Formyself,Ihadnoneedtomakeanychange;Ishouldnotbecalledupontoquitmysanctumoftheschoolroom;forasanctumitwasnowbecometome,—\'averypleasantrefugeintimeoftrouble。\'
Ithadbeenamild,serenespringday—oneofthosedayswhich,towardstheendofMarchorthebeginningofApril,riseshiningovertheearthasheraldsofsummer。Itwasdrawingtoanendnow;buttheeveningwasevenwarm,andIsatatworkintheschoolroomwiththewindowopen。
\'Itgetslate,\'saidMrs。Fairfax,enteringinrustlingstate。\'I
amgladIordereddinneranhourafterthetimeMr。Rochestermentioned;foritispastsixnow。IhavesentJohndowntothegatestoseeifthereisanythingontheroad:onecanseealongwayfromthenceinthedirectionofMillcote。\'Shewenttothewindow。
\'Hereheis!\'saidshe。\'Well,John\'(leaningout),\'anynews?\'
\'They\'recoming,ma\'am,\'wastheanswer。\'They\'llbehereintenminutes。\'
Adeleflewtothewindow。Ifollowed,takingcaretostandononeside,sothat,screenedbythecurtain,Icouldseewithoutbeingseen。
ThetenminutesJohnhadgivenseemedverylong,butatlastwheelswereheard;fourequestriansgallopedupthedrive,andafterthemcametwoopencarriages。Flutteringveilsandwavingplumesfilledthevehicles;twoofthecavalierswereyoung,dashing—lookinggentlemen;thethirdwasMr。Rochester,onhisblackhorse,Mesrour,Pilotboundingbeforehim;athissiderodealady,andheandshewerethefirstoftheparty。Herpurpleriding—habitalmostsweptthe,ground,herveilstreamedlongonthebreeze;minglingwithitstransparentfolds,andgleamingthroughthem,shonerichravenringlets。
\'MissIngram!\'exclaimedMrs。Fairfax,andawayshehurriedtoherpostbelow。
Thecavalcade,followingthesweepofthedrive,quicklyturnedtheangleofthehouse,andIlostsightofit。Adelenowpetitionedtogodown;butItookheronmyknee,andgavehertounderstandthatshemustnotonanyaccountthinkofventuringinsightoftheladies,eithernoworatanyothertime,unlessexpresslysentfor:thatMr。
Rochesterwouldbeveryangry,etc。\'Somenaturaltearssheshed\'onbeingtoldthis;butasIbegantolookverygrave,sheconsentedatlasttowipethem。
Ajoyousstirwasnowaudibleinthehall:gentlemen\'sdeeptonesandladies\'silveryaccentsblentharmoniouslytogether,anddistinguishableaboveall,thoughnotloud,wasthesonorousvoiceofthemasterofThornfieldHall,welcominghisfairandgallantguestsunderitsroof。Thenlightstepsascendedthestairs;andtherewasatrippingthroughthegallery,andsoftcheerfullaughs,andopeningandclosingdoors,and,foratime,ahush。
\'Elleschangentdetoilettes,\'saidAdele;who,listeningattentively,hadfollowedeverymovement;andshesighed。
\'Chezmaman,\'saidshe,\'quandilyavaitdumonde,jelesuivaispartout,ausalonetaleurschambres;souventjeregardaislesfemmesdechambrecoifferethabillerlesdames,etc\'etaitsiamusant:commecelaonapprend。\'
\'Don\'tyoufeelhungry,Adele?\'
\'Maisoui,mademoiselle:voilacinqousixheuresquenousn\'avonspasmange。\'
\'Wellnow,whiletheladiesareintheirrooms,Iwillventuredownandgetyousomethingtoeat。\'
Andissuingfrommyasylumwithprecaution,Isoughtabackstairswhichconducteddirectlytothekitchen。Allinthatregionwasfireandcommotion;thesoupandfishwereinthelaststageofprojection,andthecookhungoverhercruciblesinaframeofmindandbodythreateningspontaneouscombustion。Intheservants\'halltwocoachmenandthreegentlemen\'sgentlemenstoodorsatroundthefire;theabigails,Isuppose,wereupstairswiththeirmistresses;thenewservants,thathadbeenhiredfromMillcote,werebustlingabouteverywhere。Threadingthischaos,Iatlastreachedthelarder;
thereItookpossessionofacoldchicken,arollofbread,sometarts,aplateortwoandaknifeandfork:withthisbootyImadeahastyretreat。Ihadregainedthegallery,andwasjustshuttingtheback—doorbehindme,whenanacceleratedhumwarnedmethattheladieswereabouttoissuefromtheirchambers。Icouldnotproceedtotheschoolroomwithoutpassingsomeoftheirdoors,andrunningtheriskofbeingsurprisedwithmycargoofvictualage;soIstoodstillatthisend,which,beingwindowless,wasdark:quitedarknow,forthesunwassetandtwilightgathering。
Presentlythechambersgaveuptheirfairtenantsoneafteranother:eachcameoutgailyandairily,withdressthatgleamedlustrousthroughthedusk。Foramomenttheystoodgroupedtogetherattheotherextremityofthegallery,conversinginakeyofsweetsubduedvivacity:theythendescendedthestaircasealmostasnoiselesslyasabrightmistrollsdownahill。Theircollectiveappearancehadleftonmeanimpressionofhigh—bornelegance,suchasIhadneverbeforereceived。
IfoundAdelepeepingthroughtheschoolroomdoor,whichsheheldajar。\'Whatbeautifulladies!\'criedsheinEnglish。\'Oh,IwishI
mightgotothem!DoyouthinkMr。Rochesterwillsendforusbyandby,afterdinner?\'
\'No,indeed,Idon\'t;Mr。Rochesterhassomethingelsetothinkabout。Nevermindtheladiesto—night;perhapsyouwillseethemto—morrow:hereisyourdinner。\'
Shewasreallyhungry,sothechickenandtartsservedtodivertherattentionforatime。ItwaswellIsecuredthisforage,orbothshe,I,andSophie,towhomIconveyedashareofourrepast,wouldhaverunachanceofgettingnodinneratall:everyonedownstairswastoomuchengagedtothinkofus。Thedessertwasnotcarriedouttillafternine,andattenfootmenwerestillrunningtoandfrowithtraysandcoffee—cups。IallowedAdeletositupmuchlaterthanusual;forshedeclaredshecouldnotpossiblygotosleepwhilethedoorskeptopeningandshuttingbelow,andpeoplebustlingabout。
Besides,sheadded,amessagemightpossiblycomefromMr。Rochesterwhenshewasundressed;\'etalorsqueldommage!\'
Itoldherstoriesaslongasshewouldlistentothem;
andthenforachangeItookheroutintothegallery。Thehalllampwasnowlit,anditamusedhertolookoverthebalustradeandwatchtheservantspassingbackwardsandforwards。Whentheeveningwasfaradvanced,asoundofmusicissuedfromthedrawing—room,whitherthepianohadbeenremoved;AdeleandIsatdownonthetopstepofthestairstolisten。Presentlyavoiceblentwiththerichtonesoftheinstrument;itwasaladywhosang,andverysweethernoteswere。Thesoloover,aduetfollowed,andthenaglee:ajoyousconversationalmurmurfilleduptheintervals。Ilistenedlong:suddenlyIdiscoveredthatmyearwaswhollyintentonanalysingthemingledsounds,andtryingtodiscriminateamidsttheconfusionofaccentsthoseofMr。
Rochester;andwhenitcaughtthem,whichitsoondid,itfoundafurthertaskinframingthetones,renderedbydistanceinarticulate,intowords。
Theclockstruckeleven。IlookedatAdele,whoseheadleantagainstmyshoulder;hereyeswerewaxingheavy,soItookherupinmyarmsandcarriedherofftobed。Itwasnearonebeforethegentlemenandladiessoughttheirchambers。
Thenextdaywasasfineasitspredecessor:itwasdevotedbythepartytoanexcursiontosomesiteintheneighbourhood。Theysetoutearlyintheforenoon,someonhorseback,therestincarriages;Iwitnessedboththedepartureandthereturn。MissIngram,asbefore,wastheonlyladyequestrian;and,asbefore,Mr。Rochestergallopedatherside;thetworodealittleapartfromtherest。I
pointedoutthiscircumstancetoMrs。Fairfax,whowasstandingatthewindowwithme—
\'Yousaiditwasnotlikelytheyshouldthinkofbeingmarried,\'
saidI,\'butyouseeMr。Rochesterevidentlyprefershertoanyoftheotherladies。\'
\'Yes,Idaresay:nodoubtheadmiresher。\'
\'Andshehim,\'Iadded;\'lookhowsheleansherheadtowardshimasifshewereconversingconfidentially;IwishIcouldseeherface;
Ihaveneverhadaglimpseofityet。\'
\'Youwillseeherthisevening,\'answeredMrs。Fairfax。
\'IhappenedtoremarktoMr。RochesterhowmuchAdelewishedtobeintroducedtotheladies,andhesaid:\"Oh!lethercomeintothedrawing—roomafterdinner;andrequestMissEyretoaccompanyher。\"\'
\'Yes;hesaidthatfrommerepoliteness:Ineednotgo,Iamsure,\'
Ianswered。
\'Well,Iobservedtohimthatasyouwereunusedtocompany,I
didnotthinkyouwouldlikeappearingbeforesogayaparty—allstrangers;andhereplied,inhisquickway—\"Nonsense!Ifsheobjects,tellheritismyparticularwish;andifsheresists,sayIshallcomeandfetchherincaseofcontumacy。\"\'
\'Iwillnotgivehimthattrouble,\'Ianswered。\'Iwillgo,ifnobettermaybe;butIdon\'tlikeit。Shallyoubethere,Mrs。Fairfax?\'
\'No;Ipleadedoff,andheadmittedmyplea。I\'lltellyouhowtomanagesoastoavoidtheembarrassmentofmakingaformalentrance,whichisthemostdisagreeablepartofthebusiness。Youmustgointothedrawing—roomwhileitisempty,beforetheladiesleavethedinner—table;chooseyourseatinanyquietnookyoulike;youneednotstaylongafterthegentlemencomein,unlessyouplease:justletMr。Rochesterseeyouarethereandthenslipaway—nobodywillnoticeyou。\'
\'Willthesepeopleremainlong,doyouthink?\'
\'Perhapstwoorthreeweeks,certainlynotmore。AftertheEasterrecess,SirGeorgeLynn,whowaslatelyelectedmemberforMillcote,willhavetogouptotownandtakehisseat;IdaresayMr。
Rochesterwillaccompanyhim:itsurprisesmethathehasalreadymadesoprotractedastayatThornfield。\'
ItwaswithsometrepidationthatIperceivedthehourapproachwhenIwastorepairwithmychargetothedrawing—room。Adelehadbeeninastateofecstasyallday,afterhearingshewastobepresentedtotheladiesintheevening;anditwasnottillSophiecommencedtheoperationofdressingherthatshesobereddown。Thentheimportanceoftheprocessquicklysteadiedher,andbythetimeshehadhercurlsarrangedinwell—smoothed,droopingclusters,herpinksatinfrockputon,herlongsashtied,andherlacemittensadjusted,shelookedasgraveasanyjudge。Noneedtowarnhernottodisarrangeherattire:whenshewasdressed,shesatdemurelydowninherlittlechair,takingcarepreviouslytoliftupthesatinskirtforfearsheshouldcreaseit,andassuredmeshewouldnotstirthencetillIwasready。ThisIquicklywas:mybestdress(thesilver—greyone,purchasedforMissTemple\'swedding,andneverwornsince)wassoonputon;myhairwassoonsmoothed;mysoleornament,thepearlbrooch,soonassumed。Wedescended。
Fortunatelytherewasanotherentrancetothedrawing—roomthanthatthroughthesaloonwheretheywereallseatedatdinner。Wefoundtheapartmentvacant;alargefireburningsilentlyonthemarblehearth,andwaxcandlesshininginbrightsolitude,amidtheexquisiteflowerswithwhichthetableswereadorned。Thecrimsoncurtainhungbeforethearch:slightaswastheseparationthisdraperyformedfromthepartyintheadjoiningsaloon,theyspokeinsolowakeythatnothingoftheirconversationcouldbedistinguishedbeyondasoothingmurmur。
Adele,whoappearedtobestillundertheinfluenceofamostsolemnisingimpression,satdown,withoutaword,onthefootstoolI
pointedouttoher。Iretiredtoawindow—seat,andtakingabookfromatablenear,endeavouredtoread。Adelebroughtherstooltomyfeet;
erelongshetouchedmyknee。
\'Whatisit,Adele?\'
\'Est—cequejenepuispasprendreuneseuledecesfleursmagnifiques,mademoiselle?Seulementpourcompletermatoilette。\'
\'Youthinktoomuchofyour\"toilette,\"Adele:butyoumayhaveaflower。\'AndItookarosefromavaseandfasteneditinhersash。
Shesighedasighofineffablesatisfaction,asifhercupofhappinesswerenowfull。IturnedmyfaceawaytoconcealasmileI
couldnotsuppress:therewassomethingludicrousaswellaspainfulinthelittleParisienne\'searnestandinnatedevotiontomattersofdress。
Asoftsoundofrisingnowbecameaudible;thecurtainwassweptbackfromthearch;throughitappearedthedining—room,withitslitlustrepouringdownlightonthesilverandglassofamagnificentdessert—servicecoveringalongtable;abandofladiesstoodintheopening;theyentered,andthecurtainfellbehindthem。
Therewerebuteight;yet,somehow,astheyflockedin,theygavetheimpressionofamuchlargernumber。Someofthemwereverytall;
manyweredressedinwhite;andallhadasweepingamplitudeofarraythatseemedtomagnifytheirpersonsasamistmagnifiesthemoon。Iroseandcurtseyedtothem:oneortwobenttheirheadsinreturn,theothersonlystaredatme。
Theydispersedabouttheroom,remindingme,bythelightnessandbuoyancyoftheirmovements,ofaflockofwhiteplumybirds。Someofthemthrewthemselvesinhalf—recliningpositionsonthesofasandottomans:somebentoverthetablesandexaminedtheflowersandbooks:therestgatheredinagrouproundthefire:alltalkedinalowbutcleartonewhichseemedhabitualtothem。Iknewtheirnamesafterwards,andmayaswellmentionthemnow。
First,therewasMrs。Eshtonandtwoofherdaughters。
Shehadevidentlybeenahandsomewoman,andwaswellpreservedstill。Ofherdaughters,theeldest,Amy,wasratherlittle:naive,andchild—likeinfaceandmanner,andpiquantinform;herwhitemuslindressandbluesashbecameherwell。Thesecond,Louisa,wastallerandmoreelegantinfigure;withaveryprettyface,ofthatordertheFrenchtermminoischiffone:bothsisterswerefairaslilies。
LadyLynnwasalargeandstoutpersonageofaboutforty,veryerect,veryhaughty—looking,richlydressedinasatinrobeofchangefulsheen:herdarkhairshoneglossilyundertheshadeofanazureplume,andwithinthecircletofabandofgems。
Mrs。ColonelDentwaslessshowy;but,Ithought,morelady—like。
Shehadaslightfigure,apale,gentleface,andfairhair。Herblacksatindress,herscarfofrichforeignlace,andherpearlornaments,pleasedmebetterthantherainbowradianceofthetitleddame。
Butthethreemostdistinguished—partly,perhaps,becausethetallestfiguresoftheband—weretheDowagerLadyIngramandherdaughters,BlancheandMary。Theywereallthreeoftheloftieststatureofwomen。TheDowagermightbebetweenfortyandfifty:hershapewasstillfine;herhair(bycandlelightatleast)stillblack;herteeth,too,werestillapparentlyperfect。Mostpeoplewouldhavetermedherasplendidwomanofherage:andsoshewas,nodoubt,physicallyspeaking;butthentherewasanexpressionofalmostinsupportablehaughtinessinherbearingandcountenance。ShehadRomanfeaturesandadoublechin,disappearingintoathroatlikeapillar:thesefeaturesappearedtomenotonlyinflatedanddarkened,butevenfurrowedwithpride;andthechinwassustainedbythesameprinciple,inapositionofalmostpreternaturalerectness。Shehad,likewise,afierceandahardeye:itremindedmeofMrs。Reed\'s;shemouthedherwordsinspeaking;hervoicewasdeep,itsinflectionsverypompous,verydogmatical,—veryintolerable,inshort。Acrimsonvelvetrobe,andashawlturbanofsomegold—wroughtIndianfabric,investedher(Isupposeshethought)withatrulyimperialdignity。
BlancheandMarywereofequalstature,—straightandtallaspoplars。Marywastooslimforherheight,butBlanchewasmouldedlikeaDian。Iregardedher,ofcourse,withspecialinterest。
First,IwishedtoseewhetherherappearanceaccordedwithMrs。
Fairfax\'sdescription;secondly,whetheritatallresembledthefancyminiatureIhadpaintedofher;andthirdly—itwillout!—whetheritweresuchasIshouldfancylikelytosuitMr。Rochester\'staste。
Asfaraspersonwent,sheansweredpointforpoint,bothtomypictureandMrs。Fairfax\'sdescription。Thenoblebust,theslopingshoulders,thegracefulneck,thedarkeyesandblackringletswereallthere;—butherface?Herfacewaslikehermother\'s;ayouthfulunfurrowedlikeness:thesamelowbrow,thesamehighfeatures,thesamepride。Itwasnot,however,sosaturnineapride!shelaughedcontinually;herlaughwassatirical,andsowasthehabitualexpressionofherarchedandhaughtylip。
Geniusissaidtobeself—conscious。IcannottellwhetherMissIngramwasagenius,butshewasself—conscious—remarkablyself—consciousindeed。SheenteredintoadiscourseonbotanywiththegentleMrs。Dent。ItseemedMrs。Denthadnotstudiedthatscience:
though,asshesaid,shelikedflowers,\'especiallywildones\';MissIngramhad,andsheranoveritsvocabularywithanair。Ipresentlyperceivedshewas(whatisvernacularlytermed)trailingMrs。Dent;
thatis,playingonherignorance:hertrailmightbeclever,butitwasdecidedlynotgood—natured。Sheplayed:herexecutionwasbrilliant;shesang,hervoicewasfine;shetalkedFrenchaparttohermama;andshetalkeditwell,withfluencyandwithagoodaccent。
MaryhadamilderandmoreopencountenancethanBlanche;
softerfeaturestoo,andaskinsomeshadesfairer(MissIngramwasdarkasaSpaniard)—butMarywasdeficientinlife:herfacelackedexpression,hereyelustre;shehadnothingtosay,andhavingoncetakenherseat,remainedfixedlikeastatueinitsniche。Thesisterswerebothattiredinspotlesswhite。
AnddidInowthinkMissIngramsuchachoiceasMr。Rochesterwouldbelikelytomake?Icouldnottell—Ididnotknowhistasteinfemalebeauty。Ifhelikedthemajestic,shewastheverytypeofmajesty:thenshewasaccomplished,sprightly。Mostgentlemenwouldadmireher,Ithought;andthathedidadmireher,Ialreadyseemedtohaveobtainedproof:toremovethelastshadeofdoubt,itremainedbuttoseethemtogether。
Youarenottosuppose,reader,thatAdelehasallthistimebeensittingmotionlessonthestoolatmyfeet:no;whentheladiesentered,sherose,advancedtomeetthem,madeastatelyreverence,andsaidwithgravity—
\'Bonjour,mesdames。\'
AndMissIngramhadlookeddownatherwithamockingair,andexclaimed,\'Oh,whatalittlepuppet!\'
LadyLynnhadremarked,\'ItisMr。Rochester\'sward,I
suppose—thelittleFrenchgirlhewasspeakingof。\'
Mrs。Denthadkindlytakenherhand,andgivenherakiss。
AmyandLouisaEshtonhadcriedoutsimultaneously—
\'Whataloveofachild!\'
Andthentheyhadcalledhertoasofa,whereshenowsat,ensconcedbetweenthem,chatteringalternatelyinFrenchandbrokenEnglish;absorbingnotonlytheyoungladies\'attention,butthatofMrs。EshtonandLadyLynn,andgettingspoilttoherheart\'scontent。
Atlastcoffeeisbroughtin,andthegentlemenaresummoned。
Isitintheshade—ifanyshadetherebeinthisbrilliantly—litapartment;
thewindow—curtainhalfhidesme。Againthearchyawns;theycome。Thecollectiveappearanceofthegentlemen,likethatoftheladies,isveryimposing:theyareallcostumedinblack;mostofthemaretall,someyoung。HenryandFrederickLynnareverydashingsparksindeed;andColonelDentisafinesoldierlyman。Mr。Eshton,themagistrateofthedistrict,isgentleman—like:hishairisquitewhite,hiseyebrowsandwhiskersstilldark,whichgiveshimsomethingoftheappearanceofa\'perenobledetheatre。\'LordIngram,likehissisters,isverytall;likethem,also,heishandsome;buthesharesMary\'sapatheticandlistlesslook:heseemstohavemorelengthoflimbthanvivacityofbloodorvigourofbrain。
AndwhereisMr。Rochester?
Hecomesinlast:Iamnotlookingatthearch,yetIseehimenter。Itrytoconcentratemyattentiononthosenetting—needles,onthemeshesofthepurseIamforming—IwishtothinkonlyoftheworkIhaveinmyhands,toseeonlythesilverbeadsandsilkthreadsthatlieinmylap;whereas,Idistinctlybeholdhisfigure,andI
inevitablyrecallthemomentwhenIlastsawit;justafterIhadrenderedhim,whathedeemed,anessentialservice,andhe,holdingmyhand,andlookingdownonmyface,surveyedmewitheyesthatrevealedaheartfullandeagertooverflow;inwhoseemotionsIhadapart。
HownearhadIapproachedhimatthatmoment!Whathadoccurredsince,calculatedtochangehisandmyrelativepositions?Yetnow,howdistant,howfarestrangedwewere!Sofarestranged,thatIdidnotexpecthimtocomeandspeaktome。Ididnotwonder,when,withoutlookingatme,hetookaseatattheothersideoftheroom,andbeganconversingwithsomeoftheladies。
NosoonerdidIseethathisattentionwasrivetedonthem,andthatImightgazewithoutbeingobserved,thanmyeyesweredrawninvoluntarilytohisface;Icouldnotkeeptheirlidsundercontrol:theywouldrise,andtheiridswouldfixonhim。Ilooked,andhadanacutepleasureinlooking,—apreciousyetpoignantpleasure;puregold,withasteelypointofagony:apleasurelikewhatthethirst—perishingmanmightfeelwhoknowsthewelltowhichhehascreptispoisoned,yetstoopsanddrinksdivinedraughtsnevertheless。
Mosttrueisitthat\'beautyisintheeyeofthegazer。\'
Mymaster\'scolourless,oliveface,square,massivebrow,broadandjettyeyebrows,deepeyes,strongfeatures,firm,grimmouth,—allenergy,decision,will,—werenotbeautiful,accordingtorule;buttheyweremorethanbeautifultome;theywerefullofaninterest,aninfluencethatquitemasteredme,—thattookmyfeelingsfrommyownpowerandfetteredtheminhis。Ihadnotintendedtolovehim;thereaderknowsIhadwroughthardtoextirpatefrommysoulthegermsoflovetheredetected;andnow,atthefirstrenewedviewofhim,theyspontaneouslyarrived,greenandstrong!Hemademelovehimwithoutlookingatme。
Icomparedhimwithhisguests。WhatwasthegallantgraceoftheLynns,thelanguideleganceofLordIngram,—eventhemilitarydistinctionofColonelDent,contrastedwithhislookofnativepithandgenuinepower?Ihadnosympathyintheirappearance,theirexpression:yetIcouldimaginethatmostobserverswouldcallthemattractive,handsome,imposing;whiletheywouldpronounceMr。
Rochesteratonceharsh—featuredandmelancholy—looking。Isawthemsmile,laugh—itwasnothing;thelightofthecandleshadasmuchsoulinitastheirsmile;thetinkleofthebellasmuchsignificanceastheirlaugh。IsawMr。Rochestersmile:—hissternfeaturessoftened;hiseyegrewbothbrilliantandgentle,itsraybothsearchingandsweet。Hewastalking,atthemoment,toLouisaandAmyEshton。Iwonderedtoseethemreceivewithcalmthatlookwhichseemedtomesopenetrating:Iexpectedtheireyestofall,theircolourtoriseunderit;yetIwasgladwhenIfoundtheywereinnosensemoved。\'Heisnottothemwhatheistome,\'Ithought:\'heisnotoftheirkind。Ibelieveheisofmine;—Iamsureheis—Ifeelakintohim—Iunderstandthelanguageofhiscountenanceandmovements:thoughrankandwealthseveruswidely,Ihavesomethinginmybrainandheart,inmybloodandnerves,thatassimilatesmementallytohim。DidIsay,afewdayssince,thatIhadnothingtodowithhimbuttoreceivemysalaryathishands?DidIforbidmyselftothinkofhiminanyotherlightthanasapaymaster?Blasphemyagainstnature!Everygood,true,vigorousfeelingIhavegathersimpulsivelyroundhim。IknowImustconcealmysentiments:Imustsmotherhope;Imustrememberthathecannotcaremuchforme。ForwhenIsaythatIamofhiskind,IdonotmeanthatIhavehisforcetoinfluence,andhisspelltoattract;ImeanonlythatI
havecertaintastesandfeelingsincommonwithhim。Imust,then,repeatcontinuallythatweareforeversundered:—andyet,whileI
breatheandthink,Imustlovehim。\'
Coffeeishanded。Theladies,sincethegentlemenentered,havebecomelivelyaslarks;conversationwaxesbriskandmerry。ColonelDentandMr。Eshtonargueonpolitics;theirwiveslisten。Thetwoprouddowagers,LadyLynnandLadyIngram,confabulatetogether。SirGeorge—whom,bythebye,Ihaveforgottentodescribe,—averybig,andveryfresh—lookingcountrygentleman,standsbeforetheirsofa,coffee—cupinhand,andoccasionallyputsinaword。Mr。FrederickLynnhastakenaseatbesideMaryIngram,andisshowinghertheengravingsofasplendidvolume:shelooks,smilesnowandthen,butapparentlysayslittle。ThetallandphlegmaticLordIngramleanswithfoldedarmsonthechair—backofthelittleandlivelyAmyEshton;sheglancesupathim,andchatterslikeawren:shelikeshimbetterthanshedoesMr。Rochester。HenryLynnhastakenpossessionofanottomanatthefeetofLouisa:Adelesharesitwithhim:heistryingtotalkFrenchwithher,andLouisalaughsathisblunders。
WithwhomwillBlancheIngrampair?Sheisstandingaloneatthetable,bendinggracefullyoveranalbum。Sheseemswaitingtobesought;butshewillnotwaittoolong:sheherselfselectsamate。
Mr。Rochester,havingquittedtheEshtons,standsonthehearthassolitaryasshestandsbythetable:sheconfrontshim,takingherstationontheoppositesideofthemantelpiece。
\'Mr。Rochester,Ithoughtyouwerenotfondofchildren?\'
\'NoramI。\'
\'Then,whatinducedyoutotakechargeofsuchalittledollasthat?\'(pointingtoAdele)。\'Wheredidyoupickherup?\'
\'Ididnotpickherup;shewasleftonmyhands。\'
\'Youshouldhavesenthertoschool。\'
\'Icouldnotaffordit:schoolsaresodear。\'
\'Why,Isupposeyouhaveagovernessforher:Isawapersonwithherjustnow—isshegone?Oh,no!theresheisstill,behindthewindow—curtain。Youpayher,ofcourse;Ishouldthinkitquiteasexpensive,—moreso;foryouhavethembothtokeepinaddition。\'
Ifeared—orshouldIsay,hoped?—theallusiontomewouldmakeMr。Rochesterglancemyway;andIinvoluntarilyshrankfartherintotheshade:butheneverturnedhiseyes。
\'Ihavenotconsideredthesubject,\'saidheindifferently,lookingstraightbeforehim。
\'No,youmenneverdoconsidereconomyandcommonsense。
Youshouldhearmamaonthechapterofgovernesses:MaryandIhavehad,Ishouldthink,adozenatleastinourday;halfofthemdetestableandtherestridiculous,andallincubi—weretheynot,mama?\'
\'Didyouspeak,myown?\'
Theyoungladythusclaimedasthedowager\'sspecialproperty,reiteratedherquestionwithanexplanation。
\'Mydearest,don\'tmentiongovernesses;thewordmakesmenervous。Ihavesufferedamartyrdomfromtheirincompetencyandcaprice。IthankHeavenIhavenowdonewiththem!\'
Mrs。Dentherebentovertothepiouslady,andwhisperedsomethinginhercar;Isuppose,fromtheanswerelicited,itwasareminderthatoneoftheanathematisedracewaspresent。
\'Tantpis!\'saidherladyship,\'Ihopeitmaydohergood!\'
Then,inalowertone,butstillloudenoughformetohear,\'Inoticedher;
Iamajudgeofphysiognomy,andinhersIseeallthefaultsofherclass。\'
\'Whatarethey,madam?\'inquiredMr。Rochesteraloud。
\'Iwilltellyouinyourprivateear,\'repliedshe,waggingherturbanthreetimeswithportentoussignificancy。
\'Butmycuriositywillbepastitsappetite;itcravesfoodnow。\'
\'AskBlanche;sheisneareryouthanI。\'
\'Oh,don\'treferhimtome,mama!Ihavejustonewordtosayofthewholetribe;theyareanuisance。NotthatIeversufferedmuchfromthem;Itookcaretoturnthetables。WhattricksTheodoreandIusedtoplayonourMissWilsons,andMrs。Greys,andMadameJouberts!Marywasalwaystoosleepytojoininaplotwithspirit。
ThebestfunwaswithMadameJoubert:MissWilsonwasapoorsicklything,lachrymoseandlow—spirited,notworththetroubleofvanquishing,inshort;andMrs。Greywascoarseandinsensible;noblowtookeffectonher。ButpoorMadameJoubert!Iseeheryetinherragingpassions,whenwehaddrivenhertoextremities—spiltourtea,crumbledourbreadandbutter,tossedourbooksuptotheceiling,andplayedacharivariwiththeruleranddesk,thefenderandfire—irons。
Theodore,doyourememberthosemerrydays?\'
\'Yaas,tobesureIdo,\'drawledLordIngram;\'andthepooroldstickusedtocryout\"Ohyouvillainschilds!\"—andthenwesermonisedheronthepresumptionofattemptingtoteachsuchcleverbladesaswewere,whenshewasherselfsoignorant。\'
\'Wedid;and,Tedo,youknow,Ihelpedyouinprosecuting(orpersecuting)yourtutor,whey—facedMr。Vining—theparsoninthepip,asweusedtocallhim。HeandMissWilsontookthelibertyoffallinginlovewitheachother—atleastTedoandIthoughtso;wesurprisedsundrytenderglancesandsighswhichweinterpretedastokensof\"labellepassion,\"andIpromiseyouthepublicsoonhadthebenefitofourdiscovery;weemployeditasasortoflevertohoistourdead—weightsfromthehouse。Dearmama,there,assoonasshegotaninklingofthebusiness,foundoutthatitwasofanimmoraltendency。Didyounot,mylady—mother?\'
\'Certainly,mybest。AndIwasquiteright:dependonthat:
thereareathousandreasonswhyliaisonsbetweengovernessesandtutorsshouldneverbetoleratedamomentinanywell—regulatedhouse;
firstly—\'
\'Oh,gracious,mama!Spareustheenumeration!Aureste,weallknowthem:dangerofbadexampletoinnocenceofchildhood;