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  Thechalet,adornedwithawildvinewhichcoverstheroof,isliterallyembeddedinclimbingplantsofallkinds——hops,clematis,jasmine,azalea,copaea。Itwillbeasharpeyewhichcandescryourwindows!

  Thechalet,mydear,isagood,solidhouse,withitsheatingsystemandalltheconveniencesofmodernarchitecture,whichcanraiseapalaceinthecompassofahundredsquarefeet。ItcontainsasuiteofroomsforGastonandanotherforme。Theground-floorisoccupiedbyanante-room,aparlor,andadiningroom。Aboveourflooragainarethreeroomsdestinedforthenurseries。Ihavefivefirst-ratehorses,asmalllightcoupe,andatwo-horsecabriolet。Weareonlyforty-

  minutes’drivefromParis;sothat,whenthespiritmovesustohearanoperaorseeanewplay,wecanstartafterdinnerandreturnthesamenighttoourbower。Theroadisagoodone,andpassesundertheshadeofourgreendividingwall。

  Myservants——cook,coachman,groom,andgardeners,inadditiontomymaid——areallveryrespectablepeople,whomIhavespentthelastsixmonthsinpickingup,andtheywillbesuperintendedbymyoldPhilippe。Althoughconfidentoftheirloyaltyandgoodfaith,Ihavenotneglectedtocultivateself-interest;theirwagesaresmall,butwillreceiveanannualadditionintheshapeofaNewYear’sDaypresent。Theyareallawarethattheslightestfault,orameresuspicionofgossiping,mightlosethemacapitalplace。Loversarenevertroublesometotheirservants;theyareindulgentbydisposition,andthereforeIfeelthatIcanreckononmyhousehold。

  Allthatischoice,pretty,ordecorativeinmyhouseintheRueduBachasbeentransportedtothechalet。TheRembrandthangsonthestaircase,asthoughitwereameredaub;theHobbemafacestheRubensin/his/study;theTitian,whichmysister-in-lawMarysentmefromMadrid,adornstheboudoir。ThebeautifulfurniturepickedupbyFelipelooksverywellintheparlor,whichthearchitecthasdecoratedmosttastefully。Everythingatthechaletischarminglysimple,withthesimplicitywhichcan’tbegotunderahundredthousandfrancs。Ourground-floorrestsoncellars,whicharebuiltofmillstoneandembeddedinconcrete;itisalmostcompletelyburiedinflowersandshrubs,andisdeliciouslycoolwithoutavestigeofdamp。

  Tocompletethepicture,afleetofwhiteswanssailovermylake!

  Oh!Renee,thesilencewhichreignsinthisvalleywouldbringjoytothedead!Oneisawakenedbythebirdssingingorthebreezerustlinginthepoplars。Alittlespring,discoveredbythearchitectindiggingthefoundationsofthewall,tricklesdownthehillsideoversilverysandtothelake,betweentwobanksofwater-cress,huggingtheedgeofthewoods。Iknownothingthatmoneycanbuytoequalit。

  MaynotGastoncometoloathethistooperfectbliss?Ishuddertothinkhowcompleteitis,fortheripestfruitsharbortheworms,themostgorgeousflowersattracttheinsects。Isitnoteverthemonarchoftheforestwhichiseatenawaybythefatalbrowngrub,greedyasdeath?Ihavelearnedbeforenowthatanunseenandjealouspowerattackshappinesswhichhasreachedperfection。Besides,thisisthemoralofallyourpreaching,andyouhavebeenprovedaprophet。

  WhenIwent,thedaybeforeyesterday,toseewhethermylastwhimhadbeencarriedout,tearsrosetomyeyes;and,tothegreatsurpriseofmyarchitect,Iatoncepassedhisaccountforpayment。

  “But,madame,“heexclaimed,“yourmanofbusinesswillrefusetopaythis;itisamatterofthreehundredthousandfrancs。“Myonlyreplywastoaddthewords,“Tobepaidwithoutquestion,“withthebearingofaseventeenth-centuryChaulieu。

  “But,“Isaid,“thereisoneconditiontomygratitude。Nohumanbeingmusthearfromyouoftheparkandbuildings。Promiseme,onyourhonor,toobservethisarticleinourcontract——nottobreathetoasoultheproprietor’sname。“

  Now,canyouunderstandthemeaningofmysuddenjourneys,mymysteriouscomingsandgoings?Now,doyouknowwhitherthosebeautifulthings,whichtheworldsupposestobesold,haveflown?Doyouperceivetheultimatemotiveofmychangeofinvestment?Love,mydear,isavastbusiness,andtheywhowouldsucceedinitshouldhavenoother。HenceforthIshallhavenomoretroublefrommoneymatters;

  Ihavetakenallthethornsoutofmylife,anddonemyhousekeepingworkonceforallwithavengeance,soasnevertobetroubledwithitagain,exceptduringthedailytenminuteswhichIshalldevotetomyoldmajor-domoPhilippe。Ihavemadeastudyoflifeanditssharpcurves;therecameadaywhendeathalsogavemeharshlessons。NowI

  wanttoturnallthistoaccount。Myoneoccupationwillbetoplease/him/andlove/him/,tobrightenwithvarietywhattocommonmortalsismonotonouslydull。

  Gastonisstillincompleteignorance。Atmyrequesthehas,likemyself,takenuphisquartersatVilled’Avray;to-morrowwestartforthechalet。Ourlifetherewillcostbutlittle;butifItoldyouthesumIamsettingasideformytoilet,youwouldexclaimatmymadness,andwithreason。Iintendtotakeasmuchtroubletomakemyselfbeautifulforhimeverydayasotherwomendoforsociety。Mydressinthecountry,yearin,yearout,willcosttwenty-fourthousandfrancs,andthelargerportionofthiswillnotgoindaycostumes。Asforhim,hecanwearablouseifhepleases!Don’tsupposethatIamgoingtoturnourlifeintoanamorousduelandwearmyselfoutindevicesforfeedingpassion;allthatIwantistohaveaconsciencefreefromreproach。Thirteenyearsstillliebeforemeasaprettywoman,andI

  amdeterminedtobelovedonthelastdayofthethirteenthevenmorefondlythanonthemorrowofourmysteriousnuptials。Thistimenocuttingwordsshallmarmylowly,gratefulcontent。Iwilltakethepartofservant,sincethatofmistressthrovesoillwithmebefore。

  Ah!Renee,ifGastonhassounded,asIhave,theheightsanddepthsoflove,myhappinessisassured!Natureatthechaletwearsherfairestface。Thewoodsarecharming;eachstepopensuptoyousomefreshvistaofcoolgreenery,whichdelightsthesoulbythesweetthoughtsitwakens。Theybreatheoflove。Ifonlythisbenotthegorgeoustheatredressedbymyhandformyownmartyrdom!

  IntwodaysfromnowIshallbeMme。Gaston。MyGod!isitfittingaChristiansotolovemortalman?

  “Well,atleastyouhavethelawwithyou,“wasthecommentofmymanofbusiness,whoistobeoneofmywitnesses,andwhoexclaimed,ondiscoveringwhymypropertywastoberealized,“Iamlosingaclient!“

  Andyou,mysweetheartwhomIdarenolongercallmylovedone,mayyounotcry,“Iamlosingasister?“

  Mysweet,addresswhenyouwriteinfuturetoMme。Gaston,PosteRestante,Versailles。Weshallsendthereeverydayforletters。I

  don’twanttobeknowntothecountrypeople,andweshallgetourprovisionsfromParis。InthiswayIhopewemayguardthesecretofourlives。Nobodyhasbeenseenintheplaceduringtheyearsspentinpreparingourretreat;andthepurchasewasmadeinthetroubledperiodwhichfollowedtherevolutionofJuly。Theonlypersonwhohasshownhimselfhereisthearchitect;healoneisknown,andhewillnotreturn。

  Farewell。AsIwritethisword,Iknownotwhethermyheartisfullerofgrieforjoy。Thatproves,doesitnot,thatthepainoflosingyouequalsmyloveforGaston?

  MARIEGASTONTODANIELD’ARTHEZ

  MyDearDaniel,——Ineedtwowitnessesformymarriage。Ibegofyoutocometo-morroweveningforthispurpose,bringingwithyouourworthyandhonoredfriend,JosephBridau。Shewhoistobemywife,withaninstinctivedivinationofmydearestwishes,hasdeclaredherintentionoflivingfarfromtheworldincompleteretirement。You,whohavedonesomuchtolightenmypenury,havebeenleftinignoranceofmylove;butyouwillunderstandthatabsolutesecrecywasessential。

  Thiswillexplaintoyouwhyitisthat,forthelastyear,wehaveseensolittleofeachother。Onthemorrowofmyweddingweshallbepartedforalongtime;but,Daniel,youareofstufftounderstandme。Friendshipcansubsistintheabsenceofthefriend。TheremaybetimeswhenIshallwantyoubadly,butIshallnotseeyou,atleastnotinmyownhouse。Hereagain/she/hasforestalledourwishes。Shehassacrificedtomeherintimacywithafriendofherchildhood,whohasbeenasistertoher。Forhersake,then,Ialsomustrelinquishmycomrade!

  Fromthisfactaloneyouwilldivinethatoursisnomerepassingfancy,butlove,absolute,perfect,godlike;lovebaseduponthefullestknowledgethatcanbindtwoheartsinsympathy。Tomeitisaperpetualspringofpurestdelight。

  Yetnatureallowsofnohappinesswithoutalloy;anddeepdown,intheinnermostrecessofmyheart,Iamconsciousofalurkingthought,notsharedwithher,thepangofwhichisformealone。Youhavetoooftencometothehelpofmyinveteratepovertytobeignoranthowdesperatematterswerewithme。WhereshouldIhavefoundcouragetokeepupthestruggleoflife,afterseeingmyhopessooftenblighted,butforyourcheeringwords,yourtactfulaid,andtheknowledgeofwhatyouhadcomethrough?Briefly,then,myfriend,shefreedmefromthatcrushingloadofdebt,whichwasnosecrettoyou。Sheiswealthy,I

  ampenniless。ManyatimehaveIexclaimed,inoneofmyfitsofidleness,“Ohforsomegreatheiresstocasthereyeonme!“Andnow,inpresenceofthisreality,theboy’scarelessjest,theunscrupulouscynicismoftheoutcast,havealikevanished,leavingintheirplaceonlyabittersenseofhumiliation,whichnotthemostconsideratetendernessonherpart,normyownassuranceofhernoblenature,canremove。Nay,whatbetterproofofmylovecouldthereexist,forherorformyself,thanthisshame,fromwhichIhavenotrecoiled,evenwhenpowerlesstoovercomeit?Thefactremainsthatthereisapointwhere,farfromprotecting,Iamtheprotected。

  ThisismypainwhichIconfidetoyou。

  Exceptinthisoneparticular,dearDaniel,myfondestdreamsaremorethanrealized。Fairestandnoblestamongwomen,suchabridemightindeedraiseamantogiddyheightsofbliss。Hergentlewaysareseasonedwithwit,herlovecomeswithanever-freshgraceandcharm;

  hermindiswellinformedandquicktounderstand;inperson,sheisfairandlovely,witharoundedslimness,asthoughRaphaelandRubenshadconspiredtocreateawoman!IdonotknowwhetherIcouldhaveworshipedwithsuchfervorattheshrineofadarkbeauty;abrunettealwaysstrikesmeasanunfinishedboy。Sheisawidow,childless,andtwenty-sevenyearsofage。Thoughbrimfuloflifeandenergy,shehashermoodsalsoofdreamymelancholy。Theseraregiftsgowithaproudaristocraticbearing;shehasafinepresence。

  Shebelongstooneofthoseoldfamilieswhomakeafetichofrank,yetlovesmeenoughtoignorethemisfortuneofmybirth。Oursecretpassionisnowoflongstanding;wehavemadetrial,eachoftheother,andfindthatinthematterofjealousywearetwinspirits;

  ourthoughtsarethereverberationofthesamethunderclap。Webothloveforthefirsttime,andthisbewitchingspringtimehasfilleditsdaysforuswithalltheimagesofdelightthatfancycanpaintinlaughing,sweet,ormusingmood。Ourpathhasbeenstrewnwiththeflowersoftenderimaginings。Eachhourbroughtitsownwealth,andwhenweparted,itwastoputourthoughtsinverse。NotforamomentdidIharbortheideaofsullyingthebrightnessofsuchatimebygivingthereintosensualpassion,howeveritmightchafewithin。Shewasawidowandfree;intuitively,sherealizedallthehomageimpliedinthisconstantself-restraint,whichoftenmovedhertotears。Canyounotreadinthis,myfriend,asoulofnobletemper?Inmutualfearweshunnedeventhefirstkissoflove。

  “Wehaveeachawrongtoreproachourselveswith,“shesaidoneday。

  “Whereisyours?“Iasked。

  “Mymarriage,“washerreply。

  Daniel,youareagiantamongusandyouloveoneofthemostgiftedwomenofthearistocracy,whichhasproducedmyArmande;whatneedtotellyoumore?Suchananswerlaysbaretoyouawoman’sheartandallthehappinesswhichisinstoreforyourfriend,MARIEGASTON。

  MME。DEL’ESTORADETOMME。DEMACUMER

  Louise,canitbethat,withallyourknowledgeofthedeep-seatedmischiefwroughtbytheindulgenceofpassion,evenwithintheheartofmarriage,youareplanningalifeofweddedsolitude?Havingsacrificedyourfirsthusbandinthecourseofafashionablecareer,wouldyounowflytothedeserttoconsumeasecond?Whatstoresofmiseryyouarelayingupforyourself!

  ButIseefromthewayyouhavesetaboutitthatthereisnogoingback。Themanwhohasovercomeyouraversiontoasecondmarriagemustindeedpossesssomemagicofmindandheart;andyoucanonlybelefttoyourillusions。Buthaveyouforgottenyourformercriticismonyoungmen?Notone,youwouldsay,buthasvisitedhauntsofshame,andhasbesmirchedhispuritywiththefilthofthestreets。Whereisthechange,pray——inthemorinyou?

  Youarealuckywomantobeabletobelieveinhappiness。Ihavenotthecouragetoblameyouforit,thoughtheinstinctofaffectionurgesmetodissuadeyoufromthismarriage。Yes,athousandtimes,yes,itistruethatnatureandsocietyareatoneinmakingwaronabsolutehappiness,becausesuchaconditionisopposedtothelawsofboth;possibly,also,becauseHeavenisjealousofitsprivileges。Myloveforyouforebodessomedisastertowhichallmypenetrationcangivenodefiniteform。Iknowneitherwhencenorfromwhomitwillarise;butoneneedbenoprophettoforetellthatthemereweightofaboundlesshappinesswilloverpoweryou。Excessofjoyishardertobearthananyamountofsorrow。

  AgainsthimIhavenotawordtosay。Youlovehim,andinallprobabilityIhaveneverseenhim;butsomeidledayIhopeyouwillsendmeasketch,howeverslight,ofthisrare,fineanimal。

  Ifyouseemesoresignedandcheerful,itisbecauseIamconvincedthat,oncethehoneymoonisoveryouwillbothwithoneaccord,fallbackintothecommontrack。Someday,twoyearshence,whenwearewalkingalongthisfamousroad,youwillexclaim,“Why,thereisthechaletwhichwastobemyhomeforever!“Andyouwilllaughyourdearoldlaugh,whichshowsallyourprettyteeth!

  IhavesaidnothingyettoLouis;itwouldbetoogoodanopeningforhisridicule。Ishalltellhimsimplythatyouaregoingtobemarried,andthatyouwishitkeptsecret。Unluckily,youneedneithermothernorsisterforyourbridalevening。WeareinOctobernow;likeabravewoman,youaregrapplingwithwinterfirst。Ifitwerenotaquestionofmarriage,Ishouldsayyouweretakingthebullbythehorns。Inanycase,youwillhaveinmethemostdiscreetandintelligentoffriends。Thatmysteriousregion,knownasthecentreofAfrica,hasswallowedupmanytravelers,andyouseemtometobelaunchingonanexpeditionwhich,inthedomainofsentiment,correspondstothosewheresomanyexplorershaveperished,whetherinthesandsoratthehandsofnatives。Yourdesertis,happily,onlytwoleaguesfromParis,soIcanwishyouquitecheerfully,“Asafejourneyandspeedyreturn。“

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