reliefs,wereseenblowingandbobbingbehindhimashehastilywalkeduptheHighStreetfromhislodgings。Butthoughheenteredtheassizebuildingtherewasnothingforhimtodo,andsittingatthebluebaizetableinthewellofthecourt,hemendedpenswithamindfarawayfromthecaseinprogress。Thoughtsofunpremeditatedconduct,ofwhichaweekearlierhewouldnothavebelievedhimselfcapable,threwhimintoamoodofdissatisfieddepression。
HehadcontrivedtoseeagaintheprettyruralmaidenAnna,thedayafterthefair,hadwalkedoutofthecitywithhertotheearthworksofOldMelchester,andfeelingaviolentfancyforher,hadremainedinMelchesterallSunday,Monday,andTuesday;bypersuasionobtainingwalksandmeetingswiththegirlsixorseventimesduringtheinterval;hadinbriefwonher,bodyandsoul。
Hesupposeditmusthavebeenowingtotheseclusioninwhichhehadlivedoflateintownthathehadgivenwaysounrestrainedlytoapassionforanartlesscreaturewhoseinexperiencehad,fromthefirst,ledhertoplaceherselfunreservedlyinhishands。Muchhedeploredtriflingwithherfeelingsforthesakeofapassingdesire;
andhecouldonlyhopethatshemightnotlivetosufferonhisaccount。
Shehadbeggedhimtocometoheragain;entreatedhim;wept。Hehadpromisedthathewoulddoso,andhemeanttocarryoutthatpromise。
Hecouldnotdeserthernow。Awkwardassuchunintentionalconnectionswere,theinterspaceofahundredmiles——whichtoagirlofherlimitedcapabilitieswaslikeathousand——wouldeffectuallyhinderthissummerfancyfromgreatlyencumberinghislife;whilethoughtofhersimplelovemightdohimthenegativegoodofkeepinghimfromidlepleasuresintownwhenhewishedtoworkhard。HiscircuitjourneyswouldtakehimtoMelchesterthreeorfourtimesayear;andthenhecouldalwaysseeher。
Thepseudonym,orratherpartialname,thathehadgivenherashisbeforeknowinghowfartheacquaintancewasgoingtocarryhim,hadbeenspokenonthespurofthemoment,withoutanyulteriorintentionwhatever。HehadnotafterwardsdisturbedAnna’serror,butonleavingherhehadfeltboundtogiveheranaddressatastationer’snotfarfromhischambers,atwhichshemightwritetohimundertheinitials’C。B。’
InduetimeRayereturnedtohisLondonabode,havingcalledatMelchesteronhiswayandspentafewadditionalhourswithhisfascinatingchildofnature。Intownhelivedmonotonouslyeveryday。Oftenheandhisroomswereenclosedbyatawnyfogfromalltheworldbesides,andwhenhelightedthegastoreadorwriteby,hissituationseemedsounnaturalthathewouldlookintothefireandthinkofthattrustinggirlatMelchesteragainandagain。
Often,oppressedbyabsurdfondnessforher,hewouldenterthedimreligiousnaveoftheLawCourtsbythenorthdoor,elbowotherjuniorshabitedlikehimself,andlikehimunretained;edgehimselfintothisorthatcrowdedcourtwhereasensationalcasewasgoingon,justasifhewereinit,thoughthepoliceofficersatthedoorknewaswellasheknewhimselfthathehadnomoreconcernwiththebusinessinhandthanthepatientidlersatthegallery-dooroutside,whohadwaitedtoentersinceeightinthemorningbecause,likehim,theybelongedtotheclassesthatliveonexpectation。Buthewoulddothesethingstonopurpose,andthinkhowgreatlythecharactersinsuchscenescontrastedwiththepinkandbreezyAnna。
Anunexpectedfeatureinthatpeasantmaiden’sconductwasthatshehadnotasyetwrittentohim,thoughhehadtoldhershemightdosoifshewished。Surelyayoungcreaturehadneverbeforebeensoreticentinsuchcircumstances。Atlengthhesentherabriefline,positivelyrequestinghertowrite。Therewasnoanswerbythereturnpost,butthedayafteraletterinaneatfemininehand,andbearingtheMelchesterpost-mark,washandedtohimbythestationer。
Thefactaloneofitsarrivalwassufficienttosatisfyhisimaginativesentiment。Hewasnotanxioustoopentheepistle,andintruthdidnotbegintoreaditfornearlyhalf-an-hour,anticipatingreadilyitstermsofpassionateretrospectandtenderadjuration。Whenatlastheturnedhisfeettothefireplaceandunfoldedthesheet,hewassurprisedandpleasedtofindthatneitherextravagancenorvulgaritywasthere。Itwasthemostcharminglittlemissivehehadeverreceivedfromwoman。Tobesurethelanguagewassimpleandtheideaswereslight;butitwassoself-
possessed;sopurelythatofayounggirlwhofeltherwomanhoodtobeenoughforherdignitythathereaditthroughtwice。Foursideswerefilled,andafewlineswrittenacross,afterthefashionofformerdays;thepaper,too,wascommon,andnotofthelatestshadeandsurface。Butwhatofthosethings?Hehadreceivedlettersfromwomenwhowerefairlycalledladies,butneversosensible,sohumanaletterasthis。Hecouldnotsingleoutanyonesentenceandsayitwasatallremarkableorclever;theensembleoftheletteritwaswhichwonhim;andbeyondtheonerequestthathewouldwriteorcometoheragainsoontherewasnothingtoshowhersenseofaclaimuponhim。
TowriteagainanddevelopacorrespondencewasthelastthingRayewouldhavepreconceivedashisconductinsuchasituation;yethedidsendashort,encouraginglineortwo,signedwithhispseudonym,inwhichheaskedforanotherletter,andcheeringlypromisedthathewouldtrytoseeheragainonsomenearday,andwouldneverforgethowmuchtheyhadbeentoeachotherduringtheirshortacquaintance。
ToreturnnowtothemomentatwhichAnna,atMelchester,hadreceivedRaye’sletter。
Ithadbeenputintoherownhandbythepostmanonhismorningrounds。Sheflusheddowntoherneckonreceiptofit,andturneditoverandover。’Itismine?’shesaid。
’Why,yes,can’tyouseeitis?’saidthepostman,smilingasheguessedthenatureofthedocumentandthecauseoftheconfusion。
’Oyes,ofcourse!’repliedAnna,lookingattheletter,forcedlytittering,andblushingstillmore。
Herlookofembarrassmentdidnotleaveherwiththepostman’sdeparture。Sheopenedtheenvelope,kisseditscontents,putawaytheletterinherpocket,andremainedmusingtillhereyesfilledwithtears。
AfewminuteslatershecarriedupacupofteatoMrs。Harnhaminherbed-chamber。Anna’smistresslookedather,andsaid:’Howdismalyouseemthismorning,Anna。What’sthematter?’
’I’mnotdismal,I’mglad;onlyI——’Shestoppedtostifleasob。
’Well?’
’I’vegotaletter——andwhatgoodisittome,ifIcan’treadawordinit!’
’Why,I’llreadit,child,ifnecessary。’
’Butthisisfromsomebody——Idon’twantanybodytoreaditbutmyself!’Annamurmured。
’Ishallnottellanybody。Isitfromthatyoungman?’
’Ithinkso。’Annaslowlyproducedtheletter,saying:’Thenwillyoureadittome,ma’am?’
ThiswasthesecretofAnna’sembarrassmentandflutterings。Shecouldneitherreadnorwrite。Shehadgrownupunderthecareofanauntbymarriage,atoneofthelonelyhamletsontheGreatMid-
WessexPlainwhere,evenindaysofnationaleducation,therehadbeennoschoolwithinadistanceoftwomiles。Herauntwasanignorantwoman;therehadbeennobodytoinvestigateAnna’scircumstances,nobodytocareaboutherlearningtherudiments;
though,asofteninsuchcases,shehadbeenwellfedandclothedandnotunkindlytreated。SinceshehadcometoliveatMelchesterwithMrs。Harnham,thelatter,whotookakindlyinterestinthegirl,hadtaughthertospeakcorrectly,inwhichaccomplishmentAnnashowedconsiderablereadiness,asisnotunusualwiththeilliterate;andsoonbecamequitefluentintheuseofhermistress’sphraseology。
Mrs。Harnhamalsoinsisteduponhergettingaspellingandcopybook,andbeginningtopractiseinthese。Annawasslowerinthisbranchofhereducation,andmeanwhileherewastheletter。
EdithHarnham’slargedarkeyesexpressedsomeinterestinthecontents,though,inhercharacterofmereinterpreter,shethrewintohertoneasmuchasshecouldofmechanicalpassiveness。Shereadtheshortepistleontoitsconcludingsentence,whichidlyrequestedAnnatosendhimatenderanswer。
’Now——you’lldoitforme,won’tyou,dearmistress?’saidAnnaeagerly。’Andyou’lldoitaswellaseveryoucan,please?BecauseIcouldn’tbearhimtothinkIamnotabletodoitmyself。Ishouldsinkintotheearthwithshameifheknewthat!’
FromsomewordsintheletterMrs。Harnhamwasledtoaskquestions,andtheanswersshereceivedconfirmedhersuspicions。DeepconcernfilledEdith’sheartatperceivinghowthegirlhadcommittedherhappinesstotheissueofthisnew-sprungattachment。Sheblamedherselffornotinterferinginaflirtationwhichhadresultedsoseriouslyforthepoorlittlecreatureinhercharge;thoughatthetimeofseeingthepairtogethershehadafeelingthatitwashardlywithinherprovincetonipyoungaffectioninthebud。However,whatwasdonecouldnotbeundone,anditbehovedhernow,asAnna’sonlyprotector,tohelpherasmuchasshecould。ToAnna’seagerrequestthatshe,Mrs。Harnham,shouldcomposeandwritetheanswertothisyoungLondonman’sletter,shefeltboundtoaccede,tokeepalivehisattachmenttothegirlifpossible;thoughinothercircumstancesshemighthavesuggestedthecookasanamanuensis。
Atenderreplywasthereuponconcocted,andsetdowninEdithHarnham’shand。ThisletterithadbeenwhichRayehadreceivedanddelightedin。WritteninthepresenceofAnnaitcertainlywas,andonAnna’shumblenote-paper,andinameasureinditedbytheyounggirl;butthelife,thespirit,theindividuality,wereEdithHarnham’s。
’Won’tyouatleastputyournameyourself?’shesaid。’Youcanmanagetowritethatbythistime?’
’No,no,’saidAnna,shrinkingback。’Ishoulddoitsobad。He’dbeashamedofme,andneverseemeagain!’
Thenote,soprettilyrequestinganotherfromhim,had,aswehaveseen,powerenoughinitspagestobringone。Hedeclaredittobesuchapleasuretohearfromherthatshemustwriteeveryweek。ThesameprocessofmanufacturewasaccordinglyrepeatedbyAnnaandhermistress,andcontinuedforseveralweeksinsuccession;eachletterbeingpennedandsuggestedbyEdith,thegirlstandingby;theanswerreadandcommentedonbyEdith,Annastandingbyandlisteningagain。
Lateonawinterevening,afterthedispatchofthesixthletter,Mrs。Harnhamwassittingalonebytheremainsofherfire。Herhusbandhadretiredtobed,andshehadfallenintothatfixityofmusingwhichtakesnocountofhourortemperature。ThestateofmindhadbeenbroughtaboutinEdithbyastrangethingwhichshehaddonethatday。ForthefirsttimesinceRaye’svisitAnnahadgonetostayoveranightortwowithhercottagefriendsonthePlain,andinherabsencehadarrived,outofitstime,aletterfromRaye。
TothisEdithhadrepliedonherownresponsibility,fromthedepthsofherownheart,withoutwaitingforhermaid’scollaboration。Theluxuryofwritingtohimwhatwouldbeknowntonoconsciousnessbuthiswasgreat,andshehadindulgedherselftherein。
Whywasitaluxury?
EdithHarnhamledalonelylife。InfluencedbythebeliefoftheBritishparentthatabadmarriagewithitsaversionsisbetterthanfreewomanhoodwithitsinterests,dignity,andleisure,shehadconsentedtomarrytheelderlywine-merchantasapisaller,attheageofseven-and-twenty——somethreeyearsbeforethisdate——tofindafterwardsthatshehadmadeamistake。Thatcontracthadleftherstillawomanwhosedeepernaturehadneverbeenstirred。
Shewasnowclearlyrealizingthatshehadbecomepossessedtothebottomofhersoulwiththeimageofamantowhomshewashardlysomuchasaname。Fromthefirsthehadattractedherbyhislooksandvoice;byhistendertouch;and,withtheseasgenerators,thewritingofletterafterletterandthereadingoftheirsoftanswershadinsensiblydevelopedonhersideanemotionwhichfannedhis;
tilltherehadresultedamagneticreciprocitybetweenthecorrespondents,notwithstandingthatoneofthemwroteinacharacternotherown。Thathehadbeenabletoseduceanotherwomanintwodayswashiscrowningthoughunrecognizedfascinationforherastheshe-animal。
Theywereherownimpassionedandpent-upideas——loweredtomonosyllabicphraseologyinordertokeepupthedisguise——thatEdithputintoletterssignedwithanothername,muchtotheshallowAnna’sdelight,who,unassisted,couldnotfortheworldhaveconceivedsuchprettyfanciesforwinninghim,evenhadshebeenabletowritethem。
Edithfoundthatitwasthese,herownfoisted-insentiments,towhichtheyoungbarristermainlyresponded。ThefewsentencesoccasionallyaddedfromAnna’sownlipsmadeapparentlynoimpressionuponhim。
Theletter-writinginherabsenceAnnaneverdiscovered;butonherreturnthenextmorningshedeclaredshewishedtoseeherloveraboutsomethingatonce,andbeggedMrs。Harnhamtoaskhimtocome。