\"So_I_thought,tillIheardyousingit。\"
\"And,afterSiebel,youboughtmyphotograph。\"
\"Instantly。\"
\"Andwastedpearlsonit。\"
\"No,madam。Iwasteditonpearls。\"
\"IfIwerewell,Ishouldcallthatextravagant。Butitispermittedtoflatterthesick——itiskind。Meyouoverrate,Ifear;butyoudowelltohonormusic。Ay,I,wholieherewoundedandbroken-hearted,dothankGodformusic。Ourbodiesaresooncrushed,ourlovesdecayorturntohate,butartisimmortal。\"
Shecouldnolongerrollthisoutinhergrandcontralto,butshecouldstillraisehereyeswithenthusiasm,andherpalefacewasilluminated。
Agrandsoulshonethroughher,thoughshewaspale,weak,andprostrate。
Theyadmiredherinsilence。
Afterawhilesheresumed,andsaid,\"IfIlive,Imustliveformyartalone。\"
MissGalesawherapproachingadangeroustopic,soshesaid,hastily,\"Don\'tsay_if_youlive,please,becausethatisarranged。Youhavebeenoutofdangerthistwenty-fourhours,providedyoudonotrelapse;andI
musttakecareofthat。\"
\"Mykindfriend,\"saidIna,\"Ishallnotrelapse;onlymyweaknessispitiable。SometimesIcanscarcelyforbearcrying,Ifeelsoweak。WhenshallIbestronger?\"
\"Youshallbealittlestrongereverythreedays。Therearealwaysupsanddownsinconvalescence。\"
\"WhenshallIbestrongenoughtomove?\"
\"Letmeanswerthatquestion,\"saidVizard。\"WhenyouarestrongenoughtosingusSiebel\'sgreatsong。\"
\"There,\"saidFannyDover;\"thereisamercenaryhostforyou。Hemeanstohaveasongoutofyou。Tillthenyouarehisprisoner。\"
\"No,no,sheismine,saidMissGale;\"andsheshan\'tgotillshehassungme\'Hail,Columbia。\'NoneofyourItaliantrashforme。\"
Inasmiled,andsaiditwasafaircondition,providedthat\"Hail,Columbia,\"withwhichcomposition,unfortunately,shewasunacquainted,wasnotbeyondherpowers。\"Ihaveoftensungformoney,\"saidshe;\"butthistime\"——heresheopenedhergrandarmsandtookRhodaGaletoherbosom——\"Ishallsingforlove。\"
\"Nowwehavesettledthat,\"saidVizard,\"mymindismoreatease,andI
willretire。\"
\"Onemoment,\"saidIna,turningtohim。Then,inalowandverymeaningvoice,_\"Thereissomethingelse。\"_
\"Nodoubtthereisplenty,\"saidMissGale,sharply;\"and,bymyauthority,Ipostponeitalltillyouarestronger。Bidusgood-byforthepresent,Mr。Vizard。\"
\"Iobey,\"saidhe。\"But,madam,pleaserememberIamalwaysatyourservice。Sendformewhenyouplease,andtheoftenerthebetterforme。\"
\"Thankyou,mykindhost。Obligemewithyourhand。\"
Hegaveherhishand。Shetookit,andputherlipstoitwithpureandgentleandseemlygratitude,andwithnolossofdignity,thoughtheactwashumble。
Heturnedhisheadaway,tohidetheemotionthatactandthetouchofhersweetlipscausedhim;MissGalehurriedhimoutoftheroom。
\"Younaughtypatient,\"saidshe;\"youmustdonothingtoexciteyourself。\"
\"Sweetphysician,lovingnurse,Iamnotexcited。\"
MissGalefeltherhearttosee。
\"Gratitudedoesnotexcite,\"saidIna。\"Itistootameafeelinginthebestofus。\"
\"Thatisafact,\"saidMissGale;\"soletusallbegrateful,andavoidexcitingtopics。ThinkwhatIshouldfeelifyouhadarelapse。Why,youwouldbreakmyheart。\"
\"ShouldI?\"
\"Ireallythinkyouwould,toughasitis。Onegetssofondofanunselfishpatient。Youcannotthinkhowraretheyare,dear。Youareapearl。Icannotaffordtoloseyou。\"
\"Thenyoushallnot,\"saidIna,firmly。\"KnowthatI,whoseemsoweak,amawomanofgreatresolution。Iwillfollowgoodcounsel;IwillpostponealldangeroustopicstillIamstronger;Iwilllive。ForIwillnotgrievethetruefriendscalamityhasraisedme。\"
OfcourseFannytoldZoeallaboutthisinterview。Shelistenedgloomily;
andallshesaidwas,\"Sistersdonotgoformuchwhenamanisinlove。\"
\"Dobrothers,whenawomanis?\"saidFanny。
\"Idaresaytheygoforasmuchastheyareworth。\"
\"Zoe,thatisnotfair。Harringtonisfullofaffectionforyou。Butyouwillnotgonearhim。Anyothermanwouldbeveryangry。Dopraymakeaneffort,andcomedowntodinnerto-day。\"
\"No,no。HehasyouandhisKlosking。AndIhavemybrokenheart。I_am_
alone;andsowillbeallalone。\"
Shecriedandsobbed,butshewasobstinate,andFannycouldonlyletherhaveherownwayinthat。
Anotherquestionwassoondisposedof。WhenFannyinvitedherintothesickroom,shesaid,haughtily,\"Igotherenomore。Cureher,andsendheraway——ifHarringtonwilllethergo。Idaresaysheistobepitied。\"
\"Ofcoursesheis。Sheisyourfellow-victim,ifyouwouldonlyletyourselfseeit。\"
\"Unfortunately,insteadofpityingher,Ihateher。Shehasdestroyedmyhappiness,anddoneherselfnogood。Hedoesnotloveher,andneverwill。\"
Fannyfoundherselfgettingangry,soshesaidnomore;forshewasdeterminednothingshouldmakeherquarrelwithpoorZoe;butafterdinner,being_te\'te-\'a-te\'te_withVizard,shetoldhimshewasafraidZoecouldnotseethingsastheywere;andsheaskedhimifhehadanyideawhathadbecomeofSeverne。
\"Fledthecountry,Isuppose。\"
\"Areyousureheisnotlurkingabout?\"
\"Whatfor?\"
\"TogetawordwithZoe——alone。\"
\"Hewillnotcomenearthis。Iwillbreakeveryboneinhisskinifhedoes。\"
\"Butheissosly;hemighthangabout。\"
\"Whatfor?Shenevergoesout;andifshedid,haveyousopooranopinionofherastothinkshewouldspeaktohim?\"
\"Oh,no!andshewouldforbidhimtospeaktoher。Buthewouldbesuretopersist;andhehassuchwonderfulpowersofexplanation,andsheisblindedbylove,Ithinkhewouldmakeherbelieveblackwaswhite,ifhehadachance;andifheisabout,hewillgetachancesomeday。Sheisdoingtheveryworstthingshecould——shuttingherselfupso。Anymomentshewillturnwild,andrushoutreckless。Sheisinadangerousstate,youmarkmywords;sheisbroken-hearted,andyetsheisbitteragainsteverybody,exceptthatyoungvillain,andheistheonlyenemyshehasintheworld。Idon\'tbelieveMademoiselleKloskingeverwrongedher,noreverwill。Appearancesareagainsther;butsheisagoodwoman,orIamafool。Takemyadvice,Harrington,andbeonyourguard。IfhehadwrittenapenitentlettertoMademoiselleKlosking,thatwouldbeadifferentthing;butheignoresher,andthatfrightensmeforZoe。\"
HarringtonwouldnotadmitthatZoeneededanyothersafeguardagainstadetectedscoundrelthanherownsenseofdignity。Heconsented,however,totakeprecautions,ifFannywouldsolemnlypromisenottotellZoe,andsowoundher。Onthatcondition,hewouldseehishead-keepertomorrow,andallthekeepersandwatchersshouldbepostedsoastoencircletheparishwithvigilance。HeassuredFannythesefellowshadawholesystemofsignalstotheearandeye,andSevernecouldnotgetwithinamileofthehouseundetected。\"But,\"saidhe,\"Iwillnottrusttothatalone。I
willsendanadvertisementtothelocalpapersandtheleadingLondonjournals,sowordedthatthescoundrelshallknowhisforgeryisdetected,andthathewillbearrestedonamagistrate\'swarrantifhesetsfootinBarfordshire。\"
Fannysaidthatwascapital,and,altogether,hehadsethermindatrest。
\"Thendoasmuchforme,\"saidVizard。\"Pleaseexplainaremarkablephenomenon。Youwerealwaysabrightgirl,andnofool;butnotexactlywhathumdrumpeoplewouldcallagoodgirl。Youarenotoffended?\"
\"Theidea!Why,Ihavepubliclydisownedgoodnessagainandagain。Youhaveheardme。\"
\"SoIhave。Butwasnotthatratherdeceitfulofyou?foryouhaveturnedoutasgoodasgold。Anxietyhaskeptmeathomeoflate,andIhavewatchedyou。Youliveforothers;youarealloverthehousetoservetwosuffering_women。_Thatisrealcharity,notsexualcharity,whichhumbugstheworld,butnotme。Youarecook,housemaid,butler,nurse,andfriendtobothofthem。Inanintervalofyourtime,socreditablyemployed,youcomeandcheermeupwithyourbrightlittleface,andgivemewiseadvice。Iknowthatwomenareallhumbugs;onlyyouareahumbugreversed,anddeserveastatue——andtrimmings。Youhavebeenpassingyourselfoffforanaughtygirl,andallthetimeyouwereanextragoodone。\"
\"Andthatpuzzlesthewoman-hater,thecynicalstudent,whosayshehasfathomedwoman。MypoordearHarrington,ifyoucannotreadsoshallowacharacterasIam,howwillyougetonwiththoseladiesupstairs——Zoe,whoisasdeepasthesea,andturbidwithpassion,andtheKlosking,whoisasdeepastheocean?\"
Shethoughtamomentandsaid,\"There,Iwillhavepityonyou。Youshallunderstandonewomanbeforeyoudie,andthatisme。I\'llgiveyoutheclewtomyseeminginconsistencies——if_you_willgive_me_acigarette。\"
\"What!anotherhiddenvirtue?Yousmoke?\"
\"NotI,exceptwhenIhappentobewithanoblesoulwhowon\'ttell。\"
VizardfoundheraRussiancigarette,andlightedhisowncigar,andshelecturedasfollows:
\"Whatwomenlove,andcan\'tdowithout,iftheyareyoungandhealthyandspirited,is——Excitement。Iamonewhopinesforit。Now,societyissoconstructedthattogetexcitementyoumustbenaughty。Waltzingallnightandflirtingalldayareexcitement。Crochet,andchurch,andexamininggirlsinSt。Matthew,anddining_enfamille,_andgoingtobedatten,arestagnation。Goodgirls——thatmeansstagnantgirls:Ihateanddespisethetamelittlewretches,andIneverwasone,andneverwillbe。
Butnowlookhere:Wehavetwoladiesinlovewithonevillain——thatisexciting。Onegetsnearlykilledinthehouse——thatisgloriouslyexciting。Theotherisbroken-hearted。IfIweretobeabadgirl,andsay,\'Itisnotmybusiness;Iwillleavethemtothemselves,andgomylittlemill-roundofselfishnessasbefore,\'why,whatafoolImustbe!
IshouldloseExcitement。Insteadofthat,IrunandgetthinksfortheKlosking——Excitement。Icookforher,andnurseher,andsituphalfthenight——Excitement。ThenIruntoZoe,anddomybestforher——andgetsnubbed——Excitement。ThenIsitattheheadofyourtable,andorderyou——Excitement。Oh,itislovely!\"
\"Shallyounotbesorrywhentheybothgetwell,andRoutinerecommences?\"
\"OfcourseIshall。ThatisthesortofgoodgirlIam。And,oh!whenthatfataldaycomes,howIshallflirt。Heavenhelpmynextflirtee!I
shallsoonflirtoutthestigmaofagoodgirl。Youmarkmywords,I
shallflirtwithsome_marriedman_afterthis。Ineverdidthatyet。ButIshall;IknowIshall——Ah!——there,Ihaveburnedmyfinger。\"
\"Nevermind。Thatisexciting。\"
\"AssuchIacceptit。Good-by。ImustgoandrelieveMissGale。Exitthegoodgirlonhermissionofcharity——ha!ha!\"Shehummeda_valse\'adeuxtemps,_andwentdancingoutwithsuchawhirlthatherpetticoats,whichwereample,andnot,asnow,likeasacktiedattheknees,madequiteacoolairintheroom。
ShehadnotbeengonelongwhenMissGalecamedown,fullofherpatient。
Shewantedtogetheroutofbedduringthedaytime,butsaidshewasnotstrongenoughtositup。WouldheorderaninvalidcouchdownfromLondon?Shedescribedthearticle,andwhereitwastobehad。
HesaidHarrisshouldgoupinthemorningandbringonedownwithhim。
Hethenputherseveralquestionsaboutherpatient;andatlastaskedher,withananxietyheinvainendeavoredtoconceal,whatshethoughtwastherelationbetweenherandSeverne。
NowitmayberememberedthatMissGalehadoncebeenonthepointoftellinghimallsheknew,andhadwrittenhimaletter。ButatthattimetheKloskingwasnotexpectedtoappearonthesceneinperson。WereshenowtosayshehadseenherandSevernelivingtogether,Rhodafeltthatsheshouldlowerherpatient。Shehadnotthehearttodothat。
RhodaGalewasnotofanamoroustemperament,andshewasallthemoreopentofemaleattachments。WithalittleencouragementshewouldhavelovedZoe,butshehadnowtransferredheraffectiontotheKlosking。SherepliedtoVizardalmostlikeamaleloverdefendingtheobjectofhisaffection。
\"TheexactrelationismorethanIcantell;butIthinkhehasliveduponher,forshewasricherthanhewas;andIfeelsurehehaspromisedhermarriage。Andmygreatfearnowislestheshouldgetholdofherandkeephispromise。Heisaspoorasaratorafemalephysician;andshehasafortuneinhervoice,andhasmoneybesides,MissDovertellsme。
Praykeepherheretillsheisquitewell,please。\"
\"Iwill。\"
\"AndthenletmehaveherupatHillstoke。Sheisbeginningtoloveme,andIdoteonher。\"
\"SodoI。\"
\"Ah,butyoumustnot。\"
\"Whynot?\"
\"Because。\"
\"Well,whynot?\"
\"Sheisnottoloveanymanagainwhowillnotmarryher。Iwon\'tlether。I\'llkillherfirst,Iloveherso。Aroguesheshan\'tmarry,andI
can\'tletyoumarryher,because,herconnectionwiththatSeverneismysterious。Sheseemsthesoulofvirtue,butIcouldnotlet_you_marryheruntilthingsareclearer。\"
\"Makeyourmindeasy。Iwillnotmarryher——noranybodyelse——tillthingsareagreatdealclearerthanIhaveeverfoundthem,whereyoursexisconcerned。\"
MissGaleapprovedtheresolution。
NextdayVizardpostedhiskeepers,andsenthisadvertisementstotheLondonandcountryjournals。
Fannycameintohisstudytotellhimtherewasmoretrouble——MissMaitlandtakenseriouslyill,andhadwrittentoZoe。
\"Pooroldsoul!\"saidVizard。\"Ihaveagreatmindtorideoverandseeher。\"
\"Somebodyoughttogo,\"saidFanny。
\"Well,yougo。\"
\"HowcanI——withZoe,andMademoiselleKlosking,andyou,tolookafter?\"
\"Insteadofoneoldwoman。Notmuchexcitementinthat。\"
\"No,cousin。Tothinkofyourremembering!Why,youmusthavegonetobedsober。\"
\"Ioftendo。\"
\"Youwerealwaysaneccentriclandowner。\"
\"Don\'tyoutalk。Youareacaricature。\"
ThisbanterwasinterruptedbyMissGale,whocametotellHarringtonMademoiselleKloskingdesiredtoseehim,athisleisure。
Hesaidhewouldcomedirectly。
\"Beforeyougo,\"saidMissGale,\"letuscometoanunderstanding。Shehadonlytwodays\'fever;butthatfever,andthelossofblood,andtheshocktohernerves,broughthertodeath\'sdoorbyexhaustion。Nowsheisslowlyrecoveringherstrength,becauseshehasahealthystomach,andIgivehernostimulantstospurandthenweakenher,butchoiceandsimpleesculents,theeffectofwhichIwatch,andvarythemaccordingly。
Buttheconvalescentperiodisalwaysoneofdanger,especiallyfromchillstothebody,andexcitementstothebrain。Atnoperiodaremorepatientsthrownawayforwantofvigilance。NowIcanguardagainstchillsandotherbodilythings,butnotagainstexcitements——unlessyouco-operate。Thefactis,wemustagreetoavoidspeakingaboutMr。
Severne。Wemustbeonourguard。Wemustparry;wemustevade;wemustbedeaf,stupid,slippery;butnoSeverne——forfiveorsixdaysmore,atallevents。\"
Thusforewarned,Vizard,induecourse,paidhissecondvisittoInaKlosking。
Hefoundherproppedupwithpillowsthistime。Shebeggedhimtobeseated。
Shehadevidentlysomethingonhermind,andhernurseswatchedherlikecats。
\"Youarefondofmusic,sir?\"
\"Notofallmusic。Iadoregoodmusic,Ihatebad,andIdespisemediocre。Silenceisgolden,indeed,comparedwithpoormusic。\"
\"Youareright,sir。Haveyougoodmusicinthehouse?\"
\"Alittle。Igetalltheoperas,andyouknowtherearegenerallyoneortwogoodthingsinanopera——amongtherubbish。Butthegreatbulkofourcollectionisratherold-fashioned。Itissacredmusic——oratorios,masses,anthems,services,chants。Mymotherwasthecollector。Hertastesweregood,butnarrow。Doyoucareforthatsortofmusic?\"
\"Sacredmusic?Why,itis,ofallmusic,themostdivine,andsoothesthetroubledsoul。CanInotseethebooks?Ireadmusiclikewords。ByreadingIalmosthear。\"
\"Wewillbringyouupadozenbookstobeginon。\"
Hewentdowndirectly;andsuchwashispleasureindoinganythingfortheKloskingthatheexecutedtheorderinperson,broughtupalittlepileoffoliosandquartos,beautifullyboundandlettered,aladyhavingbeenthecollector。
Now,ashemountedthestairs,withhisverychinuponthepile,whoshouldheseelookingovertherailsathimbuthissisterZoe。
Shewassadlychanged。Therewasafixedashenpalloronhercheek,andadarkcircleunderhereyes。
Hestoppedtolookather。\"Mypoorchild,\"saidhe,\"youlookveryill。\"
\"Iamveryill,dear。\"
\"Wouldyounotbebetterforachange?\"
\"Imight。\"
\"Whycoopyourselfupinyourownroom?Whydenyyourselfabrother\'ssympathy?\"
Thegirltrembled,andtearscametohereyes。
\"Isitwithmeyousympathize?\"saidshe。
\"Canyoudoubtit,Zoe?\"
Zoehungherheadamoment,anddidnotreply。Thenshemadeadiversion。
\"Whatarethosebooks?Oh,Isee——yourmother\'smusic-books。Nothingistoogoodfor_her。\"_
\"Nothinginthewayofmusic-booksistoogoodforher。Forshame!areyoujealousofthatunfortunatelady?\"
Zoemadenoreply。
Sheputherhandsbeforeherface,thatVizardmightnotseehermind。
Thenherestedhisbooksonatable,andcameandtookherheadinhishandspaternally。\"Donotshutyourselfupanylonger。Solitudeisdangeroustotheafflicted。Bemorewithmethanever,andletthiscruelblowbindusmoreclosely,insteadofdisunitingus。\"
Hekissedherlovingly,andhiskindwordssethertearsflowing;buttheydidherlittlegood——theywerebittertears。Betweenherandherbrothertherewasnowabarriersisterlylovecouldnotpass。HehatedanddespisedEdwardSeverne;andsheonlydistrustedhim,andfearedhewasavillain。Shelovedhimstillwitheveryfiberofherheart,andpinedforhisexplanationofallthatseemedsodark。
Sothenheenteredthesick-roomwithhismusic-books;andZoe,afterwatchinghiminwithoutseemingtodoso,creptawaytoherownroom。
Thentherewasratheraprettylittlescene。MissGaleandMissDover,oneachsideofthebed,heldaheavymusic-book,andMademoiselleKloskingturnedtheleavesandread,whenthecompositionwasworthreading。Ifitwasnot,shequietlypasseditover,withoutanyinjuriouscomment。
Vizardwatchedherfromthefootofthebed,andcouldtellinamoment,byherface,whetherthecompositionwasgood,bad,orindifferent。Whenbad,herfaceseemedtoturnimpassive,likemarble;whengood,toexpand;andwhenshelightedonamasterpiece,shewasalmosttransfigured,andherfaceshonewithelevatedjoy。
ThiswasastudytotheenamoredVizard,anditdidnotescapethequick-sighteddoctress。Shedespisedmusiconitsownmerits,butshedespisednothingthatcouldbepressedintotheserviceofmedicine;andshesaidtoherself,\"I\'llcureherwithesculentsandmusic。\"
Thebookwastakenawaytomakeroomforanother。
ThensaidInaKlosking,\"Mr。Vizard,Idesiretosayawordtoyou。
Excuseme,mydearfriends。\"
MissGalecoloredup。Shehadnotforeseena_te\'te-\'a-te\'te_betweenVizardandherpatient。However,therewasnohelpforit,andshewithdrewtoalittledistancewithFanny;butshesaidtoVizard,openlyandexpressively,\"Remember!\"
Whentheyhadwithdrawnalittleway,InaKloskingfixedhereyesonVizard,andsaid,inalowvoice,\"Yoursister!\"
Vizardstartedalittleatthesuddennessofthis,buthesaidnothing:
hedidnotknowwhattosay。
Whenshehadwaitedalittle,andhesaidnothing,shespokeagain。\"Tellmesomethingabouther。Isshegood?Forgiveme:itisnotthatIdoubt。\"
\"Sheisgood,accordingtoherlights。\"
\"Issheproud?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Isshejust?\"
\"No。AndInevermetawomanthatwas。\"
\"Indeeditisrare。Whydoesshenotvisitme?\"
\"Idon\'tknow\"
\"Sheblamesmeforallthathashappened。\"
\"Idon\'tknow,madam。Mysisterlooksveryill,andkeepsherownroom。
Ifshedoesnotvisityou,sheholdsequallyalooffromusall。Shehasnottakenasinglemealwithmeforsomedays。\"
\"SinceIwasyourpatientandyourguest。\"
\"Praydonotconcludefromthat——Whocaninterpretawoman?\"
\"Anotherwoman。Enigmastoyou,wearetransparenttoeachother。Sir,willyougrantmeafavor?WillyoupersuadeMissVizardtoseemeherealone——allalone?Itwillbeagreatertrialtomethantoher,forIamweak。InthisrequestIamnotselfish。Shecandonothingforme;butI
candoalittleforher,topaythedebtofgratitudeIowethishospitablehouse。MayHeavenblessit,fromtherooftothefoundationstone!\"
\"Iwillspeaktomysister,andsheshallvisityou——withtheconsentofyourphysician。\"
\"Itiswell,\"saidInaKlosking,andbeckonedherfriends,oneofwhom,MissGale,proceededtofeelherpulse,withsuspiciousglancesatVizard。Butshefoundthepulsecalm,andsaidso。
VizardtookhisleaveandwentstraighttoZoe\'sroom。Shewasnotthere。
Hewasgladofthat,foritgavehimhopesshewasgoingtorespecthisadviceandgiveuphersolitarylife。
Hewentdownstairsandontothelawntolookforher。Hecouldnotseeheranywhere。
Atlast,whenhehadgivenuplookingforher,hefoundherinhisstudycrouchedinacorner。
Sheroseatsightofhimandstoodbeforehim。\"Harrington,\"saidshe,inratheracommandingway,\"AuntMaitlandisill,andIwishtogotoher。\"
Harringtonstaredatherwithsurprise。\"Youarenotwellenoughyourself。\"
\"Quitewellenoughinbodytogoanywhere。\"
\"Well,but——\"saidHarrington。
Shecaughthimupimpatiently。\"SurelyyoucannotobjecttomyvisitingAuntMaitland。Sheisdangerouslyill。Ihadasecondletterthismorning——see。\"Andsheheldhimoutaletter。
Harringtonwasinadifficulty。Hefeltsurethiswasnotherrealmotive;buthedidnotliketosaysoharshlytoanunhappygirl。Hetookamoderatecourse。\"Notjustnow,dear,\"saidhe。
\"What!amItowaittillshedies?\"criedZoe,gettingagitatedathisopposition。
\"Bereasonable,dear。Youknowyouarethemistressofthishouse。Donotdesertmejustnow。Considertheposition。Itisaverychatteringcounty。IentertainMademoiselleKlosking;Icouldnotdootherwisewhenshewasnearlykilledinmyhall。Butformysistertogoawaywhilesheremainsherewouldhaveabadeffect。\"
\"Itistoolatetothinkofthat,Harrington。Themischiefisdone,andyoumustpleadyoureccentricity。WhyshouldIbeartheblame?Ineverapprovedit。\"
\"Youwouldhavesenthertoaninn,eh?\"
\"No;butMissGaleofferedtotakeher。\"
\"ThenIamtounderstandthatyouproposetomarkyourreprobationofmyconductbyleavingmyhouse。\"
\"What!publicly?Ohno。YoumaysaytoyourselfthatyoursistercouldnotbeartostayunderthesameroofwithMr。Severne\'smistress。Butthischatteringcountyshallneverknowmymind。Myauntisdangerouslyill。Shelivesbutthirtymilesoff。Sheisafitobjectofpity。Sheisa——respectable——lady;sheisallalone;nofemalephysician,noflirtturnedSisterofCharity,nowoman-hater,tofetchandcarryforher。AndsoIshallgotoher。Iamyoursister,notyourslave。Ifyougrudgemeyourhorses,Iwillgoonfoot。\"
Vizardwaswhitewithwrath,butgovernedhimselflikeaman。\"Goon,younglady!\"saidhe;\"goon!Jeer,andtaunt,andwoundthebestbrotheranyyoungmadwomaneverhad。Butdon\'tthinkI\'llansweryouasyoudeserve。I\'mtoocunning。IfIwastosayanunkindwordtoyou,Ishouldsufferthetorturesofthedamned。Sogoon!\"
\"No,no。Forgiveme,Harrington。Itisyouroppositionthatdrivesmewild。Oh,havepityonme!IshallgomadifIstayhere。Do,pray,pray,prayletmegotoAuntMaitland!\"
\"Youshallgo,Zoe。ButItellyouplainly,thisstepwillbeablowtoouraffection——thefirst。\"
Zoecriedatthat。Butasshedidnotwithdrawherrequest,Harringtontoldher,withcoldcivility,thatshemustbegoodenoughtobereadydirectlyafterbreakfastto-morrow,andtakeaslittleluggageasshecouldwithconveniencetoherself。
Horsesweresentonthatnighttothe\"Fox,\"aninnhalf-waybetweenVizardCourtandMissMaitland\'splace。
Inthemorningalightbarouche,withaslingforluggage,cameround,andZoewassoonseatedinit。Then,tohersurprise,Harringtoncameoutandsatbesideher。
Shewaspleasedatthisandsaid,\"What!areyougoingwithme,dear,allthatway?\"
\"Yes,tosaveappearances,\"saidhe;andtookoutanewspapertoread。
ThisfrozeZoe,andsheretiredwithinherself。
Itwasafinefreshmorning;thecoachmandrovefast;theairfannedhercheek;themotionwasenlivening;thehorses\'shoofsrangquickandclearupontheroad。Freshobjectsmettheeyeeverymoment。Herheartwasassadandachingasbefore,buttherearoseafaintencouragingsensethatsomedayshemightbebetter,orthingsmighttakesometurn。
Whentheyhadrolledabouttenmilesshesaid,inalowvoice,\"Harrington。\"
\"Well?\"
\"Youwereright。Coopingone\'sselfupisthewaytogomad。\"
\"Ofcourseitis。\"
\"Ifeelalittlebetternow——averylittle。\"
\"Iamgladofit。\"
Buthewasnothearty,andshesaidnomore。
Hewasextremelyattentivetoherallthejourney,and,indeed,hadneverbeenhalfsopolitetoher。
This,however,ledtoaresulthedidnotintendnoranticipate。Zoe,beingnowcool,fellintoastateofcompunctionanddismay。Shesawhisaffectionleavingherfor_her,_andstiffpolitenesscominginstead。
Sheleanedforward,putherhandsonhisknees,andlooked,allscared,inhisface。\"Harrington,\"shecried,\"Iwaswrong。WhatisAuntMaitlandtome?Youaremyall。Bidhimturnthehorses\'headsandgohome。\"
\"Why,weareonlysixmilesfromtheplace。\"
\"Whatdoesthatmatter?Weshallhavehadagoodlongdrivetogether,andIwilldinewithyouafterit;andIwillrideordrivewithyoueveryday,ifyouwillletme。\"
Vizardcouldnothelpsmiling。Hewasdisarmed。\"Youimpulsiveyoungmonkey,\"saidhe,\"Ishalldonothingofthekind。Inthefirstplace,I
couldn\'tturnbackfromanything;I\'monlyaman。Inthenextplace,I
havebeenthinkingitover,asyouhave;andthisisagoodmoveofours,thoughIwasalittlemortifiedatfirst。Occupationisthebestcureoflove,andthisoldladywillfindyouplenty。Besides,nursingimprovesthecharacter。LookatthatfrivolousgirlFanny,howshehascomeout。
Andyouknow,Zoe,ifyougetsickofitinadayortwo,youhaveonlytowritetome,andIwillsendforyoudirectly。Ashortabsence,withsoreasonableamotiveasvisitingasickaunt,willprovokenocomments。
Itisallforthebest。\"
ThissetZoeatherease,andbrotherandsisterresumedtheirusualmanners。
TheyreachedMissMaitland\'shouse,andwereadmittedtohersick-room。
Shewasreallyveryill,andthankedthemsopatheticallyforcomingtovisitapoorloneoldwomanthatnowtheywerebothgladtheyhadcome。
Zoeenteredonherfunctionswithanalacritythatsurprisedherself,andVizarddroveaway。Buthedidnotdrivestraighthome。HehadstartedfromVizardCourtwithotherviews。HehadtelegraphedLordUxmoorthenightbefore,andnowdrovetohisplace,whichwasonlyfivemilesdistant。Hefoundhimathome,andsoontoldhimhiserrand。\"Doyouremembermeetingayoungfellowatmyhouse,calledSeverne?\"
\"Ido,\"saidLordUxmoor,drylyenough。
\"Well,hehasturnedoutanimpostor。\"
Uxmoor\'seyeflashed。HehadalwayssuspectedSeverneofbeinghisrivalandamaincauseofhisdefeat。\"Animpostor?\"saidhe:\"thatisratherastrongword。CertainlyIneverheardagentlemantellsuchafalsehoodashevolunteeredabout——what\'sthefellow\'sname?——adetective。\"
\"Oh,Poikilus。Thatisnothing。Thatwasoneofhiswhitelies。Heisavillainallround,andaforgerbywayofclimax。\"
\"Aforger!What,acriminal?\"
\"Rather!Herearehisdrafts。Thedrawerandacceptordonotexist。ThewholethingwaswrittenbyEdwardSeverne,whoseindorsementfiguresonthebill。Hegotmetocashthesebills。Idepositthemwithyou,andI
askyouforawarranttocommithim——ifheshouldcomethisway。\"
\"Isthatlikely?\"
\"Notatall;itisahundredtoonehenevershowshisnoseagaininBarfordshire。Whenhewasfoundout,hebolted,andlefthisveryclothesinmyhouse。Ipackedthemofftothe\'Swan\'atTaddington。Hehasneverbeenheardofsince;andIhavewarnedhim,byadvertisement,thathewillbearrestedifeverhesetsfootinBarfordshire。\"
\"Well,then?\"
\"Well,then,Iamnotgoingtothrowawayachance。ThebeggarhadtheimpudencetospoononmysisterZoe。Thatwasmyfault,nothers。Hewasanoldcollegeacquaintance,andIgavehimopportunities——Ideservetobehorsewhipped。However,Iamnotgoingtocommitthesameblundertwice。Mysisterisinyourneighborhoodforafewdays。\"
\"Ah!\"
\"Andperhapsyouwillbegoodenoughtokeepyoureyeonher。\"
\"Ifeelmuchhonoredbysuchacommission。ButyouhavenottoldmewhereMissVizardis。\"
\"Withheraunt,MissMaitland,atSomervilleVilla,nearBagley。Apropos,Ihadbettertellyouwhatsheistherefor,oryourgooddowagerwillbeaskinghertoparties。ShehascometonurseherauntMaitland。Theoldladyisseriouslyill,andallouryoungcoquettesaregoinginfornursing。Wehaveasickladyatourhouse,Iamsorrytosay,andsheisnursedlikeaqueenbyDoctressGaleandexFlirtFannyDover。Nowisfulfilledthesayingthatwassaid,\'Owoman!inourhoursofease——\'
Ispareyoutherest,andsimplyremarkthatourZoe,firedbytheexampleofthosetwoladies,hasdevotedherselftonursingAuntMaitland。Itisverygoodofher,butexperiencetellsmeshewillverysoonfinditextremelytrying;andassheisaveryprettygirl,andthereforeafitsubjectofmalecharity,youmightpayheravisitnowandthen,andshowherthatthisbestofallpossibleworldscontainsyounggentlemenofdistinction,withlongandglossybeards,aswellaspeevisholdwomen,whoareextraselfishandtyrannicalwhentheyhappentobesick。\"
Uxmoorpositivelyradiatedasthisprogrammewasunfoldedtohim。Vizardobservedthat,andchuckledinwardly。
Hethenhandedhimtheforgedacceptances。
LordUxmoorbeggedhimtowritedownthefactsonpaper,andalsohisapplicationforthewarrant。Hedidso。LordUxmoorlockedthepaperup,andthefriendsparted。Vizarddroveoff,easyinhismind,andcongratulatinghimself,notunreasonably,onhislittlecombination,bymeansofwhichhehadprovidedhissisterwithawatch-dog,acompanion,andanhonorableloverallinone。
Uxmoorputonhishatandstrodeforthintohisowngrounds,withhisheartbeatinghighatthisstrangeturnofthingsinfavorofhislove。
Neitherforesawthestrangecombinationswhichweretoariseoutofaneventthatappearedsosimpleandone-sided。
CHAPTERXXII。
INAKLOSKING\'Scurewasretardedbythestateofhermind。Theexcitementandsharpagonyherphysicianhadfeareddiedawayasthefeverofthebrainsubsided;butthentheresettleddownagrim,listlesslethargy,whichobstructedherreturntohealthandvigor。OnceshesaidtoRhodaGale,\"ButIhavenothingtogetwellfor。\"
Asarule,shedidnotspeakhermind,butthoughtagreatdeal。SheoftenaskedafterZoe;andhernursescouldseethatheronelanguidanxietywassomehowconnectedwiththatlady。Yetshedidnotseemhostiletohernow,norjealous。Itwashardtounderstandher;shewasreserved,andverydeep。
ThefirstrelieftothedeadlylanguorofhermindcametoherfromMusic。Thatwasnogreatwonder;but,strangetosay,themusicthatdidhergoodwasneitheroldenoughtoberevered,nornewenoughtobefashionable。ItwasEnglishmusictoo,and_passe\'_music。ShecameacrossacollectionofAnglicananthemsandservices——written,mostofit,towardtheendofthelastcenturyandthebeginningofthis。Thecomposers\'namespromisedlittle:theywereBlow,Nares,Green,Kent,King,Jackson,etc。Thewordsandthemusicofthesecompositionsseemedtosuitoneanother;and,astheywereallquitenewtoher,shewentthroughthemalmosteagerly,andhummedseveralofthestrains,andwithherwhitebutnowthinhandbeattimetoothers。SheevensentforVizard,andsaidtohim,\"Youhaveatreasurehere。Doyouknowthesecompositions?\"
Heinspectedhistreasure。\"Iremember,\"saidhe,\"mymotherusedtosingthisone,\'WhentheEyesawHer,thenitblessedHer;\'andpartsofthisone,\'HearmyPrayer;\'and,letmesee,sheusedtosingthispsalm,\'PraisetheLord,\'byJackson。IamashamedtosayIusedtoaskfor\'PraisetheLordJackson,\'meaningtobefunny,notdevout。\"
\"Shedidnotchooseill,\"saidIna。\"IthoughtIknewEnglishmusic,yethereisawholestreamofitnewtome。Isitesteemed?\"
\"Ithinkitwasonce,butithashaditsday。\"
\"Thatisstrange;forherearesomeimmortalqualities。Thesecomposershadbrains,andbeganattherightend;theyselectedgrandandtunefulwords,greatandpiousthoughts;theyimpregnatedthemselveswiththosewordsandproducedappropriatemusic。Theharmoniesaresometimesthin,andthewritersseemscarcelytoknowtheskillfuluseofdiscords;buttheyhadheartandinvention;theysawtheirwayclearbeforetheywrotethefirstnote;thereisaninspiredsimplicityandfervor:ifallthesechoicethingsaredead,theymusthavefallenuponbadinterpreters。\"
\"Nodoubt,\"saidVizard;\"sopleasegetwell,andletmehearthesepiousstrains,whichmypoordearmotherlovedsowell,interpretedworthily。\"
TheKlosking\'seyesfilled。\"Thatisatemptation,\"saidshe,simply。
ThensheturnedtoRhodaGale。\"Sweetphysician,hehasdonemegood。Hehasgivenmesomethingtogetwellfor。\"
Vizard\'sheartyearned。\"Donottalklikethat,\"saidhe,buoyantly;
then,inabrokenvoice,\"Heavenforbidyoushouldhavenothingbettertoliveforthanthat。\"
\"Sir,\"saidshe,gravely,\"Ihavenothingbettertolivefornowthantointerpretgoodmusicworthily。\"
Therewasapainfulsilence。
Inabrokeit。Shesaid,quitecalmly,\"Firstofall,Iwishtoknowhowothersinterpretthesestrainsyourmotherloved,andIhavethehonortoagreewithher。\"
\"Oh,\"saidVizard,\"wewillsoonmanagethatforyou。Thesethingsarenotdefunct,onlyunfashionable。EverychoirinEnglandhassungthem,andcansingthem,afterafashion;so,attwelveo\'clockto-morrow,lookout——forsqualls!\"
Hemountedhishorse,rodeintothecathedraltown——distanteightmiles——andarrangedwiththeorganistforhimself,fourleadingboys,andthreelayclerks。Hewastosendacarriageinforthemafterthemorningservice,andreturnthemingoodtimeforvespers。
FannytoldInaKlosking,andsheinsistedongettingup。
BythistimeDoctressGalehadsatisfiedherselfthatalittleexcitementwasdownrightgoodforherpatient,andledtorefreshingsleep。Sotheydressedherlooselybutverywarmly,androlledhertothewindowonherinvalidcouch,setatahighangle。ItwasafinecleardayinOctober,keenbutgenial;andaftermufflingherwell,theyopenedthewindow。
Whileshesatthere,proppedhigh,andinhalingthepureair,Vizardconveyedhislittlechoir,byanotherstaircase,intotheantechamber;
and,underhisadvice,theyavoidedpreludesandopenedinfullchoruswithJackson\'ssongofpraise。
Atthefirstburstofsacredharmony,InaKloskingwasobservedtoquiverallover。
Theysungitrathercoarsely,butcorrectlyandboldly,andwithacertainfervor。Therewerenooperaticartificestoremindherofearth;
thepurityandtheharmonystruckherfull。ThegreatsingerandsuffererliftedherclaspedhandstoGod,andthetearsflowedfastdownhercheeks。
Thesetearswerebalmtothatpoorlaceratedsoul,tormentedbymanyblows。
\"Olacrymarumfons,tenerosacrosDucemtiumortusexanimo,quaterFelix,inimoquiscatentemPectore,te,pianympha,sensit。\"
RhodaGale,whohatedmusiclikepoison,creptuptoher,and,infoldingherdelicately,laidapairofweteyessoftlyonhershoulder。
Vizardnowtappedatthedoor,andwasadmittedfromthemusic-room。HebeggedInatochooseanothercompositionfromherbook。Shemarkedaserviceandtwoanthems,andhandedhimthevolume,butbeggedtheymightnotbedonetoosoon,oneaftertheother。Thatwouldbequiteenoughforoneday,especiallyiftheywouldbegoodenoughtorepeatthehymnofpraisetoconclude;\"for,\"saidshe,\"thesearethingstobedigested。\"
Soontheboys\'purevoicesroseagainandthosepoordeadEnglishcomposers,withprosaicnames,foundtheirwayagaintothegreatforeignsinger\'ssoul。
Theysungananthem,whichisnowespeciallydespisedbythosegreatcritics,theorganistsofthecountry——\"MySongshallbeofMercyandJudgment。\"
TheKloskingforgavethethinnessoftheharmony,andmanylittlefaultsinthevocalexecution。Thewords,nodoubt,wentfarwithher,beingclearlyspoken。Shesatmeditating,withhermoisteyesraised,andherfacetransfigured,andattheendshemurmuredtoVizard,withhereyesstillraised,\"Afterall,theyaregreatandpiouswords,andthemusichasatleastthiscrowningvirtue——itmeansthewords。\"Thenshesuddenlyturneduponhimandsaid,\"ThereisanotherpersoninthishousewhoneedsthisconsolationasmuchasIdo。Whydoesshenotcome?Butperhapssheiswiththemusicians。\"
\"Whomdoyoumean?\"
\"Yoursister。\"
\"Why,sheisnotinthehouse。\"
InaKloskingstartedatthatinformation,andbenthereyeskeenlyandinquiringlyonhim。
\"Shelefttwodaysago。\"
\"Indeed!\"
\"Tonurseasickaunt。\"
\"Indeed!Hadshenootherreason?\"
\"NotthatIknowof,\"saidVizard;buthecouldnothelpcoloringalittle。
Thelittlechoirnowsungaservice,KinginF。Theysung\"TheMagnificat\"rudely,andratherprofanely,butrecoveredthemselvesinthe\"Dimittis。\"
Whenitwasover,Inawhispered,\"\'TobealighttolightentheGentiles。\'Thatisaninspiredduet。Oh,howitmightbesung!\"
\"Ofcourseitmight,\"whisperedVizard;\"soyouhavesomethingtogetwellfor。\"
\"Yes,myfriend——thankstoyouandyoursaintedmother。\"
This,utteredinavoicewhich,underthehealinginfluenceofmusic,seemedtohaveregainedsomeofitsrichmelody,wastoomuchforourcynic,andhebustledofftohidehisemotion,andinvitedthemusicianstolunch。
Alltheservantshadbeenlisteningonthestairs,andthehospitableoldbutlerpliedtheboyswithsparklingMoselle,which,beinghimselfrearedonmightyPort;hethoughtalightandplayfulwine——justthethingforwomenandchildren。Soafterluncheontheysungratherwild,andtheKloskingtoldVizard,dryly,thatwoulddoforthepresent。
Thenheorderedthecarriageforthem,andaskedMademoiselleKloskingwhenshewouldlikethemagain。
\"When_can_I?\"sheinquired,rathertimidly。
\"Everyday,ifyoulike——Sundaysandall。\"