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  “No,“sheanswered,withalittleshiver。“He’sugly。“

  “Heisn’tugly,“Jeremyreturnedindignantly。“Heisn’tperhapstheverybestbreed,butUncleSamuelsaysthatthatdoesn’tmatterifhe’sclever。He’sbetterthananyotherdog。Ilovehimmorethananybody。Heisn’tugly!“

  “Heis,“criedCharlottewithakindofwail。“Oh!Iwanttogohome。“

  “Well,youcan’tgohome,“heansweredherfiercely。“Soyouneedn’tthinkaboutit。“

  Theycametothelittlepools,threeofthem,nowclearascrystal,blueontheirsurface,withgreendepthsandredshelvingrock。

  “Nowyousitthere,“hesaidcheerfully。“Noonewilltouchyou。Thecrabswon’tgetatyou。“

  Helookedabouthimandnoticedwithsurprisewherehewas。HewassittingonthefarthercorneroftheverybeachwheretheScarletAdmiralhadlandedwithhismen。Itwasouttherebeyondthatbendofrockthatthewonderfulshiphadrode,withitsgoldandsilk,itsjewelledmastsanditsglitteringboard。Directlyoppositetohimwasthelittlegreenpaththatledupthehill,andaboveittheveryfield——FarmerEde’sfield!

  Foralong,longtimetheysatthereinsilence。HeforgotCharlotteinhisinterestoverhisdiscovery,staringabouthimandwatchinghowquicklytheAugustafternoonwaslosingitsheatandcolour,sothatalreadyalittlecoldautumnalwindwasplayingaboutthesand,thecolourswerebeingdrawnfromthesky,andagreywebwasslowlypulledacrossthesea。

  “Now,“hesaidcheerfullyatlast,toCharlotte,“I’lllookforthecrabs。“

  “Ihatecrabs,“shesaid。“Iwanttogohome。“

  “Youcan’tgohome,“heansweredfuriously。“What’sthegoodofsayingthatoverandoveragain?Youaren’tgoingyet,soit’snousesayingyouare。“

  “You’reahorridlittleboy,“shebroughtoutwithakindofinanimatesob。

  Hedidnotreplytothat;hewasstilltryingtobehavelikeagentleman。Howcouldheeverhavelikedher?Why,herhairwasnotsomuchafterall。Whatwashairwhenyoucometothinkofit?Marygotonquitewellwithhers,uglythoughitwas。Shewasstupid,stupid,stupid!Shewaslikesomeonedead。Ashesearchedforthecrabsthatweren’ttherehefelthistempergrowing。Soonhewouldleadherbacktohermotherandleaveherthereandneverseeheragain。

  Butthiswasnottheclimaxoftheafternoon。

  Whenhelookedupfromgazingintothepoolthewholeworldseemedtohavechanged。Hewasstilldazzledperhapsbythereflectionofthewaterinhiseyes,andyetitwasnotaltogetherthat。Itwasnotaltogetherbecausethedaywasslippingfromafternoonintoevening。

  Thelazyrippleofthewaterasitslutchedupthesandandthenbroke,theshadowsthatwerecreepingfartherandfartherfromrocktorock,thegreenlightthatpushedupfromthehorizonintothefaintblue,thegreywebofthesea,thethickgatheringofthehillsastheycreptmorecloselyaboutthelittledarkeningbeach……itwasnoneofthesethings。

  HebeganhurriedlytotellCharlotteabouttheScarletAdmiral。Evenashetoldherhewashimselfcaughtintotheexcitementofthenarration。Heforgother;hedidnotseeherwhitecheeks,hermouthopenwithterror,anexpressionnewtoher,thatherfacehadneverknownbefore,stealingintohereyes。HetoldherhowtheFoolhadseentheship,howtheAdmiralhadlanded,thenlefthismenonthebeach,howhehadclimbedthelittlegreenpath,howtheyoungmanhadfollowedhim,howtheyhadfought,howtheyoungmanhadfallen。

  Whatwasthat?Jeremyjumpedfromhisrock。“Isay,didyouhearanything?“

  AndthatwasenoughforCharlotte。Withonescream,ascreamsuchasshehadneverutteredinherlifebefore,sueturned,andthen,runningasindeedshehadneverrunbefore,shestumbled,halffell,stumbled,finallyranasthoughthewholeworldofherghostswasbehindher。Herscreamsweresopiercingthattheymaywellhavestartled,thevillagersofRafiel。

  Jeremyfollowedher,buthismindwasnotwithher。Washegoingtoseesomething?Whatwasit?Whowasit?

  Thentheawfulcatastrophethatfinishedtheafternoonoccurred。

  Turningthecorneroftherock,Charlottemissedherfootingandfellstraightintoapool。Jeremy,MaryandHelenwereuponheralmostasshefell。Theydraggedherout,butalas!whatasightwasthere!InsteadofthebeautifulandmagnificentCharlottetherewasabedraggledanddirtylittlegirl。

  Butalso,insteadofaninanimateandlifelessdoll,therewasatlastahumanbeing,aterrifiedsoul。

  Thescenethatfollowedpassesallpowerofdescription。Mrs。LePagewailedlikealostspirit;Mr。LePagewassorudetoMr。Colethatitmightconfidentlybesaidthatthosetwogentlemenwouldneverspeaktooneanotheragain。Mrs。Cole,dismayedthoughshewas,hadsomefatalisticconsolationthatshehadknownfromthefirstthatthepicnicwouldbeamostdreadfulfailureandthattheworsthadoccurred;therewasnomoretocome。

  EveryonewastoodeeplyoccupiedtoscoldJeremy。Theyallmoveduptothefarm,Charlottebehavingmoststrangely,evenstrikinghermotherandcrying:“Letmego!Letmego!Idon’twanttobeclean!

  I’mfrightened!I’mfrightened!“

  Jeremyhungbehindtheothers。Atthebottomofthelittlelanehestoodandwaited。Wasthereafigurecomingupthroughthedusk?Didsomeonepasshim?Whydidhesuddenlyfeelnolongerafraid,butonlyreassuredandwiththestrangestcertaintythatthelane,thebeach,thefieldbelongedtohimnow?Hewouldcomethereandlivewhenhegrewup。Hewouldcomeoften。HadtheScarletAdmiralpassedhim?IfnottheScarletAdmiral,thentheother。

  Theseapicnichad,afterall,beennotquiteamisfortune。

  Jeremyhadbeenmadefreeoftheland。

  AndCharlotte?Charlottehadbeenwokenup,andneverwouldgotosleepagain。

  CHAPTERX

  MARY

  I

  MaryColehadbeen,allherlife,thatthingbelovedofthesentimentalnovelist,amisunderstoodchild。ShewastheonlymisunderstoodmemberoftheColefamily,andshewasmisunderstood,asisveryoftenthecase,inalargemeasurebecauseshewassoplain。Hadshebeengood-lookingasHelen,orindependentasJeremy,shewouldhaveeitherattractedtheworldingeneral,orhavebeenindifferentastowhethersheattracteditornot。Asitwas,shelongedtoattracteveryone,and,intruth,attractednobody。Shemighthavefoundconsolationinbooksorherownhighly-colouredimaginationshaditnotbeenfortheburningpassionswhichsheformed,ataveryearlyage,forlivingpeople。ForsomeyearsnowherlifehadcentredroundherbrotherJeremy。HadtheColesbeenanobservantfamilytheymight,perhaps,havefoundsomepathosinthewayinwhichMary,withherpalesallowcomplexion,herpear-shapedfacewithitsdull,greyeyes,herenormousglasses,herlankycolourlesshair,andherthin,bonyfigure,gazedathermasculineandindependentbrother。

  UncleSamuelmighthavenoticed,buthewasoccupiedwithhispainting。Fortheresttheywerenotobservant。Marywasonlysevenyearsofage,butshehadthecapacityforbeinghurtofapersonofthirty。Shewashurtbyeverythingandeverybody。Whensomebodysaid:“Now,Mary,hurryup。You’realwayssoslow,“shewashurt。IfHelentoldherthatshewasselfish,shewashurt,andwouldsitwonderingwhethershewasselfishorno。IfMrs。Colesaidthatshemustbrushherhairmorecarefullyshewashurt,andwhenJeremysaidanythingsharptohershewasinagony。Shediscoveredveryquicklythatnoonecaredforheragonies。TheColeswereaplain,matter-of-factrace,andhadtheday’sworktofinish。Theyhadnointentionofthinkingtoomuchoftheirchildren’sfeelings。Thirtyyearsagothatwasnotsopopularasitisnow。Meanwhile,herdevotiontoherbrothergrewwitheverymonthofherlife。Shethoughthim,inallhonesty,themostmiraculousofallhumanbeings。Therewasmoreinherworshipthanmeredog-likefidelity。

  Sheadoredhimforreasonsthatwererealandtrue;forhisindependence,hisobstinacy,hissenseoffun,hissudden,unexpectedkindnesses,hissuddenhelplessness,andaboveall,forhisbravery。Heseemedtoherthebravestheroinallhistory,andshefeltitthemorebecauseshewasherselfcompactofeveryfearandterrorknowntoman。Itwasnotenoughforher,theordinarypanicthatbelongstoallhumanlifeateverystageofitsprogress。

  Shefearedeverythingandeverybody,andonlyhidherfearbyapersistentcoverofalmostobstinatestupidity,whichdeceived,tosomeextent,herrelations,butneverinanydegreeherself。Sheknewthatshewasplain,awkwardandhesitating,butsheknewalsothatshewasclever。SheknewthatshecoulddoeverythingtwiceasfastasJeremyandHelen,thatshewasoftensoimpatientoftheirslowprogressatlessonsthatshewouldbeatherfootonthegroundinakindofagonisedimpatience。Sheknewthatshewasclever,andshewonderedsometimeswhyherclevernessdidnotgivehermoreadvantage。Why,forinstance,shouldHelen’sgoodlooksbenoticedatoncebyeveryvisitorandherownclevernessbeunnoticed?

  Certainly,onoccasions,hermotherwouldsay:“AndMary?Idon’tthinkyou’vemetMary。Comeandsay,howdoyoudo,Mary。Maryisthecleveroneofthefamily!“butitwasalwayssaidinadeprecating,apologetictone,whichmadeMaryhangherheadandhatebothherselfandhermother。

  ShetoldherselfstoriesofthetimeswhenJeremywouldhavetodependentirelyuponthesplendourofherbrainsforhisdeliveryfromsomehorror——death,tortureordisgrace。Atpresentthosetimeswere,shewasboundtoconfesstoherself,verydistant。Hedependeduponnooneforanything;hecouldnotbesaidtoneedMary’sassistanceinanyparticular。Andwiththisburningdesireofherscame,ofcourse,jealousy。Therearesomehappy,easynaturestowhomjealousyis,throughlife,unknown。Theyaretobeenvied。

  Jealousyinagrown-uphumanbeingisbad;inachilditisterrible。HadyoutoldMrs。Cole——goodmotherthoughshewas——thatherdaughterMary,agedseven,sufferedtorturesthroughjealousy,shewouldhaveassuredyouthatitwasnot,inreality,jealousy,butratherindigestion,andthatalittlemedicinewouldputitright。

  Marywasquitehelpless。Whatisachildtodoifsheisjealous?

  Otherchildrendonotunderstandher,herelderslaughather。Mary,withawisdomgreatlybeyondheryears,realisedveryquicklythatthiswassomesortofhorribledisease,withwhichshemustwrestlealone。Aboveall,shemustneverallowJeremytoknowanythingaboutit。Hewas,ofcourse,sublimelyunawareofthematter;heknewthatMarywassillysometimes,butheattributedthattohersex;hewentonhisway,happilyindifferentwhetheranyonecaredforhimorno……

  Marysufferedagonieswhen,assometimeshappened,JeremysatwithhisarmroundHelen’sneckandhischeekupagainsthers。Shesufferedwhen,inamoodoftempestuousaffectiontothewholeworld,hekissedMissJones。Sheevensufferedwhenhesatathismother’sfeetwhilstsheread“TheDoveintheEagle’sNest,“or“EngeltheFearless。“

  Mostofall,however,shesufferedoverHamlet。SheknewthatatthispresenttimeHamletwastheonecreatureforwhomJeremypassionatelycared。Helovedhismother,butwiththelovethatcustomandhabithastamedandmodified,althoughsinceMrs。Cole’sillnessintheearlysummerhehadcaredforherinamannermoredemonstrativeandopenlyaffectionate。Nevertheless,itwasHamletwhocommandedJeremy’sheart,andMaryknewit。MattersweremadeworsebytheundoubtedtruththatHamletdidnotcareverymuchforMary——thatis,henevergaveanysignsofcaring,andveryoftenwalkedoutoftheroomwhenshecameintoit。MarycouldhavecaredforthedogasenthusiasticallyasJeremy——shewasalwayssentimentalaboutanimals——butnowshewasshutoutfromtheiralliance,andsheknewthatwhenshecameuptothemandbegantopatorstrokeHamlet,JeremywasannoyedandHamlet’sskinwriggledinakindofretreatingfashionunderherfingers。Wisepeoplewillsaythatitisimpossibleforthistobeaserioustroubletoachild。ItwasincreasinglyserioustoMary。

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