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  Canitbepossiblethatherpredictionisnotfarfromitsrealization?Ihavehadbothwakingandsleepingvisionswithintheselastmonthsandweekswhichhavetakenpossessionofmeandfilledmylifewithnewthoughts,newhopes,newresolves。

  SometimesonthebosomofthelakebywhichIamdreamingawaythisseasonofbloomandfragrance,sometimesinthefieldsorwoodsinadistantglimpse,onceinanearerglance,whichleftmepaleandtremulous,yetwasfollowedbyaswiftreaction,sothatmycheeksflushedandmypulsebounded,Ihaveseenherwho——howdoIdaretotellitsothatmyowneyescanreadit?——Icannothelpbelievingistobemydeliverer,mysaviour。

  Ihavebeenwarnedinthemostsolemnandimpressivelanguagebytheexpertsmostdeeplyreadinthelawsoflifeandthehistoryofitsdisturbinganddestroyinginfluences,thatitwouldbeattheimminentriskofmyexistenceifIshouldexposemyselftotherepetitionofmyformerexperiences。Iwasremindedthatunexplainedsuddendeathswereofconstant,ofdailyoccurrence;thatanyemotionisliabletoarrestthemovementsoflife:terror,joy,goodnewsorbadnews,——anythingthatreachesthedeepernervouscentres。Ihadalreadydiedonce,asSirCharlesNapiersaidofhimself;yes,morethanonce,diedandbeenresuscitated。Thenexttime,ImightveryprobablyfailtogetmyreturnticketaftermyvisittoHades。Itwasarathergrimstrokeofhumor,butIunderstooditsmeaningfullwell,andfelttheforceofitsmenace。

  Afterall,whathadItoliveforifthegreatprimalinstinctwhichstrivestomakewholethehalflifeoflonelymanhoodisdefeated,suppressed,crushedoutofexistence?Whynotaswelldieintheattempttobreakupawretchedservitudetoapervertednervousmovementasinanyotherway?Iamaloneintheworld,——alonesaveformyfaithfulservant,throughwhomIseemtoholdtothehumanraceasitwerebyasinglefilament。Myfather,whowasmyinstructor,mycompanion,mydearestandbestfriendthroughallmylateryouthandmyearliermanhood,diedthreeyearsagoandleftmemyownmaster,withthemeansoflivingasmightbestpleasemyfancy。Thisseasonshalldecidemyfate。Onemoreexperiment,andI

  shallfindmyselfrestoredtomyplaceamongmyfellow-beings,or,asIdevoutlyhope,inaspherewhereallourmortalinfirmitiesarepastandforgotten。

  Ihavetoldthestoryofablightedlifewithoutreserve,sothatthereshallnotremainanymysteryoranydarksuspicionconnectedwithmymemoryifIshouldbetakenawayunexpectedly。Ithascostmeanefforttodoit,butnowthatmylifeisonrecordIfeelmorereconciledtomylot,withallitspossibilities,andamongthesepossibilitiesisagleamofabetterfuture。Ihavebeentoldbymyadvisers,someofthemwise,deeplyinstructed,andkind-heartedmen,thatsuchalife-destinyshouldberelatedbythesubjectofitfortheinstructionofothers,andespeciallyforthelightitthrowsoncertainpeculiaritiesofhumancharacteroftenwronglyinterpretedasduetomoralperversion,whentheyareinrealitytheresultsofmisdirectedorreversedactionsinsomeofthecloselyconnectednervouscentres。

  FormyselfIcantrulysaythatIhaveverylittlemorbidsensibilityleftwithreferencetothedestinywhichhasbeenallottedtome。I

  havepassedthroughdifferentstagesoffeelingwithreferencetoit,asIhavedevelopedfrominfancytomanhood。AtfirstitwasmereblindinstinctaboutwhichIhadnothought,livinglikeotherinfantsthelifeofimpressionswithoutlanguagetoconnecttheminseries。InmyboyhoodIbegantobedeeplyconsciousoftheinfirmitywhichseparatedmefromthosearoundme。InyouthbeganthatconflictofemotionsandimpulseswiththeantagonisticinfluenceofwhichIhavealreadyspoken,aconflictwhichhasneverceased,buttowhichIhavenecessarilybecometoacertaindegreeaccustomed;andagainstthedangersofwhichIhavelearnedtoguardmyselfhabitually。Thatisthemeaningofmyisolation。You,youngman,——ifatanytimeyoureyesshalllookuponmymelancholyrecord,——youatleastwillunderstandme。Doesnotyourheartthrob,inthepresenceofbuddingorbloomingwomanhood,sometimesasifit\"werereadytocrack\"withitsownexcessofstrain?Whatifinsteadofthrobbingitshouldfalter,flutter,andstopasifnevertobeatagain?You,youngwoman,whowithreadybeliefandtendersympathywilllookuponthesepages,iftheyareeverspreadbeforeyou,knowwhatitiswhenyourbreastheaveswithuncontrollableemotionandthegripofthebodiceseemsunendurableastheembraceoftheironvirginoftheInquisition。Thinkwhatitwouldbeifthegraspweretightenedsothatnobreathofaircouldenteryourpantingchest!

  Doesyourheartbeatinthesameway,youngman,whenyourhonoredfriend,avenerablematronofseventyyears,greetsyouwithherkindlysmileasitdoesinthepresenceofyouthfulloveliness?Whenaprettychildbringsyouherdollandlooksintoyoureyeswithartlessgraceandtrustfulsimplicity,doesyourpulsequicken,doyoutremble,doeslifepalpitatethroughyourwholebeing,aswhenthemaidenofseventeenmeetsyourenamoredsightintheglowofherrosebudbeauty?Wondernot,then,iftheperiodofmysticattractionforyoushouldbethatofagitation,terror,danger,tooneinwhomthenaturalcurrentoftheinstinctshashaditscoursechangedasthatofastreamischangedbyaconvulsionofnature,sothattheimpressionwhichisnewlifetoyouisdeathtohim。

  Iamnowtwenty-fiveyearsold。IhavereachedthetimeoflifewhichIhavedreamed,nayevenventuredtohope,mightbethelimitofthesentencewhichwaspronounceduponmeinmyinfancy。Icanassignnogoodreasonforthisanticipation。ButinwritingthispaperIfeelasifIwerepreparingtobeginarenewedexistence。

  ThereisnothingformetobeashamedofinthestoryIhavetold。

  ThereisnomanlivingwhowouldnothaveyieldedtothesenseofinstantlyimpendingdeathwhichseizeduponmeundertheconditionsI

  havementioned。Martyrshavegonesingingtotheirflamingshrouds,butneveramancouldholdhisbreathlongenoughtokillhimself;hemusthaveropeorwater,orsomemechanicalhelp,ornaturewillmakehimdrawinabreathofair,andwouldmakehimdosothoughheknewthesalvationofthehumanracewouldbeforfeitedbythatonegasp。

  ThispapermayneverreachtheeyeofanyoneafflictedinthesamewaythatIhavebeen。Itprobablyneverwill;butforallthat,therearemanyshynatureswhichwillrecognizetendenciesinthemselvesinthedirectionofmyunhappysusceptibility。Others,towhomsuchweaknessseemsinconceivable,willfindtheirscepticismshaken,ifnotremoved,bythecalm,judicialstatementoftheReportdrawnupfortheRoyalAcademy。Itwillmakelittledifferencetomewhethermystoryisacceptedunhesitatinglyorlookeduponaslargelyaproductoftheimagination。Iambutabirdofpassagethatlightsontheboughsofdifferentnationalities。Ibelongtonoflock;myhomemaybeamongthepalmsofSyria,theolivesofItaly,theoaksofEngland,theelmsthatshadowtheHudsonortheConnecticut;I

  buildnonest;to-dayIamhere,to-morrowonthewing。

  IfIquitmynativelandbeforethetreeshavedroppedtheirleavesI

  shallplacethismanuscriptinthesafehandsofonewhomIfeelsurethatIcantrust;todowithitasheshallseefit。Ifitisonlycuriousandhasnobearingonhumanwelfare,hemaythinkitwelltoletitremainunreaduntilIshallhavepassedaway。Ifinhisjudgmentitthrowsanylightononeofthedeepermysteriesofournature,——therepulsionswhichplaysuchaformidablepartinsociallife,andwhichmustberecognizedasthecorrelativesoftheaffinitiesthatdistributetheindividualsgovernedbytheminthefaceofimpedimentswhichseemtobeimpossibilities,——thenitmaybefreelygiventotheworld。

  ButifIamherewhentheleavesareallfallen,theprogrammeofmylifewillhavechanged,andthisstoryofthedeadpastwillbeilluminatedbythelightofalivingpresentwhichwillirradiateallitssaddeningfeatures。Whowouldnotpraythatmylastgleamoflightandhopemaybethatofdawnandnotofdepartingday?

  Thereaderwhofindsithardtoaccepttherealityofastorysofarfromthecommonrangeofexperienceisoncemorerequestedtosuspendhisjudgmentuntilhehasreadthepaperwhichwillnextbeofferedforhisconsideration。

  THEREPORTOFTHEBIOLOGICALCOMMITTEE。

  Perhapsitistoomuchtoexpectareaderwhowishestobeentertained,excited,amused,anddoesnotwanttoworkhispassagethroughpageswhichhecannotunderstandwithoutsomeeffortofhisown,toreadthepaperwhichfollowsandDr。Butts\'sreflectionsuponit。Ifhehasnocuriosityinthedirectionofthesechapters,hecanaffordtoleavethemtosuchasrelishaslightflavorofscience。Butifhedoessoleavethemhewillveryprobablyremainscepticalastothetruthofthestorytowhichtheyaremeanttofurnishhimwithakey。

  OfcoursethecaseofMauriceKirkwoodisaremarkableandexceptionalone,anditishardlyprobablethatanyreader\'sexperiencewillfurnishhimwithitsparallel。Butlethimlookbackoverallhisacquaintances,ifhehasreachedmiddlelife,andseeifhecannotrecallmorethanonewho,forsomereasonorother,shunnedthesocietyofyoungwomen,asiftheyhadadeadlyfearoftheircompany。Ifheremembersanysuch,hecanunderstandthesimplestatementsandnaturalreflectionswhicharelaidbeforehim。

  OneofthemostsingularfactsconnectedwiththehistoryofMauriceKirkwoodwasthephilosophicalequanimitywithwhichhesubmittedtothefatewhichhadfallenuponhim。HedidnotchoosetobepumpedbytheInterviewer,whowouldshowhimupinthesensationalcolumnsofhispryingnewspaper。Helivedchieflybyhimself,astheeasiestmodeofavoidingthosemeetingstowhichhewouldbeexposedinalmosteverysocietyintowhichhemightventure。Buthehadlearnedtolookuponhimselfverymuchashewoulduponanintimatenothimself,——uponadifferentpersonality。Ayoungmanwillnaturallyenoughbeashamedofhisshyness。Itissomethingwhichothersbelieve,andperhapshehimselfthinks,hemightovercome。ButinthecaseofMauriceKirkwoodtherewasnoroomfordoubtastotherealityandgravityofthelongenduringeffectsofhisfirstconvulsiveterror。Hehadacceptedthefactashewouldhaveacceptedthecalamityoflosinghissightorhishearing。Whenhewasquestionedbytheexpertstowhomhiscasewassubmitted,hetoldthemallthatheknewaboutitalmostwithoutasignofemotion。

  Naturewassoperemptorywithhim,——sayinginlanguagethathadnodoublemeaning:\"IfyouviolatetheconditiononwhichyouholdmygiftofexistenceIslayyouonthespot,\"——thathebecameasdecisiveinhisobedienceasshewasinhercommand,andacceptedhisfatewithoutrepining。

  Yetitmustnotbethoughtforamoment,——itcannotbesupposed,——

  thathewasinsensiblebecausehelookeduponhimselfwiththecoolnessofanenforcedphilosophy。Heborehisburdenmanfully,hardasitwastoliveunderit,forhelived,aswehaveseen,inhope。Thethoughtofthrowingitoffwithhislife,astoogrievoustobeborne,wasfamiliartohislonelyhours,butherejecteditasunworthyofhismanhood。HowhehadspeculatedanddreamedaboutitisplainenoughfromthepaperthereadermayrememberonOcean,River,andLake。

  Withthesepreliminaryhintsthepaperpromisedissubmittedtosuchasmayfindanyinterestinthem。

  ACCOUNTOFACASEOFGYNOPHOBIA。

  WITHREMARKS。

  BeingtheSubstanceofaReporttotheRoyalAcademyoftheBio~

  logicalSciencesbyaCommitteeofthatInstitution。

  \"Thesingularnatureofthecaseweareabouttonarrateandcommentuponwill,wefeelconfident,arresttheattentionofthosewhohavelearnedthegreatfactthatNatureoftenthrowsthestrongestlightuponherlawsbytheapparentexceptionsandanomalieswhichfromtimetotimeareobserved。Wehavedonewiththelususnaturaeofearliergenerations。Wepaylittleattentiontothestoriesof\'miracles,\'exceptsofaraswereceivethemready-madeatthehandsofthechurcheswhichstillholdtothem。Notthelessdowemeetwithstrangeandsurprisingfacts,whichacenturyortwoagowouldhavebeenhandledbytheclergyandthecourts,buttodayarecalmlyrecordedandjudgedbythebestlightourknowledgeofthelawsoflifecanthrowuponthem。Itmustbeownedthattherearestorieswhichwecanhardlydispute,soclearandfullistheevidenceintheirsupport,whichdo,notwithstanding,taxourfaithandsometimesleaveusscepticalinspiteofallthetestimonywhichsupportsthem。

  \"InthiscategorymanywillbedisposedtoplacethecasewecommendtothecandidattentionoftheAcademy。Ifoneweretoldthatayoungman,agentlemanbybirthandtraining,wellformed,inapparentlyperfecthealth,ofagreeablephysiognomyandmanners,couldnotendurethepresenceofthemostattractiveyoungwoman,butwasseizedwithdeadlyterrorandsuddencollapseofallthepowersoflife,ifhecameintoherimmediatepresence;ifitwereaddedthatthissameyoungmandidnotshrinkfromthepresenceofanoldwitheredcrone;thathehadacertaintimidlikingforlittlemaidenswhohadnotyetoutgrownthecompanyoftheirdolls,thelistenerwouldbeapttosmile,ifhedidnotlaugh,attheabsurdityofthefable。Surely,hewouldsay,thismustbethefictionofsomefancifulbrain,thewhimofsomeromancer,thetrickofsomeplaywright。Itwouldmakeacapitalfarce,thisidea,carriedout。

  Ayoungmanslightingthelovelyheroineofthelittlecomedyandmakinglovetohergrandmother!Thiswould,ofcourse,beoverstatingthetruthofthestory,buttosuchamisinterpretationtheplainfactslendthemselvestooeasily。Wewillrelatetheleadingcircumstancesofthecase,astheyweretolduswithperfectsimplicityandfranknessbythesubjectofanaffectionwhich,ifclassified,wouldcomeunderthegeneralheadofAntipathy,buttowhich,ifwegiveitaname,weshallhavetoapplythetermGynophobia,orFearofWoman。”

  Herefollowstheaccountfurnishedtothewriterofthepaper,whichisinallessentialsidenticalwiththatalreadylaidbeforethereader。

  \"Suchisthecaseofferedtoourconsideration。Assumingitstruthfulnessinallitsparticulars,itremainstoseeinthefirstplacewhetherornotitisasentirelyexceptionalandanomalousasitseemsatfirstsight,orwhetheritisonlythelasttermofaseriesofcaseswhichintheirlessformidableaspectarewellknowntousinliterature,intherecordsofscience,andeveninourcommonexperience。

  \"Tomostofthoseamongustheexplanationswearenowabouttogiveareentirelysuperfluous。Buttherearesomewhosechiefstudieshavebeenindifferentdirections,andwhowillnotcomplainifcertainfactsarementionedwhichtotheexpertwillseemrudimentary,andwhichhardlyrequirerecapitulationtothosewhoarefamiliarlyacquaintedwiththecommontext-books。

  \"Theheartisthecentreofeverylivingmovementinthehigheranimals,andinman,furnishinginvaryingamount,orwithholdingtoagreaterorlessextent,theneedfulsuppliestoallpartsofthesystem。Ifitsactionisdiminishedtoacertaindegree,faintnessistheimmediateconsequence;ifitisarrested,lossofconsciousness;ifitsactionisnotsoonrestored,death,ofwhichfaintingplantsthewhiteflag,remainsinpossessionofthesystem。

  Howcloselytheheartisundertheinfluenceoftheemotionsweneednotgotosciencetolearn,forallhumanexperienceandallliteratureareoverflowingwithevidencethatshowstheextentofthisrelation。Scriptureisfullofit;theheartinHebrewpoetryrepresentstheentirelife,wemightalmostsay。NotlessforcibleisthelanguageofShakespeare,asforinstance,in\'MeasureforMeasure:\'

  \'Whydoesmybloodthusmustertomyheart,MakingitbothunableforitselfAnddispossessingallmyotherpartsOfnecessaryfitness?\'

  Moreespeciallyistheheartassociatedineveryliteraturewiththepassionoflove。AfamousoldstoryisthatofGalen,whowascalledtothecaseofayoungladylongailing,andwastingawayfromsomecausethephysicianswhohadalreadyseenherwereunabletomakeout。Theshrewdoldpractitionersuspectedthatlovewasatthebottomoftheyounglady\'smalady。Manyrelativesandfriendsofbothsexes,allofthemreadywiththeirsympathy,cametoseeher。

  Thephysiciansatbyherbedsideduringoneofthesevisits,andinaneasy,naturalwaytookherhandandplacedafingeronherpulse。

  Itbeatquietlyenoughuntilacertaincomelyyounggentlemanenteredtheapartment,whenitsuddenlyroseinfrequency,andatthesamemomentherhurriedbreathing,herchangingcolor,paleandflushedbyturns,betrayedtheprofoundagitationhispresenceexcited。ThiswasenoughforthesagaciousGreek;lovewasthedisease,thecureofwhichbyitslikemaybeclaimedasananticipationofhomoeopathy。

  Inthefrontispiecetothefineold\'Junta\'editionoftheworksofGalen,youmayfindamongthewood-cutsarepresentationoftheinterestingscene,withthetitleAmantasDignotio,——thediagnosis,orrecognition,ofthelover。

  \"Lovehasmanylanguages,butthehearttalksthroughallofthem。

  Thepallidorburningcheektellsofthefailingorleapingfountainwhichgivesitcolor。Theloversatthe\'Brookside\'couldheareachother\'sheartsbeating。WhenGenevieve,inColeridge\'spoem,forgotherself,andwasbeforehandwithhersuitorinhersuddenembrace,\'Twaspartlyloveandpartlyfear,Andpartly\'twasabashfulart,ThatImightratherfeelthanseeTheswellingofherheart\'

  Alwaystheheart,whetheritshurriedactionisseen,orheard,orfelt。Butitisnotalwaysinthiswaythatthe\'deceitful\'organtreatsthelover。

  \'Faintheartneverwonfairlady。\'

  Thissayingwasnotmeant,perhaps,tobetakenliterally,butithasitsliteraltruth。Manyaloverhasfoundhisheartsinkwithinhim,——loseallitsforce,andleavehimweakasachildinhisemotionatthesightoftheobjectofhisaffections。WhenPorphyrolookeduponMadelineatherprayersinthechapel,itwastoomuchforhim:

  \'Sheseemedasplendidangel,newlydrest,Savewings,forheaven:——Porphyrogrewfaint,Sheknelt,sopureathing,sofreefromearthlytaint。\'

  AndinBalzac\'snovel,\'CesarBirotteau,\'theheroofthestory\'faintedawayfor-joyatthemomentwhen,underalinden-tree,atSceaux,Constance-Barbe-Josephineacceptedhimasherfuturehusband。\'

  \"OnewhofaintsisdeadifhedoesnotIcometo,\'andnothingismorelikelythanthattoosusceptiblelovershaveactuallygoneoffinthisway。Everythingdependsonhowtheheartbehavesitselfintheseandsimilartryingmoments。Themechanismofitsactionsbecomesaninterestingsubject,therefore,toloversofbothsexes,andtoallwhoarecapableofintenseemotions。

  \"Theheartisagreatreservoir,whichdistributesfood,drink,air,andheattoeverypartofthesystem,inexchangeforitswastematerial。Itknocksatthegateofeveryorganseventyoreightytimesinaminute,callinguponittoreceiveitssuppliesandunloaditsrefuse。Betweenitandthebrainthereistheclosestrelation。

  Theemotions,whichactuponitaswehaveseen,governitbyamechanismonlyoflateyearsthoroughlyunderstood。Thismechanismcanbemadeplainenoughtothereaderwhoisnotafraidtobelievethathecanunderstandit。

  \"Thebrain,asallknow,istheseatofideas,emotions,volition。

  Itisthegreatcentraltelegraphicstationwithwhichmanylessercentresareincloserelation,fromwhichtheyreceive,andtowhichtheytransmit,theirmessages。Thehearthasitsownlittlebrains,sotospeak,——smallcollectionsofnervoussubstancewhichgovernitsrhythmicalmotionsunderordinaryconditions。Buttheselessernervouscentresaretoalargeextentdominatedbyinfluencestransmittedfromcertaingroupsofnerve-cellsinthebrainanditsimmediatedependencies。

  \"Therearetwoamongthespecialgroupsofnerve-cellswhichproducedirectlyoppositeeffects。Oneofthesehasthepowerofacceleratingtheactionoftheheart,whiletheotherhasthepowerofretardingorarrestingthisaction。Oneactsasthespur,theotherasthebridle。Accordingasoneortheotherpredominates,theactionoftheheartwillbestimulatedorrestrained。Amongthegreatmoderndiscoveriesinphysiologyisthatoftheexistenceofadistinctcentreofinhibition,astherestraininginfluenceovertheheartiscalled。

  \"Thecentreofinhibitionplaysaterriblepartinthehistoryofcowardiceandofunsuccessfullove。Nomancanbebravewithoutbloodtosustainhiscourage,anymorethanhecanthink,astheGermanmaterialistsays,notabsurdly,withoutphosphorus。Thefaintinglovermustrecoverhiscirculation,orhisladywilllendhimhersmelling-saltsandtakeagallantwithbloodinhischeeks。

  PorphyrogotoverhisfaintnessbeforeheranawaywithMadeline,andCesarBirotteauwasanacceptedloverwhenheswoonedwithhappiness:

  butmanyanofficerhasbeencashiered,andmanyasuitorhasbeenrejected,becausethecentreofinhibitionhasgottheupperhandofthecentreofstimulation。

  \"Inthewell-knowncasesofdeadlyantipathywhichhavebeenrecorded,themostfrequentcausehasbeenthedisturbedanddepressinginfluenceofthecentreofinhibition。Faintingatthesightofbloodisoneofthecommonestexamplesofthisinfluence。A

  singleimpression,inaveryearlyperiodofatmosphericexistence,——

  perhaps,indirectly,beforethatperiod,aswassaidtohavehappenedinthecaseofJamestheFirstofEngland,——mayestablishacommunicationbetweenthiscentreandtheheartwhichwillremainopeneverafterwards。Howdoesafootpathacrossafieldestablishitself?Itscurvesarearbitrary,andwhatwecallaccidental,butoneafteranotherfollowsitasifhewereguidedbyachartonwhichitwaslaiddown。Soitiswiththisdangeroustransitbetweenthecentreofinhibitionandthegreatorganoflife。Ifoncethepathisopenedbythetrackofsomeprofoundimpression,thatsameimpression,ifrepeated,orasimilarone,islikelytofindtheoldfootmarksandfollowthem。Habitonlymakesthepatheasiertotraverse,andthustheunreasoningterrorofachild,ofaninfant,mayperpetuateitselfinatimiditywhichshamesthemanhoodofitssubject。

  \"Thecasebeforeusisanexceptionalandmostremarkableexampleoftheeffectofinhibitionontheheart。

  \"Wewillnotsaythatwebelieveittobeuniqueinthehistoryofthehumanrace;onthecontrary,wedonotdoubtthattherehavebeensimilarcases,andthatinsomerareinstancessuddendeathhasbeentheconsequenceofseizureslikethatofthesubjectofthisReport。

  ThecasemostlikeitisthatofColoneTownsend,whichistoowellknowntorequireanylengtheneddescriptioninthispaper。Itisenoughtorecallthemainfacts。Hecouldbyavoluntaryeffortsuspendtheactionofhisheartforaconsiderableperiod,duringwhichhelaylikeonedead,pulseless,andwithoutmotion。Afteratimethecirculationreturned,andhedoesnotseemtohavebeentheworseforhisdangerous,orseeminglydangerous,experiment。Butinhiscaseitwasbyanactofthewillthattheheart\'sactionwassuspended。Inthecasebeforeusitisaninvoluntaryimpulsetransmittedfromthebraintotheinhibitingcentre,whicharreststhecardiacmovements。

  \"Whatisliketobethefurtherhistoryofthecase?

  \"Thesubjectofthisanomalousafflictionisnowmorethantwentyyearsold。Thechainofnervousactionshasbecomefirmlyestablished。Itmighthavebeenhopedthatthechangesofadolescencewouldhaveeffectedatransformationofthepervertedinstinct。Onthecontrary,thewholeforceofthisinstinctthrowsitselfonthecentreofinhibition,insteadofquickeningtheheart-

  beats,andsendingtherushofyouthfulbloodwithfreshlifethroughtheentiresystemtothethrobbingfinger-tips。

  \"Isitprobablethattimeandcircumstanceswillalterahabitofnervousinteractionssolongestablished?Wearedisposedtothinkthatthereisachanceofitsbeingbrokenup。Andwearenotafraidtosaythatwesuspecttheoldgypsywoman,whoseprophecytooksuchholdofthepatient\'simagination,hashituponthewayinwhichthe\"spell,\'asshecalledit,istobedissolved。Shemust,inallprobability,havehadahintofthe\'antipatia\'towhichtheyouthbeforeherwasavictim,anditscause,andifso,herguessastotheprobablemodeinwhichtheyoungmanwouldobtainrelieffromhisunfortunateconditionwastheonewhichwouldnaturallysuggestitself。

  \"Ifoncethenervousimpressionwhichfallsonthecentreofinhibitioncanbemadetochangeitscourse,soastofollowitsnaturalchannel,itwillprobablykeeptothatchanneleverafterwards。Andthiswill,itismostlikely,beeffectedbysomesudden,unexpectedimpression。Ifheweredrowning,andayoungwomanshouldrescuehim,itisbynomeansimpossiblethatthechangeinthenervouscurrentwehavereferredtomightbebroughtaboutasrapidly,aseasily,asthereversalofthepolesinamagnet,whichiseffectedinaninstant。Buthecannotbeexpectedtothrowhimselfintothewaterjustattherightmomentwhenthe\'fairlady\'

  ofthegitana\'sprophecyispassingontheshore。Accidentmayeffectthecurewhichartseemsincompetenttoperform。Itwouldnotbestrangeifinsomefutureseizureheshouldnevercomebacktoconsciousness。Butitisquiteconceivable,ontheotherhand,thatahappiereventmayoccur,thatinasinglemomentthenervouspolaritymaybereversed,thewholecourseofhislifechanged,andhispastterribleexperiencesbetohimlikeascarce-remembereddream。

  \"Thisisone,ofthosecasesinwhichitisveryhardtodeterminethewisestcoursetobepursued。Thequestionisnotunlikethatwhicharisesincertaincasesofdislocationofthebonesoftheneck。Shalltheunfortunatesufferergoallhisdayswithhisfaceturnedfarroundtotherightortheleft,orshallanattemptbemadetoreplacethedislocatedbones?anattemptwhichmaysucceed,ormaycauseinstantdeath。Thepatientmustbeconsultedastowhetherhewilltakethechance。Thepractitionermaybeunwillingtoriskit,ifthepatientconsents。

  Eachcasemustbejudgedonitsownspecialgrounds。Wecannotthinkthatthisyoungmanisdoomedtoperpetualseparationfromthesocietyofwomanhoodduringtheperiodofitsbloomandattraction。Buttoprovokeanotherseizureafterhispastexperienceswouldbetoomuchlikecommittingsuicide。

  Wefearthatwemusttrusttothechapterofaccidents。Thestrangemalady——forsuchitis——hasbecomeasecondnature,andmayrequireasenergeticashocktodisplaceitasitdidtobringitintoexistence。Timealonecansolvethisquestion,onwhichdependsthewell-beingand,itmaybe,theexistenceofayoungmaneverywayfittedtobehappy,andtogivehappiness,ifrestoredtohistruenature。”

  XX。

  DR。BUTTSREFLECTS。

  Dr。Buttssatuplateatnightreadingthesepapersandreflectinguponthem。Hewasprofoundlyimpressedandtenderlyaffectedbytheentirefrankness,theabsenceofallattemptatconcealment,whichMauriceshowedinplacingthesepapersathisdisposal。Hebelievedthathispatientwouldrecoverfromthisillnessforwhichhehadbeentakingcareofhim。Hethoughtdeeplyandearnestlyofwhathecoulddoforhimafterheshouldhaveregainedhishealthandstrength。

  Therewerereferences,inMaurice\'sownaccountofhimself,whichthedoctorcalledtomindwithgreatinterestafterreadinghisbriefautobiography。Someoneperson——someyoungwoman,itmustbe——hadproducedasingularimpressionuponhimsincethoseearlierperilousexperiencesthroughwhichhehadpassed。ThedoctorcouldnothelpthinkingofthatmeetingwithEuthymiaofwhichshehadspokentohim。Maurice,asshesaid,turnedpale,——heclappedhishandtohisbreast。Hemighthavedonesoifbehadmetherchambermaid,oranystragglingdamselofthevillage。ButEuthymiawasnotayoungwomantobelookeduponwithindifference。Sheheldherselflikeaqueen,andwalkedlikeone,notastagequeen,butonebornandbredtoself-reliance,andcommandofherselfaswellasothers。Onecouldnotpassherwithoutbeingstruckwithhernoblebearingandspiritedfeatures。IfshehadknownhowMauricetrembledashelookeduponher,inthatconflictofattractionanduncontrollabledread,——ifshehadknownit!Butwhat,eventhen,couldshehavedone?Nothingbutgetawayfromhimasfastasshecould。Asitwas,itwasalongtimebeforehisagitationsubsided,andhisheartbeatwithitscommonforceandfrequency。

  Dr。Buttswasnotamalegossipnoramatchmakinggo-between。Buthecouldnothelpthinkingwhatapityitwasthatthesetwoyoungpersonscouldnotcometogetherasotheryoungpeopledointhepairingseason,andfindoutwhethertheycaredforandwerefittedforeachother。Hedidnotpretendtosettlethisquestioninhisownmind,butthethoughtwasanaturalone。AndherewasagulfbetweenthemasdeepandwideasthatbetweenLazarusandDives。

  Woulditeverbebridgedover?Thisthoughttookpossessionofthedoctor\'smind,andheimaginedallsortsofwaysofeffectingsomeexperimentalapproximationbetweenMauriceandEuthymia。Fromthisdelicatesubjectheglancedofftocertaingeneralconsiderationssuggestedbytheextraordinaryhistoryhehadbeenreading。Hebeganbyspeculatingastothepossibilityofthepersonalpresenceofanindividualmakingitselfperceivedbysomechannelotherthananyofthefivesenses。Thestudyofthenaturalsciencesteachesthosewhoaredevotedtothemthatthemostinsignificantfactsmayleadthewaytothediscoveryofthemostimportant,all-pervadinglawsoftheuniverse。Fromthekickofafrog\'shindlegtotheamazingtriumphswhichbeganwiththatseeminglytrivialincidentisalong,averylongstrideifMadamGalvanihadnotbeenindelicatehealth,whichwastheoccasionofherhavingsomefrog-brothpreparedforher,theworldofto-daymightnotbeinpossessionoftheelectrictelegraphandthelightwhichblazeslikethesunathighnoon。Acommon-

  lookingoccurrence,oneseeminglyunimportant,whichhadhithertopassedunnoticedwiththeordinarycourseofthings,wasthemeansofintroducingustoanewandvastrealmofcloselyrelatedphenomena。

  Itwaslikeakeythatwemighthavepickedup,lookingsosimplethatitcouldhardlyfitanylockbutoneoflikesimplicity,butwhichshouldallatoncethrowbacktheboltsoftheonelockwhichhaddefiedthemostingeniousofourcompleximplementsandopenourwayintoahithertounexploredterritory。

  ItcertainlywasnotthroughtheeyealonethatMauricefelttheparalyzinginfluence。HecouldcontemplateEuthymiafromadistance,ashedidonthedayoftheboat-race,withoutanynervousdisturbance。Acertainproximitywasnecessaryfortheinfluencetobefelt,asinthecaseofmagnetismandelectricity。Anatmosphereofdangersurroundedeverywomanheapproachedduringtheperiodwhenhersexexercisesitsmostpowerfulattractions。Howfardidthatatmosphereextend,andthroughwhatchanneldiditact?

  Thekeytothephenomenaofthiscase,hebelieved,wastobefoundinafactashumbleasthatwhichgavebirthtothescienceofgalvanismanditspracticalapplications。ThecircumstancesconnectedwiththeverycommonantipathytocatswereasremarkableinmanypointsofviewasthesimilarcircumstancesinthecaseofMauriceKirkwood。Thesubjectsofthatantipathycouldnottellwhatitwaswhichdisturbedtheirnervoussystem。Alltheyknewwasthatasenseofuneasiness,restlessness,oppression,cameovertheminthepresenceofoneoftheseanimals。Herememberedthefactalreadymentioned,thatpersonssensitivetothisimpressioncantellbytheirfeelingsifacatisconcealedintheapartmentinwhichtheymayhappentobe。Itmaybethroughsomeemanation。Itmaybethroughthemediumofsomeelectricaldisturbance。Whatifthenerve-thrillspassingthroughthewholesystemoftheanimalpropagatethemselvestoacertaindistancewithoutanymoreregardtointerveningsolidsthanisshownbymagnetism?Asieveletssandpassthroughit;afilterarrestssand,butletsfluidspass,glassholdsfluids,butletslightthrough;woodshutsoutlight,butmagneticattractiongoesthroughitassandwentthroughthesieve。

  Nogoodreasonscanbegivenwhythepresenceofacatshouldnotbetrayitselftocertainorganizations,atadistance,throughthewallsofaboxinwhichtheanimalisshutup。Weneednotdisbelievethestorieswhichallegesuchanoccurrenceasafactandanotveryinfrequentone。

  Ifthepresenceofacatcanproduceitseffectsunderthesecircumstances,whyshouldnotthatofahumanbeingundersimilarconditions,actingoncertainconstitutions,exerciseitsspecificinfluence?Thedoctorrecalledastorytoldhimbyoneofhisfriends,astorywhichthefriendhimselfheardfromthelipsofthedistinguishedactor,thelateMr。Fechter。TheactormaintainedthatRachelhadnogeniusasanactress。ItwasallSamson\'strainingandstudy,accordingtohim,whichexplainedthesecretofherwonderfuleffectivenessonthestage。Butmagnetism,hesaid,——magnetism,shewasfullof。Hedeclaredthathewasmadeawareofherpresenceonthestage,whenhecouldnotseeherorknowofherpresenceotherwise,bythismagneticemanation。Thedoctortookthestoryforwhatitwasworth。Theremightveryprobablybeexaggeration,perhapshighimaginativecoloringaboutit,butitwasnotawhitmoreunlikelythanthecat-stories,acceptedasauthentic。Hecontinuedthistrainofthoughtintofurtherdevelopments。Intothisseriesofreflectionswewilltrytofollowhim。

  Whatisthemeaningofthehalowithwhichartistshavesurroundedtheheadsoftheirpicturedsaints,oftheaureoleswhichwrapsthemlikealuminouscloud?Isitnotarecognitionofthefactthattheseholypersonagesdiffusetheirpersonalityintheformofavisibleemanation,whichremindsusofMilton\'sdefinitionoflight:

  \"Brighteffluenceofbrightessenceincreate\"?

  Thecommonuseoftheterminfluencewouldseemtoimplytheexistenceofitscorrelative,effluence。ThereisnogoodreasonthatIcansee,thedoctorsaidtohimself,whyamongtheforceswhichworkuponthenervouscentresthereshouldnotbeonewhichactsatvariousdistancesfromitssource。Itmaynotbevisiblelikethe\"glory\"ofthepainters,itmaynotbeappreciablebyanyoneofthefivesenses,andyetitmaybefeltbythepersonreachedbyitasmuchasifitwereapalpablepresence,——morepowerfully,perhaps,fromthemysterywhichbelongstoitsmodeofaction。

  WhyshouldnotMauricehavebeenrenderedrestlessandanxiousbytheunseennearnessofayoungwomanwhowasinthenextroomtohim,justasthepersonswhohavethedreadofcatsaremadeconsciousoftheirpresencethroughsomeunknownchannel?Isitanythingstrangethatthelargerandmorepowerfulorganismshoulddiffuseaconsciousnessofitspresencetosomedistanceaswellastheslighterandfeeblerone?Isitstrangethatthismysteriousinfluenceoreffluenceshouldbelongespeciallyorexclusivelytotheperiodofcompletewomanhoodindistinctionfromthatofimmaturityordecadence?Onthecontrary,itseemstobeinaccordancewithalltheanalogiesofnature,——analogiestoooftencruelinthesentencetheypassuponthehumanfemale。

  Amongthemanycuriousthoughtswhichcameupinthedoctor\'smindwasthis,whichmadehimsmileasifitwereajest,butwhichhefeltverystronglyhaditsseriousside,andwasinvolvedwiththehappinessorsufferingofmultitudesofyouthfulpersonswhodiewithouttellingtheirsecret:

  Howmanyyoungmenhaveamortalfearofwoman,aswoman,whichtheyneverovercome,andinconsequenceofwhichtheattractionwhichdrawsmantowardsher,asstronginthemasinothers,——oftentimes,invirtueoftheirpeculiarlysensitiveorganizations,morepotentinthemthaninothersoflikeageandconditions,——inconsequenceofwhichfear,thisattractioniscompletelyneutralized,andallthepossibilitiesofdoubledandindefinitelyextendedlifedependinguponitareleftunrealized!ThinkwhatnumbersofyoungmeninCatholiccountriesdevotethemselvestolivesofcelibacy。Thinkhowmanyyoungmenlosealltheirconfidenceinthepresenceoftheyoungwomantowhomtheyaremostattracted,andatlaststealawayfromacompanionshipwhichitisrapturetodreamofandtorturetoendure,sodoesthepresenceofthebelovedobjectparalyzeallthepowersofexpression。Sorcerershaveinalltimeandcountriesplayedonthehopesandterrorsoflovers。Onceletlooseastrongimpulseonthecentreofinhibition,andthewarriorwhohadfacedbayonetsandbatteriesbecomesacowardwhomthewell-dressedherooftheball-

  roomandleaderoftheGermanwillputtoignominiousflightinfiveminutesofeasy,audaciousfamiliaritywithhislady-love。

  Yes,thedoctorwentonwithhisreflections,IdonotknowthatI

  haveseenthetermGynophobiabeforeIopenedthismanuscript,butI

  haveseenthemaladymanytimes。Onlyonewordhasstoodbetweenmanyapairofyoungpeopleandtheirlifelonghappiness,andthatwordhasgotasfarasthelips,butthelipstrembledandwouldnot,couldnot,shapethatlittleword。AllyoungwomenarenotlikeColeridge\'sGenevieve,whoknewhowtohelpherloveroutofhisdifficulty,andsaidyesbeforehehadaskedforananswer。SothewavewhichwastohavewaftedthemontotheshoreofElysiumhasjustfailedoflandingthem,andbacktheyhavebeendrawnintothedesolateoceantomeetnomoreonearth。

  Loveisthemaster-key,hewentonthinking,loveisthemaster-keythatopensthegatesofhappiness,ofhatred,ofjealousy,and,mosteasilyofall,thegateoffear。Howterribleistheonefactofbeauty!——notonlythehistoricwonderofbeauty,that\"burntthetoplesstowersofIlium\"forthesmileofHelen,andfiredthepalacesofBabylonbythehandofThais,butthebeautywhichspringsupinalltimesandplaces,andcarriesatorchandwearsaserpentforawreathastrulyasanyoftheEumenides。PaintBeautywithherfootuponaskullandadragoncoiledaroundher。

  Thedoctorsmiledathisownimposingclassicalallusionsandpictorialimagery。Driftingalongfromthoughttothought,hereflectedontheprobableconsequencesofthegeneralknowledgeofMauriceKirkwood\'sstory,ifitcamebeforethepublic。

  Whatapieceofworkitwouldmakeamongthelivelyyouthsofthevillage,tobesure!Whatscoffing,whatridicule,whatembellishments,whatfables,wouldfollowinthetrailofthestory!

  IftheInterviewergotholdofit,how\"ThePeople\'sPerennialandHouseholdInquisitor\"wouldblazewithcapitalsinitsnextissue!

  Theyoungfellows\'oftheplacewouldbedisposedtomakefunofthewholematter。Theyounggirls-thedoctorhardlydaredtothinkwhatwouldhappenwhenthestorygotaboutamongthem。\"TheSachem\"ofthesolitarycanoe,theboldhorseman,thehandsomehermit,——handsomesofarastheglimpsestheyhadgotofhimwent,——mustneedsbeanobjectoftenderinterestamongthem,nowthathewasailing,suffering,indangerofhislife,awayfromfriends,——poorfellow!

  Littletokensoftheirregardhadreachedhissick-chamber;bunchesofflowerswithdaintylittlenotes,someofthempinkish,somethree-cornered,someofthemwithbriefmessages,others\"criss-

  crossed,\"weregrowingmorefrequentasitwasunderstoodthatthepatientwaslikelytobeconvalescentbeforemanydayshadpassed。

  Ifitshouldcometobeunderstoodthattherewasadeadlyobstacletotheircomingintoanypersonalrelationswithhim,thedoctorhadhisdoubtswhethertherewerenotthosewhowouldsubjecthimtotherisk;fortherewerecoquettesinthevillage,——strangers,visitors,letushope,——whowouldsacrificeanythingoranybodytotheirvanityandloveofconquest。

  XXI

  ANINTIMATECONVERSATION。

  TheillnessfromwhichMauricehadsufferedlefthiminastateofprofoundprostration。Thedoctor,whorememberedtheextremedangerofanyoverexertioninsuchcases,hardlyallowedhimtolifthisheadfromthepillow。Buthismindwasgraduallyrecoveringitsbalance,andhewasabletoholdsomeconversationwiththoseabouthim。HisfaithfulPaolohadgrownsothininwaitinguponhimandwatchingwithhimthatthevillagechildrenhadtotakeasecondlookathisfacewhentheypassedhimtomakesurethatitwasindeedtheiroldfriendandnoother。Butashismasteradvancedtowardsconvalescenceandthedoctorassuredhimthathewasgoinginallprobabilitytogetwell,Paolo\'sfacebegantorecoversomethingofitsoldlookandexpression,andoncemorehispocketsfilledthemselveswithcomfitsforhislittlecircleofworshippingthreeandfouryearoldfollowers。

  HowisMr。Kirkwood?\"wasthequestionwithwhichhewasalwaysgreeted。Intheworstperiodsofthefeverberarelylefthismaster。Whenhedid,andthequestionwasputtohim,hewouldshakehisheadsadly,sometimeswithoutaword,sometimeswithtearsandsobsandfalteringwords,——morelikeabrokenheartedchildthanastalwartmanashewas,suchamanassoldiersaremadeofinthegreatContinentalarmies。

  \"Heverybad,——henoeatnothing,——he——nosaynothing,——heneverbenobetter,\"andallhisSouthernnaturebetrayeditselfinapassionateburstoflamentation。Butnowthathebegantofeeleasyabouthismaster,hisreadyoptimismdeclareditselfnolesstransparently。

  \"Hebettereverydaynow。Hegetwellinfewweeks,sure。Youseehimonhossinlittlewhile。”Thekind-heartedcreature\'slifewasboundupinthatofhis\"master,\"ashelovedtocallhim,insovereigndisregardofthecommentsofthenatives,whoheldthemselvestoohighforanysuchrecognitionofanotherastheirbetter。Theycouldnotunderstandhowhe,somuchtheirsuperiorinbodilypresence,inairandmanner,couldspeakofthemanwhoemployedhiminanyotherwaythanas\"Kirkwood,\"withoutevendemeaninghimselfsofarastoprefixa\"Mr。”toit。But\"mymaster\"MauriceremainedforPaoloinspiteofthefactthatallmenarebornfreeandequal。AndneverwasaservantmoredevotedtoamasterthanwasPaolotoMauriceduringthedaysofdoubtanddanger。

  SincehisimprovementMauriceinsisteduponhisleavinghischamberandgettingoutofthehouse,soastobreathethefreshairofwhichhewasinsomuchneed。Itworriedhimtoseehisservantreturningaftertooshortanabsence。Theattendantwhohadhelpedhiminthecareofthepatientwaswithincall,andPaolowasalmostdrivenoutofthehousebytheurgencyofhismaster\'scommandthatheshouldtakeplentyofexerciseintheopenair。

  NotwithstandingthefactofMaurice\'simprovedcondition,althoughtheforceofthediseasehadspentitself,thestateofweaknesstowhichhehadbeenreducedwasacauseofsomeanxiety,andrequiredgreatprecautionstobetaken。Helayinbed,wasted,enfeebledtosuchadegreethathehadtobecaredforverymuchasachildistended。Graduallyhisvoicewascomingbacktohim,sothathecouldholdsomeconversation,aswasbeforementioned,withthoseabouthim。ThedoctorwaitedfortherightmomenttomakementionofthemanuscriptwhichMauricehadsubmittedtohim。Uptothistime,althoughithadbeenalludedtoandthedoctorhadtoldhimoftheintenseinterestwithwhichhehadreadit,hehadneverventuredtomakeitthesubjectofanylongtalk,suchaswouldbeliabletofatiguehispatient。Butnowhethoughtthetimehadcome。

  \"Ihavebeenthinking,\"thedoctorsaid,\"ofthesingularseizurestowhichyouareliable,andasitismybusinessnotmerelytothinkaboutsuchcases,buttodowhatIcantohelpanywhomaybecapableofreceivingaidfrommyart,Iwishtohavesomeadditionalfactsaboutyourhistory。Andinthefirstplace,willyouallowmetoaskwhatledyoutothisparticularplace?Itissomuchlessknowntothepublicatlargethanmanyotherresortsthatwenaturallyask,Whatbringsthisorthatnewvisitoramongus?Wehavenoill-

  tasting,naturalspringofbadwatertobeanalyzedbythestatechemistandproclaimedasaspecific。Wehavenogreatgambling-

  houses,noracecourseexceptthatfoxboatsonthelake;wehavenocoaching-club,nogreatballs,fewlionsofanykind,soweask,Whatbringsthisorthatstrangerhere?AndIthinkImayventuretoaskyouwhetherany,specialmotivebroughtyouamongus,orwhetheritwasaccidentthatdeterminedyourcomingtothisplace。”

  \"Certainly,doctor,\"Mauriceanswered,\"Iwilltellyouwithgreatpleasure。LastyearIpassedontheborderofagreatriver。TheyearbeforeIlivedinalonelycottageatthesideoftheocean。I

  wantedthisyeartobebyalake。Youheardthepaperreadatthemeetingofyoursociety,oratleastyouheardofit,——forsuchmattersarealwaystalkedoverinavillagelikethis。Youcanjudgebythatpaper,orcould,ifitwerebeforeyou,oftheframeofmindinwhichIcamehere。Iwastiredofthesullenindifferenceoftheoceanandthebabblingegotismoftheriver,alwayshurryingalongonitsownprivatebusiness。Iwantedthedreamystillnessofalarge,tranquilsheetofwaterthathadnothinginparticulartodo,andwouldleavemetomyselfandmythoughts。Ihadreadsomewhereabouttheplace,andtheoldAnchorTavern,withitspaternallandlordandmotherlylandladyandold-fashionedhousehold,andthat,thoughitwasnolongeropenasatavern,Icouldfindaresting-placethereearlyintheseason,atleastforafewdays,whileIlookedaboutmeforaquietplaceinwhichImightpassmysummer。Ihavefoundthisapleasantresidence。BybeingupearlyandoutlateIhavekeptmyselfmainlyinthesolitudewhichhasbecomemyenforcedhabitoflife。Theseasonhasgonebytooswiftlyformesincemydreamhasbecomeavision。”

  ThedoctorwassittingwithhishandroundMaurice\'swrist,threefingersonhispulse。Ashespoketheselastwordshenoticedthatthepulseflutteredalittle,——beatirregularlyafewtimes;

  intermitted;becamefeebleandthready;whilehischeekgrewwhiterthanthepallidbloodlessnessofhislongillnesshadleftit。

  \"Nomoretalk,now,\"hesaid。\"Youaretootiredtobeusingyourvoice。Iwillhearalltherestanothertime。”

  ThedoctorhadinterruptedMauriceataninterestingpoint。Whatdidhemeanbysayingthathisdreamhadbecomeavision?Thisiswhatthedoctorwasnaturallycurious,andprofessionallyanxious,toknow。Buthishandwasstillonhispatient\'spulse,whichtoldhimunmistakablythatthehearthadtakenthealarmandwaslosingitsenergyunderthedepressingnervousinfluence。Presently,however,itrecovereditsnaturalforceandrhythm,andafaintflushcamebacktothepalecheek。ThedoctorrememberedthestoryofGalen,andtheyoungmaidenwhosecomplainthadpuzzledthephysicians。

  Thenextdayhispatientwaswellenoughtoenteroncemoreintoconversation。

  \"Yousaidsomethingaboutadreamofyourswhichhadbecomeavision,\"saidthedoctor,withhisfingersonhispatient\'swrist,asbefore。Hefeltthearteryleap,underhispressure,falteralittle,stop,thenbeginagain,growingfullerinitsbeat。Thehearthadfeltthepullofthebridle,butthespurhadrousedittoswiftreaction。

  \"Youknowthestoryofmypastlife,doctor,\"Mauriceanswered;\"and,Iwilltellyouwhatisthevisionwhichhastakentheplaceofmydreams。Youremembertheboat-race?Iwatcheditfromadistance,butIheldapowerfulopera-glassinmyhand,whichbroughtthewholecrewoftheyoungladies\'boatsoclosetomethatIcouldseethefeatures,thefigures,themovements,ofeveryoneoftherowers。I

  sawthelittlecoxswainflingherbouquetinthetrackoftheotherboat,——yourememberhowtheracewaslostandwon,——butIsawonefaceamongthoseyounggirlswhichdrewmeawayfromalltherest。

  Itwasthatoftheyoungladywhopulledthebowoar,thecaptainoftheboat\'screw。Ihavesincelearnedhername,youknowitwell,——I

  neednotnameher。SincethatdayIhavehadmanydistantglimpsesofher;andonceImethersosquarelythatthedeadlysensationcameoverme,andIfeltthatinanothermomentIshouldfallsenselessatherfeet。ButshepassedonherwayandIonmine,andthespasmwhichhadclutchedmyheartgraduallyleftit,andIwasaswellasbefore。Youknowthatyounglady,doctor?\"

  \"Ido;andsheisaverynoblecreature。Youarenotthefirstyoungmanwhohasbeenfascinated,almostataglance,byMissEuthymiaTower。Andsheiswellworthknowingmoreintimately。”

  Thedoctorgavehimafullaccountoftheyounglady,ofherearlydays,hercharacter,heraccomplishments。Toallthishelisteneddevoutly,andwhenthedoctorlefthimhesaidtohimself,\"Iwillseeherandspeakwithher,ifitcostsmemylife。”

  XXII

  EUTHYMIA。

  \"TheWonder\"oftheCorinnaInstitutehadneverwillinglymadeashowofhergymnasticaccomplishments。Herfeats,whichweresomuchadmired,wereonlyhernaturalexercise。Graduallythedumb-bellsothersusedbecametoolightforher,theropessheclimbedtooshort,theclubssheexercisedwithseemedasiftheyweremadeofcorkinsteadofbeingheavywood,andallthetestsandmetersofstrengthandagilityhadbeenstrainedbeyondthestandardswhichtherecordsoftheschoolhadmarkedastheirhistoricmaxima。Itwasnotherfaultthatshebrokeadynamometeroneday;sheapologizedforit,buttheteachersaidhewishedhecouldhaveadozenbrokeneveryyearinthesameway。Theconsciousnessofherbodilystrengthhadmadeherverycarefulinhermovements。Thepressureofherhandwasnevertoohardforthetenderestlittlemaidenwhosepalmwasagainstherown。Sofarfrompridingherselfonherspecialgifts,shewasdisposedtobeashamedofthem。Thereweretimesandplacesinwhichshecouldgivefullplaytohermuscleswithoutfearorreproach。Shehadherspecialcostumefortheboatandforthewoods。Shewouldclimbtheruggedoldhemlocksnowandthenforthesakeofawideoutlook,ortopeepintothelargenestwhereahawk,oritmaybeaneagle,wasraisingherlittlebroodofair-pirates。

  Therewerethosewhospokeofherwanderingsinlonelyplacesasanunsafeexposure。Onesometimesmetdoubtfulcharactersabouttheneighborhood,andstorieswere——toldofoccurrenceswhichmightwellfrightenayounggirl,andmakehercautiousoftrustingherselfaloneinthewildsolitudeswhichsurroundedthelittlevillage……

  ThosewhoknewEuthymiathoughtherquiteequaltotakingcareofherself。Herverylookwasenoughtoensuretherespectofanyvagabondwhomightcrossherpath,andifmatterscametotheworstshewouldproveasdangerousasapanther。

  Butitwasapitytoassociatethisclassofthoughtswithanoblespecimenoftruewomanhood。Health,beauty,strength,werefinequalities,andinalltheseshewasrich。Sheenjoyedallhernaturalgifts,andthoughtlittleaboutthem。Unwillingly,butover-

  persuadedbysomeofherfriends,shehadallowedherarmandhandtobemodelled。Theartistswhosawthecastwonderedifitwouldbepossibletogetthebustofthemaidenfromwhomitwastaken。

  NobodywouldhavedaredtosuggestsuchanideatoherexceptLurida。

  ForLuridasexwasatriflingaccident,tobedisregardednotonlyintheinterestsofhumanity,butforthesakeofart。

  \"Itisashame,\"shesaidtoEuthymia,\"thatyouwillnotletyourexquisitelymouldedformbeperpetuatedinmarble。Youhavenorighttowithholdsuchamodelfromthecontemplationofyourfellow-

  creatures。Thinkhowrareitistoseeawomanwhotrulyrepresentsthedivineidea!Youbelongtoyourrace,andnottoyourself,——atleast,yourbeautyisagiftnottobeconsideredasapieceofprivateproperty。Lookattheso-calledVenusofMilo。Doyousupposethenoblewomanwhowastheoriginalofthatdivinelychastestatuefeltanyscrupleaboutallowingthesculptortoreproduceherpure,unblemishedperfections?\"

  Euthymiawasalwayspatientwithherimaginativefriend。Shelistenedtohereloquentdiscourse,butshecouldnothelpblushing,usedasshewastoLurida\'saudacities。\"TheTerror\'s\"brainhadrunawaywithalargeshareofthebloodwhichoughttohavegonetothenourishmentofhergeneralsystem。Shecouldnothelpadmiring,almostworshipping,acompanionwhosebeingwasrichinthewomanlydevelopmentswithwhichnaturehadsoeconomicallyendowedherself。

  Animpoverishedorganizationcarrieswithitcertainneutralqualitieswhichmakeitssubjectappear,inthepresenceofcompletemanhoodandwomanhood,likeadeaf-muteamongspeakingpersons。ThedeepblushwhichcrimsonedEuthymia\'scheekatLurida\'ssuggestionwasinastrangecontrasttoherownundisturbedexpression。TherewasarangeofsensibilitiesofwhichLuridaknewfarlessthanshedidofthosemanyanddifficultstudieswhichhadabsorbedhervitalforces。Shewasstartledtoseewhataneffectherproposalhadproduced,forEuthymiawasnotonlyblushing,buttherewasaflameinhereyeswhichshehadhardlyeverseenbefore。

  \"Isthisonlyyourownsuggestion?\"Euthymiasaid,\"orhassomeonebeenputtingtheideaintoyourhead?\"ThetruthwasthatshehadhappenedtomeettheInterviewerattheLibrary,oneday,andshewasoffendedbythelong,searchingstarewithwhichthatindividualhadhonoredher。Itoccurredtoherthathe,orsomesuchvisitortotheplace,mighthavespokenofhertoLurida,ortosomeotherpersonwhohadrepeatedwhatwassaidtoLurida,asagoodsubjectfortheartofthesculptor,andshefeltallhermaidensensibilitiesoffendedbytheproposition。Luridacouldnotunderstandherexcitement,butshewasstartledbyit。Natureswhicharecomplementaryofeachotherareliabletotheseaccidentalcollisionsoffeeling。Theygetalongverywelltogether,nonetheworsefortheirdifferences,untilallatoncethetenderspotofoneortheotheriscarelesslyhandledinutterunconsciousnessonthepartoftheaggressor,andtheexclamation,theoutcry,ortheexplosionexplainsthesituationaltogethertooemphatically。Suchscenesdidnotfrequentlyoccurbetweenthetwofriends,andthislittleflurrywassoonover;butitservedtowarnLuridathatMissEuthymiaTowerwasnotofthatclassofself-consciousbeautieswhowouldbereadytodisputetheempireoftheVenusofMiloonherownground,indefencesasscantyandinsufficientasthoseofthemarbledivinity。

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