第24章
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  Theyenteredthehouse,andatonceevenMary,preoccupiedasshewaswithherstoryaboutthesailor,noticedthatsomethingwaswrong。

  “Rose!Rose!“shecalledoutloudly。

  “Hush!“saidMissJones。“Youmustbequiet,dear。“

  “Why?“saidMary。“IwantRoseto——“

  “Yourmotherisn’tatallwell,dear。I——“

  AndshewasinterruptedbyRose,who,comingsuddenlydownstairs,withafaceverydifferentfromherusualcheerfulone,saidsomethingtoMissJonesinalowvoice。

  MissJonesgavealittlecry:“Sosoon?……Agirl……“Andthenadded:“Howisshe?“

  ThenRosesaidsomethingmore,whichthechildrencouldnotcatch,andvanished。

  “Veryquietly,children,“saidMissJones,inavoicethattrembled;

  “andyoumustn’tleavetheschoolroomtillItellyou。Yourmother——

  “Shebrokeoffasthoughshewereafraidofshowingemotion。

  “Whatisit?“saidJeremyinavoicethatseemednewtothemall——

  older,moreresolute,strangelychallengingforsosmallaboy。

  “Yourmother’sveryill,Jeremy,dear。Youmustbeaverygoodboy,andhelpyoursisters。“

  “Mightn’tIgoforjustaminute?“

  “No,certainlynot。“

  Theyallwentupstairs。Then,intheschoolroom,MissJonessaidanamazingthing。Shesaid:

  “Imusttellyouall,children,thatyou’vegotanewlittlesister。“

  “Anewsister!“screamedMary。

  Helensaid:“Oh,MissJones!“

  Jeremysaid:“Whatdidshecomeforjustnow,whenMotherisill?“

  “Godwantedhertocome,dear,“saidMissJones。“Youmustallbeverykindtoher,anddoallyoucan——“

  Shewasinterruptedbyatorrentofquestionsfromthetwogirls。

  Whatwasshelike?Whatwashername?Couldshewalk?Wheredidshecomefrom?DidFatherandMotherfindherinDrymouth?Andsoon。

  Jeremywassilent。Atlasthesaid:“Wedon’twantanymoregirlshere。“

  “Betterthanhavinganotherboy,“saidHelen。

  Buthewouldnottakeupthechallenge。Hesatonhisfavouriteseatonthewindow-ledge,draggedupareluctantHamlettositwithhim,andgazedoutdownintothegardenthatwasmistynowintheeveninggoldenlight,thetreesandthesoilblackbeneaththegold,therooksslowlyswingingacrossthestyabovethefarthersideoftheroad。Hamletwriggled。Healwaysdetestedthatheshouldbecuddled,andhewouldpressfirstwithoneleg,thenwithanother,againstJeremy’scoat;thenhewouldliedeadforamoment,suddenlyspringing,withhisheadup,inthehopethatthesurprisewouldfreehim;thenhewouldturnintoasnake,twistinghisbodyunderJeremy’sarm,anddroppingwithaflopontothefloor。Allthesemanoeuvresto-dayavailedhimnothing;Jeremyheldhisneckinavice,anddughisfingerswellintotheskin。Hamletwhined,thenlaystill,and,inthemidstofindignantreflectionsagainsttheimbeciletyranniesofman,fell,tohisownsurprise,asleep。

  Jeremysattherewhilsttheduskfellandallthebeautifullightsweredrawnfromtheskyandtherookswenttobed。Rosecametodrawthecurtains,andthenhelefthiswindow-seat,draggedouthistoyvillageandpretendedtoplaywithit。Helookedathissisters。

  Theyseemedquitetranquil。Helenwassewing,andMarydeepin“ThePillarsoftheHouse。“Theclockticked。Hamlet,lostinsleep,snoredandsputtered;thewholeworldpursueditsordinaryway。Onlyinhimselfsomethingwaschanged;hewasunhappy,andhecouldnotaccountforhisunhappiness。Itshouldhavebeenbecausehismotherwasill,andyetshehadbeenillbefore,andhehadbeenonlydisturbedforamoment。Afterall,grown-uppeoplealwaysgotwell。

  TherehadbeenAuntAmy,whohadhadmeasles,andthewifeoftheDean,whohadhadsomething,andeventheBishoponce……Butnowhewasfrightened。Therewassomeperception,comingtohimnowforthefirsttimeinhislife,thatthisworldwasnotabsolutelystable——thatpeopleleftit,peoplecameintoit,thattherewaschangeanddangerandsomethingstronger……Graduallythisperceptionwasapproachinghimasthoughithadbeensomedarkfigurewhohadenteredthehouse,andnow,withmuffledstepandveiledface,wasslowlyclimbingthestairstowardshim。Heonlyknewthathismothercouldnotgo;shecouldnotgo。Shewaspartofhislife,andshewouldalwaysbeso。Why,now,whenhethoughtofit,hecoulddonothingwithouthismother;everydayhemusttellherwhathehaddoneandwhathewasgoingtodo,mustshowherwhathehadacquiredandmustexplaintoherwhathehadlost,mustgotoherwhenhewashurtandwhenhewasfrightenedandwhenhewasglad……Andofallthesethingshehadnevereventhoughtuntilnow。

  Ashesattherethehouseseemedtogroweverquieterandquieterabouthim。Hefeltasthoughhewouldhavelikedtohavegonetotheschoolroomdoorandlistened。Itwasterribleimaginingthehousebehindthedoor——quitesilent——sothattheclockshadstopped,andnoonewalkeduponthestairsandnoonelaugheddowninthepantry。

  Hewishedthattheywouldmakemorenoiseintheschoolroom。HeupsetthechurchandtheorchardandMrs。Noah。

  Butthesilenceafterthenoisewasworsethanever。

  SoonMissJonestookthetwogirlsawaytoherroomtofitonsomeclothes,anoperationwhichHelenadoredandMaryhated。Jeremywasleftalone,andhewas,atonce,terriblyfrightened。Heknewthatitwasofnousetobefrightened,andhetriedtogoonwithhisgame,puttingthechurchwiththeappletreesarounditandtheNoahfamilyallsleepingunderthetrees,butateverymomentsomethingcompelledhimtoraisehisheadandseethatnoonewasthere,andhefeltsosmallandsolonelythathewouldliketohavehiddenundersomething。

  Thenwhenhethoughtofhismotherallaloneandthehousesoquietaroundherandnooneabletogotoherhefeltsomiserablethatheturnedroundfromhisvillageandstareddesolatelyintothefireplace。Thethoughtofhisnewsistercametohim,butwasdismissedimpatiently。Hedidnotwantanewsister——MaryandHelenweretroubleenoughasitwas——andhefelt,withanoldwearyair,thatitwastime,indeed,thathewasofftoschool。Nothingwasthesame。Alwaysnewpeople。Neveranypeace。

  Hewasstartledbythesoundoftheopeningdoor,and,turning,sawhisfather。Hisfatherandhewereneververyeasytogether。Mr。

  Colehadverylittletimefortheindividual,beingengagedinsavingsoulsinthemass,andhischeery,good-temperedChristianityhadastrange,startlingfashionofprovingunavailingbeforesomesinglehumancase。

  Hedidnotunderstandchildrenexceptwhentheywereplacedinmassesbeforehim。Hisownchildren,havingbeennamed,ontheirarrival,“GiftsfromGod,“hadkeptmuchofthatincorporealatmospherethroughouttheirgrowingyears。

  Butto-nighthewasadifferentman。Ashelookedathissmallsonacrosstheschoolroomfloortherewasterrorinhiseyes。Nothingcouldhavebeeneasierormoresimplethanhislifelongassumptionthat,becauseGodwasinHisheavenallwasrightwiththeworld。Hehadgiventhankseveryeveningfortheblessingsthathehadreceivedandeverymorningfortheblessingsthathewasgoingtoreceive,andhehadhadnoreasontocomplain。Hehadthewife,thechildren,theworkthathedeserved,andhislifehadbeensohemmedinwithsecuritythathehadhadnodifficultyinassuringhiscongregationoneverypossibleoccasionthatGodwasgoodandfar-

  seeing,andthat“notonesparrow……“

  Andnowliewasthreatened——threatenedmostdesperately。Mrs。Colewassoillthatitwasdoubtfulwhethershewouldlivethroughthenight。Hewascompletelyhelpless。Hehadturnedfromonesidetoanother,simplydemandinganassurancefromsomeoneorsomethingthatshecouldnotbetakenfromhim。Noonecouldgivehimthatassurance。Lifewithoutherwouldbeimpossible;hewouldnotknowwhattodoaboutthesimplestmatter。Lifewithouther……oh!butitwasincredible!

  Likeablindmanhehadgropedhiswayuptotheschoolroom。Hedidnotwanttoseethechildren,norMissJones,buthemustbemoving,mustbedoingsomethingthatwouldbreakinuponthatterribleominouspausethatthewholeworldseemedtohim,atthismoment,tobemaking。

  ThenhesawJeremy。Hesaid:

  “Oh!Where’sMissJones?“

  “She’sinthenextroom,“saidJeremy,lookingathisfather。

  “Oh!“Hebegantowalkupanddowntheschoolroom。Jeremylefthistoyvillageandstoodup。

  “IsMotherbetter,Father?“

  Hestoppedinhiswalkandlookedattheboyasthoughheweretryingtorecollectwhohewas。

  “No……No——thatis——No,myboy,I’mafraidnot。“

  “Issheverybad,Father——liketheDean’swifewhenshehadfever?“

  Hisfatherdidn’tanswer。Hewalkedtotheendoftheroom,thenturnedsuddenlyasthoughhehadseensomethingtherethatterrifiedhim,andhurriedfromtheroom。

  Jeremy,suddenlyleftalone,hadadesperateimpulsetoscreamthatsomeonemustcome,thathewasfrightened,thatsomethinghorriblewasinthehouse。Hestoodup,staringatthecloseddoor,hisfacewhite,hiseyeslargeandfulloffear。ThenheflunghimselfdownbyHamletand,takinghimbytheneck,whispered:

  “I’mfrightened!I’mfrightened!Barkorsomething!……There’ssomeonehere!“

  III

  NextmorningMrs。Colewasstillalive。Therehadbeennochangeduringthenight;to-day,thedoctorsaid,wouldbethecriticalday。To-daywasSunday,andMr。Coletookhismorningserviceathischurchasusual。Hehadbeenupallnight;helookedhaggardandpale,stillwearingthatexpressionasofamanlostinaworldthathehadalwaystrusted。Buthewouldnotfailinhisduty。“Whentwoorthreearegatheredtogetherinmyname……“PerhapsGodwouldhearhim。

  ItwasadayofwonderfulheatforMay。Noonehadeverrememberedsohotadayatsoearlyatimeofyear。Thewindowsofthechurchwereopen,butnobreezeblewthroughtheaisles。Therelentlessblazingblueoftheskypenetratedintothecoolshadowsofthechurch,anditwasasthoughthecongregationsatthereundershimmeringglass。Thewavesoflightshifted,roseandfellabovethebonnetsandhatsandbareheads,andallthelittlechoirboysfellasleepduringthesermon。

  TheColefamilydidnotfallasleep。Theysatwithpalefacesandstiffbacksstaringattheirfatherandthinkingabouttheirmother。

  MaryandHelenwerefrightened;thehousewassostrange,everyonespokeinwhispers,and,onthewayintochurch,manyladieshadaskedthemhowtheirmotherwas。

  Theyfeltimportantaswellassad。ButJeremydidnotfeelimportant。Hehadnotheardtheladiesandtheirquestions——hewouldnothavecaredifhehad。Peoplehadalwayscalledhim“aqueerlittleboy,“simplybecausehewasindependentandthoughtmorethanhespoke。Nevertheless,hehadalwaysinrealitybeennormalenoughuntilnow。To-dayhewasreally“queer,“wasconsciousforthefirsttimeoftheexistenceofaworldwhoseadjacencetotherealworldwas,inafterdays,totroublehimsooftenandtocomplicatelifeforhimsogrievously。Theterrorthathadcomedownuponhimwhenhisfatherhadlefthimseemedto-dayutterlytosoakthroughintotheveryheartofhim。Hismotherwasgoingtodieunlesssomethingorsomebodysavedher。Whatwasdying?Goingaway,hehadalwaysbeentold,withagoldenharp,tosinghymnsinaforeigncountry。

  Butto-daythepicturewouldnotformsoeasily。TherewassilenceanddarknessandconfusionaboutthisDeath。Hismotherwasgoing,againstherwill,andnoonecouldtellhimwhithershewasgoing。

  Ifhecouldonlystopherdying,forceGodtoleaveheralone,toleaveherwiththemallasshehadbeenbefore……

  Hefixedhiseyesuponhisfather,whoclimbedslowlyintohispulpitandgaveoutthetextofhissermon。To-dayhewouldtalkaboutthesacrificeofIsaac。“Abraham,ashishearerswouldremember……“andsoon。

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