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  Ashestoodthere,feelingthewindlifthishair,listeningtothecrickets’ever-presentcrying,andfacingthemajestyofspace,astrangesadnessanddespaircameintohiseyes。

  Drawingaquickbreath,heleapedthefenceandwasaboutgoingonuptheroad,whenheheard,atalittledistance,thesoundofadroveofcattleapproaching,andhestoodasidetoallowthemtopass。Theysnuffedandshiedatthesilentfigurebythefence,andhurriedbywithsnappugheels-apeculiarsoundthatmadethemansmilewithpleasure。

  Anoldmanwasdrivingthecows,cryingout:

  “St,boy,there!Goon,there。Whay,boss!“

  Willknewthathard-featured,wiryoldman,nowenteringhissecondchildhoodandbeginningtolimppainfully。Hehadhishandsfullofhardclodswhichhethrewimpatientlyatthelumberinganimals。

  “Goodevening,uncle!“

  “Iain’ty’runcle,youngman。“

  Hisdimeyesdidnotrecognizetheboyhehadchasedoutofhisplumpatchyearsbefore。

  “Idon’tknowyeh,neither。“

  “Oh,youwill,lateron。I’mfromtheEast。I’masortofarelativetoJohnHannan。“

  “Iwantoknowify’be!“theoldmanexclaimed,peeringcloser。

  “Yes。I’mjustupfromRockRiver。John’sharvesting,Is’pose?“

  “Where’stheyoungestone-Will?“

  “William?Oh!he’sabadaig-helitoutfrtheWestsomewhere。Hewasahardboy。Hestoleahatfulo’myplumsonce。Helefthomekindo’sudden。He!he!Is’posehewaspurtywellcutupjestaboutthemdays。“

  “How’sthat?“

  Theoldmanchuckled。

  “Well,y’see,theywasbothcourtin’Agnesthen,an’mysoncutWilliamout。ThenWilliamhelitoutf’rtheWest,Arizony’rCalifornia’rsomewhereoutWest。Neverbeenbacksence。“

  “Ain’t,heh?“

  “No。Buttheysayhe’smakin’aterribleloto’money,“theoldmansaidinahushedvoice。“Butthewayhemakesitisawfulscaly。I

  tellmywifeifIhadasonlikethatan’he’dsendmehomeabushelbasketo’money,earntlikethat,Iwouldn’ttouchfingertoit-no,sir!“

  “Youwouldn’t?Why?“

  “’Causeitain’tright。Itain’tmaderightnoway,you-“

  “Buthowisitmade?What’sthefeller’strade?“

  “He’sagambler-that’shistrade!Heplayscards,andeverycentisbloody。Iwouldn’ttouchsuchmoneynohowyoucouldfixit~“

  “Wouldn’t,hay?“Theyoungmanstraightenedup。“Well,look-a-here,oldman:didyoueverhearofamanforeclosingamortgageonawidowandtwoboys,gettingafarmf’ronequarterwhatitwasreallyworth?Youdamnedoldhypocrite!Iknowallaboutyouandyourwholetribe-youoldbloodsucker!“

  Theoldman’sjawfell;hebegantobackaway。

  “Yourneighborstellsomegoodstoriesaboutyou。NowskipalongafterthosecowsorI’lltickleyouroldlegsforyou!“

  Theoldman,appalledanddazedatthissuddenchangeofmanner,backedaway,andatlastturnedandrackedoffuptheroad,lookingbackwithawildfaceatwhichtheyoungmanlaughedremorselessly。

  “Thedoggonedoldskeesucks!“Willsoliloquizedashewalkeduptheroad。“Sothat’sthekindofacharacterhe’sbeengivin’me!“

  “Hullo!Awhippoorwrn。Takesamanbackintochildhood-No,don’t’whippoorWill’;he’sgotallhecanbearnow。“

  HecameatlasttothelittlefarmDingmanhadowned,andhestoppedinsorrowfulsurprise。Thebarnhadbeenmovedaway,thegardenplowedup,andthehouse,turnedintoagranary,stoodwithboardsnailedacrossitsdustycobwebbedwindows。Thetearsstartedintotheman’seyes;hestoodstaringatitsilently。

  Inthefaceofthishousethesevenyearsthathehadlastlivedstretchedawayintoawildwasteoftime。Itstoodasasymbolofhiswasted,ruinedlife。Itwaspersonal,intimatelypersonal,thisdecayofherhome。

  Allthatlastscenecamebacktohim:theboomingroarofthethreshingmachine,thecheerywhistleofthedriver,theloud,merryshoutsofthemen。Herememberedhowwarmlythelamplightstreamedoutofthatdoorasheturnedawaytired,hungry,sullenwithrageandjealousy。Oh,ifhehadonlyhadthecourageofaman!

  Thenhethoughtoftheboy’swords。Shewassick。Edabusedher。

  Shehadmetherpunishment。Ahundredtimeshehadbeenoverthewholescene。AthousandtimeshehadseenheratthepumpsmilingatEdKinney,thesunlightingherbarehead;andheneverthoughtofitwithouthardening。

  Atthisverygatehehaddrivenupthatlastforenoon,tofindthatshehadgonewithEd。Hehadlivedthatsickening,depressingmomentovermanytimes,butnottimesenoughtokeepdownthebitterpassionhehadfeltthen,andfeltnowashewentoveritindetail。

  Hewassohappyandconfidentthatmorning,soperfectlycertainthatallwouldbemaderightbyakissandacheeryjest。Andnow!

  Herehestoodsickwithdespairanddoubtofalltheworld。Heturnedawayfromthedesolatehomesteadandwalkedon。

  “ButI’llseeher-justoncemore。Andthen-“Andagainthemightysignificance,responsibilityoflifefelluponhim。Hefeltasyoungpeopleseldomdotheirrevocablenessofliving,thedeterminate,unalterablecharacterofliving。Hedeterminedtobegintoliveinsomenewway-justhowhecouldnotsay。

  IV

  OLDmanKinneyandhiswifeweregettingtheirSundayschoollessonswithmuchbickering,whenWilldroveupthenextdaytothedilapidatedgateandhitchedhisteamtoaleaningpostundertheoaks。Willsawtheoldman’sheadattheopenwindow,butnooneelse,thoughhelookedeagerlyforAgnesashewalkedupthefamiliarpath。Therestoodthegreatoakunderwhoseshadehehadgrowntobeaman。

  Howclosethegreattreeseemedtostandtohisheart,someway!

  Asthewindstirredintheleaves,itwaslikearustleofgreeting。

  Inthatlowoldhousetheyhadalllived,andhismotherhadtoiledforthirtyyears。Asortofprisonafterall。Theretheywereallborn,andtherehisfatherandhislittlesisterhaddied。AndthenithadpassedintooldKinney’shands。

  Walkingalongupthepathhefeltaseriousweaknessinhislimbs,andhemadeapretenseofstoppingtolookataflowerbedcontainingnothingbutweeds。Aftersevenyearsofseparationhewasabouttofaceoncemorethewomanwhoselifecamesonearbeingapartofhis-Agnes,nowawifeandamother。

  Howwouldshelook?Wouldherfacehavethatoldtimepeachybloom,hermouththatpeculiarbeautifulcurve?Shewaslargeandfair,herecalled,hairyellowandshining,eyesblue-Herousedhimself。Thiswasnonsense!Hewastrembling。Hecomposedhimselfbylookingaroundagain。

  “Theoldscoundrelhaslettheweedschokeouttheflowersandsurroundthebeehives。OldmanKinneyneverbelievedinanythingbutapettyutility。“

  Willsethisteeth,andmarcheduptothedoorandstruckitlikeamandeliveringachallenge。Kinneyopenedthedoor,andstartedbackinfearwhenhesawwhoitwas。

  “Howdedo?Howdedo?“saidWill,walkingin’hiseyesfixedonawomanseatedbeyond,achildinherlap。

  Agnesrose,withoutaword;afawnlike,startledwideningoftheeyes,herbreathcomingquick,andherfaceflushing。Theycouldn’tspeak;theyonlylookedateachotheraninstant,thenWillshivered,passedhishandoverhiseyes,andsatdown。

  Therewasnoonetherebuttheoldpeople,whowerelookingathiminbewilderment。TheydidnotnoticeanyconfusioninAgnes’sface。Sherecoveredfirst。

  “I’mgladtoseeyouback,Will,“shesaid,risingandputtingthesleepingchilddowninaneighboringroom。Asshegavehimherhand,hesaid:

  “I’mgladtogetback,Agnes。Ihadn’toughttohavegone。“Thenheturnedtotheoldpeople:“I’mWillHannan。Youneedn’tbescared,daddy;Iwasjokin’lastnight。“

  “Dewtell!Iwantoknow!“exclaimedgranny。“WalInever!An,you’remylittleWillyboywhoust’oheinmyclass。Well!well!

  W’y,Pa,ain’thegrowedtall!Growedhandsometew。Iust’othinkhewasadrelfulhumlyboy;butmysakes,thatmustache-“

  “Wal,hegivemeatumblescarelastnight。Myland!scaredmeoutofayear’sgrowth,“cackledtheoldman。

  Thisgavethemallachancetolaughandtheairwascleared。ItgaveAgnestimetorecoverherselfandtobeabletomeetWill’seyes。Willhimselfwaspowerfullymoved;histhroatswelledandtearscametohiseyeseverytimehelookedather。

  $hewaswornandwastedincredibly。Theblueofhereyesseemeddimmedandfadedbyweeping,andtheoldtimescarietofherlipshadbeenwashedaway。Thesinewsofherneckshowedpainfullywhensheturnedherhead,andhertremblinghandswereworn,discolored,andlumpyatthejoints。

  Poorgirl!Shefeltthatshewasunderscrutiny,andhereyesfelthotandrestless。Shewishedtorunawayandcry,butshedarednot。

  Shestayed,whileWillbegantotellherofhislifeandtoaskquestionsaboutoldfriends。

  Theoldpeopletookitupandrelievedherofanyshareinit;andWill,seeingthatshewassuffering,toldsomefunnystorieswhichmadetheoldpeoplecackleinspiteofthemselves。

  ButitwasforcedmerrimentonWill’spart。OnceinawhileAgnessmiledwithjustalittleflashoftheold-timesunnytemper。Buttherewasnodimpleinthecheeknow,andthesmilehadmoresuggestionofaninvalid~revenaskeleton。Hewasalmostreadytotakeherinhisarmsandweep,herfaceappealedsopitifullytohim。

  “It’smosttimef’rEdtobegittin’back,ain’tit’Pa?“

  “Sh’dsay’twas!HejistwentovertoHobkirk’stotradehorses。It’sdretfultryin’tometohavehimgoofftradin’horsesonSunday。

  Seemsifhemightwaittillarainyday,’rdoitevenin’s。Ineverdidbelieveinhorsetradin’anyhow。“

  “Havey’comebacktostay,Willie?“askedtheoldlady。

  “Well-it’shard-tellin’,“answeredWill,lookingatAgnes。

  “Well,Agnes,ain’tyougoin’togetnodinner?I’m’boutreadyfrdinner。Wemustgittochurcheariytoday。ElderWheatisgoin’topreachan’they’llbeacrowd。He’sgoin’toholdcommunion。“

  “You’llstaytodinner,Will?“askedAgnes。

  “Yes-ifyouwishit。“

  “Idowishit。“

  “Thankyou;Iwanttohaveagoodvisitwithyou。Idon’tknowwhenI’llseeyouagain。“

  Asshemovedabout,gettingdinneronthetable,Willsatwithgloomyface,listeningtothe“clack“oftheoldman。Theroomwasapoorlittlesittingroom,withfurniturewornandshapeless;hardlyatouchofpleasantcolor,savehereandtherealittlebitofAgnes’shandiwork。Thelounge,coveredwithcalico,wasrickety;therockingchairmatchedit,andthecarpetofragswaspatchedanddarnedwithtwineintwentyplaces。EverywherewastheinfluenceoftheKinneys。Thefurniturelookedlikethem,infact。

  Agneswasoutwardlycalm,butherrealdistractiondidnotescapeMrs。Kinney’shawklikeeyes。

  “Well,Ideclareifyouhain’tputthebutteroninoneo’mybluechainysaucers!NowyouknowIdon’tallowthatsaucertobetookdownbynobody。Idon’tseewhat’sgotintoyeh。Anybody’ds’poseyouneverseeanycomp’nyb’fore-wouldn’tthey,Pa?“

  “Sh’dsayth’would,“saidPa,stoppingshortinalongstoryaboutEd。“Seemsifwecouldn’tkeepanythinginthis’housesep’ritfromtherest。Edheusesmycurrycomb-“

  Helaunchedoutalonglistofgrievances,whichWillshuthisearstoascompletelyaspossible,andwasthinkinghowtostophim,whentherewasasuddencrash。Agneshaddroppedaplate。

  “Goodlando’Goshen!“screamedGranny。“Ifyouain’ttheworstI

  eversee。I’llbetthat’smygrapevineplate。Ifitis-well,ofallthemercies,itain’t!Butitnaight’a’ben。Ineverseeyourbeat-never!

  That’sthethirdplatesinceIcametolivehere。“

  “Oh,look-a-here,Granny,“saidWilldesperately。“Don’tmakesomuchfussabouttheplate。What’sitworth,anyway?Here’sadollar。“

  Agnescriedquickly:

  “Oh,don’tdothat,Will!Itain’therpate。It’smyplate,andIcanbreakeveryplateinthehouseifIwant’o,“shecrieddefiantly。

  “’Courseyoucan,“Willagreed。

  “Well,shecan’t!NotwhileI’maround,“putinDaddy。“I’vehelpedtopayf’rthemplates,ifshedoescall’emhern-“

  “Whatthedevulisallthisrowabout?Agg,can’tyougetalongwithoutstirringuptheoldfolkseverytimeI’mouto’thehouse?“

  ThespeakerwasEd,nowatailandslouchilydressedmanofthirty-twoor-three;hisfacestillhandsomeinacertaindark,cleanlycutstyle,butheworeasurlyloo’kandloungedalonginasortofhangdogstyle,ingreasyoverallsandvestunbuttoned。

  “Hello,Will!Iheardyou’dgothome。JohntoldmeasIcamealong。“

  Theyshookbands,andEdsloucheddownonthelounge。WillcouldhavekickedhimforlayingtheblameofthedisputeuponAgnes;itshowedhiminaflashjusthowhetreatedher。Hedisdainedtoquarrel;hesimplysilencedanddominatedher。

  Willaskedafewquestionsaboutcrops,withsuchgraceashecouldshow,andEd,withkeeneyesinhisface,talkedeasilyandstridently。

  “Dinnerready?“heaskedofAgnes。“Where’sPete?“

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