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  andlatelythethoughthadcometohimthatperhapsIreneknewshewasbeingshadowed:Itwasthiswhichfinallydecidedhimtogoandseeforhimself;togoandoncemoretrytobreakdownherrepugnance,herrefusaltomakeherownandhispathcomparativelysmoothoncemore。Ifhefailedagain——well,hewouldseewhatshedidwithherself,anyway!

  HewenttoanhotelintheRueCaumartin,highlyrecommendedtoForsytes,wherepracticallynobodyspokeFrench。Hehadformednoplan。Hedidnotwanttostartleher;yetmustcontrivethatshehadnochancetoevadehimbyflight。Andnextmorninghesetoutinbrightweather。

  Parishadanairofgaiety,asparkleoveritsstar-shapewhichalmostannoyedSoames。Hesteppedgravely,hisnoseliftedalittlesidewaysinrealcuriosity。HedesirednowtounderstandthingsFrench。WasnotAnnetteFrench?Therewasmuchtobegotoutofhisvisit,ifhecouldonlygetit。InthislaudablemoodandthePlacedelaConcordehewasnearlyrundownthreetimes。

  Hecameonthe’CourslaReine,’whereIrene’shotelwassituated,almosttoosuddenly,forhehadnotyetfixedonhisprocedure。

  Crossingovertotheriverside,henotedthebuilding,whiteandcheerful-looking,withgreensunblinds,seenthroughascreenofplane-treeleaves。And,consciousthatitwouldbefarbettertomeethercasuallyinsomeopenplacethantoriskacall,hesatdownonabenchwhencehecouldwatchtheentrance。Itwasnotquiteeleveno’clock,andimprobablethatshehadyetgoneout。

  Somepigeonswerestruttingandpreeningtheirfeathersinthepoolsofsunlightbetweentheshadowsoftheplane-trees。A

  workmaninablueblousepassed,andthrewthemcrumbsfromthepaperwhichcontainedhisdinner。A’bonne’coiffedwithribbonshepherdedtwolittlegirlswithpig-tailsandfrilleddrawers。A

  cabmeanderedby,whosecocherworeabluecoatandablack-glazedhat。ToSoamesakindofaffectationseemedtoclingaboutitall,asortofpicturesquenesswhichwasoutofdate。Atheatricalpeople,theFrench!Helitoneofhisrarecigarettes,withasenseofinjurythatFateshouldbecastinghislifeintoout-

  landishwaters。Heshouldn’twonderifIrenequiteenjoyedthisforeignlife;shehadneverbeenproperlyEnglish——eventolookat!

  Andhebeganconsideringwhichofthosewindowscouldbehersunderthegreensunblinds。Howcouldhewordwhathehadcometosaysothatitmightpiercethedefenceofherproudobstinacy?Hethrewthefag-endofhiscigaretteatapigeon,withthethought:’I

  can’tstayhereforevertwiddlingmythumbs。Bettergiveitupandcallonherinthelateafternoon。’Buthestillsaton,heardtwelvestrike,andthenhalf-past。’I’llwaittillone,’hethought,’whileI’maboutit。’Butjustthenhestartedup,andshrinkinglysatdownagain。Awomanhadcomeoutinacream-

  colouredfrock,andwasmovingawayunderafawn-colouredparasol。

  Ireneherself!Hewaitedtillshewastoofarawaytorecognisehim,thensetoutafterher。Shewasstrollingasthoughshehadnoparticularobjective;moving,ifherememberedrightly,towardtheBoisdeBoulogne。ForhalfanhouratleasthekepthisdistanceonthefarsideofthewaytillshehadpassedintotheBoisitself。Wasshegoingtomeetsomeoneafterall?SomeconfoundedFrenchman——oneofthose’BelAmi’chaps,perhaps,whohadnothingtodobuthangaboutwomen——forhehadreadthatbookwithdifficultyandasortofdisgustedfascination。Hefolloweddoggedlyalongashadyalley,losingsightofhernowandthenwhenthepathcurved。Anditcamebacktohimhow,longago,onenightinHydeParkhehadslidandsneakedfromtreetotree,fromseattoseat,huntingblindly,ridiculously,inburningjealousyforherandyoungBosinney。Thepathbentsharply,and,hurrying,hecameonhersittinginfrontofasmallfountain——alittlegreen-bronzeNiobeveiledinhairtoherslenderhips,gazingatthepoolshehadwept:Hecameonhersosuddenlythathewaspastbeforehecouldturnandtakeoffhishat。Shedidnotstartup。Shehadalwayshadgreatself-command——itwasoneofthethingshemostadmiredinher,oneofhisgreatestgrievancesagainsther,becausehehadneverbeenabletotellwhatshewasthinking。Hadsherealisedthathewasfollowing?Herself-possessionmadehimangry;and,disdainingtoexplainhispresence,hepointedtothemournfullittleNiobe,andsaid:”That’sratheragoodthing。”

  Hecouldsee,then,thatshewasstrugglingtopreservehercomposure。”Ididn’twanttostartleyou;isthisoneofyourhaunts?””Yes。””Alittlelonely。”Ashespoke,alady,strollingby,pausedtolookatthefountainandpassedon。

  Irene’seyesfollowedher。”No,”shesaid,proddingthegroundwithherparasol,”neverlonely。Onehasalwaysone’sshadow。”

  Soamesunderstood;and,lookingatherhard,heexclaimed:”Well,it’syourownfault。Youcanbefreeofitatanymoment。

  Irene,comebacktome,andbefree。”

  Irenelaughed。”Don’t!”criedSoames,stampinghisfoot;”it’sinhuman。Listen!

  IsthereanyconditionIcanmakewhichwillbringyoubacktome?

  IfIpromiseyouaseparatehouse——andjustavisitnowandthen?”

  Irenerose,somethingwildsuddenlyinherfaceandfigure。”None!None!None!Youmayhuntmetothegrave。Iwillnotcome。”

  Outragedandonedge,Soamesrecoiled。”Don’tmakeascene!”hesaidsharply。Andtheybothstoodmotionless,staringatthelittleNiobe,whosegreenishfleshthesunlightwasburnishing。”That’syourlastword,then,”mutteredSoames,clenchinghishands;”youcondemnusboth。”

  Irenebentherhead。”Ican’tcomeback。Good-bye!”

  AfeelingofmonstrousinjusticeflaredupinSoames。”Stop!”hesaid,”andlistentomeamoment。Yougavemeasacredvow——youcametomewithoutapenny。YouhadallIcouldgiveyou。

  Youbrokethatvowwithoutcause,youmademeaby-word;yourefusedmeachild;you’veleftmeinprison;you——youstillmovemesothatIwantyou——Iwantyou。Well,whatdoyouthinkofyourself?”

  Ireneturned,herfacewasdeadlypale,hereyesburningdark。”GodmademeasIam,”shesaid;”wickedifyoulike——butnotsowickedthatI’llgivemyselfagaintoamanIhate。”

  Thesunlightgleamedonherhairasshemovedaway,andseemedtolayacaressalldownherclingingcream-colouredfrock。

  Soamescouldneitherspeaknormove。Thatword’hate’——soextreme,soprimitive——madealltheForsyteinhimtremble。Withadeepimprecationhestrodeawayfromwhereshehadvanished,andranalmostintothearmsoftheladysaunteringback——thefool,theshadowingfool!

  Hewassoondrippingwithperspiration,inthedepthsoftheBois。

  ’Well,’hethought,’Ineedhavenoconsiderationforhernow;shehasnotagrainofitforme。I’llshowherthisverydaythatshe’smywifestill。’

  Butonthewayhometohishotel,hewasforcedtotheconclusionthathedidnotknowwhathemeant。Onecouldnotmakescenesinpublic,andshortofscenesinpublicwhatwastherehecoulddo?

  Healmostcursedhisownthin-skinnedness。Shemightdeservenoconsideration;buthe——alas!deservedsomeathisownhands。Andsittinglunchlessinthehallofhishotel,withtouristspassingeverymoment,Baedekerinhand,hewasvisitedbyblackdejection。

  Inirons!Hiswholelife,witheverynaturalinstinctandeverydecentyearninggaggedandfettered,andallbecauseFatehaddrivenhimseventeenyearsagotosethisheartuponthiswoman——soutterly,thatevennowhehadnorealhearttosetonanyother!

  Cursedwasthedayhehadmether,andhiseyesforseeinginheranythingbutthecruelVenusshewas!Andyet,stillseeingherwiththesunlightontheclingingChinacrepeofhergown,heutteredalittlegroan,sothatatouristwhowaspassing,thought:

  ’Maninpain!Let’ssee!whatdidIhaveforlunch?’

  Later,infrontofacafeneartheOpera,overaglassofcoldteawithlemonandastrawinit,hetookthemaliciousresolutiontogoanddineatherhotel。Ifshewerethere,hewouldspeaktoher;ifshewerenot,hewouldleaveanote。Hedressedcarefully,andwroteasfollows:”YouridyllwiththatfellowJolyonForsyteisknowntomeatallevents。Ifyoupursueit,understandthatIwillleavenostoneunturnedtomakethingsunbearableforhim。”S。F。”

  Hesealedthisnotebutdidnotaddressit,refusingtowritethemaidennamewhichshehadimpudentlyresumed,ortoputthewordForsyteontheenvelopelestsheshouldtearitupunread。Thenhewentout,andmadehiswaythroughtheglowingstreets,abandonedtoeveningpleasure-seekers。Enteringherhotel,hetookhisseatinafarcornerofthedining-roomwhencehecouldseeallentrancesandexits。Shewasnotthere。Heatelittle,quickly,watchfully。Shedidnotcome。Helingeredintheloungeoverhiscoffee,dranktwoliqueursofbrandy。Butstillshedidnotcome。

  Hewentovertothekeyboardandexaminedthenames。Numbertwelve,onthefirstfloor!Andhedeterminedtotakethenoteuphimself。Hemountedred-carpetedstairs,pastalittlesalon;

  eight-ten-twelve!Shouldheknock,pushthenoteunder,or……?

  Helookedfurtivelyroundandturnedthehandle。Thedooropened,butintoalittlespaceleadingtoanotherdoor;heknockedonthat——noanswer。Thedoorwaslocked。Itfittedverycloselytothefloor;thenotewouldnotgounder。Hethrustitbackintohispocket,andstoodamomentlistening。Hefeltsomehowcertainthatshewasnotthere。Andsuddenlyhecameaway,passingthelittlesalondownthestairs。Hestoppedatthebureauandsaid:

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