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  ”Doyoustillthinkthatinanycaseshecan’thaveanother?””Onecan’tbeabsolutelysure,butit’smostunlikely。””She’sstrong,”saidSoames;”we’lltaketherisk。”Thedoctorlookedathimverygravely。”It’sonyourshoulders,”

  hesaid;”withmyownwife,Icouldn’t。”

  Soames’chinjerkedupasifsomeonehadhithim。”AmIofanyuseupthere?”heasked。”No;keepaway。””Ishallbeinmypicture-gallery,then;youknowwhere。”

  Thedoctornodded,andwentupstairs。

  Soamescontinuedtostand,listening。’Bythistimeto-morrow,’hethought,’Imayhaveherdeathonmyhands。’No!itwasunfair——

  monstrous,toputitthatway!Sullennessdroppedonhimagain,andhewentuptothegallery。Hestoodatthewindow。Thewindwasinthenorth;itwascold,clear;verybluesky,heavyraggedwhitecloudschasingacross;theriverblue,too,throughthescreenofgoldeningtrees;thewoodsallrichwithcolour,glowing,burnished-anearlyautumn。Ifitwerehisownlife,wouldhebetakingthatrisk?’Butshe’dtaketheriskoflosingme,’hethought,’soonerthanloseherchild!Shedoesn’treallyloveme!’

  Whatcouldoneexpect——agirlandFrench?Theonethingreallyvitaltothemboth,vitaltotheirmarriageandtheirfutures,wasachild!’I’vebeenthroughalotforthis,’hethought,’I’llholdon——holdon。There’sachanceofkeepingboth——achance!’

  Onekepttillthingsweretaken——onenaturallykept!Hebeganwalkingroundthegallery。Hehadmadeonepurchaselatelywhichheknewwasafortuneinitself,andhehaltedbeforeit——agirlwithdullgoldhairwhichlookedlikefilamentsofmetalgazingatalittlegoldenmonstershewasholdinginherhand。Evenatthistorturedmomenthecouldjustfeeltheextraordinarynatureofthebargainhehadmade——admirethequalityofthetable,thefloor,thechair,thegirl’sfigure,theabsorbedexpressiononherface,thedullgoldfilamentsofherhair,thebrightgoldofthelittlemonster。Collectingpictures;growingricher,richer!Whatuse,if……!Heturnedhisbackabruptlyonthepicture,andwenttothewindow。Someofhisdoveshadflownupfromtheirperchesroundthedovecot,andwerestretchingtheirwingsinthewind。Intheclearsharpsunlighttheirwhitenessalmostflashed。Theyflewfar,makingaflung-uphieroglyphicagainstthesky。Annettefedthedoves;itwasprettytoseeher。Theytookitoutofherhand;

  theyknewshewasmatter-of-fact。Achokingsensationcameintohisthroat。Shewouldnot——couldnoddie!Shewastoo——toosensible;andshewasstrong,reallystrong,likehermother,inspiteofherfairprettinessItwasalreadygrowingdarkwhenatlastheopenedthedoor,andstoodlistening。Notasound!Amilkytwilightcreptaboutthestairwayandthelandingsbelow。Hehadturnedbackwhenasoundcaughthisear。Peeringdown,hesawablackshapemoving,andhisheartstoodstill。Whatwasit?Death?TheshapeofDeathcomingfromherdoor?No!onlyamaidwithoutcaporapron。Shecametothefootofhisflightofstairsandsaidbreathlessly:”Thedoctorwantstoseeyou,sir。”

  Herandown。Shestoodflatagainstthewalltolethimpass,andsaid:”Oh,Sir!it’sover。””Over?”saidSoames,withasortofmenace;”whatd’youmean?””It’sborn,sir。”

  Hedashedupthefourstepsinfrontofhim,andcamesuddenlyonthedoctorinthedimpassage。Themanwaswipinghisbrow。”Well?”hesaid;”quick!””Bothliving;it’sallright,Ithink。”

  Soamesstoodquitestill,coveringhiseyes。”Icongratulateyou,”heheardthedoctorsay;”itwastouchandgo。”

  Soamesletfallthehandwhichwascoveringhisface。”Thanks,”hesaid;”thanksverymuch。Whatisit?””Daughter——luckily;asonwouldhavekilledher——thehead。”

  Adaughter!”Theutmostcareofboth,”heheartsthedoctorsay,”andweshalldo。Whendoesthemothercome?””To-night,betweennineandten,Ihope。””I’llstaytillthen。Doyouwanttoseethem?””Notnow,”saidSoames;”beforeyougo。I’llhavedinnersentuptoyou。”Andhewentdownstairs。

  Reliefunspeakable,andyet——adaughter!Itseemedtohimunfair。

  Tohavetakenthatrisk——tohavebeenthroughthisagony——andwhatagony!——foradaughter!Hestoodbeforetheblazingfireofwoodlogsinthehall,touchingitwithhistoeandtryingtoreadjusthimself。’Myfather!’hethought。Abitterdisappointment,nodisguisingit!Onenevergotallonewantedinthislife!Andtherewasnoother——atleast,iftherewas,itwasnouse!

  Whilehewasstandingthere,atelegramwasbroughthim。”Comeupatonce,yourfathersinkingfast——

  MOTHER。”

  Hereaditwithachokingsensation。Onewouldhavethoughthecouldn’tfeelanythingaftertheselasthours,buthefeltthis。

  Half-pastseven,atrainfromReadingatnine,andmadame’strain,ifshehadcaughtit,cameinateight-forty——hewouldmeetthat,andgoon。Heorderedthecarriage,atesomedinnermechanically,andwentupstairs。Thedoctorcameouttohim。”They’resleeping。””Iwon’tgoin,”saidSoameswithrelief。”Myfather’sdying;I

  haveto——goup。Isitallright?”

  Thedoctor’sfaceexpressedakindofdoubtingadmiration。’Iftheywereallasunemotional’hemighthavebeensaying。”Yes,Ithinkyoumaygowithaneasymind。You’llbedownsoon?””To-morrow,”saidSoames。”Here’stheaddress。”

  Thedoctorseemedtohoveronthevergeofsympathy。”Good-night!”saidSoamesabruptly,andturnedaway。Heputonhisfurcoat。Death!Itwasachillybusiness。Hesmokedacigaretteinthecarriage——oneofhisrarecigarettes。Thenightwaswindyandflewonblackwings;thecarriagelightshadtosearchouttheway。Hisfather!Thatold,oldman!Acomfortlessnight——todie!

  TheLondontraincameinjustashereachedthestation,andMadameLamotte,substantial,dark-clothed,veryyellowinthelamplight,cametowardstheexitwithadressing-bag。”Thisallyouhave?”askedSoames。”Butyes;Ihadnotthetime。Howismylittleone?””Doingwell——both。Agirl!””Agirl!Whatjoy!Ihadafrightfulcrossing!”

  Herblackbulk,solid,unreducedbythefrightfulcrossing,climbedintothebrougham。”Andyou,moncher?””Myfather’sdying,”saidSoamesbetweenhisteeth。”I’mgoingup。

  GivemylovetoAnnette。””Tiens!”murmuredMadameLamotte;”quelmalheur!”

  Soamestookhishatoff,andmovedtowardshistrain。’TheFrench!’hethought。

  CHAPTERXIII

  JAMESISTOLD

  Asimplecold,caughtintheroomwithdoublewindows,wheretheairandthepeoplewhosawhimwerefiltered,asitwere,theroomhehadnotleftsincethemiddleofSeptember——andJameswasindeepwaters。Alittlecold,passinghislittlestrengthandflyingquicklytohislungs。”Hemustn’tcatchcold,”thedoctorhaddeclared,andhehadgoneandcaughtit。Whenhefirstfeltitinhisthroathehadsaidtohisnurse——forhehadonenow——”There,I

  knewhowitwouldbe,airingtheroomlikethat!”Forawholedayhewashighlynervousabouthimselfandwentinadvanceofallprecautionsandremedies;drawingeverybreathwithextremecareandhavinghistemperaturetakeneveryhour。Emilywasnotalarmed。

  Butnextmorningwhenshewentinthenursewhispered:”Hewon’thavehistemperaturetaken。”

  Emilycrossedtothesideofthebedwherehewaslying,andsaidsoftly,”Howdoyoufeel,James?”holdingthethermometertohislips。Jameslookedupather。”What’sthegoodofthat?”hemurmuredhuskily;”Idon’twanttoknow。”

  Thenshewasalarmed。Hebreathedwithdifficulty,helookedterriblyfrail,white,withfaintreddiscolorations。Shehad’hadtrouble’withhim,Goodnessknew;buthewasJames,hadbeenJamesfornearlyfiftyyears;shecouldn’trememberorimaginelifewithoutJames——James,behindallhisfussiness,hispessimism,hiscrustyshell,deeplyaffectionate,reallykindandgeneroustothemall!

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