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  “Nothingatall。Whydoyouasksuchsillyquestions?IonlymeantthatifIhadmarriedIshouldnothavebeenhere,andweshouldneverhavemetagain。“

  “Well,youarehereandwehavemetinthischurch,whereweparted。“

  “Yes,it’sodd,isn’tit?Iwishithadbeensomewhereelse。Idon’tlikethisgloomyoldplacewithitsatmosphereofdeath。Comeoutside。“

  Theywent,andwhentheywerethroughthechurchyardgateswalkedathazardtowardsthestreamwhichranthroughthegroundsofHawk’sHall。Heretheysatdownuponafallenwillow,watchingtheswallowsskimoverthesurfaceoftheplacidwaters,andforawhileweresilent。Theyhadsomuchtosaytoeachotherthatitseemedasthoughscarcelytheyknewwheretocommence。

  “Tellme,“shesaidatlength,“wereyouinthesquaregardenonthenightofthatdanceatwhichIcameout?Oh!Iseebyyourlookthatyouwere。Thenwhydidyounotspeaktomeinsteadofstandingbehindabush,watchinginthatmeanfashion?“

  “Iwasn’tproperlydressedforparties,and——and——youseemedtobe——

  verymuchengaged——witharoseandaknightinarmour。“

  “Engaged!Itwasonlypartofagame。Iwroteandtoldyouallaboutitintheletteryoudidnotget。Didyouneverkissaflowerforajokeandgiveittosomeone,notknowingthatyouwerebeingwatched?“

  Godfreycolouredandshifteduneasilyonhislog。

  “Well,asamatteroffact,“hesaid,“itisoddthatyoushouldhaveguessed——forsomethingofthesortdidoncehappenquitebyaccident。

  AlsoI/was/watched。“

  “I!——youmean/we/。Onedoesn’tkissflowersbyoneselfandgivethemtotheair。Itwouldbemoreridiculouseventhantheotherthing。“

  “Iwilltellyouallaboutitifyoulike,“hestammeredconfusedly。

  Shelookedathimwithherlarge,steadygreyeyes,andansweredinacoldvoice:

  “No,thankyou,Idon’tlike。Nothingboresmesomuchasotherpeople’ssillyloveaffairs。“

  Baffledindefence,Godfreyresortedtoattack。

  “Whathasbecomeoftheknightinarmour?“heasked。

  “Heismarriedandhastwins。Isawtheannouncementoftheirbirthinthepaperyesterday。Andwhathasbecomeoftheladywiththeflower?

  Forsincetherewasaflower,theremusthavebeenalady;Isupposethesamewhomyoupulleduptheprecipice。“

  “Sheismarriedalso,tohercousin,butIdon’tknowthatshehasanychildrenyet,andIneverpulledherupanyprecipice。ItwasamanI

  pulled,averyheavyone。Myarmisn’tquiterightyet。“

  “Oh!“saidIsobel。Thenwithanothersuddenchangeofvoiceshewenton。“Nowtellmeallaboutyourself,Godfrey。Theremustbesuchlotstosay,andIlongtohear。“

  Sohetoldher,andshetoldhimofherself,andtheytalkedandtalkedtilltheshadowsofadvancingnightbegantoclosearoundthem。

  SuddenlyGodfreylookedathiswatch,ofwhichhecouldonlyjustseethehands。

  “Mygoodness!“hesaid,“itishalf-pastseven。“

  “Well,whataboutit?Itdoesn’tmatterwhenIdine,forIhavecomedownalonehereforafewdays,aweekperhaps,togetthehousereadyformyfatherandhisfriends。“

  “Yes,butmyfatherdinesatseven,andifthereisonethinghehatesitisbeingkeptwaitingfordinner。“

  ShelookedasthoughshethoughtthatitdidnotmuchmatterwhetherornoMr。Knightwaitedforhisdinner,thensaid:

  “Well,youcancomeuptotheHallanddinewithme。“

  “IthinkIhadbetternot,“heanswered。“Yousee,wearegettingonsowelltogether——ImeanmyfatherandI,andIdon’twanttobeginarowagain。Hewouldhateit。“

  “Youmean,Godfrey,thathewouldhateyourdiningwithme。Well,thatistrue,forhealwaysloathedmelikepoison,andIdon’tthinkheisamantochangehismind。Soperhapsyouhadbettergo。Doyouthinkweshallbeallowedtoseeeachotheragain?“sheaddedwithsarcasm。

  “Ofcourse。Let’smeethereto-morrowateleven。MyfatherisgoingtoaDiocesanmeetingandwon’tbebacktilltheevening。Sowemightspendthedaytogetherifyouhavenothingbettertodo。“

  “Letmesee。No,Ihavenoengagement。Yousee,Ionlycamedownhalfanhourbeforewemetinthechurch。“

  Thentheyrosefromtheirwillowlogandstoodlookingateachother,averyproperpair。Somethingwelledupinhimandburstfromhislips。

  “Howbeautifulyouhavegrown,“hesaid。

  Shelaughedalittle,verysoftly,andsaid:

  “Beautiful!/I/?ThoseAlpinesnowsaffectthesight,don’tthey?I

  feltlikethatonPopocatepetl。OrisitthetwilightthatIhavetothank?Oh!yousillyoldGodfrey,youmusthavebeenlivingamongveryplainpeople。“

  “You/are/beautiful,“herepliedstubbornly,“themostbeautifulwomanIeversaw。Youalwayswere,andyoualwayswillbe。“

  Againshelaughed,forwhoofhersexistherethatdoesnotliketobecalledbeautiful,especiallywhensheknowsthatitismeant,andthatwhateverherpersonalshortcomings,tothespeakersheisbeautiful?Butthistimetheonlyanswersheattemptedwas:

  “Yousaidyouwerelate,andyouaregettinglater。Runhome,there’sagoodlittleboy。“

  “Whydoyoulaughatme?“heasked。

  “BecauseIamlaughingatmyself,“sheanswered,“andyoushouldhaveyourshare。“

  Thenverynearlyhekissedher,onlyhewasinsuchahurry,alsothewillowlog,alargeone,wasbetweenthem;possiblyshehadarrangedthatthisshouldbeso。Sohecouldonlypressherhandanddepart,mutteringsomethingindistinguishable。Shewatchedhimvanish,afterwhichshesatdownagainonthelogandreallydidlaugh。Still,itwasaqueerkindofmerriment,forbydegreesitturnedintolittlesobsandtears。

  “Youlittlefool,whathashappenedtoyou?“sheaskedherself。“Areyou——areyou——andifso,ishe——?Oh!nonsense,andyet,somethinghashappened,forIneverfeltlikethisbefore。Ithoughtitwasallrubbish,merenaturalattraction,partofNature’sschemeandsoon,astheywriteinthecleverbooks。Butit’smorethanthat——atleastitwouldbeifIwere——Besides,I’magesolderthanheis,althoughIwasbornsixmonthslater。I’mawomanfull-grown,andheisonlyaboy。Ifhehadn’tbeenaboyhewouldhavetakenhisadvantagewhenhemusthaveknownthatIwasweakaswater,justforthejoyofseeinghimagain。Nowhehaslosthischance,ifhewantedone,forbyto-morrowIshallbestrongagain,andthereshallbenomore——“

  Thenshelookedatthebacksofherhandswhichshecouldnotseebecauseofthegatheringdarkness,andastheywereinvisible,kissedtheminstead,justasthoughtheybelongedtosomeoneelse。Afterthisshesatawhilebroodingandlisteningtothepulsingofherheart,whichwasbeatingwithunusualstrengththisnight。AsshedidsointhatmysterioushourwhichsometimescomestousinEnglishsummers,agreatchangefelluponher。Whenshesatdownuponthatfallentreeshewasstillagirlandvirginal;whensherosefromitshewasadeveloped,lovingwoman。Itwasasthoughaspirithadvisitedherandwhisperedinherear。Shecouldalmosthearthewords。Theywere:

  “Fulfilyourfate。Loveandbelovedwithbodyandwithspirit,withheartandsoulandstrength。“

  Atlengthsherose,andasshedidsosaidaloud:

  “IdonotknowwhoorwhatIhavetothankforlifeandallthatmakesme,me。ButIamgladtohavebeenborn,now,whohaveoftenwishedthatIhadneverbeenborn。EvenifIknewthatImustpassawayto-night,Ishouldstillbeglad,sinceIhavelearnedthatthereissomethinginmewhichcannotdie。Itcamewhenthatmankissedmyhands,anditwillendureforever。“

  Godfreywaslatefordinner,verylate,andwhatwasworse,hisfather/had/waitedforhim。

  “IsupposeyouforgotthatIdinedatseven,notateight,“washiscoldgreeting,forMr。Knight,alargeeaterlikemanyteetotallers,wasoneofthosepeoplewhomakeafetishofpunctualityatmeals,andalwaysgrowcrosswhentheyarehungry。

  Godfrey,whosemindhadnotbeensteadiedbytheeventsoftheafternoon,becameconfusedandrepliedthathewasextremelysorry,butthefactwashehadmetIsobeland,intalkingtoher,hadnotnoticedthetime。

  “Isobel!“exclaimedhisfather,whosevoicewasnowicy。“WhatIsobel?“

  “Ineverknewbutone,Father。“

  “Oh!IsupposeyoumeanMissBlake。Ihadnoideashewashere;

  indeed,IthoughtshewasstillinMexico。Butdoubtlessyouwerebetterinformed。“

  “No,Father,Imetheraccidentally。ShehasreturnedtoEngland。“

  “Thatisobvious,Godfrey——“

  “Shehascomedown,“hecontinuedinahurry,“togetthehousereadyforSirJohn,whoarrivesshortly。“

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