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  AtthisdifficultpointoftheconversationBobgavein,andchangedthesubjecttohard-bake:alwayshislastresourcewhenhefoundhislittlefriendgettinghimintoapolitical,social,ortheologicalcorner。ButthiswastheoriginofaseriesofSundayexcursionsthatthesetwocuriouscompanionsmadetogether。TheyusedtoissuefromthelodgeonalternateSundayafternoonswithgreatgravity,boundforsomemeadowsorgreenlanesthathadbeenelaboratelyappointedbytheturnkeyinthecourseoftheweek;andthereshepickedgrassandflowerstobringhome,whilehesmokedhispipe。Afterwards,thereweretea-gardens,shrimps,ale,andotherdelicacies;andthentheywouldcomebackhandinhand,unlessshewasmorethanusuallytired,andhadfallenasleeponhisshoulder。

  Inthoseearlydays,theturnkeyfirstbeganprofoundlytoconsideraquestionwhichcosthimsomuchmentallabour,thatitremainedundeterminedonthedayofhisdeath。Hedecidedtowillandbequeathhislittlepropertyofsavingstohisgodchild,andthepointarosehowcoulditbeso’tiedup’asthatonlysheshouldhavethebenefitofit?Hisexperienceonthelockgavehimsuchanacuteperceptionoftheenormousdifficultyof’tyingup’moneywithanyapproachtotightness,andcontrariwiseoftheremarkableeasewithwhichitgotloose,thatthroughaseriesofyearsheregularlypropoundedthisknottypointtoeverynewinsolventagentandotherprofessionalgentlemanwhopassedinandout。

  ’Supposing,’hewouldsay,statingthecasewithhiskeyontheprofessionalgentleman’swaistcoat;’supposingamanwantedtoleavehispropertytoayoungfemale,andwantedtotieitupsothatnobodyelseshouldeverbeabletomakeagrabatit;howwouldyoutieupthatproperty?’

  ’Settleitstrictlyonherself,’theprofessionalgentlemanwouldcomplacentlyanswer。

  ’Butlookhere,’quoththeturnkey。’Supposingshehad,sayabrother,sayafather,sayahusband,whowouldbelikelytomakeagrabatthatpropertywhenshecameintoit——howaboutthat?’

  ’Itwouldbesettledonherself,andtheywouldhavenomorelegalclaimonitthanyou,’wouldbetheprofessionalanswer。

  ’Stopabit,’saidtheturnkey。’Supposingshewastender-hearted,andtheycameoverher。Where’syourlawfortyingitupthen?’

  Thedeepestcharacterwhomtheturnkeysounded,wasunabletoproducehislawfortyingsuchaknotasthat。So,theturnkeythoughtaboutitallhislife,anddiedintestateafterall。

  Butthatwaslongafterwards,whenhisgod-daughterwaspastsixteen。Thefirsthalfofthatspaceofherlifewasonlyjustaccomplished,whenherpitifulandplaintivelooksawherfatherawidower。Fromthattimetheprotectionthatherwonderingeyeshadexpressedtowardshim,becameembodiedinaction,andtheChildoftheMarshalseatookuponherselfanewrelationtowardstheFather。

  Atfirst,suchababycoulddolittlemorethansitwithhim,desertingherlivelierplacebythehighfender,andquietlywatchinghim。Butthismadehersofarnecessarytohimthathebecameaccustomedtoher,andbegantobesensibleofmissingherwhenshewasnotthere。Throughthislittlegate,shepassedoutofchildhoodintothecare-ladenworld。

  Whatherpitifullooksaw,atthatearlytime,inherfather,inhersister,inherbrother,inthejail;howmuch,orhowlittleofthewretchedtruthitpleasedGodtomakevisibletoher;lieshiddenwithmanymysteries。Itisenoughthatshewasinspiredtobesomethingwhichwasnotwhattherestwere,andtobethatsomething,differentandlaborious,forthesakeoftherest。

  Inspired?Yes。Shallwespeakoftheinspirationofapoetorapriest,andnotoftheheartimpelledbyloveandself-devotiontothelowliestworkinthelowliestwayoflife!

  Withnoearthlyfriendtohelpher,orsomuchastoseeher,buttheonesostrangelyassorted;withnoknowledgeevenofthecommondailytoneandhabitsofthecommonmembersofthefreecommunitywhoarenotshutupinprisons;bornandbredinasocialcondition,falseevenwithareferencetothefalsestconditionoutsidethewalls;drinkingfrominfancyofawellwhosewatershadtheirownpeculiarstain,theirownunwholesomeandunnaturaltaste;theChildoftheMarshalseabeganherwomanlylife。

  Nomatterthroughwhatmistakesanddiscouragements,whatridiculenotunkindlymeant,butdeeplyfeltofheryouthandlittlefigure,whathumbleconsciousnessofherownbabyhoodandwantofstrength,eveninthematterofliftingandcarrying;throughhowmuchwearinessandhopelessness,andhowmanysecrettears;shedrudgedon,untilrecognisedasuseful,evenindispensable。Thattimecame。Shetooktheplaceofeldestofthethree,inallthingsbutprecedence;wastheheadofthefallenfamily;andbore,inherownheart,itsanxietiesandshames。

  Atthirteen,shecouldreadandkeepaccounts,thatis,couldputdowninwordsandfigureshowmuchthebarenecessariesthattheywantedwouldcost,andhowmuchlesstheyhadtobuythemwith。

  Shehadbeen,bysnatchesofafewweeksatatime,toaneveningschooloutside,andgothersisterandbrothersenttoday-schoolsbydesultorystarts,duringthreeorfouryears。Therewasnoinstructionforanyofthemathome;butsheknewwell——noonebetter——thatamansobrokenastobetheFatheroftheMarshalsea,couldbenofathertohisownchildren。

  Tothesescantymeansofimprovement,sheaddedanotherofherowncontriving。Once,amongtheheterogeneouscrowdofinmatesthereappearedadancing-master。Hersisterhadagreatdesiretolearnthedancing-master’sart,andseemedtohaveatastethatway。Atthirteenyearsold,theChildoftheMarshalseapresentedherselftothedancing-master,withalittlebaginherhand,andpreferredherhumblepetition。

  ’Ifyouplease,Iwasbornhere,sir。’

  ’Oh!Youaretheyounglady,areyou?’saidthedancing-master,surveyingthesmallfigureandupliftedface。

  ’Yes,sir。’

  ’AndwhatcanIdoforyou?’saidthedancing-master。

  ’Nothingforme,sir,thankyou,’anxiouslyundrawingthestringsofthelittlebag;’butif,whileyoustayhere,youcouldbesokindastoteachmysistercheap——’

  ’Mychild,I’llteachherfornothing,’saidthedancing-master,shuttingupthebag。Hewasasgood-naturedadancing-masteraseverdancedtotheInsolventCourt,andhekepthisword。Thesisterwassoaptapupil,andthedancing-masterhadsuchabundantleisuretobestowuponherforittookhimamatteroftenweekstosettohiscreditors,leadoff,turntheCommissioners,andrightandleftbacktohisprofessionalpursuits,thatwonderfulprogresswasmade。Indeedthedancing-masterwassoproudofit,andsowishfultodisplayitbeforehelefttoafewselectfriendsamongthecollegians,thatatsixo’clockonacertainfinemorning,aminuetdelacourcameoffintheyard——thecollege-

  roomsbeingoftooconfinedproportionsforthepurpose——inwhichsomuchgroundwascovered,andthestepsweresoconscientiouslyexecuted,thatthedancing-master,havingtoplaythekitbesides,wasthoroughlyblown。

  Thesuccessofthisbeginning,whichledtothedancing-master’scontinuinghisinstructionafterhisrelease,emboldenedthepoorchildtotryagain。Shewatchedandwaitedmonthsforaseamstress。Inthefulnessoftimeamillinercamein,andtohersherepairedonherownbehalf。

  ’Ibegyourpardon,ma’am,’shesaid,lookingtimidlyroundthedoorofthemilliner,whomshefoundintearsandinbed:’butI

  wasbornhere。’

  Everybodyseemedtohearofherassoonastheyarrived;forthemillinersatupinbed,dryinghereyes,andsaid,justasthedancing-masterhadsaid:

  ’Oh!Youarethechild,areyou?’

  ’Yes,ma’am。’

  ’IamsorryIhaven’tgotanythingforyou,’saidthemilliner,shakingherhead。

  ’It’snotthat,ma’am。IfyoupleaseIwanttolearnneedle-work。’

  ’Whyshouldyoudothat,’returnedthemilliner,’withmebeforeyou?Ithasnotdonememuchgood。’

  ’Nothing——whateveritis——seemstohavedoneanybodymuchgoodwhocomeshere,’shereturnedinallsimplicity;’butIwanttolearnjustthesame。’

  ’Iamafraidyouaresoweak,yousee,’themillinerobjected。

  ’Idon’tthinkIamweak,ma’am。’

  ’Andyouaresovery,verylittle,yousee,’themillinerobjected。

  ’Yes,IamafraidIamverylittleindeed,’returnedtheChildoftheMarshalsea;andsobegantosoboverthatunfortunatedefectofhers,whichcamesoofteninherway。Themilliner——whowasnotmoroseorhard-hearted,onlynewlyinsolvent——wastouched,tookherinhandwithgoodwill,foundherthemostpatientandearnestofpupils,andmadeheracunningwork-womanincourseoftime。

  Incourseoftime,andintheveryself-samecourseoftime,theFatheroftheMarshalseagraduallydevelopedanewflowerofcharacter。ThemoreFatherlyhegrewastotheMarshalsea,andthemoredependenthebecameonthecontributionsofhischangingfamily,thegreaterstandhemadebyhisforlorngentility。Withthesamehandthathepocketedacollegian’shalf-crownhalfanhourago,hewouldwipeawaythetearsthatstreamedoverhischeeksifanyreferenceweremadetohisdaughters’earningtheirbread。So,overandaboveotherdailycares,theChildoftheMarshalseahadalwaysuponherthecareofpreservingthegenteelfictionthattheywereallidlebeggarstogether。

  Thesisterbecameadancer。Therewasaruineduncleinthefamilygroup——ruinedbyhisbrother,theFatheroftheMarshalsea,andknowingnomorehowthanhisruinerdid,butacceptingthefactasaninevitablecertainty——onwhomherprotectiondevolved。

  Naturallyaretiredandsimpleman,hehadshownnoparticularsenseofbeingruinedatthetimewhenthatcalamityfelluponhim,furtherthanthatheleftoffwashinghimselfwhentheshockwasannounced,andnevertooktothatluxuryanymore。Hehadbeenaveryindifferentmusicalamateurinhisbetterdays;andwhenhefellwithhisbrother,resortedforsupporttoplayingaclarionetasdirtyashimselfinasmallTheatreOrchestra。Itwasthetheatreinwhichhisniecebecameadancer;hehadbeenafixturetherealongtimewhenshetookherpoorstationinit;andheacceptedthetaskofservingasherescortandguardian,justashewouldhaveacceptedanillness,alegacy,afeast,starvation——

  anythingbutsoap。

  Toenablethisgirltoearnherfewweeklyshillings,itwasnecessaryfortheChildoftheMarshalseatogothroughanelaborateformwiththeFather。

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