“I’llhavetostaynow。“Histonewasdryandlifeless。Ithadareproachinitthatcutthewifedeep-deepasthefountainoftears;
andshewentacrosstheroomandkneltatthebedside,buryingherfaceintheclothesonthefeetofherchildren,andsobbedsilently。
Themansatwithbenthead,lookingintotheglowingcoal,whistlingthroughhisteeth,alookofsullenresignationandenduranceonhisfacethathadneverbeentherebefore。Hisveryattitudewasalienandominous。
Neitherspokeforalongtime。Atlastheroseandbegantakingoffhiscoatandvest。
“Well,Isupposethere’snothingtodobutgotobed。“
Shedidnotstir-shemighthavebeenasleepsofarasanysoundormotionwasconcerned。Hewentofftothebedinthelittleparlor,andshestillkneltthere,herheartfullofanger,bitterness,sorrow。
Thesunnyuneventfulnessofherpastlifemadethisgreatstormthemoreterrifying。Hertrustinherhusbandhadbeenabsolute。A
farmer’sdaughter,thebankclerkhadseemedtohertheequalofanygentlemanintheworld-herworld;andwhensheknewhisdelicacy,hisunfailingkindness,andhisaboundinggoodnature,shehadacceptedhimasthefatherofherchildren,andthiswasthefirstrevelationtoherofhisinherentmoralweakness。
Hermindwentoverthewholegroundagainandagain,inasortofblindingrush。Shewasconvincedofhislackofhonormorebyhistone,hisinflections,thanbyhiswords。Hislackofdeepregret,hisreadinesstoleavehertobearthewholeshockofthediscovery-
thesewereinhisflippanttones;andeverytimeshethoughtofthemthehotbloodsurgedoverher。Atsuchmomentsshehatedhim,andherwhiteteethclenched。
Tothesemoodssucceededothers,whensherememberedhissmile,thedimpleinhischin,histendercareforthesick,hisbuoyancy,hissongstothechildren-Howcouldhesitthere,withthechildrenonhisknees,andplantorunaway,leavingthemdisgraced?
Shewenttobedatlastwiththebabies,andwiththeirsoft,warmlittlebodiestouchinghersidefellasleep,pondering,sufferingasonlyamotherandwifecansufferwhendistrustanddoubtofherhusbandsupplantconfidenceandadoration。
IV
Thechildrenawakenedherbytheirdelightedcooingandkissing。
Itwasagreatevent,thiswakingtofindmammaintheirbed。Itwashardlylight,ofadullgraymorning;andwiththechildrentumblingaboutoverher,feelingthepressureofthewarmlittlehandsandsoftlips,shewentoverthewholesituationagain,andatlastsettleduponheraction。
Sherose,shookdownthecoalinthestoveinthesittingroom,andstartedafireinthekitchen;thenshedressedthechildrenbythecoalburner。Theelderofthem,assoonasdressed,ranintowake“Poppa“whilethemotherwentaboutbreakfast-getting。
Sanfordcameoutofhisbedroomunwontedlygloomy,greetingthechildreninasubduedmaimer。Heshiveredashesatbythefireandstirredthestoveasifhethoughttheroomwascold。Hisfacewaspaleandmoist。
“Breakfastisready,James,“calledMrs。Sanfordinatonewhichshemeanttobehabitual,butwhichhadacadenceofsadnessinit。
Someway,hefoundithardtolookatherashecameout。Shebusiedherselfwithplacingthechildrenatthetable,inordertoconcealherownemotion。
“Idon’tbelieveI’lleatanymeatthismorning,Nellie。Iain’tverywell。“
Sheglancedathimquickly,keenly。“What’sthematter?“
“Id’know。Mystomachiskindofupsetbythisfailureo’mine。I’mingreatshapetogodowntothebankthismorningandfacethemfellows。“
“It’sgottobedone。“
“Iknowit;butthatdon’thelpmeany。“Hetriedtosmile。
Shemused,whilethebabyhammeredonhistinplate。“You’vegottogodown。Ifyoudon’t-Iwill,“saidsheresolutely。“Andyoumustsaythatthatmoneywillbepaidback-everycent。“
“Butthat’smore’nIcando-“
“Itmustbedone。“
“Butunderthelaw-“
“There’snothingcanmakethisthingrightexceptpayingeverycentweowe。Iain’ta-goin’tohaveitsaidthatmychildren-thatI’mlivin’onsomebodyelse。Ifyoudon’tpaythesedebts,Iwill。I’vethoughtitallout。Ifyoudon’tstayandfaceit,andpaythesemen,I
won’townyouasmyhusband。Ilovedandtrustedyou,Jim-I
thoughtyouwashonorable-it’sbeenaterribleblow-butI’vedecideditallinmymind。“
Sheconqueredherlittleweaknessandwentontotheendfirmly。
Herfacelookedpale。Therewasasquarelookaboutthemouthandchin。TheironresolutionandPuritanicstrengthofherfather,oldJohnForeman,hadcometothesurface。Herlookandtonemasteredtheman,forhelovedherdeeply。
Shehadsethimahardtask,andwhenheroseandwentdownthestreethewalkedwithbenthead,quiteunlikehisusualself。
Therewerenotmanymenonthestreet。Itseemedearlierthanitwas,foritwasaraw,coldmorning,promisingsnow。Thesunwascompletelymaskedinaseamlessdust-graycloud。HemetVancewithabrownparcelbeefsteakforbreakfastunderhisarm。
“Hello,Jim!Howareye,soearlyinthemorning?“
“Blessednearusedup。“
“Thatso?What’sthematter?“
“Id’know,“saidJim,listlessly。“Bilious,Iguess。Headache-
stomachbad。“
“Oh!Well,now,youtrythempillsIwastellin’youof。“Arrivedatthebank,helethimselfinandlockedthedoorbehindhim。Hestoodinthemiddleofthefloorafewminutes,thenwentbehindtherailingandsatdown。Hedidn’tbuildafire,thoughitwascoldanddamp,andheshiveredashesatleaningonthedesk。Atlengthhedrewalargesheetofpapertowardhimandwrotesomethingonitinaheavyhand。
HewaswritingonthiswhenLincolnenteredattheback,whistlingboyishly。“Hello,Jim!Ain’tyouupearly?Nofire,eh?“Herattledatthestove。
Sanfordsaidnothing,butfinishedhiswriting。Thenhesaid,quietly,“Youneedn’tbuildafireonmyaccount,Link。“
“Whynot?“
“Well,I’musedup。“
“What’sthematter?“
“I’msick,andthebusinesshasgonetothedevil。“Helookedoutofthewindow。
Linkdroppedthepoker,andcamearoundbehindthecounter,andstaredatSanfordwithfallenmouth。
“Wha’dyousay?“
“Isaidthebusinesshadgonetothedevil。We’rebrokebusted-petered-goneupthespout。“Hetookasortofmorbidpleasureinsayingthesethings。
“What’sbustedus?Have-“
“I’vebeenspeciflatin’incopper。Mypartner’sbustedme。“
Linkcamecloser。Hismouthstiffenedandanominouslookcameintohiseyes。“Youdon’tmeantosayyou’velostmymoney,andMother’s,andUncleAndrew’s,andalltherest?“
Sanfordwasgettingirritated。“-it!What’stheuse?Itellyou,yes!
It’sallgone-verycentofit。“
Linkcaughthimbytheshoulderashesatatthedesk。Sanford’stoneenragedhim。“Youthief!Butyou’llpaymeback,orI’ll-“
“Oh,goahead!Poundasickman,ifit’lldoyouanygood,“saidSanfordwithapeculiarrecklessnessoflifelessmisery。“Payy’rselloutofthesafe。Here’sthecombination。“
Lincolnreleasedhimandbeganturningtheknobofthedoor。Atlastitswungopen,andhesearchedthemoneydrawers。Lessthanfortydollars,alltold。HisvoicewasfullofhelplessrageasheturnedatlastandwalkedupclosetoSanford’sbowedhead。
“I’dliketopoundthelifeouto’you!“
“You’reatlibertytodoso,ifit’llbeanysatisfaction。“Thisdesperatecourageawedtheyoungerman。HegazedatSanfordinamazement。
“Ifyou’llcooldownandwaitalittle,Link,I’lltellyouallaboutit。
I’msickasahorse。IguessI’llgohome。Youcanputthisupinthewindowandgohome,too,ifyouwantto。“
LincolnsawthatSanfordwassick。Hewasshivering,anddropsofsweatwereonhiswhiteforehead。Lincolnstoodasidesilentlyandlethimgoout。
“Betterlockup,Link。Youcan’tdoanythingbystayinghere。“
Lincolntookrefugeinaboyishphrasethatwouldhavemadeanyonebutasickmanlaugh:“Well,thisisa-ofanote!“-
Hetookupthepaper。Itread:
BANKCLOSED
TOMYCREDITORSANDDEPOSITORS
ThroughacombinationofeventsIfindmyselfobligedtotemporarilysuspendpayment。Iaskthedepositorstobepatient,andtheirclaimswillbemet。IthinkIcanpaytwenty-fivecentsonthedollar,ifgivenalittletime。Ishallnotrunaway。Ishallstayrightheretillallmattersarehonorablysettled。
JAMESG。SANFORD
Lincolnhastilypinnedthispapertothewindowsashsothatitcouldbeseenfromwithout,thenpulleddowntheblindsandlockedthedoor。Hisfun-lovingnaturerosesuperiortohisrageforthemoment。“There’llbethedeviltopayinthisburgbeforetwohours。“
Heslippedoutthebackway,takingthekeyswithhim。“I’llgoandtelluncle,andthenwe’llseeifJimcan’tturninthehouseonouraccount,“hethoughtasheharnessedateamtodriveouttoMcPhail’s。
ThefirstmantotrythedoorwasanoldNorwegianinaspottedMackinacjacketandafurcap,withtheinevitablelittleredtippetabouthisneck。Heturnedtheknob,knocked,andatlastsawthewriting,whichhecouldnotread,andwentawaytotellJohnsonthatthebankwasclosed。Johnsonthoughtnothingspecialofthat;
itwasearly,andtheyweren’tveryparticulartoopenontime,anyway。
Thenthebarberacrossthestreettriedtogetintohaveabillchanged。Tryingtopeerinthewindow,hesawthenotice,whichhereadwithagrin。
“Oneo’Link’sjobs,“heexplainedtothefellowsintheshop。“He’stoodarnedlazytoopenontime,soheputsupnoticethatthebankisbusted。“
“Let’sgoandsee。“
“Don’tdoit!He’swatchin’toseeusallrushacrossandlook。Justkeepquiet,andseethesolidcitizensreararound。“
OldOrrinMcIlvainecameoutofthepostofficeandtriedthedoornext,thenstoodforalongtimereadingthenotice,andatlastwalkedthoughtfullyaway。Soonhereturned,tothemerrimentofthefellowsinthebarbershop,withtwoorthreesolidcitizenswhohadbeensmokinganafter-breakfastcigarandplanningadeerhunt。Theystoodbeforethewindowinarowandreadthenotice。
Mcllvainegesticulatedwithhiscigar。
“Gentlemen,there’sapigloosehere。“
“Oneo’Link’sjokes,Ireckon。“
“Butthat’sSanford’swritin’。An’hereitisnineo’clock,andnooneround。Idon’tlikethelooksofit,myself。“
Thecrowdthickened;thefellowscameoutoftheblacksmithshop,whilethejokersinthebarbershopsmotetheirkneesandyelledwithmerriment。
“What’sup?“queriedVance,comingupandrepeatingtheuniversalquestion。
McIlvainepointedattheposterwithhiscigar。
Vancereadthenotice,whilethecrowdwaitedsilently。
“Whatyethinkofit?“askedsomeoneimpatiently。Vancesmokedamoment。“Can’tsay。Where’sJim?“
“That’sit!Whereishe?“
“Bestwaytofindoutistosendaboyuptothehouse。“Hecalledaboyandsenthimscurryingupthestreet。
Thecrowdnowgrewsoberanddiscussedpossibilities。“Ifthat’strue,it’stheworstcrackontheheadIeverhad,“saidMcllvaine。
“Seventeenhundreddollarsismypileinthere。“Hetookaseatonthewindowsill。
“Well,I’mtickledtodeathtothinkIgotmylittlestakeoutbeforeanythinghappened。“
“Whenyouthinkofit-whatsecuritydidheevergive?“Mcllvainecontinued。
“Notacent-notaredcent。“
“No,sir;wesimplybankedonhim。Now,he’sagoodfellow,an’
thismaybeajokeo’Link’s;butthefactis,itmight’a’happened。