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  “Iadmitsheisn’telegant,butIthinkshe’sagoodwifeandmother。“

  “Iwonderifthey’realllikethat?“

  “Now,Mate,wemusttrynottooffendthem。Wemusttrytobeoneofthem。“

  Butthiswaseasiersaidthandone。Ashewentdowntothepostofficeandstoodwaitingforhismailliketherest,hetriedtoenterintoconversationwitbthem,butmainlytheymovedawayfromhim。WilliamMcTurgnoddedathimandsaid,“Howdedo?“andMcLaneaskedhowhelikedhisnewplace,andthatwasaboutall。

  Hecouldn’treachthem。Theysuspectedhim。Theyhadonlytheestimateofthemenwhohadworkedforhim;and,whiletheywerecivil,theyplainlydidn’tneedhimintheslightestdegree,exceptasatopicofconversation。

  Hedidnotimproveashehadhopedtodo。Thespringwaswetandcold,themostrainyanddepressingthevalleyhadseeninmanyyears。Dayafterdaytheraincloudssailedinoverthenorthernhillsanddelugedtheflatlittletownwithwater,tillthefrogssangineverystreet,tillthemainstreetmireddowneveryteamthatdroveintoit。

  Thecornrottedintheearth,butthegrassgrewtallandyellow-green,thetreesglistenedthroughthegrayair,andthehillswerelikegreenjewelsofincalculableworth,whenthesunshone,atsweetinfrequentintervals。

  Thecoldanddampstruckthroughintothealien’sheart。Itseemedtoprophesyhisdarkfuture。Hesatathisdeskandlookedoutintothegrayrainwithgloomyeyes-aprisonerwhenhehadexpectedtobefree。

  Hehadfailedinhislastventure。Hehadnotgainedanypower-hewasreailyweakerthanever。Therainhadkepthimconfinedtothehouse。Thejoyhehadanticipatedoftracingoutallhisboyishpleasurehauntswascutoff。Hehadrelied,too,uponthatasasourceofliterarypower。

  Hecouldnotdomuchmorethanwalkdowntothepostofficeandbackonthepleasantestdays。Afewpeoplecalled,buthecouldnottalktothem,andtheydidnotcallagain。

  Inthemeanwhilehislittlebankaccountwasvanishing。Theboyswerestrongandhappy;thatwashisonlycomfort。Andhiswifeseemedstrong,too。Shehadlittletimetogetlonesome。

  Hegrewmorbid。Hisweaknessandinsecuritymadehimjealousofthesecurityandhealthofothers。

  Hegrewalmosttohatethepeopleashesawthemcomingandgoinginthemud,orheardtheirloudheartyvoicessoundingfromthestreet。Hehatedtheirgossip,theirdulljokes。Theflatlittletowngrewvulgarandlowanddesolatetohim。

  Everylittlethingwhichhadamusedhimnowannoyedhim。Thecutoftheirbeardsworriedhim。Theirvoicesjarreduponhim。

  Everydayortwohebrokeforthtohiswifeinlongtiradesofabuse。

  “Oh,Ican’tstandthesepeople!Theydon’tknowany-thing。Theytalkeveryragofgossipintoshreds。Taters,fish,hops;hops,fish,andtaters。They’vesavedandpinchedandtoiledtilltheirsoulsarepinchedandgroundaway。You’reright。Theyarecaricatures。Theydon’treadorthinkaboutanythinginwhichI’minterested。Thislifeisnerve-destroying。Talkaboutthehealthofthevillagelife!itdestroysbodyandsoul。Itdebilitatesme。Itwillwarpusbothdowntothelevelofthesepeople。“

  Shetriedtostophim,buthewenton,aflushoffeveronhischeek:

  “Theydegradethenaturetheyhavetouched。Theirsquatlittletownisacaricaturelikethemselves。Everythingtheytouchtheybelittle。Heretheysitwhileside-walksrotandteamsmireinthestreets。“

  Heragedonlikeonedemented-bitter,accusing,rebellious。Insuchamoodhecouldnotwrite。Inplaceofinspiringhim,thelittletownanditspeopleseemedtounderminehispowerandturnhissweetnessofspiritintogallandacid。Heonlybowedtothemnowashewalkedfeeblyamongthem,andtheyexcuseditbyreferringtohissickness。Theyeyedhimeachtimewithpityingeyes;“He’sfailin’fast,“theysaidamongthemselves。

  Oneday,ashewasreturningfromthepostoffice,hefeltblindforamomentandputhishandtohishead。Thewoldofvividgreengrewgray,andlifercededfromhimintoillimitabledistance。Hehadonedimfadingglimpseofashaggy-beardedfacelookingdownathim,andfelttheclutchofaniron-hardstrongarmunderhim,andthenhelostholdevenonsomuchconsciousness。

  Hecamebackslowly,risingoutofimmeasurabledeepstowardadistantlightwhichwaslikethemouthofawellfilledwithcloudsofmistyvapor。Occasionallyhesawabrownbighairyfacefloatinginoverthislightedhorizon,tosmilekindlyandgoawayagain。Otherscamewithshaggybeards。Heheardacheerytenorvoicewhichherecognized,andthenanotherface,abigbrownsmilingface;verylovelyitlookednowtohim-almostaslovelyashiswife’s,whichfloatedinfromtheotherside。

  “He’sallrightnow,“saidthecheerytenorvoicefromthebigbeardedface。

  “Oh,Mr。McTurg;doyouthinkso?“

  “Ye-e-s,sir。He’sallright。Thefever’slefthim。Braceup,oldman。

  Weneedyeyitawhile。“Thenallwassilentagam。

  Thewellmouthclearedawayitsmistagain,andhesawmoreclearly。Partofthetimeheknewhewasinbedstaringattheceiling。Partofthetimethewellmouthremainedclosedinwithclouds。

  Gauntoldwomenputspoonsofdeliciousbrothtohislips,andtheirtoothlessmouthshadkindlylinesaboutthem。Heheardtheirhighvoicessoundingfaintly。

  “Now,Mis’Bloom,jestletMis’Folsoman’meattendtothingsouthere。We’llgetsupperfortheboys,an’youjestgoan’laydown。

  We’lltakecareofhim。Don’tworry。Bell’sagoodhandwithsick。“

  Thenthelightcameagain,andheheardarobinsinging,andacatbirdsqualledsoftly,pitifully。Hecouldseetheceilingagain。Helayonhisback,withhishandsonhisbreast。Hefeltasifhehadbeendead。Heseemedtofeelhisbodyasifitwereanalienthing。

  “Howareyou,sir?“calledthelaughing,thrillinglyheartyvoiceofWilliamMcTurg。

  Hetriedtoturnhishead,butitwouldn’tmove。Hetriedtospeak,buthisdrythroatmadenonoise。

  Thebigmanbentoverhim。“Want’ochangeplacealittle?“

  Heclosedhiseyesinanswer。

  Agiantarmrandeftlyunderhisshouldersandturnedhimasifhewereaninfant,andanewpartofthegoodoldworldburstonhissight。Thesunshinestreamedinthewindowsthroughawavingscreenoflilacleavesandfelluponthecarpetinapricelessfloodofradiance。

  TheresatWilliamMcTurgsmilingathim。Hehadnocoatonandnohat,andhisbushythickhairroseupfromhisforeheadlikethickmarshgrass。Helookedtobetheembodimentofsunshineandhealth。Sunandairwereinhisbrownface,andtheperfecthealthofafineanimalwasinhishugelimbs。HelookedatRobertwithasmilethatbroughtastrangefeelingintohisthroat。Itmadehimtrytospeak;atlasthewhispered。

  Thegreatfigurebentcloser:“Whatisit?“

  “Thank-you。“

  Williamlaughedalowchuckle。“Don’tbotheraboutthanks。Wouldyoulikesomewater?“

  AtallfigurejoinedWilliam,awkwardiy。

  “Hello,Evan!“

  “Howishe,Bm?“

  “He’sawaketoday。“

  “That’sgood。AnythingIcando?“

  “No,Iguessnot。Anheneedsissomethin’toeat。“

  “Ijestbroughtachickenup,an’somejellan’thingsthewomensent。I’llstaywithhimtilltwelve,thenFolsomwillcomein。“

  Thereafterhelayhearingtherobinslaughandtheorioleswhistle,andthenthefrogsandkatydidsatnight。Thesemenwithgreasyvestsandunkemptbeardscameineveryday。Theybathedhim,andhelpedhimtoandfromthebed。Theyhelpedtodresshimandmovehimtothewindow,wherehecouldlookoutontheblessedgreenofthegrass。

  OGod,itwassobeautiful!Itwasalover’sjoyonlytolive,tolookintotheseradiantvistasagain。Acatbirdwassinginginthecurranthedge。Arobinwashoppingacrossthelawn。Thevoicesofthechildrensoundedsoftandjocundacrosstheroad。Andthesurshine-“BelovedChrist,Thysunshinefallinguponmyfeet!“Hissoulachedwiththejoyofit,andwhenhiswifecameinshefoundhimsobbinglikeachild。

  Theyseemednevertowearyinhisservice。Theyliftedhimaboutandtalkedtohiminloudandheartyvoiceswhichrousedhimlikefreshwindsfromfreespaces。

  Heheardthewomenbusywiththingsinthekitchen。Heoftensawthemloadedwiththingstoeatpassinghiswindow,andoftenhiswifecameinandkneltdownathisbed。

  “Oh,Robert,they’resogood!TheyfeeduslikeGodsravens。“

  Oneday,ashesatatthewindowfullydressedforthefourthoffifthtime,WilliamMcTurgcameupthewalk。

  “Well,Robert,howareyetoday?“

  “First-rate,William,“hesmiled。“IbelieveIcanwalkoutalittleifyou’llhelpme。“

  “Allright,sir。“

  AndhewentforthleaningonWilliam’sarm,apiteouswraithofaman。

  OneverysidethegoldenJunesunshinefell,fillingthevalleyfrompurplebrimtopurplebrim。Downoverthehilltothewestthelightpoured,tangledandglowingintheplumandcherrytrees,leavingtheglisteninggrasssprayingthroughtheelmsandflingingstreamersofpinkacrosstheshavengreenslopeswherethecattlefed。

  Oneverysidehesawkindlyfacesandheardheartyvoices:“Goodday,Robert。Gladtoseeyououtagain。“Itthrilledhimtohearthemcallhimbyhisfirstname。

  Hisheartswelledtillhecouldhardlybreathe。Thepassionoflivingcamebackuponhim,shaking,upliftinghim。Hispallidlipsmoved。Hisfacewasturnedtothesky。

  “OGod,letmelive!Itissobeautiful!OGod,givemestrengthagain!Keepmeinthelightofthesun!Letmeseethegreengrasscomeandgo!“

  HeturnedtoWilliamwithtremblinglips,tryingtospeak:

  “Oh,Iunderstandyounow。Iknowyouallnow。“

  ButWilliamdidnotunderstandhim。

  “There!there!“hesaidsoothingly。“Iguessyou’regettin’tired。“HeledRobertbackandputhimtobed。

  “I’dknowbutwewasalittlebrashaboutgoin’out,“WilliamsaidtohimasRobertlaytheresmilingupathim。

  “Oh,I’mallrightnow,“thesickmansaid。

  “Matie,“thealiencried,whenWilliamhadgone,“weknewourneighborsnow,don’twe?Wenevercanhateorridiculethemagain。“

  “Yes,Robert。Theyneverwillbecaricaturesagain-tome。“

  A“GOODFELLOW’S“WIFE

  I

  LIFEinthesmalltownsoftheolderWestmovesslowly-almostasslowlyasintheseaportvillagesorlittletownsoftheEast。TownslikeTyreandBluffSidinghavegrownduringthelasttwentyyears,butveryslowly,byalmostimperceptibledegrees。LyingtoofarawayfromtheMississippitobeaffectedbythelumberinterest,theyaremerelytradingpointsforthefarmers,withnoperceivablegermsofboomintheirquietlife。

  AstrangercomingintoBelfast,Minnesota,excitesmuchthesamelanquidbutpersistentinquiryasinBelfast,NewHampshire。Juriesofmen,seatedonsaltbarrelsandnallkegs,discussthestranger’sappearanceandhisprobableaction,justasinKittery,Maine,butwithalazierspeechtuneandwithashadelessofapparentinterest。

  OnsucharainydayascomesinMayafterthecornisplanted-acold,wetrainyday-theusualcrowdwasgatheredinWilson’sgrocerystoreatBluffSiding,asmalltowninthe“couleecountry。“

  Theywerefarmers,forthemostpart,retiredfromactiveservice。

  Theircoatswereofcheapdiagonalorcassimere,muchfadedandburnedbythesun;theirhats,flappedaboutbywindsandsoakedwithcountlessrains,werealsoofthesameyellow-browntints。

  Oneortwoworepapercollarsontheirhickoryshirts。

  Mcllvaine,farmerandwheatbuyer,woreapapercollarandabutterflynecktie,asbefittedamanofhisstationinlife。Hewasashort,squarelymadeScotchman,withsandywhiskersmuchgrayedandwithakeen,in-tenselyblueeye。

  “Say,“calledMcPhail,ex-sheriffofthecounty,inthesilencethatfollowedsomeremarkabouttherain,“anyo’youfellershadanytalkwiththisfellerSanford?“

  “Ihain’t,“saidVance。“You,Bill?“

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