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  Rigaudchinkedthemoney,weigheditinhishand,threwitupalittlewayandcaughtit,chinkeditagain。

  ’Thesoundofit,totheboldRigaudBlandois,islikethetasteoffreshmeattothetiger。Say,then,madame。Howmuch?’

  Heturneduponhersuddenlywithamenacinggestureoftheweightedhandthatclenchedthemoney,asifheweregoingtostrikeherwithit。

  ’Itellyouagain,asItoldyoubefore,thatwearenotrichhere,asyousupposeustobe,andthatyourdemandisexcessive。Ihavenotthepresentmeansofcomplyingwithsuchademand,ifIhadeversogreataninclination。’

  ’If!’criedRigaud。’HearthisladywithherIf!Willyousaythatyouhavenottheinclination?’

  ’Iwillsaywhatpresentsitselftome,andnotwhatpresentsitselftoyou。’

  ’Sayitthen。Astotheinclination。Quick!Cometotheinclination,andIknowwhattodo。’

  Shewasnoquicker,andnoslower,inherreply。’Itwouldseemthatyouhaveobtainedpossessionofapaper——orofpapers——whichIassuredlyhavetheinclinationtorecover。’

  Rigaud,withaloudlaugh,drummedhisheelsagainstthetable,andchinkedhismoney。’Ithinkso!Ibelieveyouthere!’

  ’Thepapermightbeworth,tome,asumofmoney。Icannotsayhowmuch,orhowlittle。’

  ’WhattheDevil!’heaskedsavagely。’Notafteraweek’sgracetoconsider?’

  ’No!Iwillnotoutofmyscantymeans——forItellyouagain,wearepoorhere,andnotrich——IwillnotofferanypriceforapowerthatIdonotknowtheworstandthefullestextentof。Thisisthethirdtimeofyourhintingandthreatening。Youmustspeakexplicitly,oryoumaygowhereyouwill,anddowhatyouwill。Itisbettertobetorntopiecesataspring,thantobeamouseatthecapriceofsuchacat。’

  Helookedathersohardwiththoseeyestooneartogetherthatthesinistersightofeach,crossingthatoftheother,seemedtomakethebridgeofhishookednosecrooked。Afteralongsurvey,hesaid,withthefurthersettingoffofhisinternalsmile:

  ’Youareaboldwoman!’

  ’Iamaresolvedwoman。’

  ’Youalwayswere。What?Shealwayswas;isitnotso,mylittleFlintwinch?’

  ’Flintwinch,saynothingtohim。Itisforhimtosay,hereandnow,allhecan;ortogohence,anddoallhecan。Youknowthistobeourdetermination。Leavehimtohisactiononit。’

  Shedidnotshrinkunderhisevilleer,oravoidit。Heturnedituponheragain,butsheremainedsteadyatthepointtowhichshehadfixedherself。Hegotoffthetable,placedachairnearthesofa,satdowninit,andleanedanarmuponthesofaclosetoherown,whichhetouchedwithhishand。Herfacewaseverfrowning,attentive,andsettled。

  ’Itisyourpleasurethen,madame,thatIshallrelateamorseloffamilyhistoryinthislittlefamilysociety,’saidRigaud,withawarningplayofhislithefingersonherarm。’Iamsomethingofadoctor。Letmetouchyourpulse。’

  Shesufferedhimtotakeherwristinhishand。Holdingit,heproceededtosay:

  ’Ahistoryofastrangemarriage,andastrangemother,andarevenge,andasuppression——Aye,aye,aye?thispulseisbeatingcuriously!ItappearstomethatitdoubleswhileItouchit。Arethesetheusualchangesofyourmalady,madame?’

  Therewasastruggleinhermaimedarmasshetwisteditaway,buttherewasnoneinherface。Onhisfacetherewashisownsmile。

  ’Ihavelivedanadventurouslife。Iamanadventurouscharacter。

  Ihaveknownmanyadventurers;interestingspirits——amiablesociety!TooneofthemIowemyknowledgeandmyproofs——Irepeatit,estimablelady——proofs——oftheravishinglittlefamilyhistoryIgotocommence。Youwillbecharmedwithit。But,bah!I

  forget。Oneshouldnameahistory。ShallInameitthehistoryofahouse?But,bah,again。Therearesomanyhouses。ShallInameitthehistoryofthishouse?’

  Leaningoverthesofa,poisedontwolegsofhischairandhisleftelbow;thathandoftentappingherarmtobeathiswordshome;hislegscrossed;hisrighthandsometimesarranginghishair,sometimessmoothinghismoustache,sometimesstrikinghisnose,alwaysthreateningherwhateveritdid;coarse,insolent,rapacious,cruel,andpowerful,hepursuedhisnarrativeathisease。

  ’Infine,then,Inameitthehistoryofthishouse。Icommenceit。Therelivehere,letussuppose,anuncleandnephew。Theuncle,arigidoldgentlemanofstrongforceofcharacter;thenephew,habituallytimid,repressed,andunderconstraint。’

  MistressAffery,fixedlyattentiveinthewindow-seat,bitingtherolledupendofherapron,andtremblingfromheadtofoot,herecriedout,’Jeremiah,keepofffromme!I’veheerd,inmydreams,ofArthur’sfatherandhisuncle。He’satalkingofthem。Itwasbeforemytimehere;butI’veheerdinmydreamsthatArthur’sfatherwasapoor,irresolute,frightenedchap,whohadhadeverythingbuthisorphanlifescaredoutofhimwhenhewasyoung,andthathehadnovoiceinthechoiceofhiswifeeven,buthisunclechoseher。Thereshesits!Iheerditinmydreams,andyousaidittoherownself。’

  AsMrFlintwinchshookhisfistather,andasMrsClennamgazeduponher,Rigaudkissedhishandtoher。

  ’Perfectlyright,dearMadameFlintwinch。Youhaveageniusfordreaming。’

  ’Idon’twantnoneofyourpraises,’returnedAffery。’Idon’twanttohavenothingatalltosaytoyou。ButJeremiahsaidtheywasdreams,andI’lltell’emassuch!’Heresheputheraproninhermouthagain,asifshewerestoppingsomebodyelse’smouth——

  perhapsjeremiah’s,whichwaschatteringwiththreatsasifheweregrimlycold。

  ’OurbelovedMadameFlintwinch,’saidRigaud,’developingallofasuddenafinesusceptibilityandspirituality,isrighttoamarvel。Yes。Sorunsthehistory。Monsieur,theuncle,commandsthenephewtomarry。Monsieursaystohimineffect,“Mynephew,Iintroducetoyoualadyofstrongforceofcharacter,likemyself——aresolvedlady,asternlady,aladywhohasawillthatcanbreaktheweaktopowder:aladywithoutpity,withoutlove,implacable,revengeful,coldasthestone,butragingasthefire。“

  Ah!whatfortitude!Ah,whatsuperiorityofintellectualstrength!Truly,aproudandnoblecharacterthatIdescribeinthesupposedwordsofMonsieur,theuncle。Ha,ha,ha!Deathofmysoul,Ilovethesweetlady!’

  MrsClennam’sfacehadchanged。Therewasaremarkabledarknessofcolouronit,andthebrowwasmorecontracted。’Madame,madame,’

  saidRigaud,tappingheronthearm,asifhiscruelhandweresoundingamusicalinstrument,’IperceiveIinterestyou。I

  perceiveIawakenyoursympathy。Letusgoon。’

  Thedroopingnoseandtheascendingmoustachehad,however,tobehiddenforamomentwiththewhitehand,beforehecouldgoon;heenjoyedtheeffecthemadesomuch。

  ’Thenephew,being,asthelucidMadameFlintwinchhasremarked,apoordevilwhohashadeverythingbuthisorphanlifefrightenedandfamishedoutofhim——thenephewabaseshishead,andmakesresponse:“Myuncle,itistoyoutocommand。Doasyouwill!“

  Monsieur,theuncle,doesashewill。Itiswhathealwaysdoes。

  Theauspiciousnuptialstakeplace;thenewlymarriedcomehometothischarmingmansion;theladyisreceived,letussuppose,byFlintwinch。Hey,oldintriguer?’

  Jeremiah,withhiseyesuponhismistress,madenoreply。Rigaudlookedfromonetotheother,struckhisuglynose,andmadeacluckingwithhistongue。

  ’Soontheladymakesasingularandexcitingdiscovery。Thereupon,fullofanger,fullofjealousy,fullofvengeance,sheforms——seeyou,madame!——aschemeofretribution,theweightofwhichsheingeniouslyforceshercrushedhusbandtobearhimself,aswellasexecuteuponherenemy。Whatsuperiorintelligence!’

  ’Keepoff,Jeremiah!’criedthepalpitatingAffery,takingherapronfromhermouthagain。’Butitwasoneofmydreams,thatyoutoldher,whenyouquarrelledwithheronewintereveningatdusk——

  thereshesitsandyoulookingather——thatsheoughtn’ttohaveletArthurwhenhecomehome,suspecthisfatheronly;thatshehadalwayshadthestrengthandthepower;andthatsheoughttohavestoodupmoretoArthur,forhisfather。Itwasinthesamedreamwhereyousaidtoherthatshewasnot——notsomething,butIdon’tknowwhat,forsheburstouttremendousandstoppedyou。YouknowthedreamaswellasIdo。Whenyoucomedown-stairsintothekitchenwiththecandleinyourhand,andhitchedmyapronoffmyhead。WhenyoutoldmeIhadbeendreaming。Whenyouwouldn’tbelievethenoises。’AfterthisexplosionAfferyputherapronintohermouthagain;alwayskeepingherhandonthewindow-sillandherkneeonthewindow-seat,readytocryoutorjumpoutifherlordandmasterapproached。

  Rigaudhadnotlostawordofthis。

  ’Haha!’hecried,liftinghiseyebrows,foldinghisarms,andleaningbackinhischair。’Assuredly,MadameFlintwinchisanoracle!Howshallweinterprettheoracle,youandIandtheoldintriguer?Hesaidthatyouwerenot——?Andyouburstoutandstoppedhim!Whatwasityouwerenot?Whatisityouarenot?

  Saythen,madame!’

  Underthisferociousbanter,shesatbreathingharder,andhermouthwasdisturbed。Herlipsquiveredandopened,inspiteofherutmosteffortstokeepthemstill。

  ’Comethen,madame!Speak,then!Ouroldintriguersaidthatyouwerenot——andyoustoppedhim。Hewasgoingtosaythatyouwerenot——what?Iknowalready,butIwantalittleconfidencefromyou。How,then?Youarenotwhat?’

  Shetriedagaintorepressherself,butbrokeoutvehemently,’NotArthur’smother!’

  ’Good,’saidRigaud。’Youareamenable。’

  Withthesetexpressionofherfacealltornawaybytheexplosionofherpassion,andwithabursting,fromeveryrentfeature,ofthesmoulderingfiresolongpentup,shecriedout:’Iwilltellitmyself!Iwillnothearitfromyourlips,andwiththetaintofyourwickednessuponit。Sinceitmustbeseen,IwillhaveitseenbythelightIstoodin。Notanotherword。Hearme!’

  ’UnlessyouareamoreobstinateandmorepersistingwomanthanevenIknowyoutobe,’MrFlintwinchinterposed,’youhadbetterleaveMrRigaud,MrBlandois,MrBeelzebub,totellitinhisownway。Whatdoesitsignifywhenheknowsallaboutit?’

  ’Hedoesnotknowallaboutit。’

  ’Heknowsallhecaresaboutit,’MrFlintwinchtestilyurged。

  ’Hedoesnotknowme。’

  ’Whatdoyousupposehecaresforyou,youconceitedwoman?’saidMrFlintwinch。

  ’Itellyou,Flintwinch,Iwillspeak。Itellyouwhenithascometothis,Iwilltellitwithmyownlips,andwillexpressmyselfthroughoutit。What!HaveIsufferednothinginthisroom,nodeprivation,noimprisonment,thatIshouldcondescendatlasttocontemplatemyselfinsuchaglassasthat。Canyouseehim?Canyouhearhim?Ifyourwifewereahundredtimestheingratethatsheis,andifIwereathousandtimesmorehopelessthanIamofinducinghertobesilentifthismanissilenced,Iwouldtellitmyself,beforeIwouldbearthetormentofthehearingitfromhim。’

  Rigaudpushedhischairalittleback;pushedhislegsoutstraightbeforehim;andsatwithhisarmsfoldedoveragainsther。

  ’Youdonotknowwhatitis,’shewentonaddressinghim,’tobebroughtupstrictlyandstraitly。Iwassobroughtup。Minewasnolightyouthofsinfulgaietyandpleasure。Mineweredaysofwholesomerepression,punishment,andfear。Thecorruptionofourhearts,theevilofourways,thecursethatisuponus,theterrorsthatsurroundus——thesewerethethemesofmychildhood。

  Theyformedmycharacter,andfilledmewithanabhorrenceofevil-

  doers。WhenoldMrGilbertClennamproposedhisorphannephewtomyfatherformyhusband,myfatherimpresseduponmethathisbringing-uphadbeen,likemine,oneofsevererestraint。Hetoldme,thatbesidesthedisciplinehisspirithadundergone,hehadlivedinastarvedhouse,whereriotingandgaietywereunknown,andwhereeverydaywasadayoftoilandtriallikethelast。Hetoldmethathehadbeenamaninyearslongbeforehisunclehadacknowledgedhimasone;andthatfromhisschool-daystothathour,hisuncle’sroofhasbeenasanctuarytohimfromthecontagionoftheirreligiousanddissolute。When,withinatwelvemonthofourmarriage,Ifoundmyhusband,atthattimewhenmyfatherspokeofhim,tohavesinnedagainsttheLordandoutragedmebyholdingaguiltycreatureinmyplace,wasItodoubtthatithadbeenappointedtometomakethediscovery,andthatitwasappointedtometolaythehandofpunishmentuponthatcreatureofperdition?WasItodismissinamoment——notmyownwrongs——whatwasI!butalltherejectionofsin,andallthewaragainstit,inwhichIhadbeenbred?’Shelaidherwrathfulhanduponthewatchonthetable。

  ’No!“Donotforget。“Theinitialsofthosewordsarewithinherenow,andwerewithinherethen。Iwasappointedtofindtheoldletterthatreferredtothem,andthattoldmewhattheymeant,andwhoseworktheywere,andwhytheywereworked,lyingwiththiswatchinhissecretdrawer。Butforthatappointmenttherewouldhavebeennodiscovery。“Donotforget。“Itspoketomelikeavoicefromanangrycloud。Donotforgetthedeadlysin,donotforgettheappointeddiscovery,donotforgettheappointedsuffering。Ididnotforget。WasitmyownwrongIremembered?

  Mine!Iwasbutaservantandaminister。WhatpowercouldIhaveoverthem,butthattheywereboundinthebondsoftheirsin,anddeliveredtome!’

  Morethanfortyyearshadpassedoverthegreyheadofthisdeterminedwoman,sincethetimesherecalled。Morethanfortyyearsofstrifeandstrugglewiththewhisperthat,bywhatevernameshecalledhervindictiveprideandrage,nothingthroughalleternitycouldchangetheirnature。Yet,gonethosemorethanfortyyears,andcomethisNemesisnowlookingherintheface,shestillabidedbyheroldimpiety——stillreversedtheorderofCreation,andbreathedherownbreathintoaclayimageofherCreator。Verily,verily,travellershaveseenmanymonstrousidolsinmanycountries;butnohumaneyeshaveeverseenmoredaring,gross,andshockingimagesoftheDivinenaturethanwecreaturesofthedustmakeinourownlikenesses,ofourownbadpassions。

  ’WhenIforcedhimtogiveheruptome,byhernameandplaceofabode,’shewentoninhertorrentofindignationanddefence;

  ’whenIaccusedher,andshefellhidingherfaceatmyfeet,wasitmyinjurythatIasserted,weretheymyreproachesthatIpoureduponher?Thosewhowereappointedofoldtogotowickedkingsandaccusethem——weretheynotministersandservants?AndhadnotI,unworthyandfar-removedfromthem,sintodenounce?Whenshepleadedtomeheryouth,andhiswretchedandhardlifethatwasherphraseforthevirtuoustraininghehadbelied,andthe

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