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  shallIsaymypersonaldignity?Ladiesandgentlemen,Godblessyouall!’

  Bythistime,theexceedingmortificationundergonebytheBosomhadoccasionedthewithdrawalofthegreaterpartofthecompanyintootherrooms。Thefewwhohadlingeredthuslongfollowedtherest,andLittleDorritandherfatherwerelefttotheservantsandthemselves。Dearestandmostprecioustoher,hewouldcomewithhernow,wouldhenot?Herepliedtoherfervidentreaties,thathewouldneverbeabletogetupthenarrowstairswithoutBob;wherewasBob,wouldnobodyfetchBob?UnderpretenceoflookingforBob,shegothimoutagainstthestreamofgaycompanynowpouringinfortheeveningassembly,andgothimintoacoachthathadjustsetdownitsload,andgothimhome。

  ThebroadstairsofhisRomanpalacewerecontractedinhisfailingsighttothenarrowstairsofhisLondonprison;andhewouldsuffernoonebuthertotouchhim,hisbrotherexcepted。Theygothimuptohisroomwithouthelp,andlaidhimdownonhisbed。Andfromthathourhispoormaimedspirit,onlyrememberingtheplacewhereithadbrokenitswings,cancelledthedreamthroughwhichithadsincegroped,andknewofnothingbeyondtheMarshalsea。Whenheheardfootstepsinthestreet,hetookthemfortheoldwearytreadintheyards。Whenthehourcameforlockingup,hesupposedallstrangerstobeexcludedforthenight。Whenthetimeforopeningcameagain,hewassoanxioustoseeBob,thattheywerefaintopatchupanarrativehowthatBob——manyayeardeadthen,gentleturnkey——hadtakencold,buthopedtobeoutto-morrow,orthenextday,orthenextatfurthest。

  Hefellawayintoaweaknesssoextremethathecouldnotraisehishand。Buthestillprotectedhisbrotheraccordingtohislongusage;andwouldsaywithsomecomplacency,fiftytimesaday,whenhesawhimstandingbyhisbed,’MygoodFrederick,sitdown。Youareveryfeebleindeed。’

  TheytriedhimwithMrsGeneral,buthehadnotthefaintestknowledgeofher。Someinjurioussuspicionlodgeditselfinhisbrain,thatshewantedtosupplantMrsBangham,andthatshewasgiventodrinking。Hechargedherwithitinnomeasuredterms;

  andwassourgentwithhisdaughtertogoroundtotheMarshalandentreathimtoturnherout,thatshewasneverreproducedafterthefirstfailure。

  Savingthatheonceasked’ifTiphadgoneoutside?’theremembranceofhistwochildrennotpresentseemedtohavedepartedfromhim。Butthechildwhohaddonesomuchforhimandhadbeensopoorlyrepaid,wasneveroutofhismind。Notthathesparedher,orwasfearfulofherbeingspentbywatchingandfatigue;hewasnotmoretroubledonthatscorethanhehadusuallybeen。No;

  helovedherinhisoldway。Theywereinthejailagain,andshetendedhim,andhehadconstantneedofher,andcouldnotturnwithouther;andheeventoldher,sometimes,thathewascontenttohaveundergoneagreatdealforhersake。Astoher,shebentoverhisbedwithherquietfaceagainsthis,andwouldhavelaiddownherownlifetorestorehim。

  Whenhehadbeensinkinginthispainlesswayfortwoorthreedays,sheobservedhimtobetroubledbythetickingofhiswatch——

  apompousgoldwatchthatmadeasgreatato-doaboutitsgoingasifnothingelsewentbutitselfandTime。Shesufferedittorundown;buthewasstilluneasy,andshowedthatwasnotwhathewanted。Atlengthherousedhimselftoexplainthathewantedmoneytoberaisedonthiswatch。Hewasquitepleasedwhenshepretendedtotakeitawayforthepurpose,andafterwardshadarelishforhislittletastesofwineandjelly,thathehadnothadbefore。

  Hesoonmadeitplainthatthiswasso;for,inanotherdayortwohesentoffhissleeve-buttonsandfinger-rings。Hehadanamazingsatisfactioninentrustingherwiththeseerrands,andappearedtoconsideritequivalenttomakingthemostmethodicalandprovidentarrangements。Afterhistrinkets,orsuchofthemashehadbeenabletoseeabouthim,weregone,hisclothesengagedhisattention;anditisaslikelyasnotthathewaskeptaliveforsomedaysbythesatisfactionofsendingthem,piecebypiece,toanimaginarypawnbroker’s。

  ThusfortendaysLittleDorritbentoverhispillow,layinghercheekagainsthis。Sometimesshewassowornoutthatforafewminutestheywouldslumbertogether。Thenshewouldawake;torecollectwithfast-flowingsilenttearswhatitwasthattouchedherface,andtosee,stealingoverthecherishedfaceuponthepillow,adeepershadowthantheshadowoftheMarshalseaWall。

  Quietly,quietly,allthelinesoftheplanofthegreatCastlemeltedoneafteranother。Quietly,quietly,theruledandcross-

  ruledcountenanceonwhichtheyweretraced,becamefairandblank。

  Quietly,quietly,thereflectedmarksoftheprisonbarsandofthezig-zagirononthewall-top,fadedaway。Quietly,quietly,thefacesubsidedintoafaryoungerlikenessofherownthanshehadeverseenunderthegreyhair,andsanktorest。

  Atfirstherunclewasstarkdistracted。’Omybrother!O

  William,William!Youtogobeforeme;youtogoalone;youtogo,andItoremain!You,sofarsuperior,sodistinguished,sonoble;

  I,apooruselesscreaturefitfornothing,andwhomnoonewouldhavemissed!’

  Itdidher,forthetime,thegoodofhavinghimtothinkofandtosuccour。

  ’Uncle,dearuncle,spareyourself,spareme!’

  Theoldmanwasnotdeaftothelastwords。Whenhedidbegintorestrainhimself,itwasthathemightspareher。Hehadnocareforhimself;but,withalltheremainingpowerofthehonestheart,stunnedsolongandnowawakingtobebroken,hehonouredandblessedher。

  ’OGod,’hecried,beforetheylefttheroom,withhiswrinkledhandsclaspedoverher。’Thouseestthisdaughterofmydeardeadbrother!AllthatIhavelookedupon,withmyhalf-blindandsinfuleyes,Thouhastdiscernedclearly,brightly。NotahairofherheadshallbeharmedbeforeThee。Thouwiltupholdherheretoherlasthour。AndIknowThouwiltrewardherhereafter!’

  Theyremainedinadimroomnear,untilitwasalmostmidnight,quietandsadtogether。Attimeshisgriefwouldseekreliefinaburstlikethatinwhichithadfounditsearliestexpression;but,besidesthathislittlestrengthwouldsoonhavebeenunequaltosuchstrains,heneverfailedtorecallherwords,andtoreproachhimselfandcalmhimself。Theonlyutterancewithwhichheindulgedhissorrow,wasthefrequentexclamationthathisbrotherwasgone,alone;thattheyhadbeentogetherintheoutsetoftheirlives,thattheyhadfallenintomisfortunetogether,thattheyhadkepttogetherthroughtheirmanyyearsofpoverty,thattheyhadremainedtogethertothatday;andthathisbrotherwasgonealone,alone!

  Theyparted,heavyandsorrowful。Shewouldnotconsenttoleavehimanywherebutinhisownroom,andshesawhimliedowninhisclothesuponhisbed,andcoveredhimwithherownhands。Thenshesankuponherownbed,andfellintoadeepsleep:thesleepofexhaustionandrest,thoughnotofcompletereleasefromapervadingconsciousnessofaffliction。Sleep,goodLittleDorrit。

  Sleepthroughthenight!

  Itwasamoonlightnight;butthemoonroselate,beinglongpastthefull。Whenitwashighinthepeacefulfirmament,itshonethroughhalf-closedlatticeblindsintothesolemnroomwherethestumblingsandwanderingsofalifehadsolatelyended。Twoquietfigureswerewithintheroom;twofigures,equallystillandimpassive,equallyremovedbyanuntraversabledistancefromtheteemingearthandallthatitcontains,thoughsoontolieinit。

  Onefigurereposeduponthebed。Theother,kneelingonthefloor,droopedoverit;thearmseasilyandpeacefullyrestingonthecoverlet;thefaceboweddown,sothatthelipstouchedthehandoverwhichwithitslastbreathithadbent。ThetwobrotherswerebeforetheirFather;farbeyondthetwilightjudgmentofthisworld;highaboveitsmistsandobscurities。

  CHAPTER20

  IntroducesthenextThepassengerswerelandingfromthepacketonthepieratCalais。

  Alow-lyingplaceandalow-spiritedplaceCalaiswas,withthetideebbingouttowardslowwater-mark。Therehadbeennomorewateronthebarthanhadsufficedtofloatthepacketin;andnowthebaritself,withashallowbreakofseaoverit,lookedlikealazymarinemonsterjustrisentothesurface,whoseformwasindistinctlyshownasitlayasleep。Themeagrelighthouseallinwhite,hauntingtheseaboardasifitweretheghostofanedificethathadoncehadcolourandrotundity,droppedmelancholytearsafteritslatebuffetingbythewaves。Thelongrowsofgauntblackpiles,slimyandwetandweather-worn,withfuneralgarlandsofseaweedtwistedaboutthembythelatetide,mighthaverepresentedanunsightlymarinecemetery。Everywave-dashed,storm-beatenobject,wassolowandsolittle,underthebroadgreysky,inthenoiseofthewindandsea,andbeforethecurlinglinesofsurf,makingatitferociously,thatthewonderwastherewasanyCalaisleft,andthatitslowgatesandlowwallandlowroofsandlowditchesandlowsand-hillsandlowrampartsandflatstreets,hadnotyieldedlongagototheunderminingandbesiegingsea,likethefortificationschildrenmakeonthesea-shore。

  Afterslippingamongoozypilesandplanks,stumblingupwetstepsandencounteringmanysaltdifficulties,thepassengersenteredontheircomfortlessperegrinationalongthepier;wherealltheFrenchvagabondsandEnglishoutlawsinthetownhalfthepopulationattendedtopreventtheirrecoveryfrombewilderment。

  AfterbeingminutelyinspectedbyalltheEnglish,andclaimedandreclaimedandcounter-claimedasprizesbyalltheFrenchinahand-to-handscufflethreequartersofamilelong,theywereatlastfreetoenterthestreets,andtomakeoffintheirvariousdirections,hotlypursued。

  Clennam,harassedbymoreanxietiesthanone,wasamongthisdevotedband。Havingrescuedthemostdefencelessofhiscompatriotsfromsituationsofgreatextremity,henowwenthiswayalone,orasnearlyaloneashecouldbe,withanativegentlemaninasuitofgreaseandacapofthesamematerial,givingchaseatadistanceofsomefiftyyards,andcontinuallycallingafterhim,’Hi!Ice-say!You!Seer!Ice-say!NiceOatel!’

  Eventhishospitableperson,however,wasleftbehindatlast,andClennampursuedhisway,unmolested。TherewasatranquilairinthetownaftertheturbulenceoftheChannelandthebeach,anditsdulnessinthatcomparisonwasagreeable。Hemetnewgroupsofhiscountrymen,whohadallastragglingairofhavingatonetimeoverblownthemselves,likecertainuncomfortablekindsofflowers,andofbeingnowmereweeds。Theyhadallanair,too,ofloungingoutalimitedround,dayafterday,whichstronglyremindedhimoftheMarshalsea。But,takingnofurthernoteofthemthanwassufficienttogivebirthtothereflection,hesoughtoutacertainstreetandnumberwhichhekeptinhismind。

  ’SoPanckssaid,’hemurmuredtohimself,ashestoppedbeforeadullhouseansweringtotheaddress。’Isupposehisinformationtobecorrectandhisdiscovery,amongMrCasby’sloosepapers,indisputable;but,withoutit,Ishouldhardlyhavesupposedthistobealikelyplace。’

  Adeadsortofhouse,withadeadwalloverthewayandadeadgatewayattheside,whereapendantbell-handleproducedtwodeadtinkles,andaknockerproducedadead,flat,surface-tapping,thatseemednottohavedepthenoughinittopenetrateeventhecrackeddoor。However,thedoorjarredopenonadeadsortofspring;andhecloseditbehindhimasheenteredadullyard,soonbroughttoaclosebyanotherdeadwall,whereanattempthadbeenmadetotrainsomecreepingshrubs,whichweredead;andtomakealittlefountaininagrotto,whichwasdry;andtodecoratethatwithalittlestatue,whichwasgone。

  Theentrytothehousewasontheleft,anditwasgarnishedastheoutergatewaywas,withtwoprintedbillsinFrenchandEnglish,announcingFurnishedApartmentstolet,withimmediatepossession。

  Astrongcheerfulpeasantwoman,allstocking,petticoat,whitecap,andear-ring,stoodhereinadarkdoorway,andsaidwithapleasantshowofteeth,’Ice-say!Seer!Who?’

  Clennam,replyinginFrench,saidtheEnglishlady;hewishedtoseetheEnglishlady。’Enterthenandascend,ifyouplease,’

  returnedthepeasantwoman,inFrenchlikewise。Hedidboth,andfollowedherupadarkbarestaircasetoabackroomonthefirst-

  floor。Hence,therewasagloomyviewoftheyardthatwasdull,andoftheshrubsthatweredead,andofthefountainthatwasdry,andofthepedestalofthestatuethatwasgone。

  ’MonsieurBlandois,’saidClennam。

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