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  MissJones,hervoicetrembling:“Children,Ireallyinsist——“Andmorebooksdropped,andmorewhispersandmoreprotests,andsoonadinfinitum。Abeautifulgametobeplayedallthemorning。

  OrtherewasthegameofNotHearing。MissJoneswouldsay:“Andtwicetwoarefour。“Marywouldrepeatloudly:“Andtwicetwoisfive——“

  “Four,Mary。“

  “Oh,Ithoughtyousaidfive。“

  AndthenasecondlaterJeremywouldask:

  “Didyousayfourorfive,MissJones?“

  “ItoldMaryIsaidfour——“

  “Oh,I’vewrittenfive——andnowit’sallwrong。Didn’tyouwritefive,Mary?“

  “Yes,I’vewrittenfive。Youdidsayfour,didn’tyou,MissJones?“

  “Yes——yes。Andthreemakes——“

  “Whatdidyousaymadefive?“askedJeremy。

  “Ididn’tsayfive。Isaidfour。Twicetwo。“

  “Isthataswellas’addthree,’MissJones?I’vegottwicetwo,andthenaddthree,andthentwicetwo——“

  “No,no。IwasonlytellingJeremy——“

  “Please,MissJones,wouldyoumindbeginningagain——“

  Thisisaveryunpleasantgameforaladywithneuralgia。

  OrthereisthegameofMakingaNoise。Atthisgame,withoutanyearliertrainingorpractice,Jeremywasaperfectmaster。Thethreechildrenwouldbesittingtherevery,veryquiet,learningthefirstverseof“Tiger,Tiger,burningbright——“Averygentlecreakingsoundwouldbreakthestillness——acreakingsoundthatcanbemade,ifyouareclever,byrubbingabootagainstaboot。Itwouldnotcomeregularly,butonce,twice,thrice,apause,andthenonce,twiceandanotherpause。

  “Who’smakinganoise?“

  Deadsilence。Averylongpause,andthenitwouldbeginagain。

  “Thatnoisemustcease,Isay。Jeremy,whatareyoudoing?“

  Hewouldlifttohertheneyesfullofmeeknessandlove。

  “Nothing,MissJones。“

  Soonitwouldbeginagain。MissJoneswouldbesilentthistime,andthenMarywouldspeak。

  “Please,wouldyouaskJeremynottorubhisbootstogether?Ican’tlearnmyverse——“

  “Ididn’tknowIwas,“saysJeremy。

  Thenitwouldbeginagain。Jeremywouldsay:

  “Please,mayItakemybootsoff?“

  “Takeyourbootsoff?Why?“

  “Theywillrubtogether,andIcan’tstopthem,becauseIdon’tknowwhenIdoit,anditishardforMary——“

  “Ofcoursenot!Ineverheardofsuchathing!Nexttimeyoudoityoumuststandonyourchair。“

  SoonJeremyisstandingonhischair。Soonhispoetrybookdropswithaterriblecrashtotheground,andfivemillionpinsstabMissJones’sheart。Withwhitefaceandtremblinghands,shesays:

  “Goandstandinthecorner,Jeremy!Ishallhavetospeaktoyourmother!“

  Hegoes,grinningatMary,andstandsthereknowingthathisvictimiswatchingthedoorinanagonylestMrs。ColeshouldsuddenlycomeinandinquirewhatJeremyhaddone,andthatsothewholestoryofhisinsubordinationberevealedandMissJoneslosehersituationforincapacity。

  HowdidhediscoverthisfinalweaknessofMissJones?Noonetoldhim;butheknew,and,asthedayspassed,rejoicedinhispowerandhismightandhisglory。

  Thencametheclimax。Thechildrenwerenotperfectlysurewhether,afterall,MissJonesmightnottelltheirmother。Theydidnotwishthistohappen,andsolongasthiscalamitywaspossibletheywerenotcompletemastersofthepoorlady。Thencameamorningwhentheyhadbeenextremelynaughty,wheneverygamehadbeenplayedandeverytriumphscored。MissJones,almostintears,hadthreatenedfourtimesthatthePowersAboveshouldbeinformed。SuddenlyMrs。

  Coleentered。

  “Well,MissJones,howhavethechildrenbeenthismorning?Ifthey’vebeengoodIhavealittletreattopropose。“

  Thechildrenwaited,theireyesupontheirgoverness。Hereyesstaredbackuponhertormentors。Herhandsworkedtogether。Shestruggled。WhynotcallinMrs。Cole’sauthoritytoheraid?No;sheknewwhatitwouldmean——“I’mverysorry,MissJones,butIthinkayoungergoverness,perhaps——“

  Herthroatmoved。

  “They’vebeenverygoodthismorning,Mrs。Cole。“

  TheeyesofMaryandofJeremywerealightwithtriumph。

  Theyhadwontheirfinalvictory。

  III

  IknowwhatMissJonessufferedduringthoseweeks。Shewasnotanoldladyofverygreatpowerofresistance,anditmusthavepositivelyterrifiedherthatthesesmallchildrenshouldsovindictivelyhateher。Shecouldnothaveseenitasanythingbuthatred,beingentirelyignorantofchildrenandthestrangeforcestowhosepowertheyaresubject,andshemusthaveshiveredinherbedroomatthedrearinessandterroroftheprospectbeforeher。

  Many,manytimesshemusthaveresolvednottobebeaten,andmany,manytimesshemusthaveadmittedherselfbeatenasbadlyasanyonecanbe。

  Herlifewiththepeopledownstairswasnotintimateenough,norwerethosepeoplethemselvesperceptiveenoughforanyrealisationofwhatwasoccurringtopenetrate。

  “Ihopeyou’rehappywiththechildren,MissJones,“onceortwicesaidMrs。Cole。

  “Very,thankyou,“saidMissJones。

  “They’regoodchildren,Ithink,althoughparentsarealwaysprejudiced,ofcourse。Jeremyisalittledifficultperhaps。It’ssohardtotellwhathe’sreallythinking。Youfindhimaquiet,reservedlittleboy?“

  “Very,“saidMissJones。

  “Inalittlewhile,whenyouknowhimbetter,hewillcomeout。Onlyyouhavetolethimtakehistime。Hedoesn’tliketobeforced——“

  “No,“saidMissJones。

  Meanwhile,thatmorningdescentintotheschoolroomwasrealhellforher。Shehadtosummonuphercourage,walkingaboutherbedroom,pressingherhandstogether,evokingthememoryofhermagnificentiron-souledbrother,whowould,sheknew,despisesuchtremors。Ifonlyshecouldhavediscoveredsomeremedy!Butsentiment,attemptedtyranny,anger,contempt,atallthesethingstheylaughed。Shecouldnottouchthemanywhere。AndshesawJeremyasarealchildofEvilintheverybaldestsense。Shecouldnotimaginehowanyonesoyoungcouldbesocruel,soheartless,somaliciouslycleverinhiselaboratemachinations。Sheregardedhimwithrealhorror,andontheoccasionswhenshefoundhimactingkindlytowardshissistersoraservant,orwhenshewatchedhimdiscoursingsolemnlytoHamlet,shewashelplesslypuzzled,anddecidedthatthesebettermanifestationsweresimplymaskstohidehisdevilishyoungheart。Sheperceivedmeanwhiletheinevitablecrisisslowlyapproaching,whenshewouldbecompelledtoinviteMrs。Cole’ssupport。Thatwouldmeanherdismissalandahopelessfuture。Therewasnoonetowhomshemightturn。Shehadnotarelation,notafriend——toolatetomakefriendsnow。

  Shecouldseenothinginfrontofheratall。

  Thecrisisdidcome,butnotassheexpectedit。

  Therearrivedamorningwhenthedarkmistoutsideandbadlymadeporridgeinsidetemptedthechildrentotheirveryworst。MissJoneshadhadawakefulnightstrugglingwithneuralgiaandherownhesitatingspirit。Thechildrenhadlosteventheircustomaryhalf-

  humourous,half-contemptuousreserve。Theyletthemselvesappearforwhattheywere——infantsavagesdiscontentedwithfood,weatherandeducation。

  Iwillnotdetailtheincidentsofthatmorning。Theepisodesthatwereonothermorningsgamesweretodaytortures。TherewastheTortureofLosingThings,theTortureofNotHearing,theTortureofManyNoises,theTortureofSuddenAlarm,theTortureofOutrightDefiance,theTortureofExpressedContempt。Whentwelvestruckandthechildrenwerefree,MissJoneswasnotfarfromanervouspanicthatcanbecalled,withoutanyexaggeration,incipientmadness。Theneuralgiatoreatherbrain,herownself-contempttoreatherheart,herbaffledimpotencebewilderedandblindedher。Shedidnotleavetheschoolroomwiththechildren,butwenttothebroadwindow-sillandsattherelookingoutintothedrearyprospect。

  Then,suddenlyfornoreasonexceptgeneralweaknessandphysicalandspiritualcollapseshebegantocry。

  Jeremywasconsideredtohaveacold,andwas,therefore,notpermittedtoaccompanyhismotherandsistersonanexcitingshoppingexpedition,whichwouldcertainlyleadasfarasoldPoole’s,thebookseller,andmightevenextendtoMartins’,thepastrycook,whomadelemonbiscuitsnextdoortotheCathedral。Hewas,therefore,inaverybadtemperindeedwhenhereturnedsulkilytotheschoolroom。Hestoodforamomentthereunawarethattherewasanybodyintheroom,hesitatingastowhetherheshouldcontinue“AFlatIronforaFarthing“orhuntupHamlet。Suddenlyheheardthesoundofsobbing。HeturnedandsawMissJones。

  Hewouldhavefledhadflightbeeninanywaypossible,butshehadlookedupandseenhim,andhersuddenarrestedsniffheldthemboththereasthoughbysomethirdinvisiblepower。Hesawthatshewascrying;hesawherrednose,mottledcheeks,untidyhair。Itwasthemostawfulmomentofhisyounglife。Hehadneverseenagrown-uppersoncrybefore;hehadnoideathattheyeverdidcry。Hehad,indeed,neverrealisedthatgrown-uppersonshadanyactivehistoriesatall,anyhistoriesinthesenseinwhichheandMaryhadthem。Theywereallabackground,simplyabackgroundthatblewbackwardsandforwardsliketapestryaccordingtoone’sneedofthem。HistortureofMissJoneshadbeenfoundedonnosortofrealisationofherasahumanbeing;shehadbeenasillyoldwoman,ofcourse,butjustasthebatteredweather-beatenAuntSallyinthegardenwasasillyoldwoman。

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