TherewasastrangeanxietyinhermannerwhichdidnotescapeMrs。
Harnham,andultimatelyresolveditselfintoafloodoftears。
SinkingdownatEdith’sknees,shemadeconfessionthattheresultofherrelationswithherloveritwouldsoonbecomenecessarytodisclose。
EdithHarnhamwasgenerousenoughtobeveryfarfrominclinedtocastAnnaadriftatthisconjuncture。Notruewomaneverissoinclinedfromherownpersonalpointofview,howeverpromptshemaybeintakingsuchstepstosafeguardthosedeartoher。AlthoughshehadwrittentoRayesoshortatimepreviously,sheinstantlypennedanotherAnna-notehintingclearlythoughdelicatelythestateofaffairs。
Rayerepliedbyahastylinetosayhowmuchhewasaffectedbyhernews:hefeltthathemustrundowntoseeheralmostimmediately。
Butaweeklaterthegirlcametohermistress’sroomwithanothernote,whichonbeingreadinformedherthatafterallhecouldnotfindtimeforthejourney。Annawasbrokenwithgrief;butbyMrs。
Harnham’scounselstrictlyrefrainedfromhurlingathimthereproachesandbitternesscustomaryfromyoungwomensosituated。
Onethingwasimperative:tokeeptheyoungman’sromanticinterestinheralive。RatherthereforedidEdith,inthenameofherprotegee,requesthimonnoaccounttobedistressedabouttheloomingevent,andnottoinconveniencehimselftohastendown。Shedesiredaboveeverythingtobenoweightuponhiminhiscareer,nocloguponhishighactivities。Shehadwishedhimtoknowwhathadbefallen:hewastodismissitagainfromhismind。Onlyhemustwritetenderlyasever,andwhenheshouldcomeagainonthespringcircuititwouldbesoonenoughtodiscusswhathadbetterbedone。
ItmaywellbesupposedthatAnna’sownfeelingshadnotbeenquiteinaccordwiththesegenerousexpressions;butthemistress’sjudgmenthadruled,andAnnahadacquiesced。’AllIwantisthatNICENESSyoucansowellputintoyourletters,mydear,dearmistress,andthatIcan’tforthelifeo’memakeupoutofmyownhead;thoughImeanthesamethingandfeelitexactlywhenyou’vewrittenitdown!’
Whentheletterhadbeensentoff,andEdithHarnhamwasleftalone,shebowedherselfonthebackofherchairandwept。
’Iwishitwasmine——Iwishitwas!’shemurmured。’YethowcanI
saysuchawickedthing!’
ThelettermovedRayeconsiderablywhenitreachedhim。Theintelligenceitselfhadaffectedhimlessthanherunexpectedmanneroftreatinghiminrelationtoit。Theabsenceofanywordofreproach,thedevotiontohisinterests,theself-sacrificeapparentineveryline,allmadeupanobilityofcharacterthathehadneverdreamtoffindinginwomankind。
’Godforgiveme!’hesaidtremulously。’Ihavebeenawickedwretch。
Ididnotknowshewassuchatreasureasthis!’
Hereassuredherinstantly;declaringthathewouldnotofcoursedeserther,thathewouldprovideahomeforhersomewhere。
Meanwhileshewastostaywhereshewasaslongashermistresswouldallowher。
Butamisfortunesupervenedinthisdirection。WhetheraninklingofAnna’scircumstancesreachedtheknowledgeofMrs。Harnham’shusbandornotcannotbesaid,butthegirlwascompelled,inspiteofEdith’sentreaties,toleavethehouse。ByherownchoiceshedecidedtogobackforawhiletothecottageonthePlain。Thisarrangementledtoaconsultationastohowthecorrespondenceshouldbecarriedon;andinthegirl’sinabilitytocontinuepersonallywhathadbeenbeguninhername,andinthedifficultyoftheiractinginconcertasheretofore,sherequestedMrs。Harnham——theonlywell-to-dofriendshehadintheworld——toreceivethelettersandreplytothemoff-hand,sendingthemonafterwardstoherselfonthePlain,whereshemightatleastgetsomeneighbourtoreadthemtoher,ifatrustworthyonecouldbemetwith。AnnaandherboxthendepartedforthePlain。
ThusitbefelthatEdithHarnhamfoundherselfinthestrangepositionofhavingtocorrespond,undernosupervisionbytherealwoman,withamannotherhusband,intermswhichwerevirtuallythoseofawife,concerningaconditionthatwasnotEdith’satall;
themanbeingoneforwhom,mainlythroughthesympathiesinvolvedinplayingthispart,shesecretlycherishedapredilection,subtleandimaginativetruly,butstrongandabsorbing。Sheopenedeachletter,readitasifintendedforherself,andrepliedfromthepromptingsofherownheartandnoother。
Throughoutthiscorrespondence,carriedoninthegirl’sabsence,thehigh-strungEdithHarnhamlivedintheecstasyoffancy;thevicariousintimacyengenderedsuchaflowofpassionatenessaswasneverexceeded。Forconscience’sakeEdithatfirstsentoneachofhisletterstoAnna,andevenroughcopiesofherreplies;butlaterontheseso-calledcopiesweremuchabridged,andmanylettersonbothsideswerenotsentonatall。
Thoughselfish,and,superficiallyatleast,infestedwiththeself-
indulgentvicesofartificialsociety,therewasasubstratumofhonestyandfairnessinRaye’scharacter。Hehadreallyatenderregardforthecountrygirl,anditgrewmoretenderthaneverwhenhefoundherapparentlycapableofexpressingthedeepestsensibilitiesinthesimplestwords。Hemeditated,hewavered;andfinallyresolvedtoconsulthissister,amaidenladymucholderthanhimself,oflivelysympathiesandgoodintent。Inmakingthisconfidenceheshowedhersomeoftheletters。
’Sheseemsfairlyeducated,’MissRayeobserved。’Andbrightinideas。Sheexpressesherselfwithatastethatmustbeinnate。’
’Yes。Shewritesveryprettily,doesn’tshe,thankstotheseelementaryschools?’
’Oneisdrawnouttowardsher,inspiteofone’sself,poorthing。’
Theupshotofthediscussionwasthatthoughhehadnotbeendirectlyadvisedtodoit,Rayewrote,inhisrealname,whathewouldneverhavedecidedtowriteonhisownresponsibility;namelythathecouldnotlivewithouther,andwouldcomedowninthespringandshelveherloomingdifficultybymarryingher。
ThisboldacceptanceofthesituationwasmadeknowntoAnnabyMrs。
HarnhamdrivingoutimmediatelytothecottageonthePlain。Annajumpedforjoylikealittlechild。Andpoor,crudedirectionsforansweringappropriatelyweregiventoEdithHarnham,whoonherreturntothecitycarriedthemoutwithwarmintensification。
’O!’shegroaned,asshethrewdownthepen。’Anna——poorgoodlittlefool——hasn’tintelligenceenoughtoappreciatehim!Howshouldshe?
WhileI——don’tbearhischild!’
ItwasnowFebruary。Thecorrespondencehadcontinuedaltogetherforfourmonths;andthenextletterfromRayecontainedincidentallyastatementofhispositionandprospects。Hesaidthatinofferingtowedherhehad,atfirst,contemplatedthestepofretiringfromaprofessionwhichhithertohadbroughthimveryslightemolument,andwhich,tospeakplainly,hehadthoughtmightbedifficultofpracticeafterhisunionwithher。Buttheunexpectedminesofbrightnessandwarmththatherlettershaddisclosedtobelurkinginhersweetnaturehadledhimtoabandonthatsomewhatsadprospect。
Hefeltsurethat,withherpowersofdevelopment,afteralittleprivatetraininginthesocialformsofLondonunderhissupervision,andalittlehelpfromagovernessifnecessary,shewouldmakeasgoodaprofessionalman’swifeascouldbedesired,evenifheshouldrisetothewoolsack。ManyaLordChancellor’swifehadbeenlessintuitivelyaladythanshehadshownherselftobeinherlinestohim。
’O——poorfellow,poorfellow!’mournedEdithHarnham。
Herdistressnowragedashighasherinfatuation。Itwasshewhohadwroughthimtothispitch——toamarriagewhichmeanthisruin;
yetshecouldnot,inmercytohermaid,doanythingtohinderhisplan。AnnawascomingtoMelchesterthatweek,butshecouldhardlyshowthegirlthislastreplyfromtheyoungman;ittoldtoomuchofthesecondindividualitythathadusurpedtheplaceofthefirst。
Annacame,andhermistresstookherintoherownroomforprivacy。
Annabeganbysayingwithsomeanxietythatshewasgladtheweddingwassonear。
’OAnna!’repliedMrs。Harnham。’Ithinkwemusttellhimall——thatIhavebeendoingyourwritingforyou?——lestheshouldnotknowittillafteryoubecomehiswife,anditmightleadtodissensionandrecriminations——’
’Omis’ess,dearmis’ess——pleasedon’ttellhimnow!’criedAnnaindistress。’Ifyouweretodoit,perhapshewouldnotmarryme;andwhatshouldIdothen?Itwouldbeterriblewhatwouldcometome!
AndIamgettingonwithmywriting,too。Ihavebroughtwithmethecopybookyouweresogoodastogiveme,andIpractiseeveryday,andthoughitisso,sohard,Ishalldoitwellatlast,Ibelieve,ifIkeepontrying。’
Edithlookedatthecopybook。Thecopieshadbeensetbyherself,andsuchprogressasthegirlhadmadewasinthewayofgrotesquefacsimileofhermistress’shand。ButevenifEdith’sflowingcaligraphywerereproducedtheinspirationwouldbeanotherthing。
’Youdoitsobeautifully,’continuedAnna,’andsayallthatIwanttosaysomuchbetterthanIcouldsayit,thatIdohopeyouwon’tleavemeinthelurchjustnow!’
’Verywell,’repliedtheother。’ButI——butIthoughtIoughtnottogoon!’
’Why?’
HerstrongdesiretoconfidehersentimentsledEdithtoanswertruly:
’Becauseofitseffectuponme。’
’ButitCAN’Thaveany!’
’Why,child?’
’Becauseyouaremarriedalready!’saidAnnawithlucidsimplicity。
’Ofcourseitcan’t,’saidhermistresshastily;yetglad,despiteherconscience,thattwoorthreeoutpouringsstillremainedtoher。
’ButyoumustconcentrateyourattentiononwritingyournameasI
writeithere。’
SoonRayewroteaboutthewedding。Havingdecidedtomakethebestofwhathefearedwasapieceofromanticfolly,hehadacquiredmorezestforthegrandexperiment。HewishedtheceremonytobeinLondon,forgreaterprivacy。EdithHarnhamwouldhavepreferreditatMelchester;Annawaspassive。Hisreasoningprevailed,andMrs。
HarnhamthrewherselfwithmournfulzealintothepreparationsforAnna’sdeparture。Inalastdesperatefeelingthatshemustateveryhazardbeinatthedeathofherdream,andseeonceagainthemanwhobyaspeciesoftelepathyhadexercisedsuchaninfluenceonher,sheofferedtogoupwithAnnaandbewithherthroughtheceremony——
’toseetheendofher,’ashermistressputitwithforcedgaiety;
anofferwhichthegirlgratefullyaccepted;forshehadnootherfriendcapableofplayingthepartofcompanionandwitness,inthepresenceofagentlemanlybridegroom,insuchawayasnottohastenanopinionthathehadmadeanirremediablesocialblunder。
ItwasamuddymorninginMarchwhenRayealightedfromafour-wheelcabatthedoorofaregistry-officeintheS。W。districtofLondon,andcarefullyhandeddownAnnaandhercompanionMrs。Harnham。AnnalookedattractiveinthesomewhatfashionableclotheswhichMrs。
Harnhamhadhelpedhertobuy,thoughnotquitesoattractiveas,aninnocentchild,shehadappearedinhercountrygownonthebackofthewoodenhorseatMelchesterFair。
Mrs。Harnhamhadcomeupthismorningbyanearlytrain,andayoungman——afriendofRaye’s——havingmetthematthedoor,allfourenteredtheregistry-officetogether。TillanhourbeforethistimeRayehadneverknownthewine-merchant’swife,exceptatthatfirstcasualencounter,andintheflutteroftheperformancebeforethemhehadlittleopportunityformorethanabriefacquaintance。Thecontractofmarriageataregistryissoongotthrough;butsomehow,duringitsprogress,RayediscoveredastrangeandsecretgravitationbetweenhimselfandAnna’sfriend。
Theformalitiesofthewedding——orratherratificationofapreviousunion——beingconcluded,thefourwentinonecabtoRaye’slodgings,newlytakeninanewsuburbinpreferencetoahouse,therentofwhichhecouldillaffordjustthen。HereAnnacutthelittlecakewhichRayehadboughtatapastrycook’sonhiswayhomefromLincoln’sInnthenightbefore。Butshedidnotdomuchbesides。
Raye’sfriendwasobligedtodepartalmostimmediately,andwhenhehadlefttheonlyonesvirtuallypresentwereEdithandRayewhoexchangedideaswithmuchanimation。Theconversationwasindeedtheirsonly,Annabeingasadomesticanimalwhohumblyheardbutunderstoodnot。Rayeseemedstartledinawakeningtothisfact,andbegantofeeldissatisfiedwithherinadequacy。