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  Themanlayflatonhisstomachonthefloor,hisneckpressedback,wrigglingundertheengineandpokingwithhisfinger。Conniethoughtwhatapatheticsortofthingamanwas,feebleandsmall-looking,whenhewaslyingonhisbellyonthebigearth。

  `SeemsallrightasfarasIcansee,’camehismuffledvoice。

  `Idon’tsupposeyoucandoanything,’saidClifford。

  `SeemsasifIcan’t!’Andhescrambledupandsatonhisheels,collierfashion。`There’scertainlynothingobviouslybroken。’

  Cliffordstartedhisengine,thenputheringear。Shewouldnotmove。

  `Runherabithard,like,’suggestedthekeeper。

  Cliffordresentedtheinterference:buthemadehisenginebuzzlikeablue-bottle。Thenshecoughedandsnarledandseemedtogobetter。

  `Soundsasifshe’dcomeclear,’saidMellors。

  ButCliffordhadalreadyjerkedherintogear。Shegaveasicklurchandebbedweaklyforwards。

  `IfIgiveherapush,she’lldoit,’saidthekeeper,goingbehind。

  `Keepoff!’snappedClifford。`She’lldoitbyherself。’

  `ButClifford!’putinConniefromthebank,`youknowit’stoomuchforher。Whyareyousoobstinate!’

  Cliffordwaspalewithanger。Hejabbedathislevers。Thechairgaveasortofscurry,reeledonafewmoreyards,andcametoherendamidaparticularlypromisingpatchofbluebells。

  `She’sdone!’saidthekeeper。`Notpowerenough。’

  `She’sbeenupherebefore,’saidCliffordcoldly。

  `Shewon’tdoitthistime,’saidthekeeper。

  Clifforddidnotreply。Hebegandoingthingswithhisengine,runningherfastandslowasiftogetsomesortoftuneoutofher。Thewoodre-echoedwithweirdnoises。Thenheputheringearwithajerk,havingjerkedoffhisbrake。

  `You’llripherinsideout,’murmuredthekeeper。

  Thechairchargedinasicklurchsidewaysattheditch。

  `Clifford!’criedConnie,rushingforward。

  Butthekeeperhadgotthechairbytherail。Clifford,however,puttingonallhispressure,managedtosteerintotheriding,andwithastrangenoisethechairwasfightingthehill。Mellorspushedsteadilybehind,andupshewent,asiftoretrieveherself。

  `Yousee,she’sdoingit!’saidClifford,victorious,glancingoverhisshoulder。Therehesawthekeeper’sface。

  `Areyoupushingher?’

  `Shewon’tdoitwithout。’

  `Leaveheralone。Iaskedyounot。

  `Shewon’tdoit。’

  `Lethertry!’snarledClifford,withallhisemphasis。

  Thekeeperstoodback:thenturnedtofetchhiscoatandgun。Thechairseemedtostrangeimmediately。Shestoodinert。Clifford,seatedaprisoner,waswhitewithvexation。Hejerkedattheleverswithhishand,hisfeetwerenogood。Hegotqueernoisesoutofher。Insavageimpatiencehemovedlittlehandlesandgotmorenoisesoutofher。Butshewouldnotbudge。

  No,shewouldnotbudge。Hestoppedtheengineandsatrigidwithanger。

  Constancesatonthebankaridlookedatthewretchedandtrampledbluebells。

  `NothingquitesolovelyasanEnglishspring。’`Icandomyshareofruling。’

  `Whatweneedtotakeupnowiswhips,notswords。’`Therulingclasses!’

  Thekeeperstrodeupwithhiscoatandgun,Flossiecautiouslyathisheels。Cliffordaskedthemantodosomethingorothertotheengine。Connie,whounderstoodnothingatallofthetechnicalitiesofmotors,andwhohadhadexperienceofbreakdowns,satpatientlyonthebankasifshewereacipher。Thekeeperlayonhisstomachagain。Therulingclassesandtheservingclasses!

  Hegottohisfeetandsaidpatiently:

  `Tryheragain,then。’

  Hespokeinaquietvoice,almostasiftoachild。

  Cliffordtriedher,andMellorssteppedquicklybehindandbegantopush。Shewasgoing,theenginedoingabouthalfthework,themantherest。

  Cliffordglancedround,yellowwithanger。

  `Willyougetoffthere!’

  Thekeeperdroppedhisholdatonce,andCliffordadded:`HowshallIknowwhatsheisdoing!’

  Themanputhisgundownandbegantopullonhiscoat。He’ddone。

  Thechairbeganslowlytorunbackwards。

  `Clifford,yourbrake!’criedConnie。

  She,Mellors,andCliffordmovedatonce,Connieandthekeeperjostlinglightly。Thechairstood。Therewasamomentofdeadsilence。

  `It’sobviousI’mateverybody’smercy!’saidClifford。Hewasyellowwithanger。

  Nooneanswered。Mellorswasslinginghisgunoverhisshoulder,hisfacequeerandexpressionless,saveforanabstractedlookofpatience。

  ThedogFlossie,standingonguardalmostbetweenhermaster’slegs,moveduneasily,eyeingthechairwithgreatsuspicionanddislike,andverymuchperplexedbetweenthethreehumanbeings。Thetableauvivantremainedsetamongthesquashedbluebells,nobodyprofferingaword。

  `Iexpectshe’llhavetobepushed,’saidCliffordatlast,withanaffectationofsangfroid。

  Noanswer。Mellors’abstractedfacelookedasifhehadheardnothing。

  Connieglancedanxiouslyathim。Cliffordtooglancedround。

  `Doyoumindpushingherhome,Mellors!’hesaidinacoolsuperiortone。`IhopeIhavesaidnothingtooffendyou,’headded,inatoneofdislike。

  `Nothingatall,SirClifford!Doyouwantmetopushthatchair?’

  `Ifyouplease。’

  Themansteppeduptoit:butthistimeitwaswithouteffect。Thebrakewasjammed。Theypokedandpulled,andthekeepertookoffhisgunandhiscoatoncemore。AndnowCliffordsaidneveraword。Atlastthekeeperheavedthebackofthechairoffthegroundand,withaninstantaneouspushofhisfoot,triedtoloosenthewheels。Hefailed,thechairsank。

  Cliffordwasclutchingthesides。Themangaspedwiththeweight。

  `Don’tdoit!’criedConnietohim。

  `Ifyou’llpullthewheelthatway,so!’hesaidtoher,showingherhow。

  `No!Youmustn’tliftit!You’llstrainyourself,’shesaid,flushednowwithanger。

  Buthelookedintohereyesandnodded。Andshehadtogoandtakeholdofthewheel,ready。Heheavedandshetugged,andthechairreeled。

  `ForGod’ssake!’criedCliffordinterror。

  Butitwasallright,andthebrakewasoff。Thekeeperputastoneunderthewheel,andwenttositonthebank,hisheartbeatandhisfacewhitewiththeeffort,semi-conscious。

  Connielookedathim,andalmostcriedwithanger。Therewasapauseandadeadsilence。Shesawhishandstremblingonhisthighs。

  `Haveyouhurtyourself?’sheasked,goingtohim。

  `No。No!’Heturnedawayalmostangrily。

  Therewasdeadsilence。ThebackofClifford’sfairheaddidnotmove。

  Eventhedogstoodmotionless。Theskyhadcloudedover。

  Atlasthesighed,andblewhisnoseonhisredhandkerchief。

  `Thatpneumoniatookalotoutofme,’hesaid。

  Nooneanswered。ConniecalculatedtheamountofstrengthitmusthavetakentoheaveupthatchairandthebulkyClifford:toomuch,fartoomuch!Ifithadn’tkilledhim!

  Herose,andagainpickeduphiscoat,slingingitthroughthehandleofthechair。

  `Areyouready,then,SirClifford?’

  `Whenyouare!’

  Hestoopedandtookoutthescotch,thenputhisweightagainstthechair。HewaspalerthanConniehadeverseenhim:andmoreabsent。Cliffordwasaheavyman:andthehillwassteep。Conniesteppedtothekeeper’sside。

  `I’mgoingtopushtoo!’shesaid。

  Andshebegantoshovewithawoman’sturbulentenergyofanger。Thechairwentfaster。Cliffordlookedround。

  `Isthatnecessary?’hesaid。

  `Very!Doyouwanttokilltheman!Ifyou’dletthemotorworkwhileitwould——’

  Butshedidnotfinish。Shewasalreadypanting。Sheslackenedoffalittle,foritwassurprisinglyhardwork。

  `Ay!slower!’saidthemanatherside,withafaintsmileofhiseyes。

  `Areyousureyou’venothurtyourself?’shesaidfiercely。

  Heshookhishead。Shelookedathissmallish,short,alivehand,brownedbytheweather。Itwasthehandthatcaressedher。Shehadneverevenlookedatitbefore。Itseemedsostill,likehim,withacuriousinwardstillnessthatmadeherwanttoclutchit,asifshecouldnotreachit。Allhersoulsuddenlyswepttowardshim:hewassosilent,andoutofreach!Andhefelthislimbsrevive。Shovingwithhislefthand,helaidhisrightonherroundwhitewrist,softlyenfoldingherwrist,withacaress。Andtheflameofstrengthwentdownhisbackandhisloins,revivinghim。Andshebentsuddenlyandkissedhishand。MeanwhilethebackofClifford’sheadwasheldsleekandmotionless,justinfrontofthem。

  Atthetopofthehilltheyrested,andConniewasgladtoletgo。Shehadhadfugitivedreamsoffriendshipbetweenthesetwomen:oneherhusband,theotherthefatherofherchild。Nowshesawthescreamingabsurdityofherdreams。Thetwomaleswereashostileasfireandwater。Theymutuallyexterminatedoneanother。Andsherealizedforthefirsttimewhataqueersubtlethinghateis。Forthefirsttime,shehadconsciouslyanddefinitelyhatedClifford,withvividhate:asifheoughttobeobliteratedfromthefaceoftheearth。Anditwasstrange,howfreeandfulloflifeitmadeherfeel,tohatehimandtoadmititfullytoherself——`NowI’vehatedhim,Ishallneverbeabletogoonlivingwithhim,’camethethoughtintohermind。

  Onthelevelthekeepercouldpushthechairalone。Cliffordmadealittleconversationwithher,toshowhiscompletecomposure:aboutAuntEva,whowasatDieppe,andaboutSirMalcolm,whohadwrittentoaskwouldConniedrivewithhiminhissmallcar,toVenice,orwouldsheandHildagobytrain。

  `I’dmuchrathergobytrain,’saidConnie。`Idon’tlikelongmotordrives,especiallywhenthere’sdust。ButIshallseewhatHildawants。’

  `Shewillwanttodriveherowncar,andtakeyouwithher,’hesaid。

  `Probably!——Imusthelpuphere。You’venoideahowheavythischairis。’

  Shewenttothebackofthechair,andploddedsidebysidewiththekeeper,shovingupthepinkpath。Shedidnotcarewhosaw。

  `Whynotletmewait,andfetchField?Heisstrongenoughforthejob,’

  saidClifford。

  `It’ssonear,’shepanted。

  ButbothsheandMellorswipedthesweatfromtheirfaceswhentheycametothetop。Itwascurious,butthisbitofworktogetherhadbroughtthemmuchcloserthantheyhadbeenbefore。

  `Thankssomuch,Mellors,’saidClifford,whentheywereatthehousedoor。`Imustgetadifferentsortofmotor,that’sall。Won’tyougotothekitchenandhaveameal?Itmustbeabouttime。’

  `Thankyou,SirClifford。Iwasgoingtomymotherfordinnertoday,Sunday。’

  `Asyoulike。’

  Mellorsslungintohiscoat,lookedatConnie,saluted,andwasgone。

  Connie,furious,wentupstairs。

  Atlunchshecouldnotcontainherfeeling。

  `Whyareyousoabominablyinconsiderate,Clifford?’shesaidtohim。

  `Ofwhom?’

  `Ofthekeeper!Ifthatiswhatyoucallrulingclasses,I’msorryforyou。’

  `Why?’

  `Amanwho’sbeenill,andisn’tstrong!Myword,ifIweretheservingclasses,I’dletyouwaitforservice。I’dletyouwhistle。’

  `Iquitebelieveit。’

  `Ifhe’dbeensittinginachairwithparalysedlegs,andbehavedasyoubehaved,whatwouldyouhavedoneforhim?’

  `Mydearevangelist,thisconfusingofpersonsandpersonalitiesisinbadtaste。’

  `Andyournasty,sterilewantofcommonsympathyisintheworsttasteimaginable。Noblesseoblige!Youandyourrulingclass!’

  `Andtowhatshoulditobligeme?Tohavealotofunnecessaryemotionsaboutmygame-keeper?Irefuse。Ileaveitalltomyevangelist。’

  `Asifheweren’tamanasmuchasyouare,myword!’

  `Mygame-keepertoboot,andIpayhimtwopoundsaweekandgivehimahouse。’

  `Payhim!Whatdoyouthinkyoupayfor,withtwopoundsaweekandahouse?’

  `Hisservices。’

  `Bah!Iwouldtellyoutokeepyourtwopoundsaweekandyourhouse。’

  `Probablyhewouldliketo:butcan’taffordtheluxury!’

  `You,andrule!’shesaid。`Youdon’trule,don’tflatteryourself。

  Youhaveonlygotmorethanyourshareofthemoney,andmakepeopleworkforyoufortwopoundsaweek,orthreatenthemwithstarvation。Rule!

  Whatdoyougiveforthofrule?Why,youredriedup!Youonlybullywithyourmoney,likeanyJeworanySchieber!’

  `Youareveryelegantinyourspeech,LadyChatterley!’

  `Iassureyou,youwereveryelegantaltogetheroutthereinthewood。

  Iwasutterlyashamedofyou。Why,myfatheristentimesthehumanbeingyouare:yougentleman!’

  HereachedandrangthebellforMrsBolton。Buthewasyellowatthegills。

  Shewentuptoherroom,furious,sayingtoherself:`Himandbuyingpeople!Well,hedoesn’tbuyme,andthereforethere’snoneedformetostaywithhim。Deadfishofagentleman,withhiscelluloidsoul!Andhowtheytakeonein,withtheirmannersandtheirmockwistfulnessandgentleness。

  They’vegotaboutasmuchfeelingascelluloidhas。’

  Shemadeherplansforthenight,anddeterminedtogetCliffordoffhermind。Shedidn’twanttohatehim。Shedidn’twanttobemixedupveryintimatelywithhiminanysortoffeeling。Shewantedhimnottoknowanythingatallaboutherself:andespecially,nottoknowanythingaboutherfeelingforthekeeper。Thissquabbleofherattitudetotheservantswasanoldone。Hefoundhertoofamiliar,shefoundhimstupidlyinsentient,toughandindiarubberywhereotherpeoplewereconcerned。

  Shewentdownstairscalmly,withherolddemurebearing,atdinner-time。

  Hewasstillyellowatthegills:inforoneofhisliverbouts,whenhewasreallyveryqueer——HewasreadingaFrenchbook。

  `HaveyoueverreadProust?’heaskedher。

  `I’vetried,butheboresme。’

  `He’sreallyveryextraordinary。’

  `Possibly!Butheboresme:allthatsophistication!Hedoesn’thavefeelings,heonlyhasstreamsofwordsaboutfeelings。I’mtiredofself-importantmentalities。’

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