedtotake,Iwasinthemidstofthem。HowfastIwalked!HowIransometimes?HowIlookedforwardtocatchthefirstviewofthewell—knownwoods!WithwhatfeelingsIwelcomedsingletreesIknew,andfamiliarglimpsesofmeadowandhillbetweenthem!
Atlastthewoodsrose;therookeryclustereddark;aloudcawingbrokethemorningstillness。Strangedelightinspiredme:onI
hastened。Anotherfieldcrossed—alanethreaded—andtherewerethecourtyardwalls—thebackoffices:thehouseitself,therookerystillhid。\'Myfirstviewofitshallbeinfront,\'Idetermined,\'whereitsboldbattlementswillstriketheeyenoblyatonce,andwhereIcansingleoutmymaster\'sverywindow:perhapshewillbestandingatit—
herisesearly:perhapsheisnowwalkingintheorchard,oronthepavementinfront。CouldIbutseehim!—butamoment?Surely,inthatcase,Ishouldnotbesomadastoruntohim?Icannottell—Iamnotcertain。AndifIdid—whatthen?Godblesshim!Whatthen?Whowouldbehurtbymyoncemoretastingthelifehisglancecangiveme?
Irave:perhapsatthismomentheiswatchingthesunriseoverthePyrenees,oronthetidelessseaofthesouth。\'
Ihadcoastedalongthelowerwalloftheorchard—turneditsangle:therewasagatejustthere,openingintothemeadow,betweentwostonepillarscrownedbystoneballs。FrombehindonepillarI
couldpeeproundquietlyatthefullfrontofthemansion。I
advancedmyheadwithprecaution,desiroustoascertainifanybedroomwindow—blindswereyetdrawnup:battlements,windows,longfront—allfromthisshelteredstationwereatmycommand。
ThecrowssailingoverheadperhapswatchedmewhileItookthissurvey。Iwonderwhattheythought。TheymusthaveconsideredIwasverycarefulandtimidatfirst,andthatgraduallyIgrewveryboldandreckless。Apeep,andthenalongstare;andthenadeparturefrommynicheandastrayingoutintothemeadow;andasuddenstopfullinfrontofthegreatmansion,andaprotracted,hardygazetowardsit。
\'Whataffectationofdiffidencewasthisatfirst?\'theymighthavedemanded;\'whatstupidregardlessnessnow?\'
Hearanillustration,reader。
Aloverfindshismistressasleeponamossybank;hewishestocatchaglimpseofherfairfacewithoutwakingher。Hestealssoftlyoverthegrass,carefultomakenosound;hepauses—fancyingshehasstirred:hewithdraws;notforworldswouldhebeseen。Allisstill:heagainadvances:hebendsaboveher;alightveilrestsonherfeatures:heliftsit,bendslower;nowhiseyesanticipatethevisionofbeauty—warm,andblooming,andlovely,inrest。Howhurriedwastheirfirstglance!Buthowtheyfix!Howhestarts!Howhesuddenlyandvehementlyclaspsinbotharmstheformhedarednot,amomentsince,touchwithhisfinger!Howhecallsaloudaname,anddropshisburden,andgazesonitwildly!Hethusgraspsandcries,andgazes,becausehenolongerfearstowakenbyanysoundhecanutter—byanymovementhecanmake。Hethoughthislovesleptsweetly:
hefindssheisstonedead。
Ilookedwithtimorousjoytowardsastatelyhouse:Isawablackenedruin。
Noneedtocowerbehindagate—post,indeed!—topeepupatchamberlattices,fearinglifewasastirbehindthem!Noneedtolistenfordoorsopening—tofancystepsonthepavementorthegravel—walk!
Thelawn,thegroundsweretroddenandwaste:theportalyawnedvoid。Thefrontwas,asIhadonceseenitinadream,butashell—likewall,veryhighandveryfragile—looking,perforatedwithpanelesswindows:noroof,nobattlements,nochimneys—allhadcrashedin。
Andtherewasthesilenceofdeathaboutit:thesolitudeofalonesomewild。Nowonderthatlettersaddressedtopeopleherehadneverreceivedananswer:aswelldespatchepistlestoavaultinachurchaisle。ThegrimblacknessofthestonestoldbywhatfatetheHallhadfallen—byconflagration:buthowkindled?Whatstorybelongedtothisdisaster?Whatloss,besidesmortarandmarbleandwoodworkhadfolloweduponit?Hadlifebeenwreckedaswellasproperty?Ifso,whose?Dreadfulquestion:therewasnooneheretoanswerit—notevendumbsign,mutetoken。
Inwanderingroundtheshatteredwallsandthroughthedevastatedinterior,Igatheredevidencethatthecalamitywasnotoflateoccurrence。Wintersnows,Ithought,haddriftedthroughthatvoidarch,winterrainsbeateninatthosehollowcasements;for,amidstthedrenchedpilesofrubbish,springhadcherishedvegetation:
grassandweedgrewhereandtherebetweenthestonesandfallenrafters。Andoh!wheremeantimewasthehaplessownerofthiswreck?
Inwhatland?Underwhatauspices?Myeyeinvoluntarilywanderedtothegreychurchtowernearthegates,andIasked,\'IshewithDamerdeRochester,sharingtheshelterofhisnarrowmarblehouse?\'
Someanswermustbehadtothesequestions。Icouldfinditnowherebutattheinn,andthither,erelong,Ireturned。Thehosthimselfbroughtmybreakfastintotheparlour。Irequestedhimtoshutthedoorandsitdown:Ihadsomequestionstoaskhim。Butwhenhecomplied,Iscarcelyknewhowtobegin;suchhorrorhadIofthepossibleanswers。AndyetthespectacleofdesolationIhadjustleftpreparedmeinameasureforataleofmisery。Thehostwasarespectable—looking,middle—agedman。
\'YouknowThornfieldHall,ofcourse?\'Imanagedtosayatlast。
\'Yes,ma\'am;Ilivedthereonce。\'
\'Didyou?\'Notinmytime,Ithought:youareastrangertome。
\'IwasthelateMr。Rochester\'sbutler,\'headded。
Thelate!Iseemtohavereceived,withfullforce,theblowI
hadbeentryingtoevade。
\'Thelate!\'Igasped。\'Ishedead?\'
\'Imeanthepresentgentleman,Mr。Edward\'sfather,\'heexplained。Ibreathedagain:mybloodresumeditsflow。FullyassuredbythesewordsthatMr。Edward—myMr。Rochester(Godblesshim,whereverhewas!)—wasatleastalive:was,inshort,\'thepresentgentleman。\'Gladdeningwords!ItseemedIcouldhearallthatwastocome—whateverthedisclosuresmightbe—withcomparativetranquillity。Sincehewasnotinthegrave,Icouldbear,Ithought,tolearnthathewasattheAntipodes。
\'IsMr。RochesterlivingatThornfieldHallnow?\'Iasked,knowing,ofcourse,whattheanswerwouldbe,butyetdesirousofdeferringthedirectquestionastowherehereallywas。
\'No,ma\'am—oh,no!Nooneislivingthere。Isupposeyouareastrangerintheseparts,oryouwouldhaveheardwhathappenedlastautumn,—ThornfieldHallisquitearuin:itwasburntdownjustaboutharvest—time。Adreadfulcalamity!suchanimmensequantityofvaluablepropertydestroyed:hardlyanyofthefurniturecouldbesaved。Thefirebrokeoutatdeadofnight,andbeforetheenginesarrivedfromMillcote,thebuildingwasonemassofflame。Itwasaterriblespectacle:Iwitnesseditmyself。\'
\'Atdeadofnight!\'Imuttered。Yes,thatwaseverthehouroffatalityatThornfield。\'Wasitknownhowitoriginated?\'Idemanded。
\'Theyguessed,ma\'am:theyguessed。Indeed,Ishouldsayitwasascertainedbeyondadoubt。Youarenotperhapsaware,\'hecontinued,edginghischairalittlenearerthetable,andspeakinglow,\'thattherewasalady—a—alunatic,keptinthehouse?\'
\'Ihaveheardsomethingofit。\'
\'Shewaskeptinverycloseconfinement,ma\'am;peopleevenforsomeyearswasnotabsolutelycertainofherexistence。Noonesawher:theyonlyknewbyrumourthatsuchapersonwasattheHall;
andwhoorwhatshewasitwasdifficulttoconjecture。TheysaidMr。Edwardhadbroughtherfromabroad,andsomebelievedshehadbeenhismistress。Butaqueerthinghappenedayearsince—averyqueerthing。\'
Ifearednowtohearmyownstory。Iendeavouredtorecallhimtothemainfact。
\'Andthislady?\'
\'Thislady,ma\'am,\'heanswered,\'turnedouttobeMr。
Rochester\'swife!Thediscoverywasbroughtaboutinthestrangestway。Therewasayounglady,agovernessattheHall,thatMr。
Rochesterfellin—\'
\'Butthefire,\'Isuggested。
\'I\'mcomingtothat,ma\'am—thatMr。Edwardfellinlovewith。
Theservantssaytheyneversawanybodysomuchinloveashewas:
hewasafterhercontinually。Theyusedtowatchhim—servantswill,youknow,ma\'am—andhesetstoreonherpasteverything:forall,nobodybuthimthoughthersoveryhandsome。Shewasalittlesmallthing,theysay,almostlikeachild。Ineversawhermyself;butI\'veheardLeah,thehousemaid,tellofher。Leahlikedherwellenough。
Mr。Rochesterwasaboutforty,andthisgovernessnottwenty;andyousee,whengentlemenofhisagefallinlovewithgirls,theyareoftenlikeasiftheywerebewitched。Well,hewouldmarryher。\'
\'Youshalltellmethispartofthestoryanothertime,\'
Isaid;
\'butnowIhaveaparticularreasonforwishingtohearallaboutthefire。Wasitsuspectedthatthislunatic,Mrs。Rochester,hadanyhandinit?\'
\'You\'vehitit,ma\'am:it\'squitecertainthatitwasher,andnobodybuther,thatsetitgoing。ShehadawomantotakecareofhercalledMrs。Poole—anablewomaninherline,andverytrustworthy,butforonefault—afaultcommontoadealofthemnursesandmatrons—shekeptaprivatebottleofginbyher,andnowandthentookadropover—much。Itisexcusable,forshehadahardlifeofit:
butstillitwasdangerous;forwhenMrs。Poolewasfastasleepaftertheginandwater,themadlady,whowasascunningasawitch,wouldtakethekeysoutofherpocket,letherselfoutofherchamber,andgoroamingaboutthehouse,doinganywildmischiefthatcameintoherhead。Theysayshehadnearlyburntherhusbandinhisbedonce:butIdon\'tknowaboutthat。However,onthisnight,shesetfirefirsttothehangingsoftheroomnextherown,andthenshegotdowntoalowerStorey,andmadeherwaytothechamberthathadbeenthegoverness\'s—(shewaslikeasifsheknewsomehowhowmattershadgoneon,andhadaspiteather)—andshekindledthebedthere;buttherewasnobodysleepinginit,fortunately。Thegovernesshadrunawaytwomonthsbefore;andforallMr。Rochestersoughtherasifshehadbeenthemostpreciousthinghehadintheworld,henevercouldhearawordofher;andhegrewsavage—quitesavageonhisdisappointment:heneverwasawildman,buthegotdangerousafterhelosther。Hewouldbealone,too。HesentMrs。Fairfax,thehousekeeper,awaytoherfriendsatadistance;
buthedidithandsomely,forhesettledanannuityonherforlife:
andshedeservedit—shewasaverygoodwoman。MissAdele,awardhehad,wasputtoschool。Hebrokeoffacquaintancewithallthegentry,andshuthimselfuplikeahermitattheHall。\'
\'What!didhenotleaveEngland?\'
\'LeaveEngland?Blessyou,no!Hewouldnotcrossthedoor—stonesofthehouse,exceptatnight,whenhewalkedjustlikeaghostaboutthegroundsandintheorchardasifhehadlosthissenses—
whichitismyopinionhehad;foramorespirited,bolder,keenergentlemanthanhewasbeforethatmidgeofagovernesscrossedhim,youneversaw,ma\'am。Hewasnotamangiventowine,orcards,orracing,assomeare,andhewasnotsoveryhandsome;buthehadacourageandawillofhisown,ifevermanhad。Iknewhimfromaboy,yousee:andformypart,IhaveoftenwishedthatMissEyrehadbeensunkintheseabeforeshecametoThornfieldHall。\'
\'ThenMr。Rochesterwasathomewhenthefirebrokeout?\'
\'Yes,indeedwashe;andhewentuptotheatticswhenallwasburningaboveandbelow,andgottheservantsoutoftheirbedsandhelpedthemdownhimself,andwentbacktogethismadwifeoutofhercell。Andthentheycalledouttohimthatshewasontheroof,whereshewasstanding,wavingherarms,abovethebattlements,andshoutingouttilltheycouldhearheramileoff:Isawherandheardherwithmyowneyes。Shewasabigwoman,andhadlongblackhair:wecouldseeitstreamingagainsttheflamesasshestood。I
witnessed,andseveralmorewitnessed,Mr。Rochesterascendthroughtheskylightontotheroof;weheardhimcall\"Bertha!\"Wesawhimapproachher;andthen,ma\'am,sheyelledandgaveaspring,andthenextminuteshelaysmashedonthepavement。\'
\'Dead?\'
\'Dead!Ay,deadasthestonesonwhichherbrainsandbloodwerescattered。\'
\'GoodGod!\'
\'Youmaywellsayso,ma\'am:itwasfrightful!\'
Heshuddered。
\'Andafterwards?\'Iurged。
\'Well,ma\'am,afterwardsthehousewasburnttotheground:
thereareonlysomebitsofwallsstandingnow。\'
\'Wereanyotherliveslost?\'
\'No—perhapsitwouldhavebeenbetteriftherehad。\'
\'Whatdoyoumean?\'
\'PoorMr。Edward!\'heejaculated,\'Ilittlethoughtevertohaveseenit?Somesayitwasajustjudgmentonhimforkeepinghisfirstmarriagesecret,andwantingtotakeanotherwifewhilehehadoneliving:butIpityhim,formypart。\'
\'Yousaidhewasalive?\'Iexclaimed。
\'Yes,yes:heisalive;butmanythinkhehadbetterbedead。\'
\'Why?How?\'Mybloodwasagainrunningcold。\'Whereishe?\'I
demanded。\'IsheinEngland?\'
\'Ay—ay—he\'sinEngland;hecan\'tgetoutofEngland,Ifancy—
he\'safixturenow。\'
Whatagonywasthis!Andthemanseemedresolvedtoprotractit。
\'Heisstone—blind,\'hesaidatlast。\'Yes,heisstone—blind,isMr。Edward。\'
Ihaddreadedworse。Ihaddreadedhewasmad。Isummonedstrengthtoaskwhathadcausedthiscalamity。
\'Itwasallhisowncourage,andabodymaysay,hiskindness,inaway,ma\'am:hewouldn\'tleavethehousetilleveryoneelsewasoutbeforehim。Ashecamedownthegreatstaircaseatlast,afterMrs。
Rochesterhadflungherselffromthebattlements,therewasagreatcrash—allfell。Hewastakenoutfromundertheruins,alive,butsadlyhurt:abeamhadfalleninsuchawayastoprotecthimpartly;butoneeyewasknockedout,andonehandsocrushedthatMr。Carter,thesurgeon,hadtoamputateitdirectly。Theothereyeinflamed:helostthesightofthatalso。Heisnowhelpless,indeed—blindandacripple。\'
\'Whereishe?Wheredoeshenowlive?\'
\'AtFerndean,amanor—houseonafarmhehas,aboutthirtymilesoff:quiteadesolatespot。\'
\'Whoiswithhim?\'
\'OldJohnandhiswife:hewouldhavenoneelse。Heisquitebrokendown,theysay。\'
\'Haveyouanysortofconveyance?\'
\'Wehaveachaise,ma\'am,averyhandsomechaise。\'
\'Letitbegotreadyinstantly;andifyourpost—boycandrivemetoFerndeanbeforedarkthisday,I\'llpaybothyouandhimtwicethehireyouusuallydemand。\'
chapter37
CHAPTERXXXVII
THEmanor—houseofFerndeanwasabuildingofconsiderableantiquity,moderatesize,andnoarchitecturalpretensions,deepburiedinawood。Ihadheardofitbefore。Mr。Rochesteroftenspokeofit,andsometimeswentthere。Hisfatherhadpurchasedtheestateforthesakeofthegamecovers。Hewouldhaveletthehouse,butcouldfindnotenant,inconsequenceofitsineligibleandinsalubrioussite。Ferndeanthenremaineduninhabitedandunfurnished,withtheexceptionofsometwoorthreeroomsfittedupfortheaccommodationofthesquirewhenhewentthereintheseasontoshoot。
TothishouseIcamejusteredarkonaneveningmarkedbythecharacteristicsofsadsky,coldgale,andcontinuedsmallpenetratingrain。ThelastmileIperformedonfoot,havingdismissedthechaiseanddriverwiththedoubleremunerationIhadpromised。Evenwhenwithinaveryshortdistanceofthemanor—house,youcouldseenothingofit,sothickanddarkgrewthetimberofthegloomywoodaboutit。Irongatesbetweengranitepillarsshowedmewheretoenter,andpassingthroughthem,Ifoundmyselfatonceinthetwilightofclose—rankedtrees。Therewasagrass—growntrackdescendingtheforestaislebetweenhoarandknottyshaftsandunderbranchedarches。
Ifollowedit,expectingsoontoreachthedwelling;butitstretchedonandon,itwoundfarandfarther:nosignofhabitationorgroundswasvisible。
IthoughtIhadtakenawrongdirectionandlostmyway。
Thedarknessofnaturalaswellasofsylvanduskgatheredoverme。I
lookedroundinsearchofanotherroad。Therewasnone:allwasinterwovenstem,columnartrunk,densesummerfoliage—noopeninganywhere。
Iproceeded:atlastmywayopened,thetreesthinnedalittle;
presentlyIbeheldarailing,thenthehouse—scarce,bythisdimlight,distinguishablefromthetrees,sodankandgreenwereitsdecayingwalls。Enteringaportal,fastenedonlybyalatch,Istoodamidstaspaceofenclosedground,fromwhichthewoodsweptawayinasemicircle。Therewerenoflowers,nogarden—beds;onlyabroadgravel—walkgirdlingagrass—plat,andthissetintheheavyframeoftheforest。Thehousepresentedtwopointedgablesinitsfront;
thewindowswerelatticedandnarrow:thefrontdoorwasnarrowtoo,onestepleduptoit。Thewholelooked,asthehostoftheRochesterArmshadsaid,\'quiteadesolatespot。\'Itwasasstillasachurchonaweek—day:thepatteringrainontheforestleaveswastheonlysoundaudibleinitsvicinage。
\'Cantherebelifehere?\'Iasked。
Yes,lifeofsomekindtherewas;forIheardamovement—
thatnarrowfront—doorwasunclosing,andsomeshapewasabouttoissuefromthegrange。
Itopenedslowly:afigurecameoutintothetwilightandstoodonthestep;amanwithoutahat:hestretchedforthhishandasiftofeelwhetheritrained。Duskasitwas,Ihadrecognisedhim—itwasmymaster,EdwardFairfaxRochester,andnoother。
Istayedmystep,almostmybreath,andstoodtowatchhim—toexaminehim,myselfunseen,andalas!tohiminvisible。Itwasasuddenmeeting,andoneinwhichrapturewaskeptwellincheckbypain。Ihadnodifficultyinrestrainingmyvoicefromexclamation,mystepfromhastyadvance。
Hisformwasofthesamestrongandstalwartcontourasever:hisportwasstillerect,hishairwasstillravenblack;norwerehisfeaturesalteredorsunk:notinoneyear\'sspace,byanysorrow,couldhisathleticstrengthbequelledorhisvigorousprimeblighted。
ButinhiscountenanceIsawachange:thatlookeddesperateandbrooding—thatremindedmeofsomewrongedandfetteredwildbeastorbird,dangeroustoapproachinhissullenwoe。Thecagedeagle,whosegold—ringedeyescrueltyhasextinguished,mightlookaslookedthatsightlessSamson。
And,reader,doyouthinkIfearedhiminhisblindferocity?—
ifyoudo,youlittleknowme。AsofthopeblentwithmysorrowthatsoonIshoulddaretodropakissonthatbrowofrock,andonthoselipssosternlysealedbeneathit:butnotyet。Iwouldnotaccosthimyet。
Hedescendedtheonestep,andadvancedslowlyandgropinglytowardsthegrass—plat。Wherewashisdaringstridenow?Thenhepaused,asifheknewnotwhichwaytoturn。Heliftedhishandandopenedhiseyelids;gazedblank,andwithastrainingeffort,onthesky,andtowardtheamphitheatreoftrees:onesawthatalltohimwasvoiddarkness。Hestretchedhisrighthand(theleftarm,themutilatedone,hekepthiddeninhisbosom);heseemedtowishbytouchtogainanideaofwhatlayaroundhim:hemetbutvacancystill;forthetreesweresomeyardsoffwherehestood。Herelinquishedtheendeavour,foldedhisarms,andstoodquietandmuteintherain,nowfallingfastonhisuncoveredhead。AtthismomentJohnapproachedhimfromsomequarter。
\'Willyoutakemyarm,sir?\'hesaid;\'thereisaheavyshowercomingon:hadyounotbettergoin?\'
\'Letmealone,\'wastheanswer。
Johnwithdrewwithouthavingobservedme。Mr。Rochesternowtriedtowalkabout:vainly,—allwastoouncertain。Hegropedhiswaybacktothehouse,and,re—enteringit,closedthedoor。
Inowdrewnearandknocked:John\'swifeopenedforme。
\'Mary,\'I
said,\'howareyou?\'
Shestartedasifshehadseenaghost:Icalmedher。Toherhurried\'Isitreallyyou,miss,comeatthislatehourtothislonelyplace?\'Iansweredbytakingherhand;andthenIfollowedherintothekitchen,whereJohnnowsatbyagoodfire。Iexplainedtothem,inafewwords,thatIhadheardallwhichhadhappenedsinceIleftThornfield,andthatIwascometoseeMr。Rochester。IaskedJohntogodowntotheturnpike—house,whereIhaddismissedthechaise,andbringmytrunk,whichIhadleftthere:andthen,whileI
removedmybonnetandshawl,IquestionedMaryastowhetherIcouldbeaccommodatedattheManorHouseforthenight;andfindingthatarrangementstothateffect,thoughdifficult,wouldnotbeimpossible,IinformedherIshouldstay。justatthismomenttheparlour—bellrang。
\'Whenyougoin,\'saidI,\'tellyourmasterthatapersonwishestospeaktohim,butdonotgivemyname。\'
\'Idon\'tthinkhewillseeyou,\'sheanswered;\'herefuseseverybody。\'
Whenshereturned,Iinquiredwhathehadsaid。
\'Youaretosendinyournameandyourbusiness,\'shereplied。
Shethenproceededtofillaglasswithwater,andplaceitonatray,togetherwithcandles。
\'Isthatwhatherangfor?\'Iasked。
\'Yes:healwayshascandlesbroughtinatdark,thoughheisblind。\'
\'Givethetraytome;Iwillcarryitin。\'
Itookitfromherhand:shepointedmeouttheparlourdoor。ThetrayshookasIheldit;thewaterspiltfromtheglass;myheartstruckmyribsloudandfast。Maryopenedthedoorforme,andshutitbehindme。
Thisparlourlookedgloomy:aneglectedhandfuloffireburntlowinthegrate;and,leaningoverit,withhisheadsupportedagainstthehigh,old—fashionedmantelpiece,appearedtheblindtenantoftheroom。Hisolddog,Pilot,layononeside,removedoutoftheway,andcoiledupasifafraidofbeinginadvertentlytroddenupon。
PilotprickeduphisearswhenIcamein:thenhejumpedupwithayelpandawhine,andboundedtowardsme:healmostknockedthetrayfrommyhands。Isetitonthetable;thenpattedhim,andsaidsoftly,\'Liedown!\'Mr。Rochesterturnedmechanicallytoseewhatthecommotionwas:butashesawnothing,hereturnedandsighed。
\'Givemethewater,Mary,\'hesaid。
Iapproachedhimwiththenowonlyhalf—filledglass;Pilotfollowedme,stillexcited。
\'Whatisthematter?\'heinquired。
\'Down,Pilot!\'Iagainsaid。Hecheckedthewateronitswaytohislips,andseemedtolisten:hedrank,andputtheglassdown。\'Thisisyou,Mary,isitnot?\'
\'Maryisinthekitchen,\'Ianswered。
Heputouthishandwithaquickgesture,butnotseeingwhereI
stood,hedidnottouchme。\'Whoisthis?Whoisthis?\'hedemanded,trying,asitseemed,toseewiththosesightlesseyes—unavailinganddistressingattempt!\'Answerme—speakagain!\'heordered,imperiouslyandaloud。
\'Willyouhavealittlemorewater,sir?Ispilthalfofwhatwasintheglass,\'Isaid。
\'Whoisit?Whatisit?Whospeaks?\'
\'Pilotknowsme,andJohnandMaryknowIamhere。Icameonlythisevening,\'Ianswered。
\'GreatGod!—whatdelusionhascomeoverme?Whatsweetmadnesshasseizedme?\'
\'Nodelusion—nomadness:yourmind,sir,istoostrongfordelusion,yourhealthtoosoundforfrenzy。\'
\'Andwhereisthespeaker?Isitonlyavoice?Oh!Icannotsee,butImustfeel,ormyheartwillstopandmybrainburst。Whatever—
whoeveryouare—beperceptibletothetouchorIcannotlive!\'
Hegroped;Iarrestedhiswanderinghand,andprisoneditinbothmine。
\'Herveryfingers!\'hecried;\'hersmall,slightfingers!
Ifsotheremustbemoreofher。\'
Themuscularhandbrokefrommycustody;myarmwasseized,myshoulder—neck—waist—Iwasentwinedandgatheredtohim。
\'IsitJane?Whatisit?Thisishershape—thisishersize—\'
\'Andthishervoice,\'Iadded。\'Sheisallhere:herheart,too。
Godblessyou,sir!Iamgladtobesonearyouagain。\'
\'JaneEyre!—JaneEyre,\'wasallhesaid。
\'Mydearmaster,\'Ianswered,\'IamJaneEyre:Ihavefoundyouout—Iamcomebacktoyou。\'
\'Intruth?—intheflesh?MylivingJane?\'
\'Youtouchme,sir,—youholdme,andfastenough:Iamnotcoldlikeacorpse,norvacantlikeair,amI?\'
\'Mylivingdarling!Thesearecertainlyherlimbs,andtheseherfeatures;butIcannotbesoblest,afterallmymisery。Itisadream;suchdreamsasIhavehadatnightwhenIhaveclaspedheroncemoretomyheart,asIdonow;andkissedher,asthus—andfeltthatshelovedme,andtrustedthatshewouldnotleaveme。\'