第4章
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  Itwillsufficetorelate,thatafterasufficientperiodofpreparationandarrangementsbeingmadeformaintainingacopiousintercoursewithLudlow,IembarkedforBarcelona。Arestlesscuriosityandvigorousapplicationhavedistinguishedmycharacterineveryscene。Herewasspaciousfieldfortheexerciseofallmyenergies。Isoughtoutapreceptorinmynewreligion。Ienteredintotheheartsofpriestsandconfessors,the~hidalgo~andthepeasant,themonkandtheprelate,theaustereandvoluptuousdevoteewerescrutinizedinalltheirforms。

  Manwasthechiefsubjectofmystudy,andthesocialspherethatinwhichIprincipallymoved;butIwasnotinattentivetoinanimatenature,norunmindfulofthepast。Ifthescopeofvirtueweretomaintainthebodyinhealth,andtofurnishitshighestenjoymentstoeverysense,toincreasethenumber,andaccuracy,andorderofourintellectualstores,novirtuewasevermoreunblemishedthanmine。Iftoactuponourconceptionsofright,andtoacquitourselvesofallprejudiceandselfishnessintheformationofourprinciples,entitleustothetestimonyofagoodconscience,Imightjustlyclaimit。

  Ishallnotpretendtoascertainmyrankinthemoralscale。

  Yournotionsofdutydifferwidelyfrommine。Ifasystemofdeceit,pursuedmerelyfromtheloveoftruth;ifvoluptuousness,nevergratifiedattheexpenseofhealth,mayincurcensure,Iamcensurable。This,indeed,wasnotthelimitofmydeviations。

  Deceptionwasoftenunnecessarilypractised,andmybiloquialfacultydidnotlieunemployed。Whathashappenedtoyourselvesmayenableyou,insomedegree,tojudgeofthescenesinwhichmymysticalexploitsengagedme。Innoneofthem,indeed,weretheeffectsequallydisastrous,andtheywere,forthemostpart,theresultofwelldigestedprojects。

  Torecountthesewouldbeanendlesstask。Theyweredesignedasmerespecimensofpower,toillustratetheinfluenceofsuperstition:togivescepticstheconsolationofcertainty:toannihilatethescruplesofatenderfemale,orfacilitatemyaccesstothebosomsofcourtiersandmonks。

  ThefirstachievementofthiskindtookplaceintheconventoftheEscurial。Forsometimethehospitalityofthisbrotherhoodallowedmeacellinthatmagnificentandgloomyfabric。IwasdrawnhitherchieflybythetreasuresofArabianliterature,whicharepreservedhereinthekeepingofalearnedMaronite,fromLebanon。Standingoneeveningonthestepsofthegreataltar,thisdevoutfriarexpatiatedonthemiraculousevidencesofhisreligion;and,inamomentofenthusiasm,appealedtoSanLorenzo,whosemartyrdomwasdisplayedbeforeus。Nosoonerwastheappealmadethanthesaint,obsequioustothesummons,whisperedhisresponsesfromtheshrine,andcommandedtheheretictotrembleandbelieve。Thiseventwasreportedtotheconvent。Withwhateverreluctance,Icouldnotrefusemytestimonytoitstruth,anditsinfluenceonmyfaithwasclearlyshewninmysubsequentconduct。

  Aladyofrank,inSeville,whohadbeenguiltyofmanyunauthorizedindulgences,was,atlast,awakenedtoremorse,byavoicefromHeaven,whichsheimaginedhadcommandedhertoexpiatehersinsbyanabstinencefromallfoodforthirtydays。Herfriendsfounditimpossibletooutrootthispersuasion,ortoovercomeherresolutionevenbyforce。Ichancedtobeoneinanumerouscompanywhereshewaspresent。Thisfatalillusionwasmentioned,andanopportunityaffordedtotheladyofdefendingherscheme。Atapauseinthediscourse,avoicewasheardfromtheceiling,whichconfirmedthetruthofhertale;but,atthesametimerevokedthecommand,and,inconsiderationofherfaith,pronouncedherabsolution。Satisfiedwiththisproof,theauditorsdismissedtheirunbelief,andtheladyconsentedtoeat。

  InthecourseofacopiouscorrespondencewithLudlow,theobservationsIhadcollectedweregiven。Asentiment,whichIcanhardlydescribe,inducedmetobesilentonalladventuresconnectedwithmybivocalprojects。Onothertopics,Iwrotefully,andwithoutrestraint。Ipainted,invividhues,thesceneswithwhichIwasdailyconversant,andpursued,fearlessly,everyspeculationonreligionandgovernmentthatoccurred。ThisspiritwasencouragedbyLudloe,whofailednottocommentonmynarrative,andmultiplydeductionsfrommyprinciples。

  Hetaughtmetoascribetheevilsthatinfestsocietytotheerrorsofopinion。Theabsurdandunequaldistributionofpowerandpropertygavebirthtopovertyandriches,andthesewerethesourcesofluxuryandcrimes。Thesepositionswerereadilyadmitted;buttheremedyfortheseills,themeansofrectifyingtheseerrorswerenoteasilydiscovered。Wehavebeeninclinedtoimputethemtoinherentdefectsinthemoralconstitutionofmen:

  thatoppressionandtyrannygrowupbyasortofnaturalnecessity,andthattheywillperishonlywhenthehumanspeciesisextinct。

  Ludloelabouredtoprovethatthiswas,bynomeans,thecase:

  thatmanisthecreatureofcircumstances:thatheiscapableofendlessimprovement:thathisprogresshasbeenstoppedbytheartificialimpedimentofgovernment:thatbytheremovalofthis,thefondestdreamsofimaginationwillberealized。

  Fromdetailingandaccountingfortheevilswhichexistunderourpresentinstitutions,heusuallyproceededtodelineatesomeschemeofUtopianfelicity,wheretheempireofreasonshouldsupplantthatofforce:wherejusticeshouldbeuniversallyunderstoodandpractised;wheretheinterestofthewholeandoftheindividualshouldbeseenbyalltobethesame;wherethepublicgoodshouldbethescopeofallactivity;wherethetasksofallshouldbethesame,andthemeansofsubsistenceequallydistributed。

  Noonecouldcontemplatehispictureswithoutrapture。Bytheircomprehensivenessandamplitudetheyfilledtheimagination。

  Iwasunwillingtobelievethatinnoregionoftheworld,oratnoperiodcouldtheseideasberealized。ItwasplainthatthenationsofEuropeweretendingtogreaterdepravity,andwouldbethepreyofperpetualvicissitude。Allindividualattemptsattheirreformationwouldbefruitless。Hethereforewhodesiredthediffusionofrightprinciples,tomakeajustsystembeadoptedbyawholecommunity,mustpursuesomeextraordinarymethod。

  InthisstateofmindIrecollectedmynativecountry,whereafewcolonistsfromBritainhadsownthegermeofpopulousandmightyempires。Attended,astheywere,intotheirnewabode,byalltheirprejudices,yetsuchhadbeentheinfluenceofnewcircumstances,ofconsultingfortheirownhappiness,ofadoptingsimpleformsofgovernment,andexcludingnoblesandkingsfromtheirsystem,thattheyenjoyedadegreeofhappinessfarsuperiortotheirparentstate。

  Toconquertheprejudicesandchangethehabitsofmillions,areimpossible。Thehumanmind,exposedtosocialinfluences,inflexiblyadherestothedirectionthatisgiventoit;butforthesamereasonwhymen,whobegininerrorwillcontinue,thosewhocommenceintruth,maybeexpectedtopersist。Habitandexamplewilloperatewithequalforceinbothinstances。

  Letafew,sufficientlyenlightenedanddisinterested,takeuptheirabodeinsomeunvisitedregion。Lettheirsocialschemebefoundedinequity,andhowsmallsoevertheiroriginalnumbermaybe,theirgrowthintoanationisinevitable。Amongothereffectsofnationaljustice,wastoberankedtheswiftincreaseofnumbers。Exemptfromservileobligationsandperversehabits,endowedwithproperty,wisdom,andhealth。Hundredswillexpand,withinconceivablerapidityintothousandsandthousands,intomillions;andanewrace,tutoredintruth,may,inafewcenturies,overflowthehabitableworld。

  Suchwerethevisionsofyouth!Icouldnotbanishthemfrommymind。Iknewthemtobecrude;butbelievedthatdeliberationwouldbestowuponthemsolidityandshape。MeanwhileIimpartedthemtoLudloe。

  ChapterVI。

  InanswertothereveriesandspeculationswhichIsenttohimrespectingthissubject,Ludloeinformedme,thattheyhadledhismindintoanewsphereofmeditation。Hehadlonganddeeplyconsideredinwhatwayhemightessentiallypromotemyhappiness。

  HehadentertainedafainthopethatIwouldonedaybequalifiedforastationlikethattowhichhehimselfhadbeenadvanced。

  Thispostrequiredanelevationandstabilityofviewswhichhumanbeingsseldomreach,andwhichcouldbeattainedbymeonlybyalongseriesofheroiclabours。Hithertoeverynewstageinmyintellectualprogresshadaddedvigourtohishopes,andhecherishedastrongerbeliefthanformerlythatmycareerwouldterminateauspiciously。This,however,wasnecessarilydistant。

  Manypreliminariesmustfirstbesettled;manyarduousaccomplishmentsbefirstobtained;andmyvirtuebesubjectedtoseveretrials。Atpresentitwasnotinhispowertobemoreexplicit;butifmyreflectionssuggestednobetterplan,headvisedmetosettlemyaffairsinSpain,andreturntohimimmediately。Myknowledgeofthiscountrywouldbeofthehighestuse,onthesuppositionofmyultimatelyarrivingatthehonourstowhichhehadalluded;andsomeofthesepreparatorymeasurescouldbetakenonlywithhisassistance,andinhiscompany。

  Thisintimationwaseagerlyobeyed,and,inashorttime,I

  arrivedatDublin。Meanwhilemymindhadcopiousoccupationincommentingonmyfriend\'sletter。Thisscheme,whateveritwas,seemedtobesuggestedbymymentionofaplanofcolonization,andmypreferenceofthatmodeofproducingextensiveandpermanenteffectsontheconditionofmankind。Itwaseasythereforetoconjecturethatthismodehadbeenpursuedundersomemysteriousmodificationsandconditions。

  Ithadalwaysexcitedmywonderthatsoobviousanexpedienthadbeenoverlooked。Theglobewhichweinhabitwasveryimperfectlyknown。Theregionsandnationsunexplored,itwasreasonabletobelieve,surpassedinextent,andperhapsinpopulousness,thosewithwhichwewerefamiliar。TheorderofJesuitshadfurnishedanexampleofalltheerrorsandexcellenciesofsuchascheme。Theirplanwasfoundedonerroneousnotionsofreligionandpolicy,andtheyhadabsurdlychosenascene*withinreachoftheinjusticeandambitionofanEuropeantyrant。

  Itwaswiseandeasytoprofitbytheirexample。Restingonthetwopropsoffidelityandzeal,anassociationmightexistforagesintheheartofEurope,whoseinfluencemightbefelt,andmightbeboundless,insomeregionofthesouthernhemisphere;andbywhomamoralandpoliticalstructuremightberaised,thegrowthofpurewisdom,andtotallyunlikethosefragmentsofRomanandGothicbarbarism,whichcoverthefaceofwhatarecalledthecivilizednations。Thebeliefnowroseinmymindthatsomesuchschemehadactuallybeenprosecuted,andthatLudloewasacoadjutor。Onthissupposition,thecautionwithwhichheapproachedtohispoint,thearduousprobationwhichacandidateforapartonthisstagemustundergo,andtherigoursofthattestbywhichhisfortitudeandvirtuemustbetried,wereeasilyexplained。Iwastoodeeplyimbuedwithvenerationfortheeffectsofsuchschemes,andtoosanguineinmyconfidenceintherectitudeofLudloe,torefusemyconcurrenceinanyschemebywhichmyqualificationsmightatlengthberaisedtoaduepoint。

  Ourinterviewwasfrankandaffectionate。Ifoundhimsituatedjustasformerly。Hisaspect,manners,anddeportmentwerethesame。Ienteredoncemoreonmyformermodeoflife,butourintercoursebecamemorefrequent。Weconstantlybreakfastedtogether,andourconversationwasusuallyprolongedthroughhalfthemorning。

  Foratimeourtopicsweregeneral。Ithoughtpropertoleavetohimtheintroductionofmoreinterestingthemes:this,however,hebetrayednoinclinationtodo。Hisreserveexcitedsomesurprise,andIbegantosuspectthatwhateverdesignhehadformedwithregardtome,hadbeenlaidaside。Toascertainthisquestion,Iventured,atlength,torecallhisattentiontothesubjectofhislastletter,andtoenquirewhethersubsequentreflectionhadmadeanychangeinhisviews。

  Hesaidthathisviewsweretoomomentoustobehastilytakenup,orhastilydismissed;thestation,myattainmentofwhichdependedwhollyonmyself,washighabovevulgarheads,andwastobegainedbyyearsofsolicitudeandlabour。This,atleast,wastruewithregardtomindsordinarilyconstituted;I,perhaps,deservedtoberegardedasanexception,andmightbeabletoaccomplishinafewmonthsthatforwhichotherswereobligedtotoilduringhalftheirlives。

  Man,continuedhe,istheslaveofhabit。Convincehimto-daythathisdutyleadsstraightforward:heshalladvance,butateverystephisbeliefshallfade;habitwillresumeitsempire,andtomorrowheshallturnback,orbetakehimselftoobliquepaths。

  Weknownotourstrengthtillitbetried。Virtue,tillconfirmedbyhabit,isadream。Youareamanimbuedbyerrors,andvinciblebyslighttemptations。Deepenquiriesmustbestowlightonyouropinions,andthehabitofencounteringandvanquishingtemptationmustinspireyouwithfortitude。Tillthisbedone,youareunqualifiedforthatpost,inwhichyouwillbeinvestedwithdivineattributes,andprescribetheconditionofalargeportionofmankind。

  Confidenotinthefirmnessofyourprinciples,orthestedfastnessofyourintegrity。Bealwaysvigilantandfearful。

  Neverthinkyouhaveenoughofknowledge,andletnotyourcautionslumberforamoment,foryouknownotwhendangerisnear。

  Iacknowledgedthejusticeofhisadmonitions,andprofessedmyselfwillingtoundergoanyordealwhichreasonshouldprescribe。

  What,Iasked,weretheconditions,onthefulfilmentofwhichdependedmyadvancementtothestationhealludedto?Wasitnecessarytoconcealfrommethenatureandobligationsofthisrank?

  TheseenquiriessunkhimmoreprofoundlyintomeditationthanIhadeverbeforewitnessed。Afterapause,inwhichsomeperplexitywasvisible,heanswered:

  Iscarcelyknowwhattosay。Astopromises,Iclaimthemnotfromyou。Wearenowarrivedatapoint,inwhichitisnecessarytolookaroundwithcaution,andthatconsequencesshouldbefullyknown。Anumberofpersonsareleaguedtogetherforanendofsomemoment。Tomakeyourselfoneoftheseissubmittedtoyourchoice。

  Amongtheconditionsoftheiralliancearemutualfidelityandsecrecy。

  Theirexistencedependsuponthis:theirexistenceisknownonlytothemselves。Thissecrecymustbeobtainedbyallthemeanswhicharepossible。WhenIhavesaidthusmuch,Ihaveinformedyou,insomedegree,oftheirexistence,butyouarestillignorantofthepurposecontemplatedbythisassociation,andofallthemembers,exceptmyself。Sofarnodangerousdisclosureisyetmade:butthisdegreeofconcealmentisnotsufficient。Thusmuchismadeknowntoyou,becauseitisunavoidable。Theindividualswhichcomposethisfraternityarenotimmortal,andthevacanciesoccasionedbydeathmustbesuppliedfromamongtheliving。Thecandidatemustbeinstructedandprepared,andtheyarealwaysatlibertytorecede。Theirreasonmustapprovetheobligationsanddutiesoftheirstation,ortheyareunfitforit。Iftheyrecede,onedutyisstillincumbentuponthem:theymustobserveaninviolablesilence。Tothistheyarenotheldbyanypromise。

  Theymustweighconsequences,andfreelydecide;buttheymustnotfailtonumberamongtheseconsequencestheirowndeath。

  Theirdeathwillnotbepromptedbyvengeance。Theexecutionerwillsay,hethathasoncerevealedthetaleislikelytorevealitasecondtime;and,topreventthis,thebetrayermustdie。Noristhistheonlyconsequence:topreventthefurtherrevelation,he,towhomthesecretwasimparted,mustlikewiseperish。Hemustnotconsolehimselfwiththebeliefthathistrespasswillbeunknown。Theknowledgecannot,byhumanmeans,bewithheldfromthisfraternity。Rare,indeed,willitbethathispurposetodiscloseisnotdiscoveredbeforeitcanbeeffected,andthedisclosurepreventedbyhisdeath。

  Bewellawareofyourcondition。WhatInow,ormayhereaftermention,mentionnotagain。Admitnotevenadoubtastotheproprietyofhidingitfromalltheworld。Thereareeyeswhowilldiscernthisdoubtamidsttheclosestfoldsofyourheart,andyourlifewillinstantlybesacrificed。

  Atpresentbethesubjectdismissed。Reflectdeeplyonthedutywhichyouhavealreadyincurred。Thinkuponyourstrengthofmind,andbecarefulnottolayyourselfunderimpracticableobligations。Itwillalwaysbeinyourpowertorecede。Evenafteryouaresolemnlyenrolledamember,youmayconsultthedictatesofyourownunderstanding,andrelinquishyourpost;butwhileyoulive,theobligationtobesilentwillperpetuallyattendyou。

  Weseeknotthemiseryordeathofanyone,butweareswayedbyanimmutablecalculation。Deathistobeabhorred,butthelifeofthebetrayerisproductiveofmoreevilthanhisdeath:hisdeath,therefore,wechuse,andourmeansareinstantaneousandunerring。

  Iloveyou。Thefirstimpulseofmyloveistodissuadeyoufromseekingtoknowmore。Yourmindwillbefullofideas;yourhandswillbeperpetuallybusytoapurposeintowhichnohumancreature,beyondthevergeofyourbrotherhood,mustpry。Believeme,whohavemadetheexperiment,thatcomparedwiththistask,thetaskofinviolablesecrecy,allothersareeasy。Tobedumbwillnotsuffice;nevertoknowanyremissioninyourzealoryourwatchfulnesswillnotsuffice。Ifthesagacityofothersdetectyouroccupations,howeverstrenuouslyyoumaylabourforconcealment,yourdoomisratified,aswellasthatofthewretchwhoseevildestinyledhimtopursueyou。

  Yetifyourfidelityfailnot,greatwillbeyourrecompence。

  Forallyourtoilsandself-devotion,amplewillbetheretribution。Hithertoyouhavebeenwraptindarknessandstorm;

  thenwillyoubeexaltedtoapureandunruffledelement。Itisonlyforatimethattemptationwillenvironyou,andyourpathwillbetoilsome。Inafewyearsyouwillbepermittedtowithdrawtoalandofsages,andtheremainderofyourlifewillglideawayintheenjoymentsofbeneficenceandwisdom。

  ThinkdeeplyonwhatIhavesaid。Investigateyourownmotivesandopinions,andpreparetosubmitthemtothetestofnumeroushazardsandexperiments。

  Heremyfriendpassedtoanewtopic。Iwasdesirousofrevertingtothissubject,andobtainingfurtherinformationconcerningit,butheassiduouslyrepelledallmyattempts,andinsistedonmybestowingdeepandimpartialattentiononwhathadalreadybeendisclosed。Iwasnotslowtocomplywithhisdirections。Mymindrefusedtoadmitanyotherthemeofcontemplationthanthis。

  AsyetIhadnoglimpseofthenatureofthisfraternity。I

  waspermittedtoformconjectures,andpreviousincidentsbestowedbutoneformuponmythoughts。InreviewingthesentimentsanddeportmentofLudloe,mybeliefcontinuallyacquirednewstrength。

  Ievenrecollectedhintsandambiguousallusionsinhisdiscourse,whichwereeasilysolved,onthesuppositionoftheexistenceofanewmodelofsociety,insomeunsuspectedcorneroftheworld。

  Ididnotfullyperceivethenecessityofsecrecy;butthisnecessityperhapswouldberenderedapparent,whenIshouldcometoknowtheconnectionthatsubsistedbetweenEuropeandthisimaginarycolony。Butwhatwastobedone?Iwaswillingtoabidebytheseconditions。Myunderstandingmightnotapproveofalltheendsproposedbythisfraternity,andIhadlibertytowithdrawfromit,ortorefusetoallymyselfwiththem。Thattheobligationofsecrecyshouldstillremain,wasunquestionablyreasonable。

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