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  IfithadnotbeenforLaurie,andoldEsther,themaid,shefeltthatshenevercouldhavegotthroughthatdreadfultime。Theparrotalonewasenoughtodriveherdistracted,forhesoonfeltthatshedidnotadmirehim,andrevengedhimselfbybeingasmischievousaspossible。Hepulledherhairwhenevershecamenearhim,upsethisbreadandmilktoplagueherwhenshehadnewlycleanedhiscage,madeMopbarkbypeckingathimwhileMadamdozed,calledhernamesbeforecompany,andbehavedinallrespectslikeanreprehensibleoldbird。Thenshecouldnotendurethedog,afat,crossbeastwhosnarledandyelpedatherwhenshemadehistoilet,andwholayonhisbackwithallhislegsintheairandamostidioticexpressionofcountenancewhenhewantedsomethingtoeat,whichwasaboutadozentimesaday。Thecookwasbad-tempered,theoldcoachmanwasdeaf,andEsthertheonlyonewhoevertookanynoticeoftheyounglady。

  EstherwasaFrenchwoman,whohadlivedwith`Madame’,asshecalledhermistress,formanyyears,andwhorathertyrannizedovertheoldlady,whocouldnotgetalongwithouther。

  HerrealnamewasEstelle,butAuntMarchorderedhertochangeit,andsheobeyed,onconditionthatshewasneveraskedtochangeherreligion。ShetookafancytoMademoiselle,andamusedherverymuchwithoddstoriesofherlifeinFrance,whenAmysatwithherwhileshegotupMadam’slaces。Shealsoallowedhertoroamaboutthegreathouse,andexaminethecuriousandprettythingsstoredawayinthebigwardrobesandtheancientchests,forAuntMarchhoardedlikeamagpie。Amy’schiefdelightwasanIndiancabinet,fullofqueerdrawers,littlepigeonholes,andsecretplaces,inwhichwerekeptallsortsofornaments,someprecious,somemerelycurious,allmoreorlessantique。

  ToexamineandarrangethesethingsgaveAmygreatsatisfaction,especiallythejewelcases,inwhichonvelvetcushionsreposedtheornamentswhichhadadornedabellefortyyearsago。TherewasthegarnetsetwhichAuntMarchworewhenshecameout,thepearlsherfathergaveheronherweddingday,herlover’sdiamonds,thejetmourningringsandpins,thequeerlockets,withportraitsofdeadfriendsandweepingwillowsmadeofhairinside,thebabybraceletsheronelittledaughterhadworn,UncleMarch’sbigwatch,withtheredsealsomanychildishhandshadplayedwith,andinaboxallbyitselflayAuntMarch’sweddingring,toosmallnowforherfatfinger,butputcarefullyawaylikethemostpreciousjewelofthemall。

  “WhichwouldMademoisellechooseifshehadherwill?“askedEsther,woalwayssatneartowatchoverandlockupthevaluables。

  “Ilikethediamondsbest,butthereisnonecklaceamongthem,andI’mfondofnecklaces,theyaresobecoming。IshouldchoosethisifImight,“repliedAmy,lookingwithgreatadmirationatastringofgoldandebonybeadsfromwhichhungaheavycrossofthesame。

  “I,too,covetthat,butnotasanecklace。Ah,no!Tomeitisarosary,andassuchIshoulduseitlikeagoodcatholic,“saidEsther,eyeingthehandsomethingwistfully。

  “Isitmeanttouseasyouusethestringofgood-smellingwoodenbeadshangingoveryourglass?“askedAmy。

  “Truly,yes,topraywith。Itwouldbepleasingtothesaintsifoneusedsofinearosaryasthis,insteadofwearingitasavainbijou。“

  “Youseemtotakeagreatdealofcomfortinyourprayers,Esther,andalwayscomedownlookingquietandsatisfied。IwishIcould。“

  “IfMademoisellewasaCatholic,shewouldfindtruecomfort,butasthatisnottobe,itwouldbewellifyouwentaparteachdaytomeditateandpray,asdidthegoodmistresswhomIservedbeforeMadame。Shehadalittlechapel,andinitfoundsolacementformuchtrouble。“

  “Woulditberightformetodosotoo?“askedAmy,whoinherlonelinessfelttheneedofhelpofsomesort,andfoundthatshewasapttoforgetherlittlebook,nowthatBethwasnottheretoremindherofit。

  “Itwouldbeexcellentandcharming,andIshallgladlyarrangethelittledressingroomforyouifyoulikeit。SaynothingtoMadame,butwhenshesleepsgoyouandsitaloneawhiletothinkgoodthoughts,andpraythedearGodpreserveyoursister。“

  Estherwastrulypious,andquitesincereinheradvice,forshehadanaffectionateheart,andfeltmuchforthesistersintheiranxiety。Amylikedtheidea,andgaveherleavetoarrangethelightclosetnextherroom,hopingitwoulddohergood。

  “IwishIknewwherealltheseprettythingswouldgowhenAuntMarchdies,“shesaid,assheslowlyreplacedtheshiningrosaryandshutthejewelcasesonebyone。

  “Toyouandyoursisters。Iknowit,Madameconfidesinme。

  Iwitnessedherwill,anditistobeso,“whisperedEsthersmiling。

  “Hownice!ButIwishshe’dletushavethemnow。

  Procrastinationisnotagreeable,“observedAmy,takingalastlookatthediamonds。

  “Itistoosoonyetfortheyoungladiestowearthesethings。

  Thefirstonewhoisaffiancedwillhavethepearls,Madamehassaidit,andIhaveafancythatthelittleturquoiseringwillbegiventoyouwhenyougo,forMadameapprovesyourgoodbehaviorandcharmingmanners。“

  “Doyouthinkso?Oh,I’llbealamb,ifIcanonlyhavethatlovelyring!It’seversomuchprettierthanKittyBryant’s。

  IdolikeAuntMarchafterall。“AndAmytriedontheblueringwithadelightedfaceandafirmresolvetoearnit。

  Fromthatdayshewasamodelofobedience,andtheoldladycomplacentlyadmiredthesuccessofhertraining。Estherfitteduptheclosetwithalittletable,placedafootstoolbeforeit,andoveritapicturetakenfromoneoftheshut-uprooms。Shethoughtitwasofnogreatvalue,but,beingappropriate,sheborrowedit,wellknowingthatMadamewouldneverknowit,norcareifshedid。Itwas,however,averyvaluablecopyofoneofthefamouspicturesoftheworld,andAmy’sbeauty-lovingeyeswerenevertiredoflookingupatthesweetfaceoftheDivineMother,whilehertenderthoughtsofherownwerebusyatherheart。Onthetableshelaidherlittletestamentandhymnbook,keptavasealwaysfullofthebestflowersLauriebroughther,andcameeverydayto`sitalone’thinkinggoodthoughts,andprayingthedearGodtopreservehersister。Estherhadgivenherarosaryofblackbeadswithasilvercross,butAmyhungitupanddidnotuseit,feelingdoubtfulastoitsfitnessforProtestantprayers。

  Thelittlegirlwasverysincereinallthis,forbeingleftaloneoutsidethesafehomenest,shefelttheneedofsomekindhandtoholdbysosorelythatsheinstinctivelyturnedtothestrongandtenderFriend,whosefatherlylovemostcloselysurroundsHislittlechildren。Shemissedhermother’shelptounderstandandruleherself,buthavingbeentaughtwheretolook,shedidherbesttofindthewayandwalkinitconfidingly。ButAmywasayoungpilgrim,andjustnowherburdenseemedveryheavy。

  Shetriedtoforgetherself,tokeepcheerful,andbesatisfiedwithdoingright,thoughnoonesaworpraisedherforit。Inherfirsteffortatbeingvery,verygood,shedecidedtomakeherwill,asAuntMarchhaddone,sothatifshedidfallillanddie,herpossessionsmightbejustlyandgenerouslydivided。Itcostherapangeventothinkofgivingupthelittletreasureswhichinhereyeswereaspreciousastheoldlady’sjewels。

  Duringoneofherplayhoursshewroteouttheimportantdocumentaswellasshecould,withsomehelpfromEstherastocertainlegalterms,andwhenthegood-naturedFrenchwomanhadsignedhername,AmyfeltrelievedandlaiditbytoshowLaurie,whomshewantedasasecondwitness。Asitwasarainyday,shewentupstairstoamuseherselfinoneofthelargechambers,andtookPollywithherforcompany。Inthisroomtherewasawardrobefullofold-fashionedcostumeswithwhichEstherallowedhertoplay,anditwasherfavoriteamusementtoarrayherselfinthefadedbrocades,andparadeupanddownbeforethelongmirror,makingstatelycurtsies,andsweepinghertrainaboutwitharustlewhichdelightedherears。SobusywassheonthisdaythatshedidnothearLaurie’sringnorseehisfacepeepinginatherasshegravelypromenadedtoandfro,flirtingherfanandtossingherhead,onwhichsheworeagreatpinkturban,contrastingoddlywithherbluebrocadedressandyellowquiltedpetticoat。Shewasobligedtowalkcarefully,forshehadonhighheeledshoes,and,asLaurietoldJoafterward,itwasacomicalsighttoseehermincealonginhergaysuit,withPollysidilngandbridlingjustbehindher,imitatingheraswellashecould,andoccasionallystoppingtolaughorexclaim,“Ain’twefine?

  Getalong,youfright!Holdyourtongue!Kissme,dear!

  Ha!Ha!“

  Havingwithdifficultyrestrainedanexplosionofmerriment,lestitshouldoffendhermajesty,Laurietappedandwasgraciouslyreceived。

  “SitdownandrestwhileIputthesethingsaway,thenIwanttoconsultyouaboutaveryseriousmatter,“saidAmy,whenshehadshownhersplendoranddrivenPollyintoacorner。“Thatbirdisthetrialofmylife,“shecontinued,removingthepinkmountainfromherhead,whileLaurieseatedhimselfastrideachair。

  “Yesterday,whenAuntwasasleepandIwastryingtobeasstillasamouse,Pollybegantosquallandflapaboutinhiscage,soIwenttolethimout,andfoundabigspiderthere。Ipokeditout,anditranunderthebookcase。Pollymarchedstraightafterit,stoopeddownandpeepedunderthebookcase,saying,inhisfunnyway,withacockofhiseye,`Comeoutandtakeawalk,mydear。’Icouldn’thelplaughing,whichmadePollswear,andAuntwokeupandscoldedusboth。“

  “Didthespideraccepttheoldfellow’sinvitation?“askedLaurie,yawning。

  “Yes,outitcame,andawayranPolly,frightenedtodeath,andscrambleduponAunt’schair,callingout,`Catchher!Catchher!

  Catchher!’asIchasedthespider。“

  “That’salie!Oh,lor!“criedtheparrot,peckingatLaurie’stoes。

  “I’dwringyourneckifyouweremine,youoldtorment,“criedLaurie,shakinghisfistatthebird,whoputhisheadononesideandgravelycroaked,“Allyluyer!Blessyourbuttons,dear!“

  “NowI’mready,“saidAmy,shuttingthewardrobeandtakingapieceofpaperoutofherpocket。“Iwantyoutoreadthat,please,andtellmeifitislegalandright。IfeltIoughttodoit,forlifeisuncertainandIdon’twantanyillfeelingovermytomb。“

  Lauriebithislips,andturningalittlefromthepensivespeaker,readthefollowingdocument,withpraiseworthygravity,consideringthespelling:

  MYLASTWILLANDTESTIMENT

  I,AmyCurtisMarch,beinginmysanemind,gogiveandbequeetheallmyearthlyproperty——viz。towit:——namelyTomyfather,mybestpictures,sketches,maps,andworksofart,includingframes。Alsomy$100,todowhathelikeswith。

  Tomymother,allmyclothes,excepttheblueapronwithpockets——alsomylikeness,andmymedal,withmuchlove。

  TomydearsisterMargaret,IgivemyturkquoiseringifI

  getit,alsomygreenboxwiththedovesonit,alsomy;pieceofreallaceforherneck,andmysketchofherasamemorialofher’littlegirl’。

  ToJoIleavemybreastpin,theonemendedwithsealingwax,alsomybronzeinkstand——shelostthecover——andmymostpreciousplasterrabbit,becauseIamsorryIburnedupherstory。

  ToBethifshelivesaftermeIgivemydollsandthelittlebureau,myfan,mylinencollarsandmynewslippersifshecanwearthembeingthinwhenshegetswell。AndIherewithalsoleavehermyregretthatIevermadefunofoldJoanna。

  TomyfriendandneighborTheodoreLaurenceIbequeethemypapermashayportfolio,myclaymodelofahorsethoughhedidsayithadn’tanyneck。Alsoinreturnforhisgreatkindnessinthehourofafflictionanyoneofmyartisticworkshelikes,NoterDameisthebest。

  ToourvenerablebenefactorMr。LaurenceIleavemypurpleboxwithalookingglassinthecoverwhichwillbeniceforhispensandremindhimofthedepartedgirlwhothankshimforhisfavorstoherfamily,especiallyBeth。

  IwishmyfavoriteplaymateKittyBryanttohavethebluesilkapronandmygold-beadringwithakiss。

  ToHannahIgivethebandboxshewantedandallthepatchworkIleavehopingshe`willrememberme,whenityousee’。

  AndnowhavingdisposedofmymostvaluablepropertyIhopeallwillbesatisfiedandnotblamethedead。Iforgiveeveryone,andtrustwemayallmeetwhenthetrumpshallsound。Amen。

  TothiswillandtestimentIsetmyhandandsealonthis20thdayofNov。AnniDomino1861。

  AmyCurtisMarchWitnesses:

  EstelleValnor,TheodoreLaurence。

  Thelastnamewaswritteninpencil,andAmyexplainedthathewastorewriteitininkandsealitupforherproperly。

  “Whatputitintoyourhead?DidanyonetellyouaboutBeth’sgivingawayherthings?“askedLauriesoberly,asAmylaidabitofredtape,withsealingwax,ataper,andastandishbeforehim。

  Sheexplainedandthenaskedanxiously,“WhataboutBeth?“

  “I’msorryIspoke,butasIdid,I’lltellyou。ShefeltsoillonedaythatshetoldJoshewantedtogiveherpianotoMeg,hercatstoyou,andthepoorolddolltoJo,whowouldloveitforhersake。Shewassorryshehadsolittletogive,andleftlocksofhairtotherestofus,andherbestlovetoGrandpa。Sheneverthoughtofawill。“

  Lauriewassigningandsealingashespoke,anddidnotlookuptillagreatteardroppedonthepaper。Amy’sfacewasfulloftrouble,butsheonlysaid,“Don’tpeopleputsortofpostscriptstotheirwills,sometimes?“

  “Yes,`codicils’,theycallthem。“

  “Putoneinminethen,thatIwishallmycurlscutoff,andgivenroundtomyfriends。Iforgotit,butIwantitdonethoughitwillspoilmylooks。“

  Laurieaddedit,smilingatAmy’slastandgreatestsacrifice。

  Thenheamusedherforanhour,andwasmuchinterestedinallhertrials。Butwhenhecametogo,Amyheldhimbacktowhisperwithtremblinglips,“IstherereallyanydangeraboutBeth?“

  “I’mafraidthereis,butwemusthopeforthebest,sodon’tcry,dear。“AndLaurieputhisarmaboutherwithabrotherlygesturewhichwasverycomforting。

  Whenhehadgone,shewenttoherlittlechapel,andsittinginthetwilight,prayedforBeth,withstreamingtearsandanachingheart,feelingthatamillionturquoiseringswouldnotconsoleherforthelossofhergentlelittlesister。

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