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  Thedoctor’sadviceremainedcounterpoised,inMillborne’smind,bytheaforesaidmoodofseriousnessandsenseofprinciple,approximatingoftentoreligioussentiment,whichhadbeenevolvingitselfinhisbreastformonths,andevenyears。

  Thefeeling,however,hadnoimmediateeffectuponMr。Millborne’sactions。Hesoongotoverhistriflingillness,andwasvexedwithhimselfforhaving,inamomentofimpulse,confidedsuchacaseofconsciencetoanybody。

  Buttheforcewhichhadpromptedit,thoughlatent,remainedwithhimandultimatelygrewstronger。Theupshotwasthataboutfourmonthsafterthedateofhisillnessanddisclosure,MillbornefoundhimselfonamildspringmorningatPaddingtonStation,inatrainthatwasstartingforthewest。Hismanyintermittentthoughtsonhisbrokenpromisefromtimetotime,inthosehourswhenlonelinessbroughthimfacetofacewithhisownpersonality,hadatlastresultedinthiscourse。

  Thedecisivestimulushadbeengivenwhen,adayortwoearlier,onlookingintoaPost-OfficeDirectory,helearntthatthewomanhehadnotmetfortwentyyearswasstilllivingonatExonburyunderthenameshehadassumedwhen,ayearortwoafterherdisappearancefromhernativetownandhis,shehadreturnedfromabroadasayoungwidowwithachild,andtakenupherresidenceattheformercity。

  Herconditionwasapparentlybutlittlechanged,andherdaughterseemedtobewithher,theirnamesstandingintheDirectoryas’Mrs。

  LeonoraFranklandandMissFrankland,TeachersofMusicandDancing。’

  Mr。MillbornereachedExonburyintheafternoon,andhisfirstbusiness,beforeeventakinghisluggageintothetown,wastofindthehouseoccupiedbytheteachers。Standinginacentralandopenplaceitwasnotdifficulttodiscover,awell-burnishedbrassdoorplatebearingtheirnamesprominently。Hehesitatedtoenterwithoutfurtherknowledge,andultimatelytooklodgingsoveratoyshopopposite,securingasitting-roomwhichfacedasimilardrawingorsitting-roomattheFranklands’,wherethedancinglessonsweregiven。Installedherehewasenabledtomakeindirectly,andwithoutsuspicion,inquiriesandobservationsonthecharacteroftheladiesovertheway,whichhedidwithmuchdeliberateness。

  Helearntthatthewidow,Mrs。Frankland,withheronedaughter,Frances,wasofcheerfulandexcellentrepute,energeticandpainstakingwithherpupils,ofwhomshehadagoodmany,andinwhosetuitionherdaughterassistedher。Shewasquitearecognizedtownswoman,andthoughthedancingbranchofherprofessionwasperhapsatrifleworldly,shewasreallyaserious-mindedladywho,beingobligedtolivebywhatsheknewhowtoteach,balancedmattersbylendingahandatcharitablebazaars,assistingatsacredconcerts,andgivingmusicalrecitationsinaidoffundsforbewilderinghappysavages,andothersuchenthusiasmsofthisenlightenedcountry。HerdaughterwasoneoftheforemostofthebevyofyoungwomenwhodecoratedthechurchesatEasterandChristmas,wasorganistinoneofthoseedifices,andhadsubscribedtothetestimonialofasilverbroth-basinthatwaspresentedtotheReverendMr。Walkerasatokenofgratitudeforhisfaithfulandarduousintonationsofsixmonthsassub-precentorintheCathedral。

  AltogethermotheranddaughterappearedtobeatypicalandinnocentpairamongthegenteelcitizensofExonbury。

  Asanaturalandsimplewayofadvertisingtheirprofessiontheyallowedthewindowsofthemusic-roomtobealittleopen,sothatyouhadthepleasureofhearingallalongthestreetatanyhourbetweensunriseandsunsetfragmentarygemsofclassicalmusicasinterpretedbytheyoungpeopleoftwelveorfourteenwhotooklessonsthere。ButitwassaidthatMrs。Franklandmademostofherincomebylettingoutpianosonhire,andbysellingthemasagentforthemakers。

  ThereportpleasedMillborne;itwashighlycreditable,andfarbetterthanhehadhoped。Hewascurioustogetaviewofthetwowomenwholedsuchblamelesslives。

  HehadnotlongtowaittogainaglimpseofLeonora。Itwaswhenshewasstandingonherowndoorstep,openingherparasol,onthemorningafterhisarrival。Shewasthin,thoughnotgaunt;andagood,well-wearing,thoughtfulfacehadtakentheplaceoftheonewhichhadtemporarilyattractedhiminthedaysofhisnonage。Sheworeblack,anditbecameherinhercharacterofwidow。Thedaughternextappeared;shewasasmoothedandroundedcopyofhermother,withthesamedecisioninhermienthatLeonorahad,andaboundinggaitinwhichhetracedafaintresemblancetohisownatherage。

  Forthefirsttimeheabsolutelymadeuphismindtocallonthem。

  ButhisantecedentstepwastosendLeonoraanotethenextmorning,statinghisproposaltovisither,andsuggestingtheeveningasthetime,becausesheseemedtobesogreatlyoccupiedinherprofessionalcapacityduringtheday。Hepurposelywordedhisnoteinsuchaformasnottorequireananswerfromherwhichwouldbepossiblyawkwardtowrite。

  Noanswercame。Naturallyheshouldnothavebeensurprisedatthis;

  andyethefeltalittlechecked,eventhoughshehadonlyrefrainedfromvolunteeringareplythatwasnotdemanded。

  Ateight,thehourfixedbyhimself,hecrossedoverandwaspassivelyadmittedbytheservant。Mrs。Frankland,asshecalledherself,receivedhiminthelargemusic-and-dancingroomonthefirst-floorfront,andnotinanyprivatelittleparlourashehadexpected。Thiscastadistressinglybusiness-likecolourovertheirfirstmeetingaftersomanyyearsofseverance。Thewomanhehadwrongedstoodbeforehim,well-dressed,eventohismetropolitaneyes,andhermannerasshecameuptohimwasdignifiedeventohardness。Shecertainlywasnotgladtoseehim。Butwhatcouldheexpectafteraneglectoftwentyyears!

  ’Howdoyoudo,Mr。Millborne?’shesaidcheerfully,astoanychancecaller。’Iamobligedtoreceiveyouherebecausemydaughterhasafrienddownstairs。’

  ’Yourdaughter——andmine。’

  ’Ah——yes,yes,’sherepliedhastily,asiftheadditionhadescapedhermemory。’Butperhapsthelesssaidaboutthatthebetter,infairnesstome。Youwillconsidermeawidow,please。’

  ’Certainly,Leonora……’Hecouldnotgeton,hermannerwassocoldandindifferent。Theexpectedsceneofsadreproach,subduedtodelicacybytherunofyears,wasabsentaltogether。Hewasobligedtocometothepointwithoutpreamble。

  ’Youarequitefree,Leonora——Imeanastomarriage?Thereisnobodywhohasyourpromise,or——’

  ’Oyes;quitefree,Mr。Millborne,’shesaid,somewhatsurprised。

  ’ThenIwilltellyouwhyIhavecome。TwentyyearsagoIpromisedtomakeyoumywife;andIamheretofulfilthatpromise。Heavenforgivemytardiness!’

  Hersurprisewasincreased,butshewasnotagitated。Sheseemedtobecomegloomy,disapproving。’Icouldnotentertainsuchanideaatthistimeoflife,’shesaidafteramomentortwo。’Itwouldcomplicatematterstoogreatly。Ihaveaveryfairincome,andrequirenohelpofanysort。Ihavenowishtomarry……Whatcouldhaveinducedyoutocomeonsuchanerrandnow?Itseemsquiteextraordinary,ifImaysayso!’

  ’Itmust——Idaresayitdoes,’Millbornerepliedvaguely;’andImusttellyouthatimpulse——Imeaninthesenseofpassion——haslittletodowithit。Iwishtomarryyou,Leonora;Imuchdesiretomarryyou。Butitisanaffairofconscience,acaseoffulfilment。I

  promisedyou,anditwasdishonourableofmetogoaway。IwanttoremovethatsenseofdishonourbeforeIdie。Nodoubtwemightgettoloveeachotheraswarmlyaswedidinoldtimes?’

  Shedubiouslyshookherhead。’Iappreciateyourmotives,Mr。

  Millborne;butyoumustconsidermyposition;andyouwillseethat,shortofthepersonalwishtomarry,whichIdon’tfeel,thereisnoreasonwhyIshouldchangemystate,eventhoughbysodoingIshouldeaseyourconscience。Mypositioninthistownisarespectedone;I

  havebuiltitupbymyownhardlabours,and,inshort,Idon’twishtoalterit。Mydaughter,too,isjustonthevergeofanengagementtobemarried,toayoungmanwhowillmakeheranexcellenthusband。

  Itwillbeineverywayadesirablematchforher。Heisdownstairsnow。’

  ’Doessheknow——anythingaboutme?’

  ’Ono,no;Godforbid!Herfatherisdeadandburiedtoher。Sothat,yousee,thingsaregoingonsmoothly,andIdon’twanttodisturbtheirprogress。’

  Henodded。’Verywell,’hesaid,androsetogo。Atthedoor,however,hecamebackagain。

  ’Still,Leonora,’heurged,’Ihavecomeonpurpose;andIdon’tseewhatdisturbancewouldbecaused。Youwouldsimplymarryanoldfriend。Won’tyoureconsider?Itisnomorethanrightthatweshouldbeunited,rememberingthegirl。’

  Sheshookherhead,andpattedwithherfootnervously。

  ’Well,Iwon’tdetainyou,’headded。’IshallnotbeleavingExonburyyet。Youwillallowmetoseeyouagain?’

  ’Yes;Idon’tmind,’shesaidreluctantly。

  Theobstacleshehadencountered,thoughtheydidnotreanimatehisdeadpassionforLeonora,didcertainlymakeitappearindispensabletohispeaceofmindtoovercomehercoldness。Hecalledfrequently。

  Thefirstmeetingwiththedaughterwasatryingordeal,thoughhedidnotfeeldrawntowardsherashehadexpectedtobe;shedidnotexcitehissympathies。HermotherconfidedtoFrancestheerrandof’heroldfriend,’whichwasviewedbythedaughterwithstrongdisfavour。Hisdesirebeingthusuncongenialtoboth,foralongtimeMillbornemadenottheleastimpressionuponMrs。Frankland。

  Hisattentionspesteredherratherthanpleasedher。Hewassurprisedatherfirmness,anditwasonlywhenhehintedatmoralreasonsfortheirunionthatshewasevershaken。’Strictlyspeaking,’hewouldsay,’weought,ashonestpersons,tomarry;andthat’sthetruthofit,Leonora。’

  ’Ihavelookedatitinthatlight,’shesaidquickly。’Itstruckmeattheveryfirst。ButIdon’tseetheforceoftheargument。I

  totallydenythatafterthisintervaloftimeIamboundtomarryyouforhonour’ssake。Iwouldhavemarriedyou,asyouknowwellenough,atthepropertime。Butwhatistheuseofremediesnow?’

  Theywerestandingatthewindow。Ascantly-whiskeredyoungman,inclericalattire,calledatthedoorbelow。Leonoraflushedwithinterest。

  ’Whoishe?’saidMr。Millborne。

  ’MyFrances’slover。Iamsosorry——sheisnotathome!Ah!theyhavetoldhimwheresheis,andhehasgonetofindher……Ihopethatsuitwillprosper,atanyrate!’

  ’Whyshouldn’tit?’

  ’Well,hecannotmarryyet;andFrancesseesbutlittleofhimnowhehasleftExonbury。Hewasformerlydoingdutyhere,butnowheiscurateofSt。John’s,Ivell,fiftymilesuptheline。Thereisatacitagreementbetweenthem,but——therehavebeenfriendsofhiswhoobject,becauseofourvocation。However,heseestheabsurdityofsuchanobjectionasthat,andisnotinfluencedbyit。’

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