Ashestoodthere,feelingthewindlifthishair,listeningtothecrickets’ever-presentcrying,andfacingthemajestyofspace,astrangesadnessanddespaircameintohiseyes。
Drawingaquickbreath,heleapedthefenceandwasaboutgoingonuptheroad,whenheheard,atalittledistance,thesoundofadroveofcattleapproaching,andhestoodasidetoallowthemtopass。Theysnuffedandshiedatthesilentfigurebythefence,andhurriedbywithsnappugheels-apeculiarsoundthatmadethemansmilewithpleasure。
Anoldmanwasdrivingthecows,cryingout:
“St,boy,there!Goon,there。Whay,boss!“
Willknewthathard-featured,wiryoldman,nowenteringhissecondchildhoodandbeginningtolimppainfully。Hehadhishandsfullofhardclodswhichhethrewimpatientlyatthelumberinganimals。
“Goodevening,uncle!“
“Iain’ty’runcle,youngman。“
Hisdimeyesdidnotrecognizetheboyhehadchasedoutofhisplumpatchyearsbefore。
“Idon’tknowyeh,neither。“
“Oh,youwill,lateron。I’mfromtheEast。I’masortofarelativetoJohnHannan。“
“Iwantoknowify’be!“theoldmanexclaimed,peeringcloser。
“Yes。I’mjustupfromRockRiver。John’sharvesting,Is’pose?“
“Where’stheyoungestone-Will?“
“William?Oh!he’sabadaig-helitoutfrtheWestsomewhere。Hewasahardboy。Hestoleahatfulo’myplumsonce。Helefthomekindo’sudden。He!he!Is’posehewaspurtywellcutupjestaboutthemdays。“
“How’sthat?“
Theoldmanchuckled。
“Well,y’see,theywasbothcourtin’Agnesthen,an’mysoncutWilliamout。ThenWilliamhelitoutf’rtheWest,Arizony’rCalifornia’rsomewhereoutWest。Neverbeenbacksence。“
“Ain’t,heh?“
“No。Buttheysayhe’smakin’aterribleloto’money,“theoldmansaidinahushedvoice。“Butthewayhemakesitisawfulscaly。I
tellmywifeifIhadasonlikethatan’he’dsendmehomeabushelbasketo’money,earntlikethat,Iwouldn’ttouchfingertoit-no,sir!“
“Youwouldn’t?Why?“
“’Causeitain’tright。Itain’tmaderightnoway,you-“
“Buthowisitmade?What’sthefeller’strade?“
“He’sagambler-that’shistrade!Heplayscards,andeverycentisbloody。Iwouldn’ttouchsuchmoneynohowyoucouldfixit~“
“Wouldn’t,hay?“Theyoungmanstraightenedup。“Well,look-a-here,oldman:didyoueverhearofamanforeclosingamortgageonawidowandtwoboys,gettingafarmf’ronequarterwhatitwasreallyworth?Youdamnedoldhypocrite!Iknowallaboutyouandyourwholetribe-youoldbloodsucker!“
Theoldman’sjawfell;hebegantobackaway。
“Yourneighborstellsomegoodstoriesaboutyou。NowskipalongafterthosecowsorI’lltickleyouroldlegsforyou!“
Theoldman,appalledanddazedatthissuddenchangeofmanner,backedaway,andatlastturnedandrackedoffuptheroad,lookingbackwithawildfaceatwhichtheyoungmanlaughedremorselessly。
“Thedoggonedoldskeesucks!“Willsoliloquizedashewalkeduptheroad。“Sothat’sthekindofacharacterhe’sbeengivin’me!“
“Hullo!Awhippoorwrn。Takesamanbackintochildhood-No,don’t’whippoorWill’;he’sgotallhecanbearnow。“
HecameatlasttothelittlefarmDingmanhadowned,andhestoppedinsorrowfulsurprise。Thebarnhadbeenmovedaway,thegardenplowedup,andthehouse,turnedintoagranary,stoodwithboardsnailedacrossitsdustycobwebbedwindows。Thetearsstartedintotheman’seyes;hestoodstaringatitsilently。
Inthefaceofthishousethesevenyearsthathehadlastlivedstretchedawayintoawildwasteoftime。Itstoodasasymbolofhiswasted,ruinedlife。Itwaspersonal,intimatelypersonal,thisdecayofherhome。
Allthatlastscenecamebacktohim:theboomingroarofthethreshingmachine,thecheerywhistleofthedriver,theloud,merryshoutsofthemen。Herememberedhowwarmlythelamplightstreamedoutofthatdoorasheturnedawaytired,hungry,sullenwithrageandjealousy。Oh,ifhehadonlyhadthecourageofaman!
Thenhethoughtoftheboy’swords。Shewassick。Edabusedher。
Shehadmetherpunishment。Ahundredtimeshehadbeenoverthewholescene。AthousandtimeshehadseenheratthepumpsmilingatEdKinney,thesunlightingherbarehead;andheneverthoughtofitwithouthardening。
Atthisverygatehehaddrivenupthatlastforenoon,tofindthatshehadgonewithEd。Hehadlivedthatsickening,depressingmomentovermanytimes,butnottimesenoughtokeepdownthebitterpassionhehadfeltthen,andfeltnowashewentoveritindetail。
Hewassohappyandconfidentthatmorning,soperfectlycertainthatallwouldbemaderightbyakissandacheeryjest。Andnow!
Herehestoodsickwithdespairanddoubtofalltheworld。Heturnedawayfromthedesolatehomesteadandwalkedon。
“ButI’llseeher-justoncemore。Andthen-“Andagainthemightysignificance,responsibilityoflifefelluponhim。Hefeltasyoungpeopleseldomdotheirrevocablenessofliving,thedeterminate,unalterablecharacterofliving。Hedeterminedtobegintoliveinsomenewway-justhowhecouldnotsay。
IV
OLDmanKinneyandhiswifeweregettingtheirSundayschoollessonswithmuchbickering,whenWilldroveupthenextdaytothedilapidatedgateandhitchedhisteamtoaleaningpostundertheoaks。Willsawtheoldman’sheadattheopenwindow,butnooneelse,thoughhelookedeagerlyforAgnesashewalkedupthefamiliarpath。Therestoodthegreatoakunderwhoseshadehehadgrowntobeaman。
Howclosethegreattreeseemedtostandtohisheart,someway!
Asthewindstirredintheleaves,itwaslikearustleofgreeting。
Inthatlowoldhousetheyhadalllived,andhismotherhadtoiledforthirtyyears。Asortofprisonafterall。Theretheywereallborn,andtherehisfatherandhislittlesisterhaddied。AndthenithadpassedintooldKinney’shands。
Walkingalongupthepathhefeltaseriousweaknessinhislimbs,andhemadeapretenseofstoppingtolookataflowerbedcontainingnothingbutweeds。Aftersevenyearsofseparationhewasabouttofaceoncemorethewomanwhoselifecamesonearbeingapartofhis-Agnes,nowawifeandamother。
Howwouldshelook?Wouldherfacehavethatoldtimepeachybloom,hermouththatpeculiarbeautifulcurve?Shewaslargeandfair,herecalled,hairyellowandshining,eyesblue-Herousedhimself。Thiswasnonsense!Hewastrembling。Hecomposedhimselfbylookingaroundagain。
“Theoldscoundrelhaslettheweedschokeouttheflowersandsurroundthebeehives。OldmanKinneyneverbelievedinanythingbutapettyutility。“
Willsethisteeth,andmarcheduptothedoorandstruckitlikeamandeliveringachallenge。Kinneyopenedthedoor,andstartedbackinfearwhenhesawwhoitwas。
“Howdedo?Howdedo?“saidWill,walkingin’hiseyesfixedonawomanseatedbeyond,achildinherlap。
Agnesrose,withoutaword;afawnlike,startledwideningoftheeyes,herbreathcomingquick,andherfaceflushing。Theycouldn’tspeak;theyonlylookedateachotheraninstant,thenWillshivered,passedhishandoverhiseyes,andsatdown。
Therewasnoonetherebuttheoldpeople,whowerelookingathiminbewilderment。TheydidnotnoticeanyconfusioninAgnes’sface。Sherecoveredfirst。
“I’mgladtoseeyouback,Will,“shesaid,risingandputtingthesleepingchilddowninaneighboringroom。Asshegavehimherhand,hesaid:
“I’mgladtogetback,Agnes。Ihadn’toughttohavegone。“Thenheturnedtotheoldpeople:“I’mWillHannan。Youneedn’tbescared,daddy;Iwasjokin’lastnight。“
“Dewtell!Iwantoknow!“exclaimedgranny。“WalInever!An,you’remylittleWillyboywhoust’oheinmyclass。Well!well!
W’y,Pa,ain’thegrowedtall!Growedhandsometew。Iust’othinkhewasadrelfulhumlyboy;butmysakes,thatmustache-“
“Wal,hegivemeatumblescarelastnight。Myland!scaredmeoutofayear’sgrowth,“cackledtheoldman。
Thisgavethemallachancetolaughandtheairwascleared。ItgaveAgnestimetorecoverherselfandtobeabletomeetWill’seyes。Willhimselfwaspowerfullymoved;histhroatswelledandtearscametohiseyeseverytimehelookedather。
$hewaswornandwastedincredibly。Theblueofhereyesseemeddimmedandfadedbyweeping,andtheoldtimescarietofherlipshadbeenwashedaway。Thesinewsofherneckshowedpainfullywhensheturnedherhead,andhertremblinghandswereworn,discolored,andlumpyatthejoints。
Poorgirl!Shefeltthatshewasunderscrutiny,andhereyesfelthotandrestless。Shewishedtorunawayandcry,butshedarednot。
Shestayed,whileWillbegantotellherofhislifeandtoaskquestionsaboutoldfriends。
Theoldpeopletookitupandrelievedherofanyshareinit;andWill,seeingthatshewassuffering,toldsomefunnystorieswhichmadetheoldpeoplecackleinspiteofthemselves。
ButitwasforcedmerrimentonWill’spart。OnceinawhileAgnessmiledwithjustalittleflashoftheold-timesunnytemper。Buttherewasnodimpleinthecheeknow,andthesmilehadmoresuggestionofaninvalid~revenaskeleton。Hewasalmostreadytotakeherinhisarmsandweep,herfaceappealedsopitifullytohim。
“It’smosttimef’rEdtobegittin’back,ain’tit’Pa?“
“Sh’dsay’twas!HejistwentovertoHobkirk’stotradehorses。It’sdretfultryin’tometohavehimgoofftradin’horsesonSunday。
Seemsifhemightwaittillarainyday,’rdoitevenin’s。Ineverdidbelieveinhorsetradin’anyhow。“
“Havey’comebacktostay,Willie?“askedtheoldlady。
“Well-it’shard-tellin’,“answeredWill,lookingatAgnes。
“Well,Agnes,ain’tyougoin’togetnodinner?I’m’boutreadyfrdinner。Wemustgittochurcheariytoday。ElderWheatisgoin’topreachan’they’llbeacrowd。He’sgoin’toholdcommunion。“
“You’llstaytodinner,Will?“askedAgnes。
“Yes-ifyouwishit。“
“Idowishit。“
“Thankyou;Iwanttohaveagoodvisitwithyou。Idon’tknowwhenI’llseeyouagain。“
Asshemovedabout,gettingdinneronthetable,Willsatwithgloomyface,listeningtothe“clack“oftheoldman。Theroomwasapoorlittlesittingroom,withfurniturewornandshapeless;hardlyatouchofpleasantcolor,savehereandtherealittlebitofAgnes’shandiwork。Thelounge,coveredwithcalico,wasrickety;therockingchairmatchedit,andthecarpetofragswaspatchedanddarnedwithtwineintwentyplaces。EverywherewastheinfluenceoftheKinneys。Thefurniturelookedlikethem,infact。
Agneswasoutwardlycalm,butherrealdistractiondidnotescapeMrs。Kinney’shawklikeeyes。
“Well,Ideclareifyouhain’tputthebutteroninoneo’mybluechainysaucers!NowyouknowIdon’tallowthatsaucertobetookdownbynobody。Idon’tseewhat’sgotintoyeh。Anybody’ds’poseyouneverseeanycomp’nyb’fore-wouldn’tthey,Pa?“
“Sh’dsayth’would,“saidPa,stoppingshortinalongstoryaboutEd。“Seemsifwecouldn’tkeepanythinginthis’housesep’ritfromtherest。Edheusesmycurrycomb-“
Helaunchedoutalonglistofgrievances,whichWillshuthisearstoascompletelyaspossible,andwasthinkinghowtostophim,whentherewasasuddencrash。Agneshaddroppedaplate。
“Goodlando’Goshen!“screamedGranny。“Ifyouain’ttheworstI
eversee。I’llbetthat’smygrapevineplate。Ifitis-well,ofallthemercies,itain’t!Butitnaight’a’ben。Ineverseeyourbeat-never!
That’sthethirdplatesinceIcametolivehere。“
“Oh,look-a-here,Granny,“saidWilldesperately。“Don’tmakesomuchfussabouttheplate。What’sitworth,anyway?Here’sadollar。“
Agnescriedquickly:
“Oh,don’tdothat,Will!Itain’therpate。It’smyplate,andIcanbreakeveryplateinthehouseifIwant’o,“shecrieddefiantly。
“’Courseyoucan,“Willagreed。
“Well,shecan’t!NotwhileI’maround,“putinDaddy。“I’vehelpedtopayf’rthemplates,ifshedoescall’emhern-“
“Whatthedevulisallthisrowabout?Agg,can’tyougetalongwithoutstirringuptheoldfolkseverytimeI’mouto’thehouse?“
ThespeakerwasEd,nowatailandslouchilydressedmanofthirty-twoor-three;hisfacestillhandsomeinacertaindark,cleanlycutstyle,butheworeasurlyloo’kandloungedalonginasortofhangdogstyle,ingreasyoverallsandvestunbuttoned。
“Hello,Will!Iheardyou’dgothome。JohntoldmeasIcamealong。“
Theyshookbands,andEdsloucheddownonthelounge。WillcouldhavekickedhimforlayingtheblameofthedisputeuponAgnes;itshowedhiminaflashjusthowhetreatedher。Hedisdainedtoquarrel;hesimplysilencedanddominatedher。
Willaskedafewquestionsaboutcrops,withsuchgraceashecouldshow,andEd,withkeeneyesinhisface,talkedeasilyandstridently。
“Dinnerready?“heaskedofAgnes。“Where’sPete?“