ChapterI。
Iwasthesecondsonofafarmer,whoseplaceofresidencewasawesterndistrictofPennsylvania。Myeldestbrotherseemedfittedbynaturefortheemploymenttowhichhewasdestined。Hiswishesneverledhimastrayfromthehay-stackandthefurrow。Hisideasneverrangedbeyondthesphereofhisvision,orsuggestedthepossibilitythatto-morrowcoulddifferfromto-day。Hecouldreadandwrite,becausehehadnoalternativebetweenlearningthelessonprescribedtohim,andpunishment。Hewasdiligent,aslongasfearurgedhimforward,buthisexertionsceasedwiththecessationofthismotive。Thelimitsofhisacquirementsconsistedinsigninghisname,andspellingoutachapterinthebible。
Mycharacterwasthereverseofhis。Mythirstofknowledgewasaugmentedinproportionasitwassuppliedwithgratification。
ThemoreIheardorread,themorerestlessandunconquerablemycuriositybecame。Mysenseswereperpetuallyalivetonovelty,myfancyteemedwithvisionsofthefuture,andmyattentionfasteneduponeverythingmysteriousorunknown。
Myfatherintendedthatmyknowledgeshouldkeeppacewiththatofmybrother,butconceivedthatallbeyondthemerecapacitytowriteandreadwasuselessorpernicious。Hetookasmuchpainstokeepmewithintheselimits,astomaketheacquisitionsofmybrothercomeuptothem,buthiseffortswerenotequallysuccessfulinbothcases。Themostvigilantandjealousscrutinywasexertedinvain:Reproachesandblows,painfulprivationsandignominiouspenanceshadnopowertoslackenmyzealandabatemyperseverance。Hemightenjoinuponmethemostlaborioustasks,settheenvyofmybrothertowatchmeduringtheperformance,makethemostdiligentsearchaftermybooks,anddestroythemwithoutmercy,whentheywerefound;buthecouldnotoutrootmydarlingpropensity。Iexertedallmypowerstoeludehiswatchfulness。
Censuresandstripesweresufficientlyunpleasingtomakemestrivetoavoidthem。Toeffectthisdesirableend,Iwasincessantlyemployedintheinventionofstratagemsandtheexecutionofexpedients。
Mypassionwassurelynotdeservingofblame,andIhavefrequentlylamentedthehardshipstowhichitsubjectedme;yet,perhaps,theclaimswhichweremadeuponmyingenuityandfortitudewerenotwithoutbeneficialeffectsuponmycharacter。
Thiscontentionlastedfromthesixthtothefourteenthyearofmyage。Myfather\'soppositiontomyschemeswasincitedbyasincerethoughunenlighteneddesireformyhappiness。Thatallhiseffortsweresecretlyeludedorobstinatelyrepelled,wasasourceofthebitterestregret。Hehasoftenlamented,withtears,whathecalledmyincorrigibledepravity,andencouragedhimselftoperseverancebythenotionoftheruinthatwouldinevitablyovertakemeifIwereallowedtopersistinmypresentcareer。
Perhapsthesufferingswhicharosetohimfromthedisappointment,wereequaltothosewhichheinflictedonme。
Inmyfourteenthyear,eventshappenedwhichascertainedmyfuturedestiny。OneeveningIhadbeensenttobringcowsfromameadow,somemilesdistantfrommyfather\'smansion。Mytimewaslimited,andIwasmenacedwithseverechastisementif,accordingtomycustom,Ishouldstaybeyondtheperiodassigned。
Forsometimethesemenacesrunginmyears,andIwentonmywaywithspeed。Iarrivedatthemeadow,butthecattlehadbrokenthefenceandescaped。Itwasmydutytocarryhometheearliesttidingsofthisaccident,butthefirstsuggestionwastoexaminethecauseandmannerofthisescape。Thefieldwasboundedbycedarrailing。Fiveoftheserailswerelaidhorizontallyfromposttopost。Theupperonehadbeenbrokeninthemiddle,buttheresthadmerelybeendrawnoutoftheholesononeside,andrestedwiththeirendsontheground。Themeanswhichhadbeenusedforthisend,thereasonwhyoneonlywasbroken,andthatonetheuppermost,howapairofhornscouldbesomanagedastoeffectthatwhichthehandsofmanwouldhavefounddifficult,suppliedathemeofmeditation。
Someaccidentrecalledmefromthisreverie,andremindedmehowmuchtimehadthusbeenconsumed。Iwasterrifiedattheconsequencesofmydelay,andsoughtwitheagernesshowtheymightbeobviated。IaskedmyselfiftherewerenotawaybackshorterthanthatbywhichIhadcome。Thebeatenroadwasrenderedcircuitousbyaprecipicethatprojectedintoaneighbouringstream,andclosedupapassagebywhichthelengthofthewaywouldhavebeendiminishedonehalf:atthefootofthecliffthewaterwasofconsiderabledepth,andagitatedbyaneddy。IcouldnotestimatethedangerwhichIshouldincurbyplungingintoit,butIwasresolvedtomaketheattempt。Ihavereasontothink,thatthisexperiment,ifithadbeentried,wouldhaveprovedfatal,andmyfather,whilehelamentedmyuntimelyfate,wouldhavebeenwhollyunconsciousthathisownunreasonabledemandshadoccasionedit。
Iturnedmystepstowardsthespot。Toreachtheedgeofthestreamwasbynomeansaneasyundertaking,somanyabruptpointsandgloomyhollowswereinterposed。Ihadfrequentlyskirtedandpenetratedthistract,buthadneverbeensocompletelyentangledinthemazeasnow:henceIhadremainedunacquaintedwithanarrowpass,which,atthedistanceofanhundredyardsfromtheriver,wouldconductme,thoughnotwithoutdangerandtoil,totheoppositesideoftheridge。
Thisglenwasnowdiscovered,andthisdiscoveryinducedmetochangemyplan。Ifapassagecouldbehereeffected,itwouldbeshorterandsaferthanthatwhichledthroughthestream,anditspracticabilitywastobeknownonlybyexperiment。Thepathwasnarrow,steep,andovershadowedbyrocks。Thesunwasnearlyset,andtheshadowofthecliffabove,obscuredthepassagealmostasmuchasmidnightwouldhavedone:Iwasaccustomedtodespisedangerwhenitpresenteditselfinasensibleform,but,byadefectcommonineveryone\'seducation,goblinsandspectresweretometheobjectsofthemostviolentapprehensions。Thesewereunavoidablyconnectedwithsolitudeanddarkness,andwerepresenttomyfearswhenIenteredthisgloomyrecess。
Theseterrorsarealwayslessenedbycallingtheattentionawaytosomeindifferentobject。Inowmadeuseofthisexpedient,andbegantoamusemyselfbyhallowingasloudasorgansofunusualcompassandvigourwouldenableme。Iutterredthewordswhichchancedtooccurtome,andrepeatedintheshrilltonesofaMohocksavage……\"Cow!cow!comehome!home!\"……Thesenoteswereofcoursereverberatedfromtherockswhichoneithersidetoweredaloft,buttheechowasconfusedandindistinct。
Icontinued,forsometime,thustobeguiletheway,tillI
reachedaspacemorethancommonlyabrupt,andwhichrequiredallmyattention。MyrudedittywassuspendedtillIhadsurmountedthisimpediment。InafewminutesIwasatleisuretorenewit。
Afterfinishingthestrain,Ipaused。InafewsecondsavoiceasIthenimagined,utteredthesamecryfromthepointofarocksomehundredfeetbehindme;thesamewords,withequaldistinctnessanddeliberation,andinthesametone,appearedtobespoken。Iwasstartledbythisincident,andcastafearfulglancebehind,todiscoverbywhomitwasuttered。ThespotwhereIstoodwasburiedindusk,buttheeminenceswerestillinvestedwithaluminousandvividtwilight。Thespeaker,however,wasconcealedfrommyview。
Ihadscarcelybeguntowonderatthisoccurrence,whenanewoccasionforwonder,wasaffordedme。Afewseconds,inlikemanner,elapsed,whenmydittywasagainrehearsed,withanolessperfectimitation,inadifferentquarterTothisquarterIeagerlyturnedmyeyes,butnoonewasvisible……Thestation,indeed,whichthisnewspeakerseemedtooccupy,wasinaccessibletomanorbeast。
IfIweresurprizedatthissecondrepetitionofmywords,judgehowmuchmysurprisemusthavebeenaugmented,whenthesamecallswereathirdtimerepeated,andcomingstillinanewdirection。Fivetimeswasthisdittysuccessivelyresounded,atintervalsnearlyequal,alwaysfromanewquarter,andwithlittleabatementofitsoriginaldistinctnessandforce。
Alittlereflectionwassufficienttoshewthatthiswasnomorethananechoofanextraordinarykind。Myterrorswerequicklysupplantedbydelight。Themotivestodispatchwereforgotten,andIamusedmyselfforanhour,withtalkingtothesecliffs:Iplacedmyselfinnewpositions,andexhaustedmylungsandmyinventioninnewclamours。
ThepleasuresofthisnewdiscoverywereanamplecompensationfortheilltreatmentwhichIexpectedonmyreturn。BysomecapriceinmyfatherIescapedmerelywithafewreproaches。I
seizedthefirstopportunityofagainvisitingthisrecess,andrepeatingmyamusement;time,andincessantrepetition,couldscarcelylessenitscharmsorexhaustthevarietyproducedbynewtonesandnewpositions。
ThehoursinwhichIwasmostfreefrominterruptionandrestraintwerethoseofmoonlight。MybrotherandIoccupiedasmallroomabovethekitchen,disconnected,insomedegree,withtherestofthehouse。Itwastheruralcustomtoretireearlytobedandtoanticipatetherisingofthesun。Whenthemoonlightwasstrongenoughtopermitmetoread,itwasmycustomtoescapefrombed,andhiewithmybooktosomeneighbouringeminence,whereIwouldremainstretchedonthemossyrock,tillthesinkingorbecloudedmoon,forbademetocontinuemyemployment。Iwasindebtedforbookstoafriendlypersonintheneighbourhood,whosecompliancewithmysolicitationswaspromptedpartlybybenevolenceandpartlybyenmitytomyfather,whomhecouldnotmoreegregiouslyoffendthanbygratifyingmyperverseandperniciouscuriosity。
InleavingmychamberIwasobligedtousetheutmostcautiontoavoidrousingmybrother,whosetemperdisposedhimtothwartmeintheleastofmygratifications。Mypurposewassurelylaudable,andyetonleavingthehouseandreturningtoit,Iwasobligedtousethevigilanceandcircumspectionofathief。
OnenightIleftmybedwiththisview。Ipostedfirsttomyvocalglen,andthencescramblingupaneighbouringsteep,whichoverlookedawideextentofthisromanticcountry,gavemyselfuptocontemplation,andtheperusalofMilton\'sComus。
Myreflectionswerenaturallysuggestedbythesingularityofthisecho。Tohearmyownvoicespeakatadistancewouldhavebeenformerlyregardedasprodigious。Toheartoo,thatvoice,notutteredbyanother,bywhomitmighteasilybemimicked,butbymyself!Icannotnowrecollectthetransitionwhichledmetothenotionofsounds,similartothese,butproducedbyothermeansthanreverberation。CouldInotsodisposemyorgansastomakemyvoiceappearatadistance?
FromspeculationIproceededtoexperiment。Theideaofadistantvoice,likemyown,wasintimatelypresenttomyfancy。I
exertedmyselfwithamostardentdesire,andwithsomethinglikeapersuasionthatIshouldsucceed。Istartedwithsurprise,foritseemedasifsuccesshadcrownedmyattempts。Irepeatedtheeffort,butfailed。Acertainpositionoftheorganstookplaceonthefirstattempt,altogethernew,unexampledandasitwere,byaccident,forIcouldnotattainitonthesecondexperiment。
YouwillnotwonderthatIexertedmyselfwithindefatigablezealtoregainwhathadonce,thoughforsoshortaspace,beeninmypower。Yourownearshavewitnessedthesuccessoftheseefforts。ByperpetualexertionIgaineditasecondtime,andnowwasadiligentobserverofthecircumstancesattendingit。
GraduallyIsubjectedthesefinerandmoresubtlemotionstothecommandofmywill。Whatwasatfirstdifficult,byexerciseandhabit,wasrenderedeasy。Ilearnedtoaccommodatemyvoicetoallthevarietiesofdistanceanddirection。
Itcannotbedeniedthatthisfacultyiswonderfulandrare,butwhenweconsiderthepossiblemodificationsofmuscularmotion,howfewoftheseareusuallyexerted,howimperfectlytheyaresubjectedtothewill,andyetthatthewilliscapableofbeingrenderedunlimitedandabsolute,willnotourwondercease?
WehaveseenmenwhocouldhidetheirtonguessoperfectlythatevenanAnatomist,afterthemostaccurateinspectionthatalivingsubjectcouldadmit,hasaffirmedtheorgantobewanting,butthiswaseffectedbytheexertionofmusclesunknownandincredibletothegreaterpartofmankind。
Theconcurrenceofteeth,palateandtongue,intheformationofspeechshouldseemtobeindispensable,andyetmenhavespokendistinctlythoughwantingatongue,andtowhom,therefore,teethandpalateweresuperfluous。Thetribeofmotionsrequisitetothisend,arewhollylatentandunknown,tothosewhopossessthatorgan。
Imeannottobemoreexplicit。Ihavenoreasontosupposeapeculiarconformationoractivityinmyownorgans,orthatthepowerwhichIpossessmaynot,withsuitabledirectionsandbysteadyefforts,beobtainedbyothers,butIwilldonothingtofacilitatetheacquisition。Itisbyfar,tooliabletoperversionforagoodmantodesiretopossessit,ortoteachittoanother。
Thereremainedbutonethingtorenderthisinstrumentaspowerfulinmyhandsasitwascapableofbeing。Frommychildhood,Iwasremarkablyskilfulatimitation。TherewerefewvoiceswhetherofmenorbirdsorbeastswhichIcouldnotimitatewithsuccess。Toaddmyancient,tomynewlyacquiredskill,totalkfromadistance,andatthesametime,intheaccentsofanother,wastheobjectofmyendeavours,andthisobject,afteracertainnumberoftrials,Ifinallyobtained。
Inmypresentsituationeverythingthatdenotedintellectualexertionwasacrime,andexposedmetoinvectivesifnottostripes。Thiscircumstanceinducedmetobesilenttoallothers,onthesubjectofmydiscovery。But,addedtothis,wasaconfusedbelief,thatitmightbemade,insomewayinstrumentaltomyrelieffromthehardshipsandrestraintsofmypresentcondition。
ForsometimeIwasnotawareofthemodeinwhichitmightberenderedsubservienttothisend。
ChapterII。
Myfather\'ssisterwasanancientlady,residentinPhiladelphia,therelictofamerchant,whosedeceaselefthertheenjoymentofafrugalcompetence。Shewaswithoutchildren,andhadoftenexpressedherdesirethathernephewFrank,whomshealwaysconsideredasasprightlyandpromisinglad,shouldbeputunderhercare。Sheofferedtobeattheexpenseofmyeducation,andtobequeathtomeatherdeathherslenderpatrimony。
Thisarrangementwasobstinatelyrejectedbymyfather,becauseitwasmerelyfosteringandgivingscopetopropensities,whichheconsideredashurtful,andbecausehisavaricedesiredthatthisinheritanceshouldfalltonoonebuthimself。Tome,itwasaschemeofravishingfelicity,andtobedebarredfromitwasasourceofanguishknowntofew。Ihadtoomuchexperienceofmyfather\'spertinaciousnessevertohopeforachangeinhisviews;
yettheblissoflivingwithmyaunt,inanewandbusyscene,andintheunboundedindulgenceofmyliterarypassion,continuallyoccupiedmythoughts:foralongtimethesethoughtswereproductiveonlyofdespondencyandtears。
Timeonlyenchancedthedesirablenessofthisscheme;mynewfacultywouldnaturallyconnectitselfwiththesewishes,andthequestioncouldnotfailtooccurwhetheritmightnotaidmeintheexecutionofmyfavouriteplan。
Athousandsuperstitioustaleswerecurrentinthefamily。
Apparitionshadbeenseen,andvoiceshadbeenheardonamultitudeofoccasions。Myfatherwasaconfidentbelieverinsupernaturaltokens。Thevoiceofhiswife,whohadbeenmanyyearsdead,hadbeentwiceheardatmidnightwhisperingathispillow。I
frequentlyaskedmyselfwhetheraschemefavourabletomyviewsmightnotbebuiltuponthesefoundations。Suppose(thoughtI)mymothershouldbemadetoenjoinuponhimcompliancewithmywishes?
Thisideabredinmeatemporaryconsternation。Toimitatethevoiceofthedead,tocounterfeitacommissionfromheaven,boretheaspectofpresumptionandimpiety。Itseemedanoffencewhichcouldnotfailtodrawafteritthevengeanceofthedeity。
Mywishesforatimeyieldedtomyfears,butthisschemeinproportionasImeditatedonit,becamemoreplausible;nootheroccurredtomesoeasyandsoefficacious。Iendeavouredtopersuademyselfthattheendproposed,was,inthehighestdegreepraiseworthy,andthattheexcellenceofmypurposewouldjustifythemeansemployedtoattainit。
Myresolutionswere,foratime,attendedwithfluctuationsandmisgivings。Thesegraduallydisappeared,andmypurposebecamefirm;Iwasnexttodevisethemeansofeffectingmyviews,thisdidnotdemandanytediousdeliberation。Itwaseasytogainaccesstomyfather\'schamberwithoutnoticeordetection,cautiousfootstepsandthesuppressionofbreathwouldplaceme,unsuspectedandunthoughtof,byhisbedside。ThewordsIshoulduse,andthemodeofutterancewerenoteasilysettled,buthavingatlengthselectedthese,Imademyselfbymuchpreviousrepetition,perfectlyfamiliarwiththeuseofthem。
Iselectedablusteringandinclementnight,inwhichthedarknesswasaugmentedbyaveiloftheblackestclouds。Thebuildingweinhabitedwasslightinitsstructure,andfullofcrevicesthroughwhichthegalefoundeasyway,andwhistledinathousandcadences。Onthisnighttheelementalmusicwasremarkablysonorous,andwasminglednotunfrequentlywith~~thunderheardremote~~。
Icouldnotdivestmyselfofsecretdread。Myheartfaulteredwithaconsciousnessofwrong。Heavenseemedtobepresentandtodisapprovemywork;Ilistenedtothethunderandthewind,astothesternvoiceofthisdisapprobation。Bigdropsstoodonmyforehead,andmytremorsalmostincapacitatedmefromproceeding。
TheseimpedimentshoweverIsurmounted;Icreptupstairsatmidnight,andenteredmyfather\'schamber。ThedarknesswasintenseandIsoughtwithoutstretchedhandsforhisbed。Thedarkness,addedtothetrepidationofmythoughts,disabledmefrommakingarightestimateofdistances:Iwasconsciousofthis,andwhenIadvancedwithintheroom,paused。
IendeavouredtocomparetheprogressIhadmadewithmyknowledgeoftheroom,andgovernedbytheresultofthiscomparison,proceededcautiouslyandwithhandsstilloutstretchedinsearchofthefootofthebed。Atthismomentlightningflashedintotheroom:thebrightnessofthegleamwasdazzling,yetitaffordedmeanexactknowledgeofmysituation。Ihadmistakenmyway,anddiscoveredthatmykneesnearlytouchedthebedstead,andthatmyhandsatthenextstep,wouldhavetouchedmyfather\'scheek。Hisclosedeyesandeverylineinhiscountenance,werepainted,asitwere,foraninstantonmysight。
Theflashwasaccompaniedwithaburstofthunder,whosevehemencewasstunning。Ialwaysentertainedadreadofthunder,andnowrecoiled,overbornewithterror。NeverhadIwitnessedsoluminousagleamandsotremendousashock,yetmyfather\'sslumberappearednottobedisturbedbyit。
Istoodirresoluteandtrembling;toprosecutemypurposeinthisstateofmindwasimpossible。Iresolvedforthepresenttorelinquishit,andturnedwithaviewofexploringmywayoutofthechamber。Justthenalightseenthroughthewindow,caughtmyeye。Itwasatfirstweakbutspeedilyincreased;nosecondthoughtwasnecessarytoinformmethatthebarn,situatedatasmalldistancefromthehouse,andnewlystoredwithhay,wasinflames,inconsequenceofbeingstruckbythelightning。
Myterroratthisspectaclemademecarelessofallconsequencesrelativetomyself。Irushedtothebedandthrowingmyselfonmyfather,awakenedhimbyloudcries。Thefamilywerespeedilyroused,andwerecompelledtoremainimpotentspectatorsofthedevastation。Fortunatelythewindblewinacontrarydirection,sothatourhabitationwasnotinjured。