WhatwasItodo?Wheretogo?Oh,intolerablequestions,whenI
coulddonothingandgonowhere!—whenalongwaymustyetbemeasuredbymyweary,tremblinglimbsbeforeIcouldreachhumanhabitation—
whencoldcharitymustbeentreatedbeforeIcouldgetalodging:
reluctantsympathyimportuned,almostcertainrepulseincurred,beforemytalecouldbelistenedto,oroneofmywantsrelieved!
Itouchedtheheath:itwasdry,andyetwarmwiththeheatofthesummerday。Ilookedatthesky;itwaspure:akindlystartwinkledjustabovethechasmridge。Thedayfell,butwithpropitioussoftness;nobreezewhispered。Natureseemedtomebenignandgood;
Ithoughtshelovedme,outcastasIwas;andI,whofrommancouldanticipateonlymistrust,rejection,insult,clungtoherwithfilialfondness。To—night,atleast,Iwouldbeherguest,asIwasherchild:mymotherwouldlodgemewithoutmoneyandwithoutprice。
I
hadonemorselofbreadyet:theremnantofarollIhadboughtinatownwepassedthroughatnoonwithastraypenny—mylastcoin。Isawripebilberriesgleaminghereandthere,likejetbeadsintheheath:Igatheredahandfulandatethemwiththebread。Myhunger,sharpbefore,was,ifnotsatisfied,appeasedbythishermit\'smeal。
I
saidmyeveningprayersatitsconclusion,andthenchosemycouch。
Besidethecragtheheathwasverydeep:whenIlaydownmyfeetwereburiedinit;risinghighoneachside,itleftonlyanarrowspaceforthenight—airtoinvade。Ifoldedmyshawldouble,andspreaditovermeforacoverlet;alow,mossyswellwasmypillow。
Thuslodged,Iwasnot,atleastatthecommencementofthenight,cold。
Myrestmighthavebeenblissfulenough,onlyasadheartbrokeit。
Itplainedofitsgapingwounds,itsinwardbleeding,itsrivenchords。IttrembledforMr。Rochesterandhisdoom;itbemoanedhimwithbitterpity;itdemandedhimwithceaselesslonging;and,impotentasabirdwithbothwingsbroken,itstillquivereditsshatteredpinionsinvainattemptstoseekhim。
Wornoutwiththistortureofthought,Irosetomyknees。
Nightwascome,andherplanetswererisen:asafe,stillnight:toosereneforthecompanionshipoffear。WeknowthatGodiseverywhere;butcertainlywefeelHispresencemostwhenHisworksareonthegrandestscalespreadbeforeus;anditisintheuncloudednight—sky,whereHisworldswheeltheirsilentcourse,thatwereadclearestHisinfinitude,Hisomnipotence,Hisomnipresence。IhadrisentomykneestoprayforMr。Rochester。Lookingup,I,withtear—dimmedeyes,sawthemightyMilky—way。Rememberingwhatitwas—
whatcountlesssystemstheresweptspacelikeasofttraceoflight—
I
feltthemightandstrengthofGod。SurewasIofHisefficiencytosavewhatHehadmade:convincedIgrewthatneitherearthshouldperish,noroneofthesoulsittreasured。Iturnedmyprayertothanksgiving:theSourceofLifewasalsotheSaviourofspirits。
Mr。Rochesterwassafe:hewasGod\'s,andbyGodwouldhebeguarded。Iagainnestledtothebreastofthehill;anderelonginsleepforgotsorrow。
Butnextday,Wantcametomepaleandbare。Longafterthelittlebirdshadlefttheirnests;longafterbeeshadcomeinthesweetprimeofdaytogathertheheathhoneybeforethedewwasdried—
whenthelongmorningshadowswerecurtailed,andthesunfilledearthandsky—Igotup,andIlookedroundme。
Whatastill,hot,perfectday!Whatagoldendesertthisspreadingmoor!Everywheresunshine。IwishedIcouldliveinitandonit。I
sawalizardrunoverthecrag;Isawabeebusyamongthesweetbilberries。Iwouldfainatthemomenthavebecomebeeorlizard,thatImighthavefoundfittingnutriment,permanentshelterhere。ButI
wasahumanbeing,andhadahumanbeing\'swants:Imustnotlingerwheretherewasnothingtosupplythem。Irose;IlookedbackatthebedIhadleft。Hopelessofthefuture,Iwishedbutthis—thatmyMakerhadthatnightthoughtgoodtorequiremysoulofmewhileI
slept;andthatthiswearyframe,absolvedbydeathfromfurtherconflictwithfate,hadnowbuttodecayquietly,andmingleinpeacewiththesoilofthiswilderness。Life,however,wasyetinmypossession,withallitsrequirements,andpains,andresponsibilities。Theburdenmustbecarried;thewantprovidedfor;
thesufferingendured;theresponsibilityfulfilled。Isetout。
Whitcrossregained,Ifollowedaroadwhichledfromthesun,nowferventandhigh。BynoothercircumstancehadIwilltodecidemychoice。Iwalkedalongtime,andwhenIthoughtIhadnearlydoneenough,andmightconscientiouslyyieldtothefatiguethatalmostoverpoweredme—mightrelaxthisforcedaction,and,sittingdownonastoneIsawnear,submitresistlesslytotheapathythatcloggedheartandlimb—Iheardabellchime—achurchbell。
Iturnedinthedirectionofthesound,andthere,amongsttheromantichills,whosechangesandaspectIhadceasedtonoteanhourago,Isawahamletandaspire。Allthevalleyatmyrighthandwasfullofpasture—fields,andcornfields,andwood;andaglitteringstreamranzigzagthroughthevariedshadesofgreen,themellowinggrain,thesombrewoodland,theclearandsunnylea。
Recalledbytherumblingofwheelstotheroadbeforeme,Isawaheavily—ladenwaggonlabouringupthehill,andnotfarbeyondweretwocowsandtheirdrover。Humanlifeandhumanlabourwerenear。I
muststruggleon:strivetoliveandbendtotoilliketherest。
Abouttwoo\'clockP。M。Ienteredthevillage。Atthebottomofitsonestreettherewasalittleshopwithsomecakesofbreadinthewindow。Icovetedacakeofbread。WiththatrefreshmentIcouldperhapsregainadegreeofenergy:withoutit,itwouldbedifficulttoproceed。ThewishtohavesomestrengthandsomevigourreturnedtomeassoonasIwasamongstmyfellow—beings。Ifeltitwouldbedegradingtofaintwithhungeronthecausewayofahamlet。HadI
nothingaboutmeIcouldofferinexchangeforoneoftheserolls?I
considered。Ihadasmallsilkhandkerchieftiedroundmythroat;I
hadmygloves。Icouldhardlytellhowmenandwomeninextremitiesofdestitutionproceeded。Ididnotknowwhethereitherofthesearticleswouldbeaccepted:probablytheywouldnot;butImusttry。
Ienteredtheshop:awomanwasthere。Seeingarespectably—dressedperson,aladyasshesupposed,shecameforwardwithcivility。Howcouldsheserveme?Iwasseizedwithshame:mytonguewouldnotuttertherequestIhadprepared。Idarednotofferherthehalf—worngloves,thecreasedhandkerchief:besides,Ifeltitwouldbeabsurd。Ionlybeggedpermissiontositdownamoment,asIwastired。
Disappointedintheexpectationofacustomer,shecoollyaccededtomyrequest。Shepointedtoaseat;Isankintoit。Ifeltsorelyurgedtoweep;butconscioushowunseasonablesuchamanifestationwouldbe,Irestrainedit。SoonIaskedher\'iftherewereanydressmakerorplain—workwomaninthevillage?\'
\'Yes;twoorthree。Quiteasmanyastherewasemploymentfor。\'
Ireflected。Iwasdriventothepointnow。IwasbroughtfacetofacewithNecessity。Istoodinthepositionofonewithoutaresource,withoutafriend,withoutacoin。Imustdosomething。What?
Imustapplysomewhere。Where?
\'Didsheknowofanyplaceintheneighbourhoodwhereaservantwaswanted?\'
\'Nay;shecouldn\'tsay。\'
\'Whatwasthechieftradeinthisplace?Whatdidmostofthepeopledo?\'
\'Somewerefarmlabourers;agooddealworkedatMr。Oliver\'sneedle—factory,andatthefoundry。\'
\'DidMr。Oliveremploywomen?\'
\'Nay;itwasmen\'swork。\'
\'Andwhatdothewomendo?\'
\'Iknawn\'t,\'wastheanswer。\'Somedoesonething,andsomeanother。Poorfolkmungetonastheycan。\'
Sheseemedtobetiredofmyquestions:and,indeed,whatclaimhadItoimportuneher?Aneighbourortwocamein;mychairwasevidentlywanted。Itookleave。
Ipassedupthestreet,lookingasIwentatallthehousestotherighthandandtotheleft;butIcoulddiscovernopretext,norseeaninducementtoenterany。Irambledroundthehamlet,goingsometimestoalittledistanceandreturningagain,foranhourormore。Muchexhausted,andsufferinggreatlynowforwantoffood,I
turnedasideintoalaneandsatdownunderthehedge。Eremanyminuteshadelapsed,Iwasagainonmyfeet,however,andagainsearchingsomething—aresource,oratleastaninformant。Aprettylittlehousestoodatthetopofthelane,withagardenbeforeit,exquisitelyneatandbrilliantlyblooming。Istoppedatit。WhatbusinesshadItoapproachthewhitedoorortouchtheglitteringknocker?Inwhatwaycoulditpossiblybetheinterestoftheinhabitantsofthatdwellingtoserveme?YetIdrewnearandknocked。
Amild—looking,cleanly—attiredyoungwomanopenedthedoor。Insuchavoiceasmightbeexpectedfromahopelessheartandfaintingframe—
avoicewretchedlylowandfaltering—Iaskedifaservantwaswantedhere?
\'No,\'saidshe;\'wedonotkeepaservant。\'
\'CanyoutellmewhereIcouldgetemploymentofanykind?\'
I
continued。\'Iamastranger,withoutacquaintanceinthisplace。I
wantsomework:nomatterwhat。\'
Butitwasnotherbusinesstothinkforme,ortoseekaplaceforme:besides,inhereyes,howdoubtfulmusthaveappearedmycharacter,position,tale。Sheshookherhead,she\'wassorryshecouldgivemenoinformation,\'andthewhitedoorclosed,quitegentlyandcivilly:butitshutmeout。Ifshehadhelditopenalittlelonger,IbelieveIshouldhavebeggedapieceofbread;forIwasnowbroughtlow。
Icouldnotbeartoreturntothesordidvillage,where,besides,noprospectofaidwasvisible。IshouldhavelongedrathertodeviatetoawoodIsawnotfaroff,whichappearedinitsthickshadetoofferinvitingshelter;butIwassosick,soweak,sognawedwithnature\'scravings,instinctkeptmeroamingroundabodeswheretherewasachanceoffood。Solitudewouldbenosolitude—restnorest—
whilethevulture,hunger,thussankbeakandtalonsinmyside。
Idrewnearhouses;Ileftthem,andcamebackagain,andagainI
wanderedaway:alwaysrepelledbytheconsciousnessofhavingnoclaimtoask—norighttoexpectinterestinmyisolatedlot。Meantime,theafternoonadvanced,whileIthuswanderedaboutlikealostandstarvingdog。Incrossingafield,Isawthechurchspirebeforeme:
I
hastenedtowardsit。Nearthechurchyard,andinthemiddleofagarden,stoodawell—builtthoughsmallhouse,whichIhadnodoubtwastheparsonage。Irememberedthatstrangerswhoarriveataplacewheretheyhavenofriends,andwhowantemployment,sometimesapplytotheclergymanforintroductionandaid。Itistheclergyman\'sfunctiontohelp—atleastwithadvice—thosewhowishedtohelpthemselves。Iseemedtohavesomethinglikearighttoseekcounselhere。Renewingthenmycourage,andgatheringmyfeebleremainsofstrength,Ipushedon。Ireachedthehouse,andknockedatthekitchen—door。Anoldwomanopened:Iaskedwasthistheparsonage?
\'Yes。\'
\'Wastheclergymanin?\'
\'No。\'
\'Wouldhebeinsoon?\'
\'No,hewasgonefromhome。\'
\'Toadistance?\'
\'Notsofar—happenthreemile。Hehadbeencalledawaybythesuddendeathofhisfather:hewasatMarshEndnow,andwouldverylikelystaythereafortnightlonger。\'
\'Wasthereanyladyofthehouse?\'
\'Nay,therewasnaughtbuther,andshewashousekeeper\';
andofher,reader,IcouldnotbeartoaskthereliefforwantofwhichI
wassinking;Icouldnotyetbeg;andagainIcrawledaway。
OncemoreItookoffmyhandkerchief—oncemoreIthoughtofthecakesofbreadinthelittleshop。Oh,forbutacrust!forbutonemouthfultoallaythepangoffamine!InstinctivelyIturnedmyfaceagaintothevillage;Ifoundtheshopagain,andIwentin;andthoughothersweretherebesidesthewomanIventuredtherequest—
\'Wouldshegivemearollforthishandkerchief?\'
Shelookedatmewithevidentsuspicion:\'Nay,sheneversoldstuffi\'thatway。\'
Almostdesperate,Iaskedforhalfacake;sheagainrefused。
\'HowcouldshetellwhereIhadgotthehandkerchief?\'shesaid。
\'Wouldshetakemygloves?\'
\'No!whatcouldshedowiththem?\'
Reader,itisnotpleasanttodwellonthesedetails。Somesaythereisenjoymentinlookingbacktopainfulexperiencepast;butatthisdayIcanscarcelybeartoreviewthetimestowhichIallude:
themoraldegradation,blentwiththephysicalsuffering,formtoodistressingarecollectionevertobewillinglydwelton。Iblamednoneofthosewhorepulsedme。Ifeltitwaswhatwastobeexpected,andwhatcouldnotbehelped:anordinarybeggarisfrequentlyanobjectofsuspicion;awell—dressedbeggarinevitablyso。Tobesure,whatIbeggedwasemployment;butwhosebusinesswasittoprovidemewithemployment?Not,certainly,thatofpersonswhosawmethenforthefirsttime,andwhoknewnothingaboutmycharacter。Andastothewomanwhowouldnottakemyhandkerchiefinexchangeforherbread,why,shewasright,iftheofferappearedtohersinisterortheexchangeunprofitable。Letmecondensenow。Iamsickofthesubject。
AlittlebeforedarkIpassedafarmhouse,attheopendoorofwhichthefarmerwassitting,eatinghissupperofbreadandcheese。
I
stoppedandsaid—
\'Willyougivemeapieceofbread?forIamveryhungry。\'
Hecastonmeaglanceofsurprise;butwithoutanswering,hecutathickslicefromhisloaf,andgaveittome。IimaginehedidnotthinkI
wasabeggar,butonlyaneccentricsortoflady,whohadtakenafancytohisbrownloaf。AssoonasIwasoutofsightofhishouse,I
satdownandateit。
Icouldnothopetogetalodgingunderaroof,andsoughtitinthewoodIhavebeforealludedto。Butmynightwaswretched,myrestbroken:thegroundwasdamp,theaircold:besides,intruderspassednearmemorethanonce,andIhadagainandagaintochangemyquarters:nosenseofsafetyortranquillitybefriendedme。Towardsmorningitrained;thewholeofthefollowingdaywaswet。Donotaskme,reader,togiveaminuteaccountofthatday;asbefore,I
soughtwork;asbefore,Iwasrepulsed;asbefore,Istarved;butoncedidfoodpassmylips。AtthedoorofacottageIsawalittlegirlabouttothrowamessofcoldporridgeintoapigtrough。\'Willyougivemethat?\'Iasked。
Shestaredatme。\'Mother!\'sheexclaimed,\'thereisawomanwantsmetogivehertheseporridge。\'
\'Well,lass,\'repliedavoicewithin,\'giveitherifshe\'sabeggar。T\'pigdoesn\'twantit。\'
ThegirlemptiedthestiffenedmouldintomyhandsandIdevoureditravenously。
Asthewettwilightdeepened,Istoppedinasolitarybridle—path,whichIhadbeenpursuinganhourormore。
\'Mystrengthisquitefailingme,\'Isaidinasoliloquy。
\'IfeelI
cannotgomuchfarther。ShallIbeanoutcastagainthisnight?
Whiletheraindescendsso,mustIlaymyheadonthecold,drenchedground?IfearIcannotdootherwise:forwhowillreceiveme?Butitwillbeverydreadful,withthisfeelingofhunger,faintness,chill,andthissenseofdesolation—thistotalprostrationofhope。
Inalllikelihood,though,Ishoulddiebeforemorning。AndwhycannotIreconcilemyselftotheprospectofdeath?WhydoIstruggletoretainavaluelesslife?BecauseIknow,orbelieve,Mr。Rochesterisliving:andthen,todieofwantandcoldisafatetowhichnaturecannotsubmitpassively。Oh,Providence!sustainmealittlelonger!
Aid!—directme!\'
Myglazedeyewanderedoverthedimandmistylandscape。
IsawI
hadstrayedfarfromthevillage:itwasquiteoutofsight。Theverycultivationsurroundingithaddisappeared。Ihad,bycross—waysandby—paths,oncemoredrawnnearthetractofmoorland;
andnow,onlyafewfields,almostaswildandunproductiveastheheathfromwhichtheywerescarcelyreclaimed,laybetweenmeandtheduskyhill。
\'Well,Iwouldratherdieyonderthaninastreetoronafrequentedroad,\'Ireflected。\'Andfarbetterthatcrowsandravens—ifanyravenstherebeintheseregions—shouldpickmyfleshfrommybones,thanthattheyshouldbeprisonedinaworkhousecoffinandmoulderinapauper\'sgrave。\'
Tothehill,then,Iturned。Ireachedit。ItremainednowonlytofindahollowwhereIcouldliedown,andfeelatleasthidden,ifnotsecure。Butallthesurfaceofthewastelookedlevel。Itshowednovariationbutoftint:green,whererushandmossovergrewthemarshes;black,wherethedrysoilboreonlyheath。Darkasitwasgetting,Icouldstillseethesechanges,thoughbutasmerealternationsoflightandshade;forcolourhadfadedwiththedaylight。
Myeyestillrovedoverthesullenswellandalongthemoor—edge,vanishingamidstthewildestscenery,whenatonedimpoint,farinamongthemarshesandtheridges,alightsprangup。\'Thatisanignisfatuus,\'wasmyfirstthought;andIexpecteditwouldsoonvanish。
Itburnton,however,quitesteadily,neitherrecedingnoradvancing。\'Isit,then,abonfirejustkindled?\'Iquestioned。Iwatchedtoseewhetheritwouldspread:butno;asitdidnotdiminish,soitdidnotenlarge。\'Itmaybeacandleinahouse,\'Ithenconjectured;\'butifso,Icanneverreachit。Itismuchtoofaraway:andwereitwithinayardofme,whatwoulditavail?Ishouldbutknockatthedoortohaveitshutinmyface。\'
AndIsankdownwhereIstood,andhidmyfaceagainsttheground。Ilaystillawhile:thenight—windsweptoverthehillandoverme,anddiedmoaninginthedistance;therainfellfast,wettingmeafreshtotheskin。CouldIbuthavestiffenedtothestillfrost—thefriendlynumbnessofdeath—itmighthavepeltedon;I
shouldnothavefeltit;butmyyetlivingfleshshudderedatitschillinginfluence。Iroseerelong。
Thelightwasyetthere,shiningdimbutconstantthroughtherain。
Itriedtowalkagain:Idraggedmyexhaustedlimbsslowlytowardsit。
Itledmeaslantoverthehill,throughawidebog,whichwouldhavebeenimpassableinwinter,andwassplashyandshakingevennow,intheheightofsummer。HereIfelltwice;butasoftenIroseandralliedmyfaculties。Thislightwasmyforlornhope:Imustgainit。
Havingcrossedthemarsh,Isawatraceofwhiteoverthemoor。I
approachedit;itwasaroadoratrack:itledstraightuptothelight,whichnowbeamedfromasortofknoll,amidstaclumpoftrees—
firs,apparently,fromwhatIcoulddistinguishofthecharacteroftheirformsandfoliagethroughthegloom。MystarvanishedasI
drewnear:someobstaclehadintervenedbetweenmeandit。Iputoutmyhandtofeelthedarkmassbeforeme:Idiscriminatedtheroughstonesofalowwall—aboveit,somethinglikepalisades,andwithin,ahighandpricklyhedge。Igropedon。Againawhitishobjectgleamedbeforeme:itwasagate—awicket;itmovedonitshingesasItouchedit。Oneachsidestoodasablebush—hollyoryew。
Enteringthegateandpassingtheshrubs,thesilhouetteofahouserosetoview,black,low,andratherlong;buttheguidinglightshonenowhere。Allwasobscurity。Weretheinmatesretiredtorest?Ifeareditmustbeso。Inseekingthedoor,Iturnedanangle:thereshotoutthefriendlygleamagain,fromthelozengedpanesofaverysmalllatticedwindow,withinafootoftheground,madestillsmallerbythegrowthofivyorsomeothercreepingplant,whoseleavesclusteredthickovertheportionofthehousewallinwhichitwasset。Theaperturewassoscreenedandnarrow,thatcurtainorshutterhadbeendeemedunnecessary;andwhenIstoopeddownandputasidethesprayoffoliageshootingoverit,Icouldseeallwithin。
I
couldseeclearlyaroomwithasandedfloor,cleanscoured;adresserofwalnut,withpewterplatesrangedinrows,reflectingtherednessandradianceofaglowingpeat—fire。Icouldseeaclock,awhitedealtable,somechairs。Thecandle,whoserayhadbeenmybeacon,burntonthetable;andbyitslightanelderlywoman,somewhatrough—looking,butscrupulouslyclean,likeallabouther,wasknittingastocking。
Inoticedtheseobjectscursorilyonly—inthemtherewasnothingextraordinary。Agroupofmoreinterestappearednearthehearth,sittingstillamidsttherosypeaceandwarmthsuffusingit。Twoyoung,gracefulwomen—ladiesineverypoint—sat,oneinalowrocking—chair,theotheronalowerstool;bothworedeepmourningofcrapeandbombazeen,whichsombregarbsingularlysetoffveryfairnecksandfaces:alargeoldpointerdogresteditsmassiveheadonthekneeofonegirl—inthelapoftheotherwascushionedablackcat。
Astrangeplacewasthishumblekitchenforsuchoccupants!
Whowerethey?Theycouldnotbethedaughtersoftheelderlypersonatthetable;forshelookedlikearustic,andtheywerealldelicacyandcultivation。Ihadnowhereseensuchfacesastheirs:andyet,asIgazedonthem,Iseemedintimatewitheverylineament。Icannotcallthemhandsome—theyweretoopaleandgravefortheword:astheyeachbentoverabook,theylookedthoughtfulalmosttoseverity。A
standbetweenthemsupportedasecondcandleandtwogreatvolumes,towhichtheyfrequentlyreferred,comparingthem,seemingly,withthesmallerbookstheyheldintheirhands,likepeopleconsultingadictionarytoaidtheminthetaskoftranslation。Thisscenewasassilentasifallthefigureshadbeenshadowsandthefirelitapartmentapicture:sohushedwasit,Icouldhearthecindersfallfromthegrate,theclocktickinitsobscurecorner;andIevenfanciedIcoulddistinguishtheclick—clickofthewoman\'sknitting—needles。When,therefore,avoicebrokethestrangestillnessatlast,itwasaudibleenoughtome。
\'Listen,Diana,\'saidoneoftheabsorbedstudents;\'FranzandoldDanielaretogetherinthenight—time,andFranzistellingadreamfromwhichhehasawakenedinterror—listen!\'Andinalowvoiceshereadsomething,ofwhichnotonewordwasintelligibletome;foritwasinanunknowntongue—neitherFrenchnorLatin。WhetheritwereGreekorGermanIcouldnottell。
\'Thatisstrong,\'shesaid,whenshehadfinished:\'Irelishit。\'
Theothergirl,whohadliftedherheadtolistentohersister,repeated,whileshegazedatthefire,alineofwhathadbeenread。
Atalaterday,Iknewthelanguageandthebook;therefore,Iwillherequotetheline:though,whenIfirstheardit,itwasonlylikeastrokeonsoundingbrasstome—conveyingnomeaning:—
\'\"DatrathervorEiner,anzusehenwiedieSternenNacht。\"
Good!
good!\'sheexclaimed,whileherdarkanddeepeyesparkled。\'Thereyouhaveadimandmightyarchangelfitlysetbeforeyou!Thelineisworthahundredpagesoffustian。\"IchwagedieGedankeninderSchalemeinesZornesunddieWerkemitdemGewichtemeinesGrimms。\"Ilikeit!\'
Bothwereagainsilent。
\'Isthereonycountrywheretheytalki\'thatway?\'askedtheoldwoman,lookingupfromherknitting。
\'Yes,Hannah—afarlargercountrythanEngland,wheretheytalkinnootherway。\'
\'Well,forsurecase,Iknawn\'thowtheycanunderstandt\'onet\'other:andifeithero\'yewentthere,yecouldtellwhattheysaid,Iguess?\'
\'Wecouldprobablytellsomethingofwhattheysaid,butnotall—
forwearenotascleverasyouthinkus,Hannah。Wedon\'tspeakGerman,andwecannotreaditwithoutadictionarytohelpus。\'
\'Andwhatgooddoesitdoyou?\'
\'Wemeantoteachitsometime—oratleasttheelements,astheysay;andthenweshallgetmoremoneythanwedonow。\'
\'Varrylike:butgiveowerstudying;ye\'vedoneenoughforto—night。\'
\'Ithinkwehave:atleastI\'mtired。Mary,areyou?\'
\'Mortally:afterall,it\'stoughworkfaggingawayatalanguagewithnomasterbutalexicon。\'
\'Itis,especiallysuchalanguageasthiscrabbedbutgloriousDeutsch。IwonderwhenSt。Johnwillcomehome。\'
\'Surelyhewillnotbelongnow:itisjustten(lookingatalittlegoldwatchshedrewfromhergirdle)。Itrainsfast,Hannah:
willyouhavethegoodnesstolookatthefireintheparlour?\'
Thewomanrose:sheopenedadoor,throughwhichIdimlysawapassage:soonIheardherstirafireinaninnerroom;shepresentlycameback。
\'Ah,childer!\'saidshe,\'itfairtroublesmetogointoyond\'roomnow:itlookssolonesomewi\'thechairemptyandsetbackinacorner。\'
Shewipedhereyeswithherapron:thetwogirls,gravebefore,lookedsadnow。
\'Butheisinabetterplace,\'continuedHannah:\'weshouldn\'twishhimhereagain。Andthen,nobodyneedtohaveaquieterdeathnorhehad。\'
\'Yousayhenevermentionedus?\'inquiredoneoftheladies。
\'Hehadn\'ttime,bairn:hewasgoneinaminute,wasyourfather。
Hehadbeenabitailinglikethedaybefore,butnaughttosignify;
andwhenMr。St。Johnaskedifhewouldlikeeithero\'yetobesentfor,hefairlaughedathim。Hebeganagainwithabitofaheavinessinhisheadthenextday—thatis,afortnightsin\'—andhewenttosleepandniverwakened:hewora\'moststarkwhenyourbrotherwentintot\'chamberandfandhim。Ah,childer!that\'st\'lasto\'t\'oldstock—foryeandMr。St。Johnislikeofdifferentsoarttothem\'at\'sgone;forallyourmotherwormichi\'yourway,anda\'mostasbook—learned。Sheworthepictur\'o\'ye,Mary:Dianaismorelikeyourfather。\'
IthoughtthemsosimilarIcouldnottellwheretheoldservant(forsuchInowconcludedhertobe)sawthedifference。Bothwerefaircomplexionedandslenderlymade;bothpossessedfacesfullofdistinctionandintelligence。One,tobesure,hadhairashadedarkerthantheother,andtherewasadifferenceintheirstyleofwearingit;Mary\'spalebrownlockswerepartedandbraidedsmooth:Diana\'sduskiertressescoveredherneckwiththickcurls。Theclockstruckten。
\'Ye\'llwantyoursupper,Iamsure,\'observedHannah;\'andsowillMr。St。Johnwhenhecomesin。\'
Andsheproceededtopreparethemeal。Theladiesrose;
theyseemedabouttowithdrawtotheparlour。Tillthismoment,Ihadbeensointentonwatchingthem,theirappearanceandconversationhadexcitedinmesokeenaninterest,Ihadhalf—forgottenmyownwretchedposition:nowitrecurredtome。Moredesolate,moredesperatethanever,itseemedfromcontrast。Andhowimpossiblediditappeartotouchtheinmatesofthishousewithconcernonmybehalf;tomakethembelieveinthetruthofmywantsandwoes—toinducethemtovouchsafearestformywanderings!AsIgropedoutthedoor,andknockedatithesitatingly,Ifeltthatlastideatobeamerechimera。Hannahopened。
\'Whatdoyouwant?\'sheinquired,inavoiceofsurprise,asshesurveyedmebythelightofthecandlesheheld。
\'MayIspeaktoyourmistresses?\'Isaid。
\'Youhadbettertellmewhatyouhavetosaytothem。Wheredoyoucomefrom?\'
\'Iamastranger。\'
\'Whatisyourbusinesshereatthishour?\'
\'Iwantanight\'sshelterinanout—houseoranywhere,andamorselofbreadtoeat。\'
Distrust,theveryfeelingIdreaded,appearedinHannah\'sface。
\'I\'llgiveyouapieceofbread,\'shesaid,afterapause;\'butwecan\'ttakeinavagranttolodge。Itisn\'tlikely。\'
\'Doletmespeaktoyourmistresses。\'
\'No,notI。Whatcantheydoforyou?Youshouldnotberovingaboutnow;itlooksveryill。\'
\'ButwhereshallIgoifyoudrivemeaway?WhatshallIdo?\'
\'Oh,I\'llwarrantyouknowwheretogoandwhattodo。
Mindyoudon\'tdowrong,that\'sall。Hereisapenny;nowgo—\'
\'Apennycannotfeedme,andIhavenostrengthtogofarther。
Don\'tshutthedoor:—oh,don\'t,forGod\'ssake!\'
\'Imust;therainisdrivingin—\'
\'Telltheyoungladies。Letmeseethem—\'
\'Indeed,Iwillnot。Youarenotwhatyououghttobe,oryouwouldn\'tmakesuchanoise。Moveoff。\'
\'ButImustdieifIamturnedaway。\'
\'Notyou。I\'mfear\'dyouhavesomeillplansagate,thatbringyouaboutfolk\'shousesatthistimeo\'night。Ifyou\'veanyfollowers—housebreakersorsuchlike—anywherenear,youmaytellthemwearenotbyourselvesinthehouse;wehaveagentleman,anddogs,andguns。\'Herethehonestbutinflexibleservantclappedthedoortoandbolteditwithin。
Thiswastheclimax。Apangofexquisitesuffering—athroeoftruedespair—rentandheavedmyheart。Wornout,indeed,Iwas;notanotherstepcouldIstir。Isankonthewetdoorstep:Igroaned—I
wrungmyhands—Iweptinutteranguish。Oh,thisspectreofdeath!
Oh,thislasthour,approachinginsuchhorror!Alas,thisisolation—thisbanishmentfrommykind!Notonlytheanchorofhope,butthefootingoffortitudewasgone—atleastforamoment;
butthelastIsoonendeavouredtoregain。
\'Icanbutdie,\'Isaid,\'andIbelieveinGod。LetmetrytowaitHiswillinsilence。\'
ThesewordsInotonlythought,bututtered;andthrustingbackallmymiseryintomyheart,Imadeanefforttocompelittoremainthere—dumbandstill。
\'Allmenmustdie,\'saidavoicequitecloseathand;\'butallarenotcondemnedtomeetalingeringandprematuredoom,suchasyourswouldbeifyouperishedhereofwant。\'
\'Whoorwhatspeaks?\'Iasked,terrifiedattheunexpectedsound,andincapablenowofderivingfromanyoccurrenceahopeofaid。A
formwasnear—whatform,thepitch—darknightandmyenfeebledvisionpreventedmefromdistinguishing。Withaloudlongknock,thenewcomerappealedtothedoor。