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  Andnow,\"sheadded,\"Iwantyoutotellmeeverythingthathappenedthisevening。Don\'tomitaword,oralook,oramotion。Iwishtoproceedintelligently。\"

  IhopeIwasaccurateinthehistoryofthehopwhichIgaveMrs。

  March;IamsureIwasfull。Ithinkmyaccountmaybejustlydescribedashavingacreativetruthfulness,ifnoothermerit。I

  hadreallynowishtoconcealanythingexceptthefactthatIhadnot,inmyutterhelplessness,eventriedtogetMissGageanyotherpartners。Butinthelargerinterestofthepresentsituation,Mrs。

  Marchseemedtohavelostthesenseofmyderelictioninthisrespect。Shemerelyasked,\"Anditwasafteryouwentbacktotheparlour,justbeforeyoucamehome,thatyouwrotethosenamesonhercard?\"

  \"Kendrickswrotehalfofthem,\"Isaid。

  \"Idaresay。Well,itwasveryamusing,andifthecircumstancesweredifferent,Icouldhaveenteredintothespiritofittoo。Butyouseeyourself,Basil,thatwecan\'tletthisaffairgoanyfurtherwithoutdealingfranklywithher。YOUcan\'tspeaktoher,and_I_MUST。Don\'tyousee?\"

  IsaidthatIsaw,butIhadsuddenlyawildwishthatitwerepracticableformetospeaktoMissGage。Ishouldhavelikedtohaveapeepintoagirl\'sheartatjustsuchamoment,whenitmustbequiveringwiththeunconfessedsenseoflove,andtheconfidenthopeofbeingloved,butwhileasyetnothingwasassured,nothingwasascertained。Ifitwouldnothavebeenshocking,ifitwouldnothavebeensacrilegious,itwouldhavebeeninfinitelyinteresting,andfromanaestheticpointofviewinfinitelyimportant。IthoughtthatIshouldhavebeenwillingtoundergoalltheembarrassmentofsuchaninquiryforthesakeofitspreciousresults,ifithadbeenatallpossible;butIacquiescedthatitwouldnotbepossible。IfeltthatIwasgettingoffprettylightlynottohaveitbroughthometomeagainthatIwasthecauseofallthistrouble,andthatifithadnotbeenformetherewouldhavebeen,asfarasMrs。Marchwasconcerned,noMissGage,andnolove-

  affairofherstodealwith。IdebatedinmymindamomentwhetherIhadbetterurgehertoletmespeaktoKendricksafterall;butI

  forbore,andinthemorningIwaitedaboutinmuchperturbation,afterIhadsentMissGagetoher,untilIcouldknowtheresultoftheirinterview。WhenIsawthegirlcomeawayfromherroom,whichshedidrathertrippingly,Iwenttoher,andfoundherbynomeansthewreckIhadexpectedtheordealtoleaveher。

  \"DidyoumeetMissGage?\"sheasked。

  \"Yes,\"Ireturned,withtremulousexpectation。

  \"Well,don\'tyouthinkshelooksperfectlydivineinthatgown?

  It\'soneofMme。Cody\'s,andwegotitforthirtydollars。ItwouldhavebeenfiftyinNewYork,anditwas,here,earlierintheseason。Ishallalwayscomehereforsomeofmythings;assoonastheseason\'salittlepasttheysimplyFLINGthemaway。Well,mydear!\"

  \"Well,what?\"

  \"Ididn\'tspeaktoherafterall。\"

  \"Youdidn\'t!Don\'tyouthinkshe\'sinlovewithhim,then?\"

  \"Dead。\"

  \"Well?\"

  \"Well,Icouldn\'tsomehowseemtoapproachthesubjectasIhadexpectedto。Shewassohappy,andsogood,andsoperfectlyobedient,thatIcouldn\'tgetanythingtotakeholdof。Yousee,I

  didn\'tknowbutshemightbealittlerebellious,orresentfulofmyinterference;butinthelittlegingerlyattemptsIdidmakeshewassosubmissive,don\'tyouunderstand?AndshewasverymodestaboutMr。Kendricks\'attentions,andsoself-depreciatorythat,well——\"

  \"Lookhere,Isabel,\"Ibrokein,\"thisisprettyshamelessofyou。

  Youpretendtobeinthegreatestkindoffidgeaboutthisgirl;andyoumakemelieawakeallnightthinkingwhatyou\'regoingtosaytoher;andnowyouasmuchastellmeyouweresofascinatedwiththemodestwayshewasinlovethatyoucouldn\'tsayanythingtoheragainstbeinginloveonourhandsinanysortofway。Doyoucallthisbusiness?\"

  \"Well,Idon\'tcareifIDIDencourageher——\"

  \"Oh,youevenencouragedher!\"

  \"IDIDN\'Tencourageher。ImerelypraisedMr。Kendricks,andsaidhowmuchyouthoughtofhimasawriter。\"

  \"Oh!thenyougavethesubjectaliterarycast。Isee!DoyouthinkMissGagewasabletofollowyou?\"

  \"Thatdoesn\'tmatter。\"

  \"Andwhatdoyouproposetodonow?\"

  \"Iproposetodonothing。IthinkthatIhavedoneallmydutyrequires,andthatnowIcanleavethewholeaffairtoyou。Itwasyouraffairinthebeginning。Idon\'tseewhyIshouldworrymyselfaboutit。\"

  \"Itseemstomethatthisisaverystrangepositionforaladytotakewhowasnotgoingtocloseaneyelastnightinviewofasituationwhichhasnotchangedintheleast,exceptfortheworse。

  Don\'tyouthinkyouareratherculpablylight-heartedallofasudden?\"

  \"Iamlight-hearted,butifthereisanyculpabilityitisyours,Basil。\"

  Ireflected,butIfailedtofindanynoveltyinthefact。\"Verywell,then;whatdoyouproposethatIshoulddo?\"

  \"Ileavethatentirelytoyourownconscience。\"

  \"Andifmyconsciencehasnosuggestiontomake?\"

  \"That\'syouraffair。\"

  Ireflectedagain,andthenIsaid,morethananythingtomakeheruncomfortable,I\'mafraid:\"Ifeelperfectlyeasyinmyconscience,personally,butIhaveasocialdutyinthematter,andIhopeI

  shallperformitwithmorefidelityandcouragethanyouhaveshown。

  IshallspeaktoKendricks。\"

  Shesaid:\"Thatisjustwhatyououghttodo。I\'mquitesurprised。\"Afterthistouchofironysheaddedearnestly,\"AndI

  dohope,mydear,youwillusejudgmentinspeakingtohim,andtact。Youmustn\'tgoatitbluntly。RememberthatMr。Kendricksisnotatalltoblame。Hebegantoshowherattentiontoobligeus,andifshehasfalleninlovewithhimitisourfault。\"

  \"Ishallhandlehimwithoutgloves,\"Isaid。\"Ishalltellhimhehadbettergoaway。\"

  Iwasjoking,butshesaidseriously,\"Yes;hemustgoaway。AndI

  don\'tenvyyouhavingtotellhim。Isupposeyouwillbungleit,ofcourse。\"

  \"Well,then,youmustadviseme,\"Isaid;andwereallybegantoconsiderthequestion。Wecouldhardlyexaggeratethedifficultyanddelicacyofthedutybeforeme。WerecognisedthatbeforeI

  madeanyexplicitdemandofhimImustfirstascertainthenatureofthewholegroundandthenbegovernedbythefacts。ItwouldbesimpleenoughifIhadmerelytosaythatwethoughtthegirl\'saffectionswerebecomingengaged,andthenappealtohiseagergenerosity,hisdelicatemagnanimity;buttherewerepossiblecomplicationsonhissidewhichmustberegarded。Iwastoascertain,weconcluded,theexactnatureofthesituationbeforeI

  venturedtosayanythingopenly。IwastomakemyapproachesbyaseriesofambushesbeforeIunmaskedmypurpose,andperhapsImustnotunmaskitatall。AsIsetoffonmymission,whichmustbeginwithfindingKendricksathishotel,Mrs。Marchsaidshepitiedme。

  ShecalledmebacktoaskwhetherIthoughtIhadreallybetterdoanything。Then,asIshowedsignsofweakening,shedrovemefromherwith,\"Yes,yes!Youmust!Youmust!\"

  CHAPTERXVII

  ItwasstillsoearlythatIhadmydoubtswhetherIshouldfindKendricksupafterthelastnight\'srevelry,buthemetmehalf-waybetweenourhotelandhis。HesaidhewascomingtoseehowMrs。

  MarchwasbearingMissGage\'simmensesuccessattheball;butperhapsthiswasnothissolemotive。Heaskedfranklyhowtheyoungladywas,andwhetherIthoughtMrs。Marchwouldconsideralunchatarestaurantbythelakeagoodnotion。WhenIsaidIhadverylittledoubtshewould,andproposedtakingaturnintheparkbeforeIwentbackwithhim,helookedathiswatchandlaughed,andsaidhesupposeditWASratherearlyyet,andcameverywillinglywithme。

  Wehadtheprettyplacealmosttoourselvesatthathour。Therewereahalf-dozenorsonursemaids,pushingtheirperambulatorsabout,orstandingthevehiclesacrossthewalkinfrontofthebencheswheretheysat,inthesimplebeliefofallpeoplewhohavetodowithbabiesthattherestoftheworldmaybefitlydiscommodedintheirbehalf。Buttheydidnotactivelymolestus,andtheyscarcelycircumscribedourchoiceofseats。Wewerebynomeansdriventothelittlekioskinthelakeforthem,andIshouldrathersaythatwewerefatefullyledthere,soaptweretheassociationsoftheplacetomypurpose。NothingcouldhavebeenmorenaturalthanthatIshouldsay,aswesatdownthere,\"ThiswaswhereIfirstsawMissGagewithherfriends\";anditwasbyaperfectlynaturaltransitionthatIshouldgoontospeak,inasemi-humorousstrain,oftheresponsibilitywhichMrs。Marchandmyselfhadincurredbylettingoursympathyforherrunawaywithus。IsaidIsupposedthatifwehadnotbeenwillingfromthefirsttotrytorealiseforhersomeoftheexpectationsweimaginedshehadincomingtoSaratoga,sheneverwouldhavefallentoourcharge;thatpeoplereallybroughtagreatmanymorethingsuponthemselvesthantheywerewillingtoown;andthatfatewasperhapsmorethefulfilmentofourtacitambitionsthanourovertacts。

  Thisbitofphilosophy,whichIconfessIthoughtfine,didnotseemtoimpressKendricks。Hemerelysaidthatitmustbegreatfuntohavethechanceofbafflingthemaliceofcircumstanceinacaselikethat,andIperceivedthathefeltnothingcomplexinthesituation。Infact,Idoubtwhetheryouthperceivesanythingcomplexinlife。Totheyoung,lifeisaveryplaincase。Tobesure,theyaremuchmorealarmedthantheireldersatgettingtangledupinitswebattimes,butthatisbecausetheyhavenothadourexperienceingettinguntangled,andthinktheyarenevergoingtogetoutalive。Whentheydo,theythinkthatitistheonlytangletheyareevergoingtobein,anddonotknowthattheyaresimplygoingonfromonetoanotheraslongasthereisenoughofthemlefttobecaughtinamesh。ToKendricksweMarchesweresimplytwoamiablepeople,whohadfancieddoingapleasantthingforabeautifulgirlthataccidenthadthrownitinourpowertobefriend,andwerebynomeansthetremblingarbitersofherdestinywefeltourselvestobe。Thedifferencebetweenhisobjectivesenseandmysubjectivesensewasthedifferencebetweenhistwenty-sevenyearsandmyfifty-two,andwhilethisremainedIsawthatitwouldbeuselesstotrytogetoncommongroundwithhim,ortogivehimourpointofview。IfIweretospeaktohimatall,itmustbewithauthority,withtherightofonewhostoodintheplaceofthegirl\'sparents,andhadherhappinessatheart。Thatis,itwassomethinglikethat;butmywordssayittoobluntly。Ifoundmyselfbeginning,\"Ihaveratherhadanotionthatherfathermightcomeon,andtaketheenterpriseoffourhands,\"though,totellthetruth,Ihadneverimaginedsuchathing,whichcameintomyheadatthatmomentthroughanassociationwiththethoughtofparents。

  \"Haveyouanyideawhatsortofmanheis?\"askedKendricks。

  \"Oh,somelittlelocalmagnate,presidentofthevillageandpresidentofthevillagebank;Ifancythechieffigureintheplace,butprobablyasignorantofourworldasaCherokee。\"

  \"Well,Idon\'tknow,\"saidtheyoungfellow。\"Doyouthinkthatfollowsbecausehedoesn\'tliveinit?\"IcouldseethathedidnotquitelikewhatIhadsaid。\"Isupposeoursisratherasmallworld。\"

  \"Thesmallestofallworlds,\"Ianswered。\"AndintheeyesofPapaGage,iftheycouldoncebefocuseduponit,ourworldwouldshriveltoanatom。\"

  \"Doyouthink,\"heasked,withamanifestanxiety,\"thatitwouldinhers?\"

  \"No;sheisnottheAmericanpeople,andherfatheris,asIfancyhim。ImakeoutfromthevaguehintsthatBrotherDeeringasFulkersonwouldcallhimdroppedwhenhetalkedabouthimthatPapaGageisashrewd,practical,home-keepingbusinessman,withaneyesingletothemainchance,lavish,butnotgenerous,Philistinetothebackbone,blindlydevotedtohisdaughter,andcontemptuousofallthemyriadmysteriesofcivilisationthathedoesn\'tunderstand。

  Idon\'tknowwhyIshouldbeauthorisedtoimaginehimpersonallylongandlank,withpossiblyatobaccohabitofsomesort。Hisnaturalhistory,uponnobetterauthority,isthatofahard-headedfarmer,whofoundoutthatfarmingcouldneverbemorethanalivelihood,andcameintothevillage,andbegantolendmoney,andgetgain,tillhewasinapositiontohelpfoundtheDeWittPointNationalBank,andthen,byweightofhismoneyedsolidity,imposedhimselfuponthefreeandindependentvotersofthevillage——amajorityofthemundermortgagetohim——andbecameitspresident。

  Itisn\'tapleasanttype,butit\'sideallyAmerican。\"

  \"Yes,\"saidKendricksruefully。

  \"Buthisdaughter,\"Icontinued,\"isprobablyaltogetherdifferent。

  Thereissomethingfineabouther——reallyfine。Ourworldwouldn\'tshrivelinhereye;itwouldprobablyswellupandfilltheuniverse,\"Iaddedbyanimpulsethatcamefromnowhereirresistiblyuponme:\"thatis,ifshecouldseeYOUinit。\"

  \"Whatdoyoumean?\"heaskedwithastart。

  \"Oh,nowImusttellyouwhatImean,\"Isaiddesperately。\"It\'syouthathavecomplicatedthiscasesodreadfullyforus。Can\'tyouthinkwhy?\"

  \"No,Ican\'t,\"hesaid;buthehadtosaythat。

  Hisfine,sensitivefaceflamedatoncesofire-redthatitcouldonlyturnpaleforachangewhenIplungedon:\"I\'mafraidwe\'vetrifledwithherhappiness\";andthisformulationofthecasedisgustedmesomuchthatIlaughedwildly,andadded,\"unlesswe\'vetrifledwithyours,too。\"

  \"Idon\'tknowwhyyoucallittriflingwithhappiness,\"hereturnedwithdignity,butwithoutoffence。\"Ifyouwillleaveheroutofthequestion,IwillsaythatyouhavegivenmethegreatesthappinessofmylifeinintroducingmetoMissGage。\"

  \"Now,\"Idemanded,\"mayIaskwhatYOUmean?YouknowIwouldn\'tifIdidn\'tfeelboundforhersake,andifyouhadn\'tsaidjustwhatyouhavesaid。Youneedn\'tanswermeunlessyoulike!It\'spleasanttoknowthatyou\'venotbeenbored,andMrs。MarchandI

  areinfinitelyobligedtoyouforhelpingusout。\"

  Kendricksmadeasifheweregoingtosaysomething,andthenhedidnot。HehunghisheadlowerandlowerinthesilencewhichIhadtobreakforhim——\"IhopeIhaven\'tbeenintrusive,mydearfellow。

  ThisissomethingIfeltboundtospeakof。Youknowwecouldn\'tletitgoon。Mrs。MarchandIhaveblamedourselvesagooddeal,andwecouldn\'tletitgoon。ButI\'mafraidIhaven\'tbeenasdelicatewithyou——\"

  \"Oh!delicate!\"Heliftedhisheadandflashedafaceofgenerousself-reproachuponme。\"It\'s_I_thathaven\'tbeendelicatewithYOU。I\'vebeenmonstrouslyindelicate。ButInevermeanttobe,and——and——Iwascomingtoseeyoujustnowwhenwemet——toseeyou——

  MissGage——andaskher——tellherthatwe——I——musttellyouandMrs。

  March——Mr。March!AtthehoplastnightIaskedhertobemywife,andassoonasshecanhearfromherfather——ButthefirstthingwhenIwokethismorning,IsawthatImusttellMrs。Marchandyou。

  Andyou——youmustforgiveus——orme,rather;foritwasmyfault——

  fornottellingyoulastnight——atonce——oh,thankyou!thankyou!\"

  Ihadseizedhishand,andwaswringingitvehementlyinexpressionofmypleasureinwhathehadtoldme。InthatfirstmomentIfeltnothingbutpurejoyandanimmeasurablerelief。Idrewmybreath,averydeepandfullone,inasudden,absolutefreedomfromanxietieswhichhadbeennonethelessrealandconstantbecausesooftenburlesqued。Afterwardconsiderationspresentedthemselvestoalloymyrapture,butforthatmoment,asIsay,itwasnothingbutrapture。Therewasnoquestioninitofthelovers\'fitnessforeachother,oftheiracceptabilitytotheirrespectivefamilies,oftheirgeneralconduct,oroftheirespecialbehaviourtowardus。

  AllthatIcouldrealisewasthatitwasagreatescapeforbothofus,andagreattriumphforme。IhadbeenafraidthatIshouldnothavethecouragetospeaktoKendricksofthematteratall,muchlessaskhimtogoaway;andhereIhadactuallyspokentohim,withthesplendidresultthatIneedonlycongratulatehimonhisengagementtotheladywhoseunrequitedaffectionsIhadbeenwishinghimtospare。Idon\'trememberjustthetermsIusedindoingthis,buttheyseemedsatisfactorytoKendricks;probablyarepetitionofthelettersofthealphabetwouldhavebeenequallyacceptable。AtlastIsaid,\"Well,nowImustgoandtellthegreatnewstoMrs。March,\"andIshookhandswithhimagain;wehadbeenshakinghandsathalf-minutelyintervalseversincethefirsttime。

  CHAPTERXVIII

  IsawMrs。Marchwaitingformeonthehotelverandah。Sheworeherbonnet,andshewarnedmenottoapproach,andthenrandowntomeetme。

  \"Well,mydear,\"shesaid,asshepushedherhandthroughmyarmandbegantopropelmeawayfromthesightandhearingofpeopleonthepiazza,\"Ihopeyoudidn\'tmakeafoolofyourselfwithKendricks。

  They\'reengaged!\"

  Sheapparentlyexpectedmetobeprostratedbythisstroke。\"Yes,\"

  Isaidverycoolly;\"Iwasjustcomingtotellyou。\"

  \"Howdidyouknowit?Whotoldyou?DidKendricks?Idon\'tbelieveit!\"shecriedinanexcitementnotunmixedwithresentment。

  \"Noonetoldme,\"Isaid。\"Isimplydivinedit。\"

  Shedidn\'tmindthatforamoment。\"Well,I\'mgladhehadthegracetodoso,andIhopehediditbeforeyouaskedhimanyleadingquestions。\"Withoutwaitingtohearwhetherthiswassoornot,shewenton,withanemphasisonthenextwordthatalmostblotteditoutofthelanguage,\"SHEcamebacktomealmosttheinstantyouweregone,andtoldmeeverything。Shesaidshewantedtotellmelastnight,butshehadn\'tthecourage,andthismorning,whenshesawthatIwasbeginningtohintuptoMr。Kendricksalittle,shehadn\'tthecourageatall。Isentherstraightofftotelegraphforherfather。Sheisbehavingsplendidly。Andnow,whatarewegoingtodo?\"

  \"Whattherestoftheworldis——nothing。Itseemstomethatweareoutofthestory,mydear。Atanyrate,Ishan\'tattempttocompetewithMissGageinsplendidbehaviour,andIhopeyouwon\'t。Itwouldbesoeasyforus。IwonderwhatPapaGageisgoingtobelike。\"

  Ifeltmythrillofapprehensionimpartitselftoher。\"Yes!\"shegasped;\"whatifheshouldn\'tlikeit?\"

  \"Well,then,that\'shisaffair。\"ButIdidnotfeelsolightlyaboutitasIspoke,andfromtimetotimeduringthedayIwasovertakenwithacolddismayatthethoughtoftheunknownquantityintheproblem。

  Whenwereturnedtothehotelafteratouroftheblock,wesawKendricksinourcorneroftheverandahwithMissGage。Theywerebothlaughingconvulsively,andtheyrandowntomeetusinyetwilderthroesofmerriment。

  \"We\'vejustbeencomparingnotes,\"hesaid,\"andattheverymomentwhenIwastellingyou,Mr。March,JuliawastellingMrs。March。\"

  \"Wonderfulcaseoftelepathy,\"Imocked。

  \"GiveittothePsychicalResearch。\"

  Theybothseemedalittledaunted,andMissGagesaid,\"IknowMr。

  Marchdoesn\'tlikethewaywe\'vedone。\"

  \"Likeit!\"criedMrs。March,contrivingtoshakemealittlewiththehandshestillhadinmyarm。\"Ofcoursehelikesit。Hewasjustsayingyouhadbehavedsplendidly。HesaidHEwouldn\'tattempttocompetewithyou。Butyoumustn\'tregardhimintheleast。\"

  IadmiredtheskillwithwhichIsabelsavedherconscienceinthisstatementtoomuchtodisputeit;andIsupposethatwhatevershehadsaid,MissGagewouldhavebeenreassured。Icannotparticularlypraisethewisdomofherbehaviourduringthatday,or,forthematterofthat,thebehaviourofKendrickseither。Theidealthingwouldhavebeenforhimtokeepawaynowtillherfathercame,butitseemedtomethathewasaboutunderourfeetallthewhile,andthatshe,sofarfrommakinghimremainathisownhotel,encouragedhimtopassthetimeatours。Withoutconsultingme,Mrs。Marchaskedhimtostaytodinnerafterhehadstayedalltheforenoon,andhemadethisapretextforspendingtheafternooninourcorneroftheverandah。ShemademegiveituptohimandMissGage,sothattheycouldbealonetogether,thoughImustsaytheydidnotseemtomindusagreatdealwhenwewerepresent;hewasalwaysleaningonthebackofherchair,orsittingnextherwithhishanddanglingoveritinamannerthatmademesick。IwonderedifIwaseversuchanassasthat,andIquitelosttherespectforKendricks\'sgoodsenseandgoodtastewhichhadbeenthegroundofmylikingforhim。

  Ifeltmyselfwithdrawnfromtheaffairfartherandfartherinsympathy,sinceithadnowpassedbeyondmycontrol;andIresentedthestrainoftheresponsibilitywhichIhadthrownoff,Ifound,onlyforamoment,andmustcontinuetosufferuntilthegirl\'sfatherappearedandfinallyrelievedme。TheworstwasthatIhadtobearitalone。ItwasimpossibletodetachMrs。March\'sinterestfromMissGage,asagirlwhohadbeenmadeloveto,longenoughtoenablehertorealiseherasadaughterwithfilialtiesandduties。

  Shedidtryinaperfunctorywaytodoit,butIcouldseethatshenevergavehermindtoit。Icouldnotevenmakehersharemysenseofmyownculpability,athingshewasonlytoowillingtodoinmostmatters。SheadmittedthatitwasabsurdformetohaveletmyfancyplayaboutthegirlwhenIfirstsawheruntilwefeltthatI

  mustdosomethingforher;butIcouldnotgethertoownthatwehadbothactedpreposterouslyinlettingMrs。DeeringleaveMissGageinourcharge。Inthefirstplace,shedeniedthatshehadbeenleftinourcharge。Shehadsimplybeenleftinthehotelwherewewerestaying,andweshouldhavebeenperfectlyfreetodonothingforher。ButwhenKendricksturnedupsounexpectedly,itwasquitenaturalweshouldaskhimtobepolitetoher。Mrs。Marchsawnothingstrangeinallthat。WhatwasIworryingabout?Whatshehadbeenafraidofwasthathehadnotbeeninlovewiththegirlwhenshewassoclearlyinlovewithhim。Butnow!

  \"Andsupposeherfatherdoesn\'tlikeit!\"

  \"NotlikeMr。Kendricks!\"Shestaredatme,andIcouldseehowinfatuatedshewas。

  Iwasmyselfalwayscharmedwiththeyoungfellow。Hewasnotonlygoodandgenerousandhandsome,andclever——Ineverthoughthimafirst-classtalent——buthewasbeautifullywellbred,andhewasverywellborn,asthosethingsgowithus。Thatis,hecameofpeoplewhohadnotdonemuchofanythingforageneration,andhadacquiredmeritwiththemselvesforit。Theywerenotveryrich,buttheyhadarighttothinkthathemighthavedonenothing,ordonesomethingbetterthanliterature;andIwishIcouldsetforthexactlytheterms,tacitandexplicit,inwhichhismotherandsisterscondonedhisderelictiontomeatareceptionwherehepresentedmetothem。Invirtueofhiswishtodosomething,hehadbecomeahumanbeing,andtheycouldnotquitefollowhim;buttheywereverypoliteintoleratingme,andtryingtomakemefeelthatI

  wasnotatallodd,thoughhewassoqueerinbeingproudofwritingformypaper,astheycalledit。HewassounlikethemallthatI

  likedhimmorethaneveraftermeetingthem。Still,Icouldimagineafondfather,asIimaginedMissGage\'sfathertobe,objectingtohim,onsomegroundsatleast,tillheknewhim,andMrs。Marchapparentlycouldnotimagineeventhis。

  IdonotknowwhyIshouldhaveprefiguredMissGage\'sfatherastallandlank。Shewasnotherselfsoverytall,thoughshewasrathertallthanshort,andthoughshewasratheroftheDianaorgirlishtypeofgoddess,shewasbynomeanslank。YetitwasinthisshapethatIhadalwaysthoughtofhim,perhapsthroughanobscureassociationwithhisfellow-villager,Deering。Ihadfanciedhimsaturnineofspirit,slovenlyofdress,andloungingofhabit,uponnoauthoritythatIcouldallege,andIwaswhollyunpreparedfortheneat,smallfigureofaman,verypreciseofmannerandscrupulousofaspect,whosaid,\"Howdoyoudo,sir?I

  hopeIseeyouwell,sir,\"whenhisdaughterpresentedustoeachother,themorningaftertheeventfuldaydescribed,andheshookmyhandwithhisverysmall,dryhand。

  Icouldnotmakeoutfromtheirmannerwitheachotherwhethertheyhadbeenspeakingofthegreatmatterinhandornot。IamratheratalossaboutpeopleofthatPhilistinemakeastowhattheirprocedurewillbeincircumstanceswhereIknowjustwhatpeopleofmyownsortofsophisticationwoulddo。Thesewouldcomestraightatthetrouble,butIfancythatwiththeothersorttheconventionisapreliminaryreserve。IfoundMr。Gagedisposedtoprolong,withmeatleast,adiscussionoftheweather,andtheaspectsofSaratoga,theeventsofhisjourneyfromDeWittPoint,andthehardshipofhavingtorideallthewaytoMooer\'sJunctioninastage-coach。Ifeltmoreandmore,whilewebandiedthesefutilities,asifMr。Gagehadanoverduenoteofmine,andwaswaitingforme,sinceIcouldnotpayit,tomakesomepropositiontowarditsrenewal;andhedidreallytiremeoutatlast,sothatI

  said,\"Well,Mr。Gage,IsupposeMissGagehastoldyousomethingofthetremendoussituationthathasdevelopeditselfhere?\"

  IthoughtIhadbettergivetheaffairsuchsmilingcharacterasajocosetreatmentmightimpart,andthedrylittlemantwinkledupresponsivelysofarasmannerwasconcerned。\"Well,yes,yes。

  Therehasbeensometalkofitbetweenus,\"andagainheleftthewordtome。

  \"Mrs。Marchurgedyourdaughtertosendforyouatoncebecausethatwastherightandfitthingtodo,andbecausewefeltthattheaffairhadnowquitetranscendedourpowers,suchastheywere,andnobodycouldreallycopewithitbutyourself。Ihopeyouwerenotundulyalarmedbythesummons?\"

  \"Notatall。Shesaidinthedespatchthatshewasnotsick。IhadbeenanticipatingashortvisittoSaratogaforsomedays,andmybusinesswasinashapesothatIcouldleave。\"

  \"Oh!\"Isaidvaguely,\"Iamveryglad。Mrs。Marchfelt,asIdid,thatcircumstanceshadgivenusacertainobligationinregardtoMissGage,andwewereanxioustodischargeitfaithfullyandtotheutmost。Weshouldhavewrittentoyou,summonedyou,before,ifwecouldhavesupposed——orbeensure;butyouknowthesethingsgoonsoobscurely,andweactedattheveryfirstpossiblemoment。I

  wishyoutounderstandthat。Wetalkeditoveragreatdeal,andI

  hopeyouwillbelievethatwestudiedthroughout——thatweweremostsolicitousfrombeginningtoendforMissGage\'shappiness,andthatifwecouldhaveforeseenorimagined——ifwecouldhavetakenanysteps——Itrustyouwillbelieve——\"Iwasfuriousatmyselfforbeingsoconfoundedlyapologetic,forIwasthinkingallthetimeofthebotherandafflictionwehadhadwiththegirl;andtheresatthatlittlewoodenimageacceptingmyself-inculpations,andapparentlydemandingmoreofme;butIcouldnothelpgoingoninthesamestrain:\"Wefeltespeciallyboundinthematter,fromthefactthatMr。Kendrickswasapersonalfriendofours,whomweareveryfondof,andwebothareveryanxiousthatyoushouldnotsupposethatwepromoted,orthatwewerenotmostvigilant——thatwewereforamomentforgetfulofyourrightsinsuchanaffair——\"

  Istopped,andMr。Gagepassedhishandacrosshislittlemeagre,smilingmouth。

  \"Thenheisnotaconnectionofyours,Mr。March?\"

  \"Blessme,no!\"Isaidingreatrelief;\"wearenotsoswellasthat。\"AndItriedtogivehimsomenotionofKendricks\'slocalquality,repeatingalistofagglutinatedNewYorksurnamestowhichhiswasmoreorlessaffiliated。Theyalwaysamuseme,thosenames,whichmorethananyintheworldgivethenotionofsocialstraining;butIdoubtiftheyaffectedtheimaginationofMr。Gage,eitherinthiswayorinthewayImeanlymeantthemtoaffecthim。

  \"Andwhatdidyousayhisbusinesswas?\"heasked,withthatimplicationofapreviousstatementonyourpartwhichsomepeoplethinkitsoclevertomakewhentheyquestionyou。

  Ialwayshateit,andIavengedmyselfbyansweringsimply,\"Blessmysoul,hehasnobusiness!\"andlettinghimtakeupthewordnowornot,asheliked。

  \"Thenheisamanofindependentmeans?\"

  Icouldnotresistanswering,\"Independentmeans?Kendrickshasnomeanswhatever。\"Buthavingdealtthisblow,Icouldadd,\"I

  believehismotherhassomemoney。Theyarepeoplewholivecomfortably\"

  \"Thenhehasnoprofession?\"askedMr。Gage,withalittlemorestringencyinhissmile。

  \"Idon\'tknowwhetheryouwillcallitaprofession。Heisawriter。\"

  \"Ah!\"Mr。Gagesoftlybreathed。\"Doeshewriteforyour——paper?\"

  InotedthatastotheliterarytechnicalitiesheseemednottobemuchmoreignorantthanKendricks\'sownfamily,andIsaid,tolerantly,\"Yes;hewritesforourmagazine。\"

  \"Magazine——yes;Ibegyourpardon,\"heinterrupted。

  \"Andforanyotherswherehecanplacehismaterial。\"

  ThisapparentlydidnotconveyanyveryluminousideatoMr。Gage\'smind,andheaskedafteramoment,\"Whatkindofthingsdoeshewrite?\"

  \"Oh,stories,sketches,poems,reviews,essays——almostanything,infact。\"

  Thelightlefthisface,andIperceivedthatIhadcarriedmyrevengetoofar,atleastforKendricks\'sadvantage,andI

  determinedtotakeanewdepartureatthefirstchance。Thechancedidnotcomeimmediately。

  \"Andcanamansupportawifebythatkindofwriting?\"askedMr。

  Gage。

  Ilaugheduneasily。\"Somepeopledo。Itdependsuponhowmuchofithecansell。Itdependsuponhowhandsomelyawifewishestobesupported。Theresultisn\'tusuallybeyondthedreamsofavarice,\"

  Isaid,withadesperatelevity。

  \"Excuseme,\"returnedthelittleman。\"Doyouliveinthatway?Byyourwritings?\"

  \"No,\"Isaidwithsomestate,whichItriedtosubdue;\"IamtheeditorofEveryOtherWeek,andpartowner。Mr。Kendricksismerelyacontributor。\"

  \"Ah,\"hebreathedagain。\"Andifheweresuccessfulinsellinghiswritings,howmuchwouldheprobablymakeinayear?\"

  \"Inayear?\"Irepeated,togaintime。\"Mr。Kendricksiscomparativelyabeginner。Sayfifteenhundred——twothousand——

  twenty-fivehundred。\"

  \"AndthatwouldnotgoveryfarinNewYork。\"

  \"No;thatwouldnotgofarinNewYork。\"Iwasbeginningtofindacertainpleasureindealingsofranklywiththishardlittleman。I

  likedtoseehimsuffer,andIcouldseethathedidsuffer;hesufferedasafathermustwholearnsthatfromapecuniarypointofviewhisdaughterisimprudentlyinlove。Whyshouldwealwaysregardsuchasuffererasacomicfigure?Heis,ifwethinkofitrightly,amostserious,eventragicalfigure,andatalleventsamostrespectablefigure。Helovesher,andhisheartistornbetweenthewishtoindulgeherandthewishtodowhatwillbefinallybestforher。Whyshouldoursympathies,insuchacase,beallforthefoolishyounglovers?Theyoughtingreatmeasuretobeforthefather,too。Somethinglikeasenseofthissmoteme,andI

  wasashamedinmypleasure。

  \"ThenIshouldsay,Mr。March,thatthisseemsamostundesirableengagementformydaughter。Whatshouldyousay?Iaskyoutomakethecaseyourown。\"

  \"Excuseme,\"Ianswered;\"Iwouldmuchrathernotmakethecasemyown,Mr。Gage,andImustdeclinetohaveyouconsultme。IthinkthatinthismatterIhavedoneallthatIwascalledupontodo。I

  havetoldyouwhatIknowofMr。Kendricks\'scircumstancesandconnections。Astohischaracter,IcantrulysaythatheisoneofthebestmenIeverknew。Ibelieveinhisabsolutepurityofheart,andheisthemostunselfish,themostgenerous——\"

  Mr。Gagewavedthefactsasidewithhishand。\"Idon\'tundervaluethosethings。IfIcouldbemaster,nooneshouldhavemygirlwithoutthem。Buttheydonotconstitutealivelihood。FromwhatyoutellmeofMr。Kendricks\'sprospects,IamnotpreparedtosaythatIthinktheoutlookisbrilliant。Ifhehascounteduponmysupplyingadeficiency——\"

  \"Oh,excuseme,Mr。Gage!Yourinsinuation——\"

  \"ExcuseME!\"heretorted。\"Iammakingnoinsinuation。Imerelywishtosaythat,whilemymeansaresuchastoenablemetoliveincomfortatDeWittPoint,IamwellawarethatmuchmorewouldbeneededinNewYorktoenablemydaughtertoliveinthesamecomfort。I\'mnotwillingsheshouldliveinless。IthinkitismydutytosaythatIamnotatallarichman,andiftherehasbeenanysuppositionthatIamso,itisamistakethatcannotbecorrectedtoosoon。\"

  ThistimeIcouldnotresenthisinsinuation,forsincehehadbeguntospeakIhadbecomeguiltilyawareofhavingfeltasortofeaseinregardtoKendricks\'smodestyofcompetencefromabelief,givenme,Isuspect,bythetalkofDeering,thatMr。Gagehadplentyofmoney,andcouldcometotherescueinanyamountneeded。Icouldonlysay,\"Mr。Gage,allthisissofarbeyondmycontrolthatI

  oughtnottoallowyoutosayittome。ItissomethingthatyoumustsaytoMr。Kendricks。\"

  AsIspokeIsawtheyoungfellowcomeroundthecornerofthestreet,andmountthehotelsteps。Hedidnotseeme,forhedidnotlooktowardthelittlecorneroflawnwhereMr。GageandIhadputourchairsforthesakeofthemorningshade,andfortheseclusionthatthespotaffordedus。Itwasattheangleofthehousefarthestfromourpeculiarcornerofthepiazza,whitherIhadthebeliefthatthegirlhadwithdrawnwhensheleftmetoherfather。IwassurethatKendrickswouldseekherthere,farenoughbeyondeyeshotorearshotofus,andIhadnodoubtthatshewasexpectinghim。

  \"YouareMr。Kendricks\'sfriend——\"

  \"IhavetriedmuchmoretobeMissGage\'sfriend;andMrs。March——\"

  Itcameintomymindthatshewasmostselfishlyandshamelesslykeepingoutoftheway,andIcouldnotgoonandcelebratehermagnanimousimpartiality,hereagerandsleeplessvigilance。

  \"Ihavenodoubtofthat,\"saidthelittleman,\"andIamverymuchobligedtoyouforallthetroubleyouhavetakenonmydaughter\'saccount。Butyouarehisfriend,andIcanspeaktoyoumuchmorefullyandfranklythanIcouldtohim。\"

  Ididnotknowjustwhattosaytothis,andhewenton:\"Inpointoffact,Idon\'tthinkthatIshallspeaktohimatall。\"

  \"Thatisquiteyouraffair,mydearsir,\"Isaiddryly。\"Itisn\'ttobesupposedthatyouwouldseekaninterviewwithhim。\"

  \"Andifheseeksaninterviewwithme,Ishalldeclineit。\"Helookedatmedefiantlyandyetinterrogatively。Icouldseethathewasveryangry,andyetuncertain。

  \"Imustsay,then,Mr。Gage,thatIdon\'tthinkyouwouldberight。\"

  \"How,notright?\"

  \"Ishouldsaythatinequityhehadafullandperfectrighttomeetyou,andtotalkthismatteroverwithyou。Hehasdoneyounowrongwhateverinadmiringyourdaughter,andwishingtomarryher。

  It\'sforyouandhertodecidewhetheryouwilllethim。Butasfarashiswishgoes,andhisexpressionofittoher,heisquitewithinhisrights。Youmustseethatyourself。\"

  \"Iconsider,\"heanswered,\"thathehasdonemeawronginthatverything。Amanwithoutmeans,oranystatedoccupation,hehadnobusinesstospeaktomydaughterwithoutspeakingtome。Hetookadvantageofthecircumstances。Whatdoeshethink?DoeshesupposeIamMADEofmoney?DoeshesupposeIwanttosupportason-in-law?IcantellyouthatifIwerepossessedofunlimitedmeans,Ishouldnotdoit。\"IbegantosuspectthatDeeringwasnearerright,afterall,inhisrepresentationsoftheman\'sfinancialability;Ifanciedsomethingoftheanxiety,thetremorofavarice,inhisresentmentofpoorKendricks\'spossible,orratherimpossible,designsuponhispocket。\"Ifhehadanyprofession,oranykindofbusiness,Ishouldfeeldifferently,andIshouldbewillingtoassisthimtoareasonabledegree;orifhehadabusinesstraining,Imighttakehiminwithme;butasitis,I

  shouldhaveahelplessburdenonmyhands,andIcantellyouIamnotgoinginforthatsortofthing。Ishallmakeshortworkofit。

  IshalldeclinetomeetMr。Hendricks,orKendricks,andIshallaskyoutosayasmuchtohimfromme。\"

  \"AndIshalldeclinetobethebearerofanysuchmessagefromyou,Mr。Gage,\"Ianswered,andIsaw,notwithoutpleasure,thebewildermentthatbegantomixwithhisarrogance。

  \"Verywell,then,sir,\"heanswered,afteramoment;\"Ishallsimplytakemydaughterawaywithme,andthatwillendit。\"

  Theprimlittle,grimlittlemanlookedatmewithhishardeyes,andsethislipssoclosethatthebeardontheloweronestuckoutatmewithasortofadditionalmenaceIfeltthathewastoocapableofdoingwhathesaid,andIlostmyselfinasenseofhissordidness,asensewhichwasalmostwithoutatraceofcompassion。

  ItseemedasifIwerealongtimeunderthespellofthis,andthesightofhisrepugnantface;butitcouldreallyhavebeenmerelyamoment,whenIheardastirofdraperyonthegrassnearus,andthesoft,richvoiceofMissGagesaying,\"Papa!\"

  Webothstartedtoourfeet。Idonotknowwhethershehadheardwhathesaidornot。Wehadspokenlow,andintheutmostvehemenceofhisspeechhedidnotlifthisvoice。Inanycase,shedidnotheedwhathesaid。

  \"Papa,\"sherepeated,\"IwantyoutocomeupandseeMrs。Marchonthepiazza。And——Mr。Kendricksisthere。\"

  Ihadawilddesiretolaughatwhatfollowed,andyetitwasnotwithoutitspathos。\"I——I——hm!hm!I——cannotseeMr。Kendricksjustatpresent。I——thefactis,Idonotwanttoseehim。Itisbetter——not。Ithinkyouhadbettergetreadytogohomewithmeatonce,daughter。I——hm!——cannotapproveofanyengagementtoMr。

  Kendricks,andI——prefernottomeethim。\"Hestopped。

  MissGagesaidnothing,andIcannotsaythatshelookedanything。

  ShesimplyCLOUDEDUP,ifImaysoexpresstheeffectthatcameandremaineduponhercountenance,whichwasnowthecountenanceshehadshownmethefirsteveningIsawher,whenIsawtheDeeringscoweringinitsshadow。Ihadnoneedtolookattheadamantinelittlemanbeforehertoknowthathewassofteningintowax,and,infact,Ifeltasortofindecencyinbeholdinghisinteneration,forIknewthatitcamefromhisheart,andhaditsconsecrationthroughhisloveforher。

  ThatiswhyIturnedaway,anddonotknowtothismomentjusthowthechangeshedesiredinhimwasbroughtabout。IwillnotsaythatIdidnotlookbackfromadiscreetdistance,andcontinuelookinguntilIsawthemstartawaytogetherandmoveinthedirectionofthatcornerofthepiazzawhereKendrickswaswaitingwithMrs。March。

  Itappeared,fromheraccount,thatMr。Gage,withnouncommonshowofill-will,butwithmerelyanaturaldryness,sufferedKendrickstobepresentedtohim,andentereduponsomepreliminarybanalitieswithhim,suchashehadusedinopeningaconversationwithme。

  BeforethesecametoacloseMrs。Marchhadthoughtitwelltoleavethethreetogether。

  Afterward,whenweknewtheonlyresultthattheaffaircouldhave,shesaid,\"Thegirlhasapowerfulwill。Iwonderwhatthemotherwaslike。\"

  \"Yes;evidentlyshedidn\'tgetthatwillfromherfather。Ihavestillasenseofexhaustionfromitinourowncase。WhatdoyouthinkitportendsforpoorKendricks!\"

  \"PoorKendricks!\"sherepeatedthoughtfully。\"Yes;inthatsenseI

  supposeyoumightcallhimpoor。Itisn\'tanequalthingasfarasnature,ascharacter,goes。Butisn\'titalwaysdreadfultoseetwopeoplewhohavemadeuptheirmindstogetmarried?\"

  \"It\'sverycommon,\"Isuggested。

  \"Thatdoesn\'tchangethefact,orlessentherisk。Sheisverybeautiful,andnowheisinlovewithherbeautifulgirlhood。Butafterawhilethegirlhoodwillgo。\"

  \"Andthegirlwillremain,\"Isaid。

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