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  Thislastshehadreadofinbooks。AtfirstJeremyhadeveryintentionofbehavingwell,inspiteofthatunfortunateembrace。Hewasproudofhisadvanceinlife;hewasnolongerababy;thenurserywasnowaschoolroom;hestayedupanhourlateratnight;

  hewastobeallowedtwopenceaweekpocket-money;hiswholesocialstatushadrisen。Hebegantoreadforpleasure,anddiscoveredthatitwaseasierthanhehadexpected,sothathepassedquitequicklythrough“Lottie’sVisittoGrandmama“into“Stumps“andoutagainin“Jackanapes。“Heheardsomeeldersaythattheroadtoalargefortunelaythrough“Sums,“and,althoughthisseemedtohimanextremelymysteriousstatement,hedeterminedtogivethetheoryachance。Infact,hesatdownthefirstdayattheschoolroomtable,MaryandHelenoneachsideofhim,andMissJonesfacingthem,withfineresolvesandhighambitions。Beforehimlayapurewhitepage,andattheheadofthisthenoblewordsinarunninghand:“Slowandsteadywinstherace。“Hegraspedhispencil,andMissJones,eagertolosenotimeinassertingherauthority,cried:“Butthat’snotthewaytoholdyourpencil,Jeremy,yourthumbso,yourfingerso。“

  HescowledandfoundthatliftinghisthumboverthepencilwasasdifficultasliftingHamletoveragate。Hemadeaboldattempt,butthepencilrefusedtomove。

  “Can’tholditthatway,“hesaid。

  “Youmustneversay’can’t,’Jeremy,“remarkedMissJones。“Thereisn’tsuchaword。“

  “Oh,yes,“saidMaryeagerly,“thereis;I’veseenitinbooks。“

  “Youmusn’tcontradict,Mary,“saidMissJones。“Ionlymeantthatyoumustbehaveasthoughthereisn’t,becausenothingisimpossibletoonewhotrulytries。“

  “Mypencilwagglesthisway,“saidJeremypolitely。“IthinkI’llholdittheoldway,please。“

  “There’sonlyonewayofdoinganything,“saidMissJones,“andthat’stherightway。“

  “Thisistherightwayforme,“saidJeremy。

  “IfIsayit’snottherightway——“

  “Butitwaggles,“criedJeremy。

  ThediscussionwasinterruptedbyacryfromHelen。

  “Oh,dolook,MissJones,Hamlet’sgotyourspectacle-case。Hethinksit’samouse。“

  Therefollowedgeneralconfusion。MissJonesjumpedup,and,withlittlecriesofdistress,pursuedHamlet,whohastenedintohisfavouritecornerandbegantoworrythespectacle-case,withoneeyeonMissJonesandoneonhisspoils。

  Jeremyhurriedupcrying:“Putitdown,Hamlet,naughtydog,naughtydog,“andMaryandHelenlaughedwithfranticdelight。

  AtlastMissJones,herfaceredandherhairindisorder,rescuedherpropertyandreturnedtothetable,Hamletmeanwhilewagginghistail,pantingandwatchingforafurthergame。

  “Ican’tpossibly,“saidMissJones,“allowthatdoginhereduringlessonhours。It’simpossible。“

  “Oh,butMissJones——“beganJeremy。

  “Notoneword,“saidshe,“letushavenomoreofthis。Leadhimfromtheroom,Jeremy!“

  “But,MissJones,hemustbehere。He’slearningtoo。Inadayortwohe’llbeasgoodasanything,reallyhewill。He’ssointelligent。Hereallythoughtitwashistoplaywith,andhedidgiveitup,didn’the,assoonasIsaid——“

  “Enough,“saidMissJones,“Iwilllistentonomore。Isayheisnottoremain——“

  “ButifIpromise——“saidJeremy。

  ThenMissJonesmadeabadmistake。Weariedoftheargument,wishingtocontinuethelesson,andhopingperhapstopleasehertormentors,shesaidmeekly:

  “Well,ifhereallyisgood,perhaps——“

  Fromthatinstantherdoomwassealed。Thechildrenexchangedaglanceofrealisation。Jeremysmiled。Thelessonwascontinued。WhatpossessedJeremynow?Whatpossessesanychild,naturallyperhaps,ofakindlyandevensentimentalnatureatthesightofsomethinghelplessandinitspower?Isthereanycrueltyinafterlifelikethecrueltyofasmallboy,andisthereanythingmorepowerful,moreunreasoning,andmoremaliciousthanthecalculatingtorturesthatsmallchildrendeviseforthoseweakerthanthemselves?Jeremywaspossessedwithanewpower。

  Itwassomethingalmostabstractinitsmanifestations;itwassomethingindecent,sinister,secret,foreigntohiswholenaturefeltbyhimnowforthefirsttime,unanalysed,ofcourse,butbelonging,hadheknownit,tothatworldofwhichafterwardshewasoftentocatchglimpses,thatworldofshiningwhitefacesindarkstreets,ofmuffledcriesfromshutteredwindows,ofmutteredexclamations,halfcaught,halfunderstood。Hewasneveragaintobequitefreefromtheneighbourhoodofthathalf-world;hewouldneverbequitesureofhisdominanceofituntilhedied。

  Hehadneverfeltanythinglikethispowerbefore。WiththeJampothisrelationshadbeenquitesimple;hehadbeenrebellious,naughty,disobedient,andhadbeenpunished,andtherewasanend。

  NowtherewasagameliketrackingRedIndiansintheprairieortigersinthejungle。

  HewatchedMissJonesanddiscoveredmanythingsabouther。Hediscoveredthatwhenshemademistakesinthethingsthatshetaughtthemshewasafraidtoconfesstohermistakes,andsomadethemworseandworse。Hediscoveredthatshewasverynervous,andthatasuddennoisemadeherjumpandturnwhiteandputherhandtoherheart。Hediscoveredthatshewouldpunishhimandthentrytopleasehimbysayingheneednotfinishhispunishment。Hediscoveredthatshewouldlosethings,likeherspectacles,herhandkerchief,orherpurse,andthenbeafraidtoconfessthatshehadlostthemandendeavourtoproceedwithoutthem。Hediscoveredthatshehatedtohithimonthehandwitharulerhescarcelyfeltthestrokes。Hediscoveredthatwhenhismotherorfatherwasintheroomshewasterrifiedlestheshouldmisbehave。

  Hediscoveredthatshewasdespisedbytheservants,whoquiteopenlyinsultedher。

  Allthesethingsfedhissenseofpower。Hedidnotconsiderherahumanbeingatall;shewassimplysomethinguponwhichhecouldexercisehisingenuityandcleverness。Maryfollowedhiminwhateverhedid;Helenpretendedtobesuperior,butwasnot。Yes,MissJoneswasinthehandsofhertormentors,andtherewasnoescapeforher。

  SurelyitmusthavebeensomeoutsidepowerthatdroveJeremyon。

  Thechildrencalledit“teasingMissJones,“andtheaboriginalsavageryintheirbehaviourwasasunconsciousastheirdailyspeechorfashionofeatingtheirfood——someinstinctinherited,perhaps,fromthedayswhenthegentlemanwiththebiggestmusclesextractedforhisdailyamusementtheteethandnailsofhislesshappilymuscularfriends。

  ThereweremanygamestobeplayedwithMissJones。Shealwaysbeganhermorningwithafineshowofauthority,accumulated,perhaps,duringhoursofSpartanresolutionwhilsttherestofthehouseholdslept。“To-morrowI’llseethattheydowhatItellthem——“

  “Now,children,“shewouldsay,“I’mdeterminedtostandnononsensethismorning。Getoutyourcopybooks。“Fiveminuteslaterwouldbegin:“Oh,MissJones,Ican’twritewiththispencil。MayIfindabetterone?“Grantedpermission,Mary’sheadandlargespectacleswoulddisappearinsidetheschoolroomcupboard。SoonJeremywouldsayverypolitely:“MissJones,IthinkIknowwhereitis。MayI

  helphertofindit?“ThenJeremy’sheadwoulddisappear。Therewouldfollowgiggles,whispers,againgiggles;thenfromthecupboardabooktumbles,thenanother,thenanother。ThenMissJoneswouldsay:“Now,Jeremy,comebacktothetable。You’vehadquiteenoughtime——“interruptedbyaperfectavalancheofbooks。Marycrying:

  “Oh,Jeremy!“Jeremycrying:“Ididn’t;itwasyou!“MissJones:

  “Now,children——“

  ThenJeremy,verypolitely:

  “Please,MissJones,mayIhelpMarytopickthebooksup?Thereareratheralot。“Then,bothontheirknees,morewhispersandgiggles。

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