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  Bertramwasnotquitehimselfthatnight。Billyadmittedthem。Shehadplainlybeenwatchingandwaiting。Arkwrightneverforgotthelookonherfaceashereyesmethis。Therewasacuriousmixtureofterror,hurtpride,relief,andshame,overtoppedbyafierceloyaltywhichalmostseemedtosayaloudthewords:Don’tyoudaretoblamehim!’

  Arkwright’sheartachedwithsympathyandadmirationattheproudlycourageouswayinwhichBillycarriedoffthenextfewpainfulminutes。Evenwhenhebadehergoodnightalittlelater,onlyhereyessaidthankyou。’Herlipsweredumb。

  ArkwrightoftenwenthomewithBertramafterthat。Notthatitwasalwaysnecessary——

  farfromit。Sometime,indeed,elapsedbeforehehadquitethesameexcuseagainforhispresence。

  ButhehadfoundthatoccasionallyhecouldgetBertramhomeearlierbyadroitsuggestionsofonekindoranother;andmoreandmorefrequentlyhewassucceedingingettinghimhomeforagameofchess。

  Bertramlikedchess,andwasafineplayer。

  Sincebreakinghisarmhehadturnedtogameswiththefeverisheagernessofonewholooksforsomethingabsorbingtofillanunrestfulmind。

  ItwasSeaver’sskillinchessthathadatfirstattractedBertramtothemanlongago;butBertramcouldbeathimeasily——tooeasilyformuchpleasureinitnow。Sotheydidnotplaychessoftenthesedays。Bertramhadfoundthat,inspiteofhisinjury,hecouldstilltakepartinothergames,andsomeofthem,ifnotsointricateaschess,wereatleastmoreapttotakehismindoffhimself,especiallyiftherewereabitofmoneyuptoaddzestandinterest。

  Asithappened,however,BertramlearnedonedaythatArkwrightcouldplaychess——andplaywell,too,ashediscoveredaftertheirfirstgametogether。ThisfactcontributednotalittletosuchsuccessasArkwrightwashavinginhiseffortstoweanBertramfromhisundesirablecompanions;forBertramsoonfoundoutthatArkwrightwasmorethanamatchforhimself,andtheoccasionalgameshedidsucceedinwinningonlywhettedhisappetiteformore。

  Manyaneveningnow,therefore,wasspentbythetwomeninBertram’sden,withBillyanxiouslyhoveringnear,hereyeslonginglywatchingeitherherhusband’sabsorbedfaceortheprettylittleredandwhiteivoryfigures,whichseemedtopossesssowonderfulapowertoholdhisattention。Inspiteofherjoyatthechessmen’sefficacyinkeepingBertramathome,however,shewasalmostjealousofthem。

  Mr。Arkwright,couldn’tyoushow_me_howtoplay,sometime?’shesaidwistfully,oneevening,whenthemomentaryabsenceofBertramhadleftthetwoalonetogether。IusedtowatchBertramandMarieplayyearsago;butIneverknewhowtoplaymyself。NotthatI

  canseewherethefunisinjustsittingstaringatachessboardforhalfanhouratatime,though!

  ButBertramlikesit,andsoI——Iwanttolearntostarewithhim。Willyouteachme?’

  Ishouldbegladto,’smiledArkwright。

  Thenwillyoucome,maybe,sometimeswhenBertramisatthedoctor’s?HegoeseveryTuesdayandFridayatthreeo’clockfortreatment。

  I’dratheryoucamethenfortworeasons:

  first,becauseIdon’twantBertramtoknowI’mlearning,tillIcanplay_some_;and,secondly,because——becauseIdon’twanttotakeyouaway——fromhim。’

  Thelastwordswerespokenverylow,andwereaccompaniedbyapainfulblush。ItwasthefirsttimeBillyhadeverhintedtoArkwright,inwords,thatsheunderstoodwhathewastryingtodo。

  I’llcomenextTuesday,’promisedArkwright,withacheerfullyunobservantair。ThenBertramcamein,bringingthebookofChessProblems,forwhichhehadgoneup-stairs。

  Promptlyatthreeo’clockTuesdayafternoonArkwrightappearedattheStrata,andforthenexthourBillydidherbesttolearnthenamesandthemovesoftheprettylittleivorymen。

  Butattheendofthehourshewasalmostreadytogiveupindespair。

  Ifthereweren’tsomanykinds,andiftheydidn’tallinsistondoingsomethingdifferent,itwouldn’tbesobad,’shesighed。Buthowcanyoubeexpectedtorememberwhichgoesdiagonal,andwhichcrisscross,andwhichcan’tgobutonesquare,andwhichcanskip’wayacrosstheboard,’speciallywhenthatlittlepawn-thingcangostraightahead_two_squaressometimes,andthenextminuteonlyoneexceptwhenittakesthings,andthenitgoescrookedonesquare

  andwhenthattiresomelittlehorsetriestogoallwaysatonce,andcanjump’roundandhurdleover_anybody’s_head,eventheking’s——howcanyouexpectfolkstoremember?But,then,Bertramremembers,’sheadded,resolutely,soI

  guessIcan。’

  Wheneverpossible,afterthat,ArkwrightcameonTuesdaysandFridays,and,inspiteofherdoubts,Billydidverysoonbegintoremember。’

  SpurredbyhergreatdesiretoplaywithBertramandsurprisehim,Billysparednopainstolearnwellherlessons。Evenamongthebaby’sbooksandplaythingsthesedaysmightbefoundaManualofChess,’forBillypursuedherstudyatallhours;andsomenightsevenherdreamswereofruined,castleswherekingsandqueensandbishopsdisportedthemselves,withpawnsforservants,andwhereaweirdknightonhorsebackusedthecastle’shighesttowerforahurdle,landingalwaysahundredyardstoonesideofwherehewouldbeexpectedtocomedown。

  Itwasnotlong,ofcourse,beforeBillycouldplayagameofchess,afterafashion,butsheknewjustenoughtorealizethatsheactuallyknewnothing;andsheknew,too,thatuntilshecouldplayareallygoodgame,hermoveswouldnotholdBertram’sattentionforoneminute。

  Notatpresent,therefore,wasshewillingBertramshouldknowwhatshewasattemptingtodo。

  BillyhadnotyetlearnedwhatthegreatsurgeonhadsaidtoBertram。Sheknewonlythathisarmwasnobetter,andthathenevervoluntarilyspokeofhispainting。Overhernowseemedtobehangingavaguehorror。Somethingwasthematter。Sheknewthat。Butwhatitwasshecouldnotfathom。SherealizedthatArkwrightwastryingtohelp,andhergratitude,thoughsilent,knewnobounds。NoteventoAuntHannahorUncleWilliamcouldshespeakofthisthingthatwastroublingher。Thatthey,too,understood,inameasure,sherealized。Butstillshesaidnoword。Billywaswearingaproudlittleairofaloofnessthesedaysthatwasheart-

  breakingtothosewhosawitandreaditarightforwhatitwas:loyaltytoBertram,nomatterwhathappened。AndsoBillyporedoverherchessboardfeverishly,tirelessly,havingeverbeforeherlongingeyesthedeartimewhenBertram,acrossthetablefromher,shouldsithappilystaringforhalfanhouratamoveshehadmade。

  WhateverBilly’schess-playingwastosignify,however,inherownlife,itwasdestinedtoplayapartinthelivesoftwofriendsofhersthatwasmostunexpected。

  DuringBilly’sveryfirstlesson,asitchanced,AliceGreggorycalledandfoundBillyandArkwrightsoabsorbedintheirgamethattheydidnotatfirsthearElizaspeakhername。

  ThequickcolorthatflewtoArkwright’sfaceatsightofherselfwasconstruedatoncebyAliceasembarrassmentonhispartatbeingfoundtte--ttewithBertramHenshaw’swife。Andshedidnotlikeit。Shewasnotpleasedthathewasthere。Shewaslesspleasedthatheblushedforbeingthere。

  ItsohappenedthatAlicefoundhimthereagainseveraltimes。Alicegaveapianolessonattwoo’clockeveryTuesdayandFridayafternoontoalittleBeaconStreetneighborofBilly’s,andshehadfallenintothehabitofsteppingintoseeBillyforafewminutesafterward,whichbroughtherthereatalittlepastthree,justafterthechesslessonwaswellstarted。

  If,thefirsttimethatAliceGreggoryfoundArkwrightoppositeBillyatthechess-table,shewassurprisedanddispleased,thesecondandthirdtimesshewasmuchmoreso。Whenitfinallycametoheronedaywithsickeningillumination,thatalwaysthette--tteswereduringBertram’shouratthedoctor’s,shewasappalled。

  Whatcoulditmean?HadArkwrightgivenuphisfight?WasheplayingfalsetohimselfandtoBertrambytryingthus,onthesly,towintheloveofhisfriend’swife?Wasthisman,whomshehadsoadmiredforhisbravestand,andtowhomallunaskedshehadgivenherheart’sbestlovemorethepityofit!——wasthisidolofherstoshowfeetofclay,afterall?Shecouldnotbelieveit。Andyet——

  Sickatheart,butimbuedwiththedeterminationofarighteouscause,AliceGreggoryresolved,forBilly’ssake,towatchandwait。Ifnecessarysheshouldspeaktosomeone——thoughtowhomshedidnotknow。Billy’shappinessshouldnotbeputinjeopardyifshecouldhelpit。

  Indeed,no!

  Astheweekspassed,Alicecametobemoreandmoreuneasy,distressed,andgrieved。OfBillyshecouldbelievenoevil;butofArkwrightshewasbeginningtothinkshecouldbelieveeverythingthatwasdishonorableanddespicable。

  Andtobelievethatofthemanshestillloved——

  nowonderthatAlicedidnotlooknoractlikeherselfthesedays。

  Incensedatherselfbecauseshedidlovehim,angryathimbecauseheseemedtobeprovinghimselfsounworthyofthatlove,andgenuinelyfrightenedatwhatshethoughtwasthefast-

  approachingwreckofallhappinessforherdearfriend,Billy,Alicedidnotknowwhichwaytoturn。Atthefirstshehadtoldherselfconfidentlythatshewouldspeaktosomebody。’But,astimepassed,shesawtheimpracticabilityofthatidea。Speaktosomebody,indeed!Towhom?

  When?Where?Whatshouldshesay?Wherewasherrighttosayanything?Shewasnotdealingwithaparcelofnaughtychildrenwhohadpilferedthecakejar!Shewasdealingwithgrownmenandwomen,who,presumedly,knewtheirownaffairs,andwho,certainly,wouldresentanyinterferencefromher。Ontheotherhand,couldshestandcalmlybyandseeBertramlosehiswife,Arkwrighthishonor,Billyherhappiness,andherselfherfaithinhumannature,allbecausetodootherwisewouldbetomeddleinotherpeople’sbusiness?Apparentlyshecould,andshould。Atleastthatseemedtobetherlewhichshewasexpectedtoplay。

  ItwaswhenAlicehadreachedthisunhappyframeofmindthatArkwrighthimselfunexpectedlyopenedthedoorforher。

  ThetwowerealonetogetherinBertramHenshaw’sden。ItwasTuesdayafternoon。AlicehadcalledtofindBillyandArkwrightdeepintheirusualgameofchess。ThenamatterofdomesticaffairshadtakenBillyfromtheroom。

  I’mafraidI’llhavetobegonetenminutes,ormore,’shehadsaid,assherosefromthetablereluctantly。ButyoumightbeshowingAlicethemoves,Mr。Arkwright,’shehadadded,withalaugh,asshedisappeared。

  ShallIteachyouthemoves?’hehadsmiled,whentheywerealonetogether。

  Alice’sreplyhadbeensoindignantlyshortandsharpthatArkwright,afteramoment’spause,hadsaid,withawhimsicalsmilethatyetcarriedatouchofsadness:

  Iamforcedtosurmisefromyouranswerthatyouthinkitis_you_whoshouldbeteaching_me_moves。Atallevents,Iseemtohavebeenmakingsomemoveslatelythathavenotsuitedyou,judgingbyyouractions。HaveIoffendedyouinanyway,Alice?’

  Thegirlturnedwithaquickliftingofherhead。

  Aliceknewthatifeversheweretospeak,itmustbenow。Neveragaincouldshehopeforsuchanopportunityasthis。Suddenlythrowingcircumspectcautionquiteaside,shedeterminedthatshewouldspeak。SpringingtoherfeetshecrossedtheroomandseatedherselfinBilly’schairatthechess-table。

  Me!Offendme!’sheexclaimed,inalowvoice。AsifIweretheoneyouwereoffending!’

  Why,_Alice!_’murmuredtheman,inobviousstupefaction。

  Aliceraisedherhand,palmoutward。

  Nowdon’t,_please_don’tpretendyoudon’tknow,’shebegged,almostpiteously。Pleasedon’taddthattoalltherest。Oh,Iunderstand,ofcourse,it’snoneofmyaffairs,andIwasn’tgoingtospeak,’shechoked;but,to-day,whenyougavemethischance,Ihadto。AtfirstI

  couldn’tbelieveit,’sheplungedon,plainlyhurryingagainstBilly’sreturn。Afterallyou’dtoldmeofhowyoumeanttofightit——yourtigerskin。AndIthoughtitmerely_happened_

  thatyouwereherealonewithherthosedaysI

  came。Then,whenIfoundouttheywere_always_

  thedaysMr。Henshawwasawayatthedoctor’s,Ihadtobelieve。’

  Shestoppedforbreath。Arkwright,who,uptothismomenthadshownthathewascompletelymystifiedastowhatshewastalkingabout,suddenlyflushedapainfulred。Hewasobviouslyabouttospeak,butshepreventedhimwithaquickgesture。

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