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  I\'llkillher,EllenDean,ifyoulethercomeintomysightagain!\'

  Haretontried,underhisbreath,topersuadehertogo。

  `Dragheraway!\'hecriedsavagely。`Areyoustayingtotalk?\'

  Andheapproachedtoexecutehisowncommand。

  `He\'llnotobeyyou,wickedman,anymore,\'saidCatherine;`andhe\'llsoondetestyouasmuchasIdo。\'

  \"Wisht!wisht!\'mutteredtheyoungmanreproachfully。`Iwillnothearyouspeaksotohim。Havedone。\'

  `Butyouwon\'tlethimstrikeme?\'shecried。`Come,then,\'hewhisperedearnestly。Itwastoolate:Heathcliffhadcaughtholdofher。

  `Nowyougo!\'hesaidtoEarnshaw。`Accursedwitch!thistimeshehasprovokedmewhenIcouldnotbearit;andI\'llmakeherrepentitforever!\'

  Hehadhishandinherhair;Haretonattemptedtoreleasethelocks,entreatinghimnottohurtherthatonce。Heathcliff\'sblackeyesflashed;heseemedreadytotearCatherineinpieces,andIwasjustworkeduptoriskcomingtotherescue,whenofasuddenhisfingersrelaxed;

  heshiftedhisgraspfromherheadtoherarm,andgazedintentlyinherface。Thenhedrewhishandoverhiseyes,stoodamomenttocollecthimselfapparently,andturninganewtoCatherine,saidwithassumedcalmness:

  `Youmustlearntoavoidputtingmeinapassion,orIshallreallymurderyousometime!GowithMrsDean,andkeepwithher;andconfineyourinsolencetoherears。AstoHaretonEarnshaw,ifIseehimlistentoyou,I\'llsendhimseekinghisbreadwherehecangetit!Yourlovewillmakehimanoutcastandabeggar。Nelly,takeher;andleavemeallofyou!Leaveme!\'

  Iledmyyoungladyout:shewastoogladofherescapetoresist;

  theotherfollowed,andMrHeathcliffhadtheroomtohimselftilldinner。

  IhadcounselledCatherinetogethersupstairs;but,assoonasheperceivedhervacantseat,hesentmetocallher。Hespoketononeofus,ateverylittle,andwentoutdirectlyafterwards,intimatingthatheshouldnotreturnbeforeevening。

  Thetwonewfriendsestablishedthemselvesinthehouseduringhisabsence;whenIheardHaretonsternlycheckhiscousin,onherofferingarevelationofherfather-in-law\'sconducttohisfather。Hesaidhewouldn\'tsufferawordtobeutteredtohim,inhisdisparagement:ifhewerethedevil,itdidn\'tsignify:hewouldstandbyhim;andhe\'drathershewouldabusehimself,assheusedto,thanbeginonMrHeathcliff。Catherinewaswaxingcrossatthis;buthefoundmeanstomakeherholdhertongue,byaskinghowshewouldlikehimtospeakillofherfather?andthenshecomprehendedthatEarnshawtookthemaster\'sreputationhometohimself;

  andwasattachedbytiesstrongerthanreasoncouldbreak——chains,forgedbyhabit,whichitwouldbecrueltoattempttoloosen。Sheshowedagoodheart,thenceforth,inavoidingbothcomplaintsandexpressionsofantipathyconcerningHeathcliff;andconfessedtomehersorrowthatshehadendeavouredtoraiseabadspiritbetweenhimandHareton:indeed,Idon\'tbelieveshehaseverbreathedasyllable,inthelatter\'shearing,againstheroppressorsince。

  `Whenthisslightdisagreementwasover,theywerethickagain,andasbusyaspossibleintheirseveraloccupationsofpupilandteacher。

  Icameintositwiththem,afterIhaddonemywork;andIfeltsosoothedandcomfortedtowatchthem,thatIdidnotnoticehowtimegoton。Youknow,theybothappearedinameasuremychildren:Ihadlongbeenproudofone;andnow,Iwassure,theotherwouldbeasourceofequalsatisfaction。

  Hishonest,warm,andintelligentnatureshookoffrapidlythecloudsofignoranceanddegradationinwhichithadbeenbred;andCatherine\'ssincerecommendationsactedasaspurtohisindustry。Hisbrighteningmindbrightenedhisfeatures,andaddedspiritandnobilitytotheiraspect:IcouldhardlyfancyitthesameindividualIhadbeheldonthedayIdiscoveredmylittleladyat`WutheringHeights,afterherexpeditiontotheCrags。`WhileI

  admiredandtheylaboured,duskgrewon,andwithitreturnedthemaster。

  Hecameuponusquiteunexpectedly,enteringbythefrontway,andhadafullviewofthewholethree,erewecouldraiseourheadstoglanceathim。Well,Ireflected,therewasneverapleasanter,ormoreharmlesssight;anditwillbeaburningshametoscoldthem。Theredfirelightglowedontheirtwobonnyheads,andrevealedtheirfacesanimatedwiththeeagerinterestofchildren;for,——thoughhewastwenty-threeandsheeighteen,eachhadsomuchofnoveltytofeelandlearn,thatneitherexperiencednorevincedthesentimentsofsoberdisenchantedmaturity。

  Theyliftedtheireyestogether,toencounterMrHeathcliff:perhapsyouhaveneverremarkedthattheireyesarepreciselysimilar,andtheyarethoseofCatherineEarnshaw。ThepresentCatherinehasnootherlikenesstoher,exceptabreadthofforehead,andacertainarchofthenostrilthatmakesherappearratherhaughty,whethershewillornot。`WithHaretontheresemblanceiscarriedfurther:itissingularatalltimes,thenitwasparticularlystriking;becausehissenseswerealert,andhismentalfacultieswakenedtounwontedactivity。IsupposethisresemblancedisarmedMrHeathcliff:hewalkedtothehearthinevidentagitation;butitquicklysubsidedashelookedattheyoungman:or,Ishouldsay,altereditscharacter;

  foritwasthereyet。Hetookthebookfromhishand,andglancedattheopenpage,thenreturneditwithoutanyobservation;merelysigningCatherineaway:hercompanionlingeredverylittlebehindher,andIwasabouttodepartalso,buthebidmesitstill。

  `Itisapoorconclusion,isitnot?\'heobserved,havingbroodedawhileonthescenehehadjustwitnessed:`anabsurdterminationtomyviolentexertions?Igetleversandmattockstodemolishthetwohouses,andtrainmyselftobecapableofworkinglikeHercules,andwheneverythingisreadyandinmypower,Ifindthewilltoliftaslateoffeitherroofhasvanished!Myoldenemieshavenotbeatenme;nowwouldbetheprecisetimetorevengemyselfontheirrepresentatives:Icoulddoit;andnonecouldhinderme。Butwhereistheuse?Idon\'tcareforstriking;Ican\'ttakethetroubletoraisemyhand!ThatsoundsasifIhadbeenlabouringthewholetimeonlytoexhibitafinetraitofmagnanimity。Itisfarfrombeingthecase:Ihavelostthefacultyofenjoyingtheirdestruction,andIamtooidletodestroyfornothing。

  `Nelly,thereisastrangechangeapproaching:I\'minitsshadowatpresent。Itakesolittleinterestinmydailylife,thatIhardlyremembertoeatanddrink。Thosetwowhohavelefttheroomaretheonlyobjectswhichretainadistinctmaterialappearancetome;andthatappearancecausesmepain,amountingtoagony。AboutherIwon\'tspeak;andIdon\'tdesiretothink;butIearnestlywishshewereinvisible:herpresenceinvokesonlymaddeningsensations。Hemovesmedifferently:andyetifIcoulddoitwithoutseeminginsane,I\'dneverseehimagain。You\'llperhapsthinkmeratherinclinedtobecomeso,\'headded,makinganefforttosmile,`ifItrytodescribethethousandformsofpastassociationsandideasheawakensorembodies。Butyou\'llnottalkofwhatItellyou;andmymindissoeternallysecludedinitself,itistemptingatlasttoturnitouttoanother。

  `Fiveminutesago,Haretonseemedapersonificationofmyyouth,notahumanbeing:Ifelttohiminsuchavarietyofways,thatitwouldhavebeenimpossibletohaveaccostedhimrationally。Inthefirstplace,hisstartlinglikenesstoCatherineconnectedhimfearfullywithher。That,however,whichyoumaysupposethemostpotenttoarrestmyimagination,isactuallytheleast:forwhatisnotconnectedwithhertome?andwhatdoesnotrecallher?Icannotlookdowntothisfloor,butherfeaturesareshapedintheflags!Ineverycloud,ineverytree——fillingtheairatnight,andcaughtbyglimpsesineveryobjectbyday——Iamsurroundedwithherimage!Themostordinaryfacesofmenandwomen——myownfeatures——mockmewitharesemblance。Theentireworldisadreadfulcollectionofmemorandathatshedidexist,andthatIhavelosther!Well,Hareton\'saspectwastheghostofmyimmortallove;ofmywildendeavourstoholdmyright;

  mydegradation,mypride,myhappiness,andmyanguish:

  `Butitisfrenzytorepeatthesethoughtstoyou:onlyitwillletyouknowwhy,withareluctancetobealwaysalone,hissocietyisnobenefit;ratheranaggravationoftheconstanttormentIsuffer;anditpartlycontributestorendermeregardlesshowheandhiscousingoontogether。Icangivethemnoattention,anymore。

  `Butwhatdoyoumeanbyachange,MrHeathcliff?\'Isaid,alarmedathismanner:thoughhewasneitherindangeroflosinghissenses,nordying,accordingtomyjudgment;hewasquitestrongandhealthy:and,astohisreason,fromchildhoodhehadadelightindwellingondarkthings,andentertainingoddfancies。Hemighthavehadamonomaniaonthesubjectofhisdepartedidol;butoneveryotherpointhiswitswereassoundasmine。

  `Ishallnotknowthattillitcomes,\'hesaid,`I\'monlyhalfconsciousofitnow。

  `Youhavenofeelingsofillness,haveyou?\'Iasked。

  `No,Nelly,Ihavenot,\'heanswered。

  `Thenyouarenotafraidofdeath?\'Ipursued。

  `Afraid?No!\'hereplied。`Ihaveneitherafear,norapresentiment,norahopeofdeath。WhyshouldI?`Withmyhardconstitutionandtemperatemodeofliving,andunperilousoccupations,Ioughtto,andprobablyshall,remainabovegroundtillthereisscarcelyablackhaironmyhead。AndyetIcannotcontinueinthiscondition!Ihavetoremindmyselftobreathe——almosttoremindmyhearttobeat!Anditislikebendingbackastiffspring;

  itisbycompulsionthatIdotheslightestactnotpromptedbyonethought;

  andbycompulsionthatInoticeanythingaliveordead,whichisnotassociatedwithoneuniversalidea。Ihaveasinglewish,andmywholebeingandfacultiesareyearningtoattainIt。Theyhaveyearnedtowardsitsolong,andsounwaveringly,thatI\'mconvinceditwillbereached——andsoon——becauseithasdevouredmyexistence:Iamswallowedupintheanticipationofitsfulfilment。Myconfessionshavenotrelievedme;buttheymayaccountforsomeotherwiseunaccountablephasesofhumourwhichIshow。OGod!

  Itisalongfight,Iwishitwereover!\'

  Hebegantopacetheroom,mutteringterriblethingstohimself,tillIwasinclinedtobelieve,ashesaidJosephdid,thatconsciencehadturnedhishearttoanearthlyhell。Iwonderedgreatlyhowitwouldend。Thoughheseldombeforehadrevealedthisstateofmind,evenbylooks,itwashishabitualmood,Ihadnodoubt:heassertedithimself;butnotasoul,fromhisgeneralbearing,wouldhaveconjecturedthefact。Youdidnotwhenyousawhim,MrLockwood:andattheperiodofwhichIspeakhewasjustthesameasthen;onlyfonderofcontinuedsolitude,andperhapsstillmorelaconicincompany。

  [NextChapter][TableofContents]WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter34Forsomedaysafterthatevening,MrHeathcliffshunnedmeetingusatmeals;

  yethewouldnotconsentformallytoexcludeHaretonandCathy。Hehadanaversiontoyieldingsocompletelytohisfeelings,choosingrathertoabsenthimself;andeatingonceintwenty-fourhoursseemedsufficientsustenanceforhim。

  Onenight,afterthefamilywereinbed,Iheardhimgodownstairs,andoutatthefrontdoor。Ididnothearhimre-enter,andinthemorningIfoundhewasstillaway。WewereinAprilthen:theweatherwassweetandwarm,thegrassasgreenasshowersandsuncouldmakeit,andthetwodwarfappletreesnearthesouthernwallinfullbloom。Afterbreakfast,Catherineinsistedonmybringingachairandsittingwithmyworkunderthefirtreesattheendofthehouse;andshebeguiledHareton,whohadperfectlyrecoveredfromhisaccident,todigandarrangeherlittlegarden,whichwasshiftedtothatcornerbytheinfluenceofJoseph\'scomplaints。

  Iwascomfortablyrevellinginthespringfragrancearound,andthebeautifulsoftblueoverhead,whenmyyounglady,whohadrundownnearthegatetoprocuresomeprimroserootsforaborder,returnedonlyhalfladen,andinformedusthatMrHeathcliffwascomingin。`Andhespoketome,\'

  sheadded,withaperplexedcountenance。

  \"Whatdidhesay?\'askedHareton。

  `HetoldmetobegoneasfastasIcould,\'sheanswered。`ButhelookedsodifferentfromhisusuallookthatIstoppedamomenttostareathim。\'

  `How?\'heinquired。

  `Why,almostbrightandcheerful。No,almostnothing——verymuchexcited,andwildandglad!\'shereplied。

  `Nightwalkingamuseshim,then,\'Iremarked,affectingacarelessmanner:inrealityassurprisedasshewas,andanxioustoascertainthetruthofherstatement;fortoseethemasterlookinggladwouldnotbeaneverydayspectacle。Iframedanexcusetogoin。Heathcliffstoodattheopendoor,hewaspale,andhetrembled:yet,certainly,hehadastrange,joyfulglitterinhiseyes,thatalteredtheaspectofhiswholeface。

  `Willyouhavesomebreakfast?\'Isaid。`Youmustbehungry,ramblingaboutallnight!\'Iwantedtodiscoverwherehehadbeen,butIdidnotliketoaskdirectly。

  `No,I\'mnothungry,\'heanswered,avertinghishead,andspeakingrathercontemptuously,asifheguessedIwastryingtodivinetheoccasionofhisgoodhumour。

  Ifeltperplexed:Ididn\'tknowwhetheritwerenotaproperopportunitytoofferabitofadmonition。

  `Idon\'tthinkitrighttowanderoutofdoors,\'Iobserved,`insteadofbeinginbed:itisnotwise,atanyrate,thismoistseason。Idaresayyou\'llcatchabadcold,orafever:youhavesomethingthematterwithyounow!\'

  `NothingbutwhatIcanbear,\'hereplied;`andwiththegreatestpleasure,providedyou\'llleavemealone;getin,anddon\'tannoyme。\'

  Iobeyed:and,inpassing,Inoticedhebreathedasfastasacat。

  `Yes!\'Ireflectedtomyself,`weshallhaveafitofillness。

  Icannotconceivewhathehasbeendoing。\'

  Thatnoonhesatdowntodinnerwithus,andreceivedaheaped-upplatefrommyhands,asifheintendedtomakeamendsforpreviousfasting。

  `I\'veneithercoldnorfever,Nelly,\'heremarked,inallusiontomymorning\'sspeech;`andI\'mreadytodojusticetothefoodyougiveme。

  Hetookhisknifeandfork,andwasgoingtocommenceeating,whentheinclinationappearedtobecomesuddenlyextinct。Helaidthemonthetable,lookedeagerlytowardsthewindow,thenroseandwentout。

  `Wesawhimwalkingtoandfrointhegardenwhileweconcludedourmeal,andEarnshawsaidhe\'dgoandaskwhyhewouldnotdine:hethoughtwehadgrievedhimsomeway。

  `Well,ishecoming?\'criedCatherine,whenhercousinreturned。

  `Nay,\'heanswered;`buthe\'snotangry:heseemedrareandpleasedindeed;onlyImadehimimpatientbyspeakingtohimtwice;andthenhebidmebeofftoyou:hewonderedhowIcouldwantthecompanyofanybodyelse。\'

  Isethisplatetokeepwarmonthefender;andafteranhourortwohere-entered,whentheroomwasclear,innodegreecalmer:thesameunnatural——itwasunnatural——appearanceofjoyunderhisblackbrows;

  thesamebloodlesshue,andhisteethvisible,nowandthen,inakindofsmile;hisframeshivering,notasoneshiverswithchillorweakness,butasatight-stretchedcordvibrates——astrongthrilling,ratherthantrembling。

  Iwillaskwhatisthematter,Ithought;orwhoshould?AndI

  exclaimed:

  `Haveyouheardanygoodnews,MrHeathcliff?Youlookuncommonlyanimated。\'

  `Whereshouldgoodnewscomefromtome?\'hesaid。`I\'manimatedwithhunger;and,seemingly,Imustnoteat。\'

  `Yourdinnerishere,\'Ireturned;`whywon\'tyougetit?\'

  `Idon\'twantitnow;\'hemutteredhastily;`I\'llwaittillsupper。

  And,Nelly,onceforall,letmebegyoutowarnHaretonandtheotherawayfromme。Iwishtobetroubledbynobody:Iwishtohavethisplacetomyself。\'

  `Istheresomenewreasonforthisbanishment?\'Iinquired。`Tellmewhyyouaresoqueer,MrHeathcliff?`Wherewereyoulastnight?I\'mnotputtingthequestionthroughidlecuriosity,but——\'

  `Youareputtingthequestionthroughveryidlecuriosity,\'heinterrupted,withalaugh。`YetI\'llanswerit。LastnightIwasonthethresholdofhell。Today,Iamwithinsightofmyheaven。Ihavemyeyesonit:hardlythreefeettoseverme!Andnowyou\'dbettergo!You\'llneitherseenorhearanythingtofrightenyou,ifyourefrainfromprying。\'

  Havingsweptthehearthandwipedthetable,Ideparted;moreperplexedthanever。

  Hedidnotquitthehouseagainthatafternoon,andnooneintrudedonhissolitude;till,ateighto\'clock,Ideemeditproper,thoughunsummoned,tocarryacandleandhissuppertohim。Hewasleaningagainsttheledgeofanopenlattice,butnotlookingout:hisfacewasturnedtotheinteriorgloom。Thefirehadsmoulderedtoashes;theroomwasfilledwiththedamp,mildairofthecloudyevening;andsostill,thatnotonlythemurmurofthebeckdownGimmertonwasdistinguishable,butitsripplesanditsgurglingoverthepebbles,orthroughthelargestoneswhichitcouldnotcover。Iutteredanejaculationofdiscontentatseeingthedismalgrate,andcommencedshuttingthecasements,oneafteranother,tillIcametohis。

  `MustIclosethis?\'Iasked,inordertorousehim;forhewouldnotstir。

  ThelightflashedonhisfeaturesasIspoke。Oh,MrLockwood,IcannotexpresswhataterriblestartIgotbythemomentaryview!Thosedeepblackeyes!Thatsmile,andghastlypaleness!Itappearedtome,notMrHeathcliff,butagoblin;and,inmyterror,Iletthecandlebendtowardsthewall,anditleftmeindarkness。

  `Yes,closeit,\'hereplied,inhisfamiliarvoice。`There,thatispureawkwardness!Whydidyouholdthecandlehorizontally?Bequick,andbringanother。\'

  Ihurriedoutinafoolishstateofdread,andsaidtoJoseph:

  `Themasterwishesyoutotakehimalightandrekindlethefire。\'

  ForIdarenotgoinmyselfagainjustthen。

  Josephrattledsomefireintotheshovel,andwent;buthebroughtitbackimmediately,withthesuppertrayinhisotherhand,explainingthatMrHeathcliffwasgoingtobed,andhewantednothingtoeattillmorning。Weheardhimmountthestairsdirectly;hedidnotproceedtohisordinarychamber,butturnedintothatwiththepanelledbed:itswindow,asImentionedbefore,iswideenoughforanybodytogetthrough;anditstruckmethatheplottedanothermidnightexcursion,ofwhichhehadratherwehadnosuspicion。

  `Isheaghouloravampire?\'Imused。Ihadreadofsuchhideousincarnatedemons。AndthenIsetmyselftoreflecthowIhadtendedhimininfancy,andwatchedhimgrowtoyouth,andfollowedhimalmostthroughhiswholecourse;andwhatabsurdnonsenseitwastoyieldtothatsenseofhorror。`Butwheredidhecomefrom,thelittledarkthing,harbouredbyagoodmantohisbane?\'mutteredSuperstition,asIdozedintounconsciousness。

  AndIbegan,halfdreaming,towearymyselfwithimaginingsomefitparentageforhim;and,repeatingmywakingmeditations,Itrackedhisexistenceoveragain,withgrimvariations;atlast,picturinghisdeathandfuneral:

  ofwhich,allIcanrememberis,beingexceedinglyvexedathavingthetaskofdictatinganinscriptionforhismonument,andconsultingthesextonaboutit;and,ashehadnosurname,andwecouldnot`tellhisage,wewereobligedtocontentourselveswiththesingleword,`Heathcliff\'。Thatcametrue:wewere。Ifyouenterthekirkyard,you\'llreadonhisheadstone,onlythat,andthedateofhisdeath。

  Dawnrestoredmetocommonsense。Irose,andwentintothegarden,assoonasIcouldsee,toascertainiftherewereanyfootmarksunderhiswindow。Therewerenone。`Hehasstayedathome~ought,`andhe\'llbeallrighttoday。\'Ipreparedbreakfastforthehousehold,aswasmyusualcustom,buttoldHaretonandCatherinetogettheirserethemastercamedown,forhelaylate。Theypreferredtakingitoutofdoors,underthetrees,andIsetalittletabletoaccommodatethem。

  Onmyre-entrance,IfoundMrHeathcliffbelow。HeandJosephwereconversingaboutsomefarmingbusiness;hegaveclear,minutedirectionsconcerningthematterdiscussed,buthespokerapidly,andturnedhisheadcontinuallyaside,andhadthesameexcitedexpression,evenmoreexaggerated。

  `WhenJosephquittedtheroomhetookhisseatintheplacehegenerallychose,andIputabasinofcoffeebeforehim。Hedrewitnearer,andthenrestedhisarmsonthetable,andlookedattheoppositewall,asIsupposed,surveyingoneparticularportion,upanddown,withglittering,restlesseyes,andwithsucheagerinterestthathestoppedbreathingduringhalfaminutetogether。

  `Comenow,Iexclaimed,pushingsomebreadagainsthishand,`eatanddrinkthat,whileitishot:ithasbeenwaitingnearanhour。\'

  Hedidn\'tnoticeme,andyethesmiled。I\'dratherhaveseenhimgnashhisteeththansmileso。

  `MrHeathcliff!master!\'Icried,`don\'t,forGod\'ssake,stareasifyousawanunearthlyvision。\'

  `Don\'t,forGod\'ssake,shoutsoloud,\'hereplied。`Turnround,andtellme,arewebyourselves?\'

  `Ofcourse,\'wasmyanswer;`ofcourseweare。\'

  StillIinvoluntarilyobeyedhim,asifIwerenotquitesure。

  `Withasweepofhishandheclearedavacantspaceinfrontamongthebreakfastthings,andleantforwardtogazemoreathisease。

  Now,Iperceivedhewasnotlookingatthewall;forwhenIregardedhimalone,itseemedexactlythathegazedatsomethingwithintwoyards\'

  distance。Andwhateveritwas,itcommunicated,apparently,bothpleasureandpaininexquisiteextremes:atleasttheanguished,yetraptured,expressionofhiscountenancesuggestedthatidea。Thefanciedobjectwasnotfixed:

  eitherhiseyespursueditwithunwearieddiligence,and,eveninspeakingtome,wereneverweanedaway。Ivainlyremindedhimofhisprotractedabstinencefromfood:ifhestirredtotouchanythingincompliancewithmyentreaties,ifhestretchedhishandouttogetapieceofbread,hisfingersclenchedbeforetheyreachedit,andremainedonthetable,forgetfuloftheiraim。

  Isat,amodelofpatience,tryingtoattracthisabsorbedattentionfromitsengrossingspeculation;tillhegrewirritable,andgot——up,askingwhyIwouldnotallowhimtohavehisowntimeintakinghismeals?andsayingthatonthenextoccasion,Ineedn\'twait:Imightsetthethingsdownandgo。Havingutteredthesewordsheleftthehouse,slowlysauntereddownthegardenpath,anddisappearedthroughthegate。

  Thehourscreptanxiouslyby:anothereveningcame。Ididnotretiretoresttilllate,andwhenIdid,Icouldnotsleep。Hereturnedaftermidnight,and,insteadofgoingtobed,shuthimselfintotheroombeneath。Ilistened,andtossedabout,and,finally,dressedanddescended。

  Itwastooirksometolieupthere,harassingmybrainwithahundredidlemisgivings。

  IdistinguishedMrHeathcliff\'sstep,restlesslymeasuringthefloor,andhefrequentlybrokethesilencebyadeepinspiration,resemblingagroan。Hemuttereddetachedwordsalso;theonlyoneIcouldcatchwasthenameofCatherine,coupledwithsomewildtermofendearmentorsuffering;

  andspokenasonewouldspeaktoapersonpresent:lowandearnest,andwrungfromthedepthofhissoul。Ihadnotcouragetowalkstraightintotheapartment;butIdesiredtodiverthimfromhisreverie,andthereforefellfoulofthekitchenfire,stirredit,andbegantoscrapethecinders。

  ItdrewhimforthsoonerthanIexpected。Heopenedthedoorimmediately,andsaid:

  `Nelly,comehere——isitmorning?Comeinwithyourlight。\'

  `Itisstrikingfour,\'Ianswered。`Youwantacandletotakeupstairs:youmighthavelitoneatthisfire。\'

  `No,Idon\'twishtogoupstairs,\'hesaid。`Comein,andkindlemeafire,anddoanythingthereistodoabouttheroom。\'

  `Imustblowthecoalsredfirst,beforeIcancarryany,\'Ireplied,gettingachairandthebellows。

  Heroamedtoandfro,meantime,inastateapproachingdistraction;

  hisheavysighssucceedingeachothersothickastoleavenospaceforcommonbreathingbetween。

  \"WhendaybreaksI\'llsendforGreen,\'hesaid;`IwishtomakesomelegalinquiriesofhimwhileIcanbestowathoughtonthosematters,andwhileIcanactcalmly。Ihavenotwrittenmywillyet;andhowtoleavemypropertyIcannotdetermine。IwishIcouldannihilateitfromthefaceoftheearth。\'

  `Iwouldnottalkso,MrHeathcliff,\'Iinterposed。`Letyourwillbeawhile:you\'llbesparedtorepentofyourmanyinjusticesyet。

  Ineverexpectedthatyournerveswouldbedisordered:theyare,atpresent,marvellouslyso,however;andalmostentirelythroughyourownfault。Thewayyou\'vepassedthesethreelastdaysmightknockupaTitan。Dotakesomefood,andsomerepose。Youneedonlylookatyourselfinaglasstoseehowyourequireboth。Yourcheeksarehollow,andyoureyesbloodshot,likeapersonstarvingwithhungerandgoingblindwithlossofsleep。\'

  `ItisnotmyfaultthatIcannoteatorrest,\'hereplied。`I

  assureyouitisthroughnosettleddesigns。I\'lldobothassoonasI

  possiblycan。Butyoumightaswellbidamanstrugglinginthewaterrestwithinarm\'slengthoftheshore!Imustreachitfirst,andthenI\'llrest。Well,nevermindMrGreen:astorepentingofmyinjustices,I\'vedonenoinjustice,andIrepentofnothing。I\'mtoohappy;andyetI\'mnothappyenough。Mysoul\'sblisskillsmybody,butdoesnotsatisfyitself。\'

  `Happy,master?\'Icried。`Strangehappiness!Ifyouwouldhearmewithoutbeingangry,Imightoffersomeadvicethatwouldmakeyouhappier。

  \"Whatisthat?\'heasked。`Giveit。\'

  `Youareaware,MrHeathcliff,\'Isaid,`thatfromthetimeyouwerethirteenyearsold,youhavelivedaselfish,unchristianlife;andprobablyhardlyhadaBibleinyourhandsduringallthatperiod。Youmusthaveforgottenthecontentsofthebook,andyoumaynothavespacetosearchitnow。Coulditbehurtfultosendforsomeone——someministerofanydenomination,itdoesnotmatterwhich——toexplainit,andshowyouhowveryfaryouhaveerredfromitsprecepts;andhowunfityouwillbeforitsheaven,unlessachangetakesplace`beforeyoudie?\'

  `I\'mratherobligedthanangry,Nelly,\'hesaid,`foryouremindmeofthemannerthatIdesiretobeburiedin。Itistobecarriedtothechurchyardintheevening。YouandHaretonmay,ifyouplease,accompanyme:andmind,particularly,tonoticethatthesextonobeysmydirectionsconcerningthetwocoffins!Noministerneedcome;norneedanythingbesaidoverme——ItellyouIhavenearlyattainedmyheaven;andthatofothersisaltogetherunvaluedanduncoveredbyme。

  `Andsupposingyouperseveredinyourobstinatefast,anddiedbythatmeans,andtheyrefusedtoburyyouintheprecinctsofthekirk?\'

  Isaid,shockedathisgodlessindifference。`Howwouldyoulikeit?\'

  `Theywon\'tdothat,\'hereplied:`iftheydid,youmusthavemeremovedsecretly:andifyouneglectityoushallprove,practically,thatthedeadarenotannihilated!\'

  Assoonasheheardtheothermembersofthefamilystirringheretiredtohisden,andIbreathedfreer。Butintheafternoon,whileJosephandHaretonwereattheirwork,hecameintothekitchenagain,and,withawildlook,bidmecomeandsitinthehouse:hewantedsomebodywithhim。Ideclined:tellinghimplainlythathisstrangetalkandmannerfrightenedme,andIhadneitherthenervenorthewilltobehiscompanionalone。

  `Ibelieveyouthinkmeafiend,\'hesaid,withhisdismallaugh:

  somethingtoohorribletoliveunderadecentroof。\'ThenturningtoCatherine,whowasthere,andwhodrewbehindmeathisapproach,headded,halfsneeringly——`Willyoucome,chuck?I\'llnothurtyou。No!toyouI\'vemademyselfworsethanthedevil。Well,thereisonewhowon\'tshrinkfrommycompany!ByGod!she\'srelentless。Oh,damnit!It\'sunutterablytoomuchforfleshandbloodtobear——evenmine。\'

  Hesolicitedthesocietyofnoonemore。Atdusk,hewentintohischamber。Throughthewholenight,andfarintothemorning,weheardhimgroaningandmurmuringtohimself。Haretonwasanxioustoenter;butIbadehimfetchMrKenneth,andheshouldgoinandseehim。Whenhecame,andIrequestedadmittanceandtriedtoopenthedoor,Ifounditlocked;

  andHeathcliffbidusbedamned。Hewasbetter,andwouldbeleftalone;

  sothedoctorwentaway。

  Thefollowingeveningwasverywet:indeeditpoureddowntillday-dawn;and,asItookmymorningwalkroundthehouse,Iobservedthemaster\'swindowswingingopen,andtheraindrivingstraightin。Hecannotbeinbed,Ithought:thoseshowerswoulddrenchhimthrough。Hemusteitherbeuporout。ButI\'llmakenomoreado,I\'llgoboldlyandlook。

  Havingsucceededinobtainingentrancewithanotherkey,Irantounclosethepanels,forthechamberwasvacant;quicklypushingthemaside,Ipeepedin。MrHeathcliffwasthere——laidonhisback。Hiseyesmetminesokeenandfierce,Istarted;andthenheseemedtosmile。I

  couldnotthinkhimdead:buthisfaceandthroatwerewashedwithrain;

  thebedclothesdripped,andhewas~perfectlystill。Thelattice,flappingtoandfro,hadgrazedonehandthatrestedonthesill;nobloodtrickledfromthebrokenskin,andwhenIputmyfingerstoit,Icoulddoubtnomore:hewasdeadandstark!

  Ihaspedthewindow;Icombedhisblacklonghairfromhisforehead;

  Itriedtoclosehiseyes:toextinguish,ifpossible,thatfrightful,lifelikegazeofexultationbeforeanyoneelsebeheldit。Theywouldnotshut:theyseemedtosneeratmyattempts:andhispartedlipsandsharpwhiteteethsneeredtoo!Takenwithanotherfitofcowardice,IcriedoutforJoseph。Josephshuffledupandmadeanoise;butresolutelyrefusedtomeddlewithhim。

  `Th\'divil\'sharriedoffhissoul,\'hecried,`andhemuhhevhiscarcassintuht\'bargain,forow\'tAwcare!Ech!whatawickedunhelooksgirningatdeath!\'andtheoldsinnergrinnedinmockery。Ithoughtheintendedtocutacaperroundthebed;but,suddenlycomposinghimself,hefellonhisknees,andraisedhishands,andreturnedthanksthatthelawfulmasterandtheancientstockwererestoredtotheirrights。

  Ifeltstunnedbytheawfulevent;andmymemoryunavoidablyrecurredtoformertimeswithasortofoppressivesadness。ButpoorHareton,themostwronged,wastheonlyonethatreallysufferedmuch。Hesatbythecorpseallnight,weepinginbitterearnest。Hepresseditshand,andkissedthesarcasticsavagefacethateveryoneelseshrankfromcontemplating;

  andbemoanedhimwiththatstronggriefwhichspringsnaturallyfromagenerousheart,thoughitbetoughastemperedsteel。

  MrKennethwasperplexedtopronounceofwhatdisorderthemasterdied。Iconcealedthefactofhishavingswallowednothingforfourdays,fearingitmightleadtotrouble,andthen,Iampersuaded,hedidnotabstainonpurpose:itwastheconsequenceofhisstrangeillness,notthecause。

  `Weburiedhim,tothescandalofthewholeneighbourhood,ashewished。EarnshawandI,thesexton,andsixmentocarrythecoffin,comprehendedthewholeattendance。Thesixmendepartedwhentheyhadletitdownintothegrave:westayedtoseeitcovered。Hareton,withastreamingface,duggreensods,andlaidthemoverthebrownmouldhimself:atpresentitisassmoothandverdantasitscompanionmounds——andIhopeitstenantsleepsassoundly。Butthecountryfolk,ifyouaskthem,wouldswearontheBiblethathewalks:therearethosewhospeaktohavingmethimnearthechurch,andonthemoor,andeveninthishouse。Idletales,you\'llsay,andsosayI。Yetthatoldmanbythekitchenfireaffirmshehasseentwoon`em,lookingoutofhischamberwindow,oneveryrainynightsincehisdeath:andanoddthinghappenedtomeaboutamonthago。

  IwasgoingtotheGrangeoneevening——adarkevening,threateningthunder——and,justattheturnoftheHeights,Iencounteredalittleboywithasheepandtwolambsbeforehim;hewascryingterribly;andIsupposedthelambswereskittish,andwouldnotbeguided。

  \"What\'sthematter,mylittleman?\'Iasked。

  `There\'sHeathcliffandawoman,yonder,undert\'nab,\'heblubbered,`un\'Idarnutpass`em。\'

  Isawnothing;butneitherthesheepnorhewouldgoon;soI

  bidhimtaketheroadlowerdown。Heprobablyraisedthephantomsfromthinking,ashetraversedthemoorsalone,onthenonsensehehadheardhisparentsandcompanionsrepeat。Yet,still,Idon\'tlikebeingoutinthedarknow;andIdon\'tlikebeingleftbymyselfinthisgrimhouse:

  Icannothelpit;Ishallbegladwhentheyleaveit,andshifttotheGrange。

  `TheyaregoingtotheGrange,then,\'Isaid。

  `Yes,\'answeredMrsDean,`issoonastheyaremarried,andthatwillbeonNewYear\'sDay。\'

  `Andwhowilllivehere,then?\'

  `Why,Josephwilltakecareofthehouse,and,perhaps,aladtokeephimcompany。Theywillliveinthekitchen,andtherestwillbeshutup。\'

  `Fortheuseofsuchghostsaschoosetoinhabitit,\'Iobserved。

  `No,MrLockwood,\'saidNelly,shakingherhead。`Ibelievethedeadareatpeace:butitisnotrighttospeakofthemwithlevity。\'

  Atthatmomentthegardengateswungto;theramblerswerereturning。

  `Theyareafraidofnothing,\'Igrumbled,watchingtheirapproachthroughthewindow。`TogethertheywouldbraveSatanandallhislegions。\'

  Astheysteppedontothedoorstones,andhaltedtotakealastlookatthemoon——or,morecorrectly,ateachotherbyherlight——Ifeltirresistiblyimpelledtoescapethemagain;and,pressingaremembranceintothehandofMrsDean,anddisregardingherexpostulationsatmyrudeness,Ivanishedthroughthekitchenastheyopenedthehouse-door;andsoshouldhaveconfirmedJosephinhisopinionofhisfellow-servant\'sgayindiscretions,hadhenotfortunatelyrecognizedmeforarespectablecharacterbythesweetringofasovereignathisfeet。

  Mywalkhomewaslengthenedbyadiversioninthedirectionofthekirk。`Whenbeneathitswalls,Iperceiveddecayhadmadeprogress,eveninsevenmonths:manyawindowshowedblackgapsdeprivedofglass;

  andslatesjuttedoff,hereandthere,beyondtherightlineoftheroof,tobegraduallyworkedoffincomingautumnstorms。

  Isought,andsoondiscovered,thethreeheadstonesontheslopenextthemoor:themiddleonegrey,andhalfburiedinheath:EdgarLinton\'sonlyharmonizedbytheturfandmosscreepingupitsfoot:Heathcliff\'sstillbare。

  Ilingeredroundthem,underthatbenignsky;watchedthemothsflutteringamongtheheathandharebells,listenedtothesoftwindbreathingthroughthegrass,andwonderedhowanyonecouldeverimagineunquietslumbersforthesleepersinthatquietearth。

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