“Iadmitsheisn’telegant,butIthinkshe’sagoodwifeandmother。“
“Iwonderifthey’realllikethat?“
“Now,Mate,wemusttrynottooffendthem。Wemusttrytobeoneofthem。“
Butthiswaseasiersaidthandone。Ashewentdowntothepostofficeandstoodwaitingforhismailliketherest,hetriedtoenterintoconversationwitbthem,butmainlytheymovedawayfromhim。WilliamMcTurgnoddedathimandsaid,“Howdedo?“andMcLaneaskedhowhelikedhisnewplace,andthatwasaboutall。
Hecouldn’treachthem。Theysuspectedhim。Theyhadonlytheestimateofthemenwhohadworkedforhim;and,whiletheywerecivil,theyplainlydidn’tneedhimintheslightestdegree,exceptasatopicofconversation。
Hedidnotimproveashehadhopedtodo。Thespringwaswetandcold,themostrainyanddepressingthevalleyhadseeninmanyyears。Dayafterdaytheraincloudssailedinoverthenorthernhillsanddelugedtheflatlittletownwithwater,tillthefrogssangineverystreet,tillthemainstreetmireddowneveryteamthatdroveintoit。
Thecornrottedintheearth,butthegrassgrewtallandyellow-green,thetreesglistenedthroughthegrayair,andthehillswerelikegreenjewelsofincalculableworth,whenthesunshone,atsweetinfrequentintervals。
Thecoldanddampstruckthroughintothealien’sheart。Itseemedtoprophesyhisdarkfuture。Hesatathisdeskandlookedoutintothegrayrainwithgloomyeyes-aprisonerwhenhehadexpectedtobefree。
Hehadfailedinhislastventure。Hehadnotgainedanypower-hewasreailyweakerthanever。Therainhadkepthimconfinedtothehouse。Thejoyhehadanticipatedoftracingoutallhisboyishpleasurehauntswascutoff。Hehadrelied,too,uponthatasasourceofliterarypower。
Hecouldnotdomuchmorethanwalkdowntothepostofficeandbackonthepleasantestdays。Afewpeoplecalled,buthecouldnottalktothem,andtheydidnotcallagain。
Inthemeanwhilehislittlebankaccountwasvanishing。Theboyswerestrongandhappy;thatwashisonlycomfort。Andhiswifeseemedstrong,too。Shehadlittletimetogetlonesome。
Hegrewmorbid。Hisweaknessandinsecuritymadehimjealousofthesecurityandhealthofothers。
Hegrewalmosttohatethepeopleashesawthemcomingandgoinginthemud,orheardtheirloudheartyvoicessoundingfromthestreet。Hehatedtheirgossip,theirdulljokes。Theflatlittletowngrewvulgarandlowanddesolatetohim。
Everylittlethingwhichhadamusedhimnowannoyedhim。Thecutoftheirbeardsworriedhim。Theirvoicesjarreduponhim。
Everydayortwohebrokeforthtohiswifeinlongtiradesofabuse。
“Oh,Ican’tstandthesepeople!Theydon’tknowany-thing。Theytalkeveryragofgossipintoshreds。Taters,fish,hops;hops,fish,andtaters。They’vesavedandpinchedandtoiledtilltheirsoulsarepinchedandgroundaway。You’reright。Theyarecaricatures。Theydon’treadorthinkaboutanythinginwhichI’minterested。Thislifeisnerve-destroying。Talkaboutthehealthofthevillagelife!itdestroysbodyandsoul。Itdebilitatesme。Itwillwarpusbothdowntothelevelofthesepeople。“
Shetriedtostophim,buthewenton,aflushoffeveronhischeek:
“Theydegradethenaturetheyhavetouched。Theirsquatlittletownisacaricaturelikethemselves。Everythingtheytouchtheybelittle。Heretheysitwhileside-walksrotandteamsmireinthestreets。“
Heragedonlikeonedemented-bitter,accusing,rebellious。Insuchamoodhecouldnotwrite。Inplaceofinspiringhim,thelittletownanditspeopleseemedtounderminehispowerandturnhissweetnessofspiritintogallandacid。Heonlybowedtothemnowashewalkedfeeblyamongthem,andtheyexcuseditbyreferringtohissickness。Theyeyedhimeachtimewithpityingeyes;“He’sfailin’fast,“theysaidamongthemselves。
Oneday,ashewasreturningfromthepostoffice,hefeltblindforamomentandputhishandtohishead。Thewoldofvividgreengrewgray,andlifercededfromhimintoillimitabledistance。Hehadonedimfadingglimpseofashaggy-beardedfacelookingdownathim,andfelttheclutchofaniron-hardstrongarmunderhim,andthenhelostholdevenonsomuchconsciousness。
Hecamebackslowly,risingoutofimmeasurabledeepstowardadistantlightwhichwaslikethemouthofawellfilledwithcloudsofmistyvapor。Occasionallyhesawabrownbighairyfacefloatinginoverthislightedhorizon,tosmilekindlyandgoawayagain。Otherscamewithshaggybeards。Heheardacheerytenorvoicewhichherecognized,andthenanotherface,abigbrownsmilingface;verylovelyitlookednowtohim-almostaslovelyashiswife’s,whichfloatedinfromtheotherside。
“He’sallrightnow,“saidthecheerytenorvoicefromthebigbeardedface。
“Oh,Mr。McTurg;doyouthinkso?“
“Ye-e-s,sir。He’sallright。Thefever’slefthim。Braceup,oldman。
Weneedyeyitawhile。“Thenallwassilentagam。
Thewellmouthclearedawayitsmistagain,andhesawmoreclearly。Partofthetimeheknewhewasinbedstaringattheceiling。Partofthetimethewellmouthremainedclosedinwithclouds。
Gauntoldwomenputspoonsofdeliciousbrothtohislips,andtheirtoothlessmouthshadkindlylinesaboutthem。Heheardtheirhighvoicessoundingfaintly。
“Now,Mis’Bloom,jestletMis’Folsoman’meattendtothingsouthere。We’llgetsupperfortheboys,an’youjestgoan’laydown。
We’lltakecareofhim。Don’tworry。Bell’sagoodhandwithsick。“
Thenthelightcameagain,andheheardarobinsinging,andacatbirdsqualledsoftly,pitifully。Hecouldseetheceilingagain。Helayonhisback,withhishandsonhisbreast。Hefeltasifhehadbeendead。Heseemedtofeelhisbodyasifitwereanalienthing。
“Howareyou,sir?“calledthelaughing,thrillinglyheartyvoiceofWilliamMcTurg。
Hetriedtoturnhishead,butitwouldn’tmove。Hetriedtospeak,buthisdrythroatmadenonoise。
Thebigmanbentoverhim。“Want’ochangeplacealittle?“
Heclosedhiseyesinanswer。
Agiantarmrandeftlyunderhisshouldersandturnedhimasifhewereaninfant,andanewpartofthegoodoldworldburstonhissight。Thesunshinestreamedinthewindowsthroughawavingscreenoflilacleavesandfelluponthecarpetinapricelessfloodofradiance。
TheresatWilliamMcTurgsmilingathim。Hehadnocoatonandnohat,andhisbushythickhairroseupfromhisforeheadlikethickmarshgrass。Helookedtobetheembodimentofsunshineandhealth。Sunandairwereinhisbrownface,andtheperfecthealthofafineanimalwasinhishugelimbs。HelookedatRobertwithasmilethatbroughtastrangefeelingintohisthroat。Itmadehimtrytospeak;atlasthewhispered。
Thegreatfigurebentcloser:“Whatisit?“
“Thank-you。“
Williamlaughedalowchuckle。“Don’tbotheraboutthanks。Wouldyoulikesomewater?“
AtallfigurejoinedWilliam,awkwardiy。
“Hello,Evan!“
“Howishe,Bm?“
“He’sawaketoday。“
“That’sgood。AnythingIcando?“
“No,Iguessnot。Anheneedsissomethin’toeat。“
“Ijestbroughtachickenup,an’somejellan’thingsthewomensent。I’llstaywithhimtilltwelve,thenFolsomwillcomein。“
Thereafterhelayhearingtherobinslaughandtheorioleswhistle,andthenthefrogsandkatydidsatnight。Thesemenwithgreasyvestsandunkemptbeardscameineveryday。Theybathedhim,andhelpedhimtoandfromthebed。Theyhelpedtodresshimandmovehimtothewindow,wherehecouldlookoutontheblessedgreenofthegrass。
OGod,itwassobeautiful!Itwasalover’sjoyonlytolive,tolookintotheseradiantvistasagain。Acatbirdwassinginginthecurranthedge。Arobinwashoppingacrossthelawn。Thevoicesofthechildrensoundedsoftandjocundacrosstheroad。Andthesurshine-“BelovedChrist,Thysunshinefallinguponmyfeet!“Hissoulachedwiththejoyofit,andwhenhiswifecameinshefoundhimsobbinglikeachild。
Theyseemednevertowearyinhisservice。Theyliftedhimaboutandtalkedtohiminloudandheartyvoiceswhichrousedhimlikefreshwindsfromfreespaces。
Heheardthewomenbusywiththingsinthekitchen。Heoftensawthemloadedwiththingstoeatpassinghiswindow,andoftenhiswifecameinandkneltdownathisbed。
“Oh,Robert,they’resogood!TheyfeeduslikeGodsravens。“
Oneday,ashesatatthewindowfullydressedforthefourthoffifthtime,WilliamMcTurgcameupthewalk。
“Well,Robert,howareyetoday?“
“First-rate,William,“hesmiled。“IbelieveIcanwalkoutalittleifyou’llhelpme。“
“Allright,sir。“
AndhewentforthleaningonWilliam’sarm,apiteouswraithofaman。
OneverysidethegoldenJunesunshinefell,fillingthevalleyfrompurplebrimtopurplebrim。Downoverthehilltothewestthelightpoured,tangledandglowingintheplumandcherrytrees,leavingtheglisteninggrasssprayingthroughtheelmsandflingingstreamersofpinkacrosstheshavengreenslopeswherethecattlefed。
Oneverysidehesawkindlyfacesandheardheartyvoices:“Goodday,Robert。Gladtoseeyououtagain。“Itthrilledhimtohearthemcallhimbyhisfirstname。
Hisheartswelledtillhecouldhardlybreathe。Thepassionoflivingcamebackuponhim,shaking,upliftinghim。Hispallidlipsmoved。Hisfacewasturnedtothesky。
“OGod,letmelive!Itissobeautiful!OGod,givemestrengthagain!Keepmeinthelightofthesun!Letmeseethegreengrasscomeandgo!“
HeturnedtoWilliamwithtremblinglips,tryingtospeak:
“Oh,Iunderstandyounow。Iknowyouallnow。“
ButWilliamdidnotunderstandhim。
“There!there!“hesaidsoothingly。“Iguessyou’regettin’tired。“HeledRobertbackandputhimtobed。
“I’dknowbutwewasalittlebrashaboutgoin’out,“WilliamsaidtohimasRobertlaytheresmilingupathim。
“Oh,I’mallrightnow,“thesickmansaid。
“Matie,“thealiencried,whenWilliamhadgone,“weknewourneighborsnow,don’twe?Wenevercanhateorridiculethemagain。“
“Yes,Robert。Theyneverwillbecaricaturesagain-tome。“
A“GOODFELLOW’S“WIFE
I
LIFEinthesmalltownsoftheolderWestmovesslowly-almostasslowlyasintheseaportvillagesorlittletownsoftheEast。TownslikeTyreandBluffSidinghavegrownduringthelasttwentyyears,butveryslowly,byalmostimperceptibledegrees。LyingtoofarawayfromtheMississippitobeaffectedbythelumberinterest,theyaremerelytradingpointsforthefarmers,withnoperceivablegermsofboomintheirquietlife。
AstrangercomingintoBelfast,Minnesota,excitesmuchthesamelanquidbutpersistentinquiryasinBelfast,NewHampshire。Juriesofmen,seatedonsaltbarrelsandnallkegs,discussthestranger’sappearanceandhisprobableaction,justasinKittery,Maine,butwithalazierspeechtuneandwithashadelessofapparentinterest。
OnsucharainydayascomesinMayafterthecornisplanted-acold,wetrainyday-theusualcrowdwasgatheredinWilson’sgrocerystoreatBluffSiding,asmalltowninthe“couleecountry。“
Theywerefarmers,forthemostpart,retiredfromactiveservice。
Theircoatswereofcheapdiagonalorcassimere,muchfadedandburnedbythesun;theirhats,flappedaboutbywindsandsoakedwithcountlessrains,werealsoofthesameyellow-browntints。
Oneortwoworepapercollarsontheirhickoryshirts。
Mcllvaine,farmerandwheatbuyer,woreapapercollarandabutterflynecktie,asbefittedamanofhisstationinlife。Hewasashort,squarelymadeScotchman,withsandywhiskersmuchgrayedandwithakeen,in-tenselyblueeye。
“Say,“calledMcPhail,ex-sheriffofthecounty,inthesilencethatfollowedsomeremarkabouttherain,“anyo’youfellershadanytalkwiththisfellerSanford?“
“Ihain’t,“saidVance。“You,Bill?“